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I'm trying to see where y'all are going to be able to see me.

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I'm trying to see where y'all are going to be able to see me.

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I'm trying to see where y'all are going to be able to see me.

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off my grandmother's pine tree for the hair and all that. So then I trace my little muddy self,

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my, my pants are all muddy now. My, my, my shoes are all kicked in mud. So I trace back into the

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house, you know, create, create this muddy track all the way into the bathroom and clean myself

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off. And, but that was, of course, after I'd been walking around a little bit longer in the,

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in the, my bare feet in the snow, in the yard to finish this doggone snowman. And,

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anyway, so I had, I had a lot of fun, took pictures with it, put my arm around it,

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take a picture. I had myself a good time. All by myself. Yeah, really? All by myself,

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just me and the Lord. I was telling the Lord, Lord, this is so much fun. You knew that this

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winter I was just on my heart to build a snowball. And so I made a snowball and I thought,

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wait a minute, I can make a snowman. So then I made the whole snowman. Anyway, it was a lot of

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fun, but the snow will probably all be gone by tomorrow, like mid morning, something like that.

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So, cause it's almost all gone now. So then I had to clean up the bathroom and the floor,

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totally worth it. Totally worth it. So much fun.

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It's so funny. That's so funny that you say that because I was like in the exact same position as

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you, but it was tobogganing instead of building a snowman. Oh, how fun. Oh, I love sledding.

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I haven't tobogganed in like, like you said, like decades, right? Since I was a little kid. And it

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was so funny cause my daughter and I went to the park, a park we've never been to. I didn't even

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know there was a hill there and it was hidden. And then all of a sudden we saw a skate park

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nearby. So I'm like, Oh, do you want to see what a skate park looks like? So we went to the skate

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park and then I noticed the hill all the way there. And I went, Oh, it's too bad. We don't

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still have that toboggan. My husband put it at the side of the road thinking we didn't need it.

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So someone took it for free. I thought, I wish we still had that little red toboggan. We walk

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over to the skate park and there's a red toboggan there that looks exactly the same as ours,

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except there's like a hole in it. That's about this big. So it still works, but there's like a

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big hole in it, right? It got cracked. So I'm like, well, whatever we took it over to the

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hill. And my daughter had never been tobogganing and it was pure ice, pure ice. So we're like,

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Oh my gosh. So I go down, she goes down, we are having a blast. She's like totally loving it

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cause she's never done it before. We met this family, they had better toboggan. So they let

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us use their toboggans, but it was, it was so funny, right? Cause you just end up being like

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a kid again. And it's this amazing feeling of just enjoying something like nature, right? That way,

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which is not probably few and far between with snow, especially in Texas, right?

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Yes. Yeah. Yeah. So you've probably been seeing on Facebook with your friends that are in the South,

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you know, we're not used to seeing well, Lubbock will have snow periodically. That's where I,

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where I am. Lubbock will have snow and maybe, maybe, maybe like two, at least once a year,

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usually sometimes twice, but it usually isn't very much. It's just like a couple inches.

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So the fact that we got six inches was just so much fun anyway, but I wasn't here for the big

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thing. I was, Dallas didn't hardly got anything, all just little girls. They just kind of like

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went outside and like licked it out of the air. There just was not much to collect.

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Well, by the time they actually collected any snow that was there

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to collect, it turned immediately to ice. So they had a couple of ice balls.

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That was fun to toboggan on though. If you guys haven't sled, sledding on ice is quite fun.

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Yeah, that sounds super fast.

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Oh, so hey Steph. Hey Amy. Hey.

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Okay. So what? Long time no see. It seems like I know.

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Missed y'all too.

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It's nice. So that I think we're pretty much back on a schedule again, but you know,

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have a rest impact again next week. So we'll have to move this time again, but

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I wish that I knew it was the best time for everybody overall. I mean, I hate for it to go

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so late as from 10 to 11 Eastern, but if we go earlier, I don't know that I'm trying to figure

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out which is the one that most people are likely to be able to make it. I know it's not,

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I know it's not perfect, but if I'm doing a rest impact five days and only doing this one day,

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it's best if I do the rest impact during this time. So anyway, I wish there was something

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just a little more perfect that made me feel better.

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So does anyone have anything to start us off with?

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Well, if nobody else is going to go, I'll kind of like share a little bit about, you know, I'm kind of in this space right now where I had this client who went into my program for three weeks and decided all of a sudden that she was going to threaten me that if I

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charged her any more money she was going to, she's already been able to seek legal counsel and she wants no more money taken out. So, I, and it was shocking because she was never like that and she had experienced some amazing things in the first

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three weeks of the program and then she just decided to kind of cut and run.

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So, I think where I'm at right now with it is,

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I know God's my protection and my provision. I know I don't need her financial investment.

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I'm sad because I feel like, you know, she was getting something really amazing from the program and I could see that and then all of a sudden it was like the fear set in and now she wants to run.

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I've tried really hard not to make it about me and something being wrong with me or something being wrong with my program, which is hard because when you put your heart and soul into something and then somebody experiences them then they're like, well, this wasn't what I was told it was going to be or something along those lines.

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So, I know it's probably not about me and I know God's my provision.

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And there's like this feeling deep down where I had a call with another potential client the other night and I just, I was so flat. I wasn't enthusiastic, I wasn't excited.

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I was in this space of, well, if this girl's going to, you know, run away after three weeks, what if this person does too? So, I don't know if I want to even like put the effort and energy in if someone's just going to walk away.

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It was a weird feeling, you know, and I will put the effort and energy and I'm doing a five-day intensive this week and I'm putting so much effort and energy into that.

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And I love serving and I love, you know, giving back but it was just that phone call was like a really big awareness for me because I noticed that I didn't show up for this girl on the other end of the phone like I would have if I hadn't have experienced this situation with the other one.

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I guess I'm just in this space of, I'm finishing my intensive tomorrow. Women have an opportunity to book a call with me if they want to explore working together in some way.

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And I'm feeling like a bit of imposter syndrome, like if this girl's going to do it for three weeks and run away, then what is to say that someone else isn't going to feel the same way and is my program really that good? Am I really doing the Lord's work?

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I ask myself all these questions and I get into like overanalyzing. So I guess I'm just looking for a little bit of wisdom on that, like how I can snap out of it a little bit and just be in a space of trust and love and contribution and it's not about me, but it's hard because I'm making it about me. It's just a weird feeling.

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Yeah. Well, so this is another way in which it evidences the fact that we're looking at where we don't realize that we look at the results.

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And as much as we actually do, in the fact that, well, what are these results saying? You know, what therefore does this mean? That, you know, I'm not able to show up for this other person because, and you're what it is that she needs.

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In other words, you are the life giving spirit that you're bringing to the conversation. She can choose whether or not she wants to receive it, but that you're bringing a life giving spirit.

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And if that life giving spirit isn't being brought, there's your own oxygen mask that needs to be put back on.

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So in other words, getting back with the Lord where it's no longer about the results, the results aren't, you being a life giving spirit is not always going to, how can I word this? Sorry.

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I knew very clearly how I was going to word it. And then, and then I, when you were talking and then all of a sudden it's like, oh, it's my turn. And all of a sudden I'm like, how was I going to word that?

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Where, in other words, where it's, well, you know, can I, you know, that imposter syndrome, you know, that you were talking about where it's like, well, wait a minute.

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Do I have what it takes? Do I have what it is that they need? You know, this is how they're responding. Maybe this is saying something about me.

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Maybe this is saying something about where it is that I'm pulling my source from.

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Maybe it means it's, it's stopping.

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It's understanding that God is responsible for the results.

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Any type of interaction that we have in life, we turn around and we get up and wake up in

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the morning.

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There's risk.

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When we're asleep, there's risk because people die in their sleep, right?

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There's just risk.

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We just live in risk all of the time.

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So when we're interacting with another human being, there's going to be risk too.

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We don't know what they're going to do.

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We don't know if they're going to act just like the other person or not.

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So God is responsible for the results.

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We're just responsible for, for being, um, choosing that God is who he says that he is

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and that we are who he says that we are.

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And then interacting in the life from that place as opposed to, well, what are these

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results telling me?

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We can't look at the results to tell us anything.

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We're supposed to tell the results what they're supposed to be.

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Now, God, yes, God creates the results and he, um, I mean, we do it with him, but he's

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responsible for the results, but our partnership with him will end up, our spirits will end

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up manifesting in the particular results, but they don't tell us something.

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We create them.

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They don't create, describe, or define us.

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Um, so it's another way in which we can actually see we are elevating results to a higher position

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than they actually have and giving them a meaning than they actually have in the fact

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that we're looking at them at all.

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Um, so, um, anyway, it's, it's, um, yeah, yeah.

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There's more I could say about it.

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There we go.

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So does, does that make sense?

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It's still another aspect of, of we're thinking that somehow there's a protection, there's

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a provision, there's a, there's a something that we're responsible for it creating, because

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if it doesn't look a particular way, then it's not, then something's wrong, may not

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be anything wrong, nothing whatsoever, because the responsibility is not in us creating a

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business that works a particular way, a ministry that operates in a particular way.

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And then that, um, that there, yeah.

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And that the, you're always going to get a guaranteed type of results.

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It's no, my whole point in life is I am, was created out of relationship with the Lord.

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And then God created earth and put me on it in order to manifest who it is that we are

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down into it, not to get a particular results.

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The result will take care of itself.

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If we, if we stay in relationship with him, cause it will automatically manifest itself

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and it can't help itself.

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Remember that what we're talking about in the rest intensive is getting out is, is releasing

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is letting go.

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It's not doing something because it's all automatically, everything is in line to, to

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just fall into place.

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It's, it's going to operate.

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As soon as we let go, everything's going to operate according to the principles that God

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set in motion, including the manifestation of who it is that we are.

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Um, in, in spirit, we don't have to try to make any of it happen.

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We have to stop trying.

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We have to get our hands out of the pie.

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So.

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Yeah.

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My word for 2021 is release.

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And I feel like this is a great opportunity for me to release it.

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And I'm also, I mean, there is a part of me and I can, I'll be gut level honest.

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There's a part of me that's like, I'm investing a lot of money into this business.

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And I really would like to get to a point where I'm making enough money at it that I

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can quit my teaching job and start doing this full time.

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And so I know that's all in God's timing, but it's like, I'm, I think I'm looking at

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the money as like the freedom of being able to do this all the time, instead of having

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to like pull myself in so many different directions.

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And I don't know.

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I just, I want to be able to release the outcome.

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And yet I'm tied to the outcome because the outcome to me represents the life that I want.

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You know, exactly.

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So, so you actually said what I was going to say that freedom, if I actually answered

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Alicia's post that she made yesterday while I was traveling, sorry, Alicia, it took me

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a while to get back to you.

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And I commented on it today.

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And in it, I talked about what freedom actually is.

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And freedom is not the absence of uncomfortable situations or situations that we don't want

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to be in.

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It's understanding that we're not threatened by whatever situation that we're in.

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We can be in whatever situation and we're still free.

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So the thing is that what it is that we have often done.

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So, you know, I did this.

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With when I first started out in business that are not for started out, but when I first when I when I wanted to change my business and I wanted to do it remote and all of this, I'm telling myself, well, I'm willing to give myself freedom.

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I'm wanting to give them whatever the problem in the thing that the Lord just really had to had to work on me about was my death. I'm the one who defined what I thought freedom was.

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And I needed him to match it.

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And I needed him to his character to manifest in such a way that that freedom looked in my life the way that I had defined what freedom was, as opposed to submitting myself vulnerably to Lord going okay Lord, you say that I'm free.

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I'm leaving it up to you to define what freedom looks like in my life.

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And that's very hard. Trust me, because I have to live it. I am very aware of what it is that I'm telling you, because I'm in that situation, I have to do this too.

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And there have been many times where I've wondered, you know, Lord, am I am I doing the right thing you know should I find it should I find a job should I, you know, whatever.

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now need to look very different than what it's been looking like for the past several weeks to the past several months or whatever. And I really do have to release that I really have to have to surrender and I have to remember, he's the one that defines what freedom

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looks like to me, and in freedom is not our environment and what type of circumstance or situation that we're in. It's the fact that nothing, we're not enslaved to anything no matter what our circumstance and situation is.

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And once we realize that we suddenly don't care what our circumstance and situation or. I know that because I experienced it, because all of a sudden things that I wanted I no longer wanted once God gave them to me without having to change my circumstances.

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And I was like, Oh, well, so I got it without having to move halfway across the world. I found it because I wanted to move to London.

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And before I knew it, I just, I stopped focusing on London and I just started, it was still my dream that's still what I wanted to do, but I was just focused on what does the Lord, you know my gaining freedom from the enslavement that I was feeling inside

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and just focusing on what it, you know, who does God say that he is and I will step out in that in my life, without even changing the things that I'm going to do, I'm just going to change, or in other words, all of these dreams that I have, and not take necessarily

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away from them or whatever, ignoring that action and just like focus on who is God and how can I actively act like that according to act according to what it is that I'm believing he's saying about himself in my life right now, today, and before I knew it, it was, I, it was months later, and I remember I kind of like stopped and looked up.

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I was by myself and I literally did that I looked up and I thought, wait a minute.

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I haven't thought about London, and I don't know how long. And that was my main goal. That's what I was going to do, I was going to move overseas and I was going to live in London I was creating business so that it would enable me to do that and whatever.

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And I thought, why do I not. Why have I not thought about it and I realized the need that I was using London to fulfill in my life, the opportunity, the things that I thought it was going to give me opportunities to make new friends and to network and to travel and to, I don't

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know, see other just have new experiences and, and, and all of that because I thought again I thought that's what I wanted I thought that's, that'll give me what it is I want that'll give me freedom, whatever.

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When I discovered freedom in the Lord where it is that I was without moving to the other. I realized, I no longer cared about moving to London.

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And this has been a dream ever since I was young, I can tell you, I no longer cared, because God gave me what it is that I actually wanted, which was freedom in him, so that I could actually live it no matter what situations that I was in so I still live

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regardless of how uncomfortable it is. I told August my brother and Brendan, this a year ago, little over a year ago or I was sitting in his living room, literally crying, because my situation was so difficult.

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And my brother had already chosen to walk this path and everything and I've been in it for a while. And it was hard, man, it was hard. And I was struggling financially I was struggling in relationships and my reputation had been had been attacked by at the time,

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and a friend, a personal friend that I had shared something very, very personal and private with.

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And they had used it, they had attacked me and then used that thing against me all in the same month. Boom.

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So I was crying to him and I told, I told, I was feeling all of these pressures, financial relationship, all of that good stuff.

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And I, and while I'm crying, I told him, I said, you know, Brennan, I still would choose this, this moment, this experience, this situation.

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So anyway, those, it's just been a process that the Lord's had to, had to change, change in me.

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We always go back to who does God say that he is and how am I feeling that my environment circumstances, my inability to get further ahead than I want to,

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my inability to make any progress or things aren't working out and everything's coming against me and people and circumstances aren't allowing me to do this, that and the other.

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You know, the, that all of those, that, that, to understand that all of those things actually aren't hindering us in, in our, in our freedom.

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It's understanding that has absolutely nothing to do with how it is that I'm feeling.

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Even if I had those things, maybe if everything worked out, all I would do is I would simply be in the situation that I thought I wanted and discover it can't give it, it actually doesn't hold what it is that I thought that I wanted.

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So you just always go back to what is it that I'm thinking, all these hindrances aren't allowing me to do, and God's, God's, God's not, God's not helping me.

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God's not letting me do what I want to do. He says he gives me freedom, but he won't let me have it.

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Etc, etc. It always goes back to the accusation against God. Why is he making this so hard?

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It always, always goes all the way back. So that's all that we have to go back to.

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That's a great echo of the accusations against him for sure. I feel like I know a lot of this on my, in my head right now but I'm having trouble getting it down and I, it's like if, if somebody is struggling financially and they really want that financial freedom or else they're going to lose their house or something.

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Maybe God has a plan that they're going to move in with great people and you know something else is going to happen but how do you not be stressed in the situation where you think that what you want is going to help alleviate the pain or meet the need.

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How do you stop feeling that way because you know in your head.

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I know in my head all of these things but how do I stop feeling stressed about it.

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Earlier today, and now she has a diagram so you will. Right.

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So, prepare us for today. Thanks.

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This is all stuff we all know, but that's why whenever I talk about all this stuff, it is that I try to help us all understand how to apply these things, but it always goes back to the simple stuff that's already in this foundational videos, it all goes back to the same

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And that is when you're talking about you know what do you do with fact that I feel this way but I know I know different, because we are feelings follow what it is we believe not what it is that we know we should believe.

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And so, in order to shift our feelings, we go through that process of, you know, this one. Hopefully it's right side for y'all, you know the no shame and no condemnation.

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There we go. And then we just tell ourselves to stop. And then the having the no judgment is in, you know, thinking oh it shouldn't mind my circumstance and situation, it shouldn't be like this, it should be different.

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It should be easier than this. By now, I should have made progress.

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You know this lady shouldn't have done this to me.

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I should have, you know, more clients by now I should have less clients by now my clients should be easier my clients be harder I don't know whatever it we're making a judgment of situation, and then so when you're what it is, so I'm just reminding ourselves with this diagram is saying the situation that you're finding yourself in is when these things, if these things are not working.

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which is you just simply have to choose.

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so I remove posts very quietly, very gently,

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people just saying, posting something that they know,

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about yourself that you're explaining.

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the processing that God is having us go through

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and able to choose that what he says is true.

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oh, this stuff to encourage everybody else

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as if we're trying to teach each other,

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finally you get to actually let your soul decide.

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just like, how do you feel about it?

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This is how I feel.

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and moving forward in my business like this?

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you're trying to make, whatever.

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that he says that he is.

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the character of the Lord to be in that moment.

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of operating using a tool in either this,

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acting out and gets it to calm down, where it finally feels secure.

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So does that make sense?

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I like the diagram. That was awesome.

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Yeah, I know I need to I need to make a little nicer.

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Maybe I can post in the group.

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It says that it needs to say it's perfect.

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But it says what it needs to say, it's perfect.

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I know it's very simple, but I thought, oh, well, maybe if I can, like,

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probably like a little PowerPoint or something,

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no PowerPoint slide and maybe post it in the group at some at some point.

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resources like that in a tab in the group, little handout things like that.

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I don't know. Yes.

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and so I'm sure it'll be something I'll just kind of and that I can start adding

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there, though, you know, yes, I did that.

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Y'all think that would be helpful.

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does anyone have anything?

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I'm checking the chat, making sure that I

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haven't missed something that was said, let's see.

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Is more reliable than the US dollar, yes, most things are

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I'm being funny.

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Yes, letting staff that's letting go of my shouldn't judgments has made a huge

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we've made one decision this week that stands out to me as being something I

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Wonderful.

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intensive is about focusing on rest on how to actually shift interest,

406
00:37:21.560 --> 00:37:25.920
not that our circumstances will start to look a particular way in life.

407
00:37:26.120 --> 00:37:28.640
Well, how do I get and how do I become

408
00:37:28.840 --> 00:37:33.520
successful in such and such a business that I've decided that I want to do?

409
00:37:33.720 --> 00:37:37.280
Or how do I get to, I don't know, marry so and so?

410
00:37:37.480 --> 00:37:40.040
Or how do I get to do whatever?

411
00:37:40.240 --> 00:37:43.320
It's not how do I get my children to act like this?

412
00:37:43.320 --> 00:37:44.680
How do I get my husband to change?

413
00:37:44.880 --> 00:37:47.680
How do I it's not how to create results in our life.

414
00:37:47.720 --> 00:37:50.600
Remember, those are results that are that we leave up to the Lord.

415
00:37:50.760 --> 00:37:54.000
It is it's about how do we shift into

416
00:37:54.200 --> 00:37:59.400
abiding in rest and truly realizing we're free and we're not enslaved to all

417
00:37:59.600 --> 00:38:04.440
of these other things, so those other we don't require that other things change

418
00:38:04.640 --> 00:38:08.920
in order for us to find peace and rest, because peace and rest is our

419
00:38:09.120 --> 00:38:12.400
inheritance and our right as sons of God.

420
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:14.920
So

421
00:38:16.120 --> 00:38:20.000
can those types of results come from being in rest?

422
00:38:20.200 --> 00:38:21.880
Well, yeah. Oh, yeah, absolutely.

423
00:38:22.080 --> 00:38:26.200
But we my point is that like what we were talking about earlier,

424
00:38:26.400 --> 00:38:31.040
we don't focus on the results we've and what it is that we can get.

425
00:38:31.240 --> 00:38:33.240
And because it's holding God and his

426
00:38:33.440 --> 00:38:37.520
character accountable to how we see it manifest and our focus always needs to be

427
00:38:37.720 --> 00:38:41.560
on the giver, not on the on the gift.

428
00:38:41.760 --> 00:38:44.480
And so it's the giver that we need to allow

429
00:38:44.680 --> 00:38:47.520
for him to love us in the way that he chooses.

430
00:38:47.720 --> 00:38:51.040
And and we yeah.

431
00:38:51.240 --> 00:38:54.080
And then can we affect things around us by being in rest?

432
00:38:54.280 --> 00:38:55.600
Oh, yeah, absolutely.

433
00:38:55.800 --> 00:38:59.840
Because people respond to us as sons of God.

434
00:39:00.040 --> 00:39:02.000
People always respond to sons of God.

435
00:39:02.200 --> 00:39:04.720
They don't always respond the way we want them to.

436
00:39:04.920 --> 00:39:07.080
I mean, the fig tree didn't give Jesus fruit.

437
00:39:07.280 --> 00:39:12.240
So, you know, when he commanded it, he said, you know, well, he didn't command it,

438
00:39:12.240 --> 00:39:15.680
but he walked over to it expecting it to give him fruit and it didn't.

439
00:39:15.840 --> 00:39:18.040
And so he said that the reason I cursed

440
00:39:18.240 --> 00:39:21.560
it is, he said, because you did not give me fruit.

441
00:39:21.760 --> 00:39:28.400
So anyway, everyone can we all of creation has a will that chooses

442
00:39:28.600 --> 00:39:31.840
to respond and how it chooses to respond to a son of God.

443
00:39:32.040 --> 00:39:34.320
I think it's in Romans eight where it says

444
00:39:34.520 --> 00:39:40.400
that creation was subject to frustration, not by not not by its own will.

445
00:39:40.600 --> 00:39:43.200
So anyway, so in other words,

446
00:39:43.240 --> 00:39:46.160
creation has a will to choose how it wants to respond.

447
00:39:46.160 --> 00:39:48.000
But yeah, everything always responds to a son of God.

448
00:39:48.200 --> 00:39:53.480
And usually it will respond favorably because of how it was created

449
00:39:53.680 --> 00:39:56.760
or created to naturally choose to respond.

450
00:39:56.960 --> 00:39:59.840
But we do have to overcome our own fear.

451
00:40:00.480 --> 00:40:02.600
that the thing that we're responding to

452
00:40:02.600 --> 00:40:06.800
is actually a safe place for us to be vulnerable with.

453
00:40:06.800 --> 00:40:08.720
And it might be choose to that,

454
00:40:08.720 --> 00:40:11.120
to believe that we are not a safe place

455
00:40:11.120 --> 00:40:12.520
for it to be vulnerable with.

456
00:40:13.760 --> 00:40:17.760
And someone else, my goodness, the chat is so busy tonight.

457
00:40:17.760 --> 00:40:19.800
I've noticed that the more I operate from a place of rest,

458
00:40:19.800 --> 00:40:21.120
the more our husband seems to as well.

459
00:40:21.120 --> 00:40:24.440
Yes, okay, I've heard about this multiple times.

460
00:40:24.440 --> 00:40:25.920
Multiple people have told me

461
00:40:25.920 --> 00:40:27.600
that the more that they shift into rest,

462
00:40:27.600 --> 00:40:29.480
the more their husbands do.

463
00:40:29.520 --> 00:40:34.000
Exactly, children, it creates an atmosphere,

464
00:40:34.000 --> 00:40:37.680
not just in our home, but that people can choose to,

465
00:40:38.720 --> 00:40:42.640
people that can choose to respond to.

466
00:40:42.640 --> 00:40:45.840
Again, talking about the post that I had,

467
00:40:45.840 --> 00:40:49.320
that the comment that I had made on Alicia's post,

468
00:40:49.320 --> 00:40:51.600
where she was talking about women in the Bible

469
00:40:51.600 --> 00:40:55.000
and how they were treated and that,

470
00:40:55.000 --> 00:40:58.720
and I was mentioned, I think I mentioned at the end

471
00:40:58.760 --> 00:41:03.760
that women are meant to, for multiple,

472
00:41:04.120 --> 00:41:06.720
oh, so Alicia hasn't gotten to see my response yet,

473
00:41:07.640 --> 00:41:12.400
that women are meant to picture for men

474
00:41:12.400 --> 00:41:17.400
how they are supposed to picture for men their position,

475
00:41:17.800 --> 00:41:22.120
their vulnerable position in relationship to Christ

476
00:41:22.120 --> 00:41:23.800
in their union with Christ,

477
00:41:23.800 --> 00:41:27.760
just like women have the vulnerable position in marriage.

478
00:41:27.760 --> 00:41:29.680
Now, yes, both are vulnerable to each other.

479
00:41:29.680 --> 00:41:32.680
The man's body belongs, or the husband's body belongs

480
00:41:32.680 --> 00:41:34.840
to the wife, the wife's body belongs to the husband,

481
00:41:34.840 --> 00:41:36.160
you know, that kind of thing,

482
00:41:36.160 --> 00:41:39.480
but there's still an element that we all know physically,

483
00:41:39.480 --> 00:41:42.400
sometimes, and in various other ways

484
00:41:42.400 --> 00:41:45.760
where women can feel very vulnerable.

485
00:41:45.760 --> 00:41:49.000
Well, that is actually, women are putting on display

486
00:41:49.000 --> 00:41:52.120
in real life circumstances and situations

487
00:41:52.120 --> 00:41:55.160
what men are supposed to be able to look at

488
00:41:55.160 --> 00:41:57.560
and see themselves in as a mirror

489
00:41:58.360 --> 00:41:59.680
to be able to understand their position

490
00:41:59.680 --> 00:42:01.240
in their relationship with Christ,

491
00:42:01.240 --> 00:42:05.080
in their vulnerability, the fact that they are vulnerable

492
00:42:05.080 --> 00:42:07.240
and how they should respond to Christ

493
00:42:07.240 --> 00:42:10.720
in their union with Christ out of that vulnerability.

494
00:42:10.720 --> 00:42:13.360
But if women are constantly,

495
00:42:13.360 --> 00:42:15.120
I'm not trying to villainize us at all,

496
00:42:15.120 --> 00:42:20.000
I'm just pointing out the position and the responsibility

497
00:42:20.000 --> 00:42:23.920
and the role that we have as part of the body of Christ.

498
00:42:24.480 --> 00:42:29.480
And one of them is to give a real life picture

499
00:42:30.360 --> 00:42:33.640
to all of us of that vulnerable position

500
00:42:33.640 --> 00:42:36.320
that is called to submit to a head

501
00:42:36.320 --> 00:42:39.880
and how dadgum hard it is.

502
00:42:40.720 --> 00:42:44.920
Well, yeah, how else are men supposed to be able to see

503
00:42:44.920 --> 00:42:48.360
and to be able to picture what God is talking about

504
00:42:48.360 --> 00:42:51.040
when he says, I want you to submit yourselves to Christ,

505
00:42:51.040 --> 00:42:52.520
you're in a vulnerable position

506
00:42:52.560 --> 00:42:54.960
and I want you to submit yourself to the head.

507
00:42:54.960 --> 00:43:00.040
They see a type in shadow of their own position to Christ

508
00:43:00.040 --> 00:43:02.160
and how God's calling him to relate to him

509
00:43:02.160 --> 00:43:06.200
in how they see women respond to men.

510
00:43:06.200 --> 00:43:10.360
And women can affect men so heavily.

511
00:43:11.600 --> 00:43:13.840
My big fat Greek wedding, how she says,

512
00:43:13.840 --> 00:43:15.680
the man is the head, but the woman's the neck

513
00:43:15.680 --> 00:43:18.240
and can turn the head whichever way she wants.

514
00:43:18.240 --> 00:43:22.840
The idea that both are dependent on

515
00:43:22.840 --> 00:43:24.840
and influenced by the other.

516
00:43:24.840 --> 00:43:27.600
Each one has a very, very powerful role

517
00:43:27.600 --> 00:43:32.440
in the body of Christ of how we are called

518
00:43:32.440 --> 00:43:37.160
to picture an aspect of humanity

519
00:43:37.160 --> 00:43:40.960
and of our relationship to Christ for the other.

520
00:43:40.960 --> 00:43:43.440
Men do it for women and they have a position,

521
00:43:43.440 --> 00:43:45.400
particular role, position, responsibility

522
00:43:45.400 --> 00:43:47.760
and it reflects to women certain things about themselves

523
00:43:47.760 --> 00:43:50.000
that they need to know and understand and walk in.

524
00:43:50.000 --> 00:43:52.600
And we're supposed to be able to see a picture of that in men

525
00:43:52.600 --> 00:43:55.160
and men do the same thing with women.

526
00:43:55.160 --> 00:43:57.560
But if we don't all see that,

527
00:43:57.560 --> 00:44:00.920
then if we don't all see that,

528
00:44:00.920 --> 00:44:03.920
well, then we can just think that men and women

529
00:44:03.920 --> 00:44:07.920
are in very unfair positions to each other

530
00:44:07.920 --> 00:44:10.360
and we can see that things is very unfair

531
00:44:10.360 --> 00:44:14.560
as opposed to understanding, no, we just, we're very,

532
00:44:14.560 --> 00:44:16.400
and I don't mean this in an unhealthy way,

533
00:44:16.400 --> 00:44:19.560
we're very codependent because we're one body,

534
00:44:19.560 --> 00:44:22.080
we're not two separate bodies.

535
00:44:22.080 --> 00:44:25.720
So anyway, I don't remember why I was saying all of that.

536
00:44:28.240 --> 00:44:30.520
There was a reason, it was going along

537
00:44:30.520 --> 00:44:32.160
with what we were talking about.

538
00:44:32.160 --> 00:44:36.760
So does anyone have anything else?

539
00:44:36.760 --> 00:44:41.760
This isn't so much a question,

540
00:44:46.200 --> 00:44:50.680
but you just mentioned about being codependent

541
00:44:50.680 --> 00:44:54.240
and it's because we were created to be one body,

542
00:44:54.240 --> 00:44:56.200
so different from another.

543
00:44:56.200 --> 00:44:59.840
And I just found really interesting and kind of sweet

544
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.120
And so maybe you could talk a little bit more about that.

545
00:45:03.120 --> 00:45:05.920
About the codependency, what, men with women?

546
00:45:05.920 --> 00:45:06.760
Yeah.

547
00:45:08.640 --> 00:45:09.480
I don't know.

548
00:45:11.680 --> 00:45:14.240
I'm trying to think of what direction to go with it.

549
00:45:16.080 --> 00:45:19.760
But yeah, each one,

550
00:45:19.760 --> 00:45:21.440
I've always found it so fascinating

551
00:45:21.440 --> 00:45:24.240
that women are in such a vulnerable position,

552
00:45:24.240 --> 00:45:26.200
but they hold such a power,

553
00:45:26.200 --> 00:45:28.400
such a position of powerful influence.

554
00:45:28.400 --> 00:45:29.920
You think about the queen.

555
00:45:29.920 --> 00:45:31.360
And not because she's a woman,

556
00:45:31.360 --> 00:45:34.320
but because of her office and her position.

557
00:45:34.320 --> 00:45:36.280
It's the same thing if you had a male there,

558
00:45:36.280 --> 00:45:38.920
if you had a king, whether her father,

559
00:45:38.920 --> 00:45:42.200
was that Prince, was that, oh, no, was it King George?

560
00:45:42.200 --> 00:45:43.880
Was King George her father or King Edward?

561
00:45:43.880 --> 00:45:45.160
I think it was King George.

562
00:45:45.160 --> 00:45:49.200
And then, of course, her son, Prince Charles,

563
00:45:49.200 --> 00:45:50.360
when he becomes king,

564
00:45:51.280 --> 00:45:52.880
regardless if it's a man or a woman,

565
00:45:52.880 --> 00:45:55.560
the position is one of influence.

566
00:45:55.560 --> 00:46:00.560
It's not one of any power that can create any law.

567
00:46:00.640 --> 00:46:03.320
And I read a biography about her

568
00:46:03.320 --> 00:46:06.320
that was really, really, really powerful.

569
00:46:06.320 --> 00:46:08.360
And there was one particular sentence.

570
00:46:08.360 --> 00:46:09.920
I don't remember the exact phrase,

571
00:46:09.920 --> 00:46:11.000
but I wrote it down somewhere

572
00:46:11.000 --> 00:46:12.480
because I thought out of the entire book,

573
00:46:12.480 --> 00:46:14.200
this is the most powerful sentence.

574
00:46:14.200 --> 00:46:18.400
And it was about the fact that she had realized

575
00:46:18.400 --> 00:46:23.400
how to use her influence to shape worlds,

576
00:46:24.400 --> 00:46:28.680
to shape world politics, to shape world leaders

577
00:46:28.680 --> 00:46:33.680
and to shape world policy, not in a manipulative way,

578
00:46:33.800 --> 00:46:38.120
but still to be able to influence it.

579
00:46:38.120 --> 00:46:43.120
And anyway, I thought that that was really interesting.

580
00:46:43.360 --> 00:46:46.800
And also another thing, I know it's kind of sounds

581
00:46:46.800 --> 00:46:48.760
kind of maybe an odd time to mention this,

582
00:46:48.760 --> 00:46:52.560
but the fact that the most powerful position

583
00:46:52.640 --> 00:46:55.320
is the position of the one who is being served,

584
00:46:56.440 --> 00:46:59.360
which would be the most vulnerable position.

585
00:46:59.360 --> 00:47:01.240
So the most vulnerable position

586
00:47:01.240 --> 00:47:02.560
is the one that is being served.

587
00:47:02.560 --> 00:47:05.080
And that is the most powerful position

588
00:47:05.080 --> 00:47:07.640
as opposed to the one who is being given to

589
00:47:07.640 --> 00:47:09.600
as opposed to the one who is giving.

590
00:47:10.880 --> 00:47:12.600
And the Lord, fascinatingly,

591
00:47:12.600 --> 00:47:15.360
is the one who put us in that position.

592
00:47:15.360 --> 00:47:18.560
He put us in the name of the book I referenced.

593
00:47:18.560 --> 00:47:21.400
Oh, I think it's just Elizabeth II,

594
00:47:21.400 --> 00:47:26.400
but it's by Sally Bendell-Smith, I believe.

595
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:29.520
Sally Smith.

596
00:47:29.520 --> 00:47:31.680
And I believe that the middle name is Bendell,

597
00:47:31.680 --> 00:47:35.080
B-E-N-D-E-L-L or B-E-D-E-L-L.

598
00:47:35.080 --> 00:47:40.080
It's either Bedell or Bendell, I don't remember, anyway.

599
00:47:43.680 --> 00:47:45.120
Very, very, very, very, very good.

600
00:47:45.120 --> 00:47:47.640
That book is like this thick, just to warn you,

601
00:47:47.640 --> 00:47:48.840
it's extremely thick.

602
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.360
Oh, I missed it.

603
00:47:51.360 --> 00:47:54.320
So do you mean the one who's serving the other

604
00:47:54.320 --> 00:47:57.400
has the more powerful position?

605
00:47:57.400 --> 00:47:59.160
No, the one who's being served,

606
00:47:59.160 --> 00:48:01.600
the one who's being given to is an extremely,

607
00:48:01.600 --> 00:48:04.880
it's more powerful to be served than to serve.

608
00:48:04.880 --> 00:48:07.760
Now, the thing is that you notice, though,

609
00:48:07.760 --> 00:48:10.040
the way that Christ set everything up.

610
00:48:10.040 --> 00:48:13.440
He set it up that we serve him,

611
00:48:13.440 --> 00:48:15.880
but he set us up in the vulnerable position

612
00:48:15.880 --> 00:48:20.160
of being the one that is being served.

613
00:48:20.160 --> 00:48:22.120
So you see how it goes both ways.

614
00:48:22.120 --> 00:48:24.240
So there's a picture, even of Christ in the church,

615
00:48:24.240 --> 00:48:28.040
that we should understand and should translate

616
00:48:28.040 --> 00:48:32.280
into our marriages, that each one does serve the other,

617
00:48:32.280 --> 00:48:35.520
that the head, yes, does serve the most vulnerable,

618
00:48:35.520 --> 00:48:37.240
so that it serves the most vulnerable party,

619
00:48:37.240 --> 00:48:39.440
covers her, is responsible for her,

620
00:48:39.440 --> 00:48:42.440
takes authority, provides a spiritual hedge

621
00:48:42.440 --> 00:48:43.880
of protection over her.

622
00:48:43.880 --> 00:48:46.560
And yet, there's an aspect in which

623
00:48:46.560 --> 00:48:51.080
it's more easily understood, especially by non-Christians,

624
00:48:51.080 --> 00:48:56.080
that women serve and make themselves serve their husbands.

625
00:48:57.880 --> 00:49:01.920
But even in the Bible, it talks about the fact

626
00:49:01.920 --> 00:49:04.000
that husbands serve their wives as well.

627
00:49:04.000 --> 00:49:06.640
There's that, again, that codependency

628
00:49:06.640 --> 00:49:10.840
that both are in very powerful positions

629
00:49:10.840 --> 00:49:14.880
of being ones that are being served by the other.

630
00:49:14.880 --> 00:49:16.560
And it's hard to be served.

631
00:49:16.560 --> 00:49:17.880
It's a very powerful position,

632
00:49:17.880 --> 00:49:19.680
but it's also a very vulnerable one.

633
00:49:22.480 --> 00:49:25.280
So anyway, there's that aspect of codependency,

634
00:49:25.280 --> 00:49:26.440
but I think it's so important.

635
00:49:26.440 --> 00:49:28.080
Okay, so here's another aspect.

636
00:49:28.080 --> 00:49:31.800
So masculine and feminine is in every single person.

637
00:49:32.720 --> 00:49:35.200
It's not just in male or female.

638
00:49:35.200 --> 00:49:37.720
Males have both masculine and feminine in them,

639
00:49:38.560 --> 00:49:41.640
and females have both masculine and feminine in them.

640
00:49:41.640 --> 00:49:45.040
So men are supposed to picture for us

641
00:49:45.040 --> 00:49:47.640
the masculine side of ourselves

642
00:49:47.640 --> 00:49:52.640
so that we can know and picture from the outside

643
00:49:54.040 --> 00:49:56.840
and take it so that we can have a known

644
00:49:56.840 --> 00:49:59.560
that more readily helps us understand an unknown.

645
00:49:59.560 --> 00:50:00.400
That's what the.

646
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.120
and us and how to stand and operate in that.

647
00:50:03.120 --> 00:50:06.040
So we take righteous men as an example in our lives

648
00:50:06.040 --> 00:50:08.120
that are following the Lord and understand that the way

649
00:50:08.120 --> 00:50:10.720
in which they're operating in masculinity

650
00:50:10.720 --> 00:50:12.080
is the way that we're called,

651
00:50:12.080 --> 00:50:14.440
is the way that our masculinity is called

652
00:50:14.440 --> 00:50:16.640
to operate within us.

653
00:50:16.640 --> 00:50:19.040
And the same thing that men are supposed to receive

654
00:50:19.040 --> 00:50:20.960
from women, that they receive the feminine,

655
00:50:20.960 --> 00:50:22.600
that they see the femininity in us.

656
00:50:22.600 --> 00:50:25.920
And I'm not talking about the fact that we're, you know,

657
00:50:25.920 --> 00:50:30.240
that we like roses and, you know, and tea and picnics.

658
00:50:30.240 --> 00:50:32.120
And I'm not talking about that kind of a thing.

659
00:50:32.120 --> 00:50:33.960
I'm talking about the feminine,

660
00:50:33.960 --> 00:50:36.360
what a lot of times people were, well, feminine traits,

661
00:50:36.360 --> 00:50:40.920
the feminine aspects of someone that, in other words,

662
00:50:40.920 --> 00:50:43.680
the one who's supposed to receive,

663
00:50:43.680 --> 00:50:45.300
the one who's vulnerable,

664
00:50:45.300 --> 00:50:49.480
the one who is called to submit,

665
00:50:51.320 --> 00:50:54.440
is called to surrender, that kind of thing.

666
00:50:54.440 --> 00:50:58.360
They are supposed to see what that looks like,

667
00:50:58.360 --> 00:51:02.360
where it's still in, where it's not,

668
00:51:02.360 --> 00:51:05.120
that where vulnerability is not weakness,

669
00:51:05.120 --> 00:51:06.760
vulnerability is strength.

670
00:51:06.760 --> 00:51:08.960
But if we only present to them

671
00:51:08.960 --> 00:51:11.980
what vulnerability looks like in fear,

672
00:51:12.840 --> 00:51:15.640
then it's obvious that men would only see

673
00:51:15.640 --> 00:51:17.340
vulnerability as weakness

674
00:51:17.340 --> 00:51:19.480
and why men don't want to be vulnerable.

675
00:51:19.480 --> 00:51:21.000
Because that's how women present,

676
00:51:21.000 --> 00:51:23.800
if that's how women present vulnerability,

677
00:51:23.800 --> 00:51:26.640
is in weakness.

678
00:51:26.640 --> 00:51:29.200
What we are, I mentioned this when I,

679
00:51:29.200 --> 00:51:31.880
I think I mentioned this in Alicia's thing,

680
00:51:31.880 --> 00:51:33.340
that we're called to,

681
00:51:34.320 --> 00:51:38.320
that we are not subject to our physical bodies,

682
00:51:38.320 --> 00:51:41.120
our hormones, our psychological makeup

683
00:51:41.120 --> 00:51:42.720
and our psychological wiring

684
00:51:42.720 --> 00:51:46.240
that the world wants to define as being a woman.

685
00:51:46.240 --> 00:51:47.680
We are not subject to it.

686
00:51:47.680 --> 00:51:50.240
We are given those things in order to govern it

687
00:51:50.240 --> 00:51:52.680
so that the things that those were intended to create

688
00:51:52.680 --> 00:51:56.640
out in creation can actually finally create them.

689
00:51:56.640 --> 00:51:58.160
But if we're fighting against them,

690
00:51:58.160 --> 00:51:59.400
or if we're operating,

691
00:51:59.400 --> 00:52:02.360
if we're operating subject to ourselves,

692
00:52:02.360 --> 00:52:05.320
then we, then it doesn't have a king over it

693
00:52:05.320 --> 00:52:08.080
that is finally allowing it to do what it's supposed to do

694
00:52:08.080 --> 00:52:09.720
because we're being run by them.

695
00:52:09.720 --> 00:52:12.560
We're, you know, it's anarchy.

696
00:52:12.560 --> 00:52:14.680
So we're called to stand in our place

697
00:52:14.680 --> 00:52:16.440
and men, by looking at a woman,

698
00:52:16.440 --> 00:52:18.680
can finally understand their position

699
00:52:18.680 --> 00:52:21.920
and how they're supposed to respond and react to Christ.

700
00:52:21.920 --> 00:52:24.160
And then they can finally receive from Christ

701
00:52:24.160 --> 00:52:25.040
because they're in a position

702
00:52:25.040 --> 00:52:26.320
needing to receive from Christ

703
00:52:26.320 --> 00:52:28.920
and it is really hard for a man to receive.

704
00:52:28.920 --> 00:52:30.480
So if he sees a woman doing it,

705
00:52:30.480 --> 00:52:31.840
he's more likely to be able to see,

706
00:52:31.840 --> 00:52:33.640
okay, it's nothing that I need to be afraid of.

707
00:52:33.640 --> 00:52:36.200
And if she can believe God, and if she can believe me,

708
00:52:36.200 --> 00:52:39.880
then I can position myself vulnerably to receive from God.

709
00:52:39.880 --> 00:52:41.680
And it's from God that a man gets

710
00:52:41.680 --> 00:52:43.840
what he's supposed to be giving to his wife.

711
00:52:43.840 --> 00:52:46.000
So if a man is not giving something to his wife,

712
00:52:46.000 --> 00:52:47.920
he doesn't know how to receive it from the Lord.

713
00:52:47.920 --> 00:52:50.200
Why does he not know how to receive it from the Lord?

714
00:52:50.760 --> 00:52:52.720
He doesn't know what it looks like.

715
00:52:52.720 --> 00:52:54.560
I'm not putting all the blame on women.

716
00:52:54.560 --> 00:52:56.800
I'm just, I'm pointing things out to us

717
00:52:56.800 --> 00:52:58.600
that maybe we've just never thought about.

718
00:52:58.600 --> 00:53:00.600
There's this codependency.

719
00:53:00.600 --> 00:53:03.360
There's this thing that we each have a very, very,

720
00:53:04.760 --> 00:53:09.760
are supposed to highlight an aspect of ourselves

721
00:53:10.560 --> 00:53:13.160
that is in both of us, the masculine and the feminine

722
00:53:13.160 --> 00:53:15.480
and the female and masculine and feminine and the male.

723
00:53:15.480 --> 00:53:17.920
And the male highlights masculinity

724
00:53:17.920 --> 00:53:19.880
and is responsible for putting certain things

725
00:53:20.560 --> 00:53:21.680
on display so that the woman can know certain things

726
00:53:21.680 --> 00:53:24.560
about herself, rise up in it and operate

727
00:53:24.560 --> 00:53:26.640
in her masculinity righteously.

728
00:53:26.640 --> 00:53:29.600
And the man vice versa with his femininity.

729
00:53:29.600 --> 00:53:31.720
Another thing, very important.

730
00:53:31.720 --> 00:53:32.560
Oh my goodness.

731
00:53:32.560 --> 00:53:33.920
You opened up a can of worms, Misty.

732
00:53:33.920 --> 00:53:35.800
Okay, so here's another thing.

733
00:53:35.800 --> 00:53:39.320
So that the masculine and feminine are not supposed,

734
00:53:39.320 --> 00:53:43.080
within us, are not supposed to be at war.

735
00:53:43.080 --> 00:53:46.480
And you're not supposed to be able to be vulnerable

736
00:53:47.080 --> 00:53:47.920
or strong.

737
00:53:50.920 --> 00:53:55.560
And here's me as in a good example for whatever it's worth.

738
00:53:55.560 --> 00:54:00.560
I tend to, I can operate, Dawson.

739
00:54:00.560 --> 00:54:01.400
Sorry, just a second.

740
00:54:01.400 --> 00:54:06.400
She's growling at me because she needs her bed all flipped up.

741
00:54:07.560 --> 00:54:08.480
Okay, there we go.

742
00:54:10.720 --> 00:54:12.280
It's hard being little and you can,

743
00:54:12.280 --> 00:54:14.680
and with little arms and there's only so much you can do

744
00:54:14.680 --> 00:54:15.520
to take care of yourself.

745
00:54:16.120 --> 00:54:19.120
But so I tend to operate in,

746
00:54:19.120 --> 00:54:22.000
and I've struggled operating in extremes.

747
00:54:22.000 --> 00:54:23.800
I'm extremely feminine.

748
00:54:23.800 --> 00:54:25.680
And for people who know me really well,

749
00:54:25.680 --> 00:54:30.200
they know that I can be very extreme masculine.

750
00:54:30.200 --> 00:54:32.440
I, not in like, I don't know,

751
00:54:32.440 --> 00:54:34.640
like the outdoorsy stuff or things like that,

752
00:54:34.640 --> 00:54:38.040
but I can go head to head with men in business.

753
00:54:38.040 --> 00:54:40.720
And I mean like hard.

754
00:54:40.720 --> 00:54:43.080
It's the side that I just don't show very often.

755
00:54:43.200 --> 00:54:45.560
It's the side that I just don't show very often,

756
00:54:45.560 --> 00:54:47.520
but I can go for it.

757
00:54:47.520 --> 00:54:49.240
I've just seen bits of it.

758
00:54:49.240 --> 00:54:50.480
She's seen a lot of it growing up,

759
00:54:50.480 --> 00:54:53.400
but I can even do more than that in certain circumstances.

760
00:54:53.400 --> 00:54:55.000
I mean, comes out guns a blazing.

761
00:54:55.000 --> 00:54:56.520
And so it's very, very extreme.

762
00:54:56.520 --> 00:54:59.880
And what I've struggled with is some people know this.

763
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.400
side of me. And some people know this one. Some people know the extreme, extreme feminine part

764
00:55:06.400 --> 00:55:10.800
of me. And some people know the extreme masculine and people that have been in either one, people

765
00:55:10.800 --> 00:55:16.720
that have seen me here, people that have seen me here are, have verbally told me that actually,

766
00:55:16.720 --> 00:55:21.360
I didn't know you could be like the other, but they finally see me in the opposite situation.

767
00:55:21.360 --> 00:55:25.120
I'm like, actually, I've never seen you like that. I didn't know you could do something like that.

768
00:55:25.760 --> 00:55:32.000
Um, and, uh, because, and, and here was the problem. I had these two aspects of me that I was,

769
00:55:32.000 --> 00:55:36.240
could be very strong in a feminine and very strongly masculine. And what the Lord is teaching

770
00:55:36.240 --> 00:55:43.200
you to do is understand that they're not in, they're not in, they're not juxtaposed to one

771
00:55:43.200 --> 00:55:49.520
another. They're not, they're not contrary to one another. They're called to support one another.

772
00:55:50.080 --> 00:55:54.480
They each have particular functions, but they're called to work together in harmony.

773
00:55:54.480 --> 00:56:00.080
I'm supposed to be able to be both at the same time to have strength and to have,

774
00:56:00.080 --> 00:56:06.640
and to have vulnerability. Um, and, uh, anyway, so that it, it's not to the point where

775
00:56:07.520 --> 00:56:13.200
eventually men and women are all going to look the same, you know, and how we act, but it's,

776
00:56:13.200 --> 00:56:20.160
my point is just simply that is simply that, um, that those different sides of us are good.

777
00:56:20.160 --> 00:56:25.120
And they're supposed to, and we're supposed to see how they work together. This differences can

778
00:56:25.120 --> 00:56:32.480
be celebrated and enjoyed, but they are supposed to work together, um, towards the same, to same,

779
00:56:32.480 --> 00:56:39.200
the same goal, deferring to one another in, but not in isolation of the other, like, okay, well,

780
00:56:39.200 --> 00:56:43.520
we're just going to do the masculine side of this to the abandonment of the feminine. No,

781
00:56:43.520 --> 00:56:49.280
the feminine comes with us and we operate in both at the same time, but we let the masculine take

782
00:56:49.280 --> 00:56:56.240
the lead or vice versa, just like a husband and wife do a man and a woman. Um, that felt

783
00:56:56.240 --> 00:57:06.800
like a very deep subject, but was that helpful? Um, yeah. And there's something that we use at

784
00:57:06.800 --> 00:57:14.560
work. It's an instrument and it's called, um, leadership attributes and 20 feminine attributes

785
00:57:14.640 --> 00:57:20.480
and 20 masculine attributes. And we ask the women to rate themselves on each one, whether

786
00:57:22.560 --> 00:57:31.840
and we also have a column for their score or at home. And, um, so, uh, as you were at home,

787
00:57:32.800 --> 00:57:38.640
their score at home and their score at work, like you were out yourself, like how you can show up

788
00:57:38.720 --> 00:57:47.360
in work, these masculine attributes, um, that people who don't know you at work may not get

789
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:54.160
to witness. Yes. Yeah. So as you were talking about that, I, I was, I was able to relate to

790
00:57:54.160 --> 00:58:01.440
it easily because, because of, because of that. And, um, and so it's, it's just interesting to,

791
00:58:01.440 --> 00:58:08.400
to see how, um, one is not like what we are. You were also talking about prior to that,

792
00:58:08.400 --> 00:58:15.840
about being subject to, like, before I was a believer, I was very hardcore about, you know,

793
00:58:15.840 --> 00:58:21.760
women and feminists and this and that, and don't open the door for me. It just all, you know,

794
00:58:21.760 --> 00:58:26.000
all these things I found out once I became a believer and I got free, I was actually a slave

795
00:58:26.000 --> 00:58:32.080
too. Exactly. Like we can't be threatened by outside circumstances anymore. Who cares what

796
00:58:32.080 --> 00:58:38.960
the body and the soul realm is doing? Yeah. Yeah. No, I didn't mean to interrupt. I was,

797
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:43.280
I was affirming. Go ahead. Oh, that's it. That's, I mean, that was it. Like once I was a believer

798
00:58:43.280 --> 00:58:49.120
and I was able to like, get free from any of those constrictive thoughts, it was like, I just opened

799
00:58:49.200 --> 00:58:56.720
up a whole other color palette to who I could be. Yeah. Because yeah, what's happening to us and

800
00:58:56.720 --> 00:59:02.880
around us isn't actually what we're enslaved to. It's, it's our own belief about what we believe

801
00:59:02.880 --> 00:59:07.520
about God, that we think that the thing is telling us that's what we're enslaved to.

802
00:59:07.520 --> 00:59:12.160
The accusation that it creates. Yeah. That somehow it's saying something about me that

803
00:59:12.160 --> 00:59:15.920
I'm not good enough or that I'm whatever. So I'm gonna have to fight for it in the body

804
00:59:16.720 --> 00:59:19.760
with like physical things, like whether or not they're opening the door

805
00:59:19.760 --> 00:59:23.680
and whether or not they're, you know, whatever. I mean, I've had to get that up on the,

806
00:59:23.680 --> 00:59:28.960
on the opposite end where I grew up with where men open doors. And then, you know, out here,

807
00:59:28.960 --> 00:59:34.080
out here in West Texas, where, where I grew up before we moved overseas, where I had to,

808
00:59:34.080 --> 00:59:40.640
where, you know, men used to, you know, raise their hats when they talked to me and, you know,

809
00:59:40.640 --> 00:59:44.880
they, they'd stand up when I would come to the table to sit down and then they'd wait for me to

810
00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:49.520
sit down before they would sit down. That's what I was used to. And then, then I find,

811
00:59:49.520 --> 00:59:51.120
no, most of the time other people.

812
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:16.000
Did she freeze or is it me?

813
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:24.000
Let me see.

814
01:00:24.000 --> 01:00:31.000
Yeah, true. With the snow out in the middle of nowhere actually snowing there now.

815
01:00:31.000 --> 01:00:35.000
Well, I'm the other day.

816
01:00:35.000 --> 01:00:36.000
Yeah.

817
01:00:36.000 --> 01:00:38.000
On this ground at least.

818
01:00:38.000 --> 01:00:43.000
But she said she was having trouble with her internet earlier.

819
01:00:43.000 --> 01:00:44.000
Let me text her real quick.

820
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:48.000
Oh, it's 10 maybe she just signed off.

821
01:00:48.000 --> 01:00:57.000
Yeah, that's it.

822
01:00:57.000 --> 01:01:00.000
Well I texted her we'll see what she says she's probably trying to work to get back on.

823
01:01:00.000 --> 01:01:03.000
Probably.

824
01:01:03.000 --> 01:01:07.000
But we were on earlier on.

825
01:01:07.000 --> 01:01:11.000
I think it was.

826
01:01:11.000 --> 01:01:13.000
She there.

827
01:01:13.000 --> 01:01:15.000
No.

828
01:01:15.000 --> 01:01:20.000
She's on there. Oh wait, there she is. Yeah, yeah.

829
01:01:20.000 --> 01:01:27.000
Yeah, my

830
01:01:27.000 --> 01:01:41.000
trying to get my internet out here so we're currently on cellular. Anyway, I was done talking. So, and it looks like my internet has his or not my internet but my cellular service is pretty wet wet low, I don't know why I went from LTE to 3G.

831
01:01:41.000 --> 01:01:43.000
I don't know my.

832
01:01:44.000 --> 01:01:52.000
Well, and it was good to get to see everybody tonight.

833
01:01:52.000 --> 01:01:57.000
There she goes again.

834
01:01:57.000 --> 01:02:04.000
You paused again you froze.

835
01:02:04.000 --> 01:02:10.000
I do have one question but it's for Alana, are you eating chocolate cake.

836
01:02:10.000 --> 01:02:12.000
Nope.

837
01:02:13.000 --> 01:02:17.000
That's what it looks like. Oh.

838
01:02:17.000 --> 01:02:25.000
And I eat it with a fork. I know it's like my little snack that I love my tree, and yeah.

839
01:02:25.000 --> 01:02:35.000
What is it is it almond butter. Yeah, I'm eating I was eating almond butter with a fork out of

840
01:02:36.000 --> 01:02:41.000
which is done now.

841
01:02:41.000 --> 01:02:50.000
Yeah, I'm actually before we go I was asking a question in the chat real quick because I was trying to like wrap my head around this because it's so new to me.

842
01:02:50.000 --> 01:03:02.000
When you were saying that the more powerful position is the one that is being the one that is being served see I know it's for me to say because I'm like what.

843
01:03:02.000 --> 01:03:13.000
Amy was saying well think about a king right and they're the one being served, they're being elevated because they're being served. So then I'm like, we want.

844
01:03:13.000 --> 01:03:14.000
Sorry.

845
01:03:14.000 --> 01:03:27.000
It. Yeah, because they have value and they're being honored honored honor is being shown. Yeah, so that's the more powerful we have to understand that power means something very different in the Lord and in that in the kingdom in the way he created

846
01:03:27.000 --> 01:03:42.000
power than power here on earth that has been twisted into meaning that someone can dominate someone else and manipulate power is just strictly an ability to influence someone else.

847
01:03:43.000 --> 01:04:00.000
Okay, this power is this power is bad power then like I was thinking that you meant, I think I was, I got it wrong in my mind because I was thinking that we were supposed to be in a power position and then being in the power position would mean that other people

848
01:04:00.000 --> 01:04:04.000
needed to serve us and then I was really confused.

849
01:04:04.000 --> 01:04:20.000
You know, other people don't need to know other people don't need to serve as I was talking specifically about the aspect of, you know, husbands and wives, serving each other just as Christ and his bride mentioned in the Bible are set up to serve one another we all

850
01:04:20.000 --> 01:04:33.000
serve Christ he mentions that lots of times you know all throughout scripture, but also the fact that Christ serves us. And in the fact that and we know and we know that because it says husbands, love your wives, you know, and serve them and all of that.

851
01:04:33.000 --> 01:04:41.000
And they're in the, they are in the more vulnerable position. They're in the weaker position there, meaning that they're more vulnerable.

852
01:04:42.000 --> 01:04:52.000
And so that is the picture of the position that we're in is the bride of Christ and Christ serves us remember Christ gave us everything including died for us while we hated him.

853
01:04:52.000 --> 01:04:57.000
He's already given us everything all that's left for us to do is to choose to receive it.

854
01:04:57.000 --> 01:05:00.000
And so we've been given everything we are the ones being served.

855
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:12.000
And he's put himself in that vulnerable position of, yes, being the one who's being served by us, but also vulnerable position of being the one who is serving us.

856
01:05:12.000 --> 01:05:20.000
In other words, he's allowing himself, he put himself strategically in the position to allow himself to be affected by us.

857
01:05:20.000 --> 01:05:26.000
And so he's showing honor to us, just like we are called to show honor to him.

858
01:05:26.000 --> 01:05:36.000
But when it comes to the head and the preeminence, the position and the relationship that he has to us is as the head and as the preeminence.

859
01:05:36.000 --> 01:05:58.000
Okay, so he put us in a power position by serving us in some way. And now we translate that onto what we do on earth by serving others. Is this like the circle? Is that kind of, I apologize that I'm having trouble getting my head wrapped around this one.

860
01:05:58.000 --> 01:06:10.000
Yeah, I'm just talking about Christ and the body. Each one is putting themselves in a position to serve the other. And each one is in a vulnerable position and each one is in a powerful position.

861
01:06:10.000 --> 01:06:20.000
The powerful isn't to wield it manipulatively on someone else. The power is to always to benefit, is to use one's power to benefit and to love the other.

862
01:06:20.000 --> 01:06:26.000
Not to manipulate and control them and to get them to do something we want them to be. But the power is in the ability to serve them.

863
01:06:26.000 --> 01:06:43.000
And then we're called to do that as husbands and wives. We're also called to do that between parents and children, that's the same, or peers or coach and client, whatever.

864
01:06:44.000 --> 01:07:03.000
There's always this aspect of serving in order to honor someone else, that kind of thing. And remember that Jesus, when he was here on earth, again, it's another picture of how Christ operates with his church.

865
01:07:03.000 --> 01:07:21.000
He washed the disciples feet and he said, the greatest among you needs to be the servant. So God always talks about the honor of serving someone else and the honor that is trying to be bestowed on the one who is being served.

866
01:07:21.000 --> 01:07:38.000
Anyway, it's a self, or what we always call that, it's, well, there's feedback loop, but that's not the word I'm looking for. And again, not codependency because that has such negative connotations, but there's just this thing of like, it's called relationship.

867
01:07:38.000 --> 01:07:54.000
It's two way street, and it's supposed to be balanced, but not everyone in a relationship has the same position. In other words, this person, Christ relates to us, or Christ relates to us, the same side of the screen, Christ relates to us as a husband does to a wife.

868
01:07:54.000 --> 01:08:13.000
A wife has specific roles, her position in the union, in the relationship is the one being receiving. She, as the receiver, then has her own responsibilities to him. And then, and his responsibility is obviously to provide headship, leadership, that kind of thing.

869
01:08:14.000 --> 01:08:40.000
I think I explained that full circle. I'm not sure if I closed the loop there, but I was trying to. So that's all that I was saying. But yeah, we can take that into our relationships with other people as well. It's why healthy relationships with other people are ones in which both parties take ownership and responsibility of their side of the relationship, because that's important in the relationship.

870
01:08:40.000 --> 01:08:43.000
Thank you for clarifying that, that makes a lot more sense now.

871
01:08:43.000 --> 01:08:57.000
You're welcome. And whatever doesn't make any sense, you know, just always ask your spirit, you know, before the Lord, because, you know, don't say anything, take anything that I say and think, oh, well, yeah, that sounded logical, or it doesn't sound logical. Yeah, but logic doesn't hold up in spiritual court.

872
01:08:57.000 --> 01:09:14.000
The only way that we, we can only regurgitate that information, but in order to own it, the Lord has to actually reveal that to our spirit. So this is what I believe in how I operate. But, you know, you take for the Lord, see what he says.

873
01:09:14.000 --> 01:09:37.000
Ashley, as you were talking, I kind of got a little more insight into what you were saying that I just I'll share it really quick. I wrote down that first of all, that my train of thought, it was just in my weakness, I'm strong, which kind of fed off of what you were saying. And then what came out out was that my need or my vulnerability is actually what caused God to serve me.

874
01:09:38.000 --> 01:09:56.000
Like, because, because I was broken, he came and healed me. And so in that sense, it's, yeah, it kind of, I don't know if it makes, if that makes sense, but it did to me and it kind of went along with what you were saying.

875
01:09:56.000 --> 01:10:00.000
Yeah, it's like Ezekiel 16, where he says that he came by and

876
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.240
We were lying on, we were lying on the road, kicking about in our blood, and there was

877
01:10:04.240 --> 01:10:09.360
nothing that he would, that would cause us to desire, him to desire us and, and whatever.

878
01:10:09.360 --> 01:10:12.800
And then it goes on, you know, from there it's, yeah, we were extremely vulnerable.

879
01:10:12.800 --> 01:10:17.040
We were within his power to do whatever he wanted to with us.

880
01:10:17.040 --> 01:10:22.240
And yet it, because we were so vulnerable and, and he showed, he showed his character,

881
01:10:22.240 --> 01:10:28.080
he showed it to be as good and loving as he said that he was by using his power for not

882
01:10:28.080 --> 01:10:32.960
just our benefit, but to put himself in a vulnerable position in relationship to us as well.

883
01:10:33.600 --> 01:10:34.080
Right.

884
01:10:34.080 --> 01:10:39.280
We didn't have to, if we were in a vulnerable position, a relationship, a position of relationship

885
01:10:39.280 --> 01:10:45.840
with him, he does not have to then put himself in a vulnerable position relationship to us.

886
01:10:45.840 --> 01:10:46.160
Yeah.

887
01:10:46.160 --> 01:10:47.440
That's really beautiful.

888
01:10:47.440 --> 01:10:49.440
I just really got a good picture of that.

889
01:10:49.440 --> 01:10:51.040
It's, it's incredibly beautiful.

890
01:10:51.600 --> 01:10:52.240
Yeah.

891
01:10:52.240 --> 01:10:52.480
Yeah.

892
01:10:52.480 --> 01:10:55.280
And that Ezekiel passages never spoke to me before.

893
01:10:55.280 --> 01:10:56.400
I've just always read it.

894
01:10:57.360 --> 01:10:58.320
I remember that.

895
01:11:03.440 --> 01:11:04.160
Now I get it.

896
01:11:04.160 --> 01:11:04.960
Now I get it.

897
01:11:09.520 --> 01:11:11.200
That was just all the blood and everything.

898
01:11:11.200 --> 01:11:12.640
I just, it just, I don't know.

899
01:11:13.760 --> 01:11:14.400
I'm sorry.

900
01:11:14.400 --> 01:11:17.120
Well, you didn't write the Bible.

901
01:11:18.160 --> 01:11:18.960
I know.

902
01:11:18.960 --> 01:11:21.360
I doubt that's just a real gruesome part.

903
01:11:21.360 --> 01:11:24.800
I don't know why we were lying, kicking about in their blood.

904
01:11:24.960 --> 01:11:27.120
I thought it was very interesting as well.

905
01:11:27.120 --> 01:11:29.600
I don't know why he said it like that, but he did.

906
01:11:30.160 --> 01:11:31.200
I know there's a reason.

907
01:11:32.240 --> 01:11:32.560
Right.

908
01:11:33.840 --> 01:11:34.160
Yeah.

909
01:11:35.520 --> 01:11:38.400
So does anyone have anything before we jump off?

910
01:11:39.600 --> 01:11:40.160
Yeah.

911
01:11:40.160 --> 01:11:41.280
What verse was that again?

912
01:11:43.680 --> 01:11:46.480
Chapter 16, Ezekiel 16.

913
01:11:46.480 --> 01:11:46.800
Thank you.

914
01:11:47.440 --> 01:11:47.680
Yeah.

915
01:11:48.320 --> 01:11:48.560
Yeah.

916
01:11:48.560 --> 01:11:54.880
If you look at it, you know, it's mentioned in the, in the video, love affair.

917
01:11:55.440 --> 01:11:56.800
It's the very first one.

918
01:11:56.800 --> 01:11:57.280
Okay.

919
01:11:57.280 --> 01:11:57.680
Yeah.

920
01:11:57.680 --> 01:11:58.400
Very first one.

921
01:11:58.400 --> 01:11:59.040
Yeah.

922
01:11:59.040 --> 01:11:59.280
Okay.

923
01:12:00.240 --> 01:12:00.560
Yeah.

924
01:12:01.760 --> 01:12:05.200
You know, where he waited until we were old enough for love.

925
01:12:05.200 --> 01:12:07.440
And then he adorned us, made us a queen.

926
01:12:07.440 --> 01:12:07.840
That one.

927
01:12:08.880 --> 01:12:09.600
Yeah.

928
01:12:09.600 --> 01:12:13.440
At the beginning, apparently we're relying on the road kicking about in our blood.

929
01:12:13.440 --> 01:12:13.760
Okay.

930
01:12:13.760 --> 01:12:14.720
Well, that's the part.

931
01:12:15.840 --> 01:12:16.080
Okay.

932
01:12:16.080 --> 01:12:21.680
I remember reading that a long time ago and I was like, well, that's very graphic.

933
01:12:21.680 --> 01:12:22.000
Thanks.

934
01:12:22.000 --> 01:12:22.800
I know.

935
01:12:22.800 --> 01:12:24.000
Well, which is fascinating.

936
01:12:24.000 --> 01:12:24.560
It's a baby.

937
01:12:25.200 --> 01:12:27.840
The most vulnerable, the most vulnerable.

938
01:12:27.840 --> 01:12:32.320
What we think of as the most vulnerable age is a baby.

939
01:12:32.320 --> 01:12:33.120
That's when he saw us.

940
01:12:34.160 --> 01:12:34.560
So, yeah.

941
01:12:35.600 --> 01:12:36.640
That's a good example.

942
01:12:37.440 --> 01:12:40.480
Cause you think about a baby, how vulnerable they are, but they have power.

943
01:12:40.480 --> 01:12:42.080
As soon as they need something, we jump.

944
01:12:42.080 --> 01:12:43.280
Don't we have power?

945
01:12:43.280 --> 01:12:43.680
I know.

946
01:12:46.080 --> 01:12:50.240
Even the toughest guys, they figure out how to make the baby stop crying.

947
01:12:52.240 --> 01:12:53.040
That's so good.

948
01:12:55.200 --> 01:12:57.360
Again, very, very powerful.

949
01:12:57.360 --> 01:12:59.840
Vulnerability is a very powerful position.

950
01:13:01.120 --> 01:13:02.960
You can get anybody to do anything.

951
01:13:03.520 --> 01:13:04.480
Very influential.

952
01:13:06.720 --> 01:13:07.120
Okay.

953
01:13:07.920 --> 01:13:08.160
Right.

954
01:13:08.160 --> 01:13:09.120
Well, is that it?

955
01:13:09.120 --> 01:13:10.480
Anything else for a jump off?

956
01:13:13.680 --> 01:13:14.560
Okay.

957
01:13:14.640 --> 01:13:16.160
It was good to see everybody.

958
01:13:20.000 --> 01:13:20.320
Bye.

959
01:13:21.040 --> 01:13:21.600
Bye.

960
01:13:21.600 --> 01:13:22.160
Love you.