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Thank you.

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Hey Ashley.

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Casey How are you. I'm all right. It's so weird to see you with such a different background. I know.

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I know. Yeah, we don't have that bedroom anymore.

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How did everything go the move did all were you pleased with the money that you got on the house. Are y'all with your parents now. Yeah, yeah, the, the sell the house is really good and fast and easy and.

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I've been with my parents right now and I think we found a house, but we might not get into it for a couple months we're hoping sooner rather than later, but so we'll see on that.

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Well it's good to see you on my word.

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I know right.

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And the rest intensives and you know you have this community going and then all of a sudden it's like, get together anymore. It's like that. Right.

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Yeah, in fact I was just talking to Lindsay on Marco Polo just the other day and or maybe it was today. Maybe it's today. And so it's just like I know we had such a fun group, all of the groups are all always so different because it's always just

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on the dynamic of the people who come, you know, and how they interact with each other. Anyway, that was a special one special time.

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Well yeah, yeah.

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How are you.

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I'm in a new place too so yeah I noticed, are you like at a house, or you look, it looks like a book or something. Yes, so we are in.

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This is the place that I started the rest intensive at three years ago.

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And so we're coming back full circle, because it was three years ago, April 4 that I started the rest intensive in that kitchen.

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And so what it is is this is a my, my, my, my friends own a really large beautiful home that was built by the people that they bought it from, and the people while they were building that house built a standalone garage that's like about the size of a three

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or four car garage it's the size of a four car garage, and then they built an apartment on top of that and they lived there for five years, while they built their big house.

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So, my, my friends have this apartment on their property. And so they said when Ed and I were going to leave the ministry.

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We knew that God was just telling us to leave but he said basically like Abraham you to go to land I will show you.

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We're here and this is kind of like Abraham you know with his Hebrew, you know, he left her and he landed in Hebrew and but it was just kind of like a stop on the way and that's what we're considering this it's like a stop on the way so we're here

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to just kind of heal and just rest and ask the Lord what it is he wants us to do next. So, that's, that's where we are. So we're in Dallas. Yeah.

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Yeah. So yeah.

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And you have no idea where you're going.

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No, we don't.

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Well let's say we have no idea we have things that are hard.

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We've, we've both felt a an openness towards New Zealand, but that whole thing, my husband was going to go there.

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I can't remember if it was before he met me or after he met me that they were planning to go to New Zealand he's going to go to New Zealand help start a ministry school, but COVID shut everything down.

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And they stopped it so finally his friends actually went over there, and so they're there now but they haven't even gotten anywhere near to starting the school yet.

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They haven't moved anything yet for them and so they're like, what are we doing Lord we moved over to start this like ministry school and so they're waiting to see what the Lord wants them to do in the meantime God's shown him different things

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they're supposed to be involved in. So the thing is that that's something that we'd like to do but we haven't heard God say, therefore thou shalt go forth.

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It's just kind of like an openness that we feel like, but we thought that that's where we go, we were going to go we want to so that is a possibility, but it's not a certainty and we definitely don't know when.

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So yeah, anyway we're just here right now and God's gifted us this bit of a retreat and reprieve, and we don't know how long or how long it's going to be and so but we do know that whenever God gives us these times that that his intentionality is for us to rest.

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And I've learned from the past.

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And I'll just say this just in case because I don't know what it is that you're where it is that you are right now what is you're going through.

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about all of that. But just in case this resonates at all, my husband and I have talked about the

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fact that we have learned that when God gives us times like this in our life, that can feel like,

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oh, wait a minute, you know, I'm in between things. And what I'm supposed to do is surely,

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you know, it's to get back to get back on track to the real thing. And right now I'm off track.

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And that's even though we know not to think like that, we have a tendency to think,

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yeah, but I'm not doing, I'm like off the rail, I need to get back on the rail.

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Or, you know, I don't like, for instance, me when I've been in this position before,

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I didn't have a job. And I was working so hard to try to find the job. And no matter what I was

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doing, or how hard I was working to do it, nothing was coming through even everything that should be

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coming through. Like, I was like, following all the principles of the world, you know, like,

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hey, you do this, you do the resume, you do a headhunter, and you do that. And you get people

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who know other people, people who have power or an influence to get on your side. And then

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they're telling people and nothing was happening. And my mom finally just said, Ashley, this isn't

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normal. She's like, it's very obvious that God purposefully not allow you to go through that

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was several years ago. And so anyway, that I don't know how long ago that was, oh, that was

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eight years ago, something like that. Anyway, at the time, God told me, Ashley, you're wasting this

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time, you were so worried that you're going to miss me, that you are that you're stressed,

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constantly looking for me constantly trying to find what it is I'm telling you to do,

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or whatever it is that I gave you this time to rest and heal from where you were, so that you

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can be ready and have some is to have what it is you need to go into the next thing. So anyway,

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we we do know that about this time that it is about rest is about about, you know, healing.

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But even what that time of rest and healing is supposed to look like, we don't know.

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So we're just again, every time of rest and healing looks different. So we're just asking

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God, okay, what about the particulars? What are those would be like, for me, I still have it on

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my heart to continue to do the rest intensives. But still, there's no other obligations outside

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of that. So in that sense, it's still a rest. In that sense, it's still healing. It's because

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it's not lack of activity. It's just lack of like, where God is removing the distractions

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of emotional obligations or whatever. So anyway, that's what we're doing right now.

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What about you? Well, I mean, I resonated with what you said, like, I thought you would,

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I don't know why I just felt like maybe was just sensing it. And just like the healing part,

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you know, I'm still I'm still healing. And I still feel like I'm God's calling me to that season. But

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it feels really hard to heal when everything around me is so new. And when Ryan is fully

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back at work, and I'm living with two other people. So I feel like I'm, you know, in a house

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that is filled with just stuff, because we have our stuff, and my parents already had a ton of

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stuff. So my sisters right now, and this is like, she's working. And this is like my place of

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solitude. Because it's like, I just feel at peace here. And that, yes. And so like, I don't know

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how to rest. Like, I feel like my nervous system is just so fired up. And like, I can't take naps,

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even though I'm exhausted. I just feel like my flesh is fighting. I don't know what it's fighting.

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And I feel like I don't have the time to like sit and

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like to sit and work it out or to figure it out or to it just, there's just so much overwhelm.

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And I don't have the time or space to sort it all out, if that makes sense.

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Yeah. So when you said healing, that you still feel like it's a time of healing for you or that

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you're supposed to get healing, healing, like, what are you talking about? You're talking about

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trauma of what you've just been through last year? Or are you talking about the way back? Or

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what are we talking about? I think, you know, I think healing in that learning to live in God's

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rest and healing with the whole cancer thing coming to, I don't know, I'm still healing from

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surgery. You know, I don't really know. I think I'm in striving mode and I don't want to be in

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that anymore. I hate it because I know what it feels like to not be in that place. And maybe

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I'm just looking to live in God's rest, you know, and I just want that. And I feel like it's

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so far from reach.

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Yeah. Well, um, so can you give me a bit of, of a description

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when you say, you know, it's hard to like, Bill, like I'm in

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God's rest. I know that you've mentioned some things about like

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that are like triggering, like, like, oh my goodness, you know,

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I'm living with two other people and all of our stuff is

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everywhere. And yeah, physical, physical and clutter creates it

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literally creates in the in the metaphysical realm, meaning

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like the soul realm, the part that we can't see, there's

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literally noise. It's like, it's like lots and lots of energy.

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And you know, they're able to kind of just, just kind of like

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the fact that in 1984, the scientists figured out that,

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that all objects were emanating light, all of it, an apple, a

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tree, a person, a flower. And I don't know if it was all living

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objects, or if they were inanimate objects as well. I

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think it was even inanimate objects, that everything was

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emanating light. Like, so there's a certain aspect that

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even though we can't see, if you start to figure certain things

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out, you can measure the existence of something. And so

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they realized that there are that that stuff has basically

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noise to it, it has stuff that's, you know, just kind of

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creates. And because of that, we sense especially women, we

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sense all of that extra. And then it's just hard when we all

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we already have, if we already have a tendency to be over

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analytical, or over thinkers, or whatever, our minds and our

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days just already be feel like they're filled with so many

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decisions, so many possibilities, so many different

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directions, of like ways that things could go. And so many

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different factors, and then you add in all of this stuff on top

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of it. And it's just, it's very, very emotionally overwhelming.

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So everything it is that you know, you're something is very,

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you know, it's just very legitimate. I mean, it's very

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real, not all in your head, and all of that it very, it's, you

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really are sensing something that really is, it really is a

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legitimate thing that's going to say in existence. But so

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anyway, like I said, I know that you said that you've got like

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some, some, some triggers and things, but is there any other

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like, way that you can think of to articulate what your kind of

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your current? I don't know, life kind of like, feels like, is

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there something else that you're kind of sensing? Like, are you

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something? Well, no, I just feel like we're in this in between

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state, or I feel like something's expected of me, or

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because you say, I feel like I can't rest, like any other

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things that just kind of like come to mind of how you might

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describe things like beyond the triggers of like, Oh, I felt

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like something's expected of me, or I felt like, I don't know.

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Well, I think like, like, just taking care of myself, like

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working out in the morning, juicing, eating well, like

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those basic things feel really hard with Ryan working, because

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I is full force from the minute she wakes up till she goes to

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bed, and she's, everything takes me so much longer with her by

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and she, my parents, it's even worse, because she, she's very

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clingy to me, she doesn't, she hasn't even played with her

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babies for like weeks, and she used to always play with her

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babies. Like she just by me, and I don't know if she has some

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anxiety. And so or she's feeding off mine. And so it's just like,

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I never get like, Oh, I can make this juice. And I don't have to

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worry about her coming down and wanting to help me or making a

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mess over here that I'm gonna have to clean up later. Or just

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talking to me when I'm so overwhelmed with noise in my

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head that just, I don't want to talk. And then the boys school

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is there. It's a lot different than we thought it was going to

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be. So there's a lot of challenges we're having to work

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through with that. And, and then my parents, I grew up Catholic,

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and my dad's a deacon in the Catholic Church. And so we've

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been going to church with them. But now it's just been, it's

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been wearing on me. And I'm like, we have to go somewhere

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else. I just can't do it anymore. And so that's another

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piece. I don't. I don't want to cause a rife with my family. And

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yeah. So just like, everything just feels like there's like

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conflict, or, yeah, there's not peace in any of it. Yeah.

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So one of the one of the things that came to mind to tell you to

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see if like, maybe this phrasing would kind of like resonate with

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you is, is to start, I recommend

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that you stop trying to make everything okay.

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Just let it just not be okay.

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Meaning like, and I know that that sounds weird,

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but so kind of like walk with me through this.

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This is what I mean, because what we're trying to do

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is we're feeling subconsciously responsible for an outcome.

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Even if we're like, and here's what I mean by that,

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it's not just like we always feel that God

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is gonna hold us accountable for an outcome.

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Because sometimes in certain situations,

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we don't feel like you can hold us accountable for it.

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But the thing is like,

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we're holding ourselves accountable for it

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because we feel that it is going to provide us something

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that we want or that we feel that we need

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in order to survive or in order to be okay or whatever.

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And if we don't get this thing done,

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then we're not gonna be okay or whatever.

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So we're wanting to control it,

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we're wanting to hold ourselves,

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and so we're unintentionally and subconsciously

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holding ourselves accountable

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to executing a particular outcome.

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And remember, we're always supposed to allow God

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to control the outcome.

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So therefore, we keep thinking things aren't okay.

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So I think in the rest shifting tools,

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remember the middle one, no judgment,

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where we think it shouldn't be like this,

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it should be different.

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Just let it be the way it is.

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Like, and let whatever the heck happens, happen.

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If you just kind of, and what I'm talking about

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is you just kind of emotionally

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kind of think about the future,

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even like five minutes from now, like,

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oh my word, what if she comes down?

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And then we start planning or we start envisioning

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this whole future next 15 minutes of chaos and issues

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or whatever.

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And so, and we're thinking, I want to avoid that.

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So in other words, that's an outcome

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or that's an outcome that can lead to another outcome

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of chaos and what would you call that?

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Where we're just in pain and confusion

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and heartache and whatever.

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And so in order to avoid that, we're trying to control this.

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And in order to control this, we have to do this.

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Anyway, so it can, so just allow the, basically the chips

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in the future, the chips to fall where they may

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and let yourself release your current activity

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from carrying the burden, that weight and responsibility

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of what happens because you're doing the activity.

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So say for instance, you're going downstairs

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and you're doing the juice and you're like,

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oh my goodness, well, what could happen

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because I did that?

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Like, okay, well, I don't want this outcome.

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So therefore I'll do it like this,

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where I'm just, or I really need this.

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And I really want to avoid this,

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but there's no way to avoid it unless I don't have this,

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unless I don't juice and just go do the juice.

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Just go juice and let whatever happens, just happen.

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and just handle it however you want to,

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regardless of what will then happen as a result of that.

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You know, and then just do that with each individual step.

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is by just allowing everything to not be okay.

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meaning like, if it's not okay,

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just allow it to be that way.

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That's just how it's choosing to be.

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It's just choosing to not be okay.

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It's like, fine, you can live like that.

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I don't want to.

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So it's almost like what you're doing is you're kind of,

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it's not in an unhealthy way,

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but in a way you're disassociating

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or basically you're disconnecting really from it.

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or controlled by it or determined by it.

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It can do its thing.

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It can be, you know, kind of like that phrase,

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you know, you can be you.

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You can just be you over there, you know?

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Yeah, this situation or whatever, you can just do that.

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But you know what?

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I'm going to choose peace.

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I'm going to choose to own myself.

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I'm going to choose to remember that I am who God says

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that I am and that I can actually get to control my life,

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so to speak, and the fact that you own it

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and you get to make decisions.

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We don't get to control the outcome,

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even though we're trying, you know?

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And then, so you just kind of own yourself

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and remember, okay, our God and I are okay.

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Why?

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Because he said so.

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Not because I do something or I'm not doing something

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or I feel a particular way or I don't feel a particular way.

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I am because he said so.

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Even when I'm sinning, are God and I okay?

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And then immediately that'll diffuse things.

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So there's like multiple things you can do

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that'll diffuse it to a certain degree.

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So that automatically will diffuse it

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to a particular degree.

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And then, and that, hey, you know, God and I are really okay.

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So, all right.

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Now, I want to just be that.

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I want to be who he says that I am.

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And he says that I am, you know,

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that I am perfect in his sight,

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that he's not holding me obligated to do certain things,

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to execute specific things, to create a specific outcome.

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He's going to be.

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responsible for the outcomes.

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So I'm just going to do me though.

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And then, so that'll bring a little more relief, like, okay, not being

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held accountable or whatever.

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And then you just decide, okay, I'm just going to disassociate myself, who

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I am from the thing that's happening.

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My word that I forgot to put the top on the juicer and now it's all over the

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ceiling and it's because, you know, my daughter came down and now she's wanting

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to help and so it was because I was distracted and then, so now she's wanting

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to help me clean up and she's really just making it worse issues, whatever.

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It's like, you just allow the situation to be what it is.

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Instead of thinking, I don't want it to be like this.

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How can I fix it?

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Don't try to fix it.

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Just like, okay, then I clean not, oh my goodness, I could have been doing

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something else instead of cleaning.

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I really had planned this to go different in five minutes.

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I wanted to be doing this.

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And then the next 15 minutes, I wanted to be doing this just, oh,

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that's just not the way that it is.

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This is the way that it is.

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So what you're doing is you will choose what it is you're doing is you're

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choosing to own yourself and not give power to the problem or to the situation.

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And because a lot of times they're not actually problems or situations.

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It's not giving power to them anymore.

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It's just like, okay, well, they, they just, they're just there.

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They're not evil.

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They're just there.

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It's just not going the way that I would prefer.

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But I remember that I get to own my, I get to control my life by owning me,

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not by controlling my situations.

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That's how I own my life.

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So that's what I would recommend.

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You know, always checking, checking in between you and God, are God and I okay?

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He says that he and I are fine.

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Okay.

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So now I am choosing to allow this situation to just be whatever it is.

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Again, the no judgment and the Lord, you know, I ask that you help me.

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By taking control of the outcome.

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So I'm just going to go through the actions, but I'm not going to carry the

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weight of what the actions are going to do is neat, cleaning up, going to help

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you do, get it done in five minutes.

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Is it going to get done in five minutes?

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And then can I finally do this and finally do that?

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And those are all outcomes.

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Don't hold yourself responsible for them.

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Don't try to make them happen.

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Just do the actions that you know, that you need to do.

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And then just see what God then, what outcomes God then allows or empowers to

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then happen without you feeling that you're responsible by what you're

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doing to create a specific outcome.

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Stop making that a stop making the outcome, your priority, start making you,

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your priority, like me and my peace and my joy and me acknowledging that I'm as

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valuable as God says, I am, but I am actually a son of God who has authority

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on the earth, that I am a king.

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That is my priority.

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And I'm not talking about a priority about God.

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I'm talking about a priority about the situation because the situation needs you.

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It's in chaos.

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I mean, for instance, can you imagine forgetting to put the top on the juicer?

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Can you imagine that happening?

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But yeah, and then the mess that it creates, can you imagine that

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happening before, um, you know, before the fall?

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I mean, sure.

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Maybe it did, you know, but I, you know, I just, I don't know.

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I can't imagine that probably because I, I associate it with negative

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and I associate it with chaos.

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And I'm like, oh, well that wouldn't happen before the fall, but maybe it

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would, and God just didn't call it negative chaos and nobody felt burdened by it.

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The point is like, let's just imagine, you know, would it, would

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it happen before the fall?

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Probably not.

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So the thing is that it's just, it it's, it's creation just operating from a

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sense that it doesn't have a king.

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It doesn't feel safe.

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And so it's just acting the way that it is.

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The only way we can change creation from acting the way that it does is that

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we have to live proving different.

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And then it gets to have the opportunity to respond with, to a different

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instruction and then to finally stop acting like that, there are certain

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peoples whose lives are just fraught with accidents, they're falling all the

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time, they're dropping things or breaking things, things are always, you know,

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chaotic and a lot, and not all of it, but sometimes that is actually brought by

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the, by we are, it's actually created by the internal turmoil of their own soul.

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And like, they're, they feel like they're a victim to life.

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And so I didn't know if you've ever known somebody like that, that has a lot of it

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happen in their life.

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There's a reason for that.

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So if their creation around them, not all of it, but an aspect of it is responding to

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them.

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So in order for our environment to actually respond differently, we have to be the

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different that we need it to respond to.

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It can't change its course if we don't give it something to.

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respond to, because creation responds to us.

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So if we have to give it, if we don't like something,

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we have to give it something different to respond to.

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If we don't like its current response,

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we have to be the difference that it has to respond to.

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So anyway, so that though is icing on the cake.

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Freeing creation from frustration,

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that's icing on the cake.

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What's your first order of business

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is freeing your creation,

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meaning your soul and your body from frustration

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and into freedom.

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So you choose you first.

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You know, you choose the importance of you

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and other people's souls and bodies and whatever,

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but remember that you can't give them you

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unless you've owned you first.

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Anyway, so I've talked a lot.

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I mean, does all that kind of make sense

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or resonate about like,

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remember you're supposed to choose you

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between you and the Lord first,

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and then remember,

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and just release the outcome of your actions

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and just go through the actions.

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Be the ruler, be the king,

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and expect your orders to be carried out.

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But it's responding to your emotional

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and spiritual presence that you're bringing it.

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Yeah, no, I resonate with that a lot.

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And I think, gosh, I mean, I...

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Basically, you know what we're talking about

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is how to gain freedom for yourself.

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That's what we're talking about.

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Everything else will come later as a result,

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but we're talking about you are that important.

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Not how to fix everything around you,

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how to free you because you don't deserve

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to be in bondage the way that you're currently in bondage.

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You don't deserve that at all.

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So you choose to free you first

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and then the rest will fall into place.

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But anyway, go ahead.

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Well, and I think like,

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I think my struggle is that like I get that

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and I live in it for a short period of time

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and then I get home and Naya's being crazy.

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My mom is asking me something about dinner.

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My kids are fighting and I don't even know where to go

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or where to turn or who to focus on or what to do.

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And then I just get overwhelmed and it's like I freeze

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and then I just wanna, I feel like I'm a victim

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like in that overwhelming place.

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And I feel like I'm in that place so often

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and I don't know how to get out of it in the moment.

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Yes, so again, in that moment, you choose you.

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And remember that because what's making us feel overwhelmed

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is we think that there's a right choice.

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What am I supposed to do?

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Which of the thing needs my attention first?

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Which one's the wisest right way?

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Which is going to like get the greatest impact, the fastest

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or what needs it first to make,

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because and again, it's from this perspective

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that your life and your decisions

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are always being dictated to you

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by everything that's happening.

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It's not, you get to choose.

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And so the Lord and the Holy Spirit will guide you,

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will guide you in how to,

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in what's the wisest thing to deal with and whatever,

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but it can't, but how do I say this?

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But we have to, you have to gain basically ownership

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of yourself and your value first

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because and doing that kind of a little bit

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of like in reckless abandon, like just pick one.

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It might not quote unquote be the right one

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that you would pick later,

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that the Holy Spirit would guide you to,

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but right now it's too much to try to think of

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what is the Holy Spirit saying?

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You have to own you first

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in order to be able to more clearly hear the Spirit

459
00:28:42.960 --> 00:28:45.840
because in other words, you have to release yourself

460
00:28:45.840 --> 00:28:48.600
from all of this obligation, all of this,

461
00:28:48.600 --> 00:28:50.080
God is holding me to something.

462
00:28:50.080 --> 00:28:52.160
Oh my word, there's a right choice

463
00:28:52.160 --> 00:28:54.520
because we don't know how to approach

464
00:28:54.520 --> 00:28:57.880
picking the right choice from any place other than strife.

465
00:28:57.880 --> 00:28:59.880
And we have to break that strife thing.

466
00:28:59.880 --> 00:29:02.240
So abandon the right choice altogether

467
00:29:03.120 --> 00:29:08.000
and trust that you just making a choice is right.

468
00:29:08.000 --> 00:29:09.000
Pick one.

469
00:29:09.000 --> 00:29:10.200
Which one do you want to deal with?

470
00:29:10.200 --> 00:29:11.560
Like, I'm sorry, mom, just a second.

471
00:29:11.560 --> 00:29:14.400
Or, okay, we'll just let them fight for just a second

472
00:29:14.400 --> 00:29:17.960
so I can like have two minutes to answer her,

473
00:29:18.440 --> 00:29:23.440
or whatever, and it's just because you're one person.

474
00:29:23.640 --> 00:29:27.000
You're not responsible for everything that's happening.

475
00:29:27.000 --> 00:29:30.400
You're not responsible for your kids' choices either.

476
00:29:30.400 --> 00:29:31.800
I know that they're fighting

477
00:29:31.800 --> 00:29:35.320
and I know that it's your responsibility as a mom

478
00:29:35.320 --> 00:29:36.920
to guide them and all of that,

479
00:29:36.920 --> 00:29:40.000
but you're not actually, you can't control them anyway.

480
00:29:40.000 --> 00:29:41.240
You can just give them guidance.

481
00:29:41.240 --> 00:29:44.240
You can't make them choose the right,

482
00:29:44.240 --> 00:29:47.080
what you did in life and the quote unquote right path.

483
00:29:47.920 --> 00:29:51.000
And you can't make them happy.

484
00:29:51.000 --> 00:29:54.040
You can't make them like their brother and sister.

485
00:29:54.040 --> 00:29:56.960
All you can do is guide them

486
00:29:56.960 --> 00:29:59.360
unless you're gonna control their behavior.

487
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.400
And if you're not wanting to do that, then all you can do is guide them and you can't

488
00:30:03.400 --> 00:30:04.400
control them anyway.

489
00:30:04.400 --> 00:30:07.400
So just like, okay, I've taught them better than that.

490
00:30:07.400 --> 00:30:10.580
And they're, they're acting out so they can hang on just a second.

491
00:30:10.580 --> 00:30:13.480
And I'm going to do this, or it might be like, Hey, I'm on, sorry, mom.

492
00:30:13.480 --> 00:30:14.480
Just a moment.

493
00:30:14.480 --> 00:30:15.480
I'm going to deal with this first.

494
00:30:15.480 --> 00:30:21.680
But just pick one, just pick one, whatever it is, though, make, make sure it's your choice.

495
00:30:21.680 --> 00:30:22.680
Remember what I talked about?

496
00:30:22.680 --> 00:30:25.600
When we talked about, like, you were asking me something similar, you said, well, what

497
00:30:25.600 --> 00:30:26.600
do I do?

498
00:30:27.600 --> 00:30:32.320
the, the pot is boiling on the stove, you know, you know, the kids are fighting the

499
00:30:32.320 --> 00:30:33.320
doorbell rings.

500
00:30:33.320 --> 00:30:36.080
Remember, when you walk that through that scenario, and you're like, all of a sudden,

501
00:30:36.080 --> 00:30:37.600
I don't know what to do.

502
00:30:37.600 --> 00:30:41.520
And I said, you know, own yourself first, remember, you're not being dictated to by

503
00:30:41.520 --> 00:30:42.520
the situation.

504
00:30:42.520 --> 00:30:45.360
And like, Oh, my goodness, though, are you going to make the right choice?

505
00:30:45.360 --> 00:30:48.880
And all of a sudden, you are you are doing fine, and things start happening.

506
00:30:48.880 --> 00:30:54.760
And it now forces you to live in a, it forces your next decision and the next steps that

507
00:30:54.760 --> 00:31:00.560
you make in life, simply because it decided it wanted to break out into chaos, my life

508
00:31:00.560 --> 00:31:01.560
was going fine.

509
00:31:01.560 --> 00:31:06.920
And now I have to deal with this, then we can feel like we're always victim to Oh, my

510
00:31:06.920 --> 00:31:11.960
word, I have to is it and send everything outside of us, including other people, like

511
00:31:11.960 --> 00:31:17.760
say, for instance, a parent or a spouse or a kid is dictating our lives.

512
00:31:17.760 --> 00:31:22.280
My life is built in the time I get up to the time I go to bed based on how everybody else

513
00:31:22.280 --> 00:31:23.280
wants to live it.

514
00:31:23.280 --> 00:31:25.000
And I'm just trying to react.

515
00:31:25.000 --> 00:31:27.520
Absolutely not.

516
00:31:27.520 --> 00:31:33.440
So what you're doing is you're just like regaining control of yourself, so you can actually give

517
00:31:33.440 --> 00:31:37.440
yourself so that you can actually deal more effectively with your children, you can guide

518
00:31:37.440 --> 00:31:41.120
them more effectively, you can be who it is that they need, because what they need is

519
00:31:41.120 --> 00:31:46.880
you, they don't need some, they need you as weird as it sounds, they need you before they

520
00:31:46.880 --> 00:31:52.400
need you to help them with themselves.

521
00:31:52.400 --> 00:31:59.360
Because just you just because I don't know, I don't know, wish I knew how to describe

522
00:31:59.360 --> 00:32:00.360
that better.

523
00:32:00.360 --> 00:32:03.920
But it's kind of similar to like, the best thing that a husband can that a dad can do

524
00:32:03.920 --> 00:32:06.880
for his kids is to love their mother.

525
00:32:06.880 --> 00:32:16.040
Well, it seems very indirect to actually providing for a kid's needs, but it is more foundational

526
00:32:16.200 --> 00:32:23.720
and more effective in actually transforming a child, and then like actually helping them

527
00:32:23.720 --> 00:32:27.160
like guide them through their feelings and whatever, it's not that we don't do the other

528
00:32:27.160 --> 00:32:29.360
that's very, very, very important.

529
00:32:29.360 --> 00:32:34.560
But even that, even before that, something that's even more foundational, more effective

530
00:32:34.560 --> 00:32:39.640
to helping them is you being okay, because think of it, think of how many wounds that

531
00:32:39.640 --> 00:32:44.400
all of us have born in our lives, simply because our parents were not okay.

532
00:32:44.400 --> 00:32:47.600
In some aspect of their life, they were bearing some wound or whatever.

533
00:32:47.600 --> 00:32:54.000
And they may not, just because it affected our parents, it affects us, just because they're

534
00:32:54.000 --> 00:32:57.280
hurt and they're wounded, and they're acting a particular way, even if they try not to

535
00:32:57.280 --> 00:33:03.480
act that way to us, just the fact that they're dealing with that is going to affect us.

536
00:33:03.480 --> 00:33:11.320
So we need everyone, we're the first aspect of it, there's a word that I keep looking

537
00:33:11.320 --> 00:33:19.280
for related to that, it's like the first, I keep thinking of a, it's a land word, but

538
00:33:19.280 --> 00:33:27.040
anyway, we're the first aspect of our kingdom that God has entrusted us with, is you.

539
00:33:27.040 --> 00:33:32.480
He entrusted you with you before he entrusts you with your, trusts you currently with your

540
00:33:32.480 --> 00:33:36.200
husband or with your kids, he entrusts you first with you, you're your first order of

541
00:33:36.200 --> 00:33:38.200
business, you are what they need.

542
00:33:38.520 --> 00:33:40.520
I was thinking, what does everyone else need?

543
00:33:40.520 --> 00:33:44.360
They need you to be you, so that you have you to give.

544
00:33:44.920 --> 00:33:52.200
It's all of the stuff about selfish parents and whatever, we think of that, we could get,

545
00:33:52.200 --> 00:33:55.720
we could confuse what it is I'm saying here with those selfish parents.

546
00:33:55.720 --> 00:33:57.960
Those people are the exact opposite.

547
00:33:57.960 --> 00:34:00.120
Those people do not own themselves.

548
00:34:00.120 --> 00:34:04.200
And they're always trying to self-medicate and self-comfort and self-whatever, because

549
00:34:04.200 --> 00:34:05.880
they do not own themselves.

550
00:34:05.880 --> 00:34:10.520
So you don't have to worry about, oh, this is going to make me a self-centered parent

551
00:34:10.520 --> 00:34:13.480
where I'm focused first on myself before the kids.

552
00:34:13.480 --> 00:34:17.320
It's not, it's what enables you to give them what they need.

553
00:34:17.880 --> 00:34:20.360
And it doesn't create selfishness.

554
00:34:20.360 --> 00:34:22.760
It's coming into agreement with who God says you were.

555
00:34:22.760 --> 00:34:28.520
And anything that God says is always the right foundation from which he expects, you know,

556
00:34:28.520 --> 00:34:33.560
you to obey him and like everything else, know you to be the best mom that he intended

557
00:34:33.560 --> 00:34:35.719
for the kids and everything.

558
00:34:35.719 --> 00:34:40.600
So in other words, I just wanted to encourage you that there's nothing, release yourself

559
00:34:40.600 --> 00:34:48.440
from God expecting something of you, from God, from there being something that you want

560
00:34:48.440 --> 00:34:58.520
to be careful to not miss or to not, or to forget or to be lazy and not do or whatever,

561
00:34:58.520 --> 00:34:59.960
just release yourself.

562
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.320
off from all of that and just choose that you and God are okay and he's not obligating you to

563
00:35:06.320 --> 00:35:10.000
anything in this time of your life. There's nothing that you have to do, there's nothing

564
00:35:10.000 --> 00:35:15.200
that you have to accomplish, there's nothing that you have to make sure works out, that you and he

565
00:35:15.200 --> 00:35:20.800
are okay, that you are really truly who he says that you are, and that he really is as good as

566
00:35:20.800 --> 00:35:27.280
he says that he is. And then live from that place. So it's a very simple thing to remember,

567
00:35:27.280 --> 00:35:33.360
but you just always have to go back to it and choose that as your higher priority over the

568
00:35:33.360 --> 00:35:38.800
chaos of the situation. And that's hard because the chaos of the situation triggers all of our

569
00:35:38.800 --> 00:35:44.720
fears of, oh my word, I've got to do this right, you know, and choose you over doing it right.

570
00:35:45.680 --> 00:35:51.680
That's going to feel very foreign, but I promise you it works. I promise you that transforms your

571
00:35:51.680 --> 00:35:58.640
family. It transforms your environment because that transformation God intends to come through

572
00:35:58.640 --> 00:36:03.280
you. But if you don't allow yourself to be transformed by having made the choice,

573
00:36:03.280 --> 00:36:08.480
then it can't come through you to affect it. Anyway, what do you think?

574
00:36:09.680 --> 00:36:13.120
Yeah, no, I think that's like you hit the nail on the head. It's just a matter of

575
00:36:14.000 --> 00:36:22.960
doing it, I guess. Yeah, of the doing it. And like, like I said, it is a hard choice.

576
00:36:25.520 --> 00:36:33.120
Yeah, it's a hard choice, but it is very simple. That's the only thing you need to remember.

577
00:36:33.760 --> 00:36:40.720
It's not, goodness, it's very loud. Sorry, let me turn this off. There we go.

578
00:36:41.120 --> 00:36:44.560
Um, it's, it's very simple. And the fact that you just remember, okay,

579
00:36:45.760 --> 00:36:50.160
are God and I okay. That was something that I thought of in this past rest intensive to just

580
00:36:50.160 --> 00:36:54.400
kind of encourage everybody with. I said, all right, I said, stop thinking of all the things

581
00:36:54.400 --> 00:36:58.640
that you should be doing. You should be remembering the rest intensive tools and

582
00:36:59.600 --> 00:37:04.320
forget about it all. So if it's overwhelming and you just need to remember one thing,

583
00:37:04.960 --> 00:37:08.640
ask yourself in any situation with your unrest, are God and I okay?

584
00:37:11.040 --> 00:37:15.520
And the answer we always know is yes. But what it does is it promises to make a choice

585
00:37:15.520 --> 00:37:20.000
because remember, we can't convince ourselves that God and we are okay. We've all tried to

586
00:37:20.000 --> 00:37:25.200
do that our whole life. And this is where it's gotten us nowhere. We can't convince ourselves

587
00:37:25.200 --> 00:37:31.280
because we did a darn good job of trying and it didn't work. So we just finally have to make the

588
00:37:31.280 --> 00:37:36.720
choice that is actually true. Even if we feel like it's, we're making it up because nothing

589
00:37:36.720 --> 00:37:43.520
else has worked other than making a choice that it is our reality. And so own yourself enough

590
00:37:43.520 --> 00:37:51.200
where you're like, I have my own free will, um, authority and power that God is giving me to make

591
00:37:51.200 --> 00:37:56.480
my own decision about whether I'm going to agree with him or not. I'm going to wield that power of

592
00:37:56.480 --> 00:38:02.080
my own free will by choosing that that is true by choosing that what he said about me and about

593
00:38:02.080 --> 00:38:08.880
himself is true and immediately everything will diffuse. Oh, another thing that might be helpful

594
00:38:08.880 --> 00:38:16.080
as well is, and I had to practice this on myself. Um, recently, probably like two weeks ago, maybe

595
00:38:17.520 --> 00:38:22.880
I, um, I was struggling with something and, um, my poor husband was washing. You just struggle

596
00:38:22.880 --> 00:38:26.640
with it and I'm crying. And finally I just ran into the bathroom to just deal with it on my own.

597
00:38:28.560 --> 00:38:32.080
It was joining me in the Lord. I'm like, I've just got to get in love with the Lord. I just

598
00:38:32.080 --> 00:38:37.280
deal with this. So I go in there crying and I'm sitting there. I literally was sitting in the

599
00:38:37.280 --> 00:38:43.200
bathtub or was I, maybe I was sitting on top in the layer. I like slid down in the bathtub, you

600
00:38:43.200 --> 00:38:46.400
know, or, you know, it wasn't full of water or anything, but I was just sitting there and I'm

601
00:38:46.400 --> 00:38:52.880
just like, I felt like a child just sitting here, just like, you know, throwing a little internal

602
00:38:52.880 --> 00:38:57.280
temper tantrum or whatever. And I was, and, um, whatever the thing was, I was feeling, I was

603
00:38:57.280 --> 00:39:02.560
feeling, that's what it was. I was feeling mad. I was feeling really mad. And so I was honest

604
00:39:02.560 --> 00:39:09.120
with the Lord about it. Remember how we talk about the negative emotions, um, and, uh, with a lot,

605
00:39:09.120 --> 00:39:16.080
you know, in that particular rest intensive that we were all in. And I, I just accepted

606
00:39:16.160 --> 00:39:21.360
the fact that I felt that way. I acknowledged to myself, cause again, basically I'm giving my soul

607
00:39:21.360 --> 00:39:28.720
a voice. This is how I feel. So this is, this comes along the same lines of, of releasing judgment,

608
00:39:28.720 --> 00:39:32.640
you know, of like, well, the situation shouldn't be like this. It should be different. You know,

609
00:39:32.640 --> 00:39:37.120
this is not how I expected the morning to go. And it's not what I wanted. It's the same thing with

610
00:39:37.120 --> 00:39:42.000
our emotions. Like we can feel like this is not what I wanted. This is not how I should feel.

611
00:39:42.000 --> 00:39:45.440
You know, I should feel better. I should feel different. I should feel more Holy or whatever.

612
00:39:46.240 --> 00:39:52.800
And we're like, you shouldn't be mad. I'm like, but you are. So I just, just like I said, you know,

613
00:39:52.800 --> 00:39:59.760
just allow the situation not be okay. I told myself that like, okay, so I'm just not okay right now.

614
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.000
You know, and I said, I'm just mad.

615
00:40:03.000 --> 00:40:22.000
And I wasn't really talking to God, I kind of was because he I was I was having him be there with me because again we have to make sure we have to go to God in all of our emotions, and just know by experience with him that he really is okay with

616
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:28.000
no matter what emotion we're feeling, and that he just like lets us be there without correcting us.

617
00:40:28.000 --> 00:40:32.000
You'll let us sit with our emotions and he'll sit with us in our emotions and he won't say anything.

618
00:40:32.000 --> 00:40:35.000
You know, you didn't he won't correct us to be like, I'm so sorry.

619
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:51.000
Yeah, yeah, you're mad. That's okay. Be mad, we get, I can sit here we can be like, Okay, so I did that to myself so he was there, but I'm like talking to myself and I'm like, and I chose to accept myself as I was you know how to talk about like losing

620
00:40:51.000 --> 00:41:00.000
to have to like accept her body for as it is without requiring it to change. I did that with my emotions, like, Okay, I'm mad.

621
00:41:00.000 --> 00:41:04.000
And understand I was mad to the point like I was weeping I was so mad.

622
00:41:04.000 --> 00:41:09.000
And I was like, Okay, I'm mad, and immediately it went from a 10 to one.

623
00:41:10.000 --> 00:41:21.000
Simply because I heard myself and I accepted myself as mad. And I didn't require myself to change or to be any different. It's like, this is what it is. I'm not approving of myself being mad.

624
00:41:21.000 --> 00:41:30.000
I'm just accepting myself and I'm not requiring myself to be different. I'm just allow I'm sitting with myself, allowing myself to be mad without telling myself I need to, I need to get out of it.

625
00:41:31.000 --> 00:41:45.000
I went from a 10 to a one, did it fix the problem and the reason why I was mad. No, I knew that was still something that needed to be dealt with it was still some root in there that have prompted it, but it was now going to be easier to deal with now that I wasn't

626
00:41:45.000 --> 00:41:47.000
fighting me.

627
00:41:47.000 --> 00:42:03.000
I wasn't trying to resist the fact that this is how I feel. So anyway, that's another thing that's helpful is just when you're in those situations and you're feeling you're feeling stressed or you're feeling upset or you're feeling overwhelmed you're feeling whatever

628
00:42:03.000 --> 00:42:13.000
it is, you just acknowledge yourself. Oh well, I'm feeling overwhelmed, or I'm feeling mad, and just allow yourself the space to just feel that way. I don't need to sit there and feed on it.

629
00:42:13.000 --> 00:42:20.000
I mean you accept yourself like that. Okay, I am a person who is mad right now. And immediately it'll drop.

630
00:42:20.000 --> 00:42:32.000
It's really is wild so that'll help as well because I mentioned keep mentioning all these things that will help diffuse our God and I okay you know fully accept yourself to spirit is that you are that'll help diffuse it, and then just give it over to the Lord

631
00:42:32.000 --> 00:42:44.000
Okay, Lord, you know what I wanted things to go up to the way today, and they're just not doesn't mean that you won't cause it to it just means that I'm going to stop trying.

632
00:42:45.000 --> 00:42:58.000
So, I'm just going to go through the actions I'm going to literally enjoy the living of it, the living out of today. I'm getting up on the counter and I'm wiping juice off the ceiling and I'm, you know, and then I'm doing this I'm better.

633
00:42:58.000 --> 00:43:10.000
My goodness, you know, several weeks ago, I couldn't have done all this physical exertion, I'm so grateful I can do this. And you know that this is how God created laws of physics to work it's actually really fascinating.

634
00:43:11.000 --> 00:43:20.000
So, you don't have to be that involved in what you think that you just you appreciate living in the moment instead of being frustrated that life is getting in your way of living life.

635
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:27.000
Yeah. What you're doing is you're living life that what you're doing isn't getting in the way that's what we're here doing.

636
00:43:27.000 --> 00:43:39.000
You know, wiping stuff off the ceiling and, you know, and having all of these various things that we can fill our time and our lives with and the fact that we're walking our kids through and guiding them through all of their feelings and all their

637
00:43:39.000 --> 00:43:42.000
frustration all that that's, we're doing it.

638
00:43:42.000 --> 00:43:54.000
It's not keeping us from doing it. It's actually that that is it. So you can enjoy the moment, as opposed to just trying to get through them to get to the real moments, but these are the moments.

639
00:43:54.000 --> 00:43:55.000
Yeah.

640
00:43:55.000 --> 00:43:59.000
I think that's how I've been living. Yeah.

641
00:43:59.000 --> 00:44:07.000
So, something like, I don't know really know if it's along similar lines but I have a question here in regard to like parenting.

642
00:44:07.000 --> 00:44:11.000
I think one of my biggest struggles is boundaries.

643
00:44:11.000 --> 00:44:20.000
My mom was very good at keeping about holding boundaries with me. And so I'd like it to struggle I like feel guilt or like feel.

644
00:44:20.000 --> 00:44:32.000
They're not going to see me as loving when I hold the boundaries, and I mean even things like I'm trying to figure out, like, I want them to walk in freedom, I don't want them to walk.

645
00:44:33.000 --> 00:44:48.000
But like when it comes to food like obviously they're going to choose ice cream over a healthy dinner, you know, like, as a parent, how do I choose. How do I make boundaries while also allowing them freedom.

646
00:44:48.000 --> 00:44:49.000
If that makes sense.

647
00:44:49.000 --> 00:45:00.000
What I found to be very helpful is, is always giving, I say always doing as much as possible to give a child a semblance of control. And by that I don't mean it's fake.

648
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.520
I mean, just like it helps them feel that they're in control, but you're still providing

649
00:45:04.520 --> 00:45:12.240
the what do they call those those bumpers, you know, like the in like bowling, you know,

650
00:45:12.240 --> 00:45:17.040
you're still providing bumpers, you know, but they get to choose.

651
00:45:17.040 --> 00:45:22.240
So sometimes it's like choosing between two things, you know, okay, well, you can either

652
00:45:22.240 --> 00:45:28.600
eat dinner, you know, eat, this is what we're going to have, you can either eat this, or

653
00:45:28.600 --> 00:45:34.280
you could, you know, you can, you know, go get ready for bed early, or you can and not

654
00:45:34.280 --> 00:45:35.880
be in a mean way or anything.

655
00:45:35.880 --> 00:45:39.640
And I'm just making one suggestion, you know, you could, if you want it, everybody parents

656
00:45:39.640 --> 00:45:43.520
differently, you could give them the option between you can have vegetables, and then

657
00:45:43.520 --> 00:45:47.600
they can choose which vegetable they want to eat, but you've made both and they have

658
00:45:47.600 --> 00:45:48.840
to choose one of them.

659
00:45:48.840 --> 00:45:52.760
Yeah, you know, or whatever, but it's not a you have to choose one of them.

660
00:45:52.760 --> 00:45:56.400
I just told you that that I mean, you know, you explain it in different way where it's

661
00:45:56.400 --> 00:46:00.320
like that you're still the mom, you're like, hey, this is what we're doing.

662
00:46:00.320 --> 00:46:03.280
And yes, we're going to eat what it is that we have on the table.

663
00:46:03.280 --> 00:46:07.800
This is what mom's prepared, he said, you know, but, you know, you don't have to eat

664
00:46:07.800 --> 00:46:12.520
the green beans, if you don't want to, but then there's like, the Brussels sprouts, there's

665
00:46:12.520 --> 00:46:16.440
the broccoli or whatever, you know, you can do you want to eat this one?

666
00:46:16.440 --> 00:46:18.960
Or do you want to eat this one?

667
00:46:18.960 --> 00:46:23.840
So that that wording is also more helpful, you know, do you want to do this?

668
00:46:23.840 --> 00:46:27.200
Or do you want to do this, as opposed to you have to do this?

669
00:46:27.200 --> 00:46:33.680
Or you have to do this, that anything that has the have to phrase, right, even an adult

670
00:46:33.680 --> 00:46:38.440
or rebel, you know, but if it's, if it's worded in such a way of like, hey, it's, it's an

671
00:46:38.440 --> 00:46:39.440
option.

672
00:46:39.440 --> 00:46:40.440
Hey, do you choose this?

673
00:46:40.440 --> 00:46:43.880
Or do you choose this in that they hear I have a choice?

674
00:46:43.880 --> 00:46:49.480
What am I and they also learn to take responsibility for their own actions, because I chose, right,

675
00:46:49.480 --> 00:46:50.800
do you choose this?

676
00:46:50.800 --> 00:46:54.720
Or do you want to choose this as opposed to, you know, you need to eat this, or you need

677
00:46:54.720 --> 00:47:00.920
to eat this, which one is it going to be that doesn't make them feel like they're having

678
00:47:00.920 --> 00:47:01.920
control.

679
00:47:01.920 --> 00:47:04.320
But still, you as the mom are still guiding them, you're like, No, these are the only

680
00:47:04.320 --> 00:47:05.320
two options.

681
00:47:05.320 --> 00:47:08.480
No, I know that you don't want to eat either one.

682
00:47:08.480 --> 00:47:11.280
And no going to bed early is not an option.

683
00:47:11.280 --> 00:47:14.600
It's this one or it's this, you know, it's like, do you want to eat the green beans?

684
00:47:14.600 --> 00:47:16.280
Or do you want to eat this?

685
00:47:16.280 --> 00:47:21.600
You know, option number three that you're suggesting, right, that that's not an option.

686
00:47:21.600 --> 00:47:26.600
But you do have a choice to want this one, or do you want this kind of a thing ensure

687
00:47:26.600 --> 00:47:31.000
there are other ways of dealing like what if they refuse to both and, and all of that,

688
00:47:31.000 --> 00:47:32.680
but that's the general idea.

689
00:47:32.680 --> 00:47:36.280
That's helpful, because it gives them freedom, but then you're still providing guidance of

690
00:47:36.280 --> 00:47:37.560
what they need to do.

691
00:47:37.560 --> 00:47:38.560
Right.

692
00:47:38.560 --> 00:47:40.400
Well, I think we're pretty good at that.

693
00:47:40.400 --> 00:47:44.520
But although you gave me some other ideas, I think like, like, especially being at my

694
00:47:44.520 --> 00:47:47.160
parents' house at our house, we just don't have a lot of stuff.

695
00:47:47.160 --> 00:47:51.640
Like on Saturdays, we have ice cream, like we have dessert on Saturdays, but my parents

696
00:47:51.640 --> 00:47:53.480
have dessert all the time.

697
00:47:53.480 --> 00:47:56.560
And so it's like, you know, my kids like, Oh, can I have ice cream tonight?

698
00:47:56.560 --> 00:48:02.680
And it's kind of like, and they have like, Titus will have like a massive bowl and want

699
00:48:02.680 --> 00:48:03.680
a second bowl.

700
00:48:03.680 --> 00:48:08.920
And it's kind of like, I don't want him to have food issues, because I controlled everything

701
00:48:08.920 --> 00:48:09.920
he ate.

702
00:48:09.920 --> 00:48:13.080
But like, what do I I don't, I don't know what to do.

703
00:48:13.080 --> 00:48:16.080
Because it's like, I don't believe it's healthy for him to have two massive bowls of ice cream

704
00:48:16.080 --> 00:48:17.720
as a 12 year old.

705
00:48:17.720 --> 00:48:25.160
Like, I don't know if you have ideas for that, like,

706
00:48:25.160 --> 00:48:34.880
well, I mean, there, you could give them actually a, you can also tell kids no, and give them

707
00:48:34.880 --> 00:48:37.000
an option of something else.

708
00:48:37.000 --> 00:48:41.480
Just like that whole thing of like, I was giving an example of like two different vegetables,

709
00:48:41.880 --> 00:48:44.880
but then they're like, Well, I don't want to eat either one of them.

710
00:48:44.880 --> 00:48:45.880
Can I do such and such?

711
00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:46.880
Instead?

712
00:48:46.880 --> 00:48:49.480
I'm sorry, I'm afraid that that's not an option.

713
00:48:49.480 --> 00:48:51.480
You can do you know, do you choose this?

714
00:48:51.480 --> 00:48:52.480
Or do you choose this?

715
00:48:52.480 --> 00:48:57.480
So it's the same kind of a thing is it's like, it doesn't, you can tell the kid if they say,

716
00:48:57.480 --> 00:48:58.960
Hey, look, you know, I want to do this.

717
00:48:58.960 --> 00:49:00.640
Well, I'm sorry, we can't do this.

718
00:49:00.640 --> 00:49:02.800
But you know, would you like to do this?

719
00:49:02.800 --> 00:49:03.920
Or would you like to do this?

720
00:49:03.920 --> 00:49:05.080
And they're like, totally.

721
00:49:05.080 --> 00:49:06.640
It's non dessert related.

722
00:49:06.640 --> 00:49:11.440
If you don't want them to have dessert, I have to have to search, be given something else

723
00:49:11.440 --> 00:49:17.560
where they feel that they can choose as opposed to just a flat out, no, or no.

724
00:49:17.560 --> 00:49:22.240
And now you have there's only one other choice, because it's not a choice.

725
00:49:22.240 --> 00:49:24.040
If this is a no, this isn't it.

726
00:49:24.040 --> 00:49:26.280
And you told them no, do this instead.

727
00:49:26.280 --> 00:49:27.760
That's not a that's not a choice.

728
00:49:27.760 --> 00:49:33.320
They still they feel the stifling of I'm not saying that it's wrong to do that as a parent.

729
00:49:33.320 --> 00:49:35.680
I'm just saying it makes it harder.

730
00:49:35.680 --> 00:49:38.160
And then if you're talking about like, how do you provide freedom?

731
00:49:38.160 --> 00:49:40.240
How do you teach freedom within guidance?

732
00:49:40.280 --> 00:49:42.200
You know, that's what I'm talking about.

733
00:49:42.200 --> 00:49:44.320
I'm not saying that the other you can't ever do.

734
00:49:44.320 --> 00:49:49.440
I'm just saying it doesn't make things harder, especially with certain kids who just really need choices,

735
00:49:49.440 --> 00:49:53.840
you know, really need to have some control, you know, like, well, you can't do that.

736
00:49:53.840 --> 00:49:55.240
You can absolutely say no.

737
00:49:55.240 --> 00:50:00.000
But if it helps them and keeps that, you know, helps them like in the way that you're wanting to like teach.

738
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.840
freedom, you come up with some other choices, something they

739
00:50:02.840 --> 00:50:05.320
can do, you know, I'm afraid, you know, can't, we're not going

740
00:50:05.320 --> 00:50:09.520
to have any ice cream tonight. But was wondering, you know,

741
00:50:09.520 --> 00:50:14.800
would you like to go to? Would you like to, you know, read me

742
00:50:14.800 --> 00:50:17.160
to read, you know, a couple of chapters of such and such

743
00:50:17.160 --> 00:50:20.360
tonight? Or would you like to do that? I mean, it's totally

744
00:50:20.360 --> 00:50:24.960
nondescript. Yeah, you know, and come up with options that sound

745
00:50:24.960 --> 00:50:31.360
fun. And that still allow you to say no, without creating

746
00:50:31.600 --> 00:50:35.040
rebellion. Right, you know, right there, but you're still

747
00:50:35.040 --> 00:50:38.280
saying no, you can absolutely do that as the parent, right?

748
00:50:39.400 --> 00:50:42.000
Help, right, if you give them some kind of a semblance that

749
00:50:42.000 --> 00:50:43.840
they can choose something else, because really, what you're

750
00:50:43.840 --> 00:50:47.480
doing is you're creating real life scenarios. We can't don't

751
00:50:47.480 --> 00:50:50.360
always get to do what we want to do. But there's always choices

752
00:50:50.360 --> 00:50:53.960
of doing something else instead, even if it's totally unrelated.

753
00:50:54.360 --> 00:50:57.440
Right? You know, sometimes the choices we don't give ourselves

754
00:50:57.440 --> 00:50:59.520
for between two different desserts, sometimes it's

755
00:50:59.520 --> 00:51:02.200
something instead of dessert. Okay, so I'm not going to eat

756
00:51:02.200 --> 00:51:04.440
dessert tonight. But you know, instead, I'm just going to go to

757
00:51:04.440 --> 00:51:07.000
bed a little early. And I'm going to like draw myself a long

758
00:51:07.000 --> 00:51:09.480
bath. And then I'm going to read a book, read a book in bed for a

759
00:51:09.480 --> 00:51:13.720
while. It's totally unrelated to dessert. You know, we do the

760
00:51:13.720 --> 00:51:16.560
same thing with kids, you know, get in, just let them know, Hey,

761
00:51:16.560 --> 00:51:19.720
look, the world is big. You know, there's so many fun

762
00:51:19.720 --> 00:51:24.840
things to write. So just kind of helps them learn to find more

763
00:51:24.840 --> 00:51:30.080
fun in life and simply what they focused on. It helps. And then

764
00:51:30.080 --> 00:51:33.080
they can start thinking of that on their own as well. Like, Oh,

765
00:51:33.080 --> 00:51:37.560
what else could I do? Right? Right. True. Okay. Yeah, that's

766
00:51:37.560 --> 00:51:42.640
helpful. Yeah. And totally. Just one other example, like say, for

767
00:51:42.640 --> 00:51:44.960
instance, if they play want to play video games, you're like,

768
00:51:45.000 --> 00:51:48.040
I don't know, no more video games. You know, you're like,

769
00:51:48.040 --> 00:51:50.920
No, can't. We're not gonna do video games. But would you like

770
00:51:50.920 --> 00:51:56.120
to? We, you know, would you like to play? If I were to, you know,

771
00:51:56.120 --> 00:51:59.520
play baseball with you for a while? Or would you like to, you

772
00:51:59.520 --> 00:52:04.520
know, shoot hoops, you know, in the, in the, what do you call

773
00:52:04.520 --> 00:52:08.520
it in the driveway? Whatever? Well, that's, it's because you

774
00:52:08.520 --> 00:52:11.320
were wanting to get them outside. And you're wanting to

775
00:52:11.320 --> 00:52:15.760
say no to, to, to the video games, kind of put a couple of

776
00:52:15.880 --> 00:52:19.440
choices outside. Right? Do you want to do this? Or do you want

777
00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:22.000
to do this? So it's just, so you just have to learn to be

778
00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:24.640
creative. And the longer that you do it, the more it'll come

779
00:52:24.640 --> 00:52:27.400
to you in the moment, because there'll be a way of thinking

780
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:29.720
because really, that's what you're doing is you are having

781
00:52:29.720 --> 00:52:34.360
to change your way of thinking about life. Instead of just

782
00:52:34.440 --> 00:52:39.240
instead of this perspective of how do I control their behavior?

783
00:52:40.240 --> 00:52:43.080
Think of it more, but that's harder to come up with all of

784
00:52:43.080 --> 00:52:45.600
these examples that I mentioned, if you're trying to control

785
00:52:45.600 --> 00:52:48.720
behavior. But if you're just if you're trying to if you're

786
00:52:48.720 --> 00:52:50.840
thinking about it from the perspective of my word, you

787
00:52:50.840 --> 00:52:53.560
know, I love my children, I want them to have fun, I want them to

788
00:52:53.560 --> 00:52:56.360
whatever, you know, then it's easier to think, okay, yeah, but

789
00:52:56.360 --> 00:52:58.720
the reason why I don't want them to have ice cream is because I

790
00:52:58.720 --> 00:53:02.680
love them. And it's not because I want to tell them no, and I'm

791
00:53:02.680 --> 00:53:04.640
going to control their behavior. I'm like, it's not good. But you

792
00:53:04.640 --> 00:53:07.720
know what, I love my kid. And I love to see him happy. Oh, let's

793
00:53:07.720 --> 00:53:10.520
see if I can come up with like, something else that's fun for

794
00:53:10.520 --> 00:53:13.360
him to do that, like, leads him in a more positive direction

795
00:53:13.360 --> 00:53:15.800
spends more time in a reading or spends more time doing

796
00:53:15.800 --> 00:53:19.480
whatever. So really, it's you changing your perspective that

797
00:53:19.480 --> 00:53:22.080
helps in your approach to life and what it is you're actually

798
00:53:22.080 --> 00:53:26.320
trying to accomplish that will help examples more readily come

799
00:53:26.320 --> 00:53:34.200
to mind in the moment. So anyway, those ideas. Yeah, yeah.

800
00:53:36.480 --> 00:53:39.400
Well, let's see what time is that I've got another Oh, I have

801
00:53:39.400 --> 00:53:43.480
another call in five minutes. But do you have anything else?

802
00:53:43.480 --> 00:53:44.200
Any other question?

803
00:53:46.040 --> 00:53:46.760
Anything that

804
00:53:47.720 --> 00:53:51.840
something that I've just briefly that I've, I've been my sister

805
00:53:51.840 --> 00:53:54.920
introduced me to? Well, what it is to be a highly sensitive

806
00:53:54.920 --> 00:53:56.640
person. I don't know if you've heard that term.

807
00:53:57.120 --> 00:54:00.880
Yeah, I don't remember what it means. But other than just like

808
00:54:00.920 --> 00:54:02.800
ultra ultra sensitive, but yeah,

809
00:54:02.920 --> 00:54:08.960
it's like sensitive, like, lights, loud, bright, loud. Yes,

810
00:54:09.200 --> 00:54:12.160
lots of people, they just need a lot more alone time to like,

811
00:54:13.480 --> 00:54:17.880
yes. And so I know that I'm one of them. But then I know that

812
00:54:17.880 --> 00:54:21.600
you've talked about before that, you know, introverts and

813
00:54:21.600 --> 00:54:27.840
extroverts are not really a thing like. So I guess, and I

814
00:54:27.840 --> 00:54:30.480
know, I don't know if you can have a short answer for this.

815
00:54:30.880 --> 00:54:33.160
But I guess, can that be overcome? Do you believe that

816
00:54:33.160 --> 00:54:37.080
can be overcome? Oh, absolutely. Something that I can, I just

817
00:54:37.120 --> 00:54:38.200
accepted myself.

818
00:54:38.920 --> 00:54:46.360
Yeah, oh, absolutely. So it, you know, it can be. But what I

819
00:54:46.360 --> 00:54:50.760
would suggest is that you can't overcome it by like, well, you

820
00:54:50.760 --> 00:54:53.800
technically can, wouldn't try to overcome it by like, sheer

821
00:54:53.800 --> 00:54:56.360
willpower, whatever, I would try to overcome it kind of like in

822
00:54:56.360 --> 00:55:00.280
same sense of losing weight, to accept that.

823
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.320
this is bothering you and accept yourself,

824
00:55:03.320 --> 00:55:04.400
kind of like negative emotions,

825
00:55:04.400 --> 00:55:05.720
like, oh, I'm mad or whatever.

826
00:55:05.720 --> 00:55:06.840
Just like, okay, I'm being,

827
00:55:06.840 --> 00:55:08.960
I'm actually really being bothered by this

828
00:55:08.960 --> 00:55:12.160
and see if that immediately starts to at least diffuse it.

829
00:55:13.080 --> 00:55:15.360
So stop resisting you and thinking,

830
00:55:15.360 --> 00:55:17.700
I shouldn't be like this, I should be different.

831
00:55:17.700 --> 00:55:20.380
Accept yourself like it, but not accept it like,

832
00:55:20.380 --> 00:55:21.600
well, this is the way I am.

833
00:55:21.600 --> 00:55:24.960
And you know, it's just don't identify with it,

834
00:55:24.960 --> 00:55:29.960
but love and accept yourself in that,

835
00:55:30.080 --> 00:55:32.160
expression of, well, you know,

836
00:55:32.160 --> 00:55:34.560
I'm feeling very hypersensitive to this light

837
00:55:34.560 --> 00:55:36.240
or I'm being hypersensitive to, you know,

838
00:55:36.240 --> 00:55:38.880
to the mattress or, you know, whatever,

839
00:55:38.880 --> 00:55:40.200
like the princess and the pea, you know,

840
00:55:40.200 --> 00:55:42.040
she was all stressed and stuff.

841
00:55:42.040 --> 00:55:46.080
So anyway, that's what I would do.

842
00:55:46.080 --> 00:55:48.120
You do it by stopping resisting yourself

843
00:55:48.120 --> 00:55:49.480
and thinking, oh, I shouldn't be like this.

844
00:55:49.480 --> 00:55:50.360
I want to be different.

845
00:55:50.360 --> 00:55:51.720
I want to whatever.

846
00:55:51.720 --> 00:55:53.760
Fully loving yourself the way it is

847
00:55:53.760 --> 00:55:57.320
because it's actually your body thinking it's under,

848
00:55:57.320 --> 00:56:01.000
it's hyper alert.

849
00:56:01.000 --> 00:56:04.440
It's like a body that's susceptible to disease or whatever.

850
00:56:04.440 --> 00:56:07.320
It's like, it's that same kind of an idea.

851
00:56:07.320 --> 00:56:09.600
It's the body just thinking, you know,

852
00:56:09.600 --> 00:56:12.760
I need to be hyper vigilant because I'm always under threat

853
00:56:13.640 --> 00:56:17.240
and you need to just let it know, hey, you're not,

854
00:56:17.240 --> 00:56:19.160
but you know what you think you are.

855
00:56:19.160 --> 00:56:20.400
So that's okay.

856
00:56:20.400 --> 00:56:21.320
I'll be here with you.

857
00:56:21.320 --> 00:56:22.160
Yeah, you know, you're,

858
00:56:22.160 --> 00:56:26.040
cause you're not trying to stop yourself from,

859
00:56:26.040 --> 00:56:29.760
and just tell yourself that it's not true,

860
00:56:29.760 --> 00:56:33.040
that it's not real, you know, or just quilt yourself.

861
00:56:33.040 --> 00:56:34.360
You just fully accept it the way it is.

862
00:56:34.360 --> 00:56:36.160
And then it will no longer need to be

863
00:56:36.160 --> 00:56:38.480
in self-protection mode against you

864
00:56:38.480 --> 00:56:40.480
because it actually finds that you're providing it

865
00:56:40.480 --> 00:56:42.760
a safe enough place to be whatever it is.

866
00:56:42.760 --> 00:56:45.160
And then it'll have the courage to change.

867
00:56:45.160 --> 00:56:47.120
And I can almost promise you,

868
00:56:47.120 --> 00:56:50.560
because I believe that this is actually going to happen.

869
00:56:50.560 --> 00:56:54.800
It's going to greatly reduce, if not completely go away.

870
00:56:55.800 --> 00:56:56.640
Okay.

871
00:56:56.640 --> 00:56:58.280
Yeah. I'm not, I'm not sure.

872
00:57:00.160 --> 00:57:02.560
As a friend of mine says, you know, it's not,

873
00:57:02.560 --> 00:57:05.120
it's not a best say of the Lord,

874
00:57:05.120 --> 00:57:06.800
but it's stronger than an opinion.

875
00:57:06.800 --> 00:57:08.120
So there you go.

876
00:57:09.760 --> 00:57:11.400
It's the sense I have.

877
00:57:11.400 --> 00:57:14.200
So anyway, but yeah, it really is amazing

878
00:57:14.200 --> 00:57:16.800
how much we overcome if we just stop resisting it.

879
00:57:17.920 --> 00:57:18.760
Okay.

880
00:57:18.760 --> 00:57:19.960
All right.

881
00:57:19.960 --> 00:57:21.080
Yeah.

882
00:57:21.080 --> 00:57:21.920
All right.

883
00:57:21.920 --> 00:57:22.760
Well, thanks Ashley.

884
00:57:22.760 --> 00:57:24.480
It's good to visit with you.

885
00:57:25.400 --> 00:57:27.280
I'm sorry that you're going through what you are.

886
00:57:27.280 --> 00:57:29.920
Just remember that you are truly,

887
00:57:29.920 --> 00:57:32.640
I know, I don't mean any of this to sound cliche-ish.

888
00:57:32.640 --> 00:57:35.880
It's like, it really truly is that I promise you

889
00:57:35.880 --> 00:57:38.600
is the solution that fixes everything.

890
00:57:38.600 --> 00:57:40.760
Is to choose that you are as valuable

891
00:57:40.760 --> 00:57:41.600
as God says that you are.

892
00:57:41.600 --> 00:57:42.960
To remember who he says you are.

893
00:57:42.960 --> 00:57:44.320
You are a king.

894
00:57:44.320 --> 00:57:47.120
You are a son of God, you know,

895
00:57:47.120 --> 00:57:49.040
and you do have that authority.

896
00:57:49.040 --> 00:57:54.040
You're not responsible to anything for any situation,

897
00:57:54.240 --> 00:57:56.000
you know, and God doesn't obligate you

898
00:57:56.000 --> 00:57:57.440
to any of those things.

899
00:57:59.080 --> 00:58:01.800
You just choose, you just choose him

900
00:58:01.800 --> 00:58:03.480
and choose that you and he are okay.

901
00:58:03.480 --> 00:58:06.880
And then from that will flow all of the obedience.

902
00:58:06.880 --> 00:58:08.960
From that will flow very clearly

903
00:58:08.960 --> 00:58:11.040
being able to hear from the Holy Spirit.

904
00:58:11.040 --> 00:58:14.440
All of that comes from letting everything go

905
00:58:14.440 --> 00:58:16.520
and stop trying to make it happen

906
00:58:16.520 --> 00:58:18.360
and stop trying to keep all the balls in the air

907
00:58:18.360 --> 00:58:20.000
and try to do the right thing.

908
00:58:20.000 --> 00:58:22.640
Abandon doing the right thing

909
00:58:22.640 --> 00:58:24.160
and choose yourself instead

910
00:58:24.160 --> 00:58:26.760
and who God says that you are

911
00:58:26.760 --> 00:58:30.280
because he says that you effortlessly do more right

912
00:58:30.280 --> 00:58:33.480
by his character than all of the striving

913
00:58:33.480 --> 00:58:36.920
in which that can accomplish that you're doing it all with.

914
00:58:36.920 --> 00:58:40.480
But you have to trust that it'll happen when you let it go.

915
00:58:40.480 --> 00:58:41.520
And it's hard to let it go

916
00:58:41.520 --> 00:58:44.440
because we're like, if I let it go, it won't happen.

917
00:58:44.440 --> 00:58:48.080
And he's just like, no, just like risk letting it all go

918
00:58:48.080 --> 00:58:50.800
to hell in a handbasket and choose me instead.

919
00:58:50.800 --> 00:58:52.760
And then you'll find out that it won't.

920
00:58:52.760 --> 00:58:53.800
Yeah.

921
00:58:53.800 --> 00:58:54.640
Okay.

922
00:58:54.640 --> 00:58:55.880
I feel like I need to re-watch this

923
00:58:55.880 --> 00:58:57.280
and go and take notes.

924
00:58:58.560 --> 00:58:59.840
Well, it will be,

925
00:58:59.840 --> 00:59:02.120
I will tell you when it's up and available

926
00:59:02.120 --> 00:59:04.800
for you to access and watch.

927
00:59:04.800 --> 00:59:06.680
It will be on the new platform

928
00:59:06.680 --> 00:59:08.440
which I'll explain it all to you later.

929
00:59:08.440 --> 00:59:10.400
But anyway, so I'll let you know.

930
00:59:10.400 --> 00:59:12.640
I'm trying to get everything.

931
00:59:12.640 --> 00:59:14.600
I'm trying to get new internet today

932
00:59:14.600 --> 00:59:17.600
because I'm not able to upload anything right now

933
00:59:17.600 --> 00:59:19.280
because I don't have good enough internet for that.

934
00:59:19.280 --> 00:59:20.920
I'm using cell service for this.

935
00:59:20.920 --> 00:59:23.280
And, but when I do, I'll let you know.

936
00:59:23.280 --> 00:59:24.120
Okay.

937
00:59:24.120 --> 00:59:24.960
Sounds good.

938
00:59:24.960 --> 00:59:25.800
Thank you.

939
00:59:25.800 --> 00:59:26.640
Good to see you, Casey.

940
00:59:26.640 --> 00:59:27.480
You too.

941
00:59:27.480 --> 00:59:28.320
All right.

942
00:59:28.320 --> 00:59:29.160
Bye.