you messaged me and I saw your messages come through but I couldn't read like
what they were saying and then because they're like trying to pop up as
notifications and then and then another client of mine sent me to Marco Polo's
and I'm like oh my gosh it just you know when it rains it pours all of a sudden
everybody needs me to get back to them and I felt really bad which I say I
felt really bad I've learned you to just rest and just know that okay it's all
gonna be fine and I don't I like I don't like take it on as like this
burden of like oh my word well I have to you know I told them that they could
reach out to me and this that and the other I just like okay the Lord knew the
Lord knows that I'm in the middle of something and he can take care of them
and all of that so anyway but no no I'm that no I'm fine and so I don't know I
thought there was something else gonna I was gonna tell you but no no no it's
good so I find that you were what it was came up is really really interesting
that you know you were reached out about a job opportunity anyway so what are
your thoughts and yeah or have you already made a decision this is funny
because it's like you know it's like a whirlwind but it's also God's like I'm
always right on time right you know I'm thinking it's hard for me in this moment
to even think of like not saying yes because of what it feels like is my only
question I guess would be like okay am I thinking about this correctly but you
know it feels like okay here I am been asking this question been considering
just in the past a week especially you know like what does work look like and
how do you want to meet our financial needs God and you know does it mean that
I that doesn't mean that I you know take a job does it mean that I go job
hunting that I trust you for the miraculous just being open to it meaning
taking a job or job hunting right like yeah praying through that and then
coming to the realization today just that with like I had some car stuff come
up like a couple hundred dollars I spent on the car recently and I paid my
attorney like a lot of money yeah you know I mean what's a lot of money for me
right now correct and you know kind of like this this lump sum to like keep
going which I don't even know if the Lord is gonna have us keep going or if
he has somebody else in mind that's not a question I haven't answered yet but at
least to honor her you know and pay for her and if anything does come up
emergency I want to have representation in my situation you know like I don't
want to be without an attorney so there's that and just various things I'm
looking at my account today going I paid my rent like I'm like out of money like
yeah this is going really fast like various things that you know come up and
I'm like I'm like really out of money like what are we doing here yeah but I
mean thankfully in that moment I mean a lot of things but thankfully I'd already
had the conversation yesterday with this person about you know about a potential
job and so at least I had you know like a bit of comfort because I was about to
be like I'm not even gonna drive to go see my sister like maybe I should just
not maybe I should just not move right now that might sound weird but it was
like a moment of should I even spend the gas money you know maybe like should I
even this feels like overwhelming in this moment to get to know like how to
make sure I can pay everything that I need to pay next week you know yeah now
now I'm all if I may I want to interject here with an encouragement that I'm
excited that you and that you went ahead and did it because it's not faith if it
like say for instance if we're if we're hungry or not not hungry but it's not
it's not faith that we like okay Lord you're gonna provide for me but I'm
gonna sit here and not spend money on food just just in case and because you
know I'm trying to save and I'm trying to diss on the other and I'm using food
as an example in other words it's like by our actions we're showing that we
don't believe he will provide because we're going into survival mode we're
going into self-protection etc so what would you normally have done you normally
have gone to see your sister so you go and you see your sister and that's
proving to the Lord okay Lord I'm declaring here this is me operating the
way that I usually do because I know
Oh, and I'm proving by my actions that I do believe that you are going to provide for me because you're not spending money. You don't have you're spending money that you do. And you're saying, Lord, you will provide for me as my bills come up because that is who it is that you are. And I'm declaring that is who you are, not just by my faith, but by my actions. So anyway, I just wanted to encourage you in that
Yeah, you were showing your faith by doing it. It's in fear that we that we shift that we that we shut down.
And I remember at some point. Yeah, no, that's such a good explanation. I remember being like you said, like you said, God, like I was half crying and half like declaring
Yeah, in the car on the drive.
That's right. That's right.
So yeah, so I went and saw my sister and my dad and stuff. You know, bless that time because there was, there's a lot of, you know, there's just like some
stuff there.
You know, stuff. Yeah, that were you're like, I don't even know what I'm going into right now. But you bless that time. And that was good.
And so, yeah, I think, as I was about to leave tonight to come home. I got a message saying, we want to go ahead and move forward. Like, can you put on your two weeks notice
From this
Yeah, from from this
Current part time job.
Well, so
I because things have been so fast paced in terms of like shifting and changing the past several months.
Like I haven't tried to update everybody in my life. I've seen people in my life like on everything that's been shifting and changing. Does that make sense. So yes, my friend who
Like I've known for five years. He's my, you know, my chiropractor, but the one who who's on me to be as a system or whatever he has known he was there for like
The worst of the worst, like the worst of the worst and everything went down four years ago, he and his wife were there in a moment of absolute emergency. Yeah, so it was like one of those like it's not like they don't know me well, but I also don't feel the need to give them a play by play. Yeah, because, you know, we just we see each other on a regular basis and all that I had not
Updated him on everything from like my job like my full time job, you know, for the mental health collaborative, which is through health that I was doing full time to like the marketing jobs I had taken to when they fell through with coven. And yeah, I used to think I had not
Filled him in on all that like kind of just intentionally because it's too much for me to try to go and re explain it honestly like rehab. Yeah, we have to. There's all the uncertainty. Yeah. So when he brought this up that he was like, Oh, I'm not going to do this.
I was just meeting somebody that was weeks ago and I just remember, you know, I've tipped him off probably to the fact that I was either
Thinking about who could be a good fit, you know, because I do network a lot and just try to help people find somebody that would be like a great fit for them or asking for myself, but I asked him questions about, you know, what he was looking for, like,
What kind of hours or whatever, you know, and I was just, you know, putting feelers out there, but asking casually to and then went ahead and let them go forward with the hiring process, but
I wasn't stuck on it. I was just kind of like, I don't feel like I was saying go for it, but I cracked the door open a little and then I just let it ride. Right. So weeks went by, they hired somebody
They had somebody that was finishing up. She was moving so she was still willing to come in that month and then they hired somebody, I guess, and she fell through.
And so just last week. So they ended up, you know, in training with her and then she kind of, it just wasn't a good fit. And the end. And so they're
They're in need. And so when I saw him got adjusted went over to their house this time because sometimes a lot of times at the office, but once in a while.
I just said, you know, how was that all going and, you know, he's like, yeah, we're just kind of looking in the immediate and it was really
A lot, you know, on gene to like go through training her and not have a workout, but, you know, it was for the best. And I was like, okay, you know, what is it that you're like, what's your vision for the office, you know, like this time asking questions with a little bit more intention.
Because
I, like I said, just in the past week and a half or so I felt like that opened up a need to feel like okay maybe explore just the possibility of a job right now, which clearly I did if my bank accounts training, but I didn't realize how much it was how fast it was raining.
So I feel a little bit sheepish but I think God's good and all of it because I was like, okay, God, I know, but I was trying not to worry about it, but I know that we don't have a lot longer here.
Yeah, you're, you're being bothered into this so you and you've never and you've never done this before.
And so there's a journey.
You don't have to worry that,
oh my goodness, you know, am I doing it right?
No, just follow the heart of the father
and do the best that you understand he's saying to do
and you're gonna be fine.
Yeah.
Sorry to interrupt, go ahead.
No, that's really good.
I hope you keep interrupting.
It's so much better than what I'm gonna say.
It's a lot more assured.
So I need to hear those things.
So long story short, his answer was, you know,
well, I mean, I need somebody that's really,
that's, you know, teachable and, you know,
humble and honest and, you know,
willing to learn and, you know,
good with patients and able to talk to people
and describing this.
And I said, you know, okay,
so what would be your ideal person versus your like,
I'll, you know, I would take this kind of person
cause I'm in need.
And, but what do you really want versus that?
So he kind of described that and he was like,
well, actually I have a little piece of paper
and he had a typed list of his like 20 qualities
he was looking for in somebody.
And like, I picked up the list and read it
and I'm like, well, that's,
I know that I'm all those things, you know,
like I know that that fits, you know,
just kind of as we were talking and,
and so we just sort of explore like,
what would it look like?
And I said, you know, I've clearly,
I've run a chiropractic office before.
That's, you know, that's how I know him or, you know,
or colleagues back, back in the day,
like when I was married to a chiropractor and we ran,
each ran our own office.
And so, you know, I was like,
both of us know that I can do that.
So I feel like I know how,
as in I'm already well-versed in all of this.
This is my nutrition, chiropractic wellness world that,
you know, I lived for a lot of my marriage.
Correct.
Going through grad school, you know,
with him and all that,
cause we were married when he went through school
and did his whole everything afterward.
And then we ran a few offices.
So including our own, so I was like, you know,
I know that I can do that.
And, you know, I'm kind of at this crossroads.
I just shared honestly, like, you know,
this is where I'm at.
You know, I have, I have this LLC set up
and then the intention of moving into, you know,
more coaching consulting.
But I just really feel like I'm also not wanting
to just run into that right now with everything up
in the air and do the entrepreneurial thing
without something also, you know, stable and consistent.
And so here's what I'm kind of looking forward to.
So we talked and then I ended up talking with his wife
and, you know, touched base with her
and then talked to her in a while
and just kind of said good night.
And it was fun fun chatting with you
and that kind of thing.
And then tonight he texted me and said
that we want to move forward, you know,
go ahead and put in your two weeks or whatever.
So I'm like, okay.
So it feels like, I don't know.
It just feels like an obvious like thing.
I mean, I normally would question a lot more like,
okay, God, what do you think?
You know, and are we, am I seeing,
am I looking at all my options here?
And, but it feels like, okay, I have this need.
Our bank account is literally running out of money
and someone is saying, I want to hire you to work
and do something that I know I know how to do
and that I could do without feeling stressed.
You know, that's the most baseline way of saying it,
like in the moment, you know, it's like, okay, I don't know.
But it's also very, very quick, you know, in a term,
but it feels like a turn that's meeting a need.
I don't know.
That's what I do now.
Yeah.
So, Abby, what do you feel about, you know,
where is your, okay, so have you thought
about what your soul wants?
Your soul, I'm assuming, wants to take the job.
Is that right?
Or is it afraid to take the job?
I'm talking about your soul, not your spirit.
My soul, and here's why I want to ask.
It's important because your spirit, soul, and body,
you are spirit, but you have a soul and you're in a body.
The point is you're all one.
And it's very important that we don't disregard the soul.
Our soul is a very good thing.
It's not bad and it needs to have its say.
Does that make sense?
Yeah, I've heard you say that before.
That's good.
Okay.
I don't know if it's different for me to ask,
like, what is my soul?
Like, what does my soul say versus my spirit?
Sometimes they get a little bit mixed,
but I do know what you're saying.
Like, what do I want to do?
Yeah, what do you want to do
without constantly second-guessing yourself
and asking what do, like, if God said, hey,
any option in the world that you could,
that you could,
want to do, if you could pick a million dollars, if you could do that, you know, if you could
do whatever it is your soul currently wants to do right now, what would it do?
What does it want?
What is it of your options that I'm talking about, you know, of your current options right
now?
And you know, that you're looking at deciding what does your soul want to do so that your
soul so that you acknowledge it and it feels like it's been heard.
Yeah, because God wants you to bring yourself to the table in a relationship with him.
Yeah, it's interesting because in this case, it's like my soul wants to be not stressed
and my soul wants to not, like I want to take, I want to take it because I don't, well not,
I don't want to say because and then that's as if that's my final answer, but my soul
wants to be at rest knowing that I'm providing and that I have the ability to not have to
be in all this, this flux and questioning and whatever with, with paying our bills and
financially supporting us and wondering how I'm going to look to the courts with the girls
and all these different things.
Like I'm kind of ready for that, even though, you know, of course my heart, you know, ultimately
is it's just really to work full time for the Lord, doing the things that I'm most passionate
about and that I feel called to do, but I feel like this doesn't, isn't apart from not
necessarily I love people, but I feel like I can do what I'm doing, you know, alongside
it.
I feel like it allows for me to still be as much as he is, is leading me to, you know,
doing the things I'm already doing with women and kind of slowly building into that without
doing a full time or doing nothing because I'm just freaked out, which isn't a good option
for me.
Yeah.
I don't want that either, you know, to be kind of stuck or, or unsure and living in
limbo or stress and torn, which it feels like it's gotten to that place.
Yeah.
So in the end, what about, what about your, so now that your soul's headed say, what about
your spirit?
What do you want in your spirit?
So shift out of your soul for a second, so to speak, and the fact that don't worry about
like what the real answer might be and what it might mean, you know, don't, don't just
let go of that for a second, because whatever it is that you decide that you see in the
spirit doesn't mean that that's what it is that you're going to choose because your soul
is going to get to choose.
So because your spirit's already made its choice.
You're trying to figure out, is your soul going to choose to agree with your spirit
that it, the spirit is the truth, or if it wants to choose something else and remember
that whatever you choose, you're not in a place of shame or condemnation.
You just, it's just the father's, you know, process of fathering you into relationship
with him, making decisions together with him, hearing his fault, hearing his heart,
hearing your heart, and all of that takes, takes, you know, it's this journey to understand
how to do it exactly and who you are and who he is and where you begin, where he ends and
blah, blah, blah.
So, so anyway, in other words, my whole point is don't be afraid.
Don't be afraid.
Your soul had it say, you now know, you've now acknowledged what it is you want to do.
So now freely explore what your spirit, what you feel in your spirit, and you're not making
a decision.
You're just letting your spirit have it say, where do you feel your peace is at in your
spirit?
Not, what do you think you should do?
What do you think you shouldn't do?
None of that.
What, where does your fear, when you look at your different options, when you look at
not taking the job and doing X, Y, and Z instead, I don't know what it would be staying with
your part-time job or doing something else.
I don't know.
You know, putting out your resume.
I don't know what other options you're looking at when you look at all of those.
And when you look at taking this job, where does your spirit suddenly settle into peace?
In other words, you're like, my spirit knows that not only can God come through in this
way, he will.
Where does your peace tell you your faith is currently at?
What does it currently believe about the character of God?
And none of it is wrong, by the way, no matter what, what you discover.
Okay.
I feel like my piece is on taking it.
Well, there you go.
So you know, so you believe that that is where you feel that your, that, um, your, that God
will come through for you.
In other words, you're just like, that is where my father is speaking to from that.
That is where my father's character is being.
simplified and calling me from that, Lisbeth, I am this good and I am this much love. Is
that accurate?
Yeah, I think so. I mean, I think so. Yeah, they do line up. I know that there's this
like, I don't know what this part is called. This is a soul or this is just the past, you
know, a way of trying to look at all possible options and overthinking or what you call
it. But, you know, there's this part of me that's like, OK, but, you know, the questioning
part of me that's like, OK, but should I think about it? Could it really be that simple?
What if this or, you know what I mean? Like, should I should I take just the first option
that comes along? Like, is it better to put out my resume and look for something that's
got benefits and not just this or whatever? But then this other part of me is like, not
at all. I mean, you know, it comes back to the piece that I have both soul and spirit
on, like, OK, yeah, but that's like more stress. There's no guarantees there. There's no guarantee
of tomorrow. And I don't know what's going to happen in the fall or with the state of
the economy and the world and COVID and all of that. Like, I can't do that no matter what
you know. I'm not going to be able to predict what's going to happen or what could happen.
Plus, it's more stress and time than I have right now to go look for something different
or better. And here God's giving me what I feel is that he's giving me something that
meets my needs right now and in every way, like in the sense that the timing is like
now, now, you know, like as soon as me and the girls get back from their first, you know,
getaway since our divorce four years ago, like their first, you know, exciting trip
that they look forward to so much that's already set in stone. Like, that's when they need
me, like they're willing to wait for me until after that trip so I don't have to feel bad
about the fact that we're taking it, but it also is an immediate job when I get back,
you know. And it's also, you know, just more pay than my barista job, which is not even
a full-time option. And so even though I don't have benefits because of, you know, small
business and stuff, I do trust them and I do have an hourly wage that's livable and
doable, like offered to me for something that I know I can do and I've done before.
Yeah, so all of this stuff that you're talking about, those are all kinds of reasons that
because we're in the habit of believing that we're on our own and we have to, that God
won't, that God is holding out on us, that we won't be protected and provided for. So
we have to figure out what sounds wise, what sounds good, what sounds evil, to avoid the
evil and pick the good and what's the wise decision. And do you hear our training? It
makes it very, very complicated. And so in other words, that, and that also creates more
stress. So my whole point in telling you that is just to kind of, you know, encourage you
that you go wherever your spirit is at peace. You're no longer, you no longer are, have
to live believing that, oh my goodness, I have to figure this out. You know, oh, well
this makes sense. And this, or this doesn't make sense. Well since according to who, since
according to the world and Christians that believe that they're on their own and they
have to figure it out. And so we went to school and we went to Sunday school and we went to
college in order to learn how to make quote unquote logical decisions. So the point is
you, that is where a lot of our soul gets all of that anxiety, all of that worry. And
it thinks, oh my goodness, I got to figure this out. Is this the right decision or not
the right decision? Or, oh, this makes sense or doesn't make sense. Now in your situation,
people can see how the logic of the soul is lining up with where your spirit is feeling
at peace. But my point in telling you this now is that it doesn't always line up, which
you're very familiar with. You're very familiar with the fact that people have been telling
you to look for a job for months and you're like, that is not where my peace is at. So
you're very familiar with the dichotomy of following your spirit, following where your
peace is at versus logic of the world. I'm just relieving, I'm trying to encourage you
to relieve yourself and to recognize it in this moment.
that, that all of the kids you're thinking about, okay, what's my spirit saying versus
my soul?
And then there's all this logistics of, well, this makes sense because, and no, no, no,
it makes sense because that is where your father is telling you to go.
That is where your father says, this is where I am, Lisbeth, I am in this job and I'm, I'm,
I will make it happen for you.
I will not, not make the job happen for you.
I will meet you there.
This is my provision for you and you follow your spirit.
That is that here's your father's heart and you're no longer left alone to figure out
what sounds wise or doesn't sound wise.
So I just wanted to encourage you in that, even though the soul and the spirit logic
seems to match up at this time, it doesn't always.
And I just wanted you to know, you know, we can just be relieved of all of that.
We can live in more freedom.
So we don't have, does that all make sense?
Yeah, I think it does.
And it's interesting because I don't know, it's just interesting.
It's almost like my brain on default is, is, is, feels like it needs to question something
that I don't even really, truly feel like to be questioned.
Yeah.
It's like, it's like, why am I, but it's just because it's a pivot all of a sudden.
Correct.
Yeah.
Correct.
Yeah, that's exactly right.
It's like we're walking through, but it's, it's giving the soul, it's trying to get the
soul peace and assurance that yes, this is truly the right decision.
When really, you know, if, if, if this is where your spirit's at, well then good.
That's all you need to know, you know, you know, and that's where, that's where we can
choose that.
That's where we're going to just rest in our peace.
Because otherwise, if you, if, if we make a decision and then we try to convince in
peace and then we try to convince ourselves logically that it's right.
Even if it does logically seem to make sense.
If something, if, if there is something, if something happens down the road where your
soul starts to struggle again in something that you believed was logical and that your
spirit found peace in, then it's, it's, it's going to be torture trying to figure out going
backwards.
Hindsight 2020, should I or shouldn't I have taken this job?
When really the only thing that you know, should you should know in those moments when
your soul is struggling is yes, but God said he would be here and I am claiming that my
God said that he's here and therefore he is.
And that's what I'm telling my soul.
And that's what I'm telling myself, as opposed to having the logic, as opposed to when your
soul is in turmoil or it's questioning things or there's a struggle, it's like, well, wait
a minute, you know, was this, or wasn't this the right job take?
Well, you know, you knew for sure that you got your peace in your spirit, but you know,
you know, all of this and because you've been living it for so long.
Anyway, so I don't even know if what I said resonated.
Oh, that's really good.
Anyway, just wanted to, just wanted to encourage you.
I'm telling you what, you've done an absolutely amazing job.
And I, you know, just, it would sound like a really weird way to say that because I know
it sounds like, you know, our old mindset way of talking about it, but I just mean that
you've done amazing in, in choosing your father and in choosing your father's heart through
all of this.
And in such a situation where not only are, can someone feel the threats in your situation
of the, the monetary threats, you know, the financial threats, you know, what look like
threats according to the world's perspective, but also where your children are involved
where, you know, and, and all of that.
And those are things that really, really pull on us.
And with all of those things where the wind in the ways look a particular way that would
terrify people.
And I'm sure it terrified you as well.
You chose God repeatedly in the face of all of those things.
And it's absolutely amazing.
And your father is extremely, our father is extremely, extremely pleased.
So I just wanted to encourage you.
Thank you so much for saying those things.
It really is amazing.
It's very encouraging.
It's very.
encouraging to me and to my faith. You know, that's what we're supposed to do for each other is we receive when we watch our father come through for other sons.
That is how he comes through for us to so I see your situation. And I'm hearing you how he's revealing himself to you and he's like,
Hey, you know what, Elizabeth believes that I will provide her. Therefore, I will send her a job. She did not see coming
And I'm like, that's what my God did for me. And so I can remind him of that, you know, tonight, tomorrow, and just like a word.
You know, you know, I remember when you when I was looking for a job and when my, my little girls were, you know, this, that, and the other. And you came for you and you brought me a job out of nowhere, out of thin air.
You know, I can claim those stories. And just because they happen to somebody else doesn't mean that God didn't do that for me too. Because if God did for you, he did it for me.
So I appreciate that.
And you're, you're overcoming and it benefits the rest of
Of the body of Christ, you've given us been given a specific aspect of creation through specific experiences by which the rest of it to overcome, through which the rest of creation and the rest of the body of Christ will benefit. We are given our specific areas in which to overcome. So that the rest of the body.
Or expanding on, yeah, like, it definitely needs to be said again, multiple times, if not expanded on whenever you feel like, yeah, y'all remember that topic, it would be a good one. Yeah, I will.
Yeah, I totally agree. Yeah, absolutely. That's so cool that, that, you know, we each have this, this part, but not even that we just have, you know, this, this unique part of the player, or a part of the body. But, but even that our experiences.
Yeah, our unique experiences impact the rest of the body. It's kind of wild to think of that.
Yeah, yeah, it is because those things are happening in the spirit. We're overcoming in the spirit. And so it impacts the rest of us.
It's not our it's and doesn't have to. We keep looking so much at the physical and we think that our experiences just look so very different than each other. Well, one of my experience harder than yours.
And goes like, No, no, y'all are overcoming things in the spirit, not in the physical. And the physical is supposed to manifest are overcome are overcoming.
So anyway, that I just wanted to encourage you in that that what it is that you're doing is no little deal. And it's not just something that you're trying to do your own real issue of the Lord. It has an eternal
Significance that is bringing dominion to creation and is saving it from frustration.
So, so just be encouraged that all of those things that you're doing are very significant.
And you're making and the choices that you're making are are huge. You're, you're a king, who is being who's being tutored and just have and, you know, is having to actually live it out so
You know, you know what I mean. So you're not an employee in training. You're a king in training and you're already King and you're learning how to how to be it and how to do it and you're already being given a certain measure of
What do you call that as a responsibility that when you do things they actually impact things the way a king's actions impact things
But as we're being fathered
Your God provides it provides you a safe environment in which to do it. So I know that that's right. That's probably a deeper subject. And so hopefully that didn't just bring confusion, but
It's really good.
I'm encouraged. So encouraged. Thank you for making sure I know the significance, but I know just for seeing it.
For recognizing it also calling it out really, really does make a big impact because it has been
You know, you don't, you don't know.
Sometimes just hearing somebody else say it's like, okay, like, not only is it
We made it, you know, to this, but just the, the weightiness and significance of
Choosing him and
Getting to receive
you know, the reward, the sweetness, you know, of what comes with that, and even be able
to receive it without striving or effort, like, you know, just like, okay, here you
go.
Exactly.
I know.
I cannot tell you how excited that I am for you, you know, that you've been praying, you've
been pressing into the Lord, and that this came along, and that this is where you felt
your peace was at.
I am so excited for you.
Yay.
Thank you.
I'm excited.
I mean, I don't know any other, I don't, I know my brain wants to come up with some kind
of, you know, something to think about, but I don't have anything to really think about
me.
Sure, I have to let the barista job down, and, you know, I know that's going to be frustrating
for the manager there.
Yeah, there's like little things, but I just overall know that he's got it all, and there's,
it's so unexpected, but just sort of easy and flowing, that there's not really anything
to, anything to question or worry about.
Exactly.
I know, isn't it, isn't it so interesting to now be living, to live life from that restful
perspective where it's just kind of like, oh, this is so weird.
I'm not used to having to like, where things aren't hard, where things just kind of flow,
because it's not that things that happen, it's not that things won't happen to and around
us and affect us and stuff like that.
It means though, that we won't, being in rest means that we won't be struggling so much
against everything and resisting, which causes the majority of which, which is what causes
our pain, is our resistance against it.
It doesn't mean that the things will not continue to happen, because things happen to Jesus,
and yet Jesus abided in rest, but he wasn't in resistance against them.
I mean, and we repeatedly saw that even when people, when people wanted to stone him or
they came to the garden of Gethsemane to, to arrest him, Jesus did not resist.
Those are physical pictures of his, of his spiritual state so that we could understand.
It's just, it's just not in a state of resistance, so it doesn't mean that things aren't going
to happen.
But yet we look at Jesus and we know that he wasn't conquered.
We know that at any time he could have done something, but he was in a state of rest and
he was just like, you know, and I'm not, I'm the thing with the Lord is that I'm not supposed
to resist.
I'm not supposed to, I'm supposed to allow this to continue the way that it is, that,
and we can also war and we can be warriors while still residing in a place of rest.
But it's, but that, that's, in other words, that's why God talks about fighting and things
like that.
We, we still, God's a, you know, Christ is, is a, is a warrior king, but he, he warriors
from a place of rest and that's just something that we don't understand how to do.
And so, so at the beginning, often he won't have us, um, like a battle so much because
we tend to associate battle with strife.
We don't know how to battle and not be in strife.
So at the beginning, things just look like, Oh my word, it's just flowing and easy.
And then later we realize, okay, so the deal is things still come against us, but, and
so they're, we, God will teach us and fathers into how to fight, but now how to fight without
strife to still fight from a place of rest.
And right now it just looks like a lot more flow and ease so that we can kind of get it
into our brains and into our understanding.
So again, it's a fathering process.
Wow.
That's awesome.
That's cool.
That's cool to see it and feel, you know, be going through it, be able to identify with
what you're talking about, but it, but it'd be like, well, when is it, when is it, I'm
excited that Catherine's in our, in our group, I was like talking to her and, you know, and
I was encouraging her and the things that last week or just a few days back, like Marco,
you know, just felt like I want to make sure that I continue to, you know, even just share
how I'm being impacted or how I'm shifting, because she had said the last time we talked
that she wasn't sure, like that she hadn't gotten back to you, but there was no, like
it wasn't like an issue of feeling like she had an answer that she didn't want to do it.
It was just more that she had so much going on and that for whatever reason, the week
had gotten away.
And I said, well, it took me like a week or more than I planned.
and to get back to her to but you know, that's not that's not
a non issue really exactly. But just like share with her like
what things we had been talking about this week, you know, just
kind of the gist of how shifting and some of that and how
impactful it was and stuff and then I didn't hear back I don't
know if I missed in a Marco back or if you did. We were Marco,
you know, whatever talking about other things like our creative
stuff in the collective and just different things that we're
learning. So I don't know if she even told me she was saying
yes to it. So I just popped on thinking, Oh, I wouldn't even
get distracted. I'm just gonna go straight to Ashley's
teachings. And I went to your group to go straight to a
teaching and listen. And he was there. And I totally never
listened to the teaching because I ended up listening to her live
and you know, seeing the post and then and then exciting hit
the road and so I gotta get back to teaching but I was excited to
get there and have that surprise because I just didn't know she
was gonna be in there. No, we're talking. So she's really sweet
and I really enjoy your enjoyed her and I'm looking forward to
our first session where I'm going to get to visit even more
with her next week and love it. Yeah, you guys are gonna love
each other. I'm so happy because it's you know, it's never
something where it's like you have to do this or I'm not like
a half to should you know kind of person but I do feel confident
in my spirit like when I when somebody's on my heart and I
know they would jive you know so well with somebody else or that
they would benefit from something it's like girl like
every time we talk it's like these are the concepts and
things that we're talking about like you don't know until you
you know so you know but just just saying it's it's it's
really impacting me you know and so that was just kind of how it
kept happening and then she says yes I guess it was just so
funny that we had been talking and yet somehow I didn't know
that she was like saying yes to the group until I ran into it.
Yeah, well, I'm excited. I was wondering but it sounded like
your your like your notes that you're like, Oh, I didn't know.
Yeah, I thought that was a fun surprise for you.
I know I really wanted to get to talk and there's so much
there like you guys were gonna be able to talk about and yeah,
she's just what's the word to describe her? She's very, very
real and very, you know, raw, very honest, authentic, authentic.
Yeah, just really has that that heart that's just ready and the
things that, you know, we're talking about with rest of play
and all that we've already had a conversation about I've been
hearing how you know, she's been on this journey where he's
calling her so it's just perfect thing or it's like a time a
timing thing to shift right in on into that every way and see
how it applies to all the different ways she's already
been living out or healing or shifting her mindsets areas. I
think she's gonna be really, really, I know she's gonna be
impacted. She doesn't know it all yet.
Well, I'm looking forward to getting to know her and
thank you for talking late. I won't keep you up later. But
thank you so much for being willing to shout out late at
night. And yeah, just help me to feel more more peace and
confidence in the piece that I was feeling.
Oh, good. I'm so very glad. I'm glad that you reached out. I'm
sorry, it took me a while to be able to get back to you. But I'm
glad you reached out and
take my word.
Would you just say, say, you know, yes, as in
just kind of say yes to the job or would you ask for some kind
of like more formal offer if it's like a, you know,
somebody you've known for several years?
I guess I don't understand what what do you mean? What about it
didn't feel like for formal you mean you felt like, okay, before
you hand in your two weeks, you'd like a formal offer so
that to make sure that you understand or
well, I guess, yeah, there may be just there's like a few
things that I'm not clear on. And I don't know if I want to
just ask those those questions to get you know, just to get
some clarification on like,
you know, hours or
that kind of thing. But or if I just want to ask him if he
could, you know, write up some kind of a formal offer, or if
it's just something that we can chat out those question or two
and not need a formal offer or contract or anything.
Oh, okay, that I would recommend that you do just that you ask
more for, again, go.
Whatever your spirit says, but, um, it's something you can ping off your awful
word and ask the Lord about is, um, you know, just asking, just, um, talking
is to the guy is if you're assuming there is going to be something formal,
you know, that, um, but you can do it from the perspective, not that you
don't trust him, but that, or that you're worried that, Oh my goodness.
Well, I need to make sure I have backup, but that you can understand
that you're, that you would like to present, uh, how, how I wear this.
I know what I'm trying to say.
How do I say it?
That you want to make sure that what it is that you are, can that, uh, you're,
that what it is that he's expecting is, um, you're fully understanding so that
you can, um, you can, uh, uh, be very, you can commit that thing to him.
So in other words, that you'd like to know what things that you are committing,
uh, that you, uh, sorry, it has been a while since I started talking
to all of this business language.
Here's my point that it's, that as opposed to thinking about like, what is
he, uh, try to protect yourself from him in this situation?
Like, okay, well, let's just make sure, you know, that you're going to, you're,
you're going to meet your end of the bargain.
And that I'm going to agree to this.
I'm going to agree to that.
It's your present presented more to him.
Like, look, you know, I would like to, um, you know, uh, uh, make sure that I
meet all of the commitments that you are expecting of me, I would like to
understand all of your expectations so that I can fully, um, understand what
it is that I would like to commit to you.
Or that's probably a bad word or way to express it.
But do you know what I'm saying?
Like you're trying to offer yourself to him in high integrity, but you
don't know what you're telling him.
You don't know what you're committing to, and you would like to have it spelled
out so that you, um, so that you can honor him by telling, by being very
forthright in what it is that you're agreeing to commit to him.
Does that make sense?
Yeah.
And, and so I do recommend that even with friends that all of that be, um,
that all that be a very formal because, and here's why.
And so if he, if he like, if it ever sounds a little, if it ever comes
across to him, if you can kind of tell him like maybe the way that he's, um,
or, Hey, this is how you can even open the conversation.
You're trying to honor him.
That is that the fact that you're not taking advantage of the situation just
because you're just friends.
Now you're not doing it.
I'm saying that that's how you would present it.
Like you would like to honor him by making sure that everything, um, that,
that you take this job seriously, that you understand that he's a friend of
yours and you are so excited, you know, that you're going to get to work
alongside him, but that you would like to commit to him a very professional
and relationship, um, in which, um, you, he, he, he, he, he holds you to
everything that he would not be afraid to hold a stranger to, does that make sense?
So you present yourself in such a way, like I would like to honor you by
offering that you hold me accountable in this professional way.
That's what I'm trying to say.
Does, is that helpful?
Yeah.
I need to jot that stuff down.
Not that you said it a little differently.
Yeah.
It took me a while.
How do I say what I'm trying to say?
Okay.
So.
Why didn't you just, ah, you just said it so well.
I will.
And basically, you know, just the fact that, um, you'd like to honor him by
allowing him to hold, by, um, asking that he holds you accountable by the normal
professional contractual standards that he would not be afraid to, or that he
would expect of a stranger that he would be hiring.
So does that mean that what if he's like, okay, so then what do you ask for?
Oh, well, no, you can then mention in there, you know, so there, you know, so
please, um, uh, you know, uh, send me the offer letter that you would like me to
sign the offer letter, any, any additional contracts that you have or, um, for the,
and for, um, in the employee or specific to the position, or you could refer to
them as documents, whatever you want to call them, but talk in such a way that
It's an assumption.
It's an expectation, as opposed to a demand from him.
Because again, you've prefaced all of this
with this whole thing of like, I'd
like to honor you by making sure that even though we're friends,
that you hold me to all of the normal contractual
professional agreements that you would anyone else.
So please feel free to send me the offer letter of what
it is you expected me, et cetera.
So I can agree to that, to commit that to you,
to commit myself to you in that.
It's putting yourself in a position
in which you're trying to honor him, as opposed to it
making it sound like, hey, look, I know we're friends,
but just to make sure that you're not
going to take advantage of me, you always
want to come at it from a heart of the father of like,
this is what I'm in your employee,
and I would like to honor you in that position.
My father will protect and provide for me,
but I would like to, and so therefore, I
have no need to protect myself.
I would just like to honor you in this.
And that lets you know what he's expecting of you,
so you can make sure to know what it is you're
committing yourself to.
Yeah.
OK, perfect.
All right, I got to get notes.
You have an awesome night.
Thank you so much.
You're welcome.
Have a good one.
I'm very excited for you.
Yay, me too.
OK, have a good sleep well.
I'm like, ah, it's so great to just feel like, OK,
this is just the next thing.
It doesn't have to be this ordeal.
Exactly.
It doesn't have to be an ordeal.
Exactly.
It does not, because there's no reason for all of the strife
that always made everything else a big deal before.
Hallelujah.
Yay.
Yay, so good.
Love you, girl.
Love you.
Talk to you soon.
OK, bye.
Bye.