Good morning! I had a few minutes before heading off to work and thought I would hop on and
do a journey share. We just finished a large conference here for work and typically that's
a very, it was a very very full busy time, but typically the trend is that we run really
hard at conference and then everyone crashes really hard after, which is not a cycle that
I want to be on. And it was interesting because a couple of different friends who I don't
work with but know the trend of cycle, the cycle of conference season, when I told them,
oh we just finished conference, they said, oh wow, like you look unusually rested or
you seem to be unusually well in comparison to how people typically do after conference.
So because two separate people said it, it made me think like, oh wow, like maybe I came
out of that having managed my inner world a little better than usual. So I felt like
that was a huge victory for me. I feel like I've been sleeping better, which is a huge
win. And I think, I think I've been keeping really close inventory of what's bubbling
up and processing it real time instead of stifling it. And that's really helped to
not let things get backlogged. And so I, yeah, I found myself the other day just trying to
schedule a time to get away. And so typically traveling has been exhausting because I do
it so much. But I was like, well, maybe I'll get away here. Maybe I'll get away here
for the weekend and go here and there. And all those things were fine. But I really realized
that I think I was just running or wanting to escape, having to just go through the process.
And it just felt really hard some days. So I'm like, maybe I'll just get away
and take a brain break and go somewhere. And again, not a bad thing, but I think I've just
been super aware in this season of what's happening in my body, in my mind, in my spirit.
And so that's a really good, like, that's, that's a huge win, I think. I think Lindsay
might have said at one time, but use the term like this low grade anxiety. So,
I mean, I know when I'm anxious, and I know when I would consider myself not anxious,
but I realized it was this, there's this like low grade anxiety that just lingers about the
littlest things that have no significance, but concerned about how it's going to play out,
or what's going to happen, or I need to know this before I can do this, or so I can move forward,
so I can make plans. And I know that physically wears on me mentally, emotionally, spiritually,
all the things. So just continuing to practice releasing it, surrendering it, going back over
the videos, again, I just finished, finished all the videos. And just really captured some
bullet points, like a little go to, to remind me in those moments of when I'm feeling overwhelmed,
to just think through like, okay, no shame and condemnation, just release this, and
partner with the truth. So still really diving in, like, okay, God, what is your truth? Like,
it's almost like easy for me to identify the lie that I've been believing, or
to see where I haven't been aligned with the word. But like, I know what's wrong thinking,
wrong thinking, and wrong belief systems, but I'm like, what is actually the truth?
And so really just been looking in scriptures for what does your word actually say about these
circumstances? And there's unlimited scriptures to apply, but to not just apply them and to
declare them, but to believe them. So I think that's kind of where I'm at right now.
Definitely been some high moments and some super low moments, but overall making progress,
which I'm super grateful for. So excited to see you all tonight in our breakout rooms.
Okay, hope you have a great day. Bye!