Hi! Just hopping on to do my homework. I have been listening to some of the
replays from the previous sessions, the previous intensives. I watched the one
today that Ashley reposted from 2020 and I recall her saying that the sooner we
become authentic and vulnerable about where we're at, the sooner we can find
healing and freedom. So, here we go. Things have felt super overwhelming
within the last week. Specifically, I think I've mentioned briefly, I have a
pretty full schedule with my job that requires a lot of travel and
simultaneously I've been battling some pretty intense health problems for
quite some time, but it seems that they've just progressively gotten worse
and I've worked in health care for over 15 years, so I have a very strong
opinion about medical interventions and all those things and I know that the
stress and the unrest and the fear and anxiety is at the root of all of it, I'm
convinced, but when I'm experiencing anxiety it's, you know, sometimes you go
through all the motions but yet it still stays and I'm like, how do I make
this stop and go away? So, I think my greatest challenge or question that I've
been asking within the last month even is, is it possible for me to walk this
out? I know that rest is not stagnance or like not, that doesn't mean that I'm
not moving forward and, you know, that I'm just laying on the couch, but I've been
questioning for a while, like, is it possible for me to walk this out and get
breakthrough in this area while working this job or is it going to require me to
find another position in the interim while I'm walking this out? So often I
feel like I'm trying to, you know, just apply all of the things and, but just due
to the pace and the demands, I just can't seem to get on top of it, I can't seem to
get a handle on it and I don't know what it's going to take, but I know that it's
a priority of mine, so whatever, whatever we need to do to get there, I'm willing
to do. I guess it feels overwhelming to make big decisions right now. I think I
started just today, I'm like, okay, what can I do today? I can ask my boss if I
can work from home while I'm not traveling and so, yeah, I guess I've just
been taking one day at a time, but I'm looking forward to my one-on-one and for
Ashley to kind of speak into that, but yeah, I don't really have much else to
say. It's been, it's been a challenging week for sure, but super grateful to be
walking this out with you gals and to be learning together. So I'm excited for
tonight's class and I'll see you soon. Okay, bye!