Hey, how's it going?
How are you?
Doing good. Thank you.
I don't know what it's like there but it rained here, and all night and we've been in a drought for basically, I don't know two months or something like the ground has huge cracks in it, and like huge.
You think it was like the Sahara or not the Sahara what is it the what's in California. Is it Death Valley or something like that you think Valley just look so bad.
And we started getting all of this rain, and it feels to us Texans it feels like fall it's probably still like in the 70s or whatever like oh my word it's.
It doesn't take much down here.
We've been having gorgeous weather here I cannot complain.
That's great.
Hey,
I don't know.
Boiling some water for my tea.
Oh yeah.
I thought about this tea time because I was like I bet you that all of us will have a drink and for Annette it's tea before bed and for us, for Priscilla and I it's afternoon tea I was like this is like a great it's just girls.
Yeah.
So Priscilla I don't know if you know but Annette has. She does. I don't know what you call it, they're not necessarily they're cold plunges but they're not like in a big ice tank.
She just goes out and I don't know if it's a lake or it's the ocean that's near her house, and she goes out in the morning with a whole group. And I mean it's in she'll list, every, every time that she does it she'll list how many degrees Celsius
I'm like,
so warm it's like 16.
I don't know what that is in Fahrenheit, but I don't know.
Well, oh okay that's Celsius.
Yeah.
16. It's amazing.
Yeah. Are you on social media I should follow you.
Am I. Yeah.
What's your last name.
My last name is Brout, B-R-E-U-T.
So, yeah.
Most active on like Instagram it's like browniful and that was like.
So one of my friends was like, oh yeah.
I saw you I'll follow you back it was the right one.
So one of my friends was typing to me she was texting me, and she was, she was saying hi beautiful and then it autocorrected to browniful.
And my last name is Brooke, and she's like, Oh my gosh, that needs to be like your handle.
So many years ago and now it's just like, Oh, I feel like I have to explain it every time I'm like well.
This is why.
By the way, I'm wondering, whenever you take a picture you know and you're talking or you do a little video, and have you and your team but either before after a swim.
Yeah, it's all is that at your place or is that like a clubhouse or where is that.
Oh, in the, in the weekends.
So where I live, I have an apartment and then there's four like apartment buildings.
And then the one right across from me that's where we have, we have like a reception area so we have a man reception during the daytime, not in the weekends and then there's.
So that's in there, it's kind of like, there's a coffee machine and there's a fireplace and some couches and then there's a tiny gym up on the second floor and like a little place where we can hang out and watch like movies if we don't want to stay at home.
I've never used in America, those are called that's called a clubhouse you know where you have like a place that all the people in the apartments.
And yeah, we have, for one thing we don't have ours don't look that nice. See, Priscilla you'll see it's floor to ceiling windows in on a corner, overlooking the water.
Yeah.
So when you and your husband come visit you know there's there's like a little guest rooms right there as well so yeah, so we have like three guest rooms where people can come stay and then that gives like access to like all of it like the lounge in the kitchen
and the gym and everything so it's like super easy then you can, yeah, you can like have people come stay but they don't stay in your apartment.
necessarily. That's great. Yeah. It's kind of like it now. I
think that I'm trying to think. I think that Ikea is from
Sweden though, right? Mm-hmm. But seriously, all of you
Scandinavian countries, things figured out. I don't know why
you're on the job. I love that. You have people over but they
don't stay in your apartment, you know, especially if you
have a one-bedroom apartment and you might get, you've got a
way to, you know, that they can visit. That's super. Yeah. And
Priscilla lives in, I'm also very jealous of her location.
She lives in like a storybook landscape. So, if we roll and
kill, she's got this, she's got this covered bridge that, you
know, that's on a, you know, that the road goes through and
then there is a, no joke, there is a babbling brook runs by her
house. I'm just like, I don't understand. It's really
beautiful. This is like my childhood dream and she lives
in a big farmhouse. You know, it's like something out of a
novel. Yeah. I happen to be there this past, not this
Easter, but last Easter. So, I got to celebrate Easter in her,
in her home with all of her family, like her parents and her
and all the, and everything. I felt very, very honored to get
to be part. And so, I remember at one point in the afternoon,
I just went to walk out by the water because I'm always, that
to me is very, very therapeutic. God always talks to me near
water. I always put closest to him near water. So, like a lake
or the ocean or like a river. And so, I was very excited. I
was like, I'm going to take advantage of the, of a bit of
quiet where no one knows I'm gone and I'm just going to sneak
So, it was wonderful. And I was like, this is an Easter Lord.
And I had just gotten engaged, like, I don't know, like a week
before or something like that. So, I'm like, just like in this
fairy tale blissful bubble. It was great.
Sounds amazing.
So, how have y'all been since Monday? How have things gone?
Priscilla, I was so excited that you just felt like, you know,
I felt it on my heart to just kind of like, let's just, you
know, be intentional, ride out and consciously, you know,
think about and engage with the fact that God did all of these
things for me. And then you're just overwhelmed at what you
found. That's so exciting.
Yeah. Yeah. It was a lot. I felt very, and it wasn't like, just
like little stuff. Like it was a lot of really big, big things.
And yeah. So, I feel like I've, I've had a, I've had a really
good week. I feel like there's some things that have come up
that are like, I'm not, I feel kind of like almost like a
panic, because I'm like, Oh, hey, like, I need to figure this
out. And, and at the same time being like, I feel like it's
easier for me to kind of take a step back and look into my life
instead of just feeling so overwhelmed by everything. But
then also I haven't been sleeping the greatest this week,
which is like not normal for me, except for, I mean, it might be
because I'm about to get my period. Sometimes that's when I
struggle with it. But then last night I just had like a series
of intense nightmares and I'm not sure why. So, yeah. So I
feel really tired today, but at the same time, I feel, yeah, I
feel good.
Feel good.
Well, good. Good. And let's see. So you said that you just
kind of feel like some things have come up that are causing
you to kind of like be triggered into panic and you're
trying to avoid the panic, you know, not to ask you like
private information or whatever, but what is it that you feel
free to be able to share or a vague way that you can
reference it of like what you're, what you're going
through or why you think that it might be triggering or why,
why it's, it's causing you to have all the responses to
panic. Like there's some like root in there that it's like,
oh my goodness, is this going to happen or are God going to
be like this or is God doing this or is everything that
everything good that the past two weeks. See, I knew it. I
knew that she was going to drop it at some point, you know?
Yeah, no, I'm, I'm definitely, I feel very transparent. I'm
not, yeah, I don't feel like the need to, I usually am an
open book, so I don't feel like any question is like intrusive,
but yeah, I think, I think a big one is my identity within my
business right now and like just feeling in a place where I
just don't feel super inspired there and it's, and I'm okay
with it, but I feel like I'm not serving my team under me
very well and I'm kind of torn between being okay with that
being like, hey, you know what? I've
worked my butt off for the last seven years and I'm going to take it easy for a
little while, um, and focus on my family and ministry
opportunities.
And then last night I got a message from somebody that I had offered to do a one
on one coaching session with, because she had posted in our, um,
like it's like a big Facebook group where all the lemongrass consultants are in.
And she posted something about how, you know, she's so frustrated cause she just,
she just can't make any sales and, uh, nobody helps her and, you know,
whatever. And, oh my word. Um, anyway, she's part of my downline,
a couple layers down, but, and then, so we did a coaching session.
It took her like well over a month to actually keep the appointment that we
had, um, you know, originally scheduled. Um,
and then she sent me this text message last night at nine 30. She's like,
or it was a Facebook message. She's like,
so since I'm not really doing any better than I was, once I sell all my stock,
I'm going to quit being a consultant in my talk with you.
I didn't really get a whole lot, except that you were able to succeed.
And I'm not,
I'm not getting any help and there's only so much one person can do on their
own without support or a team.
So I immediately got chest pains and my back started hurting.
And I was like, my worst fear is coming true.
Somebody saw right through me and saw that I'm a horrible leader. And, um,
anyway, so I, I did, I took a step back and I was like, you know what? Nope.
There's so many things coming out of her message that are like red flags.
She's blaming everybody else, whatever. But at the same time,
I feel like I am trying to figure out like,
what is my place in my business?
Because I just feel like I'm at a weird place with it all. Yeah.
So, and I don't even know, like, I don't,
I don't know if that's something I should even be focusing on this month. Um,
but that's kind of like what I'm feeling.
I'm not sure how to show up on social media.
I feel really weird in that space right now. Um, yeah.
Yeah. Well,
that all makes sense because I believe that what God does is, you know,
when he's,
when we're stepping into something that he's very intentionally prepared us for,
because y'all have talked about,
and I even talked about the fact that I noticed that God had really seemed to set
this apart for y'all, for me, I know I'm going to be greatly benefited,
benefited in my relationship,
the Lord and in breaking through some things by going through this as well.
And that means that God is always,
it has already been working on things for the season
and my, and something that, um,
I touched on him and the teaching, uh,
that in the getting your breakthrough session that I didn't expound on as
much as I wanted to is the fact that what,
what you're describing is exactly how we feel and what is going on inside of us
when we're in this spiritual wilderness that we're needing a breakthrough out
of. In other words,
we're feeling like that things that normally work aren't working,
or we don't have the amount of energy to be able to handle the capacity that
we're used to handling. And it's like a woman going through labor.
And then, you know, that's how God always describes our struggles.
As you said,
it's like a woman going through labor where you have the pains of childbirth
because you're supposed to be delivering something new that doesn't yet exist.
So you're having to make room for it. And when a woman goes through labor,
she can't do all of the things that she's used to doing.
She has to stop and everybody else has to even like take care of her children
and everything, because all of her energy is going towards this one thing.
And if we, and,
and we have compassion for ourselves when we're going through childbirth,
because we, and everybody else around us around us,
sees physically that what we're going through and nobody expects us to have
energy or the mental capacity to be able to handle all of this and do this.
But when it's spiritual or when it's internal and we can't see it,
we're not paying attention to,
and nobody on the outside can know that we really do not have the energy to take
care of all of this because it's being used to make space for something new.
So so my point is that what you're going through doesn't feel right,
but it's because it's the transition period.
And they even talk about that in labor. They call it, you know,
Oh, you're about to go into transition, you know, it's.
And so therefore that's why it feels different and it doesn't feel normal.
It feels like, well, wait a minute, I should be able to do this.
I should have the strength for this. I used to be able to,
why all of a sudden does it exhaust me? Why does it overwhelm me?
These things don't usually overwhelm me. Something's wrong. Well, no,
it's just that God says, Hey, you've met. And this is again,
something that I wish that I'd been able to expand on in the teaching and
didn't wasn't be able to, wasn't able to do much.
And that's that we've maxed out our maturity level in the old season.
Like there was everything.
We achieved everything that God wanted us to achieve
and to receive of him in the old season.
And God's like, okay, if you're begging for more of me,
I'll give it to you.
But that means that if you've maxed out your capacity
for what you can hold of me,
then we've got to stretch you so that you've got the room
to be able to handle the more of me,
the capacity, the responsibility,
the our trustworthiness or whatever.
And a lot of energy has to go towards that.
So it's not, so in the spiritual wilderness,
we always feel like we're reverting
and we get onto ourselves.
Why can't I even keep up with the daily stuff?
Why can't I even keep up with the normal stuff?
And so we feel like, oh my goodness, I'm going backwards.
I feel like I'm younger than I really am
because that's how I used to be.
I used to not be able to handle this stuff,
but I'm matured enough and I expanded my capacity
and I have to be able to handle that stuff.
All of a sudden I can't handle it anymore.
So we feel like we're going backwards
and really we have to pay attention
to what God is doing in our lives and realize,
okay, if I'm going through a spiritual wilderness,
it means God's up-leveling me.
So he's conserving the energy for the transition
to be able to expand the tent peg.
So we have to choose in faith that we're not reverting
to not impose shame on ourselves or self-condemnation.
And it is faith because everything feels like it's bad.
It feels like I'm going backwards
and I have to catch myself before I backslide too much.
Even if you're not even concerned about backsliding
spiritually, there's this aspect of like,
I feel like if I don't catch myself now,
I'm gonna gain too much momentum
and I'm not gonna be able to catch myself
before I get worse.
And it's the opposite.
We have to choose that God is the one who's sustaining us
and holding us anyway, not our own effort.
So anyway, so what you're experiencing is not only normal,
it's actually the signs that you're aware,
that you're in this good place,
that you're in a place of favor of the Lord
because you maxed out your capacity
and you've been seen as,
you've done well, my good and faithful servant,
let me give you more.
But it's hard because like I said,
it's not a physical thing that anybody else can see.
And so you're probably thinking like we all do,
what is everybody else gonna think?
How is everybody else seeing this?
Like, for instance, your downline,
they don't know that you're going through childbirth.
Otherwise they'd have compassion.
But if they don't know, well, then there's just like,
and I'm not saying that your downline
is giving you any heartache for this,
but you are worried that your downline is thinking this
and not saying it or whatever.
So we impose things in our mind and our imagination
on this situation.
And that's what we live out.
We live out what we imagine,
not necessarily what's put on us.
So anyway, I just wanna say all of that to encourage you
that those are all,
that's how we all feel during this time,
is we feel the turmoil, we feel the uncertainty,
we feel the confusion.
It doesn't feel right
because it's not fully the way life used to be,
but we're not yet fully something else either.
And we're somewhere in between where it's like,
what season am I in anyway?
It used to be like this and I had this down pat.
I knew how to approach it.
I knew what to expect of tomorrow.
I knew how I could perform.
I knew what the outcomes were gonna be
because this is how God used me
and this is how people responded to me and whatever.
Well, all of that feels very fluid right now.
And I can't count on anything,
but it's not, and it's not just like,
well, it's not like this anymore, it's like this.
There's no this yet that it is yet.
And so you're going like, what on earth is going on?
And we have a tendency to think I've done something wrong.
God's punishing me or I've messed up
or I've gotten it out of a secure place
because God says that he's secure.
So if I don't feel secure,
I must have messed up and stepped out of line.
And none of those things are true.
So, like I said, what you're feeling is normal.
If you feel discombobulated, like it's like inside,
sure, there's the mental thing,
but a lot of this is just emotional turmoil and frustration
because there's no solid ground.
And just to know those are not, it's kind of like a detox.
It gets worse before it gets better.
And when you're in it,
you have to look for the signs that it's getting worse
and that's how you know it's working.
That's what it's like during this time as well.
These signs we've put a meaning to of they're bad.
If I feel this way, it's bad.
And we have to learn by faith to choose no.
It means that I'm going through childbirth.
I sure am going through this pain.
Sure, I'm going through this pressure.
But I'm just going through it right now to deliver the baby.
My body wasn't like this before and my body won't be like this after pain and pressure
is not my new life.
This how this discombobulation and this confusion, this is not my new season.
It's to get me from the old season to make me capable to make, to give me the capacity
to receive more of God in the new season.
So, and she just know, okay, well, this too shall pass and this is a sign that it's working.
And also know that when you're going through this, it's not a sin.
Jesus went through this.
There's no sin in going through transition and experiencing pain or pressure.
That's the natural way that you transition from one to together.
Now, I don't think that there's an aspect of that, that I think because it's our soul
that's going through that.
And our soul has a tendency to not believe the Lord.
I think there's an aspect of sin that create, that increases the amount of pain and pressure
case in point that we wouldn't experience, even if we're growing in the spirit and our
spirit's perfect.
And, you know, it's just, I don't think we'd experienced pain and pressure in growth without
outside of sin to the same intensity that we do in sin because, and for multiple reasons,
I think that for multiple reasons, one of which when they fell, God told Eve, he said,
now you're going to experience pain when you deliver.
And so apparently that wasn't a thing before.
In other words, she was always going to go through a transition of delivery.
Maybe she'd already delivered multiple children.
But we just, the first one we hear about is Cain, but Cain married someone who did he
marry?
I mean, you know, if it's just Adam, Eve, Cain and Abel, but Cain married somebody.
So it's possible that they lived for thousands of years and had children without pain before
Cain came along.
So who knows about that?
But the point is that he had to specifically say, now when you go through transition, it's,
you're going to have a different type of an experience.
You went through transition before, but now it's going to be accompanied by pain and pressure.
So, so there is an element of the fact that we're in a sinful world and the fact that
we feel pain and pressure, but just because you feel pain and pressure doesn't mean you've
sinned because Jesus experienced pain and pressure when he went through this struggle
and get in the garden of Gethsemane.
And when he was beaten and all of that, and he didn't sin.
So it's the experience of being in a fallen world that causes the sin, not necessarily
that we've imposed it on ourselves.
So anyway, I know I talked a lot, but I just thought of all of these things that might
help solidify the fact that what I'm saying, I'm hoping is encouraging because it's not
just kind of like, Oh, you know, Oh, it'll all be okay.
Just think, think happy thoughts.
It's like, there's a lot of, there's a lot of foundation scripturally for the fact that
we should find this to be encouraging.
It means that you're where you're supposed to be.
It means that you've been marked as favored by the Lord.
And remember that Jesus, and he wasn't the only one I'm trying to remember how else this
is evidenced in scripture, but when Jesus, before Jesus went into the wilderness, he
had to be first to be declared publicly by God that he was favored as his son and found
perfect.
And I think, and I don't think that that's just invite.
I know for sure that that's not just because it was Jesus.
That's a, it's a, it's a principle.
It's a right of passage.
It's one of those things that before you go into the wilderness, the fact that God only
takes his sons through the wilderness, that's what I'm trying to say.
And once that he's because the wilderness is not a place of punishment, it's, it's evidence
that you've been freed and you're now moving into a promised land.
And in the wilderness is where the mountain of God is.
The wilderness is where you meet God.
The wilderness is where God resides.
His mountain was in the wilderness.
And so it wasn't just like, oh, well, we got to get through this ugly part because
you always have to have some ugly before I'll give you the good.
That's not the case.
God says, you know, if you want to meet me, this is where I am in God is, it doesn't dwell
in bad places.
I mean, technically, you know, God's everywhere, but what I'm saying is that wherever God dwells
is good.
And, and so anyway, that'll be, you know, hopefully give you something to be able to
talk to the Lord about because hearing all of this can sound good, but to actually believe
it where your emotions change is an active faith that it's only him trusting that he
will be with you and that he likes you and that he approves of you and that you are favored
and that this was his chosen place for you because you did well, not because you did
bad.
is only something that you can receive directly from the Lord.
So this is just to start the conversation with them.
Yeah, no, I feel like it just confirms a lot of like,
what's already been spoken to me,
just even from other people like my,
I was working with a business coach last month for,
I forget how long I was working with her,
but I was just telling her some of the things that I was feeling.
And one thing that she said that just like really struck me was like,
she's like,
I was telling her all the things that,
you know,
Arnold and I are growing through and even like wanting to add another baby to
the family and all that stuff.
And,
and she's like,
why do you think you're not growing?
Like you're growing in so many areas,
but maybe not like,
maybe you don't feel like you're growing in your business right now,
but that doesn't mean that you're not growing anywhere.
And I think sometimes you,
I mean,
you just can't grow everywhere all at one time.
And sometimes I feel like my,
Yeah.
But another thing that my counselor told us was that he feels like every
time that I have a little tiny burst of energy,
I immediately overextend myself because I'm like,
okay,
a quick gotta like make up for last last time.
And he's like,
I have to look at it as the more that I can use those energy stores and like
build upon them,
like let them build up instead of immediately overdoing it.
And so I'm like,
okay,
I'm going to do that.
And then as soon as I feel a little twinge of energy,
he's like over time,
my capacity will grow,
you know?
So I don't know.
I feel like all of it is very related and yeah.
Very encouraging.
Yeah.
Well,
good.
And one of the things that you could do when you're wondering,
you know,
why you're not,
why you're not growing.
Apparently you're not.
There's some standard that you have that you're that all those other
things,
but that you think you have the business will.
So you can see what standard,
in other words,
what value,
what you're valuing,
and I don't mean money.
I'm not talking about that because I know that I've not worked with you long
enough.
I know that that's not that I'm talking about some other aspect of it.
If you think it's like the volume of people,
you're touching makes you approved by God or,
or I don't know.
So in other words,
it's volume as opposed to,
well,
you see how you're touching your family.
You're like,
yeah,
but it's just me and Arnold and three kids.
I mean,
you know,
but oh my word,
lemongrass,
you know,
my,
my downline,
you know,
that's X number of people.
So I don't know if it's that,
or if it's something else,
and then you can start to solidify for yourself.
Okay.
Why the other things aren't satisfactory to you,
but then that one is the one that you're always falling short in your own
Minds about maybe.
Okay.
I got to go.
Sorry.
I don't know where to say.
It's weird.
Sorry,
Monty,
Monty.
We're having plumbing issues.
And so my husband without Edward outside talking and all of a sudden,
he apparently,
he got the message that the plumber is here.
So we literally have sewage coming into our bathroom.
We're like,
okay,
stop everything.
Fix it.
So thankfully we're,
we're getting it.
So,
so how about you?
It's really helpful to listen to all of it.
I'm,
I feel I've been feeling very frustrated.
No,
but it's,
it's like,
it's both ends.
So it's I'm fully on board and like listening to,
to the teaching.
I could super relate with,
you know,
like this.
I think my main thing is like the self-destruction where I'm just like,
oh my gosh,
like my,
my soul and my body is definitely,
you know,
like struggling with the spirit and,
and I just get so frustrated that I can't get it to align,
you know,
because it's like all,
all I'm focusing on is the outward things,
you know,
so,
you know,
actually from the rest thing,
like from last fall,
like I'd been doing really good before that,
just like working out and doing like being healthy and stuff like this.
And then I just started getting sick over longer stretches of time.
And so I never really got back to it.
And then I don't know,
just got back into this,
like really self-destructive also physically,
you know,
just like not working out,
not eating healthy,
like doing all of these things.
So instead of feeling like I'm growing and like moving towards something positive,
I just feel like I'm downward spiraling at this,
you know,
and then I started a new job that I didn't like.
And then I feel like I'm just becoming more and more frustrated there as well,
you know,
to where I'm just like.
trying to put on, you know, a smile, and then I just I can't
anymore. So now everybody knows I'm super frustrated. And that's
not usually who I am. Like, usually, I'm like, Oh, I'll come
with the cinnamon rolls. And I'll do this. And they're like,
so all the things that I'm wanting to do, I can't seem to
do. And then it frustrates me. And then at the same time, I
feel like just, it's because God is wanting to heal some
really deep, deep trauma within me, that because these are like
reflections, like I've always had a struggle with, like, you
know, like overeating or doing like these things. And then
whenever I'm under very big pressure, I get a sore throat,
like, so it's all these things coming back. And so while these
things are happening in the physical, which is kind of like
what I'm, I can relate to what you were talking to Priscilla,
like, it's all this like turmoil thing. I, excuse me. I can't
find myself to really like, find the space to like, just go super
wrestling with the with the Lord, you know, to get to the
bottom of it. I don't really because it's been looking so
many different ways. I think a month ago or something, I was at
the cabin, and I was really wrestling with God, you know, I
was down, I was screaming, I was like throwing rocks in the
ocean, like, I was mad, you know. And then at the same time,
I was just like letting go of a lot of things. So it's this
parallel thing of being super unhappy and how I feel
physically, how I look physically, how I'm doing at
work. And then at the same time, kind of wanting to believe
that, oh, but but I can kind of see that this is, it's working
on the deep, like, he wants me to be free from this forever,
kind of like how it was with, I don't know if the boy can hear
me. But like, I was, I was doing like this before, like many
years ago. And I was like, trying to stop for many, many
years. And then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, I had been
binge watching, like a lot of TV shows. And then I just heard
God say, Well, now I've healed on the inside of you what you
needed that for. So you can just stop. And since that never
touched it, never thought about it never like, and it was years
trying. So, okay, cool. Thanks. So I was just like, Oh, this is
probably you know, like what God is doing. And I'm reading all
these like prophetic words, you know, like walking into
Rosh Hashanah. It's like, it's breakthrough. It's the open
doors. It's like, come back, dream again, like dust off what
has been there. And, and last March, like God told me, I'm not
asking you to give up on your dreams, but surrender. So I do
feel like he's really doing something deep for me to be
able, like you say, to transition into whatever it is.
But then at the same time, I get frustrated, because I feel like
I need I should be doing something to walk, you know,
move towards it. And I don't know what that should look like,
or, you know, I'm trying to find the rest in it. And like trying
to get my body and my, my soul to like, align with the Spirit
and yeah, so I don't know if that makes sense. So I'm like,
I'm like, hopeful and frustrated at the same time. Yeah, no, all
of that makes sense. In fact, and something I didn't explain
is and that I realized after we were off the call, I was like,
Oh, my goodness, I should explain this. The reason that I
actually created the program is because I realized that there
were some people who see when y'all went through the rest
intensive, y'all were able to get a particular measure of rest
to particular degrees. And we Yeah, we all include myself
always have to get have more and more degrees to which we want to
shift into it. But there were some people who got I've had at
least one person go through who basically got you almost got
nothing, got maybe a little bit of inner healing addressed, but
got basically nothing. And then there's some other people who I
felt got hardly anything. Now, maybe, maybe they were so they
were struggling so much that I didn't realize. Oh, thank you,
sweetie. So
it's now here now.
Can you hear me? Okay. And this let's point has to work in a
little more quiet.
Oh, okay. Yeah. Okay. Yeah.
The plumbers are going to come in.
I might have to like, put us on, um, it put me on mute in a minute, but anyway.
Um, so, um, uh, what I was saying was that I, I wanted that it was like, I
was covering so much in the rest intensive that I realized that some
people just needed an extra, uh, amount of time or help or more detailed
application of how to actually break through.
And so what I talk about the rest, you have to break through and then, and
then here's all of this stuff.
And some people just couldn't do it.
Some people could like y'all did y'all were able to do it to
particular measures and whatever.
Some people get anywhere near.
You know what y'all were able to do, what y'all were able to break through.
And so I thought, you know what, let me just do a program that just concentrate.
On nothing but the breakthrough part.
So I could go more deep and just help people figure out how to unlock something
that for the life of them, it can't figure out how to unlock.
Um, and so my point is like what you're talking about in it, I wanted to help
people, especially that are wanting to unlock particular areas, because there
are certain areas, like I said, that y'all were able to break through and to
rest, but there are other areas that you're struggling to break through and
to rest in and I'm like, we all are well in those tougher areas and the areas
that are have, have maybe like a greater stronghold in our lives.
How do we more intentionally, um, have to have to face those things in order
to finally get breakthrough and other areas that were easier for us to do.
And so that's what, why I wanted to focus on.
Um, so when I built this program, I thought, okay, well, what are those
things that when I've needed extra, when I, when I've really needed to
concentrate on a bigger, more, a deeper, strong cold, in other words, a stronger
hold, what did I do?
And I realized everything always went back to God and who he was and who it is
that I am and how to honor, acknowledge and engage with that in a deeper way that
I'm naturally doing because of what I was naturally doing was enough to break
through in these areas, but it wasn't enough to break through in these areas.
It's a lot.
I needed to meet myself and God in a much deeper place in these areas in order for,
um, because, and that's why I was struggling in those areas is because that
was simply a manifestation of the fact that I wasn't connecting with me or God.
Uh, to a particular level.
That's really everything that we're talking about, what we're talking about,
you know, in all of these issues, you know, that all of us are dealing with.
It's not like, oh yeah, this is just some issue that just decided to attach
itself to me is basically a manifestation of the fact that we aren't deeply
connected to God in a particular way.
And so it has that pressure that builds up, has to, has to act out and misbehave
somehow.
And, um, so we all have our own unique ways to do it, but the root cause, like
the cause of it is the fact that it had a place to land in the first place.
And so anyway, that, uh, what we'll be going through will be, I'm hoping to
help, you know, each of us, you know, including what you're talking about
in that really address those areas of really deep, uh, stronghold.
Um, and, uh, because, and this is, it's honestly how I dealt with, uh, I'm
sorry, if you can hear that I'd go outside if I could, but I lose
self-serve, I lose them internet.
Um, well, uh, but okay.
Um, but anyway, when I was dealing with my own issues with, uh, with eating or
whenever I continue to do, cause periodically I'll do it.
I just am like nowhere near what I used to deal with.
Oh my word.
But when I dealt with that and whenever I have to periodically address it, the
way that I deal with it is by.
I'm sorry.
Okay.
Needed to make sure y'all could hear me.
Um, Ed and I are laughing.
Can you hear that?
Okay.
Thank goodness.
Okay.
So they're doing like a vacuuming.
I think they're probably like vacuuming up the water or something.
Anyway, um, oh, the raisin, the raisin, the toilet.
Sorry.
This is TMI on our call.
So sorry.
Okay.
What a day.
I got by that.
Like I said, the internet isn't going to reach out there and
we're in a studio apartment.
So it's all one room.
Uh, but anyway, what I had to do is I had to really meet, uh, I had to love me.
And no amount of telling myself to love me with working.
Um, I really, and so when I designed this breakthrough program, what I did was as I
tried to remit is I didn't try.
remember, but I like, I try to remember all the things that I have done that
have helped me whenever I really needed to connect with me to finally, truly
accept myself is telling someone, Hey, you just need to accept yourself.
So, Hey, work on that this week.
Is it working?
Because it's, we knew how to do it.
We do it.
So I'd have it.
So I have had to figure out, okay, how do I articulate, how did I articulate
for myself, something that I could practically step out on something that
I could do or words that I use with myself to realize, Oh, that's what I
have to do to, to accept myself.
I have to think of myself this way.
I have to literally physically do this.
I have to, whatever.
And then I figured out how to connect with myself or how to accept myself,
or I figured out how I wasn't accepting myself because I thought that I was,
you know, and, um, so anyway, so hopefully all of that will help.
Um, but, but yeah, so like you said, when you're going through what you're
going, when you're, where it is that you are is simply an evidence of the fact
that you're going through a transition period.
So all of this is normal and it's meant that it's being addressed because
it's being raised to the surface.
It's highlighted to you because it's being triggered.
And so therefore when it's brought to the light, then it can be dealt with.
And so, you know that, okay, if all of this is coming up, then it means that
God is giving me the opportunity to release it.
And, um, so anyway, but whether your thoughts.
Yeah, that's super, super helpful.
I think part of me, cause I really love that.
And I think part of me is just kind of scared that, Oh my gosh, I feel like
I've been struggling with this or like wrestling with it for so long.
Like that I'm scared.
I want, like, I feel everything in me and around me is like building
up to this like breakthrough.
And then I'm also kind of scared that it won't happen, you know?
Um, yeah.
So I think that's, and, and I'm like, um, I think on a lot of things, I.
I need to find a way to do like, go deeper, like both in loving myself and
like being there with God and just being rock cause I can feel like even in my
notes where I'm like trying to keep a like bullet from, you know, like, Oh yeah.
He's all powerful.
You know, like, or it's like, Oh, he's the promise keeper, you know?
And then I see the double rainbow and it's like, Oh my goodness.
Like, it's amazing.
But so it's like these small kisses, you know, from God where I'm just
like, Oh yeah, you are there.
But I still feel like I'm, um, I'm not sure if I'm being like raw about it,
raw with it, honest with it.
I'm not, um, cause it's like, I think it goes back to like that vulnerability
thing of like being, or even like being at war with, you know, with the body
and the soul and the spirit.
Um, cause it's like, Oh, I can feel peaceful.
Like I can feel at rest and feel peaceful at work, but then at the same
time I'll snap, you know, and create all this chaos and it's like,
well, that wasn't necessary.
But it's like, I can feel like, Oh, you know, like, Oh, I'm just like,
I'm on the brink of like breaking down, you know?
And then it becomes so dramatic.
And I'm like, I'm not really this dramatic usually, you know?
Like it's, it's odd.
Um, yeah.
Yeah.
So, so I think I'm just like, um, yeah.
Uh, I, I want to like get the most out of it.
And I'm like, Oh, am I doing the right thing?
Like, am I, am I, yeah.
I don't know.
Yeah.
So one of the things it, so yeah, all of those are great points.
Um, so one of the things is that, that we're going to, uh, you know, that
we talked about, I think maybe even last time is either that or in the
intro about the fact that one of the things that we have to do is we have
to let go of ever getting the breakthrough.
And it's terrifying because we're like, wait a minute, if I don't tell
God that this is what I want.
And if I basically, I know it sounds bad to word it like this, but if we,
if we think about it, we're like, that's really what I'm doing.
If I don't hold God to it.
If I don't do with that, with that lady did, uh, to the unrighteous
judge in the, in, um, in the parable, where she like pounded
him relentlessly all the time.
If I don't do that, then he's going to think that it's not important enough to
me and he'll pick something else to work on or he'll pick something else to give
me because he doesn't realize how valuable this is.
So I need to let him know that this is that valuable.
Otherwise I won't get it.
And, um, and so it's actually the opposite is that we can hold something
to the Lord, but we, we have to expect that we'll get it in order for us to.
Get it. And we have to release and not hold him in, um, hold him accountable to giving it to us.
Or how do I explain that? It's yeah. You're not holding him accountable to giving it to you and
you're not holding it against him. Um, if that, he hasn't given it to you yet in order for him
to give it to you. It's weird as it sounds. So that's one of the things why we haven't gotten
breakthroughs so far. And we're just like in the turmoil of like the Israelites, you know,
going in circles in the wilderness, instead of finally being able to get out, you know,
because they were given the opportunity to get out. And they were like, no, we don't believe
God. And God's like, Oh shoot. Okay. That means you're going to go in circle in the same place
for 40 years. You know, we go around and around and it's because the way to get out is to finally
believe God. And so finally choose, okay, God, I'll let you be you. I've told you what I want.
And I'll tell you. And at the reason why you want that is because God gave you that desire.
You and God decided that was a good thing. And so God plans on giving it to you. And, um, so
we just have to choose, okay, God, I'm going to get it. And then just kind of like, let go,
because if you let go, then God can actually, you're no longer pulling against him and trying
to use your energy to like help yourself or whatever. And so if you're a lint dish rag,
then he can move you. Then he can do something with you, but he can't, if you're trying to use
your own control or your own authority or your own, whatever. And, um, so anyway, it's very
challenging. I just mentioned that to you that that's like nuts and bolts. That's what it actually
is that we have to do. So you can ask the Lord to help you, um, learn how to let go, learn how to
release them. We'll be talking more about all of that, but, um, I just wanted to kind of like get
down to brass tacks and say, that's actually what we have to do is that we also, we feel that,
like I said, if we're not holding onto it like this, then it, then it's not going to happen.
And so we have to choose, okay, I can let it go. That's that sacrifice on the altar of like,
oh my goodness, if I give it to God, is he going to kill it? You know, am I not going to, it's
like all hope going to die. And that's what Abraham had to do with either. It's literally,
I promise you, it's literally the exact same thing. Um, and that is what we're talking about
here is literally what he was having Abraham do with Isaac. And he said, Hey, look, that thing
that you're struggling with, with, with, uh, again, with me, we eating is that that's Abraham
and Isaac. He says, so what I want you to do, you have to put it down and entrust me with something
that's that precious to you and let it go and finally be hands off. And then God's like,
then I can fix it. So the point is it will fix itself automatically without so much work and
effort on your part. Cause like I told you before, like, and I'm just using the eating as an example,
cause you brought that up as the example. Um, we remember me telling you that and,
and Priscilla knows this lady as well, that there's a lady in there and that it has gone
through the rest intensive. And I, and I, she was one of those that kept coming back to me,
but Hashley, I really want to lose weight and I'm working very hard. I'm exercising, I am dieting
and I am losing like, like these pit for what I'm doing. She's like, I'm losing this piddly little
amount. I'm doing all of this work and I'm only losing a pound. She said, even my trainer doesn't
understand what's going on. And, um, she said, and of course she'd heard me tell her, you know,
Hey, you need to, you need to love your body as it is. And you accept it and you're like,
need a rest or whatever. And then your body will fall. We'll make it fall off. It'll let it go on
its own. And you don't have, cause right now you're like trying to force it at, beat it out of you.
But wouldn't you rather just tell your body to do it. And by just simply by accepting your body as
it is. And then your body's the one that chooses to let go of all of the extra weight. She's like,
Oh, my God, that'd be so much better. It took her a while to figure it out, figure out how
to do it. Like we're talking months to figure out how do I, how do I let go, whatever. But when
she finally did it, she dropped 31 pounds. She dropped 31 pounds that included while she was at
near the end of her pregnancy, like the past last few months of her pregnancy. She lost that plus
while plus yeah. While she was, uh, after, you know, postpartum, she lost it. But the point is
like, even when you're not supposed, you're not normally losing weight, she was dropping it and
she wasn't exercising, doing any of that stuff. And it was because her body finally realized
she wasn't the enemy anymore. It didn't need to protect itself against her and it was safe.
And it could finally, that it was loved and it was accepted. He's like, okay, so I don't,
so I I'm safe. Okay. Then I'll let it go. We think if we think are, if we accept our body,
that our bodies can keep it as the opposite. If our body knows that we're loved.
that it's loved and that it's safe, fully and unconditionally as it is,
without ever requiring it to change.
The body doesn't want to hold it.
It's only holding it because it's trying to protect itself.
And it realizes that you're protecting it and no longer has to protect itself.
It will default back to God's original functionality
of not holding anything extra.
It only holds on extra if it thinks it needs to in preparation for something bad.
If there's no preparation that it needs to be making it automatically
where the body created the, it to function, it will release it like with a,
like with that toxins, you know, that's what that cells are housing is toxins.
So we put toxins, our body through hairspray or through like eating
sugar or whatever, and, and the, and then it create, it doesn't want it to poison
our body.
So if our colon isn't working right, and it's not passing out through the
colon fast enough, or it's not passing out through sweat fast enough, then our
body's thinking if, if this toxin just, it just continues to, you know, be able
to exist in this, in this body, it's going to be like a free radical and it's
going to, it's going to start killing things.
It's going to start poisoning the body.
So we'll encapsulate it in fat and we'll put it somewhere.
My point is that when we start detoxing again, then like all, sometimes all you
have to do is get your colon moving very regularly and be drinking a lot of water.
And without you telling your body to your body knows, Oh, Hey, we've got
some toxins that we stored.
We now no longer need to store them since we can get them out.
So, Hey, let's dump them all into the colon.
You didn't have to tell your body you wanted to lose weight.
You know, in fact, when I detoxed in fact, like literally when I physically
began to do some serious detoxing without losing weight, I lost size.
I don't remember how many inches I think I lost.
I think I went down at least a size and a half without losing weight simply because
my body started getting rid of all of the fat because it's like, Oh, okay.
So I didn't need to hold on to this anymore.
You've got a gateway for me to get this thing out.
I'm going to, I'm going to start acting like I know how to act.
So we don't have to give our body injection.
I use it to do, we have to provide it a safe place to be able to function
the way it was created to function.
Anyway, that's, that's why we'll be focusing like, especially on the, we're
going to be focusing on it, you know, I don't know, starting pretty soon here,
like the third or fourth section session.
And then the whole rest of it, a lot about it just on ourselves so that we
can kind of start figuring out, okay, how do I connect with me in a way that I've
shut myself down or I won't give myself access to me, but interestingly, and now
we're doing some ministry with a friend of ours in Houston this past weekend.
He's a, this guy is like prophetic and does deliverance and stuff like that.
And so, Ed used to travel around the world with him and be on his ministry team.
So now I'm married that the man, his name is Ken and he just kind of
adopted me into the group.
I was like, okay, you know, you're, you're ministering with Ed.
So we work with like, so people come up to the front at the end of Ken's
teaching and we'll be, and they'll be coming up for like demonic deliverance
or they'll be coming up for like inner healing or like physical healing or
whatever, well, I had one lady walk up.
She wasn't Mennonite, but it's, it's as if she was, she was so she was, she
was more like independent Baptist.
They're just like, they don't wear all of this stuff, but they are,
she was literally buttoned to here.
Buttoned to here had a long dress, you know, just looked very, very, very old
fashioned.
And she came up to me and I was like, oh my word, Lord.
I, I know I could just sense emotionally and spiritually what she was her
background.
I was like, oh my word, Lord, this is a little too close to my own, my own
background.
Um, and, uh, so she came up and as I was working with her, I realized and she,
and I finally had to explain to her, I was like, you're emotionally shut down.
You won't, you're, you can't access you.
She was just like, I can't feel anything.
Can you pray and ask the Lord that he's helped me feel.
She's like, I don't, I don't know how I feel.
You know, I, you know, am I supposed to feel something?
Am I supposed to feel something in my, in my physical body?
Am I supposed to feel like she, and then she started talking about the fact that
basically she couldn't feel like emotions.
It was that locked down.
My husband was, Ed was working with her brother.
We did know that they were, that they were, and, uh, that they were brother and
sister at the time we thought they were two like totally separate, you know,
strangers and we were comparing notes at the end at, you know, like that night or
whatever.
And he was like, man, that guy that I was working with was locked down.
He was like one of the hardest people there are to work with.
I was like, well, that's funny.
Their brother and sister, they grew up in the same type of home.
They were both completely locked down.
They couldn't, they.
literally couldn't access themselves.
And so sometimes, yeah, that's like a demonic thing that has been stifled,
that is stifling them, you know, that they can, that can be released and they
can finally get access to themselves.
But regardless, they, they, they didn't know how to feel.
And so, even though you and I may not, you know, be that extreme, there's still,
there's major aspects of myself that I'm stifling, I can't get access to me.
And that's an aspect of what you're dealing with.
If you're struggling to figure out how do I accept my, my body without
accepting, without like allowing this thing to continue, you don't know how
to access you and set as weird as that sounds, it's like you can access yourself
to a particular degree, but not past that.
And it was created that way because, I mean, you did it that way because you
were trying to defend yourself when you were little or, you know, based off of
experiences, you learned, Hey, look, when I access this point, I get hurt to the
point where, where it's so deep that it just feels irreparable and I don't know
how to fix it.
Nobody else is telling me how to fix it.
So I'm just going to shut it off.
You don't know.
That's what we're doing.
It's a defense mechanism.
But anyway, that's why when we talk later, we're going to talk about things
like how to be me with God or know me that I can know God because by knowing
ourselves, we know more about God.
And especially that one, that one's going to be, I think that one's the one where
we're talking a lot about our emotions, how to access who it is that we really
are and how it is that we really feel about things.
And then the last one that we're talking about is how to own ourselves.
In other words, how to reclaim the right to who it is that we are, because I
didn't know about you, but me, mine is so, was so bad.
I was even talking to a counselor about it.
I said, you know, if I, um, I, it's very easy for someone else for
me to feel owned by someone else.
I said, it can even be a stranger, but if they're right and I'm not, I feel that
they own me, I will voluntarily give up my right to myself, to someone else.
Because I have that much of a sense that I don't have a right to me.
Don't have a right to make my decisions.
I don't have a right to feel.
I don't have a right to do anything except take somebody else's instruction.
I said, so anybody can like lead, be my, then lead me by
the nose if I'm not careful.
Um, so anyway, a lot, but, um, I was hoping that some, that there would be
some things in there that might kind of like, uh, prompt some, uh, thoughts
that maybe you hadn't thought about before that maybe would be helpful.
What do you think?
Yeah, I think it's, it's really, really good.
And I think I need to just like, yeah, just really sit with God.
And like you said, just like write down, this is what's important to me.
And then just be like, like kind of like how you explain in the rest intensive
with the spirit man coming and healing the soul where it's like, okay, now I'm
just expecting you to come heal it while I go figure out what it is, you know, I
enjoy doing, and I'm just going to go like those things.
I think I need to do this with the, the, the three major things I'm looking for
breakthrough in, you know, that I've been looking for for so long and just
kind of to, to let it go.
And, um, Um, and then it's, it's helpful to hear, I have been thinking about that
woman many times and I'm like, why can't I do this, but it's good to hear that.
It's, I think the reason why I bring up the weight thing is just cause it's, um,
it taps into like the other things, whether that's like getting married or
like having my own business, but the physical thing is just like, it's, I
feel like that's easier to see when you get it, you know, it's like, well, it's
visible, like you can definitely see it.
Um, and, and I think, um, Yeah, I think, um, and there's, there's a key there
too, that I want to like break through.
So it's helpful to hear that it took her some, some months as well.
Cause it's, um, I feel like I've been trying to like bless my body or speak
to it and do this and then it's just doing the opposite and then I start
panicking, you know?
So it's like, Oh my gosh.
Like, yeah.
So then I have to like go back again.
So it becomes this like weird, weird little dance, but, um, that has to, to
do with probably something.
So part of all of that comes from the fact that we telling ourselves that, that
we should accept ourselves.
Um, but we're not really loving ourselves though.
It's like, we're doing something without engaging our own selves vulnerably.
And so that makes it our bodies still gain when, when we're like, yeah,
but I'm trying to love you.
I'm telling you you're okay.
I'm whatever.
But if you don't allow yourself to be vulnerable to you, where you can are
vulnerable to your own ability to disappoint you to be.
disappointed in what you see and what you find and what you experience of
yourself, then you can't truly love you.
So the love for your, so we'll be talking about it.
Uh, I think in three sessions, something like that, we're talking about
the importance of the vulnerability.
I mean, like how to do it exactly.
You have to like, truly what you have to do to get breakthrough with
the Lord is to be vulnerable with him.
But what you have to do to get breakthrough with yourself is
to be vulnerable with you.
And we're just so used to orchestrating our lives and our
habits around avoiding pain.
And so when you finally risk the pain is when all of a sudden everything
happens, because, because you're now letting, because you're now truly letting
go, so that's why the body still do that when they're like, okay, well, I
finally accepted the way that I am.
That is when y'all only do we keep weight, but we add it is when is
while those other people who accept themselves the way that they are like,
oh, I'm going to love my body.
And they stay, they, these, these people that I'm thinking of a state truly fat.
I mean, we're talking to like, they're the large models.
You know what I'm saying?
And you're like, I don't love your body.
You know, you know, what do they call it?
Big, beautiful or something like that.
Big and beautiful.
They're there.
They think that's acceptance.
That's not, that is, I mean, I'm sure some of them are, you know, and some of
them, you're just dealing with like genetic issues and the fact that
they're just larger, but I'm saying that, that, that, that from the secular
perspective, I mean, because so much of them, so much, so many times are
approaching it from a very secular perspective, that is not acceptance.
That's why they're still holding onto the weight and their body's not dropping it.
Um, so there's a difference between.
You know, accepting it like they do and like they're talking about
versus what God's talking about.
And it was like, truly love who it is that you are.
And then anything that's extra that your body's using to protect itself against
you will finally let go.
Cause it no longer is afraid of you.
Um, does that make sense?
So there's, there's a, there's a difference between, which I'm so glad
that you brought up the difference between those two.
Oh, let's see.
Oh, there it is there.
Um, yeah.
Um, yeah, I think it's, I think that's exactly kind of where I am, but then it's
like, I can hear it.
I'm like, that makes sense.
And I'm like, I need to understand it.
Like I need to fully get it.
So, yeah.
Yeah.
Um, I'll try to figure out how to, how to articulate that better, especially
when we get into that session or whatever, to figure out, you know, how to.
Yeah.
How to articulate the difference.
Cause it took me a while to figure out the differences as well.
But it's, yeah.
And I, I don't even know if it's like an articulating thing.
It's kind of like, once I first heard the whole, like I I've always
heard where spirit soul body, but then when I heard it really, then
some one day I just heard it and I'm like, Oh wow.
You know, like when I, when we're not, it had sent me or thing.
And I was like, Oh my gosh, this is what it is.
This is why I'm frustrating.
Cause frustrated because I've been wanting to live from this high place.
I've heard about it, but I haven't understood it.
And so I feel like this is it.
It's like, Oh, so, um, I think you could be articulating it perfectly, but it's
like, I, sometimes you just don't get it.
Yeah.
Yeah, exactly.
So there was one more thing I was going to say before we lock.
Oh, now I remember.
Um, I recommend, you know, you were part of the rest intensive and they have, and
you've got that access to that video healing body and soul through the
spirit or something like that.
Um, I recommend, um, you may have watched it multiple times.
So if, if not, you may already remember everything you said, but, uh, but if you
don't remember, you can go back and listen to that, uh, cause there's a couple
of different things you can talk, have your soul talk to your body and your,
and, um, you know, talk and give you instruction to your spirit, your soul
and your body, you know, and have it do what it needs to do while, um, while
you're not paying attention, but, um, you can also be like extra intentional
with your, with your soul by talking to it and just like really letting it know.
And like, uh, just again, being very vulnerable with it, like emotionally
vulnerable with it to tell it, Hey, look, you really, truly are safe.
I, you know, I fully appreciate not ever getting onto it and telling it
and like, and correcting it, but more like, Hey, you've been doing this.
Trying to protect yourself.
You've been doing the right thing.
Thank you so much for all of that.
And as a gift, you're no longer going to have to do that.
So you can now let go.
And it'd be as opposed to this whole, like, Hey, I want you to change
because you shouldn't be doing this more like, Hey, because it
already naturally won't do it.
It's already, that's not its natural self anyway.
So anyway.
maybe even that will help as well.
Yeah, I've been looking at that a lot and doing that.
And I think maybe my soul and my body is the same as me.
So it's like, I hear what you're saying,
but I don't really believe it.
Yeah.
There's that as well.
Exactly, which is why I was talking about the fact
that we have to be for it and our spirit
has to let it experience a different reality
instead of it having to trust that,
okay, well, if that's what you say and I'll do this,
we have to actually give it the experience
that there really does exist a different reality.
And so, and that helps.
When I've done that with myself, that has helped a lot.
But how do you do that?
How do you do the experience?
What do you mean?
Well, part of it is you shift into your spirit.
Remember we talked about that is you shift your spirit.
You remember, okay, no, no, no, this is who I am.
And you will feel completely different
when you shift up there and you remember
and you choose, you're like, okay, wow,
I'm in a different place.
You know, I'm in my spirit now.
And then if that person, while you're there,
speaks to your soul or your body,
and then, and loves it, and is present for it,
and keeps it safe, and it's giving it
what it wants the soul and body to believe.
Because the problem isn't just that the soul and body
isn't believing it, it's that the spirit
in a way isn't doing it.
It's not providing it.
Technically it is.
But that is so helpful.
Yeah, yeah.
I've been doing it for my soul,
thinking that I'm like the spirit.
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Your soul is the one that needs to be covered and nurtured.
Your spirit is the one that has access to Christ
and has what the soul needs.
The soul isn't able to drum that up out of itself,
but the spirit is able to pull on Christ.
And whenever we come to the presence of Christ,
we're completely transformed.
So basically you're bringing the presence of Christ to it
so that Christ, not you, will transform it.
Yeah, that is so helpful.
Oh, good.
That's gonna be a breakthrough.
Yay.
I can't believe.
It's our buzzword.
Yeah, it's, well, that's really helpful.
I'm so excited.
Well, good.
Well, it's good to, you're welcome.
It's good to see y'all.
Oh, one last thing before we go,
did y'all understand about the conversation with God
and like how to do that and everything?
So you just remember that from like the intro videos,
you just write as if you're having a conversation.
The point is that you'll get interesting things out of that
maybe with your conversation with the Lord
that you wouldn't if you just sit and think.
And I know this in person.
So anyway, that has been very helpful.
Could you clarify the practices part?
I remember, I'm trying to figure out,
I couldn't remember what part that was.
Yeah, so I'm, yeah, sorry about that.
I should have explained.
I actually didn't give y'all a practice this time.
This time you had come up with that.
Hey, this is what I'm gonna do.
This is gonna be very helpful for me doing the,
and you listed out two pages of ways that God loved you,
you know, that you could see that God loved you.
And then you had said, oh, that sounds great.
I think I should do the same thing.
So I just thought, okay, that'll be the practice,
but I didn't verbalize that.
So I didn't get on and explain, you know,
that there was something I wasn't addressing.
So sorry.
So you can skip that one.
As far as like for the next, or not skip it,
but do that other exercise y'all had come up with,
which I thought was great.
But for the next one, I will do a,
I'll do a separate video.
I'm not sure if I'm gonna do it within the teaching
or if I'm gonna do it as separate videos in the teaching
of what to do in the next few days for a practice.
Cause then in the next few days,
another one's gonna come up.
I'm always trying to have a practice
that helps you understand how to walk out
practically what I talked about in the teaching.
So like the next one that we're gonna do is
who does God say he is?
And then that one, I'm gonna have one,
if not two practices that y'all can do
that should help you like engage with that.
Like, okay, well, how do I,
because again, faith without works is dead.
If we don't act on something that we're choosing,
then we're not really choosing it.
So how do I actually,
what's an action that I can do out of my faith
that God is says he's provider.
He says he's safe.
He says he's good.
He's whatever.
So how do I engage with who God is
and be able to act like it?
So it changes my life.
And so I'll be doing,
I'll be giving you instruction for that in a separate video.
Did that answer your question?
Yes.
Yes, thank you.
All right.
Okay, well, good to see y'all.
I will see y'all on Monday.
Yeah.
Sounds good.
See you all.
Have a great weekend.
Yeah, you too.
Thanks, you too.
Okay, bye.
Yeah.