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Good morning, hello, good to see you, just see you too.

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Is it getting cold in Texas?

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Yes, it is.

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First time I see you with a shirt, I think.

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It's like summer over there because you're always in a t-shirt and it looks so warm.

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Yeah, well actually I am in South Carolina now, so it's colder up here.

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All right.

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Earlier, you know.

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Yeah.

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And so the other day it was below freezing and that just felt weird to me at the beginning of November

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because in Texas it doesn't usually get below freezing for, I don't know, a while.

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Not until at least December, but usually we don't really get, our coldest month can be like March.

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I mean it's just weird.

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So anyway, but we almost match today.

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Yeah, I think we do almost the same color.

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Yeah.

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I hear it's getting, well, I don't know what it is in Fahrenheit, but in Celsius it's about 10 degrees.

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Okay, all right.

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What that is in Fahrenheit.

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Yeah, I don't ever remember.

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I'm not really good at converting.

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It's about 10 above freezing.

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Oh, that's right, that's right, because zero is freezing.

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That's right.

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Okay, well.

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In Fahrenheit, freezing is not at zero.

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No, freezing is 32.

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32, yeah, so then maybe it would be 50.

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Yeah, right now it's, oh really, wow, you're warmer than we are, if that's true, because we're 45 today.

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And we have a very high chance of rain.

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So anyway, it's kind of dreary outside, but I like days like that because as long as there's not too many of them,

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I like days like that because they're cozy.

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Yeah, it is.

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It is nice.

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Unless you have to be out in them, and then it's not fun at all.

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And you can stay inside.

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I think I got all of my errands that I needed to run done, and so I could just, I think I even have, in fact I do, I have, I'm so stocked up from the grocery store that I'm good, so I'm very grateful for that.

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How are you? You've really had a week.

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Yeah, I'm doing good, and in the same way, I feel like I'm in the middle of a washing machine, that you're being around and there's so many things going on, and I think I'm excited, and then I'm walking in it, and then I get uncertain and insecure and doubt.

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Is it really happening anything, or the areas where I'm not feeling victory or walking in peace, and all these things that happened this week with rejection.

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So, and I also started to share it with people.

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Oh, exciting!

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Yes, I started to share, and yesterday, I was in a, I was in a women's group in church, and they asked me to share, and then I shared quite a bit of it and I think it just fills me with a lot of doubt.

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And I don't know, so if maybe you're how you felt when you started to share what was going on.

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My goodness, I didn't share things for, well, that the rest thing and whatever I did not share for a long time.

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Well, I say that it's really hard to explain what happened because what happened is I had been living this way for, or God had been teaching me about rest for years, but I didn't know that's what it was.

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And I was getting the benefits of rest. Again, this is years ago, I was getting all the benefits of rest, but I was doing it in strife, because what he was doing is he was, in other words, a lot of hard work, but I was getting the results, as if I was in rest.

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And the reason for that was God was trying to show me what happens when you operate according to kingdom principles.

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And so like a child, he was just kind of like letting me benefit simply by working hard and obeying him. That's what I mean by working hard, by obeying him.

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And yeah, I was having faith in him, but it was all from a lot of effort.

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And so I knew that really well.

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I just didn't know how to do it from peace and from rest.

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And from the fact that he's already taken care of it and I don't have to work for

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it, I can get those results just simply by being a son of God.

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That was what he had to teach me.

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So basically the thing is that I kept working and in getting these amazing

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results as if I was in rest, but I wasn't just simply because God was showing me

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how, uh, uh, helping me like introduce me to it.

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And then all of a sudden, because he wanted me to learn how to do it from a

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place of rest and then get those results, he allowed all those things to stop

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working so, so that I would learn to approach it from a different rest.

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Yeah, that makes sense.

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Because like, I think I have, I'm trying, I have been, I think you're saying the

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same thing that my wording has been walking in faith, but yeah, but maybe

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walking in pay in faith in a, from a place of stress, that's my wording.

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Correct.

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I have like a lot of amazing results in my own life and other people's lives

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and what I call like walking in faith.

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But I think in sometimes in a place from stress, now I'm trying to

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distinguish the differences and I'm in the middle of it and some things is

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working and some is not, and sometimes I feel like, oh, I'm in rest, but then

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I'm actually striving to get a result from a place of stress, but I'm doing the

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same principles, so I'm just trying to figure out what is what, and maybe it's

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too soon to start sharing because I don't really, I haven't come through it.

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And I don't feel like I actually a hundred percent know what's going on.

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And I feel it's a very, like I told you before, I feel it's very vulnerable.

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It's very fragile as if it could break if I just say it in the wrong way and

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sharing it in on a women's group, I'm just wondering, then I was filled with a

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lot of doubt what is actually going on and it's actually something happening.

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And there are definitely things that I don't feel I'm walking in faith and rest.

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And I do struggle with a lot of things like this rejection when this

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happened and the class rejected me.

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And so then I think I've become kind of, and I think it is my fallback is to

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understand because I value knowledge, you know, the tree of the knowledge of the

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good and evil, that's like, so me, I always need knowledge.

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I think it's a way of controlling things.

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So I fall back on that.

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And now when I can't control it and I don't know what is what, it feels like

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being in a washing machine or just tumbling around and that makes me really

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insecure and feeling like it's fragile.

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And when I'm sharing, I'm like, it's actually, I don't even know.

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So maybe it's too soon to start sharing when I'm not confident in it.

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And in the same time, I really want to pass on what I feel God is doing in me

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because I noticed that there are things going on.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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I know.

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Well, when things are happening, you know, we get excited and we share some

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things and there were things that when I was pretty new, I wasn't, yeah, I was

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pretty new, um, like within the first few months, there were certain things that I

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was sharing, um, but like only like with my best friend or something like that.

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And because it was so new, it, I felt fragile in it and I knew I needed to

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strengthen that in my own relationship with the Lord.

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Um, and, uh, so anyway, but I found someone that I could, that I could share

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it and my brother and sister-in-law that I could share things with that could

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just let me verbalize and express things without, without, um, You know, and

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just accept me in the middle of my journey without trying to convince me of

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like, oh, without like debating me or arguing with me about whether or not it

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was right, just rather just let me just be a safe place for me to just kind of

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verbalize when I'm in the middle of a journey.

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And so that helps me.

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So, and, but yeah, a lot of people do that, you know, when they're first

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learning about rest, they get so excited and, you know, to share it with other

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people and, you know, and, and, you know, and I don't think that there's anything

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wrong with that, um, that you, that what is challenging though, what I do

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recommend is that they don't go too deep into it just simply because for, for.

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what you mentioned, you know, it can feel so fragile that, that,

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you know, it can, you're, you're just, you're still in the

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middle, you're still in the middle of it. And you're just

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trying to allow it the time to solidify. And so Lord, what is

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this? And that kind of thing. But, but, and that's just based

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on my own experience, the fact that when God begins to reveal

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things to us that are so new, we're just trying to, yeah, and

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so deep, we're just, we're just so young in it that can, if we,

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anyway, so I don't know that I'm really explaining this very

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well. But yeah,

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you do. Yeah. Yeah, yeah. I think, okay, you've gone

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through, it's just good to hear that you're also that just this

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feeling of fragileness and newness, and kind of a little

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bit confused. And what is what, because it's not like I didn't

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live in rest at all before. And it's not like I have faith. But

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this is just something new still. But what is that? If I've

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still if I have lived in peace, I have walked in faith. Yeah.

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Why is this different than what is different? Yes. Yeah. And

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it's like such a deep process for me. It's, I mentioned it

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before several times that it's, it's actually, it's like really,

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really deep loss of hope in a way and also going through so

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much sickness. Yeah, that I can't that only I don't have, I

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don't even have words to the trauma I've been through. And

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kind of just thinking that I'm gonna obviously God has given

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me freedom, and it's this much. And the rest of it is just life

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because I've been through what I've been through. And then that

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God goes all the way down to all the pain over 20 years, and just

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like starts speaking hope into it. Yeah, areas that I didn't

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even know there was hope or I lost hope. Or I thought, this is

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just like living in the world. As a Christian, it's there's the

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way it has to be that are just you and so ingrained in you. And

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you don't even know that the devil stole it from you. Yeah,

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until your God is saying maybe there's a different way to live.

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So it's like so deep that I can't even, it's hard to even

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express what's going on. Yeah. But it's good to hear. Just you

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saying that you're also have been in the middle of it. And

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again, fragile and confusing. Oh, yeah. I mean, I just I feel

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that way, whenever the Lord is pushing deeper in it. So I can,

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I've been walking this for a while. And I'm telling you,

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when he starts pushing into a deeper level, and by pushing, I

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mean, inviting, or I can believe him in faith in a deeper level

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than I have been, that place feels fragile, because that

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place is new for me, to believe him to that degree is new for

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me, you know, to have faith in him, and rely on him as my

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protection and provision and not on myself, is is so new to me

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that it's very fragile. And those areas, I don't share with

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people for a while. I don't share with people until I get

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more solid in it, like very solid in it. And if I do share,

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it's with someone like, I don't know, like my best friend or

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whatever, because my best friend happens to be someone that I can

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share things with. And she doesn't challenge me on it. She

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just lets me like talk about just like, who she who I am and

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just be able to like verbalize things so that she can just kind

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of hear my heart. So she's just there to be able to hear my

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heart without like, like I said, without like trying to challenge

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me on it, she knows I'm in the middle of a process, you know,

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and so I'll share it with her, but I don't share it with, with

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other people. I don't share it in the rest intensive. I don't,

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you know, I just, in fact, one of the things that I'm learning

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is how to share those things with my husband now, because I'm

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so used to not sharing things with people while I'm in

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process. I'm used to waiting until until I'm more solid in

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it, and I have a solid footing. But there are certain people

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that you can it and but only but anyway, it's so precious.

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And like you said, it feels so fragile between you and the Lord

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for a while. I wait until it's until I'm solid in it until I

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share it simply to protect this little young seedling, you know,

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like like a little a little tree.

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You're whatever, like this tiny little bitty plant, you know, that's just popped up.

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It's just so new that it just means a lot of love and care and protection.

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It's not strong enough to withstand any.

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Any like challenges, people's opinions and thoughts and challenges.

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And like you're saying, correct.

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So God shared it too soon.

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I, yeah, so God can challenge it.

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And you know, if there's anything that we're worried about, about whether or

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not something is godly or not godly, well, then we can run things by people,

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you know, to make sure that we're not like, um, you know, believing

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something that's not of God.

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But, uh, but if it's just something that we're like, no, this is of God.

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I just am trying to figure out how to do it and try to figure out, you know, well,

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then those are things that, you know, just like really protect.

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And I just, cause I'm pursuing them specifically with the Lord, you know,

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and they're just like real young and like you, like we keep saying real fragile.

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So in fact, there was a time last year where I was believing the Lord for, um,

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some things meaning like, I was just, I was trying to learn who it is that he was

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and that he would take care of me, et cetera.

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And he, uh, but then I ran out of money and I wasn't seeing more money come in.

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And I told God, I said, I said, God, I don't, um, I don't know what's wrong.

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I said, but I feel like I had something very precious and fragile.

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And that's what I, that's how I worded it to him.

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I said, I felt like I had something very precious and fragile and I

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broke it and I don't know how, I don't know what I did, you know?

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And so anyway, he walked me through all of that, but, um, anyway, but yeah,

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I've used that word before with the Lord, Lord, Lord, you know, this was just so

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new and I was, and, and I felt like it was going great and then all of a sudden

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it fell apart and I don't know how, you know, so stuff like that, you know, I

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just kind of only shared with people that because it wasn't whether or not it was

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godly that I was particularly questioning.

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You know, I don't know.

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Can you believe God to this degree?

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Does he say that this is right to trust him for these kinds of things?

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You know, that kind of thing I was questioning, but it wasn't like I was

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like following Satan or believe some like, like doctrine or something.

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So it wasn't like that, but there wasn't an aspect of like, is when God's saying

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to believe him or when God's, is this what God's trying to teach me?

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That's what I was questioning.

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Is this what he's trying to teach me?

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And, um, and, and I'm just kind of like wobbling in it.

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And, and I felt like, like I fell down, you know, and then I, and I didn't know

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how I've, how I messed up and how I fell down.

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So anyway, the Lord picked me back up and walked me through things and had to walk

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me actually through some personal healing with him because I kind of felt.

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Betrayed.

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I felt like he'd left me unprotected.

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So he had to kind of walk me through all of that.

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And anyway, I'm stronger because of it.

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And I'm just like, okay, so this is, this is part of just, so during that time, I

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just chose to not abandon the Lord.

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I just chose, no, I'm going to, I'm, I don't fully understand this, but

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I'm not going to abandon God.

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I'm not going to meaning like, even emotionally, I'm not going to, I'm

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struggling, but I'm not going to hold this against God, you know?

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And I'm just going to allow him to like heal me and, and, and help me walk through

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this time where I need to have faith that he really is safe because I'm not

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feeling right now that he's safe, you know?

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So anyway, so I had to walk through that, but anyway, so just as, just as some

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encouragement of like, when that I still go through those things where things feel

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fragile, but it's, it's in the areas where I'm stretching that are new, new

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with faith and they're deeper in faith.

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And I haven't gone there before and I haven't believed in that much.

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You know, I haven't had faith to him, faith in him that to that degree yet.

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And so that's really new for me that feels fragile and those I, I keep to

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myself while I'm processing it.

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Cause I feel that if I don't, I'll be.

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Um, I didn't know that other people won't treat it with care and it just

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needs time to like grow and develop.

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But then there are other people that I share certain things with, or I'll share

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like certain very basic things with, you know, that are controversial or they

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wouldn't like challenge me on or something like that, you know, you can

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share those things cause that's what we do when we get excited about things.

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You just share them with the right people.

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So, yeah.

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So how has everything worked out with your, with your class?

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I know the last message that you wrote, you said the next day, you know, you

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talked to them and, um, you know, just kind of like how to come to Jesus

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meeting and said, this is unacceptable.

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You're not going to do this again and stuff, but that's all that I heard.

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I haven't met them again.

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I have them tomorrow.

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I have class with them tomorrow, but I, I think it was the right

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decision just to, because I tried to go into peace and rest and I couldn't.

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And then I just said, like, you know, this God, you know, I can't find peace

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anywhere and I don't know what to do.

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And I'm too overwhelmed to make a decision.

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But the only thing I can think of too, is to feel protected because

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when I'm so rejected, I feel really unsafe and I can't be in a

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classroom feeling this unsafe.

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And I think it was good.

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And also I talked to another teacher about it and she talked to the

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pupils and I set boundaries and I think I felt like they responded well to it.

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They understood like, okay, we crossed the boundary.

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I could feel that they almost had like some kind of almost remorse.

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They regret it.

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They felt that's great.

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So even though, and afterwards I thought, well, I don't know if that

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was in the spirit or not, but this is where I was at and this is the

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thing that I had and it worked out fine.

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So maybe I don't even have to know.

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But I think that it was really interesting for me to see those things

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happening in two days in a row that I was rejected so badly.

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And with my friend, we've had to sit down several times and talk and pray.

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And what's coming up is that it is deeper rejection issues in me.

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Like one of the thing is like, she did wrong.

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She, she rejected me and she didn't explain what was going on.

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So what she did wasn't good, wasn't right.

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And it left me really stressed.

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But I think that if I didn't have rejection issues, I

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might not have been so hurt.

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I think I would have been more like, oh, that's interesting.

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I need to ask her what's going on, or maybe I'll give her a day or two and

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then I'll ask her again, and I wouldn't take it so personal, but the more that

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we are talking and digging into it, it's, it's becoming clear that it is my

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rejection issues that's making it worse.

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Even though she says she's really.

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Sorry, because she did.

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Yeah. Which is sweet.

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I bet.

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It sounds like, first of all, going back to what you're talking about, the

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classroom sounds like you did a great job because you, you know, you just try

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because that is a very challenging situation, period, let alone the fact

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that it happened right after, you know, you were already, your, your sensitivity

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was heightened because of what happened the previous day.

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So it's just kind of like, okay, we just hit a threshold, you know, across it.

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And then, so what you did is you just did what you could.

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You're like, okay, let's see if I can choose and go where my spirit finds

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peace and you figured out you couldn't, because you said you couldn't get, you

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couldn't get rest, you couldn't get peace.

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And so you just declared that what God said was true about himself and that you

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really were safe, that he really was protecting you, but you couldn't choose

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it enough to actually act on it.

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So you went where your soul found peace because that's just where you were.

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That's just all you understood and knew this far.

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And so that was great.

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That's great.

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So, and cause it's, and then it's important to have compassion for yourself

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during that and, and just allow yourself to be where it is that you are on the

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journey, then you will shift faster and these things won't affect you as deeply.

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Like, you know, you'll, you'll grow, you'll mature out of this faster.

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And what I mean by mature is if mature and faith in God, that you really are

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protected, he really is providing for you as opposed to what it feels like when you

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go through those situations that you can believe that you're not abandoned, even

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though the situations might still happen.

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Like as periodically, those things are going to happen.

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They just do.

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They happen in your life.

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They happen in my life.

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They just happen.

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But are we going to go through it in rest, believing that we're not threatened or are

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we going to believe that we're threatened?

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And so the more compassion that you have for yourself, the more that you just

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really have no shame and no condemnation for you being where you are and for in

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the journey and for.

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for you making the decision that you did,

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which was just the best that you knew how to do.

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Because remember, this thing that God's calling us to,

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we've never done that before.

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So he's teaching us how to go somewhere

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that we've never been.

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So he knows that.

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And so he's very compassionate and kind

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of allowing us to take our time

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in getting to this other place

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and like learning how to do it.

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Because all we've ever known was the other.

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And all that the world teaches us is the other.

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So he knows that we're on this journey

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to try of moving in that direction.

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So the more that we just relax along the journey

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and just have no shame and no condemnation

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for being where it is that we are

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and just doing our best and choosing that

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and declaring that he is who he says that he is,

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and then going where our soul finds peace

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and believing God and thanking God,

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thank you, Lord, for giving me this as a solution

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that I could provide for and protect myself.

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I know that you want me to believe

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and to give to you my provision and protection.

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But because I don't know how to do that yet

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because I'm not there yet,

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thank you for giving me an opportunity

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to provide for and protect myself

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by utilizing these options.

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So I received this as you being who you've said

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that you are, good protector, provider, et cetera.

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So you, and then again, no shame, no condemnation.

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In other words, that that doesn't change

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who it is that you are.

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And then you will have faith in him faster.

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You will believe that he's protector and provider faster

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so that when those situations come up,

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you can finally choose him

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and then go where your spirit finds peace

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and maybe your spirit will have you in the future

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handle the situation very different.

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See, I have no idea what the situation is and whatever.

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So I'm just talking in principle.

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So anyway, my point is like, I think that you did great.

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You did super.

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And so anyway, you'll shift faster and have faith more

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and more quickly if you just,

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if you relax and allow yourself to be where you are.

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It's kind of, and that's a horrible comparison,

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but it's like the fact that a drunk person

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is usually the person that survives car crashes

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because they're so relaxed.

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While people who aren't drunk that are,

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that have you ever noticed that,

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that when a drunk person causes the car crash,

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it's usually, and people think it's so unfair,

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it's usually the drunk person that survives

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and they're the instigator.

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And it's because their body is so relaxed

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that they don't fight the impact.

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So it's the same way with this,

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that if you don't fight it and fight the process

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and fight where it is that you are

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and just allow yourself to be there,

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but are always looking towards hope

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and always trying to increase your faith

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and what it is that you're choosing God to be,

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then you'll mature faster.

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Because I think it's hard for me to accept

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that I sometimes, and you've said this in your teaching too,

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that some areas I'm five-year-old.

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Yeah, correct.

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I think with this, it's kind of hard to accept for me

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that I'm learning this so late in life.

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Yeah, but we all have to say that.

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And that I'm so immature in some areas

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and that I'm so affected by rejection.

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So in a way it's hard to kind of accept where I'm at.

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Yeah, so that's what I'm saying,

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is you have to relax and receive no shame

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and no condemnation for being where you are,

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because think about it.

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See, we villainize, so to speak, being five,

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because we're like, I shouldn't be five.

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Well, why not?

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It's just where you are.

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There's nothing wrong with a five-year-old being five.

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It's good for a five-year-old to be five.

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He's not expected to be 35 yet.

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He doesn't know how to do a budget.

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He doesn't know how to go to work.

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He doesn't know how to interact in difficult,

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challenging, I don't know,

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spiritual or professional situations.

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We allow him to be five and don't ridicule him for it

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or think badly about him for it.

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We just allow him to be that.

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And so it's the same thing.

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for ourselves last winter. We just allow him to be that for

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ourselves for, you know, we allow him to be that for

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himself. Because God says that him being that he created the

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five year old to be he created five years old to be at a

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particular stage. So it's important for a five year old to

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go through the five year old stage in order to strengthen and

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then move to be six, and then to strengthen and move to be

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seven. Because and if a five year old doesn't fully develop

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as a five year old and learn everything he's supposed to

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learn, and go through the development process that he that

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a five year old supposed to, well, then he's going to have

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development gaps, and he's going to suffer for it as he gets

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older. So it's the same thing like so for instance, like say

460
00:30:55.960 --> 00:31:00.040
say that, in say that you're five in that area, and I've got

461
00:31:00.040 --> 00:31:03.040
my areas in which I'm five, and I just make it five. The reason

462
00:31:03.040 --> 00:31:06.960
I make it five years old, as opposed to something else is for

463
00:31:06.960 --> 00:31:09.720
two reasons. One, it's the example that my brother used

464
00:31:09.720 --> 00:31:13.000
with me one time, where he just said, Ashley, if you're five,

465
00:31:13.000 --> 00:31:18.200
just be five. Like, okay. But the and then the other thing is,

466
00:31:18.240 --> 00:31:22.720
it's an easy age for us to kind of like connect with of, of it

467
00:31:22.720 --> 00:31:27.600
being very different than being an adult. And it just it being

468
00:31:27.600 --> 00:31:30.360
able to play and stuff like that. It's harder for us to

469
00:31:30.360 --> 00:31:33.520
kind of like connect with something like, oh, it's okay to

470
00:31:33.520 --> 00:31:37.000
be, you know, to be 15 years old, and to be that particular

471
00:31:37.000 --> 00:31:39.560
age of the process, there's something about when you grab,

472
00:31:39.840 --> 00:31:43.680
if you pick a younger age, people can kind of get this

473
00:31:43.680 --> 00:31:47.160
principle and this concept easier. So it's not like we

474
00:31:47.160 --> 00:31:50.480
really are five. And we're really that young, you know, in

475
00:31:50.480 --> 00:31:53.960
that area of our life. But I just use that as an example to

476
00:31:53.960 --> 00:31:58.560
make a point. But anyway, so so for five years old, it's God

477
00:31:58.560 --> 00:32:03.640
created particular things to happen when we're five. And it's

478
00:32:03.640 --> 00:32:06.720
important for us to allow ourselves to go through, like I

479
00:32:06.720 --> 00:32:10.480
said, the development process that he baked into being five.

480
00:32:10.960 --> 00:32:14.360
And if we don't, then we're gonna then we're gonna suffer

481
00:32:14.360 --> 00:32:17.000
for it later. And we're gonna have to go back and revisit it,

482
00:32:17.240 --> 00:32:21.160
which is what has happened, that when we were five, there were

483
00:32:21.160 --> 00:32:23.960
certain things that were supposed to have developed in us

484
00:32:24.200 --> 00:32:29.360
that we just missed, maybe we were, we weren't allowed to be

485
00:32:29.360 --> 00:32:33.560
five, and we were forced to be 10. When we were five years old

486
00:32:33.600 --> 00:32:36.840
in that particular area, emotionally, maybe we were

487
00:32:36.840 --> 00:32:40.320
forced to be 10. And we were told, No, it's not okay for you

488
00:32:40.320 --> 00:32:43.160
to be for you to go through this type of an emotional

489
00:32:43.160 --> 00:32:47.600
development, you know, you need to be, you can't live life that

490
00:32:47.600 --> 00:32:51.880
way. So don't express yourself like that now. Well, if they're

491
00:32:51.880 --> 00:32:55.480
five, that's, that's part of the process that they have to go

492
00:32:55.480 --> 00:32:59.600
through. But, but anyway, sometimes we just don't have

493
00:32:59.600 --> 00:33:04.920
grace for each other, as we're learning, etc. So if, if we pass

494
00:33:04.920 --> 00:33:09.720
over that development, and we force ourselves to be 10, God in

495
00:33:09.720 --> 00:33:12.800
his mercy, knows that we have a development gap, and he will

496
00:33:12.800 --> 00:33:15.280
take us back to five years old, so we can fill in the

497
00:33:15.280 --> 00:33:19.000
development gap. So there's certain aspects in which you're

498
00:33:19.000 --> 00:33:22.120
like, Oh, my word, I wish that I'd learned this back then.

499
00:33:22.520 --> 00:33:27.920
Well, we all have those areas, we all have those areas, there

500
00:33:27.920 --> 00:33:30.720
are some areas in which we're five, some areas in which we're

501
00:33:30.720 --> 00:33:37.600
10, some areas in which we're 15. And when we're in real life,

502
00:33:37.600 --> 00:33:41.360
we're at a totally different age, we're like 35, or 45, or

503
00:33:41.360 --> 00:33:45.200
whatever. And we can get frustrated with ourselves. But

504
00:33:45.560 --> 00:33:48.480
in like, Oh, well, other people learn this at a younger age?

505
00:33:48.520 --> 00:33:54.480
Well, yeah. But, you know, we learned things at a younger age

506
00:33:54.480 --> 00:33:57.840
than they did. And so they've got development gaps in areas

507
00:33:57.840 --> 00:34:01.480
that we don't. We have a development gaps in areas that

508
00:34:01.480 --> 00:34:05.560
they don't. So this is just kind of like, if we run into them, we

509
00:34:05.560 --> 00:34:09.159
just allow it to be what it is, because we don't, we want to

510
00:34:09.159 --> 00:34:14.840
finally allow ourselves to learn in those particular areas.

511
00:34:15.800 --> 00:34:20.040
So that we're so that we have an opportunity now to fill in the

512
00:34:20.040 --> 00:34:27.159
gap. You know, so anyway, so the thing is, though, the, the more

513
00:34:27.159 --> 00:34:30.679
relaxed you are about being where it is that you are in the

514
00:34:30.679 --> 00:34:35.159
development process, the faster that you'll develop in it, fill

515
00:34:35.159 --> 00:34:39.040
in those gaps and move on. But if we resist it, and we don't

516
00:34:39.040 --> 00:34:41.719
like it, and oh, my word, I shouldn't have, and then we get

517
00:34:41.719 --> 00:34:44.560
all upset. And we get frustrated with ourselves, or we get

518
00:34:44.560 --> 00:34:48.159
embarrassed, or we get it if we if we resist the process,

519
00:34:48.159 --> 00:34:52.120
because we're, we wish that it wasn't like that, then we're

520
00:34:52.120 --> 00:34:55.760
resisting it. And then it takes longer to get out of it. And

521
00:34:55.760 --> 00:34:59.640
then also to get out of it, we're we're striving.

522
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.040
we're working really hard in order to, because we've created all this resistance. We now have

523
00:35:05.040 --> 00:35:11.440
to fight that resistance to be, to be learning the thing that we need to learn. And so you learn it a

524
00:35:11.440 --> 00:35:17.360
lot faster if you just don't resist. So anyway, thing is just have, just have compassion for

525
00:35:17.360 --> 00:35:23.040
yourself and allow yourself to be where it is that you are. And, and, and you'll, and you will,

526
00:35:23.840 --> 00:35:33.360
you will have faith in God faster. But anyway, but yeah. So anyway, so there was that.

527
00:35:34.240 --> 00:35:38.640
I was just touching back on that because I just wanted to encourage you. I thought it was great.

528
00:35:38.640 --> 00:35:44.320
And then you were talking about your friend, but I don't remember what I was going to say about,

529
00:35:45.120 --> 00:35:56.160
about that. Oh, well, excuse me. The, just that, you know, the same thing, you know,

530
00:35:56.160 --> 00:36:04.480
with your friend is to just recognize that, okay. To just again, allow yourself to be where it is

531
00:36:04.480 --> 00:36:12.240
that you are, trust her and trust the Lord to the, especially trust the Lord that you are protected,

532
00:36:12.320 --> 00:36:18.400
that you are not rejected, that you are identified as who he says that you are

533
00:36:19.360 --> 00:36:26.640
meaning like you and your, the intrinsicness of yourself is not rejected. Now, maybe your friend

534
00:36:26.640 --> 00:36:33.120
rejected you. Absolutely. That's real. Just like if you're sick, you really are sick. You know,

535
00:36:33.120 --> 00:36:39.600
we don't ever want to deny reality, but just because we're sick on our body, doesn't mean

536
00:36:39.600 --> 00:36:46.800
that our spirit is and that who we are is sick and that we're victim to it. So just because you're

537
00:36:46.800 --> 00:36:51.840
sick and that's reality of this world, doesn't mean that we're victim to it. And so what we're

538
00:36:51.840 --> 00:36:58.800
asking the Lord for is how do we bring our supremacy, meaning like we're, we're in a place

539
00:36:58.800 --> 00:37:06.160
of power and authority in God. How do we bring that to, into our bodies so that our, our, our

540
00:37:06.160 --> 00:37:13.760
body doesn't feel like it has to, sorry, I need more coffee and I need to sit up because you know,

541
00:37:13.760 --> 00:37:18.560
it's earlier in the morning. That's fine. Go and get coffee if you want to. Oh, that's really sweet.

542
00:37:18.560 --> 00:37:27.600
I think I will need to go grab the pot because I have to go grab the pot. But, um, uh, oh dear.

543
00:37:27.600 --> 00:37:35.680
Now I forgot where I was. What was the last thing I said? You said, uh, to be your, uh,

544
00:37:38.320 --> 00:37:42.320
I know we started talking about coffee and then, and then we'd get off.

545
00:37:44.080 --> 00:37:49.360
Um, it was about your friend and the, oh, okay. Yeah. So we never want to deny reality. Yeah.

546
00:37:50.080 --> 00:37:56.560
Really did reject you. Yeah. Something happened and that's reality.

547
00:37:56.560 --> 00:38:02.880
Yeah. But your spirit, you're not threatened by it. Yes. Your spirit is not threatened by

548
00:38:02.880 --> 00:38:10.000
the rejection. Correct. That's where it hurts. Yes. And your rejection means that

549
00:38:10.000 --> 00:38:17.520
the reason we don't like it is if we feel disconnected, we feel, um, uh, we feel alone

550
00:38:17.520 --> 00:38:23.760
and we feel separated, but God says we're not alone and we're not separated. So, you know,

551
00:38:23.760 --> 00:38:30.480
in our spirit, so we can feel that we are, but it doesn't mean that we actually are. And so that's

552
00:38:30.480 --> 00:38:35.760
what it is that we choose. We choose no more spirit and that, um, that we're not, even though

553
00:38:35.760 --> 00:38:42.560
someone is rejecting us, we ourselves, we're not actually rejected. Uh, we're not alone. We're not

554
00:38:42.560 --> 00:38:50.640
separated. That is the rejection is simply their response to us, but it actually isn't a threat

555
00:38:50.640 --> 00:38:56.240
just like Jesus being in the boat where, you know, he was being tossed around by the wind and the

556
00:38:56.240 --> 00:39:01.360
waves and he had water coming in over it, you know, whatever. And, and so he wasn't denying

557
00:39:01.360 --> 00:39:08.880
the reality of the storm, but he didn't feel a need to change it. So because he's like,

558
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:14.080
it can happen, but it doesn't mean that I'm threatened by it. It's not, you know, because

559
00:39:14.080 --> 00:39:19.120
the Lord is keeping me safe or the Lord is taking care of me, you know, and whatever. So it's the

560
00:39:19.120 --> 00:39:25.120
same thing with like rejections that just because that is somebody else's response to us, does it

561
00:39:25.120 --> 00:39:31.760
mean that, that, that we actually bear the consequences in our spirit of being rejected

562
00:39:31.760 --> 00:39:39.440
and being separated, being disconnected, et cetera. So anyway, um, uh, but as far as your

563
00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:45.200
interaction with your friend, you were saying that you don't, uh, that you don't trust her.

564
00:39:45.200 --> 00:39:53.920
Well, so that's part of it is when is that obviously when someone interacts with us in

565
00:39:53.920 --> 00:39:59.760
a particular way, we don't, that, that becomes.

566
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.360
like we realize, Oh my word, that's an actual reality of something they've done and that

567
00:40:05.360 --> 00:40:11.280
they could do again. And so you just don't like to be in that situation. And so it doesn't mean

568
00:40:11.280 --> 00:40:15.760
that you have to continue to put yourself in that situation, you know, emotionally or whatever,

569
00:40:15.760 --> 00:40:20.240
they can build that trust back up with you, but, and then you can choose to trust them again,

570
00:40:20.240 --> 00:40:24.720
et cetera, and put yourself in that, in that risky position. That's one of the things that we do as

571
00:40:24.720 --> 00:40:30.480
friends is like, we trust people again and whatever, but as you're learning to do that,

572
00:40:30.480 --> 00:40:36.400
as you're, as you're building up your, your, your choice, that this is who you are,

573
00:40:37.680 --> 00:40:43.280
that you're not this well, then you're just, then you don't have to continue to put yourself

574
00:40:43.280 --> 00:40:50.640
in a situation like emotionally where what happened can continue to happen.

575
00:40:51.600 --> 00:40:57.840
Kind of like, uh, kind of like, uh, like somebody who's being physically abused, for instance,

576
00:40:58.720 --> 00:41:05.120
just because like, say for instance, someone hits someone else and they apologize and whatever. Well,

577
00:41:05.120 --> 00:41:12.080
you don't deny the fact that yeah, they really did hit you, but it doesn't. So just because

578
00:41:12.080 --> 00:41:18.560
they've apologized, doesn't mean that it didn't happen. And just because God says that this is

579
00:41:18.560 --> 00:41:25.920
who you are and that, and you're not this, but that this is who you are. Doesn't mean that you

580
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:33.360
have to continue to put yourself in a situation to be hit. It just means that the, that the meaning

581
00:41:33.360 --> 00:41:40.080
of the hit isn't actually true. Like, like the way that we take it of like, oh, I'm being threatened.

582
00:41:40.080 --> 00:41:44.160
God, isn't who he says that he is. God isn't protecting. God isn't providing for me or

583
00:41:44.160 --> 00:41:48.560
whatever. It doesn't mean that. And so that's what we don't want to do. We don't want to take

584
00:41:48.560 --> 00:41:54.720
things that happen on earth to be saying something about God, you know, that's against what it is

585
00:41:54.720 --> 00:41:59.520
that he says that he is, but just because it doesn't, we don't want to take that and hold

586
00:41:59.520 --> 00:42:05.040
that against God. Doesn't mean that we're, that we have to continue to put ourselves in this

587
00:42:05.040 --> 00:42:10.400
situation and trust someone else like trust that they're not going to do it. Well, no, they might

588
00:42:10.400 --> 00:42:16.160
do it again. So my point is that that is just part of a relationship issue that you just work

589
00:42:16.160 --> 00:42:20.800
through with your friend that might just take some time or whatever, but what God wants you to do

590
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:26.320
is he it's not the, the big issue isn't whether or not you trust your friend. The big issue is

591
00:42:26.320 --> 00:42:33.760
what are, what is that you don't allow what happened to change what you believe about yourself.

592
00:42:34.560 --> 00:42:43.360
God wants you to believe what he says about you and for, and for that thing to not affect

593
00:42:44.560 --> 00:42:51.120
you coming out of agreement with what God has said about you. He doesn't want that to have more

594
00:42:51.120 --> 00:42:57.120
meaning to you about who you are than who he says that you are. That's what he wants you to deal

595
00:42:57.120 --> 00:43:03.840
with. But it doesn't mean that just because you feel secure in the Lord that you expose yourself

596
00:43:03.840 --> 00:43:08.400
to all of these things all of the time. Yeah. That's just normal relationship stuff. So the

597
00:43:08.400 --> 00:43:15.360
point is don't feel bad about not trusting your friend. That's just, that's just, that's just part

598
00:43:15.360 --> 00:43:20.000
of it. That's part of what you and your friend are going to walk through of like gaining that

599
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:26.640
trust back. And then if you offering your trust again and, and them earning it and meaning earning

600
00:43:26.640 --> 00:43:34.560
it, like as in like, and desiring you to opt to, to give them their, your trust back and whatever,

601
00:43:34.560 --> 00:43:41.840
but that is not the same thing as you believing certain things about yourself because they did

602
00:43:41.840 --> 00:43:48.560
these things. God says, no, I want you to always believe what I say about you. That's what he wants

603
00:43:48.560 --> 00:43:57.040
to deal with in the issue, but it, he doesn't require you to trust them. He requires you to,

604
00:43:57.040 --> 00:44:04.800
to believe what he said about you and really to what he said about what he says about who they

605
00:44:04.800 --> 00:44:11.040
are, that he created them in his image, that he loves them. And to not think badly about them as

606
00:44:11.040 --> 00:44:15.840
like, oh, well then God doesn't love them or they're evil or they're whatever. Well, God's like,

607
00:44:15.840 --> 00:44:21.920
I didn't say that. So don't come into agreement with that either, but that's different than the

608
00:44:21.920 --> 00:44:28.000
whole trust thing between you and your friend, the whole trust thing. You can just not trust someone

609
00:44:28.000 --> 00:44:35.520
with, and you can just not trust them while still believing what God said about you is true

610
00:44:35.520 --> 00:44:40.880
and believe in what God said about them is true, but still not trusting how they're going to act

611
00:44:40.880 --> 00:44:45.840
because they're going to act from here. They think that they're this, or they think that

612
00:44:45.840 --> 00:44:49.840
they're that, and then they're, they're going to interact with you like that. Does that make sense?

613
00:44:51.440 --> 00:44:59.920
It does. It does. It does make sense to separate it a little bit. Yeah.

614
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.080
In other words, what it is that God is asking of you, asking you to trust her

615
00:45:05.080 --> 00:45:11.320
again, unless he tells you that that'll grow, you know, he's not upset at you for

616
00:45:11.320 --> 00:45:11.820
that.

617
00:45:12.080 --> 00:45:13.720
He's like, well, he's not upset at you at all.

618
00:45:13.720 --> 00:45:18.680
But point is like, he's not, he's not telling you so to speak that, Hey,

619
00:45:18.680 --> 00:45:20.280
that's, that's the issue.

620
00:45:20.320 --> 00:45:27.320
He's like, no, the issue is don't let what happened tell you who you are and

621
00:45:27.320 --> 00:45:31.080
that that matter in that it tell you that you're something different than I

622
00:45:31.080 --> 00:45:34.360
told you, you are, that's what he wants to address.

623
00:45:37.720 --> 00:45:41.880
So have grace for yourself that you are struggling to trust her, even though

624
00:45:41.880 --> 00:45:43.280
she's apologized.

625
00:45:44.360 --> 00:45:46.160
I'm going to go grab the pot.

626
00:45:57.320 --> 00:45:59.360
I'm thinking this is really good.

627
00:45:59.360 --> 00:46:03.440
And I'm sure I'm going to watch this again several times.

628
00:46:03.440 --> 00:46:10.000
And just, uh, because it just, what happened, um, what I thought was

629
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:19.920
interesting was that, uh, you know, how I felt that I'm walking in rest in very

630
00:46:19.920 --> 00:46:25.840
hard circumstances, for instance, in, because I felt rejected by this guy and

631
00:46:25.840 --> 00:46:29.760
I still go to church and I received all of him in worship, even though he's

632
00:46:29.760 --> 00:46:30.600
leading the worship.

633
00:46:31.160 --> 00:46:33.120
And if he speaks, I can receive it.

634
00:46:33.160 --> 00:46:36.680
And I felt like that's amazing that that's happening.

635
00:46:37.400 --> 00:46:44.040
And I huge feel I'm in rest, but when I'm being rejected, when it kind of comes

636
00:46:44.040 --> 00:46:52.160
like a light from clear sky, it's as if I don't have the ability to think clearly,

637
00:46:52.720 --> 00:46:57.560
uh, or go into rest or any, I just react from a wound.

638
00:46:57.600 --> 00:47:04.400
It's just like, and it's, uh, and when it kind of, the storm is over or you look

639
00:47:04.400 --> 00:47:08.760
back and what happened and how you acted, I see that it feels like you almost don't

640
00:47:08.760 --> 00:47:09.400
have a choice.

641
00:47:09.400 --> 00:47:10.600
You just like react.

642
00:47:10.600 --> 00:47:18.520
And that kind of scares me that I just, I just react to this wound that you just,

643
00:47:18.680 --> 00:47:21.040
when someone hits it, you don't even think clearly.

644
00:47:21.040 --> 00:47:28.720
You just shoot back or you go into protection or accusation or analyzing,

645
00:47:28.760 --> 00:47:34.320
overthinking you go into, I go, it's just like a one follows the other and you

646
00:47:34.320 --> 00:47:35.360
don't even have a saying.

647
00:47:35.360 --> 00:47:38.400
So it's not like, Oh, now I was rejected.

648
00:47:38.480 --> 00:47:43.960
Let me first go and be in my spirit and then see what happens.

649
00:47:44.040 --> 00:47:48.440
If no, I just go straight into soul and flesh and just like,

650
00:47:50.280 --> 00:47:54.040
because that's what you believe because it's what you believe.

651
00:47:54.040 --> 00:47:56.120
So that's why I always tell people.

652
00:47:56.360 --> 00:48:00.360
So you're going to, your gut reaction is going to be based on what you truly

653
00:48:00.360 --> 00:48:00.840
believe.

654
00:48:01.200 --> 00:48:01.600
Yeah.

655
00:48:01.680 --> 00:48:03.640
You don't sit.

656
00:48:03.800 --> 00:48:08.880
So what you're doing is you're on a journey to changing your belief, to

657
00:48:08.880 --> 00:48:11.240
changing what it is that you have faith in.

658
00:48:12.040 --> 00:48:22.040
And, um, and, and so you, um, that's why I'm always telling people, you know, I

659
00:48:22.040 --> 00:48:29.960
really, well, for multiple reasons, why I don't recommend usually facing every

660
00:48:29.960 --> 00:48:35.240
situation as its own separate thing, like, okay, I'm going to deal with this

661
00:48:35.240 --> 00:48:38.320
issue and what it is that I'm believing is a lie.

662
00:48:38.320 --> 00:48:43.520
So I need to remember what the truth is and I'm going to exchange the, the, the

663
00:48:43.520 --> 00:48:50.920
lie for the truth, you know, and that's a lot of, um, it's, it's harder and it's

664
00:48:50.920 --> 00:48:55.160
more work because you're having to do that with every single situation.

665
00:48:55.160 --> 00:49:02.640
So it's, it's more detailed, it's more labor intensive and, and, and it's, um,

666
00:49:02.720 --> 00:49:10.880
harder to deal with a root belief issue on a, on such a detailed level.

667
00:49:11.520 --> 00:49:16.560
So that's why I tell people a lot of times, just, just pull your, just step,

668
00:49:16.560 --> 00:49:22.000
forget this, uh, forget specific situations and trying to deal with

669
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:24.240
specific situations so much.

670
00:49:25.080 --> 00:49:28.960
And I mean, dealing with specific situations, you know, it's perfectly fine.

671
00:49:29.440 --> 00:49:36.840
I just recommend to people to not do it so much and to instead kind of like let

672
00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:43.360
go of focusing on specific situations and instead choose something that feels

673
00:49:43.360 --> 00:49:48.800
very irrelevant or very, yeah.

674
00:49:48.800 --> 00:49:53.320
Or feel very disconnected from the situation and choose instead.

675
00:49:53.360 --> 00:49:53.640
Okay.

676
00:49:53.640 --> 00:49:54.840
Who does God say that I am?

677
00:49:55.320 --> 00:49:56.920
And who does he say that he is?

678
00:49:57.200 --> 00:49:59.440
And it can feel like, well, wait just a second.

679
00:49:59.440 --> 00:50:00.040
I know, but God.

680
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.800
But what about this?

681
00:50:01.800 --> 00:50:02.920
This is what they did.

682
00:50:02.920 --> 00:50:03.800
This is what they said.

683
00:50:03.800 --> 00:50:05.600
How should I handle it?

684
00:50:05.600 --> 00:50:09.600
And what I recommend to people is you let it go completely.

685
00:50:10.600 --> 00:50:15.240
And you just focus on who does he say that I am?

686
00:50:15.240 --> 00:50:16.800
And who does he say that he is?

687
00:50:16.800 --> 00:50:18.960
And it can feel disconnected.

688
00:50:18.960 --> 00:50:21.840
It can feel like, yeah, but I want to address this.

689
00:50:21.840 --> 00:50:25.520
But what we need to realize is that is addressing that

690
00:50:25.560 --> 00:50:30.560
because that is really what our faith is being defined in

691
00:50:32.400 --> 00:50:34.520
that's causing us to react this way

692
00:50:34.520 --> 00:50:36.600
is because we're not believing God.

693
00:50:36.600 --> 00:50:38.720
We're not believing what he said about himself

694
00:50:38.720 --> 00:50:40.800
or what he said about us.

695
00:50:40.800 --> 00:50:42.440
So that's why we're reacting this way.

696
00:50:42.440 --> 00:50:43.560
That's why this hurts.

697
00:50:43.560 --> 00:50:45.920
That's why this is a pain problem.

698
00:50:45.920 --> 00:50:49.560
And so it feels irrelevant.

699
00:50:49.560 --> 00:50:54.520
It feels like this situation

700
00:50:54.520 --> 00:50:57.160
doesn't have anything to do with this one.

701
00:50:57.160 --> 00:50:58.320
Okay, well, yeah, yeah.

702
00:50:58.320 --> 00:51:01.880
I do need to believe what God says about me.

703
00:51:01.880 --> 00:51:03.040
That's true.

704
00:51:03.040 --> 00:51:04.200
I do, I do.

705
00:51:04.200 --> 00:51:07.080
But we'll deal with that in a minute, Lord.

706
00:51:07.080 --> 00:51:09.440
Right now, what about this?

707
00:51:09.440 --> 00:51:10.560
And God's like, no, no, no.

708
00:51:10.560 --> 00:51:12.920
That is the problem with this.

709
00:51:12.920 --> 00:51:15.000
That's why you're feeling this way

710
00:51:15.000 --> 00:51:17.080
is because you're not believing this.

711
00:51:17.080 --> 00:51:19.960
So also when you deal with this,

712
00:51:19.960 --> 00:51:22.000
this is such a root issue

713
00:51:22.000 --> 00:51:25.520
that you'll then deal with all of these details

714
00:51:25.520 --> 00:51:30.520
at the same time, instead of each one individually

715
00:51:30.560 --> 00:51:31.840
and addressing each one.

716
00:51:31.840 --> 00:51:33.480
If you deal with this one,

717
00:51:33.480 --> 00:51:35.840
it'll fix all of these at the same time

718
00:51:35.840 --> 00:51:37.440
without you focusing on them.

719
00:51:38.320 --> 00:51:40.760
So it's a lot, again, it's a lot more effortless.

720
00:51:41.760 --> 00:51:45.080
So like, and why was I telling you that?

721
00:51:45.080 --> 00:51:45.920
I was telling you that, oh,

722
00:51:45.920 --> 00:51:47.640
because you were talking about how,

723
00:51:47.640 --> 00:51:50.720
you know, you just have these gut reactions, obviously,

724
00:51:50.720 --> 00:51:52.560
because you're reacting out of what it is

725
00:51:52.560 --> 00:51:53.880
you truly believe.

726
00:51:53.880 --> 00:51:57.200
So what you wanna change is what it is deep down

727
00:51:57.200 --> 00:51:59.280
that you really do believe.

728
00:51:59.280 --> 00:52:01.680
Do you believe that God is who he says that he is?

729
00:52:01.680 --> 00:52:04.720
In other words, that he, who does he say that he is?

730
00:52:04.720 --> 00:52:06.160
Well, he says that he's good.

731
00:52:06.160 --> 00:52:10.040
So therefore, that we can't allow,

732
00:52:10.040 --> 00:52:12.240
that we have to choose that he's good

733
00:52:12.240 --> 00:52:14.120
and not that he's evil,

734
00:52:14.120 --> 00:52:17.680
or not that he is, can't be trusted,

735
00:52:17.680 --> 00:52:20.240
or not that he does bad things to us.

736
00:52:20.760 --> 00:52:21.960
And we can't believe those things.

737
00:52:21.960 --> 00:52:22.920
We have to choose instead.

738
00:52:22.920 --> 00:52:25.440
No, if he says he's good, he's good.

739
00:52:25.440 --> 00:52:27.480
No matter what's going on in my life,

740
00:52:27.480 --> 00:52:31.280
no matter the situations that he allows to happen,

741
00:52:31.280 --> 00:52:36.280
they don't mean that he's not good.

742
00:52:40.240 --> 00:52:42.600
I'm sorry, I hope my, yeah, I'm sure I did.

743
00:52:42.600 --> 00:52:44.480
I was gonna say, I hope that my husband

744
00:52:44.480 --> 00:52:47.200
got the keys to his office.

745
00:52:48.040 --> 00:52:49.760
Yeah, I think he did.

746
00:52:49.760 --> 00:52:54.440
Because I sometimes when I do like late night calls

747
00:52:54.440 --> 00:52:59.360
or teachings or whatever, I use his office.

748
00:52:59.360 --> 00:53:00.680
So I take his keys.

749
00:53:00.680 --> 00:53:01.960
And I remember last night,

750
00:53:01.960 --> 00:53:03.960
I had a transformation session with someone last night.

751
00:53:03.960 --> 00:53:04.880
All of a sudden I thought,

752
00:53:04.880 --> 00:53:07.680
I hope that I put his keys on the counter for him to grab.

753
00:53:07.680 --> 00:53:08.760
And I did.

754
00:53:08.760 --> 00:53:13.000
Anyway, but that's why it's important to choose,

755
00:53:13.000 --> 00:53:16.080
to focus on this and not so much on these things

756
00:53:16.080 --> 00:53:19.960
because obviously we're gonna just gut react

757
00:53:19.960 --> 00:53:22.000
without thinking, without having time

758
00:53:22.000 --> 00:53:24.160
to like shift into rest or anything.

759
00:53:24.160 --> 00:53:26.280
We're just gonna have a gut reaction

760
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:28.280
to all of these situations.

761
00:53:28.280 --> 00:53:33.280
So if we just focus, if we focus on living life,

762
00:53:33.560 --> 00:53:37.160
in other words, approaching God differently,

763
00:53:37.160 --> 00:53:40.960
and that's our new lifestyle, that is our new approach,

764
00:53:40.960 --> 00:53:43.840
then the whole, all of the detailed areas

765
00:53:43.840 --> 00:53:46.200
of our lives will change.

766
00:53:46.200 --> 00:53:48.920
They'll be affected because we've chosen

767
00:53:48.920 --> 00:53:50.520
a new approach to life.

768
00:53:50.520 --> 00:53:53.240
Not that we've chosen to handle all of these situations

769
00:53:53.240 --> 00:53:54.080
very differently.

770
00:53:54.080 --> 00:53:56.280
Okay, well, okay, this is how I used to handle

771
00:53:56.280 --> 00:53:57.120
this situation.

772
00:53:57.120 --> 00:53:59.120
So instead I'm gonna handle it like this.

773
00:53:59.120 --> 00:54:00.440
And this is what I'm supposed to believe.

774
00:54:00.440 --> 00:54:04.440
And I need to remember that when I get into that situation.

775
00:54:04.440 --> 00:54:06.320
And then, okay, and then this other situation,

776
00:54:06.320 --> 00:54:08.280
I have a difficult time in these other situations.

777
00:54:08.280 --> 00:54:10.200
So this is what I used to do.

778
00:54:10.200 --> 00:54:13.240
So, but this time, if you do something in rest,

779
00:54:13.240 --> 00:54:15.000
well, then I would handle it this way.

780
00:54:15.000 --> 00:54:16.560
So I need to remember that.

781
00:54:16.560 --> 00:54:18.920
And you're not gonna remember it.

782
00:54:18.920 --> 00:54:19.760
Let's just be honest.

783
00:54:19.760 --> 00:54:20.960
You're not gonna remember it

784
00:54:20.960 --> 00:54:23.120
in the heightened emotion of the moment.

785
00:54:24.040 --> 00:54:28.120
So what you do is you deal with all of these issues

786
00:54:28.120 --> 00:54:29.880
when you're not in those issues.

787
00:54:29.880 --> 00:54:33.240
You deal with them by waking up every morning

788
00:54:33.240 --> 00:54:35.080
and choosing a different approach,

789
00:54:35.080 --> 00:54:37.120
choosing that God is who he says that he is,

790
00:54:37.120 --> 00:54:39.240
that he's good, that he's love,

791
00:54:39.240 --> 00:54:41.680
that he's provider, he's protector,

792
00:54:41.720 --> 00:54:44.320
that you don't have to do it for yourself anymore.

793
00:54:44.320 --> 00:54:46.920
That even when bad things happen,

794
00:54:46.920 --> 00:54:49.960
when you've got pain and discomfort,

795
00:54:52.480 --> 00:54:55.480
that doesn't say anything different about God.

796
00:54:55.480 --> 00:54:58.320
It doesn't say that he's not protecting you,

797
00:54:58.320 --> 00:54:59.600
that he's not providing for you,

798
00:54:59.600 --> 00:55:00.920
and that he's a good God.

799
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.480
not good and whatever, it's a totally different approach.

800
00:55:04.480 --> 00:55:07.320
It is a totally different way to live life.

801
00:55:07.320 --> 00:55:10.760
And your approach, you're changing how you live life,

802
00:55:10.760 --> 00:55:13.920
meaning like not all of the specific things that you do.

803
00:55:13.920 --> 00:55:16.680
You're just approaching your existence

804
00:55:16.680 --> 00:55:19.360
and life differently.

805
00:55:19.360 --> 00:55:23.080
And then that is going to affect very naturally

806
00:55:23.080 --> 00:55:26.560
how you find yourself gut reacting in these situations.

807
00:55:26.560 --> 00:55:29.840
You'll find yourself reacting differently.

808
00:55:29.880 --> 00:55:33.160
You'll find yourself not being triggered in these areas

809
00:55:33.160 --> 00:55:34.800
and you're not even focused on them.

810
00:55:34.800 --> 00:55:36.760
You're not even focused on trying to change

811
00:55:36.760 --> 00:55:38.680
how you interact in those areas.

812
00:55:38.680 --> 00:55:42.000
You're changing what it is that you believe about yourself

813
00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:44.160
and that you're coming into agreement with the fact

814
00:55:44.160 --> 00:55:46.760
that you are who God says that you are

815
00:55:46.760 --> 00:55:50.360
and that he interacts with you as provider, protectors,

816
00:55:50.360 --> 00:55:53.600
good, as all of that, like he says that he does.

817
00:55:53.600 --> 00:55:56.480
So once those places in you are healed,

818
00:55:56.480 --> 00:56:00.040
you'll automatically change how you handle

819
00:56:00.040 --> 00:56:01.400
all of these situations.

820
00:56:01.400 --> 00:56:04.000
Because the reason you're handling the way that you are

821
00:56:04.000 --> 00:56:06.760
is based off of the fact that you're not believing God

822
00:56:06.760 --> 00:56:07.840
in certain areas.

823
00:56:07.840 --> 00:56:10.600
So if you start believing God in those areas,

824
00:56:10.600 --> 00:56:14.560
it's gonna change automatically without you even trying,

825
00:56:14.560 --> 00:56:16.920
it's gonna change how you respond.

826
00:56:16.920 --> 00:56:20.200
And then you're gonna look back on the responses

827
00:56:20.200 --> 00:56:22.520
and think, that's wild.

828
00:56:22.520 --> 00:56:24.800
I don't usually respond in this situation

829
00:56:24.800 --> 00:56:26.240
the way that I just did.

830
00:56:26.880 --> 00:56:28.400
And I wasn't even trying.

831
00:56:28.400 --> 00:56:31.600
I just naturally responded differently.

832
00:56:31.600 --> 00:56:33.000
That's what you're trying to do.

833
00:56:33.000 --> 00:56:37.160
You're trying to default back to your natural state

834
00:56:37.160 --> 00:56:40.320
so that you interact in all of these areas of your life

835
00:56:40.320 --> 00:56:42.360
based on your natural state,

836
00:56:42.360 --> 00:56:47.000
not on who it is that you thought that you were,

837
00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:49.760
that you thought was natural, that was habit.

838
00:56:49.760 --> 00:56:51.600
You default back to your natural state

839
00:56:51.600 --> 00:56:53.800
and then that's how you interact with life.

840
00:56:53.800 --> 00:56:56.280
And because this is so different than this,

841
00:56:56.280 --> 00:56:59.560
you'll be responding differently to the situation

842
00:56:59.560 --> 00:57:00.920
without even trying,

843
00:57:00.920 --> 00:57:03.800
because your wounds are being healed.

844
00:57:03.800 --> 00:57:06.160
What it is you believe is different.

845
00:57:06.160 --> 00:57:09.360
So you're not triggered in those situations anymore

846
00:57:09.360 --> 00:57:12.880
because those triggers were based off of old beliefs.

847
00:57:14.440 --> 00:57:15.680
How long does it take?

848
00:57:17.040 --> 00:57:19.040
Well, it's just what you're doing

849
00:57:19.040 --> 00:57:22.880
is you're choosing a different way to approach life.

850
00:57:22.880 --> 00:57:24.800
And so it's a journey.

851
00:57:24.800 --> 00:57:26.800
And you're always going to be learning more

852
00:57:26.800 --> 00:57:28.240
and you're always gonna be,

853
00:57:28.240 --> 00:57:30.080
it's not something like,

854
00:57:30.080 --> 00:57:32.880
because what a lot of times we're trying to do,

855
00:57:32.880 --> 00:57:37.120
if we're like, well, can I shorten this?

856
00:57:37.120 --> 00:57:39.200
Can it happen really fast?

857
00:57:39.200 --> 00:57:44.200
One of the things that we're thinking is so often is,

858
00:57:44.320 --> 00:57:48.320
well, I want to avoid pain.

859
00:57:48.320 --> 00:57:50.560
But one of the things, so how can I like get through,

860
00:57:50.560 --> 00:57:52.920
how can I rip the bandaid off faster?

861
00:57:52.920 --> 00:57:57.920
But really God's just like, no, that's the point,

862
00:57:58.000 --> 00:58:01.240
is trust that you're not threatened

863
00:58:01.240 --> 00:58:03.200
even when you go through pain.

864
00:58:03.200 --> 00:58:06.000
Because our lives, what we're doing

865
00:58:06.000 --> 00:58:09.920
is we are overcoming the pain of this world.

866
00:58:09.920 --> 00:58:11.600
That's what we're overcoming.

867
00:58:11.600 --> 00:58:13.120
But in order to overcome it,

868
00:58:13.120 --> 00:58:16.480
because of course the world is subject to frustration,

869
00:58:16.480 --> 00:58:20.200
it's not believing that God is safe.

870
00:58:20.840 --> 00:58:23.280
And so what we're doing is we are coming in

871
00:58:23.280 --> 00:58:28.280
and the pain is the warring of the flesh against the spirit.

872
00:58:28.520 --> 00:58:30.120
That's what pain is.

873
00:58:30.120 --> 00:58:35.120
It's where you are divided against yourself and it hurts

874
00:58:35.760 --> 00:58:38.760
because you're not supposed to be at war with yourself.

875
00:58:38.760 --> 00:58:41.520
Your soul and your body are at war against your spirit.

876
00:58:41.520 --> 00:58:43.400
Your flesh is at war against your spirit

877
00:58:43.400 --> 00:58:44.840
and it's not supposed to be.

878
00:58:44.840 --> 00:58:48.080
So whenever you are at war with yourself, it hurts

879
00:58:48.080 --> 00:58:49.640
because you're supposed to be in unity.

880
00:58:49.680 --> 00:58:51.200
You're supposed to walk together.

881
00:58:51.200 --> 00:58:53.720
You're supposed to agree with yourself.

882
00:58:53.720 --> 00:58:56.320
And so anyway, so that's what the pain is.

883
00:58:56.320 --> 00:58:59.160
So what we're doing is we are learning to bring our soul

884
00:58:59.160 --> 00:59:01.720
and our body into agreement with our spirit

885
00:59:01.720 --> 00:59:04.920
so that it's no longer at war with our spirit.

886
00:59:04.920 --> 00:59:07.360
That lessens the pain.

887
00:59:07.360 --> 00:59:11.960
But then, so that's overcoming that aspect of creation,

888
00:59:11.960 --> 00:59:13.240
which is our flesh.

889
00:59:13.240 --> 00:59:16.200
Then we're supposed to bring that as the rest of creation,

890
00:59:16.200 --> 00:59:18.840
which is like, you know, animals and trees

891
00:59:18.840 --> 00:59:21.760
and situations and whatever.

892
00:59:21.760 --> 00:59:26.760
And now we have to speak in the truth about who God is

893
00:59:27.520 --> 00:59:30.240
to all of those situations, to all those people.

894
00:59:30.240 --> 00:59:31.720
And that's gonna create that,

895
00:59:31.720 --> 00:59:33.320
they're gonna war against us.

896
00:59:33.320 --> 00:59:34.360
That's what they're doing right now.

897
00:59:34.360 --> 00:59:36.840
They're warring against the spirit.

898
00:59:36.840 --> 00:59:41.440
But we have to go through that war and come out,

899
00:59:41.480 --> 00:59:46.000
come out stronger in our, with our belief in God,

900
00:59:46.920 --> 00:59:50.800
which will overcome the flesh,

901
00:59:50.800 --> 00:59:54.920
that will overcome the lies

902
00:59:54.920 --> 00:59:57.520
that creation is believing about God

903
00:59:57.520 --> 01:00:00.080
and give it the opportunity to come into.

904
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.000
alignment, that's what we're doing.

905
01:00:02.000 --> 01:00:05.280
So this whole thing about like pain or whatever, that's what,

906
01:00:05.360 --> 01:00:09.040
that's what we're doing here is we're overcoming.

907
01:00:09.080 --> 01:00:12.720
We're going to pain is evidence of the fact that there's something

908
01:00:12.720 --> 01:00:14.320
that has to be overcome.

909
01:00:14.320 --> 01:00:16.100
There's something in creation.

910
01:00:16.100 --> 01:00:17.480
That's not believing God.

911
01:00:18.180 --> 01:00:22.680
And so obviously we're going to run up against it, but what do we

912
01:00:22.680 --> 01:00:24.300
do when we run up against it?

913
01:00:24.300 --> 01:00:28.680
God's like, I want you to bring the truth of who I am into this situation.

914
01:00:28.920 --> 01:00:30.480
And that overcomes it.

915
01:00:30.480 --> 01:00:34.560
So there's, I'm afraid that there's no avoiding pain for the rest of our,

916
01:00:34.940 --> 01:00:40.100
you know, for here, it, what we're doing as the body of Christ is what do

917
01:00:40.100 --> 01:00:42.460
we do when we run up against pain?

918
01:00:43.180 --> 01:00:49.860
Do we bring in the truth of God to finally bring it into alignment or is,

919
01:00:49.940 --> 01:00:55.160
you know, or are we going to, um, uh, uh, are we going to come into

920
01:00:55.160 --> 01:00:56.640
agreement with that pain?

921
01:00:56.640 --> 01:00:59.400
You know, that God isn't who he says that he is and that kind of a thing.

922
01:00:59.800 --> 01:01:00.560
So there's that.

923
01:01:00.560 --> 01:01:04.040
The other reason why sometimes we want to get through the process faster is we

924
01:01:04.040 --> 01:01:08.480
believe that we're not, uh, that God is trying to get us to a particular

925
01:01:08.480 --> 01:01:16.100
destination and that that is his whole point and that we're a problem to him

926
01:01:16.420 --> 01:01:20.960
or that we're not in, um, we're not pleasing to him until we get here.

927
01:01:21.200 --> 01:01:23.640
And so we're like, how can I just get through this really fast?

928
01:01:24.000 --> 01:01:30.120
So that, how can I get through the state of condemnation in his eyes, you know,

929
01:01:30.120 --> 01:01:33.420
fast, and then finally get what he wants, where he's pleased with me and wants me

930
01:01:33.420 --> 01:01:37.500
to be, and we have to shift our understanding to understand, to believe

931
01:01:37.500 --> 01:01:42.800
that no, it's not a particular destination that he's holding us to.

932
01:01:42.800 --> 01:01:49.760
So to speak, it's the fact that we, he's that the point is not the destination.

933
01:01:49.760 --> 01:01:50.820
That's what I'm trying to say.

934
01:01:51.120 --> 01:01:55.080
The point is just the journey of the development of their relationship.

935
01:01:55.580 --> 01:01:57.120
It's the it's developing.

936
01:01:57.120 --> 01:02:02.480
Even Adam was developing a relationship with God and he, and that was before he

937
01:02:02.480 --> 01:02:08.600
sinned, so the development of a relationship with God is the point.

938
01:02:09.000 --> 01:02:10.080
That's what we're doing.

939
01:02:10.740 --> 01:02:14.120
It's where the point is being on a journey.

940
01:02:14.200 --> 01:02:16.080
It's not arriving.

941
01:02:16.580 --> 01:02:20.940
We don't have anywhere that we're ever going to arrive because God's always

942
01:02:20.940 --> 01:02:24.500
trying to teach us more and more about himself, but he's infinite.

943
01:02:24.840 --> 01:02:26.820
So therefore we're never going to get to the end.

944
01:02:27.420 --> 01:02:34.340
So if we believe that he's holding us to a particular destination and that he's

945
01:02:34.340 --> 01:02:38.260
not pleased with us until we get there, well, then we're believing then that

946
01:02:38.260 --> 01:02:43.200
we're all that God just birthed us into a state of condemnation and he's always

947
01:02:43.220 --> 01:02:48.140
going to treat us and we're always going to be condemned to him because he

948
01:02:48.140 --> 01:02:54.020
literally set it up so that we can never arrive and that's not what God would do.

949
01:02:54.340 --> 01:02:58.780
So his whole point apparently is, Hey, let's just develop the relationship.

950
01:02:59.180 --> 01:03:01.380
Let's just, let's just take the journey.

951
01:03:01.380 --> 01:03:06.700
So you being on the journey is God is you being where God wants you to be.

952
01:03:07.340 --> 01:03:09.420
You want you to just be developing that with him.

953
01:03:09.420 --> 01:03:13.160
So the whole thing of like, well, uh, you know, well, how do I like

954
01:03:13.160 --> 01:03:14.480
get through this really fast?

955
01:03:14.840 --> 01:03:16.760
No, the thing is just go.

956
01:03:16.880 --> 01:03:22.000
What God is wanting you to do is to just go through it, not go through it

957
01:03:22.000 --> 01:03:24.560
fast and get it over with and whatever.

958
01:03:24.560 --> 01:03:25.560
He's just like, no, no, no.

959
01:03:25.880 --> 01:03:27.600
We're just, we're going through everything.

960
01:03:27.600 --> 01:03:28.600
We're going through life.

961
01:03:28.600 --> 01:03:29.640
We're going through eternity.

962
01:03:29.640 --> 01:03:30.640
We're going through the heavens.

963
01:03:30.640 --> 01:03:31.440
We're going through the earth.

964
01:03:31.440 --> 01:03:33.880
We're just going, that's what we're doing.

965
01:03:34.760 --> 01:03:38.720
It's the point is what we're doing every day.

966
01:03:39.840 --> 01:03:44.640
So we, that's what God, um, uh, how do I put it?

967
01:03:45.200 --> 01:03:46.600
D does that make sense?

968
01:03:46.640 --> 01:03:48.160
Yeah, it does make sense.

969
01:03:48.440 --> 01:03:49.080
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

970
01:03:49.720 --> 01:03:50.120
Yeah.

971
01:03:51.440 --> 01:03:57.440
So anyway, the whole thing of like, uh, of, um, you know, how do we like get

972
01:03:57.440 --> 01:04:03.360
through this faster, so to speak is the faster that we meaning like the, the

973
01:04:03.380 --> 01:04:08.980
more that we believe God and, and, um, let go of all of these things.

974
01:04:08.980 --> 01:04:10.780
Let go of accusation against him.

975
01:04:10.780 --> 01:04:13.980
Let go of our lies that we're believing about him and choose

976
01:04:13.980 --> 01:04:15.600
that he is who he says that he is.

977
01:04:16.320 --> 01:04:23.420
It is true that the less, the less painful that life will be because our soul and

978
01:04:23.420 --> 01:04:25.500
our body are coming into agreement with him.

979
01:04:25.780 --> 01:04:32.180
So the faster that we actually choose that what he says is true and not that

980
01:04:32.360 --> 01:04:40.200
what the earth is trying to tell us is true, the, then the, then the, um, then

981
01:04:40.200 --> 01:04:46.400
the, the, the more that will overcome the faster that will overcome the

982
01:04:46.400 --> 01:04:50.040
flesh and we'll have less pain.

983
01:04:50.440 --> 01:04:56.000
Now by that understand, I do not mean that we won't experience pain because

984
01:04:56.000 --> 01:04:59.960
we're just going to do that for the rest of our life, because things.

985
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.600
come against us.

986
01:05:01.600 --> 01:05:03.840
So there are things that are just going to hurt,

987
01:05:03.840 --> 01:05:06.400
but how do we interact with the hurt?

988
01:05:09.160 --> 01:05:11.520
Because you can only overcome something

989
01:05:11.520 --> 01:05:13.120
if you go through it.

990
01:05:13.120 --> 01:05:17.080
So we have to go through the pain in order to overcome it.

991
01:05:17.080 --> 01:05:20.240
We can't avoid it to overcome it.

992
01:05:20.240 --> 01:05:22.780
If we avoid it, we haven't overcome it.

993
01:05:24.280 --> 01:05:25.980
So same thing with Jesus,

994
01:05:25.980 --> 01:05:28.020
the way that he had to overcome death

995
01:05:28.020 --> 01:05:29.540
was not to avoid death

996
01:05:29.540 --> 01:05:32.780
and not to be the only person who'd never died.

997
01:05:32.780 --> 01:05:35.260
He had to actually die.

998
01:05:35.260 --> 01:05:37.780
But on the other end, he resurrected,

999
01:05:37.780 --> 01:05:40.280
which proved that death couldn't conquer him.

1000
01:05:40.280 --> 01:05:41.940
But he had to go through it

1001
01:05:41.940 --> 01:05:44.420
in order to prove that it couldn't conquer him.

1002
01:05:44.420 --> 01:05:47.020
Avoiding it doesn't prove anything.

1003
01:05:47.020 --> 01:05:50.540
It doesn't prove that death, it wasn't more powerful.

1004
01:05:50.540 --> 01:05:52.180
You have to go through the thing

1005
01:05:52.180 --> 01:05:54.980
in order to prove that you're more powerful.

1006
01:05:54.980 --> 01:05:57.100
That's the same thing, you know, with like pain, et cetera,

1007
01:05:57.220 --> 01:06:00.820
we have to go through it and that's what's overcoming it.

1008
01:06:00.820 --> 01:06:03.100
But anyway, so what we're doing with rest

1009
01:06:03.100 --> 01:06:07.620
is going through life from a different perspective

1010
01:06:07.620 --> 01:06:08.620
and a different approach.

1011
01:06:08.620 --> 01:06:10.260
It's like, oh, okay.

1012
01:06:10.260 --> 01:06:13.140
So it's about something different than I,

1013
01:06:13.140 --> 01:06:15.100
going through life is about something different

1014
01:06:15.100 --> 01:06:17.000
than I thought that it was, you know?

1015
01:06:18.220 --> 01:06:20.140
But can you explain to me a little bit

1016
01:06:20.140 --> 01:06:23.860
about what you had your experience

1017
01:06:23.860 --> 01:06:25.300
that God taught you about rest,

1018
01:06:25.340 --> 01:06:30.340
but you were living in it from a place of your flesh

1019
01:06:30.340 --> 01:06:31.660
and the way that I describe it,

1020
01:06:31.660 --> 01:06:33.900
that I have been walking in faith,

1021
01:06:33.900 --> 01:06:37.060
but maybe from sometimes from a place of stress.

1022
01:06:37.060 --> 01:06:37.900
Yeah.

1023
01:06:37.900 --> 01:06:41.140
Because I think that is something that I'm experiencing now

1024
01:06:41.140 --> 01:06:42.260
and it's hard to distinguish,

1025
01:06:42.260 --> 01:06:45.220
or I'll be like doing all the right things,

1026
01:06:45.220 --> 01:06:47.900
but I'm not entering rest, all right?

1027
01:06:47.900 --> 01:06:49.340
Or I lose it really fast.

1028
01:06:49.340 --> 01:06:51.700
It comes and then it just goes.

1029
01:06:51.700 --> 01:06:54.980
And I'm being very focused on the principles or the rules

1030
01:06:55.660 --> 01:06:57.220
or the, okay, what do I need to do now?

1031
01:06:57.220 --> 01:06:59.620
Kind of the same way I was doing before,

1032
01:06:59.620 --> 01:07:02.100
it's just that it's a new belief system.

1033
01:07:02.100 --> 01:07:02.940
But it's-

1034
01:07:02.940 --> 01:07:03.780
That's right.

1035
01:07:06.060 --> 01:07:07.260
Yeah, that's a good question

1036
01:07:07.260 --> 01:07:08.580
because what we're not doing

1037
01:07:08.580 --> 01:07:11.420
is we're not exchanging old rules for new rules.

1038
01:07:11.420 --> 01:07:12.260
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1039
01:07:12.260 --> 01:07:13.740
And we talked about that in the beginning,

1040
01:07:13.740 --> 01:07:16.140
that the things that I'm learning here

1041
01:07:16.140 --> 01:07:18.580
could just become a new religion.

1042
01:07:18.580 --> 01:07:19.420
Yes.

1043
01:07:19.420 --> 01:07:21.300
Yeah, it could just be just replacing

1044
01:07:21.300 --> 01:07:23.100
other teaching things that you heard before,

1045
01:07:23.140 --> 01:07:24.940
and then that becomes your belief.

1046
01:07:24.940 --> 01:07:26.860
And that's not God either.

1047
01:07:26.860 --> 01:07:27.700
Yes.

1048
01:07:27.700 --> 01:07:29.020
It's not the system.

1049
01:07:29.020 --> 01:07:30.740
Yeah, so for one thing,

1050
01:07:30.740 --> 01:07:32.900
the way that we change that is to believe

1051
01:07:32.900 --> 01:07:35.660
that we're not in condemnation when we're not in rest.

1052
01:07:37.100 --> 01:07:39.700
Because one of the things that we do is we're like,

1053
01:07:39.700 --> 01:07:41.820
oh my goodness, if I'm not doing it right,

1054
01:07:41.820 --> 01:07:44.220
if I'm not in rest and I'm now believing the old way

1055
01:07:44.220 --> 01:07:46.100
or I'm still doing things in the old way or whatever,

1056
01:07:46.100 --> 01:07:48.220
well, see, I shouldn't be doing that.

1057
01:07:48.220 --> 01:07:49.580
God said, I shouldn't be doing that.

1058
01:07:49.580 --> 01:07:52.580
I should be doing rest, so therefore that's bad.

1059
01:07:52.580 --> 01:07:53.460
I'm bad.

1060
01:07:53.460 --> 01:07:54.860
I shouldn't be like this or whatever.

1061
01:07:54.860 --> 01:07:58.260
Well, that's this approach from condemnation of like,

1062
01:07:58.260 --> 01:07:59.100
I'm bad.

1063
01:07:59.100 --> 01:08:01.140
And so therefore we're coming into agreement

1064
01:08:01.140 --> 01:08:03.780
with the fact that God's not who he says that he is.

1065
01:08:03.780 --> 01:08:06.740
That he said, I'm not condemned, but that's not true.

1066
01:08:06.740 --> 01:08:09.260
And so we have to choose, even when we're not in rest,

1067
01:08:09.260 --> 01:08:12.620
we have to come into agreement with God about something.

1068
01:08:12.620 --> 01:08:13.460
Come into agree,

1069
01:08:13.460 --> 01:08:15.900
even if you can't come into agreement with him

1070
01:08:15.900 --> 01:08:19.060
that he is who he says that he is in certain areas,

1071
01:08:19.060 --> 01:08:21.899
come find some area that you can believe

1072
01:08:21.899 --> 01:08:23.500
and come into agreement with him

1073
01:08:23.500 --> 01:08:28.500
about that he is, that you're not condemned

1074
01:08:28.660 --> 01:08:29.939
for being where it is that you are.

1075
01:08:29.939 --> 01:08:32.260
Even when you're sinning, even when you're sinning,

1076
01:08:32.260 --> 01:08:34.859
that you're not condemned, come into agreement somewhere.

1077
01:08:34.859 --> 01:08:36.460
So that is a really big thing,

1078
01:08:36.460 --> 01:08:39.060
is that there's no longer condemnation

1079
01:08:39.060 --> 01:08:41.979
because under the law, there's condemnation.

1080
01:08:41.979 --> 01:08:44.460
So now, even when you sin,

1081
01:08:44.460 --> 01:08:46.140
you're not under any condemnation.

1082
01:08:46.140 --> 01:08:50.020
So that's a really big one about how to,

1083
01:08:50.020 --> 01:08:51.979
because if you believe you're under condemnation,

1084
01:08:51.979 --> 01:08:54.220
then you're gonna, then you've come into agreement

1085
01:08:54.220 --> 01:08:56.380
with the fact that God's not who he says that he is.

1086
01:08:56.380 --> 01:08:57.420
So you're out of agreement.

1087
01:08:57.420 --> 01:09:02.220
So that, so you can, so approach rest

1088
01:09:02.220 --> 01:09:05.260
and shifting into rest from a place of rest,

1089
01:09:05.260 --> 01:09:06.540
which I know sounds really weird,

1090
01:09:06.540 --> 01:09:07.420
but the whole point is,

1091
01:09:07.420 --> 01:09:10.260
the whole thing is like no condemnation

1092
01:09:10.260 --> 01:09:13.260
and choose that this is who you are.

1093
01:09:13.260 --> 01:09:16.620
You're not trying to get somewhere.

1094
01:09:16.620 --> 01:09:18.260
You're already there.

1095
01:09:18.260 --> 01:09:22.540
The law comes from the approach that we're not there

1096
01:09:22.540 --> 01:09:24.979
and we're trying to get there.

1097
01:09:24.979 --> 01:09:27.500
Like I'm doing the wrong things.

1098
01:09:27.500 --> 01:09:30.340
So I know I'm in, so therefore I'm not there

1099
01:09:30.340 --> 01:09:33.300
and I need to work in order to get there.

1100
01:09:33.300 --> 01:09:37.100
I need to do something in order to be

1101
01:09:37.100 --> 01:09:38.540
who God says that I am.

1102
01:09:39.460 --> 01:09:42.500
And so that's a really major thing

1103
01:09:42.500 --> 01:09:47.260
about how we switch from the law or striving

1104
01:09:47.260 --> 01:09:49.779
or trying to work really hard for our faith

1105
01:09:49.779 --> 01:09:52.420
by coming into agreement first

1106
01:09:52.420 --> 01:09:55.020
with the fact that we're already there,

1107
01:09:55.020 --> 01:09:56.940
that we already have faith,

1108
01:09:56.940 --> 01:09:58.980
that God's already given it to us,

1109
01:09:58.980 --> 01:10:00.180
that we already do.

1110
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.840
believe our father, we already do love our father, we already receive our love from our father,

1111
01:10:05.840 --> 01:10:12.640
we already are the thing, but our soul and our body just are having to learn that having to come

1112
01:10:12.640 --> 01:10:18.240
into agreement that we're already there. So we have to approach it from this perspective that

1113
01:10:18.240 --> 01:10:22.240
instead of the law, which says that you're not there and you're trying to get there,

1114
01:10:22.880 --> 01:10:27.440
what we have to do, which is that whole idea of like working really hard for our faith.

1115
01:10:27.440 --> 01:10:34.160
So I'm not there. And then I'm having to work really hard, God, I'm so sorry. I haven't been

1116
01:10:34.160 --> 01:10:42.720
doing it right. I need I'm in a place of lack. I'm not there. So I'll try to do something.

1117
01:10:43.360 --> 01:10:49.840
And I'll try to believe you to get you to be pleased with me. Then we're using even belief

1118
01:10:49.840 --> 01:10:56.560
as some kind of currency or faith is some kind of currency to allow us to get something from God.

1119
01:10:56.560 --> 01:11:01.040
And what we have to do instead is okay, that was the approach of the loss, the approach of

1120
01:11:02.800 --> 01:11:09.440
rest, you know, the approach of actually faith, which is believing God is from this perspective,

1121
01:11:09.440 --> 01:11:13.520
that we're all we first come into agreement with the fact that we're already there.

1122
01:11:14.880 --> 01:11:18.640
There's nothing we've already become the thing we're not trying to become it.

1123
01:11:19.680 --> 01:11:24.880
Law believes that we're not somewhere and we're trying to become it. And we have to do something

1124
01:11:24.880 --> 01:11:31.040
to become it. We even have to get we have to transact something to God in order to get

1125
01:11:31.040 --> 01:11:38.240
something from God. He hasn't given it to us yet. And we have to and we're in a place of lack.

1126
01:11:38.240 --> 01:11:43.680
And we have to do something to get it. That's that old approach of the law. So instead,

1127
01:11:43.680 --> 01:11:49.520
what we want to do is if we find ourselves in a way where we're, where we are condemning

1128
01:11:49.520 --> 01:11:53.600
ourselves for not being in rest, we're condemning ourselves, we're not having faith. Oh, God,

1129
01:11:53.600 --> 01:12:00.240
you know, I'm so sorry, I need to try to do something or be different in order to please

1130
01:12:00.240 --> 01:12:05.520
you in order to shift into faith and rest and all of that, then that's coming from the perspective

1131
01:12:05.520 --> 01:12:11.760
of strife. And instead, God's like, no, first of all, before you do anything, believe that you're

1132
01:12:11.760 --> 01:12:17.600
there. Believe what I said, did I say that you're there? Did I say that I am who I said that he said

1133
01:12:17.600 --> 01:12:25.040
who I said that I am, then start from there, and then respond to that. I'm already there.

1134
01:12:25.040 --> 01:12:30.480
So now then, how should how should I be? What should I do? What would I, you know, how would

1135
01:12:30.480 --> 01:12:37.520
I interact in this situation? So it all starts from either, either approaching the situation

1136
01:12:37.520 --> 01:12:43.040
from believing we're already there. And believing that God is true, and that what he said is true,

1137
01:12:43.040 --> 01:12:49.440
or coming from this perspective that of the law, which is, I'm not there, I've fallen, and I need

1138
01:12:49.440 --> 01:12:57.280
to do something to get there. Even faith, that's the difference that that requires sweat in order

1139
01:12:57.280 --> 01:13:04.480
to overcome. This overcomes simply by first approaching it from the fact that that God is

1140
01:13:05.200 --> 01:13:11.520
that we believe God. Yeah, that's the difference. Does that does that make sense that you're already

1141
01:13:11.520 --> 01:13:16.320
there? Because that's the whole point of it. It's like, you don't have to do anything, you are already

1142
01:13:16.320 --> 01:13:23.520
spirit. And the spirit always follows Jesus, and the spirit always is at rest. Yeah, no, it's just,

1143
01:13:24.720 --> 01:13:31.360
it's not like, how can I get into rest? It's like, in my spirit, I already am in rest, in a way.

1144
01:13:32.160 --> 01:13:37.920
Yes, exactly. In your spirit, you're already in rest. Yeah, already there. Your soul and your body

1145
01:13:37.920 --> 01:13:43.360
just start when you've been climbing your whole life, it's kind of started hard to stop climbing.

1146
01:13:43.360 --> 01:13:50.160
I know. Yeah. So but it's that, you know, again, rest is the fact that you don't have to climb

1147
01:13:50.160 --> 01:13:55.600
anymore, because you've already you're already there. So now you just learn and ask the Lord

1148
01:13:55.600 --> 01:14:03.840
to mature you and how to live from where you already are. And that brings me to also the

1149
01:14:03.840 --> 01:14:11.920
question, what do you recommend or think or feel that I should do now or like, now the rest

1150
01:14:11.920 --> 01:14:18.720
intensive is coming to a closure? What what does people do? What do people do after the rest

1151
01:14:18.720 --> 01:14:24.000
intensive? What do you recommend? Or do you think anything for me? Or what do you think? Yeah, well,

1152
01:14:24.000 --> 01:14:31.040
you just continue to do you know, what it is that we've been just, you know, you just continue on

1153
01:14:31.040 --> 01:14:39.600
this journey of learning all of these things at just deeper levels. So you're becoming freer and

1154
01:14:39.600 --> 01:14:47.680
freer. And the Lord will walk you through that, like as in, you'll hear he himself is your is

1155
01:14:47.680 --> 01:14:52.960
your mentor showing you and revealing to you different areas in which you're not in freedom.

1156
01:14:54.000 --> 01:14:58.320
And he invites you to shift into freedom, he invites you to let that thing go and to choose

1157
01:14:58.320 --> 01:14:59.840
freedom instead to choose.

1158
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.140
to let go of believing that you're here,

1159
01:15:03.140 --> 01:15:05.020
where life is really hard,

1160
01:15:05.020 --> 01:15:07.260
and to believe that you're already here.

1161
01:15:07.260 --> 01:15:11.360
And then ask the Lord, okay, so what do I already have?

1162
01:15:11.360 --> 01:15:14.300
And how do I live from it?

1163
01:15:14.300 --> 01:15:16.620
You know, that's what we're asking him.

1164
01:15:16.620 --> 01:15:19.820
And so what you do is you just continue

1165
01:15:19.820 --> 01:15:24.820
to choose this at a deep level of, again,

1166
01:15:25.100 --> 01:15:28.500
always from this first perspective of the fact that,

1167
01:15:28.500 --> 01:15:32.940
no, God is true, God is right, I'm already there,

1168
01:15:32.940 --> 01:15:37.860
I don't have to try to work harder to be somewhere,

1169
01:15:37.860 --> 01:15:40.060
to be anywhere, because I'm already there.

1170
01:15:40.060 --> 01:15:41.740
And then you start from that perspective.

1171
01:15:41.740 --> 01:15:44.140
Like, okay, if that's true,

1172
01:15:44.140 --> 01:15:47.300
then how do I approach the situation?

1173
01:15:47.300 --> 01:15:49.340
Or what is one of the things that God says that I am?

1174
01:15:49.340 --> 01:15:50.820
So, okay, so I'm already there.

1175
01:15:50.820 --> 01:15:53.540
Okay, God, where am I?

1176
01:15:53.540 --> 01:15:54.380
Who am I?

1177
01:15:55.180 --> 01:15:59.700
You know, how, like, who do you say that I am?

1178
01:15:59.700 --> 01:16:00.980
And who are you?

1179
01:16:00.980 --> 01:16:05.060
And if I believe that, how does that then change

1180
01:16:05.060 --> 01:16:06.980
how I'm viewing this situation?

1181
01:16:06.980 --> 01:16:09.300
And I don't mean that you necessarily think

1182
01:16:09.300 --> 01:16:10.540
through all of these things.

1183
01:16:10.540 --> 01:16:11.820
Sometimes you do.

1184
01:16:11.820 --> 01:16:12.820
Sometimes I have to like,

1185
01:16:12.820 --> 01:16:15.020
kind of like mentally walk myself through,

1186
01:16:15.020 --> 01:16:17.020
okay, if I'm in a, like, say, for instance,

1187
01:16:17.020 --> 01:16:19.740
if I'm in a difficult financial situation,

1188
01:16:19.740 --> 01:16:23.480
sometimes I will mentally walk myself through,

1189
01:16:23.480 --> 01:16:26.680
okay, I'm feeling anxious, I'm feeling stressed.

1190
01:16:26.680 --> 01:16:30.040
Okay, but who does God say that he is and that I am

1191
01:16:30.040 --> 01:16:30.960
and what the truth is?

1192
01:16:30.960 --> 01:16:32.960
Okay, so if he's provider,

1193
01:16:34.040 --> 01:16:36.640
and I choose that he's provider in my life,

1194
01:16:36.640 --> 01:16:39.320
meaning like that he's provider

1195
01:16:39.320 --> 01:16:42.920
regardless of whether or not I see money, he's provider.

1196
01:16:42.920 --> 01:16:45.080
So if he is provider,

1197
01:16:45.080 --> 01:16:47.960
then how do I now approach this financial situation

1198
01:16:47.960 --> 01:16:48.800
that I'm in?

1199
01:16:49.760 --> 01:16:51.520
And I think, okay, well then,

1200
01:16:51.560 --> 01:16:53.920
there's no need for me to get stressed

1201
01:16:53.920 --> 01:16:56.920
because even if I, and this is how I like

1202
01:16:56.920 --> 01:16:57.760
walk myself through it.

1203
01:16:57.760 --> 01:17:01.280
And I'm like, well, because even if I have to,

1204
01:17:01.280 --> 01:17:05.240
because God will either show me, how do I put it?

1205
01:17:05.240 --> 01:17:07.800
I'm provided for and I'm protected

1206
01:17:07.800 --> 01:17:11.160
even if I'm having to go through certain things in life

1207
01:17:11.160 --> 01:17:13.880
that I would consider bad consequences

1208
01:17:13.880 --> 01:17:18.520
or painful consequences, I'm not threatened.

1209
01:17:18.520 --> 01:17:20.440
Jesus was still in the boat.

1210
01:17:20.440 --> 01:17:23.120
He was being knocked around by the storm.

1211
01:17:23.120 --> 01:17:24.640
It's not like he wasn't being knocked around.

1212
01:17:24.640 --> 01:17:26.800
He was being knocked around by the storm.

1213
01:17:26.800 --> 01:17:30.560
So he was having to experience consequences.

1214
01:17:30.560 --> 01:17:32.720
He was having to experience the results

1215
01:17:32.720 --> 01:17:37.280
or the effects of a particular situation.

1216
01:17:37.280 --> 01:17:40.400
So if I'm in a difficult financial situation,

1217
01:17:40.400 --> 01:17:42.880
just because I'm experiencing the effects

1218
01:17:42.880 --> 01:17:45.640
of being in a difficult financial situation

1219
01:17:45.640 --> 01:17:47.880
doesn't mean that God's not provider.

1220
01:17:48.880 --> 01:17:52.360
And so, and I just choose that he is.

1221
01:17:52.360 --> 01:17:53.960
And then I ask him, okay, Lord,

1222
01:17:53.960 --> 01:17:56.440
you say that I'm, that you're provider,

1223
01:17:56.440 --> 01:17:58.320
that I'm already provided for,

1224
01:17:58.320 --> 01:17:59.720
I'm already in a state of provision.

1225
01:17:59.720 --> 01:18:03.920
So that is where, that's the reality of me being,

1226
01:18:03.920 --> 01:18:06.240
of where it is that I already am in spirit.

1227
01:18:06.240 --> 01:18:09.480
So how do I be that Lord in my,

1228
01:18:09.480 --> 01:18:12.600
how do I bring that down and express that

1229
01:18:12.600 --> 01:18:15.160
into my soul and into the body realm?

1230
01:18:15.280 --> 01:18:17.960
How do I do it so that I believe it in my,

1231
01:18:17.960 --> 01:18:19.920
so that my mind and my emotions

1232
01:18:19.920 --> 01:18:21.600
come into agreement with it,

1233
01:18:21.600 --> 01:18:24.280
and that my body comes into agreement with it,

1234
01:18:24.280 --> 01:18:28.720
and my heart stops racing, I stop being afraid, et cetera.

1235
01:18:28.720 --> 01:18:32.000
How do I do that, Lord?

1236
01:18:32.000 --> 01:18:35.320
But I first have to come to it from the perspective

1237
01:18:35.320 --> 01:18:38.640
that he is, that I'm already there,

1238
01:18:38.640 --> 01:18:42.080
that he's provider, that I'm provided for.

1239
01:18:42.080 --> 01:18:45.120
So Lord, how do we manifest that into the physical?

1240
01:18:45.960 --> 01:18:47.240
I choose that this is more true,

1241
01:18:47.240 --> 01:18:50.520
and this is more and is of a higher reality

1242
01:18:50.520 --> 01:18:51.640
than this reality.

1243
01:18:51.640 --> 01:18:54.440
The reality that I'm in a difficult financial situation

1244
01:18:54.440 --> 01:18:57.200
does not mean that I'm threatened as a being.

1245
01:18:58.400 --> 01:19:00.360
It just means that I might experience

1246
01:19:00.360 --> 01:19:03.520
some challenging financial issues

1247
01:19:03.520 --> 01:19:05.640
where I have to go to the bank and I have to do this,

1248
01:19:05.640 --> 01:19:10.640
and then I have to, and then I may not have money for,

1249
01:19:10.760 --> 01:19:13.520
to get all of the food that I would normally like to get,

1250
01:19:13.520 --> 01:19:16.840
but God's never let me starve yet.

1251
01:19:16.840 --> 01:19:20.200
So, and he always makes some way,

1252
01:19:20.200 --> 01:19:23.720
he always either sends me food or he sends me,

1253
01:19:23.720 --> 01:19:25.800
now I'm not in a difficult financial situation now,

1254
01:19:25.800 --> 01:19:28.240
but this is how God's taught me this,

1255
01:19:28.240 --> 01:19:31.520
was going through a lot of various situations,

1256
01:19:31.520 --> 01:19:34.960
one of which is very extreme financial situations.

1257
01:19:34.960 --> 01:19:37.040
So that's why I'm using it as an example.

1258
01:19:37.040 --> 01:19:38.280
But anyway, and he'll just kind of like

1259
01:19:38.280 --> 01:19:39.880
walk me through those things.

1260
01:19:39.880 --> 01:19:42.880
And so I just have to realize, okay,

1261
01:19:43.240 --> 01:19:45.360
even if I go through difficult,

1262
01:19:45.360 --> 01:19:50.360
like challenging and painful and uncomfortable effects

1263
01:19:50.400 --> 01:19:54.200
of being in the physical reality that I'm in,

1264
01:19:54.200 --> 01:19:58.240
it doesn't mean that that is saying that God,

1265
01:19:58.240 --> 01:20:00.320
that that is proving that God is anywhere.

1266
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.600
different than who he says that he is, and that I am not where he says that I am. He says that

1267
01:20:05.600 --> 01:20:11.120
I'm safe. He says I'm provided for, and it doesn't matter what happens on this earth. That doesn't,

1268
01:20:11.120 --> 01:20:18.080
that doesn't, that doesn't change what is actually true in the spirit. And I choose that as a higher

1269
01:20:18.080 --> 01:20:23.680
reality that I'm living from. And that is more important to me than, than the pain of this

1270
01:20:23.680 --> 01:20:29.520
situation. And so through that, God ends up a lot of times changing this situation,

1271
01:20:30.240 --> 01:20:36.080
simply because I chose a higher reality. But it's because I chose that reality,

1272
01:20:36.640 --> 01:20:43.760
allowing God to keep it this uncomfortable, if you wanted to. God, you don't have to change

1273
01:20:43.760 --> 01:20:48.400
the situation. You don't have to save me from this situation. I choose you instead,

1274
01:20:48.400 --> 01:20:55.200
instead of being saved from this situation. And that's hard. So anyway, point is that,

1275
01:20:55.760 --> 01:21:02.160
that you just keep asking that the Lord will just keep bringing it. He'll, you will continue

1276
01:21:02.160 --> 01:21:08.160
to be triggered by things as the flesh is warring against the spirit and things will come up and

1277
01:21:08.160 --> 01:21:13.600
then God will give you invitations of like, okay, you know, do you believe me? I want you to live

1278
01:21:13.600 --> 01:21:20.720
in freedom. I don't want you to live in, in pain and in turmoil and in all of that. So anyway,

1279
01:21:21.280 --> 01:21:25.280
is that, is that helpful? Does that make sense? You're just going to continue doing what it is

1280
01:21:25.280 --> 01:21:29.600
that you're doing. You're just going to do it at deeper levels. And the more that you do it,

1281
01:21:29.600 --> 01:21:37.920
the more that you'll own it. And therefore the more that you will that, that the more that then

1282
01:21:38.160 --> 01:21:44.240
when you go back and you rewatch those teachings, the more you'll understand, you'll understand,

1283
01:21:44.240 --> 01:21:50.320
and you'll hear me say things you didn't hear the first time because you've owned it more now.

1284
01:21:50.320 --> 01:21:56.240
And so you can understand some things that I say that you don't, that maybe you didn't understand

1285
01:21:56.240 --> 01:22:01.920
the first time because there's only so much you can get the first time, but the more that you get

1286
01:22:01.920 --> 01:22:08.720
and the more that you live and the more that you, uh, that you, uh, that you own in your

1287
01:22:09.360 --> 01:22:16.320
personally between you and the Lord, um, then the more things that when you go back and listen to

1288
01:22:16.320 --> 01:22:20.800
the teachings, the more things that you'll hear, and then you'll start moving into,

1289
01:22:20.800 --> 01:22:26.480
to like deeper measures of rest, et cetera. So my people who go back and watch my videos

1290
01:22:26.480 --> 01:22:31.600
multiple times, and they say that every time they do, they get something new because they get

1291
01:22:31.600 --> 01:22:37.040
multiple new things because they watch them after they've owned it to a particular degree.

1292
01:22:37.040 --> 01:22:40.400
And then they rewatch them again and like, Oh, wait a minute. She said all of these things.

1293
01:22:40.400 --> 01:22:45.040
Well, that now makes more sense. And now I know how to apply that new thing,

1294
01:22:46.320 --> 01:22:50.080
you know, to how it is that I was living. And I didn't hear it the first time because

1295
01:22:50.080 --> 01:22:54.960
there's only so much you can consume. So anyways, you'll just keep moving into deeper levels.

1296
01:22:54.960 --> 01:22:59.520
Um, now one of the things that I was thinking of, and I was thinking of announcing it tonight,

1297
01:22:59.520 --> 01:23:06.000
um, is, uh, I'm still, I'm still kind of like thinking about it and thinking about,

1298
01:23:06.000 --> 01:23:11.600
is this what I want to do? But I was thinking about doing an advanced rest intensive and going

1299
01:23:11.600 --> 01:23:19.920
like through the last sessions of the inner is rest series. And, um, uh, and anyway, so I was

1300
01:23:19.920 --> 01:23:26.560
thinking of offering that from now until December the 31st. So basically for another six weeks,

1301
01:23:26.560 --> 01:23:33.440
I say now meaning like, you know, it rest intensive ends this, uh, November 19th. So.

1302
01:23:35.680 --> 01:23:43.120
So that's this week. Yes. Yes. And so I was thinking, uh, there's six weeks between

1303
01:23:43.920 --> 01:23:49.440
starting next week through the end of December, which fascinatingly is exactly six weeks because

1304
01:23:49.440 --> 01:23:58.160
December 31st is a Saturday. Wow. But anyway, I just thought, um, maybe offering, um, uh, an,

1305
01:23:58.160 --> 01:24:05.360
an advanced one to go through the last part of the series. And, uh, so I was gonna, I was thinking of,

1306
01:24:05.360 --> 01:24:11.840
of offering that. And, um, so if you, if that would be of interest to you, well then, um,

1307
01:24:11.840 --> 01:24:18.160
you know, you're welcome to join us for that as well. And what I was thinking is that, um,

1308
01:24:18.160 --> 01:24:23.760
that this, that for this one, because I've still tried to figure out, well, how would I do this

1309
01:24:23.760 --> 01:24:29.760
exactly? But, uh, because I know that the time difference is, but I still wanted you to be

1310
01:24:29.760 --> 01:24:34.080
involved in the community. They've all just loved each other and everyone always loves the community.

1311
01:24:34.080 --> 01:24:37.440
It's one of their favorite parts. In fact, I was talking to somebody again last night

1312
01:24:38.240 --> 01:24:43.280
and they were very disappointed to find out that, that once the six weeks is over,

1313
01:24:43.280 --> 01:24:48.240
that they're now out of the Facebook community because it's, they're just in the Facebook

1314
01:24:48.240 --> 01:24:51.760
community during the six weeks. And then after that, you know, they're no longer in the community

1315
01:24:51.760 --> 01:24:57.200
where they were so disappointed and they're like, well, how do we, sorry, I'm trying to figure out

1316
01:24:57.200 --> 01:24:59.840
who that is. Um, you know, we'll, we'll.

1317
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.920
I don't, how can we like, can we like say that there's a community?

1318
01:25:03.920 --> 01:25:07.840
I was like, well, you know, and she finally realized, oh, so we

1319
01:25:07.840 --> 01:25:09.240
have to kind of create our own.

1320
01:25:09.240 --> 01:25:13.680
I was like, well, yeah, because that's because, uh, the particular

1321
01:25:13.680 --> 01:25:18.800
community that they're part of is, is, um, is one that I just dropped

1322
01:25:18.800 --> 01:25:25.560
them into and it's actually an old community and so, so the, this

1323
01:25:25.560 --> 01:25:28.400
particular rest intensive was just, Hey, you get to be part of this

1324
01:25:28.640 --> 01:25:29.760
community for a while.

1325
01:25:30.000 --> 01:25:33.120
So instead of starting a brand new community that they could just be

1326
01:25:33.120 --> 01:25:36.520
part of for six weeks, and then I closed the group, I'm putting them

1327
01:25:36.520 --> 01:25:40.920
into this old community that they get to experience and then, and

1328
01:25:40.920 --> 01:25:41.920
then they're, they're out.

1329
01:25:41.920 --> 01:25:44.880
So anyway, but the thing is, they're all just like, but we want to

1330
01:25:44.880 --> 01:25:48.000
keep going with the group because they just enjoy each other so much,

1331
01:25:48.000 --> 01:25:48.840
which I think is great.

1332
01:25:50.640 --> 01:25:53.800
And I always tell everybody that I always tell them, I said, the

1333
01:25:53.800 --> 01:25:56.280
community is one of everybody's favorite parts because they

1334
01:25:56.280 --> 01:25:57.600
realize they're not alone.

1335
01:25:57.920 --> 01:26:03.680
So what I wanted to mention to you is that if you decide to do, if you

1336
01:26:03.680 --> 01:26:07.240
would like to do the advanced thing, then, um, and I don't have all

1337
01:26:07.240 --> 01:26:09.120
the particulars figured out yet.

1338
01:26:09.120 --> 01:26:12.600
I was hoping to do that today that it, and if you would like to do it,

1339
01:26:12.600 --> 01:26:17.680
I, I wanted to, um, offer to you as, as part of like, you know, an

1340
01:26:17.680 --> 01:26:21.080
international thing for you to go ahead and be part of the community.

1341
01:26:21.440 --> 01:26:26.280
Now, I don't know about like the timings of when we would meet live

1342
01:26:26.360 --> 01:26:31.080
and I wouldn't require you obviously to make live events that were like in

1343
01:26:31.080 --> 01:26:36.760
the middle of the night or something like that, but, um, uh, but you maybe

1344
01:26:36.760 --> 01:26:40.160
would be able to have access to those recordings so you could watch them

1345
01:26:40.160 --> 01:26:44.520
later, watch like all of us meet, or you could choose, you know, on certain

1346
01:26:44.600 --> 01:26:48.120
nights to like, I don't know, wake up and join us.

1347
01:26:48.120 --> 01:26:48.560
I don't know.

1348
01:26:48.800 --> 01:26:52.920
But, uh, but anyway, so I wanted to mention that to you that I was thinking

1349
01:26:52.920 --> 01:26:56.080
about offering that through the end of December, because sometimes this is

1350
01:26:56.160 --> 01:27:00.200
sensitive for one thing, people have momentum now they've been doing it for

1351
01:27:00.200 --> 01:27:04.360
six weeks and they would like a bit more support, especially through the holidays.

1352
01:27:05.000 --> 01:27:09.480
Um, cause some of it, some people like get very challenged during the holidays

1353
01:27:09.480 --> 01:27:14.480
because of like interactions with them for one thing, busy schedules and how

1354
01:27:14.480 --> 01:27:16.080
to be at rest during that time.

1355
01:27:16.080 --> 01:27:21.160
And then also, um, uh, stuff with a family, you know, issues that they run

1356
01:27:21.160 --> 01:27:23.880
into with family or sometimes heightened during the holidays.

1357
01:27:24.120 --> 01:27:29.840
So anyway, um, I, uh, just wanted to let you know, I have thought about that

1358
01:27:29.840 --> 01:27:33.960
because I've had multiple people reach out to me asking, okay, so what's the

1359
01:27:33.960 --> 01:27:35.440
next thing we can do?

1360
01:27:35.880 --> 01:27:40.840
Um, and I wasn't going to do anything until January, but I've had so many

1361
01:27:40.840 --> 01:27:46.000
people say, express interest that they want to do something that they want to

1362
01:27:46.000 --> 01:27:47.800
know the next thing that they can do.

1363
01:27:48.280 --> 01:27:51.240
Um, so I thought that maybe I'd offer this through December.

1364
01:27:52.000 --> 01:27:53.600
So anyway, so anyway, there's no idea.

1365
01:27:53.640 --> 01:27:59.440
Would it be, um, would it be the same time or would it be, would it, could

1366
01:27:59.440 --> 01:28:03.320
it possibly change because you've had seminars before that I've been able to

1367
01:28:03.320 --> 01:28:08.560
join because it's been different times, but would it be, you haven't decided

1368
01:28:08.560 --> 01:28:15.960
like the time, when would the times be like, like when were those seminars that

1369
01:28:15.960 --> 01:28:18.160
I did that you had one on Sunday?

1370
01:28:18.160 --> 01:28:18.840
One time.

1371
01:28:19.080 --> 01:28:19.560
Uh-huh.

1372
01:28:19.880 --> 01:28:23.960
And I was like in the middle of the afternoon or I think so.

1373
01:28:24.120 --> 01:28:24.560
Yeah.

1374
01:28:24.840 --> 01:28:25.200
Okay.

1375
01:28:25.600 --> 01:28:26.200
I don't know.

1376
01:28:26.200 --> 01:28:29.400
I think there were a couple from America, one from England, maybe one

1377
01:28:29.400 --> 01:28:30.840
from America and then me.

1378
01:28:32.560 --> 01:28:33.800
I didn't want to shame one.

1379
01:28:33.840 --> 01:28:34.240
Oh yeah.

1380
01:28:34.240 --> 01:28:34.920
The shame one.

1381
01:28:34.960 --> 01:28:35.880
Oh yeah.

1382
01:28:35.880 --> 01:28:38.240
That was, that was in the middle of the afternoon.

1383
01:28:38.640 --> 01:28:41.120
Um, so cause you're okay.

1384
01:28:41.120 --> 01:28:44.000
So right now it is 11 o'clock.

1385
01:28:44.040 --> 01:28:46.640
What time is it there right now?

1386
01:28:46.640 --> 01:28:49.200
It's five, it's five, 11.

1387
01:28:49.600 --> 01:28:49.840
Okay.

1388
01:28:49.840 --> 01:28:51.320
So you're six hours ahead.

1389
01:28:51.840 --> 01:28:52.320
Yeah.

1390
01:28:52.480 --> 01:28:52.840
Okay.

1391
01:28:52.880 --> 01:28:56.160
Now that we, everybody's, you know, time has changed and whatever.

1392
01:28:56.440 --> 01:28:58.680
So I might be able to do that.

1393
01:28:58.680 --> 01:29:03.080
The reason that I did it is because most people can meet in the

1394
01:29:03.080 --> 01:29:04.760
evenings than during the day.

1395
01:29:05.280 --> 01:29:11.800
Um, but maybe I could see, I had thought about maybe seeing if, um, like at least

1396
01:29:11.800 --> 01:29:20.160
one, if not, um, if that, if at least one of them can be moved, um, and who knows,

1397
01:29:20.160 --> 01:29:22.880
maybe, maybe two, that would be, that would be really nice.

1398
01:29:22.880 --> 01:29:27.480
So anyway, let me, let me look into that and see if that could be, that could be

1399
01:29:27.480 --> 01:29:27.880
moved.

1400
01:29:27.880 --> 01:29:33.800
So anyway, but either way I would let you, you know, you'd be able to have access

1401
01:29:33.800 --> 01:29:39.000
at least to the recordings, but I would obviously love you to be able to interact

1402
01:29:39.000 --> 01:29:42.600
with the community, you know, as, um, as much as possible.

1403
01:29:42.680 --> 01:29:44.240
So, because it really is fun.

1404
01:29:44.840 --> 01:29:47.840
You said you were planning something for January also.

1405
01:29:48.320 --> 01:29:48.560
Yeah.

1406
01:29:48.560 --> 01:29:52.120
So in January though, I was just going to do this one again.

1407
01:29:53.000 --> 01:29:53.520
Okay.

1408
01:29:53.520 --> 01:29:53.720
Okay.

1409
01:29:53.720 --> 01:29:58.240
More people like, like for maybe people, well, I mean, people who've already done

1410
01:29:58.240 --> 01:30:00.040
it could do it again, but I figured that.

1411
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:02.200
And that's what a lot of people do.

1412
01:30:02.200 --> 01:30:05.400
A lot of people take the rest intensive multiple times,

1413
01:30:05.400 --> 01:30:06.920
but I was just thinking, you know,

1414
01:30:06.920 --> 01:30:11.140
I'm having people reach out to me that want to do it

1415
01:30:11.140 --> 01:30:13.880
that have never done it before.

1416
01:30:13.880 --> 01:30:16.240
And so anyway, point is whoever wanted to join,

1417
01:30:16.240 --> 01:30:18.720
I was going to do this one, the foundations one,

1418
01:30:18.720 --> 01:30:20.620
I was going to do it again in January.

1419
01:30:21.680 --> 01:30:24.480
Yeah, cause I have a, yeah,

1420
01:30:24.480 --> 01:30:27.400
I have a couple of friends that I'm telling you about

1421
01:30:27.400 --> 01:30:28.760
what's going on.

1422
01:30:28.760 --> 01:30:30.200
I don't know if they would be interested.

1423
01:30:30.200 --> 01:30:31.400
They're also from Norway,

1424
01:30:31.400 --> 01:30:34.400
but they're really interested in what's going on in my life.

1425
01:30:35.920 --> 01:30:37.880
I think they're very,

1426
01:30:37.880 --> 01:30:41.160
I think they struggle with some of the same things

1427
01:30:41.160 --> 01:30:43.860
that I do to really live from rest.

1428
01:30:43.860 --> 01:30:48.860
So I think, yeah, I'll tell them about it too.

1429
01:30:49.040 --> 01:30:52.160
Yeah, and the biggest, what do you call it?

1430
01:30:52.160 --> 01:30:57.160
The biggest, what's the word?

1431
01:30:59.320 --> 01:31:02.800
Ah, the biggest convincer for people

1432
01:31:02.800 --> 01:31:07.520
is to watch their friends' lives change.

1433
01:31:07.520 --> 01:31:09.440
That convinces them that this is real

1434
01:31:09.440 --> 01:31:11.320
because just hearing something, you know,

1435
01:31:11.320 --> 01:31:13.520
that someone tells them about,

1436
01:31:13.520 --> 01:31:15.640
they're like, oh, I'm glad that makes you happy.

1437
01:31:15.640 --> 01:31:16.520
That's great.

1438
01:31:16.520 --> 01:31:19.920
But when they watch their friend's life change

1439
01:31:19.920 --> 01:31:22.780
and it's something that they want for themselves as well,

1440
01:31:22.780 --> 01:31:24.960
that is the biggest thing that convinces people.

1441
01:31:24.960 --> 01:31:28.600
So I have some people that,

1442
01:31:28.600 --> 01:31:30.760
I have at least one person

1443
01:31:33.920 --> 01:31:37.400
who has talked to a friend of hers

1444
01:31:37.400 --> 01:31:41.040
and that friend has now reached out to me

1445
01:31:41.040 --> 01:31:43.920
based off of the change that they've seen

1446
01:31:43.920 --> 01:31:45.800
in their friend's lives.

1447
01:31:45.800 --> 01:31:47.640
And so, and they're like, oh my word,

1448
01:31:47.640 --> 01:31:49.800
if that's real, then I want it too.

1449
01:31:49.800 --> 01:31:52.000
And so anyway, so anyway,

1450
01:31:52.000 --> 01:31:55.120
the thing is that, yeah,

1451
01:31:55.120 --> 01:31:57.240
yeah, if your friends would love to join,

1452
01:31:57.240 --> 01:31:58.360
then that would be great.

1453
01:31:58.360 --> 01:32:00.720
So you can let them know that I'm planning to do something,

1454
01:32:00.720 --> 01:32:02.920
doing the foundations thing in January.

1455
01:32:02.920 --> 01:32:04.800
The reason is that,

1456
01:32:04.800 --> 01:32:06.000
otherwise I thought about, you know,

1457
01:32:06.000 --> 01:32:07.640
starting one again in December,

1458
01:32:07.640 --> 01:32:09.960
but the thing is that most people don't want to sign up

1459
01:32:09.960 --> 01:32:12.560
for something new during the holidays

1460
01:32:12.560 --> 01:32:14.180
because they're so busy.

1461
01:32:14.180 --> 01:32:17.360
But the reason I thought of extending this in the holidays

1462
01:32:17.360 --> 01:32:20.280
is because everyone, I figured,

1463
01:32:20.280 --> 01:32:22.680
it sounded to me like people were wanting

1464
01:32:22.680 --> 01:32:25.040
to keep the momentum.

1465
01:32:25.040 --> 01:32:26.640
They were already, so in other words,

1466
01:32:26.640 --> 01:32:28.760
this is people who've already been doing it

1467
01:32:28.760 --> 01:32:29.840
and they were wanting,

1468
01:32:29.840 --> 01:32:32.160
even though it was going to be during the holidays,

1469
01:32:32.160 --> 01:32:36.000
they were wanting to have friends to go through it with

1470
01:32:36.000 --> 01:32:38.760
about like rest and, you know, their rest friends

1471
01:32:38.760 --> 01:32:40.920
and have the support group and whatever.

1472
01:32:40.920 --> 01:32:41.840
So that's why I thought,

1473
01:32:41.840 --> 01:32:43.400
even though it's during the holidays,

1474
01:32:43.400 --> 01:32:47.360
I bet you that maybe from the way people are talking,

1475
01:32:47.360 --> 01:32:49.280
maybe they're wanting that.

1476
01:32:49.280 --> 01:32:51.760
But I didn't figure that anybody knew

1477
01:32:51.760 --> 01:32:55.080
would want to do the rest intensive during December

1478
01:32:55.080 --> 01:32:58.380
because the new stuff is very intense.

1479
01:32:58.380 --> 01:33:01.840
This other stuff is not as intense in a manner of speaking

1480
01:33:01.840 --> 01:33:05.180
because the foundations are already there.

1481
01:33:05.180 --> 01:33:07.680
And so they at least know what we're talking about.

1482
01:33:07.680 --> 01:33:10.500
And now it's just like, okay, how do you do this?

1483
01:33:10.500 --> 01:33:12.200
How do you do this in relationships?

1484
01:33:12.200 --> 01:33:14.040
How do you do this in business?

1485
01:33:14.040 --> 01:33:15.940
How, what is the power of intention?

1486
01:33:15.940 --> 01:33:19.200
How do you approach God and believe him for goals

1487
01:33:20.020 --> 01:33:20.960
and dreams and promises?

1488
01:33:20.960 --> 01:33:23.760
And how do you do all of that from a place of rest?

1489
01:33:23.760 --> 01:33:26.740
So it's just continuing something that they already know

1490
01:33:26.740 --> 01:33:29.040
that they're already been introduced to.

1491
01:33:29.040 --> 01:33:31.480
And it's just, how do you do it in deeper levels

1492
01:33:31.480 --> 01:33:32.880
in different areas of life?

1493
01:33:32.880 --> 01:33:35.520
It's not, they've already been introduced

1494
01:33:35.520 --> 01:33:37.920
to this new perspective in this new lifestyle.

1495
01:33:39.080 --> 01:33:42.000
And so anyway, so that's why I-

1496
01:33:42.000 --> 01:33:47.000
I am definitely interested and would think,

1497
01:33:47.440 --> 01:33:48.280
think about it.

1498
01:33:48.280 --> 01:33:51.680
And also I think that I miss the community,

1499
01:33:51.680 --> 01:33:54.360
because I'm going through this all alone

1500
01:33:54.360 --> 01:33:57.640
over here in Norway and people don't understand

1501
01:33:57.640 --> 01:33:58.680
what I'm talking about.

1502
01:33:58.680 --> 01:34:01.800
And it's also hard for me to think of a way

1503
01:34:01.800 --> 01:34:05.480
than kind of to meet, have someone that can just listen.

1504
01:34:05.480 --> 01:34:07.720
Like you said, your brother and sister-in-law

1505
01:34:09.360 --> 01:34:12.400
when they don't understand or they haven't seen the videos

1506
01:34:12.400 --> 01:34:13.600
and they don't know.

1507
01:34:13.600 --> 01:34:15.840
So I have missed the community definitely

1508
01:34:15.840 --> 01:34:19.360
or someone to just walk with through it.

1509
01:34:19.360 --> 01:34:22.880
And so I would have to think about it,

1510
01:34:22.880 --> 01:34:25.400
but I'm definitely in-

1511
01:34:25.400 --> 01:34:28.240
Yeah, just whatever you'd want.

1512
01:34:28.240 --> 01:34:29.440
I'm just offering it.

1513
01:34:29.440 --> 01:34:31.680
Just, I wasn't going to offer it,

1514
01:34:33.760 --> 01:34:37.520
but I've had so many people ask, well, what can I do now?

1515
01:34:37.520 --> 01:34:41.280
And what can I, how can I keep going?

1516
01:34:41.280 --> 01:34:43.160
And so I thought, okay,

1517
01:34:43.200 --> 01:34:46.200
if everyone's kind of asking me to keep going,

1518
01:34:46.200 --> 01:34:48.760
I thought I'd try to make it happen.

1519
01:34:48.760 --> 01:34:49.840
And so, anyway.

1520
01:34:49.840 --> 01:34:52.080
Am I the only international?

1521
01:34:53.400 --> 01:34:54.240
Okay, I'm-

1522
01:34:54.240 --> 01:34:56.320
Because the other two people,

1523
01:34:56.320 --> 01:34:58.400
the other two people that had asked

1524
01:34:58.400 --> 01:35:00.000
that are international

1525
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:19.000
asked about it as well when I sent them the when I sent them the offer they didn't want it, they only wanted it if they could do the community, but the problem with the community is that is that I, I had never done an international with the community

1526
01:35:19.000 --> 01:35:40.000
at the same time. And with that time difference. Yeah, I needed to make sure that. Okay, well, if, because the community aspect and developing it is so important to the process that I didn't know really how to how to, how would I put that,

1527
01:35:40.000 --> 01:35:58.000
that I couldn't require all of these people to attend the live events, but not the international people I was like, well then I can't require the in in the American people to attend, if other people don't have to attend and some going, and the whole

1528
01:35:58.000 --> 01:36:14.000
reason for me requiring them to attend is because it's that important to their progress. So I'm like, I can't treat people different is what I was thinking and so I'm like, so because this was the first time I tried doing an international while I did the

1529
01:36:15.000 --> 01:36:28.000
I was like, Okay, I don't know how to get them how to treat everybody fairly. And so, and to make sure that everybody has what it is that they need and that the internationals have just as much as what they need is like the nationals.

1530
01:36:29.000 --> 01:36:48.000
And so I anyway because it was new I thought I think I'm just going to have to do two programs at the same time. Yeah, now that I've done this I'm like, No, no, I could I could do the, I could bring in the internationals and they not have to do like meet all of the meat, do all of the groups

1531
01:36:49.000 --> 01:36:51.000
If they don't, if they don't want to.

1532
01:36:51.000 --> 01:36:59.000
Because, in a manner of speaking, that would mean that they were the ones missing out because there's so much benefit.

1533
01:37:00.000 --> 01:37:18.000
Together, everyone loves getting together on the on the calls. So, you still get an aspect of community in the Facebook group, and people do videos and whatever so there's still ways to interact, but it's just extra special to all get to get to get together.

1534
01:37:18.000 --> 01:37:34.000
So anyway, the thing is that that's why it works, the way that it did this time but now after having gone through it and seeing how everything was I'm like no, I'm going to try to integrate it so just like this past time I was trying something new

1535
01:37:35.000 --> 01:37:48.000
Let's try to do international and national at the same time. Now I'm like okay now let me see if I can combine them and get it to work. And by work, the whole point is, are people changing are people getting what they need.

1536
01:37:48.000 --> 01:37:57.000
And that's what I want. I want to make sure that whatever I do is actually being effective, otherwise there's no point, there's no point in joining the rest intensive if it's not effective.

1537
01:37:58.000 --> 01:38:13.000
You know, so what is it that I can do to make sure that it is effective for people and that's what was on my heart to make sure of and so I think that after having gone through this this past time I'm like you know what, let's try to do the.

1538
01:38:13.000 --> 01:38:27.000
Let's have everybody be in the same community. And let's see if I can make sure that everyone gets what it is that they need. So, and I think it's worth to have these, this has worked really well for you.

1539
01:38:27.000 --> 01:38:31.000
Yes. Yeah, I'm so glad.

1540
01:38:32.000 --> 01:38:45.000
Maybe, and maybe that's what I needed maybe I needed more one on one time. And that definitely got more one on one time because I had like specific things and it's been good to meet you every week, one on one.

1541
01:38:46.000 --> 01:38:59.000
Yes. Yeah, the private transformation sessions are very powerful because they're one on one, and they're just like people can get specific situations answered and talked about and whatever.

1542
01:38:59.000 --> 01:39:07.000
And it's a, it's very very powerful. And, but the name is the community part and so therefore they missed.

1543
01:39:07.000 --> 01:39:13.000
Anyway, so you got more transformation sessions than they did more.

1544
01:39:13.000 --> 01:39:29.000
You didn't have a community and so how can I give her bowl. So, anyway, so anyway, just if you want to, and you will probably post it on your page, what kind of times and what frame frame and everything.

1545
01:39:29.000 --> 01:39:31.000
Yes, yes.

1546
01:39:32.000 --> 01:39:37.000
Yeah, and if I decide to do it, it'll probably start next Sunday.

1547
01:39:37.000 --> 01:39:49.000
Me, because it ends this Saturday. So anyway, it would be pretty, it would be pretty fast because I want to make sure that people have the six weeks, especially because we will not be doing the full six weeks.

1548
01:39:49.000 --> 01:39:59.000
I'll have everybody be in the Facebook group for six weeks, but we won't be meeting as much as we normally would simply because we will have will have holidays.

1549
01:39:59.000 --> 01:40:00.000
And I don't want.

1550
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:07.640
People I don't want to take away people's time from their families by forcing them to like do all of this stuff I mean even during school people take.

1551
01:40:08.080 --> 01:40:13.760
Christmas holiday, you know, so I don't want and sometimes take off the week between Christmas and new year so.

1552
01:40:14.440 --> 01:40:22.960
there's we're not going to have as many like get together sessions, as we had this time simply because it's around the holidays, but I wanted to at least.

1553
01:40:22.960 --> 01:40:32.800
and allow people to all be in the Facebook group together for six weeks, but anyway, so all yeah i'll put it up on on on my page or notify you somehow and.

1554
01:40:33.160 --> 01:40:40.240
Whatever so that's one of the things that I was working out today with all the details to be able to present to everybody, so you were the first person to hear about it.

1555
01:40:40.800 --> 01:40:41.440
Thank you.

1556
01:40:42.400 --> 01:40:45.920
Anyway, all right, well, it was good to get to visit with you.

1557
01:40:45.920 --> 01:40:52.680
yeah um I don't know, regardless of whether it's it's next week or some other time in a.

1558
01:40:52.680 --> 01:41:02.600
bit so has this been good for you, has this as the rest intensive been good for you have what do you have any like feedback or.

1559
01:41:05.240 --> 01:41:14.240
it's been really, really good I feel like I said before that something deep inside me is changing, but it's like a huge ship.

1560
01:41:15.000 --> 01:41:25.920
So it's not like done like that, but I feel that there's happening things on many levels in me deep in my heart, but also in the practicals of how I live life and how I think.

1561
01:41:26.880 --> 01:41:35.840
And I do feel like it's going up and down and a little bit two steps forward and then one step behind and like I said, sometimes the fragility.

1562
01:41:36.200 --> 01:41:42.240
But I definitely feel that there's things going on and that i'm.

1563
01:41:43.160 --> 01:41:56.240
Understanding things on a deeper level what's going on and i'm having more hope for the future and more hope for my life and just that I actually don't have to live in stress.

1564
01:41:57.240 --> 01:42:07.720
I don't have to go in faith from stress yeah and that it's possible it's i'm not there, yet I still have a lot of stress in my life, but I feel.

1565
01:42:08.440 --> 01:42:13.840
That more that these weeks and even just since I started listening to your teaching this summer.

1566
01:42:14.280 --> 01:42:23.200
You know that's right um so yeah I feel like i've been in it, since the summer and, but of course more intensely the last weeks.

1567
01:42:24.040 --> 01:42:34.240
Is that there's going on yeah I think the thing with a guy like things that i'm told you, I think I would have handled it very differently.

1568
01:42:35.560 --> 01:42:36.520
And it could have.

1569
01:42:37.840 --> 01:42:45.120
put me in a lot like I can handle I feel like i'm getting stronger and I can handle more things and.

1570
01:42:45.760 --> 01:42:56.200
Just to see the blessed now, instead of not being in the church i'm in the church and i'm serving the church i'm growing and i'm contributing and.

1571
01:42:58.240 --> 01:43:04.880
I don't know if I would have been able to do that, unless I was walking in rest or new yeah yeah.

1572
01:43:05.240 --> 01:43:08.880
yeah well i'm excited for you, I know it's so much more freeing way.

1573
01:43:10.160 --> 01:43:13.960
approach the Lord that he's that good, you know yeah.

1574
01:43:14.080 --> 01:43:19.520
I think that I like this non striving that i'm already in rest.

1575
01:43:22.480 --> 01:43:37.120
And it's very because i'm so used to letting go and doing a lot of things in the soul and like I said faith, but maybe from a place of striving, so it feels like a relief to me.

1576
01:43:38.120 --> 01:43:41.240
That I don't even have to try or I don't even have to believe.

1577
01:43:42.240 --> 01:43:49.240
Because yeah and also that i've been really honest with God about being angry and bitter.

1578
01:43:50.840 --> 01:44:04.680
Then okay releasing that i'm so mad at you i'm just honestly so mad at you and I feel like you hate me like we talked about the first session just raw honesty that's where i'm at and then.

1579
01:44:04.920 --> 01:44:32.440
I don't even have to try to be good or I don't even have to believe that you, you love me, but I can choose that you say that you are who you say you are yeah yeah yeah and that and that he does love you and that you will just and you choose that and then after you choose that then you'll come to believe it and then you'll come to feel it and then you'll come to you know.

1580
01:44:32.440 --> 01:45:01.480
convince yours be convinced that it's true, but you choose it first yeah so all those things exactly because you already have it and faith is a gift faith is not something that we work for it's not something we strive for it's also a gift from the Lord that has to be effortlessly received as well yeah anyway look good so much i'm so you i'm so glad that it was helpful and that you were able to share that with us.

1581
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:05.600
I feel like every time it's been kind of set up by the Lord, I feel like we're coming straight

1582
01:45:05.600 --> 01:45:08.960
to something that's where I'm at or where I'm stuck.

1583
01:45:08.960 --> 01:45:09.960
Yes.

1584
01:45:09.960 --> 01:45:10.960
Yeah.

1585
01:45:10.960 --> 01:45:12.520
And also that these things happen with rejection.

1586
01:45:12.520 --> 01:45:17.880
I think it was very good timing because then I could bring it in our conversations.

1587
01:45:17.880 --> 01:45:18.880
Yes.

1588
01:45:18.880 --> 01:45:19.880
Yes.

1589
01:45:19.880 --> 01:45:20.880
Exactly.

1590
01:45:20.880 --> 01:45:24.760
We work with something that's actually going on instead of like, well, I know I get rejected

1591
01:45:24.760 --> 01:45:26.880
sometimes, but I'm not there now.

1592
01:45:26.880 --> 01:45:32.000
I was, I'm actually in the emotion and I think that was just really good.

1593
01:45:32.000 --> 01:45:33.000
Good.

1594
01:45:33.000 --> 01:45:34.000
Good.

1595
01:45:34.000 --> 01:45:35.000
Yeah.

1596
01:45:35.000 --> 01:45:36.720
Cause that's the most powerful way to do it is to help people like while they're going

1597
01:45:36.720 --> 01:45:42.520
through it, which is why I do the six weeks is to allow time to come up.

1598
01:45:42.520 --> 01:45:47.280
It's not just for, in other words, for life to come up so that people can start facing

1599
01:45:47.280 --> 01:45:53.280
things and go through them and rest as opposed to just teaching someone about something,

1600
01:45:53.280 --> 01:45:55.200
you know, in a really short amount of time.

1601
01:45:55.200 --> 01:45:59.720
Cause I can teach rest in a shorter amount of time than six weeks, but I allow six weeks

1602
01:45:59.720 --> 01:46:06.840
for like life to come up so that I can help walk people through real life situations.

1603
01:46:06.840 --> 01:46:11.000
You know, not just theory of like, yeah, well I get rejected sometimes or whatever, but

1604
01:46:11.000 --> 01:46:13.880
like, okay, now I'm through in it.

1605
01:46:13.880 --> 01:46:14.880
Let's talk about it.

1606
01:46:14.880 --> 01:46:15.880
Yeah.

1607
01:46:15.880 --> 01:46:16.880
Yeah.

1608
01:46:16.880 --> 01:46:17.880
That's the powerful place.

1609
01:46:17.880 --> 01:46:18.880
I'm so glad.

1610
01:46:18.880 --> 01:46:19.880
I'm glad that you've enjoyed it.

1611
01:46:19.880 --> 01:46:21.840
I'm glad that it's been good.

1612
01:46:22.840 --> 01:46:28.280
So yeah, I will, I'll let you know about what it is that I decided to do about the other.

1613
01:46:28.280 --> 01:46:31.240
And then you can just decide if that sounds good to you or not.

1614
01:46:31.240 --> 01:46:32.920
So totally up to you.

1615
01:46:32.920 --> 01:46:36.680
Like I said, the only reason I'm offering it is because people kept asking.

1616
01:46:36.680 --> 01:46:42.920
So I was like, oh, I wasn't going to do anything because I thought for, I thought, I mean,

1617
01:46:42.920 --> 01:46:46.800
I've got time, but I thought I didn't think anybody else was, you know, going to be interested

1618
01:46:46.800 --> 01:46:51.120
during the holidays and maybe they won't, maybe they just want something, but then when

1619
01:46:51.120 --> 01:46:53.800
they stop and think about it, they're like, well, that's true.

1620
01:46:53.800 --> 01:46:55.480
It is during the holidays.

1621
01:46:55.480 --> 01:46:59.960
So I'm just going to probably offer it and then see, you know, if it's, if it's meeting

1622
01:46:59.960 --> 01:47:02.160
their needs and if it's not, well then that's fine.

1623
01:47:02.160 --> 01:47:03.160
So, no.

1624
01:47:03.160 --> 01:47:04.160
Sounds good.

1625
01:47:04.160 --> 01:47:05.160
All right.

1626
01:47:05.160 --> 01:47:06.840
Well, it's good to visit with you Renata.

1627
01:47:06.840 --> 01:47:07.840
All right.

1628
01:47:07.840 --> 01:47:11.440
I'll see you one time or the other and let me know.

1629
01:47:11.440 --> 01:47:12.440
You are welcome.

1630
01:47:12.440 --> 01:47:13.440
Bye.

1631
01:47:13.440 --> 01:47:13.440