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Okay, does anyone have anything that they would like to start us off with?

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I don't know, either, you know, sharing about how y'all's week has been, or, you know, the

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past several days, or, you know, just whatever, you know, kind of like a journey share, and

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then we can start off with something like that, or if anyone has a question, or something

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else that I haven't thought of, maybe there's another option in there.

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I did see that Kate, I don't know if you saw it, Ashley, that she had posted a really good

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question about fear in the Facebook group.

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Yes, I was like, I would like to ask that question later.

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Yeah, so yeah, that's a good one to start with.

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I did answer but I felt it was short, yeah, but I felt that it was so short, I wasn't

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sure if it fully answered your question, Kate, have you seen the answer yet?

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I did, I just saw it before I hopped on, it was interesting, I was listening to a podcast

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this morning, and somebody flat out said it, like, well, because fear is a sin, they said

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it really nonchalant, like, it's absolutely, it wasn't a question, several, no, no, like

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that was in the podcast this morning, and I've heard it several times, but I've heard

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very various responses on it.

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And as to whether or not it was a sin, but when I heard it this morning, it really resonated

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with my spirit, like, wait, no, that's true.

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And it felt like a key that was like, oh, that, for my brain and the way it works, it

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might be really helpful for me to know that that's true.

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Because if I categorize something as sin, I'm really good at deviating, like, not going

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anywhere near it.

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A very good little girl, very good little Christian girl.

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Yes, like being very intense about making sure there's no remnants of it in my life.

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So then I was like, oh, this could be a really helpful tool, if I can get somebody to confirm

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that this is in fact true.

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And so when I saw your response, but I don't know if there's anything more to elaborate

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on if anything comes to mind, but I mean, I know it's rooted in, in lack of trust in

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the, in the Lord and it's, and yeah, I don't know if there's anything else that comes to

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mind.

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Yeah.

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So all I was saying for those who haven't read that part yet, because I did just answer

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it.

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I don't know, like an hour and a half ago or something like that is just that yes, fear

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is a sin because fear is, is rooted in unbelief and that's what sin is, sin is unbelief.

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So it's an unbelief about something, some aspect of the Lord in which he says, you know,

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what fear, think about it comes from this belief that we're in lack of something, whether

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it is lack of safety, lack of security, lack of provision, lack of protection, I don't

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know, just whatever, there's some kind of a lack or there's a threat of lack.

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And because it's not possible for us to exist in lack, we don't currently, and we will never

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then it's actually then fear based on the fact that there is, or will be lack is based

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in a lie.

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And so God says that he's our provision, he's our protector, he's our safety, et cetera.

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So that, that, so anyway, so the fear is, is rooted in some, is a, is an expression

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of some aspect of unbelief.

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Now I know it can get a bit confusing because sometimes we use fear as a prompting to us

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of how to, how to put it, where, where we're prompted in something by the Holy Spirit.

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And then we become afraid based on that prompting, like he's trying to help us be aware that

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there is a physical threat.

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In other words, that there's a bear around the corner and we haven't seen it yet, or,

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you know, you can just kind of sense that someone is creeping up on you or just something

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like that.

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Well, God, the Holy Spirit would prompt well, let me, let me, let me kind of explain it

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a bit this way is that the Holy Spirit, we give us a prompting to some kind of like a

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knowledge or a discernment or whatever, but then where do we take that?

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And that if we take it into fear, if we take it into some kind of an agreement with able

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a belief against God, then that's the sin.

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But so anyway, I mean, does that, does that help?

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Or is there some aspect for whatever reason, I just feel that there, that there's probably

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a deeper question that I'm just not understanding or a specific aspect of the question.

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So it did the way that I describe, it makes sense and answer your question.

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Or was there something else there about fear or like, yeah, but what about this situation

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or what about this type of fear or something that I'm just not understanding?

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No, I think the question was pretty as simple as, as you're understanding it, but I, I,

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I guess in that.

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it's good to get those examples of like, oh, if a bear is running at you, it'd be a normal

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instinct for your body to go into fight and fire fight fear. And you shouldn't be sitting

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if your body's reacting in a place of being scared at an attack, an attacker. Um, but

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generally fear, like unbelief is almost always at the root of the emotion of fear or the feeling of

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fear. Correct. So that's, yeah. So it's kind of like anger and the fact that anger, fear,

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whatever, it would be better explained as the fact that our emotions aren't sin for us to

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feel a particular way. It's just that usually when we're angry and let's just switch to anger

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as an example, instead of fear for a second. So, um, to kind of make it drive home a point

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is that there is such a thing as, as a righteous anger and there's nothing wrong with feeling

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angry, but what is the root of that anger? What kind of, what is that anger telling us? What

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kind of belief is that anger rooted in, in being sourced from what's the source of the anger. So

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therefore what is the source of the fear is the fear, this thing of like, oh, this thing is coming

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at me. Therefore I need to make a decision. Or is this fear like, oh, you know, I'm not being

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protected. I'm not safe. God isn't who he says that he is, you know, et cetera. Um, um, I'm under

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potential like real threat. I don't mean like threat of bodily harm because yeah, that is a

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very real threat, but as far as threat of like an aspect of who it is that I am in the Lord and who

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he is to me, is that really being threatened or not? So what is the source of the fear? What's

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the source of the anger that really is the problem. So that, that I'm glad that you brought

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that up. Cause I'm like, I don't feel like the way I'm explaining it is exactly answering at

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the depth of the question. So the fear itself, isn't the fear is just the emotion, but what we

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have a tendency to do is we have to, we talk about emotions as if they're the actual thing or the

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belief itself. And they're not just like anger. And we have a tendency to, oh, if I'm angry or

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so-and-so is angry. Oh my goodness. You know, that's a problem. Well, it may not be what's the

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source of it, but we have a tendency to just hit the emotions and stop at those and then label,

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label, whatever's going on as the actual emotion itself. And it's not. So the emotions are just

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neutral things, but the source of the fear is usually unbelief. It's, it's usually, I mean,

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I don't know, I would say 99 times out of a hundred. I mean, it's just, I mean, there is

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such a thing as the fear of the Lord, et cetera, which is totally different type of fear. But the

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thing is that emotions themselves are just neutral. Same thing with anger. The majority of the time

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when we're angry, let's just be honest. It's just not holy. Sure. Sometimes it is, but the majority

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of the time, the majority, at least of my experience and in watching other people is they

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feel some kind of a threat to their identity, to their reputation, to, I don't know, a career move

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or to whatever. And so that's why they get angry, but the anger itself is just emotion. There's

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nothing wrong with it. It's, it's an indication of some kind of a belief. So what belief is it

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that is prompting that anger? And is that, or is that not rooted in belief in God or is it in

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rooted in unbelief against God? So what he said, that makes sense. Yeah. So I'm glad that

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we kept going. Cause I'm like, that doesn't seem sufficient. So yeah, it's, um, uh,

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differentiating between, um, the emotion itself and just the fact that it's sourced from it.

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And we typically call the emotion, the thing itself and it's just indicating something to us.

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Oh, sorry.

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All right. So can I ask, um, Casey, how are you? Okay. I'm good. Good to see your face.

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Thanks. You too. I'm excited to be back. Were you going to ask a question?

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Were you going to ask a question, Chris? No, I just, I just wanted to find out how Casey was

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doing. No, that's great. I'm really glad you did. Yeah, we had, we, uh, I'm sorry. I didn't do it.

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Um, uh, uh, later once everybody jumped on, we were talking about all of that before everybody

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quite popped in and, um, and gotten all of the updates from Casey. And so, but Casey had a

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question, but before she, before she asked her questions, she wanted to make sure that

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you had, didn't have one. So go ahead, Casey. Go ahead. Um, so my question is, so I'm kind of,

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so I had my surgery and the doctor said everything looked really good as far as he could tell.

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And he didn't see any lymph node involved.

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But my, everything got sent off to pathology like it always does.

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And so I'm waiting for those results and I'm like in this place of the first

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couple of days after my surgery, I was in this place of I'm a hundred percent

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cancer free, like living, like I'm cancer free.

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And then it's like, in the back of my mind, I'm waiting for these results,

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which I don't even like want the results, like I'm cancer free.

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And so I'm, I'm limboing in this place of, do I believe it or do I need the

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results to prove it?

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Like, do I need this, these fleshly, whatever results to prove that I am healed?

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Um, and I guess the question is like how, and I don't even know if you can answer

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this for me.

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It's probably a person, just a personal choice even, but how do I, like, it feels

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risky for me.

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Like, like in, in one end, I don't want to move forward seeing any other

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practitioners in regards to cancer and making in the knowledge of, you know,

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diet and things like that.

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That doesn't mean I'm not going to take care of myself, but do like wanting to

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find more knowledgeable practitioners to help me stay well or living like I'm

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free.

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Like, I feel like it feels hot.

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It, it feels weird to like combine them.

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Do you know what I'm saying?

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Yes, I do.

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In fact, I was walking somebody through that the other day.

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If I still have the drawing, well, if I do, it's all crumpled.

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So we need, we need a new one.

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Oh yeah.

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So we always say always, we're usually living in that in-between state where

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there's, because we're always learning how to come into agreement with the Lord

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more and more and strengthen in our faith.

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So it, um, I mean, eventually I believe that we're going to be perfect, you

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know, like Jesus was, et cetera.

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And everyone believes differently.

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I personally believe that we can do it this side of heaven, but for those of

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you who want to wait until you die, that is up to you between you and the Lord.

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For me, I am holding out of Jesus could do it.

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So can I, but anyway, so the thing is that regardless of until then, until

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whenever that is, whether it's after we die or before we die, until we get there,

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we're always in a state of somewhere in between of like, we have faith to the

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degree that we can, and then the rest of it is it, what I was recommending to

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people that we do is we, we begin to progress by doing the fifth tool that I

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mentioned in the practical shifting tools, which is the declare and go

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where your soul finds peace.

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So let me draw this.

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It was a really crude drawing and I really would include meaning.

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Like, it just feels like very insufficient and very basic, but we'll

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just say that this is that this is it.

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Um, um, a hundred percent.

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And then let's see.

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No, no.

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So let's draw it like this too.

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Okay.

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So think of it, something like this, think of it.

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This is like the container or whatever of like the full amount of faith that

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we're supposed to have something.

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God says, I am this.

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I want you to believe that I am this, but the thing is that we were on a journey

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agreeing with God that he is that to that degree.

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So what all that we need to do is because we're not born, I always use the number

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35, I don't know why, but, uh, probably when I began to teach this, I was 35 years

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old, but anyway, so we're not born 35.

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We're, we're born, you know, zero and then, well, in some countries when you're

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born, you're called one, but I digress.

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Anyway, in Turkey, I was a different age than I was in America.

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And I loved it.

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Cause I was like all year older.

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It was very cool.

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But anyway, so, so what we do is we just believe God to the degree that we can.

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So he says he's this, but all that we're able to choose and act on, like the

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number four in the rest shifting tools and the, in the practical shifting tools,

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which is, um, you know, choose and go where your spirit finds peace.

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In other words, choose what God says is true, make it your reality

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and begin acting like it live.

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Like that is how your world works.

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So we do that to the degree that we can.

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And then the rest of it, we just declare that God is as good as he says that he

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is, but we're, we don't believe it enough to act on it.

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And so, therefore, we go where our soul finds peace, and that would be doing that would.

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Okay, then you're going to find yourself kind of like in this middle ground of saying that.

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Let me another way to put this one of these days I just came up with this the other day to, like, try to visualize it for someone so hopefully I'll come up with something a bit better later.

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But, um,

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Okay. All right. So this is, this is terrible, but this is what we're going with. Okay, so up here, just say for instance this is full faith here, or this is being like the prodigal son which is how we used to live and how you know let's be honest

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we do live in certain areas of our life which is that God says he's something and we don't believe it at all.

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I mean, we just flat out do not believe it. And I know it might be shocking to some of us to believe that we there's any part of God that we actually flat out do not believe but quite honestly according to the results that we're getting on our lives,

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it's very evident that there are some things that were flat out. No, that's a lie. Even though we don't know it's a lie, we're, we're, our actions are proving it.

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And what it and and what we've been doing here is in, and, and how we want to move now from here to here if we can't do this, this by the way, this right here is this area.

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And this right here is this area.

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So right. Anyway, so how we move to here which is this whole area here. When before, what we've been doing is we've been living like I don't know, like down, down here or something.

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Like I said, I'm going to have to like redraw all of this but the idea, come up with a better way to visualize this. But the point is that how we begin to progress and move from here, from where we've been living to eventually to this point,

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but we're not there yet so what do we do, you can start moving in that direction. And the way that you do that is back when we were here, let me start with where it is that we were here when we were there.

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What we tend to do is we think, God isn't who he says that he is. I'm abandoned and alone, and now I have to go provide for and protect myself.

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I have to figure it out. The outcome all depends on me my safety depends on me me performing well at this job depends on me me getting a job depends on me.

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You know, if I want to get into this college you know it's it's all on me I'm the one who has to work really hard and then and then I'm trying to apply for all of these jobs and get enough money and no jobs are coming through so what am I going to do.

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I'm going to be anxious. I'm going to be mad at God and wondering why he's not helping me. And then I'm you know why because we feel the burden the weight that it's all on us.

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So, we are acting on the fact that we believe we're abandoned and alone and it's all on us. So what I recommend that we do instead, it were. Let's, let's use that I always love using this example I don't know why.

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The example if you have a migraine and you've got Tyler, and you have Tylenol so before what we used to do is we'd be like okay God, you know, is that God isn't healing me.

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I don't know why he heals everybody else, but he didn't kill me.

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So, I have a headache. We don't even think about talking to the Lord about it, because we have too much experience with him not answering our prayers in our emotions and in our minds that's what we're thinking.

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So we just take Tylenol, and then, and then our dependency on Tylenol to fix our problem is evident by the fact that there is no Tylenol in the house, and we panic, or we get mad.

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How on earth can I send my husband to the store fast enough, or if that's not possible, then somehow we get very depressed and I don't mean depressed isn't like depression where you take medication I just mean we just get really upset, and we just feel

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very hopeless and woe is me and some of us might cry, and then, because especially if the headache is just if it's debilitating say for instance the migraine or whatever.

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Those types of things that type of response and reaction is showing what it is we really believe that we're abandoned and we're alone.

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That God's not who he says that he is that I'm not protected in this situation, because I'm not because God isn't changing the situation so therefore I'm not safe.

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That's what we're believing and that's what we're acting on so what we need to do is if we can't go from that to full on faith, where our body actually begins to start healing itself, strictly off of the fact that we believe it.

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I mean that's what Jesus is doing that's what Jesus is doing with other people who was laying hands on them, and they were healing why his faith is here.

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So what if we do if our faith isn't there yet. We all want it to be there but it's just not, it's just not. So, our body is still responding to cancer is still responding to headaches is still responding to

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that God is who he says that he is

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to the degree that we can believe it.

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the rest of it to which our bodies just aren't responding

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because we're just, we're just not there yet.

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and beautiful gifts that God gave us,

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that I am separated and alone, abandoned,

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and now I have to, all of these things have what I need.

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They are now my salvation, not God.

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He's not helping me.

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But these things will help me.

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He says that he's provider.

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He says that he's protector.

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He says that he's healer.

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He says he's already healed me.

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believing that he gave them as a good father,

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giving good gifts to me as a means by which I could,

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a means of something that I can take advantage of

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to get relief.

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but now from a totally different belief system.

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that we're abandoned and alone,

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and that's why we need them,

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we now actually receive them thanking God

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that he's telling us,

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I want you to believe that I'm that good.

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I want you to believe that I'm, that I protect you.

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I want you to believe all those things.

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that you have created these things

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for me to take advantage of.

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you've put into creation the ability

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for different chemicals to be able to be combined

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to create Tylenol.

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how to discover it, how to create it,

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like discover how to like put it all together,

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discover all the principles that could be used

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that God created to be able to come together

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and create Tylenol from it.

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and he wants to give us a good gift

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to that we could grab ahold of to give ourselves relief

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because he loves us and he wants us to have relief.

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as something that he expressed of himself out here

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that we could take and get relief.

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with the fact that he's as good and as loving

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as he says that he is.

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and expressing himself as a good God and a good father,

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he gave me a good gift because he loves me.

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that he is who he says that he is,

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instead of grabbing it

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because he's not who he says that he is.

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Totally different way of approaching these things.

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okay, well, I wanna choose this to this degree

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and act on it.

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from our own sheer willpower

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because here's what'll happen.

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about where our faith is at

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because our faith is what supports our action

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when we step out on it.

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let me go this way,

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because this is what I was talking about

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with where the Lord was.

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and as loving as he says that he is

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and that he's healer and that he heals, et cetera.

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we can be willing to believe that as much as we want.

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it's like coming to the edge of a cliff, like here,

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and then you come to the edge of a cliff,

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creates a step out here

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that when you step out on it

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and act on the faith, you're supported.

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there's no support.

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but I always say that to people to help us realize

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that just because we wish

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that we were to a particular degree,

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God to a particular degree and we want to be able to live like that doesn't mean we're there yet,

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we're not going to be able to do that.

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and we have to be honest with God and with ourselves on where our faith is and act

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according to where our faith truly is. If it's not there to be able to, if it's not real and

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we just want it to be, then there's no support step that's created by our faith. So when we

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step out on it simply because God said, okay, well then I'm going to be here, here I go.

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There's nothing to support us because we can't live vicariously through God's will. Like I've

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been saying, meaning that just because God says that it's true doesn't mean that there's a step.

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We have to come into agreement with the fact that it is true that makes that step.

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That step doesn't exist simply because God said that it's available.

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We have to come into agreement with it in order for the step to be there. So that's why I say

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it's extremely important that we be honest about where our faith is and act on it. So if we don't

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believe that, if we don't believe that we need to act very, we need to act on our faith. Okay,

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God says he's that good. He says that loving. Okay, I will step out and I will act on it.

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But we have to be honest about the degree to which we wish and we hope and we're asking God

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to mature us to believe him in and be honest that we're not there yet. And therefore we need to act

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where our soul finds peace. And so, okay, what is it that I'm still believing will help me?

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And it could be radiation, could be chemo, could be natural, uh, and you're a natural path.

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But what are they called? What are the doctors called?

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Like a naturopath. Thank you. A naturopath. So naturopath, it could be, you know, that it could

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be diet, it could be exercise, could be whatever it is that you and the Lord, you know, have decided

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is to be part of your journey, take advantage of it. Just like, okay, but receive it, believing that

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that is a good gift from a good father. That's him being who he's told you that he was. And then

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he'll teach you more and more about how to, how, how, um, teach you more and more about how to

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believe in to the degree that our body follows and our body stops responding to all of the things

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that are trying to attack it stops responding to how cancer originates and grows and whatever.

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because, because we can wish that our body didn't react the way that it does all that we want.

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our body's just going to respond according to where it is that we currently are. So we need

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to honor that. And we need to follow it. And then we just ask the Lord, okay, God,

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I'm five right now, or I'm 15 or I'm whatever, meaning like in the spirit, this is where I'm at.

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And I don't know how to be 16. I didn't know how to be 18. I didn't know how to be 35. I wish I were,

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I'm willing to Lord, I'm willing to grow into it, but I'm just not there yet. So you're not condemned

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for being wherever it is that you are. I am not at a point in my faith where every time that I

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talk to my headaches, they go away. Sometimes they just flat out. Don't in fact, quite honestly,

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they usually don't. Um, Hey, sweetie. I came in. Yeah. Oh, baby. I'm sorry. Um,

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sorry. Let me give him my key. Oh, I don't, where are my keys? Oh, here they are. Yeah.

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But I need to lock up everybody. Here you go. Hello everybody. How are you guys doing?

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I hope you're doing well. Yeah. Well, he just finished one of his school of the prophet

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sessions today. They finished early. Yeah. We did finish a little early tonight. So I heard good

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things about you guys. I hear you're knocking out of the park and you know, just remember sometimes

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slow is fast. So that's right. That's actually just what we're talking about. Sometimes slow is

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fast. So, yeah. So anyway, so actually, can I share something with you? You don't have to,

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you don't have to speak back. I just gonna, so I was thinking about you this last week and,

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and, uh, and I was thinking about my grandmother grew up in the Hills of North Carolina and,

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uh, she was in a middle of nowhere.

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This lady, I mean, they churned their own butter and made their own soap.

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And they had a one room schoolhouse and they had a church, but they were traveling pastors.

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And I was, I was thinking about it.

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And I was like, thinking, I was like, why am I thinking about my grandmother?

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And what is it like, what would it be like to have a one room schoolhouse?

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Like, how could you be the teacher of a one room schoolhouse?

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10th grade or 8th grade or 10th grade or something, like how in the world?

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And then I started thinking about it.

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And I was like, because I was looking at you all, like,

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and whatever way that is for me, right?

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I was looking at you all.

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And the group was so diverse, right?

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And, and what it struck me as is that, you know,

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one thing that I've, I struggled with in my life was the comparison game.

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You know, once you start comparing yourself to other people,

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you're, you're kind of lost, you're kind of toast in a bit.

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because in all kinds of different ways and fields, people are more and less

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further along, or it could be looked at or mature,

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but everybody in different areas is more mature or less mature in certain respects.

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No one is ahead or behind.

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And what it looked like to me is that there were at least some folks

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that needed to realize that they're right where they're supposed to be.

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when they, when they sat in what we call it rest, you know, here,

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it's like the turbo hit in and they could really then transition and take off,

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you know, and I feel that it's an amazing grouping

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because the Lord can show me how you all would mesh as a community.

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But I really believe that there's a transition coming for all of you

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and breakthrough in different ways.

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And the more you can accept where you are,

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the quicker you can transition into where you're going to be.

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You know, and, and you, the Lord's going to take care of any

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stumbling blocks or whatever the case may be,

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00:32:12.000 --> 00:32:14.480
stones in your path that would make it harder for you

424
00:32:15.120 --> 00:32:18.880
that you're not supposed to fix yourself in any way.

425
00:32:18.880 --> 00:32:20.880
Now, I don't know what you've been talking about tonight,

426
00:32:20.880 --> 00:32:22.640
but fixing yourself is not your job.

427
00:32:23.680 --> 00:32:26.320
You know, and I feel like there's a real shifting and transition

428
00:32:26.320 --> 00:32:30.720
that's going to come into place for all of you in varying ways.

429
00:32:30.720 --> 00:32:33.280
But part of it is accepting where you are,

430
00:32:33.280 --> 00:32:36.320
which also kind of gets into the area of accepting who you are.

431
00:32:38.240 --> 00:32:41.120
And then it's kind of like, if you've had your,

432
00:32:41.120 --> 00:32:42.880
I don't want to get too far down the road here,

433
00:32:42.880 --> 00:32:46.720
but if you've ever struggled with what they would term self-hatred in some way,

434
00:32:47.280 --> 00:32:48.800
you know, love your neighbors, you love yourself.

435
00:32:48.800 --> 00:32:50.640
But if you don't love yourself, you can't love your neighbor,

436
00:32:51.440 --> 00:32:56.320
you know, then yeah, well, it can just be,

437
00:32:58.320 --> 00:32:59.360
it can just be hard.

438
00:32:59.360 --> 00:33:02.720
So, but a lot of people don't want to stay stuck where they are.

439
00:33:02.720 --> 00:33:04.320
So they're just satisfied with where they are.

440
00:33:04.320 --> 00:33:06.880
And they feel like if they accept where they are,

441
00:33:06.880 --> 00:33:08.960
then they're never going to get to where they're supposed to be.

442
00:33:10.240 --> 00:33:11.600
If that makes any sense.

443
00:33:11.680 --> 00:33:14.000
And there's this, what I was looking at with you all,

444
00:33:14.000 --> 00:33:15.760
it's like there's this inside switch.

445
00:33:16.560 --> 00:33:19.520
Then when you've, when whoever this applies to,

446
00:33:19.520 --> 00:33:22.320
you can accept where you are and who you are and the moment,

447
00:33:22.880 --> 00:33:23.920
where you are right now.

448
00:33:24.720 --> 00:33:27.200
It's like there's a switch inside of you that goes on.

449
00:33:27.840 --> 00:33:30.640
And then you can quickly shift into the place that you're supposed to be.

450
00:33:31.200 --> 00:33:35.040
Because the reality is that God loves you where you are and who you are right now,

451
00:33:35.040 --> 00:33:36.720
not just eventually who you're going to be.

452
00:33:37.360 --> 00:33:39.600
He loves all of you right now.

453
00:33:39.600 --> 00:33:43.440
So anyway, sorry to interrupt and just jump into your call here.

454
00:33:43.440 --> 00:33:47.600
I literally was like, I can't get in the house because Ashley has the keys.

455
00:33:47.600 --> 00:33:49.600
So I don't know.

456
00:33:49.600 --> 00:33:52.240
So you can either throw that or hopefully it lands.

457
00:33:52.240 --> 00:33:53.760
If it doesn't, then just toss it.

458
00:33:53.760 --> 00:33:55.760
So anyway, have a great night, everybody.

459
00:33:56.320 --> 00:33:57.200
Love you, sweetheart.

460
00:33:57.200 --> 00:33:57.920
Love you, sweetie.

461
00:33:57.920 --> 00:33:58.240
Thank you.

462
00:34:01.360 --> 00:34:02.000
All right.

463
00:34:02.000 --> 00:34:06.240
So that was perfect timing for what we were just talking about, actually.

464
00:34:06.960 --> 00:34:12.239
So anyway, I don't remember exactly where I left off,

465
00:34:12.239 --> 00:34:18.480
but basically just the general idea that we need to just,

466
00:34:19.920 --> 00:34:23.280
like what he was saying, to accept wherever it is that we are,

467
00:34:23.920 --> 00:34:27.760
but we can progress from what it is that we were doing

468
00:34:27.760 --> 00:34:31.440
because before we were doing this thing because we were not in belief.

469
00:34:32.000 --> 00:34:35.920
But now do this thing because you're in belief.

470
00:34:36.560 --> 00:34:42.560
Like, oh, the reason I have these things available to me is because God's good.

471
00:34:43.199 --> 00:34:45.280
It's because he's loved.

472
00:34:45.280 --> 00:34:48.159
It's because he is who he says that he is.

473
00:34:48.159 --> 00:34:49.520
Oh, now I remember what I was saying.

474
00:34:49.520 --> 00:34:53.040
I was just saying that, you know, I'm explaining all of this

475
00:34:53.040 --> 00:34:56.560
because it is something that I've stepped into and it is what I live.

476
00:34:56.560 --> 00:34:59.840
And I live it out in various areas, including sometimes in healing.

477
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.940
I do it, I do it for myself and I do it for other people.

478
00:35:03.200 --> 00:35:06.240
Like I can, I've, I think I've mentioned to y'all before that I've talked to

479
00:35:06.240 --> 00:35:10.480
people's souls, you know, that I'm not even near, I talked to people's souls,

480
00:35:10.480 --> 00:35:14.640
just out into the metaphysical realm or the spiritual realm, whatever that is.

481
00:35:15.180 --> 00:35:18.480
And I talked to its soul and I talked to its body and I'm telling you what,

482
00:35:18.480 --> 00:35:19.960
that then, then they're healed.

483
00:35:20.360 --> 00:35:24.240
And then other times I've done it and they're not, why, I don't know.

484
00:35:24.440 --> 00:35:27.400
Why does sometimes my body listened to me and sometimes it doesn't.

485
00:35:27.400 --> 00:35:29.560
Why does it succumb to sickness sometimes?

486
00:35:29.560 --> 00:35:31.200
And sometimes it doesn't, I don't know.

487
00:35:31.600 --> 00:35:36.040
So I'm on this journey of learning, but while I'm on the journey, I take vitamins.

488
00:35:37.000 --> 00:35:38.520
I do, I do essential oils.

489
00:35:38.880 --> 00:35:40.600
I periodically take Tylenol.

490
00:35:40.600 --> 00:35:42.280
I've tried to avoid it like the plague.

491
00:35:42.620 --> 00:35:45.360
And then people kept getting on to me for just enduring my headaches.

492
00:35:45.360 --> 00:35:47.180
And they're like, Ashley, you do know that you can take

493
00:35:47.180 --> 00:35:48.920
Tylenol and I'll just go away.

494
00:35:48.920 --> 00:35:49.920
And I'm like, you know what.

495
00:35:50.600 --> 00:35:53.760
Perhaps me rejecting, cause I wasn't doing anything different.

496
00:35:53.760 --> 00:35:56.120
I wasn't, I was, it was either Tylenol or nothing.

497
00:35:56.160 --> 00:35:57.520
I didn't get essential oil.

498
00:35:57.520 --> 00:35:59.600
Peppermint doesn't work for me with a headache.

499
00:35:59.640 --> 00:36:00.640
It works for other people.

500
00:36:00.640 --> 00:36:01.480
For me, it just doesn't.

501
00:36:02.000 --> 00:36:03.240
So I was just enduring.

502
00:36:03.280 --> 00:36:07.520
And then I realized, you know, I seem to be the reason that I'm not doing

503
00:36:07.520 --> 00:36:09.920
Tylenol is I'm actually in resistance.

504
00:36:10.320 --> 00:36:13.960
If I think about how I feel inside, I feel heavy.

505
00:36:14.560 --> 00:36:17.600
I don't feel freedom in not choosing Tylenol.

506
00:36:18.240 --> 00:36:20.600
I feel, I feel, no, I'm not going to.

507
00:36:20.680 --> 00:36:24.680
So anyway, for me, that's my particular journey and how it, how it works out.

508
00:36:24.680 --> 00:36:28.360
And so I was like, okay, then Lord, I'm so very grateful that you gave me this

509
00:36:28.360 --> 00:36:31.440
thing, and this is just kind of where I'm at and other times I'm like, I don't

510
00:36:31.440 --> 00:36:35.320
really want to try an essential oil Lord, or sometimes I just talk to my body and

511
00:36:35.320 --> 00:36:38.000
then try to remember that I am who God says that I am, et cetera.

512
00:36:38.440 --> 00:36:43.160
My point is saying all of that is I am so young in this.

513
00:36:43.720 --> 00:36:47.680
I feel like I'm like a day old, you know, in this area of my life.

514
00:36:48.040 --> 00:36:52.120
But what I'm explaining to all of y'all is this is what I believe is true.

515
00:36:52.160 --> 00:36:54.040
And this is what I'm growing into.

516
00:36:54.040 --> 00:37:00.400
And I've actually seen evidence that it is real, that this is how it works.

517
00:37:00.800 --> 00:37:04.040
There's a reason why I believe it is because I believed it.

518
00:37:04.080 --> 00:37:06.200
I stepped into it and I saw it work.

519
00:37:06.200 --> 00:37:11.680
And I'm like, that's amazing, but do why it works sometimes and why having a face

520
00:37:11.680 --> 00:37:15.400
sometimes, and sometimes I just don't, I don't know, but anyway, I'm on that

521
00:37:15.400 --> 00:37:19.320
journey, but I did realize that I can get myself in a lot of trouble.

522
00:37:19.320 --> 00:37:24.280
If I want to believe God to the degree that he says that he is that thing, but

523
00:37:24.280 --> 00:37:29.240
I don't yet, and I step out anyway, I really, really hurt myself or I can

524
00:37:29.240 --> 00:37:30.400
hurt other people or whatever.

525
00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:34.480
So, and God doesn't condemn me for being wherever it is that I am.

526
00:37:34.480 --> 00:37:37.960
So if I'm a day old and all of this, it's just like be a day, be a day old.

527
00:37:38.280 --> 00:37:43.080
I'm I created the day old thing to be like this process and to be like this

528
00:37:43.080 --> 00:37:46.840
certain things that develop during that time that I don't want you to have a

529
00:37:46.840 --> 00:37:52.640
development gap and skip over because you wish you were older or you think I

530
00:37:52.640 --> 00:37:56.120
expect more of you remember all of this is see spiritually, the Lord just ties

531
00:37:56.120 --> 00:37:56.560
all this in.

532
00:37:56.560 --> 00:37:58.760
This is tying into what we were talking about in the rest group.

533
00:37:59.480 --> 00:38:02.200
I think it was yesterday or maybe it was, or not yesterday.

534
00:38:02.200 --> 00:38:03.480
I think maybe it was Tuesday.

535
00:38:03.480 --> 00:38:08.480
If not, if not Sunday, talking about the fact that we're not careful, we can have

536
00:38:08.480 --> 00:38:13.520
these development gaps because we tried to grow up too early in the physical

537
00:38:14.040 --> 00:38:17.480
and then, and then we have to be careful of doing it in the spiritual realm as well.

538
00:38:17.480 --> 00:38:19.760
Like I wish that I had this faith.

539
00:38:19.760 --> 00:38:21.280
I wish I was this mature.

540
00:38:21.280 --> 00:38:22.960
I wish I understood this much.

541
00:38:23.360 --> 00:38:26.680
I wish I would act, you know, like this.

542
00:38:27.360 --> 00:38:27.560
Yeah.

543
00:38:27.560 --> 00:38:31.440
But if there's no belief, not a strong enough belief to back it up.

544
00:38:31.440 --> 00:38:32.880
And by belief, I do mean faith.

545
00:38:32.920 --> 00:38:33.720
I mean choice.

546
00:38:33.760 --> 00:38:36.880
I don't mean willingness, then we shouldn't act on it.

547
00:38:36.880 --> 00:38:42.240
So anyway, my point is that would, if you, if you talk to the Lord and you just

548
00:38:42.400 --> 00:38:49.840
uh, about, about this area, you'll, you'll will find, um, you will discover

549
00:38:49.840 --> 00:38:54.600
where it is that you have peace, choose and go where your spirit finds

550
00:38:54.600 --> 00:38:56.400
peace to what degree that you can.

551
00:38:57.080 --> 00:38:59.720
And then the rest of it, that your spirit just doesn't have peace.

552
00:38:59.720 --> 00:39:01.880
In other words, you're just like, Oh, it's just too much.

553
00:39:01.960 --> 00:39:03.200
I just get do that Lord.

554
00:39:03.200 --> 00:39:06.040
And I've told the Lord that sometimes I'm like that, but I don't

555
00:39:06.040 --> 00:39:07.160
have the faith for that yet.

556
00:39:07.160 --> 00:39:08.920
I so badly wish that I do.

557
00:39:08.920 --> 00:39:11.680
And I'm really having to fight condemnation that I'm not there yet.

558
00:39:11.680 --> 00:39:13.280
Cause I know I quote unquote should.

559
00:39:13.320 --> 00:39:17.280
That's what I'm like telling myself, you know, I'm not saying that that's,

560
00:39:17.960 --> 00:39:20.560
that's the Christian way to look at it, you know, and that's

561
00:39:20.560 --> 00:39:22.080
the son of God way to look at.

562
00:39:22.160 --> 00:39:24.360
I'm being honest about my dialogue with the Lord.

563
00:39:24.800 --> 00:39:26.280
I'm like, I feel condemnation.

564
00:39:26.280 --> 00:39:28.960
I'm struggling with this Lord, but Lord, this is where I am.

565
00:39:29.160 --> 00:39:32.320
And I know that the fastest way, just like what Ed was saying, the fastest

566
00:39:32.320 --> 00:39:35.760
way to progress is to accept where I am.

567
00:39:35.760 --> 00:39:39.760
God's like, okay, now you're facing reality and now we can grow.

568
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:43.040
Now we can work with this because you're letting yourself be the thing.

569
00:39:43.040 --> 00:39:44.920
So you're letting that age.

570
00:39:45.840 --> 00:39:53.280
And the, the development that I created in that age to come to its fullness so

571
00:39:53.280 --> 00:40:00.000
that you are fully equipped for age six, you started age five, allow what I meant.

572
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.240
for everything to happen during age five, you develop in your brain, you develop in your body,

573
00:40:04.240 --> 00:40:08.880
you develop in your emotions and your lot in your sense of, of being able to figure out logic,

574
00:40:08.880 --> 00:40:15.360
allow that to fully develop and then become six. Cause you just skip over it too fast.

575
00:40:15.360 --> 00:40:19.360
You won't develop it and you won't have what it is you need. And then you'll do what it is that

576
00:40:19.360 --> 00:40:23.200
I'm doing at 38, which is processing things that other people have processed when they were in high

577
00:40:23.200 --> 00:40:28.480
school. So anyway, the same thing in our spirit. So you'll just know when you talk to the Lord

578
00:40:28.480 --> 00:40:34.560
about these things. Okay. Where is your peace? Where's your peace in your spirit? Like I believe

579
00:40:34.560 --> 00:40:43.920
Lord in faith, everything in me goes into peace. When I, when I ask you about us doing this and

580
00:40:43.920 --> 00:40:50.720
stepping out like this and then, but this other thing, Lord, I just, I still am in turmoil.

581
00:40:50.720 --> 00:40:57.680
I'm in confusion. I'm in chaos. I'm in torment. I'm in fear. I'm in whatever. Okay. And ask the

582
00:40:57.680 --> 00:41:05.760
figure out then, okay, where, what option gives you peace? And they're like, okay, Lord, what about

583
00:41:05.760 --> 00:41:10.320
that one? You know, should we go into that one? Because that's where my faith is right now.

584
00:41:10.320 --> 00:41:16.000
My faith is at that point, you know, and then just step into that, but step into that choosing that

585
00:41:16.000 --> 00:41:22.080
that is the goodness of God, as opposed to the fact that God, that you aren't doing something

586
00:41:22.080 --> 00:41:28.320
you should, or believing something that you should, or that God and not believing it. And

587
00:41:28.320 --> 00:41:34.880
instead of believing that, well, God's abandoned me, I'm alone. And therefore I've got to figure

588
00:41:34.880 --> 00:41:39.760
it out myself. I've got to save myself. I've got to heal myself. I've got to figure it out myself.

589
00:41:40.480 --> 00:41:49.360
So just choose it for a different reason, choose it, believing God and what he said. And that

590
00:41:49.920 --> 00:41:57.040
is, as opposed to not believing what he said, sorry, having a hard time explaining all this,

591
00:41:57.040 --> 00:42:06.400
but does, does that make sense? Okay, good. And there was something else that I wanted to

592
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:12.800
explain in that, that I thought might be helpful. And now I have forgotten it. That's a bummer

593
00:42:12.800 --> 00:42:18.000
because it was going to kind of like flush it out a bit more by mentioning something that I

594
00:42:18.000 --> 00:42:29.200
hadn't mentioned yet, but I don't remember what it is. So does someone else have, have a question?

595
00:42:29.200 --> 00:42:49.040
No one does. I can try to find something,

596
00:42:50.480 --> 00:42:54.640
know to be, or sharing something that you've been going through, you know, something that,

597
00:42:55.280 --> 00:43:04.480
I don't know, your week's been like, or something. I knew that I had something while ago, but I can't think of it.

598
00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:18.480
I'll share something that, that happened last night. Yeah.

599
00:43:19.200 --> 00:43:30.720
Yeah. I was out walking my dog and it was like this little, I'll call it a little revelation,

600
00:43:30.720 --> 00:43:40.640
but it's probably major that there is no separation anymore with God. Yes. And I think

601
00:43:40.640 --> 00:43:50.080
that that was my biggest fear that, you know, I, I mean, I, I wrote something about that at the very,

602
00:43:50.080 --> 00:43:56.960
at the very beginning of this intensive. So I think, you know, and I've just been thinking

603
00:43:56.960 --> 00:44:03.360
about it through the day, like last night and this morning. And, you know, it, I mean, it's,

604
00:44:03.360 --> 00:44:10.160
it's a major thing to know that we're never going to be separated from God, that he's not going to

605
00:44:10.160 --> 00:44:16.320
leave us. I mean, it just sounds like words, but it's really major. You know, it's really huge.

606
00:44:16.320 --> 00:44:23.120
That's the basis of everything because remember the, the, the union is the place of rest. Yeah.

607
00:44:23.760 --> 00:44:32.480
Yeah. It's very major. Yeah. And it gives you peace, doesn't it? I mean, it was, yeah, it was,

608
00:44:32.480 --> 00:44:37.680
it was great. Yeah. Cause I was feeling a bit, I don't know, I was feeling a bit discouraged and,

609
00:44:38.560 --> 00:44:43.280
you know, it was just like, he just gave me this revelation while I was outside at night,

610
00:44:43.280 --> 00:44:50.080
walking my dog. Yeah. And there's nothing to fear anymore because you never had the threat

611
00:44:50.080 --> 00:44:55.680
of potential separation, like what you're saying it's and the fact that you were actually born

612
00:44:55.680 --> 00:44:59.840
from him, meaning like, cause I don't know if you remember this, but in the, um,

613
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:18.000
In the teaching one spirit, which was I think session two, I talked about the fact that, okay, so I, I'm unified with the Lord now, but I was always very unsettled by the fact that I felt like I'd ever been separated from God at any point in time.

614
00:45:18.000 --> 00:45:33.000
But then that's when the Lord showed me, actually, Ashley, you came out of me, you were, you're, you originated from inside of me. So, you originated in union.

615
00:45:33.000 --> 00:45:44.000
And that made me feel so much more safe because I didn't like the fact that I was separated from God. And he just just said, Oh, well, you know, I'll join you to myself.

616
00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:48.000
No, it was a rejoining, it was a reunion.

617
00:45:48.000 --> 00:45:59.000
And that just made me feel so much better because it was like, it was, I think that partly it gave me and this isn't fully it but this gives you an idea.

618
00:45:59.000 --> 00:46:10.000
I mean, it wasn't fully everything that was going on inside me but it was like, you know, part of it was, and this gives you an idea is the fact that it gave me.

619
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:13.000
It gave me peace like I had a claim or a right to it.

620
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:24.000
I had a claim or a right to that union, as opposed to Oh God was just kind of like, Hey, I just came up with this idea so let's do it.

621
00:46:25.000 --> 00:46:35.000
It fed a very deeply rooted need for me to for me to connect with the point of my existence.

622
00:46:35.000 --> 00:46:51.000
The fact that my point of my existence was actually my union and my connection with him, which is why I believe, even though I've never had anybody describe it like this before it's just in my spirit it's just something that I sense and I understand I don't

623
00:46:51.000 --> 00:47:01.000
understand it fully but it's, this is the closest that I understand it so thus far. And that is that our identity is the point at which we're unified with God's spirit.

624
00:47:01.000 --> 00:47:17.000
It's not our spirit, I don't believe that our identity so to speak, is our spirit I believe that the seed of our identity is in our spirit but I believe our actual identity is the fact that our spirit is joined with his spirit, that, that point of connection.

625
00:47:18.000 --> 00:47:33.000
In other words, I do not believe we can be identified apart from Christ anymore. So it's not like oh it's our spirit and we are our own separate entity but then we're connected to the Lord, our identity is so ingrained with Christ that we cannot be

626
00:47:33.000 --> 00:47:54.000
identified apart from him so therefore the very core of our existence. And what keeps us together is in other words keeps body soul and spirit together keeps our sense of being together as one entity is the fact that we are unified with Christ, and it's as being

627
00:47:55.000 --> 00:48:07.000
And because obviously it says that crisis before all things and or is is by him all things consist that's what I'm trying to say that he unifies all things.

628
00:48:07.000 --> 00:48:18.000
And by him all things consist. And so anyway, it, I'm excited to hear that you had that revelation from the Lord because that's the core of everything we can handle anything.

629
00:48:19.000 --> 00:48:36.000
As long as we know there is no separation. There's, and if we realize there is no separation, everything else stems from that. Well then therefore that means that there's no lack, therefore that means that I am in a environment of protection and provision

630
00:48:36.000 --> 00:48:47.000
I don't know if we've ever talked about any of that before, but understand that protection and provision or things like that are not things that are transacted to us when we ask God for them.

631
00:48:47.000 --> 00:49:03.000
They're not things that are were without. And then we pray and ask God for them and he transacts them to us because we're in him so we're, we're, we're, we abide in him we're unified with him and he's the all sufficient one meaning that he has everything.

632
00:49:03.000 --> 00:49:17.000
We are literally in an environment of protection and provision that was created by God to support into a hold us to serve our, our need for lack of a better phrase.

633
00:49:18.000 --> 00:49:32.000
So anyway, but all of that has to do with the fact that we're unified and there is no separation. So it's like everything all of these other understandings, and all of them therefore is, you know, all come from the fact that we can be solid in knowing

634
00:49:32.000 --> 00:49:37.000
that there is no separation, and that no separation is the place of rest.

635
00:49:37.000 --> 00:49:51.000
Everything within us. Once we have that revelation that you're talking about. So like you said, it's major. You go into that place of rest. If you can connect with the fact that God loves you to the degree that he says that he does, and that you're unified

636
00:49:51.000 --> 00:50:00.000
that literally will shift you into rest every time is that we have trouble believing that that I give all of these other tools to help us kind of like

637
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.080
You have an anchor for our soul to help or kind of an anchor or a

638
00:50:03.080 --> 00:50:05.000
leverage for our soul to believe it.

639
00:50:05.340 --> 00:50:10.540
But really the foundation is the fact that we, is the fact that we're unified

640
00:50:10.540 --> 00:50:15.220
with him and the fact that we're safe there because, and that we allow ourselves

641
00:50:15.220 --> 00:50:20.980
to operate from there because he loves us, you know, that's huge, huge revelation.

642
00:50:21.040 --> 00:50:24.680
Everything is founded in your life from that point.

643
00:50:25.180 --> 00:50:26.640
So I'm excited for you.

644
00:50:27.580 --> 00:50:29.360
Yeah, we can hear about it all.

645
00:50:30.280 --> 00:50:37.800
But to have the experience that you did, where your spirit came alive, knowing

646
00:50:37.800 --> 00:50:43.320
that, that, that is what will sustain you through everything, not the knowledge,

647
00:50:43.320 --> 00:50:47.080
not the remembering, you know, okay, now, how did that go again?

648
00:50:47.080 --> 00:50:48.640
And what do I need to remember?

649
00:50:50.640 --> 00:50:54.320
It's that, it's that connection, that knowing between you and the Lord

650
00:50:54.320 --> 00:50:57.040
in your spirit, that something is true.

651
00:50:57.520 --> 00:50:59.200
That is faith.

652
00:50:59.960 --> 00:51:01.320
That is choice.

653
00:51:01.400 --> 00:51:05.840
That's making a decision that your reality is what God has declared to be true.

654
00:51:06.880 --> 00:51:09.640
Not just something that sounded good or that you wanted to believe.

655
00:51:10.680 --> 00:51:13.000
So that's really exciting.

656
00:51:13.440 --> 00:51:13.940
Yeah.

657
00:51:14.560 --> 00:51:15.800
Gives you tremendous peace.

658
00:51:18.080 --> 00:51:18.580
Yeah.

659
00:51:21.080 --> 00:51:25.840
So anyone have anything else they want to talk about?

660
00:51:25.840 --> 00:51:26.680
Oh, okay.

661
00:51:26.960 --> 00:51:31.720
Oh, also I thought of the other thing that I was going to say, um, to kind of

662
00:51:31.720 --> 00:51:35.760
help, uh, along with what I was talking about with, um, based off of Casey's

663
00:51:35.760 --> 00:51:40.040
question is where I was trying to explain what is it that we have been doing?

664
00:51:40.360 --> 00:51:44.600
What we were doing is we, uh, and the way the God was interacting with this

665
00:51:44.640 --> 00:51:50.240
then is like the prodigal son where the prodigal son had said, Hey, I want,

666
00:51:50.400 --> 00:51:51.920
give me my inheritance.

667
00:51:52.640 --> 00:51:55.880
And so what the prodigal son did is he took it.

668
00:51:56.800 --> 00:51:59.800
And he did what he wanted out here, separated from the father,

669
00:51:59.800 --> 00:52:01.840
but you notice what God did.

670
00:52:02.520 --> 00:52:05.760
The father gave it to him in our world.

671
00:52:05.760 --> 00:52:10.400
We call that enabling where they said, Oh, I want to do something bad.

672
00:52:10.400 --> 00:52:12.120
I want to do something wrong.

673
00:52:12.240 --> 00:52:13.120
I'm going to go over here.

674
00:52:13.120 --> 00:52:15.680
And so the father's just like, Oh my word, you're going to go out into the

675
00:52:15.680 --> 00:52:18.000
big bad world and you're going to get hurt.

676
00:52:18.080 --> 00:52:19.360
So what does the father do?

677
00:52:19.880 --> 00:52:29.480
He enables provision for the guy to have comfort for the guy to have money for the

678
00:52:29.480 --> 00:52:31.640
guy to be able to take care of himself.

679
00:52:31.640 --> 00:52:36.160
He gave him the means that the son said, I want to be able to take care of myself.

680
00:52:36.440 --> 00:52:39.360
Adam and Eve said, I want to be able to take care of myself.

681
00:52:40.120 --> 00:52:43.680
So God didn't just say, okay, well then bye.

682
00:52:43.920 --> 00:52:46.800
You know, he said he enabled them to do it.

683
00:52:47.400 --> 00:52:53.640
He gave them the means by which they could be taken care of, meaning like

684
00:52:53.640 --> 00:52:58.480
they had to do it themselves, but things that they could, he put things out there

685
00:52:58.480 --> 00:53:03.440
to serve them, that they could take advantage of to be able to provide

686
00:53:03.440 --> 00:53:04.880
for and protect themselves.

687
00:53:05.360 --> 00:53:10.800
He enabled them to do the thing that they wanted to do in separation.

688
00:53:11.560 --> 00:53:13.640
And so that's what we were, have been doing.

689
00:53:14.080 --> 00:53:15.200
Like, I want to take it.

690
00:53:15.240 --> 00:53:16.080
I want to do it myself.

691
00:53:16.480 --> 00:53:20.040
And so we're taking advantage of, I keep using the example of Tylenol, but

692
00:53:20.040 --> 00:53:23.160
we keep using Tylenol, keep using something else, knowledge, wisdom.

693
00:53:23.640 --> 00:53:25.400
Money, food, whatever.

694
00:53:25.640 --> 00:53:27.320
We're using all of these things.

695
00:53:28.000 --> 00:53:32.160
And, but what God says is I want you to realize and acknowledge

696
00:53:32.160 --> 00:53:33.720
just like the prodigal son did.

697
00:53:34.400 --> 00:53:34.640
Yeah.

698
00:53:34.640 --> 00:53:39.600
But where I, if I go back to my father, even if I live like a

699
00:53:39.600 --> 00:53:42.000
pauper, I'll still be taken care of.

700
00:53:42.000 --> 00:53:42.400
Right.

701
00:53:42.560 --> 00:53:45.880
Because he was acknowledging, where did I get all the means by

702
00:53:45.880 --> 00:53:48.320
which I've supported myself thus far?

703
00:53:49.000 --> 00:53:54.040
So we came into agreement with the fact that my father, the reason that I have

704
00:53:54.040 --> 00:53:56.080
this is because my father's good.

705
00:53:56.560 --> 00:54:02.440
I left because I thought my father wasn't good, but I'm now acknowledging

706
00:54:02.440 --> 00:54:06.760
that the reason that I could leave and have all of these things

707
00:54:07.080 --> 00:54:09.800
is because my father's good.

708
00:54:10.400 --> 00:54:15.960
So we now take these things, using them in a, uh, with agreement that the

709
00:54:15.960 --> 00:54:17.520
fact that God is who he says that he is.

710
00:54:17.520 --> 00:54:21.560
So I just kind of wanted to tie it into a, uh, to a Bible story that

711
00:54:21.560 --> 00:54:26.200
we're all familiar with to kind of like maybe help everyone visualize it a bit

712
00:54:26.200 --> 00:54:34.560
better and I'm seriously got to work on my drawing, things have definitely

713
00:54:34.560 --> 00:54:37.760
progressed over the years as I've, as I've taught different things, I've

714
00:54:37.760 --> 00:54:39.840
come up with much better analogies over the years.

715
00:54:39.960 --> 00:54:42.760
So y'all are the, y'all get to bear the benefit of it.

716
00:54:43.120 --> 00:54:46.080
So, but apparently I've got to come up with a new one for this one.

717
00:54:47.280 --> 00:54:49.360
So did I miss it?

718
00:54:49.360 --> 00:54:50.360
Did someone raise their hand?

719
00:54:50.360 --> 00:54:51.680
I thought someone raised their hand.

720
00:54:52.560 --> 00:54:53.200
You did Kate.

721
00:54:53.200 --> 00:54:53.560
Okay.

722
00:54:53.600 --> 00:54:54.800
I thought I saw some movement.

723
00:54:55.320 --> 00:54:55.560
Sure.

724
00:54:55.560 --> 00:54:56.640
I just had a quick question.

725
00:54:56.680 --> 00:55:00.040
Um, when it comes to processing pain, um,

726
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.680
or offenses or you know we don't want to stifle them right because that will manifest in our body

727
00:55:07.040 --> 00:55:13.280
and but we also don't what we talked about in our one-on-one we don't want to obsessively go after

728
00:55:13.920 --> 00:55:19.840
every little offense that may come our way but there's some things that they that come up or

729
00:55:19.840 --> 00:55:23.440
and then you feel like oh that didn't feel right like that that kind of hurt and sometimes you

730
00:55:23.440 --> 00:55:26.800
can use the power of ignore and be like I'm actually not going to entertain that like I

731
00:55:26.800 --> 00:55:33.840
don't need to to spend much time there and just kind of brush it off how do you know like when

732
00:55:34.560 --> 00:55:39.760
you're stifling it versus brushing it off and just like no actually just don't need to

733
00:55:41.280 --> 00:55:48.800
entertain that I guess like like how um yeah like every day do we need to be processing

734
00:55:48.800 --> 00:55:55.120
every little thing that we're experiencing or coming at us or so that way it doesn't take

735
00:55:55.120 --> 00:56:00.640
up root and become fester and become a bigger thing than what it needed to be because we

736
00:56:00.640 --> 00:56:05.920
weren't keeping close inventory on you know like you said like as you as you continue to go on you

737
00:56:05.920 --> 00:56:13.760
were offended and less triggered by things more and more um but I guess just the question of um

738
00:56:14.560 --> 00:56:20.400
making sure we're adequately processing the pain that or the offenses that we're experiencing

739
00:56:20.400 --> 00:56:26.160
without stifling them but then without camping out there for too long or without um focusing

740
00:56:27.680 --> 00:56:30.960
so we definitely don't it's a really good question we definitely don't want to deny it

741
00:56:31.680 --> 00:56:36.240
so you were asking like well how do we know if we're and how did you phrase it if we're stifling

742
00:56:36.240 --> 00:56:44.400
it or for what um or just ignoring it or um dismissing it and just like oh it's not that

743
00:56:44.400 --> 00:56:50.320
big of a deal like minimizing it correct yeah yeah so like what you're talking about really

744
00:56:50.320 --> 00:56:56.400
you know another word for it is just denial denial that it hurt or denial that it was real

745
00:56:56.400 --> 00:57:03.840
or denial that it was as big as it was um so that is all evidence of the fact that we're stifling it

746
00:57:03.840 --> 00:57:10.640
and that it's just not helpful to us you know etc now that being said I do think it's very important

747
00:57:10.640 --> 00:57:17.760
that we have compassion for ourselves and not try to handle everything that comes at us all the time

748
00:57:18.320 --> 00:57:26.400
because then that that's going to trigger stress striving stress etc and we just need to be kind

749
00:57:26.400 --> 00:57:35.440
to ourselves and just kind of like not have not require ourselves to face and um to face everything

750
00:57:35.440 --> 00:57:40.720
at the same time you know there's just there's just no need I mean even and I like and I love

751
00:57:40.720 --> 00:57:47.440
this example um you know even when Elijah which we talked about the other day when he was fleeing

752
00:57:47.440 --> 00:57:53.920
on Jezebel's you know wrath and threat and then going into eventually led to Mount Sinai and he's

753
00:57:53.920 --> 00:57:58.800
in the desert and he just tells God you know just kill me now and then when the angel wakes him up

754
00:57:58.800 --> 00:58:04.880
with food and water that God had sent him he said get up and eat and drink because the journey is

755
00:58:04.880 --> 00:58:11.360
too much for you so God made provision for the fact that Elijah who had just done amazing things

756
00:58:11.360 --> 00:58:17.520
my goodness you know I mean he's down on the ground you know just asleep and God says that

757
00:58:17.520 --> 00:58:24.400
the journey is too much for a man that just called fire down from heaven and killed 400 prophets of

758
00:58:24.400 --> 00:58:30.320
Baal you know but oh my word the journey through the desert's too much you know it God was saying

759
00:58:30.320 --> 00:58:36.800
hey look you know you done enough you don't have to face everything all at once and all at the same

760
00:58:36.800 --> 00:58:42.320
time so that's it's important for us to have uh compassion for ourselves and to not force ourselves

761
00:58:42.320 --> 00:58:51.040
to I don't know to do too much all at one time um and uh then uh there was something else that came

762
00:58:51.040 --> 00:58:57.920
up while you were talking and if this doesn't answer your question then then um after I after

763
00:58:57.920 --> 00:59:03.680
I mentioned this you know please remind me of like or explain to me okay well exactly uh how

764
00:59:03.680 --> 00:59:08.080
you were approaching it and so how you need me to address it but one of the things is that remember

765
00:59:08.080 --> 00:59:19.760
that the importance of of pain and how we handle it is not valuing avoiding it but it's actually

766
00:59:19.760 --> 00:59:26.480
valuing how we go through it so it's going through the pain and how we're going through it

767
00:59:27.040 --> 00:59:32.880
as opposed to trying to avoid the thing is if we're making the thing it's because

768
00:59:32.880 --> 00:59:39.120
what happens is we end up making if we're always trying to avoid it there is a way in which we're

769
00:59:39.120 --> 00:59:45.920
actually um coming into agreement with the fact that that is a very very powerful thing and we're

770
00:59:45.920 --> 00:59:53.280
making it more powerful than than God and then us and therefore we're not in agreement with the

771
00:59:53.280 --> 00:59:58.480
lord that was that were who he says that we are because we're more afraid of the pain and we'd

772
00:59:58.480 --> 00:59:59.760
rather just kind of like avoid it

773
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:15.000
So one of the things that we need to realize is to not, to not give pain, you know, pain of rejection, pain of overwhelm, pain of I don't know, whatever, more, more significance than it really has.

774
01:00:15.000 --> 01:00:21.000
And to just not, in fact, there was somebody that I'm meeting to do.

775
01:00:21.000 --> 01:00:28.000
They, they reached out to me and they needed about, about something that they were struggling with.

776
01:00:28.000 --> 01:00:32.000
And I told them I was going to send them a video reply.

777
01:00:32.000 --> 01:00:43.000
And this is actually what it's all about. It's about the fact because they, they had this situation and, and, and my answer to their question was actually this.

778
01:00:43.000 --> 01:00:53.000
And that's the fact that, you know, don't it's, it's what's important is that is how we go through the pain, not in trying to like, quote unquote, avoid it.

779
01:00:53.000 --> 01:01:07.000
And, and what helps us go through the pain is to, how would it, it, it's not giving it the, it's not being so scared of it.

780
01:01:07.000 --> 01:01:21.000
It's not seeing it as a threat. It is not valuing the, the pain and the avoidance of it as our highest, as of our, as of highest importance.

781
01:01:21.000 --> 01:01:30.000
So let's see, some of the things that I wrote down to tell them was, we need to choose God over the pain of being rejected.

782
01:01:30.000 --> 01:01:36.000
We need to value God more than the pain of being rejected. I just looked like mentioned it in a variety of different ways.

783
01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:43.000
So we need to value God more than avoiding rejection and choose God over avoiding rejection.

784
01:01:44.000 --> 01:02:01.000
And then also, it's because that pain and the avoidance of rejection is very important to us. And so we have to make God more important to us than the pain, the significance of the pain and the avoidance of that pain.

785
01:02:02.000 --> 01:02:18.000
Anyway, so those were just some of the things that came to mind when you were talking, but can you, can you speak to a bit, a bit more about like, if that didn't address your question the way that you were asking it and you had some other thing that you were some

786
01:02:18.000 --> 01:02:21.000
other aspect of it that you were wanting you to address.

787
01:02:21.000 --> 01:02:27.000
Yeah, no, that's helpful. It wasn't really necessarily a black and white question just in general.

788
01:02:27.000 --> 01:02:45.000
Everything so circumstantial when it comes your way and you're just like, yeah, I'm just generally making sure that we're walking through it and not avoiding it but not putting too much emphasis on the pain but doing the Lord from a place of rest.

789
01:02:45.000 --> 01:02:47.000
Yeah, that's good.

790
01:02:48.000 --> 01:02:55.000
So like I said you don't give it a lot of you, you don't ever deny it.

791
01:02:55.000 --> 01:03:07.000
But in acknowledging it you also don't give it too much power, either, and just say oh my word is this really big deal. It's like, no, it's this thing that's trying to come against me.

792
01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:13.000
I'm just not having it because it's not as important to me as what God said.

793
01:03:14.000 --> 01:03:21.000
It is very challenging to do. It is very challenging to do. But remember that.

794
01:03:21.000 --> 01:03:36.000
And this is why I do a rest intensive not just teach on rest is because if I were just teach like this and just get up in front of people for like, I don't know a couple of hours or whatever and tell them all of the highlights.

795
01:03:36.000 --> 01:03:52.000
I only say the nice things that are going to help that that are going to make people feel good, because saying the hard things like choosing God and choosing that he's more important than avoiding your pain is not something that in a simple teaching or

796
01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:54.000
preaching is going to go over well.

797
01:03:54.000 --> 01:04:07.000
But this is the thing that this is why I do the rest intensive was actually mentorship program where I help people live it. This is what actually I promise you before God.

798
01:04:07.000 --> 01:04:10.000
This is what works.

799
01:04:10.000 --> 01:04:21.000
This is what changes everything is to choose that God is more important than your pain, choosing God that that God is more important than avoiding the pain.

800
01:04:21.000 --> 01:04:28.000
So you, you neutralize the power of that pain, you need to. There is a.

801
01:04:28.000 --> 01:04:40.000
I was going to say there's a teaching that I did on this but I don't know that it would be very helpful enough to this particular situation but it's basically, basically what I talked about in there is just the fact that.

802
01:04:41.000 --> 01:04:46.000
Well, I have it. Oh, I bet you I don't.

803
01:04:46.000 --> 01:04:53.000
Back at my, my, my house.

804
01:04:53.000 --> 01:04:59.000
I could just carry you over to the end to the

805
01:04:59.000 --> 01:05:00.000
whiteboard.

806
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.320
Cause I have it there, but I won't, I'll just write it real here really quick.

807
01:05:03.640 --> 01:05:12.280
So remember that we're spirit, we're soul and body, and that the spiritual realm,

808
01:05:12.620 --> 01:05:17.200
so to speak, you know, like spiritual forces, spiritual warfare, you know,

809
01:05:17.200 --> 01:05:23.080
and, and all the principles by which all of that works the way that my friend

810
01:05:23.080 --> 01:05:27.980
Christie does that is it's down here in the soul realm, but you and who it is

811
01:05:27.980 --> 01:05:36.380
that you are in Christ, remember your balloon, the balloon you're up here in

812
01:05:36.380 --> 01:05:40.980
the spirit, and so you are in Christ and therefore all power and authority

813
01:05:40.980 --> 01:05:42.100
has been put under Christ's feet.

814
01:05:42.100 --> 01:05:46.180
Meaning it's all under your feet, meaning include including any principles

815
01:05:46.180 --> 01:05:50.340
of spiritual warfare are not something that we're required to engage in.

816
01:05:50.860 --> 01:05:54.100
Again, like what we were talking about the, uh, earlier, you know, Casey's

817
01:05:54.100 --> 01:05:59.240
question, like in relationship to spiritual warfare, just like fate, just

818
01:05:59.240 --> 01:06:04.420
like healing or healing for inner wounds or whatever, we can only operate

819
01:06:04.420 --> 01:06:08.140
according to the degree of faith that we have, if there's an aspect in which

820
01:06:08.140 --> 01:06:11.860
we're operating down here, then yeah, we have to use these principles because

821
01:06:11.860 --> 01:06:14.660
this is where we're coming into agreement with that we are.

822
01:06:15.060 --> 01:06:18.940
So we have to use these principles, like principles of inner healing,

823
01:06:18.940 --> 01:06:22.460
going to a psychologist, going to a Christian counselor, doing, um, going

824
01:06:22.460 --> 01:06:27.660
to deliverance, doing spiritual warfare, whatever, but it's a lot harder that way.

825
01:06:27.660 --> 01:06:30.180
So we can battle pain.

826
01:06:30.700 --> 01:06:36.620
Um, like that, it's just using all of those principles that, that God has put

827
01:06:36.620 --> 01:06:38.240
into place, it's just a lot harder.

828
01:06:38.780 --> 01:06:46.660
Um, but, uh, anyway, but my, my point that I was trying to make is the, the easiest

829
01:06:46.660 --> 01:06:48.820
way, this is not obviously in rest.

830
01:06:48.820 --> 01:06:49.100
Why?

831
01:06:49.100 --> 01:06:52.060
Because rest can only happen if your identity is seated here.

832
01:06:52.060 --> 01:06:53.420
If you are operating.

833
01:06:54.220 --> 01:06:57.300
According to your, if you are operating, like your identity is seating here,

834
01:06:57.460 --> 01:07:01.060
seated here, if you're operating in a particular area, like your identity is

835
01:07:01.060 --> 01:07:06.540
seated here, then you need to use some kind of, then you're going to have to

836
01:07:06.740 --> 01:07:08.940
battle things by their rules.

837
01:07:09.380 --> 01:07:13.300
In other words, by the rules that God required this realm to operate, if

838
01:07:13.300 --> 01:07:18.300
you're in this realm, if you have put your identity, so to speak in this

839
01:07:18.340 --> 01:07:21.060
realm, this is where you got to do it, but it's a lot harder.

840
01:07:21.060 --> 01:07:22.740
It's a lot harder to battle pain.

841
01:07:22.740 --> 01:07:25.660
It's a lot harder to battle with spiritual warfare because

842
01:07:25.660 --> 01:07:26.820
you're going head to head.

843
01:07:26.860 --> 01:07:31.700
You're using the same principles in whoever knows the principles best wins.

844
01:07:32.940 --> 01:07:37.220
But if you're up here, you don't have to know all these principles to win.

845
01:07:38.980 --> 01:07:42.660
Um, and so it's a lot more powerful.

846
01:07:43.460 --> 01:07:47.220
You, you can beat Satan at his own game.

847
01:07:47.860 --> 01:07:51.620
You can beat, because obviously it's God's game because he's the one who

848
01:07:51.620 --> 01:07:53.860
created the rules by which everything works.

849
01:07:54.380 --> 01:07:58.660
So you can beat it by battling it, but it's very hard.

850
01:07:58.660 --> 01:07:59.740
This is all strife.

851
01:07:59.740 --> 01:08:00.820
This is all sweat.

852
01:08:00.820 --> 01:08:02.980
This is all very, very difficult to do down here.

853
01:08:03.460 --> 01:08:08.500
It works, but you, if you do it from up here, if you do it from complete

854
01:08:09.140 --> 01:08:15.860
then what you're doing to, to, um, overcome is you are neutralizing.

855
01:08:16.380 --> 01:08:21.380
The evil instead of battling the evil, you're just neutralizing it.

856
01:08:22.260 --> 01:08:24.979
Um, and you don't have to fight it on its own terms.

857
01:08:25.020 --> 01:08:26.700
You don't have to go head to head with it.

858
01:08:26.779 --> 01:08:27.819
You just neutralize it.

859
01:08:27.819 --> 01:08:31.859
And so, so my whole point in setting all that up is you do the same thing with pain.

860
01:08:32.460 --> 01:08:33.779
You just neutralize its power.

861
01:08:33.779 --> 01:08:35.819
It's like, okay, well then it's not important to me.

862
01:08:36.140 --> 01:08:38.540
And I'm choosing something of higher importance to me.

863
01:08:38.660 --> 01:08:40.700
And then I'm battling pain from that position.

864
01:08:41.460 --> 01:08:50.060
It's a lot easier to resist, quote unquote, uh, rejection or, um, uh, you

865
01:08:50.060 --> 01:08:54.779
know, offenses or whatever other examples that you were giving.

866
01:08:55.220 --> 01:09:03.859
Um, anyway, all I did to, um, the majority of me overcoming is not facing

867
01:09:03.979 --> 01:09:09.340
exact situations with an exact truth of, well, what does God say about

868
01:09:09.779 --> 01:09:11.819
me in this situation or whatever?

869
01:09:11.979 --> 01:09:12.500
Really?

870
01:09:12.500 --> 01:09:15.060
That is a lot of hard work for me.

871
01:09:15.140 --> 01:09:19.020
What I do is I choose God is more important than the situation.

872
01:09:19.580 --> 01:09:20.899
More important than the rejection.

873
01:09:20.899 --> 01:09:23.700
Rejection is one of the biggest issues that I've dealt with in my life.

874
01:09:23.740 --> 01:09:24.819
My biggest fear.

875
01:09:24.819 --> 01:09:26.979
And I'm always telling everybody this hands down.

876
01:09:26.979 --> 01:09:31.859
My biggest fear in life is emotional abandonment, not physical abandonment.

877
01:09:32.300 --> 01:09:34.140
It's not people saying mean things to me.

878
01:09:34.340 --> 01:09:38.899
It is emotional withdrawal is my greatest fear in life.

879
01:09:39.340 --> 01:09:43.340
And so obviously it's used a lot rejection, you know, et cetera.

880
01:09:43.340 --> 01:09:50.380
So, um, and I cannot, and it's really hard for me to deal with a specific

881
01:09:50.380 --> 01:09:54.660
situations, like I've got, uh, I'm dealing with rejection from a specific

882
01:09:54.660 --> 01:09:57.540
person by me being in this situation and be like, oh my word, well,

883
01:09:57.540 --> 01:09:58.860
what does God say about me?

884
01:09:58.860 --> 01:09:59.820
He says that what they said.

885
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.340
I mean, isn't true and that is really, really hard, my goodness.

886
01:10:04.340 --> 01:10:06.800
And especially if you have to do that with every single situation,

887
01:10:07.280 --> 01:10:09.360
it's a lot harder to battle that way.

888
01:10:09.360 --> 01:10:11.400
What I have to do is I have to choose.

889
01:10:11.400 --> 01:10:15.240
No, who does God say that I am regard outside of this situation?

890
01:10:15.520 --> 01:10:16.620
Who am I?

891
01:10:17.380 --> 01:10:20.680
And then I bring that person into the situation.

892
01:10:20.680 --> 01:10:24.440
And suddenly that situation didn't matter anymore because I chose God

893
01:10:24.440 --> 01:10:29.400
is more important than the pain, more important than the rejection.

894
01:10:29.440 --> 01:10:34.840
And I neutralized it by just pulling myself out of it and making a bigger choice.

895
01:10:34.840 --> 01:10:38.000
I wasn't asked, oh, so what does God really say about me?

896
01:10:38.000 --> 01:10:40.120
They said this, but what does God say about me?

897
01:10:40.160 --> 01:10:43.760
Just like pulled out of that completely and be like, who am I to God?

898
01:10:44.320 --> 01:10:46.080
You know, what is my identity?

899
01:10:46.080 --> 01:10:47.400
What has he said?

900
01:10:47.400 --> 01:10:49.320
What is actually the truth?

901
01:10:49.320 --> 01:10:52.520
You know, completely like in general, in other words,

902
01:10:53.320 --> 01:10:56.120
not specifically in general, who am I?

903
01:10:56.600 --> 01:10:58.720
And that takes care of the specific

904
01:10:58.720 --> 01:11:03.040
instead of fighting every little thing by a specific that is so exhausting.

905
01:11:03.040 --> 01:11:04.920
I've lived my life like that.

906
01:11:04.920 --> 01:11:07.320
It takes a very long time to overcome those things,

907
01:11:07.320 --> 01:11:11.120
because usually all you're doing is you're just trying to convince yourself.

908
01:11:12.240 --> 01:11:14.640
But instead, I have to choose

909
01:11:14.640 --> 01:11:17.400
regardless of the situation, regardless of that gets resolved,

910
01:11:17.480 --> 01:11:20.680
regardless of my if my relationship with this person gets restored,

911
01:11:20.720 --> 01:11:23.720
regardless of how I feel with this person again and whether or not I trust them,

912
01:11:23.720 --> 01:11:25.560
regardless of that, what do I choose?

913
01:11:25.560 --> 01:11:28.600
I choose to make sure that I know who am I with God.

914
01:11:29.280 --> 01:11:33.160
And I choose that over the situation

915
01:11:33.880 --> 01:11:35.280
getting better.

916
01:11:35.760 --> 01:11:39.640
And how I and and me handling the situation, OK,

917
01:11:39.960 --> 01:11:43.600
and how I feel in the situation and the fact that they said this.

918
01:11:43.600 --> 01:11:46.880
And well, you know, what do I think about that and how did it affect me?

919
01:11:46.880 --> 01:11:50.320
And just like, ah, it's giving it entirely too much power.

920
01:11:50.600 --> 01:11:53.000
I choose this as the greater power.

921
01:11:53.000 --> 01:11:53.640
Does that make sense?

922
01:11:53.640 --> 01:11:55.800
What it is that I'm saying that I'm choosing?

923
01:11:55.800 --> 01:11:58.360
I'm not I'm like, forget the situation.

924
01:11:58.840 --> 01:12:00.080
Just like, who am I with God?

925
01:12:00.080 --> 01:12:02.200
And I shift into that and that takes care.

926
01:12:02.200 --> 01:12:04.400
I promise you, it takes care of everything.

927
01:12:05.120 --> 01:12:07.800
And then it because it's a higher it's a higher power.

928
01:12:07.800 --> 01:12:10.560
It's a higher authority, et cetera.

929
01:12:10.560 --> 01:12:13.280
Does that answer your question? Maybe a little bit.

930
01:12:15.160 --> 01:12:18.640
OK, well, I will let y'all go.

931
01:12:18.640 --> 01:12:23.000
I will see y'all Sunday next week is our last week.

932
01:12:24.200 --> 01:12:27.000
And we've got

933
01:12:27.000 --> 01:12:30.720
and then make sure that y'all have all y'all's transformation sessions

934
01:12:30.720 --> 01:12:34.800
in schedule based off of however many that y'all have,

935
01:12:34.800 --> 01:12:38.640
based on whether or not you did it before or after October 1st.

936
01:12:39.200 --> 01:12:41.800
I mean, joined and registered before after October 1st.

937
01:12:41.800 --> 01:12:44.040
And I will see you all on Sunday.

938
01:12:44.840 --> 01:12:46.760
Hope y'all have a good night.