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Hey everybody, hope y'all are doing good. So for those of y'all who saw that I did

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a live earlier on the same subject, I just decided afterwards, I was like, you

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know what, I want to explain what I was trying to explain just a bit more

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succinctly. So I'm redoing it for y'all really quick. Okay, so to remind

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everybody what I was saying in the previous live. Someone had reached

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out to me with this question, but I've had multiple people reach out with this

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question over the past few months. So I decided that I wanted to address it in

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a live that people would be able to reference back to if ever they needed to.

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And that is what to do when we don't want to spend time with God. Either, and

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we all describe it a bit differently, some of us describe it as, oh well I'm

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just not motivated or I just can't be disciplined enough to read my Bible or

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to have my quiet time. Or some of us even use the thing of, well I just don't have

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time, I'm very busy right now in the season of my life. That's actually an

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excuse that we give of the fact that we don't understand what it means to

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live and abide in the Lord's presence. If we think that we're too busy or

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that too many other, there are too many demands on our time. What we've, it means

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that we believe that there's a particular standard in a way that it

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should look and we can't figure out how our current season of life allows for

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that. Well it means that our understanding of what it is that God is

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desiring of us needs to change. Sometimes we also realize, you know,

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I'm just not motivated. I am to spend time with the Lord. I'm not motivated to read my

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Bible or I really flat-out do not want to. I do not want to spend time with the

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Lord. I do not want to read my Bible but I know that I should. So we all describe

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it a bit differently but it's the same root issue and that is the fact that

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we don't feel safe with the Lord. We struggle to be in his presence. I'm very

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very very familiar with this. I loved learning about the Lord. I loved getting

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to understand things but I didn't feel safe with his being. I didn't feel safe

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with the very essence of who it is that he was and I didn't trust him. So I

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wanted to talk today about what to do when we don't want to spend time with

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the Lord, when we don't feel safe, whether or not we realize that that's

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actually our accusation, what to do when we don't trust the Lord,

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what to do if we feel like we have a lack of motivation and we

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don't know why. First of all, let's understand that if we want to do

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something badly enough, if we actually value it, we do it. So if we're not doing

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something, it means that we don't value it and here's how we can see this

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even when we think, no I do value the Lord and I do want to spend time with

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him and we think that there's something that's keeping us

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from it. If we really value something, we don't allow it to allow anything to keep

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us from it. If something is keeping us from it, it means that there's something

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that that other thing that is keeping us from it is providing us in our lives

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that is actually of higher value to us than pursuing the Lord and that can be

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the whole idea we feel that God's not pleased with us unless we execute

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certain things in our lives, unless we're a good mother, unless we're a good wife

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and we've got standards of what that must look like. Well a good wife and a

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good mother does these types of things and doesn't do these types of things so

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I'm sorry Lord you're gonna have to hold on because I'm too busy trying to be

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what you want me to be. God's like, no you already are all of those things and

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you need to allow yourself to just be and if you are all of a sudden this it

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starts to fix this these areas of your life effortlessly. But the point

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is that if there's something that we always spend our time doing whatever is

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feeding the highest value that we have and it but if it's if we're spending our

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life if you're spending our time doing things that we know in our brain if we

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know in our head aren't actually the things that we should be focusing on it

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means that but but but in reality we are spending our time and our and our effort

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and energy on those things it means that there's something inherently that we

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actually there's some lie that we're actually believing because whatever it

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is we truly believe we act on period and we can say all the right things that we

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want to we can think that we believe all those things but what

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Whatever it is that we act on, that's what we truly believe.

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And we know that, remember, from James.

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James talks about the fact that faith without works is dead.

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In other words, that we act on whatever it is that we truly believe.

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If we're not acting on it, we don't actually believe it.

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Period.

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So, none of this is for us to feel shame or condemnation about.

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It's just for us to acknowledge what's going on.

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So if we don't value spending time with the Lord as much as we value other things, why?

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That's my whole point.

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It means that we don't trust Him.

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It means we don't feel safe with Him.

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It means that there's something that the Lord says that He provides us that we haven't been

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receiving when we've been in His presence.

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Because if we receive, if we truly receive everything that He's giving to us, if we truly

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accept it into ourselves, we were made for that.

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It satisfies all of our needs.

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And what would that do?

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It would make us come back for more.

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It would make us want to.

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It would make us pursue it.

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And so if we're not pursuing it, it means that we are not, that when we've been in it,

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we have not, when we've been in His presence, we haven't allowed ourselves to actually receive

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what it is that He's giving us.

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For everything in the kingdom is freely given, but it must be freely received.

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Being freely receiving it is the point at which we come into agreement with the Lord.

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He's freely giving, we freely receive.

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That's us coming into agreement.

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And when we come into agreement, it will manifest in our life.

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So if we're not at that point, if we do not enjoy spending time with the Lord, I've been

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there many times, many, many, many times.

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In fact, there's certain aspects of my life in my relationship with the Lord right now

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that I am struggling in, and so I'm having to walk this thing out, I'm having to walk

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out what I'm telling y'all right now to certain degrees and in certain areas in which I don't

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feel safe with the Lord.

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So what I recommend that you do is if you're just like, I just can't read the Bible right

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now and I just can't spend the time with the Lord, again, we don't feel safe with Him.

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So what do we do?

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We have to choose that what He says is true, that whatever He says is true really is true

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about Himself and about us, whatever He says, that He is who He says that He is, that we

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are who He says that we are, etc.

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And if He says that He accepts us no matter what, then we make an intentional, willful

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decision that that is going to be true in our lives, that that is the law, that those

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are the laws by which our world operates.

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And so if that is the law by which the world operates, what would we do?

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We would sit and we would allow ourselves to be, and we would sit accepting ourselves

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as we are, because we're trying to act like our Father, and if the Father says that He

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accepts us as we are, then we're going to choose to accept ourselves as we are, period.

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So I recommend that you set aside some time, it doesn't have to be long, and it can even

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be spontaneous, it doesn't have to be planned, whatever you want to do, it could be first

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time in the morning, could be 10 o'clock after you put the baby down for bed, could be you

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sit the kids in front of a 15 minute little show, whatever it is.

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You carve out some time, it doesn't have to be major, do whatever you have to do to

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just do it, don't think that it has to be this big long thing.

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What you have to do is to make it, in order to get it done, is to make the time small,

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make it small.

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And then if you want to, once you get in it, if you want to sit in it longer, you can.

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Just do the thing.

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The more often that you do it throughout the day, for like a minute, two, five, fifteen

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at a time, that's great, but I do recommend that you do it at least once a day.

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What you're doing is you're giving yourself practice, just sitting and allowing yourself

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to be.

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Accepting yourself and your thoughts without judgment, meaning whatever thought comes into

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your head, not to judge it and to just move through it and to just let it go.

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I believe I talk about this at other places in the Rest Intensive, talking about how to

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handle thoughts and just kind of treating them like a cloud.

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Just allow them to come at you and for you to just go through it.

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Don't grab a hold of it, don't think about it, don't feel embarrassed about it, don't

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feel shame about it, don't acknowledge it, just good, bad, ugly, it could be a horrible

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awful thing you think about the Lord, it could be a horrible awful thing you think about

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somebody else.

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It doesn't matter. Don't judge it. Don't determine that it's good or bad. Just let the thing come

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and go and just ignore it and allow yourself to just to just be. Sit with a cup of tea,

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a cup of coffee, sit on your back porch, sit on the swing, sit at the kitchen table,

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hide yourself in the bathroom. Whatever you need to do, just sit for a little bit and allow yourself

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to be. Any stress or anxiety that comes up, just try to let it go. Don't condemn it. Don't judge

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it. Don't think, oh this is wrong or bad. It's not your burden to carry right now. Let it go.

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You can pick it back up in 15 minutes if you really like to worry and be burdened by it and

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be worried and distressed and anxious. You can pick it back up later. Let it go for now. Give

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yourself the luxury. You're not having to carry something. What you're doing is you are choosing

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to put yourself in a position, a situation in which you're being in the presence of the Lord

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and you were allowing him to, you were inviting him to, you were choosing to sit in his presence

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meaning that you're acknowledging that he is a being and that and that you are and that he accepts

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you. So you accept him however he wants to show up and you're acknowledging that he's accepting you

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however you want to show up and you just sit there and just allow yourself to be and anything you

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don't want to carry you just let go because you're enough. Here's the point of all of this.

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When the more that you practice just being and and the more that we practice just accepting

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sitting in in a moment, five minutes, 15 minutes, however long we want to do, 60 seconds, just

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allowing ourselves to be the more that we will feel safe with the Lord. The more that we will

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trust him because we realize God says that he accepts me just that I just like I am and I

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practice it every day for 60 seconds, an hour, five minutes, whatever and I've come to discover

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he does accept me just the way I am. How do I know that? Because he lets me sit there like that

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and therefore if he can accept me in my most vulnerable state where I'm not trying to be

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good or bad I'm just being and if I discover by practice by experience

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that he I can safely be with him and he allows me to just be then apparently he's a safe place

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and apparently I can trust him. So by choosing and acting on the fact that God says something

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and us operating according to it by allowing ourselves to sit and just accept it we will

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effortlessly come to believe it's true and now that we're acting on it and believing it we will

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begin to see the manifestation of it in our lives. You will start to accept yourself for who you are

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you will come to you will come to get a greater sense of your identity you will come to desire to

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spend more time with the Lord you will come to believe that he is who he says that he is

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you all of it will will be effortless. Why? Because you're acting on it you're acting on

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it before believing it and you're acting on it before seeing it you're you're you're allowing

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yourself to sit and to just be to allow him to be who he is and you to be who you are etc.

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And so and then the last thing that I want to mention is you don't have to this again

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is something that you just that you allow you be good soil and just allow the seed that is being

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planted in you which is the word of the Lord allow the seed that is being planted in you

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to just grow. Remember what we've talked about before the the farmer plants a seed he goes to

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sleep he wakes up the seed grows on its own and the and the bible says that the farmer doesn't

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know how the farmer doesn't know how it happened just allow the seed to grow you don't have to

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cause the seed to grow you just be good soil for the seed to be planted into and how do you be good

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soil you choose that if God said it it must be true and you start acting like it doesn't mean

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that you have to believe it yet just start acting like it that is being good soil and so just go

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through this practice just expose yourself to the Lord like okay God you say that you're safe so I'm

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going to put myself in your presence so we're sitting here and I'm drinking my tea I'm drinking

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my coffee I'm just allowing myself to just be for a bit I'm not allowing myself to stress or to worry

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or to be anxious or to solve any problems or to remember my grocery list and if I think about my

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grocery list and I think of something I need to buy just let myself think about that in 15 minutes

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just let it all go all right if I remembered it now I'll remember it in a little bit and and I

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can trust that the Lord will provide for and take care of me and will remind me and just allow

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myself to be um allow yourself to be where you don't have to problem solve where you're not a

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problem you don't consider yourself a problem

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that needs to be fixed. You're not something that needs to be changed.

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You're not something that needs to be better at something. You're not someone

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that needs to acknowledge that the Lord loves you. Nothing. You just be. And by

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doing that, by acting on it, you will discover that you are a... I mean that the

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Lord is a very, very safe place. I'm just watching a man and his

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daughter walk by. They are absolutely precious. She has special needs, and

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they live here on the corner, and he likes to walk with her. I'm trying to

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remember. I know he walks with her every Sunday, but I thought... She's got gray

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hair. I thought that for a while there they were walking every day,

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but maybe not. Maybe it's just every week. Anyway, I just love watching.

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I just love watching them because she always brings reading material. She

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always brings a magazine, and then periodically she and her father will

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be walking, and she'll stop her. They hold hands, and his wife says

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that she has... that his daughter has him wrapped around her little finger. Anyway,

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she'll stop her dad periodically and hold the reading material up really,

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really close to her face like she's reading, and then she stops, and she puts

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it down, and they keep walking. She always has a smile on her face. She's so sweet. I

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just love... I always have to stop and watch them, you know, and my spirit is

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just blessed by seeing how God put her spirit into that body, and how

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she just manifests heaven into earth in a very special way. So anyway, I always

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tear up when I see her, because there's something about her that just kind of

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glows. You know, something about her where you just know... I think that they're

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believers, but there's something about her where you're just like, oh my word,

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the Lord is just in her, and then shines out into creation in a really

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sweet, and innocent, and unhindered way. You know, that the rest of us have built

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up all of these obstacles and resistance, too. Anyway, so I just had to say she's

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awful cute. So I just wanted to mention that about the seed. Just allow the

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Lord to... that his word will do the work. So you trusting, believing, and having

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faith in the word, and just choosing it. Okay, Lord, if you say this is true, then

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I'm gonna act on it. Then that's being good soil. You're acting on it. You're

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putting yourself out there, and you're abiding in his

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presence, and then just allow the seed to do the work without you working on it.

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Just act on it. Just sit there. Just accept yourself for who it is that you

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are, for who it is that he is, and it will effortlessly grow, and you won't even

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have to try for it, because the word does the work. Remember when Jesus called Peter

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out, called him out on the word come, and Peter was sustained on the word come. The

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word does the work. We just choose that the word will do the work, and

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that the word will sustain us. Not that we have to have to just believe it, and

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now we have to do all the work to make it happen. No, the word does the work, but

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we act like the word will do the work. Like, okay, if the word will do the work,

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then it means that I can step out into it, and the word will make it happen.

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That's what it is. To step out and to just believe it. So anyway, hope this is

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helpful. Yeah, so Catherine mentions, yeah, I tend to problem-solve in his presence,

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but I feel he doesn't like that as much. Yeah, so no need to problem-solve. No,

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there's not something you need to always fix. He's just like, you're enough for me.

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I want you to know you're enough for me. You're like, really Lord? Yeah, yeah. So if

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you believe that what I say is true, and if I say that you're enough for me,

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then just be. Just allow me to enjoy you for who it is that you are, not for what

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you bring me, not for what you do for me, but that we can just be together and

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it's enough. So anyway, if y'all have any questions, let me know. And y'all, if y'all

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are struggling with any of this, and you need to be walked through

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something, let me know. But hearing this won't change anything. You must actually

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step out and act on it. That is what will change things. If you're still struggling...

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with certain things about like how to release and how to and whatever go I

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recommend that you go back and you obviously feel free to reach out to me

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but I recommend that you can go that you go back and watch some of the rest

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intensive again you can go back through the whole thing in order or you could

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just watch specific ones but remember that in the whole point of that is is

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not that is is true to remember that we actually have to act on what it is that

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I'm talking about that in those in the in this year in the rest intensive

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series it's not in learning more information being exposed to that

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information again isn't gonna change anything it's not gonna Oh inspire you

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to action no so often we just get inspired and we don't act on it it's the

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acting that actually changes it's not the inspiration not the not the fact

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that oh yeah yeah I agree that with that we have to act on it and it's the acting

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on it and remember it the choosing and therefore we act on it but then we'll

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come to believe it and then we'll come to see the manifestation but it so

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actually do the things that's the whole rest intensive is about it's actually

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learning to live it not learn something new and for us to all talk in a

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different language using different vocabulary if you're not seeing the

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change where it means that there's an element in which we're not acting and and

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I know this from person firsthand experience when I've been struggling

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there are certain things with the Lord that I'm struggling with right now and I

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know what he's telling me to do he's like actually act on it do the thing you

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know what you need to do do it you keep saying Ashley that you don't know what

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to do it's like yeah that's some of it is feeling like you don't know what to

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do do it anyway pick something Ashley just pick it you don't know what to do

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pick something move do something and then I'll you know show you next time

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let's do it a little different but Ashley do something you know show that

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you trust me you know act like it by acting so like okay all right so that

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that's what I've been doing I I know what it is that he's calling me to do so

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I'm walking this journey with you we will we are now living in a different

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way and it's so good it is so so good I have seen my God in a way I didn't know

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he existed I didn't know he was this good I didn't know I could be this safe

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with him even though I'm still I just tell him I'm like Lord I'm so afraid to

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be alone with you I'm I I'm just scared are you a safe place for me and I have

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to choose that he is by doing it anyway and he shows up so I have wept recently

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because I was so afraid of being alone with him because I'm traveling you know

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and so sometimes I'm traveling by myself and I get out on the road again and I'm

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like the stress and all this anxiety rises up because I'm scared I'm scared

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to be alone with my God and so understand that all of this that I talk

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about it's very real but but we choose it anyway we we choose to put ourselves

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in a position where goodness and where he where where he can come through and

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present himself because I'm not working for it and trying to provide my own

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my own safety net like okay God here I go I've got I don't have a safety net

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it's just you are you gonna be there or not and I have to put myself in in

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situations where he where he has the opportunity to show up because I don't

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have something that I'm doing to protect myself in the situation that can cover

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that can cover me where like because and so instead I'm vulnerable and exposed

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it's like okay God I'm not protecting myself are you gonna protect me so

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anyway hopefully hopefully this is helpful and I will

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I love each one of you and feel free to reach out if you have questions and

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remember to act on all of this stuff actually do it even if you're scared

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even if you don't believe it and and God I can attest through experience God

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honors it so anyway love you