I'm going to go ahead and get the dogs set up.
Hey,
Steph.
Hi.
Hey.
How are you?
Good. Are you.
Doing good.
Yeah.
You've got four girls and three dogs.
That's that's 10.
Beings in the house.
I know.
Crazy.
Sorry.
Are you back home?
Huh?
Yeah. Are you home now? Are you still in DC?
Yeah.
That was the very last minute thing. I wasn't going to be here.
And, but I was going to go,
I thought I was going to go through Tennessee to Houston from DC to
Houston.
But ended up the last minute I.
Got an offer to stay with a friend in.
And I was so excited.
I was so excited to be able to have these circumstances to come down
and stay here, which has been such a blessing.
And I was only supposed to stay one night, but I was so exhausted.
That from, from traveling and I had traveled,
I think 11 hours to get here.
And then, and then I've got another 12 hours.
I'm going to be in Houston tomorrow for a conference.
So I'm going to be in Houston for about a week and a half.
And then Amy is going to meet me in Houston.
Yeah.
So anyway, that's where I am. And that's what I'm doing.
And so I'm going to Houston tomorrow for a conference.
And then after that, I'm going to.
So I'm going to be in Houston for about a week and a half.
And then Amy is going to meet me in Houston.
But she and I happen to be going to the same conference down Houston.
So she's going to be there. My second half of my time there.
Yeah.
So anyway.
I'm good. What did you say about Houston?
I said that.
I said that I'm Lee. I'm going to be there tomorrow.
I was supposed to be there. I was going to be there today.
But I was so tired that at the last minute I decided, so I'm in Atlanta.
And that was the last minute thing.
And then.
Then it was then when I got here, I was so exhausted.
They said, you're more than welcome to stay another day.
And rest.
And I said, you know, I'm actually going to take you up on that.
I was so tired.
After an 11 hour trip from DC.
So I.
At least 11.
Hours.
Anyway.
So then I'm headed to Houston tomorrow and then you,
I'm going to go to that conference, go to a conference.
What is it? Friday, Friday through Sunday.
And then you're going to be there for the next conference,
which is going to be at a place called.
No, no, not, not that Chris is speaking at.
It's a totally different conference.
So Chris.
What's the one you're going to this weekend.
It's a play. It's at dwelling place church and it's with Brian.
Garen is speaking.
And.
Oh, I'm trying to remember who else is speaking. I don't know.
Several people are speaking.
So it's at a friend of mine's church.
In fact, you might get to meet her.
Yeah.
I'm just coming.
So many people are going to be there in Houston.
Well, cause all the good conferences are down there, I guess.
That's right.
That's right. I know.
Yeah. I just thought it was wild. So anyway.
But yeah, that's what we were saying about Houston.
I said that you were going to meet me down there.
Yeah, I'm I'm.
Planning on it.
Tentatively.
It's not exactly final, but.
Yeah.
You don't.
Yeah.
I signed up, but I didn't.
There was an option to pay at the door.
So I haven't paid any yet.
Wow. I didn't know that was an option. That's great.
Okay. It was the dropdown menu. It said, pay at the door zero.
And I'm like, I'll do that.
Cause I'm not really sure if I'm going to go or not.
Oh, okay.
I want to, but I'm holding it loosely. I'm not sure, you know?
Okay.
I can find someone to go with me. I might.
Yeah.
Any who.
Good.
So.
Let's see.
I almost saw stuff.
Was it.
last week, whenever that was.
I almost saw her too, but she's, everybody almost saw her.
She's just too busy.
I'm just far enough out, yeah.
I'm just far enough out that I can't seem to catch anybody.
Aw, well, we drove right through there twice.
And we're half an hour from everything, pretty much.
Oh yeah.
Cause I'm not in Parkersburg.
I'm out at the Ritchie County line.
So, it's not quite 30 minutes.
It's east, headed towards Clarksburg.
Towards Clarksburg?
Yeah.
Just far enough.
Yeah, we're gonna make it work someday.
Yeah, I think your idea is great
that Ashley should have a rest-intensive retreat.
That would be so awesome.
That would.
That would be a lot of fun for us to do.
That would be fun.
I have to think about that.
Yeah, we'll pray about it.
That's right, that's right.
Pray about it.
Okay, yeah, yeah, exactly.
He says yes.
Instant answer.
That's right, love it.
Make sure, yep, that's good.
Hey, Mr. Bell.
You wanna come say hi to Ashley?
I'm probably gonna have to mute my mic.
Oh.
Your butt's too big.
You can't fit in the chair.
Ow.
Hey, bud, how are you?
How was school?
You took my chair.
Oh, he took it.
See, he knows how to work with the system.
Billy, he's such a goofball.
He's got one job.
Gotta keep mama laughing.
That's the job that he's chosen.
Yeah, squeeze his big fat butt in the chair
and popped me right out.
That's fun.
I'm in my room and since Mia's gone,
he sleeps in my bed.
Really?
Well, I knew that he was doing that at the old house,
so he's moved back in, huh?
Yeah, it's fine.
He's my big teddy bear.
I know, I know, always the baby.
I said always the baby, seven big brothers and sisters.
He's always the baby.
Yep, he's always the baby.
Hey, Linda.
Howdy.
How are you?
Being very bored, being quarantined in COVID jail
for another week, but I'll be out on Sunday night.
I'm sorry, I was gonna say,
I thought that this was probably your second week.
I'm sorry, but everything's gone okay.
Neither you nor he have gotten it.
Yeah, so he got a negative test,
but we're still in quarantine
and I did get to take two days away to go to the lake
and be able to do a birthday party for four boys
between the ages of eight and 13.
So I got away, or I would really be going crazy right now.
Yeah, yeah, well, I'm glad that you got to do that.
Is it for your grandsons?
Yeah, well, two grandsons and then Shannon Bates was here,
James and Shannon Bates, and so they are two kids,
one had a birthday in October,
and so that we had a joint birthday party.
Fun, that's a lot of fun, wow.
Yeah, I know that the boys had fun.
How, eight to 13, goodness.
Yes.
Yes, they went the whole day at the water park.
So I would not, normally two to three hours is all I do,
but a whole day, that's a lot.
Yeah.
Yeah, yeah, it would be.
I'm glad that you had that time though
and that bit of reprieve.
Yes, that has made this more tolerable,
but I have gotten a lot of work done
because this is one of the houses we lived in,
and so I've spent the last 48 hours
cleaning out all the things that I had left behind.
Wow.
So it's like, I have made a mess.
A huge mess. Productive.
It's been productive, yes, very productive.
Good.
Let's see, what time is it?
Wow, okay, well, I wanted to give more people time
to hop on, I don't know if certain people
are all tied up with watching the third day
of the presidential election.
So I don't know where everybody is,
but does anyone have anything
that they wanted to start us off with?
because I keep forgetting to come with something prepared in case nobody has
something that they want to start us off with so anyone have anything well I
might okay let's see if I can put it into words so you talked early back in
there you know well April intensive and in one of your trainings about making
decisions from rest and lately I've been having um like as I move forward in you
know what I want to do like things come up that
seem like a good idea but then I like I'm not sure and so it's a different
kind of decision rather than deciding between well it is and it isn't rather
than deciding between two things it's like well I think that would be good but
then on the other hand it seems like all of these things that are coming up are
and I don't know if this is true and that's why I'm asking that that as you're
growing in your relationship with God then there's certain things that come to
the surface and you have multiple opportunities to address them so I don't
know if that is a thing or if it's just my imagination but it seems like I keep
having opportunities where these things come up that I'm like oh that sounds
like a good thing maybe I should do that or maybe I should do this and then it
seems like it's it's a it's a conflict or choice between doing it in my own
strength tree of knowledge of good and evil or
tree of life and so those kind of things keep coming up and so my question is
there's natural things we have to do like to move forward in what we're doing
and so it's difficult for me to differentiate between doing things in my
own strength and tree of knowledge of good and evil does that make sense like
I think so so you know that it's not the actions that we do that make something
according to that tree it's the attitude it's the perspective and the belief
behind it that we believe that we have to do it in order for us to get a result
like oh well we have to and we need to and it's required and whatever and then
that creates this this weight and this oppression of fear or obligate an
obligation and whatever when it's actually not the thing itself that that
makes it of the tree of knowledge of good and evil it's it's so it's
ourselves and our approach to it that we have to change not so worrying so much
of yeah but if I do this is doing this wrong because it's of the wrong tree
it's me grabbing for something it's me whatever it's really interesting that we
think okay well if we change what it if I change what it is that I do so in
other words if I get two different choices if I could do this or I could do
that we think that we're actually choosing one tree over the other when
really if that's not the issue and we can each we can actually have two
different choices of like oh well I could do this action or I could do this
action well I know that this action is according to the tree of life that's
what we tell ourselves or this action is according to the tree of the knowledge
of good and evil what it is that we're doing is we are and we sorry is we are
still going back again to the whole our decision-making process is is and how do
how do I put this we're ourselves in our approach is still approaching it from
the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and the fact that our choice we've
made between two different things that we do and we need to back up and just
realize no no why am I doing what it is that I'm doing how am I even making this
decision am I making it when I'm understanding no no I'm just releasing
everything I'm letting everything just rest in the hands of the Lord he
provides the increase he provides the results and I just can enjoy doing the
actions with him because the responsibility the outcome does not is
not determined by which one it is that I do so once we back up and completely
pull ourselves away from which option we should take and just rest in that
then we're like okay so now that now that what it is that I do doesn't bear
the burden of the consequence which one do I want to do which one do I feel from
the heart of the Lord that he's kind of directing me and which one do we want to
do together and we approach it like that and then we choose which one we want to
do
And does that does that make sense. So it's not the action.
We want to make it the action because it makes it feel easier for us to determine which one should I do because doing gives us safety, security in our minds.
So, so let me give you a specific. So I'm trying to build this landing site for my classes, while trying to build. I have a website, and I'm just tweaking the landing page to match the class that I'm offering.
And, which seems like an endless seems like a simple thing and it's become this endless process, which is annoying. I seem to do that to everything make it like way harder than it is or maybe that's just the way it is for everybody I don't know but
it seems like oh I can do this in 15 minutes, and two days later I'm still trying to figure out what to put on it.
And then, but the decision that the one that came to my mind there's been other smaller ones but this one was.
And so, and this seems to be happening so I'll be working on something like that. And of course it's probably because I'm working on it, I see a Facebook ad well Facebook listens, watches what you do.
I see this ad for this one page, you know, it's for it's, you know, for a program that this guy has this one page template whole program. And it's, you know, proven and he tells a story and how it helped and saved his life and people and you know, do great
with this and anyway, and I thought, you know, that would be so helpful, and I in, you know, I see.
I didn't watch his whole pitch video because those things are so long and drawn out. It's annoying I just wanted to tell me what it is but, you know, what does he do and let me see if I want it.
Anyway, but, but I didn't get enough to go okay yeah I get that I get that he kind of gave just some quick points about what's on the page of why it works and I'm like yeah I could do that.
That's helpful. But, um, I don't know, I feel like you know it always feels good to have someone who knows what they're doing.
I can just, you know, I mean, I'm not an expert in in any of in everything, and I don't, you know, I don't need to be that expert you know they always say surround yourself with successful people and don't try to be the all in one and, and I, you know,
it just feels like it would be so much easier I don't know, because I still have to create the content and that's what I'm struggling over.
Although, you know, so that's the question so do I do it myself is that more spiritual than paying this guy program, or but then my fear is always because I've done these before.
And then the program becomes just another burden of something I've got to work through it do instead of just letting the Holy Spirit guide me to what to put on the page and so, yeah.
Go ahead. I was just going to add them there's that feeling of like, oh well, maybe if I do his it'll just be so quick and easy and it'll just be great.
No, that fear of missing out like if I don't do it like, you know, down the road I'll forget about it.
Yeah, that that yeah that fear of missing out fear.
Yes. And so that's what I was going to come back to I wasn't going to use that word but that we can so easily get bogged down in and putting together something that looks good some in other words creating some kind of a of a display of a structure of a whatever,
when we just usually just need to move forward. So in other words, just actually it because it's not the prettiest and even highly functional that's required.
It just needs to be something that's functional. And this is something that I had to learn, because I was one of those people that just worked to the nth degree to make this perfect presentation before I actually made it functional and I and come to find out people don't buy everything that we work so hard to make it look like it is something of a value.
It just needs to be something of value, as opposed to making it look a particular way then you can work on the looks later. You just need something that that and through which you can actually move, but just start moving as opposed to making it look a particular
way. And it will look messy in the beginning, but at least it's functional. I mean I did that I did the same thing with, with my, with my one on one clients before I even started the group.
because people were just calling me and, or yeah,
and saying that they were interested,
or I was calling them or asking
if they'd be interested, whichever.
And I'm like, just answering questions on the fly.
I'm making it up as I go.
And then we get into the group and I'm like, I don't even,
I think that I had like three lines
in like the about or the summary section and whatever.
So my point in giving that as an example
is that is not how I used to do things.
And I discovered that what was important is,
and what the substance is,
and what it is that I was offering is all in the message.
It's all in actual, the value is actually
in how it can change a life,
not how it looks and not in, you know,
all of this super high structure.
I mean, y'all were with me, you know, especially you,
you know, since you were there in April,
you saw how messy of a system, how messy,
or I don't know, maybe it didn't look messy,
y'all looked very messy to me.
That would not have flown in the professional world.
Absolutely not.
And I would train people against the very thing
that I then had to learn how to do.
And that was just to get to just start moving
and not worry about all of these multi-page websites
or even a one-page website,
and it'll all look a particular way
and worry so much about,
well, what is the type, the topography of the headline?
And what is the, that's not the word,
it's type, the typeset of the headline,
or, you know, the size of this, that, and the other.
And, oh, I've got to make sure
that there's enough words on it,
and that it's laid out correctly.
And, oh, do you think that this picture's gonna sell
versus this one?
Because you do, you just get bogged down.
So you can set yourself up a limit
of something like 30 minutes or something,
set something up and say, it is good enough,
now let's just make it functional.
And so anyway, what it is that's gonna sell
and what it is that's gonna transform lives
and what it is that God is going to use and move through
is your spirit actually being in it,
not in it looking a particular way,
because that's the way that the world says it needs to be.
There's nothing wrong with making it look good.
The problem is when we are pouring so much of making it,
of ourselves and of our energy into making it look good,
that we are operating out of fear
and operating out of the world's idea that,
hey, look, it's not what it is that we bring to it.
It's not our spirit that's actually making a difference.
It is all of these tips and tricks and strategies,
the magic sauce, you know,
that I always go through all of that list,
that it's actually making the difference.
It's plugging in a formula.
It's, oh, I've got to learn from somebody
who's been more successful.
Why were they successful at it?
They were successful because their spirit
operated through it,
or they worked 10 times harder than God says
that you have to.
So there's nothing wrong with it.
There's nothing wrong with using tips, tricks and strategies.
The problem is if we think that that's what we have to have
in order to move forward.
And we need to understand that the power
that who's going to attract clients is not your webpage,
it's going to be God.
So it removes the burden of everything it is
that you're pouring into it.
It completely removes it from the webpage.
So if the webpage isn't selling it anyway,
and your God is,
well, then you don't even have to spend time on it.
Does that make sense?
And then you can work on it as time permits.
Just get something moving, just move the car.
Yeah.
I had to learn that.
So I'm very aware of what it is I'm telling you
because it was that hard for me to learn how to do.
It was that hard for me to give up
because I was in it for so long.
I was punished in the professional world
for not following it.
So I learned how to follow it to the nth degree
and to train everybody else in it.
The world, especially the professional leadership world,
rewards people who spent all their time, effort and energy
working 10 times harder.
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, thank you.
I mean, I knew all that, but when you're in it-
I know you just need it reframed.
You can't see it.
And it started to like come back to me
and I'm like, okay, I'm falling into that trap
thinking there's a formula that I have to have
and it has to be perfect.
Yeah, the concern.
I mean, in other words,
the thing that can always trigger us to think,
to start to catch ourselves,
not triggers in a bad trigger,
but can help us kind of catch ourselves
is when we feel that anxiousness or anxiety
and when we feel I need.
Or-
I'm worried that I'm not doing it right.
Or in other words, that that's a trigger
that there's some underlying fear
that we're dealing with that.
And then we need to move back into rest.
We don't even have to worry
about why we're feeling that way.
Just shift into rest.
Like, okay, how do I shift into rest?
I know that God provides for me.
I go that God protects me.
I know that God's the one who attracts the client.
I know that God's pleased with me.
I know that he loves me.
You know, shifting all into that.
And then now I have that forgetting
all of the other reasons of why I went the other direction.
Now that I know the truth,
again, totally ignoring the lie,
just focusing on the truth and making it so big
that it'll dispel the lie.
Now that I'm in rest,
okay, now I'll come back to the same problem.
Now let's approach the same problem.
And you'll start seeing it with totally different eyes
because you're no longer considering
this same logic that had tricked you into fear.
So anyway, that's the way to do it the fastest.
It's hard because having all of those fears,
it's very tempting.
So it's hard for us to actually stop
and then just forget about all of the reasons why not.
But if we can choose to do it
of our own intentional free will,
if we can choose to completely forget
about all of the logic that had driven us into fear
and just move into rest
and then approach it with fresh eyes,
it is the fastest way to move through any obstacle.
It's hard, but it's only hard
because we're having to overcome ourselves.
But it is the fastest way.
It's amazing how difficult it is to overcome yourself.
What are you making a big deal about this for?
And you'd already told me this the other day,
it's just you, it's not, you know.
So what Jonathan's doing now to make me laugh,
what's making him laugh
is the dog is stuck in my room barking to get out.
And he's on the other side of the door laughing
because he knows.
So I'm gonna mute myself and let the dog out.
But thank you, that was very helpful.
You're welcome.
Hey, Susan.
Hey, Elizabeth.
Susan, you want to know where I am?
Yes.
I was not, I, this was not planned.
I'm in Atlanta.
I'm sorry, it was not planned.
Last minute, I ended up coming here.
Okay, so everybody, Susan lives not far from Atlanta.
And so she and I tried to meet up.
And so I feel like I'm giving a confessional.
So I, I'm in Atlanta,
I'm giving a confessional.
So I, I was not supposed to be in Atlanta.
I was supposed to be somewhere else.
And then at the last minute,
I had a friend that I met at a conference
and she very graciously offered for me to come,
cut for me to break up my drive from DC to Houston,
which is a 20 plus hour drive.
It was a 20 hour drive.
And then of course, not to mention all the stops
and whatever, it was gonna be 24 hours.
So she graciously offered for me to stop off in Atlanta.
So that was a last minute decision.
I was only supposed to spend the night.
I got in at like 10 o'clock at night, 945,
10 o'clock last night.
And then I was gonna get up
and I was gonna leave by 7.30 this morning.
I was so exhausted from all of the traveling
and that, I mean, for the past few weeks,
not to mention just yesterday,
that she said, you are more than welcome
to stay and rest for a day
before you have to go on another 12 hour drive
to Houston tomorrow.
I said, you know what?
I'm gonna take you up on it.
So I've just been here trying to rest
before I head off again.
So I'm sorry, I'm right down the road.
This was all very last minute.
I didn't, anyway, so I just had to confess.
This is where I am.
It was just very unplanned.
Well, that's good.
So waving to you from down the road.
I know.
Yeah.
So did anyone have anything else to talk about?
I hope everyone's staying in rest
over the presidential election.
Oh, well.
That was, I actually had to put myself to sleep two nights
just because of all of the shock of everything.
I just didn't expect that to be what was gonna happen.
But I'd been listening to Justin Abraham
and he talks about all the different ways
of being in ecstasy.
I didn't know if you had done anything with,
like he prays in tongues for long periods of time.
He does the Yod-Heh-Vav-Heh.
you know he spends time he says bouncing from what makes him excited in the
natural so like he'll talk about eating chalk and how when you really enjoy food
or a good glass of wine that that's part of where you can use that just thank God
and so I didn't know if you had done anything in a physical way to get into
rest have I done anything no I'm not at least not intentionally it's I suppose I
have but I haven't done it intentionally because I'm do it that I what it is that
I've been doing is the way I just have learned to live life in order to live
life in rest according to the way that God says that I have a right as a son of
God and that is just to enjoy life to enjoy the food that I'm eating to enjoy
the company that I'm with to and and to be very intentional about everything as
opposed to enduring through the day and so I've just been doing the normal thing
that I've been doing but in doing so you know I'm just at rest I'm just enjoying
it and whatever regardless of what the outside circumstances are so in that
aspect I have been doing things but it's the way that I just live life now and but
yes Justin Abraham is known for one of his big messages is the fact that he is
is joy so it makes sense that that is something that he would specifically
talk about you know moving into like what he's referring to as ecstasy you
know just this joy you know what is that that God has given us that we can that
we can find joy and that we can use in order to engage with joy including food
now which is obviously the way he's talking about and I'm just saying this
for everybody else's sake what Justin Abraham is talking about is not in
reference to is not stress eating very different but but where we're not using
it as a coping mechanism but we're using it to actually fully engage with it and
fully enjoy it's a it's a body trigger to to trigger and the emotion of joy or
you know ecstasy or whatever so but like I said what I've just been doing is just
knowing that my God has control of everything and regardless of who gets in
the in in the office of the president then yeah regardless of who's in the
office of the president the my life stays the same is in my gods is the one
who provides for me my country doesn't provide for me the economy doesn't
provide for me and my business doesn't provide for me or protect me or any of
those things and so therefore it doesn't matter from that standpoint what I'm
saying it does matter but I'm saying I'm not threatened I'm not actually in
threat I can be triggered to feel threatened but the reality is that
because my identity is in spirit then net I can't actually be threatened and
so it's a constant intentional choice that I'm not under threat but the thing
is that you know regardless of who becomes president if there will be
events that happen due to their decisions that I can be confronted with
and I engage with it and I respond to it and have a choice to always respond as
the Son of God and I can be triggered to not want to respond according to the
Son of God that to operate in fear but regardless my provision protection comes
from the Lord so anyway there might be interesting triggers that come up based
off of the environment and the economy that is created due to who becomes
president but it doesn't mean that I'm actually threatened in reality so anyway
those are those are the thoughts that been going through my head the past few
days did that answer your question well they gave me so so for me I am working
to see based on I'm one of those bless God Trump is supposed to be in the White
House so whatever is go definitely not right that level of injustice wanting to
be uncovered so I still find myself in that bill prayer busting believing God
standing so I don't know how to combine rest yeah with action oh it's we're in
the middle of war and so that's where yeah it's it's a very strange thing to
be making a red intensive class ham and hearing his ecstasy and it's like
I don't want to get into a frame of mind that I'm, that I'm not really hearing God, but
it's like my knower sense is Trump is to be president for another four years.
I'm having a hard time accepting anything but that and staying in rest.
Okay.
Yeah.
Very good point.
Okay.
So I'm glad you, and worded it like that.
And so, yeah, so we do everything from a place of rest, including fight.
So we don't have to leave rest to fight.
We're fight in rest.
So anything, so like you said, you know, war or anything like that is always from the place
that, that again, we're not threatened.
So being not threatened, what it is that we're doing is we're not wanting to, okay.
Think of, you know, the spirit, the soul and the body.
So if warfare is on, is on, on the soul level, if we drop down to, to the, our soul level,
in other words, that we believe that we forget that our identity is in our spirit.
And then we think, oh my goodness, there's a threat or whatever we can war on this level.
The problem is that whoever knows those strategies at that level, the best, they win and it's
just 10.
And I'm just using that as an example is probably a lot harder than that, but it's 10 times
harder to battle from this perspective.
While if we realize that we're identified in the spirit, we're S we can still fight,
but the fighting is from a place of rest is actually governing.
So we don't ever have to leave rest in order to declare.
So we're not praying as in like petitioning and begging and whatever we are to doing it
from a place of rest, we're governing.
We realized who it is that we are.
And then when we're speak, who it is that speaking and who is that speaking as the King
of God, who was learning from his father, how to govern.
And therefore everything is below us.
And we are telling it what we need, what we're, we're declaring to it, what it will do and
what we are and guiding it as to, Hey, look, I'm here to protect you and to provide for
you world creation, physical laws, spirit, you know, soulish laws, politics, you know,
learning rulers, whatever, they're all below us.
And so therefore God is teaching us to look like our father.
And as sons, we are learning how to govern like him.
So we're talking down to it as opposed to fighting it.
So that's how we're able to stay in rest while still praying while still declaring while
still whatever.
Does that make sense?
So we still do it.
The only difference is our understanding where our identity is.
So in that we're governing and talking down to it as opposed to fighting it head to head.
I agree with that.
I just wanted to know whether or not, because it is a, an intentional standing, not being
moved and just, yeah, there is still more than things will be revealed and God will
come through in the end.
Yeah, that the hidden things will be revealed and God will come through in the end.
Yeah.
We can still do that from, like I said, from place of rest.
So everything that we do, we can still do actions.
We can still have certain things, you know, you could be on a political campaign and actually
go knocking door to door.
I mean, you can do all kinds of the same actions as long as we understand and still just be
in rest.
We don't have to fight the enemy on his level.
And I'm not, I'm not calling like one side or the other, the enemy I'm talking about
whatever it is that we believe that we're fighting, which is always principalities and
powers and whatever, whatever it is that somebody believes that there, that there are, and that
they're coming against, we can come against it.
Understanding are from exactly our position and that, and if we are always in that position,
it's always from a place of rest because we never feel threatened, but this position is
consistent.
Like what you're saying, it's consistent.
We don't move.
It's steadfast.
We're sure.
Think also about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, they told, they said they were so sure when
they stood up against Darius that they said, and by sure, I mean steadfast and where they
were standing that they said, they said, our God will deliver us from the fire because
they were being threatened to be thrown in the fire.
Our God will deliver us from the fire and even if he doesn't, we still will not bound
to your graven image.
I mean, that steadfast consistency of, okay, Lord, I'm standing with, with where it is
that I, with who it is that I did, that I believe that you've declared that you are,
and I'm staying consistent in that regardless of the event, regardless of what everything
looks like, that's trying to tell me that you're, that you are to the contrary.
I'm saying that no matter what happens, no matter what manifests.
I'm staying steadfast and confident in what it is that I believe that God's character
is.
So, so we're, we're holding on, we're being steadfast to what it is that being steadfast
to what God is declaring his character to be not steadfast in how his character manifests.
Or yeah, because he always has, because Chadwick, Michonnek and Abednego were still thrown into
the fire.
So if they had believed, oh, God would never throw us into the fire.
Well then when God did, it's kind of like, well, wait a minute.
So they had to make sure that their, that their faith and their steadfastness was not
in the manifestation, but it was in the character and that they allowed God to display his character
however he chose.
And he ended up displaying it in such a way that they were in the fire, but he was with
them and they walked out without ever having it.
There being without bearing any of the effects of having been through a fire.
So it's just steadfastness in his character, not in the manifestation.
And that's how we do everything from us.
That's how we battle from rest and government from rest.
Hopefully that answered it.
But if not, let me know.
Good job.
So I have a question.
I have a question.
Yes.
Am I echoing for you or no?
Okay.
Good.
So, hi.
Hi.
I, I'm, I guess I feel so encouraged in the Lord in this time, even though I completely
relate to our friend, our sister that was just sharing, I'm forgetting your name.
Linda.
Yeah.
Linda.
Okay.
Yeah.
Definitely relate just about.
Yeah.
Staying steadfast and, and knowing that we're in a battle, but not feeling the weight and
anxiety of that, but also having to really stand and declare and fight in the spiritual
realm.
You know, to stand on truth and faith and all those things.
So, but I feel, I feel encouraged, like, like I know that he's near and I'm not, I'm not
watching the news.
Not that I even normally do, but I'm not giving into all of that and the drama.
Like I just don't, I already know it's all going to play out and it's all fake and it's
just like games and stuff.
And it's just not even worth my time.
So I feel encouraged, but then I guess my questions kind of like in the daily life,
like all this is raging out there and I, and I feel tucked away and kind of hidden, but
then I also, I also have a ton going on in life, you know, with work and kids and various
things.
And some things are just waiting on the Lord's timing with a lot of the details of, of where
my time and energy is being spent, like with my girls and their custody and different things
legally and all this, but just in the day to day, I'm trying to calm myself to like
care for myself and to not find myself busying myself.
So there's a lot of myself's in there.
Like I don't know what to do because my past and I'm finding it still, like I find myself
busying and feeling this discontent that I don't want to feel because I'm so used to
having to like thinking that I just need to be doing all the time or caring for other
people and kind of that walking out of like codependency and rescuing.
And just, I care so much for people that, and I'm so high on their like relationship
building.
That's like every aspect of life is relationship building that it can be difficult to just
be still.
And I know that's difficult for us all, but I guess my questions kind of surrounding like
rhythms of, you know, when you're in a phase where you kind of know, you know, like, you
know, the outcome, the victory, it's all his, and you don't even feel like you're, you're
in the mess of it.
Like you're sort of pulled back from all that.
But you're trying to, to find rhythms in your daily life of like, what do I do with
myself and how do I think more, more so?
How do I think rightly about the slowing the the, the, the self-care, the not giving so
much to other people and relationships and conversation and engaging in all of that relationally,
but more you and the Lord, or just you learning to love you without having to be needed by
someone or take care of someone.
And as a mother, I'm always going to be doing that to some degree, but in those down times,
you know, like what is it that causes me to feel like I need to busy, like, like I should
be doing something right now.
Well, a couple of different.
things. One of them is, sorry let me make sure no one's, okay good, I needed to make sure nobody
was sitting in the waiting room somewhere and I missed him somewhere. So often we can begin
to identify ourselves by our busyness, by our titles, by what it is that we do. Even if it's
not even a title of, oh well I'm CEO of whatever. No, it's like title of mother, or title of friend,
or title of homeworker, or homemaker, or title of you know whatever. And so some of that comes
from that, this idea of like trying to, there's this internal thing that is so quiet we don't
realize that we do it, but it's this sense that what it is that we do when we get up every day
is defining who it is that we are. Otherwise we don't know who it is that we are, or we don't know
how God, how we should expect God to interact with us, without being able to have some measure by
which we can see, we can, in any standard by which that we can measure ourselves to understand, okay
how can I expect God will interact with me? How can I know who it is that I am? What it is that I
deserve? How it is I should interact with the Lord, because I'm so used to interacting with the
Lord according to what it is that I'm doing at the time. You know, so I mean some of that can come
from that. That may not be your situation, but that was something that I thought of. The
other thing is that it's so often we can give God the big things. You know the court case, my children,
my job, my whatever. We can give him all the big things and still have unrest in our daily, in our
daily grind, in our daily living, you know in the rhythm, in our normal decisions, brushing our teeth.
I mean I know that that might sound great, it might sound strange, but yeah when we're brushing our
teeth, are we at rest? When we are taking a bath, when we're doing the dishes, when we're picking
up the the glasses next to our nightstand, and taking them back into the kitchen. I mean
whatever, like the moments, the little moments, just the constant, regardless what it is that we're
doing, our very being, are we at rest? And if in so often we start focusing, when we want to
shift into rest, we start focusing on all of the big things. If we're finding that we're, that we
are, that we believe that we're at rest in the big things, but we're still struggling to find
ourselves at rest in the little things, sometimes it means that we have, we've given God big things,
like, and we think that by letting go of those things, that we are in rest. But if we,
sorry I'm trying to, I know what I'm trying to say, I'm trying to figure out how to say it,
that we need to, you know, to really truly understand what rest is, we need to move it
to its root level and move it inward. We've moved it outward, we've moved it away from us because
it's less, some people find it less vulnerable, because it's all out there. It's all of these
objective things outside of me. Yes, I'm connected to, and yes, I'm emotionally attached to, but it's
outside of me, and we have to bring that rest inward. In other words, what does God think of me?
What does God think of me? How are he and I together when I'm just being me, and I don't have
any place I need to be, I don't have anything I need to do, I don't have to, I don't have anything
I'm petitioning him for, I don't have anything that I'm pressing into him for and about,
and trying to make a decision about, etc. Who am I when I've got nothing, and is that, and is that
enough for me? Is who I am with God and the fact that I'm enough for him, is that enough for me?
So it's, it's, does that make sense? Sometimes people find out when they're trying to shift
into rest, they pick all of these really big things, and they learn how to do those,
and give those to the Lord, and that's wonderful, but if they're still struggling with,
if they're still struggling with not being at rest, just being, it means that, that they've
objectified the rest, you know, as these outward things, as opposed to, no, rest comes from my
position of an understanding of who I am with the Lord, even if nothing else even existed.
Even if I wasn't even in this world, and I was existing somewhere else, and I wasn't doing
anything, I was just sitting out in outer space somewhere. Is me being enough for God enough for
me? It, the rest, it, the rest has to get that vulnerable and that intimate between us and the
Lord. So how do you do that? How do you do that? Well, it's, it's not like,
Are there any exercises or particular like teachings that you feel like come to mind
when we talk about this?
Because I totally, I mean, resonate with all the things you're saying.
And I think it's, it's this, yeah, it's this inner unrest and, um, a lot of it.
Yeah.
It's like how, how, like, even like I can have, um, all throughout the day and even
in the night hours, like these encounters with the Lord and all the time.
And it's, and in that, in that sense, it's like the big stuff, but it's also like the
little, you know, intimate, very intimate conversation and, and time with him, like
all the time.
And yet, how can I still have unrest, even though I'm experiencing that all, like, I,
I don't, doesn't make sense to me that I'm so like deep in him and so connected to him
in a way that I had not been in the past.
And yet in the practical, like you were saying, like in the little moments, somehow there's
a disconnect and so like here I'm like in this very same moment that I'm having, which
is like I said, so often that I'm having these, these times with him and, and conversation
and he's sharing things with me and we're, you know, talking and I'm feeling his heart
and I'm seeing things and visions and hearing his voice.
I mean, and like, how can there be in the very flip side of that second, like some kind
of, of unrest or just in the practical things that I'm doing, this sense of like anxiety
is almost like being outside your body.
Like I don't know how to quite explain it, but I know a lot of it, you know, even comes
from like the trauma and stuff that we can hold onto in our body, not even realize we're
not breathing or we're not taking drinking water and taking care of ourselves and our
body.
Okay.
So I think of it kind of like this with a, in a healthy relationship between a husband
and wife, because that's really what it is between us and the Lord is where we can go
through all the motions of, well, honey, I do all this for you.
You know, I do this for you and I take care of you and I, and I, you know, take care of
you, you know, when you're sick and I, and I'm providing for you and I spend time with
you and I tell you that I love you and I cuddle with you and I, you know, and I touch you
and I do this and I do that, you know, all of these things.
But if we're not making ourselves emotionally vulnerable to someone else, I, a husband or
a wife can still struggle with pornography.
Why?
Because they are not making themselves emotionally vulnerable with their, with their lover.
They're making themselves physically vulnerable.
You know, they're going through all of the acts.
They are doing everything that it is that they're supposed to do in order to provide
in order to love, in order to love on, in order to be effective, you know, affectionate
in order to whatever, but internally they, if they're still struggling and I'm using
this example, if they're still struggling with pornography, it means that they are not
being, and this is a married person.
They're making it.
They're not making themselves emotionally vulnerable to someone else because there's
still an aspect internally that they're withholding from themselves.
I mean, sorry, that they're withholding from their, from their spouse.
Is that kind of a thing?
It's like, we're looking at all this stuff we're going, well, it just, it makes sense.
I mean, you know, everything's there.
I mean, all the physical intimacy is there, you know, Lord, I'm spending time with you
and, and I'm doing this and you're talking to me and, and you're revealing yourself to
me and you don't, and there are so many other people who tell me that they wish that they
had the type of intimate relationship and conversations that you and I have.
And yet I'm still in unrest.
There's an element in which we don't feel safe with the Lord and we're not making ourselves
emotionally emotionally vulnerable.
And it's that emotional vulnerability and that connection and that intimacy that we
abide in the Lord and that we shift into rest.
So, so everything can, we, everything can look like, Hey, look, all of this adds up.
It should, it should equal this, but, but there's some element in which we're still
creating a we're still resisting.
And so, you know, you asked, you know, what, what teachings that I do on this and whatever
is all throughout the rest intensive.
I recommend that, that you go back and look at some that maybe, you know, you can start
all the way at the beginning, or you can just pick certain ones that, you know, just jump
out at you, whatever, but now look at it from a totally different layer when you go back.
So, so any, any one of you, if you, if you watch them and you now go back and you re-watch
them, I guarantee you, you're going to, you're going to find things that you didn't, you're
going to find a lot of things that you didn't hear before, because now you're building on
another layer.
So you see before, when you watch them.
So many of you, not all of you,
but so many of you had nothing.
You're like, oh my goodness,
this is the first time I've ever heard anything like this.
So it's just, oh my goodness, this is revolutionary,
you know, whatever.
And some of you maybe even watched it multiple times
in a row, but you hadn't learned to live it out yet.
So now that you've been walking it out
and now that you've internalized it,
now that you've owned it and made it your own,
now, if you go back and rewatch them,
now you're at a different maturity level with the Lord
in your relationship with the Lord,
a connection and intimacy with him.
And now, so that now,
if you were to rewatch some of those same teachings,
you'll hear things that you think, oh my word,
I now, I didn't, I thought that I understood that last time.
I thought that I understood that three or four months ago,
but now having been walking this thing out for four months,
I now see this one line that she's, that she had,
that she said, or this principle,
or the Lord's just revealing something to me
while Ashley's talking that Ashley's not even saying,
you know, that I didn't see before.
So, and because you're now seeing at a deeper level,
you're now able to glean more because your mind isn't,
because you're building precept upon precept.
So if you go even all the way back to the beginning,
the very first one, and I talk about the love of the Lord,
you know, the love affair.
Yeah.
It's, we're not even talking about rest yet.
It's where all of rest comes from,
which is just sitting with the Lord and are we enough?
Do we allow ourselves to be enough?
When we're just being with the Lord,
we're not giving him anything.
We're not doing anything.
We're not, we even remember
that we're not even obligated to love him back.
So now that we know that God doesn't even make us obligated
to love him back, how do we feel about him?
What do we want to give to him?
How do we want to sit with him?
How do we want to just be with him?
And then at the very end of that,
when I talk about an exercise that where we can just,
where we can just imagine the Lord just gazing at us,
looking at us.
And so now all of these months later,
if you were to go through the exercise and just sit there
and just like, okay, I'm gonna let God look at me
and then I'm not gonna break eye contact.
I'm gonna sit there for five minutes, 15, whatever.
I'm not gonna break eye contact.
And I'm also not gonna love him back
because that's another way in which we try to disrupt
what it is that we're feeling
because we get too much of a,
we can feel so overwhelmed and undeserving
that we try to relieve ourselves of the pressure
and the uncomfortableness and we try to love him back
in order to give ourselves a bit of relief.
So if we just allow ourselves to sit there with it.
Anyway, so if you were to go back into those sessions
but now see them from a,
but now look at it from a very internal perspective,
as opposed to how do I experience rest in the court case?
How do I experience rest in relationship with my children?
How do I experience rest and whatever?
No, no, no, just you and God.
And then go back, it's the exact same principle.
You're just taking it to a level and a depth
that maybe you didn't the first time.
And I'm not saying this about you.
I'm just saying that you can take that idea
and find does that actually fit
in what you're experiencing with the Lord?
And you can choose to take it where you want to.
So I'm not saying, well, this is what's going on.
But I'm just saying that this principle of rest
is a multi-level principle.
And so it's not just like, oh, once we get it,
we get all this or whatever.
There's all of these records that we built up in our life
and all of these lies that we believed
and we're going and we're hitting them
at deeper and deeper levels.
And so now it's a new level, it's a new measure.
You're learning to operate in rest
in a greater measure than you were a few months ago.
We're all doing that.
So it's the same information.
You're just receiving it at a totally different level.
So it actually looks different.
And we think, okay, so I know how to do the rest,
but how do I do this other same thing?
Just at a new level.
So, but it looks different
and it feels different on the outside.
And then we actually do it and we're like,
oh, that's the exact same thing I did with all the others,
but on the outside, I couldn't recognize it.
Does that make sense?
Yeah, it makes a lot of sense.
Yeah, definitely.
And I agree with going back.
And I think that as you're talking,
it's making sense that like,
even though I have all this intimacy with him,
it's, there's some sort of like struggle
for me ever in rest to receive, just purely receive.
And so if I think about all of my times with him
throughout the day and night,
there's still some level of response from me,
or like he moves me and touches me all the time.
So I can't.
pulp, but like respond like intellectually, emotionally,
deeply in every way, like physically on all levels.
And so that is like a very, like, it's very intimate.
And I feel like I know him because I am hearing from him
and I am talking to him all the time.
And yet there's something different about the posture
of just purely receiving and going to him
with sort of that extra vulnerable, you know,
stance of letting-
Vulnerability.
You've got nothing to give.
You don't let yourself give.
Yeah.
And then the other piece of that is again,
in the practical, so here's like where I see a bit
of the cycle, which I feel like is the breakout
into true rest is that life is so busy
and there are all these practical things needing done.
And so it's almost like, what are some
of the parameters I'm thinking like that I can set
for myself to protect that time of not giving,
like being alone with him, but yet another level
of being alone with him where there's not distraction.
Like maybe there are things that, you know,
maybe it's because like, for instance,
I'm reading a book called Solitude and Silence
and she talks a lot about like how difficult it is
to actually be alone.
Like your phone is off or not, no worship music's playing.
Like there aren't, you're not multitasking in any way.
And there's no agenda, you know,
like these different things that when it really comes
to yeah, being alone and quiet with the Lord
and not having any agenda.
And I feel like that's so foreign
that I almost have to create that for myself
because otherwise it won't happen.
Like it won't come to me, you know what I mean?
Like I know myself after 35 years,
like that's never been like even just
like I have no context for it.
And I've struggled so much to even know what rest even is
or have any permission to rest.
So I almost feel like I have to create,
I don't know if that's making sense,
but like where otherwise it's gonna get filled up
with other stuff or it's gonna be like a multitasking
even in my worship time with the Lord.
Like it's gonna be like, I'm such a music person
that I'm typically, I've got music playing or whatever.
And that's not bad, but it just maybe doesn't allow
for some of this quiet that I'm talking about
where he can get to some of those places
that I'm not totally feeling safe or vulnerable or not.
I'm just not going there.
And I don't know how to cultivate that
except for like that exercise that you're talking about,
like starting with, you know, with those kinds of things.
Is that what it is?
Like, is there anything that you can say,
okay, for the season, I'm not going to do other things.
I'm gonna give myself permission.
Like, how do you give yourself permission
to just spend time doing nothing?
Like spend time, do you know what I mean?
Is that look like, I know it's different for everybody,
but when you work full time and you've got, you know,
your mother and a friend and these different things
are going on in the world
and you gotta do practical things,
like how do you, I guess, set that time aside
when it's not, it's completely unfamiliar
and you want it to become a regular thing?
Like, is there a way to block out time
or tell yourself like for the season
as I'm shifting into rest, blah, blah, blah, blah,
I don't know.
Yeah, well, so there's a couple of different things.
First of all, wow, there's three different things.
First of all, as far as like,
how do you give yourself permission?
You just give it.
So in other words, you be the parent
that you've always wanted.
Susan says she puts it in her calendar.
Oh, very good.
So she sets it aside for some time.
Yeah, I know, yeah, several people do that.
They, I say several people,
I didn't know about the rest intensive,
but you know, different people that I've talked to,
you know, they put it in their calendar
and you can just set aside like five minutes here, there,
and just, you know, just suddenly stop
if you need a break from something.
If you're writing, if you've been, I don't know,
you've been cleaning for the past two hours, I don't know.
And you just like, okay, you know what?
I'm going to give myself a five minute break.
I'm going to give myself a 15 minute break or whatever
and set an alarm and then just do it.
And just like, you know, that,
and create a bubble for yourself
and just determine I'm choosing,
like as if you're a parent to yourself.
This is what I'm telling myself to do.
And this is what I'm going to do.
I know I'm not going to do anything else.
Give yourself and do it in such a way
where you're telling your,
where you are intentionally giving yourself permission.
Like I said, if you think of it kind of like a parent,
you're giving it,
well then think of yourself like a child
and say, yes, ma'am, and do it.
These are tricks that you can use.
is kind of with with your soul. And so sometimes that works with
people if they understand, hey, I'm a parent telling myself to
do this, I'm a parent, being for myself something that I've
always needed, and not ever received, be that be the parent
you always wished you had. And because what we're doing is
we're raising our own parents. We're raising a parent that we
wish that we have in our within ourselves. And then, so kind of
like your spirit, your spiritual parent of your of your soul,
you can kind of think of it that way. And let's see the other
thing that I was going to say, well, one of them I've already
said, you know, you can just kind of set aside times like,
oh, I'm just gonna do five minutes and set an alarm. 15
minutes to the line. That's what I used to do. And here's and
then this, this is the third thing that is very, very
important to realize that you those the things that I
mentioned, those are tips and tricks you can use to kind of
leverage your soul, they're, they're tools that your soul
that you can use to kind of like, they're almost like
crutches for your soul to help kind of like, give your soul a
bit of a bit of leverage, you know, a bit of a push. But it's
very important also that you under that we receive for
ourselves, if God says that I have a right to rest, then I'm
going to choose for myself, that I have a right to rest. In
other words, not rest is and not do anything. I mean, rest is in
like shift into rest, then. And, and so I would what I what
helped me the most, honestly, is that I, well, one of the things
are several things, but one of the things that helped me the
most in shifting into rest and just my daily life is that I
would go about my daily life. And I would constantly shift
into rest while I was working. While I while I was in the
middle of like, setting up doing something in Facebook, while I
was in the middle of talking to people while I was in the middle
of doing the dishes while I was in the middle of running errands.
Because this was a lifestyle I was choosing. It was a way of
interact, it was a way of positioning myself in my
relationship with the Lord. It was not a, it was not something
that I was using out of heaven, so that I can live life a
particular way. This was my the way this I was giving up life in
order to choose this life. So it wasn't something that I was
using to help me live this life more easily. That was a very
major shift. And so because of that, that was my first
priority. So I would do all of the other activities, I would, I
would make my bed, I would do the dishes, I would run my
errands, I would be in the I would work, I would be making
decisions about in research things and making phone calls to
people and doing marketing research or whatever it was that
I was doing at the time. And, and whenever I felt myself out
of rest, I'd stop for a second. And I remind myself who it is
that God says that I am and we're talking like within like
60 seconds, 120 seconds, depending on the day about how
how hard it was for me to for me to choose it. But I would just
stop. And then I would do it and then I would and then I would
keep going. And then and then after about I don't know, like
half an hour, an hour later, I find myself out of rest again.
I'm like, Nope, I am who God says that I am. And I and I
shifted rest and again, 60 seconds and then I would go
because I was choosing that was the life I was choosing. I was
choosing my God. And then the heck with however, however,
however, it chose to affect my life. I chose this first, I
would just keep doing these things. But this is what I
chose. And I would allow this to go to heck. You know, based off
of however, this was going to affect it, but I was choosing
this. That's what I sacrificed this. But I didn't stop doing
it. Does that make sense? Yeah, that makes so much sense. Yeah,
that's a huge shift. Yeah, I wasn't shifting. And yeah, I
wasn't shifting into rest because oh, you know what, I
bet it'll help me live this life easier. And there's so many
other there's so many people, you know, so many things that we
do that we're trying to glean stuff from the past. Oh, what's
he saying? Okay, how can that help me do this? How can that
make it this easier? How can it help? How can it help my
relationships be the way I want them to be? How can it help? Is
if I'm like, trying to use them, take all of these precious
things of God's character. And, and, and kind of try to
separate them from him and try to figure out how can I use them
for my own for my own desires? I
chose him in that I was just in I was going to let it affect my
life, however, it however it was going to affect it. But I chose
this I chose that relationship with them.
I should probably explain that in it.
And it's teaching.
Oh, good.
What do you say in a video?
Yeah, I'm now realizing you should probably
that's a great one.
recommend.
Yeah, because I don't. I know I've explained it before. But I
don't think that I think that it was a little too foundational
to like, and
that I'm surprised that I haven't stopped and actually said
it. But anyway, there's so many things that I did, because
understand, I was very, very desperate, very desperate. And I
put everything on the line for it. And sometimes I don't fully
realize until I'm talking, trying to answer somebody about
what it is that I did. And I'm like, Oh, wow, I was that
desperate that that's actually what I did. You know, I chose,
you know, I risked everything, I didn't know how it was gonna
affect it. And I just let it. I let it just play out however it
was going to play out. Even if I didn't like the outcome. Yeah,
I chose my God because of who my God was not because he was
going to make my life easier and help me live it the way I wanted
it to be. I gave up my life and how I wanted it to be in order
to choose him and however he was going to be. I didn't know what
I was going to discover that he was, I'm just going to let him
be who he was. And I was going to let my life reflect whatever
that was. And it ended up that because he's good. My life ended
up being good. But I risked it not being because I chose him
over my life. That's so good. It sounds really good sitting
here talking about it. Yeah, my goodness. It's that hard to make
that decision. Like, I didn't know what it was.
Yeah, but when you're in that place, explanation really helps
because I think I think you can be at that place but not not
push past that, that the line like not actually walk that
correct through the Red Sea. And I'll say, you know, yeah, yeah,
yeah. So you can be there over here. Let us hop back. Yeah,
right. And I mean, you only know, you know, so you only
know, you know, what you know. So sometimes taking that leap,
you know, you don't even realize that it's like, the trade that
you're talking about, and the way you're explaining it is so
different than how we can think. Yeah, because we're, we're not.
We're wanting that. But it's just that's that step, that
final step that yeah, we know that I'm ready for, but there's
been a holding back somehow and not even realizing you're
holding back from what you really want. Yes. So I thank
you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You're welcome. Bless you.
Well, I guess it is past time. So I will let everyone go. It was
good to visit with all y'all and see all of you. And Susan, I
saw that you messaged me so I'll message you back. All right,
well, good to see all of y'all. I will see y'all. I will not see
you next week. I do not think because I think I think I have
something during that time. So and y'all can be y'all can be
watching but I do I think that I we don't have one next week. I
don't think we have a meeting next week. So anyway, sorry
about that. So anyway, I love all of you. I will see y'all I
guess week after next. Bye. Bye guys.