WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:05.300 you messaged me and I saw your messages come through but I couldn't read like 2 00:00:05.300 --> 00:00:10.680 what they were saying and then because they're like trying to pop up as 3 00:00:10.680 --> 00:00:16.160 notifications and then and then another client of mine sent me to Marco Polo's 4 00:00:16.160 --> 00:00:20.080 and I'm like oh my gosh it just you know when it rains it pours all of a sudden 5 00:00:20.080 --> 00:00:24.640 everybody needs me to get back to them and I felt really bad which I say I 6 00:00:24.640 --> 00:00:28.740 felt really bad I've learned you to just rest and just know that okay it's all 7 00:00:28.740 --> 00:00:32.420 gonna be fine and I don't I like I don't like take it on as like this 8 00:00:32.420 --> 00:00:36.940 burden of like oh my word well I have to you know I told them that they could 9 00:00:36.940 --> 00:00:40.900 reach out to me and this that and the other I just like okay the Lord knew the 10 00:00:40.900 --> 00:00:44.980 Lord knows that I'm in the middle of something and he can take care of them 11 00:00:44.980 --> 00:00:52.500 and all of that so anyway but no no I'm that no I'm fine and so I don't know I 12 00:00:52.500 --> 00:00:55.980 thought there was something else gonna I was gonna tell you but no no no it's 13 00:00:55.980 --> 00:01:04.700 good so I find that you were what it was came up is really really interesting 14 00:01:04.700 --> 00:01:10.220 that you know you were reached out about a job opportunity anyway so what are 15 00:01:10.220 --> 00:01:19.780 your thoughts and yeah or have you already made a decision this is funny 16 00:01:19.780 --> 00:01:23.260 because it's like you know it's like a whirlwind but it's also God's like I'm 17 00:01:23.260 --> 00:01:27.620 always right on time right you know I'm thinking it's hard for me in this moment 18 00:01:27.620 --> 00:01:37.860 to even think of like not saying yes because of what it feels like is my only 19 00:01:37.860 --> 00:01:40.660 question I guess would be like okay am I thinking about this correctly but you 20 00:01:40.660 --> 00:01:47.820 know it feels like okay here I am been asking this question been considering 21 00:01:47.820 --> 00:01:52.180 just in the past a week especially you know like what does work look like and 22 00:01:52.180 --> 00:01:57.660 how do you want to meet our financial needs God and you know does it mean that 23 00:01:57.660 --> 00:02:03.940 I that doesn't mean that I you know take a job does it mean that I go job 24 00:02:03.940 --> 00:02:12.980 hunting that I trust you for the miraculous just being open to it meaning 25 00:02:12.980 --> 00:02:16.980 taking a job or job hunting right like yeah praying through that and then 26 00:02:16.980 --> 00:02:24.020 coming to the realization today just that with like I had some car stuff come 27 00:02:24.020 --> 00:02:27.980 up like a couple hundred dollars I spent on the car recently and I paid my 28 00:02:27.980 --> 00:02:33.020 attorney like a lot of money yeah you know I mean what's a lot of money for me 29 00:02:33.020 --> 00:02:39.220 right now correct and you know kind of like this this lump sum to like keep 30 00:02:39.220 --> 00:02:43.380 going which I don't even know if the Lord is gonna have us keep going or if 31 00:02:43.380 --> 00:02:47.740 he has somebody else in mind that's not a question I haven't answered yet but at 32 00:02:47.740 --> 00:02:53.380 least to honor her you know and pay for her and if anything does come up 33 00:02:53.380 --> 00:02:59.100 emergency I want to have representation in my situation you know like I don't 34 00:02:59.100 --> 00:03:03.900 want to be without an attorney so there's that and just various things I'm 35 00:03:03.900 --> 00:03:09.460 looking at my account today going I paid my rent like I'm like out of money like 36 00:03:09.460 --> 00:03:15.220 yeah this is going really fast like various things that you know come up and 37 00:03:15.220 --> 00:03:20.540 I'm like I'm like really out of money like what are we doing here yeah but I 38 00:03:20.540 --> 00:03:25.780 mean thankfully in that moment I mean a lot of things but thankfully I'd already 39 00:03:25.780 --> 00:03:32.340 had the conversation yesterday with this person about you know about a potential 40 00:03:32.340 --> 00:03:36.460 job and so at least I had you know like a bit of comfort because I was about to 41 00:03:36.460 --> 00:03:41.100 be like I'm not even gonna drive to go see my sister like maybe I should just 42 00:03:41.100 --> 00:03:48.180 not maybe I should just not move right now that might sound weird but it was 43 00:03:48.180 --> 00:03:51.340 like a moment of should I even spend the gas money you know maybe like should I 44 00:03:51.340 --> 00:03:55.980 even this feels like overwhelming in this moment to get to know like how to 45 00:03:55.980 --> 00:04:01.820 make sure I can pay everything that I need to pay next week you know yeah now 46 00:04:01.860 --> 00:04:08.060 now I'm all if I may I want to interject here with an encouragement that I'm 47 00:04:08.060 --> 00:04:15.340 excited that you and that you went ahead and did it because it's not faith if it 48 00:04:15.340 --> 00:04:20.940 like say for instance if we're if we're hungry or not not hungry but it's not 49 00:04:20.940 --> 00:04:24.780 it's not faith that we like okay Lord you're gonna provide for me but I'm 50 00:04:24.780 --> 00:04:31.820 gonna sit here and not spend money on food just just in case and because you 51 00:04:31.820 --> 00:04:35.460 know I'm trying to save and I'm trying to diss on the other and I'm using food 52 00:04:35.460 --> 00:04:39.940 as an example in other words it's like by our actions we're showing that we 53 00:04:39.940 --> 00:04:44.620 don't believe he will provide because we're going into survival mode we're 54 00:04:44.620 --> 00:04:49.100 going into self-protection etc so what would you normally have done you normally 55 00:04:49.100 --> 00:04:53.220 have gone to see your sister so you go and you see your sister and that's 56 00:04:53.220 --> 00:04:57.980 proving to the Lord okay Lord I'm declaring here this is me operating the 57 00:04:57.980 --> 00:05:01.860 way that I usually do because I know 58 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:23.180 Oh, and I'm proving by my actions that I do believe that you are going to provide for me because you're not spending money. You don't have you're spending money that you do. And you're saying, Lord, you will provide for me as my bills come up because that is who it is that you are. And I'm declaring that is who you are, not just by my faith, but by my actions. So anyway, I just wanted to encourage you in that 59 00:05:23.340 --> 00:05:30.940 Yeah, you were showing your faith by doing it. It's in fear that we that we shift that we that we shut down. 60 00:05:31.420 --> 00:05:39.460 And I remember at some point. Yeah, no, that's such a good explanation. I remember being like you said, like you said, God, like I was half crying and half like declaring 61 00:05:39.500 --> 00:05:41.380 Yeah, in the car on the drive. 62 00:05:43.780 --> 00:05:46.740 That's right. That's right. 63 00:05:46.740 --> 00:05:57.060 So yeah, so I went and saw my sister and my dad and stuff. You know, bless that time because there was, there's a lot of, you know, there's just like some 64 00:05:57.860 --> 00:05:58.540 stuff there. 65 00:05:58.940 --> 00:06:06.140 You know, stuff. Yeah, that were you're like, I don't even know what I'm going into right now. But you bless that time. And that was good. 66 00:06:06.140 --> 00:06:18.860 And so, yeah, I think, as I was about to leave tonight to come home. I got a message saying, we want to go ahead and move forward. Like, can you put on your two weeks notice 67 00:06:20.060 --> 00:06:21.100 From this 68 00:06:22.220 --> 00:06:23.780 Yeah, from from this 69 00:06:25.220 --> 00:06:26.260 Current part time job. 70 00:06:28.900 --> 00:06:29.700 Well, so 71 00:06:30.100 --> 00:06:35.580 I because things have been so fast paced in terms of like shifting and changing the past several months. 72 00:06:37.500 --> 00:06:45.180 Like I haven't tried to update everybody in my life. I've seen people in my life like on everything that's been shifting and changing. Does that make sense. So yes, my friend who 73 00:06:47.140 --> 00:06:57.540 Like I've known for five years. He's my, you know, my chiropractor, but the one who who's on me to be as a system or whatever he has known he was there for like 74 00:06:57.540 --> 00:07:17.380 The worst of the worst, like the worst of the worst and everything went down four years ago, he and his wife were there in a moment of absolute emergency. Yeah, so it was like one of those like it's not like they don't know me well, but I also don't feel the need to give them a play by play. Yeah, because, you know, we just we see each other on a regular basis and all that I had not 75 00:07:17.380 --> 00:07:32.260 Updated him on everything from like my job like my full time job, you know, for the mental health collaborative, which is through health that I was doing full time to like the marketing jobs I had taken to when they fell through with coven. And yeah, I used to think I had not 76 00:07:32.820 --> 00:07:46.380 Filled him in on all that like kind of just intentionally because it's too much for me to try to go and re explain it honestly like rehab. Yeah, we have to. There's all the uncertainty. Yeah. So when he brought this up that he was like, Oh, I'm not going to do this. 77 00:07:47.380 --> 00:07:55.420 I was just meeting somebody that was weeks ago and I just remember, you know, I've tipped him off probably to the fact that I was either 78 00:07:56.300 --> 00:08:07.620 Thinking about who could be a good fit, you know, because I do network a lot and just try to help people find somebody that would be like a great fit for them or asking for myself, but I asked him questions about, you know, what he was looking for, like, 79 00:08:07.860 --> 00:08:17.980 What kind of hours or whatever, you know, and I was just, you know, putting feelers out there, but asking casually to and then went ahead and let them go forward with the hiring process, but 80 00:08:18.900 --> 00:08:29.980 I wasn't stuck on it. I was just kind of like, I don't feel like I was saying go for it, but I cracked the door open a little and then I just let it ride. Right. So weeks went by, they hired somebody 81 00:08:30.460 --> 00:08:37.900 They had somebody that was finishing up. She was moving so she was still willing to come in that month and then they hired somebody, I guess, and she fell through. 82 00:08:38.740 --> 00:08:48.140 And so just last week. So they ended up, you know, in training with her and then she kind of, it just wasn't a good fit. And the end. And so they're 83 00:08:48.940 --> 00:08:56.860 They're in need. And so when I saw him got adjusted went over to their house this time because sometimes a lot of times at the office, but once in a while. 84 00:08:56.900 --> 00:09:04.580 I just said, you know, how was that all going and, you know, he's like, yeah, we're just kind of looking in the immediate and it was really 85 00:09:05.060 --> 00:09:20.380 A lot, you know, on gene to like go through training her and not have a workout, but, you know, it was for the best. And I was like, okay, you know, what is it that you're like, what's your vision for the office, you know, like this time asking questions with a little bit more intention. 86 00:09:20.540 --> 00:09:21.020 Because 87 00:09:21.140 --> 00:09:36.260 I, like I said, just in the past week and a half or so I felt like that opened up a need to feel like okay maybe explore just the possibility of a job right now, which clearly I did if my bank accounts training, but I didn't realize how much it was how fast it was raining. 88 00:09:37.300 --> 00:09:45.940 So I feel a little bit sheepish but I think God's good and all of it because I was like, okay, God, I know, but I was trying not to worry about it, but I know that we don't have a lot longer here. 89 00:09:45.940 --> 00:09:52.300 Yeah, you're, you're being bothered into this so you and you've never and you've never done this before. 90 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.080 And so there's a journey. 91 00:10:02.080 --> 00:10:03.120 You don't have to worry that, 92 00:10:03.120 --> 00:10:04.900 oh my goodness, you know, am I doing it right? 93 00:10:04.900 --> 00:10:07.040 No, just follow the heart of the father 94 00:10:07.040 --> 00:10:11.560 and do the best that you understand he's saying to do 95 00:10:11.560 --> 00:10:13.340 and you're gonna be fine. 96 00:10:14.880 --> 00:10:15.720 Yeah. 97 00:10:15.720 --> 00:10:17.280 Sorry to interrupt, go ahead. 98 00:10:17.280 --> 00:10:18.320 No, that's really good. 99 00:10:18.320 --> 00:10:19.920 I hope you keep interrupting. 100 00:10:19.920 --> 00:10:23.120 It's so much better than what I'm gonna say. 101 00:10:23.120 --> 00:10:25.600 It's a lot more assured. 102 00:10:25.600 --> 00:10:27.600 So I need to hear those things. 103 00:10:27.600 --> 00:10:31.400 So long story short, his answer was, you know, 104 00:10:31.400 --> 00:10:33.520 well, I mean, I need somebody that's really, 105 00:10:33.520 --> 00:10:36.400 that's, you know, teachable and, you know, 106 00:10:36.400 --> 00:10:37.520 humble and honest and, you know, 107 00:10:37.520 --> 00:10:39.960 willing to learn and, you know, 108 00:10:39.960 --> 00:10:42.280 good with patients and able to talk to people 109 00:10:42.280 --> 00:10:45.040 and describing this. 110 00:10:45.040 --> 00:10:46.320 And I said, you know, okay, 111 00:10:46.320 --> 00:10:49.480 so what would be your ideal person versus your like, 112 00:10:49.480 --> 00:10:51.440 I'll, you know, I would take this kind of person 113 00:10:51.440 --> 00:10:52.680 cause I'm in need. 114 00:10:52.680 --> 00:10:54.360 And, but what do you really want versus that? 115 00:10:54.360 --> 00:10:55.520 So he kind of described that and he was like, 116 00:10:55.520 --> 00:10:57.120 well, actually I have a little piece of paper 117 00:10:57.640 --> 00:10:59.880 and he had a typed list of his like 20 qualities 118 00:10:59.880 --> 00:11:00.960 he was looking for in somebody. 119 00:11:00.960 --> 00:11:03.040 And like, I picked up the list and read it 120 00:11:03.040 --> 00:11:04.240 and I'm like, well, that's, 121 00:11:04.240 --> 00:11:06.200 I know that I'm all those things, you know, 122 00:11:06.200 --> 00:11:08.880 like I know that that fits, you know, 123 00:11:08.880 --> 00:11:10.680 just kind of as we were talking and, 124 00:11:12.120 --> 00:11:14.840 and so we just sort of explore like, 125 00:11:14.840 --> 00:11:15.920 what would it look like? 126 00:11:15.920 --> 00:11:19.640 And I said, you know, I've clearly, 127 00:11:19.640 --> 00:11:21.200 I've run a chiropractic office before. 128 00:11:21.200 --> 00:11:25.120 That's, you know, that's how I know him or, you know, 129 00:11:25.160 --> 00:11:28.000 or colleagues back, back in the day, 130 00:11:28.000 --> 00:11:32.080 like when I was married to a chiropractor and we ran, 131 00:11:32.080 --> 00:11:33.480 each ran our own office. 132 00:11:33.480 --> 00:11:34.800 And so, you know, I was like, 133 00:11:34.800 --> 00:11:36.520 both of us know that I can do that. 134 00:11:36.520 --> 00:11:38.680 So I feel like I know how, 135 00:11:38.680 --> 00:11:41.280 as in I'm already well-versed in all of this. 136 00:11:41.280 --> 00:11:45.400 This is my nutrition, chiropractic wellness world that, 137 00:11:45.400 --> 00:11:48.400 you know, I lived for a lot of my marriage. 138 00:11:48.400 --> 00:11:49.360 Correct. 139 00:11:49.360 --> 00:11:51.200 Going through grad school, you know, 140 00:11:51.200 --> 00:11:52.040 with him and all that, 141 00:11:52.040 --> 00:11:53.520 cause we were married when he went through school 142 00:11:53.520 --> 00:11:55.880 and did his whole everything afterward. 143 00:11:55.880 --> 00:11:56.920 And then we ran a few offices. 144 00:11:56.920 --> 00:11:59.360 So including our own, so I was like, you know, 145 00:11:59.360 --> 00:12:01.040 I know that I can do that. 146 00:12:01.040 --> 00:12:03.200 And, you know, I'm kind of at this crossroads. 147 00:12:03.200 --> 00:12:05.280 I just shared honestly, like, you know, 148 00:12:05.280 --> 00:12:06.840 this is where I'm at. 149 00:12:06.840 --> 00:12:10.440 You know, I have, I have this LLC set up 150 00:12:10.440 --> 00:12:13.360 and then the intention of moving into, you know, 151 00:12:13.360 --> 00:12:14.560 more coaching consulting. 152 00:12:14.560 --> 00:12:18.160 But I just really feel like I'm also not wanting 153 00:12:18.160 --> 00:12:21.040 to just run into that right now with everything up 154 00:12:21.040 --> 00:12:24.720 in the air and do the entrepreneurial thing 155 00:12:24.720 --> 00:12:29.720 without something also, you know, stable and consistent. 156 00:12:30.560 --> 00:12:32.960 And so here's what I'm kind of looking forward to. 157 00:12:32.960 --> 00:12:35.000 So we talked and then I ended up talking with his wife 158 00:12:35.000 --> 00:12:37.560 and, you know, touched base with her 159 00:12:37.560 --> 00:12:39.280 and then talked to her in a while 160 00:12:39.280 --> 00:12:41.320 and just kind of said good night. 161 00:12:41.320 --> 00:12:42.920 And it was fun fun chatting with you 162 00:12:42.920 --> 00:12:43.760 and that kind of thing. 163 00:12:43.760 --> 00:12:45.240 And then tonight he texted me and said 164 00:12:45.240 --> 00:12:48.280 that we want to move forward, you know, 165 00:12:48.280 --> 00:12:50.120 go ahead and put in your two weeks or whatever. 166 00:12:50.200 --> 00:12:51.720 So I'm like, okay. 167 00:12:51.720 --> 00:12:55.520 So it feels like, I don't know. 168 00:12:55.520 --> 00:13:00.040 It just feels like an obvious like thing. 169 00:13:00.040 --> 00:13:03.360 I mean, I normally would question a lot more like, 170 00:13:03.360 --> 00:13:04.400 okay, God, what do you think? 171 00:13:04.400 --> 00:13:06.560 You know, and are we, am I seeing, 172 00:13:06.560 --> 00:13:08.040 am I looking at all my options here? 173 00:13:08.040 --> 00:13:11.560 And, but it feels like, okay, I have this need. 174 00:13:11.560 --> 00:13:14.320 Our bank account is literally running out of money 175 00:13:14.320 --> 00:13:18.200 and someone is saying, I want to hire you to work 176 00:13:18.200 --> 00:13:20.320 and do something that I know I know how to do 177 00:13:20.320 --> 00:13:22.640 and that I could do without feeling stressed. 178 00:13:24.840 --> 00:13:27.200 You know, that's the most baseline way of saying it, 179 00:13:27.200 --> 00:13:32.040 like in the moment, you know, it's like, okay, I don't know. 180 00:13:33.640 --> 00:13:36.520 But it's also very, very quick, you know, in a term, 181 00:13:36.520 --> 00:13:40.040 but it feels like a turn that's meeting a need. 182 00:13:40.040 --> 00:13:41.000 I don't know. 183 00:13:41.000 --> 00:13:43.320 That's what I do now. 184 00:13:43.360 --> 00:13:44.200 Yeah. 185 00:13:45.640 --> 00:13:50.440 So, Abby, what do you feel about, you know, 186 00:13:50.440 --> 00:13:55.440 where is your, okay, so have you thought 187 00:13:55.840 --> 00:13:58.160 about what your soul wants? 188 00:13:59.680 --> 00:14:02.040 Your soul, I'm assuming, wants to take the job. 189 00:14:02.040 --> 00:14:02.880 Is that right? 190 00:14:04.240 --> 00:14:05.520 Or is it afraid to take the job? 191 00:14:05.520 --> 00:14:07.600 I'm talking about your soul, not your spirit. 192 00:14:08.920 --> 00:14:12.520 My soul, and here's why I want to ask. 193 00:14:12.520 --> 00:14:15.080 It's important because your spirit, soul, and body, 194 00:14:15.080 --> 00:14:17.480 you are spirit, but you have a soul and you're in a body. 195 00:14:17.480 --> 00:14:18.960 The point is you're all one. 196 00:14:18.960 --> 00:14:21.760 And it's very important that we don't disregard the soul. 197 00:14:21.760 --> 00:14:23.040 Our soul is a very good thing. 198 00:14:23.040 --> 00:14:26.000 It's not bad and it needs to have its say. 199 00:14:27.120 --> 00:14:28.160 Does that make sense? 200 00:14:28.160 --> 00:14:29.400 Yeah, I've heard you say that before. 201 00:14:29.400 --> 00:14:30.240 That's good. 202 00:14:30.240 --> 00:14:31.080 Okay. 203 00:14:31.080 --> 00:14:36.080 I don't know if it's different for me to ask, 204 00:14:36.680 --> 00:14:37.520 like, what is my soul? 205 00:14:37.520 --> 00:14:39.960 Like, what does my soul say versus my spirit? 206 00:14:40.000 --> 00:14:43.000 Sometimes they get a little bit mixed, 207 00:14:43.000 --> 00:14:43.920 but I do know what you're saying. 208 00:14:43.920 --> 00:14:45.720 Like, what do I want to do? 209 00:14:45.720 --> 00:14:46.840 Yeah, what do you want to do 210 00:14:46.840 --> 00:14:50.840 without constantly second-guessing yourself 211 00:14:50.840 --> 00:14:55.840 and asking what do, like, if God said, hey, 212 00:14:57.800 --> 00:14:59.520 any option in the world that you could, 213 00:14:59.520 --> 00:15:00.360 that you could, 214 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.160 want to do, if you could pick a million dollars, if you could do that, you know, if you could 215 00:15:04.160 --> 00:15:08.240 do whatever it is your soul currently wants to do right now, what would it do? 216 00:15:08.240 --> 00:15:09.240 What does it want? 217 00:15:09.240 --> 00:15:13.040 What is it of your options that I'm talking about, you know, of your current options right 218 00:15:13.040 --> 00:15:14.040 now? 219 00:15:14.040 --> 00:15:16.720 And you know, that you're looking at deciding what does your soul want to do so that your 220 00:15:16.720 --> 00:15:21.480 soul so that you acknowledge it and it feels like it's been heard. 221 00:15:21.480 --> 00:15:28.080 Yeah, because God wants you to bring yourself to the table in a relationship with him. 222 00:15:28.080 --> 00:15:35.360 Yeah, it's interesting because in this case, it's like my soul wants to be not stressed 223 00:15:35.360 --> 00:15:43.320 and my soul wants to not, like I want to take, I want to take it because I don't, well not, 224 00:15:43.320 --> 00:15:50.800 I don't want to say because and then that's as if that's my final answer, but my soul 225 00:15:50.800 --> 00:16:00.960 wants to be at rest knowing that I'm providing and that I have the ability to not have to 226 00:16:00.960 --> 00:16:06.400 be in all this, this flux and questioning and whatever with, with paying our bills and 227 00:16:06.400 --> 00:16:10.800 financially supporting us and wondering how I'm going to look to the courts with the girls 228 00:16:10.800 --> 00:16:11.800 and all these different things. 229 00:16:11.800 --> 00:16:17.760 Like I'm kind of ready for that, even though, you know, of course my heart, you know, ultimately 230 00:16:17.760 --> 00:16:23.080 is it's just really to work full time for the Lord, doing the things that I'm most passionate 231 00:16:23.080 --> 00:16:27.360 about and that I feel called to do, but I feel like this doesn't, isn't apart from not 232 00:16:27.360 --> 00:16:34.040 necessarily I love people, but I feel like I can do what I'm doing, you know, alongside 233 00:16:34.040 --> 00:16:35.040 it. 234 00:16:35.040 --> 00:16:42.520 I feel like it allows for me to still be as much as he is, is leading me to, you know, 235 00:16:42.520 --> 00:16:48.120 doing the things I'm already doing with women and kind of slowly building into that without 236 00:16:48.120 --> 00:16:55.800 doing a full time or doing nothing because I'm just freaked out, which isn't a good option 237 00:16:55.800 --> 00:16:56.800 for me. 238 00:16:56.800 --> 00:16:57.800 Yeah. 239 00:16:57.800 --> 00:17:01.960 I don't want that either, you know, to be kind of stuck or, or unsure and living in 240 00:17:01.960 --> 00:17:08.280 limbo or stress and torn, which it feels like it's gotten to that place. 241 00:17:08.280 --> 00:17:09.280 Yeah. 242 00:17:09.280 --> 00:17:16.720 So in the end, what about, what about your, so now that your soul's headed say, what about 243 00:17:16.720 --> 00:17:17.720 your spirit? 244 00:17:17.720 --> 00:17:19.480 What do you want in your spirit? 245 00:17:19.480 --> 00:17:23.119 So shift out of your soul for a second, so to speak, and the fact that don't worry about 246 00:17:23.119 --> 00:17:28.720 like what the real answer might be and what it might mean, you know, don't, don't just 247 00:17:28.720 --> 00:17:32.800 let go of that for a second, because whatever it is that you decide that you see in the 248 00:17:32.800 --> 00:17:37.720 spirit doesn't mean that that's what it is that you're going to choose because your soul 249 00:17:37.720 --> 00:17:39.680 is going to get to choose. 250 00:17:39.680 --> 00:17:43.320 So because your spirit's already made its choice. 251 00:17:43.320 --> 00:17:48.440 You're trying to figure out, is your soul going to choose to agree with your spirit 252 00:17:48.440 --> 00:17:52.680 that it, the spirit is the truth, or if it wants to choose something else and remember 253 00:17:52.680 --> 00:17:57.000 that whatever you choose, you're not in a place of shame or condemnation. 254 00:17:57.000 --> 00:18:04.640 You just, it's just the father's, you know, process of fathering you into relationship 255 00:18:04.640 --> 00:18:09.800 with him, making decisions together with him, hearing his fault, hearing his heart, 256 00:18:09.800 --> 00:18:14.800 hearing your heart, and all of that takes, takes, you know, it's this journey to understand 257 00:18:14.800 --> 00:18:20.160 how to do it exactly and who you are and who he is and where you begin, where he ends and 258 00:18:20.160 --> 00:18:21.160 blah, blah, blah. 259 00:18:21.160 --> 00:18:27.480 So, so anyway, in other words, my whole point is don't be afraid. 260 00:18:27.480 --> 00:18:28.480 Don't be afraid. 261 00:18:28.480 --> 00:18:31.720 Your soul had it say, you now know, you've now acknowledged what it is you want to do. 262 00:18:31.720 --> 00:18:37.840 So now freely explore what your spirit, what you feel in your spirit, and you're not making 263 00:18:37.840 --> 00:18:39.080 a decision. 264 00:18:39.080 --> 00:18:44.920 You're just letting your spirit have it say, where do you feel your peace is at in your 265 00:18:44.920 --> 00:18:45.920 spirit? 266 00:18:45.920 --> 00:18:48.120 Not, what do you think you should do? 267 00:18:48.120 --> 00:18:49.800 What do you think you shouldn't do? 268 00:18:49.800 --> 00:18:50.800 None of that. 269 00:18:50.800 --> 00:18:55.040 What, where does your fear, when you look at your different options, when you look at 270 00:18:55.040 --> 00:19:00.560 not taking the job and doing X, Y, and Z instead, I don't know what it would be staying with 271 00:19:00.560 --> 00:19:02.640 your part-time job or doing something else. 272 00:19:02.640 --> 00:19:03.640 I don't know. 273 00:19:03.640 --> 00:19:04.640 You know, putting out your resume. 274 00:19:04.640 --> 00:19:07.840 I don't know what other options you're looking at when you look at all of those. 275 00:19:07.840 --> 00:19:13.480 And when you look at taking this job, where does your spirit suddenly settle into peace? 276 00:19:13.480 --> 00:19:19.080 In other words, you're like, my spirit knows that not only can God come through in this 277 00:19:19.080 --> 00:19:22.280 way, he will. 278 00:19:22.280 --> 00:19:26.800 Where does your peace tell you your faith is currently at? 279 00:19:26.800 --> 00:19:29.080 What does it currently believe about the character of God? 280 00:19:29.080 --> 00:19:34.360 And none of it is wrong, by the way, no matter what, what you discover. 281 00:19:34.360 --> 00:19:35.360 Okay. 282 00:19:35.360 --> 00:19:41.480 I feel like my piece is on taking it. 283 00:19:41.480 --> 00:19:43.800 Well, there you go. 284 00:19:43.800 --> 00:19:50.120 So you know, so you believe that that is where you feel that your, that, um, your, that God 285 00:19:50.120 --> 00:19:51.720 will come through for you. 286 00:19:51.720 --> 00:19:57.200 In other words, you're just like, that is where my father is speaking to from that. 287 00:19:57.200 --> 00:20:00.000 That is where my father's character is being. 288 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:06.480 simplified and calling me from that, Lisbeth, I am this good and I am this much love. Is 289 00:20:06.480 --> 00:20:07.480 that accurate? 290 00:20:07.480 --> 00:20:16.040 Yeah, I think so. I mean, I think so. Yeah, they do line up. I know that there's this 291 00:20:16.040 --> 00:20:22.880 like, I don't know what this part is called. This is a soul or this is just the past, you 292 00:20:22.880 --> 00:20:32.880 know, a way of trying to look at all possible options and overthinking or what you call 293 00:20:32.880 --> 00:20:37.880 it. But, you know, there's this part of me that's like, OK, but, you know, the questioning 294 00:20:37.880 --> 00:20:43.000 part of me that's like, OK, but should I think about it? Could it really be that simple? 295 00:20:43.000 --> 00:20:47.680 What if this or, you know what I mean? Like, should I should I take just the first option 296 00:20:47.680 --> 00:20:52.120 that comes along? Like, is it better to put out my resume and look for something that's 297 00:20:52.120 --> 00:20:57.640 got benefits and not just this or whatever? But then this other part of me is like, not 298 00:20:57.640 --> 00:21:01.120 at all. I mean, you know, it comes back to the piece that I have both soul and spirit 299 00:21:01.120 --> 00:21:07.120 on, like, OK, yeah, but that's like more stress. There's no guarantees there. There's no guarantee 300 00:21:07.120 --> 00:21:11.120 of tomorrow. And I don't know what's going to happen in the fall or with the state of 301 00:21:11.120 --> 00:21:16.120 the economy and the world and COVID and all of that. Like, I can't do that no matter what 302 00:21:17.120 --> 00:21:27.120 you know. I'm not going to be able to predict what's going to happen or what could happen. 303 00:21:27.120 --> 00:21:33.120 Plus, it's more stress and time than I have right now to go look for something different 304 00:21:33.120 --> 00:21:38.120 or better. And here God's giving me what I feel is that he's giving me something that 305 00:21:38.120 --> 00:21:44.120 meets my needs right now and in every way, like in the sense that the timing is like 306 00:21:44.120 --> 00:21:52.120 now, now, you know, like as soon as me and the girls get back from their first, you know, 307 00:21:52.120 --> 00:21:59.120 getaway since our divorce four years ago, like their first, you know, exciting trip 308 00:21:59.120 --> 00:22:03.120 that they look forward to so much that's already set in stone. Like, that's when they need 309 00:22:03.120 --> 00:22:07.120 me, like they're willing to wait for me until after that trip so I don't have to feel bad 310 00:22:07.120 --> 00:22:11.120 about the fact that we're taking it, but it also is an immediate job when I get back, 311 00:22:11.120 --> 00:22:20.120 you know. And it's also, you know, just more pay than my barista job, which is not even 312 00:22:20.120 --> 00:22:30.120 a full-time option. And so even though I don't have benefits because of, you know, small 313 00:22:31.120 --> 00:22:38.120 business and stuff, I do trust them and I do have an hourly wage that's livable and 314 00:22:38.120 --> 00:22:46.120 doable, like offered to me for something that I know I can do and I've done before. 315 00:22:46.120 --> 00:22:53.120 Yeah, so all of this stuff that you're talking about, those are all kinds of reasons that 316 00:22:54.120 --> 00:23:00.120 because we're in the habit of believing that we're on our own and we have to, that God 317 00:23:00.120 --> 00:23:06.120 won't, that God is holding out on us, that we won't be protected and provided for. So 318 00:23:06.120 --> 00:23:13.120 we have to figure out what sounds wise, what sounds good, what sounds evil, to avoid the 319 00:23:13.120 --> 00:23:19.120 evil and pick the good and what's the wise decision. And do you hear our training? It 320 00:23:19.120 --> 00:23:25.120 makes it very, very complicated. And so in other words, that, and that also creates more 321 00:23:25.120 --> 00:23:29.120 stress. So my whole point in telling you that is just to kind of, you know, encourage you 322 00:23:29.120 --> 00:23:40.120 that you go wherever your spirit is at peace. You're no longer, you no longer are, have 323 00:23:40.120 --> 00:23:46.120 to live believing that, oh my goodness, I have to figure this out. You know, oh, well 324 00:23:46.120 --> 00:23:51.120 this makes sense. And this, or this doesn't make sense. Well since according to who, since 325 00:23:51.120 --> 00:23:56.120 according to the world and Christians that believe that they're on their own and they 326 00:23:56.120 --> 00:24:00.120 have to figure it out. And so we went to school and we went to Sunday school and we went to 327 00:24:00.120 --> 00:24:05.120 college in order to learn how to make quote unquote logical decisions. So the point is 328 00:24:05.120 --> 00:24:10.120 you, that is where a lot of our soul gets all of that anxiety, all of that worry. And 329 00:24:10.120 --> 00:24:14.120 it thinks, oh my goodness, I got to figure this out. Is this the right decision or not 330 00:24:14.120 --> 00:24:21.120 the right decision? Or, oh, this makes sense or doesn't make sense. Now in your situation, 331 00:24:21.120 --> 00:24:29.120 people can see how the logic of the soul is lining up with where your spirit is feeling 332 00:24:29.120 --> 00:24:36.120 at peace. But my point in telling you this now is that it doesn't always line up, which 333 00:24:36.120 --> 00:24:41.120 you're very familiar with. You're very familiar with the fact that people have been telling 334 00:24:41.120 --> 00:24:46.120 you to look for a job for months and you're like, that is not where my peace is at. So 335 00:24:46.120 --> 00:24:51.120 you're very familiar with the dichotomy of following your spirit, following where your 336 00:24:51.120 --> 00:24:56.120 peace is at versus logic of the world. I'm just relieving, I'm trying to encourage you 337 00:24:56.120 --> 00:25:00.120 to relieve yourself and to recognize it in this moment. 338 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:04.440 that, that all of the kids you're thinking about, okay, what's my spirit saying versus 339 00:25:04.440 --> 00:25:05.440 my soul? 340 00:25:05.440 --> 00:25:10.280 And then there's all this logistics of, well, this makes sense because, and no, no, no, 341 00:25:10.280 --> 00:25:14.800 it makes sense because that is where your father is telling you to go. 342 00:25:14.800 --> 00:25:20.520 That is where your father says, this is where I am, Lisbeth, I am in this job and I'm, I'm, 343 00:25:20.520 --> 00:25:22.520 I will make it happen for you. 344 00:25:22.520 --> 00:25:25.760 I will not, not make the job happen for you. 345 00:25:25.760 --> 00:25:28.380 I will meet you there. 346 00:25:28.380 --> 00:25:32.140 This is my provision for you and you follow your spirit. 347 00:25:32.140 --> 00:25:37.580 That is that here's your father's heart and you're no longer left alone to figure out 348 00:25:37.580 --> 00:25:41.220 what sounds wise or doesn't sound wise. 349 00:25:41.220 --> 00:25:45.740 So I just wanted to encourage you in that, even though the soul and the spirit logic 350 00:25:45.740 --> 00:25:48.940 seems to match up at this time, it doesn't always. 351 00:25:48.940 --> 00:25:52.060 And I just wanted you to know, you know, we can just be relieved of all of that. 352 00:25:52.060 --> 00:25:54.420 We can live in more freedom. 353 00:25:54.420 --> 00:25:56.420 So we don't have, does that all make sense? 354 00:25:56.460 --> 00:25:58.460 Yeah, I think it does. 355 00:25:58.460 --> 00:26:05.460 And it's interesting because I don't know, it's just interesting. 356 00:26:05.460 --> 00:26:10.460 It's almost like my brain on default is, is, is, feels like it needs to question something 357 00:26:10.460 --> 00:26:13.460 that I don't even really, truly feel like to be questioned. 358 00:26:13.460 --> 00:26:14.460 Yeah. 359 00:26:14.460 --> 00:26:19.460 It's like, it's like, why am I, but it's just because it's a pivot all of a sudden. 360 00:26:19.460 --> 00:26:20.460 Correct. 361 00:26:20.500 --> 00:26:21.500 Yeah. 362 00:26:41.500 --> 00:26:42.500 Yeah. 363 00:26:42.500 --> 00:26:43.500 Yeah. 364 00:26:43.500 --> 00:26:44.500 Correct. 365 00:26:44.500 --> 00:26:45.500 Yeah, that's exactly right. 366 00:26:45.540 --> 00:26:51.540 It's like we're walking through, but it's, it's giving the soul, it's trying to get the 367 00:26:51.540 --> 00:26:56.540 soul peace and assurance that yes, this is truly the right decision. 368 00:26:56.540 --> 00:27:02.540 When really, you know, if, if, if this is where your spirit's at, well then good. 369 00:27:02.540 --> 00:27:07.540 That's all you need to know, you know, you know, and that's where, that's where we can 370 00:27:07.540 --> 00:27:08.540 choose that. 371 00:27:08.580 --> 00:27:11.580 That's where we're going to just rest in our peace. 372 00:27:11.580 --> 00:27:19.580 Because otherwise, if you, if, if we make a decision and then we try to convince in 373 00:27:19.580 --> 00:27:22.580 peace and then we try to convince ourselves logically that it's right. 374 00:27:22.580 --> 00:27:25.580 Even if it does logically seem to make sense. 375 00:27:25.580 --> 00:27:35.580 If something, if, if there is something, if something happens down the road where your 376 00:27:35.620 --> 00:27:41.620 soul starts to struggle again in something that you believed was logical and that your 377 00:27:41.620 --> 00:27:48.620 spirit found peace in, then it's, it's, it's going to be torture trying to figure out going 378 00:27:48.620 --> 00:27:49.620 backwards. 379 00:27:49.620 --> 00:27:52.620 Hindsight 2020, should I or shouldn't I have taken this job? 380 00:27:52.620 --> 00:27:56.620 When really the only thing that you know, should you should know in those moments when 381 00:27:56.620 --> 00:28:02.620 your soul is struggling is yes, but God said he would be here and I am claiming that my 382 00:28:02.620 --> 00:28:04.620 God said that he's here and therefore he is. 383 00:28:04.660 --> 00:28:05.660 And that's what I'm telling my soul. 384 00:28:05.660 --> 00:28:09.660 And that's what I'm telling myself, as opposed to having the logic, as opposed to when your 385 00:28:09.660 --> 00:28:14.660 soul is in turmoil or it's questioning things or there's a struggle, it's like, well, wait 386 00:28:14.660 --> 00:28:17.660 a minute, you know, was this, or wasn't this the right job take? 387 00:28:17.660 --> 00:28:22.660 Well, you know, you knew for sure that you got your peace in your spirit, but you know, 388 00:28:22.660 --> 00:28:26.660 you know, all of this and because you've been living it for so long. 389 00:28:28.660 --> 00:28:32.660 Anyway, so I don't even know if what I said resonated. 390 00:28:32.700 --> 00:28:33.700 Oh, that's really good. 391 00:28:34.700 --> 00:28:37.700 Anyway, just wanted to, just wanted to encourage you. 392 00:28:37.700 --> 00:28:40.700 I'm telling you what, you've done an absolutely amazing job. 393 00:28:42.700 --> 00:28:48.700 And I, you know, just, it would sound like a really weird way to say that because I know 394 00:28:48.700 --> 00:28:53.700 it sounds like, you know, our old mindset way of talking about it, but I just mean that 395 00:28:53.700 --> 00:29:00.700 you've done amazing in, in choosing your father and in choosing your father's heart through 396 00:29:00.740 --> 00:29:01.740 all of this. 397 00:29:01.740 --> 00:29:09.740 And in such a situation where not only are, can someone feel the threats in your situation 398 00:29:09.740 --> 00:29:15.740 of the, the monetary threats, you know, the financial threats, you know, what look like 399 00:29:15.740 --> 00:29:20.740 threats according to the world's perspective, but also where your children are involved 400 00:29:20.740 --> 00:29:23.740 where, you know, and, and all of that. 401 00:29:23.740 --> 00:29:27.740 And those are things that really, really pull on us. 402 00:29:27.780 --> 00:29:33.780 And with all of those things where the wind in the ways look a particular way that would 403 00:29:33.780 --> 00:29:34.780 terrify people. 404 00:29:34.780 --> 00:29:36.780 And I'm sure it terrified you as well. 405 00:29:36.780 --> 00:29:41.780 You chose God repeatedly in the face of all of those things. 406 00:29:41.780 --> 00:29:43.780 And it's absolutely amazing. 407 00:29:43.780 --> 00:29:48.780 And your father is extremely, our father is extremely, extremely pleased. 408 00:29:50.780 --> 00:29:52.780 So I just wanted to encourage you. 409 00:29:52.820 --> 00:29:56.820 Thank you so much for saying those things. 410 00:29:56.820 --> 00:29:57.820 It really is amazing. 411 00:29:57.820 --> 00:29:58.820 It's very encouraging. 412 00:29:58.820 --> 00:29:59.820 It's very. 413 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:09.400 encouraging to me and to my faith. You know, that's what we're supposed to do for each other is we receive when we watch our father come through for other sons. 414 00:30:09.840 --> 00:30:18.960 That is how he comes through for us to so I see your situation. And I'm hearing you how he's revealing himself to you and he's like, 415 00:30:19.400 --> 00:30:24.760 Hey, you know what, Elizabeth believes that I will provide her. Therefore, I will send her a job. She did not see coming 416 00:30:25.320 --> 00:30:32.360 And I'm like, that's what my God did for me. And so I can remind him of that, you know, tonight, tomorrow, and just like a word. 417 00:30:32.880 --> 00:30:47.560 You know, you know, I remember when you when I was looking for a job and when my, my little girls were, you know, this, that, and the other. And you came for you and you brought me a job out of nowhere, out of thin air. 418 00:30:48.000 --> 00:30:56.280 You know, I can claim those stories. And just because they happen to somebody else doesn't mean that God didn't do that for me too. Because if God did for you, he did it for me. 419 00:30:57.680 --> 00:30:59.080 So I appreciate that. 420 00:31:01.160 --> 00:31:05.560 And you're, you're overcoming and it benefits the rest of 421 00:31:06.560 --> 00:31:27.560 Of the body of Christ, you've given us been given a specific aspect of creation through specific experiences by which the rest of it to overcome, through which the rest of creation and the rest of the body of Christ will benefit. We are given our specific areas in which to overcome. So that the rest of the body. 422 00:31:27.560 --> 00:31:45.560 Or expanding on, yeah, like, it definitely needs to be said again, multiple times, if not expanded on whenever you feel like, yeah, y'all remember that topic, it would be a good one. Yeah, I will. 423 00:31:46.560 --> 00:32:03.560 Yeah, I totally agree. Yeah, absolutely. That's so cool that, that, you know, we each have this, this part, but not even that we just have, you know, this, this unique part of the player, or a part of the body. But, but even that our experiences. 424 00:32:05.560 --> 00:32:11.560 Yeah, our unique experiences impact the rest of the body. It's kind of wild to think of that. 425 00:32:12.560 --> 00:32:21.560 Yeah, yeah, it is because those things are happening in the spirit. We're overcoming in the spirit. And so it impacts the rest of us. 426 00:32:22.560 --> 00:32:32.560 It's not our it's and doesn't have to. We keep looking so much at the physical and we think that our experiences just look so very different than each other. Well, one of my experience harder than yours. 427 00:32:33.560 --> 00:32:45.560 And goes like, No, no, y'all are overcoming things in the spirit, not in the physical. And the physical is supposed to manifest are overcome are overcoming. 428 00:32:46.560 --> 00:32:59.560 So anyway, that I just wanted to encourage you in that that what it is that you're doing is no little deal. And it's not just something that you're trying to do your own real issue of the Lord. It has an eternal 429 00:33:00.560 --> 00:33:08.560 Significance that is bringing dominion to creation and is saving it from frustration. 430 00:33:09.560 --> 00:33:14.560 So, so just be encouraged that all of those things that you're doing are very significant. 431 00:33:16.560 --> 00:33:32.560 And you're making and the choices that you're making are are huge. You're, you're a king, who is being who's being tutored and just have and, you know, is having to actually live it out so 432 00:33:33.560 --> 00:33:47.560 You know, you know what I mean. So you're not an employee in training. You're a king in training and you're already King and you're learning how to how to be it and how to do it and you're already being given a certain measure of 433 00:33:48.560 --> 00:33:59.560 What do you call that as a responsibility that when you do things they actually impact things the way a king's actions impact things 434 00:34:01.560 --> 00:34:03.560 But as we're being fathered 435 00:34:03.560 --> 00:34:16.560 Your God provides it provides you a safe environment in which to do it. So I know that that's right. That's probably a deeper subject. And so hopefully that didn't just bring confusion, but 436 00:34:19.560 --> 00:34:20.560 It's really good. 437 00:34:21.560 --> 00:34:29.560 I'm encouraged. So encouraged. Thank you for making sure I know the significance, but I know just for seeing it. 438 00:34:30.560 --> 00:34:36.560 For recognizing it also calling it out really, really does make a big impact because it has been 439 00:34:37.560 --> 00:34:38.560 You know, you don't, you don't know. 440 00:34:39.560 --> 00:34:40.560 You know, you don't, you don't know. 441 00:34:42.560 --> 00:34:47.560 Sometimes just hearing somebody else say it's like, okay, like, not only is it 442 00:34:49.560 --> 00:34:54.560 We made it, you know, to this, but just the, the weightiness and significance of 443 00:34:56.560 --> 00:34:57.560 Choosing him and 444 00:34:59.560 --> 00:35:00.560 Getting to receive 445 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:08.800 you know, the reward, the sweetness, you know, of what comes with that, and even be able 446 00:35:08.800 --> 00:35:15.600 to receive it without striving or effort, like, you know, just like, okay, here you 447 00:35:15.600 --> 00:35:16.600 go. 448 00:35:16.600 --> 00:35:17.600 Exactly. 449 00:35:17.600 --> 00:35:18.600 I know. 450 00:35:18.600 --> 00:35:19.600 I know. 451 00:35:19.600 --> 00:35:24.160 I cannot tell you how excited that I am for you, you know, that you've been praying, you've 452 00:35:24.160 --> 00:35:29.240 been pressing into the Lord, and that this came along, and that this is where you felt 453 00:35:29.240 --> 00:35:30.240 your peace was at. 454 00:35:30.240 --> 00:35:32.440 I am so excited for you. 455 00:35:32.440 --> 00:35:33.440 Yay. 456 00:35:33.440 --> 00:35:34.440 Thank you. 457 00:35:34.440 --> 00:35:35.440 I'm excited. 458 00:35:35.440 --> 00:35:36.440 I'm excited. 459 00:35:36.440 --> 00:35:43.640 I mean, I don't know any other, I don't, I know my brain wants to come up with some kind 460 00:35:43.640 --> 00:35:47.640 of, you know, something to think about, but I don't have anything to really think about 461 00:35:47.640 --> 00:35:48.640 me. 462 00:35:48.640 --> 00:35:55.560 Sure, I have to let the barista job down, and, you know, I know that's going to be frustrating 463 00:35:55.560 --> 00:35:56.560 for the manager there. 464 00:35:56.880 --> 00:36:02.000 Yeah, there's like little things, but I just overall know that he's got it all, and there's, 465 00:36:02.000 --> 00:36:08.720 it's so unexpected, but just sort of easy and flowing, that there's not really anything 466 00:36:08.720 --> 00:36:12.800 to, anything to question or worry about. 467 00:36:12.800 --> 00:36:13.800 Exactly. 468 00:36:13.800 --> 00:36:23.440 I know, isn't it, isn't it so interesting to now be living, to live life from that restful 469 00:36:23.440 --> 00:36:26.200 perspective where it's just kind of like, oh, this is so weird. 470 00:36:26.200 --> 00:36:33.680 I'm not used to having to like, where things aren't hard, where things just kind of flow, 471 00:36:33.680 --> 00:36:40.120 because it's not that things that happen, it's not that things won't happen to and around 472 00:36:40.120 --> 00:36:42.440 us and affect us and stuff like that. 473 00:36:42.440 --> 00:36:49.440 It means though, that we won't, being in rest means that we won't be struggling so much 474 00:36:49.440 --> 00:36:54.960 against everything and resisting, which causes the majority of which, which is what causes 475 00:36:54.960 --> 00:36:58.320 our pain, is our resistance against it. 476 00:36:58.320 --> 00:37:03.720 It doesn't mean that the things will not continue to happen, because things happen to Jesus, 477 00:37:03.720 --> 00:37:08.000 and yet Jesus abided in rest, but he wasn't in resistance against them. 478 00:37:08.000 --> 00:37:15.080 I mean, and we repeatedly saw that even when people, when people wanted to stone him or 479 00:37:15.080 --> 00:37:20.760 they came to the garden of Gethsemane to, to arrest him, Jesus did not resist. 480 00:37:20.760 --> 00:37:27.640 Those are physical pictures of his, of his spiritual state so that we could understand. 481 00:37:27.640 --> 00:37:30.440 It's just, it's just not in a state of resistance, so it doesn't mean that things aren't going 482 00:37:30.440 --> 00:37:31.440 to happen. 483 00:37:31.440 --> 00:37:34.920 But yet we look at Jesus and we know that he wasn't conquered. 484 00:37:34.920 --> 00:37:39.120 We know that at any time he could have done something, but he was in a state of rest and 485 00:37:39.120 --> 00:37:44.320 he was just like, you know, and I'm not, I'm the thing with the Lord is that I'm not supposed 486 00:37:44.320 --> 00:37:45.320 to resist. 487 00:37:45.320 --> 00:37:51.480 I'm not supposed to, I'm supposed to allow this to continue the way that it is, that, 488 00:37:51.480 --> 00:37:58.080 and we can also war and we can be warriors while still residing in a place of rest. 489 00:37:58.080 --> 00:38:02.440 But it's, but that, that's, in other words, that's why God talks about fighting and things 490 00:38:02.440 --> 00:38:03.440 like that. 491 00:38:03.440 --> 00:38:10.960 We, we still, God's a, you know, Christ is, is a, is a warrior king, but he, he warriors 492 00:38:10.960 --> 00:38:15.880 from a place of rest and that's just something that we don't understand how to do. 493 00:38:15.880 --> 00:38:22.720 And so, so at the beginning, often he won't have us, um, like a battle so much because 494 00:38:22.720 --> 00:38:24.880 we tend to associate battle with strife. 495 00:38:24.880 --> 00:38:27.640 We don't know how to battle and not be in strife. 496 00:38:27.640 --> 00:38:32.480 So at the beginning, things just look like, Oh my word, it's just flowing and easy. 497 00:38:32.480 --> 00:38:37.600 And then later we realize, okay, so the deal is things still come against us, but, and 498 00:38:37.600 --> 00:38:42.240 so they're, we, God will teach us and fathers into how to fight, but now how to fight without 499 00:38:42.240 --> 00:38:45.120 strife to still fight from a place of rest. 500 00:38:45.120 --> 00:38:49.480 And right now it just looks like a lot more flow and ease so that we can kind of get it 501 00:38:49.480 --> 00:38:52.280 into our brains and into our understanding. 502 00:38:52.280 --> 00:38:54.280 So again, it's a fathering process. 503 00:38:54.280 --> 00:38:55.280 Wow. 504 00:38:55.280 --> 00:38:56.280 That's awesome. 505 00:38:56.280 --> 00:38:57.280 That's cool. 506 00:38:57.280 --> 00:39:04.160 That's cool to see it and feel, you know, be going through it, be able to identify with 507 00:39:04.160 --> 00:39:13.520 what you're talking about, but it, but it'd be like, well, when is it, when is it, I'm 508 00:39:13.520 --> 00:39:20.840 excited that Catherine's in our, in our group, I was like talking to her and, you know, and 509 00:39:20.840 --> 00:39:26.600 I was encouraging her and the things that last week or just a few days back, like Marco, 510 00:39:26.600 --> 00:39:32.480 you know, just felt like I want to make sure that I continue to, you know, even just share 511 00:39:32.480 --> 00:39:37.360 how I'm being impacted or how I'm shifting, because she had said the last time we talked 512 00:39:37.360 --> 00:39:43.760 that she wasn't sure, like that she hadn't gotten back to you, but there was no, like 513 00:39:43.760 --> 00:39:50.400 it wasn't like an issue of feeling like she had an answer that she didn't want to do it. 514 00:39:50.400 --> 00:39:55.520 It was just more that she had so much going on and that for whatever reason, the week 515 00:39:55.520 --> 00:39:56.520 had gotten away. 516 00:39:56.520 --> 00:40:00.080 And I said, well, it took me like a week or more than I planned. 517 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.740 and to get back to her to but you know, that's not that's not 518 00:40:04.740 --> 00:40:08.900 a non issue really exactly. But just like share with her like 519 00:40:08.900 --> 00:40:12.240 what things we had been talking about this week, you know, just 520 00:40:12.240 --> 00:40:14.740 kind of the gist of how shifting and some of that and how 521 00:40:14.740 --> 00:40:18.100 impactful it was and stuff and then I didn't hear back I don't 522 00:40:18.100 --> 00:40:21.540 know if I missed in a Marco back or if you did. We were Marco, 523 00:40:21.580 --> 00:40:24.540 you know, whatever talking about other things like our creative 524 00:40:24.540 --> 00:40:27.740 stuff in the collective and just different things that we're 525 00:40:27.740 --> 00:40:29.960 learning. So I don't know if she even told me she was saying 526 00:40:29.960 --> 00:40:33.440 yes to it. So I just popped on thinking, Oh, I wouldn't even 527 00:40:33.440 --> 00:40:35.680 get distracted. I'm just gonna go straight to Ashley's 528 00:40:35.680 --> 00:40:39.140 teachings. And I went to your group to go straight to a 529 00:40:39.140 --> 00:40:43.040 teaching and listen. And he was there. And I totally never 530 00:40:43.040 --> 00:40:46.100 listened to the teaching because I ended up listening to her live 531 00:40:46.100 --> 00:40:50.480 and you know, seeing the post and then and then exciting hit 532 00:40:50.480 --> 00:40:53.560 the road and so I gotta get back to teaching but I was excited to 533 00:40:53.560 --> 00:40:56.900 get there and have that surprise because I just didn't know she 534 00:40:56.960 --> 00:41:02.080 was gonna be in there. No, we're talking. So she's really sweet 535 00:41:02.080 --> 00:41:05.720 and I really enjoy your enjoyed her and I'm looking forward to 536 00:41:05.720 --> 00:41:08.240 our first session where I'm going to get to visit even more 537 00:41:08.240 --> 00:41:13.200 with her next week and love it. Yeah, you guys are gonna love 538 00:41:13.200 --> 00:41:15.560 each other. I'm so happy because it's you know, it's never 539 00:41:15.560 --> 00:41:19.340 something where it's like you have to do this or I'm not like 540 00:41:19.340 --> 00:41:24.200 a half to should you know kind of person but I do feel confident 541 00:41:24.300 --> 00:41:26.940 in my spirit like when I when somebody's on my heart and I 542 00:41:26.940 --> 00:41:31.880 know they would jive you know so well with somebody else or that 543 00:41:31.880 --> 00:41:36.020 they would benefit from something it's like girl like 544 00:41:36.020 --> 00:41:39.180 every time we talk it's like these are the concepts and 545 00:41:39.180 --> 00:41:42.080 things that we're talking about like you don't know until you 546 00:41:42.080 --> 00:41:46.140 you know so you know but just just saying it's it's it's 547 00:41:46.140 --> 00:41:49.140 really impacting me you know and so that was just kind of how it 548 00:41:49.140 --> 00:41:55.240 kept happening and then she says yes I guess it was just so 549 00:41:55.240 --> 00:41:57.920 funny that we had been talking and yet somehow I didn't know 550 00:41:57.920 --> 00:42:03.400 that she was like saying yes to the group until I ran into it. 551 00:42:03.540 --> 00:42:07.640 Yeah, well, I'm excited. I was wondering but it sounded like 552 00:42:07.640 --> 00:42:10.920 your your like your notes that you're like, Oh, I didn't know. 553 00:42:11.920 --> 00:42:13.840 Yeah, I thought that was a fun surprise for you. 554 00:42:13.840 --> 00:42:19.500 I know I really wanted to get to talk and there's so much 555 00:42:19.540 --> 00:42:24.420 there like you guys were gonna be able to talk about and yeah, 556 00:42:24.460 --> 00:42:32.140 she's just what's the word to describe her? She's very, very 557 00:42:32.140 --> 00:42:37.500 real and very, you know, raw, very honest, authentic, authentic. 558 00:42:37.500 --> 00:42:45.040 Yeah, just really has that that heart that's just ready and the 559 00:42:45.040 --> 00:42:47.760 things that, you know, we're talking about with rest of play 560 00:42:47.760 --> 00:42:50.760 and all that we've already had a conversation about I've been 561 00:42:50.760 --> 00:42:54.540 hearing how you know, she's been on this journey where he's 562 00:42:54.540 --> 00:42:59.400 calling her so it's just perfect thing or it's like a time a 563 00:42:59.400 --> 00:43:03.440 timing thing to shift right in on into that every way and see 564 00:43:03.440 --> 00:43:06.800 how it applies to all the different ways she's already 565 00:43:06.800 --> 00:43:12.500 been living out or healing or shifting her mindsets areas. I 566 00:43:12.500 --> 00:43:15.340 think she's gonna be really, really, I know she's gonna be 567 00:43:15.340 --> 00:43:17.620 impacted. She doesn't know it all yet. 568 00:43:18.940 --> 00:43:21.380 Well, I'm looking forward to getting to know her and 569 00:43:22.660 --> 00:43:25.760 thank you for talking late. I won't keep you up later. But 570 00:43:25.760 --> 00:43:28.460 thank you so much for being willing to shout out late at 571 00:43:28.460 --> 00:43:33.100 night. And yeah, just help me to feel more more peace and 572 00:43:33.100 --> 00:43:35.080 confidence in the piece that I was feeling. 573 00:43:35.800 --> 00:43:39.560 Oh, good. I'm so very glad. I'm glad that you reached out. I'm 574 00:43:39.560 --> 00:43:42.360 sorry, it took me a while to be able to get back to you. But I'm 575 00:43:42.360 --> 00:43:44.280 glad you reached out and 576 00:43:45.680 --> 00:43:46.920 take my word. 577 00:43:47.000 --> 00:43:51.520 Would you just say, say, you know, yes, as in 578 00:43:53.560 --> 00:43:58.160 just kind of say yes to the job or would you ask for some kind 579 00:43:58.160 --> 00:44:00.800 of like more formal offer if it's like a, you know, 580 00:44:00.800 --> 00:44:02.420 somebody you've known for several years? 581 00:44:05.780 --> 00:44:09.920 I guess I don't understand what what do you mean? What about it 582 00:44:09.920 --> 00:44:13.280 didn't feel like for formal you mean you felt like, okay, before 583 00:44:13.280 --> 00:44:16.160 you hand in your two weeks, you'd like a formal offer so 584 00:44:16.160 --> 00:44:18.420 that to make sure that you understand or 585 00:44:19.420 --> 00:44:22.460 well, I guess, yeah, there may be just there's like a few 586 00:44:22.460 --> 00:44:25.860 things that I'm not clear on. And I don't know if I want to 587 00:44:25.860 --> 00:44:29.780 just ask those those questions to get you know, just to get 588 00:44:29.780 --> 00:44:31.220 some clarification on like, 589 00:44:32.640 --> 00:44:33.920 you know, hours or 590 00:44:35.520 --> 00:44:38.640 that kind of thing. But or if I just want to ask him if he 591 00:44:38.640 --> 00:44:42.720 could, you know, write up some kind of a formal offer, or if 592 00:44:42.720 --> 00:44:47.060 it's just something that we can chat out those question or two 593 00:44:47.060 --> 00:44:50.360 and not need a formal offer or contract or anything. 594 00:44:50.600 --> 00:44:57.800 Oh, okay, that I would recommend that you do just that you ask 595 00:44:57.800 --> 00:44:59.940 more for, again, go. 596 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.300 Whatever your spirit says, but, um, it's something you can ping off your awful 597 00:45:04.300 --> 00:45:09.980 word and ask the Lord about is, um, you know, just asking, just, um, talking 598 00:45:09.980 --> 00:45:15.060 is to the guy is if you're assuming there is going to be something formal, 599 00:45:15.060 --> 00:45:19.540 you know, that, um, but you can do it from the perspective, not that you 600 00:45:19.540 --> 00:45:23.240 don't trust him, but that, or that you're worried that, Oh my goodness. 601 00:45:23.240 --> 00:45:26.760 Well, I need to make sure I have backup, but that you can understand 602 00:45:27.160 --> 00:45:31.460 that you're, that you would like to present, uh, how, how I wear this. 603 00:45:31.460 --> 00:45:32.400 I know what I'm trying to say. 604 00:45:32.400 --> 00:45:33.000 How do I say it? 605 00:45:33.560 --> 00:45:40.920 That you want to make sure that what it is that you are, can that, uh, you're, 606 00:45:41.240 --> 00:45:48.080 that what it is that he's expecting is, um, you're fully understanding so that 607 00:45:48.080 --> 00:45:54.420 you can, um, you can, uh, uh, be very, you can commit that thing to him. 608 00:45:54.660 --> 00:46:00.500 So in other words, that you'd like to know what things that you are committing, 609 00:46:00.980 --> 00:46:05.820 uh, that you, uh, sorry, it has been a while since I started talking 610 00:46:05.820 --> 00:46:07.140 to all of this business language. 611 00:46:07.420 --> 00:46:12.620 Here's my point that it's, that as opposed to thinking about like, what is 612 00:46:12.620 --> 00:46:17.060 he, uh, try to protect yourself from him in this situation? 613 00:46:17.060 --> 00:46:21.500 Like, okay, well, let's just make sure, you know, that you're going to, you're, 614 00:46:21.540 --> 00:46:23.220 you're going to meet your end of the bargain. 615 00:46:23.220 --> 00:46:24.780 And that I'm going to agree to this. 616 00:46:24.780 --> 00:46:25.620 I'm going to agree to that. 617 00:46:26.100 --> 00:46:29.300 It's your present presented more to him. 618 00:46:29.340 --> 00:46:36.140 Like, look, you know, I would like to, um, you know, uh, uh, make sure that I 619 00:46:36.140 --> 00:46:42.420 meet all of the commitments that you are expecting of me, I would like to 620 00:46:42.420 --> 00:46:48.420 understand all of your expectations so that I can fully, um, understand what 621 00:46:48.420 --> 00:46:51.380 it is that I would like to commit to you. 622 00:46:51.540 --> 00:46:54.380 Or that's probably a bad word or way to express it. 623 00:46:54.380 --> 00:46:55.540 But do you know what I'm saying? 624 00:46:56.300 --> 00:46:59.980 Like you're trying to offer yourself to him in high integrity, but you 625 00:46:59.980 --> 00:47:02.260 don't know what you're telling him. 626 00:47:02.620 --> 00:47:06.380 You don't know what you're committing to, and you would like to have it spelled 627 00:47:06.380 --> 00:47:11.820 out so that you, um, so that you can honor him by telling, by being very 628 00:47:11.820 --> 00:47:14.540 forthright in what it is that you're agreeing to commit to him. 629 00:47:15.780 --> 00:47:16.660 Does that make sense? 630 00:47:17.020 --> 00:47:17.220 Yeah. 631 00:47:17.980 --> 00:47:22.420 And, and so I do recommend that even with friends that all of that be, um, 632 00:47:22.500 --> 00:47:26.660 that all that be a very formal because, and here's why. 633 00:47:26.940 --> 00:47:31.140 And so if he, if he like, if it ever sounds a little, if it ever comes 634 00:47:31.140 --> 00:47:35.020 across to him, if you can kind of tell him like maybe the way that he's, um, 635 00:47:36.020 --> 00:47:38.820 or, Hey, this is how you can even open the conversation. 636 00:47:39.300 --> 00:47:40.820 You're trying to honor him. 637 00:47:41.540 --> 00:47:46.220 That is that the fact that you're not taking advantage of the situation just 638 00:47:46.220 --> 00:47:47.260 because you're just friends. 639 00:47:47.740 --> 00:47:48.980 Now you're not doing it. 640 00:47:49.020 --> 00:47:51.220 I'm saying that that's how you would present it. 641 00:47:51.300 --> 00:47:56.340 Like you would like to honor him by making sure that everything, um, that, 642 00:47:56.340 --> 00:48:00.180 that you take this job seriously, that you understand that he's a friend of 643 00:48:00.180 --> 00:48:02.860 yours and you are so excited, you know, that you're going to get to work 644 00:48:02.860 --> 00:48:07.740 alongside him, but that you would like to commit to him a very professional 645 00:48:08.100 --> 00:48:16.420 and relationship, um, in which, um, you, he, he, he, he, he holds you to 646 00:48:16.820 --> 00:48:22.940 everything that he would not be afraid to hold a stranger to, does that make sense? 647 00:48:23.180 --> 00:48:27.100 So you present yourself in such a way, like I would like to honor you by 648 00:48:27.140 --> 00:48:31.260 offering that you hold me accountable in this professional way. 649 00:48:31.580 --> 00:48:32.860 That's what I'm trying to say. 650 00:48:34.540 --> 00:48:35.620 Does, is that helpful? 651 00:48:36.220 --> 00:48:36.460 Yeah. 652 00:48:36.460 --> 00:48:38.100 I need to jot that stuff down. 653 00:48:38.580 --> 00:48:40.140 Not that you said it a little differently. 654 00:48:40.740 --> 00:48:40.980 Yeah. 655 00:48:40.980 --> 00:48:41.700 It took me a while. 656 00:48:45.220 --> 00:48:46.900 How do I say what I'm trying to say? 657 00:48:48.460 --> 00:48:48.820 Okay. 658 00:48:49.140 --> 00:48:49.740 So. 659 00:48:51.780 --> 00:48:54.780 Why didn't you just, ah, you just said it so well. 660 00:48:54.940 --> 00:48:55.780 I will. 661 00:48:55.820 --> 00:49:01.220 And basically, you know, just the fact that, um, you'd like to honor him by 662 00:49:01.380 --> 00:49:07.780 allowing him to hold, by, um, asking that he holds you accountable by the normal 663 00:49:07.780 --> 00:49:14.620 professional contractual standards that he would not be afraid to, or that he 664 00:49:14.620 --> 00:49:19.260 would expect of a stranger that he would be hiring. 665 00:49:25.700 --> 00:49:30.140 So does that mean that what if he's like, okay, so then what do you ask for? 666 00:49:31.380 --> 00:49:35.420 Oh, well, no, you can then mention in there, you know, so there, you know, so 667 00:49:35.420 --> 00:49:40.740 please, um, uh, you know, uh, send me the offer letter that you would like me to 668 00:49:40.740 --> 00:49:47.780 sign the offer letter, any, any additional contracts that you have or, um, for the, 669 00:49:47.780 --> 00:49:54.100 and for, um, in the employee or specific to the position, or you could refer to 670 00:49:54.100 --> 00:49:59.820 them as documents, whatever you want to call them, but talk in such a way that 671 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.440 It's an assumption. 672 00:50:01.440 --> 00:50:06.200 It's an expectation, as opposed to a demand from him. 673 00:50:06.200 --> 00:50:09.000 Because again, you've prefaced all of this 674 00:50:09.000 --> 00:50:12.240 with this whole thing of like, I'd 675 00:50:12.240 --> 00:50:15.920 like to honor you by making sure that even though we're friends, 676 00:50:15.920 --> 00:50:18.600 that you hold me to all of the normal contractual 677 00:50:18.600 --> 00:50:22.480 professional agreements that you would anyone else. 678 00:50:22.480 --> 00:50:25.380 So please feel free to send me the offer letter of what 679 00:50:25.380 --> 00:50:28.520 it is you expected me, et cetera. 680 00:50:28.520 --> 00:50:31.520 So I can agree to that, to commit that to you, 681 00:50:31.520 --> 00:50:34.280 to commit myself to you in that. 682 00:50:34.280 --> 00:50:36.080 It's putting yourself in a position 683 00:50:36.080 --> 00:50:38.360 in which you're trying to honor him, as opposed to it 684 00:50:38.360 --> 00:50:42.440 making it sound like, hey, look, I know we're friends, 685 00:50:42.440 --> 00:50:44.080 but just to make sure that you're not 686 00:50:44.080 --> 00:50:47.060 going to take advantage of me, you always 687 00:50:47.060 --> 00:50:51.080 want to come at it from a heart of the father of like, 688 00:50:51.080 --> 00:50:52.920 this is what I'm in your employee, 689 00:50:52.920 --> 00:50:55.920 and I would like to honor you in that position. 690 00:50:55.920 --> 00:50:58.320 My father will protect and provide for me, 691 00:50:58.320 --> 00:51:00.960 but I would like to, and so therefore, I 692 00:51:00.960 --> 00:51:02.880 have no need to protect myself. 693 00:51:02.880 --> 00:51:04.640 I would just like to honor you in this. 694 00:51:04.640 --> 00:51:07.760 And that lets you know what he's expecting of you, 695 00:51:07.760 --> 00:51:12.080 so you can make sure to know what it is you're 696 00:51:12.080 --> 00:51:15.040 committing yourself to. 697 00:51:15.040 --> 00:51:15.540 Yeah. 698 00:51:21.400 --> 00:51:22.160 OK, perfect. 699 00:51:22.160 --> 00:51:23.440 All right, I got to get notes. 700 00:51:23.440 --> 00:51:24.960 You have an awesome night. 701 00:51:24.960 --> 00:51:26.040 Thank you so much. 702 00:51:26.040 --> 00:51:27.000 You're welcome. 703 00:51:27.000 --> 00:51:27.840 Have a good one. 704 00:51:27.840 --> 00:51:29.480 I'm very excited for you. 705 00:51:29.480 --> 00:51:31.560 Yay, me too. 706 00:51:31.560 --> 00:51:33.840 OK, have a good sleep well. 707 00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:37.880 I'm like, ah, it's so great to just feel like, OK, 708 00:51:37.880 --> 00:51:39.200 this is just the next thing. 709 00:51:39.200 --> 00:51:41.040 It doesn't have to be this ordeal. 710 00:51:41.040 --> 00:51:42.040 Exactly. 711 00:51:42.040 --> 00:51:44.200 It doesn't have to be an ordeal. 712 00:51:44.200 --> 00:51:45.600 Exactly. 713 00:51:45.600 --> 00:51:48.560 It does not, because there's no reason for all of the strife 714 00:51:48.560 --> 00:51:51.640 that always made everything else a big deal before. 715 00:51:51.640 --> 00:51:52.680 Hallelujah. 716 00:51:52.680 --> 00:51:53.880 Yay. 717 00:51:53.880 --> 00:51:55.400 Yay, so good. 718 00:51:55.400 --> 00:51:56.920 Love you, girl. 719 00:51:57.120 --> 00:51:57.920 Love you. 720 00:51:57.920 --> 00:51:58.720 Talk to you soon. 721 00:51:58.720 --> 00:52:00.040 OK, bye. 722 00:52:00.040 --> 00:52:01.600 Bye.