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Hey everyone, all right, so today we are going to be talking about, I had it turned to that

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page, I lost it, is know me that I may know God.

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And this is the second, basically the second step in the process.

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And remember that the first step is what we talked about last time, learning to be me

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with God is how I've titled it.

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And remember that that was all about how to first accept ourselves and God as we both

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are both God and ourselves and for ourselves, spirit, soul, and body as we are unconditionally,

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meaning that, and, and as I talked about, excuse me, last time, meaning that you're,

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you're accepting yourself and God without fully knowing everything that you're going

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to discover that you and he are.

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And by yourself, I'm talking about your spirit, your soul, and your body, all three aspects

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of yourself.

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You don't fully know who that is.

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You don't fully understand yourself.

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You haven't fully been exposed to all of yourself.

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And we definitely haven't been fully exposed to everything about God either.

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Right.

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And it's important that on this journey, in order to get to know, in order to get to this

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part where we know ourselves and know the Lord, the very first thing that we have to

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choose to do is to accept ourselves and God, whatever it is that we discover about it along

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the way that we're choosing to fully accept ourselves and him, excuse me, unconditionally.

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And remember what that is.

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That's faith.

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So we are removing conditions and limitations on what, on how, uh, and on how we're going

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to respond to God for ourselves.

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And that's very important.

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The reason that it's important to do first before we do the second thing that we're talking

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about today.

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So the reason I talked about that other thing first is that in order to know ourselves or

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to know God, we have to prove by choosing in faith to fully accept and receive without

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judgment.

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Whoever it is that we just will discover that God in this are, we have to fully choose to

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prove.

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We have to provide a safe place of unconditional acceptance in order for God or the different

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aspects of ourselves, spirit, soul, and body to reveal themselves because even God won't

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reveal himself fully to us until we have chosen to receive him by faith first, because

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remember what faith is.

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Sorry.

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It's so windy here.

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I hope that's not coming across on the microphone as remember what faith is.

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Faith is choosing to receive what God says about himself to be true and to be the reality

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in which we live and which our kingdom that we, that we have been given dominion over

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is going to operate by, and we're choosing to believe in, we're choosing that that is

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reality without us having any proof that the thing is true or that such and such is going

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to happen.

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Right.

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Or that God, that we've actually seen God manifest himself in that way.

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We've actually seen that truth manifest in that way.

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Remember we haven't seen that happen.

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And that's why it's called faith because it's choosing that what God said is true without

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actually having any evidence to found our choice in.

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It's just simply that we're choosing to found our choice in the fact that God said it, not

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that we have any evidence of it.

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So it's the same thing with ourselves.

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And what I'm going to be focusing on today is all about knowing ourselves that I may

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know God.

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And so we're going to be talking about how to know who, how to get to know ourselves

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at a deeper level than we ever have before, because, and, and the reason that that is

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how is how is important in order for us to also know who God is, is because there's,

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we are born of this very DNA and there's aspects of ourselves that meaning like to take yourself

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and divide it into different aspects.

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Those aspects express and reveal different things about God because you're born from

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him.

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I mean, your very DNA comes from him.

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And the fact that, and God reiterates this when he says, Hey, you know, you are new now,

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you are now new creatures.

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You are the new man.

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You are united with Christ.

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You are, as it, as it mentions in, um, Jane, oh, is it James one nine, is that right?

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As he is, so are we.

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So we have his very character as well.

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And so what God is maturing us into is teaching us.

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how to express in his character.

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And he's first gonna do that by revealing to us

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what his character is.

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So in other words, that character of his is your character.

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So we're needing to allow the different aspects of,

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we're needing to get to know ourselves.

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Now, remember, in order to reveal who it is that we are

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out into creation, in order to live like that,

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and as such, we're then going to be revealing who God is.

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And by revealing who God is,

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by actually seeing who it is that we are

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and connecting with that,

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it's an aspect of God that he,

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and like literally an aspect of God himself

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that he put in us and that is expressed in us.

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And by seeing those things,

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we then get to experience and see,

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oh, so that's who God is.

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We then get to know God better by knowing ourselves.

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And y'all may, well, I think that I mentioned this story,

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I think, I'm not sure.

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I think I mentioned this story several weeks ago

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when we had, we're talking in another session,

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but I'm just gonna, I'll repeat the story again,

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but just in case, that you look in your session notes,

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it says Psalm, excuse me, Psalm 139, 14.

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I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

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Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

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Well, you'll see in here that what I did

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is I put into brackets that I praise you

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because I am wonderfully and fearfully made.

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And the reason I did is that comes from a prophecy,

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a prophetic word that was spoken over me

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where my pastor had received prophetic words

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for two people in the church.

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And he said that that's very unusual.

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He doesn't receive a lot of prophetic words for people,

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but he received one for one man.

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And so we started talking to him.

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And then he said, and Ashley, way in the back.

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And even before he said it, I just felt,

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I knew all my word he's coming for me next.

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I just know it.

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And so the Lord was just preparing me for it.

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And so sure enough, he did.

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And he said, what the Lord told me to tell you is,

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he said, you have not, you have fought against yourself.

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You haven't liked who it is that you are.

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You haven't chosen to fully receive who it is that you are.

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And you're always looking at other people saying,

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oh, I wish I could be like that,

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or I wish I could be like that,

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or I wish I wasn't like this or whatever.

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And he said, you've been wanting to know God.

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And God tells you, is telling me to tell you

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to take the Bible verse,

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I am fearfully and wonderfully made,

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and to flip the fearfully and wonderfully

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and say, I am wonderfully and fearfully made.

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And to approach the Lord in that order.

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He said, because if you choose,

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and you, that you are wonderfully made,

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and you get, and you fully accept yourself,

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and begin to fully enjoy and get to know

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who it is that you are.

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He said, that will teach you by that,

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by you discovering who it is you are,

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you will then learn things about the Lord.

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And then you will begin, and then you will fear him.

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You know, in a positive aspect of fearing,

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not the negative aspect of fearing.

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You will appropriately fear the Lord,

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because you will learn about him,

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by learning about the thing that he created.

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and expresses an aspect of himself in the creation.

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So, so this is, so today we're talking

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about the second step in the process.

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The last step in the process is going to be

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what we'll be talking about next time,

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which is own yourself,

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or, you know, basically, you know, own myself.

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And so that'll be the third thing that we'll talk about,

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that you, that these things have to be done in order,

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or they won't, or you can't, you can't actually do them.

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They won't be effective.

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You can try to do them out of order.

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You can try to know yourself first,

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that you might know God,

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but without fully accepting yourself before you do it,

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and before you choose to fully accept the Lord

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for who it is that he is,

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unconditionally, not knowing fully yet

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what you're going to discover about himself or you,

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you won't fully get to not just know yourself and know God,

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but you won't, how do I put it?

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You won't be able to overcome if you jump in at this stage.

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You might get to know some things about yourself,

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and you might get to know some things about God,

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but you will not be able to actually effectively

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use this stage to overcome.

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You have to first do the,

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have to first be me with God, and you know what this is.

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This is the letting go.

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This is the letting go part of the process.

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And that has to happen first,

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before the truth can be revealed.

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in order to actually be effective, because that's the whole reason why we're doing this whole thing

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is to actually move into the freedom and the benefits that God says that he gave us,

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you know, as children. Now, I wanted to touch on this really quick. This, this brick wall,

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you know, here, talking about, remember, I'm always talking about the, the struggles that

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I've gone through that, that feel that I feel relate to whatever it is that, that we're talking

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about in the topic that's, that in that particular session. And here, what I,

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the struggle that I wanted to point out is, is, is that I thought that I was,

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well, let me just read this verse to you first and then, and then explain it. And hopefully that'll

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just make more sense if I do it that way. So Galatians 2, 4, it says, you know, at the bottom

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here, because some false believers have infiltrated our ranks to spy on the freedom

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we have in Christ Jesus and to make us slaves. So what Galatians is talking about here is that's

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when Paul is, is talking, he's talking to the Galatians about the fact that they have just,

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that they have struggled trying, trying to accept a different gospel. And Paul is getting onto them

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about it. He literally refers to it as, Hey, you were trying to choose a different gospel than the

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gospel that we have been preaching to you. And what is that different gospel? He goes on to explain,

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explains that that is a gospel of works that in other words, Christ did not finish everything on

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the cross. And there's still stuff you have to do, which again, puts you under the law,

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which makes you a slave again. And that's what this is referring to saying that our

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false believers have infiltrated our ranks to spy on the freedom that we received in the gospel

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of Jesus Christ and therefore to make us slaves. So to try to undermine that freedom that we now

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received through that gospel of Jesus Christ, and then to preach a different gospel saying

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that actually not everything has been finished. You still have stuff to do. God is still holding

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you accountable to all of these particular standards in order to be in order for you to

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be okay with him. And he said that that's wrong. So anyway, that this is how I defined

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who it is that I was. I thought I was resentful. How do I say that appropriately? I was resentful

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of the fact that being a Christian felt like I was being enslaved because I had taken on

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this thing that Paul is talking about here still happens today. People are infiltrating our ranks,

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believers and non-believers and spying on the freedom that we have in Christ and choosing to

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try to make people believe that they're actually still enslaved. And unfortunately,

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we do not need a lot of convincing that that's true. And it has infiltrated our churches and

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our homes to such an extent that it's very common. In fact, it's the most common approach that we

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take to the Lord is that it's through works, which is why Paul, even all of those, you know,

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couple of thousand years earlier had to speak so strongly against it. We have this propensity

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towards it because we've been under the law for literally thousands of years. We as people,

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you know, we as humanity, right? And I just felt that that was very, very, I just felt very

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oppressed by that, but very oppressed at being a Christian. And that I just felt, and I felt

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identified as that, but that is who I am. That is how I have to live. That's what's expected of me

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is I have to live according to all of these laws and all of these rules. And then all the

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non-Christians have it a lot easier, but a Christian who's supposed to experience this

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freedom that they say that I'm supposed to have in Christ, that God says I'm supposed to have in

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Christ. I'm actually not experiencing freedom. I don't know why he calls it freedom because it

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actually feels harder. It, it feels more depressing. It feels more joyless. So that is, I,

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the reason I bring up that one is that was a huge struggle for me because that is how I identified

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who I was taught as talking about today, knowing me that I may know God is, is the opposite

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of what I was struggling with. I didn't really know me and I was choosing

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to stifle who it is that I really was, not allowing.

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who it is that I really was the good, the bad, and the ugly to show itself, because

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I was just, I felt I was supposed to stifle that and be this other thing that God wanted

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me to be.

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And that this overcoming self was basically to kill myself.

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So it eventually die.

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And I'd be this other person, this other person that followed all these standards and

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all of these laws and all of these rules, et cetera, it was very, like I keep saying,

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it felt very oppressive.

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It created a tremendous, tremendous amount of resentment in me against the church, against

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authority, like the Christian authority against the Lord, because I thought that they were

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imposing all of this on me.

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There was always something more to do.

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spiritual authority, you know, who claimed to just be repeating what God was saying.

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I thought that they were just all saying, no, who it is that I really am is evil.

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I'm bad.

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I'm horrible.

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So I definitely don't want to get to know me.

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I don't want to let me out of the cell, because if I let myself out of the prison and out

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of the cell, in other words, if I let myself out of, out of the restraint that I've put

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myself under, I'm going to destroy myself and other people because I am a monster that

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has a propensity to destruction.

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To do all those horrible things, you know, to me and to others that you see on television

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that are all in the, in the physical prisons, et cetera.

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Not to mention all kinds of spiritual damage that I felt that I could do, that I felt that

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I must have a propensity towards, you know, anyway, and we have to just, and we have to

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realize, no, that is not who we are.

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And in order to do that, we also, and in order for our whole selves to be taken over by the

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new man, you know, including our soul and our body for all of those things to be taken

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over by the new man, we have to be honest about what our soul and our body are expressing

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right now.

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How, what are they, what unbeliefs are they struggling with?

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What do they really truly believe?

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What decisions are they really truly making in light of those lies, in light of those

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fears, in light of that anger, in light of that propensity to self-protection, self-preservation,

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you know, we have to allow who it is that we really are to be honest and to come up

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and out, but they won't come up and out.

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They will not come up and out including God himself, but we're not really talking about

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that right now, but none of these things, God, spirit, soul, or body will reveal themselves

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unless we, unless we provide a safe place of unconditional acceptance of who it is that

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they are.

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And then they will start to come out and then we give proving grounds, I guess what we,

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we prove to them that in how we interact with them, that we are not holding judgment against

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them, that we're not condemning them.

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How do we prove that?

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We don't condemn them.

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We don't judge them.

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We don't talk a good game.

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You actually can't do it to them.

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You can't judge yourself for thinking that thought.

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You can't condemn yourself for doing that thing.

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It doesn't mean that we're not saying that those things aren't sins.

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What we're saying is we are not in the place to be.

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We are not put in a position by God to judge it or to condemn it or just not.

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So anyway, in order for it to feel safe enough to come up and out, because it's not unless

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it comes up and out that it'll actually go away.

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and we need to stop actively stifling it.

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If we're not allowing it to come up, we're actively, actively stifling.

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So anyway, let me pull up my notes here and okay.

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So in getting to know ourselves, um, I wanted to remind you that, uh, of some scripture

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verses in which God talks about the fact that he knows us.

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In other words, we're seen, we're seen, we're acknowledged, we're honored, we're known as

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being unique, as being individual.

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visualistic, um, Sorry, all of a sudden I was about to go somewhere.

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verses about show you just all of a sudden left me, um, but anyway,

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we're, we're actually known.

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There's something in us that wants to be known.

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Oh, that's what I was going to say.

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That gives us then permission to, sorry, I didn't realize my

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things would be dingy.

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Uh, my tech be dingy.

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Um, we need to, if God knows us then, and he's not afraid of us, then that

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gives us permission by example, because God's done it himself, God always

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does everything for us first so that we then know by example, that we have

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permission to follow in those footsteps and follow in those same footsteps.

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If he fully loves and accepts and knows us, it gives us permission to then know

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because if he knows us and he's not threatened by what he knows and he can

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provide a safe place for us to be that thing, well, then we know that we can

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provide that safe place for ourselves as well.

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Here's what I mean.

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struggling with what it is that you're struggling with, right?

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sins, obvious effects of their sins.

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doing all of these things, right?

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But there are other things that other sins, there are other actions that we

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take on our sins, on our unbelief that are a lot quieter that we don't even

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realize about ourselves and those can evidence themselves as say something

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like, uh, jealousy, envy, fear, anger.

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feeling or experiencing, right?

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So, but we're still experiencing them just because we don't know that we

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are, doesn't mean that we're not right.

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So we're fully experiencing those things inside of ourselves while God knows it.

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Not just now, but for our whole lives, our whole lives that we've lived, not to

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mention everything that he knows that we're going to, right?

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And if he is fully accepting ourself, accepting us like that, and when we

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apologize and we, we repent to him of all of these things that we do know,

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but we haven't acknowledged or repented of all of these things that we don't

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know that we did and yet God meets with us and talks with us and blesses us and

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gives us gifts and gives us direction, et cetera.

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If he does that while knowing that we are struggling with the sins that we don't

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fully know that we're struggling with, if he can provide us a safe, fully,

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unconditionally accepting place to be with him while we're like that, we have

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them permission to fully accept ourselves nonjudgmentally being like that too.

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That's what God's been doing this whole time.

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So we have permission to do that for ourselves.

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We have been taught, we've been taught that you can't fully accept yourself

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because God doesn't accept who you are either.

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different aspects of yourself and reject different aspects of yourself and judge

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yourself and condemn yourself, even though these are such negative words that

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they wouldn't actually word it like that.

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They're saying, you can't accept those parts of yourself.

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You have to get onto yourself and be very hard and very strong.

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Because that's what God's doing.

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We've been learning.

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That is not what God's doing.

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And it is so obvious that that's how we all live, that God still allows bad

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things, people to do bad things and still loves and accepts them anyway.

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You see that with like drug addicts and homosexuals and, you know, people

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living a homosexual lifestyle and people who are acting out these hidden sins,

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hidden meaning like these, uh, these unbeliefs that they have about the Lord.

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They're acting them out in very obvious ways and God's allowing it to continue

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and very often continues to bless them and bless their relationships with other

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people and, and, um, helps them find love and pours out, uh, pours out abundance

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of opportunities and whatever to them.

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Because God reigns on the just and the unjust.

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It says that in Bible, God reigns on the just and the unjust.

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He's he's give why?

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Knowing what they're doing, allowing them to do that and be that with him.

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Then we can do that as well.

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It's not the same thing as accepting something, accepting

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something as if it's not a sin.

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You know, and giving it permission to continue.

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that you're not standing in judgment.

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embracing it and actively pursuing it or rejecting it, you're basically,

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basically just going to neutral.

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time that you have to do.

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When you do that, the, the things that have been hiding themselves

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will then reveal themselves.

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We'll start to show up.

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You'll start acting in ways that you haven't wanted to act.

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So you're going to start, you're providing a safe enough environment

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for them to start being, for them to start, um, uh, uh, revealing themselves,

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revealing how it is that your, your emotions will start revealing themselves.

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feeling, which are simply revealing what it is that you believe.

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when we allow them to come up and out.

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And the reason they're doing that is they feel safe enough to, and then that

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gives you the opportunity to, to prove by your, by your interaction with them.

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That you really are not judging them, that you really are fully conditioned,

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unconditionally accepting yourself and it making it, it meaning your, your soul

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or your body making those decisions while it's making up, you're fully accepting

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it, you're fully, you're, uh, you're not agreeing with what it's doing.

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the entity itself that is making those decisions.

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See what I'm saying?

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is fully loving and accepting ourselves, then we have permission to do the same thing.

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And okay.

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So I had to make sure that my computer was playing dance that wouldn't die on me.

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Um, so first of all, Jeremiah 1, 1, before I formed you in the womb, I knew you.

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And then of course we, we know the verse that we just read, you know, I, uh,

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let's just read it again.

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I am fear.

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I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

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Your works are wonderful.

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I know that full well.

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Um, and so God has made us wonderfully.

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He purposefully and intentionally made us the way they are, the way that we are.

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He knows who it is that we are.

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He taught tells Jeremiah before I formed you in the womb, I knew you the essence of

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who it is that you are is who knows, even before Jeremiah was created, even before he

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came into creation.

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It says that before I formed you in the womb, before you were a part of creation, I knew

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you.

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Um, let's see.

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And then I wanted, this is kind of an interesting passage to mention here, but it talks about

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the fact that God knows this.

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So I wanted to mention it.

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It's Galatians four, eight through nine, eight through nine.

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Formally, when you did not know God, you were slaves to those who by nature are not gods.

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But now that you know God or rather are known by God, how is it that you are turning back

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to those weak and miserable forces?

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So scripture is, is, um, is emphasizing there in Galatians four.

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Remember we talked about, um, Galatians, um, earlier as well.

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Um, talking about the fact that he was, Paul was talking to them about that new gospel

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that they were, uh, the gospel of works that they were struggling with and that they had

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been receiving.

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So again, later on in that passage or later on in that same book, he's talking about the

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fact that, Hey, you're struggling with this and how, how could you, and when you were

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struggling with all those things, you were, what does it say?

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It said, you were slaves to those who by nature are not gods.

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But now that you know, God, in other words, now that you've chosen this particular gospel,

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how is it that you're turning back to those weak and miserable forces and trying to put

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yourself under the law again?

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And when he talks about all of this, he refers to it as, but now that you know, God, you

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know, you become saved, you accept the gospel, et cetera.

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But he said, but now that you know, God, or rather, in other words, he corrects himself

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himself.

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So he's just emphasizing the fact that, Hey, God knows you.

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He knows who you are.

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are, and God's knowing of you, it's kind of a deep theological thing to mention, but God's

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knowing of you is what identifies you as you. So if he has, if he is our example, then it proves to

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us that we can do the same thing, that we can, that it's not a bad thing to fully love and accept

464
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yourself while you're in sin, if God did that too. Because remember that he died for us, which is the

465
00:30:30.560 --> 00:30:36.080
greatest love and greatest sacrifice that one can do is to die for someone. And he did that while

466
00:30:36.080 --> 00:30:43.120
we were yet sinners. So if he can do that, we can fully love and accept ourselves while we're still

467
00:30:43.120 --> 00:30:52.000
struggling with sin. And, and that's not, it's not a sin to not judge yourself and condemn yourself.

468
00:30:52.720 --> 00:31:04.320
Okay. Let's see. Okay. We're going to be talking about a couple of different things.

469
00:31:05.120 --> 00:31:10.640
We're talking about, about ways that you can get to know yourself. And when we talk about this,

470
00:31:10.640 --> 00:31:15.920
know that what you're, we're talking about knowing the good, the bad, and the ugly about yourself,

471
00:31:15.920 --> 00:31:23.680
allowing those good aspects of yourself to come up as well as not stifling yourself just because

472
00:31:23.680 --> 00:31:30.000
you see you're not, not stifling you experiencing the bad and the ugly in yourself as well.

473
00:31:30.000 --> 00:31:35.200
Because remember, those are just aspects of your flesh that are struggling in unbelief. It's not who

474
00:31:35.200 --> 00:31:39.120
you really are. They're not in your spirit. And remember that your spirit is who it is that you

475
00:31:39.120 --> 00:31:45.440
actually are. That's the seed of your identity. And so these quote unquote, bad things, these lies,

476
00:31:45.440 --> 00:31:54.880
these aspects of unbelief that you're experiencing are all those are just in aspects of unbelief in

477
00:31:54.880 --> 00:32:00.000
your flesh, which are those things that we inherited from the first Adam. And those aren't anything

478
00:32:00.000 --> 00:32:05.520
that you need to feel threatened by. You want to let those things up and out because if they don't

479
00:32:05.520 --> 00:32:11.680
come up, they won't ever go out and you will keep them. So if you don't want to keep them anymore,

480
00:32:11.680 --> 00:32:17.680
and you want to overcome in that specific area and transform those specific areas from flesh

481
00:32:17.680 --> 00:32:25.280
into spirit, then you have to let them come up and out. And I'm sorry. I think I'm, I think that

482
00:32:25.280 --> 00:32:31.600
there is a mosquito or something that has found me and buzzing around me trying to bite. Uh,

483
00:32:31.600 --> 00:32:34.800
so the first thing that, so we're going to be talking about two things that you can look at,

484
00:32:35.600 --> 00:32:42.800
at, um, at, uh, that you can look at in your life that will help you get to know yourself.

485
00:32:42.800 --> 00:32:48.560
And you need to allow these different asks. You need to fully face the truth at these different

486
00:32:48.560 --> 00:32:54.880
aspects of yourself. The first one is emotions. The second one is decisions. So basically your

487
00:32:54.880 --> 00:33:00.000
feelings and your actions. Sure. We could talk about thoughts as well, but I just figured that

488
00:33:00.000 --> 00:33:05.280
these would be, uh, uh, that this would just be a lot cleaner and more simple to talk about,

489
00:33:05.280 --> 00:33:13.600
um, at help to give you a place to start. Um, and okay. So for the emotions, remember that you can't

490
00:33:13.600 --> 00:33:24.000
truly know yourself unless you know, without knowing how you truly feel about a situation

491
00:33:24.480 --> 00:33:30.080
because you are internally responding, whether or not you acknowledge that to yourself.

492
00:33:30.080 --> 00:33:37.440
And it's important that you own yourself and that you be that, um, and in order,

493
00:33:37.440 --> 00:33:41.600
and that you rule your kingdom, cause you were your first, the first domain in your kingdom.

494
00:33:42.320 --> 00:33:48.720
And it is important that you truly know what you think and feel in a situation.

495
00:33:48.720 --> 00:33:55.360
In a situation. Um, and the reason that I talk specifically about feeling is because your,

496
00:33:55.360 --> 00:34:00.960
your emotions reveal to you what you truly believe your emotions are a thermometer.

497
00:34:00.960 --> 00:34:05.280
So they're not a thermostat. You're not supposed to necessarily change your emotions. You're

498
00:34:05.280 --> 00:34:09.679
supposed to change what your emotions are indicating to you. So your emotions are

499
00:34:09.679 --> 00:34:15.760
indicating what it is that you really believe. So if you're, if you're afraid, there's a reason

500
00:34:15.760 --> 00:34:20.880
that you're afraid you're believing something about a situation or a relationship or a person

501
00:34:20.880 --> 00:34:30.000
or whatever. And you're in your emotions are simply reflecting that. And your emotions are always,

502
00:34:30.000 --> 00:34:35.840
always accurate according to what it is you believe they're always telling you what you

503
00:34:35.840 --> 00:34:40.320
believe they are an absolute guaranteed indication of what it is you're believing.

504
00:34:40.320 --> 00:34:45.120
Now, it doesn't mean that what you're believing is true. So if you believe that you are

505
00:34:46.400 --> 00:34:52.239
in a threatening situation, or if you believe someone's those things badly about you,

506
00:34:52.239 --> 00:34:57.120
and you feel that way, it doesn't mean just because you feel that way that it's actually true.

507
00:34:57.760 --> 00:34:59.840
You know, so our feelings are not an.

508
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.360
Indication of the truth of what is happening, what they are an indication

509
00:35:06.560 --> 00:35:09.680
of is the truth of what you believe.

510
00:35:10.280 --> 00:35:15.880
It's not saying that what you believe is true about reality, but they, but

511
00:35:15.880 --> 00:35:22.440
your emotions are always truthfully expressing what you really do believe.

512
00:35:23.320 --> 00:35:29.320
And that lets you know by, by fully allowing yourself to engage with and

513
00:35:29.320 --> 00:35:32.920
interact with your emotions, you can truly get to know yourself.

514
00:35:33.600 --> 00:35:35.720
What is it that I truly am believing?

515
00:35:37.160 --> 00:35:40.800
Instead of thinking, oh, well, you know, experiencing fear.

516
00:35:40.840 --> 00:35:42.320
Oh, I just shouldn't be afraid.

517
00:35:42.760 --> 00:35:43.520
I shouldn't be afraid.

518
00:35:44.120 --> 00:35:46.360
No, or, you know, oh, I'm just so angry.

519
00:35:46.360 --> 00:35:47.840
I just, I shouldn't be angry.

520
00:35:48.200 --> 00:35:50.720
I'm just trying to like get rid of the emotion.

521
00:35:50.960 --> 00:35:54.200
That's not going to help you actually deal with the root issue of why it came up.

522
00:35:54.200 --> 00:35:58.080
So all you're going to do is you're just simply going to stifle it and you're

523
00:35:58.080 --> 00:36:03.440
going to continue to deal with that root issue of, of that your anger is coming

524
00:36:03.440 --> 00:36:06.720
from or your fear is coming from, and it literally will never get resolved.

525
00:36:07.600 --> 00:36:08.640
And it'll always just keep it.

526
00:36:08.640 --> 00:36:10.240
So you'll always just keep having to remind yourself.

527
00:36:10.240 --> 00:36:10.760
Don't get angry.

528
00:36:10.760 --> 00:36:11.320
Don't get angry.

529
00:36:11.320 --> 00:36:14.680
Don't get angry or, or stifling yourself or slapping yourself or condemning

530
00:36:14.680 --> 00:36:18.440
yourself or getting onto yourself, or just like, you know, buckling down

531
00:36:18.440 --> 00:36:24.000
and, and, uh, and being hard on yourself to just stop being like

532
00:36:24.000 --> 00:36:25.480
that, to stop feeling that.

533
00:36:25.840 --> 00:36:30.600
But what it is you're doing is you're numbing yourself to who it is that you

534
00:36:30.600 --> 00:36:33.720
really are to the point where your emotions won't come up because there'll

535
00:36:33.720 --> 00:36:36.920
be too afraid to reveal who it is that you are because you've taught them.

536
00:36:36.920 --> 00:36:39.720
Hey, no, no, I'm always going to stifle you.

537
00:36:39.920 --> 00:36:42.200
So you're teaching them what you want them to do.

538
00:36:42.240 --> 00:36:44.000
You want them to stay down.

539
00:36:45.360 --> 00:36:48.600
And then you don't get to know who it is that you really are, what it is.

540
00:36:48.600 --> 00:36:51.880
You really do feel what it is that you really do believe.

541
00:36:52.320 --> 00:36:55.840
And it's important that those things that you know, who you are,

542
00:36:56.800 --> 00:36:59.200
there's nothing wrong with you.

543
00:36:59.440 --> 00:37:03.000
It's important for you to know what it is that you feel and what it is that

544
00:37:03.000 --> 00:37:07.800
you think so that you can address and deal with the lies that you're believing

545
00:37:08.280 --> 00:37:10.120
and that you can actually change.

546
00:37:10.480 --> 00:37:14.240
But if you're always stifling it, then you won't ever change.

547
00:37:15.360 --> 00:37:18.080
Um, and I think that my internet might be having issues there.

548
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I hope it doesn't create too big of an issue with the, uh, with the recording.

549
00:37:22.120 --> 00:37:25.200
Um, let's see here.

550
00:37:25.240 --> 00:37:28.200
Oh, and something else that's very, uh, okay.

551
00:37:28.200 --> 00:37:29.680
Well, let me mention this real quick.

552
00:37:29.680 --> 00:37:33.640
Another thing about your emotions is that they reveal the true source and the

553
00:37:33.640 --> 00:37:36.720
reasons for your actions and your decisions.

554
00:37:38.440 --> 00:37:41.200
So the, you know, you brought your decisions and then you have the actions

555
00:37:41.200 --> 00:37:44.000
that are based off of those decisions, which is the second thing that we're

556
00:37:44.000 --> 00:37:45.880
going to be talking about, because right now we're talking about emotions.

557
00:37:45.880 --> 00:37:50.040
Then we're going to be talking about the decisions that you make and your

558
00:37:50.040 --> 00:37:52.600
emotions will reveal the true source.

559
00:37:53.560 --> 00:37:58.560
Of why you made a particular decision, why you did a specific action.

560
00:37:58.880 --> 00:38:01.560
In other words, why is your soul acting out like that?

561
00:38:01.800 --> 00:38:05.480
Why is your body acting out like that?

562
00:38:06.040 --> 00:38:11.320
Not just the things that it does, but like how it's responding health-wise,

563
00:38:11.760 --> 00:38:13.880
you know, do you have a lot of weight on you?

564
00:38:13.880 --> 00:38:15.320
Do you not have a lot of weight on you?

565
00:38:15.320 --> 00:38:16.720
Do you want to eat?

566
00:38:16.720 --> 00:38:19.920
Are you the exact opposite and don't want to eat at all?

567
00:38:19.920 --> 00:38:23.960
And you're, you know, you're anorexic, you know, your body will actually,

568
00:38:24.000 --> 00:38:28.440
your, your, your feelings and your emotions will reveal the source.

569
00:38:28.440 --> 00:38:30.560
In other words, the belief that you have.

570
00:38:31.040 --> 00:38:34.000
That is determining and driving the decisions that you make

571
00:38:34.000 --> 00:38:35.480
and then the actions that you take.

572
00:38:36.320 --> 00:38:41.040
So it's very important to get to know your emotions and here's what it means

573
00:38:41.040 --> 00:38:42.960
in order to, to know your emotions.

574
00:38:43.520 --> 00:38:45.800
You remember what emotions are?

575
00:38:45.920 --> 00:38:47.880
Emotions are feelings.

576
00:38:48.560 --> 00:38:52.720
So in order to know your emotions, you have to feel them.

577
00:38:53.360 --> 00:38:56.880
And I know that there are reasons why we don't want to feel things.

578
00:38:57.120 --> 00:39:02.840
We don't want to feel them because, um, either we're afraid of joy and

579
00:39:02.840 --> 00:39:08.760
happiness because it, we feel like it is, um, you know, it'll be taken away

580
00:39:08.760 --> 00:39:12.920
from us or that we don't want to feel negative emotions because we just,

581
00:39:12.920 --> 00:39:14.640
but we, we don't like the experience.

582
00:39:14.640 --> 00:39:17.440
We don't like the, unless someone's very masochistic or something,

583
00:39:17.720 --> 00:39:19.520
they don't want to feel pain.

584
00:39:20.280 --> 00:39:24.440
They don't, we don't want to feel, um, uh, you know, we

585
00:39:24.440 --> 00:39:25.680
don't want to feel discomfort.

586
00:39:25.720 --> 00:39:27.480
We don't want to feel insecurity.

587
00:39:27.480 --> 00:39:29.440
We don't want to feel loneliness or whatever.

588
00:39:30.000 --> 00:39:38.400
Um, so it's in order to actually, when your emotions come up and I

589
00:39:38.400 --> 00:39:43.920
say that you need to face them, you actually have to allow yourself to feel

590
00:39:43.920 --> 00:39:49.600
them as the only way that you're actually going to know that you feel that way.

591
00:39:50.000 --> 00:39:55.240
And what we'll be talking about later is in order for you to really know

592
00:39:55.240 --> 00:39:59.840
yourself and to let it go, is you have to feel it.

593
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.680
fully. You can't just feel part of it and be like, Oh my goodness. That's scary. You know?

594
00:40:05.680 --> 00:40:10.480
Okay. I feel, okay. I guess I can tell him a little angry. Okay. Oh, okay. I'm angry. I'm

595
00:40:10.480 --> 00:40:14.400
angry. I'll only let myself a little bit. Okay. I just need to deal with it in order for it to

596
00:40:14.400 --> 00:40:20.160
fully be dealt with. You have to allow it to, to, um, to come that you have to fill it to its

597
00:40:20.160 --> 00:40:26.080
fullness. And the reason is that filling its fullness is it coming up and that's why you're

598
00:40:26.080 --> 00:40:32.000
feeling it. You're feeling it build coming up and out to, to release into let go.

599
00:40:33.520 --> 00:40:38.960
Um, okay. This is really, uh, remember also that Jesus was emotionally honest.

600
00:40:39.520 --> 00:40:43.840
Remember in the garden of Gethsemane, he was emotionally honest. He was stressed to such a

601
00:40:44.880 --> 00:40:50.640
degree in the struggle that he was having that he was sweating, you know, drops of blood. So the,

602
00:40:50.640 --> 00:40:55.680
the, those thin little capillaries near his, um, sweat glands were bursting under the stress and

603
00:40:55.680 --> 00:41:01.520
the strain, and he was sweating the drops of blood. He was under that much struggle, um,

604
00:41:01.520 --> 00:41:06.960
between him and between, you know, his spirit and his flesh, you know, spirit is willing,

605
00:41:06.960 --> 00:41:14.560
but the flesh is weak. Um, and so Jesus was emotionally honest with God and neither God

606
00:41:14.560 --> 00:41:22.400
nor Jesus were threatened by Jesus's emotions because the emotions aren't bad. They're

607
00:41:22.400 --> 00:41:29.760
indicative of, of something underneath it. And so remember that Jesus just never gave into it.

608
00:41:29.760 --> 00:41:36.640
He left that aspect of his flesh. That was that he was born with member. He was born with, um,

609
00:41:37.840 --> 00:41:45.760
I see born with, he was born into a world in which flesh, including the stuff in his soul

610
00:41:45.760 --> 00:41:52.480
is subject to, uh, frustration. And that was due to the fact that of course the wages of sin is

611
00:41:52.480 --> 00:41:57.520
death. And so all of creation is experiencing the wages of sin, which is that it's flesh

612
00:41:57.520 --> 00:42:03.040
leading to nothing but death. And so Jesus had to transform all the aspects of his flesh,

613
00:42:03.760 --> 00:42:07.120
including all of those things that his emotions were based off of.

614
00:42:07.920 --> 00:42:14.560
Oh, he had to let them up and out and said, Hey, no, I'm not this thing. This, the flesh,

615
00:42:14.560 --> 00:42:20.080
this is its response. And I'm not holding onto it. I'm not going to allow this thing to stay.

616
00:42:20.080 --> 00:42:26.400
If it was soon as that thing, you know, uh, starts that struggle starts to come that anger is going

617
00:42:26.400 --> 00:42:33.040
to come up and out. So he allowed himself to fully feel those things in order to release it to the

618
00:42:33.040 --> 00:42:42.080
Lord. Um, and, uh, and remember, so also remember your emotions are not bad. There's nothing wrong

619
00:42:42.080 --> 00:42:46.800
with your emotions are indicative of something that you're believing about the Lord, but, or

620
00:42:46.800 --> 00:42:51.920
that you're, that you're believing is true, but your emotions themselves are not bad. So

621
00:42:51.920 --> 00:42:56.880
anger isn't bad. God is the one who created emotions. It doesn't create bad things.

622
00:42:58.000 --> 00:43:03.200
So you can have anger, you can have fear, you can have whatever they're not bad. They're just

623
00:43:03.200 --> 00:43:09.600
telling you something. It's a form of communication, but they themselves aren't bad. So

624
00:43:09.600 --> 00:43:16.080
think of, think of emotions like this. Emotions are God's built in way of communicating something

625
00:43:16.080 --> 00:43:24.160
to you. So don't, don't reject them. They're, they're a beautiful way in which God is trying

626
00:43:24.160 --> 00:43:29.520
to communicate something to you. He's trying to tell you the truth. It's like, this is what's

627
00:43:29.520 --> 00:43:35.760
going on. This is what you're believing. You know, this is what you haven't accepted or whatever.

628
00:43:36.640 --> 00:43:42.560
So think it, so your emotions are a way in which God is communicating something to you that you

629
00:43:42.560 --> 00:43:49.920
have the opportunity to face because it's always an invitation by God to see that an area in which

630
00:43:49.920 --> 00:43:56.480
you're in bondage and to invite you, wouldn't you like to be free? So if you'd like to be free,

631
00:43:56.480 --> 00:44:03.920
you now see this emotion, let that thing up and out instead of stifling it. And then, and yeah,

632
00:44:04.880 --> 00:44:12.320
in order to move into the freedom that the Lord has for you. Okay. Just going to mention some,

633
00:44:14.720 --> 00:44:23.920
and I didn't really know how to, how to kind of categorize this, but think of it as kind of

634
00:44:24.000 --> 00:44:35.600
some signs and some, some, some signs and symptoms that can give you a, I don't know,

635
00:44:35.600 --> 00:44:44.160
just kind of like talk to you about, or give you a bit of a direction of, about, sorry,

636
00:44:44.160 --> 00:44:50.320
I'm having a hard time articulating this, but give you a bit of direction of where you can find

637
00:44:50.880 --> 00:44:58.640
where you're struggling with how you interact with your emotions or how your body, your emotion,

638
00:44:59.200 --> 00:44:59.920
you are, are,

639
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.600
are not accepting your emotions.

640
00:45:02.600 --> 00:45:06.600
And so that is when you feel too much or when you feel too little.

641
00:45:06.600 --> 00:45:10.560
So let's first talk about feeling too much.

642
00:45:10.560 --> 00:45:16.520
If you are easily overwhelmed, it means you are feeling a lot.

643
00:45:16.520 --> 00:45:21.680
It means that you emotionally are holding what this is what I mean by that.

644
00:45:21.680 --> 00:45:27.200
I mean that you're emotionally holding on to too much and it's bottling and it's not

645
00:45:27.200 --> 00:45:32.440
coming up and out, but you're feeling a lot and you're holding it in.

646
00:45:32.440 --> 00:45:35.880
It's not going down and it's not going out.

647
00:45:35.880 --> 00:45:41.580
You're just it's it's a little bit like I think of it like what happens when you detox.

648
00:45:41.580 --> 00:45:46.720
When you detox, remember that your that the toxins get released from like fat cells and

649
00:45:46.720 --> 00:45:53.920
places it's been stored and then it drops it if if and then it puts it into the I remember

650
00:45:53.920 --> 00:45:55.880
I think I remember this correctly.

651
00:45:55.880 --> 00:45:58.920
I mean like the order in which this happens instead of going to that.

652
00:45:58.920 --> 00:46:04.320
I think that in order to get to the digestive tract, it has to go into the bloodstream first

653
00:46:04.320 --> 00:46:05.320
if I remember right.

654
00:46:05.320 --> 00:46:10.120
So it gets dumped into the bloodstream and if it can't get out of the bloodstream through

655
00:46:10.120 --> 00:46:16.160
the colon or through this wet glands fast enough the toxins sit in the bloodstream until

656
00:46:16.160 --> 00:46:21.400
the body can then grab it and then like re-restore it as fat, you know, and the whole point of

657
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:26.080
like storing it as fat is it neutralizes toxin it'll hike hide it in a fat cell and

658
00:46:26.080 --> 00:46:30.880
then keep it from being accessed and that's that acts like a buffer and keeps it from

659
00:46:30.880 --> 00:46:34.320
being accessed and therefore keeps it from poisoning the body.

660
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:40.920
So anyway, if the talk while the toxins though don't have anywhere to go and they're just

661
00:46:40.920 --> 00:46:45.200
like stuck they're not going out and then they're not being stored either.

662
00:46:45.200 --> 00:46:46.520
In other words, they're not being stifled.

663
00:46:46.520 --> 00:46:50.040
They're just sitting in the bloodstream and it's the same way our emotions are.

664
00:46:50.040 --> 00:46:52.880
They're just sitting there and you feel sick.

665
00:46:52.880 --> 00:46:58.120
So if y'all have gone through any if any like major detox program or whatever, you'll know

666
00:46:58.120 --> 00:47:04.200
that when you go through detox, it will sometimes feel like you have the flu and it and certain

667
00:47:04.200 --> 00:47:09.180
detox programs will tell you hey, look at this happen start backing off on the amount

668
00:47:09.180 --> 00:47:16.120
of the detox like I don't know not a medicine and not a potion but you know, it be is to

669
00:47:16.120 --> 00:47:23.560
stop it decrease and back off on the amount that that is that you've been given in order

670
00:47:23.560 --> 00:47:26.080
to trigger a detox back off on the dosage.

671
00:47:26.080 --> 00:47:31.020
So I'm trying to say is the dosage because it's saying that your body is trying to it's

672
00:47:31.020 --> 00:47:36.880
it's been triggering your body to detox too fast or you have too much to detox and then

673
00:47:36.880 --> 00:47:38.120
it's bringing too much too fast.

674
00:47:38.120 --> 00:47:43.360
So let's say hey in order to allow your body to detox without you feeling so bad and without

675
00:47:43.360 --> 00:47:47.560
releasing all that poison into your bloodstream to sit and to affect you.

676
00:47:47.560 --> 00:47:53.600
Hey, let's let's just slow down the let's slow down the process a bit same thing with

677
00:47:53.600 --> 00:47:59.860
our emotions if you are feeling emotionally over if you were feeling overwhelmed too easily

678
00:47:59.860 --> 00:48:04.720
by things and you may not even know why especially if women were just like well, I say that you

679
00:48:04.720 --> 00:48:09.320
know, I suppose men to you can just feel overwhelmed and you're not and you look at your situation

680
00:48:09.320 --> 00:48:10.320
you're going.

681
00:48:10.320 --> 00:48:11.320
I don't know.

682
00:48:11.640 --> 00:48:18.160
Why is today any different or you know, sure I have was one extra thing to do or that someone

683
00:48:18.160 --> 00:48:22.320
asked me to do this one extra thing and I just can't take what an extra thing it just

684
00:48:22.320 --> 00:48:23.320
it's just too much.

685
00:48:23.320 --> 00:48:28.600
But if you really think about it, you're you don't know why like why would that be overwhelming?

686
00:48:28.600 --> 00:48:31.280
It's all it's going to take up is one hour.

687
00:48:31.280 --> 00:48:32.280
Do I have an hour?

688
00:48:32.280 --> 00:48:37.320
Yes, but just I just feel emotionally just overwhelmed or mentally overwhelmed.

689
00:48:37.320 --> 00:48:43.800
It means that we are emotionally holding on to too many things all at once and not

690
00:48:43.800 --> 00:48:49.160
properly dealing with them when meaning we're not properly facing them and dealing with

691
00:48:49.160 --> 00:48:51.680
them and releasing them.

692
00:48:51.680 --> 00:48:54.200
We're also not stifling them either.

693
00:48:54.200 --> 00:48:58.520
We're not like just bearing down on them and just overcome and not overcoming them but

694
00:48:58.520 --> 00:49:04.720
like squishing and down and stopping them, but you're not letting them out either.

695
00:49:04.720 --> 00:49:06.520
And so they're just in this stuck position.

696
00:49:06.520 --> 00:49:12.320
So that's an indication that there are some things about what it is that's going that

697
00:49:12.320 --> 00:49:15.400
that you about your emotions that you're not dealing with.

698
00:49:15.400 --> 00:49:18.800
It can indicate to you that you have emotions that you're not dealing with because you're

699
00:49:18.800 --> 00:49:23.800
not letting them up and out or you're just feeding on them.

700
00:49:23.800 --> 00:49:27.120
You're looking at them and maybe you can even articulate what's going on, but you're not

701
00:49:27.120 --> 00:49:28.640
dealing with them.

702
00:49:28.640 --> 00:49:33.680
You're not you're not choosing to let them go so you're keeping them but you're not stifling

703
00:49:33.680 --> 00:49:34.680
them either.

704
00:49:34.680 --> 00:49:39.320
So you're still feel them and then it and then so you add one more drop to the top of

705
00:49:39.320 --> 00:49:44.000
the glass or you add one straw to the camel's back and boom, you just can't handle anymore.

706
00:49:44.000 --> 00:49:45.000
Right?

707
00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:50.440
And but but when you can't handle them anymore, you then act out because you're still not

708
00:49:50.440 --> 00:49:53.440
choosing to release it.

709
00:49:53.440 --> 00:49:58.120
You're just exploding, but you still keep all of those emotions because you're not properly

710
00:49:58.120 --> 00:49:59.120
dealing with it.

711
00:49:59.120 --> 00:50:00.120
So feeling

712
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.840
So sometimes when you're feeling a lot, that can be an indication or like, I don't know

713
00:50:06.840 --> 00:50:09.240
how do I put that?

714
00:50:09.240 --> 00:50:11.120
If you're feeling overwhelmed, let me just word it that way.

715
00:50:11.120 --> 00:50:15.440
If you're feeling overwhelmed, it can be indicative that you have a lot of emotions that are,

716
00:50:15.440 --> 00:50:18.240
that you're not properly dealing with.

717
00:50:18.240 --> 00:50:20.800
You're holding onto too much at the same time.

718
00:50:20.800 --> 00:50:27.960
And, or if you're not, if you're feeling too little, if you're, if you, and signs of this

719
00:50:27.960 --> 00:50:30.960
can be things like you're having, you have a hard time celebrating.

720
00:50:30.960 --> 00:50:33.000
We've been talking about that actually.

721
00:50:33.000 --> 00:50:36.600
And if you have a hard time celebrating, if you have a hard time feeling joy, allowing

722
00:50:36.600 --> 00:50:45.440
yourself to feel joy, or even if you know that you, some people are in certain times,

723
00:50:45.440 --> 00:50:52.300
maybe something doesn't, you have such a hard time celebrating things that even when something

724
00:50:52.300 --> 00:50:55.840
good happens, you don't get that excited about it.

725
00:50:55.840 --> 00:51:03.200
You don't feel very hopeful about life and something and you, and you don't, sorry, trying

726
00:51:03.200 --> 00:51:11.280
to figure out how to articulate this and it felt like I'm struggling a bit, things, good

727
00:51:11.280 --> 00:51:12.480
things happening.

728
00:51:12.480 --> 00:51:20.240
Don't trigger enough of an excitement and anticipation celebration, a joy or a happiness

729
00:51:20.240 --> 00:51:21.240
in you.

730
00:51:21.240 --> 00:51:23.920
You just simply don't feel it.

731
00:51:24.000 --> 00:51:27.720
You don't mean to, to be stifling anything.

732
00:51:27.720 --> 00:51:30.520
You don't mean to not be celebrating, but you just don't feel it.

733
00:51:30.520 --> 00:51:35.280
It's like, I don't know, this doesn't feel that exciting to me, you know, or whatever.

734
00:51:35.280 --> 00:51:39.240
Stuff like that can be an indication that you're stifling things that, and that you've

735
00:51:39.240 --> 00:51:46.000
done it for so long that now your joy doesn't come up.

736
00:51:46.000 --> 00:51:52.000
Even when it's being provided with a trigger, like a good trigger, it has a good prompt

737
00:51:52.080 --> 00:51:54.080
and it just doesn't show up.

738
00:51:54.080 --> 00:51:57.320
Sorry that all of these huge nets, you know, it's fall.

739
00:51:57.320 --> 00:52:00.720
So all these huge nets are, Oh, falling off the tree.

740
00:52:00.720 --> 00:52:05.040
And I think, I think it's because the squirrel up there is very busy.

741
00:52:05.040 --> 00:52:10.400
He's harvesting for the winter, I guess.

742
00:52:10.400 --> 00:52:16.800
So it can show that you're stifling and either denial, like not like you don't think that

743
00:52:16.800 --> 00:52:21.920
good things are going to happen or that it really is a good thing or stifling and self-protection.

744
00:52:22.560 --> 00:52:28.400
So you can either be actively doing that and not allowing yourself to celebrate and have

745
00:52:28.400 --> 00:52:32.080
joy because you're concerned that, Oh my goodness, I'm just, what if I'm just waiting for the

746
00:52:32.080 --> 00:52:39.360
other shoe to drop or the, or the gauntlet to it, but there's another phrase for that.

747
00:52:39.920 --> 00:52:47.200
But, but this can also mean that sometimes you can experience the fact that you're not,

748
00:52:48.000 --> 00:52:54.240
that when you have all of the right promptings and circumstances, your natural response is not

749
00:52:54.240 --> 00:53:00.960
joy. It's like, it's not like you're, you're just not wanting to get too excited. It's that

750
00:53:00.960 --> 00:53:07.440
you can't even try to get excited. You can't get excited. Even when you try kind of a thing,

751
00:53:07.440 --> 00:53:11.840
that's an indication that there's that you have a long-term habit of stifling

752
00:53:12.320 --> 00:53:19.360
and, and hiding aspects of yourself. Also, if you have a difficult time receiving,

753
00:53:19.360 --> 00:53:26.560
you have a difficult time receiving love from people, gifts, compliments, good things,

754
00:53:27.120 --> 00:53:32.960
or going to the negative. If you have a difficult time acknowledging just how bad something is,

755
00:53:32.960 --> 00:53:41.200
how bad a past trauma was, how bad something affected you when your mom or your dad or your,

756
00:53:41.280 --> 00:53:49.440
or your coworker or your sibling or your, your, your husband or your boyfriend or your whatever,

757
00:53:50.320 --> 00:54:00.320
or even God, not acknowledging how much it hurt, how much, how it affected you,

758
00:54:00.320 --> 00:54:04.480
and just trying to brush it off the, Oh, I should forgive. I should forget without fully

759
00:54:04.480 --> 00:54:11.760
acknowledging it first, how it affected you. That is an, is another indication that you are

760
00:54:11.760 --> 00:54:17.280
stifling things that, and you're not allowing yourself to know who it is. You are not allowing

761
00:54:17.280 --> 00:54:22.160
yourself to face who it is. You are when you don't know or face who it is that you are,

762
00:54:22.160 --> 00:54:31.200
then you stay enslaved. So remember that you can only experience that you can only experience.

763
00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:37.200
I know that this might sound surprising, but because some people just feel like they experience

764
00:54:37.200 --> 00:54:41.760
so much pain all the time, and they're just filled so overwhelmed by the pain and they don't feel

765
00:54:41.760 --> 00:54:47.760
that they have enough joy and happiness. I know that what I'm about to say might sound surprising,

766
00:54:47.760 --> 00:54:56.640
but what's actually true is that you can only, that when you're trying, when you stifle emotions,

767
00:54:56.640 --> 00:54:59.040
when you're trying to stifle any emotion, like say for instance,

768
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.100
Anger, fear, purity, whatever, when you try to stifle it, you're stifling emotion.

769
00:55:06.100 --> 00:55:08.680
You're not stifling that emotion.

770
00:55:08.680 --> 00:55:11.960
You're stifling feeling altogether.

771
00:55:11.960 --> 00:55:17.300
We think that we can, that we can just stifle feeling the negative things and we can allow

772
00:55:17.300 --> 00:55:18.940
ourselves to feel all the positive.

773
00:55:18.940 --> 00:55:21.720
You can't, it's not how it works.

774
00:55:21.720 --> 00:55:27.240
When you stifle something and when you don't allow the fullness, if you don't allow yourself

775
00:55:27.240 --> 00:55:34.320
to fully reveal who it is that you are, then all of you get stifled.

776
00:55:34.320 --> 00:55:37.900
You're stifling emotion, not an emotion.

777
00:55:37.900 --> 00:55:44.040
We think we're stifling an emotion, a particular one, and really you're stifling emotion, period.

778
00:55:44.040 --> 00:55:51.400
You're stifling your ability to feel and you're not allowing your body or your soul, not allowing

779
00:55:51.400 --> 00:55:56.680
it to fully express itself and to just show up as it is and what it's dealing with, and

780
00:55:56.680 --> 00:55:59.880
which again, proves that we're not in a safe place for it.

781
00:55:59.880 --> 00:56:05.480
Because if we don't deal with it, if our spirit doesn't deal with it, it has to, meaning like

782
00:56:05.480 --> 00:56:09.200
the soul and the body has to, and the body doesn't know how to deal with those types

783
00:56:09.200 --> 00:56:10.200
of things.

784
00:56:10.200 --> 00:56:16.800
So it usually, especially for anything negative, goes into sickness.

785
00:56:16.800 --> 00:56:17.800
Let's see.

786
00:56:17.800 --> 00:56:18.800
Okay.

787
00:56:18.800 --> 00:56:28.160
So basically you can only experience, you experience all emotions to the same degree.

788
00:56:28.160 --> 00:56:35.200
So if you don't allow yourself to experience and to face pain, you won't be able to allow

789
00:56:35.200 --> 00:56:44.360
yourself to fully experience joy, et cetera, because you're stifling emotion, period.

790
00:56:44.920 --> 00:56:54.640
Kind of like, and I don't mean we're going to be like this when we allow our emotions

791
00:56:54.640 --> 00:56:57.560
to finally come up and out and to actually face them.

792
00:56:57.560 --> 00:57:06.640
But what it reminds me of is it reminds me of creatives that feel a lot, that have a

793
00:57:06.640 --> 00:57:12.360
lot of emotions, and they're way up and then they're way down and whatever.

794
00:57:12.360 --> 00:57:19.360
So think of what I'm talking about as, as like manifesting or picturing yourself.

795
00:57:19.360 --> 00:57:20.360
Okay.

796
00:57:20.360 --> 00:57:21.360
I'm sorry.

797
00:57:21.360 --> 00:57:29.160
I'm, I was, sorry, I was, a new text came in.

798
00:57:29.160 --> 00:57:34.560
I don't usually have all of these texts, but a new text come in and it had the name of

799
00:57:34.560 --> 00:57:40.320
someone that is in one of my programs, but it just happened to it, but they weren't talking

800
00:57:40.320 --> 00:57:41.720
about that person, but I thought they were.

801
00:57:42.080 --> 00:57:43.080
Oh my word.

802
00:57:43.080 --> 00:57:47.200
So many of my programs is going through a major problem.

803
00:57:47.200 --> 00:57:50.160
It wasn't, it was somebody else who shares the same name that makes me feel better.

804
00:57:50.160 --> 00:57:51.160
Okay.

805
00:57:51.160 --> 00:57:52.160
Sorry.

806
00:57:52.160 --> 00:57:53.160
That's why it caught me off guard for a second.

807
00:57:53.160 --> 00:57:54.160
I was like, wait a minute.

808
00:57:54.160 --> 00:57:55.160
I'm here talking to people in this program.

809
00:57:55.160 --> 00:57:59.160
And there was a, there was a text, but totally different person.

810
00:57:59.160 --> 00:58:04.440
So now I completely forgot I was talking about, oh, but yeah, creative.

811
00:58:04.440 --> 00:58:10.320
So anyway, maybe that'll give you a picture of, of how, of how we can actually see that

812
00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:15.680
this is that this is true that you're, when you stifle and emotion, you actually stifling

813
00:58:15.680 --> 00:58:22.560
all emotions because you have to be able to allow yourself to fully feel.

814
00:58:22.560 --> 00:58:28.000
And whenever you fully feel, you'll fully feel pain, you'll fully feel joy, fully, fully

815
00:58:28.000 --> 00:58:33.720
feel whatever, but understand that the, and this is what we're going to talk about next

816
00:58:33.720 --> 00:58:37.080
is what to do when you fully feel all those things.

817
00:58:37.080 --> 00:58:41.600
And in other words, how to change when you fully, we can be very afraid of fully feeling

818
00:58:41.600 --> 00:58:48.560
and facing how angry that we are, because we don't want what we think that that's going

819
00:58:48.560 --> 00:58:51.040
to mean our about ourselves to be true.

820
00:58:51.040 --> 00:58:52.040
You know?

821
00:58:52.040 --> 00:58:53.040
Oh my goodness.

822
00:58:53.040 --> 00:58:57.200
You know, I'm in that much sin or I'm in that much, whatever that I, that my emotions are

823
00:58:57.200 --> 00:59:00.680
showing that my unbelief is to that degree.

824
00:59:00.680 --> 00:59:06.120
And I don't want to believe that about myself and that can, we can not want that.

825
00:59:06.160 --> 00:59:17.400
And we can also not want our, we can also not want to actually feel the discomfort and

826
00:59:17.400 --> 00:59:27.480
the pain of that, of anger or of, you know, of fear or, or disappointment or betrayal

827
00:59:27.480 --> 00:59:28.480
or whatever.

828
00:59:28.480 --> 00:59:35.720
I think there was one other thing I thought of just now while I was saying that one, oh,

829
00:59:35.720 --> 00:59:39.320
we don't want to have to deal with it.

830
00:59:39.320 --> 00:59:46.120
We feel that the more that we feel something, the more intensely that we feel it, it's going

831
00:59:46.120 --> 00:59:54.200
to require more effort from us to deal with while F we nip it in the bed quick.

832
00:59:54.200 --> 00:59:57.640
Well, then we don't have to deal.

833
00:59:57.640 --> 00:59:59.880
It's, it's easier to deal with.

834
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.480
Don't take as much exertion and effort on our part.

835
01:00:02.480 --> 01:00:06.720
If we nip it in the bed quick, then if we let it, let ourselves fully feel it.

836
01:00:07.120 --> 01:00:12.480
Remember that when I'm saying that, that we need to allow

837
01:00:12.480 --> 01:00:15.680
ourselves to fully feel something.

838
01:00:16.240 --> 01:00:22.960
I'm not saying that, um, that you feed on it.

839
01:00:23.760 --> 01:00:27.840
What I'm saying is, and this is about what we're about to talk about is you're

840
01:00:27.840 --> 01:00:34.720
letting the fullness of what it is build to the point where it actually goes away,

841
01:00:35.280 --> 01:00:37.120
where you actually let it go.

842
01:00:37.120 --> 01:00:39.600
So it's no longer inside of you.

843
01:00:39.600 --> 01:00:45.040
And it begins to actually, and the important thing about that is it will

844
01:00:45.040 --> 01:00:48.960
begin to help you deal with the root cause of that emotion.

845
01:00:48.960 --> 01:00:50.480
That's really what you're doing.

846
01:00:50.480 --> 01:00:53.360
When you're allowing the fullness of that emotion to come up,

847
01:00:53.360 --> 01:00:56.720
there is a way in which you're indirectly addressing.

848
01:00:57.760 --> 01:00:58.080
Sorry.

849
01:00:58.080 --> 01:01:00.160
I wish, let me see if I can.

850
01:01:00.160 --> 01:01:01.920
Oh, sorry.

851
01:01:01.920 --> 01:01:04.880
I was going to see if maybe I could, I can't, sorry.

852
01:01:04.880 --> 01:01:05.920
I don't know how to turn.

853
01:01:06.640 --> 01:01:12.960
Um, I don't know how to turn off my, uh, text so that they stopped dinging, um,

854
01:01:12.960 --> 01:01:13.920
on the, on the call.

855
01:01:13.920 --> 01:01:15.120
So I apologize.

856
01:01:15.120 --> 01:01:20.400
But anyway, um, when you're indirectly, when you're allowing those emotions to,

857
01:01:20.400 --> 01:01:26.960
to fully come up and to express themselves, there's an aspect of your, um, of your

858
01:01:26.960 --> 01:01:30.160
unbelief that you are indirectly addressing.

859
01:01:31.840 --> 01:01:38.400
You don't know that always what it is that you're doing, but you're setting your by

860
01:01:38.400 --> 01:01:43.760
fully facing who it is that you are in fully accepting yourself unconditionally,

861
01:01:43.760 --> 01:01:48.320
while you're making those, while you're making those particular choices of

862
01:01:48.320 --> 01:01:52.480
unbelief and feeling, and your feelings are indicating that and all of that.

863
01:01:53.360 --> 01:01:57.920
If you fully accept yourself while you're doing it, your body will then realize,

864
01:01:57.920 --> 01:01:58.480
oh, okay.

865
01:01:58.480 --> 01:02:01.280
So you re I really am a safe place with you.

866
01:02:01.280 --> 01:02:02.800
You really are a safe place for me.

867
01:02:03.600 --> 01:02:09.520
Therefore I can revert back to in default back to the original state in which God made me

868
01:02:09.520 --> 01:02:10.640
in which I'm perfect.

869
01:02:10.640 --> 01:02:12.480
And I don't need to fear.

870
01:02:12.480 --> 01:02:13.920
I don't need to be afraid.

871
01:02:13.920 --> 01:02:15.120
I don't need to be angry.

872
01:02:15.120 --> 01:02:17.120
I'm naturally not threatened.

873
01:02:17.120 --> 01:02:22.800
And you're proving that to me by being, by me being safe with you while I'm struggling

874
01:02:22.800 --> 01:02:27.440
with that, actually being a truth or whatever, you know?

875
01:02:28.160 --> 01:02:33.120
Um, so anyway, and if y'all have questions about that, let me know when we're on our

876
01:02:33.120 --> 01:02:35.120
next, um, what do you call it?

877
01:02:35.120 --> 01:02:36.560
We're on our next step.

878
01:02:36.560 --> 01:02:37.760
Oh, this is what I can do.

879
01:02:37.760 --> 01:02:38.240
I guess.

880
01:02:39.680 --> 01:02:43.280
Um, when we're on our next call, uh, okay.

881
01:02:44.080 --> 01:02:44.400
Yeah.

882
01:02:44.400 --> 01:02:45.120
I remember.

883
01:02:45.120 --> 01:02:45.360
Okay.

884
01:02:46.640 --> 01:02:49.120
I think, I think I got it to stop to eat.

885
01:02:50.480 --> 01:02:50.720
Okay.

886
01:02:50.720 --> 01:02:52.240
But let me pull my notes back up.

887
01:02:52.240 --> 01:02:53.360
So I apologize about that.

888
01:02:53.360 --> 01:02:53.600
Okay.

889
01:02:53.600 --> 01:02:58.400
So now how to actually stop and it still didn't do it.

890
01:02:58.400 --> 01:02:59.280
That's such a bummer.

891
01:02:59.920 --> 01:03:08.160
Um, how to stop, how to, how to change, how to basically overcome and how to get to know

892
01:03:08.160 --> 01:03:17.200
yourself and process through all of these emotions, you know, um, because we've, there's

893
01:03:17.200 --> 01:03:20.480
reason why we haven't allowed ourselves to fully feel them is because we're too afraid

894
01:03:20.480 --> 01:03:21.920
of what's going to happen when we do.

895
01:03:21.920 --> 01:03:25.120
So the very first thing that we need to stop that we need to do is what we talked about

896
01:03:25.120 --> 01:03:29.200
last time is we need to stop denying or wishing away how we really feel.

897
01:03:30.480 --> 01:03:33.520
So you chosen that you're fully going to accept yourself unconditionally.

898
01:03:33.520 --> 01:03:34.160
Regardless.

899
01:03:34.720 --> 01:03:36.640
Now the rubber meets the road.

900
01:03:37.200 --> 01:03:42.960
You've got a feeling that either that needs to come up or has already come up and you

901
01:03:42.960 --> 01:03:48.960
have to not judge yourself or judge your, your body or judge your soul.

902
01:03:48.960 --> 01:03:53.600
Meaning like, think that they're bad, you know, and that they're evil and they just

903
01:03:53.600 --> 01:03:54.800
need to cut it out.

904
01:03:54.800 --> 01:04:00.560
And that they're this, you're this disrespectful and disobedient child or, or whatever you

905
01:04:00.560 --> 01:04:06.800
need to actually love and accept it in those moments, even while you're afraid.

906
01:04:06.800 --> 01:04:10.320
And it meaning like love and accept yourself, even while you're in those moments.

907
01:04:11.440 --> 01:04:14.000
So stop denying or wishing away how you really feel.

908
01:04:14.000 --> 01:04:18.640
Remember what we've talked about, you know, including, you know, even in faith, you can't

909
01:04:18.640 --> 01:04:22.000
actually address something if you're denying that is even existing.

910
01:04:22.000 --> 01:04:22.240
Right.

911
01:04:22.880 --> 01:04:23.920
So don't deny it.

912
01:04:23.920 --> 01:04:25.200
That's going to stifle it.

913
01:04:25.920 --> 01:04:28.800
And it's not allow you're going to face, it's not going to allow you to face it.

914
01:04:28.800 --> 01:04:30.320
And then you're not going to be able to let it go.

915
01:04:30.960 --> 01:04:37.600
Um, for an example, and I'm, and I'm using an extreme one on purpose so that we understand,

916
01:04:38.160 --> 01:04:39.680
you know, how far this goes.

917
01:04:40.400 --> 01:04:47.520
If you're repulsed by, or don't trust someone that you meet or are friends with, accept

918
01:04:47.520 --> 01:04:51.840
yourself and, and accept the fact that that's how you feel.

919
01:04:52.880 --> 01:04:59.920
Remember when I say, except I'm talking about be a safe place of not judging yourself.

920
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.280
self while you feel that way.

921
01:05:03.280 --> 01:05:05.260
You're not saying that it's good to feel that way.

922
01:05:05.260 --> 01:05:09.260
You're not saying that it's based in reality about that person being bad.

923
01:05:09.260 --> 01:05:12.980
We're not saying that we quote unquote should or shouldn't feel that way.

924
01:05:12.980 --> 01:05:17.460
You're not, you're, you're releasing any should or shouldn'ts.

925
01:05:17.460 --> 01:05:20.820
You're not saying it should be like this or it shouldn't be like that.

926
01:05:20.820 --> 01:05:29.100
It just, you're accepting the fact that this is how I feel and this is what I'm experiencing.

927
01:05:29.100 --> 01:05:31.480
This is how I'm responding.

928
01:05:31.480 --> 01:05:36.980
In other words, this is coming up and out of me.

929
01:05:36.980 --> 01:05:38.040
Fully accept that.

930
01:05:38.040 --> 01:05:42.080
And here's the weird thing, fully connect with it.

931
01:05:42.080 --> 01:05:49.120
I don't mean identify with it that on my word, this is who I am, this is how bad I know,

932
01:05:49.120 --> 01:05:54.640
but I do mean fully connect with it and understand you made that choice.

933
01:05:54.640 --> 01:06:00.500
You are believing something that is resulting in you feeling this way, feeling repulsed

934
01:06:00.500 --> 01:06:01.500
by someone.

935
01:06:01.500 --> 01:06:02.780
Maybe they smell bad.

936
01:06:02.780 --> 01:06:05.100
Maybe they feel like they're very unlovable person.

937
01:06:05.100 --> 01:06:07.020
I don't know.

938
01:06:07.020 --> 01:06:09.380
You know, or you don't trust someone.

939
01:06:09.380 --> 01:06:10.380
Don't get onto yourself.

940
01:06:10.380 --> 01:06:12.180
Nick, I shouldn't be like that.

941
01:06:12.180 --> 01:06:14.380
See, this is just wrong.

942
01:06:14.380 --> 01:06:15.380
Acknowledge that.

943
01:06:15.380 --> 01:06:17.120
No, that is coming up and out of me.

944
01:06:17.120 --> 01:06:24.880
You don't know yet if it's based off of God's truth or not and you know that you should

945
01:06:24.880 --> 01:06:26.680
or shouldn't be like that.

946
01:06:26.680 --> 01:06:28.120
That's not what we're talking about yet.

947
01:06:28.120 --> 01:06:29.320
That's not what we're addressing.

948
01:06:29.320 --> 01:06:33.600
We can only address that later and you can't address it properly later unless you go through

949
01:06:33.600 --> 01:06:37.200
this stage where you fully accept it about yourself.

950
01:06:37.200 --> 01:06:43.320
You connect with and be a safe place for you to be that ugliness because what if it's based

951
01:06:43.320 --> 01:06:50.000
on a lie or whatever, to be that ugliness while you're with yourself.

952
01:06:50.000 --> 01:06:55.120
Don't reject that part of you while you're being that ugliness, while you're feeling

953
01:06:55.120 --> 01:06:57.360
that way, while you're whatever, fully accept.

954
01:06:57.360 --> 01:07:05.760
This is me feeling repulsed or feeling, you know, or, or, you know, not trusting so-and-so

955
01:07:05.760 --> 01:07:06.760
or whatever.

956
01:07:06.760 --> 01:07:09.200
You're not saying that you're going to stay like that.

957
01:07:09.200 --> 01:07:12.420
You're acknowledging that that's, that's how you feel.

958
01:07:12.520 --> 01:07:16.180
So it's the, again, our important, the important thing is getting to know who it is that we

959
01:07:16.180 --> 01:07:21.060
are so that we can let the bad things out and then know who it is, what the good things

960
01:07:21.060 --> 01:07:24.180
are that are also are going to be what express themselves.

961
01:07:24.180 --> 01:07:25.180
It's not just the negative.

962
01:07:25.180 --> 01:07:28.140
I'm talking about the negative because it's the negative that scares us.

963
01:07:28.140 --> 01:07:32.500
And so often, but the positive itself, the positive as well, will start coming out.

964
01:07:32.500 --> 01:07:34.380
Those are things like dreams, desires.

965
01:07:34.380 --> 01:07:39.940
We'll be talking about that a lot more next time, but allow all of the things about yourself

966
01:07:39.940 --> 01:07:46.700
to come up and acknowledge them and connect with them, realize, okay, I thought that I

967
01:07:46.700 --> 01:07:47.700
feel that way.

968
01:07:47.700 --> 01:07:50.780
I'm believing that don't reject it.

969
01:07:50.780 --> 01:07:52.980
You can't deal with it.

970
01:07:52.980 --> 01:07:57.220
If you've rejected it, if you've stifled it, if you denied it, then it can't, you can't

971
01:07:57.220 --> 01:08:01.020
be dealt with it because you're just owning it and you don't have any power over something

972
01:08:01.020 --> 01:08:02.020
you've disowned.

973
01:08:02.020 --> 01:08:07.580
So if you want to deal with that, you're going to have to own it, realize, okay, this is,

974
01:08:07.580 --> 01:08:08.900
this is a part of my domain.

975
01:08:08.900 --> 01:08:11.500
My reality is something I need to face and it's truth.

976
01:08:11.500 --> 01:08:14.060
We've got to accept that.

977
01:08:14.060 --> 01:08:17.979
So, and then accept the truth, which is something I've already mentioned, accept the truth without

978
01:08:17.979 --> 01:08:19.500
judgment.

979
01:08:19.500 --> 01:08:21.220
This is what, this is how I feel.

980
01:08:21.220 --> 01:08:22.220
That's the truth of it.

981
01:08:22.220 --> 01:08:23.939
So I'm going to accept it without judging it.

982
01:08:23.939 --> 01:08:25.620
Again, you're neutralizing.

983
01:08:25.620 --> 01:08:34.020
You're not, you're not embracing it and building and, and you know, feeding it and giving into

984
01:08:34.020 --> 01:08:36.620
it and all of that, but you're not rejecting either.

985
01:08:36.660 --> 01:08:38.180
You're just going to neutral.

986
01:08:38.180 --> 01:08:42.140
You're stopping thinking it shouldn't be this way and it should be different.

987
01:08:42.140 --> 01:08:43.140
It just is what it is.

988
01:08:43.140 --> 01:08:44.140
It is this way.

989
01:08:44.140 --> 01:08:45.819
This is, this is reality.

990
01:08:45.819 --> 01:08:50.899
It might be this reality instead of this reality, because remember your flesh is operating according

991
01:08:50.899 --> 01:08:54.760
to this reality until it's overcome and transverse to spirit, right?

992
01:08:54.760 --> 01:09:00.180
So while it's operating in unbelief in certain areas, well then this is the reality of it.

993
01:09:00.180 --> 01:09:04.620
It's the only, it's only by facing it and not denying it, you can transit that you can

994
01:09:04.620 --> 01:09:06.120
let it go.

995
01:09:06.120 --> 01:09:09.479
That's what we're trying to do with those emotions and those beliefs is to let it go

996
01:09:09.479 --> 01:09:13.479
so that we're choosing spirit instead, but you can't choose spirit while you're denying

997
01:09:13.479 --> 01:09:14.479
this.

998
01:09:14.479 --> 01:09:17.120
So accept it without judgment.

999
01:09:17.120 --> 01:09:24.240
So don't try to deal with or change it before you accept yourself feeling that way because

1000
01:09:24.240 --> 01:09:28.960
you're not going to be able to deal with or change it until you accept yourself that you

1001
01:09:28.960 --> 01:09:30.560
are feeling that way.

1002
01:09:30.560 --> 01:09:34.000
Just the fact that this is how I'm feeling, this is just the truth.

1003
01:09:34.000 --> 01:09:35.000
And yes, this is me.

1004
01:09:35.000 --> 01:09:36.000
This is not someone else.

1005
01:09:36.000 --> 01:09:37.000
This is me.

1006
01:09:37.000 --> 01:09:42.520
I don't mean me, your identity, you know who it is that God says you are, but your body

1007
01:09:42.520 --> 01:09:44.600
and your soul are you as well.

1008
01:09:44.600 --> 01:09:46.439
And that is that body and that soul.

1009
01:09:46.439 --> 01:09:50.200
It made that decision and it is acting like that, right?

1010
01:09:50.200 --> 01:09:51.200
You have to.

1011
01:09:51.200 --> 01:09:57.160
And so you have to connect with it, not dissociate from it so that you can, um, is cause it's

1012
01:09:57.160 --> 01:09:59.920
only by owning it and it's, and realizing.

1013
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.680
And owning your association with it, I was going to say claiming it, but owning your

1014
01:10:05.680 --> 01:10:10.560
association with it, that you can actually, that you have the authority to now deal with

1015
01:10:10.560 --> 01:10:11.560
it.

1016
01:10:11.560 --> 01:10:12.560
Don't have the authority to deal with it.

1017
01:10:12.560 --> 01:10:15.840
If you disowned it and denied it said, that's not mine.

1018
01:10:15.840 --> 01:10:16.840
That's not mine.

1019
01:10:16.840 --> 01:10:20.440
You know, then you've given up your authority over it.

1020
01:10:20.440 --> 01:10:22.420
And as it all just stick around, right.

1021
01:10:22.420 --> 01:10:26.040
And you will be out of control in that area of your life, even like you, you don't have

1022
01:10:26.040 --> 01:10:30.640
the authority to speak into it because you disowned it.

1023
01:10:30.640 --> 01:10:33.840
So what you're doing is you're accepting the truth and you're accepting the truth about

1024
01:10:33.840 --> 01:10:35.560
you.

1025
01:10:35.560 --> 01:10:37.580
This is how you feel.

1026
01:10:37.580 --> 01:10:40.120
This is how you've responded.

1027
01:10:40.120 --> 01:10:46.560
Now the other thing about, about change is that you have to go in order to change.

1028
01:10:46.560 --> 01:10:48.160
You have to go through it.

1029
01:10:48.160 --> 01:10:51.360
You can't avoid it.

1030
01:10:51.360 --> 01:10:54.740
Even Jesus think about the fact that how did he overcome death?

1031
01:10:54.740 --> 01:10:58.740
So it's the same thing with our emotions and that's what we're addressing.

1032
01:10:58.740 --> 01:11:06.140
So Jesus, when he did this with death, when he overcame death, he had to die.

1033
01:11:06.140 --> 01:11:07.140
Why is that a big deal?

1034
01:11:07.140 --> 01:11:11.820
And why did Paul talk about the resurrection being such a big deal?

1035
01:11:11.820 --> 01:11:17.380
Because he had to go through death and resurrect from it, which are supposed to not be able

1036
01:11:17.380 --> 01:11:19.820
to do with death, right?

1037
01:11:19.820 --> 01:11:24.940
And it resurrect from it, which proved that it didn't have control over him.

1038
01:11:24.940 --> 01:11:32.500
It not dying doesn't prove that it has no control over you.

1039
01:11:32.500 --> 01:11:37.180
It's only going through it and it not affecting you.

1040
01:11:37.180 --> 01:11:41.980
That proves that it has no control over you is the same thing.

1041
01:11:41.980 --> 01:11:44.920
And so that is the process of overcoming.

1042
01:11:44.920 --> 01:11:48.300
You have to go through the emotion.

1043
01:11:48.300 --> 01:11:52.220
So you have to go through the process of the emotion.

1044
01:11:52.220 --> 01:12:03.340
You have to ride the feelings, ride through it, go through it in order to let it pass.

1045
01:12:03.340 --> 01:12:09.500
This is just expressed and exemplified in so many different ways, including what I talk

1046
01:12:09.500 --> 01:12:24.700
about with, oh man, sorry, I don't know why all of a sudden I, I'll several times I've

1047
01:12:24.700 --> 01:12:29.300
been starting on it on to say something and then, and then it'll leave me and it's so

1048
01:12:29.300 --> 01:12:30.300
weird.

1049
01:12:30.300 --> 01:12:36.780
I'm like, Oh, it's like this, this is very unusual for me.

1050
01:12:36.780 --> 01:12:40.540
You know, that I had COVID a few weeks ago and I've been very tired.

1051
01:12:40.540 --> 01:12:44.780
I've been shocked at how tired I still am on earth is where I've been sleeping like

1052
01:12:44.780 --> 01:12:50.940
10, at least 10 hours a night, just going, Oh my word.

1053
01:12:50.940 --> 01:12:55.060
And I, I don't know if maybe it has something to do with that, if, if there, if I'm a brain

1054
01:12:55.060 --> 01:12:56.860
is lacking energy as well.

1055
01:12:56.860 --> 01:12:57.860
So I apologize.

1056
01:12:57.860 --> 01:13:02.900
Well, I guess it really doesn't, it doesn't matter.

1057
01:13:02.900 --> 01:13:04.620
I was just going to shoot it.

1058
01:13:04.620 --> 01:13:09.740
I was just getting connect the point that I just made to a point that I, that y'all

1059
01:13:09.740 --> 01:13:12.460
have heard me make in the rest intensive before.

1060
01:13:12.460 --> 01:13:16.100
And, and then just as I was about to say it, it, it left me.

1061
01:13:16.100 --> 01:13:23.300
So anyway, but yeah, so, so you have to, in order to go through in, in order to overcome

1062
01:13:23.300 --> 01:13:27.100
something, you have to go through it just like Jesus did.

1063
01:13:27.100 --> 01:13:29.060
So we have to go through our emotions.

1064
01:13:29.060 --> 01:13:30.060
That's what it was.

1065
01:13:30.060 --> 01:13:31.700
I was going to say, that's what it was.

1066
01:13:31.700 --> 01:13:32.700
Okay.

1067
01:13:33.500 --> 01:13:38.420
I was going to say that the fact that when you, that in order for something to be birthed

1068
01:13:38.420 --> 01:13:44.900
into manifest into creation, you have to go through chaos in rest.

1069
01:13:44.900 --> 01:13:49.320
You still go through the chaos, but you go through it in rest.

1070
01:13:49.320 --> 01:13:52.740
We keep thinking, and people get so excited about the rest intensive when they first started

1071
01:13:52.740 --> 01:13:56.780
thinking, Oh my goodness, I was just going to explain how I can avoid pain and suffering.

1072
01:13:56.780 --> 01:13:58.340
No, no, no, no.

1073
01:13:58.340 --> 01:14:00.500
It's how to overcome pain and suffering.

1074
01:14:00.500 --> 01:14:01.740
How do you overcome it?

1075
01:14:01.740 --> 01:14:06.220
By going through it in rest instead of turmoil and chaos, because what is pain and suffering

1076
01:14:06.220 --> 01:14:09.660
pain and suffering is the evidence of chaos, right?

1077
01:14:09.660 --> 01:14:11.400
It's very, it's very chaotic.

1078
01:14:11.400 --> 01:14:14.500
It's an aspect of the wages of sin being dead.

1079
01:14:14.500 --> 01:14:19.860
And it's a, it's a manifestation of what creation, different aspects of creation in our soul

1080
01:14:19.860 --> 01:14:24.780
and our body and, and, you know, creation outside of us is going through.

1081
01:14:24.780 --> 01:14:25.780
It's chaotic.

1082
01:14:25.780 --> 01:14:26.780
It is not in order.

1083
01:14:26.780 --> 01:14:30.140
It is not in alignment with God, right?

1084
01:14:30.140 --> 01:14:33.260
You go in order to change that chaos.

1085
01:14:33.260 --> 01:14:37.940
You move through it in rest and it brings it into order.

1086
01:14:37.940 --> 01:14:41.260
And then you birth something new on the other side.

1087
01:14:41.260 --> 01:14:43.300
It's not avoiding.

1088
01:14:43.300 --> 01:14:47.540
You can't create something by avoiding the chaos.

1089
01:14:47.540 --> 01:14:54.740
You have to face the chaos, go through it being unthreatened and unaffected because,

1090
01:14:54.740 --> 01:14:58.700
and not only that, but you bringing to it something.

1091
01:14:58.700 --> 01:15:00.140
It's not just going through it neutral.

1092
01:15:00.800 --> 01:15:02.680
You know, I'm not doing nothing.

1093
01:15:02.800 --> 01:15:03.280
No, no, no.

1094
01:15:03.560 --> 01:15:08.920
You actually have to bring something into it, which is rest.

1095
01:15:08.960 --> 01:15:11.040
So you're bringing life, your life giving spirit.

1096
01:15:11.040 --> 01:15:16.120
You're bringing rest into the situation and you're moving through the chaos,

1097
01:15:16.120 --> 01:15:21.760
not being affected by it, but in, and not being neutral to it, but rather being a,

1098
01:15:21.760 --> 01:15:24.080
and this is what we'll be talking about next time and owning yourself.

1099
01:15:24.080 --> 01:15:27.160
You're actually bringing your life, giving spirit into it.

1100
01:15:27.880 --> 01:15:30.680
And that is what birds something on the other side of it.

1101
01:15:31.080 --> 01:15:31.960
It's the same thing.

1102
01:15:32.000 --> 01:15:33.160
That's what we're doing here.

1103
01:15:33.280 --> 01:15:34.320
We're doing the same thing.

1104
01:15:34.320 --> 01:15:37.160
We are moving through chaos in rest.

1105
01:15:37.760 --> 01:15:40.400
All of your emotions are evidencing the fact that you're

1106
01:15:41.120 --> 01:15:42.640
in unbelief in a specific way.

1107
01:15:43.520 --> 01:15:49.400
So all of that is coming up and you move through it in rest, fully

1108
01:15:49.480 --> 01:15:53.920
acknowledging, accepting what, what, how it is that you're feeling and the

1109
01:15:53.920 --> 01:15:56.560
fact that you and associating with it and understanding, no, that's me.

1110
01:15:56.560 --> 01:15:58.720
That's making that decision, those decisions.

1111
01:15:58.720 --> 01:16:03.920
And I, I'm having some kind of a belief that is manifesting itself as fear or

1112
01:16:03.920 --> 01:16:11.080
as anger or as, you know, self-protection or whatever that is me, but who also am

1113
01:16:11.080 --> 01:16:16.640
I, and who's the higher me in other words, who's his spirit, the new creation,

1114
01:16:16.880 --> 01:16:21.480
the new man, who was perfect and who was going to bring order to the situation.

1115
01:16:22.160 --> 01:16:24.960
And, and the, and that is what you bring to it.

1116
01:16:24.960 --> 01:16:28.120
And that will allow you to go through the chaos of all of these

1117
01:16:28.120 --> 01:16:32.600
emotions coming up and out, and we'll allow you to release them because

1118
01:16:32.600 --> 01:16:35.200
you, you approach it as the son of God.

1119
01:16:35.920 --> 01:16:41.920
You know, as a son of God, who is the new creation, who is one with Christ,

1120
01:16:41.920 --> 01:16:44.720
who has all power and authority over this thing, and you are going to

1121
01:16:44.720 --> 01:16:47.760
triumph and it is not, and then it allows it to release.

1122
01:16:48.520 --> 01:16:49.960
Um, so you have to go through it.

1123
01:16:49.960 --> 01:16:53.720
So how do you go, uh, how do you, how do you go through it?

1124
01:16:53.720 --> 01:16:54.520
What does that mean?

1125
01:16:55.000 --> 01:16:59.040
Um, so I, I mentioned, you know, basically I think another phrase to

1126
01:16:59.040 --> 01:17:00.920
use is think of like, you're writing it.

1127
01:17:01.040 --> 01:17:02.560
You're, uh, you're riding a wave.

1128
01:17:03.960 --> 01:17:05.720
Um, you're riding the wave of the emotion.

1129
01:17:05.720 --> 01:17:09.440
You're allowing yourself, you're staying present while you feel all this stuff.

1130
01:17:09.440 --> 01:17:14.840
So it's allowing yourself to be present while, um, and in

1131
01:17:15.040 --> 01:17:17.920
experiencing those feelings.

1132
01:17:18.920 --> 01:17:19.960
You have to be present.

1133
01:17:19.960 --> 01:17:21.880
You can't just allow yourself to feel that way.

1134
01:17:21.880 --> 01:17:24.520
And then try to start thinking of other things or, Oh my goodness.

1135
01:17:24.520 --> 01:17:26.240
I can't wait till this is over or all.

1136
01:17:26.280 --> 01:17:29.480
No, you have to be present in it in order to actually be facing it.

1137
01:17:29.920 --> 01:17:36.400
You have to be a king over yourself while your emotion, while your

1138
01:17:36.520 --> 01:17:39.560
soul is experiencing the emotions.

1139
01:17:40.000 --> 01:17:43.280
Be present as that higher being of spirit while your soul

1140
01:17:43.280 --> 01:17:44.440
is going through all of this.

1141
01:17:44.800 --> 01:17:48.280
So allow yourself to be present while experiencing it.

1142
01:17:48.280 --> 01:17:50.440
That's the only way to actually face it.

1143
01:17:50.960 --> 01:17:55.440
Otherwise you're going to try to deny it or, or escape it by trying to emotionally

1144
01:17:55.440 --> 01:17:56.880
or mentally being somewhere else.

1145
01:17:57.160 --> 01:17:59.560
And you can't, and that won't actually deal with it.

1146
01:17:59.840 --> 01:18:03.040
You'll just, you'll just go through that whole feeling of like being stuck

1147
01:18:03.120 --> 01:18:06.280
and overwhelmed because there's all of this stuff that's in you.

1148
01:18:06.520 --> 01:18:10.160
That's making you feel sick because it's, you're not letting it go anywhere.

1149
01:18:10.160 --> 01:18:10.960
You're keeping it.

1150
01:18:11.360 --> 01:18:14.840
That's what's going to happen if you try to think about other things or

1151
01:18:14.840 --> 01:18:16.760
try to deny your feelings or whatever.

1152
01:18:17.640 --> 01:18:20.680
So the only way that you can do it is to move through it and rest.

1153
01:18:21.160 --> 01:18:25.080
It's the only way that you can let it come up and out without making you sick.

1154
01:18:26.400 --> 01:18:31.800
Um, and this is the only way to truly change, um, to, to truly let those

1155
01:18:31.800 --> 01:18:33.480
aspects of your emotions come out.

1156
01:18:33.960 --> 01:18:41.200
Um, and, and, uh, and the, and certain strongholds of your beliefs, what it is

1157
01:18:41.200 --> 01:18:47.320
that you're believing that's prompting all of those emotions, um, and so, and

1158
01:18:47.320 --> 01:18:54.000
yeah, you can't change it until you allow it all to come up and be, uh, to release.

1159
01:18:55.000 --> 01:18:55.160
Okay.

1160
01:18:55.160 --> 01:18:58.160
Last thing I wanted to say about the emotions for move on to decisions

1161
01:18:58.200 --> 01:19:01.400
is you need to own how you feel.

1162
01:19:01.640 --> 01:19:05.560
And I talked, I referenced this earlier, but the reason I wanted to mention it

1163
01:19:06.040 --> 01:19:15.000
here is your, is to give you an example of how this can, of how you can tell

1164
01:19:15.000 --> 01:19:17.800
whether or not you're owning your own decision and you're owning your own

1165
01:19:17.800 --> 01:19:23.200
emotions and remember, this is not accepting or agree, this is not agreeing

1166
01:19:23.200 --> 01:19:30.240
with your feelings or your beliefs, accepting yourself that is making those

1167
01:19:30.240 --> 01:19:32.120
decisions, accepting you're the soul.

1168
01:19:32.120 --> 01:19:35.200
And the body that is making those decisions is not the same thing as

1169
01:19:35.200 --> 01:19:41.920
agreeing with their, their decisions and agreeing with the beliefs that

1170
01:19:41.920 --> 01:19:42.920
those feelings are based in.

1171
01:19:42.920 --> 01:19:44.440
You're, you're not agreeing with it.

1172
01:19:44.760 --> 01:19:47.520
You're accepting the soul and the body that's making those decisions out of

1173
01:19:47.520 --> 01:19:48.160
fear, right?

1174
01:19:49.480 --> 01:19:53.560
So that it'll fit so that your soul and your body will feel safe enough to change.

1175
01:19:54.080 --> 01:19:59.800
Now, so this is an example I wanted to give, if you feel subject to other

1176
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.120
people's decisions.

1177
01:20:01.160 --> 01:20:08.620
If you feel too affected by other people in your life and how they react to you,

1178
01:20:08.620 --> 01:20:14.360
how they respond to you, you know, and your feelings are too caught up in and

1179
01:20:14.360 --> 01:20:21.360
dictated by other people's decisions instead of owning it, um, and, and allow

1180
01:20:21.360 --> 01:20:29.680
it and, and you try to stifle how you feel in order to keep peace or, or

1181
01:20:29.760 --> 01:20:33.240
whatever, or maybe you're the opposite and you just lose control or whatever.

1182
01:20:33.240 --> 01:20:40.400
If you don't own your feelings, then even when you tell someone something like,

1183
01:20:41.240 --> 01:20:44.320
I want this, you try to be more honest.

1184
01:20:44.400 --> 01:20:49.200
You think about your emotions of I I'm wanting this in our relationship

1185
01:20:49.200 --> 01:20:57.400
or, um, I'm hurt when you do this, or I'm hurt when, uh, when you've said

1186
01:20:57.400 --> 01:21:02.080
this or I'm hurt when this happens, you know, healthy ways that we've been

1187
01:21:02.080 --> 01:21:09.040
taught are, are good, um, are a good way to be honest about our feelings

1188
01:21:09.040 --> 01:21:12.280
and to express them to someone else so that it can help resolve

1189
01:21:12.280 --> 01:21:13.880
relationship conflict, et cetera.

1190
01:21:14.560 --> 01:21:21.920
If you do not feel, if you have not taken ownership of how you feel and

1191
01:21:21.920 --> 01:21:26.520
know really who it is that you are, and you still feel subject to, if your

1192
01:21:26.520 --> 01:21:30.560
feelings are too easily swayed by how other people choose to live their life

1193
01:21:30.560 --> 01:21:35.680
and how other people choose to talk around you, then even when you're on it,

1194
01:21:35.680 --> 01:21:41.920
and when you try to be more open, transparent and honest about, Hey, you

1195
01:21:41.920 --> 01:21:45.360
know, and, and confronting things, Hey, this is what I'm really wanting.

1196
01:21:45.960 --> 01:21:46.880
I'm being honest with you.

1197
01:21:46.880 --> 01:21:52.320
This is what I want, or this is I'm hurt when this happens, even in

1198
01:21:52.320 --> 01:21:57.400
situation, even in, um, uh, in statements like that, you're not owning your own

1199
01:21:57.400 --> 01:22:01.640
feelings, so it can feel like you're owning your feelings because you're

1200
01:22:01.640 --> 01:22:06.000
being honest about it and you're acknowledging that they're, that they

1201
01:22:06.000 --> 01:22:09.640
exist, but acknowledging that they exist and owning them.

1202
01:22:09.760 --> 01:22:13.480
In other words, not disassociating from them and actually

1203
01:22:13.480 --> 01:22:15.720
claiming responsibility for them.

1204
01:22:16.200 --> 01:22:20.760
In other words, feeling, uh, if you don't do that, well, then even when

1205
01:22:20.760 --> 01:22:25.960
you're honest about your feelings, then you're not, you're still not, you're

1206
01:22:25.960 --> 01:22:28.960
still not owning them and other people still own you.

1207
01:22:29.360 --> 01:22:33.000
So I just wanted to point out that just because you're honest about your

1208
01:22:33.000 --> 01:22:36.040
feelings, even to yourself, like whether you're like, in other words, you're

1209
01:22:36.040 --> 01:22:40.320
acknowledging them, that is not this acknowledgement of your feelings.

1210
01:22:40.360 --> 01:22:43.520
This is, this is, sorry, this has taken me a while to explain because I

1211
01:22:43.520 --> 01:22:46.760
apologize because it's the first time I've ever actually taught on all of this.

1212
01:22:47.600 --> 01:22:51.560
Acknowledging your feelings is not the same thing as owning your feelings.

1213
01:22:52.520 --> 01:22:57.400
And, um, which, like I said, is the opposite of disassociating from them.

1214
01:22:58.120 --> 01:22:59.440
It's not the same thing.

1215
01:22:59.480 --> 01:23:00.960
And this only works.

1216
01:23:00.960 --> 01:23:01.760
Here's my whole point.

1217
01:23:02.040 --> 01:23:04.640
This only, this does, this cannot work.

1218
01:23:04.640 --> 01:23:08.800
You cannot change and really, and over and overcome and release your, your

1219
01:23:08.800 --> 01:23:16.360
emotions if you only acknowledge them, but you don't own them, you don't claim

1220
01:23:16.360 --> 01:23:21.680
responsibility for them, you know, as, as a spirit that is the King over the soul

1221
01:23:21.680 --> 01:23:25.560
and the body and is coming in to protect it and to heal it and to all of that.

1222
01:23:25.560 --> 01:23:31.760
If you do not take that position over yourself, well, then you can't release

1223
01:23:32.000 --> 01:23:38.440
or change the, your emotions and the beliefs that your emotions are founded in.

1224
01:23:39.240 --> 01:23:44.880
So, um, you'll notice that these statements will have, I want, and I get

1225
01:23:44.880 --> 01:23:48.800
hurt when you'll notice that they'll still, that those statements will still

1226
01:23:48.800 --> 01:23:53.880
blame others actions for your feelings and insist they take responsibility

1227
01:23:53.880 --> 01:23:55.400
for what you experienced.

1228
01:23:56.000 --> 01:24:00.880
Um, now I do believe that it's important if like, uh, you know, in relationships

1229
01:24:00.920 --> 01:24:05.800
that, that you can tell other people that, Hey, you struggle with in a specific way

1230
01:24:05.800 --> 01:24:11.640
when they say X, Y, and Z, and that hurts your feelings, but, and, and I do believe

1231
01:24:11.640 --> 01:24:16.360
that it's important, you know, as, as, uh, in relationships that we recognize

1232
01:24:16.400 --> 01:24:19.560
how, what we do affects other people.

1233
01:24:20.240 --> 01:24:24.440
Um, and that I think that it's important as much as, as possible and as much as

1234
01:24:24.440 --> 01:24:29.800
it's healthy, that the relationship needs to can, that people can kind of change

1235
01:24:29.800 --> 01:24:37.240
how they talk or how they interact with this or whatever, um, and, and to help us.

1236
01:24:37.600 --> 01:24:40.280
But it's not their responsibility.

1237
01:24:40.600 --> 01:24:47.600
They don't own the responsibility of how they're, what they said affected you.

1238
01:24:48.560 --> 01:24:51.320
Um, we own that responsibility.

1239
01:24:51.360 --> 01:24:52.680
This is how I felt.

1240
01:24:52.760 --> 01:24:58.560
I didn't like how, what I, what it brought up in me, but it's not so-and-so's

1241
01:24:58.560 --> 01:25:00.200
fault that that was.

1242
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:09.600
my response, that I had that in me, you know, um, now I'm not saying that it means that you need to

1243
01:25:09.600 --> 01:25:17.440
stay in situations or in relationships where you're continually feeling, you know, triggered

1244
01:25:17.440 --> 01:25:23.600
by things. And it may mean that that person isn't doing anything wrong. And you're just very

1245
01:25:23.600 --> 01:25:30.640
sensitive because of wound genes, you still need to deal with. And then it can also, um, uh, but

1246
01:25:30.640 --> 01:25:36.160
I do think that in general, it's important for other people to, you know, to, for us to be honest

1247
01:25:36.160 --> 01:25:40.320
in relations to pay when you do this kind of thing, it hurts me or whatever. And then, so that

1248
01:25:40.320 --> 01:25:44.640
other person can know, but that other person can then choose how they want to respond. And then

1249
01:25:44.640 --> 01:25:53.040
you choose how you want to change how you, you, you can then decide how you want to then interact

1250
01:25:53.040 --> 01:25:57.360
with that person. Do you want to continue to be friends because we're going to continue to treat

1251
01:25:57.360 --> 01:26:04.160
you like that? Um, and for whatever reason, or, you know, and you'll just work on you or do you

1252
01:26:04.160 --> 01:26:09.040
not want to be, because you're like, no, this, this, this, um, dynamic no longer works for me.

1253
01:26:10.000 --> 01:26:16.160
So I'm not really addressing that to that. Um, but I just wanted to comment on it. Okay. Um,

1254
01:26:16.160 --> 01:26:23.520
and to show like how all of these emotions, um, uh, when we're getting to know ourselves,

1255
01:26:23.520 --> 01:26:29.200
when we're getting to know ourselves can, um, what questions that can come up in our relationships

1256
01:26:29.200 --> 01:26:34.720
with other people, um, as a result of us going through this process. Okay. Um, so the next thing

1257
01:26:34.720 --> 01:26:40.800
I want to talk about, and this one's going to be a lot shorter, uh, cause I just take the principles

1258
01:26:40.800 --> 01:26:45.840
that I talked about emotions and apply it to, um, the decisions. Now there's,

1259
01:26:45.840 --> 01:26:49.680
now I've written down decisions in various aspects of our life. So

1260
01:26:51.360 --> 01:26:57.040
how we can know ourselves by looking at the decisions that we've made,

1261
01:26:58.480 --> 01:27:04.000
that we're currently living the result or the consequences of, and by consequences,

1262
01:27:04.000 --> 01:27:10.080
I don't mean negative. I just mean, you know, results that we're currently living in or, uh,

1263
01:27:10.080 --> 01:27:15.120
and they can also, uh, we can also look at decisions that we are prone to make.

1264
01:27:16.560 --> 01:27:21.680
Now, like as there's the decision comes up and we haven't acted on it, we're like, Oh,

1265
01:27:21.680 --> 01:27:26.480
I'm thinking about doing this. So we can look at decisions that we've actually made and actions

1266
01:27:26.480 --> 01:27:30.800
that we've actually taken and getting to get to know ourselves. Oh, these are the types of

1267
01:27:30.800 --> 01:27:34.640
things that I normally decide. This is, this is the life that I'm in currently living.

1268
01:27:35.280 --> 01:27:39.280
You know, what does that then say about me? So how, how do you get to know yourself? Like based

1269
01:27:39.280 --> 01:27:43.520
off of how you're currently living and therefore, you know, Oh, you know, get to know yourself

1270
01:27:43.520 --> 01:27:48.960
based off of, well, this is what I've decided. And then you can do it going forward. When you,

1271
01:27:48.960 --> 01:27:52.880
as you make decisions like, Oh, these are the, this is the decision that I'm thinking about

1272
01:27:52.880 --> 01:27:59.040
making. What is that saying about me? You know, why am I making that decision? Because you're

1273
01:27:59.040 --> 01:28:04.800
always, you always make decisions, remember based on what you view as reality. So are you choosing

1274
01:28:04.800 --> 01:28:11.760
this reality or are you choosing this one? Your decision will show you, are you, which reality

1275
01:28:11.760 --> 01:28:17.920
are you giving the greatest authority to? Is it based off of fear and self-protection or is your

1276
01:28:17.920 --> 01:28:23.600
decision based off of faith, you know, and then your action therefore, right? So you look at

1277
01:28:23.600 --> 01:28:30.080
decisions that you make in, um, in your work or in your job. Think of how you're think of where

1278
01:28:30.080 --> 01:28:34.080
you currently are in your work or your job right now, and your attitudes towards it.

1279
01:28:34.960 --> 01:28:41.600
I say your attitudes towards it. I mean, think of. You're the current environment in which you're in

1280
01:28:41.600 --> 01:28:49.200
and whether or not that is how you want to live your life, not just going forward, but just now,

1281
01:28:49.920 --> 01:28:55.600
like, is it, is it healthy? Is it good? Does it show that you make what type of decisions?

1282
01:28:55.600 --> 01:29:00.160
Does it show that you make? And therefore from that, you can discern with the Lord.

1283
01:29:00.960 --> 01:29:08.320
What, why do I make those types of decisions? What's my reason for making that decision or

1284
01:29:08.320 --> 01:29:18.640
for having made that decision or whatever. So your work and your job, um, and, um, also your home,

1285
01:29:19.200 --> 01:29:24.080
like literally the home that you live in an apartment, a house or whatever you live with

1286
01:29:24.080 --> 01:29:32.640
someone, you know, you still live with your mom, you know, um, what is your current housing

1287
01:29:32.640 --> 01:29:40.880
situation and what is your home environment? Like that will tell you things about yourself.

1288
01:29:42.240 --> 01:29:46.160
I'll tell you about again, because it's all based off of decisions that you've made based

1289
01:29:47.120 --> 01:29:52.160
off of what you believe about who you are and what you deserve and how God sees you,

1290
01:29:52.160 --> 01:29:57.360
how you see you, et cetera. Right? So your job, your work, your job, your business,

1291
01:29:58.080 --> 01:29:59.840
your home and your home environment.

1292
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:08.240
your physical possessions, what your, what possessions you own tell you about what you

1293
01:30:08.240 --> 01:30:13.480
believe about yourself, um, how, what you believe about your past and what you believe

1294
01:30:13.480 --> 01:30:14.960
about your future.

1295
01:30:14.960 --> 01:30:19.040
Um, this is, I'm going to just cover all of these really quick.

1296
01:30:19.040 --> 01:30:24.640
So this isn't just going to be real quick as well, but your, um, the, the thing, okay.

1297
01:30:24.640 --> 01:30:25.640
Think of it this way.

1298
01:30:25.640 --> 01:30:31.040
Things that you choose to surround yourself with tell you what you believe about yourself.

1299
01:30:31.040 --> 01:30:32.800
And I'll think of it this way.

1300
01:30:32.800 --> 01:30:38.520
When you look at certain things that you own, think about, and this, this is something that

1301
01:30:38.520 --> 01:30:40.640
I'd recommend that you do.

1302
01:30:40.640 --> 01:30:44.320
Look at a variety of types of things, like things you like, things you don't like or

1303
01:30:44.320 --> 01:30:45.320
whatever.

1304
01:30:45.320 --> 01:30:55.360
And think, um, and, oh, sorry, trying to think really quickly because I, you can do like

1305
01:30:55.360 --> 01:30:59.000
a whole really, I've always planned to do like a really big teaching on at some point,

1306
01:30:59.000 --> 01:31:00.520
like multiple session teaching on this.

1307
01:31:00.520 --> 01:31:06.440
So I'm trying to think of how to, how to compact it just really, um, for something just to

1308
01:31:06.440 --> 01:31:13.680
just summarize it really quick, but do you have that because why do you have that?

1309
01:31:13.680 --> 01:31:20.280
Do you have it because you, it makes you feel good about who it is that you are or a hope

1310
01:31:20.280 --> 01:31:24.920
of what you may do, what you want to do in the future?

1311
01:31:24.920 --> 01:31:33.440
Or are you holding on to something simply because you don't want it to go away?

1312
01:31:33.440 --> 01:31:35.200
Like does it, is it reflective?

1313
01:31:35.200 --> 01:31:38.640
Is this thing that you're holding on to, let's use that as an example, is this thing that

1314
01:31:38.640 --> 01:31:41.000
you're holding onto, you can't let go of?

1315
01:31:41.000 --> 01:31:46.200
Is it because it's reflective of who you are right now and what you want to be in your

1316
01:31:46.200 --> 01:31:49.040
life now and in the future?

1317
01:31:49.080 --> 01:31:52.560
Or is it that you just don't want to let it go?

1318
01:31:52.560 --> 01:31:57.560
You just don't want to, um, you don't want to be without it.

1319
01:31:57.560 --> 01:32:03.800
Um, that shows areas in which we're enslaved, enslaved to something because it's actually

1320
01:32:03.800 --> 01:32:10.240
not reflective of something positive that describes who it is that we are right now.

1321
01:32:10.240 --> 01:32:15.800
It's something about our past that we can't let go of and move, move on from.

1322
01:32:15.840 --> 01:32:22.520
Um, and, um, or you look at things like maybe that used to be hopes and dreams that you

1323
01:32:22.520 --> 01:32:27.040
had and you'll see that a lot of this in, uh, with, uh, that people hold onto with,

1324
01:32:27.040 --> 01:32:34.440
uh, books or sometimes like hobby paraphernalia that, I don't know what that would be, but

1325
01:32:34.440 --> 01:32:35.440
all kinds of things.

1326
01:32:35.440 --> 01:32:44.960
Um, and, and you're holding onto them because, and you, and they just, because you wish that

1327
01:32:44.960 --> 01:32:49.560
you could do that thing, but have, but have you noticed that you've had it for 10 years

1328
01:32:49.560 --> 01:32:52.400
and never done anything with it?

1329
01:32:52.400 --> 01:32:56.160
So is that really and truly who you are now?

1330
01:32:56.160 --> 01:32:59.400
And do you want to spend time on that thing?

1331
01:32:59.400 --> 01:33:07.020
Um, because it's, it brings you so much joy or, you know, do you have a hard time letting

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01:33:07.020 --> 01:33:08.020
it go?

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01:33:08.020 --> 01:33:12.880
Because you feel that it means that you've failed at doing something that you wanted

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01:33:12.880 --> 01:33:20.840
to do, but you're really not, uh, that you never give yourself the leeway and the permission

1335
01:33:20.840 --> 01:33:24.680
and the time to spend on it.

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01:33:24.680 --> 01:33:28.800
Like, so in other words, what are, what are all of the different things that you own saying

1337
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about you?

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Do they say that you believe that you're worth, um, that you're worth quality things, or do

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01:33:35.560 --> 01:33:41.960
they say that you feel like you're only worth leftovers, you know, I don't know, just things

1340
01:33:41.960 --> 01:33:42.960
like that.

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Uh, the last thing, um, of, of, uh, where we make decisions is our physical body.

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So it's important that just like all of these other aspects of ourselves, that we love our

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body unconditionally.

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And even if it's evidencing some sickness, um, or if it has more weight on it, that we

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want it, or we're not toned the way that we want it, or we don't have the strength, the

1346
01:34:05.680 --> 01:34:08.960
way that we want it or whatever, it's important that we love it unconditionally.

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01:34:08.960 --> 01:34:13.840
The way that, uh, the way that it is because it's simply expressing and putting into a

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01:34:13.840 --> 01:34:18.440
manifestation, what it is that we really feel about ourselves or what our soul believes

1349
01:34:18.440 --> 01:34:23.880
about ourselves, um, and accept it.

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01:34:23.880 --> 01:34:31.240
Even if it never changes how it's manifest, even if it never changes its fears, it struggles,

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01:34:31.240 --> 01:34:35.960
how it's manifesting, um, those fears and those struggles, et cetera, only then will

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01:34:35.960 --> 01:34:37.920
it feel safe enough to change.

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And I've experienced this, other people have experienced this, um, and I I've literally

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01:34:44.920 --> 01:34:48.880
been able, I know this might sound surprising, but I've literally been able to shape my body

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01:34:48.880 --> 01:34:54.760
based off of what it is that I wanted it to look like, like just emotionally what I wanted

1356
01:34:54.760 --> 01:34:58.360
it to look like and how I saw it.

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It began to shape itself like that.

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01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:09.880
Because, but I had to love myself as I was in order for my body to begin doing that.

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01:35:09.880 --> 01:35:14.640
I couldn't just like whip it into shape or something, you know, or be hard on it or like

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01:35:14.640 --> 01:35:17.080
hard on it emotionally or whatever.

1361
01:35:17.080 --> 01:35:21.680
And then, but because I loved it for what it was, and I wanted the best for it.

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01:35:21.680 --> 01:35:26.960
And I got excited about what it could look like or be, it began to form into shape in

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01:35:26.960 --> 01:35:27.960
that way.

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01:35:27.960 --> 01:35:29.680
And yes, I'm talking about more than simply losing weight.

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I'm literally talking about it, shaping itself in particular ways, found fascinating.

1366
01:35:35.120 --> 01:35:38.280
Um, and, uh, let's see here.

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01:35:38.280 --> 01:35:45.200
Oh, I just wanted to mention this really quick, this, um, when your body is tired, that is

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a way that is a, um, I'm going to put it, let's see.

1369
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Okay.

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When you're, when your body is tired, your defenses are down.

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01:36:02.040 --> 01:36:08.840
Even when you're emotionally tired, your defenses are down and it's more easy for you to see

1372
01:36:08.840 --> 01:36:14.360
what it is that you truly are feeling and thinking about situations.

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01:36:14.360 --> 01:36:23.080
That's partly why at night, women have a tendency to want to talk about the heavy things.

1374
01:36:23.640 --> 01:36:27.360
There's the whole thing of like, well, kids are all in bed and we're just all by ourselves

1375
01:36:27.360 --> 01:36:28.360
and whatever.

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01:36:28.360 --> 01:36:36.760
But there's also an aspect of the fact that the, the distractions are gone and we feel

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01:36:36.760 --> 01:36:38.800
tired.

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And so our, our, all of those, all of the busy-ness emotionally, mentally, physically,

1379
01:36:45.600 --> 01:36:52.200
that has been filling up all of this space is gone and, and all, and it's been like stifling

1380
01:36:52.320 --> 01:36:53.320
all of our emotions.

1381
01:36:53.320 --> 01:36:54.320
They're all gone.

1382
01:36:54.320 --> 01:36:57.960
And now how we really feel about things starts to come up.

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01:36:57.960 --> 01:37:02.000
And that's why we want to address them because they're now at the forefront.

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Why?

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Because we're tired.

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01:37:04.000 --> 01:37:05.000
Our defenses are down.

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We're emotionally tired, physically tired, mentally tired, whatever.

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So I just wanted to point that out.

1389
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Okay.

1390
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So last thing is the practices.

1391
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So I recommend two things.

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No, no, no, I don't.

1393
01:37:16.760 --> 01:37:18.720
I want to do, no, no, no.

1394
01:37:18.720 --> 01:37:19.720
I do want to do this.

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01:37:19.720 --> 01:37:27.760
And I know we didn't talk about the dreams much, but I do want to put, give you two practices

1396
01:37:27.760 --> 01:37:32.040
and I'll mention the dream second dreams, meaning like desires, things that you want.

1397
01:37:32.040 --> 01:37:35.680
Cause remember when you get to know yourself, I know that I've talked a lot about, about

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01:37:35.680 --> 01:37:36.680
the negative.

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01:37:36.680 --> 01:37:39.960
We'll be talking even more about the positive next time, but I want to address the negative

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01:37:39.960 --> 01:37:41.640
because the negative is what we're afraid of.

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01:37:41.640 --> 01:37:45.400
That's why we don't want to know ourselves is either we're afraid of what we're going

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01:37:45.400 --> 01:37:50.400
to discover about ourselves or what, you know, all the negative stuff, or we're afraid

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01:37:50.400 --> 01:37:56.120
in what that, that could say or mean about us, you know, and then also we can be afraid

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01:37:56.120 --> 01:38:02.320
of what it is that we really want and desire because it's a good thing.

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01:38:02.320 --> 01:38:04.160
And we're afraid of being disappointed, right?

1406
01:38:04.160 --> 01:38:06.760
I'm afraid that, well, God's not going to let me have it.

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01:38:06.760 --> 01:38:08.360
He's going to say no and whatever.

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01:38:08.360 --> 01:38:10.440
So it's important that we choose that.

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01:38:10.440 --> 01:38:12.800
No, he is a good God.

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01:38:12.800 --> 01:38:17.600
And, and we, we need to allow ourselves to fully experience, not just the pain to come

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01:38:17.600 --> 01:38:23.320
up and out, but also experience all of the joy and all of the, and, and happiness.

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01:38:23.320 --> 01:38:28.920
And we need to fully, we need to allow, we need to actually experience this in our life

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01:38:28.920 --> 01:38:35.560
if we're actually going to, if, if we believe that it's true, if we have the faith that

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01:38:35.560 --> 01:38:39.680
these things that God says about himself and about us are true, then we have to live it.

1415
01:38:39.680 --> 01:38:41.080
We have to experience it.

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01:38:41.080 --> 01:38:44.120
And so we have to feel these feelings and allow them to come up and out.

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01:38:44.120 --> 01:38:48.520
And then we have to feel all the good feelings, you know, trusting that God is good.

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01:38:48.520 --> 01:38:54.640
So the very first practice is allow yourself to, to feel and to name your emotions as they

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01:38:54.640 --> 01:39:03.440
come up face that it is coming out of you and then go sit with God in the fullness of

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01:39:03.440 --> 01:39:05.280
the emotion.

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01:39:05.280 --> 01:39:13.040
Like even if you're angry, when I've been angry, I just, I fully allow myself to feel

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01:39:13.040 --> 01:39:20.800
all of the anger that I, that I feel about the situation and I'll be by my L and anyway,

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01:39:20.800 --> 01:39:23.960
what I did, what I did is I just got by myself with the Lord.

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01:39:23.960 --> 01:39:30.960
I was just angry and I allowed myself to fully feel the intensity of the anger.

1425
01:39:30.960 --> 01:39:34.540
And then I went to him and just sat in his presence.

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01:39:34.540 --> 01:39:41.100
In other words, I allowed God to be with me while I was feeling that angry.

1427
01:39:41.100 --> 01:39:45.380
And I just was literally, I felt like I was sitting in his presence as if his presence

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01:39:45.380 --> 01:39:49.540
is that he was sitting here and his presence was like this cloud or whatever that completely

1429
01:39:49.540 --> 01:39:50.540
filled me.

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01:39:50.540 --> 01:39:51.780
And I'm inside of him.

1431
01:39:51.780 --> 01:39:57.500
I'm inside of it, feeling all of these, what felt like to me, very sinful, negative, heavy

1432
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:02.000
anger-filled emotions and

1433
01:40:03.040 --> 01:40:07.400
So I recommend that you do that that you do that with the good things that you do that with the negative things in

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01:40:07.400 --> 01:40:09.920
other words positive emotions you do that with the negative ones and

1435
01:40:10.720 --> 01:40:15.720
allow yourself to fully feel your to to fully accept yourself feeling that way and

1436
01:40:17.360 --> 01:40:19.940
See how God fully accepts you

1437
01:40:20.480 --> 01:40:26.080
While you're feeling that way and you'll notice some things you'll notice that saw that he won't correct you

1438
01:40:27.080 --> 01:40:31.000
He won't correct you until you change and say you need to stop that and whatever

1439
01:40:31.560 --> 01:40:37.640
He will allow you to feel that way while you're with him. Just like yeah, I understand you felt that way and

1440
01:40:38.280 --> 01:40:43.160
Then you'll find that just being with God while you feel that way and him not correcting you

1441
01:40:43.480 --> 01:40:49.520
The presence of God will change you the presence of God will heal you. It's

1442
01:40:50.200 --> 01:40:52.200
wild how that happens

1443
01:40:52.920 --> 01:40:55.880
But and so anyway, I would recommend that

1444
01:40:56.400 --> 01:40:58.280
Very very powerful

1445
01:40:58.280 --> 01:41:05.720
Personally, it felt like a very life-changing experience. So I've learned that it's not his correction through knowledge that changes me

1446
01:41:05.760 --> 01:41:07.680
but his presence

1447
01:41:07.680 --> 01:41:14.720
That changes me that will change those emotions that will loosen that stronghold and that that anchor, you know

1448
01:41:15.000 --> 01:41:22.560
To ourselves, I mean of that emotion in ourselves or that belief really that that that and

1449
01:41:23.920 --> 01:41:26.680
Emotion is founded in and it'll release that

1450
01:41:27.320 --> 01:41:33.160
So that's the first exercise the second exercise that I recommend is to dream things

1451
01:41:33.160 --> 01:41:37.120
think about think about things that you want to do or that you want to

1452
01:41:37.720 --> 01:41:41.440
That you want to be like or that you want your life to be like or whatever

1453
01:41:41.960 --> 01:41:48.720
And they could be big dreams they can be small dreams whatever sounds fun, you know dream those good things and then ask yourself

1454
01:41:48.720 --> 01:41:50.720
the seven layers of why

1455
01:41:51.000 --> 01:41:57.360
Be honest with yourself. Remember what we talked about and before about like dreaming in a sandbox with God. You're not making a decision

1456
01:41:57.640 --> 01:42:01.600
You're just playing you're like, oh, I wonder what it'd be like when we did this

1457
01:42:01.600 --> 01:42:04.360
I wonder if it would be like what it would be like if we do that and

1458
01:42:05.320 --> 01:42:10.240
And then ask yourself the seven layers of why ask. Okay. Why do I want that?

1459
01:42:10.960 --> 01:42:13.880
Well, I want it because this okay. Well, why is that important?

1460
01:42:14.520 --> 01:42:18.480
Why do I want that and then do that and ask yourself?

1461
01:42:18.480 --> 01:42:23.320
Why seven times and then you'll get to know you'll get to know yourself

1462
01:42:23.320 --> 01:42:27.800
You get to know what it is. You really want and why you want that how you're building your desires

1463
01:42:28.520 --> 01:42:33.680
What are they all based on and related to and determined by you know, etc

1464
01:42:34.080 --> 01:42:39.680
so I hope that and today has been helpful and it's given y'all and food for thought and

1465
01:42:40.400 --> 01:42:45.960
And so please go through these those practices because I've actually even baked some practices into

1466
01:42:46.400 --> 01:42:52.160
The actual teaching itself when I was telling you, you know, hey, these are the things that you do whenever you encounter your emotions

1467
01:42:53.160 --> 01:42:56.160
Positive or negative ones, you know allow yourself to fully fill them

1468
01:42:56.720 --> 01:42:58.720
Because I think you'll have questions

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01:42:58.840 --> 01:43:04.240
As you have questions come up you let know and I will get back to y'all get to talk to y'all