Can you see me?
Hey, I can now.
How are you?
Good.
How are you?
Doing good.
I'm very proud.
I finally figured out how you do your blurry background.
Now I'm not using that when I'm using a different blur background.
But anyway, I finally figured out how to do it.
I was like, I've always wondered how they do that.
It looks so cool and professional.
You're just choosing a virtual one?
No, I am doing one through my Mac.
Instead of through Zoom.
And what it does is because I'm using my phone as my camera,
then it lets me set,
do different settings that Zoom doesn't.
And anyway, so I'm using, I'm using Mac.
Anyway, yeah.
Lindsay's husband taught me how to do it.
It was like, it felt very, very cool.
So how are you?
I'm good.
Good.
I would like, you don't seem good.
No, I'm very,
I've been anxious all week and haven't slept really.
I don't understand.
Yeah.
Sorry.
I have a time.
Hard time falling asleep.
And then I wake up.
Like two hours later and I just.
Not sleeping the rest of the time.
Yeah.
Well, how have things been with them?
With like a.
You know,
Making specific.
Figuring out how to word this, but like.
What, what is, or things like between you and the Lord right now?
Like kind of interaction.
Yeah.
It was good a couple of days ago.
And then it just.
Hasn't been.
I guess.
Yeah.
In what way, what would make you say that?
Well,
You know, I do though.
You know, he loves me. He's here.
And I'd be very.
You know, be a lot.
Be intentional at work, trying to be mindful. And I could, you know,
I'm just like, grateful. I'm like, Oh, like.
You know,
I am taking it as like gifts of supernatural.
Like different things that have been, you know,
I've been able to accomplish at work.
But then just the last few days is just like mistakes and
embarrassment and yeah.
Other stuff. So.
You know, I tried to do the whole thing is like.
No shame in no condemnation. Like I'm still loved.
I'm still loved.
And then when I go to sleep, I'm starting to relax.
And then just something.
Then I noticed.
I'm like, why is my thought back to work?
Or why is my thought back to.
Yeah, it's usually work.
And something, and it was just weird. And I was like, okay,
I guess this is just an exercise I'm going through.
As soon as I find.
And that I'm relaxing.
And then.
I fell asleep and then it.
That those thoughts of work woke me up or what?
So.
Yeah.
So the, an important thing that I did that changed things.
You know, that, that kind of.
On which everything seemed to hinge.
Was.
I would say.
That rather that I would choose that.
I would choose God as more valuable to me
over my work.
Over my avoiding mistakes.
Over my doing a good job.
I would choose him over living well.
You know,
living well into the category of what the world would term it as,
but I would choose God first.
And then what happened to me?
Because I chose God first.
Because God was most important to me.
And that made a big difference because the thing is that then loosens
the hold and the.
It's almost like the, are, are.
Are being controlled.
a situation or whatever it is we're giving power to a situation or a project or your job or your
boss or you know whatever it is um you know it could be like your kids or a situation with your
kids or whatever you know choosing God over those things turning out well will enable you will shift
you into into operating from the position of being in Christ so that you interact with those
situations including your own like mistakes including not meeting your own qualifications
not meeting your own performance standards or the performance standards
oh that just yeah yeah thank you or the performance standards of your boss or what
you feel that you owe your boss or whatever if you choose God who he is and who he said
where he places excuse me where he places your value you know like what he declares your value
to be as an individual to him sorry that's kind of like falling down isn't it um then uh then
you'll be coming at you'll approach this you'll you'll neutralize the power of the situation
because what you're doing is you're not only removing it uh you're not only letting it not
control you but you're bringing in the power of the kingdom of God and the authority of the
kingdom of God into that situation and the principles by which the kingdom work are
different than the kingdom of this world so all of a sudden everything that should be operating
according to the kingdom of the world starts operating according to the kingdom of heaven
which is very weird because it's like well wait a minute that doesn't normally happen in the world
you know such and such just happened that doesn't normally happen or such and such just fixed itself
or it didn't bother my my boss that i made a mistake you know and they told me if i made
one more mistake well then that would happen and it just did and they didn't and because
because you're bringing you can only bring in the authority of the kingdom
if you choose it over the over the world and but you can't do that if the world is more important
than the kingdom or the world is more important to you than God so you have to choose it so my
point is that it's it's it does two things not only does it it remove its control and basically
cut its control over you the situation the threat the feeling you know whatever but also it so it's
not that it just neutralizes the attack and the battle but it shifts you into a position of power
to affect and bring life into the situation in other words to bring the kingdom the way we bring
the fact that the principles of the kingdom of God were very different than the principles of
kingdom of this world and then it can it can put it can cause things to change now does everything
always work out the way that we want to know you know have i have i been through difficult
situations at work and a lot required of me and then um and then it ended up that you know and i
was just did my best between me and the lord and then uh did they uh you know one of the owners
contact me and say hey ashley by the way i hear from the other owner that you're causing problems
that you're not being a i don't remember that was such a long time ago i don't remember what he said
but you're not you're not holding up your end of the bargain or you're not being a team player or
you're not getting your work done or whatever it is that he said and uh and then he said so actually
we need to we need he said you you can leave or you know if you if you need work if you need a job
if you need money we'll let you have this very low level position if you would like would you
like that i mean you know so does that happen absolutely did they think that i was in the wrong
for a year until that other guy did what did to them what he'd done to me absolutely
was was my derived reputation suffer as a result absolutely so it's not that everything
you know turns out wonderful in fact the fact that god restored my relationship
and my not my relationship because that my relationship with those some of those people
never was severed but that god restored my reputation was something that surprised
even me because he doesn't always do that he doesn't always fix things in a way that
we see he always makes sure that vengeance is
his and that, you know, and that he and that he brings about justice for wrongdoing and all that,
but we don't always get to know. So often, you know, we feel like we're experiencing being
attacked for something that we didn't do. And we never got our say. We never, you know,
we're treated justly or whatever. So my point is, I am telling you in light of the fact that is this
a possibility that things can go as south as you're afraid that they are, that they could,
you know, when you're worried about making mistakes, absolutely. But you choose God over it.
You choose God over the potential of what can happen. Because why? Because why are we worried
about what can happen? We think, well, I'm going to be in lack. I'm going to be lack of disconnect,
lack of connection or lack of money, lack of a job, lack of reputation, lack of, you know,
whatever it is, a lack of comfort. Now I'm going to have to go find a job or whatever. And I'm
telling you worst case scenario here, we're going in our minds to like the worst of the worst here.
Right. Cause I really want to face like the power of what God says and what it can face as opposed
to making this about something. Well, you know, you're just worried that you're going to get like
a, that I don't know, you're going to get a sit down and kind of get your hands laughed or,
or, you know, your boss is going to talk to you or, or call out your mistake in front of a whole
meeting, you know, whatever we're talking about. Okay. Let's make it even worse than that, you
know? And, and so do some of the times those things happen? Absolutely. But God's just like,
you know what? I want you to choose me over it. And, um, and so, cause what it is you're choosing
is not simply to live life and the way that you've been living it, just, just feeling better about it
and having God fix everything. Cause that he won't, he won't do that. The, I mean, he,
he fixes things, but the thing is that we won't, it's not about avoiding pain. It's not about
avoiding difficult circumstances. It's about going through these same situations that we've
been going through only this time, since we're doing it in rest, we now change the situation
instead of what we've been doing, because when we go through chaos in chaos, it keeps the process,
the cycle repetitive in our life because we didn't go through it in rest. So we in going
through in chaos, it keeps going. So when you go through it and rest, it breaks the cycle.
So anyway, it's, it's important to, um, uh, so anyway, that's what it is that we're doing is
we're choosing a lifestyle, not a lifestyle here on earth. I mean, like a lifestyle of like,
Lord, how do I experience live with, interact with, and relate with you before I came onto
earth while I'm on the earth, after I'm on the earth, you and me, Lord, that's the highest
priority. This just happens to be an environment in a particular realm in which I'm doing it for
a certain number of years. And there we go. You know, so we, we, we choose, God wants us to choose
him as the most important. And when we do that, that overcomes all of the, all of the, it, it,
it helps to overcome all of the frustration that creation is operating in, in which there's so much
chaos that you have to live through because, because, uh, I don't know the, the lies that
humans have believed in their souls and have expressed a creation. So creation is all afraid
and it's frustrated. And there's all of these other people and all these other souls that are
in your job. They're all, you know, creating, creating issues. All that chaos is created because
we're, haven't been living out and expressing and showing it what, you know, who it is that God
really is. And the only way they can see it is if we choose that it's true with when it doesn't even
exist yet, meaning like it exists in spirit, but it doesn't exist on earth yet. We have to bring it.
So we have to bring it without proof in complete faith, you know, or whatever.
Um, so in all, so all of this is really, is really, really challenging. And I I've lived through,
I mean, I don't know every aspect of your circumstance, but I've lived through a lot of
pressure on my positions and a lot, I mean, a lot, I mean, like I reported to the CEOs, this right-hand
person. And so when we would go into companies that were looking to us literally to save them
and all their employees, then anything that, that I said to them, the, the, the, my, my CEO would
tell them, Hey, look, anything that Ashley says, take it as if it came from me, I had that kind of
like pressure. And I, you know, in which I had to choose God over me performing well over me,
whatever I had to always choose God. I'm going.
going to, I'm going to follow you, not, not, how would you
phrase that? I was going to say like, not like do a good job.
That's not what I mean. But I'm going to choose to obey you Lord
over trying to do my job according to the standards that
everyone else is telling me I should do it. Like, well,
actually, you're only good if you put in, if you do all of
these projects that I've put on your plate. And that requires
80 hours of work, or even 60 hours of work. And then Ashley,
you know, that's, that's what's required. And, and, you know,
and, and, you know, aren't you a Christian? And don't you? Aren't
you a team player? And aren't you and I'm just using, you
know, volume of work as an example, but sometimes it was
the type of things I have been asked to lie. And I said, No,
you know, no, I'm not going to do that. And, and then I don't,
I don't remember the other things that have been asked of
me. I've had to choose, I always chose my subordinates over my
boss. I chose to protect my subordinates over protecting
myself. And I chose to protect my subordinates over policing my
boss. So I mean, things like that, that are very, like,
serious. Why? Because I was choosing God, I was one of the
youngest people at every single job that I've ever been in, I
was always one of the youngest people. And I was usually over
most of them. And so a lot of times, that really doesn't have
a whole lot of respect, etc. And the thing is, I didn't have I'm
young, I was young men, you know, there was only so much
experience that I had. So normally, you would look to
other people, okay, well, what are other people doing? How
are other people handling their jobs, the demand of their
projects, the demands from their bosses, the demands of, in
order to get all of this stuff done, you know, well, then, you
know, I have to put in 60 to 80 hours or whatever, you know, how
do other other Christian people in business handle it? I hear
how the business people handle it. Okay, there's that. But what
about the Christian business people? And I wasn't hearing in
any anything that any of them was saying, or how any of them
live life. I was not seeing a life of the Spirit of God
operating in them in a way that I felt was true. I would watch
it. And I'm like, okay, well, they're tacking God onto what
they're doing. But it doesn't feel right. So I just said,
Okay, God, this doesn't feel right. I don't know why all
these people are supposedly more experienced than me. What on
earth do I know? So where on earth am I supposed to get
guidance? Lord, what do I do? How do I handle situations like
this with all of these demands? And what helped me is that I
chose God. Okay, God, what do you say to do? What do you tell
me to do in this situation? You know, what do I do? What do I
not to and I would just I would just obey, you know, just very
blindly. Um, so anyway, that was a really big thing. And I don't
know what it is with work right now, probably because everyone's
just feels like immersed back in it after the rest intensive
and after the after the the New Year starts or something. But I
was talking to someone else about this and transformation
session where they were talking about all of the demands of
their work and how it was creating so much stress and
anxiety. And one of the things that I was telling them was an
advising event is creating and this may not be your type of
situation, but just throwing it out there in case because I'm
noticing like this little trend in my conversation. So I'm like,
Okay, well, maybe this is like something so many people are
going through. But I was talking to them about the fact that
there's a way to communicate things where you have to own
yourself first, own your value, who does God say that I am? What
is my significance? I don't mean who does God say that I am?
Well, he says I'm messy. He says I'm a conqueror. He says I'm
righteous. I don't mean that. Just who are you? Do you have
value regardless of how God would describe you? Do you have
weight? And how much weight do you have? How much significance?
How much value? That's what I'm talking about. Who are you with
God? And what is that? What is the, the, this, the solidity,
and, and the intimacy of that connection? Right? And so, and
then just kind of settle yourself in that because
remember, that is shifting back into rest, you can use those
other tools to get there and all that. But you know, that
shifting back into rest, that's, oh, that's who I am. Because
remember that, that shifting into rest is simply as easy as
I say, it's easy, meaning as
bolt as who does God say he is to the degree he says he is that, and who does he say that
I am to the degree that I am that, you know, in other words, you know, what, what do I
believe?
And we, and then that needs to be our, our, our, um, kind of like the point that we always
come back to.
And we don't need, and that will calm us down without, and will bring us to rest without
us even having to have the answers that made us anxious in the first place.
Well, what do I do?
Well, what about this?
And well, yeah, but didn't you say God?
So what about now?
And just, it kind of like removes the, the worry and the concern from all the questions.
Anyway, you shift back into that place and you have to own who you are, who are you between
you and the Lord?
Do you remember that you were the thing that God has most entrusted you with?
He's entrusted you with you more heavily than your children, then obviously your boss
and your friends and all of that.
He's entrusted you with you more than he's entrusted you with anything else.
You are your first priority in God's eyes.
So you have to see who you have to choose that you really are, who the, as valuable
as God has, you know, tells you in your spirit, maybe not in words, but just in that sense
that you get, if you shift back into him, you just feel the weight and the significance.
And then there's a measure in which you just choose by faith that it's true.
And you own yourself again, like I am responsible for me.
I am significant.
God has entrusted me with myself.
I have to Lord over myself.
My spirit Lord's over it and it has, it is responsible to protect and to provide for
and to cover, you know, my soul and my body.
This is my first priority.
Okay.
So, and, and I'm not under any threat, you know, Boston say whatever the dog can do,
whatever I can be without however much sleep, whatever I'm under no threat, I'm in God's
hands.
So now that you can't get anything that you don't already have, nothing holds any, um,
nothing holds any like, uh, Oh man, what's that word I was going to say like any bribe
over you.
It, you can't be bribed.
You can't be, uh, you can't be threatened.
You know, it doesn't have anything that you want and are willing to sacrifice the, everything
that you have for the nothing that it's offering, you know, you already have everything.
So from that place now, what do you do?
So again, from that place, well then, um, you know, when you think about like, we'll
use the term boundaries in your job, like, okay, so how do I be responsible in my job?
And with what I've been given, what have I agreed to?
You know, when I first signed onto this job, I agreed to give them a certain amount of
my labor for a certain amount of money.
They can demand all they want for more, but if they're not willing to, to, they can demand
more of my labor, but I'm not required to give more of my labor.
If what I negotiated was this amount of labor for this amount of money, and if they're requiring
me to give more, but they're not willing to give more, well then, you know, then, you
know, we're, we're, we've, um, uh, then we've, you know, this is past the negotiation that
we agreed to, you know, that, uh, at the beginning.
So, you know, so you just think, no, I don't mean that, that you have to be real strict
about it.
I mean, it's just kind of kind of, you know, you got your standard, you got what you agreed
to, and then y'all kind of do this.
And then sometimes they don't need as much from you, but they still pay as much.
And then other times they need a little more from you, but they don't pay you anymore.
So you just kind of do that, you know, all that's normal, you know, it's just being part
of being a good worker, part of being, um, you know, um, being there and serving other
people in the way that God serves us kind of a thing.
But when they're doing this and they're in there and, and you get to feel that your life
is being owned by something outside of your choice, and that's, you know, that's an issue.
So as far as like how to handle situations like that, what I, what I found very helpful
is to always affirm what my boss said.
Like if my boss said that they needed to do, they needed me to do something well, you know,
and a decision's being made, that's going to now put more on my plate.
I always put it back on my boss.
So here, so here's the thing.
I always put it back on my boss to be responsible, to solve my problem.
That's what a boss is there for a boss is there to solve your problems.
You're not there to solve the boss's problems.
That's the way that it works.
Now do it.
Does everybody agree with that and see it that way?
But that's the way that it is.
And me as an employee.
I got the my head on straight and operated from that, even though my leaders didn't see that.
And then it forced my leaders to enter if they wanted to keep me to interact with me in that new way.
But here's how I did it. I did it by by by always affirming what they said.
So say, for instance, they say, oh, you need to do this new project. You need to expand all this.
You got to get all this done, whatever they put all of this, all of this stuff on you of of like, hey, all of this needs to get done.
OK, well, that's great. But that's their decision and their choice and their authority to get to decide what's done.
And you, as the quote unquote worker, be even though you're not that low on the totem pole.
I just mean, you know, you getting the step done like, OK, all right.
Well, that's my job. My job is to get it done. So the thing is that it's their job to prioritize it.
So if I can't get it all done, I always push it back on them.
OK, so you had given me this priority, but now it's kind of like, you know, this new priority has come up.
And so since I can't since both of since there's not enough since the hours, you know, that you've wanted from me are are not enough for both of these.
Which one would you like me to do? And then would you like me to delay the deadline for this so that you want me to take this?
Or, you know, do you want me to do something else?
So what I always what I always do is I would always affirm what it is that they said.
I thought that it was what they were talking about was a good idea or I could. I was absolutely.
Yes, sir. I will see how I can get that done. But I'm running into this issue of the priorities or the amount of time or the money.
So here's the problem. What would you like me to do?
And then so I put it I put the responsibility of solving the problem back on them.
But then I follow it up with solutions that we could do this, sir, or I could do this.
Or if you'd like, instead of doing this, I could do this for you or I could do this or I could whatever.
So I'm coming, not complaining and not getting all of these problems and all these things that they have to solve, because that's going to come across as, no, I won't do it.
So instead, it's like, OK, here's an issue. I'm very willing, very, you know, absolutely to be helpful.
And here's some ways that I've come up with problem solving it. Which one would you like?
And then it's their responsibility, not yours to get it done.
And you shown that you were willing to help. So they don't hear no.
They just hear you've got an issue and you're looking to them to take up the responsibility and authority to solve it for you.
So anyway, that is something that has helped me. I was talking to the other another person on a transformation session.
So I don't know. Just throw it out there and you may not even need it in your situation.
But regardless of whether you need that specific example, the whole thing starts with you have to own yourself.
And when you own yourself, you'll make decisions from a different place and therefore you'll make different decisions or you will at least make them from a place of a different motivation.
You won't feel driven and pushed from behind because you own yourself.
You decide what you want to do and how you want to do it.
It's kind of like this. Apply it to work. But I'm going to use a personal example.
Say, for instance, that you don't want to go to the grocery store. I mean, you're just like that just sounds awful.
I've been working all day. I don't want to. I don't want to go to a grocery store and you've got no food.
You get no food in the pantry. So do you. And what we can do is we can just sit there and think, oh, my word.
Woe is me. Why do I have to go to the grocery store? Why is the situation like this?
That victimhood. It's like, why is this happening to me? Nothing's happening to you.
You don't have to go to your store. You know, no one's making you.
No one's literally whipping you down the street, making you go to the grocery store. You have a choice.
So. So the thing is, you decide how do I want to live my life? What do I want for me?
I don't have to eat tonight. What do I choose? Do I choose to not eat?
You know, I could I can make that into something interesting. I could fast, you know, whatever.
Or, you know, I could, I don't know, go call a friend and then and then, like, make it fun and interesting because we go out to eat or or, you know, whatever.
Or you decide, you know, I just don't want to. I would rather not eat than make all of the effort to go to the grocery store.
You're choosing how you what how you want to basically paint your life on a canvas.
You got a blank canvas. You get it. You got paint. What do you want to do with it?
So you get to choose. It's not happening to you. Nothing's being forced on you.
You are choosing. And so it's just simply looking at it from a different perspective.
And so you choose. Well, what kind of.
life do I want from it? Do I want to make and create positively of my life today? Is it going
to the grocery store or is it not? You know, but you choose it for you. So you take hold and
ownership of yourself and then make a decision from that place. So now when you go to the grocery
store, like say for instance, in both situations, you go to the grocery store, but one, you did it
out of motivated by victimhood. And then, you know, why is this happening to me? And then the
other is because she chose to. So either way you still happen in those two examples, you still
went to the grocery store, but one is more empowering. One is you creating your life.
And the other one is thinking everything's happening to you. Right. And so it's the same
thing, you know, with work. So if you have things that come to, if you're on your plate that you
don't want to do, or maybe even more than you want to do, you know, depending on what we're
talking about or having to do it with certain people or certain things you think are unfair,
certain things you think are busy work or certain things you think are double work,
you know, whatever it is, you know, you just look at the situation and see if it's solvable
and able to be talked to about with your boss or whoever's in charge and then do what you think
that you need to. And then when the, and then when everything is said and done and everything
that can be done is done, what do you choose to do? In other words, do you, how do you just
decide to not get it done? Or do you decide, no, that's not the type of life that I want to create
for me. This is the type of life I want to create for me. I'm going to do this and I want to do it.
Well, you know, so, but you're doing it because you have value. You're doing it because you own
you, you do it because you are a being that, that matters. So let that being make decisions
and move forward, you know, in a positive way with the Lord to create something, you know,
into, into reality, to bring more of the spirit, to bring more of the kingdom, to bring more of
his power. And trust me, it is doing the little things in life that create, that create our life
that change, that change our character, that, um, that strengthen us, that, um, that develop our,
that to put that, that would, that develop our God's trust in us. It's by actually doing the
things, how, what do we choose to do? And how do we choose to interact with the things that
we're faced with the things that the situations that we find ourselves in, but it has to be,
what do we choose in an active decision-making approach, as opposed to what am I being made to
do? Is this something's happening to us? And I'm sorry, this keeps falling down,
but anyway, maybe I could put it here. Oh, that may not be helpful.
Sorry. Um, my husband's in the, in the, um, uh, living room. So I wanted to give him some space
to kind of have his own little time while I was busy. So, um, anyway, is, uh, is any of that
helpful or resonating at all? Yeah, definitely. Cause I felt like I was getting pushed and pulled
and pushed and pulled. Yeah. I'm, I'm realizing what, yeah, I wasn't choosing, um, my value and,
and I think you're giving me a different way to interact with God and not just,
um, you know, not just like, Oh, he loves me. Um, but like, what are we going to do together?
And what should I do? And, you know, and, and make that choice with him.
Yes. I'm so, I'm so glad that you pointed that out. Exactly. That's what I was, I was hoping was
changing your perspective of your interaction with the Lord. It's not just you, him over there,
throwing you little things of love. And so you've, you were always in supply
or, um, you know, uh, there was another example that I, I thought of to kind of like picture that,
but it's, um, as if you and he are separated and while you're going through stuff, you're just
wanting, you just need to make sure the only thing he's willing to offer you is support,
you know? And that's not true. He's like, no, no, no, we're doing, we're living life together.
And just like I create, when you unite yourself with me, the two of us create new things that
have never existed before. And you get to be part of that. So it's more than just like, Oh, well,
it's, it's got okay with me.
me. I need to remember he's okay with me. No, you're so one that
you choose. You're never without him. You're never you're never
like separated, but yet he's just still there. You know, he's
still hanging out and he's still willing to be around you. No,
it's that the two it's like when you get up in the morning, he
gets up in you with you. You're just you're one you're giving
him you and he are are integrated as one and you are
he's living out a human experience through you. Your
spirit united with him is allowing him through your human
form to have a human experience. You know, he, you know, he had
it obviously through Jesus, but, you know, because that obviously
Jesus was God, but, you know, and the word was made flesh, but
the word continues to be made flesh through us. You know, now
I don't mean that we're, we're, we're not in the same vein as
Jesus and the fact that we're like divine and we're human. I
don't mean that. I just mean, we're just that one with him
that, that he's, that he's like, okay, let's live and experience
this together. And you partner with me in physically expressing
our togetherness. So let's live life together. Let's do this
together. What kind of a life do we want to have? What do we want
to fill it with? How do we want to fill our time? How do we want
to fill our thoughts? You know what do we want to focus on?
What do we want to try to not, not achieve like we're trying to
like, you know, check something off of a box, but, or meet some
kind of a standard, but rather what kind of things do we want
to have under our belt that we've done? What aspect of life
do we want to have experienced? Remember, remember you like
dancing, you know, that allows God to, it allows you in a
physical form to express an aspect of God that's in the
spirit. And that creates a particular type of life and
color. It's almost like painting pink on a, on a canvas, you
know, okay, well, she, she, she got up for breakfast. And so
that puts the little yellow over here in the corner. And then
she started dancing in the kitchen. Well, that put this
pink streak. And then, you know, and then before you, you're
actually, you doing stuff is actually creating something
that if you could see it in a different form would look like,
like a picture, or it would look like it or sound like a song or
whatever. Those are just various ways to kind of like picture it
or express it. But my point is that what you're doing is your
you, the choices that you're making in your life, how you're
spending your time, what you're focusing on your, your emotions,
your, what's the word for that you're, I don't know, you're
going to say your thoughts, but just your, your value, what it
is that you, your, your interest, what you what you
focus your internal ecosystem on your emotions, your mind, your
spirit, your will, all of those things. Those things are all
painting a canvas, they all have meaning. And they're all
creating a unique life that you as Rita with God together, are,
you know, I keep using this word, but are you are creating,
you know, you're making something it matters, you're not
just doing something going going through life going through this
thing called life hitting all these milestones, okay, well, I
learned this, I go to school, and then I go to college, and
then I get a degree, and I have a job, and I do that.
You're not just passing through life's milestones, because God's
just like, Hey, by the way, I just put this big obstacle
course out that everyone has to go through. And I hope everyone
finds it fun. And there's just no point, you know, and I'll be
over here, y'all yell, if you need anything, you know, because
I know that it's an open field and God's like, okay, okay, you
know, Ashley, you and me, we're gonna go do that. We're gonna
start on this into the field. Okay, so Rita and me, okay,
we're starting here. Okay, it's blank, what do we want to do?
And that's what you're doing. So what do you want to do? It's
what you're doing with your prod. It's what you do every day
when you step into work, what are you going to create with the
Lord, who that it the conversations that you have with
your co workers, while you're pouring yourself, you know, your
third cup of coffee matter. It doesn't mean that you have to
stand there for five minutes, because Oh, my goodness, this
could be a God given opportunity to witness. I don't mean
anything like that. I just mean, they need to get to be in the
presence of God. But you have to allow you have to be in operating
with God, we don't have to God can do it.
Anyway, but, you know, you want to be operating with God and bringing,
bringing God very intentionally into this situation.
So you and God can very powerfully bring, you know, his spirit into the,
into the moment, into the atmosphere.
And you never know how it might affect them.
Even if you never said a word, you just walked over, you poured yourself
coffee and the atmosphere changed.
And people who say that they see in the spirit say they see stuff like that
happen, like they're the angels and, and like other spirit beings and
whatever, they're always doing stuff.
They're always like doing things that look like pouring oil or kind of
flitting around between people or standing there while people are having
interaction in the, those two people's inner angels are standing there, you
know, focusing on the conversation.
Or I was, I'm reading a book right now, or it says that one of the angels
might be like massaging one of the other, one of their people that they're
assigned to their shoulders, always trying to encourage them.
It said, so this, this person's that, that I'm reading about, I'm reading
about him describing his experiences.
He said, he said, looking into a room of people and seeing all of the
spiritual activity that's going on at the same time, he said, it's extremely
complicated.
So in other words, everything that you do, all of this stuff that feels dry
and boring and frustrating in your, in your projects on my word, I am sitting
down yet again, in my chair, I'm turning on my computer.
Okay.
Where did I leave off?
Oh my word.
I now have a hundred emails overnight.
You know, I remember these days, you know, here's my coffee.
Here's my, whatever you're it, the, it actually matters.
Those are significant moments in which you are spiritually creating
something into the physical realm.
So what do you want to do?
What do you want to create?
How do you want to bring something that's contributing spiritually, you
know, and, and into this, into this physical realm into each moment.
And I don't mean that you, you need to be like, this is the heavy thing and you
need to be intentional, always thinking about it.
I'm trying to paint a picture of the significance of the dry moments in your
life that feel that they just pile up and all my word, your boss walked
in and now there's more, there's more.
I have to do, there's more pressure.
There's more, whatever it's, there's a lot more going on.
That's significant than all of that.
So if that's true, how does that change how you view all of these
things that are on your plate?
Do you know, should you, um, is it just like a season that God has you in where
he's going to support you because it supports you with all of this heavy
workload that you have, or, or is it that he, he says that, you know, when
you kind of see the significance of your life, you're just kind of going, okay,
okay, no, I think that there is a healthier way to approach my job that I,
that I want to talk and discuss with my boss about from a healthy perspective
of, Hey, I am willing to be helpful.
I am whatever, you know, you're always talking about the positive,
mentioning a problem and then presenting solutions and then they can choose
between those solutions and it puts the ball in their court, you know, and it
might be that, you know, or, or is God saying, you know, Hey, you know, this
is not what, you know, it's not what I have for you.
I want you to go somewhere else.
You know, I don't know, but it all starts with you recognizing who you are
in the significance of yourself being unified with God all the time, like all
the time, and so everything that you and God are doing together, like when you
walk down the hall for coffee, God's God's with you, he's walking with you.
And I, me always feeling that way just to made every moment feel valuable and
significant and weighty because he was always right there, meaning he was in me.
And so we were doing something and I was learning things and he's bothering me
and teaching me and showing me how to do different things and whatever,
but I'm always with him.
I'm not leaving him in the cubicle or he just walking, you know, beside
me and she's just silent and just like, Hey, poke me.
If you, you know, if you're really scared or poke me, if you get into
a really bad way or whatever, it's just like, no, we were doing
something together and it mattered.
So walking down the hall, even just getting up, walking down the hall or
walking over to another person always felt significant to me, it always felt.
There were every aspect of my life mattered.
I didn't have to, like, I mean, nothing felt weird.
Like, um, like I didn't, that didn't feel like pressure.
It felt like freedom and it felt like significance.
So, okay, now that I'm significant, let's go live.
Let's go do things.
Let's make decisions.
Let's get the project done.
Let's coordinate with these people.
Let's overcome all the obstacles.
And that was my job.
My job was overcoming all the obstacles.
Like I said, like I was a, I was process improvement specialist and a business
consultant and then a whole bunch of other things in corporate and my job was
always the hardest things to overcome.
The absolute hardest was always like kind of the, I don't want to say the
impossible jobs, but the jobs that people couldn't figure out how to, how to do.
Um, and it wasn't until the very last part of my, it was probably the last
year that I was in corporate that.
Um, I actually didn't have to do that kind of thing anymore.
And I didn't, I wasn't looked at to have to solve problems.
I was just there to kind of be a worker bee and I needed it.
I just needed some healing for a while, but anyway, um, anyway, if, uh, let me
know what your thoughts are and if any of that's helpful or any of that resonates.
And if not, well then, you know, give me feedback.
What is it that you're thinking?
You know, what is it that, cause this whole thing is about,
what is it that you need?
You know, what is that, that, where are you?
You know, it's when I wanted to give everyone private time, what do you need?
And how are you hearing this?
And, you know, to kind of translate things and rephrase things and whatever.
No, no, it's good.
Cause I'd come out of work and I'm like, what am I doing with my life as if, as
if nothing mattered that I did, but I know I, I like that.
It, I am significant cause Christ, you know, God is with me.
We're in union and, you know, just hearing this, all the spiritual
activity going on is encouraging.
And, um, yeah, it's definitely a different way to operate.
And you're pouring into numbers and you're making decisions about
finances or payroll or something.
I don't, I don't remember exactly what it is, but
whatever it is that you're doing, understand that what you touch.
Is if you have the opportunity to pour spirit into it and pour kingdom into it
so that it now has a particular aspect of life that other people who interact
with those numbers or with the results of all your calculations are affected by.
It matters.
It's not just, oh, well, you know, I'm not talking to people, you know,
actually I'm, I'm stuck in a corner somewhere, you know, I've got, I I'm
doing this or, you know, I just deal with numbers.
I don't, I don't.
You deal with like, I don't know, just whatever that looks more influential.
No, we don't understand what we pour into whatever it is that we touch,
whatever it is that we interact with, we pour an aspect of spirit and the
authority of our, of the kingdom of God into, and then whatever else comes
in contact with it has an opportunity to be blessed by and affected by it.
I know that that sounds weird, especially when it's something like.
Numbers or, you know, it's not words that they understood and that got the
gave them this epiphany or whatever.
It really, really, really matters.
I wish I could think of a, of an example, because I had this fleeting example
that popped into my head of a real, of something that I heard recently that
happened in real life in a business situation, and I thought it, but
unfortunately, because of the people that were connected with that department
or whatever, it had a very negative effect on everyone, simply because of
the spirit and the authority of the people or the spirit of the people that
were in those situations and the authority of the world that they were
allowing to affect it, then anybody who affect he was touched by, or, you know,
interacted with the things that went out from that department were affected.
You know, it, and so it's because remember that it's our spirit that
gives life to creation and it's our, it's our souls in our, our, our, what
it is that we're saying about God, that creation is responding to.
So even if it's numbers or it's the computer or it's inanimate objects,
you know, it's actually carrying something out.
And I was, I was talking to, to encouraging Casey with this.
She hadn't asked me about this.
It was just something I just threw in there, you know, since they're moving.
And I was just, and of course they're getting their house ready and everything.
And so I just encouraged her.
I said, you remember that with everything it is that you have to do to get the,
you know, working on the house and all of that, you remember that you're preparing
that house.
which isn't a person.
You're preparing it with your spiritual authority
to receive the next people that come in
so that it might change their life.
The atmosphere, the atmosphere of peace,
and I gave her examples of like,
see things like the painter coming in
and you having to schedule things
with the painters to come in.
I was totally making this up.
I don't know if she's bringing painters in,
but so I said like, say for instance,
if you have all of these things that you need to do
including repaint your house,
and it just feels like, oh my word,
this is a very, I don't know,
very, I don't know, not Christian,
but just like unspiritual thing to do.
It's just like this thing that gets in the way of life
and oh my word, with all the things I have to do,
now I have to call the painters,
now I have to schedule,
then we have to arrange the furniture, blah, blah, blah.
It can feel like things that are on a to-do list
or a checklist that just have to get done
and that it's being forced on us.
But I was encouraging her.
I said, hey, if you have got painters coming,
I said, as an example, I said, see it like this.
He is like, no, you were bringing that,
you were preparing the house as the current ruling king
of what you expect of it and the type of order
that you are calling it to come into
in order to create a particular atmosphere
and presence of the God
in which that next family will be coming into.
And part of the way you're doing that
is by bringing in order to that home,
by having the painters come in,
making everything look fresh and nice and orderly
and new and whatever.
And I said, you're communicating something to creation
because creation is always looking to us
to give it instruction.
But what instruction are we giving it?
Are we giving it positive or negative?
Are we complaining while we're doing it?
As if it, and then it gets the impression
that it's a bother and we hate it and we're the enemy
and we can't be trusted and we're not a good leader
and it's not safe with us.
What are we communicating to it?
So anyway, I just wanna encourage you that,
you're like, oh, what am I doing with my life?
If you feel that the Lord is telling you
to go somewhere else and do something,
well then sometimes he can use questions like that
in our mind to help prompt it.
But also to take before the Lord is the consideration of,
yeah, but what if, regardless if God is moving me on,
regardless of that, how do I approach
every day boring, dry moments in my life
where I'm just plugging in numbers or I'm pulling reports
or I'm giving reports or I'm preparing for a meeting?
Lord, seriously, in the grand scheme of things,
what on earth am I doing here?
Some people are teaching children.
Oh, they're raising the next generation.
Other people are missionaries.
Other people are pastors.
Lord, seriously, what am I doing?
You know, I thought, Lord, that,
I've been in this desk job, so I'm like,
Lord, seriously, seriously, do you see me?
I am, I'm a secretary, I'm an admin.
I'm like doing paperwork and files and remaking labels
and that's my job, Lord, that's all I do.
You know, but I had to see, I just poured who God is
in his love of excellence, in his love of quality,
in his love of the beautiful, fascinating world
that he created and the physics in which everything works.
He, I was getting to interact with that world
and then manipulate it to be able to create something,
to make these labels, to come up with these ideas,
to create these little computer systems,
to do whatever.
And so I just tried to pour God and his principles
and his kingdom as best as I could.
And we're talking like this is like, I don't know,
13, 14 years ago, I knew nothing about rest,
but I just knew, yeah, but God is out there
and he's important and he made this world.
So surely I need to appreciate it.
And so anyways, I would just try to pour
into all those things and pour myself
and what I felt was his goodness and his excellence
and his love of physics and how it works
and labels and ink and paper.
And God created all those things.
And he's like, I want you to interact with it
and tell it who I am, you know?
And so, and then whoever touches that piece of paper
or whatever, sometime later can be affected spiritually.
It can bring peace.
It can be whatever.
That's why we feel good or bad
about certain inanimate objects.
They're not just inanimate.
There's, there's things about the, the last, the person who owned it, you know,
I mean, that's why I'm careful when I go to thrift store or we'll go to any store,
but particularly thrift stores, because people previously owned them.
And so I pray over things when they come in, cause I am telling you, sometimes
you look at something or you pick something up and you feel really bad.
You're like, I just feel gross.
I don't even know why, or you just feel very heavy or you feel sad.
And there are other things that just, just light you up and just bring you joy.
And you know, that it's more than just like, oh, I like this color.
It's like the, the object itself has some kind of a, is reflecting a
belief of what it's been exposed to, you know, so anyway, so everything
you do is very significant.
You've got value and importance in your, you're doing something proactive.
So you choose to paint your life.
You choose to create your life.
Meaning like you choose to, you choose to create your moment.
Okay.
It is 8 0 2 AM.
I'm creating my moment here.
What am I, what am I doing?
I am moving forward.
I am doing something.
Why?
Because I choose to no one forced this job on me.
Not even God.
I chose it.
This is what I choose for me.
You know, and now you may wish you had a different choice.
You may wish that God, but the thing is, unless, unless, you know, unless
we're talking about the fact that maybe God did or whatever, if you feel like
this is what God told you to do, then you're like, you know what?
He didn't force me to do it.
There was no other choice.
This is what, this is the opportunity that God presented to me.
Okay.
Then this is what I choose because you have the opportunity to reject it.
You have the opportunity to try to find something else.
No, but you said, no, this is it.
And so you decide in those moments, do I still choose this?
You know, and it could simply be for the fact of, well, I don't
feel that God's released me.
Okay.
So do you want to rebel against what you believe that God is saying to do?
Or do you choose this?
Everything's a choice.
We're not ever forced to do anything.
Um, so we own that choice and God loves that.
I am telling you what things start to move and change very powerfully in your
life when you intentionally make what a friend of mine calls strong decisions.
So, oh, well, you, you know, uh, you've heard of, uh, Chris Blackaby.
That's what he's always talking about.
He's always, he always refers to it as strong decision.
You know, he's, he's always telling me, Ashley, make a strong decision.
I'm like, okay, I will.
And, but I, and I always thought it was a very odd way to phrase that, but the
longer that I've, I've, you know, lived with the Lord in, in learning about,
you know, rest and identity and our union with him and, and how to interact,
operate, make decisions, et cetera.
The more I understood what he's saying.
And the more that when I, when I interact with the Lord like that, the more
powerful his, my inner God's, my interaction is I strongly make a decision.
In other words, I make a decision and I own it.
Lord, I make that decision, not blaming it on someone else or God.
Well, you told me, I mean, we all saw what happened to Adam when he said
the woman that you gave me, you know, if we own our own decision and we
don't even give it to the Lord, we're like, no God, you know, this is my decision.
This is what I choose.
I choose because I think this is you.
I own it.
I'm responsible for having made this decision.
This is it.
God loves that.
He's like, now that I can do something with like, okay.
Because it's like, we're choosing that.
We want to live life with him as opposed to being dragged around like a limp dishrag.
Okay.
God, I'm here.
What are you doing?
What is your will eventually revoked my destiny to me, Lord.
You know, he's like, no, he's like, he's like, get excited.
Just decide it, you know, get excited and come up with ideas about what we want to
do, you know, live offensively, live motivated to create, to move forward, to
initiate, to be intentional, to come up with ideas.
I don't know if you watched, um, the, uh, session 12 yet you watch session 12.
Okay.
So in session 12, you know, the power of intention is that kind of an idea.
It's extremely, extremely powerful because the kingdom needs us to stand up.
It needs us to be, um, Oh man.
What was the word for that?
Just, um, I don't know.
Oh man.
There's, there's a word for it where you, it, yes, it's owning yourself and.
of that, but it's, it's, I can't think. But anyway, it's, he, he
really enjoys it, because he's like, okay, so you have your own
free will, are making a choice, that this life I've given you is
good. You're claiming it, you're claiming and owning your own
life that I've offered to you, you're taking it up, you're
receiving it, you have ideas, you want to move forward, as
opposed to, okay, well, I'll allow it, God. So do what you
want. And I'll just hang out. Because you, you kind of, the
best way I can come up to describe it is you claim it. He
loves it. He responds differently. My life changed
when I began to take responsibility for my decisions,
responsibility for my actions when I was strong in them,
meaning like, I own them to him. I was like, God, this is what I
choose. Get remember in a in a revelation. I don't remember
which one I don't know is revelation for Revelation three
anyway, talking to the Church of Laodicea, and he said, I wish
you were hot or cold, because I would know what to do with you.
But now that you're lukewarm, he said, I don't know what to do
with you, except spew you out of my mouth. It's the same
principle of he likes a strong decision, hot or cold, which is
it going to be? Yes, you're going to obey me or no, you're
not. But dadgum, make a choice. None of this. Oh, no, what do
you want to do? I don't know, Lord. I don't really care. I'm
just upset with all the decisions you've made for me so
far. It's, it's just that he's like, he's like, do you do you
see what I've given is good? What you know? Let's do you do
you want to do you have your own ideas? Do you think it's a
good thing? Do you own it? Do you appreciate it? You know,
or whatever. So anyway,
so that's good. Yeah, I that's what I needed to get my life
back again. Yeah, yeah. And have you done anything at all with
the dancing at it? Oh, yeah, I went on Wednesday with with my
friend Tammy. Oh, yeah, Tammy. Yeah. What did y'all what did
y'all do it? Did y'all join a class? Or did you just go out
to like Billy Bob's or something? No, no. Um, no, we
went to like a trial class for ballet technique. When I was
little. Yeah. When I was little, I was like that. Now that I'm
older. I'm like, that seems hard.
ankles are screaming.
But it was very technical because it was technical. But
yeah, there's other things we can try. So it was fun. Great.
And where's this? It's just up the road. It's in Bedford. It's
called Laura's that dance dynamics or something like that.
Yeah, I don't remember that. I don't remember where that is. I
mean, I don't remember seeing that. So I mean, Bedford, you
know, I haven't been everywhere in Bedford, but I used to live
right there. So I thought, Oh, well, I wonder if I'd seen it or
heard of it or something. So okay. Yeah, well, cool. That's
great. And does Tammy live near you?
She's in Addison. So 30 minutes. Yeah.
Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So anyway, well, that's cool. I'm glad.
Well, my word, you Kim and Tammy are all really spread out. I'm
good. Kim is like off the mat now.
They're in Addison in the middle. Yes. Yeah. Where's Where's
Mary?
She went to Mansfield. Okay. Wow, y'all are y'all covered the
Metroplex.
Yeah. Is there anybody else in your group that hadn't heard it?
Or maybe?
No, that's pretty much Yeah, the four. Yeah. Well, that's fun.
Yeah. Well, so anyway, was there and I mean, did any of that
help? I kind of like just took a little thing that you gave me
and then I just took off, which is very unusual. But it's like,
I just kind of felt like I had all of these things, you know,
that I could say. But anyway, I was talking, I thought, well,
actually, I don't know, you know, is that actually
applicable or relevant to what she's going through? You know,
you really didn't get much before you took off. So, sir,
you know, did any of that resonate? Did that? Oh, yeah.
Yeah, all of it did. Oh, good. Yes. Yeah. So I mean, sometimes,
huh. I was gonna say, especially making that decision, choosing,
you know, that he's there always and not just, and I love the
idea of like, my spirits just, you know, it just reminds me of
like, was it Peter walking or and then
just his shadow cast on them and they were like healed. So, yeah.
Yeah, exactly. And, um, and even people were taking, they were praying over claws and,
and sending them to people, you know, to be healed. I mean, it's just, it's just really
as wild how all that works, but, um, I was sending us and say, oh yeah. So everything
that I was talking about, I mean, I know I gave some specifics, but some of what I was talking
about, you know, is just, it's just that whole, you know, taking us back to, okay, well, what
does God say about himself and about us and own that be you we've been entrusted with ourselves
as the first thing. So claim us, you know, and be responsible to God for us. I don't mean
responsible as in like this, this burden. Oh my goodness. I've got this responsibility, but like
that, that we, um, that were the thing that answers for our decisions, you know, et cetera.
Um, but, uh, a lot of times, a lot of times that these things that we struggling with,
you know, anxiety and struggling to sleep and I'm, you know, all of these things,
the answers are always very simple and they're very, oh, I say that usually I don't, you know,
I feel really, I don't know, I feel like we're kind of nervous thing always. Cause I'm like,
I don't know. There's only so much. I know that, but basically just think of it this way. The
answers are simple. They're very, we just always go back to the root. What does God say about
himself? To what degree? And what does he say about me to what degree? And I choose that. And
then everything else flows from that. Everything else comes from that. Sure. We can do other
things from that place and whatever, but if we go all the way back to, okay, I'm struggling with
anxiety, I'm struggling to sleep on whatever. Okay. Pull back to connecting with valuing and
choosing God above anything else in your life. And even about how choosing God could affect
or could affect your life and any consequences or results that could create, you know,
any potential issues that you're like, you know what, that really wouldn't be fun to live through.
You choose God over those possibilities. And then you choose that you are who he says that
you are that significant. And then if you believe those things, meaning if you choose them,
if they really are your reality that you have made, you will make you, it totally changes the,
your perspective on whatever situation that you're in. And then it also guides you as to what
decision to then make. So that's why I'm always taking people back to something. So basic is
based. It's almost in a way the same answer every single time, because if we shift into that place,
we will see whatever situation that we're in from a totally different perspective,
and we'll have clarity on what direction to take with it. You know, how to approach our boss about
that, or what to do with this to do with this project, or how to problem how to solve this
problem, or what to do with it about the fact that of the meantime, in of not knowing how to
answer the, how to fix the problem. So now I'm currently in, in a situation in which the problem
is not fit being fixed, and it's just messy right now. So how do I be in that place? You will know
how to be in that place and you will be able to rest fully be and go through that place by shifting
back into who God is and who you are and choosing those as your highest value. And so that's why I
always like pull people back to that, because you know, what I teach aren't formulas of like, okay,
in this situation, do this, in this situation, do this, in this situation, do this, and just memorize
all the rules. It's, it's empowering every person to understand that they have everything they need
to make their own decision. And the reason that they can't see it is that in whatever question
that they bring up is simply because they're not viewing it from the correct perspective.
It means that they're viewing it from outside of God and from, in other words, from feeling
separated from God, instead of remembering and choosing that he is their highest value and
choosing him for who he is and for who he says that you are. When you do that, then you're, you're, we,
you're operating from the place that's always connected to the spirit of wisdom, always
connected to the spirit of understanding and knowledge. And so you not only do you have support
from heaven, but you also have the clarity, the knowledge, the wisdom of heaven. And so it just
totally changes your perspective. So I can, if I can help people understand.
and how to quickly change their own perspective, they then answer their own questions about what
to do in whatever situation that they're dealing with at work or, you know, in relationships or
whatever. Um, and then sometimes it just kind of, you know, obviously help them out by like
walking them all the way from that through. Therefore, if you do this and then therefore,
if you believe in the Lord in this way, and therefore does it, well, then you can handle
it in this way, but that's just, that's just an idea. Um, that's just an example,
but it all comes back to us uniquely expressing who we in God are, you know, and then do expressing
that out loud, meaning like in what we do, um, that will, that will create our own unique life
with him and that will change everything that'll free everything. So, um, and everyone has something
that, um, everyone has something that is unique that other people don't have and that,
and are meant to bring things that other people can't bring. So I can't instruct anybody in that
because I don't have it, you know, I've never been exposed to that. I've never seen it.
They're supposed to bring that new thing down and then we'll all see it, including me, you know,
anyway. Um, but yeah, so that's, um, anyway, like I said, I hope all of that resonated and was
helpful to your situation and what you're going through. Yes, definitely. Yeah. And I'm so excited
to hear that you went dancing excited. So your plans, have you been doing anything else besides
that? Like any, like, how have you liked your nighttime routine been going or shows that you're
watching or books that you're reading or I don't know, just stuff you're choosing for you outside
work. No, I hadn't really done the nighttime routine. I just try to get out of bed sooner,
but yeah. And then just, yeah, I, I guess I hadn't dealt with centering, you know, I do my,
I'm, you know, I'm connected and rested, but I wasn't still, I don't. Yeah.
So choosing, um,
yeah. Perspective. Yeah. Yeah. It'll be easier if you choose that God is protector, provider,
safety, et cetera. And that you're in that then it is, if, if he's kind of out of the picture
and you're like, Oh, I'm safe. I'm connected. I'm okay. He's making sure of it because that will
still make us feel separated. Even though we think we're trying to give ourselves truth,
the comfort of truth, like, well, we are protected, whatever. If you associate you,
in other words, how you, how you feel, or basically your state of being, like you're
protected today. If you associate that with the fact that that's who he is and it's
then, and you're simply experiencing God's character protector, provider, whatever,
that is what brings rest. Cause remember, remember rest isn't feeling a particular way
or remembering that we are something it's actually simply being in him.
So in order to remember, to operate from the place of being in him, we have to associate
all those things that we want with simply us experiencing those aspects of his character
instead of us, instead of us, you know, feeling connected or feeling at rest or feeling peace
or feeling protected or feeling provided for whatever. Nope. Nope. He's my protector.
He's he's protecting. He is my provider. He is my, you know, whatever that, that might help
because you're connecting with him and that, and he is what gives us an anchor that removes all
the stress and the anxiety. And that's what makes what we have as sons of God different than say,
for instance, a counselor or, you know, or a psychologist that would just talk about,
you know, how to make our, how to, how to like talk to ourselves to like comfort ourselves or
whatever. Oh, I need to remember I'm okay. And I'm whatever, anyway, and that may not be what
you were referring to, but just in case it was, I wanted to kind of mention a little nuance that
actually where all the power is, is always connecting you with what you need with God
and his character, that, that, that it's his character.
that's, and you being in him, that's giving you everything you need. Does that make sense?
Yeah, I can see how I was just trying to more like soothe myself instead of, yeah, being
his character. Yeah. Which is what we all do. We all do. And so, but I've learned that that didn't
work for me long-term. What only finally worked is when I realized, no, the reason I'm safe,
the reason I'm whatever is that's what he is and I'm in him. And then all of a sudden that worked.
So anyway, I just thought that maybe that would help you because that's what helped me.
Yes, definitely. Well, is there anything else before we jump off?
No, no, I appreciate you rescheduling. I was going to accept if you didn't reach out again,
I missed my boat. So you're fine. You're fine. I'm glad that it worked out. And I reached out to
Tammy and let her know the information just so that she could look at it and decide what
she wanted to do. Cause Kim had put her and her and I in contact about a month or two ago.
And so because she had reached out to me personally, I wanted to make sure she heard
back from me. And so I responded with this thing. I responded back then, but I told her,
she asked me, well, let me know the next time you do it. So we'll let her know. So anyway,
so I don't know if she'll join or not. But the thing is, I just want to let you
know so that you knew I sent her stuff. Hopefully she got it.
Yeah. Yeah. And I sent it to her too. It sounds like she's going to. Yeah. Yeah.
So, okay. Okay. Well, even if she doesn't, I will. So,
Oh, well, great. I'm so I always get excited when I get to know who for sure who's coming. So I'm
like, okay, I can start getting all plan, you know, plan, like who I'm going to be doing a
life with for the next several weeks. I always get excited about that. So yeah, there's several
other people who sound like they might be joining. And so we'll just, we'll just see.
So anyway, even new people. All right. Well, I will talk to you later and I will very much
look forward to seeing you when you join the group. Okay. Thank you. Bye Rita. Bye Ashley.