WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:16.000 I can hear you but not see you. 2 00:00:16.000 --> 00:00:21.000 I can hear you but not see you. 3 00:00:21.000 --> 00:00:24.000 You sound like you're in the car. 4 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:27.000 Let's see if I'm right. 5 00:00:27.000 --> 00:00:30.000 You're right. 6 00:00:30.000 --> 00:00:33.000 I was like she has the sound. 7 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:36.000 You always sound like that when you're in the car. 8 00:00:36.000 --> 00:00:39.000 It must be the acoustics in there. 9 00:00:39.000 --> 00:00:42.000 I'm glad we're finally able to connect. 10 00:00:42.000 --> 00:00:45.000 I appreciate your patience. 11 00:00:45.000 --> 00:00:48.000 I was just checking to see if I could get the 12 00:00:48.000 --> 00:00:51.000 errand up. 13 00:00:51.000 --> 00:00:54.000 I thought I had time. 14 00:00:54.000 --> 00:00:57.000 Otherwise I wouldn't be able to get it today. 15 00:00:57.000 --> 00:01:00.000 I ran into a train. 16 00:01:00.000 --> 00:01:03.000 All the traffic. 17 00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:06.000 There's really no easy way to get anywhere. 18 00:01:06.000 --> 00:01:09.000 It's not close to any major highways. 19 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:12.000 You have to weave out 20 00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:15.000 the traffic. 21 00:01:15.000 --> 00:01:18.000 I'm glad we're able to connect. 22 00:01:18.000 --> 00:01:21.000 When things bottleneck, 23 00:01:21.000 --> 00:01:24.000 they really bottleneck. 24 00:01:24.000 --> 00:01:27.000 There's only so many ways in and out. 25 00:01:27.000 --> 00:01:30.000 Thank you for your patience. 26 00:01:30.000 --> 00:01:33.000 I was watching the clock. 27 00:01:33.000 --> 00:01:36.000 I don't know why I had two in my mind. 28 00:01:36.000 --> 00:01:39.000 I had one o'clock on my calendar. 29 00:01:39.000 --> 00:01:42.000 I'm glad it worked out for us to still meet today. 30 00:01:42.000 --> 00:01:45.000 I was disappointed when you weren't there. 31 00:01:45.000 --> 00:01:48.000 I was looking forward to it. 32 00:01:48.000 --> 00:01:51.000 I'm glad it worked out. 33 00:01:51.000 --> 00:01:54.000 How are you? 34 00:01:54.000 --> 00:01:57.000 I was excited you were able to have a reversal. 35 00:01:57.000 --> 00:02:00.000 I was sorry to hear 36 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:03.000 it hasn't been smooth since. 37 00:02:03.000 --> 00:02:06.000 It's been challenging. 38 00:02:06.000 --> 00:02:09.000 How are you? 39 00:02:09.000 --> 00:02:12.000 Today has been better. 40 00:02:12.000 --> 00:02:15.000 I know I don't have a blockage. 41 00:02:15.000 --> 00:02:18.000 That's a good sign. 42 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:21.000 They won't let babies 43 00:02:21.000 --> 00:02:24.000 be released from the hospital 44 00:02:24.000 --> 00:02:27.000 until they have a full cycle. 45 00:02:27.000 --> 00:02:30.000 You need to make sure 46 00:02:30.000 --> 00:02:33.000 that everything is working. 47 00:02:33.000 --> 00:02:36.000 You need to make sure 48 00:02:36.000 --> 00:02:39.000 that everything is working 49 00:02:39.000 --> 00:02:42.000 from end to end. 50 00:02:42.000 --> 00:02:45.000 Everything can get in and out. 51 00:02:45.000 --> 00:02:48.000 That's how they work for me. 52 00:02:48.000 --> 00:02:51.000 I couldn't be released 53 00:02:51.000 --> 00:02:54.000 until I was having bowel movements. 54 00:02:54.000 --> 00:02:57.000 Then I got home. 55 00:02:57.000 --> 00:03:00.000 I've been chronically constipated 56 00:03:00.000 --> 00:03:03.000 for a while now. 57 00:03:03.000 --> 00:03:06.000 It's very stress related. 58 00:03:06.000 --> 00:03:09.000 Getting home, 59 00:03:09.000 --> 00:03:12.000 trying to get her house ready to put on the market. 60 00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:15.000 My daughter, 61 00:03:15.000 --> 00:03:18.000 I don't know what the word is. 62 00:03:18.000 --> 00:03:21.000 She's very spirited. 63 00:03:21.000 --> 00:03:24.000 She's omnipresent. 64 00:03:24.000 --> 00:03:27.000 She's everywhere 65 00:03:27.000 --> 00:03:30.000 . 66 00:03:30.000 --> 00:03:33.000 She has so much life. 67 00:03:33.000 --> 00:03:36.000 It's like blasting 68 00:03:36.000 --> 00:03:39.000 all her energy at you all at once. 69 00:03:39.000 --> 00:03:42.000 It's a lot at times. 70 00:03:42.000 --> 00:03:45.000 Figuring out, 71 00:03:45.000 --> 00:03:48.000 this was a reminder to me. 72 00:03:48.000 --> 00:03:51.000 I feel like I reverted back 73 00:03:51.000 --> 00:03:54.000 to my old man. 74 00:03:54.000 --> 00:03:57.000 It's a reminder to me 75 00:03:57.000 --> 00:04:00.000 that things that I feel are required of me 76 00:04:00.000 --> 00:04:03.000 even though they might not be required of me. 77 00:04:03.000 --> 00:04:06.000 Figuring out 78 00:04:06.000 --> 00:04:09.000 how to live from rest in those times. 79 00:04:09.000 --> 00:04:12.000 One of the ways 80 00:04:12.000 --> 00:04:15.000 to think about it 81 00:04:15.000 --> 00:04:18.000 is, 82 00:04:18.000 --> 00:04:21.000 I was talking to somebody about this 83 00:04:21.000 --> 00:04:24.000 , 84 00:04:24.000 --> 00:04:27.000 about viewing those types of things in life 85 00:04:27.000 --> 00:04:30.000 from a different perspective. 86 00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:33.000 I'm not required anymore. 87 00:04:33.000 --> 00:04:36.000 I'm not obligated. 88 00:04:36.000 --> 00:04:39.000 How do we fix that discrepancy? 89 00:04:39.000 --> 00:04:42.000 How do we reconcile that discrepancy? 90 00:04:42.000 --> 00:04:45.000 How do we nullify 91 00:04:45.000 --> 00:04:48.000 the seemingly contradiction? 92 00:04:48.000 --> 00:04:51.000 That's what I'm trying to do. 93 00:04:51.000 --> 00:04:54.000 As I keep saying, 94 00:04:54.000 --> 00:04:57.000 and the Lord will hopefully give me 95 00:04:57.000 --> 00:05:00.000 different words to articulate it 96 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:03.000 so I can flesh it out and help people understand it. 97 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.600 about the importance of owning yourself is that, okay, who does God say he is? 98 00:05:04.600 --> 00:05:05.640 And who's he say I am. 99 00:05:05.680 --> 00:05:05.960 Okay. 100 00:05:05.960 --> 00:05:07.120 That is who I am. 101 00:05:07.120 --> 00:05:08.520 And that is where I am. 102 00:05:08.520 --> 00:05:10.120 In other words, I have significance. 103 00:05:10.560 --> 00:05:15.120 I am the thing that God has most entrusted me with more than your 104 00:05:15.120 --> 00:05:16.520 husband, more than your kids. 105 00:05:16.520 --> 00:05:19.240 He's entrusted you first with you. 106 00:05:20.280 --> 00:05:24.240 So what that means is you take on that, that you agree with him, 107 00:05:24.240 --> 00:05:27.240 that you have that value, that significance. 108 00:05:27.640 --> 00:05:31.480 And then when you own yourself, in other words, you own, you, 109 00:05:31.480 --> 00:05:32.920 you take ownership of yourself. 110 00:05:32.920 --> 00:05:37.440 You take, um, you choose your, you choose who it is that God says that 111 00:05:37.440 --> 00:05:41.000 you are in the significance and the value that he has given to you. 112 00:05:41.520 --> 00:05:45.840 And then from that place, you can live offensively in life of like, okay, 113 00:05:45.840 --> 00:05:50.120 how, what do I want to create my life to be and to look like? 114 00:05:50.560 --> 00:05:52.920 So when it runs into something like, and we'll just use your 115 00:05:52.920 --> 00:05:56.160 daughter for an example, you know, running around with so much life 116 00:05:56.160 --> 00:06:00.120 and energy, and then we, what we have a tendency to do is we think 117 00:06:00.480 --> 00:06:05.120 something is happening that I can't control and I don't want, I want 118 00:06:05.120 --> 00:06:06.320 it to work a little different. 119 00:06:06.600 --> 00:06:09.440 I mean, you want your daughter, but you don't want what you're getting, 120 00:06:09.440 --> 00:06:12.560 you know, it's, it's, we know, you know, with your husband, with, you 121 00:06:12.560 --> 00:06:15.080 know, interactions with just people, it's like, okay, I like you. 122 00:06:15.080 --> 00:06:16.520 I'm really not like you. 123 00:06:17.080 --> 00:06:18.480 You're giving to me right now. 124 00:06:18.760 --> 00:06:20.640 I really wish I could control. 125 00:06:21.080 --> 00:06:23.480 You to the point where you could give me a different behavior, 126 00:06:23.520 --> 00:06:24.280 you know, kind of a thing. 127 00:06:24.960 --> 00:06:27.600 And so, well, what we do is we think, okay, what we have a 128 00:06:27.600 --> 00:06:31.160 tendency to do is we think, okay, I'm not being given something I don't want. 129 00:06:31.400 --> 00:06:35.840 So because I don't want it and because I can't control it, well, 130 00:06:35.840 --> 00:06:41.120 then it's being forced on me and I have to, and it's something that I 131 00:06:41.120 --> 00:06:42.600 don't want is being forced on me. 132 00:06:42.600 --> 00:06:46.240 And now I have to do something I don't want to do because something's 133 00:06:46.240 --> 00:06:50.320 coming at me that I didn't want, or I didn't can't control and didn't ask for. 134 00:06:50.640 --> 00:06:53.280 But really what we can do is we can view it from a different 135 00:06:53.280 --> 00:06:57.200 perspective of, okay, what do I want for my life? 136 00:06:57.600 --> 00:07:00.400 And this is what my life has in it. 137 00:07:00.720 --> 00:07:04.720 So how do I want to interact with that or whatever? 138 00:07:04.720 --> 00:07:07.800 So say for instance, you know, your daughter, you know, you think, okay, 139 00:07:07.800 --> 00:07:09.440 well, you love your daughter. 140 00:07:09.520 --> 00:07:10.920 What do you want to give your daughter? 141 00:07:11.000 --> 00:07:13.840 What do you want to, what kind of a life do you want to create for your 142 00:07:13.840 --> 00:07:18.040 daughter, for you and your daughter's interaction and relationship and whatever. 143 00:07:18.520 --> 00:07:21.960 So now that your daughter's behavior doesn't threaten or 144 00:07:21.960 --> 00:07:23.680 require anything of you. 145 00:07:24.560 --> 00:07:27.280 Now, what do you want to give to the situation? 146 00:07:27.760 --> 00:07:29.080 As opposed to, oh, my word. 147 00:07:29.080 --> 00:07:31.240 Now I have to do something because she did it. 148 00:07:31.240 --> 00:07:33.240 And now I have to do something I don't want to do. 149 00:07:33.520 --> 00:07:34.960 No, she did what she did. 150 00:07:35.000 --> 00:07:35.920 She said what she said. 151 00:07:35.920 --> 00:07:37.840 She asked, she's acting the way that she's acting. 152 00:07:38.280 --> 00:07:40.800 So now you not being threatened by that. 153 00:07:41.360 --> 00:07:45.520 How do you then, what, what do you, how do you want to take the lemons that 154 00:07:45.520 --> 00:07:47.760 life has given you and make them make lemonade? 155 00:07:48.240 --> 00:07:51.280 How do you want to take the circumstances and situations that you 156 00:07:51.280 --> 00:07:55.800 have and create something out of it that you want for your life? 157 00:07:56.240 --> 00:08:00.720 So you're moving forward offensively because of something you choose to do, 158 00:08:01.080 --> 00:08:05.920 as opposed to thinking of it in the perspective of I'm forced into this 159 00:08:05.920 --> 00:08:12.120 situation simply because if I don't react to this situation, there's going 160 00:08:12.120 --> 00:08:14.040 to be consequences I don't want to deal with. 161 00:08:14.840 --> 00:08:19.800 So then what we, we, the way that we ended up making decisions is simply 162 00:08:20.000 --> 00:08:22.360 in efforts to avoid consequences. 163 00:08:23.040 --> 00:08:27.800 And that's depressing way to live life as opposed to what do I want to create? 164 00:08:28.320 --> 00:08:31.640 Not what do I want to avoid, but what do I want to create and 165 00:08:31.640 --> 00:08:33.559 then determine our actions from that. 166 00:08:34.159 --> 00:08:37.600 Um, and then there was another point that I was going to make about that, 167 00:08:37.600 --> 00:08:39.600 that, um, uh, oh, that's right. 168 00:08:40.039 --> 00:08:44.240 Uh, I was relating to some, the other person I was talking to, I was relating 169 00:08:44.240 --> 00:08:47.640 it to things like around the house, like say for instance, dishes or the 170 00:08:47.640 --> 00:08:51.600 grocery store or whatever, because they were like, well, you know, if I want to, 171 00:08:52.000 --> 00:09:00.560 um, uh, how do I, how do I do the things that need to be done without feeling? 172 00:09:00.640 --> 00:09:05.520 Um, uh, I don't remember how they worded it, but you know, how do I do the 173 00:09:05.520 --> 00:09:11.240 things that, that need to be done without feeling overwhelmed or simply 174 00:09:11.240 --> 00:09:17.240 trying to constantly procrastinate and avoid it in the name of self-care? 175 00:09:18.480 --> 00:09:22.400 You know, and just like, oh, well, I'm going to sit around and do something else. 176 00:09:22.720 --> 00:09:25.760 And then you avoid all of these things that quote unquote need to get done. 177 00:09:26.000 --> 00:09:27.920 And I said, well, it's simply a shift in perspective. 178 00:09:27.920 --> 00:09:28.920 What life do you want to create? 179 00:09:29.560 --> 00:09:32.800 If you don't have food in the house and you're thinking, well, I really 180 00:09:32.800 --> 00:09:33.840 don't want to go to the grocery store. 181 00:09:34.080 --> 00:09:37.120 You don't have to, no one's making you, you do not have to go to the grocery store. 182 00:09:37.120 --> 00:09:38.240 It is your house, your home. 183 00:09:38.240 --> 00:09:41.040 No one's over you whipping you down the street to go to the grocery store. 184 00:09:41.440 --> 00:09:45.160 You don't have to, if you don't want to, but what do you want to, how 185 00:09:45.160 --> 00:09:46.560 do you want to live your life? 186 00:09:46.600 --> 00:09:48.720 How do you, what kind of a life do you want to create? 187 00:09:49.080 --> 00:09:54.680 Do you want to eat tonight and provide for your, for your family and whatever? 188 00:09:54.960 --> 00:09:59.760 Okay, well then how can you do and create in life? 189 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:05.000 but it is that you desire as opposed to how do I avoid 190 00:10:05.000 --> 00:10:08.040 something happening that I really don't want to happen. 191 00:10:08.040 --> 00:10:11.240 Some, you know, and that would happen because I didn't act. 192 00:10:12.080 --> 00:10:14.520 So it's just totally a change of perspective. 193 00:10:14.520 --> 00:10:16.800 Then you're living, you're going to the grocery store 194 00:10:16.800 --> 00:10:18.860 because you're creating your own life 195 00:10:18.860 --> 00:10:21.260 because it's what you've decided you want to do. 196 00:10:22.320 --> 00:10:25.040 And you went, and when you're at the grocery store, 197 00:10:25.040 --> 00:10:26.760 you're buying the things that you want to buy 198 00:10:26.760 --> 00:10:29.400 in order to create the life and contribute to your family 199 00:10:29.400 --> 00:10:31.960 in the way that you want to, not because you have to. 200 00:10:31.960 --> 00:10:36.960 So it allowed, that's how we act with the Lord in rest, 201 00:10:38.720 --> 00:10:40.620 but we're still acting. 202 00:10:40.620 --> 00:10:43.080 We're not like sitting at home, not doing anything, 203 00:10:43.080 --> 00:10:46.120 you know, and not having to do it because we don't have to, 204 00:10:46.120 --> 00:10:47.720 not having, not doing it because, well, 205 00:10:47.720 --> 00:10:49.880 we're not obligated and well, it's not required. 206 00:10:49.880 --> 00:10:50.960 No, it's not obligated. 207 00:10:50.960 --> 00:10:52.780 We're not obligated and we're not required. 208 00:10:52.780 --> 00:10:55.800 So now that we're not obligated and not required, 209 00:10:55.800 --> 00:10:57.560 it's removed all of the weight, the burden, 210 00:10:57.560 --> 00:10:59.640 the responsibility of a result. 211 00:10:59.640 --> 00:11:01.840 And now that you aren't responsible 212 00:11:01.840 --> 00:11:05.000 and burdened by creating a result, 213 00:11:05.000 --> 00:11:07.560 now you'll find that you have all of this energy 214 00:11:07.560 --> 00:11:11.880 and desire to actually create now that you don't have to, 215 00:11:11.880 --> 00:11:13.840 now that, you know, 216 00:11:13.840 --> 00:11:16.600 now that everything is in God's hands, et cetera. 217 00:11:16.600 --> 00:11:18.080 Does that all make sense? 218 00:11:18.080 --> 00:11:19.980 It's just a change in perspective. 219 00:11:19.980 --> 00:11:21.760 You still discipline your daughter, 220 00:11:21.760 --> 00:11:24.400 you still interact with her, you still whatever, 221 00:11:24.400 --> 00:11:25.840 but it's because you're the parent 222 00:11:25.840 --> 00:11:27.680 and you're trying to create something, 223 00:11:27.680 --> 00:11:30.680 not that you're trying to avoid, you know, 224 00:11:30.680 --> 00:11:33.920 whatever consequences could come if you're not, 225 00:11:33.920 --> 00:11:37.480 if you don't interact and if you don't respond. 226 00:11:37.480 --> 00:11:38.480 Right. 227 00:11:38.480 --> 00:11:41.400 I think so much, and I haven't, 228 00:11:41.400 --> 00:11:42.840 I'm just realizing this now, 229 00:11:42.840 --> 00:11:46.480 so many of my questions lately have all come back to, 230 00:11:46.480 --> 00:11:49.040 I'm sitting in the place of a victim. 231 00:11:49.040 --> 00:11:50.120 Oh. 232 00:11:50.120 --> 00:11:51.320 And kind of like, you know, 233 00:11:51.320 --> 00:11:53.440 I've been this place of victimhood versus 234 00:11:53.880 --> 00:11:56.320 what would be the opposite of that? 235 00:11:57.520 --> 00:11:58.840 Like empowered or. 236 00:11:58.840 --> 00:12:01.600 Yeah, victory or owning yourself. 237 00:12:01.600 --> 00:12:02.440 I don't know. 238 00:12:02.440 --> 00:12:03.260 Owning myself. 239 00:12:03.260 --> 00:12:04.100 Yeah. 240 00:12:04.100 --> 00:12:05.800 Like deciding things for you, 241 00:12:05.800 --> 00:12:08.940 as opposed to you felt that they were forced on you 242 00:12:08.940 --> 00:12:12.360 and you might've still wanted to make that choice 243 00:12:12.360 --> 00:12:14.280 that you made, but because you made it, 244 00:12:14.280 --> 00:12:16.280 because you felt like you had to, 245 00:12:16.280 --> 00:12:18.380 you didn't like the choice. 246 00:12:18.380 --> 00:12:19.220 Right. 247 00:12:19.220 --> 00:12:21.640 Because you felt that the reason and the motivation 248 00:12:21.640 --> 00:12:25.480 was something that wasn't inspiring, you know? 249 00:12:25.480 --> 00:12:26.320 Right. 250 00:12:26.320 --> 00:12:28.720 Healthy, it wasn't life, it wasn't you. 251 00:12:28.720 --> 00:12:29.900 Your motivation was different. 252 00:12:29.900 --> 00:12:34.040 So all you're doing now is you're changing your motivation 253 00:12:34.040 --> 00:12:35.800 and your approach to life. 254 00:12:35.800 --> 00:12:37.840 And you might still make some of the same decisions 255 00:12:37.840 --> 00:12:39.800 in the same areas, in some of the same areas, 256 00:12:39.800 --> 00:12:41.600 but now, because it's you, 257 00:12:41.600 --> 00:12:45.060 you'll enjoy it more than when you feel it's forced on you. 258 00:12:45.060 --> 00:12:48.320 We enjoy our jobs more when it's what we want to do 259 00:12:48.320 --> 00:12:49.800 because it's what we chose, 260 00:12:49.800 --> 00:12:52.880 as opposed to feeling we were forced into this situation. 261 00:12:52.880 --> 00:12:54.560 Our parents made me take, you know, 262 00:12:54.560 --> 00:12:56.720 my parents made me take this, get this degree. 263 00:12:56.720 --> 00:13:00.480 My parent, my, you know, my husband, you know, said, 264 00:13:00.480 --> 00:13:03.120 I don't know, I felt like, well, I had to take this job 265 00:13:03.120 --> 00:13:05.520 and I felt like I had to or whatever. 266 00:13:05.520 --> 00:13:08.660 And as opposed to thinking, okay, no, 267 00:13:08.660 --> 00:13:12.600 I want to have, I want a job because I want to take, 268 00:13:12.600 --> 00:13:14.940 you know, help, you know, pay for, you know, 269 00:13:14.940 --> 00:13:17.280 my family's finances and whatever. 270 00:13:17.280 --> 00:13:21.400 And then, sure, this might be the only opportunity 271 00:13:21.400 --> 00:13:23.160 that came and I could see it as, 272 00:13:23.160 --> 00:13:25.520 oh, this is the only opportunity I was given, 273 00:13:25.520 --> 00:13:26.480 I'm forced into this. 274 00:13:26.480 --> 00:13:28.600 Or I could choose, no, this is the opportunity 275 00:13:28.600 --> 00:13:30.320 and this is something I want. 276 00:13:30.320 --> 00:13:33.280 So therefore, this is an opportunity that I choose 277 00:13:33.280 --> 00:13:34.960 because I could choose to reject it, 278 00:13:34.960 --> 00:13:36.340 but I choose this for me. 279 00:13:36.340 --> 00:13:38.080 So you're always owning yourself 280 00:13:38.080 --> 00:13:40.440 and putting yourself in a position of valuing 281 00:13:40.440 --> 00:13:42.880 who it is that God says that you are. 282 00:13:42.880 --> 00:13:47.560 And that person making offensive decisions, 283 00:13:47.560 --> 00:13:50.520 progressive decisions or whatever. 284 00:13:50.520 --> 00:13:52.940 And so it's, you're switching your motivation 285 00:13:52.940 --> 00:13:55.160 for why you move forward in life, 286 00:13:55.160 --> 00:13:59.260 why you, you're changing your motivation for your decisions, 287 00:13:59.260 --> 00:14:02.240 why you do what you do and what activities you choose 288 00:14:02.240 --> 00:14:03.560 and whatever. 289 00:14:03.560 --> 00:14:06.980 But as we've discussed, that whole, 290 00:14:06.980 --> 00:14:11.640 what you look to for your motivation started way back, 291 00:14:12.040 --> 00:14:13.920 in childhood, where you're looking 292 00:14:13.920 --> 00:14:15.680 for your parents' approval, 293 00:14:15.680 --> 00:14:19.160 looking for them noticing or being okay 294 00:14:19.160 --> 00:14:24.160 and with how you performed or whatever. 295 00:14:24.920 --> 00:14:26.840 And if that becomes the motivation 296 00:14:26.840 --> 00:14:27.960 and there's no life in it 297 00:14:27.960 --> 00:14:30.320 and you always feel forced into doing something 298 00:14:30.320 --> 00:14:33.120 because what's creating your motivation 299 00:14:33.120 --> 00:14:37.240 is your parents' response. 300 00:14:37.240 --> 00:14:40.760 So that's driving you as opposed to what is bringing me life 301 00:14:40.760 --> 00:14:42.080 and what allows me to be me 302 00:14:42.080 --> 00:14:43.880 and what's naturally coming out of me, 303 00:14:43.880 --> 00:14:48.880 that brings life and that will feel fulfilling 304 00:14:50.360 --> 00:14:52.960 as opposed to the other motivation. 305 00:14:52.960 --> 00:14:57.280 So if you chose tennis because you wanted to, 306 00:14:57.280 --> 00:14:58.960 well, then it's more fun. 307 00:14:58.960 --> 00:15:00.280 But if you wanted to, 308 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.640 to do tennis, but then you were made to, and you were driven and then it's no longer fun. 309 00:15:05.840 --> 00:15:12.400 If your coach just drives you to the point where, you know, you know, it's, it's, uh, I don't know, 310 00:15:12.400 --> 00:15:17.760 he drives these drills and he drives this, this, um, the number of times you have to do it a week 311 00:15:17.760 --> 00:15:21.760 and you have to be on the courts. If you have to be on the course, it's no longer fun. 312 00:15:22.480 --> 00:15:27.840 It's just simply, it's just simply the, what you're choosing as your standard of, 313 00:15:27.840 --> 00:15:32.640 of, to motivate yourself. So if you simply change the standard of what you're using to 314 00:15:32.640 --> 00:15:37.680 motivate yourself by owning you and living and living out of who that is, that's going to bring 315 00:15:37.680 --> 00:15:42.640 life to what you do. It might be the same actions, but it's a totally different source, 316 00:15:43.280 --> 00:15:47.920 which will bring life instead of death. That's what brings life instead of death. It's not the 317 00:15:47.920 --> 00:15:52.720 action. It's what we're pouring into the action. That's what is, you know, it's, uh, what's 318 00:15:52.720 --> 00:15:59.440 motivating the action. Right. So I've noticed like, like even when it's, when I have these aha 319 00:15:59.440 --> 00:16:04.720 moments, like, oh, I've been a victim again. Um, and then I feel like I stay in that place of 320 00:16:04.720 --> 00:16:09.760 owning myself for a period of time. Then it's almost like I slowly slip back into victimhood 321 00:16:09.760 --> 00:16:20.080 without even knowing it. And how, how can I keep in that place? Well, have you noticed that over 322 00:16:20.080 --> 00:16:24.720 time, like say for instance, the past 12, 13 weeks, however long it's been, have you noticed 323 00:16:24.720 --> 00:16:32.160 that you're doing it more and more. That I'm like, that I'm owning yourself more and more for either 324 00:16:32.960 --> 00:16:37.920 more longer periods of time or more often or whatever. Like, in other words, 325 00:16:37.920 --> 00:16:43.840 were you noticing progress and improvement? Well, I would say in the beginning, I was noticing big 326 00:16:43.840 --> 00:16:49.520 progress and improvement, but now that life is so much busier, I'm noticing like a regress. 327 00:16:51.040 --> 00:16:57.360 So it could be a couple of different things for one, you could just be used to that. You've got 328 00:16:57.360 --> 00:17:04.319 a new norm now. So you can forget that what's normal now didn't used to be normal. You didn't 329 00:17:04.319 --> 00:17:09.760 have it as good as it used to, you know, you didn't use to be as good as it is now. And so 330 00:17:09.760 --> 00:17:14.800 in forgetting that it's like, we just see lack. We see the glass is half empty instead of half full, 331 00:17:14.880 --> 00:17:22.800 but then part of it could just simply be the fact that you've that well, I say part of it as if it's 332 00:17:22.800 --> 00:17:28.480 like this second thing, another side of the same coin. In other words, what is going on at the same 333 00:17:28.480 --> 00:17:35.840 time is the fact that you really have accomplished what you, you really have moved into rest to the 334 00:17:35.840 --> 00:17:40.240 degree that you believe that you have and the degree that you, I don't know that you've just 335 00:17:40.240 --> 00:17:46.480 detained, but you're going around the mountain again, but you're now higher or another way to 336 00:17:46.480 --> 00:17:52.640 see it, see it is you're just now getting to a deeper layer of the same issue. And it was a layer 337 00:17:52.640 --> 00:17:58.880 that wasn't exposed before. Now that you've dealt with all of this, now this thing that you had 338 00:17:58.880 --> 00:18:05.360 never dealt with is now exposed. And so now you're having to face that. So and then part of that can 339 00:18:05.360 --> 00:18:11.600 be triggered through like volume, like busyness, the amount of stuff that you have to do, you know, 340 00:18:11.600 --> 00:18:17.520 that can, that can trigger. In other words, that can, and that can cause things that haven't been 341 00:18:17.520 --> 00:18:23.920 dealt with yet to come up, could be volume, could be intensity, could be simply a different category 342 00:18:23.920 --> 00:18:28.320 of something you have to face. Like say for instance, you've already done this through 343 00:18:28.320 --> 00:18:33.600 cancer, but imagine that somebody else in the rest intensive was dealing with it in relationships or 344 00:18:33.680 --> 00:18:38.160 was dealing with it in finances. And so they're like, okay, I got this. And then all of a sudden 345 00:18:38.160 --> 00:18:42.960 they get a diagnosis and all of a sudden they're thinking on my word, I've regressed. 346 00:18:42.960 --> 00:18:47.680 Uh, what it's as if I've never learned about rest, you know, well, no, you're now learning, 347 00:18:47.680 --> 00:18:53.200 having to learn it and learn to trust God and have faith in a different category. 348 00:18:54.000 --> 00:18:58.800 And he learned it in these others. So we're believing it's like we compartmentalize our 349 00:18:58.800 --> 00:19:02.960 faith and our trust in the Lord. Lord, I can, I've learned how to believe you in this area. 350 00:19:02.960 --> 00:19:07.200 I've learned how to believe you in finances, or I've learned how to believe you in relationships. 351 00:19:07.200 --> 00:19:12.000 And I've learned to believe that and choose that you're my provider and my protector, 352 00:19:12.000 --> 00:19:17.120 but Lord, when I'm faced with health, that's an area where I'm showing my limitation in my 353 00:19:17.120 --> 00:19:24.640 ability to trust you. Are you really that good? So anyway, so for you, you know, who've seen it 354 00:19:24.640 --> 00:19:29.280 in various categories, well, then now it's just kind of like, okay, well, when you get back to 355 00:19:29.280 --> 00:19:34.560 normal life that you have been living a lot longer than you've lived with a diet, the threat 356 00:19:34.560 --> 00:19:40.000 of a diagnosis of cancer, much longer than that, you've been dealing with all the daily stuff, 357 00:19:40.000 --> 00:19:45.600 the grocery store, the husband, the children, your parents, you know, the Bible studies are 358 00:19:45.600 --> 00:19:51.440 feeling or feeling the weight of, of being a, being a housewife and having to juggle all the 359 00:19:51.440 --> 00:19:59.920 balls, you know? So with that longer affirmation, with that longer history of having an interaction. 360 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:05.120 with all of those daily things in a totally different paradigm than the one that you've 361 00:20:05.120 --> 00:20:09.520 now chosen between you and the Lord. God's like, okay, now let's take that paradigm 362 00:20:09.520 --> 00:20:16.960 and let's put it into what really has a very old entrenched habit of being approached in a 363 00:20:16.960 --> 00:20:22.560 totally different way. Because so much of your, of our lives, we live on autopilot. 364 00:20:22.560 --> 00:20:26.800 We approach it in the same way that we did yesterday, which is the same way we did 10 years 365 00:20:26.800 --> 00:20:32.960 ago, because. It's one of the benefits of getting older is you don't have to think so much about 366 00:20:32.960 --> 00:20:38.480 every little thing that happens in every little thing, you know, that, that you do a lot of it, 367 00:20:38.480 --> 00:20:44.000 you figured out already from experience and you put that aspect of interacting in life and 368 00:20:44.000 --> 00:20:47.680 interacting with other people and driving and then going to the grocery store. 369 00:20:47.680 --> 00:20:53.760 A lot of that is just on autopilot. That includes all of the feelings that come with having to go 370 00:20:53.760 --> 00:21:00.080 to the grocery store or dealing with traffic or the fact that the kids are in the back screaming 371 00:21:00.080 --> 00:21:06.320 or, and so we just have a tendency to go into autopilot for those things. So. 372 00:21:07.120 --> 00:21:13.440 And part of those autopilot, which I knew how to just part of that audit, those autopilots are all 373 00:21:13.440 --> 00:21:19.360 entrenched in beliefs that we just haven't dealt with yet. If we just haven't dealt with those 374 00:21:19.440 --> 00:21:27.120 beliefs to. To the degree to that, um, that those triggers are showing that we haven't, 375 00:21:27.120 --> 00:21:31.440 and I don't know if that's grammatically correct, but in other words, you've dealt with your faith 376 00:21:31.440 --> 00:21:35.840 in your, in your trust in the Lord to a particular degree in particular areas. 377 00:21:35.840 --> 00:21:41.440 And so now this is just revealing like a deeper level to which you need to choose that God. 378 00:21:42.240 --> 00:21:48.160 And what he's that God is who says that he is to the degree. He says, he's that you already 379 00:21:48.160 --> 00:21:52.480 know that he's that you've chosen him in all these other areas, but it is he, and he's, he's 380 00:21:52.480 --> 00:21:58.320 as good as the way he's expressed himself in his goodness to you in all those areas, you know, in, 381 00:21:58.320 --> 00:22:02.480 in your treatment and, you know, with, uh, with cancer and helping you make, learn how to make 382 00:22:02.480 --> 00:22:10.160 decisions with him and feeling more confident and loved by him and, and, um, uh, Fully and 383 00:22:10.160 --> 00:22:18.720 unconditionally accepted, but is he as good as for you to be okay. As a mom and a wife, 384 00:22:19.280 --> 00:22:23.440 if everything's not done according to the standard that you've always done, it 385 00:22:24.320 --> 00:22:29.360 doesn't mean that you won't continue to do it to that standard. If not better, it just means, 386 00:22:29.360 --> 00:22:37.440 are you okay with the Lord with, even if you don't meet that standard and the old Casey didn't 387 00:22:37.440 --> 00:22:43.280 believe she was. And so those old, so whenever you're in those situations, again, that old thing 388 00:22:43.280 --> 00:22:49.360 of I'm not enough, unless all of these standards start rising to my PT. And so all of these things 389 00:22:49.360 --> 00:22:55.040 start rising to my standards. That's what's going to come up in those moments. So you have to choose 390 00:22:55.040 --> 00:23:01.680 repeatedly. No, who does God say that I am? You know, am I enough? Do I need, I need to let go 391 00:23:01.680 --> 00:23:07.040 of this, not of me not being able to control this. I need to let go of the fact that, you know, 392 00:23:07.040 --> 00:23:12.560 things are, are busy right now. And there's a lot that's required of me. And I have a potential of 393 00:23:12.560 --> 00:23:16.800 being overwhelmed and whatever, quite honestly, I'm going through a time right now where I'm 394 00:23:16.800 --> 00:23:21.840 feeling, um, I was talking to, um, Ed about the fact that I am feeling very overwhelmed. 395 00:23:22.720 --> 00:23:30.480 And, and so I know what it is that I need to do in, um, when, when I'm overwhelmed, I was like, 396 00:23:30.480 --> 00:23:35.680 okay, Ashley, you are requiring that you have to do all of these things. All of these things have 397 00:23:35.680 --> 00:23:39.440 to get done. They have to get done this amount of time. And there's this one piece right over here 398 00:23:39.440 --> 00:23:42.960 that you really don't want to do. Why? Because you've never done it before. And when you're 399 00:23:42.960 --> 00:23:48.000 trying to do all of this other stuff now on top of that, you got to learn it and you got to do it. 400 00:23:48.000 --> 00:23:52.400 And you just don't want to, and you're just simply intimidated. If you just get right down to the 401 00:23:52.400 --> 00:23:57.280 root of it, you know, and then all of that stuff is just overwhelming. And so I think, why am I 402 00:23:57.280 --> 00:24:04.800 overwhelmed? I'm overwhelmed because I think I have to. And I think that if I don't, then I'm not 403 00:24:04.800 --> 00:24:11.600 a good enough wife or a good enough mentor or a good enough, I don't know, whatever that I'm 404 00:24:11.600 --> 00:24:18.800 falling short of a standard or a mark. And, and, and anyway, so I have to adjust and realize, no, 405 00:24:18.800 --> 00:24:23.440 what is my standard? And what is my mark? What is my highest priority that I'm good enough with God? 406 00:24:23.440 --> 00:24:27.920 Okay. So am I good enough with God? That's what he says. Okay. Then that's the reality in which I 407 00:24:27.920 --> 00:24:33.840 choose. And then all of a sudden the overwhelm goes away because it no longer can give me what 408 00:24:33.840 --> 00:24:38.800 I want. Cause I already got what I want. I just, I just let go of it all. And I chose that I really 409 00:24:38.800 --> 00:24:43.840 am. Okay. Cause God says that I was okay. Now that I'm okay, let's just start doing stuff. 410 00:24:43.840 --> 00:24:48.400 What do I want to create in life instead of what is being thrown at me and being put on my list, 411 00:24:48.960 --> 00:24:53.440 whether I put it on my list or someone else does and me thinking I'm already got to do all this. 412 00:24:53.440 --> 00:24:59.840 No, I don't. All of these things can't give me something that I'm being threatened to not have. 413 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:02.640 of, if I don't get it done, I already got it. 414 00:25:03.240 --> 00:25:07.020 So now that I have it, let's just start knocking things off the list. 415 00:25:07.300 --> 00:25:08.560 How do I want to live life? 416 00:25:08.700 --> 00:25:10.740 What things do I want to have done? 417 00:25:10.880 --> 00:25:12.000 Okay, then go do them. 418 00:25:12.900 --> 00:25:16.160 But it's, so it's just, I just had to change my perspective. 419 00:25:16.160 --> 00:25:18.800 And as soon as I changed my perspective, the overwhelm lifted. 420 00:25:19.680 --> 00:25:20.040 Yeah. 421 00:25:20.640 --> 00:25:22.320 So, okay. 422 00:25:22.800 --> 00:25:25.720 Cause things in the list, aren't a threat. 423 00:25:26.120 --> 00:25:32.200 It's what the not getting of those things done is, uh, what we believe 424 00:25:32.200 --> 00:25:36.240 that that is saying about us or what, or the fact that we think that we're 425 00:25:36.240 --> 00:25:41.720 not going to be safe or protected or taken care of, um, and, uh, if 426 00:25:41.720 --> 00:25:45.180 those things don't get done, you know, oh, we're not going to get as much 427 00:25:45.180 --> 00:25:50.080 money or, you know, dinner's not going to be done on time or my, my, my kids 428 00:25:50.080 --> 00:25:53.920 are going to learn the wrong lesson or my, you know, just whatever, you know, 429 00:25:53.920 --> 00:25:56.520 we're looking at all these consequences that could happen, you know? 430 00:25:57.040 --> 00:25:58.080 Um, so anyway, 431 00:26:00.080 --> 00:26:00.880 yes, it is. 432 00:26:01.000 --> 00:26:01.880 Yeah, it is. 433 00:26:02.200 --> 00:26:04.040 So it's just a change in perspective. 434 00:26:04.040 --> 00:26:08.800 So rest and what it is that God offers us in, in the abiding in him, which is what 435 00:26:08.800 --> 00:26:11.200 rest is rest, no, isn't peace or anything. 436 00:26:11.200 --> 00:26:17.240 It's actually just simply abiding in, in other words, being in God. 437 00:26:18.120 --> 00:26:24.400 And it's, it's not about the avoidance of pain or the avoidance of, you know, 438 00:26:24.400 --> 00:26:27.040 unpleasant circumstances or anything like that. 439 00:26:27.680 --> 00:26:34.400 It's, it's actually a freedom in which through a freedom by 440 00:26:34.400 --> 00:26:35.760 which we can go through them. 441 00:26:36.560 --> 00:26:39.120 So it just changes how we go through life. 442 00:26:39.480 --> 00:26:44.240 It doesn't avoid life, you know? 443 00:26:44.240 --> 00:26:49.400 You know, so yeah, that's cool. 444 00:26:49.560 --> 00:26:52.080 I feel like I'm probably gonna have to come back and listen to this like weekly. 445 00:26:55.080 --> 00:26:57.800 So, well, um, yeah, I'm glad that that's that. 446 00:26:57.880 --> 00:27:00.520 I don't know, just helpful then, but yeah, it is. 447 00:27:00.520 --> 00:27:05.120 It's all about a change in just changing our perspective on it. 448 00:27:05.120 --> 00:27:09.480 Not about how do we avoid it happening, happening to us? 449 00:27:09.680 --> 00:27:11.640 How do we get out of where it is that we are? 450 00:27:11.640 --> 00:27:15.280 It's, it's, it's, you know, it's, it's all about how do we go through it? 451 00:27:15.280 --> 00:27:17.240 It's not about, how do you go through it? 452 00:27:17.240 --> 00:27:18.280 How do you go through it? 453 00:27:18.280 --> 00:27:21.720 So that you rule it because when you rule it, that will change it. 454 00:27:22.480 --> 00:27:23.960 It's just acting. 455 00:27:24.440 --> 00:27:30.000 I mean, some of it is not to get not so many of the waters, but some of it is 456 00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:32.560 just, it's just acting just in, in chaos. 457 00:27:32.560 --> 00:27:35.880 Do to the fact that humanity has been telling it for thousands of years. 458 00:27:35.880 --> 00:27:36.920 That God isn't true. 459 00:27:36.920 --> 00:27:40.240 And that God isn't as good as he says the years and that God is real, but he's not 460 00:27:41.000 --> 00:27:42.000 You know, or whatever. 461 00:27:42.000 --> 00:27:48.080 And it's acting out it it's in self-preservation circumstances, 462 00:27:48.080 --> 00:27:51.400 situations, human souls, we're all acting out of self-preservation. 463 00:27:51.920 --> 00:27:56.240 And so what we have to do is we have to bring in the truth, not by telling it, 464 00:27:56.240 --> 00:28:00.320 the truth, not by telling ourselves or telling the situation or telling other 465 00:28:00.320 --> 00:28:02.960 people, we have to bring the truth. 466 00:28:02.960 --> 00:28:05.080 We have to choose it, that it's true. 467 00:28:05.520 --> 00:28:10.000 Then live it in order for life to experience that. 468 00:28:10.000 --> 00:28:12.440 It really is what God says that it is. 469 00:28:13.160 --> 00:28:15.280 We have to let it experience it. 470 00:28:15.320 --> 00:28:19.240 Meaning we have to give it when we've never seen it. 471 00:28:20.160 --> 00:28:24.160 You know, we've never, you know, in other words, we don't have proof. 472 00:28:24.680 --> 00:28:28.920 We prove it with ourselves, right? 473 00:28:29.040 --> 00:28:33.680 We have the faith and then we create the proof that wasn't 474 00:28:33.680 --> 00:28:37.240 there before we had faith, right? 475 00:28:37.560 --> 00:28:39.680 Proof can't exist without us. 476 00:28:39.720 --> 00:28:41.160 We have to create the proof. 477 00:28:41.720 --> 00:28:47.040 So we have to choose that something's real in order to make it real into creation. 478 00:28:47.320 --> 00:28:48.880 It already exists in the spirit realm. 479 00:28:49.480 --> 00:28:50.880 And then we choose that that is true. 480 00:28:50.880 --> 00:28:51.880 And then we bring it down. 481 00:28:52.160 --> 00:28:59.920 So anyway, it's, it's, um, it's again, you know, with, with chaos of 482 00:28:59.920 --> 00:29:03.720 situations or whatever, including, you know, your own emotions or whatnot, 483 00:29:03.720 --> 00:29:06.080 you just kind of perceive it as well. 484 00:29:06.520 --> 00:29:07.800 You know, this is normal. 485 00:29:07.880 --> 00:29:09.720 It's not like, oh, it shouldn't be like this. 486 00:29:09.760 --> 00:29:11.160 No, this is, this is life. 487 00:29:11.160 --> 00:29:12.720 This is the way it is right now. 488 00:29:13.000 --> 00:29:14.600 Now, was it like that before the fall? 489 00:29:14.600 --> 00:29:14.960 No. 490 00:29:15.560 --> 00:29:16.680 But is it like that after the fall? 491 00:29:16.680 --> 00:29:17.400 Absolutely. 492 00:29:17.400 --> 00:29:23.280 And God's died so that we could have victory over and rule over and already 493 00:29:23.280 --> 00:29:26.520 be in the position over all of this chaos. 494 00:29:27.000 --> 00:29:34.440 So we have to operate from being over in order to change it, but it won't 495 00:29:34.440 --> 00:29:38.160 change without us, without us ruling over it. 496 00:29:38.400 --> 00:29:40.120 And so we just let it be what it is. 497 00:29:40.120 --> 00:29:40.720 We let it be. 498 00:29:40.720 --> 00:29:41.680 It's chaos. 499 00:29:42.040 --> 00:29:43.240 It's like Jesus in the storm. 500 00:29:43.240 --> 00:29:44.600 Just let it be what it is. 501 00:29:44.640 --> 00:29:47.280 We don't have to change it because it's not threatening. 502 00:29:47.680 --> 00:29:49.160 So now that's not threatening. 503 00:29:49.480 --> 00:29:56.240 Now we can bring now, now it can, um, it can, it can change because we 504 00:29:56.240 --> 00:30:00.000 no longer require it to change now that it's no longer. 505 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:01.200 You're required to change. 506 00:30:01.560 --> 00:30:07.920 It'd be like, oh, so if God says that it, he accepts me unconditionally 507 00:30:08.380 --> 00:30:14.840 and I really am good, I really, and you know, I, I really have a purpose. 508 00:30:14.840 --> 00:30:17.640 I really have a function and I can function freely. 509 00:30:17.680 --> 00:30:20.360 I had the opportunity to function freely according to the way I was created. 510 00:30:20.760 --> 00:30:23.840 I'm experiencing now by how Casey's interacting with me. 511 00:30:24.920 --> 00:30:26.120 That it's actually true. 512 00:30:26.760 --> 00:30:31.440 But how can I be, just try to be convinced by someone else that it's 513 00:30:31.440 --> 00:30:36.360 true, if I've never experienced it, you know, and so we give them the 514 00:30:36.360 --> 00:30:42.720 experience, we actually lived the truth out and they're like, oh my word. 515 00:30:43.860 --> 00:30:49.480 You know, if, if that can actually happen from a human being, then it 516 00:30:49.480 --> 00:30:51.200 must actually happen with God. 517 00:30:51.200 --> 00:30:55.440 Cause I'm seeing it's actually something that can happen as opposed to something 518 00:30:55.440 --> 00:30:57.040 they've never seen or experienced. 519 00:30:57.720 --> 00:30:59.000 So we went and. 520 00:31:01.160 --> 00:31:05.440 So is it in that place that we make disciples? 521 00:31:05.640 --> 00:31:10.280 I mean, this is something that like, I've been, like, it feels like too, like 522 00:31:10.280 --> 00:31:14.840 the, you know, Jesus called us to make disciples of all nations and, you know, 523 00:31:14.840 --> 00:31:20.640 I feel like, like churches I've been going to, they do it, what, what feels 524 00:31:20.640 --> 00:31:28.000 like in a maybe non-relational way, almost like a forced way, possibly. 525 00:31:28.520 --> 00:31:30.320 Like soldiers or something. 526 00:31:31.200 --> 00:31:31.760 Right. 527 00:31:31.800 --> 00:31:36.000 And so I'm trying to like bring this, what I'm learning here into alignment with 528 00:31:36.000 --> 00:31:40.120 like, that's like, I've never been discipled before, you know, I feel like, 529 00:31:40.400 --> 00:31:43.200 you know, cause it may be by you or different people in my life. 530 00:31:44.200 --> 00:31:50.760 And so I'm, you know, I want to do well in that area and, you 531 00:31:50.760 --> 00:31:51.880 know, that's important to me. 532 00:31:52.120 --> 00:31:55.760 But how do I bring what I'm learning here into that? 533 00:31:57.320 --> 00:32:00.200 Into discipling other people or. 534 00:32:01.600 --> 00:32:02.800 He, I guess. 535 00:32:02.800 --> 00:32:03.280 Yeah. 536 00:32:04.920 --> 00:32:10.040 I mean, I guess, well, I'll tell you, I was walking around my neighbor, well, my 537 00:32:10.040 --> 00:32:16.520 cul-de-sac there's probably 10, 10 houses on my street and I was walking around and 538 00:32:16.520 --> 00:32:21.000 I was like praying for over every house and the people in the homes and that they 539 00:32:21.000 --> 00:32:23.600 would come to know the Lord and Jesus. 540 00:32:23.600 --> 00:32:29.120 And as I was coming to like one of the last houses, I was thinking, wait, I've 541 00:32:29.120 --> 00:32:31.640 lived here for how many years? 542 00:32:31.960 --> 00:32:33.560 And I have not once. 543 00:32:34.160 --> 00:32:35.720 I mean, yes, I talk about my faith. 544 00:32:35.720 --> 00:32:43.800 I talk about God, I, but I'm not very, I probably talk about my faith more online 545 00:32:43.800 --> 00:32:44.680 than I do in person. 546 00:32:44.680 --> 00:32:47.280 And I'm thinking it was almost like I felt convicted. 547 00:32:47.280 --> 00:32:48.040 Like, wow. 548 00:32:50.040 --> 00:32:52.080 I've never like said anything to these people. 549 00:32:52.120 --> 00:32:54.640 Like I'm, you know, God put me here. 550 00:32:55.720 --> 00:33:00.040 So then I'm like, Oh, and I didn't feel condemned, but it was kind of like an 551 00:33:00.040 --> 00:33:00.760 eye-opener. 552 00:33:00.760 --> 00:33:02.240 Like, what do I do with that? 553 00:33:03.160 --> 00:33:03.520 Yeah. 554 00:33:03.920 --> 00:33:05.440 Well, it's really fascinating. 555 00:33:05.440 --> 00:33:07.840 So remember that we're the body of Christ. 556 00:33:08.080 --> 00:33:11.240 We keep telling wanting Christ to do things, but we're his body. 557 00:33:11.280 --> 00:33:12.560 The head doesn't do anything. 558 00:33:12.560 --> 00:33:13.200 The body does. 559 00:33:14.120 --> 00:33:15.280 The body has the hands. 560 00:33:15.280 --> 00:33:20.760 The body has the feet body takes the places the body, like, you know, grabs 561 00:33:20.760 --> 00:33:24.800 things in the body, manipulates tools and does stuff. 562 00:33:24.920 --> 00:33:26.360 The head gets direction. 563 00:33:27.560 --> 00:33:30.040 And so it's just getting, it's doesn't. 564 00:33:30.080 --> 00:33:35.080 And I'm not trying to, I'm just trying to use that as a simple explanation. 565 00:33:35.080 --> 00:33:39.440 I'm not trying to say that Christ doesn't do anything, but the thing is that, um, 566 00:33:39.480 --> 00:33:46.920 that we're supposed to be Christ to others, meaning that when they see Christ, 567 00:33:47.280 --> 00:33:53.560 we're who he sends, they're asking and crying out subconsciously in their, in 568 00:33:53.560 --> 00:33:55.400 their souls, you know, for something they don't need. 569 00:33:55.400 --> 00:33:58.360 Some of them don't even know how to, how to, how to verbalize. 570 00:33:58.640 --> 00:34:02.440 They are calling out and crying out for their creator. 571 00:34:03.400 --> 00:34:09.480 And so God sends us because we're supposed to show them not in a, in a manner of 572 00:34:09.480 --> 00:34:17.400 speaking, not point to him, but actually be him like walk in the room. 573 00:34:17.719 --> 00:34:22.679 So in a way that it's actually Jesus walking into the room because our 574 00:34:22.679 --> 00:34:24.920 spirits are intertwined with his. 575 00:34:25.400 --> 00:34:27.440 And I don't mean that they look at us. 576 00:34:27.440 --> 00:34:30.239 Like they look at Casey or they look at Ashley and they see us 577 00:34:30.239 --> 00:34:31.360 that, oh my word, we're Jesus. 578 00:34:31.400 --> 00:34:32.159 I don't mean that. 579 00:34:32.159 --> 00:34:35.960 I just mean his spirit within us, you know, and where they interact with it 580 00:34:35.960 --> 00:34:40.520 in such a way where it transforms them because they've interacted with Christ. 581 00:34:40.520 --> 00:34:42.840 They've been, because our spirits are now one with Christ. 582 00:34:43.000 --> 00:34:47.960 They interact with his spirit and they change and transform into sons. 583 00:34:47.960 --> 00:34:49.520 That's how disciples are made. 584 00:34:49.719 --> 00:34:51.920 It's another, it's, um, also. 585 00:34:52.600 --> 00:34:59.000 Like the, um, what you're describing is also like, uh, the, what Jesus was saying 586 00:34:59.000 --> 00:34:59.920 when he said, you know, I. 587 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.240 was Jesus. I don't think it was Paul. Well, somewhere in the new Testament, you know, 588 00:35:04.240 --> 00:35:11.200 one of them was saying, you know, it don't just, uh, just if someone comes to you and they're 589 00:35:11.200 --> 00:35:17.040 hungry and they're cold, don't you've heard me use this example before, you know, don't just 590 00:35:17.040 --> 00:35:21.680 tell them, you know, send them on their way and say, well, may God, may God take care of you. 591 00:35:21.680 --> 00:35:30.560 May God bless you or whatever. That's similar to us, us praying for people and saying, oh God, 592 00:35:30.560 --> 00:35:35.520 you know, may they see you, may they, may they run into you, maybe encounter you or whatever. 593 00:35:36.480 --> 00:35:43.040 And then what we're told to do is, is that don't send them off, wishing them well. And that may 594 00:35:43.040 --> 00:35:46.640 between them and that made me, they receive what they need between them and the Lord. 595 00:35:46.640 --> 00:35:52.960 It says we give it to them, what we want for them, we give to them. And it actually requires 596 00:35:52.960 --> 00:35:58.560 something from us. It's not even, we actually give them piece and parcel of ourselves. We give them 597 00:35:58.560 --> 00:36:04.080 our coat. We give them the food that we were going to take that we were going to use that we have in 598 00:36:04.080 --> 00:36:11.920 our pantry. We give it to them. So, um, anyway, when we, so it's not in any way to like condemn 599 00:36:12.080 --> 00:36:17.440 for, you know, praying for other people and you're like, you know, you can't talk to everybody, 600 00:36:17.440 --> 00:36:21.920 but I'm just talking about very generally in relationship to the question that you were 601 00:36:21.920 --> 00:36:26.800 asking yourself, well, wait a minute, you know, it's falling in line with what Paul or Jesus that 602 00:36:26.800 --> 00:36:32.080 I remember who it was, was, was, um, what it was that they were saying when they said, you know, 603 00:36:32.080 --> 00:36:37.760 if we see a need, if we desire something out of the heart that God has given us, that reflects 604 00:36:37.760 --> 00:36:44.640 his character of loving other people. And, and, um, I was going to say like wishing the best for 605 00:36:44.640 --> 00:36:51.280 them, but you know, wanting them to draw close to the Lord will then we are what he sends. We're the 606 00:36:51.280 --> 00:37:00.320 answer that God sends them to their prayer. You know, when they asked for fulfillment of a need, 607 00:37:00.320 --> 00:37:08.080 God said, since us to fulfill that need from ourselves, not to pull it from somewhere else, 608 00:37:08.800 --> 00:37:16.960 but actually it requires us. Um, and, uh, anyway, so, uh, so as far as like, you know, 609 00:37:16.960 --> 00:37:22.080 going back to what you were asking about disciples. So yeah, the disciples are basically 610 00:37:22.080 --> 00:37:33.680 people transforming more and more into, into, um, uh, Transforming more and more into maturing 611 00:37:33.680 --> 00:37:38.400 and looking more and more like their father transforming more and more into a son of God, 612 00:37:38.400 --> 00:37:43.280 meaning like they already are a sense of God, but you're trying, they're transforming more and more 613 00:37:43.280 --> 00:37:48.080 to be more mature, to look more and more like God, look more and more like their father. 614 00:37:48.080 --> 00:37:52.800 Cause they're the sons of their father looking more and more like him. And that's what the 615 00:37:52.800 --> 00:37:59.120 maturity of discipleship is, is looking more and more like their father. And what, and so anyway, 616 00:37:59.120 --> 00:38:08.080 the way that they do that is not by obeying a master, but by, but by becoming intimate with a 617 00:38:08.080 --> 00:38:18.080 husband, you know, God. Yeah. Um, and, uh, and so in it's in that happens through exposure to his 618 00:38:18.080 --> 00:38:27.680 presence. So we are sent to expose them to God that they can interact with, you know, kind of 619 00:38:27.680 --> 00:38:35.120 like a tangible way of seeing how does God interact with me in my mess when I'm struggling, when I'm 620 00:38:35.120 --> 00:38:44.000 her, when I'm, you know, self condemning, when I'm self doubting, we give them the experience 621 00:38:44.720 --> 00:38:51.360 and how we interact with them. Um, in a physical way, we physically give them the experience of 622 00:38:51.360 --> 00:39:02.880 what it is like to interact with God. And it's hard, but that's how we make disciples is because 623 00:39:02.880 --> 00:39:12.160 they experience God, not because they learn. They learn. Um, uh, I don't know all the, uh, 624 00:39:12.160 --> 00:39:16.080 you know, they learn the Bible backwards and forwards and they, and they know all the law 625 00:39:16.080 --> 00:39:21.920 and they'll know all the principles and they know all of this stuff. Um, I even had a, I had a call 626 00:39:21.920 --> 00:39:26.480 today with someone who's interested in joining the next rest intensive. And it was, is the, 627 00:39:26.480 --> 00:39:31.760 one of the application little clarity calls that I do. And she was cause the, and I always ask 628 00:39:31.760 --> 00:39:35.680 everyone, you know, so why, why were you interested in joining the rest intensive? You know, 629 00:39:35.680 --> 00:39:40.960 what is it? Where are you right now? And they said, you know, I know all of this stuff. They're 630 00:39:40.960 --> 00:39:46.240 like, I listened to, you know, I, a lot of, uh, some of what I teach, you know, about like, uh, 631 00:39:46.240 --> 00:39:50.480 the three realms and stuff like that. I learned from Chris Blackaby. And so she knows that. And 632 00:39:50.480 --> 00:39:56.080 so she said, she said, she said, I know all that hundred fold stuff. She said, I teach it. I know 633 00:39:56.080 --> 00:39:59.760 what I have lived it for two and a half years. She said, but my life. 634 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.920 isn't changing. She said, that is why I am here. And I was like, exactly. It's like knowledge 635 00:40:07.920 --> 00:40:15.680 can't change us into disciples. It can't transform us, but experiencing God does. 636 00:40:16.320 --> 00:40:20.480 So what I do with the rest intensive, and that's why I write the little write-up that I do about 637 00:40:20.480 --> 00:40:25.920 something about, you know, the rest intensive is an, is an immersive spiritual environment 638 00:40:25.920 --> 00:40:31.680 or something like that. It's because what I try to do is I try to allow them to interact with 639 00:40:32.720 --> 00:40:40.640 an expression of God so that they can experience that it's true. And so when, as opposed to just 640 00:40:40.640 --> 00:40:46.480 learning more stuff. So I try to hold this space for them that God holds for them at this part in 641 00:40:46.480 --> 00:40:50.480 their journey. You know, cause I'm not, I don't walk with people, you know, through all of their 642 00:40:50.480 --> 00:40:55.520 lives. I just walk with people once they get here. And then when, when they get here, you know, 643 00:40:55.520 --> 00:40:59.440 that's what I have the grace for. It doesn't mean that I just like, stop talking to people after 644 00:40:59.440 --> 00:41:04.560 this, but I, but I'm just talking about like, like just talking, just trying to like, be simple here, 645 00:41:04.560 --> 00:41:08.240 you know, in the rest intensive, they have to be to this point in their relationship forward. 646 00:41:08.240 --> 00:41:12.960 And then I help them walk to this point. This is what I have grace for. I don't have grace for 647 00:41:12.960 --> 00:41:18.480 this. I don't have grace for this, but I have grace for this. And so what I do is, is I try to 648 00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:26.000 help people experience the truths that I'm trying to help them live out in their own relationship 649 00:41:26.000 --> 00:41:30.880 with the Lord. If I say the Lord is this good, that is what I need to be to them. 650 00:41:31.920 --> 00:41:36.720 If I say that the Lord loves them unconditionally, doesn't abandon them is there for them is 651 00:41:36.720 --> 00:41:46.480 whatever, then that's what I be, who is my God to me. And that is what I be to others. And anyway, 652 00:41:46.480 --> 00:41:52.480 and one of the, I had a lady tell me several, I don't remember when, but a while back, she was 653 00:41:52.480 --> 00:41:59.120 telling me that the thing that, that made the biggest difference for her in the rest intensive, 654 00:41:59.120 --> 00:42:05.200 in other words, helped change her was the fact that she finally could experience when she was in 655 00:42:05.200 --> 00:42:09.760 it by her interactions with me, like on like calls and whatever she said, I could finally experience 656 00:42:09.760 --> 00:42:16.400 the things that I'd always heard God was. So it helped me realize it's real. God probably, 657 00:42:16.400 --> 00:42:20.800 if I'm experiencing this, it means it's actually true. And I'd never seen it before. 658 00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:26.480 Then now I can more readily believe that God's like that too, because it's hard for me to believe 659 00:42:26.480 --> 00:42:31.360 that God is like something that I've never even seen again. Why we're always looking for proof. 660 00:42:31.360 --> 00:42:35.360 We're always looking for evidence now. Yes. Does God tell us to have faith? Absolutely. 661 00:42:36.000 --> 00:42:41.120 But he also tries to give us evidence and proof to help us along the way to help build our faith. 662 00:42:41.120 --> 00:42:45.200 And we do the same thing for others. We give them proof. We give them evidence. We give them 663 00:42:45.200 --> 00:42:51.440 experience so that they can actually believe, okay, wow, this is evidence. This is proof. So 664 00:42:51.440 --> 00:42:58.320 it must be true. What God says about himself. So anyway, that's how we make disciples is exposing 665 00:42:58.320 --> 00:43:06.880 them to the, to, to God himself, to allow them to experience God through us. And that's hard 666 00:43:06.880 --> 00:43:13.120 because we have to handle them in the way that God handles us going through the messy bits. 667 00:43:13.680 --> 00:43:17.120 That's what, that's what people are worried about. People aren't worried about how God 668 00:43:17.120 --> 00:43:20.480 interacts with them when they feel good about themselves, when they feel that they're doing 669 00:43:20.480 --> 00:43:24.800 good, when they feel that they've done enough, they're wondering what will God do and how will 670 00:43:24.880 --> 00:43:31.520 interact with me when I've fallen short of my own expectations and can I ever fall short 671 00:43:31.520 --> 00:43:38.480 of God's acceptance of me? So we have to not let other people fall short of our expectations of 672 00:43:38.480 --> 00:43:44.480 them though. Did I say that right? To feel that they fallen short of our expectations of them 673 00:43:44.480 --> 00:43:51.600 and that we won't accept them anymore, that we've tied, that we've tied their actions to our 674 00:43:52.240 --> 00:43:57.200 acceptance of them, you know, our receptivity, you know, that kind of a thing. Now, I'm not 675 00:43:57.200 --> 00:44:00.560 talking about enabling abuse. I'm not talking about that. I'm just, you know, what I'm talking 676 00:44:00.560 --> 00:44:05.760 about. I'm talking about, you know, us changing our paradigm of, um, of how we interact with other 677 00:44:05.760 --> 00:44:11.600 people. So anyway, that's, that's what makes disciples is exposure to God's spirit. It's 678 00:44:11.600 --> 00:44:22.960 himself. We don't, it's God's. We don't do that. It's their exposure to God in us and the, the, 679 00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:30.960 the oneness of our spirit with his that will change them. So the reason I say all of that is 680 00:44:31.600 --> 00:44:39.200 the pressures off of us. We can't create the outcome and we don't, we just simply 681 00:44:39.200 --> 00:44:44.480 expose them to God and ensure we sacrifice of ourselves, who pour ourselves out, but 682 00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:51.520 our actions don't create the results in their life. That's simply done very effortlessly when 683 00:44:51.520 --> 00:44:57.680 they get exposed to God. That's why when people start the rest intensive, I'm telling you what, 684 00:44:57.680 --> 00:44:59.840 and y'all showed, you know, y'all did the same thing. 685 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.920 It's like, if I just kind of like start everyone out and say, okay. 686 00:45:03.920 --> 00:45:06.040 And I point them to God, okay. 687 00:45:06.040 --> 00:45:10.240 Do this with the Lord, you know, spend time with or whatever, but I make everyone, I try 688 00:45:10.240 --> 00:45:14.660 to create a safe environment for people to feel they can finally do it because I try 689 00:45:14.660 --> 00:45:16.840 to make them feel safe with me. 690 00:45:16.840 --> 00:45:20.200 And then in feeling safe with me and in the environment and the, on the zoom call that 691 00:45:20.200 --> 00:45:25.440 we're in, or sometimes when I'm in the room with people, you know, then they finally feel, 692 00:45:25.440 --> 00:45:28.280 okay, well maybe I can do this with the Lord. 693 00:45:28.280 --> 00:45:30.760 And then when they do it with the Lord, it's the Lord that meets them. 694 00:45:30.760 --> 00:45:35.400 And all of a sudden everything changes and they've hardly learned anything about rest. 695 00:45:35.400 --> 00:45:36.940 It's not, it's not the knowledge. 696 00:45:36.940 --> 00:45:42.040 It's just simply exposing them to God and God starts doing stuff. 697 00:45:42.040 --> 00:45:47.060 Think of everything that has changed in your life, you know, in the past 12 weeks and think 698 00:45:47.060 --> 00:45:53.220 comparatively to the few times that you've met with me, God, that was you and God working 699 00:45:53.220 --> 00:45:56.240 all of that out, him touching your spirit. 700 00:45:56.240 --> 00:45:57.720 It's not me. 701 00:45:58.160 --> 00:46:00.920 In other words, my point, the reason I keep talking about me is, you know, we're talking 702 00:46:00.920 --> 00:46:03.760 about like, how do we make, help make disciples? 703 00:46:03.760 --> 00:46:05.680 It's not us. 704 00:46:05.680 --> 00:46:12.360 It's just us simply, simply giving them an experience of God, but it's God himself in 705 00:46:12.360 --> 00:46:13.360 there. 706 00:46:13.360 --> 00:46:17.320 When they see that and they experienced that, that changes them because it's God's spirit 707 00:46:17.320 --> 00:46:22.640 that will turn a person into a, into a son and will continue to mature them. 708 00:46:22.640 --> 00:46:26.840 It's not our work and our effort and are trying to convince them to believe things. 709 00:46:26.960 --> 00:46:32.320 And that didn't change anybody that doesn't have substance and it can't help someone, 710 00:46:32.320 --> 00:46:37.760 you know, when they received a diagnosis or when their child is sick or their whatever, 711 00:46:37.760 --> 00:46:39.960 they have to own that between them and the Lord. 712 00:46:39.960 --> 00:46:47.760 They there were not changed in our minds were transformed in our, you know, in our soul. 713 00:46:47.760 --> 00:46:50.200 So anyway, right. 714 00:46:50.200 --> 00:46:51.200 That's helpful. 715 00:46:51.200 --> 00:46:52.200 Very helpful. 716 00:46:52.200 --> 00:46:56.720 And it's, it's something I think I've always felt in my spirit, but then I see, I know 717 00:46:57.600 --> 00:47:03.480 it's like, it's like, there's like, it's just doesn't, they don't mesh. 718 00:47:03.480 --> 00:47:09.320 And then it makes you feel, it makes you feel off or crazy because you're like, well, surely 719 00:47:09.320 --> 00:47:13.880 everybody else, if everybody else is agreeing that this is how you do it. 720 00:47:13.880 --> 00:47:18.400 And they, they've gotten some of these people, they've got ministries and they apparently 721 00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:19.400 it works. 722 00:47:19.400 --> 00:47:20.400 I mean, surely they would know. 723 00:47:20.400 --> 00:47:24.520 I mean, my goodness, you know, I don't have something that can compare to that, you know, 724 00:47:24.520 --> 00:47:25.520 from a worldly standpoint. 725 00:47:25.840 --> 00:47:26.840 So they asked me, right. 726 00:47:26.840 --> 00:47:27.840 And they all agree. 727 00:47:27.840 --> 00:47:28.840 And they're all following. 728 00:47:28.840 --> 00:47:33.120 So I would be swimming against this, swimming against the current. 729 00:47:33.120 --> 00:47:37.640 So I probably just am, am just not letting it be enough. 730 00:47:37.640 --> 00:47:42.000 You know, I'm just probably not being content with how things work. 731 00:47:42.000 --> 00:47:47.240 And we just start questioning as opposed to realizing we're living in a matrix. 732 00:47:47.240 --> 00:47:52.980 And there's something in us that knows something's off, but we have to value that. 733 00:47:52.980 --> 00:47:59.580 We have to value that voice and ask the Lord and really probe into it as opposed to just 734 00:47:59.580 --> 00:48:06.500 having a, having a tendency to self-doubt and self-condemn and squelch the Holy spirit. 735 00:48:06.500 --> 00:48:07.500 Right. 736 00:48:07.500 --> 00:48:13.460 You know, just as encouragement to you of like, so if you think of this, you know, what 737 00:48:13.460 --> 00:48:17.820 other areas are you like kind of questioning or like something's something doesn't seem 738 00:48:17.820 --> 00:48:18.940 quite right. 739 00:48:18.940 --> 00:48:21.900 It could simply be your approach to it. 740 00:48:21.900 --> 00:48:29.180 Or it could be that the way that it's working is not the way it's supposed to work for instance, 741 00:48:29.180 --> 00:48:30.540 how did I learn about rest? 742 00:48:30.540 --> 00:48:33.700 I did not know anybody who was living like this. 743 00:48:33.700 --> 00:48:38.780 I mean, meaning like when I was like doing like in business and, and, and I was just, 744 00:48:38.780 --> 00:48:42.140 and God would tell me to do something and I'm like, Lord, that doesn't make any sense, 745 00:48:42.140 --> 00:48:45.940 you know, and all of the advice that I'm being given, being given and all of the business 746 00:48:45.940 --> 00:48:48.740 professionals that I know they operate very differently. 747 00:48:49.740 --> 00:48:52.820 It's just that the Christian ones put godly terms on it. 748 00:48:52.820 --> 00:48:58.420 And I'm like, Lord, something in my spirit and Lord, they're making all this money. 749 00:48:58.420 --> 00:49:02.860 So apparently it works, Lord, why can't I be satisfied with it? 750 00:49:02.860 --> 00:49:08.140 I'm not, this isn't right, but I don't know why. 751 00:49:08.140 --> 00:49:14.420 And so, and I don't have anybody who agrees with me and I have people who tell me, well, 752 00:49:14.420 --> 00:49:17.620 actually you need to be going to other people for advice and whatever. 753 00:49:17.620 --> 00:49:21.540 And I'm like, Lord, you know, about how to handle certain situations in business or whatever. 754 00:49:21.540 --> 00:49:26.860 And I'm going, Nope, that is not how I believe that God's character actually is. 755 00:49:26.860 --> 00:49:32.580 So all that I was left with was just, okay, God, this is, this is the quandary that I'm 756 00:49:32.580 --> 00:49:34.340 in. 757 00:49:34.340 --> 00:49:37.380 I don't know, really know what it is I'm looking for. 758 00:49:37.380 --> 00:49:39.780 I just don't believe this is it. 759 00:49:39.780 --> 00:49:41.540 So Lord, just tell me what to do. 760 00:49:41.540 --> 00:49:44.620 And so we'll say, he would say, okay, do this. 761 00:49:44.620 --> 00:49:48.260 This is how to handle this situation with this person, or this is what to say in this 762 00:49:48.260 --> 00:49:52.180 meeting, or this is what to do with this project, or this is whatever. 763 00:49:52.180 --> 00:49:58.220 And I would just blindly follow things that would be seen as a risk to my professional 764 00:49:58.220 --> 00:49:59.780 career. 765 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.520 were a major risk to my professional career. 766 00:50:03.520 --> 00:50:06.760 It depends on the situation as to how shockingly risky 767 00:50:06.760 --> 00:50:07.760 those things were. 768 00:50:07.760 --> 00:50:10.600 I mean, like literally I'm risking being fired for things, 769 00:50:10.600 --> 00:50:14.280 you know, and it was just because God said, God said, 770 00:50:14.280 --> 00:50:16.920 God said, but I didn't know what I was doing. 771 00:50:16.920 --> 00:50:20.520 And so my point is just to encourage you that if you don't, 772 00:50:20.520 --> 00:50:22.800 if something seems unsettling, you know, 773 00:50:22.800 --> 00:50:26.520 ask the Lord to help reveal to you, you know, 774 00:50:26.520 --> 00:50:30.760 and kind of explore with him what else it could be. 775 00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:35.880 And, but, and then just, and then, 776 00:50:35.880 --> 00:50:38.320 and then if he doesn't reveal to you 777 00:50:38.320 --> 00:50:41.280 in terms that you understand, like, like the principle, 778 00:50:41.280 --> 00:50:43.400 oh, well this, Casey, this is what's going on. 779 00:50:43.400 --> 00:50:44.680 And this is how it works. 780 00:50:44.680 --> 00:50:45.800 He may not do that. 781 00:50:45.800 --> 00:50:48.380 He didn't do that with me in that particular situation. 782 00:50:48.380 --> 00:50:49.220 Sometimes he does. 783 00:50:49.220 --> 00:50:51.680 Sometimes he'll tell me a principle and I'm like, oh, okay. 784 00:50:51.680 --> 00:50:53.600 Well, so this is what's going on. 785 00:50:53.600 --> 00:50:56.040 And other times I don't get a principle. 786 00:50:56.560 --> 00:50:59.280 I just hear do this or don't do this. 787 00:50:59.280 --> 00:51:02.000 I'm like, okay, I don't know why, but here we go. 788 00:51:02.000 --> 00:51:04.280 And then as I proved myself faithful 789 00:51:04.280 --> 00:51:07.000 in being obedient to the Lord and choosing him over myself, 790 00:51:07.000 --> 00:51:10.280 he then began to reveal to me patterns and relationships 791 00:51:10.280 --> 00:51:13.200 and then taught me the principle of what was going on 792 00:51:13.200 --> 00:51:16.520 and why the way everybody else was doing it 793 00:51:16.520 --> 00:51:19.720 doesn't work in an eternal standpoint. 794 00:51:19.720 --> 00:51:22.560 It works in worldly standpoint, 795 00:51:22.560 --> 00:51:24.520 but that leads to nothing but death. 796 00:51:24.520 --> 00:51:27.680 It doesn't jive with the kingdom. 797 00:51:27.680 --> 00:51:29.640 And I was searching for the kingdom. 798 00:51:29.640 --> 00:51:32.360 I was wanting to live from the kingdom. 799 00:51:32.360 --> 00:51:35.000 And so anyway, then the Lord began to reveal to me, 800 00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:36.840 okay, Ashley, this is the principles of the kingdom 801 00:51:36.840 --> 00:51:38.040 that you've been operating in. 802 00:51:38.040 --> 00:51:40.620 When you didn't know what you were doing, 803 00:51:40.620 --> 00:51:44.240 you just heard me say do it and you did. 804 00:51:44.240 --> 00:51:46.360 So anyway, over time he revealed the principles. 805 00:51:46.360 --> 00:51:49.420 But so I chose, here's a big thing, 806 00:51:49.420 --> 00:51:52.140 choose God over understanding him. 807 00:51:52.140 --> 00:51:54.420 Choose God over understanding why you're doing 808 00:51:55.260 --> 00:51:57.220 what you're doing or why things are working 809 00:51:57.220 --> 00:52:00.200 the way that they're working or why you don't feel, 810 00:52:02.220 --> 00:52:06.260 you don't feel, I don't know, like you belong, 811 00:52:06.260 --> 00:52:09.900 connect with, understand, or are in alignment 812 00:52:09.900 --> 00:52:13.980 with the environment or the operating principles around you. 813 00:52:15.460 --> 00:52:17.620 Choose him over those things 814 00:52:17.620 --> 00:52:19.660 and then he'll guide you through them. 815 00:52:19.660 --> 00:52:22.020 He'll guide you basically through this landmine 816 00:52:22.100 --> 00:52:25.780 of everything that seems contradictory 817 00:52:25.780 --> 00:52:28.380 to what it is that you're doing and what it is you believe. 818 00:52:28.380 --> 00:52:31.220 So choose him over learning a principle 819 00:52:32.140 --> 00:52:33.900 and he'll reveal the principle 820 00:52:33.900 --> 00:52:35.860 because he won't let anything get in the way 821 00:52:35.860 --> 00:52:37.260 of your, his relationship with you, 822 00:52:37.260 --> 00:52:39.220 including you learning more about him, 823 00:52:40.420 --> 00:52:42.340 including you learning his principle, et cetera. 824 00:52:42.340 --> 00:52:45.180 So once you choose him and remember what is that? 825 00:52:45.180 --> 00:52:48.780 Is that Hebrews 11, six. 826 00:52:48.780 --> 00:52:51.940 Do you remember me talking about that one? 827 00:52:52.940 --> 00:52:56.780 Choosing God, God himself over anything else. 828 00:52:56.780 --> 00:52:58.780 And that's what faith is. 829 00:52:58.780 --> 00:53:00.580 Oh, yes, yes. 830 00:53:00.580 --> 00:53:02.060 I know about, yes. 831 00:53:02.060 --> 00:53:03.080 I don't remember. 832 00:53:05.180 --> 00:53:06.620 Oh, what is that scripture? 833 00:53:14.340 --> 00:53:16.020 That's it, that's odd. 834 00:53:16.020 --> 00:53:16.860 Oh, here we go. 835 00:53:16.860 --> 00:53:20.940 Hebrews 11 and then Hebrews six. 836 00:53:20.940 --> 00:53:22.020 And then it says, 837 00:53:22.020 --> 00:53:24.420 and without faith, it's impossible to please him 838 00:53:24.420 --> 00:53:28.020 for he who comes to God must believe that he is, 839 00:53:28.020 --> 00:53:29.700 in other words, that he exists 840 00:53:29.700 --> 00:53:34.380 and that he's a rewarder of those who seek him, 841 00:53:34.380 --> 00:53:37.300 not seek to learn about him, not seek to follow him, 842 00:53:37.300 --> 00:53:39.060 seek him. 843 00:53:39.060 --> 00:53:42.180 So you choose him over understanding. 844 00:53:42.180 --> 00:53:45.420 You choose him over the principles. 845 00:53:45.420 --> 00:53:47.780 And then when you've chosen him, then he says, 846 00:53:47.780 --> 00:53:49.700 now I can entrust you with knowing about me. 847 00:53:49.740 --> 00:53:54.620 Now I can entrust you with revealing my character, 848 00:53:54.620 --> 00:53:55.940 with who I really am. 849 00:53:55.940 --> 00:54:00.020 Now I can entrust you with, 850 00:54:00.020 --> 00:54:03.980 and trust you with my principles and knowing my principles 851 00:54:03.980 --> 00:54:05.780 because you've chosen me over them. 852 00:54:07.380 --> 00:54:09.100 So anyway, if that's helpful. 853 00:54:10.100 --> 00:54:10.940 It is helpful. 854 00:54:10.940 --> 00:54:11.900 It actually makes me realize, 855 00:54:11.900 --> 00:54:15.820 like, I feel like the Lord has been silent 856 00:54:15.820 --> 00:54:18.820 and I'm realizing that he actually hasn't been silent. 857 00:54:18.820 --> 00:54:21.740 Well, I think he's quit talking 858 00:54:21.740 --> 00:54:24.180 because I've been choosing not to listen to him. 859 00:54:24.180 --> 00:54:25.020 So he's kind of like, 860 00:54:25.020 --> 00:54:27.420 oh, well, when you want to start talking. 861 00:54:27.420 --> 00:54:28.940 Let me know when you're ready. 862 00:54:30.980 --> 00:54:35.820 And it's just encouraging just because I feel like, 863 00:54:35.820 --> 00:54:38.260 oh, okay, this is just easy. 864 00:54:38.260 --> 00:54:40.660 Like, I feel like I've, now that you're, 865 00:54:41.580 --> 00:54:42.700 after listening to what you've said, 866 00:54:42.700 --> 00:54:45.860 I've felt like I've heard him speak certain things to me 867 00:54:45.860 --> 00:54:50.260 that I just, whether I didn't know that it was him talking 868 00:54:50.260 --> 00:54:52.220 or I just kind of like threw it under the rug 869 00:54:52.220 --> 00:54:54.100 and kept going kind of thing. 870 00:54:55.700 --> 00:54:57.060 But I realized it's, 871 00:54:57.060 --> 00:54:59.620 I'm wanting to understand it before I. 872 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:07.200 Choose him. And yeah. Yeah. And that's something we talked about way, way, way, way back. Like, 873 00:55:07.200 --> 00:55:11.200 I don't know, 10 or 11 weeks ago. I mean, we talked about it as a group. 874 00:55:12.160 --> 00:55:19.680 You know, about not, um, not requiring things to reconcile before we choose faith. 875 00:55:20.480 --> 00:55:27.280 Right. We can't try to end it. We can't. Because that's holding a condition over God, 876 00:55:27.280 --> 00:55:31.680 God, what's more important to me is understanding why, what I was doing, didn't work. And why, 877 00:55:31.680 --> 00:55:38.240 what you're saying I should do does work over him. We're choosing the understanding over him. 878 00:55:38.240 --> 00:55:42.800 We're idolizing that over him. And we're putting a condition on our relationship with God. And 879 00:55:42.800 --> 00:55:48.480 we're putting it on hold and saying, okay, God, I won't move further until you reconcile this for 880 00:55:48.480 --> 00:55:56.880 me. And God said, no, I want you to move blindly because you choose me without the understanding. 881 00:55:57.280 --> 00:56:03.920 Then I will gift you the understanding now that I can entrust you with it because you chose me. 882 00:56:03.920 --> 00:56:08.560 That's the, it's the same thing that he, he presented Abraham with. He's like, what do you 883 00:56:08.560 --> 00:56:13.120 choose? Do you choose my promise or do you choose me? Cause that's what Isaac was. Isaac was the 884 00:56:13.120 --> 00:56:19.840 promise. And so it's like, do you choose what I promised you or do you choose me? And Abraham 885 00:56:19.840 --> 00:56:24.320 said, I choose you. And God's like, okay, now I can entrust you with the promise. 886 00:56:24.880 --> 00:56:29.280 Because I can't entrust you with a, with the promise. When the whole point of the 887 00:56:29.280 --> 00:56:36.080 promise was to give you me, then I can't entrust myself with you. If you choose it over me, 888 00:56:36.080 --> 00:56:44.480 I'm not safe with you. You know? Right. Yeah. So if you choose that over your to-do list, 889 00:56:44.480 --> 00:56:48.800 everything that needs to get done, trying to sell your house or whatever, God will take over 890 00:56:48.800 --> 00:56:52.880 and everything will happen. You'll get all of the stuff done that you need to get done. 891 00:56:52.880 --> 00:56:55.920 He'll take care of, he'll take care of everything. There will things you won't, 892 00:56:55.920 --> 00:57:00.240 there were, there are things that you will not have to do because God will set things 893 00:57:00.240 --> 00:57:10.800 up so that it, that completely nullifies you even needing to do it. And anyway, yeah. Yeah. 894 00:57:10.800 --> 00:57:16.160 So because you choose him over that, and I've watched multiple people actually through 895 00:57:16.720 --> 00:57:24.400 selling and buying of homes. And one of the things that I watched one couple through it for probably 896 00:57:24.400 --> 00:57:32.240 like I don't know, like two years, a year and a half, two years, something like that. And I'm 897 00:57:32.240 --> 00:57:38.080 telling you what it was so emotional for them. Oh my word. It was so emotional. And I, and I 898 00:57:38.080 --> 00:57:43.200 remember sitting with the, with the couple at one point thinking, I can't believe after all this 899 00:57:43.200 --> 00:57:48.480 time, I'm still sitting here talking with him. Cause I happen to be with them at the time 900 00:57:48.480 --> 00:57:53.680 thinking I'm still talking about the same thing. They're still in the same situation. So I, I got 901 00:57:53.680 --> 00:57:58.560 very, very honest with them. I said, here's, here's the thing I said, in order to get traction, 902 00:57:58.560 --> 00:58:01.360 because they're like, we're stuck, you know, we keep having this conversation and, you know, 903 00:58:01.360 --> 00:58:04.320 we, we've been wanting to do it for like a year, year and a half or whatever it was. 904 00:58:04.960 --> 00:58:10.320 And I, and there's like, nothing's moving. I said is because you've got to open yourself up. 905 00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:15.040 You've got to stop putting the limitations on the Lord, you know, whatever. Anyway. So they 906 00:58:15.040 --> 00:58:19.040 finally started doing that. They finally started letting go, you know, just like, okay, God, 907 00:58:19.040 --> 00:58:22.800 you take over. And it's not about us and what we create and what we do and what we want and 908 00:58:22.800 --> 00:58:29.440 wanting to make sure that you do it that way, whatever you want, Lord. And and they not only 909 00:58:30.080 --> 00:58:38.400 sold their house immediately, but they I wish I could remember how much more it was over the 910 00:58:38.400 --> 00:58:45.200 asking price. I mean, we're talking like debt, like dozens of thousands of dollars over that 911 00:58:45.200 --> 00:58:51.680 price. I wish I could remember how much it was a lot, like a lot, a lot. Don't quote me on this, 912 00:58:51.680 --> 00:59:01.680 but I thought it was 90,000 over. Wow. That that can't be right. Anyway. It's a lot, a lot. Yeah. 913 00:59:01.680 --> 00:59:05.680 And they were like, guess how much more we got over it. I'm like, there you go. It's like you've 914 00:59:05.680 --> 00:59:11.680 got you, um, you know, because you finally gave the whole process of everything over to the Lord 915 00:59:11.680 --> 00:59:16.960 and because their home was emotional for them. They felt when they released their home, that 916 00:59:16.960 --> 00:59:22.400 they had failed in life because they had wanted to stay in that home and they'd wanted it to be 917 00:59:22.400 --> 00:59:28.240 established. And now they felt like they couldn't stay there financially anymore. And now they're 918 00:59:28.240 --> 00:59:32.480 having to let go of something that they feel that the let going of not only are they emotionally 919 00:59:32.480 --> 00:59:37.520 attached to it, but they felt that it was symbolizing their failure to, I mean, they've 920 00:59:37.520 --> 00:59:41.840 got a family and everything. They're very established in, in that place. So they finally 921 00:59:41.840 --> 00:59:46.400 let go of everything. And then that's what God did. And then God put them exactly in the type 922 00:59:46.400 --> 00:59:50.720 of house and the exact, the type of, in exactly the type of location that they had asked him for, 923 00:59:51.360 --> 00:59:58.080 but let go of everything in order for him to do everything. And so my, my point is it has 924 00:59:58.080 --> 00:59:59.840 happened over and over and over again. 925 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.720 Where you just, not just that situation, but God, if we just, if we release God to be himself, 926 01:00:06.720 --> 01:00:11.280 then we just stand back and allow him to reveal his character, however he wants. 927 01:00:11.280 --> 01:00:16.640 And anyway, so my point is you seek him and you release everything else, and then it'll 928 01:00:16.640 --> 01:00:17.940 all get done. 929 01:00:17.940 --> 01:00:22.880 It's not your, the sell of your house and the move was initiated by the Lord and it's 930 01:00:22.880 --> 01:00:25.080 something the Lord is wanting to do. 931 01:00:25.080 --> 01:00:27.240 So let him do it. 932 01:00:27.240 --> 01:00:30.400 The burden, the weight and the responsibility isn't on you. 933 01:00:30.400 --> 01:00:34.080 So now that it's on you, it'll free you to do activities related to it. 934 01:00:34.080 --> 01:00:39.080 You know, getting together with the, with, I don't know, the real estate broker and all 935 01:00:39.080 --> 01:00:47.120 the energy that has to go into it, you know, but that you can do it without feeling the, 936 01:00:47.120 --> 01:00:51.840 the burden, the weight and the responsibility of what happens based off of your action or 937 01:00:51.840 --> 01:00:52.840 inaction. 938 01:00:52.840 --> 01:00:55.840 It's all up to the Lord now. 939 01:00:55.840 --> 01:00:56.840 Right. 940 01:00:57.440 --> 01:00:58.440 That's yes. 941 01:00:58.440 --> 01:01:01.600 That was just what I needed to hear. 942 01:01:01.600 --> 01:01:07.200 It's not on you anymore, but you have to choose that that is who he is and that you're safe 943 01:01:07.200 --> 01:01:08.200 with him. 944 01:01:08.200 --> 01:01:13.520 And now that you're safe with him, you will, you will be able to work and put, put effort. 945 01:01:13.520 --> 01:01:18.240 In other words, work, not striving, but just be able to put effort activity into it without 946 01:01:18.240 --> 01:01:21.400 feeling the burden and the pressure of it. 947 01:01:21.400 --> 01:01:22.400 Right. 948 01:01:22.400 --> 01:01:23.780 And then you can choose it as a joy. 949 01:01:23.780 --> 01:01:25.320 You can choose it as an interest. 950 01:01:25.320 --> 01:01:29.520 You're pouring things of your spirit into that home that the next people have the opportunity 951 01:01:29.520 --> 01:01:30.520 to inherit. 952 01:01:30.520 --> 01:01:31.520 Right. 953 01:01:31.520 --> 01:01:32.520 And realize. 954 01:01:32.520 --> 01:01:33.520 Yes. 955 01:01:33.520 --> 01:01:34.520 Only that comes in. 956 01:01:34.520 --> 01:01:37.960 So that's what you're doing when you're repainting and you have to set everything up with the 957 01:01:37.960 --> 01:01:38.960 painters. 958 01:01:38.960 --> 01:01:43.920 They had the privilege of coming into your home, you know, and then, and then being, 959 01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:46.320 you know, you never know what the Lord is going to do with that, even though you may 960 01:01:46.320 --> 01:01:48.760 never see it, how it might affect their lives. 961 01:01:48.760 --> 01:01:53.440 And then, and then, you know, the, and then, then I don't know, you're you setting all 962 01:01:53.440 --> 01:02:00.120 that up is, is you telling the home is like you putting order into the home so that it 963 01:02:00.120 --> 01:02:04.960 can approach and basically preparing it to receive the next people and to be something 964 01:02:04.960 --> 01:02:08.720 for the next people, you know, that kind of a thing. 965 01:02:08.720 --> 01:02:13.880 So you've got an authority in that home now, and then you get to bless and pour into the 966 01:02:13.880 --> 01:02:14.880 next people who come in. 967 01:02:14.880 --> 01:02:21.280 So that is how you can choose to live offensively as you into the earth. 968 01:02:21.280 --> 01:02:25.560 What do I want to do as opposed to, on my word, they say that in order to sell it, I 969 01:02:25.560 --> 01:02:26.560 have to do this. 970 01:02:26.560 --> 01:02:29.200 You got to work on the hot water and our foundation's messed up. 971 01:02:29.200 --> 01:02:31.400 And then you got to replace the roof. 972 01:02:31.400 --> 01:02:37.280 If we view it like that, then we're, we're not ruling right now. 973 01:02:37.280 --> 01:02:38.280 This is my home. 974 01:02:38.280 --> 01:02:40.760 This is how I am telling creation. 975 01:02:40.760 --> 01:02:42.300 I want it to come into order. 976 01:02:42.300 --> 01:02:43.560 So I'm bringing my home into order. 977 01:02:43.560 --> 01:02:46.520 I'm telling it, this is what I want you to do. 978 01:02:46.520 --> 01:02:47.520 So. 979 01:02:47.520 --> 01:02:48.520 Right. 980 01:02:48.520 --> 01:02:49.520 Yes. 981 01:02:49.520 --> 01:02:50.520 Different perspective. 982 01:02:50.760 --> 01:02:51.760 Right. 983 01:02:51.760 --> 01:02:52.760 Yeah. 984 01:02:52.760 --> 01:02:53.760 All good stuff. 985 01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:58.520 I feel like, yeah, this is probably the, the best transformation session, not like they've 986 01:02:58.520 --> 01:03:02.920 all been great, but I feel like if this, it's like helping me turn a corner that I really 987 01:03:02.920 --> 01:03:05.920 haven't in many ways. 988 01:03:05.920 --> 01:03:06.920 So. 989 01:03:06.920 --> 01:03:07.920 Good. 990 01:03:07.920 --> 01:03:13.840 Well, part of it is the fact that past transformation sessions have been about you leaving and escaping 991 01:03:13.840 --> 01:03:17.720 a negative, you know, you're, you're, how do, how do I get up and out? 992 01:03:17.720 --> 01:03:22.420 How do I finally start getting my head above water to breathe and whatever this is now 993 01:03:22.420 --> 01:03:26.720 that you're at a particular point, how do you get to live as a King? 994 01:03:26.720 --> 01:03:31.800 There's something exciting about that because you've, you've tasted freedom before. 995 01:03:31.800 --> 01:03:33.120 It's like you hadn't tasted freedom. 996 01:03:33.120 --> 01:03:35.920 You were trying, you were just having faith that there was something called freedom out 997 01:03:35.920 --> 01:03:39.800 there and it was supposed to be good and it was supposed to be better than what you had. 998 01:03:39.800 --> 01:03:44.220 But now that you've tasted it, now that you've seen the goodness of God in so many ways, 999 01:03:44.220 --> 01:03:48.660 How do you get to, how you get to enrich life even further? 1000 01:03:48.660 --> 01:03:51.940 And so there's something hopeful about it. 1001 01:03:51.940 --> 01:03:59.060 So it's always better to focus on the positive, you know, what we're trying to escape. 1002 01:03:59.060 --> 01:04:00.060 Yeah. 1003 01:04:00.060 --> 01:04:02.820 Oh, I'm excited for you though. 1004 01:04:02.820 --> 01:04:03.820 Thank you. 1005 01:04:03.820 --> 01:04:04.820 Thank you. 1006 01:04:04.820 --> 01:04:05.820 Full experience. 1007 01:04:05.820 --> 01:04:11.060 I'm still debating on the next run, joining their next, next rest intensive. 1008 01:04:11.060 --> 01:04:14.040 I might have, I might have person or two. 1009 01:04:14.040 --> 01:04:15.040 So we will see. 1010 01:04:15.040 --> 01:04:16.040 Good. 1011 01:04:16.040 --> 01:04:20.040 Well, it's totally up to you as to whether or not you want it to be part of your journey. 1012 01:04:20.040 --> 01:04:21.520 You know how I always word it like that. 1013 01:04:21.520 --> 01:04:25.960 I want to make sure people understand, also want to make sure people understand that the 1014 01:04:25.960 --> 01:04:30.480 incentive that I'm creating for the, for y'all to, you know, pass this on to your family 1015 01:04:30.480 --> 01:04:36.880 and friends is not to encourage all to, to talk to people about it. 1016 01:04:36.880 --> 01:04:39.960 I was finding people were already talking about it. 1017 01:04:39.960 --> 01:04:44.600 And what I want was, and the reason that I was creating the incentivization was simply 1018 01:04:44.600 --> 01:04:50.480 to incentivize people that if they're recommending people, I want them to join too. 1019 01:04:50.480 --> 01:04:55.440 I would like them to be part of it because it greatly helps the friends experience because 1020 01:04:55.440 --> 01:05:00.040 now people that you're already doing life with, you'll be able to talk about. 1021 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.000 It's a, it's a way to invest in the relationship and it greatly helps 1022 01:05:04.000 --> 01:05:06.000 their, their journey and their experience. 1023 01:05:06.000 --> 01:05:08.000 And they should be able to move faster. 1024 01:05:08.000 --> 01:05:11.000 With their friend being present than with just me. 1025 01:05:11.000 --> 01:05:12.000 Right. 1026 01:05:12.000 --> 01:05:14.000 So anyway, that's what the whole thing of like, 1027 01:05:14.000 --> 01:05:16.000 what it was that I was trying to. 1028 01:05:17.000 --> 01:05:18.000 Right. 1029 01:05:18.000 --> 01:05:20.000 It was, I was finding people are sharing it. 1030 01:05:20.000 --> 01:05:23.000 What I was trying to incentivize people is, Hey, if your friends join. 1031 01:05:23.000 --> 01:05:27.000 How can I help their experience and offer something to y'all at the 1032 01:05:27.000 --> 01:05:30.000 same time? Like, Hey, y'all can join for free. 1033 01:05:30.000 --> 01:05:33.000 And so it will help encourage what I was hoping it would do is 1034 01:05:33.000 --> 01:05:36.000 encourage people to participate with their friends. 1035 01:05:36.000 --> 01:05:38.000 And I think that's a really important thing. 1036 01:05:38.000 --> 01:05:41.000 And I think that's a really important thing to do is to encourage 1037 01:05:41.000 --> 01:05:42.000 people to join. 1038 01:05:42.000 --> 01:05:44.000 So I just wanted to make it clear, you know, that. 1039 01:05:44.000 --> 01:05:45.000 About like what it was. 1040 01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:46.000 Oh, yeah. 1041 01:05:46.000 --> 01:05:47.000 Very clear. 1042 01:05:47.000 --> 01:05:48.000 Yeah. 1043 01:05:48.000 --> 01:05:49.000 Yeah. 1044 01:05:49.000 --> 01:05:50.000 All right. 1045 01:05:50.000 --> 01:05:51.000 Visit with you, Casey. 1046 01:05:51.000 --> 01:05:53.000 So glad that you're doing. 1047 01:05:53.000 --> 01:05:54.000 That you're doing good. 1048 01:05:54.000 --> 01:05:57.000 It has been a privilege of mine to be able to be given by the Lord, 1049 01:05:57.000 --> 01:05:59.000 the opportunity to see you from. 1050 01:05:59.000 --> 01:06:02.000 And how much you have not been living in rest and you don't know what 1051 01:06:02.000 --> 01:06:03.000 you're going to do. 1052 01:06:03.000 --> 01:06:05.000 And this is what your life is, has been like, 1053 01:06:05.000 --> 01:06:07.000 and this is what your life feels like now. 1054 01:06:07.000 --> 01:06:10.000 And then to get to see you all the way through that, that final, 1055 01:06:10.000 --> 01:06:11.000 that final surgery. 1056 01:06:12.000 --> 01:06:13.000 Yeah. 1057 01:06:13.000 --> 01:06:15.000 Oh, my word. It's been honestly privileged. 1058 01:06:15.000 --> 01:06:17.000 Greatly increased my faith. 1059 01:06:17.000 --> 01:06:20.000 So anyway, thank you so much. And I'm so excited for you. 1060 01:06:20.000 --> 01:06:21.000 Thanks Ashley. 1061 01:06:21.000 --> 01:06:22.000 So much. 1062 01:06:22.000 --> 01:06:23.000 All right. 1063 01:06:23.000 --> 01:06:24.000 See you. 1064 01:06:24.000 --> 01:06:25.000 Bye. 1065 01:06:25.000 --> 01:06:26.000 Bye. 1066 01:06:26.000 --> 01:06:27.000 Bye. 1067 01:06:27.000 --> 01:06:28.000 Bye. 1068 01:06:28.000 --> 01:06:29.000 Bye. 1069 01:06:29.000 --> 01:06:30.000 Bye. 1070 01:06:30.000 --> 01:06:31.000 Bye. 1071 01:06:31.000 --> 01:06:32.000 Bye. 1072 01:06:32.000 --> 01:06:33.000 Bye. 1073 01:06:33.000 --> 01:06:34.000 Bye. 1074 01:06:34.000 --> 01:06:35.000 Bye. 1075 01:06:35.000 --> 01:06:36.000 Bye. 1076 01:06:36.000 --> 01:06:37.000 Bye. 1077 01:06:37.000 --> 01:06:38.000 Bye. 1078 01:06:38.000 --> 01:06:39.000 Bye. 1079 01:06:39.000 --> 01:06:40.000 Bye. 1080 01:06:40.000 --> 01:06:41.000 Bye. 1081 01:06:41.000 --> 01:06:42.000 Bye. 1082 01:06:42.000 --> 01:06:43.000 Bye. 1083 01:06:43.000 --> 01:06:44.000 All right. 1084 01:06:44.000 --> 01:06:45.000 See you. 1085 01:06:45.000 --> 01:06:46.000 Okay. 1086 01:06:46.000 --> 01:06:47.000 Bye.