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or the little teeny member.
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I don't have a carrot. I'm on an iPad.
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Where do you find settings.
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If you press your zoom app, and it'll bring up.
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If you press down here on the video, you can go to, you know, choose video settings or virtual background or something like that.
Hi Jill Hi Ingrid.
Aaron was trying to.
Well I got backgrounds and effects, there it is. There you are.
She was trying to come out of the lawn.
That's a beautiful background.
Oh, okay sorry guys. All right, cancel.
I gotta get rid of this.
I have a green screen.
Hmm. All right, let me find my, my slide presentation, guys.
I have never like done a slide presentation for these things.
I like it because, I mean, I always like, you know, spend time with the Lord and he'll kind of highlight where I'm going, and I'm, it's kind of unfolding.
For me with you, you know, I mean a lot of times he'll start bringing it to life as you saw like in the Daniel passage where we were, and.
And so, but this.
Because there are so many places I could go, as you know, like, you know, the scriptures that we're on, you know this verse we're on. For example, well we'll just go there.
And you know what, let's. All right, I have to press slideshow.
Okay.
And then
I can't get out of my screen now that I'm changing my background.
What do you mean you can't get out of your screen, I'm stuck in my settings and the background.
Oh, so I can't you guys.
So, how do you.
Okay, I got out, I got out.
Oh, but I got out.
Yeah, we were, we were admiring carries.
of lights to tell you might be stunned to learn it is two
dimensional. It's just beautiful. It sounds like an
amazing beyond. I like it. Um, so okay, you know what we'll do?
We'll go to this next. We'll just sort of sit here for a
moment. Reflecting on Hey, Devin. Reflecting on starting to
imagine ourselves tonight. At the feet of Jesus. I was just
going to go see if my mom.
Your mom is so sweet, Hillary.
Yes.
She's sweet. Thank you all. How's your dad doing? My dad.
My dad is the perfect target for healing. He's either so super
sweet. I mean, he doesn't remember anything. He remembers
us. So he knows all of us. But he's either super sweet and kind
as he's always been thankful, always telling us how much he
loves us. Or if it comes to something, you know, personal,
like we have to take care of, you know, his help him
personally. I'm sure it's just the inside like that just
shouldn't be. And so he just it becomes it can get vulgar,
violent, you know, stuff like that. So um, so it kind of, you
know, one thing, one thing it did for me was helped me
realize, like, if you don't deal with that undercurrent of
negative thoughts, you know, you know, that thing that's just
buzzing in the background, or like poking at you, if you
don't deal with it. And if there is a time or situation, God
forbid it, in Jesus name, that all those nice, appropriate
boundary lines are not in place. That's still there. So purifying
purging, heart healing, like, you know, I just highly
recommend it's, it's been, you know, big for me to be like,
okay, I can't be messing around with that. You know, it's just
not something you swat away. But to go before the Lord bring
every thought captive. And so I was just gonna see if my mama
had written anything. And so just say,
yeah, it's like they say, kids and older people can't hold
back. And I guess if it's not dealt with, then you don't have
the strength to hold it back anymore. But you shouldn't have
to hold it back if it's dealt with.
Exactly, exactly. Exactly. And that's exactly it's, it's really
where it's, you're dealing with a toddler, you're dealing with a
toddler who has a tremendous amount of strength, you know, a
lifetime of subconscious, you know, fortitude. And so anyway,
you know, God has an awesome plan for everything. He works
everything together for good. So I'm just believing that, you
know, this is my parents greatest opportunity there. You
know, everybody's still here. Thank you, Jesus. And so there's
something God is, you know, he just knows how to work
everything together for good. And that's one thing that I'm
seeing, like more and more, in these verses, more and more, in
his presence, more and more that there's, there's just no guile
in him in any place in us, that, you know, wants to be devoted to
him yet is still in this space, somewhere else inside of us,
it's like, but if I don't do this, right, then I could miss
it? Or where was he when this happened? Or what about my
dashed dreams? Or you know what I'm saying? There's like, more
and more, it's just so safe to bring all of those things to
him. And, and as that came to life in me that, you know, Psalm
22, my God, my God, how have you forsaken me? I cry out in the
night, call out in my anguish, and yet, you do not hear. And
that's like Jesus, Jesus went into every place that we go
every place that befalls us every place we could suffer
every physical, mental, emotional, relational,
financial, just in any way he went there and, and bore the
anguish, the grief, the sorrows, the torment, the guilt, the
challenges, and just so he could say it is finished. It is
finished. You are no longer under this oppressive, dark
dominion. You are no longer subjects of the law of sin and
death. I have swallowed it up. I have taken away the keys. Come,
come enter in. And so here's this this lamb here sitting here
in this picture, who is God's offering. God's offering for us
his bread and wine to eat. Like, like, Melchizedek, you know,
just offered to Abraham the bread and the wine and said,
blessed is Abram, you know, of the Most High God, and he was
the priest of the Most High God. And so then Abram gave him a
tithe. And so I think it's helpful if we just kind of enter
in for just a couple minutes in the Spirit, in tongues, praying,
singing, just welcoming him, just however in the Spirit, you
pray, however you connect with him. And you don't need to mute
yourself. We can be on the outside of cacophony and yet, a
worship. So Lord, we welcome you and we thank you, Holy Spirit
for guiding us in the Spirit.
Thank you.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Holy Spirit.
Come to the feet of our Savior.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Thank you, Abba, that this means just as much to you, and even more than we could imagine.
Thank you for all of your prayers and all that you have planned.
We welcome you to enlarge our hearts, the capacity of our hearts, to give us a spirit of understanding and wisdom, that we may hear the voice of the Good Shepherd.
And the words that we read, that we may know you, the one true God in Jesus Christ, whom you've sent.
That we may know the power.
The power of you in us.
The same power that raised Jesus Christ from the dead, and caused him to be perfectly seated at the right hand of God.
Placing the blood on the mercy seat.
We come, not by any merit of our own, not because we're better than anybody else, not in any goodness of our own.
But we come, we come because you have entirely made the way.
And so Lord, we ask you to sanctify this space also, as holy ground.
Baptize us in the Holy Spirit and in fire, in fire.
Help us to get so much nearer than we've ever gone before.
Deeper, farther.
Take any veil away from our eyes, our hearts, our ears, so that we can clearly observe you, connect, hear, see, dance, do whatever you want.
We are here to hear from you, in Jesus' name.
Amen.
Thank you, thank you.
Okay, so.
That was right.
Okay.
So we have.
We have Matthew five, four.
We know we've gone deeper into Blastar the poor in spirit night. I just love that bow that the Lord used Ingrid to tie up upon us and for us last night.
I just really loves the poor. It actually took me into a study today about how God loves the poor, and loves those who minister to the poor, what, what that means to him, and that here, whenever we're whenever we have a sense of our poverty instead of trying
to defend ourselves justify ourselves, you know, concentrate satisfy in any way bolster ourselves and instead, in all humility, we'll just come to the one who is always exalted, always full of all the wisdom and value and righteousness and perfection.
He loves that because he gets to come with all that he is.
us there. That's all place given to him and now he can come with
all he is. Whatever insufficiency we're willing to
bring him, he's like, I got you there. It's just like if a
student enters a classroom and knows everything, the teacher
has nothing. If somebody walks into a doctor's office and they
have multiple medical degrees and they're fit and if they're
just here to give, there is nothing that the doctor can do
for them. All the doctor's strength and ability means
nothing. All the teacher's know-how and desire to impart is
nothing. Just like a parent that wants to train up children,
that wants to love and nourish and if there's old offensiveness
and know-how, personal know-how, there's nothing that parent can
give. All my capacity can only be given to my children to the
degree that they actually perceive I can give them
something they don't already have. It's easier to change
direction, posture, mind, heart when there is no money
attached. I know it all leaves no room for wisdom to correct
and build. Do you want to explain that, Jill?
Sorry. The first one, right now in business, I'm finding it's a
lot easier to change direction when you don't already have a
huge amount of money into something. For example, if I've
got a hundred clients, it's harder to change direction than
if I don't. So God can move me and shape it before there's a
lot of investment. I don't know. I don't know if I'm
explaining that.
No. I love that you brought that up because that reveals an
idol. It reveals a stronghold for us. It reveals an
entitlement for us. If we are so free that we do all that we do
as unto the Lord, that everything we give, everything we
have, everything we've been given, everything is just all
for his glory, then if we are headed in a direction and he
says, stop, go over here. He might just say, sit, be still.
Or he might just say, hey, come. Or he might say, like he said
to us in Massachusetts, walk away from everything into my
plan and destiny. Purge, purify, and prepare to be equipped.
Climb into my hands unattached, unencumbered, unhindered, and
unlimited, and then I'll tell you where to go because I
already know.
Can I add to that? I think of those who already have a success
in business, let's just take that one, or finance or
whatever, but maybe not with kingdom principles and kingdom
practice. And then God enters in. They somehow meet him and
have this. Now they have to change direction to be more
honorable for him. That's harder to do when all this business is
already heading in this direction. So I guess I'm saying
that I'm actually thrilled my business isn't really doing
much right now so that all the change that's going on in me can
head me in the right direction from the beginning, like the
right foundation, the right principles. I don't know if
that makes sense. An idol is anything you have to ask
permission to in order to obey God. This is so, so awesome.
Everyone that comes to the Lord has to walk through that
process because we're totally built up on idolatry.
Everything we're built up on is whatever the culture, whatever
is acceptable in our attitudes, whatever financial, whatever
possessions, whatever relationships we have. We're
entangled completely. You know what I'm saying? I was 30 when
I came to the Lord. That was a process.
First of all, I just, I just, I thought my sister was ridiculous, but then when he revealed himself
to me and all these things, you know, began to be taken away until I could see clearly enough
and come to my knees right next to my bed and say, you are Lord. I don't even know what that
meant, but it came out of my mouth and I was in the presence of a tenderness I'd never known.
And, and then, yeah, you still have your, yourself, your affections, like your reputation.
I was taught that's the one thing people can't take from you. Well, that's, that's something
God wants. What do other people think of me? Right. And, um, and all the performance and
the possessions and the, you know, it's, it's, I'm still, I still have construction tape all
over me, but you know, that's been just, that's a huge part. That's what Jesus says. Like it's
impossible for a rich man to go through the eye of a needle. And you know, the, I have a needle,
the eye of the needle is also was a gate, a very small gate into Jerusalem and a, um,
a camel, you could barely get your animal through that gate. But if the animal had
possessions on it, you know, like people that traveled with stuff, that animal could not,
could not get through that gate. You couldn't get through with all your stuff.
So, um, that is one of the, you know, applications to that scripture. And why is that not because
God doesn't welcome the rich and the poor because they all stand before him. He made them all right.
It's because it's to walk away. Right. Yeah. Yeah. It's difficult for them to, to make that
exchange. You know what I mean? I didn't, I didn't come to the Lord for a lot of years. Cause I'm
like, I really don't want to live like a librarian. Then you get saved and you're like,
this is the best thing ever. These are the best people. This is the best. Like,
it's just nothing like this. You're with people from all over the world all the time with all
sorts of rich things to give. And you're, you're, you know, you don't have to be at a, at a party
or you don't have to be performing or you don't have, it was just like, man, I just couldn't
believe the life and the quality of life and relationships. So, okay. So, um, so that's
interesting that you brought that up because you actually have to go through a morning.
You have to die to those things, right? You have to go through a morning for everything you did
live for everything you did give your soul for give your gifts for perform for give your body
for give your mind for, you know, a claim pay, whatever. And so that until that becomes something
that like, oh my goodness, that, you know, that doesn't compare it to God until that's not better
than God. You, you can't walk away because you still need that thing. But when you realize,
oh my goodness, what I've been trusting in what I've been giving everything you gave me for what
I've been worshiping. He told me the thing you fear is the thing or person or whatever to whom
you ascribe power over your life. So you either fear the thing that haunts you, that threatens
you, or you fear the God who delivers you. The thing you fear, you will worship. You'll wrap
your calendar around it, your money around it, your thoughts around it, your devotion. It's
first thing you think of. It's the, you know, whatever it is, people who love their boats, who
love, you know, their, their sports, or who worship a person who fear losing a person, who fear
losing a job, who
fear, you know, whatever, they'll sacrifice everything
else. When push comes to shove, there's shove, there's only room
for one, you can only serve one master. You know, there's only
room for one at that ultimate place. So anyway, I love that
you recognize that Jill, because that's so fitting for where we
are today. So um, all right, who wants to start on the right?
Like Hebrew from right to left. So who wants to start on the
right? And just read the beige screen.
Blessed and immovable happy with a happiness produced by the
experience of God's favor, and especially conditioned by the
revelation of his matchless grace, are those who mourn, for
they shall be comforted.
Blessed, enviably happy, with a happiness produced, not by the
thing, not by the achievement, not by the attention, not by the
notoriety, but by the experience of God's favor, able to come to
him. And especially conditioned by the revelation of his
matchless grace, are those who mourn, for they shall be
comforted. This is a profound blessing. Like I'm only just now
I think beginning to understand this one after a long time in
these scriptures. Okay, so we have
can I share something I heard this week? Yes, ma'am. Like
you're saying more like, oh, I've lost it. I don't know. I
was gonna reference there it is. Okay. The verse. Um, I it
was it was a just an encouragement to embrace
mourning and not despise it and not. What's the word not try to
avoid it because he he shared he kind of put it in this context
of you know, the exchange in Isaiah, he gives joy for
mourning. So if you want to experience joy, you've got to
have that morning. It's part of the dance with the Lord. I was
like, Wow, I've never Wow, like I've never thought to embrace
it as part of my dance with the Lord. It's like, yeah, it's
uncomfortable. So it was is he was just saying like, if you if
you want the joy, the first step of the dance is mourning. And
here in obviously here for this verse, if you want the comfort,
yeah.
Mourn. Yeah, we don't if we don't need comfort. We're not
looking for it. No. You know, and so what's what's cool about
what you're saying is like, it's important to understand the
type of mourning. Like when I, I got married with a pile of
dreams. I was like, okay, here's what I think married life should
look like. Here are the things I you know, in every category, I
completely had written, I had the vision written down. Here's
what it looks like in finances and relationship with children.
And you know, you name it serving the Lord like
everything. And, and yes, yes, yes, exactly. So then, you know,
let me see if we've got some kind of so if this was my if
this was my nice, this was my beautiful presentation of
everything we could agree upon beforehand. That was it
afterwards. So I'm not saying this to throw anybody under the
bus. It was that that was my level of mourning at the time. I
was mourning all like, what have I done, right? I was mourning
the life I had, I was mourning the the just like the
relationships I had, I was mourning just all sorts of, you
know, so called freedoms and and whatever. And, and that kind of
mourning led me to resentment led me to you know, that was
an entitlement, right? It was like, like we talked about last
night, how could you do this to my life, right? So, so, um, and
that that's true, like all all humans, we go through this where
it's like, oh, you're gonna, you're gonna take that from me,
you know, and then, but that's the mourning isn't for the thing
being asked to sacrifice or the thing that's been sacrificed
willingly or unwillingly, knowingly or unknowingly. It's
for what it cost. What did it cost me to, to mourn all of
that? Or what did it cost me to live, you know, in a way that
wasn't godly? Or what did it cost me? You know what I'm
saying? So if we're mourning a thing, if we're mourning a
position, if we're mourning a relationship or for mourning,
anything, we're not, it's more like, am I mourning for a
person? If I'm mourning, am I mourning because a person is
caught up in sin? And I'm mourning or am I mourning for my
nation? Not not mourning it because, oh, my life was so much
better. It was so much freer. What the heck with this, like,
Homeland Security, like, enough already, you know what I'm
saying? Like, you know, or am I am I mourning for the cost for
what's being stolen from people made in the image of God? So I
don't know if this makes sense. But that's just what I felt
like. Yeah, what you were, what you were saying, or how it was
illuminated to me, Devin, is it matters the type of mourning. I
don't mourn my business. I mourn that my business wasn't
glorifying God. I don't mourn, you know, if it's stuff that
comes and goes, because God has me in a different direction. I
don't mourn that. I don't mind. I don't mourn stuff. I don't. I
mean, I'm just saying ideally. No, for real. So like, it's
just not about this stuff. It's it's about the cost. Wow, what
did that cost me all those years? What did it cost me when
I when I could have been raising my kids? What did it cost me
when I could have been out evangelizing people? What did it
cost me when it could have is known you and lived so
selflessly and made such an impact? Not self centered
mourning, mourning with that heart like Daniel. Exactly. So
speaking of which, perfect. Okay, so who would like to read
that first Daniel three through five. This is his position of
godly sorrow before God. And I set my face unto the Lord to
seek by prayer and supplications with fasting and sackcloth and
ashes. And I prayed unto the Lord my God and made my
confession and said, Oh, Lord, the great and dreadful God,
keeping covenant and mercy to them that love him and to them
that keep his commandments. We have sinned and have committed
iniquity and have done wickedly and have rebelled even by
departing from thy precepts and from my judgment. Yeah, so and
then that colon indicates Daniel goes on in that vein, speaking
about the sins of fathers, the sins of the whole nation, the
sins of the people, the sins of he just goes on and on about we
how we and he includes himself. He does not say like, Oh, that
that those people, though, that political party or, or that,
you know, generation or, or Yeah, those people. I love that
Karen exactly. So he goes on about but first he like he, but
I set my face to the Lord to seek by prayer and supplication
with fasting and sackcloth and ashes. He literally divested
himself of what brought him comfort. Not the food, not the
clothes, not the you know, the the being anointed and cleaned
and like in every way made himself discomforted for the
purpose of having no attachment to those comforts and to self
and came separated to do some serious business with God. Okay,
so here and he goes on in that vein, as I said, Alright, so
here's God's answer to that posture. God isn't like pick
yourself
up, you dirty complainer." No, no, no, no, no. No, no, no, no. He's actually clearing
out all the obstacles that allow God to enter in. Mourning the lack of righteousness in
God's family, God's bride, God's lost children. Yeah. Okay. So who would like to read 20-23
of the same Daniel line? I can read it. And whilst I was speaking and praying and confessing
my sin and the sin of my people Israel and presenting my supplication before the Lord
my God for the holy mountain of my God. Yay. Whilst I was speaking in prayer, even the
man Gabriel, whom I had seen in the vision at the beginning being cast to fly swiftly
touched me about the time of the evening oblation. And he informed me and talked with me and
said, Oh, Daniel, I am now come forth to give the skill and understanding at the beginning
of thy supplications, the commandment came forth and I'm come to show you for thou art
greatly beloved. Therefore understand the matter and consider the vision. I'm sorry.
I did that for you in King James. I didn't even, I was like, Oh, I didn't even. Yeah.
That was a little different. I didn't mean to do that. So I was like, Oh, good job, Ingrid.
And so, um, I can read it in another way. Well, yeah, that's, that's good. Actually
you can do that. Yeah. So the, the oblation is the evening sacrifice. And what he's saying
is essentially, you know, while I was yet praying, while I was in the middle of confessing
the sin. Yes. While I was offering this supplication to the Lord, while I was mourning before him,
even the man Gabriel came to me whom I had seen previously in another vision. And he
touched me at the time of the evening sacrifice. And he said to me, Daniel, I have come forth
to give you a skill and understanding at the beginning of your supplication. When
you started pouring your heart out in mourning, I was sent forth with a message for you because
you are greatly beloved. Therefore understand the matter. He bestows upon him understanding
and consider this vision. And so the, you know, here he is Daniel who carries so much
authority, like ultimate authority, almost in the Babylonian and then men is in Persian
and you know, these, these, these massive empires, uh, as we saw yesterday, he, he sought
not to defile himself before the Lord and the Lord gave him the kingdom, gave him this
massive empire kingdom. And, um, and even though that means the kingdom of God, that's
like that was Daniel would represent God. And so, so this is so beautiful because here's
this person that has served all these years, all these, um, this was actually during Darius.
So these decades, these different rulers, so faithfully, this was the time of the, you
know, uh, you remember, okay. I had a really bad joke. As my husband said, um, Hillary,
you remember those lions in, uh, in the cave, they were also on a Daniel fast.
That's really funny.
No, he just, he just told me tonight, my son was like, why are you laughing? That's not
funny. I'm like, actually that one is so funny. Oh, anyway.
You know, I have a question about that since we're talking about the past, it says here
that, um, you know, that he, Daniel nine, three, the first verse up top, it says with
fasting and suck sackcloth and ashes. So does that mean that the Daniel fast?
was truly a fast a short term fast to get close to the Lord or was it a lifestyle of eating like being
so okay so no you can tell when Daniel fasted he was in particular turning from things so in the
beginning of Daniel as we read yesterday they purpose not to defile themselves they're freshly
in Nebuchadnezzar's kingdom freshly changed freshly like you know brought into this place
and told who they are and what they shall do but his purpose first was I'm not going to defile
myself so they were offered all of the king's dainties his meats as they were they were invited
into his feasts because he took the choice people from Israel and and these young men and they were
going to be trained up and after a certain number of days presented before Nebuchadnezzar to determine
you know who among them were truly like abundantly wise and intelligent and you
know were useful for the king's purposes and so he didn't they they didn't want
to do this the way of this pagan kingdom so for that and in that way they did not eat meat
sacrifice to idols and and stuff like that in the next chapter Daniel 10 Daniel is reading in
the book of Jeremiah this is such great questioning Ingrid in the book of Jeremiah
he's reading about how you know and also it refers to the Pentateuch about how God had said
you know if you obey me if you walk in my ways like here's the life I have for you the land I
have for you the blessings the abundance the the victory over enemies the the prosperity the the
the joy in my presence but but apart from me if you follow other ways if you follow after
the ways of these nations then this is what will be following you'll lose everything your your sons
will become castrated your children will be be be slaves of foreign kings you'll you'll lose your
land the you know like it's just like he said to Isaiah tell these people that um you know here's
what you're going to tell them and Isaiah said what how long am I going to tell them that and he
said until until the people are driven from the land and the land lays desolate so you know so
when when Daniel was reading that it should be 70 years in exile that God spoke that to Jeremiah
and it was 70 years in in Daniel 10 then Daniel he said I I I turned myself to seek the Lord you
know he went into partnership with this word this is part of you know that first day we were talking
about and I I I I ate no meats and he did this for three weeks he said so 21 days you know I I ate no
meat I drank no wine I I I partook of no rich or fancy food so in other words it was it was you
know there was so it's like a no the vegan comes in because there's no animal products and no
no nothing you drink for pleasure or eat for pleasure nothing with sugar or or you know
richness you're in other words you're separating you'll you'll eat but it but none of it is for
comfort or pleasure he's entirely turning to seek the Lord so that he can partner with this word and
people can go back to Israel the exile can be over so he he lived a fasted life in that you know three
times a day he turns toward Jerusalem and prays to the Lord and he would partake in no evil ways
to not compromise his life but there are times he specifically fasted in different ways here it just
says with fasting in sackcloth and ashes so this part doesn't give us um doesn't give us specifics
except like he went into such deep pouring himself out that I I can't even think of him
getting up from this and walking over and having like you know cheese and crackers and then going
back to like sackcloth and ashes you're you're you're abstaining from sometimes from food and
water but that's an entire like I am I am not even putting on the clothes that give me comfort
I am in like a potato state
back. And, you know, does that help? Is that?
Yeah, I was just always wondering whether this was a
short term fast, you know, or whether this was his lifestyle,
because we know that, you know, Paul said, you know, have a
little wine, he told Timothy, and that, you know, clearly,
it's not the vegan style is not necessarily encouraged in the in
the New Testament, or maybe elsewhere mentioned in the
Bible. And I was just wondering if this was a, you know, better
way of eating, or if it was just a short term fast, or if it was
his way of, of, of also maybe avoiding the the meat that was
presented to the idols. And just trying to, you know, figure it
out, not that it makes that much of a difference, because I do
think it's different in the in the New Testament. I mean, it
says we can eat anything, you know,
I think what Paul says, my favorite way of summing all that
up, is whether you eat or drink, whatever you do, do it for the
glory of God. And so if I'm, if I'm gluttonous, or if I'm eating
contrary to my health, which you know, I'm, I'm right now, like,
like, God, I need to walk away from, you know, a whole lot in
that in that area. And so it's like, because I, it's like, Oh,
you got some of that, you know, it's just like, stupid. It's not
glorifying God. So that's what I think. I think Jesus has set us
free from checking boxes, to really living a fasted life
where it's, it's fine to have whatever. It's really cool to
walk away from whatever unto the Lord for a time or because
he says, you know, hey, actually, this is hurting you.
And then if he says this is hurting you, it doesn't mean you
go tell everyone else, hey, don't eat corn, because of the,
you know, micro toxins, and you know, all that stuff. He's just
might be telling me no more corn, you know, stuff like
that. So I think we're free. We're free to just follow the
Lord, instead of follow the law. But that's a good question.
Okay, so I'm okay. So now I've got let's go pretty quickly
through these scriptures because I've got actually two pages of
these because this issue of mourning just as we've seen
unfold here. The books on the books on this have a Daniel fast
only raw veggies, fruit, nuts, water, or any for any length of
time, the Daniel diet brings back some meats and other
ingredients, but health foods. Okay, thank you, Jill. So. So
anyway, as we can see, like, just as it took us some time to
really understand what does this poverty of spirit mean? Let's
just read through these scriptures. And and then we'll
go into God's presence. I mean, we are in God's presence, but
we'll just, you know, take it in encounter to him and ask him to
take us deeper.
Do you want us to read them out loud or to ourselves? No, please
read them out loud.
Okay, I'll read the second Chronicles 3427, because your
heart was tender, and you humbled yourself before God when
you heard his words against this place and its inhabitants.
And you have humbled yourself before me and have torn your
clothes and wet before me. I also have heard you declares the
Lord.
Isn't that awesome? You heard, you heard that this was behavior
I despised, because of what it does to my children, right? You
heard that I'm holy, and that this is not acceptable in the
earth I created in the people that I created. You heard my
words, and your heart was tender to my words, and you humbled
yourself. And, and you came before me tore your clothes with
mourning, you were like, Oh, this is what we've done to God
to his testimony to his nation to ourselves, right? He said, I
I've heard you too.
That awesome. Okay, Isaiah six, five through seven.
Okay, then said I woe is me for I am undone and ruined. Because
I am a man of unclean lips. And I dwell in the midst of a people
of unclean lips.
clean lips. For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts,
then flew one of the seraphim heavenly beings to me having a
live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from off
the altar. And with it he touched my mouth and said,
Behold, this has touched your lips, your iniquity and guilt
are taken away and your sin is completely atoned for and
forgiven.
Okay, so Isaiah, in the year King Uzziah died, right? He's
like, what's the nation gonna do? He was king for 52 years
crying out to God. What are we gonna do? The king is dead. And
then he behold, he sees the Lord high and lifted up, seated on
the throne and his train filled the temple. The king is not
dead. But behold, he's like, but I have seen the king and he
sees him and all his holiness and the angels are crying out.
Holy is the Lord. He's just like, overwhelmed that he can
see the distinction between him and this people and this Holy
God. And he's undone, right? Whoa, is me. I'm undone. I'm
ruined. I I'm gonna perish. I'm just a man of vulgar among a
people of vulgar speech of unclean lips. For my eyes have
seen the king the Lord of hosts. And then God just another words
like, he comes in that morning. Oh, we haven't lived for you.
Here I am crying out because the king is dead. You're the king.
We we say so many things that are just so perverse, compared
with your purity and your holiness. And so he comes in
morning. And the Lord like has one of his angels grab a coal
from the altar, the fire of the altar and touch his lips and
cleanse him.
That's amazing.
Yes, we can receive that today. Just like your your iniquity
and your guilt are taken away from you because you came to me.
You came to me. All I can give you is forgiveness. I don't have
unforgiveness. So when you come to me with your sin, you know,
if you come to me all puffed up, I what can I give you? Right? If
that's what Jesus said, if you come to me saying I see, I can't
give you sight you already see you know, you're all good. So
here Yes, your sin is completely, completely atoned
for and forgiven. So those who come morning, oh, they find Wow,
I'm not punished. I'm not rejected. I'm not ostracized.
I'm not imprisoned. I'm not condemned. I'm actually
comforted.
Psalm 126, five and six someone quickly.
Oh, go ahead. No worries. Oh, I lost it. Whoops, whoops, whoops.
I'm sorry. Go ahead. Those who sow in tears shall reap with
shouts of joy. He who goes out weeping bearing the seed for
sowing shall come home with shouts of joy bringing his
sheaves with him. Come on. Okay, this is big because now he takes
that morning, and he calls it sowing. And, and so he's pouring
out into your you're pouring out into you're actually cultivating
something. And what you're going to bring in is an abundant
harvest of joy. That's the promise of God. Okay, Jill,
second Corinthians seven, nine through 10. Nine and 10.
Yeah, now I'm happy. Oh, I'm sorry. The other Jill. I'm
sorry. I feel good.
Jill went to go read the last verse. I should have said Jill
Cook. Sorry. We're next Jill. Okay. Go ahead.
Jill, now I am happy. Not because you were made sorry, but
because your sorrow led you to repentance. But you became
sorrowful as God intended and so we're not harmed in any way by
us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to
salvation and leaves no regret but worldly sorrow brings death.
Okay, this is so cool. So Paul had written the whole first
letter of current Corinthians, which was pretty harsh
statements against their pretty wicked behavior and thoughts and
the things they were doing. And so he set them straight in a lot
of ways.
And so apparently they were like, ouch, Paul, you know, but at the same time, apparently it caused them to change.
And so he says that, you know, he was like, I didn't mean to write harshly towards you, but now I'm happy.
Not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance.
For you came sorrowful as God intended so that you were not harmed by us.
Instead, you were brought to conviction, not to condemnation.
Your godly sorrow by realizing what you were doing was sinning, sinning against yourselves, against your family, being perverse.
You were sinning against the poor. You were sinning against the Lord who gave you all those gifts and brought you into salvation.
And they were awakened by it. And they turned and repented like Nineveh, right?
And so it brought them a salvation with no regret, whereas if they had been condemned, it would have brought death to their relationship with God, to their hope, too.
So, okay. All right. Jewels.
Second Chronicle. Didn't I just read Second Chronicles?
Second Chronicles. Okay. Yes. 7, 12, 14. Then the Lord appeared to Solomon by night and said to him, I have heard your prayer and have chosen this place for myself as a house of sacrifice.
When I shut up heaven and there is no rain or command the locusts to devour the land or send pestilence among my people.
If my people are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.
Isn't that like, you know, what's so cool about this is that the Lord knows we're under the dominion of darkness and live in the law of sin and death.
But he's like, but if you come to me, you know, like, because if you choose to live under the dominion of darkness, you choose to go that way, you will live the consequences of your sin.
Yes. You know, this is what's going to happen. But if you come to me, if you humble yourself, if you turn from your wicked ways, it doesn't say if my people called by my name would come and tell me about how bad, as Karen said, those people are.
No, no, I mourn for myself. Lord, I've allowed myself such a liberty with my tongue or liberty with my mind or liberty with my possessions or my, you know, whatever.
I haven't honored you. I see that I've been the fool here. I see that I've I've torn my house down with my own hands or I've I've been so dishonorable to my parents or to my husband or, you know, whatever it is.
And so, but he says, like, so if you're under the law of sin and death and you reap all the death from your sins, but if you turn to me, if you come to me and seek my face, sorry for your sin, turning from your wicked ways, repent, I will hear you.
I will give you what I have. I'll give you forgiveness and healing.
So awesome. Okay, Isaiah 12123.
And in that day, you will say, Oh, Lord, I will praise you, though you were angry with you, your anger is turned away, and you comfort me.
Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid for a the Lord is my strength and song. He has, he also has become my salvation. Therefore, with joy, you will draw water from the wells of salvation.
Okay, so this is a very messianic, you know, in, in
But this is talking about the messianic reign and it's like in that day, you will say, Lord, I praise you, you were angry with me because I lived under sin and death.
I was separated with you, your wrath was my portion.
But now you are my salvation.
Jesus Yahweh is salvation. I will trust in you and not be afraid. You are my strength, and my song you have become my salvation, not, not the health club, not the job, not this person.
Or not like whatever, whatever could a person could think is going to happen.
You know, what is, you know, Pedro said,
look for a savior, you'll find an oppressor.
So therefore with joy, you will draw from the water,
the water from the wells of salvation.
So now we're invited to just drink from salvation,
that we mourn for things that are contrary to God
so that we can draw more.
Like if we cry out for our nation,
he'll comfort us and give us a vision,
give us a word, give us a...
Yeah, look for a rescuer, find an oppressor.
Yeah.
So there we go.
Okay.
Oh.
Okay, so here I'll just go through like,
you know, this was to really help us really come in
and continue to identify with being at Jesus's feet.
So I'll just read these quickly.
You know, when we're pursuing him, Luke 10 40,
Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me
to do all the work by myself?
That's Mary, she's pursuing excellence or attention
or, you know, self-righteousness.
But Jesus replies, Martha, Martha,
you're worried and upset about many things,
but few things are needed or indeed only one.
Mary has chosen what is better
and it will not be taken from her.
And that's what we're here for,
is to turn aside from all the things we are worried about
and seek for the one thing.
Matthew 9 14, let the little children alone
and do not hinder them from coming to me
for the kingdom of heaven belongs to these.
When we come as children, we come excited,
we come humble, we come full of anticipation.
There's just tons of space for the Lord to meet us there.
And then this kind of goes over under the,
the, you know, Mary at his feet there
and standing behind him at his feet weeping,
she began to wet his feet with her tears
and wiped them with the hair of her head
and kissed his feet and anointed them with the ointment.
Micah 7 18, who is a God like you who pardons iniquity
and passes over the rebellious acts
of the remnant of his possession.
He does not retain his anger forever
because he delights in unchanging love.
He doesn't want to attach people to their sin.
That's why the church is so confused, you know,
like, oh, we have to, you know, accept these,
this behavior and these people of this and the,
and that because they don't know,
they, all they know is people are attached to their sins.
They don't know how to attach people to a savior.
We're either identified by our sin
or we identify others by their sin and judgment
or we are identified and identify others
by a savior, by the savior.
Psalm 34 18, the Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
And then we come, we come for his purpose.
Come to me, all you who are laboring,
heavily burdened, spinning, I will give you rest.
Take my yoke, my purpose, my assignment,
my presence, my life upon you and learn from me.
For I am gentle and lowly in heart
and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
And, and in this, in this space,
we see Jesus has been living these beatitudes,
that all the rewards, you know, what is,
what does Hebrews 11 say?
Like it's impossible to please God without faith
for he who comes to God must believe that he is
and that he's a rewarder of those who diligently seek him.
We are out spinning for the rewards of the world.
under the dominion of darkness, under the law of sin and death. But he wants to give
the kingdom, he wants to give righteousness, he wants to give all the provision that you
need like he does for the birds, like he dresses the flowers. That's the God who is our Father.
So let's take all this into God's presence so that we can say to him, be it done unto
me according to thy word. So Lord, I thank you so much for all these words. All these
words, Lord. These examples of how you respond to those who will believe that you're the
truth, you're the way, you're the life, and repent from every other wisdom or religion
or possession or personal right to oneself. All that's not you. And Lord, I ask you to
help us even just as we sit here in your presence. And would you make it real to us? Would you
show us where you are in relationship to us as we sit here in your presence? Jesus.
Lord, what is it you see in me as we're together in this space?
May I see your eyes in a new way. May I behold your eyes in a more intimate, deeper way.
Lord, what is it you see in me as we're together in this space? May I see your eyes in a new
way.
All right. May I see your feet? Will you show me your feet?
May I see your feet?
Jesus.
What do you want me to know?
Jesus.
Jesus, please help me give you what keeps me from your feet.
Please help me give you all that distracts me from being in this place when it matters
and making this my most precious place.
What keeps me from running here to you, Lord?
Jesus, please help me give you all that distracts me from being in this place when it matters.
Lord, would you help me to receive your rest, like your invitation to come away from those things, to see them on you, to see you carry them away, just like you took away Isaiah's sin and you took away Israel's sin and you took away the sin of Daniel,
you took away the sin of anyone who would come to you, you took it away.
Would you take those weights, those mindsets and fears and attitudes away and help me know your rest in place?
Jesus, please help me receive what does it look like for me to let you give me rest?
Lord, I ask you to seal all of this precious revelation, this personal revelation from
your Word, all the words that have been spoken that we be washed, all the jewels you have
just given us, the treasures you have just given us, and there's so much more we don't
yet see. Help us to go deeper in that place of rest and light, and Lord, through this
weekend till we come together again so that we don't leave this place here. We actually
come back having been with you more, more than what you just showed us, more than what
you've taught us. Help us to come to you just like this, Friday, Saturday, every day.
I thank you that this is your desire. We're looking for your will in us, as in heaven,
in Jesus' name. Amen. Wow. I know we've gone over, but I think it was important to come
to this point with the Lord before we're not together for a number of days. I'd love to
hear if you are willing to share what the Lord taught you. Can you turn the slide deck
off so we can see each other? Oh, I'm so sorry. That's okay. You know what I just noticed
too? There's a bar in the middle, and you can pull it all the way to the left, and then the
faces are bigger, and the slide is really small. You pull it to the right. Earlier, I just figured
it out when we were trying to read, and then you read again, but I was like, oh, that's pretty
cool. Oh, I didn't even know that. So the whole time, I've seen all of you like this. So that's
okay. But thank you, Ingrid, because now I can move it. But I'm glad you said something because
we're finished with it. Yeah, that's good. Okay. So who has it on your heart to share what happened
with Jesus? I think for me, it's the abiding, the constant, the moment-by-moment abiding,
not just, oh, I'm coming to your presence now, now I'm leaving your presence, now I'm coming
into your presence. No, my joy and strength and peace and rest lie in the abiding and the trust
in him. I mean, he's calling me into that for quite some time, but to remain conscious of him
has been my challenge. So sometimes I set my alarm on my phone to just say, oh, to train myself,
what do you want to say to me now about this? Or what do you want to say about that? Or how do you
want to deal with this? Or how do you want to deal with that? And it is working, but honestly,
this has been like a 15-year process. Because as soon as I leave the presence of the Lord,
then this is on my mind, and then that's on my mind, and then this is on my mind.
It's like Brother Lawrence, you know, doing dishes, you're in the presence of the Lord,
sweeping the floor, you're in the presence of the Lord. It's not separate. It's never
separate. I'm learning to try and keep it one with him, as opposed to compartmentalizing everything.
Wish me luck. Wish me growth.
The Lord. This is what we're doing, right? This is the whole
way. That's what Mary discovered. She found his feet
once she found his feet. It's like that. She didn't need
anyone else or anywhere else. Yeah. Anyone else? That's so
good, Karen. Thank you. That's exactly I think what brought us
all together, right?
But remaining in that place with him is and maybe that's where
the growth continues. Please help me to remain in this place
with you. Not just for this 10 minutes or hour or two hours or
whatever. But all day long.
So that's, yeah, I'm sorry. Yeah. Well, what you just said
was something he had said to me in 1997. He said, Hillary, I saw
his hands and he said, hold on to my hands. I'll keep your feet
off the ground. Yeah. In 2014, he said, I want you to teach
that to your children, to your family, actually, he said.
Knowing I hadn't even learned how to do it in those 17 years.
But that's true, right? It's like, you know, it here, but
that the living and abiding in him is a journey of a lifetime,
I think.
So he had told me, this is what I want you to focus on always
like, just hold on to my hands. And when he said that to me, I
was just like, like, I hadn't even been working at that all
these years, you know what I'm saying? Especially since I had
spent so many of them disgruntled, you know. And so I
said, Lord, how do I even do it? And he said, moment by moment.
Oh, yeah, he wasn't even mad at me. He wasn't like you
knucklehead. Like, I know you haven't done anything like to
try and, you know, it was, it was a good story I could share,
but I hadn't like and he, he showed me like, you know,
translations, all sorts of stuff like he would. And he's
shown me so many things over the years, like being having my feet
on the ground is to be earthly minded. And and connecting with
him is to be heavenly minded, you know, is to have an
orientation that's coming from above, moment by moment. So what
he told me was like, you know, when I said, Lord, where are you
when I was looking down? And he just reached over and took my
chair. Oh, look at me. And and so then I said, you know, what
do you see? And he said, I see my light. I see myself. I see a
mirror of the glory of me. And I saw like this mirror and he
could see himself and it just delighted him. It's just like
that's just the light. Yes. And then um, so I was like, I was
honestly wanting to see his eyes of fire. And, um, but instead, I
saw eyes so filled with emotion, like tearing up. And he said,
you evoke such emotion in me. And so it was a whole different,
you know, it wasn't the fire. And then when I said, May I see
your feet. And then so I saw like, so I saw his, you know,
his Jesus robe. And there was feet and he took my feet and put
our feet together. And I'm like, pressing in to try to figure
out. And he said, we are never separated. When we sit together
like this. There's so much more I will show you. This is just
the beginning. So we're always with him. It he's with us moment
by moment. It's just like you're saying like, becoming aware. And
so he took my feet to show me like separation between my feet
and your feet. And then I said, you know what I asked what what
keeps me from this place? And he said, fear. Yes, bingo. regret
the past.
all those, you know, times that you allowed what was happening
in your life, to separate you from the habit of coming to me,
you're still carrying the weight of that. Oh, coming to me. And
so I said, Lori, Lord, I'm so sorry, I just give you that. And
then it was, you know, help me know your rest. What does your
rest look like in that?
It is finished. It's finished. Like, that's all gone. It is
finished. Come and just see yourself that that painting when
I painted that he said, See yourself, see yourself coming to
me undistracted. Fear sees something else. Regret sees
something else. The past sees something else. I'm sorry,
chill. I see you sleeping over there. So we're almost okay,
almost finished. All right. Anyone else want to share? Okay.
All right. Like to write Jill, did you want to share? Jill
love? Okay, I thought she was talking to us. So did you want
to? Yeah. Did you want to kill before we? Oh, I'd love to. I
didn't even realize I was unmuted. Sorry. Well, he and I
said, Where was he? I looked around. I was looking around the
room because I'm in my office. That's like got lots of first
lots of stuff on it. And I'm like, Okay, I don't see you
here. I don't see here. And then I looked over and he's just
sitting on top of my piles on my desk. His feet like just
sitting right on. So what do you see in me? He said, You have a
child's heart open to what I'm teaching you right now. Trust
me. So then what may I see your eyes? He said, Yes, you can
trust them. May I see your feet? Yes, you can trust them. I'm
like, Is there a theme here? What do you want me to know? You
can trust me. I have so many great, abundant, extravagant
things for you. I said, What keeps me from remaining here?
He said, You believe I could, but you don't believe I will
for you. Oh, you believe it for others. But when it comes to
you, you just don't think I will. And then how do I stay in
this place where I can believe you will? Excuse me. Um, when
when you are inclined to think I won't believe I am. Because my
ways are not like yours. You can trust. So.
Wow, I mean, that's, that's like, that's what faith is, is
really trusting in that relationship. That's beautiful.
I thought I had some. I mean, I thought I had a lot, but I'm
realizing that it's getting tested. Like I, the end of my
challenge last night in my offer, I got off the call just
crying. I'm like, I blew it, Lord. I'm nothing's gonna come
from this. Oh, and he's like, Trust me, Jill. Trust. I'm like,
and so it was. But I have always said, I believe you could.
But I don't want to hold on to believing you will. Oh. So how I
do that. And so I want to believe I believe you could and
I believe you're good. But believing you will do this or
something for me is where I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm
not sure how to have faith. So. Oh, my goodness. Well, I love
that. But I love that he was sitting on your piles, because
it's, you know, trust, trust, trust, eyes of trust, feet of
trust. Trusting I will, I will, I will, I will. That's
beautiful.
Trusting I will, I will, I will, I will. That's beautiful.
Well, and he ended with believe I am. I will, it was believe I
am going I am doing good things for you, but my ways aren't like
yours. So.
Oh, that's so good. Thank you for clarifying that.
I just feel him pouring out so much love towards you, Jill,
like, like a river of love coming to you from him, just
pouring out on you. And that's causing the weeping, I think,
but he so loves you. Oh, my God.
you feel it to the degree he's pouring it out upon you.
So good.
Thank you guys.
Oh, oh, my mom.
Hey, mama, I don't know if you're still here.
She said, oh, the camel had either to be unloaded to get in.
Okay, that was back when,
once the gate was closed.
Oh, the first pass was 10 days.
Okay, so then she's talking about the past.
Okay, oh, I miss seeing she was there
because I had the,
I had our,
the slide deck you had up.
Yeah, okay, all right.
All right, I love you all so very much.
Any, well, I don't want to hold anybody longer,
but you can put it in the chat or whatever, or go live.
That's really helpful.
Especially since we're not going to see each other
for a few days.
And so just kind of like what God's showing you,
what's he putting on your heart?
What have you learned?
And yeah, would anyone like to pray for us?
So it's like pray through.
I'll pray.
Oh, okay.
Lord, we just thank you so much for this time together
and for all the revelations that you gave us,
bringing us just closer and closer to you
to where we can be better Christians,
better witnesses, more effective for your work.
Lord, I thank you for the breakthrough that Jill had
and the journey that it seems like it's,
that you have her on now, that she has seen this
and she will have different expectations.
And we thank you for that.
And we just, we ask for your full revelation in that area
and for that trust that you have in her
that faith, that belief to keep growing
and keep getting closer to you in everything,
in a personal life and for work.
And Lord, for all of us, we really, that's what we want.
And that's what we're asking you for.
And also for Karen, this is what she's sharing.
We wanna be close to you all day long.
And so we ask that you will continue this work
that you have started in us, especially the next few days
that you will keep giving us those revelations
that you've given us tonight and that we will keep,
yeah, keep on that journey, Lord.
And that you will bring us safely together
on Sunday night again.
And let us have a good couple of days
in between staying close to you.
And Lord, we thank you, we pray this to you, son,
Jesus Christ.
Jesus, amen.
Thank you.
Thank you so much, we love you.
Bye.
You're amazing.