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Hey! How are you feeling? I'm so excited! Good! Well, I'm almost completely back to normal,

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which I'm grateful for. And I just had a little bit of drainage and a bit of, let's see, I think

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I have, every now and then I have dry cough because you know that that sometimes comes with COVID.

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So, but anyway. It lasts for such a long time. The coughing is so annoying. Which I'd forgotten

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about. So, anyway, especially because the different strains now don't have all the

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same symptoms that the very first time it came out did. So, anyway, so I'm glad all of this

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worked out. I'm sorry. Oh my gosh, such a gift! I was like, yes! I'm so glad. Yeah, I had been

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meaning to ask y'all about it. And, but I was just, just still kind of like thinking about

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the logistics of it since y'all hadn't planned for it and I hadn't planned for it, you know,

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with schedules and everything. I was like, you know, let's just, I just feel like it's on my

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heart. I just felt like it was, it would hopefully provide something important to kind of like,

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like I mentioned in the message, just kind of, once things kind of get rolling a bit to kind of

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like help, you know, answer questions, like as things come up. So, because I just thought, well,

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that's what I would want. Oh my goodness. Yeah. So amazing. Yeah. I'm so excited.

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Yeah. What's going on?

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I feel like things are good. I did that whole exercise with letting go. And then I was like,

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after our last talk, when you had talked about like everything with that you had done before

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you met like Ed and like all of these things. And so I did that once. And then I was like,

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oh, I think I need to do it again with some other things. And so I feel like I'm just like,

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getting those. So today, even I was like, yeah, I need to let some things go. And it just feels

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very freeing, actually. And then, yeah, and then I was thinking about the other thing where it was

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like, oh, I've been like inviting my spirit men into like, heal my body and soul. And I've been

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talking to my body about accepting it. And then, you know, I was like, oh, my gosh, I have not

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fully accepted it like when it's acting out. And so then I started doing that. But then what I

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noticed is, which I was brought back to remembrance today, because I'm like, what I feel like is that

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I feel like I'm having like all these pieces of the puzzles where I'm like, okay, now I'm getting

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this more and I'm getting this more, but I can't like, put it together to like get the full picture,

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if that makes sense. So I've been like, okay, so understand this thing about releasing and letting

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go. I'm understanding this thing about accepting myself, I'm understanding this thing that oh,

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I have to like, talk to my body and like, say that I, you know, like love it and fully accept it

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regardless. And then I've, I've been using it as an excuse, like the last week to be like, Oh,

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I can just like, be a lazy and not do anything. And I can just like eat candy and like do all

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of these things because I'm, I'm accepting myself. Yeah. So this morning, I, Holy Spirit was just

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like, but remember that component about like, being a ruler in your own life? I was like,

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Oh yeah, there was that. Yeah. So, and yeah. And it's like, everything comes like the accepting

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yourself. And then, um, I finally am able to do this last year teaching the next one, which is

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going to be about like facing who it is that we really are now that we provide a safe place for

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that. Now, actually, uh, putting, uh, not putting ourselves through the test. That's not, uh, it's

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not that it's like now allowing who it is that we really are and who God really is to show up.

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In other words, face reality without being afraid of it. And now that you've chosen to accept

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yourself, now it'll, the stuff will come up and now you actually have to put everything into play.

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Like, okay, really in the face of these things, not in the potential of them happening, not in

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the potential of seeing something, but in actually seeing it and actually experiencing it. I'm not

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judging. And then the last one, you know, that we'll be talking about is, um, how to actually,

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excuse me, how to, how to rule and how to then like move forward. But my point is that every

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single one of these things has to be founded. And what we've.

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talking about this whole time, which is who does God say that we are? And so that my point is that

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will change how we, how we act and the decisions that we make when we're accepting ourselves,

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when we are facing these things that come up in us, because we realize, because instead of like

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what you said, we, we have a tendency to either view the things that we're facing as one of two

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things, either giving into it, which is what Paul referred to, which is what you were talking about,

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like, oh, well, since I'm accepting myself, I might as well do that, which is why Paul had to

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talk to, to the church and say, Hey, don't use your freedom as a license to sin. Because remember,

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sin is unbelief. It's not the action. So it's like, don't use your freedom to be who you are

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as a license to act however we want, but rather understand that it's the freedom of who it is,

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of being who it is that we are and acting like that person instead of like, oh, well, if I have

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this freedom, why don't I operate in the flesh? God's like, no, you've got the freedom to operate

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in this spirit. This is really who you are. So it's, but God, God does have to mature us into

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knowing how to operate like that. Cause we're used to thinking and identifying ourselves as the flesh.

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Oh, I want to eat candy. I want to be comforted. And this is my choice. We're used to identifying

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that as us. This is me. And God's like, no, that's not you. That's our old habit. Or that's who you

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thought that you were. You thought you were the flesh. You thought you were your body. You thought

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you were your emotions and all of that. No, you have the emotions. Your body is struggling with

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these, um, with these tendencies or this particular perspective, but it's not who you are.

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So anyway, my point is that the only way that all of these, these, these three things work,

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accepting ourselves as we are, or, um, you know, facing who it is that we are not judging it.

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And then actually ruling the only way that all three of the, any three of these work is if we

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remember that we are who God says that we are, which is why I talk about them last instead of

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first, because the only way that these work is if we know that we are who God says that we are is

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our spirit man, you know, as the new man or whatever. So my point is that when we start

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doing that, we'll start making different decisions in the face of, oh, I now have freedom or in the

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face of, oh, I acted out, I acted out in this way, or I'm struggling in this way is if we remember

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who it is that we are, and then, and then go into the situation like that, or confront

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that situation as we are like, who like the character of God, what kind of decisions then

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do we then make? Yeah. The one thing we don't judge ourselves for it, you know, we don't condemn

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ourselves for it and say, oh, you're bad or you're evil or whatever, but we also don't give into it

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either. So what does someone who isn't like that, but is faced with it, what does it dim into? And

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it's a totally different decision source than the way that we're used to making this decision.

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So, like I said, we usually have one or two, um, options. It's, we'll either give into it,

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which we'd be, which is what Paul's talking about was don't use your freedom as a license to sin,

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or we will work really hard to push against it and we'll strive to fight it. And that's exhausting.

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And that's what we've been doing. We're like, oh, I'm not supposed to the wall,

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pick myself up by my own bootstraps. And I'll just say no, no to myself and whatever. Well,

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the word no is fine. But the thing is like, if we have exertion that we're putting towards resisting

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it, that's, that's an exhausted, exhausting way to live the Christian life. So neither one of those

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options are as operating out of the fact that we are somebody completely different. So it's,

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it's a, it's where you are. And I'm still, I'm, I'm still there in like many areas of my life.

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But my point is whenever we get to that place in certain areas of our life, we have the habit of,

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of defaulting to one or the other, like one we're like, oh, well, I know I'm not supposed to do this,

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but every now and then I give into it anyway. And the other one is we think, oh no, this is what I'm

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supposed to do. I'm supposed to resist. And it's going to take a lot of hard work and it's exhausting

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and I'm not going to be happy. And, but there's actually a third option.

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And the third option is to operate out of note. Who actually am I? And then to be that in that

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situation, as opposed to choosing those other two options that we thought were only the only

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two options available to us. So anyway, is that helpful at all or giving any encouragement?

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Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's super helpful. Yeah. Cause that's what I've been feeling. Cause I'm

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like, oh, I've been just like letting go of things. And now I'm just like super excited today.

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Even I was thinking of like, oh,

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That's right. So I need to take like ownership. What is it that

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I want to do? Okay, well, I want to like, stop buying candy and

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eating candy, which is fine, because I'm like, I don't need

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it. Because God is my comforter. He's, he's providing for me.

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He's protecting me. He's like, I don't need that anymore for

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that. But then I'm like, but I love baking. And I love eating

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all of those things. And it's like, I'm like, that's okay.

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Like, that's part of who I love that. But I don't have to do it

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every day. I can do it like in weekends, you know, like,

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there's still that kind of like, so now I've given myself grace

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to like, okay, well, we're at least just gonna stop with the

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candy. And then you know, I have like, I have my friend coming

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over. She's coming over on Saturday, and then it's all

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these things happening. So I'm like, well, I'm gonna give

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myself slack for like, you know, however. Yeah. But and then I

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was like, I would really like to start working out again. But I

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just can't get myself to do I've been trying and it's just like

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and then I was having coffee with my neighbor this morning.

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And she was like, Oh, hey, I started the Kayla program again.

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And I was like, Oh, we did that in COVID. I was like, Oh, I

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should join you. She's like, I'm on week three. I was like, I'll

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just start join you on week three. And then we can do it

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together. So we went today and it was just like, I didn't want

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to go and I was like, I have a little bit of a sore throat. I

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probably should, you know, like, I'm actually a little bit tired.

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Like, and I was like, No, just go. And it felt so good. And

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then I went to my dance class after and even then to I've been

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like, um, no, I don't think I want to go like, um, so I feel

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like, um, I took authority and rulership, like in my life today

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and make good choice. At least a lot of I still had a cookie. And

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I'm like, that's fine. Like, I'm not gonna beat myself up over

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it, like, one step at a time. But all of the things I did, it

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felt different and didn't feel like I did it from works. It

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just felt like something that has come as an overflow of like

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the decisions I've been making, like letting things go, and

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understanding like who God is and who God says I am. And then

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it's kind of like what you've been saying, like, it'll come as

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like a byproduct of that, you know, just like it'll just like

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start happening. So I think that's what I'm feeling for

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today. It's like, oh, things are like starting to fall into

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place. And it's like, giving me joy to think about it. Like, and

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I've had this, like, even with like the court thing and

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everything, like waiting for that I've had like heart

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palpitations. And even that is like, calm down, you know, so

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I'm just like, Oh, I'm just learning more to just be and

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trust God that like, no, I actually do trust that he has my

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best interest at heart. Like he, he's good. Like he whatever is

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gonna happen. It's gonna be good. Because, you know, I might

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not understand everything, but like, he's good. And I don't

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have to stress about like, whatever's in the future,

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because we're like here and now and I'm like, Okay, well, I need

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to like make take rulership of where I am right now. So then

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it's funny, because then literally this morning, this guy

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texted me with it. So he works at like this capella, this music

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thing. And it's so funny, because like, I think I told you

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with my friend Christiana, I kind of like started working

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with her just from I answered an Instagram post kind of like

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silly. And she had met these guys in Oslo. And then we had a

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quick meeting when she was here, and they want to connect. And I

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was like, Oh, that's so funny. Like, because I think I said,

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that's what I've been writing down, like, Oh, I'd love to have

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a job where I can like me and walking distance and with like

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creativity, not saying anything will come of it. But it was just

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fun that he was like, Hey, how are you? We should connect and

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grab a coffee. And I was like, Yeah, absolutely. So great.

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We'll see what comes of like, yeah, if that's the connection.

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Yeah, yeah. And it's just like, funny, because it's like, even

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if I don't love my job, like I, you know how much I hated it

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before. And like, I was so mad at myself and God and everyone

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for having this job. And now I'm kind of like, it's kind of

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okay. Like, even with the drama, like, it's fine. Yeah. So I

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would.

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That that's huge. Because that's what's happened to me. Because

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I've been in that position. I think I've told you multiple

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times where I was just like, God, get me out of here. Because

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I cannot stand this. I can't handle another day. And me and I

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would just be frustrated with him for long periods of time. And

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then finally, he would show me actually, I'm not going to move

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you out. And so you let go of all

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this. I didn't have the vocabulary back then to understand what was going on

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other than the fact that God just told me to be, the way that I worded it

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to myself or the way that it sounded like he was saying to me because again

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it was all I had a grid for was actually I will not move you out until you're

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content where you are and and so I I would just and I realized that I stopped

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fighting where it is that I was and what and fighting God and holding

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accusation against God for keeping me here and and when I did that I would go

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through this transition of hating the job to being just kind of like being

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neutral to enjoying it and then he would tell me to leave yeah so anyway

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it's all part of this journey it's great to see you know progress to see

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like all of this like resistance in you just starting to just let go and you

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just shift into kind of like neutral you're like it's okay because a lot of

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our pain is created by our own self by our own resistance against it you know

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as opposed to and because we think that the only way that we can change

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something is to resist it and but what ends up happening is we end up sticking

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ourselves further in this situation out of it because we've locked down on it

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because we because we're like I don't like this and so we're resisting but we

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don't realize it's kind of like it's kind of like unforgiveness that that the

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more I'm forgiveness that we harbor the more that we're at we're actually locked

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on to it and we're not chained to it and we don't realize that we're doing the

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very thing that we're trying to avoid and it's the same thing and you know

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excuse me with what you're talking about so it's exciting to see all of

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these like these this encouragement for yourself of okay I'm stepping forward in

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faith and things that God says hey look trust me in this and that you know trust

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me that you know I really in your corner that I really am good that I really do

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provide that I really do hear you the desires of your heart and I want you to

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choose me instead of the manifestation of all of these desires that you want

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and by doing that you start feeling so much better you no longer hate

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everything you know as much as you did and it's all because we chose God above

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wanting something to happen and then so God's like okay so now you'll relieve

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all of this pain and all of this all this pain and all this pressure in other

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words you become more free from the bondage that you're in from resisting

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what it is you have and wanting something else instead it's creating our

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own bondage that's what I'm trying to say yeah so that's encouraging so it's

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like working yeah yeah I know that's what it feels like I'm so excited I'm

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like oh this is so good so I'm super excited how this works yeah and then I

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was so glad yeah but it's not normal I mean we don't hear people talk about it

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is my point yeah they don't you need to do something different or you just need

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to be happy and then you come to find out it's actually the opposite of

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everything we've been told and then we get what we want yeah yeah go ahead no

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no no yeah no I'm just so I'm so encouraged because it's like you say

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it's it just feels like this responsibility it's not like a

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responsibility because I have but it's like this accusation against God has

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gone and in that also my expectations of what I want the outcome to look like you

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know like so that just feels freeing because I'm like wow I really have no

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clue which is funny since like my word back in January 11th for November was

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dream and that's kind of how I feel it's kind of like oh it's like a blank canvas

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you know like it's like I'm creating this blank canvas and forgot to be like

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well what do you want to paint you know so I think I'm learning yeah I'm

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starting to learn this so how I like all of the things you've been talking about

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and then now it's like taking rulership like in an ownership in my own life so

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it's it's I think it's easier for me to understand it when I'm talking about my

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body but I realize I have to do the same thing with other things which you

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know but yeah so so I think I'm just I need to like relax I need to keep just

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relaxing in it because it's that whole what am I trying to say trusting God and

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having him think having him manifest in my life however he want and then how do

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I partner with it you know so I think

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that's where I also need to like relax and just be like, Oh,

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hey, because sometimes I can be like, Oh, well, if you want to

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write, you should write or you should do this or you should do

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that, you know, like in order to like, you have to practice

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something good at it, you know, yeah. And so it's that like,

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where? Yeah. I, I, yeah, I think I'll get it. Like, I'm starting

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to get it. And I'll get it. And like, so that's what I'm trying

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to say. I think when it comes to like my physical body, and like

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the eating and the working out and stuff like this, it's

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easier for me to see what's happening. It's like, Oh, here,

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I'm accepting myself. I'm like loving myself, and then I'm

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fully accepting myself. And then I'm taking ownership, like, Oh,

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wow, now I can rule and make good decisions, because that's

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actually part of it. So in that sense, it's taken forever. But

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now, I feel like I finally get it.

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exciting. And then I'm like, Okay, well, how do I? How does

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that look? What does that look like in the other areas of my

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life? You know, like, when it comes to like, if I want to

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create my own business, or if I want to meet someone or blah,

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blah, blah, but then I think I go back to what you said the

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last time where it's like, God, you can manifest however you

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want. And then I'll just say yes, and partner with it when it

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presents itself, you know. But I think part of me is still scared

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of that I need to do something or I should do something to show

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that, oh, I want this or, you know what I mean? Like, yeah,

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articulate stuff. Well, for one thing, you know, where we we

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tell the Lord, like, just for instance, like when I did, told

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the Lord, you know, when I prayed, and told the Lord, you

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know, I, and I feel like I'm inviting you, Lord, to make my

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life more enriched than I have been, then it's been

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visions or any restraints on you to enrich it in the way that you

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desire. And I will actively participate instead of

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resisting the opportunities that you bring to me. And so

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there's that aspect. So he, you know, initiates things. But then

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as far as like anything that we can, but while we're leaving the

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outcome to him, but then there are some things that we can do

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while still leaving outcome to him. But we are for one thing,

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we can co counsel together with him. But again, submitting our

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will to whatever it is that he that he decides and leaving the

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outcome. And then there's also the whole thing of like us in

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the co counseling. So it's within the co counseling, really

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co counseling, we're presenting to him, Hey, Lord, you know what

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did this feels good. Kind of like what we've been up and

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talked to Priscilla about, you know, on the back and forth.

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one that on the WhatsApp, or I've been talking about, you

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know, she's like, well, I've been thinking about this, but I

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wasn't sure if it was a good idea, or I wasn't sure if I

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should do it or whatever. I was saying, you know, you just you

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check with the Lord first, okay, Lord, this is what I'm thinking.

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This is what this feels. It feels like there's life on this

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idea. And if in other words, there's something different than

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simply Oh, doesn't that sound fun? There's there feels like

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well, sometimes it feels that way. Sometimes it just feels

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fun. And then we really don't know that the Lord or not. In

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other words, we don't know if it's our flesh or our spirit.

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And then you present that before the Lord, like, Lord, what do

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you think about this? It sounds really fun to do whatever. And

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then you see if you have a check. And if you don't have a

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check, well, then like in other words, if you don't have an

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absolute no, do you at least feel an openness? Because

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oftentimes, God doesn't give us a yes or no. Yeah. And and so

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we're left with like, what feels like no answer. And so how do

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you figure out how to proceed in a situation like that? And

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that's what I have, at least in my own life, I feel like I, I

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can tell, if there's what feels like an openness, like I don't

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feel a resistance to it, even though I can't hear the word,

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no, Lord, if I do, I feel a resistance against it, you know,

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from outside of me, not just like, like, Oh, well, I'm a

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little nervous, or I'm scared. I don't mean that a check like

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that. I mean, like, like a check where you could feel like, Oh,

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well, I'm leaning towards this. And I feel like there's this

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resistance against it. If I don't feel that there's a

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resistance against it, then I feel like there's this openness,

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I feel like there's the, there's a pop, but it feels a little

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like, well, I don't push into the thing. I just feel like it's

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open. And I could step if I want to, but I'm the one who has to

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step. So if I feel that openness, well, then I'll tell

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the Lord, okay, Lord, this is what I

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I, this is where I think that you are, um, giving me permission to step into,

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and you're not saying that I need to do something different.

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So I'm just like, you know, I'm going to step into it.

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continue to give me guidance and direction.

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So I step into that.

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And then once I'm there, then I, again, I just look at the first step.

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Do I just feel openness on the first step?

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We're not talking about an openness on, or do I, you know, do

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you want me to publish a book or do you?

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And because that's an end result, that's a, that's a way down the road.

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You know, or do you want me to do this?

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Or do you want me to have this job?

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Lord, what do you, whatever, but rather, well, no, should I apply for it?

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It doesn't mean that you're even, that they're even going to call you back.

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And if it does, it doesn't mean that you're going to get, you

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know, and get an interview.

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And it, even if so, it doesn't mean that of all the people that

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they're going to offer it to you.

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And application is just a first step.

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So sometimes I'll use a job is like an example of this.

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You just feel like, okay, Lord, if I don't get a, if I don't get a check

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from, or a, um, a direction from you on the whole thing, I've

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just asked them for the first thing.

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shouldn't take that as, well, then God said, I'm going to get the job.

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You didn't, but emotionally sometimes we, we latch on to giving, being given

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permission for the first step as, oh, God guided me in this.

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And here's the, here's how we know this.

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If it doesn't work out, we get mad at God.

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God, why did you allow me to waste my time?

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Why did you allow me to do whatever?

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And we're not remembering that.

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No, the whole point is the journey.

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The whole point is the development of our relationship with the Lord, not on whether

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something worked out in the world in the way that we want to, but really how do we

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develop our relationship with the Lord as we're doing stuff here on earth?

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But anyway, um, so I was just kind of asked the Lord, okay, well, Lord, I'm

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kind of feeling like an openness on this though, I'm going to step into it.

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And then once I'm there, then I look at the next thing.

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Do I feel an openness into the next thing?

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Because once we're in the first step and we're actually in it, we're now in a

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different position and you now have a different perspective of the next things

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that are possible than you did before you even stepped into step one.

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If for whatever reason, that's how it often works, it will look a little

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different from in once you're actually standing actively in step one and you've

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done it, then the options available to you and how you feel about them and how

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do you feel that the Lord feels about the different options going up from step one

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into step two, look different.

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And so that's how I've gotten a bit more clarity from the Lord about what, what

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things I should do is if I just look at it every, at one step at a time and I

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don't hold God accountable for an outcome that's like many steps down the

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road that he hasn't told me he's committed to, so I don't hold it against

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him if it, if it does or doesn't happen.

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And I just didn't ask the Lord, you know, well, I don't know what

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tomorrow's going to look like.

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You know, and Jesus didn't seem to be bothered by, in fact, kept telling

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us to not worry about tomorrow, but rather just worry about today.

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that's how I've done it.

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And the way, another way that I talk about it is if you look at a goal that you have

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in, in, in what do you call it, in new age though, or not new age, is it new age?

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The manifestation thing.

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Thank you.

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That's what I'm trying to say.

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The law of attraction, you know, they think, okay, if you have this goal, you

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need to solidify the goal and you need to live it, you need to breathe it, you need

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to see it, you need to like, is it, you're really there, you need to taste it.

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And then I'll go through all your senses and whatever, and I'll say, and I'll say

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you need to really solidify it for yourself and then stay focused on it.

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And that will allow you to eventually hit it.

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That will allow it to finally manifest.

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Well, there's multiple problems with that.

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For one thing, obviously it's very man centric, you know, very man source of

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like, what do I want and how do I make it happen for myself and there's no God in

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there.

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Um, so obviously that's wrong, but even from a Christian perspective of like where

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the Lord tells us, Hey, we're supposed to create, we're creators, we're Kings.

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How does this whole thing play into that?

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And this is how I have.

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Um, noticed at least my relationship with this father, who's how it has worked is

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if I get kind of at the whole point of a goal is not for me to determine what is

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going to happen.

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Cause I need to lay that up to the Lord, but rather for me and the Lord to kind of

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talk about a possible outcome.

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And what that does is it gives me a direction heading in.

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So, because otherwise I'm sitting here going, I don't know what to do.

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Yeah.

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new direction to start heading in but what I do is instead of the law of attraction will teach

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you that if you have this goal in order to make that goal you have to make a straight line there

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because all of these things are going to come against you while you're on this path and they're

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going to try to knock you off the path so you have to really visualize it and you have to be consistent

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and you have to be you know you have to will it into being whatever it takes a lot of exertion a

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lot of effort which is of course strife it's man doing it on his own or whatever and instead what

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we should do is we should it gives us a direction of like okay instead of heading this direction

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because I have this goal I'll head this direction so you start heading this direction

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but you allow the winds of this holy spirit to come and to knock you off of course in other

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words to guide your path and then you'll end up not even getting to that goal a lot of times

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you'll end up in a place that you didn't even know was a possibility you weren't heading towards but

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because you were following the holy spirit's guidance the whole way then you ended up in a

417
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place that you that you know was god's will or and that was is very often you know a prayer

418
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and a um and a manifestation of some dream that we'd have that we presented to the lord and he

419
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had us arrive there um and we didn't even hope to dream of it or you know hope to like ask him

420
00:31:28.640 --> 00:31:33.360
for it or whatever but he knew the desires of our heart and so he granted it over there

421
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and all this time we'd had this goal as our original idea but all that did was to give us

422
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the direction to start heading in almost like getting giving the car a direction to start

423
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to start in and get the car moving because you know that thing you know god can't steer a parked

424
00:31:53.280 --> 00:31:58.880
car you need to get the car moving and it's easier for god to direct us when we're actually

425
00:31:58.880 --> 00:32:05.600
doing something when we're actually in when we actually have movement well then god's like okay

426
00:32:05.600 --> 00:32:10.160
well then just turn the wheel slightly to the left to turn it now to the right and do this

427
00:32:10.160 --> 00:32:16.080
so that's what i how um i've noticed is very helpful not just for me but the other but other

428
00:32:16.160 --> 00:32:21.200
people that i've mentored and things like what job should they do and how do they need to handle

429
00:32:21.200 --> 00:32:27.280
their current job and what do they need to do or like you know priscilla with um it was like well

430
00:32:27.280 --> 00:32:34.080
i have an existing job and how do i want to um how do i want to develop it if it doesn't quite feel

431
00:32:34.080 --> 00:32:42.160
right anymore well what's wrong what do i need to change what do i do and um and anyway so the goals

432
00:32:42.240 --> 00:32:47.760
gave us a give us a direction so that we're starting to move and then we allow the holy

433
00:32:47.760 --> 00:32:52.560
spirit as we're moving to kind of guide us and then we turn the wheel slightly left and we turn

434
00:32:52.560 --> 00:32:57.760
the wheel slightly right but we're we're currently moving you know our foot isn't on the brake it's

435
00:32:57.760 --> 00:33:05.280
on the gas pedal we're doing stuff and so we're just going by okay god's yeses god's nose and

436
00:33:05.280 --> 00:33:10.400
then wherever we feel an openness of like god i feel that this is your character according to where

437
00:33:10.400 --> 00:33:15.600
it is what it is that you've taught me of who it is that you are this you know who i've come to

438
00:33:15.600 --> 00:33:28.160
understand that you are this far this feels um is that helpful yeah yeah it's super helpful because

439
00:33:28.160 --> 00:33:33.120
that's what i was saying i um think you had mentioned to priscilla like if you don't know

440
00:33:33.120 --> 00:33:39.360
that probably means you're not supposed to know just yet oh yeah something like that and so i

441
00:33:39.360 --> 00:33:45.440
feel like with that whole because now i like i mean you've seen how frustrated i was at my work

442
00:33:45.440 --> 00:33:51.120
and then like now being in neutral and actually enjoying parts of it you know like and yeah

443
00:33:51.120 --> 00:33:56.720
you can ownership places but it's um so it's really helpful what you're saying now because

444
00:33:56.720 --> 00:34:05.840
i think where i am i'm just like um when it comes to wanting to have my life look different

445
00:34:06.800 --> 00:34:14.159
i mean i've just presented that to god but it's like i tell him like you said like oh i you know

446
00:34:14.159 --> 00:34:20.800
like i'd like you know i feel like my life could be more you know like it could be so and i just

447
00:34:20.800 --> 00:34:25.840
invite you to like come and do whatever it is that you want to do and i want to partner with you

448
00:34:25.840 --> 00:34:31.679
you know and then part of me is just sitting there waiting on that and like okay well i mean

449
00:34:31.679 --> 00:34:36.639
obviously this happened like in the last week so you know and then part of me is like oh

450
00:34:39.120 --> 00:34:47.440
is this so so with the with my body it's easy to be like it's not easy but it was easy when i got

451
00:34:47.440 --> 00:34:53.040
it where i'm like oh well i can't just accept myself and continue to eat and not work out and

452
00:34:53.040 --> 00:34:59.760
expect to like drop weight like that's that doesn't that's normally not how it works but it doesn't

453
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.800
be a striving thing, it can be something you enjoy, you know,

454
00:35:02.800 --> 00:35:07.440
and but then when it comes to like the job and the dreaming,

455
00:35:07.440 --> 00:35:10.600
because that's the thing I feel like I've given up like and let

456
00:35:10.600 --> 00:35:15.840
go of so many things that I'm like, I don't really know what I

457
00:35:15.840 --> 00:35:19.280
want. Or, like, if God was like, well, what do you want in your

458
00:35:19.280 --> 00:35:23.440
life? I'd be like, um, I really don't know, you know, and so I

459
00:35:23.440 --> 00:35:26.960
feel kind of like paralyzed and moving into a certain direction,

460
00:35:26.960 --> 00:35:30.880
because I'm like, I wish I knew where which is again, like when

461
00:35:30.880 --> 00:35:38.320
I'm like, Oh, I wish I knew what I was supposed to do with my

462
00:35:38.320 --> 00:35:41.320
inheritance, or you know, like how I was supposed to invest

463
00:35:41.320 --> 00:35:44.600
that or I wish I had something I was really going for. And I

464
00:35:44.600 --> 00:35:48.000
could like, pour it into that and give my all and like, build

465
00:35:48.000 --> 00:35:51.520
up my business or whatever, you know, and I'm like, I have no

466
00:35:51.520 --> 00:35:55.160
clue of what I want, or where I'm supposed to go or like what

467
00:35:55.160 --> 00:35:58.760
even God wants anymore. I'm Yeah, fallen into this like

468
00:35:58.760 --> 00:36:04.240
music thing. And I've no idea, you know, like, I, I don't know

469
00:36:04.240 --> 00:36:08.320
what will come of it. Or it's like, but I mean, apparent, like

470
00:36:08.320 --> 00:36:10.720
it's apparent that God just dropped me in there. And there's

471
00:36:10.720 --> 00:36:14.560
a lot of favor around, but I'm like, but I don't understand it.

472
00:36:14.840 --> 00:36:17.360
Like, I don't even know the subject that much, you know,

473
00:36:17.360 --> 00:36:22.880
like, but um, besides singing, so I think I'm like, how do I

474
00:36:22.880 --> 00:36:26.960
navigate that? Or like, how do you do just sit and dream with

475
00:36:26.960 --> 00:36:30.600
God? Or like, how do I not expect my life to look

476
00:36:30.640 --> 00:36:37.600
different? Um, as I would like sitting here and not going to

477
00:36:37.600 --> 00:36:41.240
the gym or doing something taking active, making active

478
00:36:41.240 --> 00:36:44.560
good choices in my life and what I'm eating or how I'm treating

479
00:36:44.560 --> 00:36:46.720
my body as a king, you know,

480
00:36:47.440 --> 00:36:51.120
I'm sorry, I don't understand. I didn't understand what you were

481
00:36:51.160 --> 00:36:53.920
asking. You said, How do I expect my life to look

482
00:36:53.920 --> 00:36:55.840
different? What what we're saying? What do you mean?

483
00:36:56.040 --> 00:36:59.840
Yeah, so I feel like I think that's kind of like where I am.

484
00:36:59.840 --> 00:37:05.480
How do I so with what you were talking about before, like how

485
00:37:10.120 --> 00:37:13.600
so I would like my life to look different. I've invited God to

486
00:37:13.600 --> 00:37:18.080
like, expand if he wants and I don't feel like I have like a

487
00:37:19.080 --> 00:37:22.960
I'm holding it like I don't feel like I have a I don't have any

488
00:37:22.960 --> 00:37:26.440
grid for what I would want that to look like is it essentially

489
00:37:26.440 --> 00:37:29.400
just feels like I'm like, I have no idea what that would look

490
00:37:29.400 --> 00:37:34.480
like. So I think I'm like, where do I go from? Like, how do I

491
00:37:34.480 --> 00:37:39.600
move from here to to have breakthrough in those areas, you

492
00:37:39.600 --> 00:37:45.880
know, which is areas where I'm not familiar with? Yeah, getting

493
00:37:45.920 --> 00:37:48.160
my back, I guess, you know,

494
00:37:48.320 --> 00:37:51.840
yeah, well, I think part of the part of the struggle that we

495
00:37:51.840 --> 00:37:57.200
have with those when we have those questions, is that at our

496
00:37:57.200 --> 00:38:00.440
age, we don't expect to have those questions. That was like,

497
00:38:00.440 --> 00:38:03.360
that was so high school. Yeah, I was in college. That's when I

498
00:38:03.360 --> 00:38:06.840
was trying to like figure out. And we think that by our age,

499
00:38:06.840 --> 00:38:11.000
when we should know. And the thing is, though, that back then

500
00:38:11.040 --> 00:38:15.520
we build our sense of life and sense of self like who it is

501
00:38:15.520 --> 00:38:20.000
that we are and came to know who it is that we are off of

502
00:38:20.000 --> 00:38:22.920
the off of the foundation that's very different than the one that

503
00:38:22.920 --> 00:38:26.280
we're building. Now we're trying to remove that old foundation of

504
00:38:26.280 --> 00:38:30.120
like, I'm on my own. I'm advantage. God is like this. And

505
00:38:30.120 --> 00:38:34.440
now I'm discovering no gods like this. And this is who I am. And

506
00:38:34.440 --> 00:38:38.000
so that's a totally different foundation from which to know

507
00:38:38.000 --> 00:38:41.880
myself. Because also a lot of these things that we thought

508
00:38:42.040 --> 00:38:45.360
were us were based off of Oh, this is what I like. And this is

509
00:38:45.360 --> 00:38:50.200
what I want, were based off of years, because I want to avoid

510
00:38:50.200 --> 00:38:53.160
this happening. So therefore, I like to do these things, or I

511
00:38:53.160 --> 00:38:55.800
want to do these things, because subconsciously, we're going, I

512
00:38:55.800 --> 00:39:00.200
want to avoid this down the road or whatever. And so now that we

513
00:39:00.200 --> 00:39:03.440
are removing now that we're changing our, our source from

514
00:39:03.440 --> 00:39:07.200
where we're making decisions, we now no longer know who we are.

515
00:39:08.120 --> 00:39:13.040
So, but it's not going to be as long as it took and as hard as

516
00:39:13.040 --> 00:39:15.640
it was in high school or college or whatever, to figure

517
00:39:15.640 --> 00:39:21.840
these things out. It's a lot faster in the kingdom of God, to

518
00:39:21.880 --> 00:39:26.680
learn and discover all of those things. So it's like, it's, it's

519
00:39:26.680 --> 00:39:30.720
a, in a freeing way, it's like a blank slate, not in a scary way,

520
00:39:30.720 --> 00:39:34.160
but in a freeing way, it's like, so now you can go through like

521
00:39:34.160 --> 00:39:37.840
this discovery process of Oh, my goodness, you know, who am I

522
00:39:37.840 --> 00:39:41.120
like, in other words, what is it that I really want, especially

523
00:39:41.120 --> 00:39:44.080
with how the Lord and I have developed stuff thus far, and

524
00:39:44.080 --> 00:39:46.960
what I tried in life, and I realized the outcomes of those

525
00:39:46.960 --> 00:39:49.280
things, is that really who I want to be? Is that really the

526
00:39:49.280 --> 00:39:51.080
kind of stuff that I want to be involved in, or the type of

527
00:39:51.080 --> 00:39:53.440
people I want to be connected with, or where I want to live,

528
00:39:53.440 --> 00:39:56.560
or what I want to do with my life or whatever. And you've

529
00:39:56.560 --> 00:39:58.720
discovered things, you've learned things about life that

530
00:39:58.720 --> 00:39:59.640
you didn't know.

531
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:08.080
back in high school or even college. And so you have much more, um, uh, you have a lot more data

532
00:40:08.080 --> 00:40:15.040
to work with now. And, um, and then you can, you can build, you can discover who it is that you are

533
00:40:15.040 --> 00:40:22.800
when you're not afraid. What does it want? If I'm not afraid, what is it that I want? If I'm not,

534
00:40:23.440 --> 00:40:27.600
if I'm not trying to prevent something from happening, or if I'm not trying to protect

535
00:40:27.600 --> 00:40:31.760
myself or provide for myself, what decisions would I make in that kind of a reality?

536
00:40:32.640 --> 00:40:38.640
So it's, it's, um, and so that's, that's just where you are. That's the part, you know, I'm

537
00:40:38.640 --> 00:40:44.560
still in that in multiple areas of my life as well. Like who really am I? What really is it

538
00:40:44.560 --> 00:40:51.280
that I want? And we talked about this last time versus what did I think that I want that I wanted

539
00:40:51.280 --> 00:40:57.200
way back then, but really it's because society was such that I was afraid of what would happen

540
00:40:57.200 --> 00:41:03.600
if I was anything else. So I thought that I wanted X, Y, and Z because that's what got me,

541
00:41:03.600 --> 00:41:11.840
you know, but now if I'm no longer basing my decisions on who it is that I am and what it

542
00:41:11.840 --> 00:41:17.280
is that I want off of fears, if it's off of I'm protected, I'm provided for, you know,

543
00:41:17.280 --> 00:41:24.000
there's so much freedom. There's so much openness who, who that I am, who, what, what decisions,

544
00:41:24.720 --> 00:41:28.400
what is it that that person wants? What is it that that person likes?

545
00:41:29.200 --> 00:41:33.440
So, and that's just something that, um, that we just kind of like discover. So it's like, um,

546
00:41:34.320 --> 00:41:43.520
um, we just, it's, uh, we're, as an adult, we're not used to giving ourselves as much leeway.

547
00:41:44.080 --> 00:41:52.800
We're all, we're very accomplishment driven and did something that has to only be a specific path

548
00:41:52.800 --> 00:41:56.800
that'll end this that'll end in this particular way that I'll get something out of it. And it's

549
00:41:56.800 --> 00:42:01.520
gotta be right the first time, you know, I don't have time for this exploration thing. I don't have

550
00:42:01.520 --> 00:42:08.320
time to go down some little, like, you know, bunny trail or some trail and find out the whole time

551
00:42:09.120 --> 00:42:13.760
that it led to nowhere. And now I've got to start all over again. Ain't nobody got time for that.

552
00:42:13.760 --> 00:42:18.720
You know, that's what we're thinking. That's what we're thinking as an adult. And really it's the

553
00:42:18.720 --> 00:42:24.880
opposite. You actually make a lot more progress in life. And they say this, like the non-christian

554
00:42:24.880 --> 00:42:33.440
say this, it is a principle that they have noticed, um, uh, in, in life that the stakes

555
00:42:34.320 --> 00:42:41.600
and openly and just like our action takers make much more progress in life than people that are

556
00:42:41.600 --> 00:42:46.560
always trying to do it right. The first time they move very slow and they don't get nearly as much

557
00:42:46.560 --> 00:42:53.440
done as the people that just try stuff that explore that, like, okay, well, let's take time

558
00:42:53.440 --> 00:42:58.160
to this and let's take time to do that. And they don't, they don't worry about, well, what if it

559
00:42:58.160 --> 00:43:03.120
works out or not? It's all, it's a discovery process. And what they end up finding is,

560
00:43:03.120 --> 00:43:10.720
uh, is they also make progress further down the road, even with all of these little explorations,

561
00:43:10.720 --> 00:43:19.120
you know, whatever, they actually move forward faster than the people who are trying to make

562
00:43:19.120 --> 00:43:25.360
sure that everything is just right. And only do the right thing. And so it's, it's, it's, it's,

563
00:43:25.760 --> 00:43:42.480
it's, it's, it's a discovery process. So if we kind of view things in life more from this

564
00:43:42.480 --> 00:43:49.120
perspective of, of, um, like playing like a kid does, I'm like, let's just see what happens.

565
00:43:49.680 --> 00:43:55.600
Let's try. Well, you know, um, I wonder if I'd like that. Well, I don't know. Let's take a

566
00:43:55.600 --> 00:44:01.120
class on it. Just one class. See if I like it or let's watch some YouTube videos on it

567
00:44:01.120 --> 00:44:06.960
and see if I'm interested enough to actually go take a class, you know, or, or whatever,

568
00:44:06.960 --> 00:44:11.040
or, you know, for investment, you know, wondering about investment options and like, oh, well,

569
00:44:11.040 --> 00:44:14.720
I wonder what it would be like to just get one consultation with a financial advisor,

570
00:44:15.280 --> 00:44:19.520
just like, like what, because it's their field of expertise. I wonder what

571
00:44:20.080 --> 00:44:24.480
information they could expose me to that are options out there that I've never even considered

572
00:44:25.040 --> 00:44:28.800
because they're not anything, any of the traditional options that I've ever heard of,

573
00:44:28.800 --> 00:44:33.840
you know, or, you know, just, just stuff like that. It's just kind of like trying something

574
00:44:33.840 --> 00:44:38.560
because you're interested. Basically it's like, there's an, this is the way I see it. I see it as

575
00:44:39.600 --> 00:44:44.080
more fully engaging with an appreciation that we have of a world that God created.

576
00:44:44.800 --> 00:44:51.360
Like, let's just see what's out there. There's an aspect of God of appreciating what God created

577
00:44:51.360 --> 00:44:57.040
by being interested to learn and to expose ourself. Even if you're not going to take

578
00:44:57.040 --> 00:44:59.840
action on it and you go do a whole consultation with.

579
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.640
financial advisor, you know, and just pay for an hourly fee for just an hour fee for just like

580
00:45:04.640 --> 00:45:09.200
one consultation, or maybe they do it for free. I don't know how they do that, you know, and,

581
00:45:09.200 --> 00:45:18.560
and you, and even if it, but it exposed you to a world that isn't your area of expertise, because

582
00:45:18.560 --> 00:45:21.920
you don't, you don't, you're not a financial advisor and you don't know all of this stuff.

583
00:45:21.920 --> 00:45:26.160
You don't know what all is available. So even if you don't take an action on any of it, at least

584
00:45:26.160 --> 00:45:31.680
your world will be bigger. So you now know, this does not feel aligned with me to follow any of

585
00:45:31.680 --> 00:45:37.120
these pathways. So I'm going to look for a different one. It gets us in. So that again,

586
00:45:37.120 --> 00:45:41.280
that's taking a first step. And once you have that first step, you can more clearly see the

587
00:45:41.280 --> 00:45:49.360
options that you have in a second step. Yeah, that is so helpful. Because I, when you speak,

588
00:45:49.360 --> 00:45:53.840
I'm like, Oh, that's what I'm doing. I'm like trying to get the outcome straight away,

589
00:45:53.840 --> 00:46:01.440
instead of like being on this exploring journey with God, like figuring out and just learning and

590
00:46:01.440 --> 00:46:09.360
appreciating what he created and enjoying essentially, you know, and it's funny, my

591
00:46:09.360 --> 00:46:13.600
sister and I are actually on Thursday going, that's the thing we're going to something called

592
00:46:13.600 --> 00:46:20.720
she invests. And it's for women and they have like this evening and they have like all financial

593
00:46:20.720 --> 00:46:26.000
advisors and it's on a stage and they're like talking about the trends and how, how you can

594
00:46:26.000 --> 00:46:31.360
like save money and invest and like all of these things. And I think I've been there before.

595
00:46:32.240 --> 00:46:38.240
Oh, cool. And I think I'm good. This time, I'm gonna go with a new mindset, though, of like,

596
00:46:38.240 --> 00:46:43.440
oh, I believe actually God wants me to learn something and I can get this like, I can't because

597
00:46:43.440 --> 00:46:48.640
the last time too, I was like, this is way over my head. I don't understand anything. And, you know,

598
00:46:48.640 --> 00:46:53.200
like, how come other people can get it and I don't get it. Now, I'm just gonna be like,

599
00:46:53.840 --> 00:47:00.640
hey, I'm okay, even if I don't get it, but maybe, yeah, I will have another revelation, you know,

600
00:47:00.640 --> 00:47:07.120
or it's like, at least I'm moving towards it to see like, I'm, I'm, I'm actively participating.

601
00:47:07.920 --> 00:47:13.200
And then I can just expect God to like show up. And yeah, like you say, like, move me in the

602
00:47:13.200 --> 00:47:18.720
right direction. So yeah, yeah. I think that's, that's really helpful. Because I think I'm just

603
00:47:18.720 --> 00:47:24.400
like, I should be sitting down and writing and writing and writing and doing this and doing this

604
00:47:24.400 --> 00:47:32.320
and doing this. And it's like, yeah, no, yeah, I can try it. But also, when you go to steps like

605
00:47:32.320 --> 00:47:39.360
that, what I would advise is that you remember, again, who it is that you are, you're in a

606
00:47:39.360 --> 00:47:45.120
position of oneness with Christ, all power and authority is in that position, everything is under

607
00:47:45.120 --> 00:47:51.200
your feet, including all those principles that they'll be talking about. You were set with the

608
00:47:51.200 --> 00:47:57.600
intention to rule those principles. So they're yours to know, they're yours to understand,

609
00:47:57.600 --> 00:48:02.640
as opposed to Oh, my goodness, I hope I get to be smart enough to figure all of this out.

610
00:48:02.640 --> 00:48:08.800
No, God put you in a position where you're the king of those principles. Sure, you're being

611
00:48:08.800 --> 00:48:12.880
raised, you know, like it mentions in the Bible, you know, like with that, tutors and governors,

612
00:48:12.880 --> 00:48:18.080
because we're young. And so we're learning what it how to rule the land that we've been given.

613
00:48:18.080 --> 00:48:25.680
But still, you're still, you still have the power and the authority over those things to rule over

614
00:48:25.680 --> 00:48:32.960
those principles. So they belong to you. They're within your kingdom. So they're yours. And you're

615
00:48:32.960 --> 00:48:38.880
just simply being exposed to what it is you own and what it is you rule. So get it, it helps.

616
00:48:43.360 --> 00:48:46.720
That you're going to understand it, that you're going to learn it, that God's going to show you

617
00:48:46.720 --> 00:48:51.280
what it is that he wants you to focus on or learn or understand or pay attention to or make a part

618
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:56.720
of your life. And the rest of it, you know, if you're not feeling like the Lord is, is like

619
00:48:56.720 --> 00:49:00.800
urging you to press in and to really understand something or just like, okay, well, whatever,

620
00:49:00.800 --> 00:49:07.200
then that is for someone else to understand and to reign and rule and have dominion over.

621
00:49:07.200 --> 00:49:11.280
And the Lord has something else for me to focus on. We can't be experts in every field. Yeah.

622
00:49:12.720 --> 00:49:18.800
But it will help because then you're more likely to understand it, understand more,

623
00:49:18.800 --> 00:49:23.600
because in your mind, there's this openness instead of this resistance of like, oh my goodness,

624
00:49:23.600 --> 00:49:28.240
I bet this is gonna be hard to understand. Oh my goodness, you know, I hope I get this.

625
00:49:28.960 --> 00:49:32.960
Instead of walking with this expectation, oh my word, I rule all of these principles. Now,

626
00:49:32.960 --> 00:49:38.240
I'm just simply being exposed to what is another part of my kingdom I didn't know existed.

627
00:49:39.120 --> 00:49:42.160
You know, the principles work like that. Does that make sense?

628
00:49:42.160 --> 00:49:48.880
Yeah, yeah. It's mind blowing. It's like, it doesn't even like it as like, wow, that's like,

629
00:49:48.880 --> 00:49:54.720
that's exactly how I need to think with everything, you know, it's mind blowing.

630
00:49:55.520 --> 00:49:59.600
And that's what I said before, when I was it was so good that you answered that too,

631
00:49:59.600 --> 00:49:59.920
what I was

632
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.400
like, Oh, I hope I get this rest intensive and the breakthrough

633
00:50:04.400 --> 00:50:07.600
and that I don't forget it and blah, blah, blah. And you're

634
00:50:07.600 --> 00:50:10.920
like, No, you're gonna live it. You know, I just had coffee with

635
00:50:10.920 --> 00:50:14.160
Renata. And she and she was like, Oh, I feel like I was

636
00:50:14.160 --> 00:50:17.120
living in rest. And now I fell out of it. And I don't know how

637
00:50:17.120 --> 00:50:20.600
to get back. And I think that's how I was like, Oh, no, I don't

638
00:50:20.600 --> 00:50:26.160
want to fall out of it. I want to have these, you know, like,

639
00:50:26.160 --> 00:50:31.400
so it's been Yeah, it's me. And I'll tell you the same thing

640
00:50:31.400 --> 00:50:37.920
that I told her is that that is normal. It's not like, Oh, when

641
00:50:37.920 --> 00:50:40.200
people like, for instance, go through the rest intensive,

642
00:50:40.200 --> 00:50:42.240
they're just gonna like fall over this threshold. And

643
00:50:42.240 --> 00:50:44.120
they're just gonna live in bliss for the rest of their days.

644
00:50:44.120 --> 00:50:46.720
That's, that's not what it is. What it is, is it's like

645
00:50:46.720 --> 00:50:51.720
exposing someone to what God is actually saying in Scripture and

646
00:50:51.720 --> 00:50:57.560
freedom that he that we now live in as the new man, because

647
00:50:57.560 --> 00:51:02.160
of the gospel. And now we're having to learn how do we apply

648
00:51:02.160 --> 00:51:04.560
that in the various areas of our life? How do we take that

649
00:51:04.560 --> 00:51:06.760
freedom that we're already in and it gets in the rest

650
00:51:06.760 --> 00:51:09.920
intensive, what I always hope people do is at least get an

651
00:51:09.920 --> 00:51:13.080
experience during the rest intensive of what I'm talking

652
00:51:13.080 --> 00:51:19.200
about, of letting go and being able to finally explore God a

653
00:51:19.200 --> 00:51:22.480
freedom in an area they never had before. And now that they

654
00:51:22.480 --> 00:51:25.600
know what I'm talking about, okay, now they have to go, you

655
00:51:25.600 --> 00:51:28.520
know, you know, with the Lord. And then I also offer to help,

656
00:51:28.520 --> 00:51:30.280
you know, mentor people like through like through the

657
00:51:30.280 --> 00:51:32.800
breakthrough program or whatever, in how to apply it

658
00:51:32.800 --> 00:51:35.960
various areas of their life, but we all have to have to

659
00:51:35.960 --> 00:51:40.520
continually be confronted with aspects of our flesh, our soul

660
00:51:40.520 --> 00:51:43.040
and our body that are not currently in rest yet, either

661
00:51:43.040 --> 00:51:47.320
because it's a new area, or it's a greater depth of those same

662
00:51:47.320 --> 00:51:51.440
areas. And so, so she was all concerned, I think I've fallen

663
00:51:51.440 --> 00:51:54.320
out of the rest. I'm like, No, you sound like me. If this is

664
00:51:54.320 --> 00:51:58.320
life now, but you've chosen that you have a different life that

665
00:51:58.320 --> 00:52:02.160
you are now going to live from a that you are now going to have a

666
00:52:02.160 --> 00:52:05.480
different lifestyle, you're going to live choosing that you

667
00:52:05.480 --> 00:52:09.440
have freedom, you know, according to the gospel in God,

668
00:52:09.680 --> 00:52:12.920
and that is now who you are. Now you're just learning more and

669
00:52:12.920 --> 00:52:17.080
more how to apply that in various aspects of your flesh,

670
00:52:17.080 --> 00:52:19.640
your soul and your body and overcome them, you know, in

671
00:52:19.640 --> 00:52:22.320
other words, go through Romans eight, where parts of your are

672
00:52:22.320 --> 00:52:24.800
your soul and your body are still groaning and frustration

673
00:52:24.800 --> 00:52:28.400
waiting for the manifestation of its own spirit. It's a spirit to

674
00:52:28.400 --> 00:52:32.280
reveal itself and say, Look, I now recognize I'm a son of God.

675
00:52:32.720 --> 00:52:35.280
And I'm now calling you to recognize that as well. And

676
00:52:35.280 --> 00:52:38.560
then you'll be able to step into greater and greater freedom. So

677
00:52:38.560 --> 00:52:40.840
I just encouraged her I was like, No, this is normal.

678
00:52:42.200 --> 00:52:45.640
So now, you know, all this stuff, they're very simple

679
00:52:45.640 --> 00:52:49.920
principles, and you just walk with the Ford in in overcoming

680
00:52:49.920 --> 00:52:52.960
these various aspects of yourself that aren't believing

681
00:52:52.960 --> 00:52:56.600
God is as good as he says. Yeah, or that he's not as perfect,

682
00:52:56.680 --> 00:52:59.920
pretty much provider as he says that he is or whatever. And so

683
00:52:59.960 --> 00:53:02.880
she told me that that was encouraging. So hopefully, she

684
00:53:02.880 --> 00:53:06.280
just messaged me yesterday. It was all very new. She messaged

685
00:53:06.280 --> 00:53:08.320
me yesterday. And so I messaged her back.

686
00:53:09.840 --> 00:53:11.520
Oh, good. Yeah.

687
00:53:12.320 --> 00:53:16.600
Thank for you. It's like I introduced people to this to

688
00:53:17.320 --> 00:53:20.480
talked in the gospel. And he's there talked about the gospel.

689
00:53:20.480 --> 00:53:23.320
And he said it was freeing. This is what he was talking about. Oh,

690
00:53:23.320 --> 00:53:25.920
my word. That's what I have. Yes. And we're already there. Oh,

691
00:53:25.920 --> 00:53:30.560
my word. Yay. But we have to continually choose it. Whenever

692
00:53:30.560 --> 00:53:34.480
a new aspect of our flesh confronts it, a new aspect of

693
00:53:34.480 --> 00:53:37.960
unbelief. Oh, I didn't realize I wasn't believing God in that

694
00:53:37.960 --> 00:53:42.600
area, or, you know, or whatever. So it's, it's all very normal.

695
00:53:43.960 --> 00:53:44.440
Yeah.

696
00:53:45.840 --> 00:53:51.080
I'm so encouraged. I feel very excited about the future. I've

697
00:53:51.080 --> 00:53:55.520
no idea. But it doesn't scare me. I'm just like excited about

698
00:53:55.520 --> 00:54:00.040
it. I'm like, who knows? But I guess that's what I'm like,

699
00:54:00.040 --> 00:54:02.880
figure out what I like. And like, I love that whole like,

700
00:54:02.920 --> 00:54:07.920
oh, with at the same time understanding that everything in

701
00:54:07.920 --> 00:54:12.840
this world is actually under our feet. Because, you know, it's

702
00:54:12.840 --> 00:54:18.040
for us to rule reign. But then for God to like, blow life on

703
00:54:18.040 --> 00:54:22.080
whatever it is, we feel like, oh, maybe this can be it. Or

704
00:54:22.080 --> 00:54:26.720
maybe Yeah, exactly. Yeah. To be feel threatened by or

705
00:54:26.720 --> 00:54:29.440
intimidated by anything. Yeah. And that's basically what I was

706
00:54:29.440 --> 00:54:31.800
encouraging you about, like going to like learn something

707
00:54:31.800 --> 00:54:35.280
new, that we're not supposed to feel intimidated going into it

708
00:54:35.280 --> 00:54:38.960
because we rule it. We're just being exposed to a bigger, a

709
00:54:38.960 --> 00:54:45.520
deeper, some, like, think about it, like, we're now meeting a

710
00:54:45.520 --> 00:54:48.560
whole country of people that are within our kingdom that we've

711
00:54:48.560 --> 00:54:50.800
never been exposed to, we've never been exposed to that

712
00:54:50.800 --> 00:54:54.240
particular people's culture, and their language and how they do

713
00:54:54.240 --> 00:54:57.880
things. But we are the son of the king, who has multiple

714
00:54:57.880 --> 00:54:59.920
lands. And now we're being introduced to this

715
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.200
land that were that were responsible to rule and reign over but we're just being introduced to them

716
00:55:05.200 --> 00:55:10.400
so you know this is all brand new to us but we still rule and reign over them so there's no

717
00:55:10.400 --> 00:55:14.000
reason to be intimidated we're already in a position of power and authority over them we're

718
00:55:14.000 --> 00:55:20.480
just being taught by god how do we use that power and authority um in this new area that we've never

719
00:55:20.480 --> 00:55:26.720
known we rule over yeah thinking on my word it's this thing i have to conquer no it's already been

720
00:55:26.720 --> 00:55:30.960
conquered you already have all the power and authority over it you know like all these

721
00:55:30.960 --> 00:55:35.520
financial principles or whatever it's just you're you're just being exposed to it by god and like

722
00:55:35.520 --> 00:55:39.360
shown hey look by the way this is in your territory as well don't you think this is

723
00:55:39.360 --> 00:55:44.160
interesting and then like you said you're discovering with the lord which areas are you

724
00:55:44.160 --> 00:55:50.720
and he going to adopt and manifest who it is that you are through like which financial principles

725
00:55:50.720 --> 00:55:55.200
are you going to be putting into operation which business are you and he going to have how are you

726
00:55:55.200 --> 00:55:59.280
going to do it you know that's all going to be unique to you you're not going to do all of them

727
00:55:59.280 --> 00:56:04.000
that are available out there you and the lord are going to pick a specific one yeah

728
00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:10.720
intimidated by all the ones that you don't yeah you just learn them all and you still

729
00:56:10.720 --> 00:56:15.360
rule and reign over the thing that that creation overall but you and the lord are only going to

730
00:56:15.360 --> 00:56:23.920
operate out of your chosen one so well another transformation session

731
00:56:25.520 --> 00:56:30.000
we're also taught to be intimidated by what we don't know yeah that's another thing i'm trying

732
00:56:30.000 --> 00:56:33.520
to say and there's no reason for us to be intimidated by something that we don't know

733
00:56:33.520 --> 00:56:39.120
it's a rule right now whether or not we own it yeah or like overwhelm this there are so many

734
00:56:39.120 --> 00:56:45.280
things like yeah and we're made and we're taught that we're supposed to be afraid

735
00:56:49.040 --> 00:56:54.320
instead and that knowledge is power remember that knowledge is power thing that people say

736
00:56:54.320 --> 00:56:57.760
and it's just not true um so anyway

737
00:57:01.360 --> 00:57:06.880
yes so helpful oh my gosh yeah another one i'll be listening to over and over again

738
00:57:09.120 --> 00:57:13.760
so you said that you could not do thursday right which is perfectly fine i just need to know

739
00:57:16.320 --> 00:57:22.880
i have the financial thing but i think i'm not sure when it's over it could be over at nine but

740
00:57:22.880 --> 00:57:27.520
i'll see if i can make like the last half hour or something um yeah but i don't think i'll be

741
00:57:27.520 --> 00:57:32.960
able to make it at nine um oh i can't hear you now

742
00:57:41.200 --> 00:57:42.560
can you hear me now yeah

743
00:57:47.680 --> 00:57:53.040
you can do it well then um we'll meet on thursday and then you just join in you know whenever you

744
00:57:53.040 --> 00:58:00.640
can and um but if she can't do it we'll just get thursday i could yeah if not i could do it like an

745
00:58:00.640 --> 00:58:07.760
hour later but um okay and uh you mentioned for next week you could or couldn't do it you can't

746
00:58:07.760 --> 00:58:12.880
do it because you have company am i right when caitlin gets in on on saturday and they leave

747
00:58:12.880 --> 00:58:20.160
on wednesday so okay i don't really know where we'll be on monday so i'm not quite okay um because

748
00:58:20.160 --> 00:58:25.600
if we're just hanging out here then i can pop out for like an hour and be like hey you know

749
00:58:25.600 --> 00:58:33.600
i have a call but if we're um up in the mountain or you know like at a cabin or something it might

750
00:58:33.600 --> 00:58:40.080
be more difficult um yeah okay so it's just because i have um yeah feel like you can next

751
00:58:40.080 --> 00:58:48.080
thursday next thursday i can yeah priscilla can do it monday if she can we'll do it and

752
00:58:48.880 --> 00:58:55.040
this this thursday and then we'll just plan on doing it on and next thursday as well yeah okay

753
00:58:56.880 --> 00:59:07.120
so oh yeah oh thank you so much um so so thursday i can but might be half an hour late or i can do

754
00:59:07.120 --> 00:59:13.200
an hour later yeah so okay all right okay yeah sounds good okay thank you

755
00:59:13.920 --> 00:59:19.440
good night yeah you too did you have you gone back to work like since you've been feeling

756
00:59:19.440 --> 00:59:25.920
better yes yes i have so that's i've been um uh that's another reason why i haven't been

757
00:59:25.920 --> 00:59:33.120
able to get the teachings done is that the whole sickness threw everything off yeah delayed my

758
00:59:33.120 --> 00:59:40.400
work delayed my delayed my teachings and so i i had to last week i had to make uh two weeks worth

759
00:59:40.400 --> 00:59:47.760
of work and so that's why i didn't do any of the of the uh teaching last week is because i was

760
00:59:47.760 --> 00:59:52.560
making up for the fact that i was sick my very first week of work so anyway so hopefully um i

761
00:59:52.560 --> 00:59:59.840
should be able to get them done this week oh yeah no that's all good but did you have fun is it good

762
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.040
me enjoying it. It is right at my alley. It's right. The kind of thing that I enjoy. I already

763
01:00:05.040 --> 01:00:10.320
have experience in the, in, in this area. It's just that I didn't have experience with this

764
01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:16.320
software. And so the software is new for me, but this is what I, this is what I used to do.

765
01:00:16.320 --> 01:00:23.520
So it's process improvement basically through technical solutions. So business solutions,

766
01:00:23.520 --> 01:00:30.320
but plus all people's business problems by helping them get a computer to work for them.

767
01:00:30.320 --> 01:00:36.800
So it's less work for them. Yeah. I don't remember what do you do?

768
01:00:37.840 --> 01:00:43.440
Uh, well right now I work with HR and communications at like an oil service company. So

769
01:00:43.440 --> 01:00:49.680
it's, um, yeah, trying to, um, yeah, help them with strategy when it comes to like recruitment

770
01:00:49.680 --> 01:00:57.200
and employer branding and internal communications and yeah. So process work there too. But yeah.

771
01:01:01.280 --> 01:01:02.400
Oh, I didn't hear you. Sorry.

772
01:01:05.280 --> 01:01:11.200
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No. Yeah. So then I was working with processes with, uh, companies with high

773
01:01:11.200 --> 01:01:16.000
sick leave to like go in and look at their structures. Like what can we do on like an

774
01:01:16.000 --> 01:01:22.480
organizational level or on the management level or like individually, like what needs to change

775
01:01:22.480 --> 01:01:26.880
to like for people to have better working environment or for things to work so that

776
01:01:26.880 --> 01:01:31.360
their sick leave would be reduced, you know, and that they would save money, you know, cause it's

777
01:01:32.320 --> 01:01:40.400
expensive. Yeah. Well, it's good to see you and I will see you if not Thursday, I will see you

778
01:01:40.400 --> 01:01:47.680
next week. Yeah, for sure. Hopefully I'll see you Thursday. Yeah. Okay. Bye.