Hi, it's Annette. I just wanted to do a quick post. I'm kind of, well, I'm not as
happy as I was earlier, but that's okay. I am realizing I'm working on some
things and I can't really pinpoint it, so I'll probably do it on our rest group. So
I feel like, obviously, weight, wanting to start a business, but not being, but kind
of being afraid of it, and also not knowing what I would do are two areas
that I've mainly been having unrest in, and also wanting to get married. So those
are three big ones, but now I feel like I've been listening to some of the
teachings when it comes to negative emotions. I was just listening to that
and I realize what I've been feeling the past few days, or especially yesterday
and also today, is kind of like a feeling of being out of time. Not like
running out of time, but just kind of on a parallel track. I don't know. Okay, I'll
give an example. So today, well, yesterday I was meeting some friends out and
everything was fun and all of that. Well, I went and had my morning coffee with my
swim crew before swimming, as I always do, but then I ended up going by myself
because they're being so late and I needed to catch a train to go meet my
friends. Anyways, I ended up missing my train, had to take another one, so I was
30 minutes late. And when I got there, there was a run and I realized my sister
had been there with her kids and yadda yadda. Anyways, I came home that night and I
was like, oh man, I wish I should have, I would have just gone for my swim early,
gotten myself ready, just went had coffee and then gone in earlier to the others. I
would have had more out of my day. And then today, we have something called
fastelabens, which we make buns and probably Renate can tell more about
what it is. I think it has to do with eating before fasting or something.
Anyways, it's a time where you normally go to your family's house and I remembered
I had told my mom earlier this week that, oh, that would be fun, and then she said
she didn't know if she would be making buns because they were going to a
birthday party yesterday. And I had said, oh, well, I can make it and come over, but
then I never heard anything. Anyway, so today as well, I was gonna wake up and
like do the buns and bring them to swim club. Didn't do that, but I went and had
coffee with them, went and had my swim, continued cleaning in my house, and then
went to visit some of our other friends that have moved out just to check their
house out, their new place out. And then I was supposed to go back home and then I
ended up going to this like garden place with two of my friends and then I came
back and I started making buns because I just really wanted to. Anyways, I talked
to my sister and I was like, oh, did you guys have buns today? And she said, yes, we
went to mom's place. And I just never knew because nobody told me. So obviously
if I would have known, I would have gone there and I realized I could have asked,
but also people could have let me know. And so I think I'm definitely, I feel
like God is trying to tell me something with these things, but I'm just not sure
what because it's definitely making me uneasy and having negative emotions, but
I'm not quite sure what to release and what unbelief is there for me to like
let go and live and rest in kind of not having fear of missing out or being off
track on time or anything like that. So sorry for the long post. This is me
externally processing, but anybody has like thoughts on that? It's not like,
yeah. If anybody has thoughts, please let me know. Okay. Have a great Sunday. Bye.