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Hey, how's it going?

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How are you?

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Doing good. Thank you.

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I don't know what it's like there but it rained here, and all night and we've been in a drought for basically, I don't know two months or something like the ground has huge cracks in it, and like huge.

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You think it was like the Sahara or not the Sahara what is it the what's in California. Is it Death Valley or something like that you think Valley just look so bad.

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And we started getting all of this rain, and it feels to us Texans it feels like fall it's probably still like in the 70s or whatever like oh my word it's.

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It doesn't take much down here.

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We've been having gorgeous weather here I cannot complain.

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That's great.

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Hey,

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I don't know.

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Boiling some water for my tea.

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Oh yeah.

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I thought about this tea time because I was like I bet you that all of us will have a drink and for Annette it's tea before bed and for us, for Priscilla and I it's afternoon tea I was like this is like a great it's just girls.

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Yeah.

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So Priscilla I don't know if you know but Annette has. She does. I don't know what you call it, they're not necessarily they're cold plunges but they're not like in a big ice tank.

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She just goes out and I don't know if it's a lake or it's the ocean that's near her house, and she goes out in the morning with a whole group. And I mean it's in she'll list, every, every time that she does it she'll list how many degrees Celsius

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I'm like,

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so warm it's like 16.

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I don't know what that is in Fahrenheit, but I don't know.

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Well, oh okay that's Celsius.

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Yeah.

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16. It's amazing.

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Yeah. Are you on social media I should follow you.

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Am I. Yeah.

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What's your last name.

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My last name is Brout, B-R-E-U-T.

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So, yeah.

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Most active on like Instagram it's like browniful and that was like.

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So one of my friends was like, oh yeah.

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I saw you I'll follow you back it was the right one.

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So one of my friends was typing to me she was texting me, and she was, she was saying hi beautiful and then it autocorrected to browniful.

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And my last name is Brooke, and she's like, Oh my gosh, that needs to be like your handle.

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So many years ago and now it's just like, Oh, I feel like I have to explain it every time I'm like well.

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This is why.

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By the way, I'm wondering, whenever you take a picture you know and you're talking or you do a little video, and have you and your team but either before after a swim.

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Yeah, it's all is that at your place or is that like a clubhouse or where is that.

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Oh, in the, in the weekends.

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So where I live, I have an apartment and then there's four like apartment buildings.

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And then the one right across from me that's where we have, we have like a reception area so we have a man reception during the daytime, not in the weekends and then there's.

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So that's in there, it's kind of like, there's a coffee machine and there's a fireplace and some couches and then there's a tiny gym up on the second floor and like a little place where we can hang out and watch like movies if we don't want to stay at home.

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I've never used in America, those are called that's called a clubhouse you know where you have like a place that all the people in the apartments.

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And yeah, we have, for one thing we don't have ours don't look that nice. See, Priscilla you'll see it's floor to ceiling windows in on a corner, overlooking the water.

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Yeah.

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So when you and your husband come visit you know there's there's like a little guest rooms right there as well so yeah, so we have like three guest rooms where people can come stay and then that gives like access to like all of it like the lounge in the kitchen

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and the gym and everything so it's like super easy then you can, yeah, you can like have people come stay but they don't stay in your apartment.

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necessarily. That's great. Yeah. It's kind of like it now. I

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think that I'm trying to think. I think that Ikea is from

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Sweden though, right? Mm-hmm. But seriously, all of you

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Scandinavian countries, things figured out. I don't know why

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you're on the job. I love that. You have people over but they

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don't stay in your apartment, you know, especially if you

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have a one-bedroom apartment and you might get, you've got a

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way to, you know, that they can visit. That's super. Yeah. And

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Priscilla lives in, I'm also very jealous of her location.

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She lives in like a storybook landscape. So, if we roll and

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kill, she's got this, she's got this covered bridge that, you

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know, that's on a, you know, that the road goes through and

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then there is a, no joke, there is a babbling brook runs by her

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house. I'm just like, I don't understand. It's really

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beautiful. This is like my childhood dream and she lives

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in a big farmhouse. You know, it's like something out of a

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novel. Yeah. I happen to be there this past, not this

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Easter, but last Easter. So, I got to celebrate Easter in her,

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in her home with all of her family, like her parents and her

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and all the, and everything. I felt very, very honored to get

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to be part. And so, I remember at one point in the afternoon,

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I just went to walk out by the water because I'm always, that

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to me is very, very therapeutic. God always talks to me near

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water. I always put closest to him near water. So, like a lake

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or the ocean or like a river. And so, I was very excited. I

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was like, I'm going to take advantage of the, of a bit of

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quiet where no one knows I'm gone and I'm just going to sneak

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So, it was wonderful. And I was like, this is an Easter Lord.

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And I had just gotten engaged, like, I don't know, like a week

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before or something like that. So, I'm like, just like in this

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fairy tale blissful bubble. It was great.

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Sounds amazing.

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So, how have y'all been since Monday? How have things gone?

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Priscilla, I was so excited that you just felt like, you know,

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I felt it on my heart to just kind of like, let's just, you

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know, be intentional, ride out and consciously, you know,

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think about and engage with the fact that God did all of these

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things for me. And then you're just overwhelmed at what you

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found. That's so exciting.

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Yeah. Yeah. It was a lot. I felt very, and it wasn't like, just

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like little stuff. Like it was a lot of really big, big things.

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And yeah. So, I feel like I've, I've had a, I've had a really

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good week. I feel like there's some things that have come up

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that are like, I'm not, I feel kind of like almost like a

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panic, because I'm like, Oh, hey, like, I need to figure this

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out. And, and at the same time being like, I feel like it's

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easier for me to kind of take a step back and look into my life

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instead of just feeling so overwhelmed by everything. But

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then also I haven't been sleeping the greatest this week,

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which is like not normal for me, except for, I mean, it might be

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because I'm about to get my period. Sometimes that's when I

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struggle with it. But then last night I just had like a series

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of intense nightmares and I'm not sure why. So, yeah. So I

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feel really tired today, but at the same time, I feel, yeah, I

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feel good.

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Feel good.

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Well, good. Good. And let's see. So you said that you just

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kind of feel like some things have come up that are causing

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you to kind of like be triggered into panic and you're

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trying to avoid the panic, you know, not to ask you like

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private information or whatever, but what is it that you feel

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free to be able to share or a vague way that you can

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reference it of like what you're, what you're going

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through or why you think that it might be triggering or why,

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why it's, it's causing you to have all the responses to

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panic. Like there's some like root in there that it's like,

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oh my goodness, is this going to happen or are God going to

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be like this or is God doing this or is everything that

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everything good that the past two weeks. See, I knew it. I

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knew that she was going to drop it at some point, you know?

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Yeah, no, I'm, I'm definitely, I feel very transparent. I'm

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not, yeah, I don't feel like the need to, I usually am an

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open book, so I don't feel like any question is like intrusive,

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but yeah, I think, I think a big one is my identity within my

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business right now and like just feeling in a place where I

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just don't feel super inspired there and it's, and I'm okay

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with it, but I feel like I'm not serving my team under me

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very well and I'm kind of torn between being okay with that

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being like, hey, you know what? I've

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worked my butt off for the last seven years and I'm going to take it easy for a

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little while, um, and focus on my family and ministry

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opportunities.

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And then last night I got a message from somebody that I had offered to do a one

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on one coaching session with, because she had posted in our, um,

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like it's like a big Facebook group where all the lemongrass consultants are in.

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And she posted something about how, you know, she's so frustrated cause she just,

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she just can't make any sales and, uh, nobody helps her and, you know,

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whatever. And, oh my word. Um, anyway, she's part of my downline,

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a couple layers down, but, and then, so we did a coaching session.

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It took her like well over a month to actually keep the appointment that we

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had, um, you know, originally scheduled. Um,

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and then she sent me this text message last night at nine 30. She's like,

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or it was a Facebook message. She's like,

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so since I'm not really doing any better than I was, once I sell all my stock,

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I'm going to quit being a consultant in my talk with you.

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I didn't really get a whole lot, except that you were able to succeed.

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And I'm not,

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I'm not getting any help and there's only so much one person can do on their

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own without support or a team.

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So I immediately got chest pains and my back started hurting.

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And I was like, my worst fear is coming true.

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Somebody saw right through me and saw that I'm a horrible leader. And, um,

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anyway, so I, I did, I took a step back and I was like, you know what? Nope.

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There's so many things coming out of her message that are like red flags.

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She's blaming everybody else, whatever. But at the same time,

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I feel like I am trying to figure out like,

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what is my place in my business?

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Because I just feel like I'm at a weird place with it all. Yeah.

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So, and I don't even know, like, I don't,

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I don't know if that's something I should even be focusing on this month. Um,

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but that's kind of like what I'm feeling.

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I'm not sure how to show up on social media.

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I feel really weird in that space right now. Um, yeah.

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Yeah. Well,

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that all makes sense because I believe that what God does is, you know,

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when he's,

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when we're stepping into something that he's very intentionally prepared us for,

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because y'all have talked about,

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and I even talked about the fact that I noticed that God had really seemed to set

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this apart for y'all, for me, I know I'm going to be greatly benefited,

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benefited in my relationship,

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the Lord and in breaking through some things by going through this as well.

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And that means that God is always,

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it has already been working on things for the season

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and my, and something that, um,

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I touched on him and the teaching, uh,

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that in the getting your breakthrough session that I didn't expound on as

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much as I wanted to is the fact that what,

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what you're describing is exactly how we feel and what is going on inside of us

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when we're in this spiritual wilderness that we're needing a breakthrough out

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of. In other words,

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we're feeling like that things that normally work aren't working,

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or we don't have the amount of energy to be able to handle the capacity that

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we're used to handling. And it's like a woman going through labor.

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And then, you know, that's how God always describes our struggles.

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As you said,

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it's like a woman going through labor where you have the pains of childbirth

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because you're supposed to be delivering something new that doesn't yet exist.

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So you're having to make room for it. And when a woman goes through labor,

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she can't do all of the things that she's used to doing.

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She has to stop and everybody else has to even like take care of her children

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and everything, because all of her energy is going towards this one thing.

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And if we, and,

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and we have compassion for ourselves when we're going through childbirth,

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because we, and everybody else around us around us,

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sees physically that what we're going through and nobody expects us to have

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energy or the mental capacity to be able to handle all of this and do this.

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But when it's spiritual or when it's internal and we can't see it,

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we're not paying attention to,

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and nobody on the outside can know that we really do not have the energy to take

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care of all of this because it's being used to make space for something new.

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So so my point is that what you're going through doesn't feel right,

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but it's because it's the transition period.

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And they even talk about that in labor. They call it, you know,

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Oh, you're about to go into transition, you know, it's.

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And so therefore that's why it feels different and it doesn't feel normal.

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It feels like, well, wait a minute, I should be able to do this.

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I should have the strength for this. I used to be able to,

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why all of a sudden does it exhaust me? Why does it overwhelm me?

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These things don't usually overwhelm me. Something's wrong. Well, no,

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it's just that God says, Hey, you've met. And this is again,

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something that I wish that I'd been able to expand on in the teaching and

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didn't wasn't be able to, wasn't able to do much.

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And that's that we've maxed out our maturity level in the old season.

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Like there was everything.

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We achieved everything that God wanted us to achieve

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and to receive of him in the old season.

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And God's like, okay, if you're begging for more of me,

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I'll give it to you.

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But that means that if you've maxed out your capacity

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for what you can hold of me,

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then we've got to stretch you so that you've got the room

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to be able to handle the more of me,

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the capacity, the responsibility,

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the our trustworthiness or whatever.

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So it's not, so in the spiritual wilderness,

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we always feel like we're reverting

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and we get onto ourselves.

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Why can't I even keep up with the daily stuff?

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Why can't I even keep up with the normal stuff?

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I feel like I'm younger than I really am

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because that's how I used to be.

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I used to not be able to handle this stuff,

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but I'm matured enough and I expanded my capacity

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and I have to be able to handle that stuff.

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All of a sudden I can't handle it anymore.

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So we feel like we're going backwards

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and really we have to pay attention

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to what God is doing in our lives and realize,

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okay, if I'm going through a spiritual wilderness,

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it means God's up-leveling me.

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So he's conserving the energy for the transition

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to be able to expand the tent peg.

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So we have to choose in faith that we're not reverting

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to not impose shame on ourselves or self-condemnation.

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And it is faith because everything feels like it's bad.

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It feels like I'm going backwards

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and I have to catch myself before I backslide too much.

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Even if you're not even concerned about backsliding

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spiritually, there's this aspect of like,

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I feel like if I don't catch myself now,

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I'm gonna gain too much momentum

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and I'm not gonna be able to catch myself

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before I get worse.

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We have to choose that God is the one who's sustaining us

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and holding us anyway, not our own effort.

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So anyway, so what you're experiencing is not only normal,

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it's actually the signs that you're aware,

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that you're in this good place,

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that you're in a place of favor of the Lord

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because you maxed out your capacity

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and you've been seen as,

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you've done well, my good and faithful servant,

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let me give you more.

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But it's hard because like I said,

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it's not a physical thing that anybody else can see.

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And so you're probably thinking like we all do,

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what is everybody else gonna think?

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How is everybody else seeing this?

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they don't know that you're going through childbirth.

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Otherwise they'd have compassion.

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But if they don't know, well, then there's just like,

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and I'm not saying that your downline

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is giving you any heartache for this,

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but you are worried that your downline is thinking this

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and not saying it or whatever.

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So we impose things in our mind and our imagination

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on this situation.

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We live out what we imagine,

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not necessarily what's put on us.

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So anyway, I just wanna say all of that to encourage you

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that those are all,

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that's how we all feel during this time,

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is we feel the turmoil, we feel the uncertainty,

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we feel the confusion.

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It doesn't feel right

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because it's not fully the way life used to be,

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but we're not yet fully something else either.

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And we're somewhere in between where it's like,

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what season am I in anyway?

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It used to be like this and I had this down pat.

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I knew how to approach it.

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I knew what to expect of tomorrow.

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I knew how I could perform.

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I knew what the outcomes were gonna be

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because this is how God used me

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and this is how people responded to me and whatever.

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Well, all of that feels very fluid right now.

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And I can't count on anything,

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but it's not, and it's not just like,

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well, it's not like this anymore, it's like this.

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There's no this yet that it is yet.

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And so you're going like, what on earth is going on?

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And we have a tendency to think I've done something wrong.

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God's punishing me or I've messed up

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or I've gotten it out of a secure place

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because God says that he's secure.

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So if I don't feel secure,

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I must have messed up and stepped out of line.

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And none of those things are true.

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So, like I said, what you're feeling is normal.

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If you feel discombobulated, like it's like inside,

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sure, there's the mental thing,

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but a lot of this is just emotional turmoil and frustration

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because there's no solid ground.

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And just to know those are not, it's kind of like a detox.

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It gets worse before it gets better.

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you have to look for the signs that it's getting worse

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and that's how you know it's working.

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That's what it's like during this time as well.

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These signs we've put a meaning to of they're bad.

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If I feel this way, it's bad.

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And we have to learn by faith to choose no.

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It means that I'm going through childbirth.

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I sure am going through this pain.

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Sure, I'm going through this pressure.

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But I'm just going through it right now to deliver the baby.

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My body wasn't like this before and my body won't be like this after pain and pressure

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is not my new life.

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This how this discombobulation and this confusion, this is not my new season.

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It's to get me from the old season to make me capable to make, to give me the capacity

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to receive more of God in the new season.

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So, and she just know, okay, well, this too shall pass and this is a sign that it's working.

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And also know that when you're going through this, it's not a sin.

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Jesus went through this.

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There's no sin in going through transition and experiencing pain or pressure.

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That's the natural way that you transition from one to together.

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Now, I don't think that there's an aspect of that, that I think because it's our soul

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that's going through that.

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And our soul has a tendency to not believe the Lord.

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I think there's an aspect of sin that create, that increases the amount of pain and pressure

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case in point that we wouldn't experience, even if we're growing in the spirit and our

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spirit's perfect.

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And, you know, it's just, I don't think we'd experienced pain and pressure in growth without

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outside of sin to the same intensity that we do in sin because, and for multiple reasons,

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I think that for multiple reasons, one of which when they fell, God told Eve, he said,

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now you're going to experience pain when you deliver.

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And so apparently that wasn't a thing before.

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In other words, she was always going to go through a transition of delivery.

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Maybe she'd already delivered multiple children.

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But we just, the first one we hear about is Cain, but Cain married someone who did he

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marry?

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I mean, you know, if it's just Adam, Eve, Cain and Abel, but Cain married somebody.

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So it's possible that they lived for thousands of years and had children without pain before

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Cain came along.

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So who knows about that?

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But the point is that he had to specifically say, now when you go through transition, it's,

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you're going to have a different type of an experience.

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You went through transition before, but now it's going to be accompanied by pain and pressure.

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So, so there is an element of the fact that we're in a sinful world and the fact that

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we feel pain and pressure, but just because you feel pain and pressure doesn't mean you've

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sinned because Jesus experienced pain and pressure when he went through this struggle

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and get in the garden of Gethsemane.

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And when he was beaten and all of that, and he didn't sin.

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So it's the experience of being in a fallen world that causes the sin, not necessarily

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that we've imposed it on ourselves.

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So anyway, I know I talked a lot, but I just thought of all of these things that might

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help solidify the fact that what I'm saying, I'm hoping is encouraging because it's not

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just kind of like, Oh, you know, Oh, it'll all be okay.

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Just think, think happy thoughts.

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It's like, there's a lot of, there's a lot of foundation scripturally for the fact that

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we should find this to be encouraging.

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It means that you're where you're supposed to be.

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It means that you've been marked as favored by the Lord.

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And remember that Jesus, and he wasn't the only one I'm trying to remember how else this

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is evidenced in scripture, but when Jesus, before Jesus went into the wilderness, he

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had to be first to be declared publicly by God that he was favored as his son and found

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perfect.

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And I think, and I don't think that that's just invite.

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I know for sure that that's not just because it was Jesus.

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That's a, it's a, it's a principle.

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It's a right of passage.

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It's one of those things that before you go into the wilderness, the fact that God only

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takes his sons through the wilderness, that's what I'm trying to say.

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And once that he's because the wilderness is not a place of punishment, it's, it's evidence

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that you've been freed and you're now moving into a promised land.

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And in the wilderness is where the mountain of God is.

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The wilderness is where you meet God.

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The wilderness is where God resides.

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His mountain was in the wilderness.

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And so it wasn't just like, oh, well, we got to get through this ugly part because

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you always have to have some ugly before I'll give you the good.

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That's not the case.

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God says, you know, if you want to meet me, this is where I am in God is, it doesn't dwell

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in bad places.

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I mean, technically, you know, God's everywhere, but what I'm saying is that wherever God dwells

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is good.

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And, and so anyway, that'll be, you know, hopefully give you something to be able to

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talk to the Lord about because hearing all of this can sound good, but to actually believe

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it where your emotions change is an active faith that it's only him trusting that he

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will be with you and that he likes you and that he approves of you and that you are favored

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and that this was his chosen place for you because you did well, not because you did

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bad.

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is only something that you can receive directly from the Lord.

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So this is just to start the conversation with them.

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Yeah, no, I feel like it just confirms a lot of like,

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what's already been spoken to me,

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just even from other people like my,

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I was working with a business coach last month for,

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I forget how long I was working with her,

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but I was just telling her some of the things that I was feeling.

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And one thing that she said that just like really struck me was like,

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she's like,

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I was telling her all the things that,

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you know,

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Arnold and I are growing through and even like wanting to add another baby to

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the family and all that stuff.

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and she's like,

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why do you think you're not growing?

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Like you're growing in so many areas,

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but maybe not like,

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maybe you don't feel like you're growing in your business right now,

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but that doesn't mean that you're not growing anywhere.

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And I think sometimes you,

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I mean,

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you just can't grow everywhere all at one time.

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And sometimes I feel like my,

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Yeah.

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But another thing that my counselor told us was that he feels like every

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time that I have a little tiny burst of energy,

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I immediately overextend myself because I'm like,

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okay,

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a quick gotta like make up for last last time.

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And he's like,

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I have to look at it as the more that I can use those energy stores and like

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build upon them,

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like let them build up instead of immediately overdoing it.

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And so I'm like,

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okay,

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I'm going to do that.

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And then as soon as I feel a little twinge of energy,

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he's like over time,

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my capacity will grow,

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you know?

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So I don't know.

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I feel like all of it is very related and yeah.

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Very encouraging.

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Yeah.

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Well,

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good.

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And one of the things that you could do when you're wondering,

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you know,

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why you're not,

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why you're not growing.

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Apparently you're not.

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There's some standard that you have that you're that all those other

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things,

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but that you think you have the business will.

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So you can see what standard,

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in other words,

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what value,

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what you're valuing,

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and I don't mean money.

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I'm not talking about that because I know that I've not worked with you long

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enough.

469
00:27:06.600 --> 00:27:11.000
I know that that's not that I'm talking about some other aspect of it.

470
00:27:11.000 --> 00:27:13.100
If you think it's like the volume of people,

471
00:27:13.100 --> 00:27:16.900
you're touching makes you approved by God or,

472
00:27:16.900 --> 00:27:19.200
or I don't know.

473
00:27:19.200 --> 00:27:19.800
So in other words,

474
00:27:19.800 --> 00:27:21.200
it's volume as opposed to,

475
00:27:21.200 --> 00:27:21.400
well,

476
00:27:21.400 --> 00:27:22.800
you see how you're touching your family.

477
00:27:22.800 --> 00:27:23.200
You're like,

478
00:27:23.200 --> 00:27:23.600
yeah,

479
00:27:23.600 --> 00:27:25.700
but it's just me and Arnold and three kids.

480
00:27:25.700 --> 00:27:26.100
I mean,

481
00:27:26.100 --> 00:27:26.400
you know,

482
00:27:26.400 --> 00:27:27.000
but oh my word,

483
00:27:27.000 --> 00:27:27.600
lemongrass,

484
00:27:27.600 --> 00:27:27.800
you know,

485
00:27:27.800 --> 00:27:28.000
my,

486
00:27:28.000 --> 00:27:28.600
my downline,

487
00:27:28.600 --> 00:27:28.800
you know,

488
00:27:28.800 --> 00:27:30.600
that's X number of people.

489
00:27:30.600 --> 00:27:31.800
So I don't know if it's that,

490
00:27:31.800 --> 00:27:33.100
or if it's something else,

491
00:27:33.100 --> 00:27:35.900
and then you can start to solidify for yourself.

492
00:27:35.900 --> 00:27:36.100
Okay.

493
00:27:36.100 --> 00:27:39.900
Why the other things aren't satisfactory to you,

494
00:27:39.900 --> 00:27:46.200
but then that one is the one that you're always falling short in your own

495
00:27:46.300 --> 00:27:47.400
Minds about maybe.

496
00:27:47.400 --> 00:27:47.900
Okay.

497
00:27:47.900 --> 00:27:48.900
I got to go.

498
00:27:48.900 --> 00:27:49.300
Sorry.

499
00:27:49.300 --> 00:27:50.000
I don't know where to say.

500
00:27:50.000 --> 00:27:51.700
It's weird.

501
00:27:51.700 --> 00:27:52.200
Sorry,

502
00:27:52.200 --> 00:27:53.700
Monty,

503
00:27:53.700 --> 00:27:56.100
Monty,

504
00:27:56.100 --> 00:27:57.100
Monty.

505
00:27:57.100 --> 00:27:58.800
We're having plumbing issues.

506
00:27:58.800 --> 00:28:01.900
And so my husband without Edward outside talking and all of a sudden,

507
00:28:01.900 --> 00:28:02.300
he apparently,

508
00:28:02.300 --> 00:28:04.900
he got the message that the plumber is here.

509
00:28:04.900 --> 00:28:11.500
So we literally have sewage coming into our bathroom.

510
00:28:11.500 --> 00:28:12.300
We're like,

511
00:28:12.300 --> 00:28:12.600
okay,

512
00:28:12.600 --> 00:28:14.300
stop everything.

513
00:28:14.800 --> 00:28:15.900
Fix it.

514
00:28:15.900 --> 00:28:17.200
So thankfully we're,

515
00:28:17.200 --> 00:28:19.300
we're getting it.

516
00:28:19.300 --> 00:28:20.000
So,

517
00:28:20.000 --> 00:28:24.200
so how about you?

518
00:28:24.200 --> 00:28:26.500
It's really helpful to listen to all of it.

519
00:28:26.500 --> 00:28:26.800
I'm,

520
00:28:26.800 --> 00:28:32.600
I feel I've been feeling very frustrated.

521
00:28:32.600 --> 00:28:32.800
No,

522
00:28:32.800 --> 00:28:33.600
but it's,

523
00:28:33.600 --> 00:28:34.200
it's like,

524
00:28:34.200 --> 00:28:34.900
it's both ends.

525
00:28:34.900 --> 00:28:39.500
So it's I'm fully on board and like listening to,

526
00:28:39.500 --> 00:28:40.600
to the teaching.

527
00:28:40.600 --> 00:28:43.300
I could super relate with,

528
00:28:43.300 --> 00:28:43.700
you know,

529
00:28:43.700 --> 00:28:44.200
like this.

530
00:28:44.200 --> 00:28:48.100
I think my main thing is like the self-destruction where I'm just like,

531
00:28:48.100 --> 00:28:48.800
oh my gosh,

532
00:28:48.800 --> 00:28:53.800
like my,

533
00:28:53.800 --> 00:28:56.500
my soul and my body is definitely,

534
00:28:56.500 --> 00:28:56.900
you know,

535
00:28:56.900 --> 00:29:04.800
like struggling with the spirit and,

536
00:29:04.800 --> 00:29:08.000
and I just get so frustrated that I can't get it to align,

537
00:29:08.000 --> 00:29:08.300
you know,

538
00:29:08.300 --> 00:29:09.500
because it's like all,

539
00:29:09.500 --> 00:29:13.400
all I'm focusing on is the outward things,

540
00:29:13.400 --> 00:29:13.700
you know,

541
00:29:13.700 --> 00:29:13.800
so,

542
00:29:13.800 --> 00:29:14.200
you know,

543
00:29:14.200 --> 00:29:15.800
actually from the rest thing,

544
00:29:15.800 --> 00:29:16.900
like from last fall,

545
00:29:16.900 --> 00:29:19.300
like I'd been doing really good before that,

546
00:29:19.300 --> 00:29:23.900
just like working out and doing like being healthy and stuff like this.

547
00:29:23.900 --> 00:29:27.600
And then I just started getting sick over longer stretches of time.

548
00:29:27.600 --> 00:29:30.200
And so I never really got back to it.

549
00:29:30.200 --> 00:29:32.700
And then I don't know,

550
00:29:32.700 --> 00:29:34.000
just got back into this,

551
00:29:34.000 --> 00:29:38.600
like really self-destructive also physically,

552
00:29:38.600 --> 00:29:38.900
you know,

553
00:29:38.900 --> 00:29:40.200
just like not working out,

554
00:29:40.200 --> 00:29:41.100
not eating healthy,

555
00:29:41.100 --> 00:29:42.300
like doing all of these things.

556
00:29:42.300 --> 00:29:47.300
So instead of feeling like I'm growing and like moving towards something positive,

557
00:29:47.300 --> 00:29:51.000
I just feel like I'm downward spiraling at this,

558
00:29:51.000 --> 00:29:51.400
you know,

559
00:29:51.400 --> 00:29:53.500
and then I started a new job that I didn't like.

560
00:29:53.500 --> 00:29:58.200
And then I feel like I'm just becoming more and more frustrated there as well,

561
00:29:58.200 --> 00:29:58.600
you know,

562
00:29:58.600 --> 00:29:59.900
to where I'm just like.

563
00:30:00.960 --> 00:30:03.840
trying to put on, you know, a smile, and then I just I can't

564
00:30:03.840 --> 00:30:07.800
anymore. So now everybody knows I'm super frustrated. And that's

565
00:30:07.800 --> 00:30:11.400
not usually who I am. Like, usually, I'm like, Oh, I'll come

566
00:30:11.400 --> 00:30:14.000
with the cinnamon rolls. And I'll do this. And they're like,

567
00:30:14.200 --> 00:30:17.800
so all the things that I'm wanting to do, I can't seem to

568
00:30:17.800 --> 00:30:26.960
do. And then it frustrates me. And then at the same time, I

569
00:30:26.960 --> 00:30:31.360
feel like just, it's because God is wanting to heal some

570
00:30:31.360 --> 00:30:35.720
really deep, deep trauma within me, that because these are like

571
00:30:35.720 --> 00:30:41.040
reflections, like I've always had a struggle with, like, you

572
00:30:41.040 --> 00:30:44.120
know, like overeating or doing like these things. And then

573
00:30:44.120 --> 00:30:48.240
whenever I'm under very big pressure, I get a sore throat,

574
00:30:48.240 --> 00:30:53.080
like, so it's all these things coming back. And so while these

575
00:30:53.080 --> 00:30:55.800
things are happening in the physical, which is kind of like

576
00:30:55.800 --> 00:30:58.920
what I'm, I can relate to what you were talking to Priscilla,

577
00:30:58.920 --> 00:31:05.400
like, it's all this like turmoil thing. I, excuse me. I can't

578
00:31:05.400 --> 00:31:10.320
find myself to really like, find the space to like, just go super

579
00:31:10.320 --> 00:31:14.760
wrestling with the with the Lord, you know, to get to the

580
00:31:14.760 --> 00:31:17.280
bottom of it. I don't really because it's been looking so

581
00:31:17.280 --> 00:31:23.640
many different ways. I think a month ago or something, I was at

582
00:31:23.640 --> 00:31:26.320
the cabin, and I was really wrestling with God, you know, I

583
00:31:26.320 --> 00:31:30.040
was down, I was screaming, I was like throwing rocks in the

584
00:31:30.280 --> 00:31:36.040
ocean, like, I was mad, you know. And then at the same time,

585
00:31:36.040 --> 00:31:39.520
I was just like letting go of a lot of things. So it's this

586
00:31:39.520 --> 00:31:43.920
parallel thing of being super unhappy and how I feel

587
00:31:43.920 --> 00:31:47.680
physically, how I look physically, how I'm doing at

588
00:31:47.680 --> 00:31:53.920
work. And then at the same time, kind of wanting to believe

589
00:31:53.920 --> 00:31:57.600
that, oh, but but I can kind of see that this is, it's working

590
00:31:57.600 --> 00:32:01.080
on the deep, like, he wants me to be free from this forever,

591
00:32:01.080 --> 00:32:04.080
kind of like how it was with, I don't know if the boy can hear

592
00:32:04.080 --> 00:32:14.240
me. But like, I was, I was doing like this before, like many

593
00:32:14.240 --> 00:32:18.200
years ago. And I was like, trying to stop for many, many

594
00:32:18.200 --> 00:32:21.840
years. And then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, I had been

595
00:32:21.840 --> 00:32:25.120
binge watching, like a lot of TV shows. And then I just heard

596
00:32:25.120 --> 00:32:27.800
God say, Well, now I've healed on the inside of you what you

597
00:32:27.800 --> 00:32:32.240
needed that for. So you can just stop. And since that never

598
00:32:32.240 --> 00:32:36.240
touched it, never thought about it never like, and it was years

599
00:32:36.240 --> 00:32:48.800
trying. So, okay, cool. Thanks. So I was just like, Oh, this is

600
00:32:48.800 --> 00:32:51.680
probably you know, like what God is doing. And I'm reading all

601
00:32:51.680 --> 00:32:54.000
these like prophetic words, you know, like walking into

602
00:32:54.000 --> 00:32:56.240
Rosh Hashanah. It's like, it's breakthrough. It's the open

603
00:32:56.240 --> 00:32:59.800
doors. It's like, come back, dream again, like dust off what

604
00:32:59.800 --> 00:33:03.000
has been there. And, and last March, like God told me, I'm not

605
00:33:03.000 --> 00:33:05.880
asking you to give up on your dreams, but surrender. So I do

606
00:33:05.880 --> 00:33:11.480
feel like he's really doing something deep for me to be

607
00:33:11.480 --> 00:33:14.960
able, like you say, to transition into whatever it is.

608
00:33:15.600 --> 00:33:18.440
But then at the same time, I get frustrated, because I feel like

609
00:33:18.440 --> 00:33:21.760
I need I should be doing something to walk, you know,

610
00:33:21.760 --> 00:33:26.800
move towards it. And I don't know what that should look like,

611
00:33:26.840 --> 00:33:30.800
or, you know, I'm trying to find the rest in it. And like trying

612
00:33:30.800 --> 00:33:34.880
to get my body and my, my soul to like, align with the Spirit

613
00:33:34.880 --> 00:33:40.160
and yeah, so I don't know if that makes sense. So I'm like,

614
00:33:40.200 --> 00:33:45.120
I'm like, hopeful and frustrated at the same time. Yeah, no, all

615
00:33:45.120 --> 00:33:50.400
of that makes sense. In fact, and something I didn't explain

616
00:33:50.840 --> 00:33:54.160
is and that I realized after we were off the call, I was like,

617
00:33:54.160 --> 00:33:56.800
Oh, my goodness, I should explain this. The reason that I

618
00:33:56.800 --> 00:34:00.760
actually created the program is because I realized that there

619
00:34:00.760 --> 00:34:05.480
were some people who see when y'all went through the rest

620
00:34:05.480 --> 00:34:08.800
intensive, y'all were able to get a particular measure of rest

621
00:34:08.800 --> 00:34:11.360
to particular degrees. And we Yeah, we all include myself

622
00:34:11.360 --> 00:34:14.280
always have to get have more and more degrees to which we want to

623
00:34:14.280 --> 00:34:20.120
shift into it. But there were some people who got I've had at

624
00:34:20.120 --> 00:34:23.800
least one person go through who basically got you almost got

625
00:34:23.800 --> 00:34:29.040
nothing, got maybe a little bit of inner healing addressed, but

626
00:34:29.080 --> 00:34:32.400
got basically nothing. And then there's some other people who I

627
00:34:32.400 --> 00:34:38.120
felt got hardly anything. Now, maybe, maybe they were so they

628
00:34:38.120 --> 00:34:41.400
were struggling so much that I didn't realize. Oh, thank you,

629
00:34:41.400 --> 00:34:43.320
sweetie. So

630
00:34:46.560 --> 00:34:47.520
it's now here now.

631
00:34:49.040 --> 00:34:54.080
Can you hear me? Okay. And this let's point has to work in a

632
00:34:54.080 --> 00:34:55.120
little more quiet.

633
00:34:55.120 --> 00:34:56.960
Oh, okay. Yeah. Okay. Yeah.

634
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:01.200
The plumbers are going to come in.

635
00:35:01.200 --> 00:35:05.520
I might have to like, put us on, um, it put me on mute in a minute, but anyway.

636
00:35:05.880 --> 00:35:14.040
Um, so, um, uh, what I was saying was that I, I wanted that it was like, I

637
00:35:14.040 --> 00:35:17.600
was covering so much in the rest intensive that I realized that some

638
00:35:17.600 --> 00:35:23.840
people just needed an extra, uh, amount of time or help or more detailed

639
00:35:23.840 --> 00:35:27.680
application of how to actually break through.

640
00:35:28.120 --> 00:35:32.600
And so what I talk about the rest, you have to break through and then, and

641
00:35:32.600 --> 00:35:33.760
then here's all of this stuff.

642
00:35:33.760 --> 00:35:35.360
And some people just couldn't do it.

643
00:35:35.560 --> 00:35:38.960
Some people could like y'all did y'all were able to do it to

644
00:35:39.000 --> 00:35:40.440
particular measures and whatever.

645
00:35:40.440 --> 00:35:43.520
Some people get anywhere near.

646
00:35:43.920 --> 00:35:46.440
You know what y'all were able to do, what y'all were able to break through.

647
00:35:46.640 --> 00:35:51.240
And so I thought, you know what, let me just do a program that just concentrate.

648
00:35:51.960 --> 00:35:53.960
On nothing but the breakthrough part.

649
00:35:53.960 --> 00:35:58.280
So I could go more deep and just help people figure out how to unlock something

650
00:35:58.280 --> 00:36:00.600
that for the life of them, it can't figure out how to unlock.

651
00:36:01.240 --> 00:36:05.920
Um, and so my point is like what you're talking about in it, I wanted to help

652
00:36:05.920 --> 00:36:09.280
people, especially that are wanting to unlock particular areas, because there

653
00:36:09.280 --> 00:36:11.400
are certain areas, like I said, that y'all were able to break through and to

654
00:36:11.400 --> 00:36:13.800
rest, but there are other areas that you're struggling to break through and

655
00:36:13.800 --> 00:36:19.480
to rest in and I'm like, we all are well in those tougher areas and the areas

656
00:36:19.480 --> 00:36:24.040
that are have, have maybe like a greater stronghold in our lives.

657
00:36:24.800 --> 00:36:31.560
How do we more intentionally, um, have to have to face those things in order

658
00:36:31.560 --> 00:36:35.520
to finally get breakthrough and other areas that were easier for us to do.

659
00:36:35.520 --> 00:36:38.760
And so that's what, why I wanted to focus on.

660
00:36:38.800 --> 00:36:42.600
Um, so when I built this program, I thought, okay, well, what are those

661
00:36:42.600 --> 00:36:48.760
things that when I've needed extra, when I, when I've really needed to

662
00:36:48.760 --> 00:36:55.480
concentrate on a bigger, more, a deeper, strong cold, in other words, a stronger

663
00:36:55.480 --> 00:36:57.320
hold, what did I do?

664
00:36:58.080 --> 00:37:02.920
And I realized everything always went back to God and who he was and who it is

665
00:37:02.920 --> 00:37:09.040
that I am and how to honor, acknowledge and engage with that in a deeper way that

666
00:37:09.040 --> 00:37:14.200
I'm naturally doing because of what I was naturally doing was enough to break

667
00:37:14.200 --> 00:37:18.280
through in these areas, but it wasn't enough to break through in these areas.

668
00:37:18.280 --> 00:37:18.800
It's a lot.

669
00:37:19.080 --> 00:37:26.720
I needed to meet myself and God in a much deeper place in these areas in order for,

670
00:37:26.760 --> 00:37:30.400
um, because, and that's why I was struggling in those areas is because that

671
00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:35.160
was simply a manifestation of the fact that I wasn't connecting with me or God.

672
00:37:35.640 --> 00:37:37.240
Uh, to a particular level.

673
00:37:37.240 --> 00:37:40.440
That's really everything that we're talking about, what we're talking about,

674
00:37:40.440 --> 00:37:43.480
you know, in all of these issues, you know, that all of us are dealing with.

675
00:37:43.920 --> 00:37:47.760
It's not like, oh yeah, this is just some issue that just decided to attach

676
00:37:47.760 --> 00:37:52.640
itself to me is basically a manifestation of the fact that we aren't deeply

677
00:37:52.640 --> 00:37:54.520
connected to God in a particular way.

678
00:37:54.520 --> 00:38:00.480
And so it has that pressure that builds up, has to, has to act out and misbehave

679
00:38:00.520 --> 00:38:01.240
somehow.

680
00:38:01.840 --> 00:38:06.800
And, um, so we all have our own unique ways to do it, but the root cause, like

681
00:38:06.800 --> 00:38:11.080
the cause of it is the fact that it had a place to land in the first place.

682
00:38:11.440 --> 00:38:16.440
And so anyway, that, uh, what we'll be going through will be, I'm hoping to

683
00:38:16.440 --> 00:38:19.720
help, you know, each of us, you know, including what you're talking about

684
00:38:19.720 --> 00:38:25.720
in that really address those areas of really deep, uh, stronghold.

685
00:38:26.160 --> 00:38:32.440
Um, and, uh, because, and this is, it's honestly how I dealt with, uh, I'm

686
00:38:32.440 --> 00:38:35.360
sorry, if you can hear that I'd go outside if I could, but I lose

687
00:38:35.360 --> 00:38:37.120
self-serve, I lose them internet.

688
00:38:38.360 --> 00:38:41.560
Um, well, uh, but okay.

689
00:38:42.240 --> 00:38:48.280
Um, but anyway, when I was dealing with my own issues with, uh, with eating or

690
00:38:48.280 --> 00:38:50.720
whenever I continue to do, cause periodically I'll do it.

691
00:38:50.720 --> 00:38:53.160
I just am like nowhere near what I used to deal with.

692
00:38:53.200 --> 00:38:53.880
Oh my word.

693
00:38:54.360 --> 00:38:58.880
But when I dealt with that and whenever I have to periodically address it, the

694
00:38:58.880 --> 00:39:01.160
way that I deal with it is by.

695
00:39:02.480 --> 00:39:02.800
I'm sorry.

696
00:39:02.960 --> 00:39:03.240
Okay.

697
00:39:03.280 --> 00:39:04.560
Needed to make sure y'all could hear me.

698
00:39:05.040 --> 00:39:10.160
Um, Ed and I are laughing.

699
00:39:10.520 --> 00:39:11.360
Can you hear that?

700
00:39:12.920 --> 00:39:13.320
Okay.

701
00:39:13.400 --> 00:39:13.720
Okay.

702
00:39:13.760 --> 00:39:14.400
Thank goodness.

703
00:39:14.440 --> 00:39:14.720
Okay.

704
00:39:14.720 --> 00:39:16.040
So they're doing like a vacuuming.

705
00:39:16.040 --> 00:39:18.880
I think they're probably like vacuuming up the water or something.

706
00:39:19.600 --> 00:39:25.080
Anyway, um, oh, the raisin, the raisin, the toilet.

707
00:39:25.080 --> 00:39:25.440
Sorry.

708
00:39:25.440 --> 00:39:28.040
This is TMI on our call.

709
00:39:29.960 --> 00:39:30.520
So sorry.

710
00:39:30.720 --> 00:39:31.160
Okay.

711
00:39:31.200 --> 00:39:31.920
What a day.

712
00:39:32.360 --> 00:39:33.160
I got by that.

713
00:39:33.160 --> 00:39:35.840
Like I said, the internet isn't going to reach out there and

714
00:39:35.920 --> 00:39:37.400
we're in a studio apartment.

715
00:39:37.400 --> 00:39:38.600
So it's all one room.

716
00:39:39.000 --> 00:39:47.080
Uh, but anyway, what I had to do is I had to really meet, uh, I had to love me.

717
00:39:48.000 --> 00:39:51.080
And no amount of telling myself to love me with working.

718
00:39:52.400 --> 00:39:57.960
Um, I really, and so when I designed this breakthrough program, what I did was as I

719
00:39:57.960 --> 00:39:59.960
tried to remit is I didn't try.

720
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.280
remember, but I like, I try to remember all the things that I have done that

721
00:40:03.280 --> 00:40:08.160
have helped me whenever I really needed to connect with me to finally, truly

722
00:40:08.160 --> 00:40:11.760
accept myself is telling someone, Hey, you just need to accept yourself.

723
00:40:11.760 --> 00:40:13.280
So, Hey, work on that this week.

724
00:40:13.560 --> 00:40:14.440
Is it working?

725
00:40:14.820 --> 00:40:16.320
Because it's, we knew how to do it.

726
00:40:16.320 --> 00:40:16.840
We do it.

727
00:40:16.840 --> 00:40:17.440
So I'd have it.

728
00:40:17.440 --> 00:40:22.400
So I have had to figure out, okay, how do I articulate, how did I articulate

729
00:40:22.400 --> 00:40:27.760
for myself, something that I could practically step out on something that

730
00:40:27.760 --> 00:40:32.240
I could do or words that I use with myself to realize, Oh, that's what I

731
00:40:32.240 --> 00:40:34.200
have to do to, to accept myself.

732
00:40:34.200 --> 00:40:35.880
I have to think of myself this way.

733
00:40:36.200 --> 00:40:38.560
I have to literally physically do this.

734
00:40:38.960 --> 00:40:39.760
I have to, whatever.

735
00:40:39.760 --> 00:40:43.640
And then I figured out how to connect with myself or how to accept myself,

736
00:40:43.880 --> 00:40:47.760
or I figured out how I wasn't accepting myself because I thought that I was,

737
00:40:47.800 --> 00:40:51.680
you know, and, um, so anyway, so hopefully all of that will help.

738
00:40:52.040 --> 00:40:57.280
Um, but, but yeah, so like you said, when you're going through what you're

739
00:40:57.280 --> 00:41:03.760
going, when you're, where it is that you are is simply an evidence of the fact

740
00:41:03.760 --> 00:41:06.240
that you're going through a transition period.

741
00:41:06.240 --> 00:41:11.680
So all of this is normal and it's meant that it's being addressed because

742
00:41:11.840 --> 00:41:13.480
it's being raised to the surface.

743
00:41:14.000 --> 00:41:17.720
It's highlighted to you because it's being triggered.

744
00:41:17.760 --> 00:41:20.960
And so therefore when it's brought to the light, then it can be dealt with.

745
00:41:21.280 --> 00:41:24.600
And so, you know that, okay, if all of this is coming up, then it means that

746
00:41:24.600 --> 00:41:27.800
God is giving me the opportunity to release it.

747
00:41:28.280 --> 00:41:31.320
And, um, so anyway, but whether your thoughts.

748
00:41:33.440 --> 00:41:35.360
Yeah, that's super, super helpful.

749
00:41:35.360 --> 00:41:37.560
I think part of me, cause I really love that.

750
00:41:37.560 --> 00:41:42.200
And I think part of me is just kind of scared that, Oh my gosh, I feel like

751
00:41:42.200 --> 00:41:45.120
I've been struggling with this or like wrestling with it for so long.

752
00:41:45.120 --> 00:41:49.880
Like that I'm scared.

753
00:41:49.880 --> 00:41:53.320
I want, like, I feel everything in me and around me is like building

754
00:41:53.320 --> 00:41:54.600
up to this like breakthrough.

755
00:41:54.600 --> 00:41:58.680
And then I'm also kind of scared that it won't happen, you know?

756
00:41:59.480 --> 00:42:00.160
Um, yeah.

757
00:42:00.200 --> 00:42:05.120
So I think that's, and, and I'm like, um, I think on a lot of things, I.

758
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:11.360
I need to find a way to do like, go deeper, like both in loving myself and

759
00:42:11.360 --> 00:42:16.600
like being there with God and just being rock cause I can feel like even in my

760
00:42:16.600 --> 00:42:20.440
notes where I'm like trying to keep a like bullet from, you know, like, Oh yeah.

761
00:42:20.440 --> 00:42:21.400
He's all powerful.

762
00:42:21.400 --> 00:42:24.400
You know, like, or it's like, Oh, he's the promise keeper, you know?

763
00:42:24.400 --> 00:42:27.000
And then I see the double rainbow and it's like, Oh my goodness.

764
00:42:27.000 --> 00:42:28.480
Like, it's amazing.

765
00:42:28.480 --> 00:42:33.200
But so it's like these small kisses, you know, from God where I'm just

766
00:42:33.200 --> 00:42:34.480
like, Oh yeah, you are there.

767
00:42:34.480 --> 00:42:45.440
But I still feel like I'm, um, I'm not sure if I'm being like raw about it,

768
00:42:45.480 --> 00:42:47.160
raw with it, honest with it.

769
00:42:47.160 --> 00:42:53.720
I'm not, um, cause it's like, I think it goes back to like that vulnerability

770
00:42:53.720 --> 00:42:59.160
thing of like being, or even like being at war with, you know, with the body

771
00:42:59.160 --> 00:43:00.600
and the soul and the spirit.

772
00:43:00.680 --> 00:43:05.360
Um, cause it's like, Oh, I can feel peaceful.

773
00:43:05.400 --> 00:43:08.760
Like I can feel at rest and feel peaceful at work, but then at the same

774
00:43:08.760 --> 00:43:12.960
time I'll snap, you know, and create all this chaos and it's like,

775
00:43:13.440 --> 00:43:15.120
well, that wasn't necessary.

776
00:43:15.480 --> 00:43:19.120
But it's like, I can feel like, Oh, you know, like, Oh, I'm just like,

777
00:43:19.120 --> 00:43:21.880
I'm on the brink of like breaking down, you know?

778
00:43:21.880 --> 00:43:23.600
And then it becomes so dramatic.

779
00:43:23.600 --> 00:43:26.920
And I'm like, I'm not really this dramatic usually, you know?

780
00:43:26.920 --> 00:43:29.280
Like it's, it's odd.

781
00:43:29.360 --> 00:43:30.840
Um, yeah.

782
00:43:30.880 --> 00:43:31.280
Yeah.

783
00:43:31.960 --> 00:43:36.480
So, so I think I'm just like, um, yeah.

784
00:43:37.640 --> 00:43:39.960
Uh, I, I want to like get the most out of it.

785
00:43:39.960 --> 00:43:42.320
And I'm like, Oh, am I doing the right thing?

786
00:43:42.320 --> 00:43:44.800
Like, am I, am I, yeah.

787
00:43:46.120 --> 00:43:46.800
I don't know.

788
00:43:47.520 --> 00:43:47.800
Yeah.

789
00:43:47.840 --> 00:43:48.200
Yeah.

790
00:43:48.520 --> 00:43:52.440
So one of the things it, so yeah, all of those are great points.

791
00:43:52.520 --> 00:43:57.680
Um, so one of the things is that, that we're going to, uh, you know, that

792
00:43:57.680 --> 00:44:01.400
we talked about, I think maybe even last time is either that or in the

793
00:44:01.400 --> 00:44:05.040
intro about the fact that one of the things that we have to do is we have

794
00:44:05.040 --> 00:44:07.280
to let go of ever getting the breakthrough.

795
00:44:07.480 --> 00:44:10.800
And it's terrifying because we're like, wait a minute, if I don't tell

796
00:44:10.800 --> 00:44:12.320
God that this is what I want.

797
00:44:13.040 --> 00:44:16.680
And if I basically, I know it sounds bad to word it like this, but if we,

798
00:44:16.720 --> 00:44:18.640
if we think about it, we're like, that's really what I'm doing.

799
00:44:18.960 --> 00:44:20.680
If I don't hold God to it.

800
00:44:21.560 --> 00:44:26.160
If I don't do with that, with that lady did, uh, to the unrighteous

801
00:44:26.160 --> 00:44:30.040
judge in the, in, um, in the parable, where she like pounded

802
00:44:30.040 --> 00:44:32.240
him relentlessly all the time.

803
00:44:32.240 --> 00:44:37.560
If I don't do that, then he's going to think that it's not important enough to

804
00:44:37.560 --> 00:44:41.760
me and he'll pick something else to work on or he'll pick something else to give

805
00:44:41.800 --> 00:44:43.960
me because he doesn't realize how valuable this is.

806
00:44:43.960 --> 00:44:46.840
So I need to let him know that this is that valuable.

807
00:44:47.000 --> 00:44:48.160
Otherwise I won't get it.

808
00:44:48.880 --> 00:44:53.800
And, um, and so it's actually the opposite is that we can hold something

809
00:44:53.800 --> 00:44:59.880
to the Lord, but we, we have to expect that we'll get it in order for us to.

810
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.040
Get it. And we have to release and not hold him in, um, hold him accountable to giving it to us.

811
00:45:07.040 --> 00:45:13.200
Or how do I explain that? It's yeah. You're not holding him accountable to giving it to you and

812
00:45:13.200 --> 00:45:19.360
you're not holding it against him. Um, if that, he hasn't given it to you yet in order for him

813
00:45:19.360 --> 00:45:23.600
to give it to you. It's weird as it sounds. So that's one of the things why we haven't gotten

814
00:45:23.600 --> 00:45:27.840
breakthroughs so far. And we're just like in the turmoil of like the Israelites, you know,

815
00:45:27.840 --> 00:45:31.920
going in circles in the wilderness, instead of finally being able to get out, you know,

816
00:45:31.920 --> 00:45:34.800
because they were given the opportunity to get out. And they were like, no, we don't believe

817
00:45:34.800 --> 00:45:40.480
God. And God's like, Oh shoot. Okay. That means you're going to go in circle in the same place

818
00:45:40.480 --> 00:45:46.400
for 40 years. You know, we go around and around and it's because the way to get out is to finally

819
00:45:46.400 --> 00:45:52.880
believe God. And so finally choose, okay, God, I'll let you be you. I've told you what I want.

820
00:45:52.880 --> 00:45:57.280
And I'll tell you. And at the reason why you want that is because God gave you that desire.

821
00:45:58.080 --> 00:46:05.040
You and God decided that was a good thing. And so God plans on giving it to you. And, um, so

822
00:46:05.040 --> 00:46:10.480
we just have to choose, okay, God, I'm going to get it. And then just kind of like, let go,

823
00:46:10.480 --> 00:46:16.800
because if you let go, then God can actually, you're no longer pulling against him and trying

824
00:46:16.800 --> 00:46:22.720
to use your energy to like help yourself or whatever. And so if you're a lint dish rag,

825
00:46:22.720 --> 00:46:27.360
then he can move you. Then he can do something with you, but he can't, if you're trying to use

826
00:46:27.360 --> 00:46:33.040
your own control or your own authority or your own, whatever. And, um, so anyway, it's very

827
00:46:33.040 --> 00:46:38.160
challenging. I just mentioned that to you that that's like nuts and bolts. That's what it actually

828
00:46:38.160 --> 00:46:46.480
is that we have to do. So you can ask the Lord to help you, um, learn how to let go, learn how to

829
00:46:46.480 --> 00:46:51.280
release them. We'll be talking more about all of that, but, um, I just wanted to kind of like get

830
00:46:51.280 --> 00:46:57.920
down to brass tacks and say, that's actually what we have to do is that we also, we feel that,

831
00:46:57.920 --> 00:47:03.280
like I said, if we're not holding onto it like this, then it, then it's not going to happen.

832
00:47:04.320 --> 00:47:09.680
And so we have to choose, okay, I can let it go. That's that sacrifice on the altar of like,

833
00:47:09.680 --> 00:47:14.080
oh my goodness, if I give it to God, is he going to kill it? You know, am I not going to, it's

834
00:47:14.080 --> 00:47:18.400
like all hope going to die. And that's what Abraham had to do with either. It's literally,

835
00:47:18.400 --> 00:47:23.760
I promise you, it's literally the exact same thing. Um, and that is what we're talking about

836
00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:28.400
here is literally what he was having Abraham do with Isaac. And he said, Hey, look, that thing

837
00:47:28.400 --> 00:47:34.400
that you're struggling with, with, with, uh, again, with me, we eating is that that's Abraham

838
00:47:34.400 --> 00:47:39.440
and Isaac. He says, so what I want you to do, you have to put it down and entrust me with something

839
00:47:39.440 --> 00:47:45.120
that's that precious to you and let it go and finally be hands off. And then God's like,

840
00:47:45.120 --> 00:47:51.280
then I can fix it. So the point is it will fix itself automatically without so much work and

841
00:47:51.280 --> 00:47:55.760
effort on your part. Cause like I told you before, like, and I'm just using the eating as an example,

842
00:47:55.760 --> 00:48:00.560
cause you brought that up as the example. Um, we remember me telling you that and,

843
00:48:00.560 --> 00:48:05.120
and Priscilla knows this lady as well, that there's a lady in there and that it has gone

844
00:48:05.120 --> 00:48:10.400
through the rest intensive. And I, and I, she was one of those that kept coming back to me,

845
00:48:10.400 --> 00:48:15.600
but Hashley, I really want to lose weight and I'm working very hard. I'm exercising, I am dieting

846
00:48:15.600 --> 00:48:22.080
and I am losing like, like these pit for what I'm doing. She's like, I'm losing this piddly little

847
00:48:22.080 --> 00:48:27.600
amount. I'm doing all of this work and I'm only losing a pound. She said, even my trainer doesn't

848
00:48:27.600 --> 00:48:33.280
understand what's going on. And, um, she said, and of course she'd heard me tell her, you know,

849
00:48:33.280 --> 00:48:37.200
Hey, you need to, you need to love your body as it is. And you accept it and you're like,

850
00:48:37.520 --> 00:48:43.040
need a rest or whatever. And then your body will fall. We'll make it fall off. It'll let it go on

851
00:48:43.040 --> 00:48:47.360
its own. And you don't have, cause right now you're like trying to force it at, beat it out of you.

852
00:48:48.080 --> 00:48:54.000
But wouldn't you rather just tell your body to do it. And by just simply by accepting your body as

853
00:48:54.000 --> 00:48:57.840
it is. And then your body's the one that chooses to let go of all of the extra weight. She's like,

854
00:48:57.840 --> 00:49:02.160
Oh, my God, that'd be so much better. It took her a while to figure it out, figure out how

855
00:49:02.160 --> 00:49:06.960
to do it. Like we're talking months to figure out how do I, how do I let go, whatever. But when

856
00:49:06.960 --> 00:49:13.040
she finally did it, she dropped 31 pounds. She dropped 31 pounds that included while she was at

857
00:49:13.040 --> 00:49:19.200
near the end of her pregnancy, like the past last few months of her pregnancy. She lost that plus

858
00:49:19.200 --> 00:49:25.040
while plus yeah. While she was, uh, after, you know, postpartum, she lost it. But the point is

859
00:49:25.040 --> 00:49:30.720
like, even when you're not supposed, you're not normally losing weight, she was dropping it and

860
00:49:30.720 --> 00:49:36.880
she wasn't exercising, doing any of that stuff. And it was because her body finally realized

861
00:49:37.680 --> 00:49:43.680
she wasn't the enemy anymore. It didn't need to protect itself against her and it was safe.

862
00:49:43.680 --> 00:49:48.080
And it could finally, that it was loved and it was accepted. He's like, okay, so I don't,

863
00:49:48.080 --> 00:49:53.840
so I I'm safe. Okay. Then I'll let it go. We think if we think are, if we accept our body,

864
00:49:54.400 --> 00:49:59.840
that our bodies can keep it as the opposite. If our body knows that we're loved.

865
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.520
that it's loved and that it's safe, fully and unconditionally as it is,

866
00:50:05.520 --> 00:50:07.560
without ever requiring it to change.

867
00:50:07.880 --> 00:50:09.200
The body doesn't want to hold it.

868
00:50:09.200 --> 00:50:11.480
It's only holding it because it's trying to protect itself.

869
00:50:11.480 --> 00:50:14.560
And it realizes that you're protecting it and no longer has to protect itself.

870
00:50:14.920 --> 00:50:17.640
It will default back to God's original functionality

871
00:50:17.640 --> 00:50:19.480
of not holding anything extra.

872
00:50:19.880 --> 00:50:24.240
It only holds on extra if it thinks it needs to in preparation for something bad.

873
00:50:24.520 --> 00:50:27.680
If there's no preparation that it needs to be making it automatically

874
00:50:27.680 --> 00:50:32.440
where the body created the, it to function, it will release it like with a,

875
00:50:32.480 --> 00:50:37.760
like with that toxins, you know, that's what that cells are housing is toxins.

876
00:50:37.760 --> 00:50:40.720
So we put toxins, our body through hairspray or through like eating

877
00:50:40.720 --> 00:50:46.240
sugar or whatever, and, and the, and then it create, it doesn't want it to poison

878
00:50:46.240 --> 00:50:46.600
our body.

879
00:50:46.600 --> 00:50:49.600
So if our colon isn't working right, and it's not passing out through the

880
00:50:49.600 --> 00:50:53.160
colon fast enough, or it's not passing out through sweat fast enough, then our

881
00:50:53.200 --> 00:50:59.800
body's thinking if, if this toxin just, it just continues to, you know, be able

882
00:50:59.800 --> 00:51:03.320
to exist in this, in this body, it's going to be like a free radical and it's

883
00:51:03.320 --> 00:51:04.920
going to, it's going to start killing things.

884
00:51:05.160 --> 00:51:06.640
It's going to start poisoning the body.

885
00:51:06.640 --> 00:51:10.080
So we'll encapsulate it in fat and we'll put it somewhere.

886
00:51:10.840 --> 00:51:17.560
My point is that when we start detoxing again, then like all, sometimes all you

887
00:51:17.560 --> 00:51:21.920
have to do is get your colon moving very regularly and be drinking a lot of water.

888
00:51:21.920 --> 00:51:25.800
And without you telling your body to your body knows, Oh, Hey, we've got

889
00:51:25.800 --> 00:51:28.040
some toxins that we stored.

890
00:51:28.200 --> 00:51:31.160
We now no longer need to store them since we can get them out.

891
00:51:31.160 --> 00:51:33.000
So, Hey, let's dump them all into the colon.

892
00:51:33.320 --> 00:51:35.440
You didn't have to tell your body you wanted to lose weight.

893
00:51:36.200 --> 00:51:40.760
You know, in fact, when I detoxed in fact, like literally when I physically

894
00:51:40.760 --> 00:51:47.400
began to do some serious detoxing without losing weight, I lost size.

895
00:51:48.360 --> 00:51:50.800
I don't remember how many inches I think I lost.

896
00:51:51.680 --> 00:51:57.200
I think I went down at least a size and a half without losing weight simply because

897
00:51:57.200 --> 00:52:01.560
my body started getting rid of all of the fat because it's like, Oh, okay.

898
00:52:01.560 --> 00:52:03.160
So I didn't need to hold on to this anymore.

899
00:52:03.160 --> 00:52:04.920
You've got a gateway for me to get this thing out.

900
00:52:04.920 --> 00:52:07.400
I'm going to, I'm going to start acting like I know how to act.

901
00:52:07.880 --> 00:52:09.480
So we don't have to give our body injection.

902
00:52:09.480 --> 00:52:13.360
I use it to do, we have to provide it a safe place to be able to function

903
00:52:13.360 --> 00:52:14.640
the way it was created to function.

904
00:52:15.200 --> 00:52:19.080
Anyway, that's, that's why we'll be focusing like, especially on the, we're

905
00:52:19.160 --> 00:52:23.920
going to be focusing on it, you know, I don't know, starting pretty soon here,

906
00:52:23.920 --> 00:52:26.680
like the third or fourth section session.

907
00:52:27.240 --> 00:52:33.280
And then the whole rest of it, a lot about it just on ourselves so that we

908
00:52:33.280 --> 00:52:38.440
can kind of start figuring out, okay, how do I connect with me in a way that I've

909
00:52:38.440 --> 00:52:43.440
shut myself down or I won't give myself access to me, but interestingly, and now

910
00:52:43.440 --> 00:52:49.040
we're doing some ministry with a friend of ours in Houston this past weekend.

911
00:52:49.640 --> 00:52:55.360
He's a, this guy is like prophetic and does deliverance and stuff like that.

912
00:52:55.360 --> 00:53:00.600
And so, Ed used to travel around the world with him and be on his ministry team.

913
00:53:00.600 --> 00:53:04.920
So now I'm married that the man, his name is Ken and he just kind of

914
00:53:04.920 --> 00:53:06.000
adopted me into the group.

915
00:53:06.320 --> 00:53:09.400
I was like, okay, you know, you're, you're ministering with Ed.

916
00:53:09.440 --> 00:53:13.120
So we work with like, so people come up to the front at the end of Ken's

917
00:53:13.160 --> 00:53:17.680
teaching and we'll be, and they'll be coming up for like demonic deliverance

918
00:53:17.720 --> 00:53:21.240
or they'll be coming up for like inner healing or like physical healing or

919
00:53:21.240 --> 00:53:23.840
whatever, well, I had one lady walk up.

920
00:53:24.480 --> 00:53:29.000
She wasn't Mennonite, but it's, it's as if she was, she was so she was, she

921
00:53:29.000 --> 00:53:30.400
was more like independent Baptist.

922
00:53:30.440 --> 00:53:33.800
They're just like, they don't wear all of this stuff, but they are,

923
00:53:33.840 --> 00:53:35.560
she was literally buttoned to here.

924
00:53:36.160 --> 00:53:41.000
Buttoned to here had a long dress, you know, just looked very, very, very old

925
00:53:41.040 --> 00:53:41.560
fashioned.

926
00:53:42.200 --> 00:53:45.240
And she came up to me and I was like, oh my word, Lord.

927
00:53:45.240 --> 00:53:49.680
I, I know I could just sense emotionally and spiritually what she was her

928
00:53:49.680 --> 00:53:50.200
background.

929
00:53:50.200 --> 00:53:53.200
I was like, oh my word, Lord, this is a little too close to my own, my own

930
00:53:53.200 --> 00:53:53.640
background.

931
00:53:54.320 --> 00:54:00.320
Um, and, uh, so she came up and as I was working with her, I realized and she,

932
00:54:00.360 --> 00:54:04.160
and I finally had to explain to her, I was like, you're emotionally shut down.

933
00:54:04.160 --> 00:54:07.320
You won't, you're, you can't access you.

934
00:54:08.120 --> 00:54:10.000
She was just like, I can't feel anything.

935
00:54:10.000 --> 00:54:13.040
Can you pray and ask the Lord that he's helped me feel.

936
00:54:13.760 --> 00:54:15.600
She's like, I don't, I don't know how I feel.

937
00:54:15.680 --> 00:54:18.040
You know, I, you know, am I supposed to feel something?

938
00:54:18.040 --> 00:54:20.160
Am I supposed to feel something in my, in my physical body?

939
00:54:20.160 --> 00:54:24.120
Am I supposed to feel like she, and then she started talking about the fact that

940
00:54:24.120 --> 00:54:26.200
basically she couldn't feel like emotions.

941
00:54:27.440 --> 00:54:30.000
It was that locked down.

942
00:54:30.080 --> 00:54:32.640
My husband was, Ed was working with her brother.

943
00:54:32.920 --> 00:54:36.800
We did know that they were, that they were, and, uh, that they were brother and

944
00:54:36.800 --> 00:54:40.120
sister at the time we thought they were two like totally separate, you know,

945
00:54:40.120 --> 00:54:44.440
strangers and we were comparing notes at the end at, you know, like that night or

946
00:54:44.440 --> 00:54:44.960
whatever.

947
00:54:45.000 --> 00:54:48.200
And he was like, man, that guy that I was working with was locked down.

948
00:54:48.200 --> 00:54:50.520
He was like one of the hardest people there are to work with.

949
00:54:50.920 --> 00:54:52.640
I was like, well, that's funny.

950
00:54:54.360 --> 00:54:56.640
Their brother and sister, they grew up in the same type of home.

951
00:54:56.840 --> 00:54:58.960
They were both completely locked down.

952
00:54:58.960 --> 00:54:59.920
They couldn't, they.

953
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.860
literally couldn't access themselves.

954
00:55:02.400 --> 00:55:06.240
And so sometimes, yeah, that's like a demonic thing that has been stifled,

955
00:55:06.600 --> 00:55:09.620
that is stifling them, you know, that they can, that can be released and they

956
00:55:09.620 --> 00:55:11.440
can finally get access to themselves.

957
00:55:11.440 --> 00:55:15.560
But regardless, they, they, they didn't know how to feel.

958
00:55:15.920 --> 00:55:22.680
And so, even though you and I may not, you know, be that extreme, there's still,

959
00:55:22.720 --> 00:55:26.920
there's major aspects of myself that I'm stifling, I can't get access to me.

960
00:55:27.300 --> 00:55:30.000
And that's an aspect of what you're dealing with.

961
00:55:30.100 --> 00:55:35.840
If you're struggling to figure out how do I accept my, my body without

962
00:55:35.840 --> 00:55:40.880
accepting, without like allowing this thing to continue, you don't know how

963
00:55:40.880 --> 00:55:45.720
to access you and set as weird as that sounds, it's like you can access yourself

964
00:55:45.720 --> 00:55:48.000
to a particular degree, but not past that.

965
00:55:48.240 --> 00:55:52.160
And it was created that way because, I mean, you did it that way because you

966
00:55:52.160 --> 00:55:55.640
were trying to defend yourself when you were little or, you know, based off of

967
00:55:55.640 --> 00:55:59.320
experiences, you learned, Hey, look, when I access this point, I get hurt to the

968
00:55:59.320 --> 00:56:04.840
point where, where it's so deep that it just feels irreparable and I don't know

969
00:56:04.840 --> 00:56:05.440
how to fix it.

970
00:56:05.440 --> 00:56:06.840
Nobody else is telling me how to fix it.

971
00:56:06.840 --> 00:56:08.120
So I'm just going to shut it off.

972
00:56:08.440 --> 00:56:08.880
You don't know.

973
00:56:08.880 --> 00:56:09.800
That's what we're doing.

974
00:56:09.800 --> 00:56:11.000
It's a defense mechanism.

975
00:56:11.320 --> 00:56:14.720
But anyway, that's why when we talk later, we're going to talk about things

976
00:56:14.720 --> 00:56:23.120
like how to be me with God or know me that I can know God because by knowing

977
00:56:23.120 --> 00:56:25.720
ourselves, we know more about God.

978
00:56:25.720 --> 00:56:29.360
And especially that one, that one's going to be, I think that one's the one where

979
00:56:29.360 --> 00:56:33.640
we're talking a lot about our emotions, how to access who it is that we really

980
00:56:33.640 --> 00:56:36.000
are and how it is that we really feel about things.

981
00:56:36.360 --> 00:56:39.400
And then the last one that we're talking about is how to own ourselves.

982
00:56:39.400 --> 00:56:44.200
In other words, how to reclaim the right to who it is that we are, because I

983
00:56:44.200 --> 00:56:47.560
didn't know about you, but me, mine is so, was so bad.

984
00:56:47.600 --> 00:56:49.160
I was even talking to a counselor about it.

985
00:56:49.160 --> 00:56:54.880
I said, you know, if I, um, I, it's very easy for someone else for

986
00:56:54.880 --> 00:56:57.280
me to feel owned by someone else.

987
00:56:57.720 --> 00:57:01.880
I said, it can even be a stranger, but if they're right and I'm not, I feel that

988
00:57:01.880 --> 00:57:07.520
they own me, I will voluntarily give up my right to myself, to someone else.

989
00:57:08.240 --> 00:57:13.360
Because I have that much of a sense that I don't have a right to me.

990
00:57:13.880 --> 00:57:15.400
Don't have a right to make my decisions.

991
00:57:15.400 --> 00:57:16.840
I don't have a right to feel.

992
00:57:16.840 --> 00:57:20.440
I don't have a right to do anything except take somebody else's instruction.

993
00:57:20.800 --> 00:57:23.560
I said, so anybody can like lead, be my, then lead me by

994
00:57:23.560 --> 00:57:25.080
the nose if I'm not careful.

995
00:57:25.600 --> 00:57:31.040
Um, so anyway, a lot, but, um, I was hoping that some, that there would be

996
00:57:31.040 --> 00:57:35.760
some things in there that might kind of like, uh, prompt some, uh, thoughts

997
00:57:35.760 --> 00:57:39.320
that maybe you hadn't thought about before that maybe would be helpful.

998
00:57:40.160 --> 00:57:41.120
What do you think?

999
00:57:42.760 --> 00:57:44.520
Yeah, I think it's, it's really, really good.

1000
00:57:44.520 --> 00:57:48.960
And I think I need to just like, yeah, just really sit with God.

1001
00:57:48.960 --> 00:57:52.160
And like you said, just like write down, this is what's important to me.

1002
00:57:52.160 --> 00:57:58.720
And then just be like, like kind of like how you explain in the rest intensive

1003
00:57:58.720 --> 00:58:02.320
with the spirit man coming and healing the soul where it's like, okay, now I'm

1004
00:58:02.320 --> 00:58:07.040
just expecting you to come heal it while I go figure out what it is, you know, I

1005
00:58:07.040 --> 00:58:10.000
enjoy doing, and I'm just going to go like those things.

1006
00:58:10.000 --> 00:58:15.600
I think I need to do this with the, the, the three major things I'm looking for

1007
00:58:15.600 --> 00:58:19.280
breakthrough in, you know, that I've been looking for for so long and just

1008
00:58:19.280 --> 00:58:21.320
kind of to, to let it go.

1009
00:58:21.320 --> 00:58:27.080
And, um, Um, and then it's, it's helpful to hear, I have been thinking about that

1010
00:58:27.080 --> 00:58:31.840
woman many times and I'm like, why can't I do this, but it's good to hear that.

1011
00:58:31.840 --> 00:58:35.960
It's, I think the reason why I bring up the weight thing is just cause it's, um,

1012
00:58:36.720 --> 00:58:40.400
it taps into like the other things, whether that's like getting married or

1013
00:58:40.400 --> 00:58:43.720
like having my own business, but the physical thing is just like, it's, I

1014
00:58:43.720 --> 00:58:47.720
feel like that's easier to see when you get it, you know, it's like, well, it's

1015
00:58:47.720 --> 00:58:49.840
visible, like you can definitely see it.

1016
00:58:49.880 --> 00:58:58.680
Um, and, and I think, um, Yeah, I think, um, and there's, there's a key there

1017
00:58:58.680 --> 00:59:00.520
too, that I want to like break through.

1018
00:59:00.520 --> 00:59:04.080
So it's helpful to hear that it took her some, some months as well.

1019
00:59:04.120 --> 00:59:08.920
Cause it's, um, I feel like I've been trying to like bless my body or speak

1020
00:59:08.920 --> 00:59:12.280
to it and do this and then it's just doing the opposite and then I start

1021
00:59:12.280 --> 00:59:13.240
panicking, you know?

1022
00:59:13.240 --> 00:59:14.400
So it's like, Oh my gosh.

1023
00:59:14.400 --> 00:59:16.280
Like, yeah.

1024
00:59:16.400 --> 00:59:18.120
So then I have to like go back again.

1025
00:59:18.120 --> 00:59:23.680
So it becomes this like weird, weird little dance, but, um, that has to, to

1026
00:59:23.680 --> 00:59:25.840
do with probably something.

1027
00:59:26.440 --> 00:59:31.440
So part of all of that comes from the fact that we telling ourselves that, that

1028
00:59:31.480 --> 00:59:33.000
we should accept ourselves.

1029
00:59:33.520 --> 00:59:37.200
Um, but we're not really loving ourselves though.

1030
00:59:37.200 --> 00:59:41.960
It's like, we're doing something without engaging our own selves vulnerably.

1031
00:59:42.720 --> 00:59:48.160
And so that makes it our bodies still gain when, when we're like, yeah,

1032
00:59:48.160 --> 00:59:49.480
but I'm trying to love you.

1033
00:59:49.480 --> 00:59:50.960
I'm telling you you're okay.

1034
00:59:50.960 --> 00:59:51.760
I'm whatever.

1035
00:59:52.160 --> 00:59:56.880
But if you don't allow yourself to be vulnerable to you, where you can are

1036
00:59:56.880 --> 00:59:59.960
vulnerable to your own ability to disappoint you to be.

1037
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.280
disappointed in what you see and what you find and what you experience of

1038
01:00:03.280 --> 01:00:06.240
yourself, then you can't truly love you.

1039
01:00:06.720 --> 01:00:10.600
So the love for your, so we'll be talking about it.

1040
01:00:10.600 --> 01:00:14.720
Uh, I think in three sessions, something like that, we're talking about

1041
01:00:14.720 --> 01:00:16.080
the importance of the vulnerability.

1042
01:00:16.080 --> 01:00:17.680
I mean, like how to do it exactly.

1043
01:00:18.040 --> 01:00:22.240
You have to like, truly what you have to do to get breakthrough with

1044
01:00:22.240 --> 01:00:23.700
the Lord is to be vulnerable with him.

1045
01:00:23.700 --> 01:00:25.960
But what you have to do to get breakthrough with yourself is

1046
01:00:25.960 --> 01:00:27.120
to be vulnerable with you.

1047
01:00:27.560 --> 01:00:31.480
And we're just so used to orchestrating our lives and our

1048
01:00:31.480 --> 01:00:33.320
habits around avoiding pain.

1049
01:00:34.240 --> 01:00:38.560
And so when you finally risk the pain is when all of a sudden everything

1050
01:00:38.560 --> 01:00:42.760
happens, because, because you're now letting, because you're now truly letting

1051
01:00:42.760 --> 01:00:46.160
go, so that's why the body still do that when they're like, okay, well, I

1052
01:00:46.160 --> 01:00:47.640
finally accepted the way that I am.

1053
01:00:47.960 --> 01:00:53.920
That is when y'all only do we keep weight, but we add it is when is

1054
01:00:53.920 --> 01:00:57.600
while those other people who accept themselves the way that they are like,

1055
01:00:57.600 --> 01:00:58.840
oh, I'm going to love my body.

1056
01:00:58.840 --> 01:01:03.280
And they stay, they, these, these people that I'm thinking of a state truly fat.

1057
01:01:03.760 --> 01:01:05.600
I mean, we're talking to like, they're the large models.

1058
01:01:05.920 --> 01:01:06.600
You know what I'm saying?

1059
01:01:06.600 --> 01:01:07.840
And you're like, I don't love your body.

1060
01:01:07.840 --> 01:01:09.800
You know, you know, what do they call it?

1061
01:01:09.800 --> 01:01:11.680
Big, beautiful or something like that.

1062
01:01:11.680 --> 01:01:12.240
Big and beautiful.

1063
01:01:12.720 --> 01:01:14.120
They're there.

1064
01:01:14.200 --> 01:01:16.320
They think that's acceptance.

1065
01:01:16.640 --> 01:01:21.080
That's not, that is, I mean, I'm sure some of them are, you know, and some of

1066
01:01:21.080 --> 01:01:23.320
them, you're just dealing with like genetic issues and the fact that

1067
01:01:23.320 --> 01:01:27.560
they're just larger, but I'm saying that, that, that, that from the secular

1068
01:01:27.560 --> 01:01:31.560
perspective, I mean, because so much of them, so much, so many times are

1069
01:01:31.560 --> 01:01:35.440
approaching it from a very secular perspective, that is not acceptance.

1070
01:01:35.480 --> 01:01:38.720
That's why they're still holding onto the weight and their body's not dropping it.

1071
01:01:39.520 --> 01:01:41.560
Um, so there's a difference between.

1072
01:01:42.240 --> 01:01:45.320
You know, accepting it like they do and like they're talking about

1073
01:01:45.320 --> 01:01:47.080
versus what God's talking about.

1074
01:01:47.080 --> 01:01:49.920
And it was like, truly love who it is that you are.

1075
01:01:50.320 --> 01:01:54.680
And then anything that's extra that your body's using to protect itself against

1076
01:01:54.680 --> 01:01:56.720
you will finally let go.

1077
01:01:56.720 --> 01:01:58.640
Cause it no longer is afraid of you.

1078
01:01:58.960 --> 01:02:00.120
Um, does that make sense?

1079
01:02:00.120 --> 01:02:05.200
So there's, there's a, there's a difference between, which I'm so glad

1080
01:02:05.200 --> 01:02:07.040
that you brought up the difference between those two.

1081
01:02:14.360 --> 01:02:15.520
Oh, let's see.

1082
01:02:15.600 --> 01:02:17.120
Oh, there it is there.

1083
01:02:17.720 --> 01:02:19.440
Um, yeah.

1084
01:02:19.600 --> 01:02:28.080
Um, yeah, I think it's, I think that's exactly kind of where I am, but then it's

1085
01:02:28.080 --> 01:02:28.800
like, I can hear it.

1086
01:02:28.800 --> 01:02:29.960
I'm like, that makes sense.

1087
01:02:29.960 --> 01:02:31.880
And I'm like, I need to understand it.

1088
01:02:31.880 --> 01:02:33.400
Like I need to fully get it.

1089
01:02:33.440 --> 01:02:34.040
So, yeah.

1090
01:02:34.080 --> 01:02:34.520
Yeah.

1091
01:02:34.720 --> 01:02:38.200
Um, I'll try to figure out how to, how to articulate that better, especially

1092
01:02:38.200 --> 01:02:41.200
when we get into that session or whatever, to figure out, you know, how to.

1093
01:02:42.280 --> 01:02:42.480
Yeah.

1094
01:02:42.480 --> 01:02:43.840
How to articulate the difference.

1095
01:02:43.840 --> 01:02:46.320
Cause it took me a while to figure out the differences as well.

1096
01:02:47.280 --> 01:02:47.960
But it's, yeah.

1097
01:02:47.960 --> 01:02:50.800
And I, I don't even know if it's like an articulating thing.

1098
01:02:50.800 --> 01:02:54.760
It's kind of like, once I first heard the whole, like I I've always

1099
01:02:54.760 --> 01:02:59.320
heard where spirit soul body, but then when I heard it really, then

1100
01:02:59.320 --> 01:03:02.720
some one day I just heard it and I'm like, Oh wow.

1101
01:03:02.720 --> 01:03:06.800
You know, like when I, when we're not, it had sent me or thing.

1102
01:03:06.800 --> 01:03:09.240
And I was like, Oh my gosh, this is what it is.

1103
01:03:09.240 --> 01:03:10.480
This is why I'm frustrating.

1104
01:03:10.480 --> 01:03:14.520
Cause frustrated because I've been wanting to live from this high place.

1105
01:03:15.400 --> 01:03:17.800
I've heard about it, but I haven't understood it.

1106
01:03:17.840 --> 01:03:19.320
And so I feel like this is it.

1107
01:03:19.320 --> 01:03:25.040
It's like, Oh, so, um, I think you could be articulating it perfectly, but it's

1108
01:03:25.040 --> 01:03:27.840
like, I, sometimes you just don't get it.

1109
01:03:29.480 --> 01:03:29.960
Yeah.

1110
01:03:30.280 --> 01:03:31.400
Yeah, exactly.

1111
01:03:31.800 --> 01:03:34.320
So there was one more thing I was going to say before we lock.

1112
01:03:34.360 --> 01:03:35.400
Oh, now I remember.

1113
01:03:35.440 --> 01:03:39.000
Um, I recommend, you know, you were part of the rest intensive and they have, and

1114
01:03:39.000 --> 01:03:43.240
you've got that access to that video healing body and soul through the

1115
01:03:43.240 --> 01:03:44.600
spirit or something like that.

1116
01:03:45.160 --> 01:03:48.440
Um, I recommend, um, you may have watched it multiple times.

1117
01:03:48.440 --> 01:03:53.760
So if, if not, you may already remember everything you said, but, uh, but if you

1118
01:03:53.760 --> 01:03:56.720
don't remember, you can go back and listen to that, uh, cause there's a couple

1119
01:03:56.720 --> 01:03:59.840
of different things you can talk, have your soul talk to your body and your,

1120
01:03:59.920 --> 01:04:03.320
and, um, you know, talk and give you instruction to your spirit, your soul

1121
01:04:03.320 --> 01:04:06.880
and your body, you know, and have it do what it needs to do while, um, while

1122
01:04:06.880 --> 01:04:12.000
you're not paying attention, but, um, you can also be like extra intentional

1123
01:04:12.000 --> 01:04:18.400
with your, with your soul by talking to it and just like really letting it know.

1124
01:04:18.400 --> 01:04:23.800
And like, uh, just again, being very vulnerable with it, like emotionally

1125
01:04:23.800 --> 01:04:27.560
vulnerable with it to tell it, Hey, look, you really, truly are safe.

1126
01:04:28.440 --> 01:04:31.760
I, you know, I fully appreciate not ever getting onto it and telling it

1127
01:04:31.800 --> 01:04:35.160
and like, and correcting it, but more like, Hey, you've been doing this.

1128
01:04:35.880 --> 01:04:36.880
Trying to protect yourself.

1129
01:04:36.880 --> 01:04:38.320
You've been doing the right thing.

1130
01:04:38.320 --> 01:04:40.920
Thank you so much for all of that.

1131
01:04:41.720 --> 01:04:44.880
And as a gift, you're no longer going to have to do that.

1132
01:04:45.720 --> 01:04:46.640
So you can now let go.

1133
01:04:46.640 --> 01:04:49.800
And it'd be as opposed to this whole, like, Hey, I want you to change

1134
01:04:49.800 --> 01:04:53.240
because you shouldn't be doing this more like, Hey, because it

1135
01:04:53.240 --> 01:04:56.440
already naturally won't do it.

1136
01:04:56.520 --> 01:04:59.160
It's already, that's not its natural self anyway.

1137
01:04:59.480 --> 01:04:59.840
So anyway.

1138
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.160
maybe even that will help as well.

1139
01:05:02.160 --> 01:05:04.880
Yeah, I've been looking at that a lot and doing that.

1140
01:05:04.880 --> 01:05:09.360
And I think maybe my soul and my body is the same as me.

1141
01:05:09.360 --> 01:05:11.420
So it's like, I hear what you're saying,

1142
01:05:11.420 --> 01:05:12.960
but I don't really believe it.

1143
01:05:12.960 --> 01:05:13.800
Yeah.

1144
01:05:14.880 --> 01:05:16.240
There's that as well.

1145
01:05:16.240 --> 01:05:18.680
Exactly, which is why I was talking about the fact

1146
01:05:18.680 --> 01:05:22.640
that we have to be for it and our spirit

1147
01:05:22.640 --> 01:05:25.960
has to let it experience a different reality

1148
01:05:25.960 --> 01:05:28.320
instead of it having to trust that,

1149
01:05:28.320 --> 01:05:32.240
okay, well, if that's what you say and I'll do this,

1150
01:05:33.800 --> 01:05:36.240
we have to actually give it the experience

1151
01:05:36.240 --> 01:05:39.040
that there really does exist a different reality.

1152
01:05:39.040 --> 01:05:40.360
And so, and that helps.

1153
01:05:40.360 --> 01:05:43.080
When I've done that with myself, that has helped a lot.

1154
01:05:43.080 --> 01:05:44.440
But how do you do that?

1155
01:05:44.440 --> 01:05:48.280
How do you do the experience?

1156
01:05:48.280 --> 01:05:49.480
What do you mean?

1157
01:05:49.480 --> 01:05:51.800
Well, part of it is you shift into your spirit.

1158
01:05:51.800 --> 01:05:53.760
Remember we talked about that is you shift your spirit.

1159
01:05:53.760 --> 01:05:56.100
You remember, okay, no, no, no, this is who I am.

1160
01:05:56.100 --> 01:05:58.040
And you will feel completely different

1161
01:05:58.760 --> 01:05:59.760
when you shift up there and you remember

1162
01:05:59.760 --> 01:06:01.600
and you choose, you're like, okay, wow,

1163
01:06:01.600 --> 01:06:02.760
I'm in a different place.

1164
01:06:02.760 --> 01:06:04.400
You know, I'm in my spirit now.

1165
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:07.520
And then if that person, while you're there,

1166
01:06:07.520 --> 01:06:09.600
speaks to your soul or your body,

1167
01:06:09.600 --> 01:06:13.240
and then, and loves it, and is present for it,

1168
01:06:13.240 --> 01:06:17.600
and keeps it safe, and it's giving it

1169
01:06:17.600 --> 01:06:19.680
what it wants the soul and body to believe.

1170
01:06:19.680 --> 01:06:22.420
Because the problem isn't just that the soul and body

1171
01:06:22.420 --> 01:06:24.360
isn't believing it, it's that the spirit

1172
01:06:24.360 --> 01:06:26.560
in a way isn't doing it.

1173
01:06:26.560 --> 01:06:27.800
It's not providing it.

1174
01:06:27.800 --> 01:06:28.640
Technically it is.

1175
01:06:28.640 --> 01:06:30.520
But that is so helpful.

1176
01:06:30.520 --> 01:06:32.000
Yeah, yeah.

1177
01:06:32.000 --> 01:06:33.640
I've been doing it for my soul,

1178
01:06:33.640 --> 01:06:35.620
thinking that I'm like the spirit.

1179
01:06:35.620 --> 01:06:38.680
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

1180
01:06:38.680 --> 01:06:41.960
Your soul is the one that needs to be covered and nurtured.

1181
01:06:41.960 --> 01:06:46.120
Your spirit is the one that has access to Christ

1182
01:06:46.120 --> 01:06:47.720
and has what the soul needs.

1183
01:06:47.720 --> 01:06:51.480
The soul isn't able to drum that up out of itself,

1184
01:06:51.480 --> 01:06:54.200
but the spirit is able to pull on Christ.

1185
01:06:55.000 --> 01:06:57.640
And whenever we come to the presence of Christ,

1186
01:06:57.640 --> 01:06:58.920
we're completely transformed.

1187
01:06:58.920 --> 01:07:02.360
So basically you're bringing the presence of Christ to it

1188
01:07:02.360 --> 01:07:05.080
so that Christ, not you, will transform it.

1189
01:07:05.080 --> 01:07:07.400
Yeah, that is so helpful.

1190
01:07:07.400 --> 01:07:08.240
Oh, good.

1191
01:07:08.240 --> 01:07:09.900
That's gonna be a breakthrough.

1192
01:07:09.900 --> 01:07:10.740
Yay.

1193
01:07:10.740 --> 01:07:11.580
I can't believe.

1194
01:07:11.580 --> 01:07:15.040
It's our buzzword.

1195
01:07:15.040 --> 01:07:19.560
Yeah, it's, well, that's really helpful.

1196
01:07:19.560 --> 01:07:20.620
I'm so excited.

1197
01:07:21.520 --> 01:07:23.080
Well, good.

1198
01:07:23.080 --> 01:07:25.800
Well, it's good to, you're welcome.

1199
01:07:25.800 --> 01:07:27.760
It's good to see y'all.

1200
01:07:27.760 --> 01:07:29.760
Oh, one last thing before we go,

1201
01:07:29.760 --> 01:07:33.920
did y'all understand about the conversation with God

1202
01:07:33.920 --> 01:07:35.920
and like how to do that and everything?

1203
01:07:35.920 --> 01:07:38.760
So you just remember that from like the intro videos,

1204
01:07:38.760 --> 01:07:41.160
you just write as if you're having a conversation.

1205
01:07:41.160 --> 01:07:44.320
The point is that you'll get interesting things out of that

1206
01:07:44.320 --> 01:07:46.440
maybe with your conversation with the Lord

1207
01:07:46.440 --> 01:07:48.280
that you wouldn't if you just sit and think.

1208
01:07:48.280 --> 01:07:49.580
And I know this in person.

1209
01:07:50.420 --> 01:07:54.100
So anyway, that has been very helpful.

1210
01:07:54.100 --> 01:07:56.900
Could you clarify the practices part?

1211
01:07:56.900 --> 01:07:58.580
I remember, I'm trying to figure out,

1212
01:07:58.580 --> 01:08:00.980
I couldn't remember what part that was.

1213
01:08:00.980 --> 01:08:02.660
Yeah, so I'm, yeah, sorry about that.

1214
01:08:02.660 --> 01:08:03.540
I should have explained.

1215
01:08:03.540 --> 01:08:05.900
I actually didn't give y'all a practice this time.

1216
01:08:05.900 --> 01:08:07.900
This time you had come up with that.

1217
01:08:07.900 --> 01:08:09.260
Hey, this is what I'm gonna do.

1218
01:08:09.260 --> 01:08:11.620
This is gonna be very helpful for me doing the,

1219
01:08:11.620 --> 01:08:14.660
and you listed out two pages of ways that God loved you,

1220
01:08:14.660 --> 01:08:17.180
you know, that you could see that God loved you.

1221
01:08:17.180 --> 01:08:19.140
And then you had said, oh, that sounds great.

1222
01:08:19.700 --> 01:08:20.540
I think I should do the same thing.

1223
01:08:20.540 --> 01:08:22.859
So I just thought, okay, that'll be the practice,

1224
01:08:22.859 --> 01:08:24.540
but I didn't verbalize that.

1225
01:08:24.540 --> 01:08:27.060
So I didn't get on and explain, you know,

1226
01:08:27.060 --> 01:08:29.660
that there was something I wasn't addressing.

1227
01:08:29.660 --> 01:08:30.500
So sorry.

1228
01:08:30.500 --> 01:08:31.660
So you can skip that one.

1229
01:08:31.660 --> 01:08:34.180
As far as like for the next, or not skip it,

1230
01:08:34.180 --> 01:08:36.859
but do that other exercise y'all had come up with,

1231
01:08:36.859 --> 01:08:38.160
which I thought was great.

1232
01:08:39.300 --> 01:08:41.620
But for the next one, I will do a,

1233
01:08:41.620 --> 01:08:43.080
I'll do a separate video.

1234
01:08:43.080 --> 01:08:44.859
I'm not sure if I'm gonna do it within the teaching

1235
01:08:44.859 --> 01:08:47.819
or if I'm gonna do it as separate videos in the teaching

1236
01:08:47.819 --> 01:08:50.420
of what to do in the next few days for a practice.

1237
01:08:50.420 --> 01:08:51.580
Cause then in the next few days,

1238
01:08:51.580 --> 01:08:53.100
another one's gonna come up.

1239
01:08:53.100 --> 01:08:55.060
I'm always trying to have a practice

1240
01:08:55.060 --> 01:08:58.899
that helps you understand how to walk out

1241
01:08:58.899 --> 01:09:01.859
practically what I talked about in the teaching.

1242
01:09:01.859 --> 01:09:04.500
So like the next one that we're gonna do is

1243
01:09:04.500 --> 01:09:06.319
who does God say he is?

1244
01:09:06.319 --> 01:09:08.979
And then that one, I'm gonna have one,

1245
01:09:08.979 --> 01:09:11.180
if not two practices that y'all can do

1246
01:09:11.180 --> 01:09:13.540
that should help you like engage with that.

1247
01:09:13.540 --> 01:09:14.939
Like, okay, well, how do I,

1248
01:09:14.939 --> 01:09:16.819
because again, faith without works is dead.

1249
01:09:16.819 --> 01:09:19.060
If we don't act on something that we're choosing,

1250
01:09:19.060 --> 01:09:21.000
then we're not really choosing it.

1251
01:09:21.000 --> 01:09:22.380
So how do I actually,

1252
01:09:22.380 --> 01:09:26.899
what's an action that I can do out of my faith

1253
01:09:26.899 --> 01:09:28.819
that God is says he's provider.

1254
01:09:28.819 --> 01:09:30.740
He says he's safe.

1255
01:09:30.740 --> 01:09:31.720
He says he's good.

1256
01:09:31.720 --> 01:09:33.160
He's whatever.

1257
01:09:33.160 --> 01:09:35.060
So how do I engage with who God is

1258
01:09:35.060 --> 01:09:36.300
and be able to act like it?

1259
01:09:36.300 --> 01:09:37.880
So it changes my life.

1260
01:09:37.880 --> 01:09:40.220
And so I'll be doing,

1261
01:09:40.220 --> 01:09:43.520
I'll be giving you instruction for that in a separate video.

1262
01:09:44.460 --> 01:09:45.939
Did that answer your question?

1263
01:09:45.979 --> 01:09:46.819
Yes.

1264
01:09:46.819 --> 01:09:47.640
Yes, thank you.

1265
01:09:47.640 --> 01:09:48.779
All right.

1266
01:09:48.779 --> 01:09:49.979
Okay, well, good to see y'all.

1267
01:09:49.979 --> 01:09:51.779
I will see y'all on Monday.

1268
01:09:51.779 --> 01:09:52.620
Yeah.

1269
01:09:52.620 --> 01:09:53.439
Sounds good.

1270
01:09:53.439 --> 01:09:54.279
See you all.

1271
01:09:54.279 --> 01:09:55.380
Have a great weekend.

1272
01:09:55.380 --> 01:09:56.220
Yeah, you too.

1273
01:09:56.220 --> 01:09:57.900
Thanks, you too.

1274
01:09:57.900 --> 01:09:59.280
Okay, bye.

1275
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:00.500
Yeah.