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Okay, now that we've had the creepy voice, all right, I may be the only one that's ever

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thought that.

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But seriously, it's just kind of creepy.

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All right.

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So does anyone have a question they would like to start us off with?

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Because we all stare at each other awkwardly.

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Only me, I can always come up with something, but I always prefer to get a question.

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I've only had to do that, I think twice in all of the all of the fireside chats that

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I've done, which I think I'm now close to 50.

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I've only ever had to do that twice, though.

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So I like to sit and wait for a little bit.

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So yeah.

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You know, when you're talking about sons and and kings, you don't use the feminine gender,

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the female gender.

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I was wondering about that.

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So sons.

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Well, so I'm glad you asked that I've actually been asked that before and did a whole teaching

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on it.

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So it's in the it's in the guide.

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Oh, did you ask that liberty all like a two years ago or however long it was?

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So there's teaching because liberty helps me.

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So I set aside some time and I addressed it.

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But so it's because in the Bible, God always addresses us as sons when it's talking about

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our relationship to the Lord, meaning like our relationship of like a sonship covenant.

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Now, yes.

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In the Old Testament, there are times where he talks about like sons and daughters, etc.

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But also he does mention that in Galatians, he says that I think it's Galatians, you know,

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where it mentions, you know, that there's no neither a Jew nor Greek nor slave nor free

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nor male nor female, etc.

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So sonship is just strictly a relationship word, not a gender word, not a gender role.

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So a son, because we're a son to a father, and we have that kind of relationship as opposed

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to trying to differentiate, you know, whether or not we're, I mean, trying to differentiate

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genders, it's strictly talking about how do we relate to God, we relate to God as a son,

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that's our connection with him.

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And so because he's not identifying anything or trying to delineate a difference between

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a male or a female, he has a word that he uses is he just uses the word son, at least

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that's how we translate it into English.

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Now what the original Greek is, I don't know, I would imagine that the original Greek and

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Hebrew was also the masculine term as well.

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Because typically in language, you always use the masculine to refer to humanity.

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They use the feminine to refer to certain things like ships, nations, etc.

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But whenever and I have a degree in English, so I'll just say that in just for what it

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is that we've that someone whoever it is out there that chose it, they determined, okay,

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well, which pronoun or are we going to use in order to refer to people, if we want to

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use a singular word, but we have both, we have two singular words, we have one for him,

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I mean, for in other words, a male gender and one for female gender.

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So what are we going to pick if we have to pick one, and it was just chosen that we pick

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him, probably because it was a very, I don't know, you could look at it from a sociological

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perspective and say, oh, it's a very male dominated society and perspective and the

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fact that they were the ones who are usually out in the professional world at the time.

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So I don't really care about any of that.

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I mean, really, I'm not, I have no big thing, big beef, or whatever, between male and female

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and like the difference between and, you know, like the feminist movement or anything.

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It's like, oh, that's nice.

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I think it's great that we're all different.

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But as far as this goes, this isn't it's because that's how God always seems to refer to our

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covenant with him.

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In other words, our relationship with him is he refers to it as a sonship covenant.

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And it's not related to gender, it's just related to the fact that we are a son in

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relationship to a father.

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So it's how we approach him, it's how he sees us as opposed to calling out a gender.

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I have a longer explanation for it, I think in the in the that you can look in the guides

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and look at additional teachings, and it's in there somewhere.

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But that's the general idea.

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Does that answer your question?

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Sure.

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So anyone have anything else?

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So, I was going to ask.

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So, I don't know, one, one way of saying it is a little bit more general and once maybe more specific, but talking about, like how we talk a lot about how we relate to the father like personally and how we view, you know, who he is and who we are and that's

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also so important. I think something that I keep running up against and and mulling over in my mind is like how do we think about like other people like other sons, right.

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And maybe more specifically on this is like a theological question of like how do we view people who are not.

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Like stuck in religion and like rules and rigidity and, you know, shaming and condemning everyone that doesn't do it this way and believe this way in Christianity or if it's like people who are toxic and unhealthy and abusive, either, either way like

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how do we view other people to see them through the father's eyes, especially. I mean this gets into bigger stuff to with, with kind of, you know, I guess, the view that you might have or we might have individually on heaven and hell and different

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things but like how do we, how do we view people rightly I guess.

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How do we look at them and judge them in any way based on the fruit of their lives and their character like do we try not to make any assumptions about the motivations of their heart even if they are continually abusing people and kind of like you described

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in court, and you know kind of what happened to them and how do we see God's even God's heart or his view of like vengeance versus mercy which is really his vengeance is mercy.

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Oftentimes, you know, I think that's what he wants to pour out his mercy more than anything.

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And we don't want people to get what they deserve. So, I hope there's something in there that you can take and run with.

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So, the way that I view people from what it is that I understand from scripture is that we're all created in his image we're all created as spirit. However, we also all have a flesh, including all the non Christians as well you know spirit and soul and body,

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and they have made they have not come into agreement that God has died for them.

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So God says that he died for the whole world God says that what it is that he did he didn't just do for Christians now sure five point Calvinist would disagree with that.

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But, which is what I used to be, but in fact I wrote an entire paper and got an A on it, because even about this in in college, even though my professor disagreed with me.

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He said that I that I actually explained it all so logically sound and so logically well that he gave me an A.

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And, and he didn't agree with it. And now neither do I.

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So the thing is that I thought that I knew and I get back it up with scripture and everything that it worked very differently than what it is that I believe now.

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But, so what it is that I believe now is that yes God died for God died for everyone. That's what scripture that look what it looks like and what I sense you know my spirit my relationship Lord.

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That's what it looks like to me God died literally for everyone, and then therefore it leaves it up to us as to whether or not we're going to come into agreement with the fact that we are who God says that we are that he that he's that he's given us

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the opportunity to have everything. Are we going to choose to accept it to allow ourselves to be unified with him, you know, and, you know, etc. Or do we not, you know, do we choose instead to go the way of Adam and Eve where they chose.

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I know I'm going to live on my own. I'm going to do everything on my own. I'm going to create my own outcomes, because I want to be in control I don't feel safe.

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I don't feel I don't believe God. I don't believe that he's a safe place for me and therefore I'm going to take control of it.

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And then what happens when we believe that we are unsafe is will then we start doing very abusive things to other people, because we're not seeing things rightly we're not seeing things through the eyes of Christ.

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We're not seeing things as God sees them and assist, and because we've rejected that truth, we've said no. What he says is not true. So if what he says isn't true.

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So, you know, how are we going to start acting like we're going to start doing all kinds of things in self protection mode in self preservation mode, which means emotional self preservation physical self preservation sociological self preservation, the financial

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that we're that we come can come at it from this belief that so many on here, you know, have from this perspective that we learned when we were young.

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idea that no one is going to take care of me, so I have to take care of me, I have to do it.

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And so say, for instance, like abusers or narcissists, or, you know, to talk about like

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extreme cases, you know, and even those people who are out there who aren't believers, who are

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atheists, or they simply just don't believe in Christ, you know, but they're good people,

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all this, all the same, that it's the fact that they have not, they're all in the same position,

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the fact that they haven't chosen to agree with and to believe God, come to agreement with them,

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and so they're all in self-preservation mode. It's just that they've all chosen different

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modalities of self-preservation. Some choose their integrity as self-preservation. There's

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some aspect in which they believe that integrity and honesty, even to the point of their own

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self-sacrifice, is the higher truth, and so they're going to follow that. And then there

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are others that don't think that that's the best and wisest and most protective mode for them,

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and so they're going to lie, cheat, steal, hurt other people, etc., because they believe,

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as weird as it sounds, that the highest good is self-preservation. And so that's where

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they're going to turn towards. So it's ultimately a rejection of what God has said is true,

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and so what's the alternative? Okay, if he says he's provider and he says he's protector and I've

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rejected that, that leaves me to have to do it on my own. And so what things do I have to do in

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order to make that happen? How can I get a particular outcome? I can get a particular

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outcome if I lie, cheat, and steal my way to it. I can guarantee my outcome. Sure, I've got a bit of

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a risk. I've got a bit of a risk that I'm going to be found out. I've got a bit of a risk that

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other people out there who could come against me and try to thwart my plans and they

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might be more powerful than me. They might cheat stronger than me. They might out cheat me,

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out lie me, whatever. So there is an element of risk, but they're choosing the more what they feel

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they feel more in control of creating the outcome that they want, that they think is going to

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provide for and protect them. They feel that the greater guarantee is if they do all of these other

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things. And so sure, there is a risk, but they think that the risk is lower than trusting God.

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So anyway, but so as far as like how I view them and interact with them, I see them

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as, as spirit that doesn't remember who it is. So because remember, it says that until

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we are united with Christ, then we, then our spirits are dead. I personally, again, this is

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my own personal belief based off of just my own journey with the Lord. And when I can read or

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sense that out of scripture, I believe that we're, we all have a spirit. I just believe that his,

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that when he's saying that the spirit is dead, that it means that it's disconnected from the

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soul and the, and the not disconnected as an actually, but as if the soul and the body can't

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access it in a way, so to speak, it's not it, they're not being able to access the life of the

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spirit of God. Maybe, maybe that's a bit more accurate. So I know I'm not being perfectly

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theologically accurate. I'm just kind of telling you, this is kind of sort of the vague place where

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I am, where I don't know exactly how it all works, but I know that it says in scripture that,

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you know, our spirits, until we accept Christ, they are dead. So it says that, but also it said,

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it looks like throughout scripture that everyone was born with the spirit. So how could we all

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have a spirit and it be in existence and yet it be dead because doesn't dead mean not existent.

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And so I think that it means that there's some kind of an aspect of like their connection with

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the Lord or whatever, that they just don't have an opportunity to access because they haven't come

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into agreement that God did for them. What he said that he did, but it, so coming from that perspective,

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I believe that they all have spirits. I believe God created them in his image and therefore I

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view them like that. I view them as God created this thing that he desired. They are something

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he desired. So he created them, but they made a choice. They've been making choices continually

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to operate out of their flesh, to not come into agreement with God, to take control for

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for themselves and then to operate from the, from worldly principles and the poor things

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they are, they're people who don't choose faith in the Lord are like children. They're scrambling

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for, like I said, just self-preservation and self-protection and they're just doing the best

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that they know how, but, but in actuality, even though they feel they have control,

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they're actually not in control and they're actually not the higher power.

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Now, according to the kingdom of the world, sure, they might be a very high power, they

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might be, quote unquote, in control because they've learned the principles of the kingdom

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of the world and how to get them to work in their favor.

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They've learned the complicated structure and how to interact with it in order to get

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a particular result that they want for their life, to protect themselves, to get themselves

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money, to get themselves fame or whatever.

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But because the kingdom of heaven always supersedes it, and the kingdom of heaven brings spirit,

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which is life, and the kingdom of world brings nothing but death, this is always the higher

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power.

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So even though they think this is, it's really not.

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Even though they think that there may be risen to the highest echelon of power within the

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kingdom of this world, they haven't in reality.

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Because if we shift, if those of us give ourselves, if we've given ourselves over to the Lord,

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allow the kingdom of his authority to come in, or the authority I should say of his kingdom

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to come in, it's always going to supersede the greatest power of the kingdom of the world.

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So I just view them like that, and therefore I have tremendous compassion for them because

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I don't see that who they're presenting me to, that who that they are presenting to me

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that they are is actually who they are, because their identity is in their spirit, not in

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their soul or their body.

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They think it is.

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They think it's in the soul or the body, and that's how they're acting, but it's not actually.

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And so I want to view them the way that it's actually true.

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Their identity is in their spirit, and so I value them as a human being, but I also,

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and I interact with them according to who God has declared them to be, not according

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to who they presented themselves to me as, but there's also a boundary kind of like with

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a child who's throwing a temper tantrum and flailing his arms, you're not going to get

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close to them.

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So it's that kind of thing.

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So even though I try to view them the way that the Lord does and view that they are

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spirit and that they're not the temper tantrum and the violence and the abuse that they are

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expressing in the soul or the body, kind of like a child throwing a temper tantrum, it

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doesn't mean that I need to identify them as how, in the way that they're identifying

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themselves.

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They're identifying themselves as flesh and acting like that, but I don't have to identify

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them as flesh and I can identify them as spirit, but if they're presenting themselves to me

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in a temper tantrum of violence and abuse and narcissism or whatever, I'm not going

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to keep myself in their proximity to be hit.

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But I don't judge them and identify them as that, I judge and I identify them as who God

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is, who God says that they are.

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So that keeps the compassion and that view of seeing them as Christ without meaning that

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I'm putting myself in an abusive situation.

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Definitely.

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So then are they, are they in Christ in the sense that, you know, our, our identity is

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all in him because he died for us all, are they like, say somebody who believes in him

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is, is a believer, you know, going to church or, you know, expressing that they've accepted

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So I guess like, where's the dividing line of, I guess the good fruit and the bad fruit,

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or is there such thing as good and bad?

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they've gotten all the chances to know him in this personal way and they would truly

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have to decide, I don't want him to be separated from him in eternity.

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Everyone believes differently about that.

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But what I will say is that, well, for one thing, there is such a thing as good and bad

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There is that, but in the, in this, in the covenant of sonship, okay, let me back up

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in the, in the covenant of the law, the good and bad fruit is the things that is the outcomes

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of what we do.

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So, but in the, in this kingdom of, I mean, in the sonship covenant, there's still good

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and bad fruit, but the, well, so to speak in the fact that there's, there's only, there

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is fruit, but it's only good fruit is the fruit of the spirit, which brings life.

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So there's no good and bad, obviously in the spirit, cause there's no good or evil.

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know the difference between good and evil, and they didn't have to because they just

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operated out of the character of God himself that they were born from.

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Whatever he did, it meant he was good.

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But if we're outside of that and we're operating according to the tree of the knowledge of good and evil,

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and there's good and bad fruit, so to speak, and the fact that you can have a good outcome or you can have a bad outcome,

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you can do something that looks like God or you can do something that doesn't look like God,

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and we call those good or bad fruit.

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But either way, they both have death in it because the tree of the knowledge of good and evil only has one fruit.

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So if it's the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, that fruit has both good and evil in it.

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So every single fruit that we take from it has – even if we think, oh, I'm doing good,

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if it's out of the flesh, there's some aspect that's going to bring forth death and not life.

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So anyway, but I was saying all of that, and then I was using that to actually kind of like give a foundation of expounding on the question even further.

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I'm trying to remember. Oh, because you were asking about heaven and hell or whatever.

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It says that they died, and then Jesus – or in the last days or however that Jesus phrased it,

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it said, people will come to me and they will say, Father, you know, Jesus, I cast out demons in your name.

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You know, I healed the sick in your name.

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I did all of these things in your name, and he says, depart from me. I never knew you.

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So even people can use God's name and do the, quote, unquote, the good thing, the right thing.

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But if it's not out of spirit, if it's not out of that connection with the Lord that we have chosen to receive God and who he is by faith

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and that we accept that Jesus died for our sins, you know, and all of that, if we don't do that, then he's saying, I don't know you.

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Why? Because I don't have relationship. Because that brings relationship. That brings union.

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So we can do all the good that we want to. We can use his name and cast out demons and heal people.

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they might be healing more people currently than Christians. I don't know.

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Dr. Joe Dispenza is going around – from what I understand, I don't want to judge anyone,

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but from what I understand, I do not believe he is a professed Christian.

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This is Oprah Winfrey, the secret stuff. And they're all getting healed. Why?

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But the thing is that healing or not healing, it's not bringing forth life. It's not in the spirit.

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It's not eternal. It's not based out of relationship with God.

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And those people could even use the name of Jesus to try to cast demons out of each other because they are very aware.

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They're very aware of that. They just have their own witchcraft and witch doctors to deal with them.

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And they can try to use the name of Jesus to kick him out. And who knows? Maybe it actually works.

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All I know is that Jesus said in the Bible himself, he said, people are going to come to me and say,

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I've done all of these things. Doesn't that mean something?

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He says, no, not if you haven't chosen relationship. In other words, not if you haven't chosen union.

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And the only way to choose union, the only way to receive that union.

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Yeah. And the only way to choose that union is to choose what gave us that union,

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which is the fact that Christ died for us and then he rose again and that he paid for us so that we don't have to do anything else.

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He said, you actually have to completely give up yourself in order to receive that.

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And if you haven't, well, then I don't know you. So I do know that from the Bible.

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But everyone's everyone believes very differently on whether there is heaven, whether there is hell or not,

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or whether there's like this purgatory thing or whatever. So everyone believes a little differently about that.

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So thank you. Not to ask you like the hardest question.

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Yeah, the one thing that everybody has the most differing opinions on our beliefs on,

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but no, that's fine.

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That's why I'm just keeping what I believe in myself, but yeah, I've, I've answered it

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before, so no worries.

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That's what it's here for is answering, asking and answering the hard questions.

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So thank you.

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You're welcome.

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Does anyone have anything else that's come up?

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We've had the hard questions all downhill from you.

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That was a great question.

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And so my questions around fear, because I'm kind of circling back to the negative

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emotions conversation, recognizing that a lot of the root of why, why I was trapping

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emotions, you know, at the end of the day has to do with fear.

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And I'm just curious, like.

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You know, I know scripture over 300 times says, do not fear, for instance, like

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scripture doesn't say don't be sad, but it does say, do not.

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I think what is it like three hundred and sixty five times or something like that?

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I literally think it's like one for every day of the year.

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You do know there's one for every day of the year, like if only I'd remember it every

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day of the year. So I'm I'm just curious.

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Do you have personal testimony or stories of like, what does it look like when you

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recognize like, OK, I'm dealing with fear and I just can't seem to shake that like it

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kind of gets down to like.

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I'm just afraid.

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I would just love to hear how you process that in rest.

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I wish I could remember I have something I could say, but I wish that I could remember

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an exact situation.

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all rooted in fear.

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So chaos and all of these ideas came to mind like, oh, yeah, there's that one and that

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one and that one. And so

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ultimately what I do is I just choose something higher because that's what I am

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valuing the most at that time is the fear.

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In other words, it has all my attention.

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It has it even though we don't value it as in like we've we want it, it's a value as

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in like where we're placing our heart, so to speak.

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he said that I'm trying to come into agreement with.

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So, for instance, I see what's an example.

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I'm trying to think of one that I haven't like used a good time.

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There were there was one and I've told you all this before, but I'll say it again.

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I haven't talked about it as much.

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know what, that's a bill that God knows is coming.

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day three, and then on the day of I'm like, OK, I even though it's due today, I

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still can't worry about it.

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you are still provider.

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I choose your provide that you were provider in my life over me ever seeing

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provision over me receiving the manifestation of your character.

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I choose that I am that my higher value is that you are that to me.

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if it was due like maybe it was due that day.

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Maybe my Internet was even yeah, my Internet was going to be cut off that day

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and nothing was coming in.

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I have made my obligation to all of these people.

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my reputation. This is the first time I am doing the rest intensive.

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sure, I'll.

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part of it. And, and anyway, and then I'm trying something new. In other words, it was just,

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it was a very relationally risky thing that it felt like I was doing because these were friends

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of mine anyway. Um, and, uh, so I, I remember thinking, okay, Ashley, you know how this works.

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You choose to not take control either emotionally or physically for, as for a situation. So don't

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be scrambling around thinking, oh my goodness, how can I solve my lack? Choose first. Did God

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say you're in lack? No. He says that I'm not in lack. Okay. So I first have to come into

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agreement with that. I don't see it, but he says that I'm not. And it doesn't matter what the life

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experiences I have. If he says I'm not in lack, I choose. I'm not in lag, even though the world

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would call literally what I'm living in right now called lack. So I choose that instead. I choose

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that over my experience, like literally what I'm living through. So anyway, and I thought, okay,

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he says I'm not in lack. Okay. So there, and he says that he wants to be in control of the outcome

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and that he will create the outcome. Okay. So I can't take on the pressure of the outcome.

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So I let all of that go. And then I give it over to him. I'm like, okay, apparently he is in,

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he is responsible for the outcome. That's what he's chosen. Okay. All right. So I, so,

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so immediately inside I still, and I went into rest and I stopped being so anxious and so

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stressed. I was like, okay, so now what do we do? And so I thought, okay, so how now do I approach

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God about like, how now do you actually pray? If you're not praying out of anxiety,

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if you're praying, if we're so used to praying for something that we think we don't have asking

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God to give it to us, how do we pray? If God says, no, you already have it. I need you to

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come into agreement with it. So, okay. First I can't approach God and call him a liar and then

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ask him for something. I have to come into him with agreement and agreement that, okay, God,

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you say that this is what I have. Okay. So then Lord, how do you want that? How do you want that

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to work? How do you want me to, to, to participate in that? And so literally I lay down on the bed

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and I asked him, okay, God. Okay. So this is the situation and you know, it's the situation.

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And again, inside me, I could not have accusation against the Lord. Lord, why did you put me in this

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situation? Why did you allow this me to get to this point? Why, you know, what are you doing?

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Lord, don't you know, Lord, don't you remember me, Lord, am I alone? And you know, I couldn't do that.

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I'm like, no, I choose God over my circumstances. I choose God over my potential consequences

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of if this doesn't come through. And if like my worst case scenario in my mind actually does

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come through, I choose him on this side of it. When I could take control again, I choose him

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instead over taking control of and, um, and, uh, determining it, uh, an outcome. So once I did all

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that and I was like, okay, I choose God and, um, over accusing him. And then I just said, okay,

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God, then what would you like to do? So this is the situation. You already know the situation.

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I'm just sharing it with you because you're carrying the burden, the pressure and responsibility. So,

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and I'm not so, but you want me to participate with you in life. I'm physically living this

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life out Lord. And there's this thing called bills and deadlines and whatever, this is real life. So

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this is the principles of the world that you put me into. So how do I live existing in and interacting

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in a world that operates according to principles? What do I do? You know,

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they're good principles that you created. How do you want me to interact with your good principles?

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I know that you are who you say that you are. You could choose to do something or not do something,

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but I'm just going to ask you, what are you going to do? What would you like me to participate in?

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And he asked me, he said, have your parents giving you your money for your birthday?

405
00:34:00.000 --> 00:34:05.520
I was like, that's an interesting question. I was like, well, I don't know, but I think so.

406
00:34:05.520 --> 00:34:10.320
I think they went ahead and deposited it into my bank account. And he's like, but you don't know.

407
00:34:10.719 --> 00:34:17.199
That's true. So I called my mom and again, no stress, no anxiety. I just talked to her and

408
00:34:17.199 --> 00:34:21.440
we chat about all kinds of things. Cause I'm thinking they're actually, there's nothing to

409
00:34:21.440 --> 00:34:25.520
worry about. So don't get down to business because something needs to be taken care of.

410
00:34:26.560 --> 00:34:32.239
It's all fine. God's got it. And so I'm just going to call my mom. If I wasn't in this highly

411
00:34:32.239 --> 00:34:36.080
pressurized situation, what would I do? I'm like, this is how I'd handle it. So that's how I was

412
00:34:36.080 --> 00:34:41.199
going to handle it. If I believe it, if I have faith, how will I act? If I believe that that's

413
00:34:41.199 --> 00:34:44.800
true, what would I do? So I'm like, okay, then I followed that. And I started doing all this.

414
00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:48.400
So I'm just talking to her. And finally I asked her and she said, well, no, I was waiting for

415
00:34:48.400 --> 00:34:52.960
your permission to put it in your bank. It's like, it's like, oh yeah. And she said, would you like

416
00:34:52.960 --> 00:34:57.440
me to put it in right now? And I was like, sure. Yeah. Yeah. That works for you. You know, that

417
00:34:57.440 --> 00:34:59.840
would be, that would be great. So I didn't let her know.

418
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.000
I had a need, I literally think, I don't remember how much money I had.

419
00:35:05.280 --> 00:35:08.800
I think I had like $6 and like 54 cents in my bank account or something.

420
00:35:08.800 --> 00:35:13.000
I mean, like I had nothing and, um, and no credit card backup, nothing.

421
00:35:13.160 --> 00:35:15.480
I mean, it was just, it's just like on the edge.

422
00:35:15.780 --> 00:35:17.700
And, uh, and so I said, well, sure, if you'd like.

423
00:35:17.700 --> 00:35:20.880
And so we, we keep talking and visiting and then she lets me know she's

424
00:35:20.880 --> 00:35:24.120
transferred, she's transferred and I said, oh, okay, well, I really appreciate it.

425
00:35:24.520 --> 00:35:26.280
Eventually we get off the phone.

426
00:35:26.880 --> 00:35:28.200
I'm like, thank you, Lori.

427
00:35:28.520 --> 00:35:29.880
That's how you chose to take care of it.

428
00:35:30.320 --> 00:35:36.280
So I didn't, I chose God and what I was experiencing and growing in and

429
00:35:36.280 --> 00:35:40.440
choosing in him and who I was to him and how we related, I'm a son to a

430
00:35:40.440 --> 00:35:43.720
father, like what you're talking about earlier, I chose that is more

431
00:35:43.720 --> 00:35:47.480
important than how to solve the problem.

432
00:35:48.120 --> 00:35:50.600
In other words, that was my main focus.

433
00:35:50.960 --> 00:35:55.480
And because I sought him, he added all of these things into me.

434
00:35:56.680 --> 00:35:58.920
No, it was seek you first, the kingdom of God and his righteousness,

435
00:35:58.920 --> 00:36:04.840
including, uh, Hebrews 11, six, where it says that without faith,

436
00:36:04.840 --> 00:36:06.640
it is impossible to please God.

437
00:36:07.040 --> 00:36:13.360
And, and, and like something like, well, and we all know that it, that,

438
00:36:13.400 --> 00:36:15.000
oh man, I'm going to read it.

439
00:36:15.880 --> 00:36:20.240
Uh, because it's really powerful, um, because it talks about what

440
00:36:20.240 --> 00:36:23.760
we're supposed to have faith in, not faith that he is going to solve

441
00:36:23.760 --> 00:36:26.960
our problem, faith that he's going to come through faith, that he's

442
00:36:26.960 --> 00:36:31.040
going to manifest whatever, but actually we're supposed to

443
00:36:31.040 --> 00:36:33.560
have faith in God himself.

444
00:36:33.600 --> 00:36:37.280
Basically we're supposed to choose God, not choose what he does or

445
00:36:37.280 --> 00:36:39.080
how he looks and how he manifests.

446
00:36:39.560 --> 00:36:44.840
Um, Hebrews 11 and six and without faith, it is impossible to please

447
00:36:44.840 --> 00:36:49.240
God because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that

448
00:36:49.280 --> 00:36:53.000
he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

449
00:36:54.120 --> 00:36:58.920
Not seek and, and have faith that he's going to do what he said he's

450
00:36:58.920 --> 00:37:02.680
going to do, but actually seek him and who he is.

451
00:37:02.680 --> 00:37:07.440
So when I made that my highest priority in that moment, and I, and there's lots

452
00:37:07.440 --> 00:37:11.040
of other examples that I could give you as just one example, it's one of the

453
00:37:11.040 --> 00:37:16.800
first times that I began to do that to a it's the first time I remember stopping

454
00:37:16.800 --> 00:37:23.080
everything and just focusing on, on, on making, on, um, Going through a

455
00:37:23.080 --> 00:37:28.360
stressful situation where I was valuing God over me, that's the first time I

456
00:37:28.360 --> 00:37:32.560
remember it kind of like being in like this tight little package of like, oh,

457
00:37:32.600 --> 00:37:36.480
there was this actual experience I could watch myself going through.

458
00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:37.880
I've been doing this before.

459
00:37:38.280 --> 00:37:39.320
That was the first time.

460
00:37:39.560 --> 00:37:42.280
So anyway, and there's lots of other experiences after that.

461
00:37:42.280 --> 00:37:44.320
But the thing is, I always choose God.

462
00:37:44.720 --> 00:37:46.320
I always choose that he's good.

463
00:37:46.320 --> 00:37:48.280
I always choose that he has not abandoned me.

464
00:37:48.280 --> 00:37:49.000
I always choose that.

465
00:37:49.000 --> 00:37:49.960
I'm not separated.

466
00:37:49.960 --> 00:37:53.560
You know, that I'm in union with him, that he's, that he loves me unconditionally

467
00:37:53.880 --> 00:37:58.960
and that he loves me more unconditionally than I believed yesterday, which I know

468
00:37:58.960 --> 00:38:01.960
that sounds weird because it's already unconditional, but there's, there's

469
00:38:01.960 --> 00:38:05.560
always limits to what it is that we're believing that we don't realize

470
00:38:05.560 --> 00:38:06.600
that we're limiting ourselves.

471
00:38:06.600 --> 00:38:07.800
And so I'm always stretching.

472
00:38:07.800 --> 00:38:13.640
I'm always coming into some kind of an agreement with God about something

473
00:38:13.800 --> 00:38:16.320
that's relevant to whatever situation that I'm in.

474
00:38:16.560 --> 00:38:16.920
Okay.

475
00:38:17.280 --> 00:38:20.680
What is something I need to agree with God about I need in this

476
00:38:20.680 --> 00:38:25.200
situation because of my fear, I need to, I need to choose and come to

477
00:38:25.200 --> 00:38:26.840
agreement with the fact he's provider.

478
00:38:27.680 --> 00:38:31.200
And I choose that he's provider over him getting me out of this situation.

479
00:38:31.680 --> 00:38:34.120
I choose him over getting out of the situation.

480
00:38:34.560 --> 00:38:36.360
That's ultimately what it comes down to.

481
00:38:36.360 --> 00:38:39.080
So kind of like, say for instance, you know, you've talked a lot about

482
00:38:39.080 --> 00:38:41.480
like, uh, things like with relationships.

483
00:38:42.320 --> 00:38:45.720
Um, so if you're in a, in a challenging relationship with someone, you've got

484
00:38:45.720 --> 00:38:49.920
negative emotions coming up or fear coming up or fear and anticipation of a

485
00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:54.800
conversation you're going to have, you know, or whatever, I always choose God.

486
00:38:54.800 --> 00:39:00.400
And the fact that I am, that I am having faith to him in a new degree and a new

487
00:39:00.400 --> 00:39:06.880
level, and that being of higher value to me than, um, uh, the situation working

488
00:39:07.400 --> 00:39:12.560
out the way that I want, or, well, yeah, there's another way to phrase that as

489
00:39:12.560 --> 00:39:14.960
well, but basically I stopped valuing.

490
00:39:15.160 --> 00:39:21.160
I, I prioritize this over the situation in my life.

491
00:39:22.160 --> 00:39:24.480
That's more important in learning that.

492
00:39:24.840 --> 00:39:27.280
And that's what I'm really going to be doing in this situation.

493
00:39:27.280 --> 00:39:31.480
And that relationship conflict resolution with, with so-and-so what

494
00:39:31.480 --> 00:39:35.960
I'm really going to be doing is this, this is my focus, not this.

495
00:39:36.000 --> 00:39:39.760
And God made the chips fall where they may kind of a thing, meaning like

496
00:39:39.840 --> 00:39:43.240
you're responsible for the outcome because I'm seeking you.

497
00:39:43.840 --> 00:39:47.160
I just happened to be going through these actions, but I've chosen.

498
00:39:47.160 --> 00:39:51.040
I'm so excited about what I'm doing with what I'm choosing you in faith

499
00:39:51.040 --> 00:39:53.720
in over what's happening here.

500
00:39:54.680 --> 00:39:55.880
Anyway, does that make sense?

501
00:39:56.800 --> 00:39:57.000
Yeah.

502
00:39:57.000 --> 00:39:58.520
You connected the dots for me again.

503
00:39:58.520 --> 00:39:59.960
And I think what solidified.

504
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.200
the choosing. Like I never, that verse about seeking him, I never connected that dot to

505
00:40:07.200 --> 00:40:12.880
choosing the essence of who he is, not what he does, not the outcome. So it's all coming

506
00:40:12.880 --> 00:40:17.840
together for me. That was really helpful. Thank you. Sure. A lot of times we think about the

507
00:40:20.080 --> 00:40:24.160
about what it is that he does, because that's where our highest value is. So that's where

508
00:40:24.160 --> 00:40:32.000
preachers talk to is they talk to where people are naturally wanting an answer for, how do I

509
00:40:32.000 --> 00:40:37.120
feel better about the situation that I'm going through? How do I resolve this situation? How

510
00:40:37.120 --> 00:40:42.880
do I get out of it? How do I, how do I avoid this in the future? How do I make things better? It's,

511
00:40:42.880 --> 00:40:50.800
and God's like, no, no, no. I created you for me. And then later I made the world and I put you in

512
00:40:50.800 --> 00:40:58.000
it to show that, to put into physical form who you and I are. And then eventually Adam fell.

513
00:40:58.000 --> 00:41:03.840
So now where you're trying to project who you and I are into, you're trying to project it into a

514
00:41:03.840 --> 00:41:10.720
world that's in, that doesn't feel safe with you. So now you're having in that process of revealing

515
00:41:10.720 --> 00:41:16.800
me, you're having to overcome the fact that the flesh is subject to corruption and that there's

516
00:41:16.800 --> 00:41:21.520
all this pain and all this struggle and that the, that the sin is leading to death. It's like,

517
00:41:21.520 --> 00:41:27.600
you're having, you've got an additional task. And the fact that to reveal me, you have to overcome

518
00:41:27.600 --> 00:41:33.200
in the overcoming you're revealing me. So the thing, the whole point of us being here

519
00:41:33.200 --> 00:41:40.480
isn't to go through our milestones and to fight sin and to all of that it's to overcome that we

520
00:41:40.480 --> 00:41:46.960
might, we might do what we're actually put on earth to do, which is to reveal God himself,

521
00:41:46.960 --> 00:41:52.960
to actually have, have him displayed just like Jesus. When it says that the word became flesh,

522
00:41:53.520 --> 00:41:59.920
spirit manifested in the physical. And that's what we're trying to do, you know, as well anyway. So

523
00:41:59.920 --> 00:42:05.200
that's why God's just like, Hey, stop looking at this, which is what all of the preachers talk to.

524
00:42:05.200 --> 00:42:08.960
And what, you know, catches our attention, all of that, stop trying to make life better,

525
00:42:10.000 --> 00:42:15.920
choose to overcome, because that is going to, because your call to not make life better and

526
00:42:15.920 --> 00:42:22.240
just kind of like go through life, you know, in comfort, it's actually to be a King over the,

527
00:42:22.240 --> 00:42:28.480
over creation so that, um, so that it transforms into spirit and so that it reflects the father,

528
00:42:28.480 --> 00:42:33.920
so that it stops acting like sin. So it stops acting in rebellion so that it stops so that it

529
00:42:34.240 --> 00:42:40.000
eventually no longer dies. So you're trying to save it from quote unquote dying.

530
00:42:43.360 --> 00:42:49.840
So did anyone have a, another question? What time is it? 56. And I think I'm missing some chats.

531
00:42:51.520 --> 00:42:57.840
Oh, so Cicely asked a question. Let's see here. I I'm sorry. Let me read all these really fast.

532
00:42:58.880 --> 00:43:03.440
Um, every false thing we think about ourselves. We also think about God exactly because he is

533
00:43:03.440 --> 00:43:08.320
the standard of truth with a capital T. So what if we were in a place where we don't hear God,

534
00:43:08.320 --> 00:43:11.600
like you did during that time? I've never heard God speak to me like that. I feel like I'm starting

535
00:43:11.600 --> 00:43:18.880
to see that. I don't know what love looks like or really, really is unconditional love anyway. Yeah.

536
00:43:18.880 --> 00:43:26.000
So as far as like what to do, uh, when you don't hear God, like I did, um, the, well,

537
00:43:26.000 --> 00:43:33.120
one of the things is, and I don't mean to say this and it be frustrating, but we actually all hear

538
00:43:33.120 --> 00:43:38.640
God. We're just not aware of it. We have a lot of things that we're used to. In fact, Cicely,

539
00:43:38.640 --> 00:43:48.880
I would, I would say that you have a, uh, what's the word, a tendency, a propensity or whatever

540
00:43:48.880 --> 00:43:57.280
to hear God much more sensitively than most. And I know that because you feel a lot feelers,

541
00:43:57.280 --> 00:44:02.720
people who, who, um, have a lot of experience, uh, who experienced life through a lot of feeling,

542
00:44:02.720 --> 00:44:09.120
a lot of creativity, who feel very deeply, et cetera. They are extremely sensitive to actually

543
00:44:09.120 --> 00:44:18.160
hearing to, to hearing the Lord. But if, if we, if we X, if we have built up a lot of reason,

544
00:44:18.160 --> 00:44:24.000
we can have built up a lot of resistance through disappointment, through thinking where has,

545
00:44:24.000 --> 00:44:29.440
where was God when I needed him, or I did all of this stuff and he still hasn't shown up or he's

546
00:44:29.440 --> 00:44:35.520
still, I still don't feel that he's pleased with me or whatever. And so if we expect that that's

547
00:44:35.520 --> 00:44:42.720
how God looks at us, then we don't hear him saying otherwise, because we've already, we're that we

548
00:44:42.720 --> 00:44:49.760
can't hear something that we don't believe exists. That makes sense. So it's so, um, so I just wanted

549
00:44:49.760 --> 00:44:54.640
to encourage you that, that even though you don't, um, even though I believe that God is going to

550
00:44:54.640 --> 00:44:58.240
take you through a journey where you are going to begin to hear him, you're going to recognize

551
00:44:58.240 --> 00:44:59.680
that things that you thought were.

552
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.600
you are actually God talking to you.

553
00:45:04.160 --> 00:45:08.280
Things that you thought was a feeling that you thought you were supposed to

554
00:45:08.280 --> 00:45:12.760
disregard that you thought was your body that you thought was, I don't know,

555
00:45:12.760 --> 00:45:17.720
a trigger that some of those things actually are God and that

556
00:45:17.720 --> 00:45:20.840
it's not some audible voice. It's that, I mean,

557
00:45:20.840 --> 00:45:25.400
the reason that I said that God could say that God, um, you know, told, asked me,

558
00:45:25.680 --> 00:45:27.000
well, you know, have,

559
00:45:27.040 --> 00:45:30.600
have you asked your parents if they've given you your birthday money yet? Um,

560
00:45:30.640 --> 00:45:31.120
the,

561
00:45:31.120 --> 00:45:35.480
the reason that I could decipher that that's what he was saying is because I had

562
00:45:35.480 --> 00:45:37.240
just practiced so long I'd,

563
00:45:37.400 --> 00:45:42.080
I'd figured out how to interpret how it comes in into English,

564
00:45:42.200 --> 00:45:45.400
so to speak. Now, a lot of times you'd never translate it into English and you

565
00:45:45.400 --> 00:45:48.000
just know when you're nowhere and then you know what to do and you've never

566
00:45:48.000 --> 00:45:49.360
translated it into English.

567
00:45:49.360 --> 00:45:52.520
You just heard it from the Lord and then you start acting on it and you,

568
00:45:52.600 --> 00:45:55.880
and you struggle to articulate it to someone else because you've never even

569
00:45:55.880 --> 00:45:58.680
articulated to yourself in English, what God told you.

570
00:45:59.080 --> 00:46:03.920
But the thing is that, uh, we first have to have to have to, um,

571
00:46:04.200 --> 00:46:08.120
choose, you know, in other words, you know, have faith in the fact, okay,

572
00:46:08.120 --> 00:46:12.760
God talks to me. So where is he? So be, be excited.

573
00:46:12.800 --> 00:46:17.760
And another thing you have to accept yourself because it's a lot of

574
00:46:17.760 --> 00:46:21.600
it is probably yourself there that you think is yourself.

575
00:46:21.640 --> 00:46:22.920
That's actually God.

576
00:46:23.160 --> 00:46:25.000
And if you're rejecting yourself,

577
00:46:25.360 --> 00:46:29.240
trying to stifle yourself and be good for God, you're stifling his voice.

578
00:46:31.040 --> 00:46:33.920
So the more that you expand who it is that you are other,

579
00:46:33.920 --> 00:46:38.240
you are more that you expand who it is that you are, you know, and, and,

580
00:46:38.240 --> 00:46:42.760
and choose that you are good. In other words, that, that, um,

581
00:46:42.800 --> 00:46:45.000
stop stifling yourself,

582
00:46:45.120 --> 00:46:49.360
stop stifling what you think about yourself and start and start

583
00:46:49.680 --> 00:46:52.920
believing that you are good things,

584
00:46:53.520 --> 00:46:56.400
the more that you'll open and the more that you'll hear him.

585
00:46:57.000 --> 00:47:00.880
But if you think that you are, um, but it,

586
00:47:01.000 --> 00:47:03.560
you can be in resistance to hearing his voice.

587
00:47:04.040 --> 00:47:08.400
If you are the thing that you think always needs to be

588
00:47:08.520 --> 00:47:12.200
restrained. I always thought that I had to be restrained,

589
00:47:12.200 --> 00:47:16.960
that I was literally being given parents to

590
00:47:17.000 --> 00:47:19.360
restrain me and to teach me,

591
00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:24.240
to restrain myself because I was so destructive that I would

592
00:47:24.240 --> 00:47:26.600
destroy others. And myself,

593
00:47:27.080 --> 00:47:31.000
I literally thought that that meant that I,

594
00:47:31.360 --> 00:47:35.200
I lived every day, all day, including while I was sleeping,

595
00:47:35.200 --> 00:47:39.200
which is really wild that we can do that. While I was sleeping,

596
00:47:39.360 --> 00:47:41.560
I would live restrained.

597
00:47:41.600 --> 00:47:46.240
I would live with this constant inward turn and self and self inward

598
00:47:46.240 --> 00:47:50.800
analysis to, to check, what am I feeling? What am I thinking?

599
00:47:50.800 --> 00:47:54.000
What do I need to stifle? What do I need to stop? How do I control it,

600
00:47:54.320 --> 00:47:59.320
et cetera, because I came from this root belief that I was just

601
00:47:59.320 --> 00:48:03.800
bad and that I could destroy things.

602
00:48:04.680 --> 00:48:09.280
And so the first thing that I would recommend that you do

603
00:48:09.600 --> 00:48:14.840
is what I did. Um, and I did this before even I,

604
00:48:14.840 --> 00:48:18.840
um, uh, then I chose, you know, that God, you know, I choose,

605
00:48:19.000 --> 00:48:23.120
I choose you instead of my lifestyle and all that a year before that

606
00:48:24.400 --> 00:48:28.400
I chose me. I chose that. I thought, okay,

607
00:48:28.400 --> 00:48:32.520
that's at least something I can come into agreement with God about is the fact

608
00:48:32.520 --> 00:48:33.520
that I'm good.

609
00:48:34.600 --> 00:48:38.040
I do not understand how that's possible because he also says that the heart is

610
00:48:38.040 --> 00:48:41.880
deceitful above all things. And there's all of these reasons.

611
00:48:42.080 --> 00:48:42.800
In other words,

612
00:48:42.800 --> 00:48:46.960
that were going on in my head and in my feelings of why that can't be so.

613
00:48:47.480 --> 00:48:50.360
And I had to stop trying to give,

614
00:48:50.400 --> 00:48:55.200
I had to stop allowing them a voice and stop trying to reconcile what the

615
00:48:55.200 --> 00:48:59.720
beauty and the wonderful things that God said with all of the challenging things

616
00:48:59.720 --> 00:49:03.280
that God said that I, and, and I didn't know how they could both be true.

617
00:49:03.320 --> 00:49:06.000
All I know. And this is what I would write.

618
00:49:06.080 --> 00:49:08.680
This is what I would think that you've run into as well.

619
00:49:09.200 --> 00:49:10.600
You've tried the other,

620
00:49:10.960 --> 00:49:15.280
you've tried the believing God that you are so bad or what you thought that God

621
00:49:15.280 --> 00:49:16.480
said, I'm not saying God said that,

622
00:49:16.480 --> 00:49:20.240
what you thought God was saying that you're so bad that you have to watch

623
00:49:20.240 --> 00:49:23.600
yourself, that you have to restrain yourself, that you've got to,

624
00:49:23.760 --> 00:49:26.920
that you've got to do all of these, right. You know,

625
00:49:27.000 --> 00:49:29.720
you can't do all of these things. And then on top of that,

626
00:49:29.920 --> 00:49:32.000
there's all these things that you need to do.

627
00:49:32.960 --> 00:49:37.760
And that's just burdensome and it's just oppressive. So I,

628
00:49:37.960 --> 00:49:42.400
all I knew is that I had tried that for at the time it was 34

629
00:49:42.400 --> 00:49:44.160
years and it hadn't worked.

630
00:49:46.320 --> 00:49:48.080
So because it hadn't worked,

631
00:49:48.320 --> 00:49:52.800
I made a drastic decision to just

632
00:49:52.800 --> 00:49:55.600
focus on all of the good things that God said,

633
00:49:55.600 --> 00:49:59.960
because I couldn't handle the good and the

634
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.280
the weighty things because I always either required them to reconcile, or I would give

635
00:50:05.280 --> 00:50:10.160
up the good things and, and completely and solely focus on all the negative.

636
00:50:10.800 --> 00:50:17.040
I couldn't have, how would I, how would I say this? Um, uh, I didn't, I didn't know

637
00:50:17.040 --> 00:50:20.960
how to express it, but anyway, I was, I was very extreme. It was all or nothing.

638
00:50:21.920 --> 00:50:27.280
So since I couldn't do both, I had to completely abandon this one. And here's the thing.

639
00:50:28.000 --> 00:50:34.640
I, I just had to add basically just put myself in God's hands and say, God, I have been restraining

640
00:50:34.640 --> 00:50:39.200
myself. I have been trying to be good. I've been trying to have a, have a relationship with you.

641
00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:45.360
So I am basically what I would recommend that you do is just ask God, God, would you take

642
00:50:45.360 --> 00:50:52.560
that responsibility for me? Would you take on the responsibility of me being good and me being kind

643
00:50:52.560 --> 00:50:57.680
and me saying the right thing to the right people and all of the things that you, that

644
00:50:57.680 --> 00:51:02.480
I believe that you require of me, you know, all of this weight that I've been carrying,

645
00:51:02.480 --> 00:51:07.760
that I've been trying to figure out how to do and try all this guesswork that I've been,

646
00:51:07.760 --> 00:51:12.560
you know, trying to analyze of what you want, of what you want me to say and do and how to do it.

647
00:51:13.200 --> 00:51:18.000
And I'm asking that you do all that for me, that you just put me in a path and in a way and

648
00:51:18.000 --> 00:51:24.480
protect me by, and him me in by like those bumpers, like in, um, like on like a bowling

649
00:51:24.480 --> 00:51:30.080
alley so that I always stay in the good. And I always stay in the right. And I always make the

650
00:51:30.080 --> 00:51:38.400
right decision. And, and would you just take care of that part of me while I choose to try to choose

651
00:51:38.400 --> 00:51:45.440
to believe these wildly good and beautiful things that you're telling me you want me to have faith

652
00:51:45.440 --> 00:51:52.080
in you in, because right now I can't handle both. So will you take this one for me?

653
00:51:53.840 --> 00:52:00.320
Will you be responsible for me being good and righteous and doing the right thing and,

654
00:52:00.960 --> 00:52:06.160
you know, in pleasing you, would you be responsible for me, pleasing you

655
00:52:06.880 --> 00:52:13.840
while I focus on this? Cause I don't have the energy or the understanding to,

656
00:52:14.480 --> 00:52:23.120
to, uh, balance both at the same time. Um, so whenever, when I found myself in situations,

657
00:52:23.120 --> 00:52:28.080
you know, like you are, whether it be, you know, and it was like multiple times that I found myself

658
00:52:28.080 --> 00:52:33.440
in that kind of situation, I had to be very extreme. If I found that I wasn't doing something

659
00:52:33.440 --> 00:52:39.840
that God wanted me to do, I had to figure out what is holding me back. And I have to abandon it

660
00:52:40.400 --> 00:52:47.040
in order to finally obey God. And it felt risky, but here's what you do is just what kind of,

661
00:52:47.040 --> 00:52:51.120
what I explained, give it over to the Lord, tell him, Lord, I'm not abandoning it because I don't

662
00:52:51.120 --> 00:52:58.880
want to obey you, but I can't figure out how to choose this while carrying all of this.

663
00:52:58.880 --> 00:53:05.840
So will you do this for me? Will you be responsible for me being good while I just

664
00:53:05.840 --> 00:53:12.480
learn to actually obey you and please you by having faith in the things that you have been

665
00:53:12.480 --> 00:53:17.360
inviting me into, because I can't do it while I'm weighted by this.

666
00:53:18.320 --> 00:53:19.840
Yeah.

667
00:53:24.240 --> 00:53:31.200
That's so good. Thank you. Yeah. Yeah. Very helpful. Okay. Thank you. I know it sounds

668
00:53:31.200 --> 00:53:34.720
risky. You feel like you're risking a relationship with the Lord and he's going to be mad at you.

669
00:53:34.720 --> 00:53:38.240
He needs to strike you down with lightning because you're abandoning the very thing you told to do,

670
00:53:38.240 --> 00:53:43.600
which is obey him and be righteous and do all these rules. But if there's an aspect in which

671
00:53:43.600 --> 00:53:48.480
he's inviting us into, and we aren't obeying, then it means that we're not obeying him in

672
00:53:48.480 --> 00:53:52.880
something. Right. So pick which one you're quote unquote, not going to obey him in.

673
00:53:54.000 --> 00:53:57.600
In other words, which you're not going to not obey him. It's just that which one you're going

674
00:53:57.600 --> 00:54:01.360
to focus on. It's going to feel like you're picking one over the other. And you don't

675
00:54:01.360 --> 00:54:06.560
want to abandon this one because you think you'll be mad. But according to that, that,

676
00:54:06.560 --> 00:54:12.160
that idea in your mind, you know, he's going to be mad. Well, you're already doing this.

677
00:54:12.160 --> 00:54:16.880
You're already not doing this. So is he mad at you right now? So you might as well try this other,

678
00:54:17.520 --> 00:54:25.200
and then you'll find that he's not mad at you, but you have to put yourself into his mercy

679
00:54:25.200 --> 00:54:31.520
to actually discover experientially that he's not being mad with you as opposed to,

680
00:54:31.520 --> 00:54:35.600
oh, but if I go there, what if he gets mad, put yourself there and let him prove it.

681
00:54:36.400 --> 00:54:41.840
Let him prove that he is who he says that he is, that he is that good, that he is that merciful,

682
00:54:41.840 --> 00:54:48.400
that he is that loving because you cast yourself completely in it for him to show you as opposed

683
00:54:48.400 --> 00:54:54.320
to anticipating and wondering, oh my word, should I put yourself there and see what he's like,

684
00:54:54.320 --> 00:54:58.800
see what he's like by experiencing him instead of trying to learn about him,

685
00:54:58.800 --> 00:54:59.920
to determine whether or not.

686
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.720
You want to take the risk, just jump in and learn it experientially.

687
00:55:04.280 --> 00:55:04.680
So, yeah.

688
00:55:08.120 --> 00:55:09.680
Yeah, I actually told my husband that today.

689
00:55:09.680 --> 00:55:15.600
I was like, I just, I want this to be an experience and not just the head.

690
00:55:16.280 --> 00:55:16.680
Yeah.

691
00:55:16.680 --> 00:55:20.920
Like, I don't know that I really had those times in my life where I can

692
00:55:20.920 --> 00:55:25.840
say like, I've experienced like who God really is, you know?

693
00:55:25.840 --> 00:55:28.440
And so it's like, I just told him, it's like, just, I want that.

694
00:55:28.440 --> 00:55:34.000
I want that, you know, not just to experience it, you know what I mean?

695
00:55:34.000 --> 00:55:41.000
But like to, to know him like that, because it's always been knowledge

696
00:55:41.080 --> 00:55:45.720
based for me, you know, and, and behavior based, so yeah.

697
00:55:46.680 --> 00:55:47.000
Yeah.

698
00:55:47.320 --> 00:55:53.080
Well, it was for me too, even though I did have some experience with him and I did

699
00:55:53.200 --> 00:55:59.000
know his voice, but, and I say this as an encouragement with knowing his,

700
00:55:59.520 --> 00:56:06.040
knowing his voice and hearing it and experiencing him, I still was overpowered

701
00:56:06.080 --> 00:56:11.120
by the, by the whole knowledge and by the oppression that I didn't, I didn't.

702
00:56:12.040 --> 00:56:15.160
That I didn't allow to overpower this.

703
00:56:15.440 --> 00:56:18.880
I was that it was just, I was just still in that much bondage.

704
00:56:19.160 --> 00:56:26.400
So, um, so anyway, it's, um, everything beautiful and wonderful is coming, you

705
00:56:26.400 --> 00:56:30.240
know, for you to experience, because the thing is that you already have it.

706
00:56:30.280 --> 00:56:36.040
So you have permission to act like it, to fall into it, to be it, to experience

707
00:56:36.040 --> 00:56:37.720
it, because you're already there.

708
00:56:38.480 --> 00:56:39.600
I know that it doesn't feel like it.

709
00:56:39.600 --> 00:56:41.720
And it's like, well, I need to experience it in order to prove

710
00:56:41.720 --> 00:56:42.960
to myself that I'm already there.

711
00:56:43.600 --> 00:56:48.000
But there's an aspect in which we actually have to choose that we, uh,

712
00:56:48.000 --> 00:56:53.920
that that is reality that we just, without ever being, having been in

713
00:56:53.920 --> 00:56:58.200
contact with it before we have to, I mean, meaning like we feel that we

714
00:56:58.200 --> 00:56:59.800
haven't been in contact with it before.

715
00:56:59.800 --> 00:57:02.400
And we don't have that to go on and to give us any kind of like.

716
00:57:03.200 --> 00:57:06.440
Evidence or any kind of like booster or whatever.

717
00:57:06.800 --> 00:57:08.680
So that anyway, yeah.

718
00:57:08.720 --> 00:57:08.960
Yeah.

719
00:57:08.960 --> 00:57:14.800
Tommy Miller has said something about like, we're positionally

720
00:57:14.960 --> 00:57:17.440
like we're there positionally.

721
00:57:18.520 --> 00:57:23.280
Some of us haven't like had it exponentially, like experientially

722
00:57:23.640 --> 00:57:28.920
like our position never, our position never changes, but our experience

723
00:57:28.920 --> 00:57:30.760
may not equal our position yet.

724
00:57:31.120 --> 00:57:31.720
Exactly.

725
00:57:31.720 --> 00:57:34.040
Because we have to, we have to receive that.

726
00:57:34.880 --> 00:57:36.040
We have to receive the gift.

727
00:57:36.040 --> 00:57:39.280
We have to receive what it is, where it is that we already are and what it is

728
00:57:39.280 --> 00:57:40.720
that God says that he's already given us.

729
00:57:40.720 --> 00:57:41.000
Yeah.

730
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:43.480
And that's what that's holding us back.

731
00:57:43.480 --> 00:57:45.120
And it's not to our condemnation.

732
00:57:45.600 --> 00:57:49.040
It's that simply all we have to do, especially those of you, you know, you

733
00:57:49.040 --> 00:57:52.400
watch like season, uh, session five already, you know, all you have to do is

734
00:57:52.400 --> 00:57:54.040
let go because you're already there.

735
00:57:54.280 --> 00:57:55.400
That's already who you are.

736
00:57:55.400 --> 00:57:59.440
So as soon as you let go, you find yourself there and you realize, oh my

737
00:57:59.440 --> 00:58:02.800
word, I was the one who was holding onto it again, not to our condemnation.

738
00:58:02.800 --> 00:58:05.040
Like, oh my goodness, there's still something I have to do.

739
00:58:05.080 --> 00:58:08.920
I'm standing in the way I have to believe I have to exert more effort.

740
00:58:08.920 --> 00:58:13.280
No, it's simply stopping what we're doing because it's by having grabbed a

741
00:58:13.960 --> 00:58:18.840
and done all of these things that it's creating resistance and, um, and, uh,

742
00:58:18.880 --> 00:58:19.840
like hindrance.

743
00:58:20.480 --> 00:58:25.720
So if we simply let go of everything we've been doing, we, we were all, we

744
00:58:25.720 --> 00:58:28.280
discover that we're already there because that's our default state.

745
00:58:28.520 --> 00:58:31.960
We've just never experienced our default state before because we've

746
00:58:31.960 --> 00:58:33.280
always grabbed a hold of stuff.

747
00:58:33.520 --> 00:58:37.920
So we're D the problem is this is the worst that it's ever going to be.

748
00:58:38.160 --> 00:58:43.920
It's downhill from here because you're holding onto everything and weighing life

749
00:58:43.920 --> 00:58:44.400
down.

750
00:58:44.840 --> 00:58:49.080
So every, so from here on out, from here on out, following the Lord, just

751
00:58:49.080 --> 00:58:54.040
letting everything go actually moves you into greater measures of love and freedom.

752
00:58:54.280 --> 00:58:57.480
So, like I said, everything's, everything's downhill from here because

753
00:58:57.480 --> 00:59:03.200
this is the heaviest that you will be God in God, you always get lighter.

754
00:59:04.200 --> 00:59:08.360
So it's always the letting go of everything that shifts you into more love

755
00:59:08.360 --> 00:59:11.000
and freedom and everything always gets lighter with him.

756
00:59:11.120 --> 00:59:16.000
So he doesn't require you to exert more effort, more energy to do more because

757
00:59:16.000 --> 00:59:17.720
you need to believe him and you need to have faith.

758
00:59:17.720 --> 00:59:20.840
And don't you know that you're the one resisting and it's not that the

759
00:59:20.840 --> 00:59:23.440
resistance is simply all the work you're doing.

760
00:59:23.960 --> 00:59:28.800
So if you stop the work, then, then you're in the place of rest and

761
00:59:28.800 --> 00:59:30.280
you've stopped the resistance.

762
00:59:30.520 --> 00:59:34.720
So the root, so to shift into rest, isn't doing something different.

763
00:59:34.760 --> 00:59:38.840
It isn't trading this doing for this doing it's the stopping of the doing

764
00:59:38.840 --> 00:59:39.400
finally.

765
00:59:39.880 --> 00:59:41.960
So anyway, I think that's helpful.

766
00:59:44.120 --> 00:59:44.960
All right.

767
00:59:45.000 --> 00:59:48.120
Well, it is 10, 13 or something.

768
00:59:48.120 --> 00:59:52.000
I don't know what time it is 10, 10 on my, um, on the Eastern seaboard.

769
00:59:52.120 --> 00:59:55.800
So I'll let y'all go, but, um, it's good to see everybody.

770
00:59:55.800 --> 00:59:59.720
And, um, y'all, uh, as y'all have been doing, which is great, just continue to

771
00:59:59.720 --> 01:00:00.200
post.

772
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.280
questions or post things about, you know, your journey and how

773
01:00:05.280 --> 01:00:07.560
it is that you're feeling or if ever you just kind of need to

774
01:00:07.560 --> 01:00:11.640
reach out and like share with people, you know, just feel free

775
01:00:11.640 --> 01:00:15.580
to do those in those posts and loving seeing y'all throughout

776
01:00:15.580 --> 01:00:18.960
the week. And I will talk to you later. I'll let me know if you

777
01:00:18.960 --> 01:00:20.960
need something. Bye.