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Hello.

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Hey, how am I coming through my coming through okay I'm on cell, and you know that you're in the Dallas area there's all that weather so yeah it's kind of good.

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Okay, good, good, good, because I haven't tried the cellular service from my apartment yet so I was hoping, especially in this weather that it was okay.

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So, sorry I'm a bit late, trying to get all of the technology all all set up wasn't even able to use the Wi Fi that we, but we are going to try some new Wi Fi slash additional.

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I think tomorrow I think my device comes in tomorrow so I've got a, the one that we got wasn't was sufficient for download but not upload so that's why I haven't been able to upload all of our, all of the meetings yet is because the, the upload won't

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is too slow, it keeps aborting the upload.

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So it's like okay so I went to at&t no not at&t went to Verizon and said okay this is my issue I've tried to weather internet companies and they don't work, will you work for me.

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I get the I get the new device tomorrow so I'm very hopeful, because the last time that I was here when I started the rest of the rest intensive in April 2020, I was here in this apartment, literally right here in this kitchen, and, and I use Verizon

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back then and so I'm hoping it still works so anyway. So, how are you doing Hey Tammy.

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Hey.

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She put us down on the bed.

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So, how are y'all doing, just far side chat tonight for like questions and don't have any questions then we'll just do like y'all will do kind of like what Renata.

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And Annette and I do on the Tuesday calls is the rest groups, but really because it's just the two of them, it's kind of like a combination of rest group and fireside chat, where they do, where they just talk and you know share that, you know,

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they do a journey share like everybody else doesn't rescue you don't catch everybody up on how you're doing. And then, but I'm part of the part of the discussion and so they'll ask them after they talk about, you know, whatever it is that's on their heart,

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there's a question in there somewhere, you know whether or not they voice that they're basically like, I've got a question, it's in there somewhere. So anyway, so if you'd like we can do that tonight if y'all don't have any questions this is, this is probably

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the least number of questions, like a group with the least number of questions that I've ever had.

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I'm like, they've all got it.

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So, so anyway I've been trying to think of them. Okay, well what would be helpful then for them.

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So if it's not questions that are particularly that they know that they're coming with.

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So, anyway.

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So, y'all have any questions or any that what's been coming up this past week.

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How has, I'm like trying to prompt all with like ideas and like things that could perhaps trigger memories.

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I don't know if things been easy, this week, you've been able to see the Lord in in unique ways has it been challenging you're like well, I tried to engage with the Lord, or I've been wanting to engage with the Lord but haven't, I've been wanting to want to, but

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there's something in me that just keeps me like not wanting to spend time with them, or, I don't know, what, what could it be.

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I mean, you know what is it has all said, we've been like this day and I usually miss this day. I'm not, I feel like she's not usually here, is she.

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Okay, I will she's not, she's not here now.

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She, whenever she has missed, she's let me know that it was like some special thing like I was a birthday or it was that it was something that she was invited.

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event that she was involved in. So I, I don't know, hopefully

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she'll be able to join us. But I hadn't heard. Otherwise, so

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hopefully she'll be joining.

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Yeah, that's okay. I'm just curious. Um, I guess you kind of

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said it the want to want to thing.

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Want to want to? Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Well, I don't know why

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that popped into my head. But it did. So maybe it was for you.

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And so there is a teaching that I actually did on this that I'll

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post. And it was, um, well, I say that soon as I can get

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upload power, I can download, but I can't, I can download all

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of the zoom meetings, but I can't re upload them. But

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anyway, um, it and but I'll just tell you about it real quick.

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The and then that'll hopefully go into greater detail, because

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I've been asked this, you know, multiple times. And it's very

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normal, especially for people that are attracted to the rest

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intensive. In other words, people that are used to viewing

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God in life, and I don't know, their parents, their boss, their

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whoever, from this perspective of Oh, my goodness, what did

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they expect of me? And so if that is our approach to the

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Lord, what is he then going to expect of me? And what is it

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about me that is going to be revealed in my time with him?

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And that needs to be corrected, that now lets me know how I'm

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falling short. And so if someone like that isn't fun to spend

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time with, it's you don't look forward to it, you don't feel

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safe, it feels like more work, you know, just feels very

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oppressive. And you just flat out just dread it, because

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you're like, Okay, I've been working all day. I, for instance,

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think about it, like if you were to go out to dinner or drinks or

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whatever with friends after work, that you'd think that that

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was fun, especially if it was particular types of friends,

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like say, for instance, you know, Tammy and Kim and Mary,

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you know, and y'all go out together, because y'all y'all

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are close, y'all are vulnerable with each other, you've known

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each other for a very long time through very difficult

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situations, I would imagine. And, you know, just based on

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based on knowing Kim, and talking with her, and then based

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on me knowing y'all, y'all are all just very real people. So I

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would just imagine that y'all have that type of relationship

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with each other. So the point is that if you're going to go out

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with them afterward, well, that sounds like fun, you know, but

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we don't think that about God, because we know that our friends

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will love and accept us where it is that we are. Why? Because

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it's been proven. We've, we've put our, we've been with our

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friends in very difficult situations. And, you know,

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meaning like we were going through a difficult situation,

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we were we were tired, or we were hurting or whatever. And

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they loved and accepted us. But with God, we're always, we don't

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approach it from that perspective. We don't expect

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those answers. I mean, like really nice, kind answers, and

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therefore we don't hear them. If we don't expect them from God,

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we can't recognize them when he talks to us like that. So what I

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always suggest to people, and this is what I've done, is I

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just stop it. I were again, stop expecting me to have there to be

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any obligation from me towards the Lord. And because basically,

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it's like, it's like I've explained about like the whole

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thing of like, telling God, you know, I was sorry, or whatever.

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I couldn't work really hard to obey God, and do all the things

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I thought I was supposed to do meaning like, emotionally invest

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myself and focus on there's all these things that he wants me to

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do. I couldn't do that. And believe him and have faith in

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him in these extra ways that he was asking me to. So it was

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finding that I could either obey him or have faith in him. And I

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couldn't do both. So I would ask God, okay, God, can you please

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let me let this thing down? Because I don't know how to obey

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you out of rest. And out of the fact that you love me, I keep

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doing the obedience out of obligation, which is not belief

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in you. So therefore, I can't obey you while believing you,

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because you say that there is no obligation. So in other words,

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that's what I'm trying to say, is if I couldn't do both, I

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would give up this one in order to do this one in order to have

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faith in order to believe, what did God say, and then just choose

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that and then figure out, okay, how do I step out and act on the

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fact that that is true?

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So that's, so it's with that in mind that I would do this, where I would just say, I

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would just think, okay, if God, if God really does love me, that I'm not going to worry

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right now about all of these things that I think that he expects of me, that he wants

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me to do.

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I'm not going to worry about that right now.

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And I would talk to the Lord about that, you know, and I wouldn't like have a long conversation,

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but I would just kind of like tell him, you know, the posture of my heart, Lord, I'm trying

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to connect with you.

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I'm trying to obey you.

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I'm trying to believe you.

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So would you just take care of this other part of me that is, that knows it should obey

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you and all of that stuff, but I only know how to obey you out of obligation and it makes

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me afraid of you.

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It makes me not want to spend time with you.

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So I'm just going to put that off to the side for a second in efforts to actually try to

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believe you believe that I really am good enough, just as I am without having to keep

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all of these other balls in the air.

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So can you watch them for me and help me in these areas so that while I am not conscious

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of trying to keep these balls in the air, will you support and sustain this part of

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my life?

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Because right now I'm just, I'm choosing to focus on, since I can't focus on both, I'm

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going to drop one, put that in your hands.

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And then I ask that I'm pleasing to you in this area that you help me be obedient, even

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though I'm unconscious of it, while I am consciously focusing on choosing to believe

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that, believe what it is that you say, and then I, and then you have to act on it.

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Because again, if we, if we say that we believe something, but we either, we don't pull it

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up with action, then we actually don't believe that we're actually not really choosing it.

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So I would, what I did is I was like, okay, there's no obligation.

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And then let's just, uh, then, then apparently God is a, God says that I naturally desire

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him and that he created me to naturally want him and created himself that he is actually

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good.

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Meaning like he's pleasant, he's fun, he's enjoyable.

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He's gentle.

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He's all of these wonderful, beautiful things that God talks about where he says that we

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would want to spend eternity with him.

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So if that's true, I'm going to believe it, I'm going to choose that it's reality.

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And then what, how would I act if that really is reality, I spend time with them.

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So I'm like, okay, then I'll, and then I think of different things that I can do.

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One of the things like for the, for instance, that I talked to people about, if they're

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having trouble reading the Bible, because that's a lot of times what they think about

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and they're like, well, I don't really want to spend time with God is they're talking

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about, I don't want to read the Bible.

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And I just tell them, you know, and you've probably heard me say this more than once.

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I recommend to people just read it like it's a fiction book.

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And I don't mean fiction is, and it's not real.

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I mean, read it as effortlessly and as fun and as nonchalantly as you would a fiction

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book.

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Like there's no obligation.

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There's nothing for you to learn, meaning like there is, but what I'm saying is don't

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approach it from this perspective of, okay, God, I've got to study this.

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Okay.

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What does this word mean?

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Okay.

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Don't lock it up in strongs.

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Don't lock it up in strongs.

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Just, just for right now, don't go look it up in a concordance, just read, just, just

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enjoy it.

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And you will read it really fast.

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In fact, it would be really fun.

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You know, if someone decided to give themselves the challenge of seeing how fast that they

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could read through the Bible, because they weren't obligated to, they weren't obligated

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to or have any pressure to catch any revelation and catch God talking to them, you know, make

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sure to not miss anything and study and, and, you know, make sure they understood everything,

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you know, you just, you just read it, you just read it just like, Oh, I'm not interesting.

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And just breeze through it that the Bible is very, very weighty and very, very needy.

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And there's a variety of, there's so many different things that we can get out of it.

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So get some fun out of it.

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You know, we can study the Bible, you know, our entire lives and never get to the end

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of its depth and all of its meaning and everything that's jam-packed in there.

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So I would do something like that.

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I'll also spend time with the Lord and know that he enjoys, he enjoys sitting with you

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and enjoys watching things like, like, like Netflix, he enjoys watching that.

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How do I know that?

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Because he watches us live life.

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He watched those people make those movies, you know, he, he was there, he put the ideas

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in their head, probably, you know, what to do and, and helped him through all of the

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acting scenes when, you know, when some of them, you know, well, whether or not they

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asked him to, you know, you know, helped him with their lines and helped him finally figure

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out how to present his specific emotion.

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I mean, he was, he's the one who created the ability to have the television.

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He's the one who created the internet to work the way that it does, but only creates good

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So believe that he is fun and enjoys things, as opposed to, you know,

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enjoys doing the things that we enjoy doing.

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And spend time with him expecting that he's having fun.

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And that he's having fun doing it with you.

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And connect with him that way.

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Like very purposefully and intentionally connect with him while you are doing it.

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You don't have to ask for some great spiritual revelation while you're

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watching a movie. It's just, just, you know,

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you and God are sitting on the, on the couch eating popcorn.

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think of it kind of like that that you were being enjoyed and he

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appreciates the fact that you're enjoying what you're watching.

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He's enjoying the fact that you're enjoying.

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His the fact that he created the ability to sit on the couch.

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And watch television and do what we call that.

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He created that ability. And I, quite honestly, I think that he's,

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you know, very happy when we do it.

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Now there's other things that we,

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he wants us to do in life as well that he knows that we'll enjoy.

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And so he doesn't want us to only do that, but it doesn't make,

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just because it's not, shouldn't be an only doesn't mean that it's a bad

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And so I think that we need to make, we need to allow God to be more fun.

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Allow him to be more enjoyable.

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That if we enjoy those things to, to realize that there is a reason.

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That God has put, put our, the ability within us to be.

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To, to, to, I don't know, to just have fun.

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To be light.

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To joke.

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You know, whatever.

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And, and so that's what I would recommend.

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Is to make God not.

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let him be bigger to you than what he's been in your life so far.

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Meaning like, I'm going to be, let him be fun and let him, whatever.

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Because your whole point here is to develop the intimacy.

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Your whole point is to get to know him.

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If you remove the pressure.

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Of the seriousness.

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And that you're going to be getting a revelation.

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Or you have to be, you have to be aware.

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Or your eyes have to be open.

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You have to be ready.

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And you have to be listening and whatever.

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Then it's just feels like work.

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So it's not that we don't want to do the other thing,

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but I would submit to you.

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That we're doing it from the place of sweat and striving.

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And that what he wants us to do is he wants us to listen.

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He wants us to be vigilant.

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He wants our ears to be open and our eyes to be open and to watch for

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him.

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He wants us to be vigilant.

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He wants us to be ready.

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He wants us to be open.

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But not from sweat and exertion.

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And effort.

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because remember that everything with the Lord is not is about the

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source. Where is it coming from? So if it's coming from sweat,

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he doesn't want it anyway.

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So you might as well just stop.

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Stop trying.

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You know, so hard, you know, and so try to approach.

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And you know,

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you can do it from the place of sweat and exertion and not from sweat

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and exertion.

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And you know, you can do it from rest.

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No obligation.

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God is fun.

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Allow him to reveal himself through experiencing him.

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Actually having fun with you.

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And in connecting with him in that way.

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Then,

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because you're going to more easily connect with him because there is no

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pressure.

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So it's going to be easier to find him because there's let no pressure

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on you.

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And then you're going to be able to connect with him.

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And then you're going to be able to connect with God.

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And so I'm trying to explain to you.

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What kind of.

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Situation you can put yourself in to remove the pressure,

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which is going to remove the resistance,

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which means you can finally receive.

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Then you can finally connect with God and you're going, well,

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why haven't I been able to connect with God? There's too much pressure.

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Too much.

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And that is natural is a notch is naturally building up resistance.

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Then you'll be able to connect with God.

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And you'll be able to connect with the Lord.

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And so there's this chain reaction of no pressure means no resistance.

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It's finally be able to receive them.

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And then you'll finally be able to connect with the Lord.

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And then now that you're finally able to connect with the Lord.

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Then you can, it's,

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then you can now approach obedience.

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You'll be able to connect with the Lord.

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You'll be able to connect with God.

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You'll be able to connect with God is bigger than you thought that he was.

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There's no obligation.

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that obligation, stress, strife, you know, whatever.

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So, but the way to do that is what you're wanting to do,

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which is connecting the being of God himself.

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So we're trying to figure out

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how you can remove the pressure for yourself

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so you can finally reduce the resistance

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and finally receive.

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So just enjoy him without expecting something from him,

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meaning like an answer.

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Oh God, I really want to know the answer

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about what should I do about this financial situation

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or what should I do about this job

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or what should I do about this?

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No answers, no obligations, no whatever,

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just connect with this being,

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allow his being to be the thing

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that you're wanting and pursuing right now.

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And there was something else I was gonna say,

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but anyway, so that's what I would recommend.

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Is that helpful or do you have any questions

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or any expanded thoughts on it?

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No, that's really helpful, yes.

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Does it sound doable?

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Yes, yes, I mean,

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cause that's what I said to him this morning.

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I was like, I'm trying to have a relationship with you,

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you know, do you have any work?

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I'm like, I just, yeah, there's no other,

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yeah, I was trying, I mean, I did say that today to him.

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So yeah, yeah.

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So think what you do with your friends, like Tammy,

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y'all don't sit and also the serious and expect,

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you know, it's, y'all laugh and you joke and you're silly.

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And there's some things that you say to each other

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that are, you know, that aren't even true,

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kind of like sarcasm or whatever.

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I mean, it's just, you're just having fun and you're playing

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and you're making fun of life

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and you're making fun of, you know,

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idiosyncrasies in other people or in yourselves

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or in each other, or you just, it's,

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so try to connect with the Lord maybe in that way.

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And I always try to encourage people

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that I'm talking about, like,

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in what it is you're already doing, like your normal life.

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I'm not talking about like setting aside special time

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and whatever, again, that's, that equates to pressure.

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And if you can't believe God and connect with them

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and have faith without pressure,

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while doing a set time, then drop the set time

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because you're doing whatever you have to do,

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again, reckless abandon to try to grab ahold of this.

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If you can't do both at the same time,

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if there's too many things entangled, too much sweat,

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too much misunderstanding, too much fear entangled with this,

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abandon it altogether.

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Just use this because this, you'll get back to,

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but now you'll get back to it from a healthier perspective

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that's more sustainable

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because it's not always maintained by fear anymore.

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It's maintained by love,

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it's maintained by connection with a real being.

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So, but yeah.

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That's good.

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I would just say, yeah, to just try to connect with them

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in what it is you're already doing.

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And really that's the underlying,

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one of the underlying factors

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about what I've been talking to everybody

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about the past few weeks,

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about enjoying oneself and choosing oneself

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and like picking like,

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what are the things that bring you life

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and bring you excitement?

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And like you had mentioned, dancing and stuff like that.

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To do that and to just bring God with you

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when you're doing it

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and know that he's not that bringing them with you

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like a parent or something like that,

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but just you and God are doing it together.

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God's not watching you dance.

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It's the two of you dancing and just having fun,

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and just expressing y'all together,

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not just you, the two of you together.

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And that's what the dancing is,

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it's an expression of that,

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expression of who the two of you uniquely are.

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So that's what I mean when you bring God with you

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or like when you're doing Netflix

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or watching Netflix or you're cooking or you're whatever,

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it's understand that it's the two of you living life

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and doing it together,

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not you're doing it and God's around

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and you're just look over at him every now and then

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to just make sure that you still have his approval

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and how you're handling it.

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Anyway, that'll help, I think.

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So, anyway.

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Yeah, that's good, thank you.

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You're welcome.

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So, anything else that you thought of that's come up or?

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Hmm, should we?

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You want?

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You're on mute. There it goes.

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Does Tammy want to turn?

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Do you have a turn, Tammy?

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Sure.

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I think I was, I don't know if I have a question per se, but it'll be helpful just to share because like, I think I was in that same situation with Rita today just like kind of not wanting to, but I don't know.

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I don't know. I didn't feel condemnation, but I was like, you love me, whether I do or not, it'll be okay. There's always tomorrow.

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But I was still like, I think I had an experience yesterday that kind of triggered me.

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But I didn't really realize it until later on today.

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Yeah, so anyway, it's just weird. It just made me want to start, like, striving for, like, job type of stuff.

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Like, it was, it was like a silly situation, but it was like, we went to my niece's cheer banquet, and she's in high school.

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And it was like, so we're just standing there, like, everyone's seated, just feeling like, we don't belong, like, second class citizens.

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It was like, yeah, it just felt really stinky.

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And there were two other ladies too, that, you know, they weren't with our party, so to speak, but, you know, we were all there.

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So it just felt really bad.

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So it just kind of made me just like, you know, I'm like, I'm looking cute.

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I got my little sequins on.

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I got my, like, you know, blazer.

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My shoes is fabulous.

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Like, you know, I'm like, OK.

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But I just felt really like I just felt like a second class citizen.

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It just wasn't any fun, you know.

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And so it just made me want to, I think, feel like driving like towards like, yeah, I'm going to show people that I'm worthy type of thing, like inside, you know, like, oh, going back to like, oh, well, well, you know what?

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I need to get this certain job and have this and make this.

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And I'm like, I don't want to be in that place.

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I was totally rejecting that all year long.

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Well, not all year long, but the last couple weeks.

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Yeah, kind of all year long.

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Anyway, I think that really kind of put me back in that space.

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So I just kind of was vegging today, which I was like, OK, I'll get back with it tomorrow.

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But I think I just needed to like, if I would have, if I would have journaled this morning, I probably would have like just shared it with God.

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But I think I was unconsciously stuffing because I couldn't go to sleep last night.

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I was like up really late and just like feeling icky.

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But I didn't really associate it with that necessarily.

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So anyway, I don't know.

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It's just helpful to say it so I can address it.

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Yeah, yeah.

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I mean, all of that, you know, yeah, makes complete sense.

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So it sounds like what you did, which is very different than my my go to.

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Because my go to is to usually freeze, you know, fight, flight or freeze.

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Mine is usually either freeze or flight.

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But yours is apparently to fight.

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All right.

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I'm going to show you and work harder and drive all that.

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So the interesting thing to know is about yourself is that you have the ability.

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Like, you knew you could.

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You're like, what if what sounds like was hard was that it wasn't being recognized or whatever.

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But what part of it, though, is you're saying, you know, I mean, I just said, you know, we know you can't.

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But what is part of it is what it is that we're fighting so much really is what makes us fight so much as we question whether or not that really is us, you know, because it makes us feel like a second class citizen.

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And so we're like, well, I'm going to prove to myself that I'm not a second class citizen. I'm actually going to execute.

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So anyway, it's just so interesting when you when you're kind of walking it kind of like putting us in the in the in the room.

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I kind of like picture everything like I'm really sorry. That's just no fun.

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Anyway, so that's just kind of what I was what I was.

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But I was just sensing was like, oh, man, when I'm in that situation, I usually respond to opposite.

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I usually go to victimization is tendency to think very little of myself and just to feel sorry for myself.

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So I admire the fact that you didn't.

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That's where I go. And which is so interesting because I have a very strong.

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and then see the self welch.

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So I just stifle and I just,

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if I get concerned about something,

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I don't tend to drive harder.

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I tend to just stamp out my life.

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What gets me to drive harder is myself.

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Like if I'm always trying to beat myself

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or if I've decided that I'm gonna do something for me,

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I will push and do whatever I have to do

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to like beat my own record, do my own luck, whatever.

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But I've noticed it's a very negative,

458
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weak aspect of me that I go to victimization.

459
00:30:38.460 --> 00:30:40.600
So anyway, I admire you for not doing that.

460
00:30:41.760 --> 00:30:45.760
But yeah, so, but just responding in the way that you did,

461
00:30:45.760 --> 00:30:48.960
meaning either fight, flight, or freeze.

462
00:30:48.960 --> 00:30:50.880
Very, very understandable, very normal.

463
00:30:50.880 --> 00:30:53.440
So, but what you're talking about,

464
00:30:53.440 --> 00:30:55.040
obviously is wondering, well, wait a minute,

465
00:30:55.080 --> 00:30:57.520
how come I was fine and then all of a sudden I'm not?

466
00:30:57.520 --> 00:31:00.220
So all of those things just kind of just,

467
00:31:00.220 --> 00:31:01.800
like you say, it's a trigger.

468
00:31:01.800 --> 00:31:04.920
It shows us something that is actually deep down in us

469
00:31:04.920 --> 00:31:07.420
that we really are struggling with.

470
00:31:07.420 --> 00:31:09.960
And the Lord knows it,

471
00:31:09.960 --> 00:31:12.760
but we don't know that we're enslaved

472
00:31:12.760 --> 00:31:14.120
in that area of our life.

473
00:31:14.120 --> 00:31:17.480
We're actually victim to it.

474
00:31:17.480 --> 00:31:19.760
In other words, we're enslaved to it.

475
00:31:19.760 --> 00:31:22.960
It's weighing, it's not just weighing us down,

476
00:31:22.960 --> 00:31:26.400
it's limiting us in that, in aspects of life,

477
00:31:26.400 --> 00:31:29.120
whether or not we even know it's there.

478
00:31:29.120 --> 00:31:34.120
So it's a gracious of the Lord when it's,

479
00:31:34.880 --> 00:31:37.260
when we are triggered

480
00:31:37.260 --> 00:31:40.000
and the Lord is giving us an opportunity.

481
00:31:40.000 --> 00:31:43.000
I'm not saying that he's making these situations

482
00:31:43.000 --> 00:31:45.640
for us to be triggered all the time,

483
00:31:45.640 --> 00:31:50.480
but I'm just saying though, that it's his graciousness,

484
00:31:50.480 --> 00:31:54.120
that what he does is that he reveals to us,

485
00:31:54.120 --> 00:31:56.440
hey, you're enslaved in this area

486
00:31:56.440 --> 00:31:57.640
and you don't usually know it,

487
00:31:57.640 --> 00:32:00.320
but now it's highlighted because you're in pain.

488
00:32:00.320 --> 00:32:03.000
So would you like more love and freedom?

489
00:32:03.000 --> 00:32:06.640
So that pain that we're feeling is not condemnation.

490
00:32:06.640 --> 00:32:07.760
It's not shame.

491
00:32:07.760 --> 00:32:09.440
I mean, like from the Lord from the Holy Spirit,

492
00:32:09.440 --> 00:32:11.000
it's not shame, it's not condemnation.

493
00:32:11.000 --> 00:32:12.520
It's, hey, look where you're doing.

494
00:32:12.520 --> 00:32:14.720
Yeah, you shouldn't be doing that.

495
00:32:14.720 --> 00:32:17.480
It's a, hey, don't you want this?

496
00:32:17.480 --> 00:32:21.600
Because you are this and you have this,

497
00:32:21.600 --> 00:32:23.160
but you're not living like it.

498
00:32:23.160 --> 00:32:24.960
You're not allowing yourself to live like it

499
00:32:24.960 --> 00:32:27.660
because you don't believe it's this good.

500
00:32:27.660 --> 00:32:29.400
You don't believe you're this good.

501
00:32:29.400 --> 00:32:30.240
You don't believe it,

502
00:32:30.240 --> 00:32:34.120
meaning like as good as God says that we are,

503
00:32:34.120 --> 00:32:37.240
and as good as he says that he is and all of that.

504
00:32:37.240 --> 00:32:39.800
And so it just gives us an opportunity

505
00:32:40.940 --> 00:32:45.160
to think of it this way, when you're in that situation,

506
00:32:45.160 --> 00:32:46.760
say for instance, you were thinking,

507
00:32:46.760 --> 00:32:47.960
oh my goodness, this makes me feel

508
00:32:47.960 --> 00:32:49.720
like a second-class citizen.

509
00:32:49.720 --> 00:32:53.800
The fascinating thing is that we keep,

510
00:32:53.800 --> 00:32:56.760
what we're afraid of is that the situation

511
00:32:56.760 --> 00:33:00.160
or a trigger or whatever is revealing to us the truth.

512
00:33:00.160 --> 00:33:02.600
But if it's not lining up with God's truth,

513
00:33:02.600 --> 00:33:04.280
what's actually happening is God's saying,

514
00:33:04.280 --> 00:33:08.320
no, no, no, it is always better than what you're thinking.

515
00:33:08.320 --> 00:33:09.320
Always.

516
00:33:09.320 --> 00:33:14.160
It's never worse than what you're thinking in God ever.

517
00:33:15.160 --> 00:33:17.560
I mean, like never.

518
00:33:17.560 --> 00:33:19.520
So it's never worse than what you're thinking.

519
00:33:19.520 --> 00:33:21.440
Like in other words, the truth.

520
00:33:21.440 --> 00:33:26.440
The truth is always better than what you're currently

521
00:33:28.600 --> 00:33:29.440
believing.

522
00:33:29.440 --> 00:33:33.880
So my point is, when you're in that place of pain,

523
00:33:33.880 --> 00:33:36.120
there's literally nowhere to go but up.

524
00:33:37.120 --> 00:33:39.280
If you're gonna grab a hold of truth,

525
00:33:39.280 --> 00:33:41.280
which is what we're all wanting

526
00:33:41.280 --> 00:33:43.480
and which is why that situation is so painful.

527
00:33:43.600 --> 00:33:45.040
That situation isn't painful

528
00:33:45.040 --> 00:33:48.080
because we recognize it's a lie.

529
00:33:48.080 --> 00:33:51.920
It's painful because we're concerned that it's the truth.

530
00:33:51.920 --> 00:33:55.400
But the thing is, it's the truth.

531
00:33:55.400 --> 00:33:57.960
The God's real truth is always better

532
00:33:57.960 --> 00:33:59.800
than what we're thinking.

533
00:33:59.800 --> 00:34:02.640
Always without exception.

534
00:34:02.640 --> 00:34:07.640
It's always better than what it is that we are afraid

535
00:34:08.520 --> 00:34:12.639
is true or even what we hope is true.

536
00:34:12.639 --> 00:34:15.280
Because remember, it says that we can't even,

537
00:34:15.280 --> 00:34:16.120
what does it say?

538
00:34:17.040 --> 00:34:17.960
What's the phrase?

539
00:34:19.280 --> 00:34:23.040
That it hasn't even entered men's minds

540
00:34:23.040 --> 00:34:24.719
what God has prepared.

541
00:34:25.679 --> 00:34:28.360
And what he's prepared is he's prepared it through Christ

542
00:34:28.360 --> 00:34:32.400
because it says that God says we already have it all.

543
00:34:32.400 --> 00:34:34.639
So this thing that he's prepared for us

544
00:34:34.639 --> 00:34:36.080
is something we already have.

545
00:34:37.000 --> 00:34:39.040
What we're doing is we're coming into more

546
00:34:39.040 --> 00:34:40.520
and more realization of it,

547
00:34:40.520 --> 00:34:42.840
more and more experience of it,

548
00:34:42.840 --> 00:34:45.080
more and more operations from it,

549
00:34:45.080 --> 00:34:46.840
but we already have it.

550
00:34:47.960 --> 00:34:50.120
So anyway, so this whole thing of like

551
00:34:50.120 --> 00:34:51.080
what he's already prepared,

552
00:34:51.080 --> 00:34:53.880
what he's preparing for us is what he's prepared for us

553
00:34:53.880 --> 00:34:55.320
and he's already given to us.

554
00:34:55.320 --> 00:34:59.960
And then we just slowly get to begin to operate more in it.

555
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.360
Think of it kind of like this. I saw a vision of this one time, two, three years ago,

556
00:35:08.320 --> 00:35:14.320
where I was standing at the cross with Jesus, and he was really, really, really tall. And I looked

557
00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:20.720
that my, I think it was an adult, but my size looked to be about like four years old. I was

558
00:35:20.720 --> 00:35:28.240
very, very short for Jesus. And I had on this brown cloak. And Jesus reached down and he took

559
00:35:28.240 --> 00:35:34.720
off my brown cloak because my brown cloak was who I thought that I was. I thought this cloak,

560
00:35:34.720 --> 00:35:38.960
this mantle, you know, of authority or whatever, this is what I thought I was. I thought it was

561
00:35:38.960 --> 00:35:46.000
dingy and brown and very dull and very unauthoritative, you know. And so he took it off

562
00:35:46.000 --> 00:35:52.240
of me and he gave me a mantle. He gave me a robe, like a coronation robe. If you've ever seen the

563
00:35:52.240 --> 00:35:58.480
one in those old pictures of Queen Elizabeth when she was coronated, it was that long,

564
00:36:00.880 --> 00:36:07.600
really thick velvet, weighs a ton from what I've heard. And then it's lined by ermine,

565
00:36:07.600 --> 00:36:12.800
it's like, I don't remember how long, it's like six yards long or something, it's huge.

566
00:36:12.800 --> 00:36:19.680
Anyway, he put that, he put something like that on me. But remember, I'm four, I'm about the size

567
00:36:19.680 --> 00:36:28.720
of a four-year-old, so I'm very short. So that six-yard coronation robe, the majority of it is

568
00:36:28.720 --> 00:36:34.320
lying on the ground and just a little bit of it is reaching up from the ground and sitting on my

569
00:36:34.320 --> 00:36:40.480
shoulders, just a little bit of it. Just about from here to the ground, you know, is what my

570
00:36:40.480 --> 00:36:45.280
weight, is what my shoulders were carrying because that's how tall I was in the Lord. That's how

571
00:36:46.240 --> 00:36:52.400
mature I was, that's all I knew. But, and I realized that as I grew taller, more and more of

572
00:36:52.400 --> 00:36:57.600
that robe was going to be pulled up because I'm getting taller and therefore with my height,

573
00:36:57.600 --> 00:37:03.280
in other words, with my spiritual maturity, was going, I was going to be bearing more and more

574
00:37:03.280 --> 00:37:11.520
weight of the mantle I already had. I'd already been given it, that entire robe was mine,

575
00:37:12.240 --> 00:37:21.280
but I didn't have the strength to bear the weight of it all yet. But as I grew taller,

576
00:37:21.280 --> 00:37:26.640
I could bear more and more of the weight, but I had all of it. Nobody else is carrying it,

577
00:37:27.280 --> 00:37:30.960
you know, it was just lying there on the ground. So the ground supporting it, it was given to me.

578
00:37:32.240 --> 00:37:38.880
More wasn't waiting to be given, but all that I could, but I was just carrying the amount to which

579
00:37:38.880 --> 00:37:45.040
I had matured. So anyway, you can think of that, you know, if ever, you know, you're wondering,

580
00:37:45.760 --> 00:37:50.800
if ever, you know, you would kind of think about, well, how can I have everything? And yet I don't

581
00:37:50.800 --> 00:37:56.160
get to access everything, meaning I feel like I don't get to access everything. I don't feel like

582
00:37:56.160 --> 00:38:01.680
I get to operate in all of it. You know, well, if God says that we can, that we should just be able

583
00:38:01.680 --> 00:38:07.120
to command and people heal or people rise from the dead, why aren't I doing that right now?

584
00:38:07.120 --> 00:38:10.720
Why can't I do it right now? Because I prayed over so-and-so and they didn't get well, you know,

585
00:38:11.280 --> 00:38:18.400
well, because it's all ours, but we're still learning how to operate in it. And we're only

586
00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:23.520
so old in the Lord, you know, and I don't mean like earth years. I just mean in spiritual maturity,

587
00:38:23.520 --> 00:38:28.720
we're only so spiritually mature. And as we grow, we're going to pull up, you know, more and more

588
00:38:28.800 --> 00:38:39.200
of that, of that robe as we grow maturity. So a point is that I'm trying to remember

589
00:38:39.200 --> 00:38:46.160
why I went on that rabbit trail. Something, I don't remember. Oh, that's what it was

590
00:38:46.160 --> 00:38:51.920
talking about, you know, switching from the bondage of, that we can feel that we're, that

591
00:38:51.920 --> 00:38:56.960
the Lord is revealing to us, Hey, look, this pain that you're in, it's always better than the lie

592
00:38:56.960 --> 00:39:00.400
you're telling yourself. Always. It's even better than the truth. You're telling yourself

593
00:39:01.280 --> 00:39:08.960
because only, you know, it's never even entered man's imaginations and minds, what it is that

594
00:39:08.960 --> 00:39:16.160
God has prepared for him. So, so you can just think of it like that. And I don't mean to give

595
00:39:16.160 --> 00:39:22.000
in you any of that is if you need to worry about trying to convince yourself during those moments,

596
00:39:22.000 --> 00:39:26.160
that session, this isn't true now, Tim, you remember it's different. It's better. It's

597
00:39:26.160 --> 00:39:31.600
whatever, because that won't work. You know, we've been telling ourselves what we should

598
00:39:31.600 --> 00:39:38.000
believe our whole lives and we're where we are, you know? So the thing is that my whole point is

599
00:39:38.000 --> 00:39:45.840
that if God says this, you have to make a choice that it's true because you won't feel it. You

600
00:39:45.840 --> 00:39:52.240
won't believe it. It won't logically make sense, especially if in those moments you've got specific,

601
00:39:52.240 --> 00:39:55.680
you know, all those other feelings are coming up. It's trying to prove to you,

602
00:39:55.680 --> 00:39:59.840
otherwise it's trying to say, no, this other thing is actually true.

603
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.160
And so God's like, no, I want you to choose that.

604
00:40:02.160 --> 00:40:03.440
This is true.

605
00:40:03.440 --> 00:40:10.320
Choose that you are who I say that you are, you know, and anyway.

606
00:40:10.320 --> 00:40:17.040
And so because that's really what's going on is we're questioning in those moments.

607
00:40:17.600 --> 00:40:19.600
We don't feel valuable.

608
00:40:20.560 --> 00:40:22.240
We don't feel important.

609
00:40:22.240 --> 00:40:24.640
We don't feel that we have substance.

610
00:40:24.640 --> 00:40:28.240
We don't feel that we are, we don't feel successful.

611
00:40:28.240 --> 00:40:35.200
And we quite successful with having meaning, with having value, with being wanted or having

612
00:40:35.200 --> 00:40:38.960
a contribution or I don't know, whatever thing that's important to someone.

613
00:40:39.520 --> 00:40:45.280
And then we, and so what I always have to do is we can, is I always have to pull away

614
00:40:45.280 --> 00:40:50.240
from all of those standards, all those things that I'm using to kind of like validate my

615
00:40:50.240 --> 00:40:55.360
existence or my importance or, you know, whatever, just my value.

616
00:40:55.360 --> 00:41:00.880
I have to completely disassociate from them all together.

617
00:41:00.880 --> 00:41:05.600
And I have to choose no, am I, are God and I okay?

618
00:41:06.720 --> 00:41:08.720
You know, right now, are he and I okay?

619
00:41:08.720 --> 00:41:09.920
Is he okay with me?

620
00:41:09.920 --> 00:41:11.120
Well, he says he is.

621
00:41:11.120 --> 00:41:11.920
He says he is.

622
00:41:11.920 --> 00:41:15.680
Even if I sin, even while I sin, he doesn't stop talking to me.

623
00:41:16.400 --> 00:41:18.960
So my goodness, I don't see how it can get any better than that.

624
00:41:19.920 --> 00:41:25.920
Meaning like I'm so one with him that he's always in perfect union with me, just like

625
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:27.920
he is in perfect union with Jesus.

626
00:41:27.920 --> 00:41:29.360
And just like he has the Holy spirit.

627
00:41:30.000 --> 00:41:32.880
And immediately when we choose that, that's true.

628
00:41:32.880 --> 00:41:38.240
When we shift to that place, because that's rest, when we shift to that place of choosing

629
00:41:38.240 --> 00:41:43.760
union with him and choosing that we are already unified with him, I promise everything within

630
00:41:43.760 --> 00:41:46.960
you just stills and nothing else matters.

631
00:41:47.920 --> 00:41:54.640
Like not your job or your finances or your social situation, you know, in something like

632
00:41:54.640 --> 00:41:58.320
that, where it feels like embarrassing because you're standing up and everybody is sitting

633
00:41:58.320 --> 00:42:01.920
down all of this sudden, none of it matters.

634
00:42:01.920 --> 00:42:02.880
And I didn't.

635
00:42:02.880 --> 00:42:07.920
And, and I don't tell you that in theory, I tell you that because that's what I experience

636
00:42:07.920 --> 00:42:08.880
like continually.

637
00:42:08.880 --> 00:42:14.000
It's what I experienced when I, but the only way you can do that is to completely disassociate

638
00:42:14.080 --> 00:42:18.480
from all those other ways in which we're trying to, that we're trying to use to validate to

639
00:42:18.480 --> 00:42:18.960
ourselves.

640
00:42:18.960 --> 00:42:19.680
Am I enough?

641
00:42:20.400 --> 00:42:20.720
Okay.

642
00:42:20.720 --> 00:42:22.320
Well, do I have as much as them?

643
00:42:22.320 --> 00:42:26.240
You know, well, I got us to get to, but they got it and they got a ticket that they got

644
00:42:26.240 --> 00:42:27.280
to sit and I didn't.

645
00:42:27.280 --> 00:42:36.640
And so you know, and and we have to completely disassociate from what we're experiencing,

646
00:42:36.640 --> 00:42:41.920
what the world is showing, what our situation is, what someone's saying, even what our own

647
00:42:41.920 --> 00:42:43.280
thoughts are saying to ourselves.

648
00:42:43.280 --> 00:42:51.520
We actually have to cut a connection from them and stop trying to connect that with

649
00:42:51.520 --> 00:42:58.080
our experience with, um, with, um, our value because it won't ever reconcile.

650
00:42:58.080 --> 00:42:59.680
That's what I'm trying to say.

651
00:42:59.680 --> 00:43:05.600
We're trying to get our earthly experience to reconcile with what God says.

652
00:43:05.600 --> 00:43:09.200
And it won't, it flat out won't.

653
00:43:09.200 --> 00:43:18.400
In fact, the only way that it will quote unquote, um, reconcile or that our experience

654
00:43:18.400 --> 00:43:26.160
will reflect who it is that we are, is if we're, we choose in opposition to the world

655
00:43:26.160 --> 00:43:28.080
that we are, who God says that we are.

656
00:43:28.080 --> 00:43:31.360
And then that is what has the power to make it.

657
00:43:31.360 --> 00:43:37.840
So in creation, in other words, where creation begins to respond to that, we have to put

658
00:43:37.840 --> 00:43:43.600
ourselves in that position first, in order for creation to be able to get that instruction

659
00:43:44.480 --> 00:43:52.480
to respond to, we can't, we're not defined by creation, by the situation, by how people

660
00:43:52.480 --> 00:44:02.480
respond to us, by whatever that can't, that won't reflect who we are before we present

661
00:44:02.480 --> 00:44:03.920
who we really are.

662
00:44:03.920 --> 00:44:09.360
We have to choose that that's who we are and present that as who we are for creation

663
00:44:09.360 --> 00:44:17.360
to then start responding to us like it, it will not do it first period.

664
00:44:18.480 --> 00:44:22.000
So as hard as that is, that's what we're here for.

665
00:44:22.000 --> 00:44:23.360
What we'll hear for it.

666
00:44:23.360 --> 00:44:29.200
I mean, we were here, we were here before that ever, um, became a problem because God

667
00:44:29.200 --> 00:44:33.600
put it on earth, you know, in Adam and Eve before Adam ever fell.

668
00:44:33.600 --> 00:44:36.240
So the thing is, that's one of the things that we're doing.

669
00:44:36.240 --> 00:44:41.200
We're here to show God, we're here to present God, but the obstacle right now, one of the

670
00:44:41.200 --> 00:44:48.400
things that we're having to do in order to show God is to actually overcome the lie.

671
00:44:49.840 --> 00:44:54.480
First, sort of, it's hard to explain, but anyway, is to overcome that lie.

672
00:44:54.480 --> 00:44:55.040
And that's it.

673
00:44:55.040 --> 00:44:57.200
But remember, God already had the victory of it.

674
00:44:57.200 --> 00:45:00.000
And so he's already overcome it by a higher.

675
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:06.960
or power that lie. We're just proving it. But, but anyway, so

676
00:45:07.440 --> 00:45:15.800
that we can't, we can't expect to be affirmed in order for us

677
00:45:15.800 --> 00:45:21.240
to stand in our place. Creation is only reflecting towards us

678
00:45:21.240 --> 00:45:26.520
what we and others have said that humans are. And in order

679
00:45:26.520 --> 00:45:30.360
for it to reflect something different, in order to reflect

680
00:45:30.360 --> 00:45:33.840
the truth, we actually have to present it with the truth,

681
00:45:33.880 --> 00:45:37.200
meaning we have to believe it and we have to be it. We have

682
00:45:37.200 --> 00:45:41.480
to act like it, we have to actually be that son of God,

683
00:45:41.880 --> 00:45:48.800
that we are on earth. First, the situations won't be any

684
00:45:48.800 --> 00:45:54.760
different. And we, we, we change the situations, we change

685
00:45:54.760 --> 00:45:58.520
creation by believing the opposite of what it's trying to

686
00:45:58.600 --> 00:46:02.760
if what it's reflecting as truth, it's only reflecting what

687
00:46:02.760 --> 00:46:04.760
we've been telling it for thousands and thousands of

688
00:46:04.760 --> 00:46:08.560
years. So we now have to reflect, we have now have to be

689
00:46:08.560 --> 00:46:12.440
another truth. If we can't convince it, we can't convince

690
00:46:12.440 --> 00:46:16.360
it by logic, we have to believe we have to be at first that

691
00:46:16.360 --> 00:46:21.520
will convince it. So anyway, I keep trying to like phrase it

692
00:46:21.560 --> 00:46:24.200
and come up with different ways of phrasing it. But is that

693
00:46:24.200 --> 00:46:30.680
helpful? Yes, it is. I have to choose and operate in my

694
00:46:30.680 --> 00:46:37.160
sonship. And from there, like that is, that's where everything

695
00:46:37.160 --> 00:46:43.080
will come from. I can't expect the situation or the feelings to

696
00:46:43.080 --> 00:46:45.720
give me the validation that I desire.

697
00:46:47.240 --> 00:46:51.800
Yes. And so an easy way to think of it, and we all know that. But

698
00:46:51.800 --> 00:46:55.040
the easy way to kind of like in the simple way to kind of think

699
00:46:55.040 --> 00:46:58.000
about it to make now different from how we've always been

700
00:46:58.000 --> 00:47:00.440
living our life this far, just like, okay, well, we know it's

701
00:47:00.440 --> 00:47:04.880
not true. But we can't seem to convince ourselves. And, you

702
00:47:04.880 --> 00:47:10.040
know, in a way that actually sticks. So something different

703
00:47:10.200 --> 00:47:14.680
that I recommend, you know, that you do now is you choose is

704
00:47:14.720 --> 00:47:20.320
that you just just completely disassociate from all of this

705
00:47:20.320 --> 00:47:22.760
fear that you have, and all of this thing of like, Oh, my

706
00:47:22.760 --> 00:47:24.880
goodness, then I'm going to go, I'm going to go find a job, I'm

707
00:47:24.880 --> 00:47:27.200
going to show them and I'm going to do it. This is what I'm going

708
00:47:27.200 --> 00:47:30.040
to do to fix the situation completely disassociate from

709
00:47:30.040 --> 00:47:32.320
whatever you're trying, whatever, from trying to do

710
00:47:32.320 --> 00:47:35.400
anything, like emotionally disassociate, pull towards the

711
00:47:35.400 --> 00:47:41.160
Lord, and say, Okay, are God and I okay? That's maybe a lot of a

712
00:47:41.160 --> 00:47:43.840
simple phrase that you can always use whenever you're

713
00:47:43.840 --> 00:47:48.720
triggered. Are God and I okay? You know, am I enough for God?

714
00:47:49.400 --> 00:47:51.800
You know, and then just reconnect with who does he say

715
00:47:51.800 --> 00:47:55.040
who does he say that he is to the degree says that he is that

716
00:47:55.040 --> 00:47:58.480
and who does he say that I am? And what degree does he say I'm

717
00:47:58.480 --> 00:48:02.160
not? And just connect with that? Are he and I okay? Yeah. Yeah,

718
00:48:02.160 --> 00:48:05.520
he and I are okay. Now you have to choose it. Because you're not

719
00:48:05.520 --> 00:48:09.400
going to telling yourself in your mind that it's true won't

720
00:48:09.600 --> 00:48:14.080
transform you. It won't change your feelings. But actually

721
00:48:14.080 --> 00:48:17.120
making a willful intentional decision. No, this is reality.

722
00:48:18.040 --> 00:48:20.600
And the more that you do it, and the closer that you are with the

723
00:48:20.600 --> 00:48:22.600
Lord, kind of like what I was talking to read about earlier,

724
00:48:22.600 --> 00:48:25.000
you know, the more that you just like develop that intimacy of

725
00:48:25.000 --> 00:48:28.280
relationship with him, just like spending time with and just

726
00:48:28.600 --> 00:48:32.560
accepting fully accepting his being in his presence, you know,

727
00:48:32.760 --> 00:48:35.400
the more familiar that become with that, the easier that it is

728
00:48:35.400 --> 00:48:38.200
to make that choice, because you continually make that choice

729
00:48:38.400 --> 00:48:40.640
when you're in situations like this. So here's just one more

730
00:48:40.640 --> 00:48:44.480
situation. Oh, yeah, I'm really familiar with that. So you're

731
00:48:44.480 --> 00:48:47.280
triggered by all of these emotions, but you're also very

732
00:48:47.280 --> 00:48:50.880
familiar with making the choice that God that you that that

733
00:48:50.880 --> 00:48:54.640
you're enough for God, you're really familiar with, you know,

734
00:48:54.640 --> 00:48:59.880
from practice making the choice that, you know, you that, that,

735
00:48:59.920 --> 00:49:04.240
well, like I said, that you're enough for the Lord, that you

736
00:49:04.240 --> 00:49:08.400
are who he says that you are, you know, etc. And then that

737
00:49:08.440 --> 00:49:12.960
just immediately diffuses this other situation that you're

738
00:49:12.960 --> 00:49:18.920
thinking about. And then it can also because that's kind of like

739
00:49:18.920 --> 00:49:23.600
the answer to everything, that will then help you more clearly

740
00:49:23.600 --> 00:49:28.040
see what should I do now? Because before, like, say, for

741
00:49:28.040 --> 00:49:31.440
instance, you're thinking, Oh, I'm going to rule this situation

742
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:34.720
is triggering me and prompting me to go, well, I'm going to do

743
00:49:34.720 --> 00:49:37.680
this. And I'm going to fight like this. And I'm going to, I'm

744
00:49:37.680 --> 00:49:39.960
going to get this type of job, and I'm going to work really

745
00:49:40.000 --> 00:49:47.760
hard. So you're using the that as like the motivation. So if

746
00:49:47.760 --> 00:49:50.480
you just completely disassociate, disassociate from

747
00:49:50.480 --> 00:49:53.720
it, and then choose that, you know, okay, are God and I okay?

748
00:49:53.800 --> 00:49:57.320
Yeah, yeah, we're okay. Well, I'm at rest. Well, that was

749
00:49:57.320 --> 00:49:59.720
easy. You know, you can even go through the rush shifting tools

750
00:49:59.720 --> 00:49:59.960
if you

751
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.520
to in order to help yourself, you know, and, and all of a sudden you're fine. Okay. So now from

752
00:50:05.520 --> 00:50:13.120
that place of oneness in Christ, now look at your situation. Now, do you want that job? Now,

753
00:50:13.120 --> 00:50:17.920
do you want to do those things that you had thought about doing? Because they may not be bad,

754
00:50:19.120 --> 00:50:27.280
but do it now from the place of God's eyes and God's heart and God's will, as opposed to from

755
00:50:27.280 --> 00:50:34.880
being, as opposed to being prompted by, by fear or fight, you know, but you might still come to

756
00:50:34.880 --> 00:50:40.320
the same conclusion that you did before of like, Hey, you know, I think I want to do this job.

757
00:50:40.320 --> 00:50:46.160
I think I want to pursue it. And Hey, drive is a good thing. You know, people, you know,

758
00:50:46.160 --> 00:50:49.760
I think that we've talked about the fact, you know, you you're someone with drive,

759
00:50:49.760 --> 00:50:54.000
you know, and you like your, your go-getter and you like to do that. That's not bad.

760
00:50:54.960 --> 00:50:59.520
It's not bad. It's very good thing. It just needs to be from the right source. Like, okay,

761
00:50:59.520 --> 00:51:03.840
is it relying on God? Or is it relying on yourself? You know, so that that's the thing.

762
00:51:03.840 --> 00:51:09.440
So it doesn't mean that whatever conclusion that you come to out of fight flight or freeze

763
00:51:10.240 --> 00:51:18.480
is the wrong one, but it is the wrong source and it's the wrong fuel to fuel the job search or to

764
00:51:18.480 --> 00:51:23.920
fuel the, whatever. So you let it all of that go and you shift into, okay, or God, not enough.

765
00:51:23.920 --> 00:51:28.560
Okay. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I forgot. Okay. Now, Lori, now that I, that, that I don't feel a need

766
00:51:28.560 --> 00:51:34.080
to provide for and protect myself, it doesn't, now what do we want to do? I came up with this

767
00:51:34.080 --> 00:51:40.400
idea. I understand it was prompted by this fear, but I, now that I'm in, you know, seeing things

768
00:51:40.400 --> 00:51:45.520
from your heart and your mind, your spirit, I don't know. Yeah. I see it as a really cool,

769
00:51:45.520 --> 00:51:50.720
cool idea. I never, you know, had thought about it before, or all of a sudden, you know, Lord,

770
00:51:50.720 --> 00:51:54.640
last year when you, when I talked to you about this, I really didn't want to do it. And now

771
00:51:54.640 --> 00:51:59.920
all of a sudden I do. So you could still come to the same conclusion, but now you're doing it from,

772
00:51:59.920 --> 00:52:03.040
from a totally different source, which changes everything. It changes.

773
00:52:04.160 --> 00:52:08.400
If you want to use an old phrasing on this, it changes God's blessing on it.

774
00:52:09.200 --> 00:52:17.840
Hmm. Anyway, those are ideas. Yeah. But I wanted to just make it sound simple that all you're

775
00:52:17.840 --> 00:52:23.760
doing is you're disassociating from it for just a minute in order to now approach it from the

776
00:52:23.760 --> 00:52:27.760
right source. But the only way you can approach it from the right source is if you completely

777
00:52:27.760 --> 00:52:34.000
disconnect, you completely drop it, leave it. Okay. Forget about all this, forget about all,

778
00:52:34.000 --> 00:52:40.560
and not forget, like you're going to forget, but just, you know, just, uh, uh, stop making it the

779
00:52:40.560 --> 00:52:45.200
most important thing to you and choose. Are you in God? Okay. Is that that's the most important

780
00:52:45.200 --> 00:52:51.440
thing to you and then relook at the situation. So you're not ignoring it. You're not shoving it

781
00:52:51.440 --> 00:52:56.560
under the rug, you know, for some therapists to deal with it next year, you know, it's just,

782
00:52:56.560 --> 00:53:01.760
you're now just approaching it from a different perspective. So, and then now look at the

783
00:53:01.760 --> 00:53:09.600
situation now, look at, at, okay. No, I was, I was, um, even while you're in the room, okay.

784
00:53:09.600 --> 00:53:16.720
I'm still here. I'm still standing here, you know, now what do I, you know, but God and I are okay.

785
00:53:16.720 --> 00:53:20.960
So does that change how you feel in that situation? Does it not change what you, what decision you

786
00:53:20.960 --> 00:53:24.320
make about what you want to do? Do you want to go get a chair? Do you want to stay in the corner?

787
00:53:24.320 --> 00:53:27.360
Do you want to go make friends with the other people who didn't get a table? I mean,

788
00:53:27.920 --> 00:53:32.160
what do you want to do? Or you could go through all of this. Well, after you get home

789
00:53:32.160 --> 00:53:34.960
and you're thinking about, okay, well, I'm going to go to this, I'm going to go to that,

790
00:53:34.960 --> 00:53:41.360
you know, whenever it is, you know, you just, uh, you, you, you just connect from it in order to

791
00:53:41.360 --> 00:53:47.280
now be able to approach it from a righteous perspective, from the position of the judgment

792
00:53:47.280 --> 00:53:52.800
seat of Christ, where you can now see inappropriately judged, not just the decision,

793
00:53:53.440 --> 00:53:59.120
but also what you should do about it. You know, what, what things did it prompt you to do? Did it

794
00:53:59.120 --> 00:54:03.360
prompt you to, I don't know, to start pursuing something that you hadn't had a drive and an

795
00:54:03.360 --> 00:54:07.200
interest for, and all of a sudden you do now. And God's like, Hey, I think it's a good idea.

796
00:54:08.160 --> 00:54:15.280
You know, anyway, is that, is that helpful at all? Yes, it's very helpful. And thank you for that

797
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:19.040
extra part. Cause it did simplify it. Like I'm like, I can remember that. Like, yeah,

798
00:54:20.000 --> 00:54:25.280
Hey, like that. Yeah. That's really good. And the source part really helped too, because

799
00:54:25.280 --> 00:54:32.080
yeah, I've heard that before, but it makes a lot of sense and it's a good reminder. Yeah.

800
00:54:33.360 --> 00:54:38.800
Yeah. So, um, you know, those situations are hard. They, they hurt, they don't feel good.

801
00:54:38.800 --> 00:54:46.240
They don't make us feel good about ourselves and all of that. Um, uh, but what it is that we,

802
00:54:46.240 --> 00:54:52.560
we choose is to, okay. When I'm in that situation, how do I, how do I reconnect with,

803
00:54:52.560 --> 00:54:58.080
is this is the way that I'm feeling accurately reflecting who God says that I am. Let's not,

804
00:54:58.080 --> 00:54:59.840
and I don't like feeling this way. And I don't.

805
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.480
like living like this. Don't like all the ideas that are coming up. So I choose a different way

806
00:55:06.480 --> 00:55:13.920
to live. I choose to live one that's more like, um, you know, who God says that I am and the life

807
00:55:13.920 --> 00:55:20.720
that he died for me to have. And that's what I choose in this situation. So it's not negating,

808
00:55:20.720 --> 00:55:26.400
you know, our feelings or anything, because remember, um, don't ever condemn or shame

809
00:55:26.400 --> 00:55:33.120
yourself or squelch your feelings. We're not telling ourselves to ignore what we're feeling.

810
00:55:34.320 --> 00:55:39.760
Remember your soul that is having all those feelings, all that hurt, all that pain,

811
00:55:39.760 --> 00:55:46.880
all that, whatever it's important to be listened to. It has value. It has a right to be heard.

812
00:55:48.000 --> 00:55:53.760
You know, we should, you know, it wants to have a voice. It wants to know that it's safe enough

813
00:55:53.760 --> 00:56:01.200
with us to have a temper tantrum or to be afraid or whatever situation that we're in.

814
00:56:02.320 --> 00:56:09.760
And, um, so we just, uh, remember what I said the other day that just love and accept yourself.

815
00:56:11.280 --> 00:56:14.720
Let me phrase this a little different just because it'll simplify it, make it easier,

816
00:56:14.720 --> 00:56:20.240
just fully accept that you feel the way that you feel while you're feeling it. And that will

817
00:56:20.240 --> 00:56:25.040
shockingly, just that even before you're like, trying to remember, remember who it is you are

818
00:56:25.040 --> 00:56:32.080
in the Lord and all that, just accepting yourself as feeling the way that you do. Okay. I'm mad

819
00:56:33.040 --> 00:56:40.720
or I feel incensed by this injustice, you know, or I, you know, whatever the, you know,

820
00:56:40.720 --> 00:56:46.320
situation, the situations that we find ourselves, you know, make us feel and just accept that and

821
00:56:46.800 --> 00:56:51.680
accept yourself feeling like that. Okay. Well, apparently, you know, I'm just mad

822
00:56:52.480 --> 00:56:56.480
and then it will shockingly diffuse the situation. You'll still feel mad,

823
00:56:57.280 --> 00:57:02.400
but you'll go from like a 10 to a one or something. I mean, it's wild. And you haven't

824
00:57:02.400 --> 00:57:12.000
even tried to shift into rest because you, because you stopped resisting you. So therefore that gives

825
00:57:12.000 --> 00:57:17.280
you less resistance to be overcoming later when you're trying to have faith in God and who he

826
00:57:17.280 --> 00:57:24.320
says that you are. So that'll drop it a lot. And then it'll be easier for you to overcome that one

827
00:57:24.320 --> 00:57:29.280
as opposed to the 10, you know, in order to believe that you really are who God says that

828
00:57:29.280 --> 00:57:35.600
you are because you, you accepted yourself. You were the King to yourself, you know, showing

829
00:57:35.600 --> 00:57:40.560
yourself that you were that, that it was that you were there to protect it and to provide for it,

830
00:57:40.560 --> 00:57:44.560
to listen to it, that it's safe with you, you know, your soul, your body, your emotions and

831
00:57:44.560 --> 00:57:50.320
all that, just like God wants us to know that we're safe with him. So you do that for yourself

832
00:57:51.200 --> 00:57:57.680
and then you, and you go to Lord and ask him to you know, and choose to receive that same

833
00:57:57.680 --> 00:58:02.640
protection and provision from him. Cause that's what we're doing when we come into agreement

834
00:58:02.640 --> 00:58:07.440
is we're choosing to accept his protection and provision in the way that he chooses to give it.

835
00:58:08.240 --> 00:58:14.960
But anyway, I just want to clarify that this is not to that in no way should in this situation,

836
00:58:14.960 --> 00:58:22.000
when I say to disconnect, I'm not talking about ignoring our emotions or not thinking about him

837
00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:28.480
or not accepting them or just kind of, or like stifle them at all. I just mean, we have to,

838
00:58:30.560 --> 00:58:35.600
no, it's the only way I can think of, can y'all think of another word other than disconnect?

839
00:58:35.600 --> 00:58:40.640
That is honestly the best word I can think of. It's almost like all of these lines, all of these

840
00:58:40.640 --> 00:58:46.880
cords are connecting us to all of these things that we're thinking about. You just cut them off

841
00:58:46.880 --> 00:58:52.400
and you separate yourself from them because they, they have this pull on you. They have this

842
00:58:53.280 --> 00:59:00.160
power over you. And, and, and so you, you basically take your, your power back, so to speak,

843
00:59:00.160 --> 00:59:07.120
your autonomy to make decisions and you cut off and you choose that. What's important to you

844
00:59:07.760 --> 00:59:15.920
is, is, are you in God? Okay. Not your association or relationship with all of these things like

845
00:59:15.920 --> 00:59:20.480
the job or the social situation I'm in, or how it makes me feel or what these people might be

846
00:59:20.480 --> 00:59:25.680
thinking of me or whatever. So you just cut all those things off and you're like, no, I choose,

847
00:59:25.680 --> 00:59:29.600
I intentionally choosing this moment, but that's not my highest priority. That's what I'm trying

848
00:59:29.600 --> 00:59:35.920
to say. Yes. You're disassociating the priority and you're choosing a different priority. So I

849
00:59:35.920 --> 00:59:42.160
don't mean that you're ignoring this. I mean that you're switching priorities so that you can now

850
00:59:42.160 --> 00:59:49.200
address this one, but you can't address these until this one's done first, because this one

851
00:59:49.200 --> 00:59:56.400
has the power to overcome these because otherwise, if you don't do that, when you just keep them,

852
00:59:56.400 --> 00:59:59.840
well, hang on, you know, I'm just gonna, I'm gonna work at this, you know, it's a, it's.

853
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.720
a hard battle because you're on the same level as them.

854
01:00:04.720 --> 01:00:06.960
You're just battling and it's a lot of work.

855
01:00:06.960 --> 01:00:10.600
So if you go though from this power and bring it down,

856
01:00:10.600 --> 01:00:13.920
well then the Lord's power will just dismantle the power

857
01:00:13.920 --> 01:00:16.000
of these things that they've had over you

858
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:19.160
or that they're trying to get or whatever.

859
01:00:19.160 --> 01:00:22.540
So the disconnection is a switching of priority.

860
01:00:23.400 --> 01:00:24.240
I love that.

861
01:00:24.240 --> 01:00:27.200
Great, so anyway, try to think of all kinds

862
01:00:27.200 --> 01:00:28.760
of different ways to articulate

863
01:00:28.760 --> 01:00:31.520
because I don't want you in any way to think

864
01:00:31.520 --> 01:00:33.640
that we're talking about shoving things into the rug

865
01:00:33.640 --> 01:00:34.840
or that our feelings don't matter.

866
01:00:34.840 --> 01:00:36.320
No, they need to be acknowledged

867
01:00:36.320 --> 01:00:39.240
or they can't actually be healthfully,

868
01:00:39.240 --> 01:00:41.720
the situation can't healthfully be approached

869
01:00:43.200 --> 01:00:47.760
from God's truth because in order to kind of

870
01:00:47.760 --> 01:00:50.440
give God's truth a priority,

871
01:00:50.440 --> 01:00:52.680
priority obviously is a relative term

872
01:00:52.680 --> 01:00:54.360
and you have to have something else

873
01:00:54.360 --> 01:00:56.440
in order to make this the priority.

874
01:00:56.440 --> 01:00:58.280
If this is the only thing, it's not a priority

875
01:00:58.800 --> 01:00:59.640
because it's the only thing.

876
01:00:59.640 --> 01:01:00.600
There has to be something else

877
01:01:00.600 --> 01:01:02.080
in order for it to be a priority.

878
01:01:02.080 --> 01:01:05.120
We can't ever ignore the reality of this world.

879
01:01:05.120 --> 01:01:08.120
If you feel like that, you feel like that.

880
01:01:08.120 --> 01:01:10.320
If you're sick, you're sick.

881
01:01:10.320 --> 01:01:12.000
Like if we're talking about like physical healing

882
01:01:12.000 --> 01:01:14.600
or whatever, if you're sick, you really are sick.

883
01:01:14.600 --> 01:01:17.040
If you're angry, you really are angry.

884
01:01:17.040 --> 01:01:18.960
You don't need to ignore the fact that you're angry

885
01:01:18.960 --> 01:01:20.320
and hope it'll go away.

886
01:01:20.320 --> 01:01:22.640
It has to actually be addressed.

887
01:01:22.640 --> 01:01:27.440
And so in any way, my point is your feelings are important.

888
01:01:27.440 --> 01:01:29.680
The part about you that hurts,

889
01:01:29.680 --> 01:01:32.240
the part of you that hurts, that's important.

890
01:01:33.600 --> 01:01:36.360
It doesn't not matter.

891
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:41.000
It's a valuable part that simply just needs to be talked to.

892
01:01:41.000 --> 01:01:44.280
It simply needs to know that you heard it

893
01:01:45.840 --> 01:01:50.640
and that even though it's afraid

894
01:01:50.640 --> 01:01:53.400
that what God said isn't true,

895
01:01:53.400 --> 01:01:56.960
doesn't mean that that feeling isn't a real thing in there.

896
01:01:57.640 --> 01:02:00.440
And so it needs to be treated like a real thing.

897
01:02:01.760 --> 01:02:04.560
It's not a vapor, it's a real thing

898
01:02:04.560 --> 01:02:06.960
and it needs to be treated like a real thing.

899
01:02:06.960 --> 01:02:08.280
So I'm trying to say, yeah.

900
01:02:09.200 --> 01:02:10.920
Anyway, so your feelings are important.

901
01:02:10.920 --> 01:02:12.520
What it is that you, all of the pain

902
01:02:12.520 --> 01:02:15.160
that you experienced is important.

903
01:02:16.960 --> 01:02:21.960
But if you want to live where you have a different experience

904
01:02:22.720 --> 01:02:24.440
than what you're experiencing,

905
01:02:24.440 --> 01:02:26.720
that's how to get the different experience.

906
01:02:26.720 --> 01:02:28.120
That's how to shift.

907
01:02:30.280 --> 01:02:31.560
That's good.

908
01:02:31.560 --> 01:02:32.400
Thank you.

909
01:02:35.320 --> 01:02:36.280
You're welcome.

910
01:02:36.280 --> 01:02:37.400
I'm sorry I had that experience.

911
01:02:37.400 --> 01:02:38.760
It is no fun.

912
01:02:41.720 --> 01:02:42.760
Oh my, it is.

913
01:02:42.760 --> 01:02:45.000
In a way, I did not realize,

914
01:02:45.000 --> 01:02:48.160
well, does anyone have anything before we jump off?

915
01:02:48.160 --> 01:02:51.880
I just basically gave two teachings there

916
01:02:51.880 --> 01:02:54.360
because I talked so long for both of them.

917
01:02:55.360 --> 01:02:59.240
But hey, less questions y'all had to come up with.

918
01:03:00.560 --> 01:03:01.800
But is there anything else though

919
01:03:01.800 --> 01:03:05.000
that y'all did want to talk about or have questions on?

920
01:03:05.840 --> 01:03:07.600
I always like to make sure.

921
01:03:07.600 --> 01:03:08.520
Y'all good?

922
01:03:08.520 --> 01:03:09.360
Okay.

923
01:03:09.360 --> 01:03:10.720
All right.

924
01:03:10.720 --> 01:03:12.120
Well, it's good to see y'all.

925
01:03:12.120 --> 01:03:13.480
And as I was telling Rita,

926
01:03:13.480 --> 01:03:16.000
I think that you were on, Tammy, that you heard.

927
01:03:16.000 --> 01:03:19.400
I'm still trying to get stuff uploaded.

928
01:03:19.400 --> 01:03:21.360
I haven't been able to upload it.

929
01:03:21.360 --> 01:03:23.040
It keeps aborting it.

930
01:03:23.080 --> 01:03:25.200
Every time that the thing will like upload

931
01:03:25.200 --> 01:03:28.440
to like less than half of the videos.

932
01:03:28.440 --> 01:03:30.400
And then they'll just let like,

933
01:03:30.400 --> 01:03:33.200
like it'll like be uploaded to 50% on a video

934
01:03:33.200 --> 01:03:34.920
and then it'll just abort it and kick it out.

935
01:03:34.920 --> 01:03:37.960
And so I tried and tried for multiple days.

936
01:03:37.960 --> 01:03:40.560
And so I'm trying to get new internet tomorrow.

937
01:03:40.560 --> 01:03:43.160
So hopefully I'll be able to upload at some point.

938
01:03:43.160 --> 01:03:46.800
But so when I do, I will add that one, Rita,

939
01:03:46.800 --> 01:03:47.800
about what to do.

940
01:03:47.800 --> 01:03:52.360
You know, if you just don't wanna spend time

941
01:03:52.680 --> 01:03:53.520
with the Lord or whatever,

942
01:03:53.520 --> 01:03:54.600
it's really just what I've explained,

943
01:03:54.600 --> 01:03:55.440
but who knows?

944
01:03:55.440 --> 01:03:57.600
I did do that teaching a while ago.

945
01:03:57.600 --> 01:04:00.120
So there might be something in here that I didn't say,

946
01:04:00.120 --> 01:04:01.880
something in there that I didn't think of to say,

947
01:04:01.880 --> 01:04:02.720
but anyway.

948
01:04:04.040 --> 01:04:04.880
All right.

949
01:04:04.880 --> 01:04:05.720
Yeah.

950
01:04:05.720 --> 01:04:06.760
Oh, just out of curiosity.

951
01:04:06.760 --> 01:04:07.920
It's fine if you haven't,

952
01:04:07.920 --> 01:04:09.880
but Tammy, have you been able to read

953
01:04:09.880 --> 01:04:11.600
the ultimate choice yet?

954
01:04:11.600 --> 01:04:12.920
Was it helpful at all?

955
01:04:13.920 --> 01:04:14.760
Good.

956
01:04:14.760 --> 01:04:15.600
Okay, good.

957
01:04:15.600 --> 01:04:16.440
Okay.

958
01:04:16.440 --> 01:04:17.280
Yeah.

959
01:04:17.280 --> 01:04:18.120
I think I was back to the Facebook one

960
01:04:18.120 --> 01:04:19.960
and I found one day and I found it on there

961
01:04:19.960 --> 01:04:22.160
and I was like, oh, that's the ultimate choice too.

962
01:04:22.960 --> 01:04:24.800
So now I have it in both places.

963
01:04:24.800 --> 01:04:25.640
Yeah.

964
01:04:26.560 --> 01:04:27.400
Oh, good.

965
01:04:27.400 --> 01:04:28.240
Good, good.

966
01:04:28.240 --> 01:04:29.080
Okay.

967
01:04:29.080 --> 01:04:30.040
All right.

968
01:04:30.040 --> 01:04:30.880
Okay.

969
01:04:30.880 --> 01:04:31.720
Well, it's good to see y'all.

970
01:04:31.720 --> 01:04:32.960
Y'all have a good night.

971
01:04:32.960 --> 01:04:33.960
Night.

972
01:04:33.960 --> 01:04:34.800
Bye.