Okay.
All right.
If I don't mute myself, it starts playing back at me, and let me just tag here.
Okay.
All right. Everyone else is here.
Okay.
So I'd love to hear before we go in, well, let me open in prayer.
And
I'd love to hear some shares about how God has been meeting me these past couple days.
Just for a couple minutes I'd love like, I believe
in my experience, and I have to become better about it myself.
Every day, I plan to go live.
Every day I don't. So, but when I do.
I, I can hear what I'm processing it begins to form in my voice, and I'm developing an authority in the things that are that have been questions in me or things I'm not sure.
It starts to be as soon as voice hits it. I mean, the word is so powerful. As soon as voice hits what I've been thinking what I've been pondering what God's been showing me or what what I'm experiencing or the questions that I have.
Something starts happening in a message start forming and you begin to hear what's happening deep inside you.
It brings clarity to the things that are going on inside you. And there's not one time that somebody, you know, won't feel won't hear like well I'm so glad I heard that every time you release your voice about what God's doing, you might not know about it.
Sometimes you will sometimes he'll let you know, every single time, it's, it's also, it's to you but it's also through you for somebody else.
Father, I want to thank you for that. I want to thank you for how I think of George Bush's 1000 points of light, and, and that that's what you're like, when we are interacting with you believing in you, thinking on you pondering meditating being still
praying even talking about you, learning of you, God, and we go to express that something happens in us, something stirs in us our spirit begins to grow and jump like like john the baptist it's like, this is the best stuff.
This is the best this is a meal. This is bread.
This is wine, this is, this is, this is so sad.
And, Lord, I thank you for that you've told us to put voice.
You know, our faith speaks Paul says, and, and you say in your prayers whatsoever you're asking, so ever your, your saying declaring agreeing upon one with another, that you shall have.
And, and so, Lord I ask that you would bring to life. Our speaking these words are sharing with one another our, our questions our experiences that all things would be bringing you glory.
All things would be bringing you delight, as we are learning of you and discovering you in how you reveal yourself, one to another and in your word and, and in these encounters, and as we come together at your feet.
Taking us wise virgins, filling us up with oil and and teaching us how not just to.
to think about you, talk about you, even pray to ourselves in a way, but to know you, to
experience you as you long to reveal yourself. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Okay. All right. So any shares past couple of days?
I could share something what the Lord was teaching me today. I was snowshoeing and the
snow was really deep. And I found that when I put my snowshoe in the, in the mark that
had already been made in front of me, it was so much easier. And he was leading me in Canada.
He says he wears snowshoes in Australia. When I was there, he was wearing sandals. And he
even showed me that look behind, you're even making a deeper mark for the ones who come
behind you. And then I was, I got into a bad negative thought about a situation and I fell
into the snow bank, like off the track. Like that's not following Jesus. That's, that's
not how you follow Jesus. And I got stuck and I had to phone my husband to pull me.
It was so deep. I was stuck. And then I got back to the house and one of my devotions
was how Jesus goes before us and on and on. And then it said the song was he leadeth me.
And then my other devotion was he leads at the Psalm 23. He leads me by still waters.
He leads me lead. And so it's like, yeah, don't, don't get off the track. Just go with
let him go ahead and just follow. And if I once, yeah, just follow, follow him. I mean,
make an easy track. It's easy when you follow what he wants.
See that's so rich. That is so awesome. Oh my gosh. You should actually go live in sweet.
I mean, taste and see freedom so that more people can hear that story. Oh, I could do that.
Yeah. Because that's rocking me right now. Like the fact and the fact that had you not
had someone to call, you know, call on me, right. If you had not had someone to call,
what wait for spring? Like what, how, you know what I'm saying? And, and, oh gosh,
what's the Solomon book? Ecclesiastes. Thank you, Lord. You know what it's like when one's alone
and, and the entire difference when there's just two and a threefold court. Well, that's just,
not easily broken. And, and how awesome that Brian wasn't off on some business trip or
off at the store and could just come get his bride. You know, and Jesus is so like that.
This is just so powerful. Thank you for sharing that Jill. That's genuinely the love of God.
And, you know, that, that, that humility that just acknowledges, I, I don't understand. I
don't even know where it's going to be safe or not, but these marks made already.
You can tell they're successful. Those marks are successful. Nothing's happened to them.
Oh my goodness. I love that. Okay. All right. I can share something too. I was running
Facebook ads today and my subject is sensitive because, you know, I'm promoting God, you know,
in public schools. And so sure enough, the ad was rejected, which is always my fear
that Facebook, you know, I mean, they've harassed me for a while and I've had 12 incidents already.
And so I'm like, Oh, and, you know, it was, it was a, it was, um,
ad, steer towards mothers, you know, and it said it had a Bible
verse on there. It says Jesus loves you. It's like, man of
life, they shut that down, you know, so um, and I had some
text. And so I was I was, yeah, frustrated. So I prayed about
it. And and I said, Okay, fine. I'm gonna keep the graphic, but
I will change some of my wording, I'll tone it down, you
know. And, and, and then I placed the ad again, I just the
new ad instead of messing with them, try they they told me I
couldn't even ask for a review. And so then I did a new ad. And
then then I said to my husband, you know, I need somebody to
join me in prayer with so that God will give me supernatural
favor. I just I really I need you to help me pray with us. And
so he prayed. And when he prayed, and it was like, you
know, maybe three minutes or so. He prayed, and God just told me,
he said, God said, he just said it all, you really don't need to
repeat, repeat any of it. You just need to say amen. And it's
done. I'm like, well, fine with me. That's good. And that's what
I did. And they haven't rejected the ad. In fact, it's in
learning mode right now, which is great. So it just showed me
the favor of God again, you know, it's just God did this
God made it happen this time. And and, you know, let it sail
through again. So it's, it's good to have God on your side.
It's good to, I'm glad I didn't mess it up and pray into it
more. Because, you know, I want my husband to feel good about
this, too. And then God told me it's enough. So I'm usually the
the one that's a little bit more compassionate, or more has a
little more passion, put it that way. You know, but he did he he
really, it was an amazing prayer. And so it was kind of
cool that he got answered the prayer like that. And that it's
it's working now. Yeah. Look at that, you know, blessed are the
meek. Blessed are those that you know, just you just like, you
just came down. You know, we're poor in spirit when we're like,
Lord, what do you want me to do? Just kind of like a Jill story
and your story going, you know, Lord, I can I can get all up in
arms. I can ruffle my feathers, I can be all puffed up, I can.
But now I'm the loser, right? I'm all upset. I'm all twisted
inside and out. I'm losing peace, the person in Facebook,
the automated, you know, whatever, blessed Facebook, and
we need to just bless face, a lot of good has happened on
Facebook. We've all met each other on Facebook, right? So
bless Facebook, just, you know, and we can do that we have the
power to bless Facebook and not get all, you know, twisted,
they're just doing what they know to do. And so until they
meet, until someone meets the love of God, like, we don't know
him. So I love that. It's just like, husband, would you just
pray? And the Lord's like, that's a prayer I can answer. I
love it. Okay. Anyone else Jill, did you want to share?
I'm good. Okay. I'm looking at time too. So I'm good.
I'll look at the time. This is important. It's important when
we share it's for it brings God glory. It brings community it
brings like so if you don't have anything to share, that's okay.
But it's okay. I appreciate that.
I'll share at the end this time. Okay, cool. Excited jump last
time. Okay. All right. So let me share my screen. And
Oh, wait a second.
So that I have to open up the slideshow. Sorry, guys.
Okay, so I'll share my screen.
Okay. I got to find out how I was able to have you all.
Okay, anyway. All right.
So here's just a, just again, just having a look at, you know, the different ways when we're sitting at Jesus's feet, we want to be connecting with that the reality of that posture.
It's not just, we don't want this to be an ethereal, like, oh yeah, went into that sitting in Jesus's feet. Like, we really want to be postured in the pursuit of someone who like will just come, you know, like a holy storyteller at the library, you know,
just the kids are just, or if you just tell a story at home, like the kids just like come, they just sit Indian style around you and they're so excited for the story.
And so, the pursuit of him, the purity of being a feeling like I'm, I not only can but I'm desired there.
I'm welcome, and I'm wanted as a child of God to just come and anticipate goodness at Jesus's feet, and have my heart and my mind, and my eyes and my ears wide open.
And, and to be able to have the, the, the presence of mine to say, like David, you know, Lord, search me and know me.
And I want to know, like, as much as I want to learn from you. I want to know is there anything in me that actually shuts down my ability to connect with you, my ability to learn from you, my ability to like you know this is why when we do a heart healing
I will walk through a small portion of just that that one john one nine, you know, and, and if we confess our sins, he's righteous to forgive us our sins all he can give us is forgiveness and cleanse us from all unrighteousness because all he can give us is righteousness.
And just having that presence of mind to say like, Lord, I don't need to defend myself, I don't need to protect myself. I don't need. Is there anything as I enter into this time to connect with you, Lord, is there anything you want to bring to the surface.
That would hinder my connection with you.
And just, you know, that's why a few times we take that moment, as we're heading into, into, and then into connection with him. And, and then just giving that to him fully freely.
No shame involved, beating ourselves up, nothing. He is close to the broken hearted saves those who are crushed in spirit Lord I'm so sorry. And we'll see a little bit of that and Daniel today.
And then to understand I come with a purpose. I, I come hungry.
He's got the purpose.
He has a purpose for me being there. I don't need to come with my own agenda my own purpose my own list my own. Your Heavenly Father knows what you need.
We don't need to say well God knows I need this and God knows I need that and Lord you, you know like I just that is so standing out to me lately from, from, from, from Genesis.
Hey, did God really say because you know God knows, I'm like, wow, that's the enemy's voice.
But Jesus says your father knows therefore don't run after those things from him.
Draw near her near to him. So as we sit at, at his feet we're positioned to surrender to submit to come under to learn of to be drawn into his purpose.
I don't need to have a contest with that. So, that is.
That is the purpose.
This slide. Okay.
So, just.
Oh, you know what.
Okay, let me just go up here for a minute.
Give me a minute.
Okay.
so important headed into 5.6. I think we've been on here for two days, but I do want to pay
incredible tribute to how God's brought us into his love through this verse. And just again,
blessed, happy, blithesome, joyous, spiritually prosperous, with life, joy, and satisfaction
in God's favor, like you were talking about Ingrid, and his salvation, like you were
talking about Jill, regardless of my outward condition. When I focus on my outward condition,
boom, I'm in a bank, help, I've fallen and I can't get up. You had to make that call today,
right? Like I've fallen and I can't get up. That was you today. I don't know if you've ever heard
that advertisement, but yes, you have. Okay. So, you know, are the meek, the mild, the patient.
This has changed me the past few days. Like I went, I mean, I was about to grumble at my husband,
probably half a dozen times. I mean, it wasn't that many. I just exaggerated, but I'm so aware
of it now. Like, oh my gosh, that's so, that's like I'm expressing frustration. How prideful.
I'm just, I just, that's not patient. It's not blessed. I'm not long suffering. I'm being
demanding. That's disgusting because I'd rather inherit the earth than this moment that's making
me so unhappy. And, and that, that, that was, you know, even mom just sharing your story, mom,
just saying like, I know there's another way it's in my face, but I'm going to, there's another way
and I'm going to find that other way. And of course, blessed, happy, fortunate. This is verse
12 over here in prosperous and to be envied is he who waits expectantly and earnestly, who endures
without wavering beyond the period of tribulation. And God brought us to that, to the depth of his
love, being beginning with that characteristic, beginning with his meekness, his lowliness of heart
to be patient with us, to be kind to us, not to smack us upside the head. Hilary, for goodness
sake, how many times have we had this conversation? Like, oh my child, I got so much else to do.
You know, like he's never met me that way. And yet how many times have I talked like that to my own family?
Okay. Okay. Wait a second. Okay. And then, you know, just Paul begging us
to make every effort to just really foster that spirit of unity. It's divisive. If I start
accusing, if I start grumbling, if I'm entitled, if I'm impatient, there's no bond of unity. There's
no making an effort to preserve the unity of the spirit in the binding power of shalom.
There is one body alone. Okay. It's not me and all the people against me. It's not me
and my husband who needs to get it right. Or my kids who just seem to always come when I'm
in a session. Like, what are you doing? Opening my door? Like, no, it's we're all doing this thing
together. And sometimes someone needs a scratch. Someone needs a bandage. Someone needs a hug. And
we're just all in it together. We're all called to one hope. We all need each other. There's one
Lord, one trust, one immersion, which is baptism, which is just complete saturation, so that there's
no ability to separate the two. One God and Father of us all. Each one of us, however, has been given
grace to be measured by Messiah's bounty. So not the lack of the world around me. Not my own lack.
Not my, not my,
not, not my, my judgment, not my
my mistakes, but it's all about what he's done.
It's not about what I've done.
It's not about what someone else has done.
It's not about who took.
You know, if someone took something,
well, that's just evidence I was given something
and I can go stand in that which I was given.
It's not about what's dead or destroyed.
It's about, wow, if this is being destroyed,
that means it was something that was built up.
If this is being killed, that means it was made alive.
And that's what I wanna come into agreement with.
It's about God's bounty, not what's been taken.
This is why it says, after he went up into the heights,
he led captivity captive and he gave the gifts to men.
So this is so amazingly beautiful a scripture
to understand that like, we don't need to fight.
We don't need to be provoked by the devil
and fight one another and fight the evil and fight that.
No, our, did God really say that you don't fight
flesh and blood?
I mean, go on, look what they did to you.
Come on, you gotta fight.
You gotta stand for yourself.
You gotta, God knows that what they're saying is wrong.
But what God's saying is actually right.
It's what God's saying that's right.
Just like that precious story, Jill.
It's actually just what God, I don't need to go there.
I just can stick right here.
Say to the daughter of Zion,
behold, your king is coming to you, humble.
Your king, humble, mounted on a donkey, a colt.
Would I feel foolish mounted on a donkey?
Yet all the way down, he just kept going lower still
so that there was no one beneath him
that couldn't reach him.
On a fall, a beast of burden.
Isaiah 61, one, the spirit of God is upon me
because the Lord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor.
He sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim the liberty to the captives
and the opening of prison doors to those who are bound.
God serves, he just serves.
He doesn't say to the poor, why are you poor?
You know why you're poor?
You're lazy, that's why you're poor.
You're poor because you didn't make the right decisions.
That's the law of sin and death, isn't it?
Why are you brokenhearted?
Can't you get over it?
Like, didn't that happen in the past?
Why are you captive?
Why are you in prison?
You know why?
You didn't behave yourself.
You didn't obey your parents.
You didn't do your homework in school.
Now you're a derelict, you made your bed sleeping it.
Never, never the law of sin and death.
The acceptable year of the Lord
is to come and serve those who got trapped,
who got stuck in the snowbank and can't get out, right?
So it's just this meekness, the idea of meekness
where the Lord is saying, learn of me.
He's not saying learn about me, learn of me.
This is who I am.
This scripture is fulfilled today in your hearing, he said.
With meekness, with humility, he comes to serve.
At that time, Matthew 11, 25, at that time,
Yeshua said, I thank you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth,
that you concealed these things from the sophisticated,
the educated and revealed them to ordinary folks
or as we know, to babes, right?
Don't we, when we're full of pride,
it's like, I am too good for this.
Why do I have to endure this difficult situation?
How long do I have to endure you?
How long do I have to be in this situation
with you small-minded people?
We're talking about God. God could call me small-minded, petty, pathetic, like ignorant,
unteachable, untrainable, uncultured. He could say that to me all day long and he'd be right.
But he never does. He never does. Just like Mama was saying, like, he just sees him.
He just sees who he is. My Father has handed over everything to me. Indeed, no one fully
knows the Son except the Father, and no one fully knows the Father except the Son and those to whom
the Son wishes to reveal him. That's why we were asking Jesus to bring us to the Father yesterday
or two days ago, whichever. Come to me. Therefore, come to me, all of you who are struggling,
trying to figure it out, trying to work it, make it work, trying to make it right.
Those of you that are burdened, carrying the heavy weight of sins, of shame, of your hyper
vigilance, and your perfectionism, of your humiliation, just come to me. I'll give you a
rest. I never meant for you to carry those things. They're just too heavy for you. I didn't give you
these people in your life so you could carry them. Take my yoke upon you. Come, let's yoke
up together as one. You and I yoked together as one. This is Jesus. I am meek, gentle, humble,
lowly in heart. There's no whip in my hand. There's no ruler in my hand. There's no measuring rod.
There's no whipping stick. There's no report card. There's no lecture.
You will find rest for your souls, for that spinning mind, that tormented will and desire,
that disappointment that's so deep in your emotions. Come, come. My yoke is easy.
My burden is light. You will find rest for your souls.
So this idea of meekness, understanding, coming to know who God is as meek,
and that just makes us all the more, I think, those who knew him, who had encounters with him,
you know, Moses, Joshua, Isaiah, David, Daniel, you know, Paul, who was so puffed up,
and Peter, and James, and just people that had these encounters, everything changed for them.
These encounters with him, and in truth, to find that there are no,
there are no hoops. There is no dog and pony show.
There isn't, you know, there isn't some way you can fail, except if you just say no thanks. I'll
go my own way. And so then you just so long for him, you so want his way. And so now, if somebody
wants to read Matthew 5-6, this is what brings us to all the more like, how do I get close enough
to actually experience and know this God who is meek and humble, the creator of all things,
knower of all things? Does anyone want to read Matthew 5-6?
I have it here.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Yeah. Blessed, fortunate, you're fortunate when you're not puffed up, being all right.
But you so long for what He says is the right thing to do.
You're prospering.
You're in a state of someone born again, enjoying favor and salvation,
when you hunger and thirst for righteousness.
For what's upright in God's eyes?
What is right standing before you, crying out for that?
For they shall be completely satisfied.
You will be filled.
I mean, I'm hungry a lot.
I like trying to satisfy my hunger.
I'm like, this is actually what I want.
Right here.
All right.
Can you guys see this?
Daniel 12.
Yeah.
Okay.
Does somebody want to read that?
It's seven, eight, and then 17 through 19, and then 23,
because I can't fit a whole lot.
But just look at his position for the hunger of righteousness.
And before I just say that, here in Daniel 4, Nebuchadnezzar,
Daniel was known for his hunger for righteousness.
And Nebuchadnezzar, who was recognizing,
he's telling this story about how he was at rest in his house,
in his palace.
And he's saying, you know,
then I had this dream and no one else could make heads or tails of it.
But at last Daniel came in before me.
He has been named Belteshazzar after the name of my God.
And he says, I know the spirit of the Holy God.
But the spirit of the Holy God.
Lives in him.
And I.
And I told the dream before him saying,
Oh, Beltish is our chief of the magicians.
Because I know the spirit of the Holy God is in you.
And no secret mystery is a burden.
Or a trouble for you.
And.
He says, well,
it's a burden because I'm not a saint.
But I know the spirit of the Holy God is in me.
And I know the spirit of the Holy God is in me.
And I know the spirit of the Holy God is in my heart.
And I know the spirit of the Holy God is in this room.
And I know the spirit of the Holy God is in the scene and the
interpretation of it.
And then he, he relays it to him.
So he had this reputation.
For, for, for being in touch with.
A God that was holier than, than anyone else lived or witnessed.
Okay. All right, go ahead.
I'll read it.
Oh Lord, to us belong confusion and shame of face.
As at this day.
To the men of Judah,
to the inhabitants of Jerusalem and all Israel to those who are near
and those who are far off.
Through all the countries to which you have driven them because of the
treacherous trespasses, which they have committed against you.
Oh Lord, to us belong confusion and shame of face, to our Kings.
Shame of face to our Kings, to our princes and to our fathers,
to those who are far off.
Oh Lord, to us belong confusion and shame of face.
Listen to and heed the prayer of your servant,
Daniel and his supplications.
And for your own sake,
cause your face to shine upon your sanctuary, which is desolate.
Oh my God, incline your ear and here,
open your eyes and look at our desolations and the city,
which is called by your name.
For we do not present our supplications before you for our own
righteousness and justice, but for your great mercy.
Oh Lord,
to us belong confusion and shame of face.
Oh Lord, to us belong confusion and shame of face.
Listen to and heed and act.
Do not delay for your own sake. Oh my God,
because your city and your people are called by your name.
At the beginning of your prayers, the word giving an answer.
Oh, this was when Gabriel showed up. Sorry about that.
I should have it in quotes. Go ahead.
At the beginning of your prayers. Oh, Gabriel speaking.
I think beginning of your prayers.
Should I do it in voices at the beginning of your.
At the beginning of your prayers, the word giving an answer went forth.
And I've come to tell you for you are greatly beloved.
Therefore consider the matter and understand the vision.
Okay. So, you know, this is a long portion of scripture.
Where Daniel who has been serving for decades.
This pagan.
You know, one pagan regime and, and monarch after another.
And.
And here he is. He's he's in the scriptures. He prays.
Three times a day toward Jerusalem.
He's in the scriptures. He's he studies constantly.
He has this reputation among kings of empires, the most massive, the one who carries more power
on earth than anyone on the face of the earth at the time, is honoring Daniel because of his stand
of righteousness to this God that's holier than anybody can can imagine, because he's hungered
and thirsted for that righteousness, and that Daniel is like, oh, he takes no righteousness
of himself, even though he has been exalted by kings for his righteous stand in matters,
and he takes none of it to himself. Righteousness belongs to you. To us belong
all these things we deserve because we rebel in thought, we rebel in word, we rebel in deed,
and you can just hear the anguish, and there, as I said, there are several verses this goes on,
but then he cries out, listen, for your name's sake, for your righteousness' sake,
that the city with your name, the temple with your name, might be restored so that your reputation,
we cared nothing for your reputation, we cared about ourselves,
but Lord, so that your reputation can be exalted, I cry, forgive us, do not delay,
let your people be restored so that you may have what you deserve, that's hunger and thirst.
And God starts this, you know, God gives him this, like, it goes on for chapters, these
revelations of, you know, the end times with such specific detail that it shows up
all those hundreds of years later in the writings of, well, Jesus quotes him,
and then it shows up also in the revelation of John. Okay, so let's read these, Isaiah 55,
one through three, we could just go ahead and just, you know, fire these off, and feel free
to, like, if you feel like you're seeing something, feel free to just share, like, wow, okay.
I'm everyone who thirsts, come to the waters, and he who has no money, come, buy and eat,
come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you spend your money for that which
is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy? Listen diligently to me and eat what
is good and delight yourselves in rich food. Incline your ear and come to me, hear that your
soul may live, and I will make with you an everlasting covenant, my steadfast sure love for
David. It's all good news. It's just all good. If you're hungry and thirsty, I'm ready for you.
I made you to hunger and thirst. Come, come, don't chase after that. Come, let me feed and fill you.
Okay, go ahead.
Again? Myself or someone else? Yeah, no, go ahead. Go ahead, Jill. That's fine.
For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things.
With good things! With good things, we're not going to be sent away. We're not going to be
disappointed. We're not going to be told, well, I'm sorry, we ran out four people ago. Or, you
know what? I saw what you did yesterday. Here, have a crumb. You better be thankful for it. Never!
No! He fills, he fills. When we come to him and say, I'm hungry, when we don't come full,
you know, full of ourselves, full of our complaints, right? Full of whatever. Like, just hungry, empty.
Okay, all right. John 6, 48 through 58.
I am the bread of life. Your fathers ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. This is the
bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. I am the living bread
that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. And the bread
that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh. The Jews then disputed among themselves,
saying, how can this man give us his flesh?
He gives us Himself. He gives us Himself. When people come to us
because they need, we're like, oh, here, here, here, go take
some of that and go, come on, I'm in a meeting. He gives
Himself. For God so loved, He gave Himself. His best is Jesus.
Okay, Mom, go ahead with Luke 153. He has filled the hungry
with good things, and the rich He has sent away empty.
They're full. They're all set. I'm good. I'm good. Like, no,
I'm all set. Don't need anything. You go ahead if you
need. He's like, a physician can only heal those who are sick,
and I can only give you sight if you're blind. But if you say
you see, what can I give you? You'll receive nothing. So only
if we're just so desperate, that we'll just let Him, we'll give
Him everything that's in our hands. Everything that's in our
mind. We'll empty our souls, so that He can give rest to our
souls. And He can carry what's so heavy for us. We're yoked
together as one. It's not like we're opening a door and
throwing it outside and hoping something happens to it. Or we
better go get it because who's going to? We're actually handing
it to Him. He's yoked together with us. He's never left us. He
takes care of it. He's reconciled everything. He knows
what to do. It's not lost. It's just not ours. Okay, all right.
Last column. Who wants that one?
A Psalm of David, when he was in the wilderness of Judah. Oh God,
you are my God. Earnestly I seek you. My soul thirsts for you. My
flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there
is no water. So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power in glory.
So this like, he's desperate. My soul thirsts. You know, when
you're so thirsty for water, it's like a deer pants for the
water, right? I've got to have you. I've got to have you. I've
got to know you. I'm in the desert. I've got to find you.
I've got to find the oasis, the flower. I've got to find the
life here. And there's this desperation that pursues past
all of the dryness, pursues past all of the hunger, knowing that
he rewards those who diligently seek him.
Okay, John 414. But whoever drinks the water that I will
give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will
give him will become become in him a spring of water, welling
up to eternal life.
Welling up to eternal life. So what I give you, man, not only
is it going to quench your thirst, not only will you be
satisfied right now, I've given you an eternal spring. And
things just get better. And so they shall. And so that's what
we begin like, okay, this is why we feed on the truth. And we
feast on the truth. Like I'm, I'm desperate for this news. I'm
desperate to replace the way that I think the way that I
speak the way that I relate the, the perspective that I
have with with his perspective. And not just in terms of a
roadmap. This is so important. As Jill, you were sharing, God
didn't give you a roadmap or he didn't say, Jill, you know,
follow the map. No, follow me. Follow me. This. I'm with you.
Before you I'm behind you. I've gone ahead. I'm enough for you.
Lord, you are enough for us. And yet there are places in our lives where we feel dissatisfied,
where we feel dry, disappointed. Lord, would you help us to give you those things that
cause us to labor and struggle and be heavy, heavy laden. Would you help us with your own
hands, with your own power, release those things to you that you've already paid for
on the cross that you say are yours and not ours, even every pain and every problem, that
we would see that we're yoked together and that this is your part. Thank you, Lord, all
the shame, all the pride, all the frustration, all the fear, all the doubt, all of the memories,
even in our body. And I want to say body, body, this is for you too. This is for every part of
our heart and our mind, our emotions, our guardian parts, our protective parts, our getter all done
parts. This is for you too, body. All the places you've been carrying pain or weight or rejection,
in all the systems and organs, in the muscles. Lord, everything you're revealing, everything. We
just say thank you for revealing these things that you can see from today, from forever ago,
just everything that you're wanting us to finally release into your hands. Lord, show us what it
looks like to be yoked together with you, the one who was bruised for all the iniquity, the one who
served to the uttermost, the one who took all the beatings, took all the stripes, took all the wounds,
so that by your stripes, we could make this exchange where you purchased it all. Help us to
see all that just being lifted, lifted, flowing to you, Lord. Lord, would you take the pain of those
things and the shame of those things, the identification of us, the attachments in our hearts
that have believed that that's us and it's for us. Would you also undo that? And would you, Lord,
just silence all the
voices, silence all the voices that would try to harass us here, that would plague us,
that would… Any voice that's not yours, that's not meek and lowly and inviting and
comforting and filling, loving, we just say the Lord rebuke you. Thank you for your blood, Lord.
All this is yours, even all our parts that need to be healed,
even all our family members that need to be healed.
Everything, Lord, everything that's a burden,
we're yoked together with the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.
We're not alone. These things have come against you.
We're your expression. We're your business.
We just can face you and worship you. The enemy has to face you. We can be humble before you.
Thank you, Lord. Thank you for all this flowing. Thank you, Lord.
Thank you. We just want to say thank you for everything we get to give you.
Thank you that that's not mine. Thank you that's not mine. Lord, thank you. Thank you that I get
to bring this to you. I get to entrust this to you. I don't know what it'll be like not worrying
about that, not carrying that. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Oh, thank you for showing me that too, Lord. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I can give you that too.
Thank you. Lord, thank you. Thank you. Every fear, every pain, every worry, every regret,
all abuse, all abandonment, just flowing, just flowing, just flowing to you. You've paid for it
all. I don't need to hold on to it anymore. I don't need to believe it anymore. Thank you, Lord.
Thank you, Jesus. Thank you.
Thank you, Jesus. Lord, would you show us what it's like for you to receive all this?
Would you show us what it looks like for you to receive all this from us?
Lord, what do you want me to know?
Hallelujah. Lord, what would you like?
For me, to have on my side of our being yoked together, what's my part?
Lord, what does rest look like?
Can you give us rest in our souls?
For me, to have on my side of our being yoked together, what's my part?
Lord, is this a place I can stay always?
I say yes. I say yes, Lord. I say amen. I say yes. I say yes.
Be glorified. Thank you for the rest of accomplishing your righteousness for us.
It is finished. You are worthy of it all. In Jesus' name, amen.
How did he open prison doors for you? Open blind eyes for you? Relieve your burdens?
Fill you with good.
Well, I'll share the question. What does it look like for you to receive all of this?
Well, first I, as we first started, he gave me the picture of a yoke.
So I started drawing what a yoke looks like. And he said, you were not made.
to carry this burden alone, you weren't, I didn't make you to carry the burden, that's
the enemy's work here. And I can, I carry it, for us to walk alongside of this, it's
I can carry this. So then you ask the question, what does it look like for him to receive
this? And he reminded me of a session we'd had before, I think it was with you, Hilary,
I'm trying to remember, but I had given him a backpack filled with these weights, this
burden. And as soon as he took it from me, it, it changed into this little basket with
just some notepaper in it. And like just little bitty slips of paper and just this little
flimsy little basket. And he said, this is not because I'm diminishing the importance,
but I want you to see what this weight is for me. This weight for you is this heavy
backpack for me, it's this. So he reminded me of that. And then he said, it's kind of
like Thor's hammer, Jill. I lift it with ease. And for you, like you, you toil to try to
even get it off the ground. Now, I happen to like Marvel movies. So that spoke to me.
Then you said, what's, what's my part? I asked him, what's my part? And he gave me this,
this picture again of us. And this yoke together said, step with me daily, ready to step in
the direction I lead. And just always be with me. It's, I'm not leaving. I, you don't leave.
Just stay hitched, stay together. And then what does rest look like? A conversation over
a feast, celebration of the day's progress, delighting in the embrace of his arms. Then
when he said, can I stay there? He said, yeah, we can feast on conversation as we till soil.
We can enjoy delicious food as we plant seeds. And we can celebrate together what was planted
in the harvest. So there was this rest can be as we work together. It's not, it wasn't
a toil kind of work. It was a pleasure, a pleasure. And I like a good feast and celebration.
I don't do enough celebrating. So I think he threw that in because that needs to be
part of it. That's what, this, this, this whole, I mean, I came tonight, I almost didn't
come tonight because I was at a really rough spot right before we started. And I'm like,
I don't want to bring everybody down, but I know I need to be there. So I felt myself
like holding back a bit. I could feel all the guardians like surround the camp, not
wanting to break down. So even this time was very, with him was, he just was a little more
matter of fact, he didn't necessarily dig or pry or try to storm the gates of my guardian.
He just reminded me of the things that we've talked about before very gently and just said,
just keep showing up with me. And, and I cried anyway. So I guess, I guess I love that. So
love this interaction of yours with him. And he doesn't, he doesn't come for a fight.
He doesn't come to prove anything, persuade.
This invites in this, this summary for me that work is a pleasure. And celebration is a feast.
So when I'm, when I'm about his business with him, I get to do all that I do with him and unto him
knowing that he's going to make it fruitful because I'm doing it in awareness with him.
And that when I'm grateful, when I express gratitude for how he
can bring his kingdom, how he can make this his opportunity,
how he can work it all together for good. And I'm celebrating
with him.
That's awesome. Thank you so much for sharing that. That
means a lot to me too. Oh, that's awesome. And that he is
saying that, that all your work is fruitful. And doesn't that
doesn't someone say that and everything he puts his hand to
prospers. That man who delights himself in the Lord, who loves
his word, feast on his word, just is rooted and grounded in
him. All sorts of bad stuff happens. But he's just abiding.
He's, he's rooted. He's, he's immovable. And everything he
does prospers. That's what God does. God can do that. Ah,
anyone else?
Um, when I I, I gave, I gave the Lord, my ministry, because
that's always on my heart. And that's, you know, it's never
going exactly the way I want it to go. And it's a lot of
pressure, you know, I'm getting older, and I want to get stuff
done. And who knows how many years I have left. And, you
know, I'm not at a stage in a life where I could say, I could
still dream a whole lot. And so, you know, I either get stuff
done now, or I won't get it done. And so I feel pressure
sometimes. And so the Lord told me to just give him, give him
all that things. And he told me that I'm not really responsible
for the results. As long as I listen to him and take step by
step. And just do what he says. That's really all I am
responsible for. And if there are no results, then that's not
my fault. That's, that's on him. That's kind of freeing for me a
little bit, you know. And so, yeah, it feels good. And, and
that, that he will just show me step by step. And all I need to
do is, because I am my workday. I work from morning until night,
you know, I'm, I'm not done after this, you know, I keep
working. I just work. And that's what I do. And, and so I know,
if I, if I don't feel responsible for results, I'll
still work. Because also, you know, it's like what you said,
Hillary. You know, it's a feast for me. I am. I, I now finally
am at the point where I enjoy it. There were there were years
where I had to force myself. But as of maybe a year ago, not
quite a year ago, I realized that every hour I give to the
Lord is a gift. You know, it's something I can do for him. And
now that I look at it that way, I feel I like to do it now
actually, finally. So but I am all at the same time very glad
to give the responsibility and the pressure back to him, which
I have done tonight, and hopefully it stays there. Yes,
it's a matter of let him show me that that was, um, that was
kind of where I got stuck to is like, how do I stay here? And
that's where things got muddied. And I'm like, how do I get
outside that that that neat rest? And he was like, what say
you? I'm like, amen. I say yes, yes, I can stay here. I can live
here. This. This is the truth. You are the truth. And you know,
Ingrid, when I was feeling like, like, oh, gosh, I missed it. I
missed, you know, my opportunity.
need to be productive. I missed it. And he said, Hillary, what
do you what are you gonna do with with Joshua and Caleb? What
are you gonna do with with Moses? What about Abraham? What
are you what are you gonna do with Abraham? Now, if you've
missed it? What are you gonna do with Noah, Hillary? Like 500
years old, you know? What are you gonna do with him? And then
that, that time where I was headed to my friend's birthday
party, I was, I said, Lord, what do you want me to get Kim? And
he said, I want you to paint a sunset. And so he had me paint
a sunset. I loved it. I didn't want to give it away. It was
all peach and purple over the water was beautiful. And so I
brought it to her. She was all dressed in purple. I was all
dressed in purple. We're at her birthday party. And and so I, I
pull it out. And she said purple, my favorite color. I
said, Well, the Lord told me to paint this for you. And she
said, Oh, it's lovely. Thank you. And I said, Well, let me
tell you what he said. He said, because I asked him, what do you
want me to tell? What do you want me to tell her? Lord? Was
this mean? So I said, I said, the Lord said, tell Kimberly,
that I can paint whatever I want on the canvas of the sky. I can
paint whatever I want on the canvas of your life. And she was
just like, I said, What is he saying to you? And she said, I
was wondering if it was too late for me, if I'd missed it.
So, Ingrid, I just think you're just getting started. That's
what I think. I think we're headed into our finest seasons.
We've had root systems all these years and all these and, and,
you know, like, Mom, how old was Grandma Moses like 90 or
something like? Oh, you're muted on your muted mama.
He, I believe was my age. She was 79 or 80. I mean, I'm at 80.
Now, I remember thinking, last year, oh, I could still, I can
still paint.
You could do whatever. That's the thing. I think that we're
finally coming into that strike, or even just today, where he
brought us into this place where it's like, could I relieve you
of all that? Like, I have to tell you guys something. This
scripture brought me to my knees after six months of like
fighting and contending and researching and interviewing
people and, and struggling over the word. It was this scripture
that brought me to my knees in my bedroom. When I realized this
is no ogre God King, smacking me upside the head, telling me
I've missed it. I don't even know how to love him. And this
is a tenderness I've never encountered in my life. And I,
I just fell to my knees and said, You are Lord, I don't even
know what it meant. But it was this scripture. And lately, he's
been bringing this to my mind, even as we consider it today,
reminding me like, if I brought you to me in this verse, did you
think that I might have thought it was important for you? I'm
still trying to figure this one out. And he's like,
what, what's the verse Hillary? What's the verse?
Matthew 28, through 30. Come to me, all you who are who labor
and are heavy laden. And I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon
you and learn of me for I am meek and lowly of heart. And you
will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy. And my
burden is light. And I'm still I'm, I'm, I'm still having my
eyes peeled open on this one. And so what he said to me, what
he said to me one time, the same thing he said to you, he said, I
didn't make you to carry your family, they're too heavy for
you. Put them down. I was all hunched over murmuring, like, I
had this like open vision kind of thing. And, and I was
just, you know, pacing back and forth on the shore. And he said,
put them down and come out into the deep. That's where you need
to be. That's where they need you to be.
Love to have heard that.
It's still working. Yeah. But it's so good. He's right here
saying,
No, I mean, when I was 20 or 30 something and lying on the
kitchen floor saying, How did I think I could do this? Okay, I
think I was.
Yeah, well, we find out we can't. Right. But, but when we
come to that place, Mama, I mean, look what he's done. When
because you came to that place. He could meet you there. It
wasn't you, you know, as if you felt like,
and that was before Ian was born.
If you like, oh, I got this down. I mean, I actually felt
like that. I felt like that with Jeremiah. He was just so
outwardly, you know, brilliant as a toddler and just knew all
these things. I'm like, I'm really good at this. And then
Caleb came. Like, it doesn't mean that he's not brilliant.
Oh, no, it's just he's so different. And so challenging.
Well, talking about that little boy. He's up in the trees.
Yes. And I'm just trying to like, teach him numbers and
teach him history and teach him and he's like,
like, oh, I mean, you know, where's Caleb? Where's Caleb?
Where's Caleb? So anyway, yeah, he's climbing on houses. He's
climbing. Like he's building, he's carving things. People in
the neighborhood are like, you can never come in my car, my
yard again. You you're because he was thinking he could hunt
the birds that were
Give me that mountain.
swords he made and he's got like armored belts and like cowboy
boots and hopefully some pants on like a cape because
everywhere he went
I'm like, okay, this has nothing to do with me. This is like, not
at all.
Oh, my goodness. Oh, my goodness.
That was last year, right?
Oh,
miracle. He's 17. And no, now he's like, he is God. God told
me when he was in my womb. Caleb Timothy monies is a joy and a
treasure and a lover to be loved. And I needed that.
Because I would be like,
Oh, my gosh, the things I'd be like, the kids would be asleep.
All right, I'm going to go down and do laundry. And I would hear
furniture being drug across the floor. Because he's building it
to go find something easy.
And he really is such a treasure is so autosomy such a lover.
We found Jacob on the roof at two and a half. He would add a
way to climb and scale. And I could tire you.
And then,
without a way to climb and scale, and I couldn't find him
and he's just walking along along the roof. I'm like, Oh, my
gosh, I've got my hands full. Like I, you, you and I have a
lot to unpack with our
early on. I had to actually do this where I was like, I cannot
be responsible for this one's life and safety. Like he's in
your hands gone. I had to like I would have been like, early on.
Go ahead, Jill.
Oh, I was just gonna say, that was like me when I was three. My
aunt came over and said to my mom, you know, Jill's on the
carport. Oh, she's always up there.
I love it. See, it's just like, we're supposed to be all these
different glorious expressions of, you know, of fun and
I know adventurous out there with a snowshoes in the in the
wilderness.
Yes.
I just went parachuting in Australia.
Oh, you love that.
Don't you, you land and then you're like,
if I had a lot of money, I'd do it again.
I know, exactly.
Did you do it with a co-pilot or by yourself?
Co-pilot. By yourself?
With a co-pilot?
If you're attached to someone.
Yeah, I went up to the Alps to try and do that
and then while I was ready,
they already gave me the whole gear and everything.
And then the gondola was shut down already
because it was like four o'clock or five o'clock.
So I missed it, but I would love to do that.
Was it fun?
It's so awesome.
Oh my gosh.
My daughter did it.
And after she came back, I said,
I'm doing it now too and it was too late.
Oh, it was the same day.
When she, well, when she survived, I said,
okay, I think I will survive too.
Well, my mother-in-law found out
that my husband bought us tickets.
So she was sending us all these videos
of like people that die apparently.
So I'm like, okay, we can't tell her.
So we called my mom and said, mom, can you come over?
We have to run out to the Cape for some stuff.
And she said, okay.
So she came over to watch Jeremiah and Caleb.
She walks in the door and doesn't, isn't Caleb like,
Meemaw, Meemaw, did mama tell you
that mommy and daddy are going to jump out of a plane?
Did they tell you that's what they're going to do, Meemaw?
Did they tell you that's why you're here?
I was just like, oh, my mother, just total composure.
I was jealous.
Ingrid, she scared me like you.
Like, you know, just total composure and just like,
well, we are just going to claim all of that
for the kingdom.
And so anyway, when we landed and we jumped in the car,
I let her know we're on the ground.
She's like, okay.
I was hoping that I wasn't the one to have to say,
okay, kids, let's go scrape your parents off the pavement.
That's gotta be scary off the plane.
Over there, the way they do it,
you just run kind of, yeah.
Well, you first take off.
You don't just run off the cliff.
You first take off.
And once you're taking off, then you're off the cliff.
So I think that's easier than jumping out of the plane.
Well, you're 10,000 feet up and you're just falling,
but you don't feel like you're free falling.
It just is like, I mean, it was probably a lot warmer
where Jill was, but I was like,
oh, my ears are so cold.
My ears are cold.
I'm like, I can't wait till this part is over
because my ears are cold.
It was kind of cold because you're up high.
Even, you know, you're up where it is cold.
Yeah.
And you're just like falling,
but you don't feel like you're,
you're just free falling at who knows
how many miles per hour.
And then, then when the parachute goes out,
you could just stay there all day
and look at the ocean and look like, oh my God.
Yeah.
Wow.
That's running off the cliff.
I can't even imagine.
Wow.
Well, it's just down the hill and once,
and it has to take off first.
And if it doesn't take off, they'll stop, you know?
Wow.
So I was just going to quickly share that.
Okay.
So just all these things, just going to the Lord.
And then I said, what does it look like for you?
And he showed me all that stuff on him
and he had a crown of thorns
and he was all like bloated and weighted.
He was the one all weighted and bloated
and pressed down and like all sorts.
And he took it all victoriously to the cross.
And he said, it looks like what I knew
I needed to accomplish for you.
It is finished.
So I can't remember the next question,
but the answer was all righteousness is accomplished.
And so I said, what's my part?
And he said, enjoy me, learn of me.
As a child, grow never weary in doing well.
It's so exciting for me when we get to do well.
Learn my excitement for you.
And then.
you can love being excited for me like Daniel learned. And so
then I said, what does rest look like? And I heard that song.
Fly me to the moon and let me swing upon the stars. Let me
see what life is like on Jupiter and Mars. In other words, hold
my hand. It's just like, you know, and he said, we could we
could go there. We can be on a hammock and on a tropical beach.
So much nicer than a couple of well. Well, never the first
night. I wasn't watching on Facebook. And everyone's very
quiet and doing that remove everything or give me anything
that will stop me from what you want me to know. Somebody I
think it's Burt Bacharach song was playing present devil was
playing. So far away. No way. No way. Just I mean, mom, every
one of those things. Let it just like
was funny, actually.
Wow. Well, you guys are awesome. Thank you so very, very much.
Thank you for sharing. And Jill, did I stop you from sharing
anything or mom? Did I stop you guys? No. All set. Okay. All
right. Yeah, good. Yeah. Hey, Hillary. Can Is there any way
that you can stop the recording? I just I wanted to clarify this
thing about the app that we talked about earlier. Because I
need to make a decision. Okay.
There isn't a rush on that. Let me let me cancel everything.
All right. Praise God. Stop recording and