hello ladies so I just wanted to get on and do a journey share just about how
I've been feeling spiritually so I have just felt a little stagnant I don't know
my relationship with God you know some of the things that have happened in the
last two weeks or so just been so like monumental to me so personal and just
profound and like that I want to ensure that I don't lose that closeness that I
felt with God and he's just been so sweet in the experiences that I've had
with him and I just don't want it to be a one-and-done thing I wanted to be like
a regular part of our relationship and I don't know if it's resistance in that
I'm just like I'm feeling I'm at the place in my walk where it's like I can't
go back like I refuse to go back just to like the status quo and I just want to
go deeper and I feel like there's so much more that he has for for me as his
kid for us as his children that just the status quo is just not enough like
I just feel like there's an ocean of him to discover and I just had a few drops
in a cup you know and I want to just know him better and experience him
regularly and because I kind of just felt stagnant in the things that kind of
worked for me before just you know like just journaling out my raw emotions like
he just really came through and I like I as I continue to do that I just don't
feel and I know it's feeling based but it's like I haven't experienced him in
the same way and I'm happy though because it's like I don't feel like it's
a crisis 9-1-1 emergency type of thing it's real things that I'm bringing to
him like you know triggers or relational types of things with you know
oh like you know maybe I offended someone and I need to apologize or you
know just feeling insecure in something with another relationship with the
relationship or my marriage and he a guy was actually really good with that
because I just sat what I journaled about it I sat with it even though those
feelings and emotions were still there and didn't express it and just kind of
waited for the emotions to kind of lift and not feel so urgent and then I you
know brought it brought it to my spouse and he was really great in receiving
that and God I think he definitely gave me the words to say in the delivery
method for that so that's great and that's something Ashley had told us in
one of our rest groups that was really good about just making sure that we have
we were make sure we're seated in our identity first and then going to that
other person and God giving us direction on how to do that so that is a praise
point that I see God has done that for me once again and so I think there's two
other issues with with relational types of things with different people that I
need to address that I'm like okay I'll talk to God about it but I don't quite
have the direction about exactly what to say or maybe exactly how to do it so I
guess in some ways maybe it's like before it just felt like instantaneous
like he would just God would just fix things or like show up or you know in
that kind of way where I was like oh my gosh you were so there you heard my
and so now I don't know maybe he's just kind of like walking me through and
discipling me in that where it's like okay I built up your faith now I'm gonna
show you you know how to do it and I don't have to make it like this you know
this thing miraculous thing or whatever where it felt that way anyway to me
because I'm like how did you know you changed it so quickly so anyway but that
is I guess a little rabbit trail but the main thing is like I just want to
ensure that I my experiences with God are just a part of my regular walk with
him and so I don't know how to go about that per se so that's just something
that I'm struggling with a little bit and feeling a little anxious about so
anyway thanks for listening and I will see you guys soon