I mute myself. And I know Jill's going to tell me to record this.
Jill Wolf.
There she is.
There we go. Got it.
We are here. You are so welcome. So that's gonna be the link we
always use. So when God opens our calendar to show us where we
are going to be meeting.
Is anyone else like heart? Is anyone else's heart palpitating?
I'm like panting for what God is going to do. So, um, so whenever
that is, you could just take this link and put it in your
calendar. And but what would we what would we what would be
pretty neat? We'll open in prayer and then I love like, you
know, a couple of you guys know each other. But not you know, I
don't think anyone here knows everyone. I don't think so.
So, um, so we'll make some introductions. And let me just
pray. And and you know what, I'll pause when I finish
praying in case God's got a prayer on your lips that needs
to be released for the Sweet Secret Sisters. And oh, yeah,
we're just waiting on Devin. Hang on one sec.
I mean, it's a miracle. We're all here. So it is possible,
right? Okay.
All right, Jill. Jill, are you running Facebook ads to your
challenge?
Jill Wolf. Jill? Yes. Not this one. Okay. Organic. Yeah. But I
will in the future. Just not now.
That's gotten to be a whole nother animal, hasn't it? Like
it's, it's really got to there's just, we're kind of in
transition on how, okay, how do we, how do we Lord, how do we
communicate with the people who should hear, even if it's just a
seed, even if it's just an encouragement to know that
something like this does exist, there is help. There is help.
And actually, the two Jill's what you guys don't know about
each other is Jill Cook is a children's book writer as well.
And Jill Wolf is too and helps people do that. Isn't that cool?
So there's just lots of lots of amazing talent here. So okay, I
sent a note out to sweet, sweet, awesome Devin if you don't know
her. It's in our name. Yeah. Jack and Jill. Okay, so again,
I'll just start to pray. And then if there's a prayer on your
heart, please, please feel free to jump in or a word to be
released or a question to ask the Lord. Thank you so much,
Holy Spirit for hovering over this time. Like, like a deeply
attentive wife, knowing the great heart and honor of the
potential in her husband and what he wants to do. And I pray
you make this your womb. To birth your son ever more
profoundly.
And you
your spirit, the spirit of the bride in us. We are ready to
have you make us wise virgins. We are ready to say as Mary be
it done unto us according to your word. It is your word that
you have hidden the sweet secrets of success and they are
sweet. They're not bitter. They're not harsh or hard.
They're not out of reach. They're not. They're not tricks
or hoops. They're so sweet. You lived them, Jesus. You know
them. And you shared them and you share them still. And we
want to say be it done unto us according to your word. And I
pray for each of your remarkable daughters that are called here
to this holy ground to draw so near to your fire that there's a
burning within us, a deep burning that touches the
longings we can't reach. The hunger, the thirst, those
frustrations that know there's so much more. And we want to
meet that fourth man in the fire. We want to sit with you
to see you face to face, to hear your voice in every fiber of our
beings, to know what you want, and to partner, to come
together, to be transformed. I just thank you. You've got a
plan and we say, Yes, Lord. Bless Jill. Bless Jill. Bless
Ingrid. Bless Carrie. Bless Karen. Bless Devon. Bless Betsy,
my mom. I know she'll join us at times. Bless Jenny Pitts. Bless
anyone else you're wanting to come. And I pray this in Jesus
name. Amen.
Just hearing that song. Welcome Holy Spirit. We are in your
presence. Fill us with your power. Live inside of me.
You're the living water. The ever flowing fountain. Comforter
and counselor. Take complete control. Welcome Holy Spirit.
We are in your presence. Fill us with your power. Live inside of
me.
Well, y'all, you need to unmute, you need to unmute, just be here with me, because I'm
not, it's going to be different than a lot of the stuff I've, I've done before.
Um, where yes, I'll be teaching, but I'm asking the Lord, as I was just explaining to Jenny,
and actually, as Jill and I were talking about the other day,
is to have the Lord just like encapsulate in a laser focus what he's bringing to life. And
instead of me explaining the revelation I'm seeing, bringing us into encounter with that word,
with the living word, that he's communicating right to your heart, right to your soul,
right even to your body. I'm, I'm believing for healing in absolutely every level,
and liberty in every level of our lives. I, I think when Mary found Jesus's feet,
it didn't matter what anybody else said.
It didn't matter the sister that was entitled to her didn't matter. Whatever the men were that
caused those other religious people to say to Jesus, if he knew what sort of woman she was,
when she was anointing his feet, none of them had her attention when he had her attention
she had found the one thing. And no one could take it from her.
And I don't know about you guys, you gals, you women, I'm sorry for saying that. I try to correct
myself, you guys. And, but he's just been taking me so much deeper before heading into this time
and space with him, into such a profound awareness of myself,
into also my need for the antidote to myself, which is him. Meet with me, I'm the antidote to
self. None of my ideas or purposes have any room for self. Then he, you know, is explaining to me
and why rest is so vital. And how vulnerable also I'd been to, did God really say,
you know, and whatever it was a big one, did God really say that death and life is in the power
of the tongue and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof? Because God knows, right?
God knows that, you know, they're acting like idiots and they need to hear it. Or God knows
you're hurting and they need to hear it. Or God knows you need this, you know, just like how many
times did God really say, and God knows. And he just brought me like how many times. Hey, Devin.
Hello. I'm so sorry. I didn't realize I wasn't not on mute. I'm listening.
Hi. So glad you're here. Okay. We are all in the house. We are all in the house. I got to take,
okay. Well, when Devin, when you can get on the screen, we'll take a, a family photo and,
and so anyway, I'd love to hear sort of what, what, what God's bringing you through,
what things have been being highlighted in you as we approach this time, even this morning,
just how many times I have read Psalm 22. And he's been talking to me lately, Psalm 22,
Psalm 23, Psalm 34. And, and this morning when I just went to read verse one again of Psalm 22,
my God, my God,
Why have you forsaken me?
And I saw that Jesus had to go there
because we've all been there.
The deep pits of disappointment, right?
Anguish, isolation, sense of failure, broken dreams,
unanswered prayers.
So there are so many places he's going to take us.
You know, and of course the end, I mean, Psalm 22, y'all.
Like, I just think what I, my life would be amazing
if all I could do is be in his word.
I mean, but doesn't he finish the Psalm
with it is finished, you know?
It's his walk, it's what he's accomplished.
And so that's, again, whatever's coming to the surface,
whatever's being revealed in us
or these needs being exposed or these hindrances heretofore,
he wants us to be assured that he hears those deep cries,
even in our, even though we worship, even though we work,
even though we progress, even though we're excited,
even though we rejoice, he hears the, my God, my God,
but why have you forsaken me?
I cry out and you hear not.
And I just think, again, he's showing us,
I know, I've been there.
And he's not only been there for us,
he's been there before us.
So he's already in those places and wants to meet us there.
Sweet secrets of success, those are his words.
So he means to bring success.
So I'd love for you, whoever wants to start,
to go ahead and introduce yourself
and just share what are your anticipations?
What are your questions?
Where do you live?
Cause not everyone knows.
And I could just go around,
Jill Cook, you're in the top corner.
So I could just start with Jill Cook in the top corner.
Hey, so I am a retired nurse and I live on an acreage
in Saskatchewan, which I think Karen is from Saskatchewan too.
Amazing.
And we have a little Christian retreat here.
We just offer for whoever of the Lord sends our way.
It's not used very much, but it's available
to who he sends.
And I have a son who lives close to us.
And when your granddaughter,
we've just come back from Australia
with see our eight month old grandson.
We were there for six weeks
and I met Hillary through 100X.
She was my coach, written a couple of children's books.
It hasn't gone well,
but Mother Teresa gave me a quote last week
that said that God does not ask you to be successful.
He asks you to be faithful.
And that really helped me a whole lot.
So anyway, so I'm here with my husband and I live here
and yeah, I think my hopes and aspirations are,
yeah, he's been calling me to be quiet for so long,
to be near him, to be still.
My biggest temptation and my biggest sin
is to go running off in a different direction,
even just to help someone who I shouldn't be,
you know, just off the path.
And I'm looking forward to quiet learning,
to be quiet with him and hearing his voice louder.
Being with you all.
I wanna write that down.
That's so good, Jill.
And, you know, I just felt like the Lord smile at you.
Actually, I see him winking.
And just, I think if anyone were to assess
whether or not Jesus was successful, right?
Right, while he was doing,
while he was about his father's business,
I think there were likely a lot of opinions about that.
thing, like, you know, even his own followers, obviously. And I,
I have observed you, I always consider you immensely
successful. And, you know, because not only have I seen
this work being done in you, as you've walked through this
process, but your degree of faithfulness, and your heart for
the people that could be touched, even the few that are
keeps you steadfast. And if that's enough for you, that
surely is enough for God. I'm so glad he cares for the one. And
so I just want to tell you, there's nothing. There's
nothing. I mean, people hid their faces from Jesus. And
there's nothing that would cause someone to hide their face from
you, in my estimation, Jill. You're a treasure. Okay,
interestingly, Jill Wolf, you are next.
Hello, I'm Jill Wolf. I'm in Vegas, Nevada, and I'm married,
have one son who's six, who in case you see things throwing
across behind me, or children jumping, that's him. And I don't
remember what else you're supposed to share, except that
what we're looking, what we're hoping and, and waiting on him
for in this season, or in this Sweet Secrets. Well, I was, as
Hillary's kind of had us position ourselves at his feet,
listening, I realized, I'm more that four and five and six year
old kid that's asking a million questions. Well, how come? Well,
why is this? Why is the sky blue? What you do here? And what
is the Holy Spirit? And what do you mean by spiritual language?
And what do you mean? And so even Hillary can attest to our
conversations, all I'm doing is asking questions, questions,
questions. And as a mother of a little one who's asking
questions all the time, there are times that I kind of roll my
eyes going, Oh, my goodness. And I know he never does that. I know
he's like, thank you for asking. And I welcome these questions.
And I'm going to meet you right where you're at, which is all
of this together. And then there's times I'm like, I know,
I'm supposed to be still, I'm supposed to be still, I'm
supposed to be quiet. It's like you're, you're just supposed to
be here with me. So ask your questions, listen, but ask your
questions. So that's so I'm just excited to see what, what
question I'm excited to be able to ask him questions about the
Sermon on the Mount and hear what he has to say in a in a new
way for me.
So does that answer your question?
Yeah, I love that. I love I love Jill's questions, because I
think Jill asks the questions that other people are thinking,
but won't ask because, you know, even a couple of times on screen
when Jill asked a question, I got, you know, private messages
or sometimes other, you know, comments on another post or
something that just said, I'm so glad that that question was
asked, or I'm so glad that you know, that was, that was just so
good to hear that that was so good to even have that
discussion. And, you know, one thing that I, I learned more and
more about the Lord is to be curious is key. When we get a
word or when we see something or when, when a word jumps off the
page, sometimes we freeze in that moment thinking that's the
holy moment. That's a wow. You know, this is what the Lord said
or this is what jumped out at me. But I, I'm, I'm really more
and more aware that if if I don't dig, that's where I am.
And it's sometimes my impressions of what happened or
I'm like stuck there. But when I'll get curious, and I'll just
start, you know, journaling my conversation with him, so much
more unfolds, like just things that need to be dealt with, or
things that need to be done. You know, so many times people say,
well, you know, like
if I, I would tell a pastor, like, did you hear that missionary? This is it. We're being called
all to these pews. This is the time. And it's like, well, God knows we need to make money.
We need to take care of our wives. We need to, I mean, and isn't it like, that's what the devil
said? Did God really say like, hey, unless you take up your cross and deny yourself, right?
Right. You can't be my disciple. Did God really say that? Because God knows that you have to get
these things done, right? Well, that's always my, I mean, I'm just seeing it just these past weeks.
Again, just like Genesis is a place I, I go a lot to the beginning of the book. I spend a lot of
time there. And I, I think I'll plumb the depths there. I just think, I mean, although you take
me to any scripture, like this is my favorite one, except things like, you know, Paul saying,
you know, I just want to know the fellowship of his suffering and the power,
like, you know, like you say so many good things, like put a, put a sock in it right there.
And so, but, you know, then you, but when you get curious in those scriptures,
you find out so much more and that that's, that's actually where, when I'll spend time and
sometimes it's years asking questions on those ones I'm wrestling with. Like, what the heck,
God? Like, I mean, one of the, one of Christian's favorite, one of our favorite things to say is he
suffered, so I don't have to, but I'm, I'm like, well, he did say in this world, you will have
tribulation. He didn't say like, if your name begins with J, like Jesus, or if, you know,
sometimes on every first Tuesday of the month, give or take, like, he didn't say that. He said,
you will. And here's the answer. Just like James says that we didn't want to hear, count it all
joy. And that's another one. It's like, but so if God knows that we need to make money, that we need
to be practical, that we need to accomplish things, then I think the answer is in those first
two words. God knows. And that's one thing Jesus kept, kept trying to convey. You are a heavenly
father. He, he already knows. So the devil uses that to keep you from him. And God reminds us,
that's why you draw all the near to him first. So I love those questions. I, I just think the
more curious we are, the more curious we help each other be, the, the deeper well, like, like
never, if you're seeing something, as we walk through this process at his feet, and something
jumps out to you, I love this about, about Devon, she'll introduce herself in a little bit here.
She's like, she's like that little child in the, in the candy store. Like,
this is what I saw. And that, do that. Don't ever keep that to yourself. Or even if it just
comes out later. Like, this is why we have our own private group. But share this process. We
are journeying together. None of us were born wise virgins. And, and none of us have, I don't
think, unless, you know, please unmute and tell me. None of us know people who are really purely,
in particularly wise virgins. Personally, I mean, Mother Teresa, God talks to me a lot to
Jill Cook through Mother Teresa. It's always, it always tightens my belt. And it's good.
Ingrid de Decker, you're next.
Well, it's nice to be here. Oh, what I'm hoping for as well, the Lord tells me
that I should work on control this year. I thought I had already worked on that, but
I guess there's a lot more room to go. I'm in the Akron area of Ohio,
originally from Germany. People always wonder where my accent's from, so I better say it.
I have a ministry, Pedro's favorite word. It's about, I help Christian moms who have kids in
public schools, elementary schools especially. I have two daughters, one is still in college,
so a husband. Really what I want is, I want some of what you have, Hillary. I mean,
you look at things differently. I'm like, sometimes I think that has never even crossed
my mind, like ever, you know, and when you said something this summer, we're in the same,
I'm in her family group, 200x, about my family and said the really tough thing,
and then I implemented it, and now my father, who's 89 years old, he is nice to me for the
first time in my life, even though I did the tough thing, and I had never even considered
that before, so I just really want what you carry. What I need it for is, I want to have
finally a breakthrough in my ministry. I want to reach more people, and for that, I need to hear
God. I need to listen. I need to hear God so that I know exactly which way to go, so I want to learn
more of hearing that, and then standing in faith, watching my words, and so I just,
and I want to reach more people, even though I don't want to be seen, and I don't really want
to be heard, and I don't want to write, so I don't, but I do want to reach people really badly,
so that is a little problem that I have that I need to work through as well, so those are my
things. Well, I love that. I love you, Ingrid, and I love that, and I had forgotten all about
that. I mean, that was so cool, because when you brought that question to the group, and that was
so courageous of you, and then you said, after you brought the question to the group, you were
like, but that's neither here nor there, and I was like, wait a second. That's everything
right there, and I'm so glad you let it out, and that you didn't erase it. You kind of
needed to express it, and then we're like, well, just pretend that's under the rug, but the fact
that you were in possession of the fear of the Lord, to be able to hear wisdom,
and you and your husband walk in that, which you thought was not only not an open door,
wasn't even a consideration. There was no signpost pointing to that way, yet it was the desire of
your heart. That's what we do, right? When we learn how to be the bride of the king,
we can steward his heart, and we can minister that, but just like we've talked about before,
a lighthouse, and this is what we're learning to be, it doesn't pursue the ships.
Its concern is the source of the light, and as it just concerns itself with the source of the light,
it shines. It doesn't concern itself with what time of day it is, if there's a storm,
what ships are out there, who's paying attention, what they're doing, because none of that defines
the lighthouse. The fact that a ship just came to say, thank you for that,
this is how that mattered, that feels so good for the lighthouse, and that's who you are.
The same thing, as Jill Cook was saying earlier, I'm doing this, I'm learning obedience.
I'd love for it
to be more successful, right?
And it just reminds me,
I think I've shared this with some of you,
but here, this was in, this is handy here
because God brings this conversation
to my mind so many times.
This is from 26 March, 2020.
Ooh, that's like when all this stuff
was hitting the fan, right?
And I heard,
♪ All to Jesus I surrender ♪
♪ All to him I freely give ♪
So I just wrote it in my journal,
it says 2,100 hours.
And I said,
what would you like me to freely give to you?
And he said, failure.
Do you know how many times
I still need this conversation like right now?
So I said, please show me.
And he said, who defines you, Hillary?
Now that,
I mean, I had completely defined myself a failure
on so many levels and so many fronts.
And he's asking me who defines me.
He knows exactly the question and that I was wrong.
That was the first one.
And then he said, who defines your situation,
your effectiveness, your capacity, et cetera?
I was just like, with every word, I can still feel it.
I still feel my skin crawling and every hair standing up
and my gut is like, could power boot.
And then he clinches it by asking me,
and who defines how others are doing?
My marriage wasn't good enough.
So if my marriage isn't good enough,
it's not what, it doesn't look like what it ought to be.
That's what I'm conveying.
My family should be serving the Lord.
We shouldn't be so self-centered.
We shouldn't fall short here.
We shouldn't fall short there.
We should look like this.
That's what I'm conveying to my whole family.
And I just,
I'm not gonna lie to you.
And I just saw him carrying this heavy sack called failure.
It's been so heavy all my life.
And so I just got down on my knees
and I handed him this heavy sack and I still do it.
And he said, my view of you is success.
My view of you is glorious.
My view of you is me.
So his, it's just like if any one of the precious clients
that Cary takes care of,
or any one of the children represented here,
any one of those we ministered to,
were to come and go on and on about how they fall short
based on some standard out there
that's measured or talked about,
we would have none of it, right?
We just wouldn't have any of it.
And he can't see you apart from himself.
And so that, well,
that's his word on more success.
And the other thing on that, Ingrid,
the other reason for the lighthouse
is because as long as it's about me
me coming on the screen for you all, I'm hiding.
What do I have?
I don't know, I don't have the answer.
Just what I'm saying.
I don't have, my gosh, I don't have it.
But if it's because we're all in need of the Holy Spirit
of the author of everything,
then we have every bit of hope and healthy expectation
that we're all in need of the Holy Spirit of the author.
that our obedience to come is well-rewarded.
It's well-advised and it's well-rewarded.
And so now part of sweet secrets of success
is to learn God's measurement of things.
The one who looks on the heart, right?
And it's entirely different.
Otherwise, Jesus was, I mean, that was a bust, right?
Crucified and not much changed.
Anyway, I mean, thank God he didn't see it that way.
Thank God he didn't confess it that way.
Thank God he's like, when you sow the kingdom,
even it's the tiniest little seed,
but it grows up to be bigger than the whole jungle.
Anyway, okay.
So I pray that was successful, my friend,
because when it's about Ingrid,
yeah, you're gonna be like, I don't wanna do that.
I don't wanna do that.
But when Jesus Christ is at stake in you,
everything changes.
Yeah, okay.
That's why he said, I must be about my father's business.
I just must be.
All right, Carrie McFadden, Colorado, in the house.
Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo, yo.
Yeah, I live in Denver and I am a functional nutritionist,
which I just launched my business last September.
So I'm a new entrepreneur.
And so what I'm expectant for
and what I desperately need to have happen
is this next chapter in my life to be totally
and completely connected to the Lord.
And to hear his voice and to be guided
in my steps to be totally directed by his.
And I'm not good at being quiet.
I can't sit for literally less than five minutes
and my head is already in a million different directions.
So I need to learn the discipline of being silent
and having that solitude with him.
I'm just not very good at it.
And so that's what I'm really expectant for
in all of this.
I love that, Carrie.
I love that like, you know,
you came into the Enjoying Your Life Challenge
because that was one of the things we learned
was that we're not alone when we're like, you know,
little distracted toddlers
trying to have a life of prayer and devotion.
But if we come together and there's this strength together,
there's this activity together.
And it doesn't mean that we ought not learn that.
I'm not saying that.
All I'm saying is like, oh, this is,
we all need to learn this.
And you know what's so amazing?
Like, if we think somebody famous
is going to be somewhere, you know,
that a famous that interests us,
we'll go, right?
We'll go try to make that connection
because there's a reason that person is famous.
It interests us, it excites us.
And so we'll go, we'll pay for that.
We'll pay attention to that and whatnot.
If we think someone has wisdom,
well, we need that wisdom.
Like I can't see past my present step.
So where am I?
And I need that wisdom.
If we think somebody's rich,
we're like, hey, I need some of that to rub off on me.
Let me go see how this person operates
or if somebody's influential.
Who's more famous?
Who's more generous?
We love to be around generous people.
Who's more wise?
Who's more influential?
Who's more rich?
And so we just don't think of him that way, right?
We don't think of him as that person we so want to know
because there's so much benefit for us there.
Like, if I could just get alone with you,
I will have like, here's the thing I feel like I need.
I'll not only have that.
I'll have so much more, right?
Don't seek the thing you need,
but the kingdom and his righteousness,
not only will he give you the thing you're seeking,
the kingdom and his righteousness,
but all those other things that you forsook seeking
in favor of him.
So I love that, Carrie.
I think that's exactly why all of us are here.
These scriptures that haunt me,
well done, thou good and faithful servant, right?
Like, okay, five wise virgins, five foolish virgins,
like, you know, just these, these haunt,
and preeminent among all of them
is this Sermon on the Mount, right?
Most famous, least understood, least adhered to,
and yet so rich.
And Jesus wants, he's like,
I think that's what brought us all here, right?
Like, yes, sweet, yes, I need something sweet.
And I, you know, speaking of which I've been looking up,
like, I keep hearing the words, Daniel Fass,
and I'm like, you know, when you're like, la, la, la, la,
it's like, because you think like,
those words are coming very close.
So I think that I'm going to be in a place like that
through this process, and I feel that strongly.
So some consecration, okay.
Thank you, Carrie.
Karen Jensen, Canada with green grass and a scarf.
Yes.
Well, it's a little bit better, right, Jill?
It's not 40 below anymore.
Thank God she was actually down under
in summertime for all that.
She's just gotten home.
Yes.
Anyway.
Well, I'm here because of course I'm seeking the Lord
in a deeper, more intimate way.
And it seems like lately what he's been saying to me
is just sit here quietly for 10 minutes.
He's start me out slow, 10 minutes,
and let's just adore, adore.
So an adoration, not talking, not asking questions,
just sitting and adoring him,
and him looking adoringly at me,
which I've never done ever.
And then I can see there's going to be heart healing
because the other day he was saying to me,
I am in control, but you get to choose,
meaning you're still in control
in the sense that you can choose to be wise or foolish.
I leave that to you, which helped me quite a bit
because I've always struggled with control
and being controlling, but also being controlled.
And so I think that he's going to reach deep into me
around those things.
To heal that and not be,
so not to block my relationship with him
because you know, with the word obey, obey, obey,
which I believe calls on obedience,
but at the same time,
there's that little rebellious child in me
that's going, maybe.
And so I don't want to live that way,
but there's a part of me that does live that way.
And so now I feel like I've been set free
because I can still choose if I'm going to be foolish
or just trust that the Lord knows best,
which, so as long as I feel like I have a choice,
I feel good, right?
That takes away that little rebellious fight in me.
So I'm really happy about that.
And I really desire like all of you
that close intimate relationship with him.
And so every day he's saying something different to me
or taking me somewhere different.
I get super distracted,
but I came across this book called
A Hundred Days in the Secret Place.
And one of the things, the readings was,
keep meeting with me.
Don't worry if you're distracted, just keep coming.
Don't worry about it.
Distraction will happen.
And so then that made me feel really well
because some days I have the concentration of a gnat
and a bazillion things are going through my mind.
I'm thinking, oh, that was just a waste of time.
I'm sorry, but actually it's never a waste of time.
And so I think that this will be really good for me.
I think God's gonna do heart healing.
I think he's answering my prayer to come closer.
I think that the heart healing in myself
around that close relationship so I can listen and follow
is really important.
I really laughed at Ingrid because I was thinking the other day, and that's where Hilary can
come in and do heart healing with me, is I want to reach people, but I don't want to
be seen or heard.
So that made me laugh out loud because I thought, yeah, I think that's part of my issue, too.
So I look forward to getting to know all of you and being part of the group, and I mean,
it's a journey.
It's a journey.
What can I say?
I'm a mess.
It's a journey.
It's cleaning up the mess a little bit at a time.
I love you, Karen Jensen.
I love you.
You're so playful, and you have such a massive call on your life.
So if you're not going to be heard, who will?
But he has promised to hide you in that, which is part of where actually you want to
be.
And I love that you talked about control and being controlled because I think they go hand
and in hand.
I think that the author of Liberty, he never crosses that line.
We actually have to come to him.
We actually have to cross the line.
He stands and knocks, but it's in our hands.
So when we're trying to control a situation, and he likewise has told me all of those backup
plans that you have, all the places you say, well, all right, I'm believing for this.
But if that doesn't work, at least what I could do is, at least what I could say, he's
like, those are all places you don't trust me.
And so I really haven't yielded them to him because I'm not standing on the word.
I'm standing in the boat because that way I'm in the boat.
So yeah, that way I'm not driving the boat, which means someone else is really driving
me from storm to storm.
Unbelievable.
So yes, thank you for sharing that.
I am so, so happy to have you here, my friend.
Okay.
Devon from Houston.
There she is.
Are you in the car?
I am.
Yes.
Hello.
Can y'all hear me?
Yes, we can.
Can y'all hear me?
Yes, we can.
My gorgeous friend.
Oh, no, you're cutting out for the first time.
We can hear you.
Am I good to share?
Yeah.
Okay.
Okay, good.
Well, hi, everybody.
I'm so, so, so excited to be here.
So excited to meet everyone.
I may be the only one who's done this before, but, oh, yes.
Like, there's just, what do I say?
I'm Devon from Houston, Texas.
I've got my two little lovebugs.
You can't even see us, but sweet family, homeschooling mama, and I'm also a nutritionist.
So carry it, Dakota, to chat.
And, anyway, I am just so in awe of God.
Like, I don't even, I don't know how to explain my anticipation other than, like, tears just
peeling back, like, all the things that I thought I needed in life.
It's like, like, he is the one thing that I want my life to be about, and I think that's
why we're all here, and it's, like, I just can't wait to be Mary's together, and Esther's,
and, like, I just can't get enough of Jesus.
I don't know what to say.
Amen.
Sorry, I feel like the movie is really loud beside me, but hopefully you can hear me.
It is, and we can.
And I'm so happy that you jumped on.
Sorry, okay.
No, it's okay.
It's okay.
And, yeah, maybe, maybe, actually, you could do a piece, if anyone else is interested in,
you know, letting God,
walk us into a fast during this time, which we haven't really
done as a group during one of these sweet secrets before. But
if that's something that you are also interested in, then, I
mean, Devin, she's a fasting machine. I just have been in
total awe of of what how she's able like, you know, I'll never
forget when God was when you were like, Oh, but chocolate and
the Lord was like, I'll be your chocolate chip. And it's just
like, that's what he said to her. And she's like, Okay,
Jesus, and it's just so beautiful. And then she's just
walks through this fast. So I, I am ready for something like
that. I'm ready to come to the end of myself in that area.
Before I was married, I fasted on a very, I fasted weekly, and
then I would fast at seasons. And the whole beginning of the
year, I fasted for at least three weeks. And, and then I
don't know what to say, like, it's been a lot. I haven't, you
know, been able to make it happen. So I'm feeling like
there's an anointing here for that. So if anyone else is
interested, Devin, maybe we could have you like, yeah. Show
us and then be our cheerleader. Okay, Jenny Pitts, it's so funny
you were up here and then I'm thinking you must have put
yourself last. Because Jenny y'all, like she came in here
because we jumped on the phone right before here and and
Jenny's one of the people that I've, I've seen, like among us.
And and so when she said, Hey, hey, do you have time? Let's
chat. I was like, Lord, is this? Is this because you're having
Jenny come into the to the deep dive? And so anyway, I said,
Alright, let's pray and find out, you know, what's on your
heart. And she said, Well, I don't really even know why I
called you. I was like, the Lord was saying call Hillary and, and
I thought, yeah, that seems right. So I was like, I think I
know why the Lord told you so. So Jenny really hasn't known
much. And and what's cool is so Ingrid and Jill are in one of my
family rooms, and Jenny and Jill are in another family room. And
everyone here has been a client and just about and and so um, so
it's so awesome to have like, some of my incredibly most
favorite people right here. And so Jenny, like, you can ask any
questions, definitely introduce yourself. You're such a special
gal, such a little mighty Joan of Arc.
Oh, thank you. Yeah, well, I've it's ironic. I've been teaching
the Bible since I became a believer, basically. I mean, I
was like, a leader from the get go. And the Lord is like,
unpeeling things. And like, I was really upset with a friend.
And he said to me, will you lay down your life? I've been a
Christian for like 20 years. And he's like, will you lay down
your life now? And so I've been on a journey of like laying down
my life. So I find it really interesting, Hillary, when you
speak, because you're constantly talking about that.
It's like your, your message is like being co crucified with
him. And your journey is like what I need. Really? I mean, I
it's like, until that happens, we're selfish. For all the
right world reasons. Like I wanted to like, build my
business and help the poor and do Christian things. And the
Lord is telling me and then I get mad at a friend and he's
like, lay down your life. And I realized like, those were all me
centered. Oh, my gosh. Oh, and he's been calling me into
ministry my whole life, too. And I'm like, No, no, no, I know how
hard that is now. And now I'm like, okay, I'll do it. You
know, basically, that's where I'm at.
okay, I'll do it. But I'm scared to death. It's like, so
gratifying. Getting out of your closet, Karen and Ingrid, y'all
are like the most precious women. When y'all both talked,
I was like, Oh my gosh, they're so precious to me. You guys
should be on a platform. But it's more comfortable to be in
the shadows. And I've been getting out of my shadows. I
mean, I've always been like a small group leader, but that's
not like there's no risk in that, right? So now I'm like
going live on Facebook, and I have a very heterogeneous group
of people in my friend group, which are my neighbors that are
all super liberal, my Christian friends, my high school
friends. I mean, it's crazy. And I'm talking about Jesus
every day right now. But it's like, shaping me. But it
doesn't, I guess I woke up. So like, I did that all last week.
That was my first week doing it. And then on Saturday, I woke up
and I was like, Where am I going? Oh my gosh, I don't know
where I'm going. I mean, I'm glad I'm getting free on
Facebook. And Hillary, you came into my mind like over and
over. And I was like, I need to get in touch with Hillary. So
that's all. I have a seven year old and a nine year old. I
owned my own business for a year, the Lord almost audibly
told me I hate this project. I stopped working for two years. I
joined 100X in the middle of that. And I just kept not
having grace to do anything. And now I'm done. I'm done with
being unproductive. I want to start really producing for the
king and the kingdom. And I'm just like this really driven
person. So I'd love to learn how to sit at the feet.
So glad you're here, Jenny. I just love you. I love that
you're someone who chomps at the bit. And like, I think I
might have shown you I know, Jill, and I know a few people
have seen this, but this is what God was showing me the other day
was like, so there's the tree of life. There's life and he and
the tree of life is God God. And in there is wisdom and
understanding and there's light and truth. And the roots are
love, that our faith that works by love, that access is grace,
that puts us in total shalom. It's the foundation for every
good relationship, every good and pleasant thing. It's free,
it's generous. That's life in God. And this is the tree of the
knowledge of good and evil. It is utterly chaotic. It's a
constant argument of what's good, what's evil, what's a
blessing, what's calamity, what's to be hated, what's to be
loved, what's to be let go of what's to be adhered to what's
up, what's down, what's you know, it's death. And it's, it's
all twisted root systems of pride, and fear and failure and
control. And, and it's the foundation for everything
contentious, everything divisive, and it's entirely
self. And in that self is lack, and judgment and fear, regret,
being bound, hiding, right. But see, prodigal's life was was all
this, it was probably all the condemnation from his brother,
it was all the lies about his father, it was, you know,
everything. So he just went off, well, I'm, I'm just, I'm just
gonna live in that, in that, you know, chaotic spin, I'm gonna
find, I'm gonna find what's good and right for me. And until he
came to the place in the midst of that pig pen, where, you
know, of all the people he could blame, because he clearly blamed
his father, he so much has said, there were, you know, it's
better if you're dead. So just give me like, give me what you
would give me if you were dead. And then I can go have my life
and come out from under the likes of you, because I can't
stand it here anymore. I've got better plans for my life. And so
So then, all blinded in all that, you know, bitterness and woundedness,
and he's just tossed around, and even sitting there saying,
okay, I feed pigs, but nobody feeds me.
And then the Bible says, then he came to himself.
And when he finally came to himself,
then he could realize it was just himself,
and there was nobody left to blame.
And once there was nobody left to blame, he could come to the end of himself,
and he could see clearly his father.
His father was good.
When people lived in and among his father, like even if they were slaves,
they had a good life.
That's so much wiser to be near the goodness of my father,
even if I can't be a son anymore,
because this is me.
And so when he realized he had been prodigal and could come to the end of himself,
then he could begin his journey home to the father,
which is free and generous.
I love that song.
Grace is the collision on the way back home to the arms of the father
who won't let go.
But it's free.
Like Karen said, I actually have the choice.
Here, I don't have a choice.
I'm totally controlled.
The Lord has told me, Hillary, if the enemy can keep you in that spin,
he can keep you deceived.
Be still and know.
I am God.
So, you know, just.
Coming to the place where.
You know, it's another one of those.
Verses did.
Did God really say when you wait on the Lord,
Then you mount up as on wings of Eagle use you run and not grow weary.
You walk and not faint because like God knows.
Get some stuff done.
I mean, this is still years ago. I said to him,
how am I going to get all this done?
And he said, sleep.
I just had to have that conversation with him again the other day.
Like, I'm so sorry. I'm still thinking.
That.
If I'm up all night.
I can get more stuff done and.
I am not increasing in productivity.
It's not, it's not happening.
My way is not his way.
So, you know, it's all those scriptures, you know, God.
He said, sleep.
Sleep to his beloved.
And it's sweet.
God makes rich.
And he adds no.
Sorrow.
To it.
His ways.
Are so much better. And so.
It's just high time.
It's high time.
To no longer.
I don't know.
I'm on my own understanding.
I know I've been saying this for a long time, but I am like,
I'm getting there layer by layer. So I love how.
Jenny Pitt says, you know, you're doing it, Hillary. I'm like,
in Jesus name.
I'm doing.
Like, that's just the goodness of God.
I'm like, I'm such a mess.
I just, I saw myself as pig pen from the peanuts.
You know, like there's just this dust cloud everywhere he goes.
And I said, I'm just such a mess.
And he said, you're in me.
I'm bigger than your mess.
And I saw that I was like little pig pen inside him.
And there was Jesus. And so even when I'm at work.
I'm like,
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know.
Really he's at work in me.
He, he causes other people to see something.
That's him.
That's.
Yeah.
That's the goodness of God. That's.
That's where I can say I'm a witness.
It's not me.
I don't find myself there.
I'm just desperate.
Don't find myself there.
But, you know,
crowns they've ever gotten, they easily lay at his feet. And so
it just helps me understand more and more like all the good things that
happen. I understand why, when they see him.
the crowns of all the people that you shall touch, Joe, even
in your process, because you're not the only one that's walking
through this process, so unique. And you have so many different
components to your process. And people will need that.
And Jill Wolf, and Ingrid, and Carrie, and Karen, Devon, and
Jenny, and to be able to see through the eyes of the Father,
how he sees you is going to change everything about how you
see him and how you see others. And you will find such a level
of freedom that I mean, that's actually what, you know, Devon's
been walking with me for a little while. And that was what
the Lord said, I want to set my daughters free that I may cause
them to blossom. And so anyway, here we are now. Oh, gosh, I
wanted this to be an hour in here. I'm seeing the time. So
does this is does this time work? I mean, I know it does for
you guys, as we get farther west. Does this work for you,
Ingrid? You and I? Oh, wait, Jenny, if you're coming in like
it? Yes. That's good. Look at that. Pretty good. Okay, praise
the Lord. Okay, are we going when we meet? How long is it
going to last normally? So in Jesus name, we're going to like,
seek one hour. And just pray for me.
Legit pray for me because I get very excited with the word. Like
I get so excited with him. So he said you tell them if they'll
sit at my feet one hour a day seeking the one thing that's
needful. I'll give it to them in a way no one can take it from
them. And I'll go in and change their root systems. So he said
one hour, which means it's possible.
So I like on Mondays, I can't make it because I coach coach
volleyball and it starts at eight. It's different. It's
either eight or nine or 10. It's a huge leak. And so but other
than that, I think I'll be fine. Yeah. Okay, so well, that's
helpful. That's helpful. Because we could, I was thinking we
would do like Sunday through Thursday. But we could either we
could skip Monday or Mondays are always a very big day for me.
You know, when you have it in your head, like this is how it
should work. It should be consecutive. Okay, so so I have
work meeting on Monday evenings. Okay, so there it is, then. We
don't meet on Mondays. Okay. So Sunday night. Tuesday night.
Yeah. Tuesday night. Okay. Joe Wolf. Are you good? Tuesday, it
would be nine for East Coast, therefore 6pm for West Coast. I
potentially could have something Tuesdays and or Wednesdays. Oh,
at your 7pm. Okay, so we could this week, I have my challenge
five to six, so I might be a little late. Okay. Okay. So,
alright, so let's say and when you find out, Carrie, I just
believe like God, I just prayed I said, God, show us the place
in our calendar that's that's that you've cleared up. So if
something happens, then I believe he's a he knows about it.
And we can, like either shift or, you know, or he'll change
it. Are you starting this week? So does that work for everybody
to start this week? So I have two nights that I won't be here
on this that this tell me tell me about that. Is it all? Is it
the Tuesday?
When say no in. Yeah, no, it's Tuesday and Friday this week.
And then next week, there's not a single evening that I'm booked at all. It's just, yeah, so it's not regular.
Just this week.
Okay.
All right. Are you, if we did.
What if we did
Sunday,
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday,
Sunday, or, I mean I don't know what what Saturdays are like we could but what if we did Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and it's going to draw it out a little longer but what if we did that.
What if we did one weekend night and three week day night so then carry you'd only miss one.
This week, and you could listen to the replay.
Does that work for everyone.
At this point.
Okay.
Why don't everybody on mute, and just let's make sure. So let me understand we're going to meet at this time that on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday this week.
So what you're saying. So it would be Sundays, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and I know things are going to come up.
Yeah, like I have family.
So, you guys have stuff going on.
So, you know, we're not.
I mean we used to meet as we met 30 straight days, every single morning.
And we did it.
And God was faithful.
And then we had a pastor was part of our group, and so we met every day but Sunday.
And then now we're just going to take a little longer so we're just adapting to the fact that things aren't what they used to be.
But, but we found a time for now, Carrie Are you okay with this.
So, in general for right now Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Sunday at your 7pm. Is that okay. Yeah. And how long does it go through.
So we are looking for, it's always been 30 days. Okay, so because it was, I did it for a month. But now we're like, we're gonna be like eight weeks.
But it's gonna be amazing.
Okay, so we will meet Tuesday night at 9pm Eastern, and 6pm Pacific and everything in between.
And I am so excited. And I think like even just this week, just, I mean he might bring us right in but I've been like in so much of what came before.
I get more and more interested each time like what was before that sermon on the mouth.
I need to know him. But anyway. All right. How's everybody, who's any questions.
Joe cook Where are you from in Saskatchewan, oh we're just out of Saskatoon. Where are you from. I'm Regina. Okay.
How far are you.
Oh, two and a half hours. Hey, yeah.
Where in Saskatoon are you on. We are West Pike Lake. Oh okay I know exactly where you are. I live in Saskatoon for 20 years. Okay. Yeah. Oh, that's so neat.
Wow. The neighbors here in Canada, is that crazy guys.
Otherwise we're all like coast to coast.
Okay, excited about this I'm really looking forward to it.
You still have to send me the link, because I haven't I'm not officially in yet.
I would do that and how to do the payment and all of that, but, yeah.
So I just let you in thinking you had the link and. Okay, so I don't know I didn't, was it out there I'm sorry I didn't say no no it's quite I brought it up. Yeah.
Okay, awesome. I will send that to you.
I just am so blessed. Oh, oh, everybody, we have to take a.
We have to take a before shot.
Okay. All right. Ready. Oh good. Come into the light Devin.
Okay, oh good idea.
Oh no wait I don't know.
Okay, we have our we have our before shot. So exciting. And
there is still time if God put somebody on your heart that you
really feel like, um, you know, should be here, you feel like
they're hungry, and God's calling, but I am just like, so
honored to be embarking on this journey with each one of you. I
just think you're some of the most stellar, amazing, powerful,
beautiful people and friends and sisters in my life. And so we'll
all be in the chat. So we'll do life together. And there too, we
have the Facebook group. And eventually, I also have a a
group, I mean, a web site where all of these will be you'll be
able to access these all the time. So but for now, it'll just
be in the Facebook group. And I just love you all. Does anyone
have a prayer on your hearts of benediction here for us?
You know, I'll pray, but I would love it.
Yeah, what is the word benediction? What does that
mean? It's a blessing.
Oh, just means blessing.
I think so. Hang on one second.
Order, you know, that benediction. That's only you
can do that, you know.
Oh, funny. It's a blessing. It says a blessing. Number one
definition. Number two, an invocation, a divine blessing,
usually at the end of a church service. A short service
consisting of prayers, the singing of the Eucharistic hymn
and the blessing of the congregation with the host.
The Lord bless you and keep you. The Lord make his face shine upon
you and be gracious to you. The Lord turn his face towards you
and give you peace. There goes your benediction.
Amen. In Jesus name. And, you know, have these handy during
our, our time, because there will be times that I think
things will be like sealed in, in this covenant meal, where
we're bringing him to our remembrance together. But this
is holy ground. And thank you so much all for showing up
tonight. I love you, Jenny. God so good.
Where is that woman?
Love it. I love this. Okay, I'll see you soon. And just you guys
I'm I am you have access to me. Okay. And we have access to each
other. So we're all here to grow together. And just whatever
questions, whatever struggles, whatever, we're journeying
together. And we know, as, as sometimes we're heading into
something a new season crossing a threshold, a different level,
we've never been to there. There appears to be more pressure. But
you must know the devil's a liar. And so, so be open, be
reaching each other be let's be vulnerable, I will need you all
just as much. And to to just know that the enemy cannot
afford for you to gain confidence in this area. This is
going to change everything. And he told me, Psalm 23 for 2023.
And, you know, as I shared with some of you guys, I was like,
Oh, that must be me. That's like, so cliche, right? And then
he said, Good Shepherd. And I heard my sheep hear my voice in
the voice of another that will not follow. And I realized that
Psalm is the Psalm of a seriously mature Christian. So
like he's, he's actually saying it's time to move into this
place, where you trust that I know, where all those pastures
behind Karen's head, where they all are.
Behind that
wash pastures, there's plenty for all those still waters of
rest where you need restoration. I am he the path of righteousness
in this situation, for my name's sake, like moving away from it
being about us, the typical hindrances and whatnot, that you
will walk that we will
a walk through the valley of the shadow of death, but fear no
evil, the feast is already prepared before us, even in the
presence of our enemies that our cup does overflow, that we are
anointed for what we're doing, that there's goodness and mercy
he causes to follow us everywhere. So it's also the
aroma we leave when we've been in a situation and or somebody's
company, that we understand we dwell in his presence forever.
And so this is where so, so imagine he's helping us start
this year in this place, where we're going to live following
the Good Shepherd. My son said the other day, Mama, I needed
him to, to agree on something. He's a member of my board of
directors for this ministry. And he said, Mom, I need a
roadmap, I need a clear roadmap. And I said, son, the Lord
doesn't give us a roadmap. He says, follow me. And so in this
instance, you're learning how to be in your position. That's
what we're learning to be positioned at his feet. Okay. I
love you all. Thank you so much. That was awesome. Yes, link.
Yes, yes, ma'am. Send you the link. Okay. Love you. Nice
meeting you. See you Tuesday.