hey everyone good morning from Norway it's 6 30 ish I have hit I think a low
point in my life and in this rest intensive I just feel disencouraged
really like a bit stressed and a bit hopeless I feel like nothing is working
and I am passing through some challenging issues in rest but it still
makes me wake up 5 in the morning all stressed and on the on the alert and
last night I had like a little bit of a tiny break down and just like to my
roommate and it's so challenging at work I don't know what to do with some
of the issues at work it's spiritually a dark place to be in and there's hardly
any Christians there and there I have challenges with some of the classes and
teachers and I choose rest and I go through things I feel like I'm using all
the principles and I just feel like I don't know what to do anymore and I'm
kind of afraid to become burned out again like I was this summer it's really
hard to have this feeling of hopelessness and last night and I have
for such a long time when things have come up I I could tell that that I
haven't had resentment towards God which has made me so happy that things have
been able to come out and not blaming God but actually just right away
including him and inviting him in but last night I noticed that I am resentful
towards God why I'm at where I'm at why this is so hard why he gave me this job
you know I did came up I was like accusing him of why did you give me this
job and and why is it so hard and why isn't thing working and why I'm at the
I'm at this place again I hate being in this place and then I was really sad and
frustrated that I had accusations against him but it's just that I don't
I just don't understand why things aren't working so that's my honest self
right now not trying to pretend that it's better than it is and I don't know
what to do I feel really hopeless and nothing's working and I'm like can I
tell this to the group is that okay to feel like it's not working and I don't
know what I believe it anymore because it's so challenging yeah I don't even
know if but then I thought no I'm just gonna be honest about where I'm at in
the journey all right then I'm gonna try to get myself together and go to work
yeah thank you that I could share these things these challenging things with you