Hey. You're on mute anyway. I can't hear you. You're on mute.
It's your cute glasses.
We are the only ones on so far. I know it's really a bit later for everybody.
And so this is normal time for the eastern, you know, I'm on the east coast. So here in South
Carolina. Yeah. And so usually people on the eastern seacoast are on at nine, which is,
you know, your time. Okay. So here's Amy. So all of the central time people are coming in.
I don't know. Hopefully the eastern standard time people, there's some we'll be able to jump on.
We'll see. But it was the only time I was able to do, because I was invited to a dinner. So,
and then I had to, I don't want to say that I had to cut it short, but I had to like,
had to now, I'm sorry, I have to leave. So I had this call. So anyway, hey, Amy.
Hey, how's it going? Great. I had to get settled. I had tea in one hand and my phone in the other.
So I can unmute and say hello. Yeah. Where are you right now? Are you? I'm in South Carolina. Okay.
Cool. I am sorry. So I just saw your, your post. It's so exciting. I know that you told me about
it earlier, but I didn't know all the backstory and all of that. So excited for you. That's amazing.
About the woman I met? Yes. Well, the, the spiritual backstory is that it's true what you
say, Ashley, that when we show up authentically, it draws people to it. I've seen that happening
so much lately. And, and when I met with her today for lunch, she said it astonished me how the whole
thing felt like, cause we were just standing in line at Walmart and I struck up a conversation
cause it was taking long. And that's what I do when I get bored, I talk to people. And so,
and she just starts telling me about her personal life. And I like, I knew who her husband was when
she identified him. He has a very identifiable characteristic. And I was like, and I said,
his name, she, I go, that's your husband found out. They just moved to Allen where I live. They
live about a mile, two miles from me. It's just incredible. But she said, and then she goes,
I go, I would love to keep in touch with you, which was just kind of a, it was like I was
prompted to say that she goes, Oh, let me give you my phone number. And I thought, okay. Yeah.
And then just the, the, the way it all happened and I'm driving home and I could just feel the
Lord on it. And she said the exact same thing. She goes, I don't know why I gave you my phone
number. I never do that. And so she goes, but I just, there was something about you.
And so then when she found out what I, yeah, she said, I was just, I knew, I knew we were,
there was something we were supposed to connect over. And so then when she found out what I do
and she saw my website, she was like, we have to get together. And so when I met with her today
and she was asking me more about, you know, my, my work and ministry, she said, I, I,
she, first of all, she signed up for my workshop next week. I don't know if I told you that,
she's going to bring her sister too. Yeah. I better bring my a game. Cause like I have a
pastor signed up. I have like all these, like really your authentic self. Okay. Thank you.
But, um, uh, she, she, she said, I'll do whatever I can to help you promote what you're doing.
That's great. I told my friend, I said, I didn't go for the jugular and say, well,
your husband has an international podcast. He can interview me on, I think I just let that fall
in place. It'll happen. Yeah. But he does. I mean, he has an international audience. He's,
you know, been all around the world, 74 countries. Everybody knows who he is. I mean, if I, I don't
want to name drop, I don't, but, um, yeah, he's very well known. I'm excited. Congratulations.
Yay.
It's just, it's just nice, you know, having, just operating according to the
way the Lord created us to being who it is that we're called, just called to be
meaning like, you know, just operate out of our identity, out of our spirit.
And then we just let things happen.
And, and, um, yeah, that's wonderful.
I'm so excited for you.
Uh, yeah, well just, it's like, it's like you just sit back
and watch God do his thing.
It's I know it's I'm starting to figure out how you live, girl.
Isn't it wild?
Why you always have a smile on your face.
It used to irritate me.
People like you always had a smile.
No, not really.
Not like that.
It just, it was like, these people, Audrey, did I always irritate you?
I asked my sister if I always irritated her with my smile.
Always.
Just a few times.
Yeah.
We would probably, you know, when people aren't feeling well and then, I mean,
meaning like not physically, but like emotionally or spiritually and then yeah.
Smiling somebody else's face can just be aggravating.
I'm sure I just had her ups and downs with me.
Sorry, Dave, forgive me for interrupting.
Go ahead.
Oh no, that was all.
It was just like, you know, it was just like, is she really always happy or is,
yeah, is it just, she just puts that foot forward for the sake of
now?
I'm not always just like peach.
Yeah.
It's, it's not that everything always feels.
Uh, uh, how do I put that?
That there's always a deep peace and joy.
Um, now that has not always been the case, but I do always have this, this, this,
um, solidity, this anchor, this piece in the story to go back to.
And when things aren't feeling good, I just shipped out of that when someone
else needs me, as opposed to just focusing on that, because it's, so it's
not that I'm, it's not that I'm ignoring it and that I'm just acting like, oh,
well, no, nothing's wrong to myself, but I am very private and I don't share
that with everyone else.
And I just don't feel that, you know, it's just needed to go, you know,
spreading my mood around to everyone else, you know?
So it's not that I'm like ignoring it, but I'm not, I don't share it.
Um, so anyway, yeah.
So yeah, I'm not really fake.
I am being a genuine, but yeah, I get what you're saying.
And that's really maturity to be able to own your own stuff and not.
Like you said, just spread it everywhere and bring everybody into a bad now.
Now I used to, I used to do that.
Um, and it's a sign of tremendous amount of, um, of pain where someone is very
desperately spreading themselves around because they're trying so hard to find,
uh, to find relief and they're not, they're not finding it anywhere.
And so they get very, very desperate and then they start talking more and they
start becoming less private about their information.
And I, and I know that not from just watching other people.
I know it because I became that I didn't used to be like that.
And then I became that.
And then I began to think, why on earth am I doing this?
And I realized I was just so desperately hurting that nothing was, um, nothing
was, um, uh, I couldn't, I couldn't get relief.
So I was, I was desperately acting reckless in trying to find relief.
So, but now that I know where to go for that deep peace, I'm not desperate anymore.
Oh, I'm sorry.
No, I'm just almost like a cry for help.
Like you're like, yeah, yeah.
You're like, can't you see, I need help here on my mask.
Yeah.
I can relate to that for sure.
Yeah.
That that's what all of that is, is, um, you know, and like kids who are
struggling with rebellion or attitude issues or whatever, all of it is just a
cry for help and, and, uh, but yeah.
Yeah.
Hey, Misty.
I've got my, my Dallas people, my DFW people here.
Yeah.
Okay.
Well, does anyone, um, we, I was telling Audra, so we may not get
people from the East coast tonight, even though I'm on the East coast.
So I'm representing tonight for the 10 to 11 o'clock, 8 PM.
So, um, uh, invite I drove here yesterday and I, um, I forgot about the time change.
So, um, anyway, I was telling a friend who was waiting up for me.
It was like, okay, well I'll be in at nine.
And then, and then it became 10 and then I suddenly realized, oh no, I forgot about the
time change.
And so now it's going to be 11 I got in at 11 last night.
So I slept late and then I had a two hour, no, yeah, it was almost a two hour nap.
So yeah, I know.
So I think that I'll be able to sleep fine then.
I think that I just had a lot of, not that you can catch up on sleep, but we'll just
refer to it like that, you know, that I think that I just had a lot of sleep to catch up
on.
So anyway.
So does anyone have anything to start us off with?
Well, I could, I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know if there's, I'm sure there's a question in here.
I just don't know what it is.
Like, I feel like I'm going through a really like a, I know I'm in a transition right now.
Like I've, I've had a season that ended and it's, and it felt like, you know, kind of
like right in the beginning of January, I can tell this, this other season was ending
and something else was going to be beginning soon.
And I had a lot of dreams and other things that were confirming this and just like, like
it's very apparent to me, like, I'm just so ready for something new and different.
And it's in every single facet of my being like, like my coffee, I don't like it anymore.
I want it to be different.
My clothes, I like pulled all this stuff out of my closet.
I'm like, I don't want to wear that anymore.
I want it to be like, there's just like in every single little area and it's all like
discernment and prophetic for things that I know that's changing.
Like half years, I've been in this really safe, secluded little bubble of just getting
to know the Lord.
And like, it's been this certain way.
I haven't had any kind of like intimate relationships or any new big friendships.
Just everything's been like this one way for a while and it's been wonderful and safe and
I've loved it.
And then all of a sudden it's like, I, there's no richness in it anymore.
And there's like, it's not, like I can't like, I don't know, like I know his presence
hasn't left me, but it's not like the engagement isn't where it was once was, you know, like
every, like I'm having to just try and like different things and like break up my routine
and whatever.
So I don't know.
And so maybe a year ago I would have been like, oh my gosh, something's wrong.
What's wrong?
And I know there's nothing wrong, you know?
And it's interesting just being patient in the waiting and also being like, okay, Lord,
is there something that you want me to do?
But I've also been so off, like anti, like trying to make something happen that I don't
know.
It's just a weird little transition place.
And so maybe like, what do you do in that time, you know, where, I don't know, I don't
know.
I know there's a question, like, like there's a part of me that still wants to know, like,
okay, Lord, is there something I could be doing right now?
Is there something you want me to be doing right now?
And, and, and there's nothing wrong with that because sometimes he wants us to get equipped
or, or learn, but I, and I'm, so I'm just like, like, Lord, I just need you to be really
clear with me.
So right now, as I can tell right now in this moment, I had, there's not anything he's told
me specifically to do, but it's just like, okay, like, I just, I don't know.
I don't even know.
And so I thought at first, maybe I was like in a little bit of a funk and I realized like,
I'm really not, there's nothing wrong.
It's just a time of transition and being like patient and steadfast during that time.
So I don't know what the question is, but will you talk about that?
Yeah.
I think it's perfect.
I love it.
I, I, and I love your perspective that to just allow things to be.
So one of the, the suggestion that I would make is that you just allow yourself to be
open during this time.
I've noticed that that is very effective.
So in other words, you if God hasn't given you something specifically to do, but you're
feeling like there's this shift, but Lord, I don't know what the shift is.
I went through this in November and this past November, I went through this and it's like,
okay, Lord, I'm feeling the shift now for me, I wouldn't happy about it.
So it sounds like you're in a much more healthy perspective of it, but I was not happy about
it.
Yeah.
it. And but, but what I did notice is that during the time I
just had to let go, they had to have to release, you know,
shifting into that rest, just let go and release and just
allow things to be and, and it's not just allow things to be as
in like, I'm just gonna lay here and allow things happen to
happen around me and happen to me and whatever. It's just it's
that it's it's different. It's this. Um, I don't want to say
offensive person position, but kind of think of it like in an
offensive position that as opposed to being defensive and
just like, okay, well, I'm just gonna wait for things to happen
to me and come upon me. It's more like this open position of
anticipation, expectancy, and this position in which you're
open and ready to receive. Now, it doesn't mean that you're so
open that you absorb anything that comes at you. I just mean
that you're open to receive an expectant. And because the word
because that then, then you are, you're more likely to sense
things when the Lord finally brings something and be open to
to it. So it's this it's, it's putting your is positioning
yourself internally, to explore, to discover, to
investigate, without pursuing and trying to make something
happen. So it's not that kind of an offensive, but it's like this
open curiosity. Curiosity by the by, by the way, is the opposite
of fear. Very interesting. So that if you can get a child to
be curious, it will it will stamp down his fear. It was
really defined really neat. But that anyway, so it's just kind
of curious a discovery as opposed to a Oh my goodness,
Lord. I don't want to miss something. No, we don't have to
worry about missing something. We just need to be open to it.
Because the Lord doesn't want to, to know that the Lord's not
being mean and cruel and hiding something is they know I want
you to work hard to find this thing. You know, you're going to
be led by the Spirit, because the very being that is guiding
you is in you and you are in him. So there's an aspect about
you that already knows, because you're one with him. And so you
just you just allow yourself to allow the thing to reveal itself
to you. mysteries do that mysteries when we honor them in
the Spirit, they reveal themselves to us. So anyway,
that's, that's what I have to say about that. Hopefully,
that's helpful.
Yeah, I'll just continue to be patient and curious.
Yeah, and it's fun, because it means that the Lord is shifting
things, things are going to be different. You're, you're,
you're going to be open to them. And there's nothing left for you
to do. So you get to so my point is, it's a perfect position,
because you get to receive something, you're being given
something, you don't have to work for it. And if, and you
have permission to be curious to discover to investigate, to
figure out to kind of look in because you're just because
you're, you're when you're discovering things, you're
big, because you're trying to figure them out and just trying
to understand not figure them out, like desperately like, Oh,
my gosh, I gotta make sure I don't miss something not like
that. But just kind of like, this is interesting. Let's look
into this. It's a perfect position to be in because you
kind of get to play around a little bit in your
in the metaphysical, in the metaphysical, you kind of get to
play around a little bit, you know, kind of in your soulish
realm, you know, the spirit realm, and you get to play
around without having to be responsible for doing something
with it. And for stepping out in something and making it happen
or whatever. It's, it's a it's playtime. I like that. You
know, yeah, it's, it's like kids, you know, just being
thrown on the floor with all of these toys and just play with
them. There's nothing that they have to accomplish. It's not
school. It's kind of like kids who go to go to school and they
come home and play and they get to make up their world. It
because you're just exploring, they're just figuring it out
and they're discovering.
things and they're developing certain aspects about themselves. It's fun. There's no requirements.
There's no stipulations. There's just, and then you just, and, um, so it's, it's like
God's invitation for you to allow yourself to be open. Um, yeah, it's a, yeah. Does that
make sense? Yeah. It's fun. Yeah. And it's, I just, I think it was just a really good
time to get some reassurance on it, you know? Cause, um, yeah, I mean, like I could tell
like immediately within days when the shift took place and I was like, that's interesting.
And I like, I, I was ready. Whereas like a couple of, if you'd ask me a set of questions
a few weeks ago, I wouldn't have been ready. And then it was like, suddenly I was ready
and I was in it. Um, so, but then there's this like rational, logical side of me that
wants to know how long will I be in it? Yeah. So it was just good to hear you, um, affirm
some things. So yeah. Thanks. Yeah. No, it's, um, it is, it's like being out of school,
getting to go home and play a little bit. It's not that you don't have the other stuff
that, that just don't do, but it's in this like particular areas of your life. You just
get to play. You have permission for it to not have to accomplish or mean something.
You don't have to attribute a meaning to the discovery. It's just, I don't know what I
think about this. As opposed to, well, you know, I'm going to take painting classes because
God told me to, and I've got to do this. And well, then it's like this, this set trajectory,
but it's kind of, but I don't know. There's, there's, um, I don't know. There's just like
this special fun aspect of, uh, of permission that you have in a, in a shifting time in,
in which it's, uh, you're internally being open. I don't know. Yeah. I keep trying to
think of other ways to describe what I'm saying. I know I've already said it, but I'm just
like, I don't know. How else would I describe this? It's fun. It's really fun. It's very
special time. So, yeah. Thanks. So does anyone have anything else? Where did, where did Audra
go? Uh, I don't know. She's, do you have a question Audra? I thought I was unmuted. Philip
just finished work. So I just turned off my screen for a minute. Um, well, I know I've
talked to Ashley about this a little bit before, but how you're, you know, you're in
the middle of things that trigger you or, or just make you upset, like with my six-year-old
and, and, you know, it just very strong willed child and she's amazing, but the strong will
is there and forth. And it's like certain periods of time, it just gets so much worse.
And when it just happens over and over and over and over and over and over and over again,
especially in one day, it's like your mind just, you feel like you're just breaking, but it's
happening right now. And I think that's one of the first times I've actually reverted a little
bit back to the way I used to operate because nothing I'm saying is working, even though I'm
trying to remain calm, I'm trying to say things, you know, she just, she talks over me, she
interrupts me, she walks away. I mean, anyway, so it's just in the midst of, of it all. It's, um,
um, rough. Yeah. I've been able to, you know, having conversations with my husband or something,
if we disagree on something and he gets really, he gets really heated.
I'm able to keep calm or as before, I could never keep calm.
Because the passion and that.
Perceived anger in his voice, which I I've told him before,
I know you're angry.
And he's like, I'm not.
But you sound so upset.
That I'm not, I'm just talking loud.
That's not how you sound.
And, you know, you just.
So we've been fine. It's been, it's been great. It's just, you know,
It's definitely with my oldest.
It is.
It is really.
Really pushing it.
And it's, it's been hard to say.
I'm not.
But you sound so upset.
That I'm not, I'm just talking loud.
That's not how you sound.
And, you know, you just.
That just rises up all my anxiety and everything.
But.
So we've been fine. It's been, it's been great. It's just, you know,
It's definitely with my oldest.
It is.
Is really.
And it's, it's been hard to stay in.
Quite a bit.
Especially recently.
But.
No, there's not really a question.
I almost called you the other day about it.
Really.
But there's no question. It's just kind of like.
What else to do?
Okay.
Have you gotten to session 13?
Yeah, I've watched all of the original ones.
Or the foundation one.
And now I'm in the other one.
Yes.
13 was great.
Was great for that.
That was really encouraging and eye-opening.
To how.
I should be treating her, which I have not.
So.
I think I mentioned in there.
The Lord began to teach me how to,
how to do that when I was teaching Nathan.
Remember.
Yeah.
He was my little sixth grader.
And anyway, about how to,
how to interact with a person like in that way.
And the reason I mentioned that is he was a child. No, no, he was,
he was in sixth grade. He wasn't six years old.
He was in seventh grade.
But anyway, my point is that God taught me this.
In working with children. And it wasn't just Nathan.
I would do it with it, with them, with other children as well.
And I've done it, you know,
when I'm interacting with Cora or Kayla or Cole or whoever.
But then I also did it with a, with.
You know, work situations and personal,
you know,
personal relationships with other people.
And, you know,
immediately it's like this process because there's, for one thing,
There's been so much affirmation.
In their minds of something different that they believe about
themselves. So now to be.
So now to come at it from a different perspective is very new for
them.
And you know, that, that I'm able to speak very specifically to core
values.
And, you know,
all of who it is that she is.
And you know that I'm just know this. I'm just affirming it for you.
It is all very, very good.
She doesn't know.
How to handle what's in her.
And so all of these, she it's constant pushing,
constant pushing of boundaries and it can be very exhausting for the
parent.
And so, you know,
she's got the tenderest little tenderest most compassionate little
heart.
And so that's very normal thing for people to do.
Even at, you know, regardless of how old they are.
And then people that are very, very strong will.
When their children, you know,
just feel like they're doing it to a tremendous extreme,
but everything it is that she's doing,
she's not doing in order to, you know,
To be mean and, you know,
To be mean and whatever she's doing it either out of fear.
Out of self-protection or out at,
because she's believing something that isn't about herself.
That's not true about the situation. It's not true.
Or she's just trying to find out, okay, house.
She's trying to figure out how safe am I.
And if she doesn't feel safe internally.
Then because of what it is that she believes about herself or the
environment or whatever,
then she'll try to create and try to create her own protective
environment, which is why she'll try to, you know,
Interact to you or push boundaries.
Trying to see, can I trust that these boundaries are,
we there and that I can rely on them or will they crumble?
And then that's giving her, her sense of security. And so anyway,
Just, just, I know that you and I've talked about this,
but that's what's going on. So my point is don't be discouraged.
encouraged in continuing to do it, that it's like, I feel like I'm doing so good and I'm
operating in rest, and then I'm not operating in rest, you know, and then how do I reach
my child and it's this process and it's this journey and as you gain freedom, they'll gain
freedom. As you gain freedom, you will not only naturally interact with them different
without having to think about it, without having to be so intentional about it, and
try to be learning a new way of doing it. It's just going to come up out of who it is
that you are, but also you will be, you having gained that freedom, will break off things
in their world, in your family's world, that make it easier for them to then make their
own decisions to step into their own freedom. You broke off the chains for them, so to speak.
You're the one who hacked the jungle with a butter knife. They still have to walk the
same trail that you did, but it's a lot easier for them to walk it because you pioneered
it. And so in the spirit, that's what's happening. And then the other thing is obviously as an
authority in your home, you changing the authority in which you operate and what authority
from which kingdom you allow to come in, will change the atmosphere for everyone else. So
anyway, you've got all kinds of things going on in this process. So I would highly recommend
that the first thing that you do is you always release yourself from shame and condemnation
that is vitally important, not just for you, but it's vitally important for Cora in this
situation, even if she doesn't know it spiritually, that the immediate as well as the long-term
ramifications are, rely very heavily on you, not shaming yourself or feeling condemnation.
That will start really shifting the foundation of everything for you and make things easier
for you to release other things, frustration, anger, whatever, is you can release yourself
from shame and condemnation for how it is you feel, what it is that's happening, how
it is that she's acting and what you think that that's saying about you, or you think
that that's saying about the situation or whatever to release from all that. And also
release yourself from the shame and condemnation of a feeling like, am I doing this right?
Why is this taking so long? I'm still in process, releasing the shame and condemnation
for how you're going through it and how your journey that will shift everything faster.
I promise you the fastest way that we can learn is just like, like a, like a child learns
and it's a little, it's, it looks and feels a bit reckless. And the fact that, okay, we're,
if this is true, then we're going to stand out on it. And we're just gonna, we're just
going to step out and we're just going to do it. So just releasing yourself from all
of that shame and all of that condemnation can look in the middle of it. Like it's very
messy, but you will shift faster. It might look messier, but you will shift faster. I
promise. And I know that by experience. I know that because other people have lived
their lives like that. And they told me, and I started living my life like that. And I
discovered it is true. It looks very messy to people on the outside. It felt very messy
to me. It was like, I don't know what's going on, but if I, if I if I operate like that,
I discovered that I shifted faster. And then, you know, things such as if, if you want to
act like your father, the fastest way is to simply act like you think that your father
acts. So to speak in other words, and I, and I, this, this is going to sound really,
um, I don't mean this to sound blasphemous, so don't take it this way, but the idea of
like the fastest way to be like God, meaning like, you know, like our father, not being
God himself, but being like God, the fastest way to be like God is to act like him is, is to,
is to walk around and act like we are God. And I don't mean that we are God who made us. I'm
not talking about anything blasphemous. I'm talking about the fact that the essence of who
it is that we are is there. That's what I'm saying. And, um, the fastest way for us to
learn is to act like it. Um, and, uh, anyway, so again, releasing shame and condemnation,
as opposed to trying to work out and figure out, okay, how do I reconcile this? How do I resolve
this? How do I understand what's going on? I'm.
trying to understand that it that's, that's the way that the
world has wanted to, and has taught us to learn because it's
the fastest, it's the way that they saw as easiest, because the
pain doesn't feel as strong because it lasts over a longer
amount of time. And it's not as acute, but it takes much longer
to go through. And it just, it just looks nicer. So people
felt like they weren't losing as much dignity and pride, because
it doesn't look as as chaotic, it looks a little more
organized and orderly, and you can hide your you're going
through the process, but it takes a lot longer. And so what
I began to do about a year and a half to years ago, is I thought,
okay, forget it, forget what I look like, to my family, forget
what I look like to my friends, I'm just going to go for it. And
so I risked my reputation on it. And that is how I changed so
fast. So anyway, and I and I still choose that. And usually,
that is my choice. When I come against a threshold and
something it is that I'm processing through and that I'm
learning to operate in, is I will let it be ugly and, and
chaotic and confusing and not pretty, in order to learn it
faster. So but that that's usually my choice is not always
my choice, but it is usually my choice. Every now and then my
soul can't handle it. I still really struggles. And that's
when I make that choice on that chart, which is, you know, that
to declare the goodness of the character of the Lord, but to go
where my soul finds peace, if something if I'm really
struggling too much with my soul at that time. But anyway, so I
just wanted to mention that if you're frustrated, you know,
you're like, Oh, well, I'm trying. And sometimes, you
know, sometimes I just lose it, release yourself from shame and
condemnation. And from all of those different areas that I
mentioned, you know, how you're feeling how she's feeling how
you you know, what you think it's saying about you, what you
think it's saying about the situation, and then the shame
condemnation of, Oh, man, I was doing so good. And then it's
all okay, you will get through it faster, you will you will
learn it faster, you will shift faster, if you just release
yourself in the whole process. Think of it like a drunk person
driving, they're usually the one to survive, because they're so
loose. There's, there's, they're, they're not, they're
not so tight. And they're not so there's, there's fewer
inhibitions. And it's not just not just psychologically
intimidation. But physically, they're a lot more loose. And in
other words, they they've released, there's, there's not
restrained and constricted. And what's the word that's stiff,
they're less stiff. And they survive. Because it can. Yeah,
anyway, so I just wanted to mention that, because this is
just all part of the process. And it's okay, and don't get
discouraged in it. And that's the secret. That's the secret
when you're in the middle of the process, is to just let the
process be and to release shame and condemnation in the middle
of how you're processing it. That's how you'll get through it
faster.
I know, it's not a question I haven't. Well, no, I've asked
her, maybe not in so many words, what does she need? But you
know, what is what is she trying to do? Or? I don't I don't know
how I've worded it. But I think I've, you know, asked her
basically that I know her teacher has. And she usually
just said she doesn't know. She doesn't know why she does
things. She doesn't know why she can't remember things. She
actually came up to me today. And it made me feel so bad. But
again, no condemnation. She asked me to take her to her to
the doctor after school, because she said, she keeps forgetting
all the stuff she's supposed to remember, and she thinks
something's wrong with her. So anyways, and we really think
about the way I say things and exactly what I say and how it
anyway. Yeah, but there is a praise. I'm not about that. But
you did do a great job today. So there's that. I have been
because I do a lot of Zumba and working out. And I have this
neuroma in my foot that hurts really, really, really bad. And
I have a hard time cleaning. I have a hard time walking
anywhere. Just everything hurts.
if I do it for about 30 minutes to an hour.
But today I cleaned from eight o'clock to two o'clock
on my feet the whole time.
And then I went to work out and do yoga.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, wait.
You cleaned your house from 8 a.m. to 2 p.m.?
Well, that involves helping my husband wash the dogs
and do laundry and do all the dog laundry, so yeah.
Okay, well, I just wanted to give you props
because that's pretty incredible.
And if you have it on your foot,
is that what you're saying?
There's something on your foot that's painful?
And that's, wow, that's pretty amazing.
Well, all that to say is the praises.
I've been telling my foot that it's fine
and I've been telling it that for a couple of weeks.
And so I've been able to do more and more each time.
And I've never been able to vacuum the whole house
without it hurting so bad.
So, and then I went dancing, so.
It's like above and beyond
while you've got this thing on your foot.
That's pretty amazing.
Right, so it went really well.
And it still hurts really bad.
But you know, it's not impossible to walk
the way it would be.
It's better.
Yeah.
It's listening.
I know.
You're taking it to the end.
Before I did this and everything,
I was planning on having surgery on it
to get the neuroma taken out like I did on my other foot
10 years ago or so.
But now I'm saying we don't have to have surgery
because it's going to go away.
Yes.
Yay, I'm so excited for you, Aja.
That is huge.
I know.
Cause I was not looking forward to being on trenches
for what, a fourth time in 10 years?
So anyway.
I know.
That's wonderful.
I'm so glad.
Yeah.
That's the first time I remember like really talking
to my body was my foot.
And it healed within hours.
Yeah.
Of course mine was a little different, but yeah.
I'm so excited.
That's huge.
I always love hearing all of this stuff
where everyone's like, okay, I've been doing this
and I've been doing it for two weeks.
And I'm like, oh good.
That, I mean, because that people are understanding
it's not like this one and done thing.
It's like, we're changing.
We're changing how we approach life.
And therefore we've approaching life, you know
from a different perspective for so long.
It's not this one and done thing where, boom, you know
I'm just going to tell you and it should fix itself.
Oh, it didn't.
Okay. Well, it doesn't work.
No, it's like, it's, it's ourselves that we're overcoming.
And so that, and we just continue to choose it.
We continue to choose it.
And then things, things start to shift.
Things start to shift.
So.
Not only that, but the palpitations
of my heart is going down.
Cause I keep telling it to calm down
and it's perfectly fine.
And then my anxiety levels have gone way down.
So there's been so many things that have happened
in like the last month that would have sent me
into a huge panic attack for days and it didn't.
And I'm just, I'm so excited.
That's huge.
Now you, you don't, you don't have to
I always tell people this, you do not have to
but if you could, I love the emoji, Misty.
Yay, a little party, a little party horn.
But if you could, if you would like to write those things
down in, on a post and the rest intensive
because not only would it encourage other people
it will remind you of it.
It will remind you of, okay, that's right.
I've been doing all of these things because,
and here's why is, is you're going to go
through things in the future and it might be next week.
It might be in two months from now.
It might be in next year.
And it's in, in, in the requirement of having to
in choosing that the Lord is as good as he says that he is.
And what it is, we forget how much we've already,
what we forget what it is that we've overcome
in those really difficult times we forget.
And so that'll give you an opportunity
to have something to look back on.
You know, if you can look up your own posts or, you know
or posts of other people, you know,
that have gone through some really difficult things
and you hear in the, in the rest intensive
you can watch all their posts and all of their struggles.
And then you hear their testimonies as well.
And then you, and then we, you can hear yourself
in your own posts as well as other people's
of the struggles and then on the other side.
And sometimes, yeah, there's a gap.
time in between. But the thing is that it reminds us of the faithfulness of God, because,
you know, I can just see that in the future, you might need to remember these things. And so you'll
have it documented. So anyway, if you want to, you do not have to, but I just always encourage people
to do that. I can attest to that. Many times I've talked to Ashley, and she'd say, Amy, go back and
read your own post. It's like, don't you remember? And I'm like, no, I don't remember. So yeah,
it is helpful. It's very helpful. Yeah. And then one time I sent Amy and some videos of her and I
said, can you go back and watch your first one? Didn't I say that Amy? Or was it? I just think
of it. Go back and watch some of your beginning or beginning private consultations so that she
could see some of the things that she was saying and how much, you know, she just shifted her
vocabulary and their perspective and all of that. And I do that. I keep records of certain things on
my iPhone. Certain ways that God, I have a list of my dreams. I have a list of provision stories
of financial provision or, you know, just provision in other ways because God provides
for us in a variety of ways. And I'll write them down so don't forget. And then I'll stop
periodically and think and remember how, I don't know, just remember stories in order to kind of
keep them alive as, you know, those rocks of remembrance. So anyway, I think that it would not
only help you, you know, it obviously would be very helpful and encouraging to other people as
well. So anyway, just no pressure. I won't ask you about it again. I'm encouraged by, I was very
encouraged by hearing you talk about the shifts that have taken place with you talking to your
body. Yes. I'm so excited for you, Audra. Can you share maybe a little bit about how you talk to
your body? Because that's one area I haven't really, I've been discouraged in. I've had great
success with my soul. But because, and that's a lot of times does seem to be instant. Like I'll
go to bed at night and I'll tell my spirit to work on something in my soul. And I'll wake up and feel
different. But with my body, I guess I expected it to be the same, that I would just say it one
time or sometimes I'll repeat it periodically. But can you share a little bit more specifically
about how you've been talking to your body? How often? And just, I don't know, whatever might be
helpful. Are you talking to me or Ashley? Yeah. Yeah. I mean, you said talking to your foot and stuff.
Yeah. Well, I just remember, well, at first I would do what I used to do, except I didn't,
I didn't do it in the spirit. I did it in my soul where I would tell, you know, my heart to quit it
and, you know, just kind of be mean, mean to my body and just kind of talk mean to it because
it was doing what it was supposed to. But then the more I listened to Ashley talk about the way
she talked to her foot and how she consoled it and that it's fine and you don't need to be afraid
and you don't need to take all this on. And I realized that I was not speaking kindly to my body
at all. And I started, I started doing that. It was a little bit hard because I still felt like
it was its fault for whatever was going on. But I did start doing a lot nicer and telling it that
it was fine and that it's already healed and it needs to start acting that way. And to just,
like Ashley said, you know, just kind of leave it, leave it alone. Stop trying to heal itself
and go and play so that the spirit can come and do it because that's the spirit's job.
I would just kind of do that over and over again. And then
anytime it hurt or anytime I was about to go do something like clean or go to the gym or
anything that I knew would make it hurt in usual circumstances. That's helpful. It's like I,
now that you say that, I think it's because you, you know, in church we, we hear how people like
speak healing or command healing. And it's
It's not really nice.
And so like you said that I just really recognize
that when I talk to my soul, I'm really, you know,
comforting because I've heard you, you know,
Ashley teaches that I haven't really heard you talk
about talking to your body,
but I haven't been talking to my body the same way.
So that's probably why I haven't seen much success here.
So thank you.
I can't wait.
I've had digestive trouble like all my life
and I've had people pray and I thought it was healed
and then it comes back and all this.
And, oh, it's related to this.
It's related to that.
It's, you know, all the spiritual roots
and all that kind of stuff.
And I've just been around and around
and around the mountain with it.
I'm just so tired of it.
And I'm like, God, you know, can you just get rid of this?
I'm so tired of it.
And anyway, so yay.
Thank you for that.
I'm excited to try it.
Try that.
So I probably would not have started it this soon,
but it's like ever since we came back,
I came back to America in 2004 from Turkey,
I've had ailments and surgeries and broken bones
of what I've never had and sprained ankles
like I've never had.
And just things happening over and over and over again
and tiny little accidents that caused me
to be in a wheelchair for nine months
and, you know, just ridiculous things.
And then when Ashley said, you know,
you can talk to your body and the spirit will heal it.
I thought, well, I've got to do this
because I can't look like this anymore.
It's ridiculous.
It's rough.
So yeah, I probably would not have started it that soon
because it made me nervous.
Cause what if it doesn't work?
But I thought I'd better try it.
I can't look like this anymore.
Yeah.
And you know what you were saying, you know,
the fact that the whole like talking mean to it
and whatever and like, well, as you know,
the, that is what that, that perspective
and that attitude is why our body is afraid of us.
It's a disassociation.
It's like, it's, well, this is your fault.
So the, in that disassociation,
there's no wonder that the body thinks
it's abandoned and alone because we even blame it
as if we're outside of it and it's not us.
So in other words, it's, we have to love us.
We have to not think that because this body is in pain
and is hurt that, how would I put that?
How would I put that?
That it's, that we're not safe with it either.
So we think that we're not safe with it
and that it is the cause of our, you know,
our pain, you know, our insecurity,
meaning like our lack of safety and whatever.
So we try to distance it and then it thinks, okay,
I really am abandoned alone.
This affirms it and then it seeks to protect itself
and then it can't and it's victim to its environment
and victim to its circumstances.
So it's important for us to, like what you were talking
about, just to love on it,
to absorb it back into us by intention.
In other words, that we're choosing that it is,
instead of separating ourselves from it,
trying to protect ourselves from our own body
to actually, you know, choose no, no, you're part of this.
I received this, I received this as, I'm sorry,
DASA, no, it's over there whining.
No, baby, I know.
I'm right here, baby.
I'm right here.
And we receive it into ourself and that we try to acknowledge
that we are one in spirit, soul, and body,
not just spirit, not just soul and body, but all, all one.
And that will bring a lot of the healing
and that, because we're presenting ourselves to it like,
hey, look, I'm a King, I'm here.
I protect you, I'm for you, I'm covering you.
There's no reason to be afraid because I'm here.
But if we're not there,
then there's a reason for it to be afraid.
So yeah, you made some amazing points, yeah.
Yeah, that's, I'm excited now to implement that way
because I can, I can perceive the difference
and the power in what you're saying.
And almost, it's almost like my body's already responding
to just hearing it.
And so I'm excited.
This is-
To be loving to it.
Yeah, yeah.
I can see what you're saying.
It's almost like talking to a child the same way, like, you know, getting down
on them and they feel abandoned because you're blaming them or condemning them
or judging them and calling them bad.
Or, you know, sending that message, like you're not acceptable.
And so then they withdraw.
So your body would do the same thing.
And that's, that's really kind of what I've been doing.
It's like, no, you're healed.
You know, stop that.
Come on, do it with the program.
I'm being that authoritarian parent that I hate, you know, like to my own body.
It's like being demanding and yeah.
It causes us to, uh, we can do the same thing in trying to lose weight.
Just out of curiosity, you know, just for whatever help this might be.
Maybe I'm the only one that's helpful too, but I'm going to say it
because it's helpful to me and hopefully it'll be helpful to somebody
who watches this, that, uh, when we're trying to lose weight and we get
frustrated, like, oh my word, you know, I've gained more or I've, um, or
we, or we, you know, we look at ourselves and think about how it is that we feel
or think about how it is that we look and we don't like it.
We, uh, again, out of self psychological self-protection, we try to separate
ourselves from our own body and be just like, why is it?
Why is it acting like this?
I'm eating right?
I'm doing this.
I make good choices.
I'm going to, and, and we have to, we have to choose to receive and love
it unconditionally, regardless of how it acts and responds, because it's
doing it, what it's doing out of trauma that we've either caused on it
because of what it is that we ate.
Not that we need to be receiving blame for that, because again, this
is just going to create it more and more of a negative cycle, but just
this idea that, you know, it's, it's experienced a lot of trauma, either
psychological trauma that it is metabolizing and it is, it's, it's,
um, it's manifesting into the physical, uh, or it is, um, receiving
some kind of like a physical trauma, either something that's happened
to it, or we have, um, um, uh, or we've ingested something or ingested
some toxins or through a shampoo or I don't know, whatever, and it's,
it's trying to survive.
And, and, um, and so we have to, it, it, like what we talk about.
People moving into the spirit.
I mean, you know, um, acting according to who it is that they are in spirit.
The only way to do that is if we, they feel safe with us, where they are,
if they don't feel safe with this, where they are, then they're not
going to feel safe to leave that place and go into the unknown.
So it's the same thing with our body.
We ha it has to feel safe with us now in order for it to feel safe, to
change and lose the weight.
It's really wild how that works.
But anyway, so I just wanted to throw that out there since we were
talking about healing, but it does in talking kindly to our body.
It works for weight as well.
Then a huge thing for me is the more we let go, even though my youngest
is four.
Yeah.
The more we let go, then, um, uh, the, the more weight we lose because
our, our, because, okay.
Think about it.
Our body manifests what it is that we believe in, what it is that we
choose, which is if we're holding on to things, it will too.
So we have to let go.
We have to, we have to operate all of our life like that in our body
will manifest the, the, what it is that our soul believes.
And if our soul believes in letting go and then releasing and not
holding on, our body will begin to manifest the same way.
So yeah, interesting.
And you believe you're fat or you're, you're going to manifest that
you're telling your body that you're fat.
I've noticed that, you know, I'm not extremely heavy, but you know,
I'm at the age where you belly fat.
And I noticed if I'm just like chill about it, like it almost just
like evaporates.
But if I get obsessed with it, it just seems impossible to, uh, to
change.
So yeah, there's something to be said about the whole idea of, of
loving our bodies.
And there's that thing that it's DASA, you know, or she is whining
baby girl.
No, uh-uh.
No, get in your bed.
There's a, you know, there's that whole thing.
about, you know, the non-Christians, talking about the, that, what was, what's that called?
It's that whole, that whole trendy thing, you know, about like, oh, love your body just
the way you are, whatever.
Have you noticed though, that those people don't lose weight?
But here's the interesting thing.
There is truth in the fact that it's very important that we love our bodies, very important,
that they're not, they're not going to the root of everything of why it is they're holding
on to the weight.
And so therefore they're still not losing it, but there's still a truth that they have,
that a lot of them have learned, oh, they're as big as beautiful, yeah.
There's, there's, there's a truth that, that we, that they don't fully understand how to
operate in, but that they know to talk about and that they know is true.
And that is the fact that, that we're supposed to love our bodies.
And when we love our bodies and when we begin to release things, then we can actually make
it feel safe enough to change and to release because it, it holds onto things due to trauma,
due to fear.
We do the same thing.
Our body is a visible manifestation of how it is that we operate in the soul.
It, it puts into physical form what it is that we do in the metaphysical.
And if we're holding on in the metaphysical, our bodies will hold on because we hold on
out of fear.
We latch on and grab a hold of something out of fear.
Our bodies do the same thing.
If it thinks that it's not going to get to eat, it holds on.
If it thinks that we're, that we're under stress and anxiety all the time, it thinks,
oh my goodness, I'm going to need this for storage.
And so it holds on.
You know, just, just all kinds of things.
And then it holds on for other reasons.
The body's idea, when we're stressed about something, even if it doesn't feel necessarily
physically threatened by like lack of food or whatnot, that's only one of the traumas
that the body feels that can come to it.
But regardless, it's go-to is to hold on and to, and to, to, to step.
And because that's our, that's our go-to is to hold on to anything.
That's why I talk about in the rest intensive about releasing, about letting go, and that
we already are everything that we wanted to be.
We're just holding on to things that aren't us.
And so the whole process I recommend is focusing on just the letting go, not on getting somewhere,
doing something, just letting go.
And it's the same thing with our body.
Our body is made to be healthy.
Our body knows how to be healthy.
It knows what to do.
It knows what to do better than we do.
Scientists are still trying to figuring out, to figure out the machine.
And so, yes, Amy, go ahead.
Yeah, we're, we're about to jump off here and, and bye, but anyway, so the, our body
just needs to be told, needs, needs to feel safe enough with us to let go.
So anyway, just thought I'd mention that.
Well, it's good to get, you're welcome.
Well, it's good to get to see y'all and I will see y'all I guess next week.
So I don't know what next week is, so I don't know what day it is, but well, I know it's
next week, but I don't know which day next week, Thursday lands on, but anyway, it's
good to see y'all and hope y'all have a good night.
Bye.