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I'm going to go ahead and unmute myself.

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Hi there.

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Hey, how's it going.

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When Okay, how are you doing good.

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We're in, we're in Texas now.

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Yes, we did last night about like, or technically this morning at like 1215. So we're here.

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Yeah, so how have you had a good week we missed you on Tuesday but it sounded like it was for a great reason.

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Yeah, it's been a pretty good week.

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I think, yeah, some.

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I feel like some stuff's been finally paint you know like coming together I feel like I'm less

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more more relaxed, little more relaxed, little more at ease.

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Yeah, yeah, between this and the other work I've been doing and, and, yeah, yeah still sleep, working with God with sleep issues but you know that that's like, I have to think back I've, I've stayed up late for many many moons so I worked evenings

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So I got in that habit of staying up late. So, yeah, that makes sense. Yeah. So, to work my way back out of it.

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Yeah, so, but, but yeah I think I feel like some feel like I'm less stressed and so yeah I see I'm kind of resting on the couch here. Yes, I know.

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Yeah, yeah.

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I'm glad to hear that.

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Yeah, well, I met with Annette and Renata today I had to, I had to move our call with them from Tuesday to Thursday because we were traveling on all day Tuesday.

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Wednesday. And so anyway, I got to meet with them today and they were, they were giving me their updates as well and there was, there was a reason I was telling you that I think there was something that you said that reminded me of something that we talked

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about that Renata Annette and I talked about earlier today.

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But now, I don't remember what it was less stressed or.

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More restful or.

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Well Renata actually had experienced, you know, had just felt kind of like a ramp up of not necessarily stress as much I mean it was stress but a lot of it was she's she the word she used was hopelessness.

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So we talked through some possibilities of why that is, and, you know, some things that she could that she could do between her and her and the Lord, that would hopefully help her.

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And then Annette said you know at the beginning of this week she was just very very joyful you know we saw her like journey shares and everything.

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And then, then she said, what did she say that caused. I don't want to say that caused a turn but I think that she started thinking again about some things.

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And the fascinating thing and I meant to tell my husband this because he'll just crack up that they said that in Norway, there is a saying, and where you call if you call something Texas, or Texan, then it means it's very wild and chaotic.

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They'll use it like an adjective, they'll say like this is in Norwegian, they'll say, Oh, you know, work is just like completely Texas right now.

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That's funny. I laughed and laugh like that's great. It's just like, you know, kind of like the Wild West.

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Like, we'll take it.

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That's funny.

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That's funny. Yeah, I did watch their journey shares. I watched their last journey shares.

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I hit the wrong button. There you are. I lost. I watched their journey shares a while ago so.

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Okay, all right. Well, I hadn't seen their most recent one because the last time I looked no one had posted any new ones so I'm like, Okay, so I guess I just, I just missed the when they finally did post them so.

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And I posted a short one a couple hours ago.

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Oh, my goodness I'm missing all kinds of things.

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That's okay.

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cool sign behind you.

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This is actually my best friend's company.

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She and her husband own this company called Galt Strategies.

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Let's see if you can see it.

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This is how it goes.

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Yeah.

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Where's that?

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Like that.

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So they are turnaround business consultants

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and they trained me.

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So, and so I worked for them

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from 2010 to 2012,

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like 2010 to 2012.

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And anyway, so yeah, we've been best friends

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for I think it's either, I think 15 years now,

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something like that.

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So anyway, this is their company and they hired me

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and trained me to be a turnaround business consultant

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and all that.

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So we're staying in the, in an apartment that they own

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on their property.

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And, but right now we're still working

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on getting the internet all hooked up.

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And so I'm in his office, in their house, upstairs.

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Oh, okay.

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That's why I have the sign behind me.

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I see.

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Did you say something about,

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you're going to be back in the apartment you were in?

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Yeah.

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When I started the rest intensive in April of 2020.

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So that's where we are back now.

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So it is very exciting.

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That is it.

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So I just like to be part of it.

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Let's just bring it full circle.

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That is exciting girl.

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Yeah, it's literally the apartment

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where he first began to teach me about rest.

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Well, it's a little confusing.

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So he'd been teaching me about it, you know, for years

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but I didn't know what he was teaching me.

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I was just obeying him.

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I was just doing the things

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and I didn't know how to articulate it to myself.

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I didn't necessarily know a pattern

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or knew how to explain it to myself, what was going on.

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I just knew if I would just say to do something

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I would do it.

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And then I started to notice some similarities

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between him, between the types of things

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that he would say to do.

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And then I started and I noticed the impact

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that it was making on people.

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Like for instance, relationships or whatever.

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And, or the, I don't know, the outcomes

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would just be just extremely favored.

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And I thought, I'm not putting in the normal amount

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of work and effort that you would expect out of,

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that you would expect to go into getting this kind

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of an impossible outcome.

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You know, how on earth, how on earth this is happening?

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I was like, oh, well, you know, it's God.

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Well, I just, I, all I knew to do was just obey him

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but I didn't know that any principles that I was being,

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that I was operating in the kingdom.

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And anyway, so he gave me the word rest back

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in either January or February of 2020.

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And then by then I was already teaching people.

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I was already consulting people on one-on-one basis.

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And I was teaching them about how to do their businesses

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in rest, but I didn't know the word to use for it

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until January or February.

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And he told me, well, the word Ashley

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that you're looking for is called rest.

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Like, oh, that's fascinating.

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And then in April of 2020,

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I started the group mentorship program

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and called the rest intensive.

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So anyway, so I'm back in that apartment

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where the Lord taught me so much.

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And it's in that apartment that I learned how to have walk

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or where I learned to walk by faith, where I would,

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you know, I had no money coming in

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and all my businesses were failing

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and I was having to trust the Lord for food and all that.

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All that was right here back in late 2019 and early 2020.

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And I say early, you know, through August of 2020.

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And so I learned how to trust him for my finances

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and the outcomes and learn, you know, my food.

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And I, so there's a lot of stories that I tell

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and that I use as examples of, okay,

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this is how you can walk this out,

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or this is what happened to me, or this is how I did it,

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or this is how I learned,

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but this is what God told me.

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A lot of that happened when I was in that apartment.

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So anyway, very special.

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So it's special to be there.

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Yeah, so I left there with,

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I stayed there with my little dog.

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that was the video that I did

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about processing grief in rest.

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I had her with me, you know, in back a year later,

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in March, after I started the rest intensive

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in March of 2021, when I did the conference in Missouri.

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So a little girl, so I've traded.

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So the last time I was here, I was with,

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I had my dog and now I'm married and bring my husband back.

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So I think I loved my dog, my little girl,

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this precious little girl.

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I've tried to refer my husband. It was good. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And what was, what's her

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name? Your little dog? DASA. What is it? DASA. D-A-S-S-A-H. DASA. Okay. DASA. Yeah. It's

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short for Hadassah, you know, which is, uh, which was the biblical, um, Esther's Hebrew

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name. Um, but yeah, Adrian and Joe Kimmons took her. Oh, I know. And they are wonderful.

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I think great. They're amazing. So, but poor little DASA passed away and a week before

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Ed and I got married. I thought you said that. So, yeah, so she, she carried me through and

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watched over me until I got married. Yeah. Oh, that's so special. Yeah. Yeah. Well,

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Hey, Hey, Diana, Tammy Rita. Hello. All right. So we'll get started. Does anyone have a question

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that they would like to jump in with? I got to talk. I was telling Karen, I wish y'all were

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coming on that. I got to talk to Annette and Renata today. And so that was great. We got to

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have our group. Um, cause I had to move them from Tuesday to Thursday since we were traveling on

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Tuesday and Wednesday. So that was nice to get to visit with them. Y'all may have gotten to see

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their journey shares and all that. So we talked through, um, uh, and I'll be posting the video

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of that. Um, you know, we talked through some of the, some of what it is that they were going

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through and how they could, um, some things that I hope will be helpful and how they approach

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things. And so anyway, so how have y'all been, have y'all had any, um, struggles that you wanted

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to point out any, um, uh, that y'all needed any kind of help with any questions that you have

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or any amazing ways that you've seen the Lord come through where you've seen like his character,

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maybe in a new way that you hadn't recognized it before is like, oh, that's actually God

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providing. And I'd always thought that that was the enemy, or I thought that that was an obstacle,

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or I thought that that was, you know, um, I don't know, just whatever, but that was happenstance.

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I don't know, just don't have any new questions.

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Or does everyone jump on waiting for you're looking forward to hearing what

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the answers are to everybody else's questions. I'll say something real quick. Yeah. Just what

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I was talking to Ashley about a little bit is I've, and I shared a little bit in my journey

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share that I feel like right now, anyway, this week I've felt a little more at rest

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and a little less stressed and even dealing with some difficult real estate stuff. And that's,

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still kind of going on. And with all of my January closings got put off till March,

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one of them. Yeah. And then, and then supposed to have one last week, it got put off for a little

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while. One next week's getting put off. It's just been, it's been kind of crazy. And not only that

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is just that the intricate details of that and the people's lives and things it's, it's, it's, you know,

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it's, but I feel like I'm dealing with things better because I was really feeling

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stressed in January and, and, and, you know, this month, some too, and letting myself get stressed.

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And, and so I'm feeling a little more, even dealing with today, you know, one client's

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calling me a lot, but I finally felt that found out one reason he's going through a difficult

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time too. And, but I'm just, I'm just thankful to the Lord because between this and the other work

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I've been doing and, you know, we're all doing stuff, but this rest intensive is, and you guys,

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it's been a great connection and, and, and to help and I'm seeing some fruit, you know, I'm still,

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still, yeah. So I want to give a victory there that, that I've just spent a little calmer

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and yeah. And that's, that's, that's good. That's really great because I've had,

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I had a couple of stressful years and, you know, off and on a couple of years ago,

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I think was the most stressful year of my life that I can recall anyway. But, so this is nice

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to be feeling a little more at ease while difficult things are still kind of going on. And, but, you

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know, if we focus on the Lord and, you know, as we're practicing more, bringing him into everything

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and, and one girl really blessed me too, as she called me a prayer, a prayer.

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leader friend of mine and she just encouraged me and just encourage you know when we're

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doing this work that we're that you know we're being vulnerable not everybody not everybody

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does this and when we're vulnerable it makes us more real you know for all of us you guys

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it makes us you know and it kind of paves the way for others is what someone someone

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else told me it paves the way when we open the door to be restored it opens the door

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for others and so I've had a lot of encouragement and this week too and my naturopathic doctor

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even encouraged me yesterday that she's we've become really good friends and she's she said

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I just heard the Lord saying the old hymn leaning on what is it leaning on his everlasting

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arms that he's just telling us to lean on his you know leaning on lean on his everlasting

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arms and yeah that's been resonating with me too is leaning on him instead of leaning

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on my own understanding yeah yeah great great and you know I've been meaning to say that

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that something that you said that I think that your friend was telling you or pointing

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out as principle and that that I really don't know how to describe it but there was something

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that kind of I noticed needed to kind of get where the group like this group here needed

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a breakthrough and I noticed that Karen when you did the hard work of being vulnerable

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about you know what it is that you were going through at the time and opened up it broke

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something over the end out of over the entire group and so it completely shifted it I was

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telling Ed about it I'm like oh my word it's amazing it's like it was different from one

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week to the next strictly after you know Karen you know you know made a major decision for

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herself hey look this is something that I want for me between me and God and I'm willing

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to pursue it well when we do stuff like that and I tell people this all the time particularly

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about their family members but you know obviously it works in groups like this as well and people

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that are coming together you know for a common cause and that are really kind of joining

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together you know in the soul realm or the spirit realm but it particularly works with

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families that when you step out and do the hard work of being the pioneer that it will

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spiritually break things in off of other people to make it easier for them to do with to make

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the same decision that you did now they still have to make that they still have to do it

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they still have to make the same decision to like have faith in the Lord and you know

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and believe him and all of that stuff they still have to walk the same path but the picture

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that I that I always give is kind of like the pioneers I was hacking through the jungle

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with a butter knife you know and it's like oh my word you know it's just so hard they're

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the one who's forging a path and all of it so it makes the path easier to walk for all

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of the people who come behind them but it but they still have to walk that path just

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because the pioneer gets to where it is that they want to go and gets to the destination

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and whatever after they pack through the jungle you know doesn't mean that all the people

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that are behind them automatically get the benefits of being there too they still have

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to walk that path but it's a lot easier so when you are wanting something for your family

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when you're wanting something for you know I don't know maybe your church or you know

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your small group or whatever if you do something to if you actually take the hard steps of

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spiritually being the pioneer being vulnerable to Lord in a particular way or whatever it

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will if you break off that chain it creates basically now a a weakened link where it makes

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it where they don't have as much spiritual opposition to overcome as you did it makes

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it easier for them to make did the decisions comes for goes for your children goes for

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your spouse goes for your parents goes for whatever they still have to make the decision

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you know just like you have but it makes it easier it makes it easier for them to make

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the choice to make healing you know get inner healing or to believe the Lord or whatever

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they still have to do it but there's not as much spiritual opposition for them to have

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to overcome in order to do it so anyway you're not just benefiting yourself you're benefiting

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everyone else so anyway I wanted to point that out of the meeting too for a while and

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that would that there was a huge difference you know that was one of the gifts that you've

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given the Greeks many guests at Karen but that's one of the guests that you gave the

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group is you you spiritually created a breakthrough.

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for the whole group when you started, when you offered yourself very

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vulnerably to the Lord and then allowed, uh, and then, you know, allowed

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us to partner with you in that.

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And then, um, you know, obviously stuff that you shared about like the

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journal writing and all kinds of things, you know, just where you're

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just opening up your heart and like, Hey, this is my journey.

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This is what my walk with the Lord currently looks like.

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And it's really, really helped everyone.

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So anyway, thank you very much for being willing to do that.

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Thank you.

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Thank you.

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And yeah, that, it does.

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It meant a lot to me for someone to voice that out that, you know, we, we

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might've heard that somewhere, but to voice out that when we make the

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decision to do this work, that really is paving away and it's just kind of

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cool to, it kind of, it's kind of like, wow, um, you know, it gives it

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even a deeper meaning and like you said, just for us, that's hard.

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You're doing matters as a deep reverberating significance in your

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environment and, and for futures, you know, for future.

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So, yeah.

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And even though I'm still going through stuff with sleep and stuff, but the

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tips you gave and, you know, I'm just work, trying to work with the Lord.

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I was telling you, Ashley, and you know, there's like, um, but it's like, I'm,

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it's like, I feel like I'm not fighting myself as much in these, in that area too.

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And you know, Ken, my, you know, I was separated with Ken and we've been

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spending time together and I've just been more relaxed and I think that's.

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Helped that, you know, a lot too, is just to relax and let him be who he is, you know?

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Um, so that's huge because, you know, accepting ourselves as we are, you know,

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like what, what we've been talking about, you know, like for instance, some of the

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questions, you know, that Tammy's brought up with like, you know, oh, you know,

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we've been having all these negatives and emotions and whatever.

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We'll go to the Lord and just know that you can be that with him and fully

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accept yourself in that as well.

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And like what we talked about, you know, as soon as she, as soon as you fully

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accept yourself and allow yourself to just be mad or to just be like another,

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it's not that you're feeding any of those negative emotions, but you're just,

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you're just, you're, you're accepting yourself and accepting the fact that

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you're mad and accepting the fact that you're afraid you're like.

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Well, this is, it's, it's almost like you look at it matter of factly.

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Well, this is the way it is.

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You know, point is that that is so very powerful.

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And when we start seeing that God accepts us in that place and we accept us in that

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place, and it's easier for us to accept other people in that place, just let them

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be who they, where they, who they are, where they are right, just right now.

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And then it gives us the freedom to be able to enjoy God ourselves.

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And then, because we don't, uh, we're not internally and emotionally resisting them

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so much, so yeah, that's great, Karen.

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I'm so glad that, that you've been able to enjoy that.

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Thank you.

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Yeah.

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And my one other thing I'll say is my, my good friend, Mary, who's she's been,

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we've been through some similar stuff and she's been through a couple of marriages

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and she said, the Lord has showed her that she tried to make her husbands be like her.

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And one day he gave her a dream.

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I think it was.

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And he showed her a husband with a, with a skirt on a men's shirt and a women's skirt.

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And he said, you're trying to make him like you.

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And I created him different for a reason.

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And so we, her and I laugh about that, you know?

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Yeah, that's it.

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Wow.

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That's a very powerful dream and image.

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Yeah.

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So thank you all.

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You all have been very helpful to me as well.

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Okay.

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Yeah.

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Thank you.

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Thanks for giving us an update.

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All right.

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Does someone have something else?

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Well, I guess I can give a praise report.

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It's on those lines too.

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Like I know I had asked about like marriage and like spiritual, uh, and stuff like that.

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And, um, I didn't fully, I will admit, like, I congrats everything you said the

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first day, but I saw like God working things out and, um, like that same night.

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It's so crazy.

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Like my husband and I like just started having a conversation and he just was

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like, just be really authentic and, um, just vulnerable about his feelings and

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everything.

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And like he had said something like my friend, your friends, like sometimes

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y'all scare me.

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Like my friends are all Christian.

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Like we, you know, we kind of go deep.

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And so, you know, we have different spiritual experiences and, um, him and I,

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and so I was trying to parse through it all.

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And I was like, I think what you're seeing is this, like, we're just really

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vulnerable.

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with one another and part of like some of our the church history that we have him and I have that are similar it's kind of like we've been in churches where.

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he's like people will tell a testimony after the fact, you know what I mean like.

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Yes, correct where everything looks pretty.

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And you're on the other side.

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Is that when everyone emotionally can be safe because well that's how I used to be but that's what happened, but not that i'm in it.

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Yes, exactly and so um you know now it's it's kind of like it's just we're you know we like my friends now we just walk with each other through the messy you know it's like no judgment and everything and so.

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We talked about the difference between that and I just saw God just really just like open up this heart, and you know he's just been much more.

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open to doing his own quiet time sharing it with me or we'll just talk about like God's truth or and then sometimes when I see him kind of getting on the religious path i'd be like well no ashley's taught us X, Y, Z and just kind of like.

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I just say thank you for that that was really good and it also is like I realized to how you know it's easy to point the finger at someone else, but God was really good at just like.

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bothering me, as you say, gently bothering me I told him that term to he was all about he was so good, you know, because you know, sometimes you're afraid to ask him to do X, Y, Z because you like oh it's gonna be roughly I don't think already so um but it's been really good because even like I was making a mountain out of a molehill about us traveling to.

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To Louisiana and I was like well babe I told you, when you make the tickets, I wanted to go to church, this day, so just just please make them later in the day and then.

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He did, and I was like well, I think you prioritize this other person, but your family your class reunion and I was like I made my request before I was just like like.

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I wasn't stinky but I just was like well i'm just going to tell you how I feel, which is healthy, you know, sometimes.

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held things in for too long in multiple relationships personal and work within I feel like i'm trotting over and.

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I never said my speech, because I thought I was being godly but, like I can still say hey I feel hurt and express my emotions to the other person.

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And so i'm learning to do that right away, instead of letting them build up so anyway, I just said, and then I got in the shower because I was like.

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Well, I would just go to this other church, because the time won't work and my sister said she was gonna go with me and I was like I didn't want to go to that church i'm just trying to make a point.

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And I said, what did you do what do you I got in the shower and the Lord was just talking to me.

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And it was like the words that you were saying we're coming back to me and God was just kind of gently father and I was like.

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You know what I didn't need like god's gonna work everything out if i'm going to work in children's ministry.

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I don't have to meet that person, this day, I can meet him a time in the future it's gonna be fine like stop being too rigid, and so it was great we had a wonderful Sunday getting ready I needed all of that time we travel together, and it was just really great we had like.

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A wonderful week together so i'm just really i'm just really thankful to God.

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you're telling me some you know just what it is and i'm used to that, like my mom's is like she'd be like just tell it is how it is.

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it's good and God can just really like he can weave those words back to me um when when I during certain situations and then I can see the fruits of like oh okay that's what you mean and Okay, I get it, I received that you said so that's my prayer that that's my testimony.

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that's great i'm so excited for you that's huge be able to see that that progress and seeing the Lord work that's wonderful and so excited and you're right.

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it's just kind of we have to let let things go and just realize you know what.

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Just because it's not going to happen, the way that I accepted or thought that I wanted or plans, you know, and then it can we can just take it from this perspective of oh my word i'm out of control, meaning like I don't get to control it.

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We just let it all go like okay let's just see what happens, then we realize that when we when when we look back on it and so it's always good to be able to see it beforehand.

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yeah that helps me not stress out and traffic and stuff like that it's like actually you know how this goes.

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Just because it's not happening, according to how you planned and what you thought that you wanted, because you're trying to control a specific outcome and a specific response from people or whatever.

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doesn't mean that it's going to now be about just just sit there in traffic enjoying the moment, you know, and then we'll just just let whatever's going to happen, you know, and it gets it's much easier way to live.

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It really is.

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I found it even in small things.

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Like we were just in Walmart and the guy, like we,

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I was like, I called you over first

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and you went over to two other people.

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And I'm like, what, man?

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Now it's just like, I ain't got nowhere to go.

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It's good.

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Let that man do his thing, it's gonna be all good.

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So it's just like little situations like that

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where before I would just get up in arms

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over silly stuff that really didn't matter.

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Now I'm just like, it's gonna be good.

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And I'll just be like, babe, whatever you want.

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You know what I'm saying?

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That's right.

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All good.

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It's whatever.

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So yeah, I think I'm an easier person to be around.

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And he told me that the other day.

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He was like, Tammy, he's just like,

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sometimes he'll go to sleep

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and he'll have a dream like this.

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And not that they're all godly,

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but he's just really imagining his dream world.

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And he's like, I had told him my dream the other day

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from the other time.

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And I told him the part about TV or whatever

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and about my spirit being growing.

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And then he just was like, yeah, he was like,

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I just had this dream that was like three parts of you.

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He couldn't go into detail, but he was just like,

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man, it was like all of them were in a line, man.

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He was like, Tammy,

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well, all three parts of you were in a line, man.

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You are powerful.

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I'm like, thank you, babe.

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Y'all, you're right.

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I love it.

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I love it.

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When you see it, you'll know the fruit of it.

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So super.

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Yeah.

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That's very powerful confirmation from Lord.

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Yeah.

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Good.

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Oh, and I'm glad that he's taking the,

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making the effort to, you know,

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affirm those things in you

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because that's what men are called to do.

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That's what our husbands are called to do.

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So it's exciting when, you know,

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especially when we want them to be like

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spiritual leaders of the home

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and some people don't get to have that.

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They, cause I remember some of the rest

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and some of the past rest intensive members

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have talked about that.

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I'd like my husband to be a spiritual leader

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in my home and whatever.

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And how do I get him to do that and whatnot?

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And what do I do in the meantime, et cetera.

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So it's always exciting when they,

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we give them this space in the room to,

438
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you know, when women do that,

439
00:32:11.240 --> 00:32:14.960
for them to step into it and do it and affirm and grow.

440
00:32:14.960 --> 00:32:16.040
And so that's wonderful.

441
00:32:16.040 --> 00:32:18.600
I'm very excited that you're getting to experience.

442
00:32:19.920 --> 00:32:21.200
All right.

443
00:32:22.120 --> 00:32:24.800
So, what else?

444
00:32:24.800 --> 00:32:28.120
Rita, Diana, y'all have anything today?

445
00:32:31.760 --> 00:32:36.720
Question or, you know, something's coming up or whatever.

446
00:32:36.720 --> 00:32:40.360
Or Diana, the stuff that we talked about on Tuesday,

447
00:32:40.360 --> 00:32:42.680
how has, has that been helpful at all?

448
00:32:42.680 --> 00:32:44.160
Talking about, you know,

449
00:32:44.160 --> 00:32:45.920
how to operate more out of the spirit,

450
00:32:45.920 --> 00:32:48.440
how to focus more on your being than you're doing.

451
00:32:48.440 --> 00:32:50.840
Have you noticed any difference or what?

452
00:32:51.480 --> 00:32:53.560
Oh yeah, huge, huge.

453
00:32:53.560 --> 00:32:54.400
Really?

454
00:32:55.520 --> 00:32:57.480
It's, I don't know.

455
00:32:57.480 --> 00:32:58.920
I don't even know how to explain it,

456
00:32:58.920 --> 00:33:01.280
but I just feel like,

457
00:33:03.120 --> 00:33:05.040
I hate to hear the word feel,

458
00:33:05.040 --> 00:33:07.360
because I was, I'm such a feeler.

459
00:33:07.360 --> 00:33:09.920
And before I used to be,

460
00:33:09.920 --> 00:33:14.280
if I didn't feel it, I didn't think it was right before.

461
00:33:14.280 --> 00:33:19.280
And now I try not to, because truth be told,

462
00:33:19.800 --> 00:33:22.560
if I don't feel, if I don't feel how to do anything,

463
00:33:22.560 --> 00:33:23.680
I won't do it.

464
00:33:23.680 --> 00:33:27.600
Like I used to guide, my feelings used to guide me before.

465
00:33:27.600 --> 00:33:30.800
And now I don't, I don't,

466
00:33:34.080 --> 00:33:38.000
don't, I'm not listening so much to my,

467
00:33:38.000 --> 00:33:39.480
not that I'm not listening to my feelings,

468
00:33:39.480 --> 00:33:42.440
but I'm just not, I'm saying, okay, I may feel this,

469
00:33:42.440 --> 00:33:46.040
but that's all it is, just an emotion.

470
00:33:46.040 --> 00:33:48.480
This is not the Holy Spirit, you know,

471
00:33:48.480 --> 00:33:51.880
just because I'm feeling this for whatever reason.

472
00:33:51.880 --> 00:33:55.800
They're just paying attention, not dismissing my emotions,

473
00:33:55.800 --> 00:33:58.240
but not letting them guide me.

474
00:33:58.240 --> 00:34:01.240
And I guess you would call it maybe self-control.

475
00:34:02.400 --> 00:34:04.080
That's exciting.

476
00:34:04.080 --> 00:34:05.560
Right.

477
00:34:05.560 --> 00:34:10.560
And, and just, I don't know, I've been feeling really,

478
00:34:10.560 --> 00:34:14.320
I can't explain it, but I've been feeling like God present.

479
00:34:14.320 --> 00:34:19.199
Like when I'm in my room, like at night going to sleep,

480
00:34:19.199 --> 00:34:21.280
I feel him present.

481
00:34:21.280 --> 00:34:24.679
I feel him, I just, I just,

482
00:34:24.679 --> 00:34:27.040
I just feel like his presence so close.

483
00:34:27.040 --> 00:34:30.840
Like if I close my eyes and I just start,

484
00:34:30.840 --> 00:34:33.400
I can, I just, tears start streaming.

485
00:34:33.400 --> 00:34:35.360
I could just feel him.

486
00:34:35.360 --> 00:34:37.480
And it's just powerful, you know,

487
00:34:37.480 --> 00:34:41.600
because before I had to really, really, you know,

488
00:34:41.600 --> 00:34:46.080
try to shut my thoughts and try to really focus and,

489
00:34:46.080 --> 00:34:47.639
and like, let me have, you know,

490
00:34:47.639 --> 00:34:51.239
try to get in his presence, put the music on and all this.

491
00:34:51.239 --> 00:34:55.840
And now all I do is close my eyes and I just feel him.

492
00:34:55.840 --> 00:34:57.320
So it's beautiful.

493
00:34:57.320 --> 00:34:58.680
It's beautiful.

494
00:34:58.680 --> 00:35:00.200
That's great.

495
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.640
And I think that it's fascinating that there's,

496
00:35:04.640 --> 00:35:06.760
I think I was telling Annette and Renata this,

497
00:35:06.760 --> 00:35:07.960
I don't think it was this,

498
00:35:07.960 --> 00:35:09.800
I don't think it was on Tuesday.

499
00:35:09.800 --> 00:35:11.400
I think it was earlier today

500
00:35:11.400 --> 00:35:13.680
and that I was telling them this,

501
00:35:13.680 --> 00:35:18.680
that there's themes to different rest-intensive groups

502
00:35:19.720 --> 00:35:23.240
where God will be talking about a similar thing

503
00:35:23.240 --> 00:35:25.080
with multiple of them.

504
00:35:25.080 --> 00:35:28.040
And one of the things that I've noticed currently

505
00:35:28.040 --> 00:35:30.960
is like multiple people with sleep

506
00:35:30.960 --> 00:35:34.160
or trying to sleep or being able to stay asleep

507
00:35:34.160 --> 00:35:35.720
or having a restful sleep or whatever.

508
00:35:35.720 --> 00:35:36.960
And so I find it fascinating.

509
00:35:36.960 --> 00:35:39.440
You said that you've noticed that God very,

510
00:35:39.440 --> 00:35:44.120
particularly you're feeling his presence at night

511
00:35:44.120 --> 00:35:44.960
when you go to sleep.

512
00:35:44.960 --> 00:35:46.360
I think it's great.

513
00:35:46.360 --> 00:35:48.240
We all claim that.

514
00:35:49.440 --> 00:35:51.920
Darren, we all claim it.

515
00:35:51.920 --> 00:35:52.760
And I'm trying to remember,

516
00:35:52.760 --> 00:35:54.520
I think Renata was saying that

517
00:35:54.520 --> 00:35:56.440
in one of the fireside chats

518
00:35:56.440 --> 00:35:57.760
with the rescuers or whatever.

519
00:35:57.760 --> 00:35:59.160
Renata, we all claim it.

520
00:36:01.280 --> 00:36:03.200
That's great, I'm excited.

521
00:36:03.200 --> 00:36:04.480
I didn't mean to cut you off,

522
00:36:04.480 --> 00:36:06.720
but I wanted to make a comment about that,

523
00:36:06.720 --> 00:36:07.920
about his presence.

524
00:36:09.040 --> 00:36:09.960
And that's what I've been,

525
00:36:09.960 --> 00:36:12.560
this is what this has all been about for me,

526
00:36:12.560 --> 00:36:15.320
was to draw closer to God,

527
00:36:15.320 --> 00:36:19.640
to not be so distracted and not be,

528
00:36:19.640 --> 00:36:21.120
that's all it's been about.

529
00:36:21.120 --> 00:36:22.720
You know, I put everything aside,

530
00:36:22.720 --> 00:36:27.520
me and my wants, my petitions, my whatever.

531
00:36:27.520 --> 00:36:31.320
I just said, I'm not asking you for anything.

532
00:36:31.320 --> 00:36:32.440
I just want you.

533
00:36:32.440 --> 00:36:34.120
That's all it's been about, you know?

534
00:36:34.120 --> 00:36:36.080
Yeah, that's great.

535
00:36:36.080 --> 00:36:39.160
And I've just been focusing on him.

536
00:36:39.160 --> 00:36:44.160
And I don't know if you saw my little journey share.

537
00:36:45.480 --> 00:36:48.760
I went to a service yesterday.

538
00:36:48.760 --> 00:36:52.200
And the first, the pastor, I don't know him.

539
00:36:52.720 --> 00:36:54.520
I just started going to this church.

540
00:36:54.520 --> 00:36:57.760
And he told me, he said, you know,

541
00:36:57.760 --> 00:36:58.840
he gave me a little word.

542
00:36:58.840 --> 00:37:00.240
And then at the end, he said,

543
00:37:00.240 --> 00:37:01.840
and God said to tell you

544
00:37:02.720 --> 00:37:06.800
that he's gonna come with his presence

545
00:37:06.800 --> 00:37:10.120
and hug you and embrace you with his love.

546
00:37:11.400 --> 00:37:14.840
And I couldn't stop crying because that was my prayer.

547
00:37:14.840 --> 00:37:15.680
That's what you asked.

548
00:37:15.680 --> 00:37:18.600
That he would just love me,

549
00:37:18.600 --> 00:37:21.200
but that I would feel his presence and his love.

550
00:37:21.200 --> 00:37:23.880
And when he said that, it's like, he's answering,

551
00:37:23.880 --> 00:37:25.640
because he said, God said to tell you.

552
00:37:25.640 --> 00:37:27.440
And he could have told me,

553
00:37:27.440 --> 00:37:31.280
but when he uses somebody else to,

554
00:37:31.280 --> 00:37:33.240
it's just like, okay, it's not me.

555
00:37:33.240 --> 00:37:35.120
It's somebody else saying it.

556
00:37:35.120 --> 00:37:37.720
And I put it in there because he also said,

557
00:37:37.720 --> 00:37:40.400
he spoke to my identity and he said,

558
00:37:40.400 --> 00:37:42.440
and you are a daughter of God.

559
00:37:42.440 --> 00:37:45.920
Like, don't let anybody tell you otherwise.

560
00:37:45.920 --> 00:37:49.160
He said, you are my daughter, he said.

561
00:37:49.160 --> 00:37:51.840
And I mean, I think at one point

562
00:37:51.840 --> 00:37:54.320
we've all struggled with identity.

563
00:37:54.320 --> 00:37:56.240
And that was just, for me, it was just so huge.

564
00:37:56.240 --> 00:37:59.840
Cause I mean, you know that, but, you know,

565
00:37:59.840 --> 00:38:02.080
sometimes you just need to hear it.

566
00:38:02.080 --> 00:38:05.040
And it was just, it was a beautiful thing

567
00:38:05.040 --> 00:38:06.800
because I'm in this, you know,

568
00:38:06.800 --> 00:38:09.200
it's like a confirmation of him telling me

569
00:38:09.200 --> 00:38:12.320
where you need to be, here, you know.

570
00:38:12.320 --> 00:38:16.760
And it was an affirmation, a confirmation saying,

571
00:38:17.520 --> 00:38:19.400
you're doing right here, you know,

572
00:38:19.400 --> 00:38:22.000
you're trying to seek me and, you know,

573
00:38:22.000 --> 00:38:25.760
and it was him saying, yes, I'm pleased or whatever.

574
00:38:26.800 --> 00:38:28.720
That's wonderful.

575
00:38:28.720 --> 00:38:30.160
That's wonderful.

576
00:38:30.160 --> 00:38:33.920
And I just absolutely, I also absolutely love,

577
00:38:33.920 --> 00:38:35.160
okay, so two things.

578
00:38:35.160 --> 00:38:37.760
For one, you know, you're talking about

579
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:42.160
how God just really went the extra mile,

580
00:38:42.160 --> 00:38:46.680
so to speak, in communicating to you.

581
00:38:47.440 --> 00:38:49.440
You know, he's like, okay, I'm going to tell someone else

582
00:38:49.440 --> 00:38:51.240
and then I'm going to prompt him to tell her,

583
00:38:51.240 --> 00:38:52.520
you know, whatever.

584
00:38:52.520 --> 00:38:57.520
And so it's really neat how we get to situations like that.

585
00:38:58.560 --> 00:39:03.560
Help us kind of like see the father heart of God.

586
00:39:04.480 --> 00:39:06.760
Like he really does love me.

587
00:39:06.760 --> 00:39:08.760
Oh my word, he really noticed me.

588
00:39:08.760 --> 00:39:10.800
And oh my goodness, he's really just,

589
00:39:10.800 --> 00:39:15.800
he's just expressing how much he's loving on me right now.

590
00:39:16.400 --> 00:39:18.760
As opposed to, hey, I just want you to know.

591
00:39:18.760 --> 00:39:22.600
No, that whole thing that he orchestrated

592
00:39:22.600 --> 00:39:26.000
was him loving on you, like lavishing you with it,

593
00:39:26.000 --> 00:39:26.840
with a gift.

594
00:39:26.840 --> 00:39:29.680
I'm like, okay, it's almost like drawing you a bubble bath

595
00:39:29.680 --> 00:39:32.000
and giving you candles and doing all of this stuff.

596
00:39:32.000 --> 00:39:34.640
It's like this, he's going through this process

597
00:39:34.640 --> 00:39:38.840
and that process is being loved on, you know?

598
00:39:38.840 --> 00:39:41.000
It's him like going through all of this effort

599
00:39:41.000 --> 00:39:42.480
or like making dinner for you.

600
00:39:42.480 --> 00:39:45.200
I mean, it's like, that's what that whole thing is.

601
00:39:45.680 --> 00:39:46.520
It's not just kind of like,

602
00:39:46.520 --> 00:39:49.160
hey, I'm communicating something to tell you something.

603
00:39:49.160 --> 00:39:50.880
And then, hey, you're supposed to take it in

604
00:39:50.880 --> 00:39:52.880
and then just be aware of it, you know,

605
00:39:52.880 --> 00:39:54.320
in your head or whatever.

606
00:39:54.320 --> 00:39:58.400
It's like, that's one of the things that really impacted me

607
00:39:58.400 --> 00:40:00.480
and really began to change my relationship.

608
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.780
took the Lord is when I, I had to choose, okay, he says he's good.

609
00:40:04.780 --> 00:40:05.960
He really is good.

610
00:40:05.960 --> 00:40:09.360
And he's as good as he says that he is and he's loving his whatever.

611
00:40:09.360 --> 00:40:12.660
And so I told him, I said, Lord, I want to see, I want you to be who you are.

612
00:40:12.660 --> 00:40:15.960
And I want to, and I want you to manifest that into my life.

613
00:40:16.380 --> 00:40:23.340
And then I began to, to see my, my life and what happened in my life

614
00:40:24.040 --> 00:40:27.180
from the perspective of God moving.

615
00:40:27.600 --> 00:40:32.240
And in other words, God, not God, like orchestrating things, you know, on my

616
00:40:32.240 --> 00:40:37.440
behalf so much as I'm not saying he doesn't do that, I'm just saying, that's

617
00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:44.120
not so much what, so much of what I was looking at it as it was more like, who

618
00:40:44.120 --> 00:40:46.600
is God and what is he doing?

619
00:40:46.600 --> 00:40:47.680
How is he showing up?

620
00:40:47.680 --> 00:40:49.600
How is he displaying his goodness?

621
00:40:50.140 --> 00:40:52.620
How is he being especially good to me?

622
00:40:52.620 --> 00:40:56.600
Like not the way that I would define it, but the way he's defining it.

623
00:40:56.880 --> 00:40:58.620
What is him being good to me right now?

624
00:40:58.620 --> 00:41:01.400
What is he doing or how is he loving on me?

625
00:41:01.400 --> 00:41:04.960
You know, kind of like this whole, this orchestrating this whole process.

626
00:41:05.360 --> 00:41:11.120
It's you're actually watching God, a whole process of God expressing himself.

627
00:41:11.360 --> 00:41:15.040
Not a moment, not setting everything up to express himself.

628
00:41:15.240 --> 00:41:19.480
You have a whole thing with him, like, like expressing himself.

629
00:41:19.720 --> 00:41:24.100
And so that, that really changed things for me because I completely, it

630
00:41:24.100 --> 00:41:29.380
completely changed how I saw my life, how I saw what happened in my life.

631
00:41:29.740 --> 00:41:36.760
I began to see it more as God orchestrating things to love on me, to take care of me,

632
00:41:36.760 --> 00:41:41.060
to provide for me, to, you know, protect me, to do all of this stuff.

633
00:41:41.260 --> 00:41:44.260
I saw him always moving and shifting things.

634
00:41:44.580 --> 00:41:48.580
And therefore I always felt like I always had his attention and that

635
00:41:48.580 --> 00:41:53.260
he was living life with me as opposed to just standing as a, you know, being

636
00:41:53.260 --> 00:41:57.060
a bystander and that I would check in with every now and then making sure,

637
00:41:57.060 --> 00:41:58.540
okay, God, you're okay with what I'm doing.

638
00:41:58.540 --> 00:41:58.900
Right.

639
00:41:59.220 --> 00:42:01.540
No, he's like, we're doing live together.

640
00:42:01.540 --> 00:42:06.820
I mean, and, and, um, anyway, so I love how you were able to see that.

641
00:42:06.820 --> 00:42:10.060
How you're, you're like, you didn't just receive the fact that, oh, he said it.

642
00:42:10.060 --> 00:42:10.900
You're like, oh my word.

643
00:42:11.220 --> 00:42:12.940
I can't believe how he did it.

644
00:42:13.220 --> 00:42:18.620
You saw so much love being expressed in the actions that he was taking in

645
00:42:18.620 --> 00:42:21.860
like everything that he allowed to partner with him in the process.

646
00:42:21.860 --> 00:42:23.060
It's like, okay, we'll do this.

647
00:42:23.380 --> 00:42:24.060
We'll do this.

648
00:42:24.260 --> 00:42:28.180
And so now I'm doing it and I'm talking to the guy and then I'm talking and

649
00:42:28.180 --> 00:42:31.900
then I'm prompting him to tell her, and then I'm having her recognize it's

650
00:42:31.900 --> 00:42:37.020
me and you know, and I'm here, aren't you excited, you know, he's just, he's

651
00:42:37.020 --> 00:42:39.220
just, he's like, okay, great.

652
00:42:39.300 --> 00:42:40.380
Do you see how much I love you?

653
00:42:40.380 --> 00:42:45.820
Do you hear, you know, do you, you know, are you actually experiencing my love?

654
00:42:46.020 --> 00:42:48.860
That I think is kind of like one of the ways that I could summarize what I'm

655
00:42:48.860 --> 00:42:54.780
trying to say is he's wanting us to immerse us in an experience of his love

656
00:42:55.020 --> 00:43:00.620
or an experience of his goodness or an experience of his protection or his

657
00:43:00.620 --> 00:43:05.700
provision, and again, it's going to show up the way he chooses to express it.

658
00:43:06.100 --> 00:43:07.940
Not how we would define it.

659
00:43:07.940 --> 00:43:11.860
Not like, okay, well, if this happens, well, then I know God's good because

660
00:43:11.860 --> 00:43:15.860
this makes me feel comfortable, you know, but if it happens like this, well,

661
00:43:15.860 --> 00:43:18.780
then, you know, I don't, that's not me experiencing God's love.

662
00:43:18.780 --> 00:43:21.580
It's like, no, we're experiencing God.

663
00:43:21.580 --> 00:43:24.100
And then we allow him to reveal to us.

664
00:43:24.580 --> 00:43:26.260
And, um, what that is.

665
00:43:26.380 --> 00:43:27.900
Was that Lord, was that your goodness?

666
00:43:27.900 --> 00:43:29.220
Lord, was that your protection?

667
00:43:29.220 --> 00:43:30.340
Lord, was that your love?

668
00:43:30.380 --> 00:43:33.180
What was that of you that you just showed me?

669
00:43:33.900 --> 00:43:36.020
What aspect of yourself did you reveal?

670
00:43:36.500 --> 00:43:38.300
You know, because that, and that's the whole point.

671
00:43:38.300 --> 00:43:42.420
And that brings me back to the second thing that I wanted to, um, a comment

672
00:43:42.420 --> 00:43:47.140
on love, how you said, you know, your, your, your choice is not has, and what

673
00:43:47.180 --> 00:43:51.540
it is that your focus has been, has been like, God, you know, I choose you,

674
00:43:51.980 --> 00:43:53.660
not what I'm getting from you.

675
00:43:53.820 --> 00:43:57.340
I choose you, not your aunt, not an answer to my questions.

676
00:43:57.620 --> 00:43:59.860
I choose you not rest.

677
00:44:00.260 --> 00:44:03.780
And that was something that I was talking to Annette Renata about because she, or

678
00:44:03.780 --> 00:44:05.460
you'll see this in the recording or not.

679
00:44:05.460 --> 00:44:13.460
I was talking about, um, uh, feeling the struggling with feeling, uh, like, uh,

680
00:44:13.540 --> 00:44:16.940
even though she, you know, in your head, you know, better she's like, when I'm

681
00:44:16.940 --> 00:44:22.460
finding that I'm experiencing and what I'm feeling is I'm feeling, uh, like,

682
00:44:22.980 --> 00:44:28.860
um, that I'm always that, that being at in rest is now a new thing.

683
00:44:28.860 --> 00:44:30.580
I'm, I'm aware of that.

684
00:44:30.580 --> 00:44:32.420
I'm constantly trying to do.

685
00:44:32.940 --> 00:44:33.700
Am I in rest?

686
00:44:33.700 --> 00:44:34.300
Am I not in rest?

687
00:44:34.340 --> 00:44:34.540
Okay.

688
00:44:34.540 --> 00:44:35.260
I'm an unrest.

689
00:44:35.260 --> 00:44:35.540
Okay.

690
00:44:35.580 --> 00:44:36.740
How do I need to shift into us?

691
00:44:37.100 --> 00:44:42.420
And so she said that she said, it's almost like it's an added stress to my life.

692
00:44:42.900 --> 00:44:46.420
And she said, I know that that's not true, that it's not supposed to be, but she

693
00:44:46.420 --> 00:44:48.340
said, that's what I'm experiencing.

694
00:44:48.580 --> 00:44:53.100
And so she was just kind of asking, so, you know, what's a shift of perspective

695
00:44:53.420 --> 00:44:55.420
that can help me, you know, in all of this.

696
00:44:55.420 --> 00:44:59.940
And so I was telling her what you just said, I said, you know, the thing.

697
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:06.880
is that in the rest intensive, you know, the rest is actually just the byproduct, the whole point

698
00:45:07.600 --> 00:45:15.520
and the focus is that we're trying to, we're trying to let go of life more and more and choose God as

699
00:45:15.520 --> 00:45:22.800
the thing that we actually value and to stop and to just let go of our life, to let go of a lifestyle,

700
00:45:22.800 --> 00:45:28.080
to let go of all of these things that we're actually holding against God in accusation,

701
00:45:28.080 --> 00:45:35.520
just let them go and choose him instead, including what we can get from him, which includes rest,

702
00:45:36.480 --> 00:45:43.040
letting all of that go, but by doing this, we get all of this, we get, we get it in a different form

703
00:45:43.040 --> 00:45:47.120
though than we'd get if we were holding onto it, trying to make it happen by the tree of knowledge

704
00:45:47.120 --> 00:45:51.360
of good and evil, you know, all of our strife, all of our own effort, it's going to have a different

705
00:45:51.360 --> 00:45:55.600
expression, but it is going to be more powerful and it's also going to be eternal, you know,

706
00:45:55.760 --> 00:45:59.440
we'll never die, you know, if we do it from his perspective, if we let go of all of this,

707
00:45:59.440 --> 00:46:06.480
which is what Jesus did, let go of all of this and choose him instead, so that helps the rest

708
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:15.200
no longer be this thing that we're, that we're trying to get and this, and that creates an added

709
00:46:15.200 --> 00:46:20.320
stress and anxiety, it's something we're always trying to be aware of and shift into, you know,

710
00:46:21.040 --> 00:46:30.160
and, and we just really have to let go of holding rest in our desire for it in accusation against

711
00:46:30.160 --> 00:46:37.440
God or even, and, and as a cause of judgment against ourselves for, you know, constantly

712
00:46:37.440 --> 00:46:44.240
trying to shift and whatever, so that's why I tell you and I'll, I'll post this and for all of y'all,

713
00:46:45.200 --> 00:46:52.320
um, it's what I refer to as the ultimate choice and the ultimate choice is where we choose God,

714
00:46:52.320 --> 00:46:58.560
I choose you over my lifestyle, I release, I release, um,

715
00:47:01.680 --> 00:47:11.440
I release holding my desires of a particular lifestyle to you in, um, in accusation against

716
00:47:11.840 --> 00:47:18.080
why you haven't helped me do this or why this hasn't, haven't happened yet or why you haven't

717
00:47:18.080 --> 00:47:24.160
caused this or why you've caused something different or whatever, however, however we

718
00:47:24.160 --> 00:47:30.160
phrase that type of accusation that we say, God, I choose you instead of my lifestyle and I ask that

719
00:47:30.160 --> 00:47:37.280
you be who you are and that you manifest that into my life, making my life look like whatever

720
00:47:37.280 --> 00:47:43.920
you want, in other words, that your life just be created by the man of, by God simply manifesting

721
00:47:43.920 --> 00:47:49.360
his character and we saw what that made Jesus's life look like, that was very hard, especially,

722
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:55.360
you know, there at the end, it was very hard, but that was God, that was God, that was what his

723
00:47:56.160 --> 00:48:04.400
life uniquely looked like when his father God was given the opportunity to fully express himself as

724
00:48:04.480 --> 00:48:13.520
he was, not who Jesus was, who God, his father was into the earth and Jesus gave up his life,

725
00:48:13.520 --> 00:48:18.240
meaning like, and I don't mean like just his death on the cross, I mean like he sacrificed his life,

726
00:48:18.240 --> 00:48:25.360
you know, as a living sacrifice saying, God, you be you to create and that and you being you, Lord,

727
00:48:25.360 --> 00:48:32.240
I ask that that create my life, so that is the ultimate choice that we make and that's what

728
00:48:32.240 --> 00:48:38.880
really shifts us into rest, that's what really helps us release our hold of this world and just

729
00:48:38.880 --> 00:48:47.280
rely on God for the outcome, rely on God to create it however he wants and so anyway, I'll post that

730
00:48:48.480 --> 00:48:56.240
because it's this, because I just wrote up what it is that I just said, I just, I did a little

731
00:48:56.240 --> 00:49:00.960
write-up about it and I'll say a little, it's kind of long, but and so I'll post that so that

732
00:49:00.960 --> 00:49:07.520
y'all can read it because it's something that I encourage people to, to take in their, in their

733
00:49:07.520 --> 00:49:14.160
journey with the Lord and ask, Lord, can you walk me to being able to say this because and if you

734
00:49:14.160 --> 00:49:19.360
can't actually do it, I mean like really truly do it because remember what we've talked about,

735
00:49:19.360 --> 00:49:23.760
faith in action, just, you know, stepping off the cliff going, okay, well God just said to do it,

736
00:49:23.760 --> 00:49:31.040
so here I go, remember that you won't, there's nothing to catch you and you really will bear the

737
00:49:31.040 --> 00:49:36.720
consequences that you were afraid would happen if you actually did that, why? Because the only thing

738
00:49:36.720 --> 00:49:44.560
that saves you from those consequences is the faith first that you get to step, that creates a

739
00:49:44.560 --> 00:49:50.640
step that when you're, that, that supports you when your action steps out, then you're, the fact

740
00:49:50.640 --> 00:49:57.120
that you believed it finally supports the action, so actually when you step out and you believed it

741
00:49:57.120 --> 00:49:59.760
first, it creates a step that, that, that

742
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.560
holds on to you. But if, if you don't actually believe it, and

743
00:50:03.560 --> 00:50:06.400
you're just just doing it, because well, God said to somewhere I go, I

744
00:50:06.400 --> 00:50:11.400
just want to be obedient, then you actually won't have their faith

745
00:50:11.400 --> 00:50:14.920
won't have built a step for you to step out on and you'll fall. So

746
00:50:14.920 --> 00:50:20.280
anyway, you it's you said in the video, you said in your video, and

747
00:50:20.280 --> 00:50:24.840
I heard that and I said, you said you have to own it. Yes, you said

748
00:50:24.880 --> 00:50:29.480
you have to own it because you really don't have the testimony.

749
00:50:30.000 --> 00:50:36.240
Unless you own it and walk in it. Give it out. Yes, you have to. And

750
00:50:36.240 --> 00:50:39.720
that's also been my prayer. Like I don't everything like you said,

751
00:50:39.720 --> 00:50:45.880
it's dirty. It's good. But if I don't own it, I can't walk it. And

752
00:50:45.880 --> 00:50:50.200
I get it's not a part of who I am in my life. That's what I've been

753
00:50:50.200 --> 00:50:53.880
praying to the Holy Spirit. Also, I said, Holy Spirit, if you did it

754
00:50:53.880 --> 00:50:59.000
for Ashley, you can do it for me. Take me to that place.

755
00:51:00.200 --> 00:51:04.960
Rest and, and help me walk this out, whatever it looks like, because I

756
00:51:04.960 --> 00:51:08.800
know it might be different for everybody. Yeah, it will help me

757
00:51:08.840 --> 00:51:13.080
walk it out, whatever it looks like, just help me get there. And

758
00:51:14.320 --> 00:51:19.080
and yeah, so yeah, but I just I just I know it's a process and for

759
00:51:19.080 --> 00:51:22.200
everybody's gonna be different for it. For me, I know that it's not

760
00:51:22.200 --> 00:51:27.720
gonna happen like, you know, instantly, but but I think what was

761
00:51:27.720 --> 00:51:32.640
very powerful for me is, is just when I set the prayer, when the

762
00:51:32.640 --> 00:51:39.800
tools of choosing, when I made the choice, I, I kind of felt, I

763
00:51:39.800 --> 00:51:46.480
felt it in me. And that the change the shift, when I'm

764
00:51:46.480 --> 00:51:49.240
actually made the choice, and I don't think I've ever done that

765
00:51:49.240 --> 00:51:52.720
before. So that was real impact. And when you actually make the

766
00:51:52.760 --> 00:51:57.440
choice, yes, you know, your own intention, your own intention,

767
00:51:57.480 --> 00:52:04.240
that's powerful. That's just, yes, great. And she was I guess

768
00:52:04.240 --> 00:52:06.880
I was gonna say to me, Oh, well, one of the things that you said,

769
00:52:06.880 --> 00:52:12.160
I loved what you mean is like, it was highlighting something you

770
00:52:12.160 --> 00:52:16.840
said, but I said, when you said, and if Lord, if you can do that

771
00:52:16.840 --> 00:52:21.400
for Ashley can do that for me. One of the things that I did is

772
00:52:21.800 --> 00:52:26.800
when I, because we're all one in Christ, what I used to do with

773
00:52:26.800 --> 00:52:29.280
the Lord, and I still do this, I just haven't done. I just really

774
00:52:29.280 --> 00:52:32.080
haven't thought about it in a long time. But I would take

775
00:52:32.120 --> 00:52:36.640
other stories that in ways that God had come through for other

776
00:52:36.640 --> 00:52:40.760
people that he'd like manifest his character amazing way. And I

777
00:52:40.760 --> 00:52:43.320
would say Lord, and I would be in a situation that I was

778
00:52:43.320 --> 00:52:46.840
wanting that, that I don't mean that I was wanting a

779
00:52:46.840 --> 00:52:49.680
manifestation of that aspect of his character, like his goodness

780
00:52:49.680 --> 00:52:52.800
or his love or whatever. And what I would do is I would

781
00:52:52.800 --> 00:52:56.080
remember a story that someone had told me about how God had

782
00:52:56.080 --> 00:53:00.200
expressed his goodness in their life. And I would claim that

783
00:53:00.200 --> 00:53:05.440
story. And I would say, God, I remember when you showed up

784
00:53:05.440 --> 00:53:08.360
like da da da da da, and I would tell their story, but I would

785
00:53:08.360 --> 00:53:11.960
claim it in my relationship with the Lord, because I'm his son

786
00:53:11.960 --> 00:53:15.120
too. And if he'd do it for them, he'd do it for me. There's no

787
00:53:15.120 --> 00:53:19.400
difference. So I mean, like, as far as like value or importance

788
00:53:19.400 --> 00:53:21.800
or anything like that. Now, sure, there's going to be a

789
00:53:21.800 --> 00:53:24.760
uniqueness of how he chooses to express himself to each one of

790
00:53:24.760 --> 00:53:28.360
us. But the thing is, if he would do that for them, he's

791
00:53:28.360 --> 00:53:31.200
just simply expressing an aspect of his character that he says

792
00:53:31.200 --> 00:53:35.600
that I have full access to. So in his own unique expression of

793
00:53:35.600 --> 00:53:39.040
it, I'm just asking, Lord, you know, I remember when you did

794
00:53:39.040 --> 00:53:44.080
this for me. And I would claim that expression of his goodness

795
00:53:44.080 --> 00:53:47.120
or his love or his protection that he had expressed to that

796
00:53:47.200 --> 00:53:53.080
other person. I claim that expression as mine, because he's

797
00:53:53.080 --> 00:53:57.160
saying that that aspect of himself that he gave them is an

798
00:53:57.160 --> 00:54:00.040
aspect of himself that he gives me. So I totally claim it.

799
00:54:00.360 --> 00:54:03.760
Anyway, that has also helped me on my on my walk with the Lord,

800
00:54:03.960 --> 00:54:08.760
you know, is claiming things that have happened to other

801
00:54:08.760 --> 00:54:14.160
people as strictly not the thing itself, but really the expression

802
00:54:14.160 --> 00:54:17.600
of God that he gave them and the peace of himself that he

803
00:54:17.600 --> 00:54:21.320
gave them is what he gives to me. And so I claimed it as if

804
00:54:21.320 --> 00:54:24.400
it's already as if it happened to me, because we are one in the

805
00:54:24.400 --> 00:54:27.720
spirit with each other in body, I mean, in the body of Christ.

806
00:54:28.080 --> 00:54:31.640
And so anyway, so I'm glad that you pointed that out. Yeah.

807
00:54:32.200 --> 00:54:34.840
There was something else that you said that I was gonna, I was

808
00:54:34.840 --> 00:54:38.480
gonna comment on that. Oh, that's what it was. I was in

809
00:54:38.480 --> 00:54:42.960
talking about the, the ultimate choice to tell the Lord, you

810
00:54:43.000 --> 00:54:46.680
know, Lord, if I can't, and this goes for anything, you know, any

811
00:54:46.680 --> 00:54:50.560
ask this, remember, this is the fifth tool of the restricting

812
00:54:50.560 --> 00:54:54.440
tool, you know, declare and go with your soul finds peace. So

813
00:54:54.440 --> 00:54:58.000
you tell Lord, okay, Lord, I can't quite choose in faith to

814
00:54:58.000 --> 00:55:00.080
do this, and go with my spirit.

815
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.920
but knows that there's freedom and that there's opportunity.

816
00:55:03.920 --> 00:55:05.960
And that I just, Lord, it's just too much for me.

817
00:55:05.960 --> 00:55:07.400
I just can't do it right now.

818
00:55:08.840 --> 00:55:10.960
But Lord, I do want to declare,

819
00:55:10.960 --> 00:55:13.960
I do want to make some kind of a movement towards you

820
00:55:13.960 --> 00:55:16.680
that is more than what I believed about you in the past.

821
00:55:16.680 --> 00:55:17.520
So I'm going to declare

822
00:55:17.520 --> 00:55:19.160
that that actually really is true about you.

823
00:55:19.160 --> 00:55:21.240
Instead of rejecting it and denying it,

824
00:55:21.240 --> 00:55:22.680
I'm going to declare it,

825
00:55:22.680 --> 00:55:24.800
but I'm going to go where my soul finds peace.

826
00:55:24.800 --> 00:55:26.800
So one of the ways that you can do that,

827
00:55:27.800 --> 00:55:30.680
or I should say an expression of that,

828
00:55:30.680 --> 00:55:34.640
is that, Lord, I'm not willing to make the choice yet,

829
00:55:34.640 --> 00:55:36.520
but I am willing to be willing.

830
00:55:38.040 --> 00:55:41.240
And so take that intention that you were talking about.

831
00:55:41.240 --> 00:55:43.280
You said that when you felt that shift within you,

832
00:55:43.280 --> 00:55:46.920
when you really truly owned your own decision,

833
00:55:46.920 --> 00:55:49.440
and you made a choice and you noticed the shift,

834
00:55:49.440 --> 00:55:52.160
God's like, yes, someone taking me up on my offer

835
00:55:52.160 --> 00:55:55.560
of like operating out of their free will, you know?

836
00:55:55.560 --> 00:55:59.360
And then he guides us on what he says that we, you know,

837
00:55:59.360 --> 00:56:02.520
that is really wisdom for us to,

838
00:56:02.520 --> 00:56:03.800
like the choice that we're,

839
00:56:03.800 --> 00:56:06.960
that he tells us is wise for us to make,

840
00:56:06.960 --> 00:56:09.400
but he still wants it to be our decision

841
00:56:09.400 --> 00:56:12.600
of what the ultimate, the final choice.

842
00:56:12.600 --> 00:56:17.600
Anyway, point is that if we can't actually do it,

843
00:56:17.760 --> 00:56:20.320
we can just tell the word, Lord, I'm willing to be willing.

844
00:56:20.320 --> 00:56:23.880
And so you can take that intention that you have

845
00:56:23.880 --> 00:56:26.440
that you make a choice with,

846
00:56:26.440 --> 00:56:30.200
and if it's not strong enough to be able to make a choice,

847
00:56:30.200 --> 00:56:34.360
simply direct that same ownership of your decision

848
00:56:34.360 --> 00:56:37.160
towards being willing to be willing,

849
00:56:37.160 --> 00:56:40.960
and see if you can at least put your intention towards that

850
00:56:40.960 --> 00:56:44.400
and make basically like a decision or your determination.

851
00:56:45.480 --> 00:56:49.000
And so that can begin to shift things as well

852
00:56:49.000 --> 00:56:52.400
because God's like, okay, so she's making,

853
00:56:52.400 --> 00:56:56.120
she's agreeing with me, accepting,

854
00:56:56.120 --> 00:57:00.120
and taking me up on my offer to the degree that she can.

855
00:57:00.120 --> 00:57:01.800
And he honors that and he loves that.

856
00:57:01.800 --> 00:57:03.640
And he's like, hey, that's where she is right now

857
00:57:03.640 --> 00:57:07.800
because remember, as I always say, if you're five, be five.

858
00:57:07.800 --> 00:57:09.840
You don't have to be six yet.

859
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:11.480
You're not six.

860
00:57:11.480 --> 00:57:13.280
You know, you're not six for a while.

861
00:57:13.280 --> 00:57:18.280
In fact, at five, you're developing what you need at six,

862
00:57:18.400 --> 00:57:20.840
but you, there's a reason you're not six yet

863
00:57:20.840 --> 00:57:22.440
because you haven't developed it yet.

864
00:57:22.440 --> 00:57:24.880
And so, so there's no condemnation.

865
00:57:24.880 --> 00:57:26.760
So God's like, okay, that's where she is right now.

866
00:57:26.760 --> 00:57:30.640
Jesus himself learned obedience

867
00:57:30.640 --> 00:57:32.320
by the things that he suffered.

868
00:57:32.320 --> 00:57:34.040
He wasn't born into it.

869
00:57:34.040 --> 00:57:36.920
It says that he learned it,

870
00:57:36.920 --> 00:57:39.360
learned obedience by the things that he suffered.

871
00:57:39.360 --> 00:57:41.480
Now, yes, he never sinned, but it,

872
00:57:41.480 --> 00:57:43.760
so that again, that just shows you that,

873
00:57:43.760 --> 00:57:47.200
that there's a, in the learning process

874
00:57:47.640 --> 00:57:52.640
and that you can learn without, without sinning,

875
00:57:53.560 --> 00:57:56.680
that simply not knowing isn't a sin.

876
00:57:58.200 --> 00:57:59.960
In fact, it even talks about it,

877
00:57:59.960 --> 00:58:01.600
about certain things, you know, in Romans,

878
00:58:01.600 --> 00:58:06.600
if we were to go that far talking about how the,

879
00:58:07.240 --> 00:58:09.920
if there, if there's certain,

880
00:58:09.920 --> 00:58:11.920
there's certain laws and things like that,

881
00:58:11.920 --> 00:58:15.200
where God, where Paul talks in Romans

882
00:58:15.200 --> 00:58:18.440
about the fact that he said, you're the,

883
00:58:18.440 --> 00:58:22.480
if they're, if they don't know the law,

884
00:58:22.480 --> 00:58:24.360
then they're not sinning against it

885
00:58:24.360 --> 00:58:25.960
because they don't know it.

886
00:58:27.240 --> 00:58:29.840
So anyway, so the thing is, it's just,

887
00:58:29.840 --> 00:58:31.640
it's just, you learn, you are,

888
00:58:31.640 --> 00:58:34.520
we are accountable for what it is that we know,

889
00:58:34.520 --> 00:58:35.600
which is one of the reasons,

890
00:58:35.600 --> 00:58:37.280
and one of the good graces that God gives us

891
00:58:37.280 --> 00:58:42.280
is like being, being careful and intentional

892
00:58:42.360 --> 00:58:44.360
about how he reveals things to us.

893
00:58:44.360 --> 00:58:45.440
And when he reveals things,

894
00:58:45.440 --> 00:58:47.560
because we're then accountable for what it is

895
00:58:47.560 --> 00:58:49.360
that has been revealed to us,

896
00:58:49.360 --> 00:58:52.920
where then there's a certain measure of responsibility

897
00:58:52.920 --> 00:58:55.080
that we take to carry that thing,

898
00:58:55.080 --> 00:58:58.520
to carry the weight of that revelation,

899
00:58:58.520 --> 00:59:00.800
that the weight of that knowledge, et cetera.

900
00:59:00.800 --> 00:59:05.320
And, and so it, which you don't have to,

901
00:59:05.320 --> 00:59:09.720
if you don't, if that hasn't been revealed to you yet.

902
00:59:09.720 --> 00:59:14.720
And so anyway, so all of that to what you're saying.

903
00:59:18.400 --> 00:59:20.000
And I want to say one thing,

904
00:59:20.000 --> 00:59:21.920
and then I want to hear something from Rita.

905
00:59:21.920 --> 00:59:22.760
Rita, we want to hear from you.

906
00:59:22.760 --> 00:59:24.280
I know, Rita, we have to hear something from you

907
00:59:24.280 --> 00:59:26.920
before we leave, even if it's just time.

908
00:59:26.920 --> 00:59:28.560
Yes, we do, Rita.

909
00:59:28.560 --> 00:59:32.800
But somebody said something to me not that long ago.

910
00:59:32.800 --> 00:59:34.000
I don't even know who it was,

911
00:59:34.000 --> 00:59:38.400
but one day they just said, well, I'm expecting good.

912
00:59:38.400 --> 00:59:40.400
I'm just going to expect good.

913
00:59:40.400 --> 00:59:43.080
And so I've been just kind of practicing that.

914
00:59:43.080 --> 00:59:46.600
And, you know, I'm just with all different things,

915
00:59:46.600 --> 00:59:48.680
you know, so anyway, I was going to throw that out there.

916
00:59:48.680 --> 00:59:52.800
Just, you know, my intention, my intention is for good.

917
00:59:52.800 --> 00:59:55.360
I'm expecting good, you know.

918
00:59:55.360 --> 00:59:57.400
God is good, so we can expect good.

919
00:59:57.400 --> 01:00:00.120
So anyway, I don't even know.

920
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.160
You said it to me, but I want to throw that out there.

921
01:00:02.160 --> 01:00:04.720
And now it's the floor is up to you, Rita.

922
01:00:08.000 --> 01:00:10.080
We love you, Rita.

923
01:00:15.480 --> 01:00:17.640
Oh, I thought I was going to say something about that.

924
01:00:18.360 --> 01:00:20.000
Yeah, I know.

925
01:00:20.480 --> 01:00:25.160
And I made a video, a video, but it won't load.

926
01:00:25.160 --> 01:00:30.000
Is there a way you can directly record on the on your page or no?

927
01:00:30.840 --> 01:00:32.320
No, not yet.

928
01:00:32.320 --> 01:00:34.720
They're they're working on it.

929
01:00:35.120 --> 01:00:39.480
They've built an app, but the app hasn't been hasn't rolled out to everyone yet.

930
01:00:39.480 --> 01:00:42.120
But on the app, there is an option for live video.

931
01:00:43.400 --> 01:00:45.120
I've seen it. It's very exciting.

932
01:00:45.120 --> 01:00:48.640
But it hasn't rolled out to all the users, including me yet.

933
01:00:49.080 --> 01:00:51.360
But yeah, OK.

934
01:00:51.360 --> 01:00:53.960
Yeah, I'll just go back to typing it out then.

935
01:00:54.160 --> 01:00:56.520
OK, so it will we'd love to see the video.

936
01:00:56.520 --> 01:01:00.280
The one thing there's two things either either.

937
01:01:00.760 --> 01:01:04.600
So make sure that you don't include an emoji in the writing

938
01:01:04.600 --> 01:01:07.360
because Tammy said that she kept trying to upload her video

939
01:01:07.360 --> 01:01:09.680
and realized it wasn't the video that was the problem.

940
01:01:09.680 --> 01:01:10.480
She had an emoji.

941
01:01:10.480 --> 01:01:13.000
So I'm sorry that there's no emojis and anything, but the comment

942
01:01:13.480 --> 01:01:17.720
that also if you split up the video into two parts

943
01:01:18.240 --> 01:01:20.720
and you know how to do that, I guess, on your phone

944
01:01:21.000 --> 01:01:21.800
and you just split up,

945
01:01:21.800 --> 01:01:24.840
but you duplicate the video and then grab the first part and save it

946
01:01:24.840 --> 01:01:26.480
and grab the second part and save it.

947
01:01:26.480 --> 01:01:28.560
And then that should upload.

948
01:01:28.560 --> 01:01:32.320
The other thing is you could send it to you.

949
01:01:33.680 --> 01:01:36.880
Yeah, I would try that if you absolutely can't send it to me

950
01:01:36.880 --> 01:01:39.960
and then I'll try to upload it for you.

951
01:01:39.960 --> 01:01:43.280
See if see if I can get it to upload and if I can't,

952
01:01:43.480 --> 01:01:47.360
then I can maybe figure out why, because one of the things is that on

953
01:01:47.360 --> 01:01:50.800
everybody's iPhone or everybody's phone is the difference.

954
01:01:51.440 --> 01:01:55.800
Their video slash camera is set to different settings.

955
01:01:56.160 --> 01:02:00.560
So say, for instance, if Tammy has a certain has lower settings on her

956
01:02:01.200 --> 01:02:04.440
phone, that her video is recording

957
01:02:04.880 --> 01:02:08.080
and takes up less, less room.

958
01:02:08.680 --> 01:02:12.680
But yours, if your video settings, you know, because it's just how it came in

959
01:02:12.680 --> 01:02:15.040
through the factory or whatever, even if you haven't touched it

960
01:02:15.040 --> 01:02:18.280
and it said it's higher settings, that even if you do two minutes,

961
01:02:18.280 --> 01:02:22.520
just like Tammy did, Tammy's is a lot smaller file than yours

962
01:02:22.520 --> 01:02:24.480
and hers will upload and yours won't.

963
01:02:24.480 --> 01:02:27.000
So it could be something like as simple as that.

964
01:02:27.400 --> 01:02:29.560
Is that just the size of it?

965
01:02:29.560 --> 01:02:32.400
And simply because your video settings are set at a particular rate.

966
01:02:32.400 --> 01:02:35.560
And quite honestly, I have no idea what to tell you that they should be.

967
01:02:36.440 --> 01:02:38.320
If like, what's a small size?

968
01:02:38.320 --> 01:02:39.800
I have really no idea.

969
01:02:39.800 --> 01:02:44.360
All I know is the general idea, the general theory of it or not the theory,

970
01:02:44.440 --> 01:02:46.480
but the concept of it.

971
01:02:46.480 --> 01:02:48.800
So if you try to do that.

972
01:02:49.920 --> 01:02:54.120
And so, like I said, if you just can't just send it to me

973
01:02:54.120 --> 01:02:57.480
and then I'll try to upload it because we'd love to see a video.

974
01:02:57.520 --> 01:02:58.360
Videos are great.

975
01:02:58.360 --> 01:03:00.720
And you've gone to all of the trouble to do a video.

976
01:03:00.720 --> 01:03:02.480
We want to see that.

977
01:03:03.600 --> 01:03:06.000
We don't want you to have to like

978
01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:09.440
double double time your journey share by having to like

979
01:03:10.280 --> 01:03:12.040
do the video and then type it out.

980
01:03:12.080 --> 01:03:14.520
So, yeah. OK.

981
01:03:15.240 --> 01:03:18.120
Well, we'll look forward to the journey share then. Yes.

982
01:03:18.880 --> 01:03:21.320
Is there anything else we need to know, though, before we jump off?

983
01:03:21.880 --> 01:03:24.720
No, not right now. No. OK.

984
01:03:25.640 --> 01:03:27.240
Well, it's good to see everybody.

985
01:03:27.240 --> 01:03:29.880
Good talk. And when I get a chance, I will.

986
01:03:29.880 --> 01:03:31.880
And when I get good Internet, I will.

987
01:03:31.880 --> 01:03:33.840
Which should be in the next day or two.

988
01:03:33.840 --> 01:03:37.760
I'll be able to upload all of this stuff from this week, from this week.

989
01:03:38.000 --> 01:03:40.080
All of the different

990
01:03:40.080 --> 01:03:42.720
fireside chats and rest groups and all that good stuff.

991
01:03:42.720 --> 01:03:45.840
So anyway. All right.

992
01:03:45.840 --> 01:03:48.280
Well, it's good to see you all. You'll have a good night.

993
01:03:49.360 --> 01:03:51.760
Can I make one quick comment to Rita?

994
01:03:51.760 --> 01:03:56.200
It took my video a while to upload, so make sure you give it time.

995
01:03:58.080 --> 01:03:59.640
OK. All right. Maybe you did.

996
01:03:59.640 --> 01:04:03.720
But anyway, no, no, I I think it's my phone in the side.

997
01:04:03.760 --> 01:04:05.960
Yeah, I think I need to check settings.

998
01:04:05.960 --> 01:04:08.960
So, yeah, I'll try. Thank you. OK.

999
01:04:10.040 --> 01:04:12.800
Love you all. Bye.