Okay.
Can you see me.
I can hear you but I cannot see you.
Okay.
Hey, how you doing.
It's now still a good time for you.
Yeah, it's okay I'm at work.
Oh, are you.
Did you schedule it during work.
Yeah, I think I planned on leaving early and then I forgot my boss is going to be gone all week so.
Yeah.
Is it okay for now or. I mean, I'm right.
No, no, no, no, this is great for me.
And by the way, I've been wondering, how are you able to get your background blurry. Are you able to do that on zoom.
Yes.
That is so cool. I want to learn how to do that.
It's not automatic. I don't even know if I'm doing it on purpose, maybe just because I'm well it looks very cool I noticed it the other day as well that you had done that.
And you can do the television if you if you want to.
But I, and I thought that you had to do the blurry thing with like a camera, like in other words like a really nice like Canon camera or something like that so anyway.
So, yeah. So, how have you been.
No, you're fine.
Oh, I can't hear you. I'm sorry you're on mute.
Oh, it says I need to tap that to speak.
Okay. Um, and it says my video stopped. Is that right.
No.
Okay, but I can't see you now.
Can you see me now.
Okay. Yeah, now I can see you.
Okay, good. So weird.
Yeah, I said, I guess my body's been screaming like anxiety.
You know, um, yeah and I told it to stop.
And it'll stop right then and there and then I, you know, I was able to finally fall asleep and then I woke up at like 230 with like anxiety and like things running through my, my mind and I didn't.
Yeah, it took a while to get back to sleep even if, if I did get back to sleep so.
Yeah.
Oh, I'm sorry, but that's cool that it stopped when you told it to.
I think every time I do like weird if we'd only known that trick earlier.
Right.
And what is it today.
Oh yeah after we got off that zoom it was helpful like so instead of me crying about the situation I cry, my heart went out toward the person that was, you know, hurting me instead of me feeling hurt.
Correct.
Yeah, I like that shift so I was like, because I was like I need to cry it out and then when we did the zoom I was like, now I'm going to cry about a different way.
Oh, that's a good idea. Yeah, it's not that we're not denying that.
It's not that we're not saying that what's being done to us and how we're being treated is okay. You know, and there's, we, we can be hurt. That's fine.
But it's important that we always just rely on the Lord, and to get what it is that we need from him, as opposed to feeling threatened by somebody else's interaction with this.
It's not that we're doing. It's not that we're, you know, it's not that we're saying that them doing it is okay and that they're more important than us is in like well if it hurts them and it bothers them.
Then, I mean, well, that their hurt is more important to deal with and are hurt or anything like that, or that ours is insignificant. We're just trying to make sure that we're agreeing with the Lord that we're not threatened, and that it's really not about
us anyway and then if we are hurt we can take that up, obviously, with the Lord, etc.
And so, so anyway, it's just, it's making sure that, like I said, we're not that we are remembering that this is who we are, not that we're down here, and to always act from this place, and then allow God remember what Jesus says he says that are the Lord it says that vengeance is mine I will repay
In other words, the Lord is going to take care of the consequences.
The Lord is, um, always works everything out for good to those who love him, et cetera.
And so what we're doing is we're choosing in faith to choose that what God says is that
whatever God says is true, really is true.
And then to live like that, as opposed to, you know, um, uh, trying to take the, trying
to protect and provide for ourselves.
So vengeance is the Lord's he's saying, he's saying more than just vengeance.
He's talking about, like, he's going to take care of the results.
He is going to take care of the quote unquote consequences.
He's going to, um, take care of the outcome.
Yeah, it was a good shift.
It was timely.
Oh, I'm so glad.
Yeah, it was.
And it's, it's challenging because it'll still keep coming up.
No, the personal still keep doing that at least for a while.
But if you keep shifting into this person, into this part of you, and you keep interacting
with this, with them from this place, eventually they will, um, they will usually
shift, they will usually change in some way.
God will use you to bring healing to them in a certain way, because you're speaking
the healing frequency for lack of a better phrase, not trying to sound like new agey
there, but the healing, like energy or frequency or whatever that is born from
heaven.
And that touch, in other words, you're allowing God himself to touch them.
And then that's going to bring, that's going to bring, um, you know, full, uh, what
do you call that?
That's going to bring full, uh, uh, healing restoration because they, he is what they
need, et cetera.
But, um, but, and, and the thing is that whenever we're doing that, we are calling
thing, we are presenting ourselves as the son of God, meaning that we're presenting
God to them.
I don't mean that we're God.
I just mean that, you know, because he's in our DNA and because it's the spirit of
the Lord, you know, that we're presenting God to them.
And then they, whenever anything meets God, it always, always, always has an
opportunity.
It has is required to make a choice to, to choose, to come into alignment or to
stay out of alignment.
And, um, uh, and usually though it will take, it usually takes time.
Usually things come into alignment, not everything.
It has a choice just like the big tree, but by my experience, what God does has
done with me is usually things come into alignment and people do as well, even
very, very, very, very, very difficult people.
And I'm talking not just about the one situation that I typically use as an
example, but like I have a variety examples.
Um, that one just happens to be one that I can like, that I can like figure out how
to, um, make my point in a, um, in a very more poignant way because it was so
extreme, but there are, I've been in that situation in a variety of expressions.
And in majority of the time, they eventually come into some aspect of
that alignment.
They heal to a certain degree.
They change how they interact with me, or I find something out about them.
Like they start revealing to me that they've been very intimidated by me or
they start crying.
And in other words, they start opening up and start like, I don't know, they
just start opening up to me.
It's very that the other thing that'll happen is if things do not eventually
come into alignment, God will usually remove you.
And I'm talking about general, you know, situations he'll do.
Um, even if, and I don't know if this is who you're talking about, but like, even
if you were talking about like a child, I don't mean that God would remove the
child from your life.
I'm saying that God would do something in such a way to ensure that you are
protected.
So from, from having to, because something is refusing to come into
alignment.
Now, the thing is though, um, that, um, usually they eventually come into some
aspect of an alignment, especially, especially children, because God's given
us to them.
Um, and, uh, and there's a way in which we have a specific, a role in their life
that carries a certain amount of authority.
I don't mean that when they're an adult, they haven't, that we have a spiritual
authority over them in a particular way.
I just mean that we have a specific, we have spiritual.
We have, um, every single spirit can talk to somebody else's soul and body and the
soul and body will recognize that a son of God is talking to it and it'll respond.
Now it gets to choose how it wants to respond, but it will respond, but this
spirit, somebody else's spirit does not.
more authority over somebody else's soul and body than its own spirit.
So we're not talking about manipulation or anything, because we can't do that
from inside Christ, that it's literally impossible for us to manipulate from
someone from inside Christ.
The only way we can do that is from the solar body.
So anyway, that, that when we're, um, that we, that anyway, so we can do
that with literally anyone, but with certain family members, like spouses,
children, sometimes maybe even parents, people that we are physically connected
to that physical connection and relationship, let me word it like that.
That relationship in built within that is a certain level of, um, it's a, it's
a, we're given a certain role, privilege, responsibility, and authority.
In other words, that our prayers carry more weight than somebody else's in their
life.
So it doesn't mean that we have authority over them.
Like we can control or manipulate them or something like that.
I didn't mean that.
I just mean that.
Um, and, um, I just mean that it is, um, it matters more.
It weighs more in the kingdom than somebody outside, um, the family
interacting with praying for, you know, that kind of thing.
Um, just because of our, just because of our connection.
So anyway, just wanted to say all that I have no, I don't know what situation
that you're talking about it.
And if you're talking about a family member or somebody outside, but, um, just
wanted to let you know that God will usually, usually they choose to come
into alignment, but not always.
And if they don't like, for instance, with me, um, when things wouldn't come
into alignment and in professional situations and relationships, uh, God
would remove me from the situation.
And, um, anyway, because he's just like, well, they're refusing to come into
alignment.
So I'm going to now remove you.
I, it was kind of like sending Jonah.
God's like, I'm sending you as Jonah talked to Nineveh.
And if Nineveh will repent, well then, and if they won't, well, then they're
going to bear the consequences, but I'm going to remove you and protect you.
So it's like, we're sent as kind of like ambassadors or whatever, and giving
people the opportunity to respond to the Lord in a positive way.
So when they removed you, did you feel like it was a negative experience?
Okay.
And you said the Lord removed you, but usually I'm removal.
It's not pleasant, I guess.
Yeah.
It didn't feel pleasant.
Now, sometimes it did.
Um, sometimes, well, it felt pleasant is in, I was glad of the relief, but the
actual physical experience that I was going through the worldly experience was
not pleasant because it looked like I was the bad guy and that's usually why I was
is things were looking in such a way.
Like, um, that I was the problem and so they needed to remove me, but every single
time, uh, it was eventually proven that I wasn't the problem and that it was
actually the people that were kicking me out.
And, um, one of the times was that lawsuit that I said that I was in, you
know, eventually it was proven to them.
Now, of course I say it was proven.
They already knew it originally.
They already knew it from the beginning.
They knew what they were doing, but then there were some people that I think were
confused and they wanted to believe that we were, that we were doing these bad
things because I think they were just afraid.
Um, they wanted to believe, uh, that, um, they, that they were doing the right
thing and protecting themselves against us and all of that stuff.
But ultimately they knew that we hadn't, um, and whether that was at the
beginning or not later, eventually, you know, they knew, uh, but the, and then
the other time was a year later.
It was proven because the guy that was attacking me, it was kind of, it was a,
it was a, it was an owner of a company that I was, I had a contract with.
They had hired me as a business consultant and this owner was bullying me.
Well, there were two owners and I knew the other owner.
I didn't know this owner very well.
I knew one of, I knew him somewhat, you know, we'd, we'd gone to church together.
They'd been missionaries overseas, you know, all that stuff.
So I knew of him, but I didn't ever, I had never been around him much, but I'd
heard about him for years.
And so I felt like I knew him.
Anyway, um, uh, he was the one that.
was bullying me behind the scenes.
Well, I'd never been in a situation like that.
So I didn't even know it was bullying.
I didn't even know to recognize that.
I just knew that this was a very difficult situation and I couldn't
figure out what was going on and I've couldn't all and, but the really
fascinating thing, and this is something else that I learned in the spirit is
that I would have fog while I was in the building, like mental fog, I couldn't,
I couldn't, I couldn't think, I couldn't figure things out.
I felt like I was crazy.
Like, in other words that I was the one, not that I was like legitimately crazy,
but like everyone else could get it.
And I couldn't like, I'm an intelligent person.
I'm being hired for very good money as the expert.
I'm like, why am I so confused?
Um, I bet I would go home and on the weekends the fog would lift.
And it was like, because I didn't have to go into work, I could.
And so I wasn't in that environment and, and, and the fog would lift every
weekend and it's like, all of a sudden I could see everything clearly.
I'm like, oh my word, this is what's going on.
And then every time, every single weekend I would tell the Lord, okay, Lord,
please, Lord, this, this, this week, when I go in, please help me to not succumb
to that spiritual fogginess anymore.
And I would just, it just like struggled so much.
And, um, but I'm telling you what, I had to fight and fight
and fight to not succumb to it.
And I just struggled so badly.
Um, so anyway, eventually it looked like I was the bad guy.
Like I was the one being difficult and he, I wasn't doing what I was hired to do.
And, and I was like, oh my goodness.
But again, I didn't know how to express.
The strip that what was going on?
Cause I didn't know what was going on.
I didn't know it was bullying.
I just knew, Hey, look, this isn't right.
And I'm not your yes, man.
And no, I came in as the expert.
I came in as the consultant, not for you to tell me what it is you want to do is
if I'm like this other body to give instructions to, I'm like, that's
what your employees are for.
I knew that much, but the rest of it, I just couldn't quite get anyway.
So the thing is I looked like the bad guy.
And so I was basically fired.
I wouldn't exactly fired a bit.
That's kind of what it was like.
I was majorly demoted to like only do reports.
So I was like, I reported to the owners, you know?
And so I went from there and being on peer level with the president of the
company down to sitting in the sales room, making, doing, uh, creating reports on
Excel.
Um, and, but I asked God, I was like, God, this is horribly humiliating,
especially because this is not my fault, but what do I do?
And he said, actually, this is my, this is my financial provision for you.
So just go ahead and do it.
And I'm like, okay, so I would do it.
But anyway, so eventually that whole deal kind of like petered out and, um, oh,
and by the way, I would run into that owner, you know, that bully or that,
that guy was bullying.
I would run into him in the kitchen and he'd be like, oh, Ashley, you know,
how are you?
You know, how are you doing kind of like from this?
And you could tell that he spiritually thought that he was superior.
And then I just, in that he just needed to help out this, this, this child that
just didn't know what they were doing.
And so that is really hard to be in that situation.
I'm just like, I I'm good.
You know, how are you?
You know, we're good.
Good.
That's great.
Yeah.
Are you staying busy?
Yeah, I'm staying busy.
Okay.
And I'm like, Lord, this is humiliating, but I'm like, but this is where I am.
And I choose the Lord over my circumstances.
I choose the Lord and following him and obeying him and believing that he's
protecting me regardless of what that ends up looking like in my life circumstances.
So I just continued on.
Anyway, like I said, eventually petered out and I was no longer working with
them and I no longer had a contract.
Um, either one that committed suicide.
He, one of them that committed suicide.
No, that was at the other, uh, that was the other company, the lawsuit company.
Oh, that was that one.
Um, so anyway, after about a year, um, I was talking to the other
owner, who's the friend of mine.
Well, by that time, the owner that had bullied me had gone after this guy, my
friend, the other owner, and they were best friends, by the way, this is no
little deal that all gone to church together for a decade, their, their
kids had literally grown up together.
They were like this, their wives were like this.
And the husbands were like this, their kids were all playing together, you
know, and grew up together and everything.
And they were in business together.
And this guy had messed things up, hadn't done things correctly.
And then left leaving this guy and his family holding the bag financially.
I mean, he.
them in that position. And then he, and then he escaped. And so, anyway, they were reeling
from the effect of all of that. And, and so this is about a, this is a year later.
And so my friend came, you know, said, you know, Ashley, is there anything that you'd like to tell
me about the situation? You know, because, you know, are you, are you still hurt? You know, that
we, you know, let, let the contract go or however we worded it or whatever. And I was like, yeah,
I am because I said, honestly, I feel like you weren't there to protect me because this is what
I was going through. And I said, by then I had the words of bullying and whatever, and I could
explain what was going on because I was removed from the spiritual fog of the situation. And I
could see clearly because I'd been gone for a year. So the spiritual fog had lifted. And so
I explained to him, I said, this is what was going on behind the scenes. He was horrified. He went
into work the next day and all those people, the president and all that were still there.
And he asked them, he said, did you he said, Ashley said that she had this experience while
she was there. She said, once Ashley was removed as the buffer between you and that owner, and you
had to deal with the owner directly. Did you have the same experience that Ashley did? They broke
down crying, grown people broke down crying. And they said, yes, they said, and we didn't know how
to tell you. We just thought with something we had to put up with it because the other guy's the
owner too. And so they're like, but we almost left multiple times. It was like really bad. And that
was a whole year later. That was a whole year. And these, by the way, were some of them were some of
my closest friends. Now they never treated me any different as a friend or anything like that.
We're really close, but that they didn't know what was going on. They didn't know what to believe
that all they knew is that, well, you know, we love Ashley and all of that, but apparently, you
know, we can't be in the same working environment because it's just not working for some reason.
And so it made me look like I was the bad guy and really, so anyway, so the point is that sometimes
people, but that doesn't always happen, at least in a way that I know that my, that people,
that God has revealed the truth to other people. Sometimes it doesn't happen like that,
but sometimes it does sometimes, you know, does it, but my point in telling you that story is
to give you an example of the fact that, yeah, in both of those situations where that lawsuit,
I was literally told to pet my stuff in a cardboard box. It was like the movies, you know,
I'd always heard about this. You put your stuff in a box and you're, and you're escorted to the
door. And I was, I was like, this is horrible. I was like, this is, I can't believe I'm living
through this experience. So that was the lawsuit that was before the lawsuit. They didn't even put
the, they sued him about a week later after they kicked us out of the building. And they didn't
sue. They didn't add me to the lawsuit for another six months. And the only reason they did is
because they couldn't get him to cave. So they thought that they could emotionally push him
over the edge. If they put me and his wife on, on the lawsuit as co-conspirators.
So it was crazy, but so the thing is that, yeah, both of those situations, including the one later
about that whole owner, you know, bullying me and everything, and me looking like the bad guy,
both of those situations look awful. It looks like I'm being treated unfairly at, well, I mean,
I was, but you know, you're treated unfairly. This isn't right. This isn't just, you're made to look
like the bad guy. But what I also knew was God was, God was removing me. God works out everything
for good. So even though the circumstances looked bad and they felt bad, they didn't feel good,
you know? And it looked like I was being treated terribly. Well, I was being treated,
but God was working it out for good. God was actually relieving me of having to
be in that spiritual environment, being affected by it, having to take it, having to be treated
like that, talk to like that, having to be in that, that that environment that created such
spiritual chaos, that there was this fog, you know, that it didn't allow you to think clearly
because there was so much deception and confusion that was allowed to reign there.
I was given the authority because that owner had had spiritual authority in that place. And that
was what he, um, and that's what he allowed whether or not he knew what he was doing intentionally.
That's what it was doing. Um, so yeah, none of those things when God removed me felt good.
So it looked like, looked awful, but again, you just choose God you're protecting me.
I don't know how, because you know what, I'm being treated terribly here and I'm having to
quote unquote, live through discomfort and
And, um, not, and there's another word, but anyway, they're discomfort and all and in pain
and bad reputation and, and, and a removal of relationships with people that I really care about.
And, and so Lord, this doesn't, this, this doesn't feel like protection. It feels like
things are being taken away. It feels like lack. It feels like I'm being that you're being mean to
me. But the thing is that I knew not to attribute these things to God. I knew to not say, okay, God,
this is you doing this to me. You are being me. I knew that that's not what was going on,
that things were happening, but what God was doing is he was working it out for my good and be like,
Hey, look, I, I am so delighted in you that I want to use everything, use things for your good.
And I am using this to remove you and you're no longer responsible for the spiritual chaos
of this situation. Do you need to go? No, no. I just want to look out. Yeah, yeah, no, I'm good.
Yeah. So, um, uh, hopefully that is that helpful to understand. Uh, yes, definitely. Yeah. Because
yeah, yeah, I could see that. I mean, examples in the Bible where the, the right person was removed
and made look guilty, but you know, God's still sovereign and it's not him doing it or he's just.
Yeah, correct. And, and it's what, and it's what we choose to believe about God. It's what we choose
is true about God while we're going through those situations. That is so powerful. It is
the most powerful time in which to believe something about God that he says about himself,
because we're doing it in the face of, of differing evidence of something that looks like it's proving
to us otherwise. And yet we choose this, that he's protecting us. We choose that he
is loving us, that he's not being mean to us, that he's not punishing us, that he's not like
making it harder on us than anybody else. You know, um, that is the most powerful time to make
those, those decisions. And by that, what I mean is like something very powerful happens in this
spirit. When, when it's more powerful and more earth shattering and has mixed more of an impact
when you make the decision in those situations, then when you make it, when you're not in those
situations and you're choosing to believe that God is true and about all of that, I mean, it's
still effective. It's still powerful. It's still important, but doing it in those situations,
I am telling you what it breaks something so deep down within us that does not allow Satan
to access this anymore. It's extremely powerful. And it's, but it, and we need to know that because
it's also a lot harder to make the decision in that situation. But as, as hard as it is to make
those decisions, in other words, as challenging as it is, as much resistance as we're facing,
it's that degree towards the power, um, towards the power side, uh, that we can,
we have the opportunity to step into. Um, and it's because in manner of speaking,
it's because the resistance to it is so great. That's what makes that choice so powerful.
Is we're overcoming that degree of resistance. So yeah.
You kind of cut out a little bit. Um, it's going to be cut out when I rewatch it.
Oh, that's a bummer. Well, I mean, if it's recording on your end, it's not really going
to cut out though. Right. Well, no, it may because, um, yeah, it may very well do it. Um,
but, um, so have I been breaking up just this time or have I been breaking up for a while?
Mostly this time, but I think you were saying like,
making the decisions when, when it's really hard is much more powerful. That's what you were saying.
Yes. Because the resistance is greater during those times. And so you overcoming that degree
of resistance will exponentially empower. Um,
what happens in the spirit realm by making a choice for God, because you're in it's equal to,
if not more than the degree of the resistance that you overcame. It's that powerful,
you know, as opposed to you overcoming a little bit of resistance, well, then, you know, it's just
that much power in the spirit, but if you overcome a lot of resistance, it's that much more powerful
in the spirit to break bonds and bondage, move you into freedom, things like that.
There's a way in which it does not allow Satan to access you anymore in that area,
in much more strongly than in making decisions with against little resistance.
If that makes any sense to me.
Yes. Yeah.
Yeah. So anyway, but you seem good. You seem better. I was telling, telling Ed, I was like,
Rita's changed. I was like, I used to see her, you know, as if she was so restricted. I said,
now she's open. It's like, she's, she's like, she it's like, she like moves more
like spiritually or in her soul or something. It's like, she's got more movement. She's freer.
She's, she kind of owns herself more. She like, it's like, she feels that she has the right
and freedom to access more than she thought that she did. She had access to more space.
She could live large.
It's a, it's a better way to live, isn't it? A hundred percent,
but it's hard to make the choice in order to do this because we have to give up everything we
thought kept us safe. And then we find out, Oh no, no, no, no. There's actually safety.
It just comes in a different, in a different form. Yeah. So I'm so very glad.
Yeah. So, um, what, uh, what else is going on? What else can I like? I didn't know
you have any questions about, or I can talk to you.
No, I don't think so. Not yet. Not until it's in my face. Do I know anything's going on?
Yeah. Um, or anything that you heard in like one of the teachings or anything about like,
what does that mean? Or, or how do you do this or something? Now I don't remember
you haven't watched the interest rest teachings before. Have you?
No, it was just the live zoom that the mini, um, rest.
So you hadn't watched these teachings. Okay. So you haven't watched the ones that we're
about to do. Yeah. I haven't seen those either. Yeah. Okay. I think that you'll enjoy them because
they're, they're kind of there. It's exciting because they paint a picture of what life can
look like living from rest, not just like, okay, how to, because the previous ones,
the ones that we just did are about like, okay, how can I live life differently than
I've been living it? In other words, how can I, how can I leave all of the negative
and almost kind of shift into neutral, you know, which is the greatest place from which
to battle something is from neutral is to neutralize it, not to fight it. So anyway,
you know, how do I shift into rest? But now what we're going to be talking about
is how to, how to live powerfully from rest so that we change creation so that we bring
healing to creation. So we're operating from a positive person, positive place of being this.
And now how do we give back to the earth instead of how do we just try to overcome?
Now, what we'll be talking about is in, in having overcome in particular areas,
how do we now pour back into earth or into creation, into our relationships, into business.
And by business, I'm even talking about employees, not just as I'm not, or as leaders and managers,
you know, not just like owning a business or anything though. It does work for that as well.
But and then the power of intention, which is a really cool one. That one is basically talking
about the power of choice. And, and so I go more in depth about how to actually, what it means to
make intentional choices and how to use those as we're co-creating with God to, to change creation,
to, to manifest new things into creation. In other words, literally not figuratively,
literally bringing heaven so that into earth, so that it actually shows up as something new.
So that's the power of intention and then goals, dreams, and promises is about, well,
how do you move through and rest when you want to move forward enlightened.
build something in life and do something in life.
You have a goal.
So how do we move towards goals and rest
as opposed to in stress and strife and, oh my word,
you know, I've, you know, I'm getting opposition to,
you know, I'm moving towards the goal
and all of a sudden it's harder.
And well, how do you move towards a goal in rest?
If while we move towards goals,
we all know that things get harder, you know,
just while we're doing it.
So, well, how do you do that in rest?
And then what do you do with like promises
that God has given us where that we feel
that are unfulfilled?
How do we, how do we have faith?
Things like that.
So anyway, hopefully it'll be helpful.
I'm excited.
I also, and one of the other ones is obviously
healing the body and soul through the spirit.
And that one's a really powerful one,
but also the operating in spirit.
What does it mean to operate from this place
instead of this place?
Like, how do you live from here
instead of from here or here?
So we can talk about shifting up here,
but when we, after we shift up here,
what do we do now?
You know, how do you live from here?
How do you interact with the world?
Because you know, so often people talked about,
you know, they're so spiritually minded.
There are no earthly good.
Well, that's bogus.
How do you actually be spirit and live in earth?
So it's called operating, you know, from our spirits.
So we talked about that.
Is that the first one?
Huh?
Is that the first one out of that series?
It's the second.
The first one is healing the body and soul
through the spirit.
So in other words, how do you effortlessly do that?
Go ahead.
I do have a question.
So I really avoid my house chores
and responsibilities at home
because it's just a bad thing I do.
I guess I'm not choosing myself,
but I want to be able to, like, I don't know.
I want to overcome that.
Yeah.
Does that make sense?
Just-
Yes, and you're absolutely right.
What's required is choosing yourself
because so the thing with house chores,
with errands that we have to run and all of that
is we feel that they are,
that we're being held accountable to them
outside of our choice.
Like God is holding us accountable to him.
Or, well, my mother didn't raise me like that.
She raised me with the obligation that I have to do it.
Think about it this way.
You are under no obligation anymore.
You're not.
God doesn't obligate you to keep your house
in a particular way.
It doesn't matter what your mother,
if your mother can keep her house the way she wants to.
You know, you're not under any obligation to do anything.
So now that you're under no obligation,
what do you want for you?
What kind of a home do you want?
And then you create that home
because you tell it what you want from it.
That's one of the things that we'll be talking about.
I don't use the example of home.
I don't think.
I've done it before.
I've used, I've talked about it.
What was it in?
It was in creating space, I think.
I think that was the teaching that I did.
I think it called creating space and doing something,
creating space.
Anyway, and in it, I talk about
how you actually change creation
and have dominion over creation
by doing that in your own home.
Because what you're in,
though that's one of the reasons why I don't just like,
I would rather do other things than clean.
So it's not like I just love to clean,
but the reason that in a manner of speaking,
I do like to clean is because I'm taking dominion.
Whenever I do, I'm telling creation,
hey, look, this is what I expect of you.
This is what I want from you.
I'm putting you in order
because this is how I want you to operate.
And I do it very lovingly.
I do it, loving my home, not fighting it.
And I'm like, why are you like this?
And stop being like that.
And why on earth do you get dirty?
And why does this happen to me?
I have to own me and be like, okay,
God has given me this, God's given me this home,
God's given me this earth.
How could I be expected of myself to change earth
if I won't even have dominion over my own home?
How on earth could God entrust me
with having dominion over the earth
and teaching foxes and trees and flowers
that I'm there to protect them
and to teach them to believe God
and to have them respect me enough where they serve me?
But if I won't even do it on my own home, you know, so it's just, it's
training ground, it's on my own home.
I'm just like, okay, no, this is my home.
No, one's forcing me, not even God to, to, to do it any different than the way
that, you know, then, um, then who it is that I am he, but he, what he wants
is he wants you to be you in your home.
Who are you and, and start telling your home by how you interact with it,
what you expect from it, what you want from it, how you, the type of life that
you want to give you, not because you're trying to get earth to do something for
you and to serve you in something in some way, but rather to show them, to
show earth, to show your home by how you, by how you treat it, how you interact
with it, that, Hey, this is, this is what we're going to do.
This is how it's going to be because I get to actually create my own kingdom
in my own home, and this is the kingdom that I want to create.
I get to decide it and you all fall in line.
That's a King being a King I've decided.
And now you all fall in line, but it's, it's not like fall in line, like, Hey,
look, cracking a whip and like telling what to do.
It's just like, Hey, everyone, this is how we are.
This is the ecosystem that I, as a good King know, will give you the peace and
the love and the protection that you want from me.
This is me giving you, this is me loving you.
This is me giving you protection.
This is me providing for you.
This is me keeping you safe.
This is how we're going to do it.
And so one of the ways that I do that is through cleaning is like, is by organizing
things is by, um, by keeping things in order, um, it's like, because there's a
way in which I'm communicating to my things and to my home and to the environment.
Hey, this is, this is how, this is, this is what I expect from you not expect us.
And like, I'm looking down on, and I'm getting upset, but like direction, they
need to know they actually creation, including your home actually desires to
please you and it gets frustrated if it can't make you happy.
So it just wants to know what do you, what do you want?
What do you want from me?
It's like a dog.
They're just like, I just, I just want to make you happy.
It was like, all creation, you know, especially the stuff in your own home
materials, you know, stuff that you buy, it wants to just make you happy.
It's just there to, to, to serve you.
So it just needs, but it's afraid it wants to know that it's protected.
And so you just make a kingdom and you bring it into the kingdom and then
you show it how, how you want it to be.
And it's part of that is like doing stuff that we've always referred to as chores
that we thought were cumbersome, but it's actually, you take, it's actually
washing clothes in order to take care of them.
And in order to provide a clean environment where you can dress a
particular way, look a particular way.
And enjoy wearing those particular clothes, whatever.
That was the big thing that I did a while back is, um, well, I say a
while back, like four or five years ago, I went through all of my things.
And then I I've done it multiple times since, especially when I got rid of all
my things and I only kept the things that I loved.
I mean, like I really loved, and if I didn't really love it, I let it go.
Even if it was like, Oh, it's okay.
My goodness, you and I can deal with a lot of stuff.
Okay.
Isn't good enough to be living like that.
What do we love?
And so I began to reduce the things that I have.
So now I, I, you know, don't have anything compared to what I used to have.
In fact, I got rid of 90, 90 to 95% of everything I owned that.
I don't know when that was two years ago, almost two and a half years ago,
I got rid of everything that I owned or 90%, 90, 95% of it.
And now I'm going to, I'm going through it again.
Why?
Because I, I got some more clothes and I got smart.
Why?
Because my taste changed.
I wanted to kind of expand.
I saw something new like this.
I saw this the other day and I'm like, that is really cute.
I kind of want to change my style a little bit.
I wanted these, I want these types of tones and whatever.
So I'm going to get that to create, to again, to, to be starting to form my
kingdom, acting on something that I've decided I want my kingdom to be.
And that means that there are certain things in my current kingdom that are no
longer in alignment with where I am now or where I want to go.
So I love this blouse.
In fact, I kept this blouse, you know, whatever this one is.
I get this blouse because at the time at the season I was in, I loved it.
It was one of my favorites and that's why I kept it.
But now it's no longer one of my favorites.
I've moved on.
I progressed.
And so I'm going to move that out.
So everything is from this perspective of who are of the fact that you're a King
and you're learning from God.
to be a king and you do it in your own home.
And that's why you do laundry.
That's why you do dishes, not because you have to.
And oh my goodness, why on earth does the world get so dirty?
And that forces me to have to clean it up all the time.
It's that's not what's going on.
It it's serving you, which is why it got dirty in the first place.
And so you tell it, okay, no, this is how we're going to have our home.
We're going to have it organized.
We're going to have few things for me.
I like to have fewer things, partly because I want to be able to have
access to be able to keep things clean longer.
So I want, I don't want there to be a lot of stuff that I have to clean around
because cleanliness is very important to me, because again, I'm communicating to
the atmosphere and to the environment that, Hey, I expect things to be in order
in my kingdom, we will have peace and we will be in order.
And so part of the way that I do that is I clean.
And so therefore I'm not going to have a lot of things that are cluttering
things up because also it increases the subconscious noise in the home
to have lots of things.
It actually, it literally creates noise in the, in the atmosphere.
I don't, and I don't mean like you can measure it.
I don't know if they've been able to figure that out, but the Japanese know
this, the Japanese know that it creates noise in the home.
And I literally have noticed it is so weird.
If you have a closet that, that is, that, you know, is full of stuff.
Every time you like, look at it, or if you like, like walk near it, you can feel,
you can feel that it's stuffed.
You can feel the noise.
You can feel the heaviness in it because there's lots of material.
In other words, there's, and it all creates some kind of like a vibration in
the atmosphere, it creates a literal frequency, a little, you know, movement.
You have to live with that.
So everyone has the, a particular amount of that, that they like in their atmosphere.
And I like less than most people, but I didn't use to, I used
to like lots and lots of stuff.
I loved how that made me feel.
I changed.
And so anyway, so, but so I was just trying to like paint a picture for you of how that
eventually gets your life to look so that you know why I was saying what I was saying
of like, Hey, you, you, you're, you, you keep your house, you do things in your
house, like doing the dishes and cleaning and doing laundry and whatever.
And, and you do it from the, not from the perspective of, Oh, I have to, this is
being put upon me because there's so much stuff and why does it make me do this?
Why does its existence now then require something of me?
That's a victim mentality.
That's this feeling like it's more powerful than me.
And instead it's like, no, this is my kingdom.
So if it's my kingdom, how do I want, what do I want to convey to it and then convey
it, and that's what you're doing when you're washing and when you're cleaning.
And when you're doing laundry, you are literally communicating to everything,
what it is you expect of it and how things are going to be.
They're going to be peaceful.
They're going to be in order.
They're going to be whatever it's very kind.
It's very loving.
And really all you're doing is you're taking care of the things you are
providing protection and provision and you're giving it what it needs and
everything in your home will be more at peace.
So, um, I know that that might sound really weird, but I promise you it's true.
No, it's not weird.
I've heard it and I, yeah, but I didn't, yeah.
I mean, the, the, the clutter creates the clutter in the mind kind of stuff, but
not about this is your kingdom and, and, um, it's serving you.
And I, and, you know, I do have a victim, like, oh, why do I have to do this?
So yeah, yeah.
Part of the, that victim mentality can come from being a friend and I don't
know how you grew up, but I'm just telling you, you know, this is how often
it can come is if you had an experience where your voice wasn't heard and you
were just forced to do things and you weren't even allowed to have like a say
about it, or you felt like you weren't listened to.
So the problem with that is then it can, you can believe that you were so powerless
and so undeserving of being acknowledged that even material things are more
powerful than you are, and you are subject to the environment around you.
It gets to determine what it wants to require of you.
And you just have to, you just have to, you know, be ready and match up.
And because you're going to, you know, because if you don't, well, then you're
going to have to bear the consequences.
You're going to be held responsible, you know, by God or something like that.
It's just not true.
God's like, no, no, no.
The opposite is true.
Your voice matters.
Your kingdom needs to hear your voice because your kingdom was
made to respond to your voice.
So it's waiting for you. It's because you're,
it's because you're not present that it's acting the way that it is,
because it's like, where are you? You know, where's, where's my King?
So if we don't, if the King doesn't show up, in other words,
if the son of God does not manifest,
because all of creation is groaning anticipation of the manifestation of the
sense of God, if the sons of God are not manifesting,
if they're not showing up, then creation is still groaning.
So we can be there,
but if we're presenting ourselves in our soul or in our body and not as spirit,
you know, it, it think it,
it doesn't recognize us because we're not showing up as our spirit.
So anyway, so yeah, that's how we would change that.
But anyways, that helpful. Oh yeah, definitely. I need a new,
new frame of mind, of course.
Yeah. Yeah. Good. Well,
so was there anything else before, before really, did you have anything?
No, not that I can think of just looking forward to the next chapter.
I know me too. I'm so glad that you'll be on it.
We already have five people signed up with at least between six to
eight, possibly going to sign up. I mean, yeah,
six to eight more people signing up. So we'll just see how that works.
So anyway, there's at least five, well, six of us, including me.
Awesome. All right. Okay. Well, I'll see you later, Rita.
I hope you have a good day at work. You too. Thanks so much, Ashley.
You're welcome. Bye.