like that the Lord was still going to provide for me in my business. If that's like, I was like,
if he's going to let, if he wants me to step back, then he's going to find a way to, uh,
to provide for me. Okay. Sorry. One more text and then we're done. Yeah. Okay. Um,
and, and then that was the month that I hit the new rank and everything like had record-breaking
sales and everything. And I was also with my social media, whatever. Um, and then it's like,
it's so hard to explain. There's it's like, for so long, I had all these ideas of how,
of how everything was going to look, you know? And like, I set out to, to prove that I was gonna
do this and to reach the top of the company and like all this stuff. And I could never imagine
my life without my business or like without Young Living, you know? And actually we, uh, Cheryl and
I just went out last night, Cheryl Fuller, we went out last night to a restaurant and we're
talking about it. And I told her like, I feel like for the first time in my life, I can see
that my life would be okay without having it look like I thought it was going to look. And it's
kind of, it's kind of scary. Like, I feel like I had all of these dreams and goals and vision and
like so much creativity was coming out of me, like so much life was being poured out of me.
And now it feels like that's stopping in a way. Like I still feel so much inside of me,
but I feel like it's not meant to come out of me the same way that it was,
if that makes sense. And it feels frustrating. It feels frustrating to me because I still feel
so much inside of me that wants to come out. But then it's like, I can see everything with my
business. It's like, I can see the Lord has already showed me like everything that I want
to attain to. It's almost like I have already or that I will, I don't know which one it is.
It's like, I can see it all. I can see everything that I wanted, everything. It's mine. But yet
it's like a house at the end of the lane. And he's like, look, it's there, but just stay here
with me for a little bit. And I'm like, I don't understand. Like, does that mean that I just need
to like quit or need to just chill out? But then I'm like, why do I still have so much frustration
inside of me that just wants, something wants to come out of me, but it feels like it's clogged.
I don't know if that makes sense. I feel like there's a, you know how you say that there's
like one outlet into us, into our soul that like the Lord flows through us. And then it all comes
out in different facets of our marriage and finances and business and personal life. And I
feel like everything's flowing except business. Like I feel like marriage is wonderful and finances
are fine and like all these things. And then it's like, there's a dam in my business and it's just
cut off, but there's still water flowing out. That's like spilling out over it. Just, I don't
know where to put it. Interesting. So that makes, I don't know, like, I don't know what your
perspective would be on that or if that even makes sense. Well, I'm trying to, I'm trying to
get a bit more of a grasp on it, I guess, than I feel like I have right now. So when you say that
it's like a house at the end of the line and he says it's there, he's saying, yeah, so it's there
and you can have it, but I'm inviting you to stay with me here right now. Or is, or, or what, what
was the, what was the, yeah, but you're just here with me right now. Is he saying, yeah, don't go
for it yet. Or is he saying, yeah, go for it. Or I can have a different option for you. And he's
asking which one you want. So what are you talking about? I would, I, I told Cheryl last night, it's
like a hard no and not like a no, like a mean no. It's like, it's like when I tell Eric, you can't
have candy. It's like, yeah, you could go eat the candy, but it's going to make you sick. Like, I
don't want you to eat that. Got it. Does that make sense? Yes. It's like, I can, it's, it's like,
it's all there and it looks wonderful and, and all these things, but yet the Lord's like, no,
like don't pursue that. Yeah. Yeah. Does that help? That's exciting. It's so exciting because
he's saying, you know, Hey, you have a, it sounds like I'm not, I'm not declaring this, but it,
there's a possibility and you can pursue this in your spirit. You can pursue this with the Lord.
What that can, what that can mean is that, you know, you are given an option of the Lord saying,
okay, this thing that you want, you've been wondering, you know, can, can this happen?
He's like, yes, it can. And it's right there and you can actually do it. You can make that choice
and be successful as opposed to making a choice, not being successful. You can make that choice
and be successful. Or I have something else. I have another gift for you. Which one do you want?
And it was asked me that before as well. I remember when I got my car, I remember exactly
where I was at the time. And the Lord, and I was thinking about this car that I wanted to get.
which is the car I have now.
And he told me, and I kept thinking
about buying a manual, a stick shift.
Well, I'd never owned a stick shift.
I had driven a stick shift,
maybe like three times in my life.
And, but the guys that kept trying to sell me on the car,
they were just like, okay, by the way,
cause I was asking the difference
between a manual and an automatic.
And they said, you know, for a car like this,
you really want, I recommend that you buy the manual
because you'll feel so,
because people drive this car to feel like they're driving.
And they feel like they're driving a lot more
with a manual than with an automatic.
So I kept having this idea in my mind of a manual.
Well, I'd never wanted a manual before.
And so finally God said, I asked the Lord,
Lord, just a second,
is the reason why I keep thinking about this
because you, and is that you in your spirit
planting something in me and an idea in me
and you want me to pursue it?
And he, and, or is this just something out of my imagination?
And the Lord very clearly told me, he said,
Ashley, you can get an automatic if you want to.
And, and it, I will still give you the car
and it'll be, and you will love it.
He said, but he said, you could get a manual if you'd like.
And he said, I would like to give that to you as a gift.
It's like, well, that is an interesting phrase,
you know, that he would want to give me the manual
instead of the automatic as a gift.
So I knew, excuse me,
can you believe, I just took some, some pills
and I forgot that I didn't have enough on my stomach
to keep me from being nauseated.
And, and so when I sneeze when I'm nauseated.
Well, if you need to go grab food, go grab something.
Seriously, I don't mind at all.
If you want to go grab a bite to eat.
Yeah, I mean, I just kind of like grab like a little bit
of bread or something.
I thought that the milk I had tonight was enough
and it's not.
You sneeze when you're nauseous.
Now I've never heard that one before.
Isn't that wild?
I just discovered that about, I don't know,
like a year ago.
So, so I think I will go grab like something.
So my, my point is that it may be
that God is giving you an option
and he's saying, excuse me, that you can do either.
But if you take, but, but he has an unknown
or in other, in other words, unknown to you right now
option that he would like to gift you with
because it's better.
I say better, you know?
And so does that make sense?
But it's still currently an unknown for you.
That's why, and it can feel frustrating
because you're like, wait a minute, you know,
I have so much in me, Lord.
And if you're telling me you want me
to do something different, what would that be?
And because I feel that, you know,
I could pursue this other and that's where my crew
and be successful, my creative,
the creative aspect of my spirit can be flowing.
And, but, but it feels like if you're, if that's,
if you're encouraging me to say no to that,
then what would the option be?
Because until then, Lord, it feels stifled.
It feels like, you know, it feels,
there's an aspect of living out of the spirit, Lord,
where I feel alive.
And I feel that, you know, like you said,
that the dam is just, is stopped up.
So it's, I mean, it sounds exciting to me.
And yes, it's possible to be under,
to feel all of those things and not have an answer yet.
Like, okay, God, if you're recommending, you know,
not do this, then what, where else are we going to go?
And because I feel like I have all of this water
flowing out of me.
But the exciting thing about that as well
is the fact that having all of that in you
and feeling it, it will, that aspect of frustration.
Okay, how, okay.
Continuing with the analogy of water.
Water, it will find a way to do what it needs to do.
It will find a way to flow.
It'll find a way to, so kind of like similar to the idea
of necessity is the mother of invention.
If you are feeling frustrated,
if God has given you something
and that spirit is meant to move and to flow,
you being in a, feeling frustrated and feeling this,
feeling this pressure, so to speak, is a good thing
because you're more likely to find and to explore options
and to explore options and to find the next thing.
Feeling the pressure.
I don't know what I'm doing with my life and I don't really know what makes me feel alive
and whatever.
Well, then sometimes things like that, there's so much lethargy in it that we don't have
that pressure building up that will naturally find a way out.
So I mean, I know it doesn't feel fun, trust me, I'm very aware of that.
But as far as like potential for moving in a particular direction, I think it's very
exciting.
I think it's a really good place that you're at, meaning like there is full of possibilities.
And remember that in the trees in the garden, there were a lot, there were a lot of trees
in the garden.
And so in other words, who knows what it is that the Lord has for you and what you could
do with it.
You can do, you can do, there's been, there's another person in the group that I'm thinking
of very specifically that I had, that I visited with a month ago.
And they were wondering, well, what is it that I want to do?
And I just, you know, and so I just encouraged them, you know, well, think about it, you
know, what, what makes you come alive?
What is it about what it is you're currently doing that you enjoy, forgetting what it is
that you don't enjoy right now?
What is it that you do enjoy?
And what are possible ways that that can come out?
And it doesn't have to be traditional, you know, that whole idea of like thinking outside
the box.
So I recommend going back and looking at, oh, what is it?
Is it, I think it's making goals from a place of rest.
And what is that?
Oh, I don't remember which session that is.
I think it's a session that specifically has the word goals in it.
And I would recommend looking at that, that because in that I talked about how to, how
to not stifle our creative thinking when we're trying to come up with ideas that we've never
come up with before and how to not judge the creativity, not to judge, not to think,
not to immediately dismiss ideas that pop up and bubble up and determine and put a label
on them.
Like don't label things, creative ideas that come up that are traditional or aren't traditional
and think, oh, well, this is good or this is bad, or I know that this will work.
I don't know that this will work or I've known since third grade, since my teacher told me
that that doesn't work.
And I've known by experience, this doesn't work.
That's judging things and it stifles creativity.
So if we come up with an idea that quote unquote, isn't going to work, just let it sit there
without labeling it that, oh, it won't work.
And then you're more like, and then you just, and then you just brainstorm.
And by brainstorm, I don't mean necessarily in your head, which obviously it can be part
of the process, but it's, it's like a brainstorming of your spirit.
You're just allow your spirit to move and all these ideas just kind of bubble up.
And then you just kind of, and without judging them, you're more likely to move ahead faster.
Coming up with an idea of like, well, how, what new outlet can I find?
So does all that make sense?
Yeah, no, that makes sense.
That makes sense.
And I, it's comforting to know, like, it resonates with me that there is an unknown, like, I
don't doubt that there is something else that the Lord's going to bring.
And when he does, I'm going to be like, that's it.
Like, I know that that's what it is.
And it's comforting to know I can be OK with from the here to then, if that makes sense.
Like the, you know, the waiting of it and to not to not feel like I can't do what I'm
meant to do or like that I'm that my spirit can't still flow out of me.
You know what I mean?
Like, if there isn't a specific avenue, then I can't do anything type of thing.
But to know that it's just OK, you know, the waiting and the and whatever, I mean, whatever
may be happening, it feels fine to me.
And I'm not used to it.
It almost feels like, I don't know, I've never felt like this way in life before.
And it kind of scares me because it feels so.
I see who I was when I was in business, and I feel like I was so, like, driven and motivated.
Like, I feel myself changing almost.
It feels it feels really weird.
And sometimes I just I think I just need to be reassured that.
It's okay.
You know, all of the, the change and everything, because it's like, Oh my word.
If somebody would have told me a year ago that I would even be considering like not
being in Young Living anymore and like not doing my business the way I thought it was
like I would have lost my mind.
I would have lost it.
And like to feel that I can even have the possibility of thinking and exploring other
options is really exciting because I've, I've never felt this way.
Never.
I've never felt safe enough to feel like, like I'm not failing if I don't do Young Living,
you know?
Correct.
Yeah.
And I'm sorry.
Would you let me use the restroom?
I'm sorry.
I keep interrupting your conversation.
I'm so sorry.
The only reason why I'm actually explaining such an embarrassing thing is I'm just like,
I don't want her to think that I just like, I'm sorry, I've got something else I need
to do for a second.
It really is an embarrassing thing, I'll be right back.
Okay, sorry about that.
Totally fine.
So I'm really excited to hear everything that you're telling me because I mean, that's,
you know, it's, it shows that, you know, you've owned all of this, you've really have shifted.
And so all of these things inside you that were structured around your old sense of identity,
you know, excuse me, and they, they're no longer in alignment with who it is you really
are.
So they're all trying to adjust according to who it is that God has declared you to
be.
So there's going to be, you know, all this shifting of like, well, I'm in a place that
I've never been in before.
And I've never, I never thought about it like this and whatever.
It's freedom.
It's, it's, it's us being able to learn to operate in a way in which we're not fettered
to something.
Excuse me.
That's a good Rebecca word, right?
Fettered.
Meaning like, we learned that one, that we're not fettered anymore to, and you know, and
enslaved to the, how do I explain it?
The ways that we have believed that things had to be because of, you know, of our schooling
or our, our church or our whatever.
And so it's kind of like all of a sudden, when we realized there's actually a world
of possibilities, well then how would we live as opposed to being, being dictated to by
our environment when we're actually, actually supposed to dictate to the environment, the
laws and the rules by which it should operate.
And it's, and it's, and it's shifting from being submitted to and subjected to.
laws and rules and realizing that we're above them,
we tell them what they should look like.
If they don't look like something that in us thinks,
you know what, something's not quite right here.
It's because it's not right.
And we're supposed to govern them in order to,
coming into alignment with what,
who God says that he is and believing with,
in believing in him,
then we declare it to be something totally different
than what it is that we're seeing this for.
And that's why whatever's going on,
it's like, this doesn't feel right.
Well, because it's, you know,
so often it's like, because it's not right,
but it's only able to manifest what it is
that we have believed in our enslaved state thus far.
So anyway, it's very exciting.
It's very exciting.
And I'm thrilled, you know,
that you think that you feel, you know, released from that.
Some ideas are not that you're asking about this,
but it's just some things to keep
in the back of your mind.
It could be that,
and you might say that no, God,
you can feel that it is,
that God is like saying no to all of young living, period.
But another possibility, again, you know,
I'm being creative and not judging ideas,
is I would just encourage you to also be open
to maybe God saying that,
well, yeah, it can be, it's still in young,
it can still be on young living,
but it's going to be totally different
from how it's you have you and maybe Cheryl
and maybe anybody else
has run a young living business before.
So, and therefore your spirit will flow out
in a very untraditional way,
but it's still within young living.
That may not be what he's saying.
I'm just, the only reason that I wanted to point that out
is whether or not it has to do with this situation.
It might have to do with another situation
that you'll run into in life, personal or professional,
where when God says no,
we should keep our view open to understand
it might not necessarily be no
to what it is that we're in.
It might be no to how it is we're doing it
and that that's going to end up changing
and that we're thinking, well, wait a minute,
the only way to get results in X, Y, and Z
is to do it this way.
And God's like, no, that's what everybody else thinks.
And so just wanted to mention that
because even if you think, oh, no, no, no,
it's very obvious God is saying no to young living,
just the idea that he could possibly not feel
that he could not be talking about young living
and could be talking about other,
could be talking about how to continue to do young living,
but do it in a different way.
Just simply the idea, even if you automatically know,
oh yeah, but I know that that's not true
because I know what God's saying.
Even if it's not true, just the idea of that possibility
broadens our horizons and broadens our creativity
to consider other options outside of young living.
Just the idea that we're not even limited to
it's young living, yes or no,
but that God, when he's guiding us,
it can just mean no doing what we're doing
and it just in a different way.
So I just mentioned that to kind of like, again,
broaden the horizons and the box
in which you can creatively think
and explore and dream with the Lord.
That makes sense.
Yeah.
And then one other thing too is I have so many women
who are trying to launch their business
and who are looking to me for leadership and help.
How can I lead them when literally like the thought
of trying to help them with the logistics
of their business, like I can't even describe
how morbidly dreadful that sounds.
Like the other night I had a girl call.
She had some questions about like launching her business
and I was like, yeah, like we'll hop on a Zoom call.
And like literally everything was working against me
and I knew, I knew it wasn't from my spirit.
Like it was absolutely like the kids woke up
and the kids cried and then her baby woke up
and I'm like, forget it.
Like this is not working.
And then we rescheduled for another night,
but I was like, I know, I know that this is 100%
not out of my spirit whatsoever.
And every single minute, like I couldn't focus on the call.
I couldn't, and she was saying like, it was very helpful
and everything was fine on her end,
but I felt like I couldn't even gather my thoughts.
Like nothing, nothing was flowing whatsoever.
And I was like, I know, I know this isn't what I'm supposed
to be doing, but I can't leave them
when they're looking to me for leadership,
if that makes sense.
Like they don't have anyone else.
turn to, unless I would like, I don't know, connect them with my
upline upline or my, I don't know, like, how do I navigate
like, that whole thing, when they're looking to me for
leadership, but the act of the things that they're looking for
me to do feels like death.
Yeah.
Well, I don't, I don't know how it works in Young Living when
someone leaves and what happens to all the people underneath
them. I'm assuming that they just get absorbed by the
upline, but I don't know that. Is that what happens? Yeah.
And so, as far as if you're talking about, you know, how to
transition, God will take care of people and they're not your
responsibility if God's telling you to leave, but what to do in
the truth. So they're, they're always the Lord's, they're not
yours. And even if they're, even if, even if you were to stay in
Young Living, they're not yours. So God can continue to take care
of them. But as far as like a transition, what and what to do
in the transition, what you can do is, you know, if there's a
transition of like, between you and then maybe these other
people, I mean, you know, like, say the upline or whatever,
whoever you're passing them on to, you can, what I would
recommend is the same thing that I've recommended, you know, to
Priscilla when she has talked, you know, she's asked in the
community Q&As, she's asked questions like this. And I
recommended the same thing to her. And then to other people
who've asked me, is always speak into who it is that they are in
in, in the Lord, and see them in the spirit, just like we're in
the spirit. And the only way to see somebody else in the spirit
is if we see ourselves like that. So we put on our own
oxygen mask first, remember who it is that God says that we, we
are, and then understand that those people are one with Christ
just like we are. Then we can, you know, for believers, then,
it then if we're speaking to that person, it's encouraging
them to rise up to who it is that they already are, it's not
making them and encouraging them to become something that they're
not, it's speaking to who it is that they are, and then letting
them and and empowering them in conversations to, by you by you
loving them by you believing in them by you not by what you say,
but actually truly believing in them, because you're giving
you're imparting your spirit, then they can have the choice of
how they want to respond. And they can choose whether or not
they want to rise to that position. And then they can come
up with their own tips, tricks and strategies. Sure, if you
want, you can pass them stuff along periodically, if it pops
in. But if you do that, it's a lot less strenuous. And it's a
lot less like death. Now, yes, there is still an element that
if someone hasn't been given to us specifically, it can still
feel like something's not working here, you know, but just
as far as as far as if, if you're if you're in the
situation you're in, where to find the greatest, the least
amount of effort and operating greatest amount of rest, and
still meet someone's need, the ultimate need is honestly in
speaking to their true identity. And then they'll naturally want
to, people just need to know that they're believed in people
just need to know that they can have a right and permission to
be who they are, you know, and to, and that they come up with
good ideas and that they can come up with good. Oh, sorry, my
next person is already in the
that's totally fine. If you have to go. No, that's totally fine.
I am. I have to get ready before too long to go to my
weekend. Thank you.
Josh told Eric that mommy's leaving and that when I leave
that they're gonna rock and roll. And so he's like, mommy,
mommy, are we gonna rock and roll now?
Oh, that's sweet. How cute.
But if that's totally fine, if you have to go, I can maybe
follow up on like Mongo Polo or something. If I think, if I
think of things, or if there's something where I'm like, oh,
shoot, like, I really wanted to ask you that, like, would that
be okay? If I would maybe just, yeah, over there.
Yeah. And like, go ahead.
Like I said, I'll be gone like all weekend. So take your time
and responding. I know you have lots of people you interact with
and lots of stuff. So don't feel stressed. Getting back to my
phone is dying.
Yeah. And also the I just saw earlier the you were really
sweet to for what it is that you sent through PayPal. It was so
very thoughtful.
No, you're very welcome. I appreciate your guidance in
situations like this. Of course, of course, I appreciate your
time. So I continue to sow into rest and and the message and it
helps. And it just I don't know that the Lord honors that. And
so I honor that. So thank you so much.
Yeah, you're okay. You want to say hi to Ashley? Hi.
Hi Betty! Hi!
You can rock and roll.
Are you going to rock and roll now?
Yeah.
Okay, well I'll let you go.
Thank you.
I will let you go. See ya.