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hey everyone good morning from Norway it's 6 30 ish I have hit I think a low

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point in my life and in this rest intensive I just feel disencouraged

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really like a bit stressed and a bit hopeless I feel like nothing is working

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and I am passing through some challenging issues in rest but it still

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makes me wake up 5 in the morning all stressed and on the on the alert and

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last night I had like a little bit of a tiny break down and just like to my

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roommate and it's so challenging at work I don't know what to do with some

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of the issues at work it's spiritually a dark place to be in and there's hardly

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any Christians there and there I have challenges with some of the classes and

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teachers and I choose rest and I go through things I feel like I'm using all

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the principles and I just feel like I don't know what to do anymore and I'm

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kind of afraid to become burned out again like I was this summer it's really

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hard to have this feeling of hopelessness and last night and I have

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for such a long time when things have come up I I could tell that that I

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haven't had resentment towards God which has made me so happy that things have

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been able to come out and not blaming God but actually just right away

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including him and inviting him in but last night I noticed that I am resentful

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towards God why I'm at where I'm at why this is so hard why he gave me this job

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you know I did came up I was like accusing him of why did you give me this

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job and and why is it so hard and why isn't thing working and why I'm at the

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I'm at this place again I hate being in this place and then I was really sad and

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frustrated that I had accusations against him but it's just that I don't

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I just don't understand why things aren't working so that's my honest self

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right now not trying to pretend that it's better than it is and I don't know

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what to do I feel really hopeless and nothing's working and I'm like can I

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tell this to the group is that okay to feel like it's not working and I don't

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know what I believe it anymore because it's so challenging yeah I don't even

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know if but then I thought no I'm just gonna be honest about where I'm at in

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the journey all right then I'm gonna try to get myself together and go to work

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yeah thank you that I could share these things these challenging things with you