Hi! I miss you guys. I'm bummed I couldn't make the call yesterday, but looking forward
to connecting again soon. I am in Spokane, Washington for work. It's been a really great
trip, actually. The first day I was here, I think I got up at like 4am to catch my flight,
and then immediately when I got off the plane I had to drive a long ways, and all to say
I didn't get back home until midnight. And it was a really long day, but I just feel
like my capacity is expanding because I'm leaning more and more on Him, and whenever
I have to show up or do something or be somewhere, I'm like, okay God, you're just going to have
to give me the strength and the words to say, and it's taking the pressure off of me to
not so much perform, but to just muster up the energy or the joy. Yeah, so it's been
really great. I feel like I've had a lot of breakthrough in that. I'm actually at a graveyard
right now. I'm at John G. Lake's graveyard. I just thought I would visit while I was here
and take communion. He had such a powerful ministry on his life that has really impacted
me over the years. I went to the Spokane Healing Rooms yesterday, and that was really
powerful and I got prayed for. I can see that I have a new belief system that I'm able to
attach His word to and His experiences to, and just believing that it's already done
and I don't have to go looking for it. I don't have to earn it. I don't have to make
it happen. I'm reading Andrew Womack's book right now, You've Already Got It, and all
these teachings that I'm hearing and these books is just solidifying everything that
we're learning in our class, and it's beautiful. I didn't think that I would be able to get
to this place as soon as I have, and I'm super grateful for Ashley and just that you've
gone before us and made many sacrifices, so that way you could lead others. I just really
appreciate you and this group. As far as actual rest goes, I've had moments, obviously we
all have moments, that I have been experiencing unrest, and I'm quick to identify it, and
then most of the time able to shift into rest, but just practicing more and more. I think
I can get a little angst sometimes when things are moving really fast or I'm traveling and
things aren't working out the way that I had anticipated, or there's lots of emails coming
in and text messages and phone calls, and I'm like, ah, how do I tend to all these needs?
And I think at the end of the day, it boils down to not wanting to disappoint other people
who have the expectations of me. And I think a lot of times, it's actually going to bring
it up maybe in one of our next calls, but I often, the disappointment that I experience
sometimes or the unrest is I have expectations for other people that perhaps they didn't
know or they didn't follow through with, and then it creates unrest in me. Yeah, because
I have to pivot in my desire for the outcome, I have to pivot in my understanding of how
things are going to play out. But yeah, I've just been kind of journaling and keeping track
of some questions as I go. So when we meet next, we can dive in. But looking forward
to watching yesterday's replay and seeing you all soon. I'd love to watch your journey
shares when you're able to share them. And that's all. Okay, love you. Bye.