WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:11.000 I'm going to go ahead and get the dogs set up. 2 00:00:11.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Hey, 3 00:00:13.000 --> 00:00:19.000 Steph. 4 00:00:19.000 --> 00:00:21.000 Hi. 5 00:00:21.000 --> 00:00:22.000 Hey. 6 00:00:22.000 --> 00:00:23.000 How are you? 7 00:00:23.000 --> 00:00:24.000 Good. Are you. 8 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:29.000 Doing good. 9 00:00:29.000 --> 00:00:33.000 Yeah. 10 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:36.000 You've got four girls and three dogs. 11 00:00:36.000 --> 00:00:37.000 That's that's 10. 12 00:00:37.000 --> 00:00:39.000 Beings in the house. 13 00:00:39.000 --> 00:00:43.000 I know. 14 00:00:43.000 --> 00:00:46.000 Crazy. 15 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:47.000 Sorry. 16 00:00:47.000 --> 00:00:48.000 Are you back home? 17 00:00:48.000 --> 00:00:52.000 Huh? 18 00:00:52.000 --> 00:00:56.000 Yeah. Are you home now? Are you still in DC? 19 00:00:56.000 --> 00:01:01.000 Yeah. 20 00:01:01.000 --> 00:01:09.000 That was the very last minute thing. I wasn't going to be here. 21 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:11.000 And, but I was going to go, 22 00:01:11.000 --> 00:01:14.000 I thought I was going to go through Tennessee to Houston from DC to 23 00:01:14.000 --> 00:01:15.000 Houston. 24 00:01:15.000 --> 00:01:17.000 But ended up the last minute I. 25 00:01:17.000 --> 00:01:20.000 Got an offer to stay with a friend in. 26 00:01:20.000 --> 00:01:30.000 And I was so excited. 27 00:01:30.000 --> 00:01:33.000 I was so excited to be able to have these circumstances to come down 28 00:01:33.000 --> 00:01:35.000 and stay here, which has been such a blessing. 29 00:01:35.000 --> 00:01:38.000 And I was only supposed to stay one night, but I was so exhausted. 30 00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:41.000 That from, from traveling and I had traveled, 31 00:01:41.000 --> 00:01:43.000 I think 11 hours to get here. 32 00:01:43.000 --> 00:01:45.000 And then, and then I've got another 12 hours. 33 00:01:46.000 --> 00:01:48.000 I'm going to be in Houston tomorrow for a conference. 34 00:01:48.000 --> 00:01:51.000 So I'm going to be in Houston for about a week and a half. 35 00:01:51.000 --> 00:01:53.000 And then Amy is going to meet me in Houston. 36 00:01:54.000 --> 00:01:57.000 Yeah. 37 00:01:57.000 --> 00:01:59.000 So anyway, that's where I am. And that's what I'm doing. 38 00:01:59.000 --> 00:02:02.000 And so I'm going to Houston tomorrow for a conference. 39 00:02:02.000 --> 00:02:05.000 And then after that, I'm going to. 40 00:02:05.000 --> 00:02:08.000 So I'm going to be in Houston for about a week and a half. 41 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:11.000 And then Amy is going to meet me in Houston. 42 00:02:11.000 --> 00:02:14.000 But she and I happen to be going to the same conference down Houston. 43 00:02:14.000 --> 00:02:17.000 So she's going to be there. My second half of my time there. 44 00:02:17.000 --> 00:02:18.000 Yeah. 45 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:21.000 So anyway. 46 00:02:22.000 --> 00:02:25.000 I'm good. What did you say about Houston? 47 00:02:25.000 --> 00:02:26.000 I said that. 48 00:02:26.000 --> 00:02:28.000 I said that I'm Lee. I'm going to be there tomorrow. 49 00:02:28.000 --> 00:02:31.000 I was supposed to be there. I was going to be there today. 50 00:02:31.000 --> 00:02:35.000 But I was so tired that at the last minute I decided, so I'm in Atlanta. 51 00:02:35.000 --> 00:02:37.000 And that was the last minute thing. 52 00:02:37.000 --> 00:02:40.000 And then. 53 00:02:40.000 --> 00:02:42.000 Then it was then when I got here, I was so exhausted. 54 00:02:42.000 --> 00:02:45.000 They said, you're more than welcome to stay another day. 55 00:02:45.000 --> 00:02:46.000 And rest. 56 00:02:46.000 --> 00:02:48.000 And I said, you know, I'm actually going to take you up on that. 57 00:02:49.000 --> 00:02:51.000 I was so tired. 58 00:02:51.000 --> 00:02:53.000 After an 11 hour trip from DC. 59 00:02:53.000 --> 00:02:54.000 So I. 60 00:02:54.000 --> 00:02:56.000 At least 11. 61 00:02:56.000 --> 00:02:57.000 Hours. 62 00:02:57.000 --> 00:03:04.000 Anyway. 63 00:03:04.000 --> 00:03:06.000 So then I'm headed to Houston tomorrow and then you, 64 00:03:06.000 --> 00:03:08.000 I'm going to go to that conference, go to a conference. 65 00:03:08.000 --> 00:03:13.000 What is it? Friday, Friday through Sunday. 66 00:03:13.000 --> 00:03:15.000 And then you're going to be there for the next conference, 67 00:03:15.000 --> 00:03:20.000 which is going to be at a place called. 68 00:03:20.000 --> 00:03:22.000 No, no, not, not that Chris is speaking at. 69 00:03:22.000 --> 00:03:24.000 It's a totally different conference. 70 00:03:24.000 --> 00:03:25.000 So Chris. 71 00:03:25.000 --> 00:03:30.000 What's the one you're going to this weekend. 72 00:03:30.000 --> 00:03:33.000 It's a play. It's at dwelling place church and it's with Brian. 73 00:03:33.000 --> 00:03:34.000 Garen is speaking. 74 00:03:34.000 --> 00:03:36.000 And. 75 00:03:36.000 --> 00:03:38.000 Oh, I'm trying to remember who else is speaking. I don't know. 76 00:03:38.000 --> 00:03:39.000 Several people are speaking. 77 00:03:39.000 --> 00:03:41.000 So it's at a friend of mine's church. 78 00:03:41.000 --> 00:03:43.000 In fact, you might get to meet her. 79 00:03:44.000 --> 00:03:45.000 Yeah. 80 00:03:45.000 --> 00:03:49.000 I'm just coming. 81 00:03:49.000 --> 00:03:55.000 So many people are going to be there in Houston. 82 00:03:55.000 --> 00:03:57.000 Well, cause all the good conferences are down there, I guess. 83 00:03:57.000 --> 00:03:58.000 That's right. 84 00:03:58.000 --> 00:03:59.000 That's right. I know. 85 00:03:59.000 --> 00:04:01.000 Yeah. I just thought it was wild. So anyway. 86 00:04:01.000 --> 00:04:02.000 But yeah, that's what we were saying about Houston. 87 00:04:02.000 --> 00:04:04.000 I said that you were going to meet me down there. 88 00:04:04.000 --> 00:04:06.000 Yeah, I'm I'm. 89 00:04:06.000 --> 00:04:07.000 Planning on it. 90 00:04:07.000 --> 00:04:09.000 Tentatively. 91 00:04:09.000 --> 00:04:11.000 It's not exactly final, but. 92 00:04:12.000 --> 00:04:13.000 Yeah. 93 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:14.000 Yeah. 94 00:04:14.000 --> 00:04:15.000 You don't. 95 00:04:15.000 --> 00:04:17.000 Yeah. 96 00:04:17.000 --> 00:04:20.000 I signed up, but I didn't. 97 00:04:20.000 --> 00:04:21.000 There was an option to pay at the door. 98 00:04:21.000 --> 00:04:23.000 So I haven't paid any yet. 99 00:04:23.000 --> 00:04:30.000 Wow. I didn't know that was an option. That's great. 100 00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:32.000 Okay. It was the dropdown menu. It said, pay at the door zero. 101 00:04:32.000 --> 00:04:33.000 And I'm like, I'll do that. 102 00:04:33.000 --> 00:04:35.000 Cause I'm not really sure if I'm going to go or not. 103 00:04:35.000 --> 00:04:36.000 Oh, okay. 104 00:04:36.000 --> 00:04:39.000 I want to, but I'm holding it loosely. I'm not sure, you know? 105 00:04:40.000 --> 00:04:43.000 Okay. 106 00:04:43.000 --> 00:04:45.000 I can find someone to go with me. I might. 107 00:04:45.000 --> 00:04:47.000 Yeah. 108 00:04:47.000 --> 00:04:49.000 Any who. 109 00:04:49.000 --> 00:04:51.000 Good. 110 00:04:51.000 --> 00:04:56.000 So. 111 00:04:56.000 --> 00:04:58.000 Let's see. 112 00:04:58.000 --> 00:05:00.000 I almost saw stuff. 113 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:02.000 Was it. 114 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:02.560 last week, whenever that was. 115 00:05:02.560 --> 00:05:07.560 I almost saw her too, but she's, everybody almost saw her. 116 00:05:08.840 --> 00:05:09.680 She's just too busy. 117 00:05:09.680 --> 00:05:12.520 I'm just far enough out, yeah. 118 00:05:14.160 --> 00:05:17.800 I'm just far enough out that I can't seem to catch anybody. 119 00:05:17.800 --> 00:05:21.840 Aw, well, we drove right through there twice. 120 00:05:23.160 --> 00:05:26.480 And we're half an hour from everything, pretty much. 121 00:05:27.480 --> 00:05:28.320 Oh yeah. 122 00:05:28.320 --> 00:05:29.720 Cause I'm not in Parkersburg. 123 00:05:29.720 --> 00:05:31.880 I'm out at the Ritchie County line. 124 00:05:31.880 --> 00:05:35.920 So, it's not quite 30 minutes. 125 00:05:35.920 --> 00:05:38.720 It's east, headed towards Clarksburg. 126 00:05:38.720 --> 00:05:40.560 Towards Clarksburg? 127 00:05:40.560 --> 00:05:41.400 Yeah. 128 00:05:43.720 --> 00:05:44.760 Just far enough. 129 00:05:46.520 --> 00:05:49.000 Yeah, we're gonna make it work someday. 130 00:05:50.040 --> 00:05:51.560 Yeah, I think your idea is great 131 00:05:51.560 --> 00:05:56.560 that Ashley should have a rest-intensive retreat. 132 00:05:57.320 --> 00:05:59.320 That would be so awesome. 133 00:05:59.320 --> 00:06:00.920 That would. 134 00:06:00.920 --> 00:06:02.760 That would be a lot of fun for us to do. 135 00:06:02.760 --> 00:06:03.600 That would be fun. 136 00:06:03.600 --> 00:06:05.600 I have to think about that. 137 00:06:05.600 --> 00:06:08.840 Yeah, we'll pray about it. 138 00:06:08.840 --> 00:06:10.200 That's right, that's right. 139 00:06:10.200 --> 00:06:11.600 Pray about it. 140 00:06:11.600 --> 00:06:13.800 Okay, yeah, yeah, exactly. 141 00:06:13.800 --> 00:06:14.640 He says yes. 142 00:06:18.280 --> 00:06:19.960 Instant answer. 143 00:06:19.960 --> 00:06:21.400 That's right, love it. 144 00:06:22.600 --> 00:06:25.840 Make sure, yep, that's good. 145 00:06:25.840 --> 00:06:27.880 Hey, Mr. Bell. 146 00:06:27.880 --> 00:06:29.480 You wanna come say hi to Ashley? 147 00:06:31.200 --> 00:06:33.240 I'm probably gonna have to mute my mic. 148 00:06:34.600 --> 00:06:35.440 Oh. 149 00:06:38.480 --> 00:06:39.320 Oh. 150 00:06:41.720 --> 00:06:43.320 Your butt's too big. 151 00:06:43.320 --> 00:06:45.320 You can't fit in the chair. 152 00:06:46.680 --> 00:06:47.520 Ow. 153 00:06:49.960 --> 00:06:51.400 Hey, bud, how are you? 154 00:06:51.400 --> 00:06:52.600 How was school? 155 00:06:52.600 --> 00:06:54.640 You took my chair. 156 00:06:54.640 --> 00:06:56.320 Oh, he took it. 157 00:06:56.320 --> 00:07:00.720 See, he knows how to work with the system. 158 00:07:00.720 --> 00:07:03.120 Billy, he's such a goofball. 159 00:07:05.120 --> 00:07:07.520 He's got one job. 160 00:07:07.520 --> 00:07:08.800 Gotta keep mama laughing. 161 00:07:08.800 --> 00:07:11.920 That's the job that he's chosen. 162 00:07:11.920 --> 00:07:14.240 Yeah, squeeze his big fat butt in the chair 163 00:07:14.240 --> 00:07:15.520 and popped me right out. 164 00:07:17.120 --> 00:07:17.960 That's fun. 165 00:07:18.960 --> 00:07:21.880 I'm in my room and since Mia's gone, 166 00:07:21.880 --> 00:07:24.080 he sleeps in my bed. 167 00:07:24.960 --> 00:07:25.800 Really? 168 00:07:26.840 --> 00:07:29.160 Well, I knew that he was doing that at the old house, 169 00:07:29.160 --> 00:07:30.600 so he's moved back in, huh? 170 00:07:31.880 --> 00:07:34.000 Yeah, it's fine. 171 00:07:34.000 --> 00:07:35.640 He's my big teddy bear. 172 00:07:35.640 --> 00:07:38.840 I know, I know, always the baby. 173 00:07:40.880 --> 00:07:44.840 I said always the baby, seven big brothers and sisters. 174 00:07:44.840 --> 00:07:45.680 He's always the baby. 175 00:07:45.680 --> 00:07:47.680 Yep, he's always the baby. 176 00:07:48.680 --> 00:07:50.480 Hey, Linda. 177 00:07:52.480 --> 00:07:53.800 Howdy. 178 00:07:53.800 --> 00:07:54.880 How are you? 179 00:07:56.400 --> 00:08:00.640 Being very bored, being quarantined in COVID jail 180 00:08:00.640 --> 00:08:04.120 for another week, but I'll be out on Sunday night. 181 00:08:04.120 --> 00:08:05.920 I'm sorry, I was gonna say, 182 00:08:05.920 --> 00:08:08.320 I thought that this was probably your second week. 183 00:08:08.320 --> 00:08:10.400 I'm sorry, but everything's gone okay. 184 00:08:10.400 --> 00:08:12.200 Neither you nor he have gotten it. 185 00:08:12.200 --> 00:08:14.800 Yeah, so he got a negative test, 186 00:08:14.800 --> 00:08:16.280 but we're still in quarantine 187 00:08:16.320 --> 00:08:21.040 and I did get to take two days away to go to the lake 188 00:08:21.040 --> 00:08:23.920 and be able to do a birthday party for four boys 189 00:08:23.920 --> 00:08:27.320 between the ages of eight and 13. 190 00:08:27.320 --> 00:08:31.720 So I got away, or I would really be going crazy right now. 191 00:08:31.720 --> 00:08:33.760 Yeah, yeah, well, I'm glad that you got to do that. 192 00:08:33.760 --> 00:08:35.400 Is it for your grandsons? 193 00:08:35.400 --> 00:08:38.200 Yeah, well, two grandsons and then Shannon Bates was here, 194 00:08:38.200 --> 00:08:40.720 James and Shannon Bates, and so they are two kids, 195 00:08:40.720 --> 00:08:42.440 one had a birthday in October, 196 00:08:43.320 --> 00:08:46.200 and so that we had a joint birthday party. 197 00:08:46.640 --> 00:08:48.400 Fun, that's a lot of fun, wow. 198 00:08:49.560 --> 00:08:52.280 Yeah, I know that the boys had fun. 199 00:08:52.280 --> 00:08:54.920 How, eight to 13, goodness. 200 00:08:54.920 --> 00:08:56.000 Yes. 201 00:08:56.000 --> 00:08:58.920 Yes, they went the whole day at the water park. 202 00:08:58.920 --> 00:09:02.040 So I would not, normally two to three hours is all I do, 203 00:09:02.040 --> 00:09:04.720 but a whole day, that's a lot. 204 00:09:04.720 --> 00:09:05.560 Yeah. 205 00:09:08.840 --> 00:09:11.040 Yeah, yeah, it would be. 206 00:09:11.040 --> 00:09:12.240 I'm glad that you had that time though 207 00:09:12.240 --> 00:09:13.800 and that bit of reprieve. 208 00:09:13.800 --> 00:09:16.640 Yes, that has made this more tolerable, 209 00:09:16.640 --> 00:09:17.960 but I have gotten a lot of work done 210 00:09:17.960 --> 00:09:19.880 because this is one of the houses we lived in, 211 00:09:19.880 --> 00:09:23.680 and so I've spent the last 48 hours 212 00:09:23.680 --> 00:09:27.280 cleaning out all the things that I had left behind. 213 00:09:27.280 --> 00:09:28.640 Wow. 214 00:09:28.640 --> 00:09:31.200 So it's like, I have made a mess. 215 00:09:31.200 --> 00:09:32.440 A huge mess. Productive. 216 00:09:32.440 --> 00:09:34.800 It's been productive, yes, very productive. 217 00:09:34.800 --> 00:09:35.640 Good. 218 00:09:37.320 --> 00:09:40.120 Let's see, what time is it? 219 00:09:40.120 --> 00:09:42.600 Wow, okay, well, I wanted to give more people time 220 00:09:43.280 --> 00:09:45.640 to hop on, I don't know if certain people 221 00:09:45.640 --> 00:09:50.160 are all tied up with watching the third day 222 00:09:50.160 --> 00:09:52.200 of the presidential election. 223 00:09:52.200 --> 00:09:54.360 So I don't know where everybody is, 224 00:09:54.360 --> 00:09:57.400 but does anyone have anything 225 00:09:57.400 --> 00:09:59.840 that they wanted to start us off with? 226 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:05.640 because I keep forgetting to come with something prepared in case nobody has 227 00:10:05.640 --> 00:10:13.640 something that they want to start us off with so anyone have anything well I 228 00:10:13.640 --> 00:10:21.600 might okay let's see if I can put it into words so you talked early back in 229 00:10:21.600 --> 00:10:29.160 there you know well April intensive and in one of your trainings about making 230 00:10:29.160 --> 00:10:40.600 decisions from rest and lately I've been having um like as I move forward in you 231 00:10:40.600 --> 00:10:48.400 know what I want to do like things come up that 232 00:10:49.000 --> 00:10:56.200 seem like a good idea but then I like I'm not sure and so it's a different 233 00:10:56.200 --> 00:11:02.160 kind of decision rather than deciding between well it is and it isn't rather 234 00:11:02.160 --> 00:11:05.240 than deciding between two things it's like well I think that would be good but 235 00:11:05.240 --> 00:11:12.760 then on the other hand it seems like all of these things that are coming up are 236 00:11:12.760 --> 00:11:18.160 and I don't know if this is true and that's why I'm asking that that as you're 237 00:11:18.160 --> 00:11:24.040 growing in your relationship with God then there's certain things that come to 238 00:11:24.040 --> 00:11:28.400 the surface and you have multiple opportunities to address them so I don't 239 00:11:28.400 --> 00:11:33.880 know if that is a thing or if it's just my imagination but it seems like I keep 240 00:11:33.880 --> 00:11:40.320 having opportunities where these things come up that I'm like oh that sounds 241 00:11:40.320 --> 00:11:44.640 like a good thing maybe I should do that or maybe I should do this and then it 242 00:11:44.640 --> 00:11:53.640 seems like it's it's a it's a conflict or choice between doing it in my own 243 00:11:53.760 --> 00:11:57.640 strength tree of knowledge of good and evil or 244 00:11:57.960 --> 00:12:03.840 tree of life and so those kind of things keep coming up and so my question is 245 00:12:03.840 --> 00:12:10.000 there's natural things we have to do like to move forward in what we're doing 246 00:12:10.000 --> 00:12:16.600 and so it's difficult for me to differentiate between doing things in my 247 00:12:16.600 --> 00:12:22.360 own strength and tree of knowledge of good and evil does that make sense like 248 00:12:22.640 --> 00:12:28.320 I think so so you know that it's not the actions that we do that make something 249 00:12:28.320 --> 00:12:33.600 according to that tree it's the attitude it's the perspective and the belief 250 00:12:33.600 --> 00:12:38.720 behind it that we believe that we have to do it in order for us to get a result 251 00:12:38.720 --> 00:12:43.480 like oh well we have to and we need to and it's required and whatever and then 252 00:12:43.480 --> 00:12:48.240 that creates this this weight and this oppression of fear or obligate an 253 00:12:48.240 --> 00:12:53.200 obligation and whatever when it's actually not the thing itself that that 254 00:12:53.200 --> 00:12:56.880 makes it of the tree of knowledge of good and evil it's it's so it's 255 00:12:56.880 --> 00:13:02.600 ourselves and our approach to it that we have to change not so worrying so much 256 00:13:02.600 --> 00:13:07.040 of yeah but if I do this is doing this wrong because it's of the wrong tree 257 00:13:07.040 --> 00:13:11.560 it's me grabbing for something it's me whatever it's really interesting that we 258 00:13:11.560 --> 00:13:15.320 think okay well if we change what it if I change what it is that I do so in 259 00:13:15.320 --> 00:13:19.360 other words if I get two different choices if I could do this or I could do 260 00:13:19.360 --> 00:13:25.000 that we think that we're actually choosing one tree over the other when 261 00:13:25.000 --> 00:13:29.840 really if that's not the issue and we can each we can actually have two 262 00:13:29.840 --> 00:13:34.240 different choices of like oh well I could do this action or I could do this 263 00:13:34.240 --> 00:13:38.080 action well I know that this action is according to the tree of life that's 264 00:13:38.080 --> 00:13:41.440 what we tell ourselves or this action is according to the tree of the knowledge 265 00:13:41.440 --> 00:13:49.080 of good and evil what it is that we're doing is we are and we sorry is we are 266 00:13:49.080 --> 00:13:55.200 still going back again to the whole our decision-making process is is and how do 267 00:13:55.200 --> 00:13:59.760 how do I put this we're ourselves in our approach is still approaching it from 268 00:13:59.760 --> 00:14:02.920 the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and the fact that our choice we've 269 00:14:02.920 --> 00:14:07.640 made between two different things that we do and we need to back up and just 270 00:14:07.640 --> 00:14:12.040 realize no no why am I doing what it is that I'm doing how am I even making this 271 00:14:12.040 --> 00:14:16.760 decision am I making it when I'm understanding no no I'm just releasing 272 00:14:16.760 --> 00:14:20.200 everything I'm letting everything just rest in the hands of the Lord he 273 00:14:20.200 --> 00:14:25.920 provides the increase he provides the results and I just can enjoy doing the 274 00:14:25.920 --> 00:14:31.480 actions with him because the responsibility the outcome does not is 275 00:14:31.480 --> 00:14:37.320 not determined by which one it is that I do so once we back up and completely 276 00:14:37.320 --> 00:14:41.360 pull ourselves away from which option we should take and just rest in that 277 00:14:41.360 --> 00:14:46.280 then we're like okay so now that now that what it is that I do doesn't bear 278 00:14:46.280 --> 00:14:50.920 the burden of the consequence which one do I want to do which one do I feel from 279 00:14:50.920 --> 00:14:54.480 the heart of the Lord that he's kind of directing me and which one do we want to 280 00:14:54.480 --> 00:14:59.400 do together and we approach it like that and then we choose which one we want to 281 00:14:59.400 --> 00:15:01.640 do 282 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.000 And does that does that make sense. So it's not the action. 283 00:15:05.000 --> 00:15:16.000 We want to make it the action because it makes it feel easier for us to determine which one should I do because doing gives us safety, security in our minds. 284 00:15:16.000 --> 00:15:30.000 So, so let me give you a specific. So I'm trying to build this landing site for my classes, while trying to build. I have a website, and I'm just tweaking the landing page to match the class that I'm offering. 285 00:15:30.000 --> 00:15:45.000 And, which seems like an endless seems like a simple thing and it's become this endless process, which is annoying. I seem to do that to everything make it like way harder than it is or maybe that's just the way it is for everybody I don't know but 286 00:15:45.000 --> 00:15:52.000 it seems like oh I can do this in 15 minutes, and two days later I'm still trying to figure out what to put on it. 287 00:15:52.000 --> 00:15:59.000 And then, but the decision that the one that came to my mind there's been other smaller ones but this one was. 288 00:15:59.000 --> 00:16:12.000 And so, and this seems to be happening so I'll be working on something like that. And of course it's probably because I'm working on it, I see a Facebook ad well Facebook listens, watches what you do. 289 00:16:13.000 --> 00:16:33.000 I see this ad for this one page, you know, it's for it's, you know, for a program that this guy has this one page template whole program. And it's, you know, proven and he tells a story and how it helped and saved his life and people and you know, do great 290 00:16:34.000 --> 00:16:43.000 with this and anyway, and I thought, you know, that would be so helpful, and I in, you know, I see. 291 00:16:43.000 --> 00:16:53.000 I didn't watch his whole pitch video because those things are so long and drawn out. It's annoying I just wanted to tell me what it is but, you know, what does he do and let me see if I want it. 292 00:16:53.000 --> 00:17:04.000 Anyway, but, but I didn't get enough to go okay yeah I get that I get that he kind of gave just some quick points about what's on the page of why it works and I'm like yeah I could do that. 293 00:17:04.000 --> 00:17:13.000 That's helpful. But, um, I don't know, I feel like you know it always feels good to have someone who knows what they're doing. 294 00:17:13.000 --> 00:17:29.000 I can just, you know, I mean, I'm not an expert in in any of in everything, and I don't, you know, I don't need to be that expert you know they always say surround yourself with successful people and don't try to be the all in one and, and I, you know, 295 00:17:29.000 --> 00:17:36.000 it just feels like it would be so much easier I don't know, because I still have to create the content and that's what I'm struggling over. 296 00:17:36.000 --> 00:17:48.000 Although, you know, so that's the question so do I do it myself is that more spiritual than paying this guy program, or but then my fear is always because I've done these before. 297 00:17:49.000 --> 00:18:02.000 And then the program becomes just another burden of something I've got to work through it do instead of just letting the Holy Spirit guide me to what to put on the page and so, yeah. 298 00:18:03.000 --> 00:18:11.000 Go ahead. I was just going to add them there's that feeling of like, oh well, maybe if I do his it'll just be so quick and easy and it'll just be great. 299 00:18:11.000 --> 00:18:19.000 No, that fear of missing out like if I don't do it like, you know, down the road I'll forget about it. 300 00:18:19.000 --> 00:18:22.000 Yeah, that that yeah that fear of missing out fear. 301 00:18:22.000 --> 00:18:41.000 Yes. And so that's what I was going to come back to I wasn't going to use that word but that we can so easily get bogged down in and putting together something that looks good some in other words creating some kind of a of a display of a structure of a whatever, 302 00:18:41.000 --> 00:18:57.000 when we just usually just need to move forward. So in other words, just actually it because it's not the prettiest and even highly functional that's required. 303 00:18:57.000 --> 00:19:26.000 It just needs to be something that's functional. And this is something that I had to learn, because I was one of those people that just worked to the nth degree to make this perfect presentation before I actually made it functional and I and come to find out people don't buy everything that we work so hard to make it look like it is something of a value. 304 00:19:26.000 --> 00:19:45.000 It just needs to be something of value, as opposed to making it look a particular way then you can work on the looks later. You just need something that that and through which you can actually move, but just start moving as opposed to making it look a particular 305 00:19:45.000 --> 00:19:57.000 way. And it will look messy in the beginning, but at least it's functional. I mean I did that I did the same thing with, with my, with my one on one clients before I even started the group. 306 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:03.000 because people were just calling me and, or yeah, 307 00:20:03.000 --> 00:20:04.520 and saying that they were interested, 308 00:20:04.520 --> 00:20:06.280 or I was calling them or asking 309 00:20:06.280 --> 00:20:07.680 if they'd be interested, whichever. 310 00:20:07.680 --> 00:20:11.160 And I'm like, just answering questions on the fly. 311 00:20:11.160 --> 00:20:12.880 I'm making it up as I go. 312 00:20:12.880 --> 00:20:16.080 And then we get into the group and I'm like, I don't even, 313 00:20:16.080 --> 00:20:18.400 I think that I had like three lines 314 00:20:18.400 --> 00:20:21.800 in like the about or the summary section and whatever. 315 00:20:21.800 --> 00:20:23.960 So my point in giving that as an example 316 00:20:23.960 --> 00:20:27.080 is that is not how I used to do things. 317 00:20:27.080 --> 00:20:32.080 And I discovered that what was important is, 318 00:20:32.640 --> 00:20:34.720 and what the substance is, 319 00:20:34.720 --> 00:20:39.160 and what it is that I was offering is all in the message. 320 00:20:39.160 --> 00:20:42.680 It's all in actual, the value is actually 321 00:20:42.680 --> 00:20:45.760 in how it can change a life, 322 00:20:45.760 --> 00:20:49.680 not how it looks and not in, you know, 323 00:20:49.680 --> 00:20:53.720 all of this super high structure. 324 00:20:53.720 --> 00:20:55.720 I mean, y'all were with me, you know, especially you, 325 00:20:55.720 --> 00:20:58.520 you know, since you were there in April, 326 00:20:58.520 --> 00:21:01.680 you saw how messy of a system, how messy, 327 00:21:01.680 --> 00:21:02.800 or I don't know, maybe it didn't look messy, 328 00:21:02.800 --> 00:21:04.440 y'all looked very messy to me. 329 00:21:04.440 --> 00:21:06.880 That would not have flown in the professional world. 330 00:21:06.880 --> 00:21:08.360 Absolutely not. 331 00:21:08.360 --> 00:21:11.720 And I would train people against the very thing 332 00:21:11.720 --> 00:21:13.840 that I then had to learn how to do. 333 00:21:13.840 --> 00:21:16.800 And that was just to get to just start moving 334 00:21:16.800 --> 00:21:20.840 and not worry about all of these multi-page websites 335 00:21:20.840 --> 00:21:22.480 or even a one-page website, 336 00:21:22.480 --> 00:21:23.760 and it'll all look a particular way 337 00:21:23.760 --> 00:21:25.280 and worry so much about, 338 00:21:25.280 --> 00:21:30.280 well, what is the type, the topography of the headline? 339 00:21:31.120 --> 00:21:32.960 And what is the, that's not the word, 340 00:21:32.960 --> 00:21:36.200 it's type, the typeset of the headline, 341 00:21:36.200 --> 00:21:38.480 or, you know, the size of this, that, and the other. 342 00:21:38.480 --> 00:21:39.720 And, oh, I've got to make sure 343 00:21:39.720 --> 00:21:40.840 that there's enough words on it, 344 00:21:40.840 --> 00:21:42.000 and that it's laid out correctly. 345 00:21:42.000 --> 00:21:44.400 And, oh, do you think that this picture's gonna sell 346 00:21:44.400 --> 00:21:45.640 versus this one? 347 00:21:45.640 --> 00:21:47.560 Because you do, you just get bogged down. 348 00:21:47.560 --> 00:21:49.320 So you can set yourself up a limit 349 00:21:49.320 --> 00:21:51.960 of something like 30 minutes or something, 350 00:21:51.960 --> 00:21:54.160 set something up and say, it is good enough, 351 00:21:54.160 --> 00:21:55.840 now let's just make it functional. 352 00:21:57.000 --> 00:22:02.080 And so anyway, what it is that's gonna sell 353 00:22:02.080 --> 00:22:04.040 and what it is that's gonna transform lives 354 00:22:04.040 --> 00:22:07.160 and what it is that God is going to use and move through 355 00:22:07.160 --> 00:22:10.400 is your spirit actually being in it, 356 00:22:10.400 --> 00:22:12.800 not in it looking a particular way, 357 00:22:12.800 --> 00:22:16.120 because that's the way that the world says it needs to be. 358 00:22:17.240 --> 00:22:19.160 There's nothing wrong with making it look good. 359 00:22:19.160 --> 00:22:23.760 The problem is when we are pouring so much of making it, 360 00:22:23.760 --> 00:22:27.400 of ourselves and of our energy into making it look good, 361 00:22:27.400 --> 00:22:31.640 that we are operating out of fear 362 00:22:31.640 --> 00:22:34.320 and operating out of the world's idea that, 363 00:22:34.320 --> 00:22:36.840 hey, look, it's not what it is that we bring to it. 364 00:22:36.840 --> 00:22:41.840 It's not our spirit that's actually making a difference. 365 00:22:42.000 --> 00:22:45.080 It is all of these tips and tricks and strategies, 366 00:22:45.080 --> 00:22:46.120 the magic sauce, you know, 367 00:22:46.120 --> 00:22:48.160 that I always go through all of that list, 368 00:22:48.160 --> 00:22:50.480 that it's actually making the difference. 369 00:22:50.480 --> 00:22:52.600 It's plugging in a formula. 370 00:22:52.600 --> 00:22:54.400 It's, oh, I've got to learn from somebody 371 00:22:54.400 --> 00:22:55.960 who's been more successful. 372 00:22:55.960 --> 00:22:57.880 Why were they successful at it? 373 00:22:57.880 --> 00:23:00.000 They were successful because their spirit 374 00:23:00.000 --> 00:23:00.840 operated through it, 375 00:23:00.840 --> 00:23:03.680 or they worked 10 times harder than God says 376 00:23:03.680 --> 00:23:05.280 that you have to. 377 00:23:05.280 --> 00:23:07.760 So there's nothing wrong with it. 378 00:23:07.760 --> 00:23:09.960 There's nothing wrong with using tips, tricks and strategies. 379 00:23:09.960 --> 00:23:12.920 The problem is if we think that that's what we have to have 380 00:23:12.920 --> 00:23:14.720 in order to move forward. 381 00:23:14.720 --> 00:23:17.440 And we need to understand that the power 382 00:23:18.440 --> 00:23:22.440 that who's going to attract clients is not your webpage, 383 00:23:22.440 --> 00:23:24.080 it's going to be God. 384 00:23:24.080 --> 00:23:27.240 So it removes the burden of everything it is 385 00:23:27.240 --> 00:23:28.520 that you're pouring into it. 386 00:23:28.520 --> 00:23:30.400 It completely removes it from the webpage. 387 00:23:30.400 --> 00:23:32.800 So if the webpage isn't selling it anyway, 388 00:23:32.800 --> 00:23:33.840 and your God is, 389 00:23:33.840 --> 00:23:35.840 well, then you don't even have to spend time on it. 390 00:23:35.840 --> 00:23:36.680 Does that make sense? 391 00:23:36.680 --> 00:23:39.160 And then you can work on it as time permits. 392 00:23:39.160 --> 00:23:41.960 Just get something moving, just move the car. 393 00:23:41.960 --> 00:23:42.920 Yeah. 394 00:23:42.920 --> 00:23:44.400 I had to learn that. 395 00:23:44.400 --> 00:23:46.800 So I'm very aware of what it is I'm telling you 396 00:23:46.800 --> 00:23:50.960 because it was that hard for me to learn how to do. 397 00:23:50.960 --> 00:23:53.240 It was that hard for me to give up 398 00:23:53.240 --> 00:23:55.840 because I was in it for so long. 399 00:23:55.840 --> 00:24:00.560 I was punished in the professional world 400 00:24:00.560 --> 00:24:02.000 for not following it. 401 00:24:02.000 --> 00:24:04.040 So I learned how to follow it to the nth degree 402 00:24:04.040 --> 00:24:05.800 and to train everybody else in it. 403 00:24:05.800 --> 00:24:10.800 The world, especially the professional leadership world, 404 00:24:11.320 --> 00:24:15.560 rewards people who spent all their time, effort and energy 405 00:24:15.560 --> 00:24:17.000 working 10 times harder. 406 00:24:18.000 --> 00:24:19.080 Yeah, yeah. 407 00:24:20.960 --> 00:24:21.920 Yeah, thank you. 408 00:24:21.920 --> 00:24:25.120 I mean, I knew all that, but when you're in it- 409 00:24:25.120 --> 00:24:26.800 I know you just need it reframed. 410 00:24:26.800 --> 00:24:28.080 You can't see it. 411 00:24:28.080 --> 00:24:31.200 And it started to like come back to me 412 00:24:31.200 --> 00:24:34.440 and I'm like, okay, I'm falling into that trap 413 00:24:34.440 --> 00:24:37.160 thinking there's a formula that I have to have 414 00:24:37.160 --> 00:24:39.440 and it has to be perfect. 415 00:24:39.440 --> 00:24:42.320 Yeah, the concern. 416 00:24:42.320 --> 00:24:43.240 I mean, in other words, 417 00:24:43.240 --> 00:24:45.040 the thing that can always trigger us to think, 418 00:24:45.440 --> 00:24:47.520 to start to catch ourselves, 419 00:24:47.520 --> 00:24:48.680 not triggers in a bad trigger, 420 00:24:48.680 --> 00:24:52.240 but can help us kind of catch ourselves 421 00:24:52.240 --> 00:24:57.080 is when we feel that anxiousness or anxiety 422 00:24:57.080 --> 00:24:59.280 and when we feel I need. 423 00:24:59.280 --> 00:25:00.120 Or- 424 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:01.920 I'm worried that I'm not doing it right. 425 00:25:01.920 --> 00:25:04.960 Or in other words, that that's a trigger 426 00:25:04.960 --> 00:25:06.800 that there's some underlying fear 427 00:25:06.800 --> 00:25:08.840 that we're dealing with that. 428 00:25:08.840 --> 00:25:10.440 And then we need to move back into rest. 429 00:25:10.440 --> 00:25:11.280 We don't even have to worry 430 00:25:11.280 --> 00:25:13.600 about why we're feeling that way. 431 00:25:13.600 --> 00:25:14.520 Just shift into rest. 432 00:25:14.520 --> 00:25:16.220 Like, okay, how do I shift into rest? 433 00:25:16.220 --> 00:25:17.480 I know that God provides for me. 434 00:25:17.480 --> 00:25:18.640 I go that God protects me. 435 00:25:18.640 --> 00:25:20.840 I know that God's the one who attracts the client. 436 00:25:20.840 --> 00:25:22.240 I know that God's pleased with me. 437 00:25:22.240 --> 00:25:23.080 I know that he loves me. 438 00:25:23.080 --> 00:25:24.360 You know, shifting all into that. 439 00:25:24.360 --> 00:25:25.760 And then now I have that forgetting 440 00:25:25.760 --> 00:25:28.920 all of the other reasons of why I went the other direction. 441 00:25:28.960 --> 00:25:30.160 Now that I know the truth, 442 00:25:30.160 --> 00:25:32.560 again, totally ignoring the lie, 443 00:25:32.560 --> 00:25:34.960 just focusing on the truth and making it so big 444 00:25:34.960 --> 00:25:36.720 that it'll dispel the lie. 445 00:25:36.720 --> 00:25:38.080 Now that I'm in rest, 446 00:25:38.080 --> 00:25:39.880 okay, now I'll come back to the same problem. 447 00:25:39.880 --> 00:25:41.560 Now let's approach the same problem. 448 00:25:41.560 --> 00:25:43.920 And you'll start seeing it with totally different eyes 449 00:25:43.920 --> 00:25:46.160 because you're no longer considering 450 00:25:46.160 --> 00:25:50.840 this same logic that had tricked you into fear. 451 00:25:51.920 --> 00:25:55.040 So anyway, that's the way to do it the fastest. 452 00:25:55.120 --> 00:26:00.120 It's hard because having all of those fears, 453 00:26:00.120 --> 00:26:02.520 it's very tempting. 454 00:26:02.520 --> 00:26:07.520 So it's hard for us to actually stop 455 00:26:08.040 --> 00:26:11.200 and then just forget about all of the reasons why not. 456 00:26:11.200 --> 00:26:14.920 But if we can choose to do it 457 00:26:14.920 --> 00:26:17.000 of our own intentional free will, 458 00:26:17.000 --> 00:26:19.280 if we can choose to completely forget 459 00:26:19.280 --> 00:26:22.680 about all of the logic that had driven us into fear 460 00:26:22.680 --> 00:26:24.280 and just move into rest 461 00:26:24.280 --> 00:26:26.560 and then approach it with fresh eyes, 462 00:26:27.760 --> 00:26:31.280 it is the fastest way to move through any obstacle. 463 00:26:32.520 --> 00:26:34.080 It's hard, but it's only hard 464 00:26:34.080 --> 00:26:36.040 because we're having to overcome ourselves. 465 00:26:36.040 --> 00:26:38.440 But it is the fastest way. 466 00:26:38.440 --> 00:26:42.680 It's amazing how difficult it is to overcome yourself. 467 00:26:45.160 --> 00:26:48.000 What are you making a big deal about this for? 468 00:26:49.560 --> 00:26:51.320 And you'd already told me this the other day, 469 00:26:51.320 --> 00:26:53.840 it's just you, it's not, you know. 470 00:26:55.240 --> 00:26:59.480 So what Jonathan's doing now to make me laugh, 471 00:26:59.480 --> 00:27:01.040 what's making him laugh 472 00:27:01.040 --> 00:27:04.680 is the dog is stuck in my room barking to get out. 473 00:27:04.680 --> 00:27:07.520 And he's on the other side of the door laughing 474 00:27:07.520 --> 00:27:08.560 because he knows. 475 00:27:09.560 --> 00:27:11.480 So I'm gonna mute myself and let the dog out. 476 00:27:11.480 --> 00:27:13.800 But thank you, that was very helpful. 477 00:27:13.800 --> 00:27:14.640 You're welcome. 478 00:27:16.320 --> 00:27:17.520 Hey, Susan. 479 00:27:17.520 --> 00:27:18.880 Hey, Elizabeth. 480 00:27:19.080 --> 00:27:21.600 Susan, you want to know where I am? 481 00:27:21.600 --> 00:27:22.920 Yes. 482 00:27:22.920 --> 00:27:26.720 I was not, I, this was not planned. 483 00:27:26.720 --> 00:27:28.160 I'm in Atlanta. 484 00:27:29.880 --> 00:27:32.360 I'm sorry, it was not planned. 485 00:27:32.360 --> 00:27:34.880 Last minute, I ended up coming here. 486 00:27:34.880 --> 00:27:38.280 Okay, so everybody, Susan lives not far from Atlanta. 487 00:27:38.280 --> 00:27:40.240 And so she and I tried to meet up. 488 00:27:40.240 --> 00:27:43.400 And so I feel like I'm giving a confessional. 489 00:27:43.400 --> 00:27:46.440 So I, I'm in Atlanta, 490 00:27:46.520 --> 00:27:47.360 I'm giving a confessional. 491 00:27:47.360 --> 00:27:50.280 So I, I was not supposed to be in Atlanta. 492 00:27:50.280 --> 00:27:51.360 I was supposed to be somewhere else. 493 00:27:51.360 --> 00:27:52.760 And then at the last minute, 494 00:27:52.760 --> 00:27:54.600 I had a friend that I met at a conference 495 00:27:54.600 --> 00:27:58.200 and she very graciously offered for me to come, 496 00:27:58.200 --> 00:28:01.880 cut for me to break up my drive from DC to Houston, 497 00:28:01.880 --> 00:28:03.560 which is a 20 plus hour drive. 498 00:28:03.560 --> 00:28:05.480 It was a 20 hour drive. 499 00:28:05.480 --> 00:28:07.560 And then of course, not to mention all the stops 500 00:28:07.560 --> 00:28:08.880 and whatever, it was gonna be 24 hours. 501 00:28:08.880 --> 00:28:12.280 So she graciously offered for me to stop off in Atlanta. 502 00:28:12.280 --> 00:28:13.880 So that was a last minute decision. 503 00:28:13.880 --> 00:28:15.840 I was only supposed to spend the night. 504 00:28:16.280 --> 00:28:20.200 I got in at like 10 o'clock at night, 945, 505 00:28:20.200 --> 00:28:21.920 10 o'clock last night. 506 00:28:21.920 --> 00:28:23.200 And then I was gonna get up 507 00:28:23.200 --> 00:28:25.560 and I was gonna leave by 7.30 this morning. 508 00:28:25.560 --> 00:28:28.360 I was so exhausted from all of the traveling 509 00:28:28.360 --> 00:28:31.200 and that, I mean, for the past few weeks, 510 00:28:31.200 --> 00:28:34.080 not to mention just yesterday, 511 00:28:34.080 --> 00:28:35.640 that she said, you are more than welcome 512 00:28:35.640 --> 00:28:37.160 to stay and rest for a day 513 00:28:37.160 --> 00:28:39.960 before you have to go on another 12 hour drive 514 00:28:39.960 --> 00:28:41.480 to Houston tomorrow. 515 00:28:41.480 --> 00:28:43.000 I said, you know what? 516 00:28:43.000 --> 00:28:45.160 I'm gonna take you up on it. 517 00:28:45.200 --> 00:28:47.760 So I've just been here trying to rest 518 00:28:47.760 --> 00:28:49.240 before I head off again. 519 00:28:49.240 --> 00:28:51.200 So I'm sorry, I'm right down the road. 520 00:28:51.200 --> 00:28:53.040 This was all very last minute. 521 00:28:54.040 --> 00:28:57.680 I didn't, anyway, so I just had to confess. 522 00:28:57.680 --> 00:28:58.800 This is where I am. 523 00:29:00.040 --> 00:29:01.880 It was just very unplanned. 524 00:29:03.640 --> 00:29:04.480 Well, that's good. 525 00:29:04.480 --> 00:29:07.680 So waving to you from down the road. 526 00:29:07.680 --> 00:29:08.520 I know. 527 00:29:08.920 --> 00:29:09.760 Yeah. 528 00:29:11.000 --> 00:29:16.000 So did anyone have anything else to talk about? 529 00:29:20.720 --> 00:29:22.840 I hope everyone's staying in rest 530 00:29:22.840 --> 00:29:24.520 over the presidential election. 531 00:29:26.640 --> 00:29:27.480 Oh, well. 532 00:29:27.480 --> 00:29:31.320 That was, I actually had to put myself to sleep two nights 533 00:29:31.320 --> 00:29:36.320 just because of all of the shock of everything. 534 00:29:36.680 --> 00:29:40.520 I just didn't expect that to be what was gonna happen. 535 00:29:40.520 --> 00:29:44.200 But I'd been listening to Justin Abraham 536 00:29:44.200 --> 00:29:46.920 and he talks about all the different ways 537 00:29:46.920 --> 00:29:48.600 of being in ecstasy. 538 00:29:51.040 --> 00:29:53.520 I didn't know if you had done anything with, 539 00:29:54.480 --> 00:29:57.080 like he prays in tongues for long periods of time. 540 00:29:57.080 --> 00:30:00.240 He does the Yod-Heh-Vav-Heh. 541 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:09.240 you know he spends time he says bouncing from what makes him excited in the 542 00:30:09.240 --> 00:30:14.320 natural so like he'll talk about eating chalk and how when you really enjoy food 543 00:30:14.320 --> 00:30:20.960 or a good glass of wine that that's part of where you can use that just thank God 544 00:30:20.960 --> 00:30:26.200 and so I didn't know if you had done anything in a physical way to get into 545 00:30:26.200 --> 00:30:37.400 rest have I done anything no I'm not at least not intentionally it's I suppose I 546 00:30:37.400 --> 00:30:43.800 have but I haven't done it intentionally because I'm do it that I what it is that 547 00:30:43.800 --> 00:30:48.480 I've been doing is the way I just have learned to live life in order to live 548 00:30:48.480 --> 00:30:53.160 life in rest according to the way that God says that I have a right as a son of 549 00:30:53.160 --> 00:30:58.720 God and that is just to enjoy life to enjoy the food that I'm eating to enjoy 550 00:30:58.720 --> 00:31:05.760 the company that I'm with to and and to be very intentional about everything as 551 00:31:05.760 --> 00:31:11.760 opposed to enduring through the day and so I've just been doing the normal thing 552 00:31:11.760 --> 00:31:15.440 that I've been doing but in doing so you know I'm just at rest I'm just enjoying 553 00:31:15.440 --> 00:31:20.080 it and whatever regardless of what the outside circumstances are so in that 554 00:31:20.120 --> 00:31:24.920 aspect I have been doing things but it's the way that I just live life now and but 555 00:31:24.920 --> 00:31:30.680 yes Justin Abraham is known for one of his big messages is the fact that he is 556 00:31:30.680 --> 00:31:38.080 is joy so it makes sense that that is something that he would specifically 557 00:31:38.080 --> 00:31:42.200 talk about you know moving into like what he's referring to as ecstasy you 558 00:31:42.200 --> 00:31:46.960 know just this joy you know what is that that God has given us that we can that 559 00:31:46.960 --> 00:31:52.720 we can find joy and that we can use in order to engage with joy including food 560 00:31:52.720 --> 00:31:56.120 now which is obviously the way he's talking about and I'm just saying this 561 00:31:56.120 --> 00:31:59.960 for everybody else's sake what Justin Abraham is talking about is not in 562 00:31:59.960 --> 00:32:07.000 reference to is not stress eating very different but but where we're not using 563 00:32:07.000 --> 00:32:11.800 it as a coping mechanism but we're using it to actually fully engage with it and 564 00:32:11.800 --> 00:32:17.600 fully enjoy it's a it's a body trigger to to trigger and the emotion of joy or 565 00:32:17.600 --> 00:32:23.640 you know ecstasy or whatever so but like I said what I've just been doing is just 566 00:32:23.640 --> 00:32:29.680 knowing that my God has control of everything and regardless of who gets in 567 00:32:29.680 --> 00:32:38.400 the in in the office of the president then yeah regardless of who's in the 568 00:32:38.400 --> 00:32:44.520 office of the president the my life stays the same is in my gods is the one 569 00:32:44.520 --> 00:32:47.880 who provides for me my country doesn't provide for me the economy doesn't 570 00:32:47.880 --> 00:32:53.360 provide for me and my business doesn't provide for me or protect me or any of 571 00:32:53.360 --> 00:32:58.560 those things and so therefore it doesn't matter from that standpoint what I'm 572 00:32:58.560 --> 00:33:02.800 saying it does matter but I'm saying I'm not threatened I'm not actually in 573 00:33:02.800 --> 00:33:06.560 threat I can be triggered to feel threatened but the reality is that 574 00:33:06.720 --> 00:33:12.760 because my identity is in spirit then net I can't actually be threatened and 575 00:33:12.760 --> 00:33:18.760 so it's a constant intentional choice that I'm not under threat but the thing 576 00:33:18.760 --> 00:33:22.800 is that you know regardless of who becomes president if there will be 577 00:33:22.800 --> 00:33:28.360 events that happen due to their decisions that I can be confronted with 578 00:33:28.360 --> 00:33:35.360 and I engage with it and I respond to it and have a choice to always respond as 579 00:33:35.360 --> 00:33:41.200 the Son of God and I can be triggered to not want to respond according to the 580 00:33:41.200 --> 00:33:45.920 Son of God that to operate in fear but regardless my provision protection comes 581 00:33:45.920 --> 00:33:51.560 from the Lord so anyway there might be interesting triggers that come up based 582 00:33:51.560 --> 00:33:55.680 off of the environment and the economy that is created due to who becomes 583 00:33:55.680 --> 00:34:00.720 president but it doesn't mean that I'm actually threatened in reality so anyway 584 00:34:00.720 --> 00:34:04.280 those are those are the thoughts that been going through my head the past few 585 00:34:04.280 --> 00:34:13.719 days did that answer your question well they gave me so so for me I am working 586 00:34:13.719 --> 00:34:19.280 to see based on I'm one of those bless God Trump is supposed to be in the White 587 00:34:19.280 --> 00:34:29.040 House so whatever is go definitely not right that level of injustice wanting to 588 00:34:29.040 --> 00:34:37.199 be uncovered so I still find myself in that bill prayer busting believing God 589 00:34:37.199 --> 00:34:47.400 standing so I don't know how to combine rest yeah with action oh it's we're in 590 00:34:47.400 --> 00:34:51.520 the middle of war and so that's where yeah it's it's a very strange thing to 591 00:34:51.520 --> 00:35:01.560 be making a red intensive class ham and hearing his ecstasy and it's like 592 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:11.360 I don't want to get into a frame of mind that I'm, that I'm not really hearing God, but 593 00:35:11.360 --> 00:35:18.960 it's like my knower sense is Trump is to be president for another four years. 594 00:35:18.960 --> 00:35:23.680 I'm having a hard time accepting anything but that and staying in rest. 595 00:35:23.680 --> 00:35:24.680 Okay. 596 00:35:24.680 --> 00:35:25.680 Yeah. 597 00:35:25.680 --> 00:35:26.680 Very good point. 598 00:35:26.680 --> 00:35:27.680 Okay. 599 00:35:27.680 --> 00:35:29.280 So I'm glad you, and worded it like that. 600 00:35:29.280 --> 00:35:36.200 And so, yeah, so we do everything from a place of rest, including fight. 601 00:35:36.200 --> 00:35:38.840 So we don't have to leave rest to fight. 602 00:35:38.840 --> 00:35:39.840 We're fight in rest. 603 00:35:39.840 --> 00:35:44.160 So anything, so like you said, you know, war or anything like that is always from the place 604 00:35:44.160 --> 00:35:47.400 that, that again, we're not threatened. 605 00:35:47.400 --> 00:35:52.520 So being not threatened, what it is that we're doing is we're not wanting to, okay. 606 00:35:52.520 --> 00:35:54.800 Think of, you know, the spirit, the soul and the body. 607 00:35:54.800 --> 00:36:04.000 So if warfare is on, is on, on the soul level, if we drop down to, to the, our soul level, 608 00:36:04.000 --> 00:36:07.960 in other words, that we believe that we forget that our identity is in our spirit. 609 00:36:07.960 --> 00:36:12.280 And then we think, oh my goodness, there's a threat or whatever we can war on this level. 610 00:36:12.280 --> 00:36:17.800 The problem is that whoever knows those strategies at that level, the best, they win and it's 611 00:36:17.800 --> 00:36:18.800 just 10. 612 00:36:18.800 --> 00:36:22.800 And I'm just using that as an example is probably a lot harder than that, but it's 10 times 613 00:36:22.800 --> 00:36:26.680 harder to battle from this perspective. 614 00:36:26.680 --> 00:36:31.600 While if we realize that we're identified in the spirit, we're S we can still fight, 615 00:36:31.600 --> 00:36:36.680 but the fighting is from a place of rest is actually governing. 616 00:36:36.680 --> 00:36:40.580 So we don't ever have to leave rest in order to declare. 617 00:36:40.580 --> 00:36:46.600 So we're not praying as in like petitioning and begging and whatever we are to doing it 618 00:36:46.600 --> 00:36:48.720 from a place of rest, we're governing. 619 00:36:48.720 --> 00:36:50.440 We realized who it is that we are. 620 00:36:50.440 --> 00:36:54.880 And then when we're speak, who it is that speaking and who is that speaking as the King 621 00:36:54.880 --> 00:36:57.960 of God, who was learning from his father, how to govern. 622 00:36:57.960 --> 00:37:00.000 And therefore everything is below us. 623 00:37:00.000 --> 00:37:04.840 And we are telling it what we need, what we're, we're declaring to it, what it will do and 624 00:37:04.840 --> 00:37:09.560 what we are and guiding it as to, Hey, look, I'm here to protect you and to provide for 625 00:37:09.560 --> 00:37:17.200 you world creation, physical laws, spirit, you know, soulish laws, politics, you know, 626 00:37:17.200 --> 00:37:20.840 learning rulers, whatever, they're all below us. 627 00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:26.480 And so therefore God is teaching us to look like our father. 628 00:37:26.480 --> 00:37:29.720 And as sons, we are learning how to govern like him. 629 00:37:29.720 --> 00:37:33.980 So we're talking down to it as opposed to fighting it. 630 00:37:33.980 --> 00:37:38.800 So that's how we're able to stay in rest while still praying while still declaring while 631 00:37:38.800 --> 00:37:40.800 still whatever. 632 00:37:40.800 --> 00:37:41.800 Does that make sense? 633 00:37:41.800 --> 00:37:43.200 So we still do it. 634 00:37:43.200 --> 00:37:48.040 The only difference is our understanding where our identity is. 635 00:37:48.040 --> 00:37:55.120 So in that we're governing and talking down to it as opposed to fighting it head to head. 636 00:37:55.120 --> 00:37:56.160 I agree with that. 637 00:37:56.160 --> 00:38:02.640 I just wanted to know whether or not, because it is a, an intentional standing, not being 638 00:38:02.640 --> 00:38:10.840 moved and just, yeah, there is still more than things will be revealed and God will 639 00:38:10.840 --> 00:38:12.400 come through in the end. 640 00:38:12.600 --> 00:38:16.520 Yeah, that the hidden things will be revealed and God will come through in the end. 641 00:38:16.520 --> 00:38:17.520 Yeah. 642 00:38:17.520 --> 00:38:18.520 Yeah. 643 00:38:18.520 --> 00:38:21.960 We can still do that from, like I said, from place of rest. 644 00:38:21.960 --> 00:38:24.560 So everything that we do, we can still do actions. 645 00:38:24.560 --> 00:38:32.560 We can still have certain things, you know, you could be on a political campaign and actually 646 00:38:32.560 --> 00:38:33.680 go knocking door to door. 647 00:38:33.680 --> 00:38:38.480 I mean, you can do all kinds of the same actions as long as we understand and still just be 648 00:38:38.480 --> 00:38:39.520 in rest. 649 00:38:39.520 --> 00:38:42.000 We don't have to fight the enemy on his level. 650 00:38:42.120 --> 00:38:45.800 And I'm not, I'm not calling like one side or the other, the enemy I'm talking about 651 00:38:45.800 --> 00:38:48.920 whatever it is that we believe that we're fighting, which is always principalities and 652 00:38:48.920 --> 00:38:53.160 powers and whatever, whatever it is that somebody believes that there, that there are, and that 653 00:38:53.160 --> 00:38:56.640 they're coming against, we can come against it. 654 00:38:56.640 --> 00:39:01.400 Understanding are from exactly our position and that, and if we are always in that position, 655 00:39:01.400 --> 00:39:06.040 it's always from a place of rest because we never feel threatened, but this position is 656 00:39:06.040 --> 00:39:07.040 consistent. 657 00:39:07.040 --> 00:39:08.960 Like what you're saying, it's consistent. 658 00:39:08.960 --> 00:39:10.200 We don't move. 659 00:39:10.200 --> 00:39:11.480 It's steadfast. 660 00:39:11.480 --> 00:39:13.640 We're sure. 661 00:39:13.640 --> 00:39:19.000 Think also about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, they told, they said they were so sure when 662 00:39:19.000 --> 00:39:24.200 they stood up against Darius that they said, and by sure, I mean steadfast and where they 663 00:39:24.200 --> 00:39:28.560 were standing that they said, they said, our God will deliver us from the fire because 664 00:39:28.560 --> 00:39:30.640 they were being threatened to be thrown in the fire. 665 00:39:30.640 --> 00:39:35.200 Our God will deliver us from the fire and even if he doesn't, we still will not bound 666 00:39:35.200 --> 00:39:36.200 to your graven image. 667 00:39:36.400 --> 00:39:42.000 I mean, that steadfast consistency of, okay, Lord, I'm standing with, with where it is 668 00:39:42.000 --> 00:39:47.480 that I, with who it is that I did, that I believe that you've declared that you are, 669 00:39:47.480 --> 00:39:52.040 and I'm staying consistent in that regardless of the event, regardless of what everything 670 00:39:52.040 --> 00:39:55.840 looks like, that's trying to tell me that you're, that you are to the contrary. 671 00:39:55.840 --> 00:39:59.640 I'm saying that no matter what happens, no matter what manifests. 672 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.220 I'm staying steadfast and confident in what it is that I believe that God's character 673 00:40:04.220 --> 00:40:05.220 is. 674 00:40:05.220 --> 00:40:11.760 So, so we're, we're holding on, we're being steadfast to what it is that being steadfast 675 00:40:11.760 --> 00:40:19.980 to what God is declaring his character to be not steadfast in how his character manifests. 676 00:40:19.980 --> 00:40:25.580 Or yeah, because he always has, because Chadwick, Michonnek and Abednego were still thrown into 677 00:40:25.580 --> 00:40:26.980 the fire. 678 00:40:26.980 --> 00:40:30.460 So if they had believed, oh, God would never throw us into the fire. 679 00:40:30.460 --> 00:40:33.780 Well then when God did, it's kind of like, well, wait a minute. 680 00:40:33.780 --> 00:40:37.540 So they had to make sure that their, that their faith and their steadfastness was not 681 00:40:37.540 --> 00:40:43.340 in the manifestation, but it was in the character and that they allowed God to display his character 682 00:40:43.340 --> 00:40:44.340 however he chose. 683 00:40:44.340 --> 00:40:47.500 And he ended up displaying it in such a way that they were in the fire, but he was with 684 00:40:47.500 --> 00:40:50.780 them and they walked out without ever having it. 685 00:40:50.780 --> 00:40:55.080 There being without bearing any of the effects of having been through a fire. 686 00:40:55.180 --> 00:40:58.380 So it's just steadfastness in his character, not in the manifestation. 687 00:40:58.380 --> 00:40:59.800 And that's how we do everything from us. 688 00:40:59.800 --> 00:41:05.600 That's how we battle from rest and government from rest. 689 00:41:05.600 --> 00:41:06.600 Hopefully that answered it. 690 00:41:06.600 --> 00:41:08.600 But if not, let me know. 691 00:41:08.600 --> 00:41:09.600 Good job. 692 00:41:09.600 --> 00:41:10.600 Good job. 693 00:41:10.600 --> 00:41:13.600 So I have a question. 694 00:41:13.600 --> 00:41:16.600 I have a question. 695 00:41:16.600 --> 00:41:17.600 Yes. 696 00:41:17.600 --> 00:41:20.600 Am I echoing for you or no? 697 00:41:20.600 --> 00:41:21.600 Okay. 698 00:41:21.600 --> 00:41:22.600 Good. 699 00:41:23.120 --> 00:41:26.120 So, hi. 700 00:41:26.120 --> 00:41:28.120 Hi. 701 00:41:28.120 --> 00:41:34.320 I, I'm, I guess I feel so encouraged in the Lord in this time, even though I completely 702 00:41:34.320 --> 00:41:38.320 relate to our friend, our sister that was just sharing, I'm forgetting your name. 703 00:41:38.320 --> 00:41:39.320 Linda. 704 00:41:39.320 --> 00:41:40.320 Yeah. 705 00:41:40.320 --> 00:41:41.320 Linda. 706 00:41:41.320 --> 00:41:42.320 Linda. 707 00:41:42.320 --> 00:41:43.320 Okay. 708 00:41:43.320 --> 00:41:44.320 Yeah. 709 00:41:44.320 --> 00:41:45.320 Definitely relate just about. 710 00:41:45.320 --> 00:41:46.320 Yeah. 711 00:41:46.320 --> 00:41:50.120 Staying steadfast and, and knowing that we're in a battle, but not feeling the weight and 712 00:41:50.120 --> 00:41:54.760 anxiety of that, but also having to really stand and declare and fight in the spiritual 713 00:41:54.760 --> 00:41:57.880 realm. 714 00:41:57.880 --> 00:42:01.120 You know, to stand on truth and faith and all those things. 715 00:42:01.120 --> 00:42:07.600 So, but I feel, I feel encouraged, like, like I know that he's near and I'm not, I'm not 716 00:42:07.600 --> 00:42:08.640 watching the news. 717 00:42:08.640 --> 00:42:12.040 Not that I even normally do, but I'm not giving into all of that and the drama. 718 00:42:12.040 --> 00:42:16.800 Like I just don't, I already know it's all going to play out and it's all fake and it's 719 00:42:16.800 --> 00:42:18.480 just like games and stuff. 720 00:42:18.480 --> 00:42:20.160 And it's just not even worth my time. 721 00:42:20.160 --> 00:42:26.240 So I feel encouraged, but then I guess my questions kind of like in the daily life, 722 00:42:26.240 --> 00:42:31.720 like all this is raging out there and I, and I feel tucked away and kind of hidden, but 723 00:42:31.720 --> 00:42:37.920 then I also, I also have a ton going on in life, you know, with work and kids and various 724 00:42:37.920 --> 00:42:38.920 things. 725 00:42:38.920 --> 00:42:44.080 And some things are just waiting on the Lord's timing with a lot of the details of, of where 726 00:42:44.080 --> 00:42:48.960 my time and energy is being spent, like with my girls and their custody and different things 727 00:42:48.960 --> 00:42:57.360 legally and all this, but just in the day to day, I'm trying to calm myself to like 728 00:42:57.360 --> 00:43:03.080 care for myself and to not find myself busying myself. 729 00:43:03.080 --> 00:43:06.040 So there's a lot of myself's in there. 730 00:43:06.040 --> 00:43:12.160 Like I don't know what to do because my past and I'm finding it still, like I find myself 731 00:43:12.200 --> 00:43:21.480 busying and feeling this discontent that I don't want to feel because I'm so used to 732 00:43:21.480 --> 00:43:27.600 having to like thinking that I just need to be doing all the time or caring for other 733 00:43:27.600 --> 00:43:32.360 people and kind of that walking out of like codependency and rescuing. 734 00:43:32.360 --> 00:43:37.600 And just, I care so much for people that, and I'm so high on their like relationship 735 00:43:37.600 --> 00:43:38.600 building. 736 00:43:38.600 --> 00:43:43.800 That's like every aspect of life is relationship building that it can be difficult to just 737 00:43:43.800 --> 00:43:44.800 be still. 738 00:43:44.800 --> 00:43:49.360 And I know that's difficult for us all, but I guess my questions kind of surrounding like 739 00:43:49.360 --> 00:43:55.440 rhythms of, you know, when you're in a phase where you kind of know, you know, like, you 740 00:43:55.440 --> 00:44:01.200 know, the outcome, the victory, it's all his, and you don't even feel like you're, you're 741 00:44:01.200 --> 00:44:02.640 in the mess of it. 742 00:44:02.640 --> 00:44:06.560 Like you're sort of pulled back from all that. 743 00:44:06.560 --> 00:44:12.680 But you're trying to, to find rhythms in your daily life of like, what do I do with 744 00:44:12.680 --> 00:44:15.880 myself and how do I think more, more so? 745 00:44:15.880 --> 00:44:24.560 How do I think rightly about the slowing the the, the, the self-care, the not giving so 746 00:44:24.560 --> 00:44:34.360 much to other people and relationships and conversation and engaging in all of that relationally, 747 00:44:34.360 --> 00:44:40.840 but more you and the Lord, or just you learning to love you without having to be needed by 748 00:44:40.840 --> 00:44:43.000 someone or take care of someone. 749 00:44:43.000 --> 00:44:48.480 And as a mother, I'm always going to be doing that to some degree, but in those down times, 750 00:44:48.480 --> 00:44:56.000 you know, like what is it that causes me to feel like I need to busy, like, like I should 751 00:44:56.000 --> 00:44:57.720 be doing something right now. 752 00:44:57.720 --> 00:45:00.040 Well, a couple of different. 753 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.600 things. One of them is, sorry let me make sure no one's, okay good, I needed to make sure nobody 754 00:45:07.600 --> 00:45:13.440 was sitting in the waiting room somewhere and I missed him somewhere. So often we can begin 755 00:45:13.440 --> 00:45:25.280 to identify ourselves by our busyness, by our titles, by what it is that we do. Even if it's 756 00:45:25.280 --> 00:45:32.560 not even a title of, oh well I'm CEO of whatever. No, it's like title of mother, or title of friend, 757 00:45:33.280 --> 00:45:41.200 or title of homeworker, or homemaker, or title of you know whatever. And so some of that comes 758 00:45:41.200 --> 00:45:47.600 from that, this idea of like trying to, there's this internal thing that is so quiet we don't 759 00:45:47.600 --> 00:45:53.680 realize that we do it, but it's this sense that what it is that we do when we get up every day 760 00:45:53.680 --> 00:45:59.280 is defining who it is that we are. Otherwise we don't know who it is that we are, or we don't know 761 00:45:59.280 --> 00:46:05.280 how God, how we should expect God to interact with us, without being able to have some measure by 762 00:46:05.280 --> 00:46:16.080 which we can see, we can, in any standard by which that we can measure ourselves to understand, okay 763 00:46:16.080 --> 00:46:22.400 how can I expect God will interact with me? How can I know who it is that I am? What it is that I 764 00:46:22.400 --> 00:46:26.640 deserve? How it is I should interact with the Lord, because I'm so used to interacting with the 765 00:46:26.640 --> 00:46:32.480 Lord according to what it is that I'm doing at the time. You know, so I mean some of that can come 766 00:46:32.480 --> 00:46:37.040 from that. That may not be your situation, but that was something that I thought of. The 767 00:46:37.040 --> 00:46:45.920 other thing is that it's so often we can give God the big things. You know the court case, my children, 768 00:46:45.920 --> 00:46:52.720 my job, my whatever. We can give him all the big things and still have unrest in our daily, in our 769 00:46:52.720 --> 00:46:58.480 daily grind, in our daily living, you know in the rhythm, in our normal decisions, brushing our teeth. 770 00:46:58.480 --> 00:47:03.280 I mean I know that that might sound great, it might sound strange, but yeah when we're brushing our 771 00:47:03.280 --> 00:47:09.200 teeth, are we at rest? When we are taking a bath, when we're doing the dishes, when we're picking 772 00:47:09.200 --> 00:47:14.000 up the the glasses next to our nightstand, and taking them back into the kitchen. I mean 773 00:47:14.000 --> 00:47:18.880 whatever, like the moments, the little moments, just the constant, regardless what it is that we're 774 00:47:18.880 --> 00:47:28.640 doing, our very being, are we at rest? And if in so often we start focusing, when we want to 775 00:47:28.640 --> 00:47:34.240 shift into rest, we start focusing on all of the big things. If we're finding that we're, that we 776 00:47:34.240 --> 00:47:38.480 are, that we believe that we're at rest in the big things, but we're still struggling to find 777 00:47:38.480 --> 00:47:46.080 ourselves at rest in the little things, sometimes it means that we have, we've given God big things, 778 00:47:46.720 --> 00:47:54.880 like, and we think that by letting go of those things, that we are in rest. But if we, 779 00:47:55.760 --> 00:47:59.040 sorry I'm trying to, I know what I'm trying to say, I'm trying to figure out how to say it, 780 00:47:59.680 --> 00:48:04.560 that we need to, you know, to really truly understand what rest is, we need to move it 781 00:48:04.560 --> 00:48:10.480 to its root level and move it inward. We've moved it outward, we've moved it away from us because 782 00:48:10.480 --> 00:48:21.120 it's less, some people find it less vulnerable, because it's all out there. It's all of these 783 00:48:21.120 --> 00:48:26.160 objective things outside of me. Yes, I'm connected to, and yes, I'm emotionally attached to, but it's 784 00:48:26.160 --> 00:48:32.640 outside of me, and we have to bring that rest inward. In other words, what does God think of me? 785 00:48:33.040 --> 00:48:38.400 What does God think of me? How are he and I together when I'm just being me, and I don't have 786 00:48:38.400 --> 00:48:43.040 any place I need to be, I don't have anything I need to do, I don't have to, I don't have anything 787 00:48:43.040 --> 00:48:48.880 I'm petitioning him for, I don't have anything that I'm pressing into him for and about, 788 00:48:48.880 --> 00:48:55.680 and trying to make a decision about, etc. Who am I when I've got nothing, and is that, and is that 789 00:48:55.680 --> 00:49:01.040 enough for me? Is who I am with God and the fact that I'm enough for him, is that enough for me? 790 00:49:03.040 --> 00:49:07.520 So it's, it's, does that make sense? Sometimes people find out when they're trying to shift 791 00:49:07.520 --> 00:49:10.800 into rest, they pick all of these really big things, and they learn how to do those, 792 00:49:11.680 --> 00:49:15.840 and give those to the Lord, and that's wonderful, but if they're still struggling with, 793 00:49:15.840 --> 00:49:21.600 if they're still struggling with not being at rest, just being, it means that, that they've 794 00:49:21.600 --> 00:49:29.280 objectified the rest, you know, as these outward things, as opposed to, no, rest comes from my 795 00:49:29.280 --> 00:49:37.040 position of an understanding of who I am with the Lord, even if nothing else even existed. 796 00:49:38.080 --> 00:49:41.760 Even if I wasn't even in this world, and I was existing somewhere else, and I wasn't doing 797 00:49:41.760 --> 00:49:47.360 anything, I was just sitting out in outer space somewhere. Is me being enough for God enough for 798 00:49:47.360 --> 00:49:54.080 me? It, the rest, it, the rest has to get that vulnerable and that intimate between us and the 799 00:49:54.080 --> 00:49:59.680 Lord. So how do you do that? How do you do that? Well, it's, it's not like, 800 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.960 Are there any exercises or particular like teachings that you feel like come to mind 801 00:50:03.960 --> 00:50:04.960 when we talk about this? 802 00:50:04.960 --> 00:50:08.360 Because I totally, I mean, resonate with all the things you're saying. 803 00:50:08.360 --> 00:50:15.960 And I think it's, it's this, yeah, it's this inner unrest and, um, a lot of it. 804 00:50:15.960 --> 00:50:16.960 Yeah. 805 00:50:16.960 --> 00:50:24.160 It's like how, how, like, even like I can have, um, all throughout the day and even 806 00:50:24.160 --> 00:50:27.640 in the night hours, like these encounters with the Lord and all the time. 807 00:50:27.640 --> 00:50:33.440 And it's, and in that, in that sense, it's like the big stuff, but it's also like the 808 00:50:33.440 --> 00:50:39.840 little, you know, intimate, very intimate conversation and, and time with him, like 809 00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:40.840 all the time. 810 00:50:40.840 --> 00:50:45.760 And yet, how can I still have unrest, even though I'm experiencing that all, like, I, 811 00:50:45.760 --> 00:50:53.160 I don't, doesn't make sense to me that I'm so like deep in him and so connected to him 812 00:50:53.160 --> 00:50:55.840 in a way that I had not been in the past. 813 00:50:55.840 --> 00:51:01.040 And yet in the practical, like you were saying, like in the little moments, somehow there's 814 00:51:01.040 --> 00:51:10.920 a disconnect and so like here I'm like in this very same moment that I'm having, which 815 00:51:10.920 --> 00:51:17.320 is like I said, so often that I'm having these, these times with him and, and conversation 816 00:51:17.320 --> 00:51:22.560 and he's sharing things with me and we're, you know, talking and I'm feeling his heart 817 00:51:22.560 --> 00:51:25.560 and I'm seeing things and visions and hearing his voice. 818 00:51:25.560 --> 00:51:30.680 I mean, and like, how can there be in the very flip side of that second, like some kind 819 00:51:30.680 --> 00:51:35.600 of, of unrest or just in the practical things that I'm doing, this sense of like anxiety 820 00:51:35.600 --> 00:51:37.240 is almost like being outside your body. 821 00:51:37.240 --> 00:51:41.440 Like I don't know how to quite explain it, but I know a lot of it, you know, even comes 822 00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:45.320 from like the trauma and stuff that we can hold onto in our body, not even realize we're 823 00:51:45.320 --> 00:51:50.480 not breathing or we're not taking drinking water and taking care of ourselves and our 824 00:51:50.480 --> 00:51:51.480 body. 825 00:51:51.480 --> 00:51:52.480 Okay. 826 00:51:52.480 --> 00:52:00.040 So I think of it kind of like this with a, in a healthy relationship between a husband 827 00:52:00.040 --> 00:52:04.440 and wife, because that's really what it is between us and the Lord is where we can go 828 00:52:04.440 --> 00:52:08.760 through all the motions of, well, honey, I do all this for you. 829 00:52:08.760 --> 00:52:12.720 You know, I do this for you and I take care of you and I, and I, you know, take care of 830 00:52:12.720 --> 00:52:16.520 you, you know, when you're sick and I, and I'm providing for you and I spend time with 831 00:52:16.520 --> 00:52:21.000 you and I tell you that I love you and I cuddle with you and I, you know, and I touch you 832 00:52:21.000 --> 00:52:23.640 and I do this and I do that, you know, all of these things. 833 00:52:23.640 --> 00:52:30.280 But if we're not making ourselves emotionally vulnerable to someone else, I, a husband or 834 00:52:30.280 --> 00:52:32.560 a wife can still struggle with pornography. 835 00:52:32.560 --> 00:52:34.000 Why? 836 00:52:34.000 --> 00:52:41.240 Because they are not making themselves emotionally vulnerable with their, with their lover. 837 00:52:41.240 --> 00:52:43.940 They're making themselves physically vulnerable. 838 00:52:43.940 --> 00:52:45.880 You know, they're going through all of the acts. 839 00:52:45.880 --> 00:52:49.240 They are doing everything that it is that they're supposed to do in order to provide 840 00:52:49.240 --> 00:52:52.600 in order to love, in order to love on, in order to be effective, you know, affectionate 841 00:52:52.600 --> 00:52:56.520 in order to whatever, but internally they, if they're still struggling and I'm using 842 00:52:56.520 --> 00:53:00.400 this example, if they're still struggling with pornography, it means that they are not 843 00:53:00.400 --> 00:53:02.960 being, and this is a married person. 844 00:53:02.960 --> 00:53:03.960 They're making it. 845 00:53:03.960 --> 00:53:09.760 They're not making themselves emotionally vulnerable to someone else because there's 846 00:53:09.760 --> 00:53:12.800 still an aspect internally that they're withholding from themselves. 847 00:53:12.800 --> 00:53:17.200 I mean, sorry, that they're withholding from their, from their spouse. 848 00:53:17.200 --> 00:53:18.520 Is that kind of a thing? 849 00:53:18.520 --> 00:53:22.160 It's like, we're looking at all this stuff we're going, well, it just, it makes sense. 850 00:53:22.160 --> 00:53:24.360 I mean, you know, everything's there. 851 00:53:24.360 --> 00:53:28.080 I mean, all the physical intimacy is there, you know, Lord, I'm spending time with you 852 00:53:28.080 --> 00:53:32.120 and, and I'm doing this and you're talking to me and, and you're revealing yourself to 853 00:53:32.120 --> 00:53:35.880 me and you don't, and there are so many other people who tell me that they wish that they 854 00:53:35.880 --> 00:53:41.120 had the type of intimate relationship and conversations that you and I have. 855 00:53:41.120 --> 00:53:43.760 And yet I'm still in unrest. 856 00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:46.680 There's an element in which we don't feel safe with the Lord and we're not making ourselves 857 00:53:46.680 --> 00:53:49.080 emotionally emotionally vulnerable. 858 00:53:49.080 --> 00:53:53.440 And it's that emotional vulnerability and that connection and that intimacy that we 859 00:53:53.440 --> 00:53:56.920 abide in the Lord and that we shift into rest. 860 00:53:56.920 --> 00:54:04.840 So, so everything can, we, everything can look like, Hey, look, all of this adds up. 861 00:54:04.840 --> 00:54:10.960 It should, it should equal this, but, but there's some element in which we're still 862 00:54:10.960 --> 00:54:15.000 creating a we're still resisting. 863 00:54:15.000 --> 00:54:20.520 And so, you know, you asked, you know, what, what teachings that I do on this and whatever 864 00:54:20.520 --> 00:54:22.520 is all throughout the rest intensive. 865 00:54:22.520 --> 00:54:29.280 I recommend that, that you go back and look at some that maybe, you know, you can start 866 00:54:29.280 --> 00:54:32.880 all the way at the beginning, or you can just pick certain ones that, you know, just jump 867 00:54:32.880 --> 00:54:39.080 out at you, whatever, but now look at it from a totally different layer when you go back. 868 00:54:39.080 --> 00:54:46.040 So, so any, any one of you, if you, if you watch them and you now go back and you re-watch 869 00:54:46.040 --> 00:54:49.840 them, I guarantee you, you're going to, you're going to find things that you didn't, you're 870 00:54:49.840 --> 00:54:56.280 going to find a lot of things that you didn't hear before, because now you're building on 871 00:54:56.280 --> 00:54:57.280 another layer. 872 00:54:57.280 --> 00:54:59.960 So you see before, when you watch them. 873 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.120 So many of you, not all of you, 874 00:55:01.120 --> 00:55:02.760 but so many of you had nothing. 875 00:55:02.760 --> 00:55:03.600 You're like, oh my goodness, 876 00:55:03.600 --> 00:55:05.520 this is the first time I've ever heard anything like this. 877 00:55:05.520 --> 00:55:07.320 So it's just, oh my goodness, this is revolutionary, 878 00:55:07.320 --> 00:55:08.160 you know, whatever. 879 00:55:08.160 --> 00:55:10.720 And some of you maybe even watched it multiple times 880 00:55:10.720 --> 00:55:14.360 in a row, but you hadn't learned to live it out yet. 881 00:55:14.360 --> 00:55:16.120 So now that you've been walking it out 882 00:55:16.120 --> 00:55:17.600 and now that you've internalized it, 883 00:55:17.600 --> 00:55:20.080 now that you've owned it and made it your own, 884 00:55:20.080 --> 00:55:22.160 now, if you go back and rewatch them, 885 00:55:22.160 --> 00:55:25.680 now you're at a different maturity level with the Lord 886 00:55:25.680 --> 00:55:27.200 in your relationship with the Lord, 887 00:55:27.200 --> 00:55:29.400 a connection and intimacy with him. 888 00:55:29.400 --> 00:55:30.840 And now, so that now, 889 00:55:30.840 --> 00:55:34.880 if you were to rewatch some of those same teachings, 890 00:55:34.880 --> 00:55:37.440 you'll hear things that you think, oh my word, 891 00:55:37.440 --> 00:55:40.920 I now, I didn't, I thought that I understood that last time. 892 00:55:40.920 --> 00:55:43.360 I thought that I understood that three or four months ago, 893 00:55:43.360 --> 00:55:46.200 but now having been walking this thing out for four months, 894 00:55:46.200 --> 00:55:49.040 I now see this one line that she's, that she had, 895 00:55:49.040 --> 00:55:51.080 that she said, or this principle, 896 00:55:51.080 --> 00:55:53.000 or the Lord's just revealing something to me 897 00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:55.800 while Ashley's talking that Ashley's not even saying, 898 00:55:55.800 --> 00:55:58.480 you know, that I didn't see before. 899 00:55:58.520 --> 00:56:01.360 So, and because you're now seeing at a deeper level, 900 00:56:01.360 --> 00:56:04.320 you're now able to glean more because your mind isn't, 901 00:56:05.600 --> 00:56:10.120 because you're building precept upon precept. 902 00:56:10.120 --> 00:56:12.600 So if you go even all the way back to the beginning, 903 00:56:12.600 --> 00:56:14.920 the very first one, and I talk about the love of the Lord, 904 00:56:14.920 --> 00:56:16.400 you know, the love affair. 905 00:56:16.400 --> 00:56:17.240 Yeah. 906 00:56:17.240 --> 00:56:20.200 It's, we're not even talking about rest yet. 907 00:56:20.200 --> 00:56:21.800 It's where all of rest comes from, 908 00:56:21.800 --> 00:56:25.120 which is just sitting with the Lord and are we enough? 909 00:56:26.440 --> 00:56:28.320 Do we allow ourselves to be enough? 910 00:56:29.160 --> 00:56:30.200 When we're just being with the Lord, 911 00:56:30.200 --> 00:56:31.240 we're not giving him anything. 912 00:56:31.240 --> 00:56:32.080 We're not doing anything. 913 00:56:32.080 --> 00:56:33.440 We're not, we even remember 914 00:56:33.440 --> 00:56:35.920 that we're not even obligated to love him back. 915 00:56:35.920 --> 00:56:38.600 So now that we know that God doesn't even make us obligated 916 00:56:38.600 --> 00:56:41.760 to love him back, how do we feel about him? 917 00:56:41.760 --> 00:56:43.080 What do we want to give to him? 918 00:56:43.080 --> 00:56:44.440 How do we want to sit with him? 919 00:56:44.440 --> 00:56:45.880 How do we want to just be with him? 920 00:56:45.880 --> 00:56:47.200 And then at the very end of that, 921 00:56:47.200 --> 00:56:50.000 when I talk about an exercise that where we can just, 922 00:56:50.000 --> 00:56:52.400 where we can just imagine the Lord just gazing at us, 923 00:56:52.400 --> 00:56:53.520 looking at us. 924 00:56:53.520 --> 00:56:55.280 And so now all of these months later, 925 00:56:55.280 --> 00:56:57.760 if you were to go through the exercise and just sit there 926 00:56:58.120 --> 00:57:00.760 and just like, okay, I'm gonna let God look at me 927 00:57:00.760 --> 00:57:03.520 and then I'm not gonna break eye contact. 928 00:57:03.520 --> 00:57:05.840 I'm gonna sit there for five minutes, 15, whatever. 929 00:57:05.840 --> 00:57:07.440 I'm not gonna break eye contact. 930 00:57:08.480 --> 00:57:12.400 And I'm also not gonna love him back 931 00:57:12.400 --> 00:57:14.920 because that's another way in which we try to disrupt 932 00:57:14.920 --> 00:57:16.640 what it is that we're feeling 933 00:57:16.640 --> 00:57:20.840 because we get too much of a, 934 00:57:20.840 --> 00:57:24.400 we can feel so overwhelmed and undeserving 935 00:57:24.400 --> 00:57:27.200 that we try to relieve ourselves of the pressure 936 00:57:27.640 --> 00:57:29.360 and the uncomfortableness and we try to love him back 937 00:57:29.360 --> 00:57:31.360 in order to give ourselves a bit of relief. 938 00:57:31.360 --> 00:57:33.960 So if we just allow ourselves to sit there with it. 939 00:57:35.640 --> 00:57:38.360 Anyway, so if you were to go back into those sessions 940 00:57:38.360 --> 00:57:40.680 but now see them from a, 941 00:57:40.680 --> 00:57:43.400 but now look at it from a very internal perspective, 942 00:57:43.400 --> 00:57:47.000 as opposed to how do I experience rest in the court case? 943 00:57:47.000 --> 00:57:50.880 How do I experience rest in relationship with my children? 944 00:57:50.880 --> 00:57:52.480 How do I experience rest and whatever? 945 00:57:52.480 --> 00:57:54.440 No, no, no, just you and God. 946 00:57:54.480 --> 00:57:57.240 And then go back, it's the exact same principle. 947 00:57:57.240 --> 00:58:00.760 You're just taking it to a level and a depth 948 00:58:00.760 --> 00:58:03.200 that maybe you didn't the first time. 949 00:58:03.200 --> 00:58:04.760 And I'm not saying this about you. 950 00:58:04.760 --> 00:58:07.960 I'm just saying that you can take that idea 951 00:58:07.960 --> 00:58:10.720 and find does that actually fit 952 00:58:10.720 --> 00:58:12.880 in what you're experiencing with the Lord? 953 00:58:12.880 --> 00:58:15.320 And you can choose to take it where you want to. 954 00:58:15.320 --> 00:58:18.400 So I'm not saying, well, this is what's going on. 955 00:58:19.360 --> 00:58:24.360 But I'm just saying that this principle of rest 956 00:58:25.160 --> 00:58:27.560 is a multi-level principle. 957 00:58:27.560 --> 00:58:29.560 And so it's not just like, oh, once we get it, 958 00:58:29.560 --> 00:58:31.760 we get all this or whatever. 959 00:58:31.760 --> 00:58:35.840 There's all of these records that we built up in our life 960 00:58:35.840 --> 00:58:37.840 and all of these lies that we believed 961 00:58:37.840 --> 00:58:40.000 and we're going and we're hitting them 962 00:58:40.000 --> 00:58:42.080 at deeper and deeper levels. 963 00:58:42.080 --> 00:58:45.960 And so now it's a new level, it's a new measure. 964 00:58:45.960 --> 00:58:48.280 You're learning to operate in rest 965 00:58:48.280 --> 00:58:52.360 in a greater measure than you were a few months ago. 966 00:58:52.360 --> 00:58:54.240 We're all doing that. 967 00:58:55.000 --> 00:58:57.160 So it's the same information. 968 00:58:57.160 --> 00:59:00.360 You're just receiving it at a totally different level. 969 00:59:00.360 --> 00:59:02.680 So it actually looks different. 970 00:59:02.680 --> 00:59:06.080 And we think, okay, so I know how to do the rest, 971 00:59:06.080 --> 00:59:08.320 but how do I do this other same thing? 972 00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:11.440 Just at a new level. 973 00:59:11.440 --> 00:59:13.000 So, but it looks different 974 00:59:13.000 --> 00:59:14.840 and it feels different on the outside. 975 00:59:14.840 --> 00:59:16.520 And then we actually do it and we're like, 976 00:59:16.520 --> 00:59:19.360 oh, that's the exact same thing I did with all the others, 977 00:59:19.360 --> 00:59:21.920 but on the outside, I couldn't recognize it. 978 00:59:21.920 --> 00:59:23.000 Does that make sense? 979 00:59:23.040 --> 00:59:24.560 Yeah, it makes a lot of sense. 980 00:59:24.560 --> 00:59:25.440 Yeah, definitely. 981 00:59:25.440 --> 00:59:27.080 And I agree with going back. 982 00:59:27.080 --> 00:59:31.360 And I think that as you're talking, 983 00:59:31.360 --> 00:59:33.840 it's making sense that like, 984 00:59:33.840 --> 00:59:38.440 even though I have all this intimacy with him, 985 00:59:38.440 --> 00:59:41.840 it's, there's some sort of like struggle 986 00:59:41.840 --> 00:59:45.720 for me ever in rest to receive, just purely receive. 987 00:59:45.720 --> 00:59:50.280 And so if I think about all of my times with him 988 00:59:50.280 --> 00:59:51.920 throughout the day and night, 989 00:59:51.920 --> 00:59:55.680 there's still some level of response from me, 990 00:59:55.680 --> 00:59:59.280 or like he moves me and touches me all the time. 991 00:59:59.280 --> 01:00:00.120 So I can't. 992 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.880 pulp, but like respond like intellectually, emotionally, 993 01:00:04.880 --> 01:00:08.480 deeply in every way, like physically on all levels. 994 01:00:09.920 --> 01:00:12.640 And so that is like a very, like, it's very intimate. 995 01:00:12.640 --> 01:00:15.960 And I feel like I know him because I am hearing from him 996 01:00:15.960 --> 01:00:18.120 and I am talking to him all the time. 997 01:00:18.120 --> 01:00:22.400 And yet there's something different about the posture 998 01:00:22.400 --> 01:00:27.400 of just purely receiving and going to him 999 01:00:27.680 --> 01:00:32.680 with sort of that extra vulnerable, you know, 1000 01:00:34.300 --> 01:00:35.140 stance of letting- 1001 01:00:35.140 --> 01:00:35.960 Vulnerability. 1002 01:00:35.960 --> 01:00:36.800 You've got nothing to give. 1003 01:00:36.800 --> 01:00:40.520 You don't let yourself give. 1004 01:00:40.520 --> 01:00:41.360 Yeah. 1005 01:00:41.360 --> 01:00:42.800 And then the other piece of that is again, 1006 01:00:42.800 --> 01:00:46.800 in the practical, so here's like where I see a bit 1007 01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:51.680 of the cycle, which I feel like is the breakout 1008 01:00:51.680 --> 01:00:56.680 into true rest is that life is so busy 1009 01:00:57.240 --> 01:00:59.680 and there are all these practical things needing done. 1010 01:00:59.680 --> 01:01:04.680 And so it's almost like, what are some 1011 01:01:05.480 --> 01:01:07.760 of the parameters I'm thinking like that I can set 1012 01:01:07.760 --> 01:01:12.280 for myself to protect that time of not giving, 1013 01:01:13.440 --> 01:01:16.200 like being alone with him, but yet another level 1014 01:01:16.200 --> 01:01:18.440 of being alone with him where there's not distraction. 1015 01:01:18.440 --> 01:01:21.920 Like maybe there are things that, you know, 1016 01:01:21.920 --> 01:01:24.200 maybe it's because like, for instance, 1017 01:01:24.200 --> 01:01:26.480 I'm reading a book called Solitude and Silence 1018 01:01:27.280 --> 01:01:28.520 and she talks a lot about like how difficult it is 1019 01:01:28.520 --> 01:01:30.840 to actually be alone. 1020 01:01:30.840 --> 01:01:34.440 Like your phone is off or not, no worship music's playing. 1021 01:01:34.440 --> 01:01:37.960 Like there aren't, you're not multitasking in any way. 1022 01:01:37.960 --> 01:01:39.800 And there's no agenda, you know, 1023 01:01:39.800 --> 01:01:43.120 like these different things that when it really comes 1024 01:01:43.120 --> 01:01:46.840 to yeah, being alone and quiet with the Lord 1025 01:01:46.840 --> 01:01:48.720 and not having any agenda. 1026 01:01:48.720 --> 01:01:50.480 And I feel like that's so foreign 1027 01:01:50.480 --> 01:01:53.720 that I almost have to create that for myself 1028 01:01:53.720 --> 01:01:55.400 because otherwise it won't happen. 1029 01:01:55.440 --> 01:01:58.960 Like it won't come to me, you know what I mean? 1030 01:01:58.960 --> 01:02:01.040 Like I know myself after 35 years, 1031 01:02:01.040 --> 01:02:04.200 like that's never been like even just 1032 01:02:04.200 --> 01:02:05.640 like I have no context for it. 1033 01:02:05.640 --> 01:02:08.560 And I've struggled so much to even know what rest even is 1034 01:02:08.560 --> 01:02:11.200 or have any permission to rest. 1035 01:02:11.200 --> 01:02:12.600 So I almost feel like I have to create, 1036 01:02:12.600 --> 01:02:13.560 I don't know if that's making sense, 1037 01:02:13.560 --> 01:02:16.600 but like where otherwise it's gonna get filled up 1038 01:02:16.600 --> 01:02:19.240 with other stuff or it's gonna be like a multitasking 1039 01:02:19.240 --> 01:02:20.800 even in my worship time with the Lord. 1040 01:02:20.800 --> 01:02:24.720 Like it's gonna be like, I'm such a music person 1041 01:02:24.720 --> 01:02:27.080 that I'm typically, I've got music playing or whatever. 1042 01:02:27.080 --> 01:02:30.160 And that's not bad, but it just maybe doesn't allow 1043 01:02:30.160 --> 01:02:32.560 for some of this quiet that I'm talking about 1044 01:02:32.560 --> 01:02:34.880 where he can get to some of those places 1045 01:02:34.880 --> 01:02:39.880 that I'm not totally feeling safe or vulnerable or not. 1046 01:02:40.000 --> 01:02:41.560 I'm just not going there. 1047 01:02:41.560 --> 01:02:43.640 And I don't know how to cultivate that 1048 01:02:44.680 --> 01:02:46.480 except for like that exercise that you're talking about, 1049 01:02:46.480 --> 01:02:49.120 like starting with, you know, with those kinds of things. 1050 01:02:49.120 --> 01:02:50.760 Is that what it is? 1051 01:02:50.760 --> 01:02:51.960 Like, is there anything that you can say, 1052 01:02:51.960 --> 01:02:56.080 okay, for the season, I'm not going to do other things. 1053 01:02:56.080 --> 01:02:58.440 I'm gonna give myself permission. 1054 01:02:58.440 --> 01:02:59.760 Like, how do you give yourself permission 1055 01:02:59.760 --> 01:03:01.120 to just spend time doing nothing? 1056 01:03:01.120 --> 01:03:03.000 Like spend time, do you know what I mean? 1057 01:03:03.000 --> 01:03:05.160 Is that look like, I know it's different for everybody, 1058 01:03:05.160 --> 01:03:07.120 but when you work full time and you've got, you know, 1059 01:03:07.120 --> 01:03:10.360 your mother and a friend and these different things 1060 01:03:10.360 --> 01:03:11.200 are going on in the world 1061 01:03:11.200 --> 01:03:12.320 and you gotta do practical things, 1062 01:03:12.320 --> 01:03:16.600 like how do you, I guess, set that time aside 1063 01:03:16.600 --> 01:03:19.600 when it's not, it's completely unfamiliar 1064 01:03:19.600 --> 01:03:22.480 and you want it to become a regular thing? 1065 01:03:22.480 --> 01:03:24.920 Like, is there a way to block out time 1066 01:03:24.920 --> 01:03:27.960 or tell yourself like for the season 1067 01:03:27.960 --> 01:03:30.160 as I'm shifting into rest, blah, blah, blah, blah, 1068 01:03:30.160 --> 01:03:31.000 I don't know. 1069 01:03:31.840 --> 01:03:36.160 Yeah, well, so there's a couple of different things. 1070 01:03:36.160 --> 01:03:39.200 First of all, wow, there's three different things. 1071 01:03:39.200 --> 01:03:40.200 First of all, as far as like, 1072 01:03:40.200 --> 01:03:42.120 how do you give yourself permission? 1073 01:03:42.120 --> 01:03:43.600 You just give it. 1074 01:03:43.600 --> 01:03:48.600 So in other words, you be the parent 1075 01:03:48.760 --> 01:03:50.040 that you've always wanted. 1076 01:03:52.200 --> 01:03:54.000 Susan says she puts it in her calendar. 1077 01:03:54.000 --> 01:03:54.840 Oh, very good. 1078 01:03:54.840 --> 01:03:58.280 So she sets it aside for some time. 1079 01:03:58.280 --> 01:04:01.160 Yeah, I know, yeah, several people do that. 1080 01:04:01.160 --> 01:04:02.560 They, I say several people, 1081 01:04:02.560 --> 01:04:03.800 I didn't know about the rest intensive, 1082 01:04:03.800 --> 01:04:05.240 but you know, different people that I've talked to, 1083 01:04:05.240 --> 01:04:07.840 you know, they put it in their calendar 1084 01:04:07.840 --> 01:04:10.840 and you can just set aside like five minutes here, there, 1085 01:04:10.840 --> 01:04:13.720 and just, you know, just suddenly stop 1086 01:04:13.720 --> 01:04:15.760 if you need a break from something. 1087 01:04:15.760 --> 01:04:18.280 If you're writing, if you've been, I don't know, 1088 01:04:18.960 --> 01:04:21.240 you've been cleaning for the past two hours, I don't know. 1089 01:04:21.240 --> 01:04:22.680 And you just like, okay, you know what? 1090 01:04:22.680 --> 01:04:24.080 I'm going to give myself a five minute break. 1091 01:04:24.080 --> 01:04:26.560 I'm going to give myself a 15 minute break or whatever 1092 01:04:26.560 --> 01:04:29.280 and set an alarm and then just do it. 1093 01:04:29.280 --> 01:04:30.800 And just like, you know, that, 1094 01:04:30.800 --> 01:04:32.040 and create a bubble for yourself 1095 01:04:32.040 --> 01:04:35.080 and just determine I'm choosing, 1096 01:04:35.080 --> 01:04:37.040 like as if you're a parent to yourself. 1097 01:04:37.040 --> 01:04:38.680 This is what I'm telling myself to do. 1098 01:04:38.680 --> 01:04:39.720 And this is what I'm going to do. 1099 01:04:39.720 --> 01:04:41.560 I know I'm not going to do anything else. 1100 01:04:41.560 --> 01:04:43.600 Give yourself and do it in such a way 1101 01:04:43.600 --> 01:04:44.600 where you're telling your, 1102 01:04:44.600 --> 01:04:47.760 where you are intentionally giving yourself permission. 1103 01:04:48.360 --> 01:04:51.520 Like I said, if you think of it kind of like a parent, 1104 01:04:51.520 --> 01:04:52.640 you're giving it, 1105 01:04:52.640 --> 01:04:54.840 well then think of yourself like a child 1106 01:04:54.840 --> 01:04:56.560 and say, yes, ma'am, and do it. 1107 01:04:57.640 --> 01:05:00.120 These are tricks that you can use. 1108 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.040 is kind of with with your soul. And so sometimes that works with 1109 01:05:06.040 --> 01:05:09.160 people if they understand, hey, I'm a parent telling myself to 1110 01:05:09.160 --> 01:05:13.480 do this, I'm a parent, being for myself something that I've 1111 01:05:13.480 --> 01:05:17.480 always needed, and not ever received, be that be the parent 1112 01:05:17.480 --> 01:05:21.200 you always wished you had. And because what we're doing is 1113 01:05:21.200 --> 01:05:24.840 we're raising our own parents. We're raising a parent that we 1114 01:05:24.840 --> 01:05:29.720 wish that we have in our within ourselves. And then, so kind of 1115 01:05:29.720 --> 01:05:32.480 like your spirit, your spiritual parent of your of your soul, 1116 01:05:32.480 --> 01:05:36.720 you can kind of think of it that way. And let's see the other 1117 01:05:36.720 --> 01:05:39.760 thing that I was going to say, well, one of them I've already 1118 01:05:39.760 --> 01:05:42.040 said, you know, you can just kind of set aside times like, 1119 01:05:42.240 --> 01:05:45.000 oh, I'm just gonna do five minutes and set an alarm. 15 1120 01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:48.280 minutes to the line. That's what I used to do. And here's and 1121 01:05:48.280 --> 01:05:51.400 then this, this is the third thing that is very, very 1122 01:05:51.400 --> 01:05:56.760 important to realize that you those the things that I 1123 01:05:56.760 --> 01:06:00.520 mentioned, those are tips and tricks you can use to kind of 1124 01:06:00.520 --> 01:06:03.880 leverage your soul, they're, they're tools that your soul 1125 01:06:03.960 --> 01:06:08.560 that you can use to kind of like, they're almost like 1126 01:06:08.560 --> 01:06:12.040 crutches for your soul to help kind of like, give your soul a 1127 01:06:12.040 --> 01:06:16.440 bit of a bit of leverage, you know, a bit of a push. But it's 1128 01:06:16.440 --> 01:06:20.120 very important also that you under that we receive for 1129 01:06:20.120 --> 01:06:25.800 ourselves, if God says that I have a right to rest, then I'm 1130 01:06:25.800 --> 01:06:31.640 going to choose for myself, that I have a right to rest. In 1131 01:06:31.640 --> 01:06:34.720 other words, not rest is and not do anything. I mean, rest is in 1132 01:06:34.720 --> 01:06:39.880 like shift into rest, then. And, and so I would what I what 1133 01:06:39.880 --> 01:06:45.680 helped me the most, honestly, is that I, well, one of the things 1134 01:06:45.680 --> 01:06:48.400 are several things, but one of the things that helped me the 1135 01:06:48.400 --> 01:06:52.320 most in shifting into rest and just my daily life is that I 1136 01:06:52.320 --> 01:06:56.520 would go about my daily life. And I would constantly shift 1137 01:06:56.520 --> 01:07:00.280 into rest while I was working. While I while I was in the 1138 01:07:00.280 --> 01:07:04.120 middle of like, setting up doing something in Facebook, while I 1139 01:07:04.120 --> 01:07:07.600 was in the middle of talking to people while I was in the middle 1140 01:07:07.640 --> 01:07:11.920 of doing the dishes while I was in the middle of running errands. 1141 01:07:12.360 --> 01:07:16.920 Because this was a lifestyle I was choosing. It was a way of 1142 01:07:16.920 --> 01:07:19.880 interact, it was a way of positioning myself in my 1143 01:07:19.880 --> 01:07:27.160 relationship with the Lord. It was not a, it was not something 1144 01:07:27.160 --> 01:07:31.840 that I was using out of heaven, so that I can live life a 1145 01:07:31.840 --> 01:07:37.120 particular way. This was my the way this I was giving up life in 1146 01:07:37.120 --> 01:07:41.280 order to choose this life. So it wasn't something that I was 1147 01:07:41.280 --> 01:07:46.000 using to help me live this life more easily. That was a very 1148 01:07:46.000 --> 01:07:49.760 major shift. And so because of that, that was my first 1149 01:07:49.760 --> 01:07:53.520 priority. So I would do all of the other activities, I would, I 1150 01:07:53.520 --> 01:07:56.080 would make my bed, I would do the dishes, I would run my 1151 01:07:56.080 --> 01:07:59.200 errands, I would be in the I would work, I would be making 1152 01:07:59.200 --> 01:08:03.400 decisions about in research things and making phone calls to 1153 01:08:03.400 --> 01:08:05.640 people and doing marketing research or whatever it was that 1154 01:08:05.640 --> 01:08:09.520 I was doing at the time. And, and whenever I felt myself out 1155 01:08:09.520 --> 01:08:13.280 of rest, I'd stop for a second. And I remind myself who it is 1156 01:08:13.280 --> 01:08:15.600 that God says that I am and we're talking like within like 1157 01:08:15.600 --> 01:08:19.080 60 seconds, 120 seconds, depending on the day about how 1158 01:08:19.120 --> 01:08:23.319 how hard it was for me to for me to choose it. But I would just 1159 01:08:23.319 --> 01:08:26.080 stop. And then I would do it and then I would and then I would 1160 01:08:26.080 --> 01:08:29.600 keep going. And then and then after about I don't know, like 1161 01:08:29.600 --> 01:08:33.640 half an hour, an hour later, I find myself out of rest again. 1162 01:08:33.640 --> 01:08:38.439 I'm like, Nope, I am who God says that I am. And I and I 1163 01:08:38.439 --> 01:08:41.160 shifted rest and again, 60 seconds and then I would go 1164 01:08:41.319 --> 01:08:45.000 because I was choosing that was the life I was choosing. I was 1165 01:08:45.000 --> 01:08:50.279 choosing my God. And then the heck with however, however, 1166 01:08:50.760 --> 01:08:55.359 however, it chose to affect my life. I chose this first, I 1167 01:08:55.359 --> 01:08:59.840 would just keep doing these things. But this is what I 1168 01:08:59.840 --> 01:09:05.080 chose. And I would allow this to go to heck. You know, based off 1169 01:09:05.080 --> 01:09:07.560 of however, this was going to affect it, but I was choosing 1170 01:09:07.560 --> 01:09:13.359 this. That's what I sacrificed this. But I didn't stop doing 1171 01:09:13.359 --> 01:09:17.680 it. Does that make sense? Yeah, that makes so much sense. Yeah, 1172 01:09:17.680 --> 01:09:21.359 that's a huge shift. Yeah, I wasn't shifting. And yeah, I 1173 01:09:21.359 --> 01:09:23.520 wasn't shifting into rest because oh, you know what, I 1174 01:09:23.520 --> 01:09:27.560 bet it'll help me live this life easier. And there's so many 1175 01:09:27.560 --> 01:09:29.880 other there's so many people, you know, so many things that we 1176 01:09:29.880 --> 01:09:32.920 do that we're trying to glean stuff from the past. Oh, what's 1177 01:09:32.920 --> 01:09:35.680 he saying? Okay, how can that help me do this? How can that 1178 01:09:35.680 --> 01:09:39.279 make it this easier? How can it help? How can it help my 1179 01:09:39.279 --> 01:09:43.120 relationships be the way I want them to be? How can it help? Is 1180 01:09:43.160 --> 01:09:47.200 if I'm like, trying to use them, take all of these precious 1181 01:09:47.200 --> 01:09:52.600 things of God's character. And, and, and kind of try to 1182 01:09:52.600 --> 01:09:55.840 separate them from him and try to figure out how can I use them 1183 01:09:55.840 --> 01:09:59.880 for my own for my own desires? I 1184 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.560 chose him in that I was just in I was going to let it affect my 1185 01:10:04.560 --> 01:10:09.200 life, however, it however it was going to affect it. But I chose 1186 01:10:09.200 --> 01:10:10.920 this I chose that relationship with them. 1187 01:10:13.840 --> 01:10:15.480 I should probably explain that in it. 1188 01:10:16.800 --> 01:10:17.400 And it's teaching. 1189 01:10:17.480 --> 01:10:18.000 Oh, good. 1190 01:10:21.160 --> 01:10:22.280 What do you say in a video? 1191 01:10:24.040 --> 01:10:26.360 Yeah, I'm now realizing you should probably 1192 01:10:27.400 --> 01:10:28.240 that's a great one. 1193 01:10:29.160 --> 01:10:29.760 recommend. 1194 01:10:30.000 --> 01:10:34.240 Yeah, because I don't. I know I've explained it before. But I 1195 01:10:34.240 --> 01:10:37.200 don't think that I think that it was a little too foundational 1196 01:10:37.200 --> 01:10:39.320 to like, and 1197 01:10:42.200 --> 01:10:45.720 that I'm surprised that I haven't stopped and actually said 1198 01:10:45.720 --> 01:10:48.520 it. But anyway, there's so many things that I did, because 1199 01:10:48.520 --> 01:10:51.600 understand, I was very, very desperate, very desperate. And I 1200 01:10:51.600 --> 01:10:54.560 put everything on the line for it. And sometimes I don't fully 1201 01:10:54.560 --> 01:10:57.760 realize until I'm talking, trying to answer somebody about 1202 01:10:57.800 --> 01:11:01.320 what it is that I did. And I'm like, Oh, wow, I was that 1203 01:11:01.320 --> 01:11:04.440 desperate that that's actually what I did. You know, I chose, 1204 01:11:05.120 --> 01:11:07.960 you know, I risked everything, I didn't know how it was gonna 1205 01:11:07.960 --> 01:11:11.760 affect it. And I just let it. I let it just play out however it 1206 01:11:11.760 --> 01:11:17.240 was going to play out. Even if I didn't like the outcome. Yeah, 1207 01:11:17.960 --> 01:11:21.000 I chose my God because of who my God was not because he was 1208 01:11:21.000 --> 01:11:23.440 going to make my life easier and help me live it the way I wanted 1209 01:11:23.440 --> 01:11:28.320 it to be. I gave up my life and how I wanted it to be in order 1210 01:11:28.320 --> 01:11:31.440 to choose him and however he was going to be. I didn't know what 1211 01:11:31.440 --> 01:11:33.840 I was going to discover that he was, I'm just going to let him 1212 01:11:33.840 --> 01:11:37.680 be who he was. And I was going to let my life reflect whatever 1213 01:11:37.680 --> 01:11:41.240 that was. And it ended up that because he's good. My life ended 1214 01:11:41.240 --> 01:11:45.200 up being good. But I risked it not being because I chose him 1215 01:11:45.200 --> 01:11:50.600 over my life. That's so good. It sounds really good sitting 1216 01:11:50.600 --> 01:11:54.160 here talking about it. Yeah, my goodness. It's that hard to make 1217 01:11:54.160 --> 01:11:56.560 that decision. Like, I didn't know what it was. 1218 01:11:58.280 --> 01:12:01.320 Yeah, but when you're in that place, explanation really helps 1219 01:12:01.320 --> 01:12:07.840 because I think I think you can be at that place but not not 1220 01:12:07.840 --> 01:12:16.120 push past that, that the line like not actually walk that 1221 01:12:16.320 --> 01:12:21.200 correct through the Red Sea. And I'll say, you know, yeah, yeah, 1222 01:12:21.280 --> 01:12:25.520 yeah. So you can be there over here. Let us hop back. Yeah, 1223 01:12:25.560 --> 01:12:29.600 right. And I mean, you only know, you know, so you only 1224 01:12:29.600 --> 01:12:32.240 know, you know, what you know. So sometimes taking that leap, 1225 01:12:33.080 --> 01:12:36.920 you know, you don't even realize that it's like, the trade that 1226 01:12:36.920 --> 01:12:40.720 you're talking about, and the way you're explaining it is so 1227 01:12:40.720 --> 01:12:44.240 different than how we can think. Yeah, because we're, we're not. 1228 01:12:46.200 --> 01:12:49.880 We're wanting that. But it's just that's that step, that 1229 01:12:49.880 --> 01:12:54.160 final step that yeah, we know that I'm ready for, but there's 1230 01:12:54.160 --> 01:12:57.360 been a holding back somehow and not even realizing you're 1231 01:12:57.360 --> 01:13:02.480 holding back from what you really want. Yes. So I thank 1232 01:13:02.480 --> 01:13:07.000 you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. You're welcome. Bless you. 1233 01:13:07.680 --> 01:13:13.080 Well, I guess it is past time. So I will let everyone go. It was 1234 01:13:13.080 --> 01:13:16.800 good to visit with all y'all and see all of you. And Susan, I 1235 01:13:16.800 --> 01:13:21.240 saw that you messaged me so I'll message you back. All right, 1236 01:13:21.240 --> 01:13:25.240 well, good to see all of y'all. I will see y'all. I will not see 1237 01:13:25.240 --> 01:13:32.120 you next week. I do not think because I think I think I have 1238 01:13:32.120 --> 01:13:35.920 something during that time. So and y'all can be y'all can be 1239 01:13:35.920 --> 01:13:40.440 watching but I do I think that I we don't have one next week. I 1240 01:13:40.440 --> 01:13:43.400 don't think we have a meeting next week. So anyway, sorry 1241 01:13:43.400 --> 01:13:50.880 about that. So anyway, I love all of you. I will see y'all I 1242 01:13:50.880 --> 01:13:56.960 guess week after next. Bye. Bye guys.