See you again.
Long time no see.
Right.
Oh, beautiful flowers back there are those Valentine's Day or just because just because.
Which are the best guy.
Yesterday. So, but they're really pretty.
So we went we went shopping yesterday and, and he asked me, he'd gotten me some flowers the last time we went shopping, and so we were we were walking by the same section of the store.
And he looked at me and he said, Do you still have flowers and I said yeah yeah mine are so good. It's like, Okay, so he walks over the section.
More.
It's great because the other bouquet was this, you know, how did she just have to call them over time you know that you know, as they die off you know so it's it's a much smaller bouquet than it used to be and I had to like, then of course you're
cutting it up so it has to go in a smaller and smaller base.
So the little ones over there and so here's the here's the big one.
You got different bases, you got to take me.
You what, I'm just like what mine I just like wait for them to just be like me.
And just like okay.
That's great.
I used to work for a florist, and so I learned different things like, well, you know, if the leaves are in the water it poisons the water so always make sure that when you put your, your flowers in that you strip all of the leaves that are going to be below
So it didn't poison the water, you know, so in other words your, your flowers last longer and then obviously you know every few days you you re you re add water and then just cut off this the stems, and you know by at least an inch do it an angle you know and all that stuff.
So eventually at some point there's so few flowers that are it and then you pull out the flowers that are bad.
So that they don't so that they don't poison the rest of the flowers, because, you know, you want the ones that are doing good and healthy to stay.
So it's just little things like that that I'm that I'm just kind of like following is like okay how can I make them last as long as possible like okay we'll just keep the keep just call out the bad ones, you know, so that the good ones will keep looking good so in sometimes they'll stay for two weeks.
Yeah, I mean we're just talking about like it like sometimes don't get used to flowers from the grocery store and they'll you can sometimes they'll last like at least two weeks.
So, I know, just because you're just kind of watching them and whatever.
i'm a very low maintenance person, but I do like flowers so it's just there's a balance, you know, and like like I said i'm very low maintenance person, but I like I like a clean and orderly home.
So I just create balance like it's like okay well I like it clean and orderly but now let's not go overboard, because then that's no longer low maintenance so.
figure out where all my priorities are anyway hey Diana.
you're in your chair.
How are y'all doing yes i'm in my chair.
I like seeing you there.
By the is that a fireplace that's in your bedroom.
No, it's a it's the the owner just put it like a review could see it's just like a piece of it just goes all the way up it's it's on part of the wall, or it was there and she just left it there payment it just like a corner yeah yeah.
I like it because it's an old building right.
yeah it's like 100 years old this this building and she remodeled it she restored it and what I love is she left a lot of the original hardware and windows, like the windows are just if you can see.
You can see these windows, but did it go up.
Did it go up.
Like, do you see the windows. Oh wow they're very tall. Yeah, they're like the original windows. Oh, nice. Yeah, so she tried to to keep it all, which they say it's more expensive to maintain or to try to restore than to put on you.
Really, I didn't know that.
Yeah, because you want to keep the, the original.
Yeah, like the hardware on my the bathroom door, that one looks, I've haven't seen it's like those big old.
You know, it's like a big old big old lock. Yeah, big glass knob. Yeah, yeah.
Cool.
Yeah, she's, she's really her and her husband they're they're older, they're lawyers.
Immigration lawyers both her and her husband, and this building they just have it as a kind of like an investment. Okay.
Yeah, well I'm glad that they did a good job with it and cared about it and stuff. So, it's nice to keep.
Like what we were talking about, you know, it's good to have a balance with everything, but it's nice to have a, it's nice to have people that have a heart for keeping things are restoring the old things.
So that we can keep using them. Me I'm a very very big fan of using history, not putting it behind glass.
So, now I mean, you need to do that with some things but I love how in Europe they they all still live in those old houses. They just keep them up you know and I just love it.
I'm like oh my word this thing is like older than America and you live here.
Yes, well this this neighborhood is like, like the first historical district like in Texas. This area I don't know if you've heard about it's called the King William district.
It has like, like 25 blocks of historic like houses. Okay, and you can walk around and just be like, you know, because some people have done such a great job in.
Wow.
This is what is so interesting what I love to talk about this area is because this started at the end of 1800s, like 1870s, 1870s, and then to the early 1900s, but the people that built here originally, they were immigrants all mostly all immigrants.
And so the houses are huge. And there were first time wealth builders, because they made their, they made their money by like steel and cotton. And so the history of it is like they didn't have any money they were like, they were all immigrants and I love that
story because it's so like the American dream, you know, exactly. That's cool. That's really great. Oh nice.
Hi Karen.
Just the four of us tonight.
Hey, so for me it always feels weird when it's just us on because I'm like, but the rest intensive is bigger than, you know, people in Norway, you know, it's like two in the morning, can't blame them.
But anyway, it always feels weird.
People are missing and then like, no, they're not. I mean Rita is tonight but you know, it's so usually feels like a small group.
What did I just miss.
Diana was telling us about the, the historic district that she lives in is the oldest historic district in Texas, and was started by wealthy immigrants who were making meaning like they were immigrants who were who were who were new money.
They were making their money in like cotton, steel, etc. And so she was saying that one of the really cool things about the about the history of her particular area is the fact that it was like founded on the quintessential American dream.
You know, so in the last.
Very cool.
Yeah, well I'm all chill tonight here I just got done hurrying up with dishes and things so I could get here and jump on I was doing that to you.
I was finishing my dishes. Yeah.
Are those real roses behind you. They are so I got him for me yesterday. So, beautiful. Thank you. Yeah, he always spoils me with flowers, just because.
That's time.
I like that.
You know what I do, but I buy myself flowers, a lot. Oh, that's great.
Yep, I just take care of. Yep.
Because I love.
Yeah, that's fine. Yeah, and I would imagine you would because you've got all of those, you know, I've noticed that you've got house plants and stuff too. So, like, I know I was kind of drooling over the plants as we walked out of the store the other day.
And totally separate from the, from the flower thing we were, we were leaving and I was like, Oh, I just bought a little pot to put my okay we're totally getting started.
sidetracked here, but I got a little basil plant.
I'm so excited because it smells amazing.
That's why I like these in my kitchen because they smell amazing.
And then just whenever you want, you just, you just tear it off.
Yeah.
Basil's so expensive at the store.
Oh my word.
It's ridiculous.
So I got this at Walmart, so it's very cheap.
And then I got, I went to the, um, I went to the, uh, the, the outside
hardware part of it and got that pot for like less than $5.
I was like, steal.
So I just got that yesterday.
So anyway, I was very much, you know, now that we're here and, and where it is
that we are, I was like, you know, I want some, I've got it, we've got a balcony.
It's like a, it's almost like a large deck, but it's, it's, it's on the second floor.
So anyway, and so there's room for, um, plants and then the previous lady who
lived here, which is my best friend's mom, she's a big gardener and she left
all of her pots and plants, all of her pots here, so I've got all of this stuff
to play with and remember that this is the old apartment I used to live in
when I started the rest intensive.
So my old window boxes that I left her mom, they're still here.
So I could use those and put them on the railing too.
She loved him because they moved into an assisted living home.
So, um, so anyway, she, she didn't have any place for all of these pots anymore.
So, but anyway, so down to the task at hand.
So does anyone, um, have any questions or how have things been going?
Um, I've loved that.
I've gotten to talk to some of y'all and past, uh, a couple of days.
So, um, and, uh, I'll send out a reminder to everyone to, um, sign up for
the first transformation session.
The last day is tomorrow.
Cause I had like all the weekend open, you know, and then also tomorrow.
So hopefully people that are, um, still, uh, would like, um, a transformation
session, I'll have some time, um, that it's convenient tomorrow during my open
times and, um, yeah, and then the only day you have.
Yeah, because remember I sent that message on Friday that I had Saturday,
Sunday and Monday open.
So those three days, sorry, I was super busy at work and I
haven't even read your message.
So if you want to check tomorrow, see if you can grab a good time.
Okay.
And I'm kind of busy tomorrow, so hopefully it'll work.
Oh yeah.
I'll look at your times.
Okay.
All right.
Yeah.
And what else I can say?
Oh yeah.
And then the second transformation session, we're not going to schedule
until after the, the, um, program is over, meaning like we might schedule,
I might open my calendar before then.
But the point is like, it'll get, it'll allow the program basically to be
extended a week for y'all, because I mean, it's not really extending it a
week, but my point is that it's as if it did, because you'll be able to, um,
uh, we'll be able to like connect kind of like a, almost like a fireside chat
only it's like private, and then you'll just be able to, um, uh, asking
questions that maybe has come up or whatever, because sometimes that's
what people, what happens is, is all of a sudden when the program closes,
like, oh my word, but, but life still goes on and now I have all these
questions, so it gives people an opportunity to have things that come
up to be able to ask or whatever.
In fact, I even had a lot, I had a, um, a lady, um, from one of my past
rest and intensives reach out and talking about, when am I going to do
the next one?
Because she wants to join because she's like, you know, I'm just finding
that, you know, just going through life.
I'd like to have the rest intensive support community and teachings to
just kind of walk with me through this season that I'm going through.
Um, and, um, so anyway, just kind of like to help to re anchor and, and all of
that, so I'm working on the next thing that I'm going to do, I still haven't
fully structured what it is, but I'm, I'm coming up with a structure and
it's very, very, very different from anything I've done, and I'm very
excited about it, very, very, very excited.
So anyway, it's not finalized yet because I'm still working on my internet.
So I'm like, I can't promise something I can't deliver yet.
So I'm waiting until I check on my internet next tomorrow.
That's where the hotspots, this, um, this to help me solidify what it is that I'm
going to offer for the next rest intensive and whatever.
So I'm not sure, but it might be more compact than, than I've been doing.
I've been doing six weeks at a time and this one might be three.
I might just, it might be, um, like, uh, making it more.
What would you say just, I don't know, just more, I don't want to say intense like it's scary intense, but it's just more packed in a smaller amount of time.
And i've got a few i've got some some additional support things that I think people are going to really like so anyway i'm excited about kind of planning all of that.
And so y'all are the first to know that it looks like they're i'm going to have a journal that i'm creating and that i'm going to provide to everyone.
To be able to kind of like help support them in their journey and that they cannot fill out and stuff and it's because some people are finding that very, very helpful and what else I don't know might have like a text group.
um where it, it is not it's not on Facebook messenger it's like actual text the phone, but people don't have each other's phone numbers or anything, but it provides a bit of like connection and continuity.
To kind of like help people feel a bit more to kind of create a bit more of an immersive environment so.
Things like that, but I think will help support in a more concise amount of time, because I know that, for some people, six weeks sounds like a really big commitment, especially when they hear that it's meeting three times a week.
So I thought well, maybe we can make it, maybe a bit shorter, but.
Maybe that'll appeal to certain people in certain schedules so so, since I have given y'all all kinds of time to think.
Any questions.
or thoughts or.
Anything you know that's been coming up have y'all watched some of the new things that I posted like say, for instance, you know the the ultimate choice or.
If you don't want to you know for when you don't want to spend time with God I posted that and and i'm also going to be posting.
A couple of videos when I can upload a couple of videos on how to make friends and rest because i've been asked about that.
So I did a couple of videos, maybe two years ago, when I was asked that by more than one person at a time at at the same time, and it was just on people's hearts and so i'm going to be posting that.
And I had think at the time I had I had one person struggling to make friends just because.
She I don't know I think she had a lot of fears and then I had someone else who was trying to make friends, but couldn't seem to connect.
You know, so she was she one person was struggling to make the effort and then the if i'm remembering all this correctly, and then the other person was real was making the effort.
But couldn't seem to connect, and so they were wondering, and it was causing a lot of and then relationships that they currently had in their life like friendships and whatever.
All of this was causing them a lot of strife a lot of stress because they're like well, how do I, how do I find friends and then, how do I.
How do I make them and how can that be how can it be effortless without it being so hard, you know with that, and so I did I did a couple of little.
couple little videos basically a part one and a part two so i'll be posting that but and have those additional things that i've done have those been helpful.
Oh, and another one did y'all see the one that I posted called rest shifting tools there y'all see that.
Okay, so that one for those of you haven't seen it, you can get it under the rest retreat and supportive teachings and also it's in the it's in the discussion wall, so if you scroll down it's like.
it's like just a few posts down and if you click on it and open up it actually is a write up where I walk people.
And through the rest shifting tools so you have the teaching on it, so I recommend that you go through and just read this article that I wrote up about you know listing all of the different things like.
You know, no shame and no condemnation and stop and no judgment and whatever because I I kind of phrase it in in some ways that maybe I didn't in the video and and people have said that they found it very helpful, I very much like the part at the end.
Where I talked about the fact that Jesus all to always remember when we're going through this and we're trying to shift into rest for always remember that Jesus had the victory.
Jesus is already gone through it and Jesus knows the struggle that you're going through when you're trying to shift into rest, he knows the pain.
He knows the suffering he experienced it and he overcame so if he could overcome if he could prove that in.
his humanity, not his divinity.
Even though he was divine, remember
it said that he basically kind of set it aside.
I think the King James Version refers to it
as he thought of his divinity as something
not to be considered or something like that.
It's very, very flowery language.
But point is, he basically put it aside
and he acted in his humanity so that we could actually
be able to look at his life and know
that that is a true example for us of what we can truly do.
Because he didn't do it in his divinity,
he overcame in his humanity.
It was his humanity that chose God and that overcame.
So anyway, to just kind of get some encouragement
that when you're going through all of this stuff
and it's as hard as it is to shift,
it's as hard as it is to let go, that Jesus knows.
Because Jesus did it.
And if Jesus did it, then you know it's possible.
As opposed to, my goodness, this is just so hard.
I just don't know if this is expected of us,
and da, da, da, that you really can't know right now.
There's precedence.
And Jesus knows what it is he's asking of you.
He knows what it is you're going to have to go through.
It's not like, oh, well, no, just do this trial.
And I just don't know what it's like to struggle and go
through as much pain as you're going through
and letting it go.
Why on earth are you finding it so hard?
Jesus found it that hard.
So you're not alone.
So anyway, so I recommend kind of looking at that.
So I just keep thinking of different things
that I could pop in with and say and kind of reference
and things that I've added.
And then, of course, love when y'all are all
posting the journey shares and everything.
And so feel free to watch all of those
that have been posted and comment on those
and encourage people.
Those are all good.
That's your desktop is my favorite.
So now that I have seriously given you
all kinds of time to think of things,
basically, just think of it like this.
If you don't have a question, think of it kind of like,
how has life been going?
Are you understanding it?
Are you owning it?
Are you feeling like you've got a new lease on life?
Is there an area that you're struggling with?
Kind of think of it kind of like that as opposed
to a specific question that you're trying to understand.
No, what are you living?
Do you feel like you are living what
it is that you wanted to come into the arrest intensive
to get?
That kind of a thing.
I don't have anything.
I do if.
Yeah, go ahead, Karen.
Well, a couple of things.
I have not been able to take the time to meditate.
So any suggestions on how to do that?
Because I did have some good, I think, revelation today
and some good things happened at the place I go fellowship
a lot with my spiritual mom.
And I'm feeling a little more at rest,
even though I haven't slept good for a couple of nights.
So you all keep standing with me for that
to shift a little bit, if you would.
But the meditation is what I'd like to do.
And I even pulled your teachings when you taught that.
And I put it on my messenger just on mine
so I could grab it real quick.
And then, I don't know, something happened maybe
when you were redoing the thing.
I couldn't get to it.
But now I can get to it again.
So I don't have any excuse.
So if you have any.
That's open.
If you have any.
So on what, on getting motivated to do it
or on what kind of meditation you're talking about?
Well, the one kind of just taking 10 minutes
and just kind of like you taught,
even just taking 10 minutes to just kind of slow
your breathing down and let the thoughts come and go.
And I really wanted to get that started
while we were doing this rest intensive.
And I haven't done that.
So I'd still like to get that done this week.
Sure.
Yeah.
So the thing that honestly has just really helped me,
I'm sure that there are other people
who are doing it as well, but I'm
sure that it's just really helped me.
I'm sure that there are other people with other tips
and tricks.
But the thing that's really helped me
is to just completely, that has helped me slow myself down
is by sending intention basically to myself saying,
hey, look, all of this stuff that's very active
and that you're subconsciously think about, thinking about,
and making decisions about, dah, dah, dah.
You may not have it consciously going on, but subconsciously it's going on.
So how do you send that in your intention?
In other words, your decision as a king to the rest of you that needs to know,
Hey, look what you need to, you need to slow down because it's more than just
simply the breathing and whatever, because the breathing is very helpful,
but the breathing is a tool to send intentionality to the rest of yourself
of like, Hey, this is what we're doing now, whatever it is that you're anxious
about, or whatever it is that you think has to get done or has to be decided.
And all this activity doesn't have to be done right now.
So that's what I kind of use the tool for that, that what I'm about to walk
through is, um, is to do that.
You're you're, you're trying to be intentional about making a decision.
To the point where the rest that you are going to, uh, uh, that you're going to
basically let go and you're going to tell the rest of yourself to do that.
So the way that I do it is find it very useful is by, you know, just closing my
eyes and imagining a blanks black screen is if I was looking into space or
something with no stars, and then I imagine one light, you know, at some
point, very, very far distance in the future.
And I just imagine that it's Jesus is Jesus focused on me and loving me and all
of that, but I don't give him a shape.
I don't give him a form.
It looks like a star so far away, but if I imagine that it's Jesus, then I feel
like I'm not alone and that I, it helps me focus my focus, my meditation on him,
as opposed to opening up my mind and spirit to just kind of whatever it keeps
me focused, basically in a manner of speaking, it keeps you protected.
Focusing on the Lord, because there's more than the Lord that's
in the spirit realm, right?
So if you're going to make yourself suggestible and susceptible to things,
you always want it to be in the covering of the Lord because meditation is also
done by non-believers that are kind of opening themselves up to all kinds of
other things.
So that's what I just kind of do is I've kind of just imagined that it's Jesus.
And then like, okay, Lord, this is you and me, we're doing this, but you're
not like interacting with them, but it's like you, it's almost like you, you
calling him to, I don't know, calling in his protection, but y'all, y'all
aren't like discussing anything.
You're not like solving any problems, you know, but he's there and he's
covering you while you are learning to let go and be vulnerable in his presence
without having to learn anything or, or figure anything out.
And then you can't be like that for very long.
Cause it sounds blank, you know, black screen, white dot.
And I just keep focused on the dot is all that I do.
Keep focused on the dot.
Don't think about anything.
Don't think about Jesus, you know, like, oh my word, you know, he's just so
wonderful and you're not thinking you're trying to look, you're trying to.
You're trying to deescalate all of your active brainwaves, meaning like you
don't want them so active, so hyper.
And, but there's nothing to keep your mind interested because, and it's used
to having all kinds of stuff going on.
So before long, you're going to start thinking all these thoughts are going to
come in all of these problems to solve, or, oh my word, Jesus is wonderful.
Or all of this, all of this stuff is going to start coming in and you can
think about Jesus, you know, that's perfectly fine, especially if that's
the point of your meditation, um, is to just, is to just focus on.
On nothing, but him, then that's perfectly fine.
But any other thoughts that are not with the purpose of the meditation,
just kind of imagine them as something that's coming towards you like a cloud
and you just move through it.
So don't give it any power by looking at it, by thinking about it, by, you
know, just allowing your attention to be drawn to it, you're going to
know what the thought is you're going to know, oh, I just thought about that.
Just keep going.
Just like, oh, whatever.
Oh, so I thought about that.
All right.
Whatever, you know, as opposed to saying, oh yeah.
Oh my word.
I shouldn't be thinking about that.
I just wouldn't, you know, then, then, then you're like reacting to it.
Don't react to the thoughts.
Just let them come and go.
Let him let the, let, let yourself think about whatever you want,
whatever it wants to think about, but you, but it just comes and it goes
right through you because you don't ever pay any attention to it.
You don't ever give it the time of day.
And what that'll do is that not only teaches you to have control over your
own thoughts, unless you remember and reestablish your own authority over
yourself, but it also slows down your activity, everything within you starts
calming down and you start moving from.
And those, um, I'm trying to think, is it, is it alpha alpha beta or
is it beta alpha?
I don't remember.
I know that alpha comes before beta in the alphabet, but, um, I don't
remember.
how fast those, which ones are the fastest, but anyway, gamma is the, is the fastest,
I believe. But anyway, you drop down eventually into theta, which is right above sleep.
And that's what you're wanting to do because you're more open and vulnerable and you're less
resistant to the Lord talking to you. You're less resistant to, you're less resistant to hearing
him and whatever. And that's the kind of the benefit of it is you're trying to, you're trying
to reduce your resistance. And then you just, so if your purpose is to meditate on scripture,
then you think about nothing, but that scripture, like saying like, maybe like be still and know,
there is a teacher that I listened to that talked about meditating on scripture and use,
be still and know as an example. And he said, for instance, what you can do is he said,
think about each word, basically give each word it's time and just say, be,
be, and then be still, be still. And like, really be kind of like intentional with everything and
just allow the meaning of it, like spiritually God's meaning that he put when he, what he put
into the words, when he spoke them, when he spoke that be still and know that I am God, you know,
when he spoke that, when he wrote scripture, you know, through, through human hands,
just allow whatever it is that he meant by those things to come up in your spirit between you and
him and allow those things to just really allow something, allow the revelation of his truth to
be birthed within you by you, by how would I put it, kind of like experientially instead of,
instead of like something that you're learning or trying, like you're learning with your head
and you're trying to figure out and you're trying to understand, and you're trying to,
but just rather let the spirit reveal to you what it means, as opposed to your mind hearing
something, learning something or figuring something out. Because think of it kind of,
this is what I mean. I don't mean this to sound complicated. It's just, it's just know that it's
deeper than our own mind. So think of it kind of like the fact that, that how do you get to know
God? You don't get to know God by reading books about him. You get to know him by experiencing
him by like simply being with him. And then there's something that you're, that jumps up in
your spirit and you're like, oh my word. I know, I know I didn't know God was like that. You just
learn something about God simply because you experienced it. It's that kind of a thing of
allow the Lord to reveal himself and the meaning of scripture to you simply because it comes up out
of a knowing of your spirit, because you're allowing your spirit, which is in the spirit realm
to reveal who has access to the spirit of wisdom, spirit of knowledge, spirit of understanding,
allow yourself to be taught by the spirit. And then if you've got all of your mental resistance
that you have lowered down into theta, it's a lot easier to hear your spirit.
It's a lot easier to receive things from the Lord. Does that make sense? Oh,
I think I may have lost you. Does that make sense? Yes. Yes. It did. Would you recommend
maybe setting a certain time each day? That's what I thought about doing, but it didn't.
Um, well, uh, yes, um, I would, or you can set, if, if you've got certain routines, I would set
it as part of, I would set it as an extension of one of those routines for me. That's what I find
to be easiest. So instead of saying, oh, at nine o'clock every day, well, if you don't get up at
the same time, every day doing nine o'clock may not make sense to you, but it would, if you just
like, well, as soon as I get up, I do this. And then after I do that, I do this. In other words,
if you have a routine of like, I do these things like for me first, as soon as I get up, I go to
the bathroom and then I, and then I get in the shower and then I get ready and then I, whatever.
And then I come out and then I eat. So if I have it, if, if I have it as one of the steps of a
longer routine, then I'm more likely to get it in than if I have to do it at nine o'clock every day,
because my, my life really works a bit more in routine than it does at certain times.
So that's more helpful. You're more likely to get it in, uh, than otherwise you're always
going to have something come up around nine o'clock or your routine's thrown off today.
And I'm like, I can't do it at nine o'clock because I'm in the middle of this.
Yeah. I like that. Yeah. I like that. Okay. And then one of the routine before bed,
you'll let you always brush your teeth before bed, you know, just adding it in as one of the
routines. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. That's good. Um, and then a while ago I just got in, um,
you haven't been pretty peaceful all day, but I had a girlfriend stop by that. I was giving her
some, some shoes that I wasn't wearing. And
And, uh, she stayed longer than I thought, which was okay.
But then it just kind of ran my time.
Uh, cause I had to rinse off and, and stuff.
So I found myself getting kind of in hurry sickness cause I, I wanted my
dishes done and, you know, teammate and stuff to sit down and do this class.
So, so my mind's kind of, and not just in my hurry, but my
mind's kind of hurrying, you know, do you have any tips for that?
For that, um, what I do is I always go back to owning myself because I feel,
because something like that feels like, okay, things are getting away from me.
I'm running out of, I'm getting out of control.
Like, as in, like, um, I, as if I'm being driven by what is happening.
And I'm not going to have to remind myself of that.
Like, nope, I get to decide.
I recommended this to somebody who, uh, in the last rest intensive, who was
asking me questions about what do you, you know, I actually, I can stay in rest
most of the time, but what's really hard is when I'm in the middle of making
supper and the siblings are squabbling.
And all of a sudden the doorbell rings and, you know, I don't
want to know what to do first.
You know, all of a sudden it's like everything, I felt like everything
needs my attention right now.
And I told her, I said, it doesn't, I said, flat out.
It doesn't, we just feel that it does.
We just think that it does because we want our lives to work a specific way.
And we were like, well, I want to avoid these consequences and whatever.
It's very dangerous to live our life is with the purpose of trying
to avoid particular consequences.
It's a very defensive posture and a very victimized posture.
So I told her, I said, I recommend.
And so it's the same kind of thing that I've recommended for you.
As I said, everything can handle just a few seconds.
So to just stop and own yourself again, choose that.
No, I am in control.
I am the mom.
What do I want to do?
Do I want to deal with this?
Do I want to deal with this or do this?
You just have a split second to kind of make a decision, but own yourself.
You just do it really fast.
You're like, no, you just stop and remember.
Nope.
I own me.
This is my house.
And God says that God, remember the thing that I recommended to y'all that y'all.
Um, I think.
But it's today, Tuesday, Saturday.
So I think I mentioned this on Thursday.
So I recommend to everyone, you know, as you just use as kind of like a, a mantra
question that you just continue to remind my, to remind yourself of to kind of like
recenter yourself, re-anchor yourself.
Are God and I okay?
Yeah.
He says that he and I are okay.
You know, and understand, uh, and so, and then it was a, let me get, get back to
that in just a second, let me finish this.
And then, so if you, as soon as you realize, okay, no, God and I are okay.
And I own myself.
Okay.
So what do I want to do?
I don't really have to get all the dishes done and even, and you never know.
I mean, as soon as they leave, you know, God might, you know, enable me to get
them done really quickly.
So it's fine, but I own the situation.
I own the dishes.
I own the process.
I own how I do them.
I own how fast I would decide I want to do them.
I'm in charge, you know?
And, um, and we can get frustrated by like, everything's just not cooperating,
but we can't feel threatened by that.
We have to like own ourselves between us and the Lord.
And that's what I would, um, would, uh, recommend.
And then there was, and then I was not wanting to get sidetracked.
So I stopped what I was about to say about the whole, you know, our, our God
and I okay, and I don't remember what I was going to say about that, but anyway,
um, that's what I would recommend is that, and that's why I keep driving this
point home is remember that you're important.
So a lot of what it is that we struggle with can be solved by remembering that
we really are who God says that we are.
He says that we're valuable.
He says that we're important.
He says that we're significant and, um, and we're not, we're not victim to what
other people, uh, decide or how they act or how they respond to us or whatever,
or how creation responds to us or whatnot.
Um, and things just don't have to, just because things don't go a King's way
doesn't mean that he's suddenly not a King or that he doesn't have power.
It means that he lives, exists.
He rules a kingdom in which everything underneath his
jurisdiction has its own free will.
So he needs to be a King that they want to follow because they feel covered and
protected and provided for because he proves it, he actually protects,
he actually provides for.
So we want to be that King.
Um, and, uh, but it just simply, but if things don't go our way, it just
simply means, well, we're ruling a kingdom that can choose or not choose us.
Just like we can choose or not choose God.
It can choose whether or not it wants to choose us.
They, it usually does, but it takes a bit because it's afraid and it's in chaos
and it doesn't.
no any other way to live.
But the more that we show up as a real king
and as a son of God that loves as God loves
and acts like our father,
the more that it will take that new instruction.
So think about right now,
chaos is the habit of creation.
It is its MO, it's its way of operating.
So when we give it new instruction
and it changes into order,
that will be its new way of operating.
It will not immediately revert
if we suddenly forget who we are.
How do I put that?
So we're teaching it its brand new way of life,
a totally different lifestyle,
a totally different modus operandi, totally different.
And so it's going to, so right now,
it feels like it's default.
That's what it is.
We're changing its default.
Right now, its default is chaos.
Not really, because honestly it was made for order,
but just generally speaking,
its default thing that it wants to do all of the time,
that it's natural go-to is chaos.
And so your introduction and your instruction
to call it to order,
to call it to respond to order is going to be new.
But like, and when I'm talking about all this,
I'm talking about things like your feelings,
that feeling of like,
or your mind going really, really fast,
or you're starting to panic
or you're starting to getting anxious,
or the fact that maybe the dishes aren't cooperating
and they're not being done as quickly
as you wanted them to or whatever it is.
So whether it's the creation inside of you
or it's the creation outside of you,
it has a default to operate in chaos.
But when you give it new instruction,
by continuing to give it new instruction,
it learns that you are,
it learns by your consistency that you mean it
and that you are dependable,
that you can be relied on,
that this really is who you are,
that this is the new principle,
this is a new kingdom,
there's a new sheriff in town,
and this is its new way of living.
And then that order will be its new default.
Even if something odd and random comes in
like an unbelief or a lie about the Lord,
you know, that you said believe or whatever,
it's so used to operating in an agreement with the Lord,
you know, and respond to you appropriately,
that that's gonna be its default,
even though you have some random like wild hair sometime.
But right now it's not,
its default is the chaos,
but we're eventually gonna switch it
to its default is the other.
So anyway, but that's what I would recommend
is just remember who you are.
That's why I always say
that the thing that you always come back to
is who does God say that he is to the degree
and what degree does he say he is that?
And who does he say that I am to the degree
and what degree does he say that I am that?
So everything comes back to that question.
So to shift disinterest
and to give us an anchor for our faith.
Like, what am I supposed to be believing?
Oh, I'm supposed to be believing who God says that he is.
And to the degree he says he is that,
who does he say that I am to the degree he says I'm that?
That exactly happened to me.
What has changed my life is the talking to the soul.
Did never do that before.
I know it says it in the Bible that David did it,
but never did it.
And I started talking to my soul.
At first it felt weird, it felt kind of weird.
But today I had a reason to kind of go,
woo, like I had something happen with my son
and normally I would have just gone,
like I would have just been all,
and I was just so, like nothing had happened.
I mean, I was just like, my goodness,
because one of the things that I,
because I used to suffer with anxiety and fear.
So I would, yeah, I had been speaking to my soul
since we started the class,
speaking, you know, not to be afraid,
you know, to release fear,
kind of something that I heard you say
that the spirit could handle it.
Yes.
But let the spirit handle, you know, it can take it.
And things like that and thinking,
well, it makes sense, I'm gonna speak to it.
And I had been, and do not be anxious,
you know, talking to my spirit,
my soul, do not be anxious, you know, do not,
you know, when I felt I was getting.
Cause some things would trigger me, like, especially like on Facebook, I would,
you know, something would trigger me and I would be like, Oh yeah. And it's just been wild,
you know? So if y'all are not doing that, talk to your soul. It works today was the proof.
And it, I mean, it's awesome. I, it sounds so simple, but it works.
Yeah. Because yeah, you're remembering who you were and you presented yourself to your soul.
You're like, no, you know, this is how it is. It's all okay. You can choose to receive me or not,
but I am here to protect you. If you'll lay your, if you'll lay down your own sense of like,
I've got to do it myself. If you, if you lay it down and start doing it and you let me do it for
you, I'll do it. And then your soul is like, Oh, okay. This all gets excited. It's like a kid.
You're like, okay, thank goodness. Somebody else is in charge, you know? And so it can,
it can really love it is spent. It was made to submit to the soul. And so it gets very excited.
What it gets scared about is, can I trust it? So that sometimes it's like, Oh, I'm not used to
trust. You're talking about the spirit. No, the soul. Sometimes he's like, I don't know if I can
trust the spirit. Oh, the soul isn't trust. Sure. If they can trust the spirit, just like we're
sometimes not sure if we can trust God, you know, it's the same idea because our spirit is in
alignment with God. So our soul is really, you know, like, I don't know if I can trust God,
you know, to the end of our spirits and go with God. I don't know that I can trust the spirit,
you know, is it's fear. So that's why sometimes it'll take, it'll take a bit, but it was made
to submit. It wants to, it just doesn't know whether or not it's safe. So the more that you,
and that's why you just kind of have to, that's what it is that we're doing with our, with our
souls is like, okay, let go. It's our soul. That's holding onto something. And we're just
encouraging it. Let go because you really are safe when you let go, you know, you're not going
to fall into oblivion. You're not going to be unprotected. You really are safe. So you were
doing it that you were, you were standing in it and you were owning yourself. And that's what
happened immediately. Your soul calms down. And so, yeah, so that's what I was saying, Karen,
you know, if you do that, your soul, your, what you're doing is you're just owning yourself.
You are shifting into your spirit again, remembering who it is that you are. And then
the son of God, son of God presents itself. And then the, and then the rest of creation,
including her own soul and body goes, okay, there he is. In other words, there's our king.
Okay. We can, we can finally let go now. You know, we don't have to be anxious. We don't
have to try to make it happen. The spirit says it's going to be okay. So it's going to be okay.
You know, the spirit says he's going to take care of it. And the spirit is trusting God. The
spirit's like, yeah, my God's responsible for the outcome. So therefore I know I don't have to worry.
So, you know, Hey, y'all, y'all let it go. And then, and then I'll take care of it. And my idea
of taking care of it is always giving it to God and he always takes care of it. So, yeah. So thank
you, Diane. I appreciate that. Was that helpful, Karen at all? Yes, that was helpful. Yes. And I,
I liked that balloon. Who did that? Oh, yes. Annette. Wasn't that great? I haven't gotten
the comment on it yet. That's great. Yes. I loved it. Yeah. Yeah. So tag your aunt Tammy.
Okay. Something that it's more, I guess, logistical. So I know, well, I enjoy being
in community. I've been in community, like, I guess, 10 years. So good. And the girls that
were like really great friends, Rita's involved. One of those, we, we decided to not do like a
weekly community, but I wanted to like, no pressure, but like have other people in the
past, like said, Oh, I'm on rest intensive. Like we still want to meet once a week, or
do you allow that? Like we wanted to exchange numbers if those people were okay to just like,
encourage each other and have a space to like, with people who have the same type of framework of
teaching. Oh yeah. I can totally allow it. I just don't create the space for it because then I know
that I'm going to have to referee because all of a sudden it's no longer a mentorship. It's community
and you know, communities there's, there's no structure. And so therefore, so I've always told
people, I'm like, Oh, are you kidding? Kimmy? Everybody wants it. Everybody's so excited. Oh,
actually I want it. I was like, great. Somebody go build it. I said, you go build a Facebook group.
No one has done it. It's been three years. I can't tell you the number of people that have
said that they want it. And I'm like, that's great. I said, somebody go do it. In other words,
I said, it doesn't even have to be much. I said, y'all just have a, have a, have a messenger
like chat group, you know, and y'all just chat in there or someone create a group.
before you've got your own wall.
You know, and you just all talk in there
and you just embody it.
I said, yes, let's listen to it.
I said, I'm not going to create it
because then I know it's going to happen.
Ashley, so once you've said this to me,
I haven't had that very much of the rest intensive,
but I've had like once or twice
where someone said something, I'm like, okay,
so I need to go and talk to so-and-so and say,
hey, look, this is a safe place
that really wasn't very kind.
You know, so I'm like, I don't want to do that.
So I was like, if y'all want to do it, go for it.
So yes, absolutely.
In fact, I encourage people to do that.
I said, hey, by the way, even without them asking,
I'll tell them, hey, if y'all want to exchange numbers,
if y'all want to like, if y'all want to do,
like I said, y'all get make Facebook friends
with each other and whatever.
I said, yeah, absolutely.
But I haven't done it.
No, I completely understand that too.
Cause it's like, if you do it, then it's kind of like,
oh, well it's not working.
Something's not going on,
whether it's technical or whatever.
So Ashley, you're the leader, fix it.
I'm like, no, no, I've got a program.
That's what I'm doing.
I'm spending my time at that.
But I've always wanted people to be involved.
Okay, this also, so this is another interesting thing
is that after a while,
some of the enthusiasm can wear off.
And so meaning like people just start living it
and then they just become focused in other areas.
And I noticed that even though I left
like the original rest intensive group open
from three years ago,
they will very rarely, basically never get in there
and interact with one another, ever.
And I'm like, but I left it open.
You can do it all the time if you want.
And I didn't, but some of them
just really enjoyed each other's company.
And they like made like Facebook friends with each other.
So I still watch, they all comment on each other's
like posts and whatnot.
And then a few of them,
I think have even connected on like Marco Polo.
If y'all know Marco Polo, I love Marco Polo.
I'm very, I spend seasons of my life
where I spend a lot of time on Marco Polo,
like chatting back and forth with people.
And so some of them will connect on Marco Polo
and they still, after three years
are connecting on Marco Polo
because they've made friends, you know?
So yes, absolutely.
I always encourage people to do that
and recommend it and whatever,
but no, I haven't like hosted anything
just because I knew it would take some energy
and I wanted to, that I was gonna somehow be,
they were gonna kind of feel I was responsible for it.
And I'm like, no, no, no.
So I'm gonna spend my energy somewhere else,
but I've always been all for people keeping up,
you know, that community aspect.
So I do know that certain people
have joined the rest intensives multiple times
because it keeps that community.
But part of the reason, again,
I have known this by experience,
is that eventually, you know,
they just become focused on other things.
And so the community aspect ends up
really only being very beneficial
where people will invest in themselves
and in each other during the program.
But after the program, unless they found a special friend,
they just start getting focused on other things.
So, but anyway, but that may just simply be
because no one else has taken up the charge.
So if you wanna probably be the person
that finally does a rest intensive alumni group, go for it.
Oh my gosh.
Also, if you wanna do like a gathering,
a once a year rest intensive gathering.
I've thought about that actually.
That would be fun.
Yes, you know what I've actually also considered
is doing something kind of like a rest intensive.
But only not from ground zero, like for seasoned people
and doing a rest intensive only for alumni.
So in other words, everybody's on the same page
because they've already all been through the program
and they're all living it to some extent or another.
And so in other words, you're talking with people
that you're all in the same place.
You've all like, hey, this is what we've chosen.
And let's just interact with other people
that have chosen to live the life
that we're choosing to live.
So I have thought about that, but anyway.
But yeah, I thought about like doing some kind
of like a reunion.
That's cool.
Yeah, cause I was talking to Kim and I was just like,
and I was telling her like,
I was doing good and everything.
And I was like, yeah, I did have some anxiety about like,
okay, like when this goes away and you know, like you hit.
And I was like, Ashley,
she's really good about like expressing kind of like how,
like kind of, you know, the whole, you said relationship
is not about like just the tools or whatever.
It's a relationship with the being, like with God.
And so I was like, that was really comforting.
I felt good.
But I do have this real.
occurring. It's just like, I'm in a space and there's certain
people that can understand and speak this language, like not
everybody gets it. You know, like Diana just shared
something about speaking to her soul. And I'm like, okay, like
we all got it. Totally said that before. Like, I'm literally
speaking to my soul. Like I just was like, so that just I was
like, oh my god, that's great. It just carried a moment ago
talking about meditation. I was like, yeah, okay, I did do that
once. But I never really thought about like doing it on a
regular basis. But then I was like, well, my friend Kim, she
says she does it quite frequently. And she like just
has all these experiences. So it's like I get so much value
from hearing other people and learning from everybody's just
gives you another perspective that you might not have thought
of. So yeah, I mean, we did a community we were like once a
week, we had, you know, an hour or two that we set aside from
our lives to do it. And we it was great before because we all
lived in the same area. And so we did it together. And then we
would like have this whole thing in chat. And it was great. And
then the pandemic came in that it was just kind of like all
zoom. And so it wasn't the same level of, you know, touch, I
guess. But you know, we've been living on zoom now for some
years, and this is on zoom. So I'd love to see all 80 faces,
you know, once a week or every other week, you know, just
putting it out there. So I'm happy to coordinate. You're
willing to pressure. Yeah, that would be great. Tammy, Tammy,
if you want to start that we'll support you.
I've heard that too before. It's like, okay, well, if someone
still does it, we'll come.
Be the one that finally does it. Three years. Three years. I
believe she's going to do it.
Yeah, no, go ahead. I was just gonna say now are we going to
have access to our rest intensive, right? So not the
discussion wall, but all of the all of that you are on. So
that's going to be like, I don't know how to use for archived or
whatever. But so not the discussion wall, but you do
have will have access to all of the content of like all of the
teachings, like everything under the rest, all of those tabs on
the far left, all of the recordings for your
transformation sessions, all the recordings for your fireside
chats, and the rest groups and all of the teachings and all of
the additional teachings that I added in the article, you have
access to all of that.
Can we look at the can we look at the discussions that are
already there just not add to them? Or are they not there at
all?
Well, yeah, they're not they're not there at all. If that
because yeah, they've never, like from one place to from one
rest intensive to the next, the discussion closes. And so they
don't have access. So historically, what it was, is
people so now I'm on that platform. So that new platform,
so don't have access to those, those discussions. But you so
it's just like kind of like being in a Facebook group. And
then like you're in, you're added to the Facebook group. And
then once that once the thing is over, well, then you're removed
from the Facebook group. And then I would I was adding the
new people in. So that's what happened to y'all. So y'all were
added into the old one, while the previous people in the rest
intensive aren't there anymore. Does that make sense? So it's
like whoever is at the discussion group is for whoever
is currently active in the rest intensive. Okay. Does that make
sense? Yeah.
When? So it will only be active until when?
March the 11th, the end of March the 11th. Okay. Yeah, but you'll
have access to all of this stuff that's recorded. Okay, so it I
think it'll look a little different because right now it
looks a little looks a little confusing. I don't think it's
it's not going to be listed as weeks. It's going to be listed
as you know, it'll, it'll say, you know, you'll have the rest,
the rest retreat and supportive teachings, and then it'll have
something like and then it'll have like, all the fireside
chats, and then I'll have all the rest groups, you know, so
it'll look easier than it looks right now, because you no longer
need it in like the weekly form. Okay, yeah. So it has all of the
information that's in the left hand side, that will still be
there. Okay, you have lifetime access to that. So
Oh, okay, lifetime. So, and we can do one meeting with you
tomorrow. If we haven't done it, then you're going to be able to
do one next week. You're saying? Yes. Okay. Yeah. Yeah, those
if y'all have to. So I wanted to include one during the program,
and then one after. Okay, so
Are those one hour or are they?
Yes.
Yeah.
Okay.
Yeah.
So in those are, yeah, those are normally, you know, outside the rest
intensive, those are 200 an hour.
Okay.
So, so inside the rest intensive though, you know, I gave, I gave everyone two.
So hopefully that's helpful.
So it depends on the person.
I'll hopefully find it.
Okay.
Is our last meeting Thursday?
Yes, but the, but the is open until end of the day on Saturday.
Okay.
Yeah.
So that's true.
We do meet just two more times.
Would you believe though, that this, uh, we didn't use to meet this often.
We used to only meet once a week.
Really?
And then, and then I extended it to two and then what did I do?
Uh, I think last October I extended it to three and I noticed that it worked
really well that people felt were felt like just overall that it just kind of
helps their, um, help the community aspect, helps their ability to kind of
like, not just be more immersed in a new, a new, uh, this new way, like emotionally
and mentally in a new way of living, but also that it, um, I don't know, just
give them multiple touch points.
Um, and gave them opportunities to ask questions a bit more in real time, because
otherwise something could happen and then you have a whole week to wait
before you can ask a question, you know?
So I wanted to include, you know, multiple touch points.
Um, so that's why I did it three times.
So even though that to some people can seem like pretty often, I like, you know,
it's, I was going to say, I like to remind people, but it's, it's that it's
because of the importance of the fact that it is that we're changing a lifestyle.
We're changing the perspective and the source from which we do everything.
I mean, all day long, including while we're asleep, everything has
to be done from this perspective.
It's not like some new cool thing that we're adding to our life, like speed
reading, you know, new little hobby I'm doing, you know, it's like, it's the
foundation from which you're making all of your decisions, how you're making
decisions, how you're feeling, how you're approaching God, how you're approaching
your marriage, how you're approaching your children, how you're approaching
the business, how you're approaching it's everything it's how to have faith
in God, how to have whatever.
So, because of that, I needed it to be very ingrained in like, um, in them
during a very intense six week period of time.
So can you imagine how more intense that I'm just thinking of intense?
It sounds like a very negative word, but how more, um, immersive it's going to
feel for me to, um, reduce it possibly down to three weeks where I'm looking at
that I've battled, I batted around two weeks, I batted around four weeks, but I
think it's one of the things I'm going to do.
I'm adding in some things, like I said, that I think are really going to help
people solidify it even more in their life in a shorter amount of time than six
weeks, that's kind of my point.
So, um, uh, the reason I do six weeks and I've told you all this multiple
times is because it's not that you need all the teaching for six weeks.
It's not that that takes that long.
It's to allow life to come up because you hear it all in one weekend, but think
about how you didn't know how to apply it until stuff started coming up and
you're like, okay, well, wait a minute now.
What about this?
Okay.
Wait a minute.
What about this?
So that you can actually live it in real time.
And I wanted to make myself in the community accessible to support each
other in real life in real time.
So that's why it's six weeks.
And so anyway, I keep batting around with the word, Lord, is there any way to
reduce this at all, you know, and still make it as impactful.
So anyway, I'm always, if you could take like what you've heard from this class
and other classes that has, that has, you've heard that to work the most that
could help you in the reducing of the, to, you know, focus on those pieces.
Yes, no, you're right.
And that's what I've done.
That's actually what I applied every rest intensive, like y'all are getting
the benefit of all of the concise from other groups, plus new things that
I've had to add because of things that people kept running into.
And so I'm like, oh, well that's, that's helpful.
So I started adding that in.
So there's a lot more meat packed in and now than even there was beginning.
And there's a lot of things we used to talk about.
We don't talk about anymore.
The Facebook class.
I mean, the Facebook group will still be a part of that because I haven't
seen all the videos on there.
Uh, no.
So that not the Facebook group itself.
So if you if you remember from I mentioned that you know when the when I mentioned the page of like
what all is included in the in the rest intensive that is something that people have access to from
the beginning that they join the the program and then but then they get but they no longer have
access after the program ends. What they have access to is all the recordings. So you don't
have access to the Facebook group afterwards but you do have access to all of the the recordings
that we did during the week. It was during that weekend the rest and the rest retreat
as well as the supportive teachings that I added in the platform. The Facebook group
anyone's in there that you want to watch you'll want to watch them before March the 11th. Okay
I'm glad I asked because I'm going to be busy watching videos. I know well you know there's
almost yeah just know that that I don't know your soul and spirit have got a lot more than you know
than you're even consciously aware of. But there's so much information there's so much there.
I mean there's yeah I've been looking at those videos and oh my gosh there's just so much stuff
it's so good so good. Yeah it's just uh just over a long time of like just answering people's
questions. That's how I created all of those teachings is I ended up not doing as many
actually any of them I think any new teachings during this rest intensive but Rita will tell you
I did a lot of new teachings last rest intensive because of the types of questions people were
asking. I hadn't answered those I'd answered those questions a gajillion times but I hadn't
answered them in like I'd answered them in like fireside chats or private conversations
but not a standalone teaching and I suddenly realized okay wait a minute multiple people
are asking this question so let me create a standalone. So ended up that last rest intensive
I had so many questions that I thought hey you know what I'll go ahead and do a supportive
teaching on it and I've gotten to just pull from those this year this rest intensive because y'all
were asking some of those same questions. So if y'all hadn't I would have been you know doing some
maybe doing some of those uh teachings this time but I just had to do them last October or November.
So um so anyway that's what a lot of those are from are when people ask me questions if it's
something and I think you know what I think that I'm going to get this question a lot um and I want
to go in it's not a quick answer I want to really build context around this answer I'll do a teaching
so anyway so that's what a lot of those are populated from. Now the first uh uh just to
let everybody know what she's talking about if you go to the Facebook group and go to guides
you know right under the main picture of Jesus with the little boy again Facebook group not the
platform basically the Jesus the little boy same picture as in the one of the platform you look
below if you're on your computer you know it'll say something like about and whatever and one of
them says guides click on that and you'll see all of these teachings and you'll see I think three
different categories one is fireside chats all the way at the bottom but the other two the top
one is my original rest intensive series it was I was literally filmed in this kitchen it's so weird
back here three years later so those teachings are so good isn't that I wish you could you would
load them up on the platform they're so I'm glad I'm glad you like them yeah it's um would you know
that um that the people that um have access to both the what I call the kitchen series because
I did it in the kitchen that kitchen series and the ones in um uh or the ones that I professionally
did which are the ones you know that we all watch that weekend people that have access to both of
them say they go back to the kitchen series more I'm like really why those are so unprofessional
and I'm like chatting with all kinds of people no I think I think it was uh it was like where
you were at I think it's like maybe a place where you were at and where you were pouring out of you
like probably so revelation a lot of revelations yeah I'm glad you like when you talked about the
soul being out of the body like the soul like I was just like what yeah and I had that vision
as weird as it sounds to say I had that vision right here when I was standing right here in this
in this bathroom right right here um I was standing there in the bathroom one day and I
looked and all of a sudden all of these people like appeared in my mind's eye not in real life
but you know it's like wait just a second what's going on and people are coming out of other people
and I'm like I don't know what's going on so yeah that happened here and so I was able to all of
that God taught me so much here this is where God taught me about um not only that I start the rest
intensive and so all of that stuff like that vision all of that stuff was very fresh but God
taught me the word rest right over there he said it you know I was laying there and he said actually
rest. Really? And then also I was here when I learned to choose that he loved me. So it was
this, that God had just really met me in this place. I've told my best friends, I was like,
if I could buy this place, I would. It's mine, you know, because the Lord just established so
much between he and I. So anyway, this, so all of those things that I tell you, all of those stories,
they literally happened where I am right now. And it's like, I don't know, it's 750 square foot
apartment or an 800 square foot apartment, something like that. And, and so it's not very
big. It's just very small and very intimate. And it was between me and the Lord. And this is,
so all of this stuff for me, it's very real. And as I always tell everybody in the rest intensive,
I've lived this and I speak out of what it is that I live. I speak out of what it is that I
personally believe in what I personally experienced and everybody else can just choose whether or not
they want to do that and whether or not it sounds good to them, you know, and whether or not they
feel a reaction or response in their own spirit from the, from God, when I speak these things.
So I didn't learn these things. I experienced them. And then God began to give me the words.
So I knew what I had to explain it to myself, let alone to someone else. So, so anyway,
all of those, all of those original ones were here in the, here in this kitchen, actually,
they were all very, I would do notes. I would write up some notes and then I would just jump
on live and just start going. So they weren't professional. They were the first times I'd ever
taught some of that stuff. Cause prior to that, I'd always taught it in context of like,
not counseling. And what's it called? Consulting where I was doing business consulting for people,
for Christian entrepreneurs about how to operate their businesses in rest. And I would just teach
them these print, these ideas in the moment, like they would ask me a question because,
so I didn't have any curriculum before. I just started, they would ask me a question and I would
I, I just started, they would ask me a question. Hey, Ashley, this is, we would just jump on it on,
on a session, private consultation session. And then they'd start asking me questions and I'm
like, okay, here's the answer to the questions. And then, so when I started the rest intensive,
I was like, okay, how am I going to do this? No, one's asking me questions. I'm just supposed to
teach. What am I going to teach? Because I always used to teach to questions, but if I don't have
questions, what am I going to say? You know? And so the Lord just said, okay, well first teach me
about the teach about their love. It teaches them about my love. So I'm like, okay. So the first day
I like at late at night, I hit live and I said, okay, now we're going to talk about God's love.
And then I would talk about it. And that was that I had written some notes and you could see me like
periodically looking at the notes and whatever. And then the next day I'm like, well, what's on
my heart? Well, based on all the questions yesterday, well, let's talk about this today.
You know? And that's how I created the rest. It's very, very organic, very spirited. So I'm so glad
that you liked it. It was very authentic. It's very real. Yeah. So how did you get to see those,
Diana? Were you on, are they? I just, when I, I just saw them on there, um, cause you know,
the guide. Oh, are they on the Facebook? Are they on the Facebook? They're on the Facebook
on guides and just look at the rest. But you just keep scrolling down and then you'll see videos.
Okay. Okay. All right. And then what did you say, Ashley got, how did God
teach you about his love? How did you say it at that, at your apartment there?
That's where you, um, remember that when I was, I didn't remember when I was telling y'all about
that. Maybe like when I, about faith where I told God, um, where I was like, you know, Lord,
I just don't feel loved by you. I've always wanted to feel loved by you. Never experienced
it. And I, or I've never felt like I was experiencing your love. And it's very frustrating
to me. And it feels like it's your fault because it feels like I've done everything and you're not
coming through on your end of the bargain. And then I realized, well, if it's anybody's fault,
it's always mine. You know, it's not God. So what have I done? You know, what have I,
what is it that I've done? And what is, I've not done. I thought I've done everything. I have read
the Bible from cover to cover. I've tried to obey all the laws and all of the things that it says
that God wants me to do. And I still don't feel his love. So is there anything that I haven't done?
And I got really serious with myself. So is there anything really honestly that I haven't done? And
I thought, well, I haven't chosen. I thought I've tried to convince myself. I've tried to feel it.
I've tried to find it, tried to find his love and see it, you know, and, and, and the things that
would happen to me and I didn't work. It's like, so what's the one thing I haven't done?
I thought I haven't chosen it. I haven't just decided.
That if he said it's true, then it's just going to be true.
That's just, there's just all there is to it.
It is true then.
And I'm going to make believe it feels like I'm making believe, even though I knew I wasn't,
it feels like I'm making it up.
I'm just believing that it's true.
But it was like, I've got to make it, I've got to choose that it's reality.
And so it was right over there.
I was laying, I was, I was, um, procrastinating, getting up for, to work on building a business
that wasn't going anywhere and wasn't successful and I wasn't getting any leads and whatever.
And so, um, felt very unloved and very unseen and all of that.
And so I just decided, okay, God, if, if God says he loves me, then I'm going to choose
that.
He loves me.
Okay.
Wow.
I now live in a world in which he loves me.
So I get out of bed and I start making the bed and I'm like, okay, God loves me right
now.
I'm choosing it.
Oh my gosh.
Well, isn't that interesting?
God loves me.
I get into the shower, I get in the shower right over here.
And then I'm just like, okay, God is enjoying me right now.
He's looking on me.
He's delighting in me while I'm taking a shower and I'm enjoying the physical effects of how
he created water and how it created soap.
And I'm actually thoroughly appreciative and I'm actually enjoying this process.
And he loves the fact that I'm in delighting in something he's enjoying.
He just, he's just, he's just looking on me.
He's just so excited.
And I'm like choosing that all of this is true.
And then I get out and I get ready and I'm like putting on my makeup and doing my hair
and I'm like, oh, he just loves me doing this.
He just, he's just, you know, showering on his love on me and he doesn't find anything
wrong with me.
And he's not looking on me saying, actually you should be doing something else instead
or you should be hurting or why haven't you done this?
Or he's not looking at me thinking glass half empty, you know, this, so I kept telling myself
that then I made breakfast like I did.
And then I'm thinking about all of this and I'm choosing it in every moment.
And that's what changed everything for me and changed me into choosing that God loved
me.
And where I began to finally experience and feel that he did.
So after the faith came the experience and the evidence, because I chose it first.
So I began to see it, I began to experience it.
I began to live it.
I began to feel it, but I had to choose it before I could feel it.
I had to come into agreement with it in order for it to become reality in my existence.
And anyway, so that's what I was talking about.
That's good.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Oh, wow.
I did not realize how late it was.
We're just chatting away.
So I will see y'all on Tuesday for the rest group.
I hope y'all are all going to have a really good night.
I'm not cutting anybody off in line.
No one's like holding some very important question.
Okay.
All right.
Well, y'all, you're welcome.
Well, y'all have a good night.
Yeah.
Jump on the Facebook group this week.
If y'all wanted to see any of those, any of those teachings, like I said, the, the original
rest intensive series, which is 13 part series that I did here in the kitchen, that one's
at the top.
Once you hit guides, it's at the top.
And then if you scroll down, you'll see like all the supportive teachings.
Some of them are ones that I've added to the group that y'all have access to.
And just because I've added, you know, whichever ones, you know, people specifically mentioned
this specifically, that there were particular questions about, I added those in the end.
And so some of them will, you'll recognize, and then some will just be additional ones
that y'all might find helpful to watch because they were specific questions that other people
asked.
So, okay.
Well, I will see you on Tuesday then.
And I hope y'all have a good night.
Bye guys.
Love y'all.