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We'll just jump straight to you, Melinda, and hear your story, and then we'll come back

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to Patty when she gets back in the zone.

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We've got just about everyone back.

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Eli, welcome.

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Jamie, welcome.

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Michelle, welcome.

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Natalie, welcome.

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And Linda, why don't you unmute, and everyone else just stuck yourself on mute.

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And we'll get into it.

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Are we good to go?

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Yeah, go for it.

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Good morning, good evening, whatever it is for everyone.

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But it's morning here.

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I'm doing this scared, going to be totally honest, because I just have a barrage of emotions.

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And I'm going to push my way through it.

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When we first did the first session, what was going on was just permission to hear that

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I had permission to fail.

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And it was like a new concept to me.

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So that Sunday, I guess it was here, I just worked through that paper, the PDF, and just

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wrote down a lot of lies I was believing based on that.

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And throughout the week, I was trying to think of, I felt a lot of confusion, and just overwhelming

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by these feelings of, okay, what, I don't think I even got the next assignment.

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I couldn't find it about, I guess it's writing your biggest failure.

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And as I began reading others and thinking about, okay, my biggest failure, I wasn't happy

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with just saying, well, my marriage, I thought of instances where I felt like a real failure

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in not hearing God, not being obedient to God, a time that actually was where I felt

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like I was being obedient to him and was present for the birth of our first grandbaby's twins

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that didn't make it.

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And that really toppled my whole world as far as believing God for miracles and healings,

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because I'd seen them in the past, walked out in those kinds of things.

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But it just, I was devastated.

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And out of that, God spoke to me about entitlement.

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And I don't know if I'm all over the map here with my thinking, but I was more or less trying

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to get to what's the real root cause of this.

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And today I just felt like because I've tried to be the fixer of everything and everyone,

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that that has been my biggest failure in relationships, in taking things into my own hand

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and just believing that I've had to fix life for everyone.

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And so going forward, and Benji, your testimony as far as my marriage was injuring through whatever

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because I believe in covenant.

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And taking that seriously, that there's some mix of coming from a broken home, not wanting that,

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and then at the end, loving through even how do we love our enemies, whatever enemies look like.

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And yet still not lose ourselves in that. So that's sort of where I'm at.

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And just really asking God to bring clarity in those areas.

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It's the real, that's the real stuff, eh,

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when we start looking at failure.

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So thanks for being vulnerable.

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We all appreciate that.

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I'm sure everyone can feel it's releasing their love

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all around you right now.

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I know, I know, I'm really, I'm just gonna get,

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well, we'll bring you back on shortly, Patty,

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just to finish off your declaration.

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But how about we have Ashley,

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how about you just take a moment just to pray for Linda

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and that'll be awesome.

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So if you just pray for Linda,

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and Linda, we really appreciate that vulnerability.

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Yeah, Lord, I just thank you for your precious child, Linda.

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God, that she is beautifully and wonderfully made

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in your image with incredible plans and purposes,

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Lord, that you have given her.

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God, and I thank you, you are the God of restoration, God,

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the God of healing, the God of many chances, God.

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And I thank you for the deep work

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that you are doing in Linda.

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And I thank you and I praise you for the breakthrough,

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the healing and the freedom in her life, God.

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I thank you, Holy Spirit, for giving her the courage

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and the strength to go deeper in you, God.

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And I just thank you for what lies ahead, God,

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that she is meant to walk in the fullness of her identity

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and glory in you, God.

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So I thank you, God, for Linda,

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and I just pray and bless, God,

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that all you are doing in her, God.

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We bless her, Lord, we love her,

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and we're just gonna pray and stand in the gap

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for her right now, Lord, in your precious name, amen.

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Amen.

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Thank you.

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Thank you so much.

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Thanks.

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Lots of love to you guys.

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And thanks, everyone, for sharing as well.

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Thanks for sharing your failure stories.

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It's bizarre how encouraging hearing about failure is, eh?

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It's like, it's kind of a crazy thing, right?

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You're reading someone's most heartbreaking moment

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and strangely being encouraged at the same time.

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And I think part of that is the fact

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that we realize we're not alone in our valleys of failure

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and that we walk deeply.

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So, Hattie, you were just about done on your declaration.

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You'd just gone past an adventurous, carefree Andy.

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So if you wanna pick it up just from just after that

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and then finish that off would be awesome.

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Got to...

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Hattie, you were just about done on your declaration.

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You'd just gone past an adventurous, carefree Andy.

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So if you wanna pick it up just from just after that

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and then finish that off would be awesome.

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So if you wanna pick it up just from just after that

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and then finish that off would be awesome.

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So if you wanna pick it up just from just after that

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and just turn your volume down on your device.

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That would be awesome.

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You have to wait for the leg.

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Did you say you wanted me to turn my volume down?

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On your device, because we can hear it looping.

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You were just about done on your declaration.

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Right.

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You'd just gone past an adventurous, carefree Andy.

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Can you actually, can you mute that?

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Just turn your volume down on your device.

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Yeah, I'll have to expect full screen to do that.

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Just a minute, yeah.

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Is that better?

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To turn my volume down?

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Is that better?

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Yep.

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Correct.

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I need to turn your volume right down, Hattie.

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It's on your device.

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Turn your volume button to no volume.

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I'm sorry, I can't hear you now, Benji.

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What do I need to do?

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Read the comments.

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Read the comments, sorry.

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I can't do that, okay.

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I need to turn your volume right down, Hattie.

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It's on your device.

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Alright, go for it, from an adventurous carefree Andy, finish off that declaration, be great.

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Yeah, Paddy, so just go for it, just finish off your declaration, last chance, okay, last

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chance, if we don't get it this time, we're gonna have to get you to copy and paste it into the

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comments. This, this is like, this is a fail right here for everyone who is wondering what

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the definition of failure is, that's right, it's a healthy process, failure is the pathway to

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success, it's worth failing to, something's worth, yeah, so Paddy, are you reading the comments,

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you can't hear me now, so, Paddy, you're not reading the comments, we've got no communication,

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Paddy, we've lost Paddy, Houston, we've lost Paddy, I know I asked you to turn your volume down,

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but it was because it was lagging and looping and it was going to chaos, so I'm gonna move on,

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sorry Paddy, so I'll keep chatting with Paddy in the comments, but someone else want to jump in

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there, we'll take one more testimony of someone who's really got something on their heart, you

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know, from, from the week that they love to share, and then I want to chuck something else in there

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for everyone to just be chatting and processing together, so who would love to jump in there now

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and share, on Zoom or on Facebook, sorry, on Zoom, yeah, oh, go for it, yeah, I'll be, I will go for it,

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so we're talking about stories of failure, yeah, okay, I've actually just got done working on

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part of my failure worksheet that we had, the homework, and I think for me, one of my biggest

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failures is just, I kind of looked down at it recently, just looking through that whole worksheet,

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that fear failure is one of the root causes, I said that helps me struggle with a lot of things

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that I go through in terms of my identity, in my walk with, like my identity in Christ,

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I guess, like one of the biggest failures that I've been experiencing recently is just this

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whole idea of grace that the Lord's been constantly teaching me, is understanding what grace is,

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and I feel like He's been, like, nailing that concept for me, and I feel like every time I

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get this concept that I always mess up on the concept of grace, and so, you know, throughout all

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of those moments, I just, you know, when you get to those moments of failure, you're like, man, Lord,

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you just taught me what grace is, and then I just messed up on the idea of grace, and then you start

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saying, like, man, God, I keep messing this up, and yet you've already told me what it was, but why can't

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I seem to get it? Then you get into that moment of, like, your emotion starts to go down, you know,

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and you get to that moment of despair, but yet, for God's just been very faithful with me about grace,

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and every time He's teaching me about grace, He's like, Eli, I'm still giving you grace,

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and then you're, like, trying to wrap your mind around it, and then He's just like, Eli, just

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believe in grace, you know, receive grace, and so, I just, I share that story, because I know He's been

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teaching me what grace is. He's been fortifying the whole idea of grace is in my life, in specific

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areas in my life, and also just the whole idea of failure. As we're reading these stories, He just

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kind of re-highlights me, like, these are, this is grace, you know, when you fail, that's my grace

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that gets you up, that's my grace that keeps you on going forward, and even reading these guys, like,

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J.K. Rowling, the story of J.K. Rowling, you know, and Colonel Sanders, like those things

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really encouraged me because that's showing the grace of God over their lives. And I'm just like,

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man, God's moving in grace even in non-believers. And that hit my heart because it just shows the

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goodness of God towards everybody. And so that just re-encouraged me again to keep saying,

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hey, Eli, I'm still with you in your process right now. I know you. I understand you. So even

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when you fail, you didn't really fail. So he's been kind of re-encouraging that for me. And

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it's literally by the grace of God. So yeah. That's amazing. Who got a lot of value out of

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just reading all those stories of your quotes on failure and stories of failure? Who enjoyed that?

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Yeah. Encouraging, eh? Just seeing how people have just walked through so much failure. But

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it's such a, like when you look at someone's life from kind of like this distant perspective

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and you go, wow, their life was just so full of failure, but we never get to see that. All we see

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is the victory story, the triumph at the end, but not realizing how their pathway to success

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was a brutal life of failure, where the only thing that really got them to that point of actually,

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that point of success was just determination not to give up completely on life,

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because they were just dragging themselves basically through these valleys of failure

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till this moment where, oh my gosh, all of a sudden it actually clicked. So I just find it

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pretty encouraging, that process. Now, so I want to put one thing out there for us for

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discussion. I'm just going to pull my curtain because the sun is so bright here.

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I've got a verse for us and a concept that I just want to share about, because the thing that I've

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been thinking about a lot this week is our secret in a narcissist. So narcissism at its base is just

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selfishness. It's just selfishness, but it's a selfishness that produces a blindness. And

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narcissism is like, it's a really popular word right now to go around saying everyone's a

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narcissist. You're like, oh, that person's problem is they're a narcissist, right? But

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if we want to take extreme ownership, we have to actually stop pointing the finger about everyone

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else being a narcissist and actually identify what narcissism is and how it's impacting our own lives.

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Because I would never have labeled myself a narcissist. I would never have said that was

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an issue for me. Who would, right? Who would go around saying that, oh, my issue was my narcissism.

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That's the real issue for me. Who's going to want to go around with that testimony?

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No, not me. But the thing is that it wasn't until I actually took ownership of that reality,

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right? That I was narcissistic in my own marriage and it was my own narcissism that was

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the epicenter of my greatest problems in my life. But the problem is, so here's the verse,

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right? Here's the verse that I want to share with you, which is Matthew 6, 23.

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Because narcissism, the thing about narcissism that makes it so dangerous is it makes us blind,

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or it makes us blind to our own failures. It makes us blind to our own weaknesses,

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and it's totally connected to our fear of failure, right? We get so freaked out and triggered,

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so when we're afraid to fail, when we've got this real fear of failure, it triggers

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emotional responses, right? It triggers feelings that actually, that emotional overwhelm

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will blind us to what's right in front of us, right? So when you trigger out of fear,

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you get blind to what's right in front of you. So when you're afraid, you're blind.

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So if you go deeper into the root of why we get narcissistic, it's actually because a person is

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absolutely terrified. They're so terrified of reality that they have an emotional reaction

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that shuts down their capacity to see reality. You just get blinded. You know what we have sayings

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like, love is blind, pride is blind, love is blind, love is blind, love is blind, love is blind.

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Pride is blind, well, fear is blind too.

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And fear is possibly blinder than everything else, right?

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Like if love is blind,

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who can relate to love being blind totally?

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For me, I can relate to love being blind.

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I can relate to, you know, pride is blind now,

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but fear is blind, right?

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Fear is like on a whole nother level of blindness

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to everything else

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because fear operates at an unconscious

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and subconscious level.

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So what happens with fear

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and what happens with fear turning us into narcissists

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is that it's taking place

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at a subconscious and unconscious level.

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You know, we're not even consciously aware

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that this process is happening

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because it's not a mental process.

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It's a much deeper process

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of the deeper things of our hearts,

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the deeper things of our minds.

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It doesn't actually require a cognitive process

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for you to go through this process and go,

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well, you know what?

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I feel so afraid right now, I'm just gonna shut down.

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It happens on a much, much deeper level.

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You're not even,

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your thought life isn't even involved on it.

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You can't even access that level of depth of your beliefs

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until you really meditate and go really deep

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and get really, really serious about hearing

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and figuring out what's happening.

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And that's why failure is actually your friend, okay?

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Because failure, I love some of these quotes about failure,

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like Dave Riddell's quote,

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failure isn't fatal, it's just feedback.

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That to me is so powerful.

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You know, failure isn't fatal, it's just feedback.

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But when we view failure as fatal,

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when we view failure as, oh my gosh, the end of the world,

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when we have that perspective

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that failure is a really, really bad thing,

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what happens is anytime we're around failure,

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we start triggering this intense fear of failure.

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So let's go, whoa!

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And so we have that triggering happening,

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but it's because of this deep level mindset

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that we have that failure is a bad thing,

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failure is fatal, failure is a terrible thing,

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as opposed to, hey, failure is okay,

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and failure is a part of the journey towards success.

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Failure is normal, failure is healthy.

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What if our mindset, what if our deep-rooted belief

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is that failure is healthy and failure is my friend

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and failure is gonna be my coach and my guide

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into my greatest success?

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Because if you, imagine sitting down at a table, right?

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Imagine if you sat down at a table

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and one person that you sat down with was your best friend

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and one person that you sat down with was your worst enemy.

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And your best friend was really safe,

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but your worst enemy, you couldn't trust them

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because at any moment, any moment,

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you thought they might kill you.

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And you knew they were dangerous,

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you knew they had the ability to kill you,

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you knew that they were armed and dangerous,

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they were sitting there as an enemy.

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Which one are you gonna be able to listen to?

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And which one could you take some advice from?

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See, the reality is that failure is both of those people,

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and it depends on our perspective on failure, right?

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So if our perspective on failure

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is that failure is our worst enemy

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and failure could kill us in an instant

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and failure can't be trusted and failure

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is our great nemesis, then who's gonna feel safe?

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You're not gonna feel safe

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if you think your life is in danger, you're gonna trigger,

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you're gonna be like, your heart rate's gonna be raising,

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you think this is life or death, oh my gosh.

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And you're gonna think that they're your enemy,

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so they're trying to attack you,

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they're trying to take from you,

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they're trying to destroy your life,

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so you're not gonna wanna hear what they've got to say.

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You're not gonna relax and open your heart up

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and go, okay, hey, what do you have to share with me today?

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As opposed to if it was your best friend

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that you're sitting down at the table with,

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you've got a cuppa, you relax, you're chatting,

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and then they say, hey, I'd really like to share with you

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something that I think's an amazing opportunity

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for you right now, just to make a little change here

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that's gonna really help your life.

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Can you go this track with me

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in terms of how this actually works?

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I have a subconscious, unconscious thing,

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it's not even part of our rational thinking process,

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it just is completely dependent on our core belief

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of what failure is.

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And if our core belief that exists

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in the very depth of our psychology,

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the depth of our heart, the depth of the core of our being,

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if our core belief is that failure is our nemesis,

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failure is our enemy, failure is a life or death thing,

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then at that point, what happens is we...

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we start, any time we get around failure,

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we think about failure, we start triggering

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an emotional response that's happening

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and a spiritual response that's happening

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that makes us blind to the information

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that failure is trying to give us.

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Whereas when failure is our friend

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and when we see failure as a coach and failure as a friend,

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you know, like, I'm gonna tell you a really funny

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but awkward story, right?

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So there I am when I was working in youth

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and I was having a chat to one of the dads of the kids.

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I just, I was picking up the kids

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to take them to a pre-meeting

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but the dad wanted to chat with me.

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And so we're standing out.

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It was actually a really cold morning.

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We're standing out there and it was like 7 a.m.

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So we're picking the kid up for pre-meeting

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and the dad's in his pajamas.

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But here's the awkward, crazy thing, right?

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Like the dad's penis was hanging out

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the front of his pajamas.

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And I was like, oh my gosh.

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And I was just like, I just want to leave, right?

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I just want to leave.

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I want to like, I don't want to be around here.

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And I'm like, how can this guy not tell what's going on

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because it is so cold out here.

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I'm like, this is not happening, right?

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This is not happening.

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Now, what are you gonna say to that guy, right?

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I was just like, I just like,

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I didn't really, I just tried to finish the conversation

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as quickly as I could and just leave, right?

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I was just like, oh my gosh.

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But if you were out in public, you know,

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would you want someone to tell you what was going on?

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Would you want to live your whole life like that?

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Not with no one telling you?

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See, failure is your friend.

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You know, like failure is the one that's going to tell you

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there's something going on down there, mate.

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See, I wasn't that guy's friend.

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I was just like, I'm out of here.

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But you know, but what if that was,

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but that's the thing, like failure is your friend.

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It's going to give you the feedback

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that no one else will give you.

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Failure will be like, hey bro, like seriously,

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stop, like go back in the house,

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sort yourself out and then carry on with your life.

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But the problem is, right,

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is that when we don't listen to failure,

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it's like we're that man standing on his porch

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with his willy hanging out.

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And then he's like, flip, I should go and do the groceries.

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I should go and do the groceries now.

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Like, da-da-da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da, striding around.

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But it's like, this guy can't seem to get like,

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like there's all these awkward looks going on.

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You know, like there's people going,

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hey, what's going on with this guy?

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Like, huh?

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But that guy can't, if you can't process failure, right?

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If you're so afraid of failure that you can't hear it,

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it will actually blind you to reality.

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So you'll be like, na-na-na-na-na, doing my groceries.

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Hey, going to the petrol station.

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Yeah, living my life.

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Going to church now.

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Yes, here we are, we're going to church now.

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All right.

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And like, you're so blinded by your fear of failure

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that you can't take any feedback.

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Is this making sense?

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So here's like the line that Jesus had on that.

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Jesus' line on that was Matthew 6, 23, he said,

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but if your eyes are unhealthy,

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your whole body, if then the light within you is darkness,

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how great is that darkness?

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So this is the key part.

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If the light within you is darkness,

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how great is that darkness?

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Because what fear of failure does,

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is fear of failure is so terrified of reality

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that you fail.

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It's so terrified of it, that it makes up a new story.

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It makes up a new story and substitutes truth

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and substitutes reality for your new story.

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So fear of failure is so terrified of failing

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that it goes, instead of listening to the truth,

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instead of listening to the feedback

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that failure is giving me,

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I'm going to tell myself a new story.

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And in that example, right?

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It will be that guy saying, there's nothing wrong.

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You're like, there's nothing wrong with my dress code.

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You know?

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It would be like him telling himself,

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hey, my dress code is awesome.

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I might go to a restaurant right now.

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I might go out to the pub right now.

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I might, I'll tell you what,

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I might go visit my mother.

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My dress code is fantastic.

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That's the story in that scenario.

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That's the story we tell ourselves,

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but is it reality?

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It is not reality.

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And that's exactly where narcissism,

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that's what narcissism does, right?

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Narcissism blinds us to.

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reality, and we substitute reality for our own made up story that makes us feel better

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about our circumstances.

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And that's exactly what I was doing in my marriage, right?

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And that's why I couldn't take ownership for the fact that I was responsible for at least

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50% of the issues in my marriage, I was responsible, right?

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Because my fear of failure was blinding me to my own mess and causing me to, instead of hearing

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the story of my own mess, instead of taking feedback from failure, which was coming in the

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form of pain over and over, pain over and over and over, and I'm going, oh, where's this pain

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coming from? And I was, but the light within me was darkness. So I'm wondering, I was so

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confused. I was like, where's all this pain coming from? I just can't figure it out. Where's all

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this pain coming from? And the pain was coming because I was making bad decisions, right?

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But my fear of failure had triggered such a like, oh, no, this can't be me. Surely not me.

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Surely I'm more of an angel than a narcissist, right? So my fear of failure caused me to

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substitute reality for my own made up imaginary story. So I lived in a fantasy,

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right? Like in my mind, I'm in a fantasy, but the pain in my heart is not very fantastic.

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You know, so in my mind, if the light within me was darkness, and when the light within you

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is darkness, the pain in your life is going to start increasing and increasing and increasing

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until, and so for me, what happened is the pain in my heart started increasing and increasing

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and increasing until I got to a place of desperation, where I had to, in that place of

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desperation, I finally allowed myself to meditate deeply enough and come to that point of like,

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so if we go back to that analogy, where you're sitting at a table, and you're sitting at a table

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with failure, you know, are you going to see your enemy? Or are you going to see a friend? So

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basically, what happened for me is I sat at the table of my own pain and disappointment and

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discouragement, with so much desperation, trying to figure out where the pain was coming from,

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that the enemy in front of me slowly changed. And I actually realized the enemy,

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you know, failure who was sitting in front of me wasn't my enemy and was my friend, and I could

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listen. And I finally out of desperation, not because I was smart, I was just in so much pain

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that I couldn't figure out a better another option. I was like, okay, my marriage is at stake here.

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What am I going to do? I've got absolutely no idea. I'm backed into a corner. I've got no idea

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how to save my marriage. I've got no idea what to do with this pain. I'm desperate. I've got nowhere

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else to go. I was so desperate that I kind of sat down with my enemy, you know, like I sat down in

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that place with my failure, desperately wanting to figure it out until I actually could

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finally hear the information that failure was giving me. Is that making sense to you guys?

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I feel like this is a real deep thing that most people don't ever get to have this conversation,

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but if the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness? Yeah, Eli, totally.

471
00:33:21.360 --> 00:33:28.560
Um, so I kind of get, I get what you're saying. Um,

472
00:33:28.960 --> 00:33:34.400
so my thing that I've been struggling with recently is I get a lot of like thoughts of guilt,

473
00:33:34.400 --> 00:33:39.520
shame, condemnation being thrown at once. And then sometimes when you're doing those things,

474
00:33:39.520 --> 00:33:43.120
like you get thoughts that you're not, you're discerning, are these my thoughts? Are these

475
00:33:44.640 --> 00:33:51.600
the enemy's thoughts? And then, and sometimes like when you do hear the Lord, I do hear there's

476
00:33:51.600 --> 00:33:58.480
this couple of times where I did hear the Lord convict me and it, it just, it just, it just

477
00:33:58.880 --> 00:34:05.600
sounded scary at first, you know? Um, scary in a sense of like, maybe that's true, you know?

478
00:34:07.360 --> 00:34:16.400
Does that make sense? Like, and so like, and so like recently, I guess like as you're sharing

479
00:34:16.400 --> 00:34:24.159
this, like I've been having these thoughts, like, like what, what am I, what's, what's,

480
00:34:24.159 --> 00:34:28.560
what am I processing right now? Like, I feel like it's kind of like I'm processing these

481
00:34:28.560 --> 00:34:33.280
positive things, but then at the same time, I feel like I'm missing something, you know,

482
00:34:33.280 --> 00:34:42.080
if that makes sense. Yeah, totally. And, um, and this is like, here's a crazy thing, right? Here's

483
00:34:42.080 --> 00:34:47.760
a crazy thing that makes life really difficult is that we're, when we're on it, we all start

484
00:34:47.760 --> 00:34:57.200
out on a journey where we've got to discover our identity, right? Um, but when we're in a place

485
00:34:57.200 --> 00:34:59.920
where we're on our, on our identity journey, we're

486
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.160
discovering who we are, for me that whole journey,

487
00:35:04.160 --> 00:35:06.800
you know, the beginning of that journey

488
00:35:06.800 --> 00:35:09.680
was a place where I didn't know my identity, right?

489
00:35:09.680 --> 00:35:14.680
I was in a place of shame, self-hatred, condemnation,

490
00:35:15.720 --> 00:35:17.800
and it was really easy.

491
00:35:17.800 --> 00:35:19.280
Like I had all these triggers

492
00:35:19.280 --> 00:35:21.280
and I had all this sin in my life

493
00:35:21.280 --> 00:35:24.280
that gave the enemy a platform to actually operate

494
00:35:24.280 --> 00:35:26.200
and to speak into my life.

495
00:35:26.200 --> 00:35:31.200
And so our mind is like, our mind is a total mess, right?

496
00:35:33.080 --> 00:35:35.920
Our mind is a total mess.

497
00:35:37.240 --> 00:35:39.280
And then you're on top of that, trying to process,

498
00:35:39.280 --> 00:35:42.320
okay, right, failure, right, let's do a failure as well.

499
00:35:42.320 --> 00:35:46.080
So it's kind of like, if I was just to be real

500
00:35:46.080 --> 00:35:48.360
about what my mind used to be like,

501
00:35:48.360 --> 00:35:51.040
my mind used to be kind of like this omelette.

502
00:35:51.040 --> 00:35:52.680
You guys make omelette, like scrambled eggs,

503
00:35:52.680 --> 00:35:54.920
you just chuck a whole bunch of, like omelette for me,

504
00:35:54.920 --> 00:35:56.320
I loved omelette when I was growing up,

505
00:35:56.320 --> 00:35:57.720
that was an easy meal to make

506
00:35:57.720 --> 00:35:59.680
because I could just take leftovers and some eggs

507
00:35:59.680 --> 00:36:00.760
and just whack it in a pan

508
00:36:00.760 --> 00:36:03.200
and then it would be done in a few minutes.

509
00:36:03.200 --> 00:36:04.640
I'm like, wow, this is awesome.

510
00:36:04.640 --> 00:36:07.960
I just like grabbed the leftovers from dinner and some eggs

511
00:36:07.960 --> 00:36:08.800
and I put them in a bowl,

512
00:36:08.800 --> 00:36:10.000
just kind of swirl them all around

513
00:36:10.000 --> 00:36:11.560
and then like tip it into the frying pan

514
00:36:11.560 --> 00:36:13.040
and in no time I had a great meal.

515
00:36:13.040 --> 00:36:14.040
It's like, yes, you know,

516
00:36:14.040 --> 00:36:15.880
I can make that as like a little kid.

517
00:36:15.880 --> 00:36:18.080
I'm like, yeah, this is awesome, I'm a pro.

518
00:36:19.840 --> 00:36:23.840
But imagine if you were making an omelette

519
00:36:23.880 --> 00:36:25.880
but your omelette was condemnation

520
00:36:25.880 --> 00:36:28.880
and self-hatred and shame

521
00:36:28.880 --> 00:36:33.320
and like a whole bunch of evil spirits

522
00:36:33.320 --> 00:36:35.640
speaking their perspective of your identity

523
00:36:36.600 --> 00:36:38.400
and then also your own failure

524
00:36:38.400 --> 00:36:40.840
and then also your own pain

525
00:36:40.840 --> 00:36:43.040
and then also your own confusion

526
00:36:43.040 --> 00:36:46.120
and then also your own like trying to, you know,

527
00:36:46.120 --> 00:36:47.560
like all the negative voices

528
00:36:47.560 --> 00:36:49.000
that have ever spoken into your life

529
00:36:49.000 --> 00:36:51.000
and then all the negative experiences that have happened

530
00:36:51.000 --> 00:36:52.480
and the abuse that's happened

531
00:36:52.520 --> 00:36:55.520
and, you know, and you're like,

532
00:36:55.520 --> 00:36:56.800
you're right in the middle of failing.

533
00:36:56.800 --> 00:36:57.760
It's like, oh my gosh,

534
00:36:57.760 --> 00:37:01.280
like how am I gonna ever get any good information

535
00:37:01.280 --> 00:37:03.920
out of this chaos that's going on in my mind?

536
00:37:05.160 --> 00:37:07.120
So I guess what I'm saying is,

537
00:37:07.120 --> 00:37:10.120
Eli, I can really relate to what you're saying

538
00:37:10.120 --> 00:37:14.400
because my mind used to be a destructive omelette

539
00:37:14.400 --> 00:37:17.960
of chaos and confusion

540
00:37:17.960 --> 00:37:22.600
and it makes the process of getting good information

541
00:37:22.600 --> 00:37:25.640
to make good decisions really slow and difficult.

542
00:37:26.640 --> 00:37:31.280
And it also means that you make way more mistakes

543
00:37:31.280 --> 00:37:32.280
in the process.

544
00:37:34.240 --> 00:37:36.000
You know, for me, that's what it was like.

545
00:37:36.000 --> 00:37:39.800
It was slow, like progress was slow.

546
00:37:39.800 --> 00:37:43.000
Making mistakes was not like common.

547
00:37:44.480 --> 00:37:47.160
You know, it's like trying to do life

548
00:37:47.160 --> 00:37:49.240
with everything that could possibly hold you back,

549
00:37:49.240 --> 00:37:50.640
holding you back,

550
00:37:50.640 --> 00:37:54.320
except that the battle is all raging in our minds.

551
00:37:54.320 --> 00:37:56.720
And that's why, you know,

552
00:37:56.720 --> 00:37:59.960
that's why Paul writes in, you know, Romans 12,

553
00:38:00.800 --> 00:38:04.360
there's to be transformed by the renewing of your mind

554
00:38:04.360 --> 00:38:05.920
because it will totally transform you.

555
00:38:05.920 --> 00:38:08.600
Like when your mind goes from like an evil omelette

556
00:38:08.600 --> 00:38:12.200
of chaos to a masterpiece,

557
00:38:14.120 --> 00:38:14.960
think of it.

558
00:38:15.400 --> 00:38:17.160
You know, how much easier is it going to be

559
00:38:17.160 --> 00:38:18.400
to get good information?

560
00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:22.280
How, you know, so what my life looks like now

561
00:38:22.280 --> 00:38:24.480
compared to what it used to look like

562
00:38:24.480 --> 00:38:26.760
is mistakes aren't as common.

563
00:38:27.760 --> 00:38:29.920
So I've always got way better information.

564
00:38:32.200 --> 00:38:36.280
You know, it's like confusion is rare.

565
00:38:36.280 --> 00:38:38.080
I hardly ever get confused.

566
00:38:38.080 --> 00:38:39.600
If I get confused, it's usually just

567
00:38:39.600 --> 00:38:42.360
because I'm actually solving a really difficult problem.

568
00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:44.800
It's not anything to do with life or identity

569
00:38:45.360 --> 00:38:46.200
or anything like that.

570
00:38:46.200 --> 00:38:47.040
It's usually because I'm taking on

571
00:38:47.040 --> 00:38:48.200
a really, really big challenge

572
00:38:48.200 --> 00:38:49.880
and I'm solving that problem.

573
00:38:49.880 --> 00:38:53.640
And I'm also not having to use up all my emotional energy

574
00:38:53.640 --> 00:38:55.720
trying to process all that chaos anymore.

575
00:38:56.800 --> 00:38:58.960
You know, it's like Paul writes as well in, you know,

576
00:38:58.960 --> 00:39:02.480
2 Corinthians 5.10,

577
00:39:02.480 --> 00:39:05.760
take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.

578
00:39:06.640 --> 00:39:10.040
So what I'm saying about that, about where you're at

579
00:39:10.040 --> 00:39:12.600
is that this one heck of a journey,

580
00:39:12.600 --> 00:39:14.360
but there's one heck of a price.

581
00:39:15.800 --> 00:39:20.800
The renewed mind is so outrageously powerful.

582
00:39:21.240 --> 00:39:23.840
It will give you more energy.

583
00:39:23.840 --> 00:39:26.840
Imagine a life where you didn't have to,

584
00:39:26.840 --> 00:39:28.520
like when you process negative emotions,

585
00:39:28.520 --> 00:39:29.680
it robs you energy.

586
00:39:31.880 --> 00:39:34.840
And when you process positive emotions,

587
00:39:34.840 --> 00:39:35.840
it gives you energy.

588
00:39:38.120 --> 00:39:40.400
So just that one thing, like people often ask me,

589
00:39:40.400 --> 00:39:42.400
man, how have you got so much energy?

590
00:39:42.400 --> 00:39:43.720
And a big part of the reason is

591
00:39:43.760 --> 00:39:46.760
because I'm always processing positive emotions,

592
00:39:46.760 --> 00:39:49.600
but I'm very, very rarely ever having

593
00:39:49.600 --> 00:39:51.040
to process negative emotions.

594
00:39:52.320 --> 00:39:54.120
And yeah.

595
00:39:55.000 --> 00:39:56.040
Oh, I'm sorry.

596
00:39:56.040 --> 00:39:59.960
No, I, so the reason why I'm asking is.

597
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.360
It's like a lot of times when people bring up things like not narcissism,

598
00:40:04.360 --> 00:40:08.520
but in the past when sometimes, you know, you, you point out like, Oh,

599
00:40:08.560 --> 00:40:12.080
you might be narcissistic or you have like condemnation and you're like,

600
00:40:12.240 --> 00:40:18.040
Oh my goodness, what if that's me? You know? Yeah. And in the past,

601
00:40:18.040 --> 00:40:21.600
what the Lord has been teaching me is like, I'm writing my notes.

602
00:40:21.600 --> 00:40:23.200
I've been journaling a lot, you know,

603
00:40:23.600 --> 00:40:28.120
and these homework assignments have been helping me is he's been telling me to

604
00:40:28.160 --> 00:40:33.120
just keep, don't investigate in those motions, you know?

605
00:40:33.120 --> 00:40:38.240
Like, so he's been teaching me not to like get caught up in dwelling

606
00:40:38.240 --> 00:40:41.600
on those emotions or those thoughts, or like trying to investigate my,

607
00:40:41.640 --> 00:40:44.480
what's wrong with me, you know? But at the same time,

608
00:40:44.480 --> 00:40:46.200
like when I'm hearing what you're saying,

609
00:40:46.200 --> 00:40:51.000
I also understand that there's a realistic aspect where you do need to

610
00:40:51.200 --> 00:40:54.040
evaluate yourself, you know?

611
00:40:54.440 --> 00:40:56.880
And so during this process, it's kind of like

612
00:40:58.360 --> 00:41:02.880
that learning of discernment of evaluating versus like in trying to

613
00:41:02.880 --> 00:41:06.000
investigate what's going on. Does that, does that make sense?

614
00:41:06.240 --> 00:41:09.440
Genius, man. That's really, really important part, right?

615
00:41:09.440 --> 00:41:12.520
Because you talked about condemnation and conviction,

616
00:41:14.160 --> 00:41:16.800
you know, like condemnation. When you get in,

617
00:41:16.840 --> 00:41:20.160
you can get into that flow of kind of condemnation and self-reflective and just

618
00:41:20.160 --> 00:41:23.840
exploring all the reasons that things that are wrong with you, you know,

619
00:41:23.840 --> 00:41:27.160
condemnation is always going to bring negativity.

620
00:41:27.160 --> 00:41:30.720
But when you spoke about conviction, it sometimes can be challenging,

621
00:41:30.720 --> 00:41:30.880
you know,

622
00:41:30.880 --> 00:41:33.600
like you're in that place where there's a voice of condemnation speaking,

623
00:41:33.600 --> 00:41:38.120
but God's also bringing conviction. So yeah, it's a beautiful place, man.

624
00:41:38.160 --> 00:41:39.240
There's a balance there.

625
00:41:39.280 --> 00:41:43.600
It requires that process of actually just like really journey with the Lord and

626
00:41:43.800 --> 00:41:46.440
this whole thing about failure and what I was talking about,

627
00:41:46.440 --> 00:41:49.800
that chaos and what you're talking about, condemnation versus conviction.

628
00:41:50.120 --> 00:41:52.280
It's really just like holding fast,

629
00:41:52.320 --> 00:41:55.480
going on the journey and you just get better and better and better.

630
00:41:55.480 --> 00:41:58.560
The more times you fail, you'll get better. You know, like the more,

631
00:41:58.600 --> 00:42:02.760
like you listen to the voice of condemnation and get the wrong information and

632
00:42:02.760 --> 00:42:06.480
implement it and get really bad feedback. Like, Oh, that didn't go so well.

633
00:42:07.080 --> 00:42:08.960
Then you'll be sharper for the next time.

634
00:42:09.000 --> 00:42:13.520
So conviction and you'll find that conviction will bring encouragement and

635
00:42:13.520 --> 00:42:17.040
condemnation will bring fear. Like when,

636
00:42:17.600 --> 00:42:20.800
so when I was processing, you know, in the,

637
00:42:20.880 --> 00:42:24.680
in the early days of my journey of like, I don't God, I had this really funny,

638
00:42:24.720 --> 00:42:26.720
I had this really funny moment, right? When I was,

639
00:42:27.720 --> 00:42:31.600
when I was 18, God really got a hold of my life.

640
00:42:31.600 --> 00:42:35.320
And then I started really praying like, okay, God, you know, like deal with me.

641
00:42:35.400 --> 00:42:38.840
Like, I really want you to God. I just started seeking God. And so,

642
00:42:39.000 --> 00:42:42.080
but what I didn't realize is that he wanted to tidy up my mess.

643
00:42:44.160 --> 00:42:46.480
And I was like, Oh no, we're just going to like, I'm just going to have this,

644
00:42:46.480 --> 00:42:47.880
you know, intimacy with God. Right.

645
00:42:47.920 --> 00:42:51.840
But so there I am praying for intimacy with God and going on a journey into

646
00:42:51.840 --> 00:42:55.800
intimacy with God. And then he starts turning up with conviction.

647
00:42:56.440 --> 00:43:00.480
I was like, there's got to be something wrong with this whole process, right?

648
00:43:00.480 --> 00:43:03.520
Because I'm just trying to enjoy God. I'm just trying to get close to God.

649
00:43:03.840 --> 00:43:04.400
And he did,

650
00:43:04.400 --> 00:43:08.320
Holy Spirit just kept on convicting me of all the chaos in my life. It's like,

651
00:43:08.320 --> 00:43:12.560
you know, like this drinking is not working out for you, Benji.

652
00:43:12.760 --> 00:43:15.600
Like that real nasty music is not working out for you.

653
00:43:15.600 --> 00:43:18.600
These behaviors aren't working out for you. And I was like, ah,

654
00:43:18.720 --> 00:43:22.800
so I kind of like surrendered to this point of leading the Holy Spirit convict

655
00:43:22.800 --> 00:43:24.400
me of all my surface issues.

656
00:43:25.000 --> 00:43:28.640
And then he's like getting closer and closer and closer to the real core issues

657
00:43:28.640 --> 00:43:32.560
of my life. And I'm like, Whoa, this is not comfortable. It's not good.

658
00:43:32.560 --> 00:43:35.560
You know, like this is, this is the opposite of good.

659
00:43:35.880 --> 00:43:40.440
And then Holy Spirit started like, he got, he hadn't like, he knew my,

660
00:43:40.440 --> 00:43:42.240
he hadn't like, he, he had me, you know,

661
00:43:42.240 --> 00:43:45.520
in his sights and he had my secret sin in his sights because he knew that was

662
00:43:45.520 --> 00:43:50.000
the core of my dysfunction. And he's like, I got to get this root out.

663
00:43:50.040 --> 00:43:51.720
I got to get this poison out.

664
00:43:52.120 --> 00:43:54.840
And that was the thing I was most fiercely guarding.

665
00:43:54.840 --> 00:43:57.120
And that was the thing he was most aggressively going after.

666
00:43:57.440 --> 00:44:00.760
And so we had this awkward relationship where I was praying.

667
00:44:00.760 --> 00:44:04.960
I was getting up every morning early to go and seek God and pray. And then he,

668
00:44:05.480 --> 00:44:10.040
and then he's trying to convict me. And so I'm getting up early and, you know,

669
00:44:10.040 --> 00:44:13.600
to go and pray, but at the same time doing my very best to avoid God.

670
00:44:17.240 --> 00:44:19.920
Like I was in this total, like crazy place. Cause I was like,

671
00:44:19.920 --> 00:44:20.920
I want more of you guys,

672
00:44:20.920 --> 00:44:22.920
but I don't want to hear anything you've got to say to me right now.

673
00:44:22.920 --> 00:44:25.120
Cause all the stuff you're saying is really annoying.

674
00:44:25.880 --> 00:44:29.520
Like really getting on, like, not just annoying, like triggering me.

675
00:44:29.880 --> 00:44:34.480
Like it was exactly this narcissistic thing where I was so afraid of my secret

676
00:44:34.480 --> 00:44:38.880
sin. Right. This was like stuff that happened in my childhood that I was like,

677
00:44:38.960 --> 00:44:41.920
Oh my gosh, I'm taking that to the grave. I had a trigger there.

678
00:44:41.920 --> 00:44:45.600
You could press that button. And I would, I would rage up.

679
00:44:45.640 --> 00:44:50.320
I would get violent. I would rage up. I was like, no, like you couldn't press.

680
00:44:50.640 --> 00:44:54.440
There was no one was allowed to mess with that or press that button.

681
00:44:54.440 --> 00:44:57.680
Like no one was like, and then when God started to get in there, I was like,

682
00:44:58.120 --> 00:44:59.920
what? No way. And so I finally.

683
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.280
wrote it down in my journal, confessed it to God, and said I was taking it to the grave,

684
00:45:03.280 --> 00:45:08.320
and he had to shut up. I'm like, done deal, we're moving on. And he was like, no.

685
00:45:08.320 --> 00:45:15.760
So months and months went by this awkward conversation where, again, it was this fear

686
00:45:15.760 --> 00:45:23.680
of failure that was causing me to, I knew what God was saying, but I was refusing to hear what

687
00:45:23.680 --> 00:45:28.560
he was trying to say, because it would mean that I would have to confront my greatest failure in

688
00:45:28.560 --> 00:45:35.120
life. I was like, oh God, no. And so eventually, it took months and months and months, but

689
00:45:35.120 --> 00:45:39.680
eventually he kind of broke me down and came to this point of surrender. I actually dealt with it.

690
00:45:42.400 --> 00:45:49.600
And I guess what I'm just trying to share with you guys about is that

691
00:45:50.000 --> 00:45:56.960
it's okay. And part of this process, right, of me, it was like the secret sin for me,

692
00:45:56.960 --> 00:46:01.200
everyone's stuff will be different, and if you can't really compare one person's story to another,

693
00:46:01.200 --> 00:46:05.200
it's just going to be your own story, because your own story is the only one that matters

694
00:46:05.920 --> 00:46:10.880
in your heart. You can't compare to anyone else's, but my story was when we were kids,

695
00:46:10.880 --> 00:46:14.640
we had a season there where we played doctors and nurses, and a handful of kids would come around,

696
00:46:15.200 --> 00:46:19.440
we'd get naked, we'd kind of do just random stuff, pretending we were doctors and nurses.

697
00:46:19.440 --> 00:46:24.560
It was really pretty innocent, there wasn't really that much in it, but for me, it became the source

698
00:46:24.560 --> 00:46:30.640
of like extreme shame and self-hatred, and that there was something intrinsically wrong and evil

699
00:46:30.640 --> 00:46:35.920
about who I was. And then it gave a platform, because it was a secret, and it was like this

700
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:40.880
terrible, terrible thing in my world, it created a platform for, you know, just,

701
00:46:40.880 --> 00:46:46.320
for the enemy to get in there and get in my heart and just relentlessly convict me. And I could go

702
00:46:46.320 --> 00:46:52.480
from the best, doing the best I'd ever done, to rock bottom emotions in an instant. I just,

703
00:46:52.480 --> 00:46:57.680
there was a button there, you press that button on me, just bring up that memory, bring up that

704
00:46:58.240 --> 00:47:04.000
story, and I would go from the best day of my life to the worst day of my life, just like that,

705
00:47:04.800 --> 00:47:09.840
to the worst day of my life, just like that, because there's that button there. And,

706
00:47:11.200 --> 00:47:16.080
and I was just terrified of ever dealing with that, because for me, that was my biggest life

707
00:47:16.080 --> 00:47:21.120
failure. And so I carried it for years and years and years and years. And then when God wanted to

708
00:47:21.120 --> 00:47:27.120
deal with it, and actually get me free from what I thought was my biggest failure, I was so terrified

709
00:47:27.680 --> 00:47:34.000
of my own failure and my own secret sin, and my, I was so terrified of,

710
00:47:35.200 --> 00:47:43.600
of what had happened that I had to shut God out. I shut him out, I couldn't handle him talking to me

711
00:47:43.600 --> 00:47:49.520
about it, I couldn't handle God's feedback to me about it, right. But then when God finally did get

712
00:47:49.520 --> 00:47:54.320
in, I had to go and I think I had to go and speak to like seven different people was his, his remedy

713
00:47:54.320 --> 00:48:00.880
for me. I was like, God, this is insane. Like, I wasn't willing to even talk to you about this.

714
00:48:00.880 --> 00:48:06.480
Now you want me to go and have conversations with seven different people about my secret sin.

715
00:48:07.040 --> 00:48:12.240
And I'm not saying this is his, you know, his pathway for anyone else. But I was like, this

716
00:48:12.240 --> 00:48:19.040
is insane, God, like, how the heck can this even happen? Right. And then so but I was like, this

717
00:48:19.040 --> 00:48:25.760
was, this was kind of the like, one of the biggest life breakthroughs for me. Actually, this processing

718
00:48:25.760 --> 00:48:31.520
this failure was actually what I attribute, like every success I'll ever have in my life comes

719
00:48:31.520 --> 00:48:39.120
back down to this moment when I was like, dealing with this secret sin about 19. Because there I was,

720
00:48:39.120 --> 00:48:43.920
God faced me off and he said, Okay, this is it. This is the moment it has to happen. All he

721
00:48:43.920 --> 00:48:47.840
narrowed me down, he kind of backed me into a corner. I used to live in the very bottom of the

722
00:48:48.320 --> 00:48:54.640
at this time, I was doing I was studying I was, you know, a couple of plane flights away from where

723
00:48:54.640 --> 00:49:00.480
my family was where my hometown was. But I went back to my hometown for a weekend. And he's like,

724
00:49:00.480 --> 00:49:04.240
everything has to be done this weekend. He gave me a list of like seven people. I was like,

725
00:49:04.240 --> 00:49:11.040
this is a terrible weekend. Because this stuff that I wasn't even willing to talk to God about

726
00:49:11.040 --> 00:49:15.440
now I've got to have conversations with all these people. And I know that this is what you want me

727
00:49:15.440 --> 00:49:20.160
to do. And so you know, like, I was just like, Okay, God, you got to give me courage, because I

728
00:49:20.160 --> 00:49:30.080
can't do this by myself. So he gave me courage, but took one step, took another step. And then

729
00:49:30.080 --> 00:49:37.600
it was, oh, my gosh, I got to this place where you know, you say, I saved the worst to last, right?

730
00:49:38.880 --> 00:49:44.560
I saved the worst conversation to last. I was like, Oh, my gosh, this is the worst conversation

731
00:49:44.640 --> 00:49:48.320
I could possibly have. I don't want to have this. I just can't go and visit my neighbor

732
00:49:48.320 --> 00:49:55.280
and have a conversation with my, with my neighbor about stuff. And I was just like, Oh, my God.

733
00:49:57.440 --> 00:49:59.760
And I remember, like

734
00:50:00.800 --> 00:50:06.400
almost being unable to physically move my body walking to the neighbors. I was like, God, you

735
00:50:06.400 --> 00:50:11.760
have to be real right now because there's no way that I can do this because I was so overwhelmed

736
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:17.200
with emotion and fear that I'm like, I can't do this. God, you have to be real for me right now.

737
00:50:18.080 --> 00:50:24.560
Just the grace of God came on me and I was actually able to run. I actually ran to my

738
00:50:24.560 --> 00:50:28.640
neighbor just out of nowhere, going from terrified and barely being able to move to

739
00:50:28.640 --> 00:50:31.440
running to my neighbor's place. We lived on a farm, so it was quite a distance.

740
00:50:34.240 --> 00:50:37.280
Then after having the conversation with every single one of these people,

741
00:50:37.280 --> 00:50:44.320
it wasn't even a big deal for anyone. It wasn't a big deal for anyone. All I was met with was

742
00:50:44.320 --> 00:50:50.400
grace and compassion and encouragement. It wasn't a big deal for any one of those people,

743
00:50:50.400 --> 00:50:54.640
but for me, this is the most terrifying thing that I'd ever done, the biggest failure of my life.

744
00:50:55.200 --> 00:51:00.640
The thing that had been holding me back from God and holding me back from my destiny,

745
00:51:00.640 --> 00:51:04.960
holding me back from everything for years. The thing that was the trigger that could put me

746
00:51:04.960 --> 00:51:10.800
from the best day of my life into a total triggering out on total rage and total dysfunction.

747
00:51:16.240 --> 00:51:22.560
That moment, I remember walking back from that conversation. Before that, I used to visualize,

748
00:51:22.560 --> 00:51:27.280
I used to be able to see. I'd look at myself and in the spirit realm, I could see manacles. I could

749
00:51:27.280 --> 00:51:33.200
see these manacles, chains on my hands. I would have pictures of these of myself in chains,

750
00:51:33.200 --> 00:51:37.920
like a slave, living life. I would have pictures of this is who I am. This is what my life looks

751
00:51:37.920 --> 00:51:46.400
like. From that moment, I went from that place to being totally free. I just had never experienced

752
00:51:46.400 --> 00:51:53.440
freedom on my life like that. Actually, from that, that was the foundation. God got to the

753
00:51:53.440 --> 00:51:58.880
core of everything in my life. That was the foundation that I attribute that moment of

754
00:51:58.880 --> 00:52:06.880
processing that failure to be. That was the core. Everything now that is built on my life is built

755
00:52:06.880 --> 00:52:14.880
on that foundation. It was total surrender. It was just total surrender, but it led to total freedom.

756
00:52:15.120 --> 00:52:21.840
I don't know if you guys had moments, you're like, that was the moment that opened everything

757
00:52:21.840 --> 00:52:27.600
up for me. For me, that was the moment. I grew up in a Christian household, so I didn't have a

758
00:52:28.160 --> 00:52:34.960
moment where I just, I received Jesus. I just always knew Jesus. If there's a moment that I

759
00:52:34.960 --> 00:52:39.760
attribute back to the best decision of my life that set me up for a foundation for everything

760
00:52:39.840 --> 00:52:46.160
that will ever come, it was that weekend, it was that moment that led to freedom like I've never

761
00:52:46.160 --> 00:52:49.360
known before. Then my journey with God, everything just went through the roof.

762
00:52:50.400 --> 00:52:56.400
I guess what I'm just trying to say is it's just this whole dynamic of processing failure.

763
00:52:56.400 --> 00:53:02.720
There's unresolved failure inside of us. It can be crippling. That was crippling for me for years.

764
00:53:03.680 --> 00:53:13.440
It is this whole dynamic of made me a narcissist because the fear caused me to shut down reality

765
00:53:13.440 --> 00:53:20.480
and tell myself a whole another story, which is pride, ego, it's all of that. I just wanted to,

766
00:53:21.280 --> 00:53:24.800
I just felt like I should, I hadn't planned on sharing that story with you guys specifically.

767
00:53:24.800 --> 00:53:32.400
It just came up and just remembered it, but I just feel like, man, for me, processing failure

768
00:53:32.400 --> 00:53:39.520
is like, that was the most, that's what set me up for the rest of my life. Eli, thanks for

769
00:53:39.520 --> 00:53:52.080
triggering me. Cool. I just see in the- Could I go off of that in a sense?

770
00:53:52.720 --> 00:53:57.200
Yeah, we'll give one more time, one more chat for you, Eli, and then we'll share the

771
00:53:58.080 --> 00:54:08.400
mic around a little bit. Yeah, jump on. I guess in a sense, I believe I'm at that similar spot

772
00:54:10.160 --> 00:54:19.440
of what you're saying. Yeah, I guess I'm in that similar spot in what you're saying.

773
00:54:23.280 --> 00:54:25.200
Yeah, I don't know. I just felt like sharing that.

774
00:54:25.760 --> 00:54:27.120
Awesome. Awesome.

775
00:54:27.920 --> 00:54:36.800
Kind of like, I don't know. Yeah, I guess, I don't know. In a sense, I just felt like that. I don't

776
00:54:36.800 --> 00:54:43.440
know. I appreciate that. I would just say to you in that moment, for anyone who feels like they're

777
00:54:43.440 --> 00:54:55.680
in that moment, this could be the most powerful moment of your life. As you process failure,

778
00:54:55.680 --> 00:54:59.920
this could be the very foundation that sets you up for the greatest success that you'll ever-

779
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:10.400
walking in your life. So, yeah. How about Esther, could you just pray for Eli?

780
00:55:16.000 --> 00:55:18.320
Yeah, Esther, that'd be great if you just want to pray for Eli.

781
00:55:18.320 --> 00:55:31.200
Yeah. Father, I thank you that Eli is your son and that you surround him with your grace,

782
00:55:31.840 --> 00:55:38.240
whether he understands it or not. I thank you that you are taking him through this process

783
00:55:38.240 --> 00:55:44.800
because you have such beautiful things in store for him. And I thank you that you will help him

784
00:55:44.800 --> 00:55:52.160
sort through everything in his life that he is not supposed to investigate, because you already

785
00:55:52.160 --> 00:55:59.360
know. And you will show him what he will need to see and what he will need to get rid of. Father,

786
00:55:59.360 --> 00:56:05.280
you are in him and around him. And I thank you for the beautiful future that you are walking

787
00:56:05.600 --> 00:56:14.320
with him. In Jesus name. Amen. Amen. Beautiful. Thanks, guys. All right.

788
00:56:18.000 --> 00:56:22.480
To me, I'm just trying to follow some of the comments here.

789
00:56:23.440 --> 00:56:36.000
OK. So, yeah. A handful of comments. That was a pretty funny story about my friend

790
00:56:36.000 --> 00:56:46.400
standing on the doorstep in his pajamas. It's a good story to think about in terms of wanting

791
00:56:46.400 --> 00:56:57.200
good feedback, especially before you go to church. I say, OK, so in the comments here,

792
00:56:57.200 --> 00:57:05.280
tell me, if you were that guy, if you were that guy and you were about to go out to town,

793
00:57:05.280 --> 00:57:09.440
would you rather have an awkward conversation with someone telling you that your dress code

794
00:57:09.440 --> 00:57:17.920
was inappropriate or go to town and just see what happens? Chuck it in the comments.

795
00:57:18.640 --> 00:57:21.840
Say, like, correct me or don't correct me.

796
00:57:33.600 --> 00:57:39.040
Yeah. Correct me. Correct me. Correct me. You'd want to know, as a female, I would not have

797
00:57:39.040 --> 00:57:44.160
corrected a guy, but a woman, yes, for sure. Yeah. It would be awkward.

798
00:57:48.800 --> 00:57:56.720
Yeah. So, I was messaging some people and I've been unheightened. You know, your body gets all

799
00:57:56.720 --> 00:58:03.280
shaky when fear and all that. And so, the other day at work, I realized that a mistake had been

800
00:58:03.280 --> 00:58:09.120
made, but it's by someone else, but I didn't catch the mistake, that they clearly lied. So,

801
00:58:09.120 --> 00:58:19.920
a narcotic med card went missing. And so, when I read the number to the med card, they clearly

802
00:58:19.920 --> 00:58:27.520
told me a number, but I didn't know that they were lying. And so, right now, I have not spoken

803
00:58:27.520 --> 00:58:33.360
to my boss yet. She left me a message. This is a new boss who doesn't know me. He's never met me

804
00:58:34.000 --> 00:58:39.760
or doesn't know my character. And I already know right now, before I talk to her, that I'm fired.

805
00:58:42.240 --> 00:58:48.320
And when you have a job in senior care, elderly, you know, you're doing the best you can, but it's

806
00:58:48.320 --> 00:58:52.880
almost like it's a matter of time before you make some mistake for which they'll fire you, even if

807
00:58:52.880 --> 00:58:58.640
you're the best worker in the world. So, I know exactly what's going on. I have peace, but yet my

808
00:58:58.640 --> 00:59:07.200
body's on this heightened alert because I am, you know, in this program. I'm in Kingdom Builders

809
00:59:07.200 --> 00:59:14.320
Academy with Tamara Lowe about to do a launch. I'm with Pedro Odeo about to do a challenge launch,

810
00:59:14.320 --> 00:59:21.360
but I don't know if I'm going to do that. And my bank account will be at $3. Well, and my save at

811
00:59:21.360 --> 00:59:29.360
$50 and can't pay for any platform after the end of this month. And so, it was like working

812
00:59:29.360 --> 00:59:34.720
overnights. I know what's going on in my spirit. And, you know, I could say the devil's stealing

813
00:59:34.720 --> 00:59:40.640
my job or God is saying kick in the pants. Now, it's time to just run hard and fast and get this

814
00:59:40.640 --> 00:59:47.920
done. And I also paid for, at the same time that I paid for your program, which you know which won

815
00:59:48.160 --> 00:59:58.640
the $3,800. I also invested $3,800 in an e-commerce store. At the same time, this past month, I

816
00:59:58.640 --> 00:59:59.760
literally launched my

817
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.760
of with no physical capability of keeping up with all of it

818
01:00:03.760 --> 01:00:07.160
because I'm so tired of all the time from working overnights.

819
01:00:07.480 --> 01:00:11.080
Now I have no excuse because as of right now, before I'm even

820
01:00:11.080 --> 01:00:15.080
told, I know that I'm fired because they asked my coworker

821
01:00:15.080 --> 01:00:19.680
to take my shifts, and they posted the other shifts. So

822
01:00:20.080 --> 01:00:23.400
that's what's happening right now in my life. And I'm when I

823
01:00:23.400 --> 01:00:27.360
get off this call. And the failure was I was literally

824
01:00:27.360 --> 01:00:34.400
teaching a new person how to do this particular job, this

825
01:00:34.400 --> 01:00:37.480
particular piece of the job, and then literally 10 minutes later,

826
01:00:37.480 --> 01:00:41.760
somehow, I failed at that, even though it could have been that

827
01:00:41.760 --> 01:00:45.360
my coworker lied to me and read a number on an art card that

828
01:00:45.360 --> 01:00:50.800
wasn't there. So there's no proof and I've never taken drugs.

829
01:00:50.800 --> 01:00:55.640
So you know, I'm sick, you know, illegal drugs. So there you go.

830
01:00:55.680 --> 01:00:59.920
And I have no no one to have my back because it happened on my

831
01:00:59.920 --> 01:01:03.000
watch the next morning when I read the number on that card,

832
01:01:03.200 --> 01:01:06.800
the card wasn't in the box. So if I read the number on the card

833
01:01:06.800 --> 01:01:10.440
the night before, and my coworker read how many pills

834
01:01:10.440 --> 01:01:14.320
were in that card, there's no proof that I actually did my

835
01:01:14.320 --> 01:01:18.200
job. So there we are.

836
01:01:18.600 --> 01:01:30.520
Yeah, so it's real. That's very, very real, very real. And so

837
01:01:33.040 --> 01:01:37.600
and I tried to connect my affiliate with your program. And

838
01:01:37.600 --> 01:01:40.520
every time I try to put in a password, it freezes, it won't

839
01:01:40.520 --> 01:01:43.920
do it. So I'm gonna have to just send it manually. So that

840
01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:47.240
didn't even get that ball didn't even get rolling yet. So I

841
01:01:47.240 --> 01:01:50.960
didn't even get rolling yet for any income in that way as well.

842
01:01:51.560 --> 01:01:53.520
So I'm right up against the wall.

843
01:01:55.560 --> 01:01:59.080
Yeah, now this would be this would be this is like

844
01:02:04.120 --> 01:02:07.920
here's a good, here's a good moment, right? In terms of a

845
01:02:07.920 --> 01:02:12.160
teachable, a teachable moment. Because I gotta ask you guys,

846
01:02:12.880 --> 01:02:17.200
has he was he ever a story in the Bible? Like, Debra, I just

847
01:02:17.200 --> 01:02:21.080
want to say massive compassion for you right now. Like massive,

848
01:02:21.120 --> 01:02:25.120
massive compassion for you right now. But let me also speak into

849
01:02:25.160 --> 01:02:29.160
perspective, you know, for you and where you're at right now

850
01:02:29.160 --> 01:02:35.240
is, was he ever a story in the Bible, where God didn't have a

851
01:02:35.240 --> 01:02:43.600
strategy for victory? You know, was it was there ever a story

852
01:02:43.600 --> 01:02:49.880
where it was like, Oh, no, man, like, I'm out of ideas. Now,

853
01:02:49.880 --> 01:03:01.920
there's Israel trapped by the Red Sea, and Egypt's army bearing

854
01:03:01.920 --> 01:03:05.920
down on them. And it's like, God's like, Oh, sorry, like, I

855
01:03:05.920 --> 01:03:11.880
used it all up on the plate. So I got nothing left. Sorry. So.

856
01:03:13.200 --> 01:03:17.120
So first thing I would encourage everyone on here is, can you

857
01:03:17.120 --> 01:03:19.000
just look back on the faithfulness of God on your

858
01:03:19.000 --> 01:03:23.800
lives? Can you can you in the midst of what we're going

859
01:03:23.800 --> 01:03:26.160
through in the midst of our faithfulness, like our failures,

860
01:03:27.160 --> 01:03:31.160
the midst of like, literally our families, right? Because God's

861
01:03:31.160 --> 01:03:34.600
faithful to us in the midst of our mistakes. God's faithful to

862
01:03:34.600 --> 01:03:39.840
us in the midst of our own failures. And plenty of those

863
01:03:39.840 --> 01:03:41.960
stories that we looked at, you know, in terms of the

864
01:03:41.960 --> 01:03:50.400
testimonies and that that are in the in the template, these

865
01:03:50.400 --> 01:03:55.800
people right there that have bankrupted themselves multiple

866
01:03:55.800 --> 01:04:01.080
times over, Walt Disney. Oh, no, you know, like, Deborah,

867
01:04:01.080 --> 01:04:03.400
this might just be what you needed. You know, like, this

868
01:04:03.400 --> 01:04:08.000
might just be God, I know that this is exactly what you need

869
01:04:08.000 --> 01:04:12.960
right now, in order to have your Walt Disney story. Walt Disney,

870
01:04:12.960 --> 01:04:15.600
how funny is that, right? Walt Disney got fired for a lack of

871
01:04:15.600 --> 01:04:23.040
imagination. Is that does anyone think that, you know, you know,

872
01:04:23.040 --> 01:04:29.000
if Deborah gets fired for a lack of integrity? And you know, my

873
01:04:29.000 --> 01:04:31.600
response would be, well, Walt Disney got fired for a lack of

874
01:04:31.600 --> 01:04:34.200
imagination. That just means that my boss is out of whack,

875
01:04:34.240 --> 01:04:45.560
you know? And what I'm, what I want to say is, think about it

876
01:04:45.560 --> 01:04:48.720
like this, right? Jehoshaphat. There's King Jehoshaphat, two

877
01:04:48.720 --> 01:04:52.160
Chronicles, chapter 20, and three armies banded together to

878
01:04:52.160 --> 01:04:55.920
come and destroy King Jehoshaphat, right? So what is

879
01:04:55.920 --> 01:04:59.640
Jehoshaphat feeling like right now in three armies that Israel

880
01:04:59.640 --> 01:04:59.840
has

881
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.560
no hope of contending with on a military aspect, they've got no

882
01:05:05.560 --> 01:05:08.880
capacity, they've got no ability to contend with these three

883
01:05:08.880 --> 01:05:12.680
armies. So there's Jehoshaphat, he's the king, and he's

884
01:05:12.800 --> 01:05:15.680
responsible for providing for the nation, right? But now

885
01:05:15.680 --> 01:05:20.520
they're all going to die. This is like, oh, we're all going to

886
01:05:20.520 --> 01:05:25.160
die. And I'm sure that there was a lot of people in that moment

887
01:05:25.160 --> 01:05:27.680
that were just like, yeah, we're all going to die. That's what

888
01:05:27.680 --> 01:05:30.440
these guys do. They kill everyone. That's why they've

889
01:05:30.440 --> 01:05:35.600
seen in three armies here is to kill everyone. So what would

890
01:05:35.600 --> 01:05:37.680
you, let me ask you for a moment, like, what would your

891
01:05:37.680 --> 01:05:40.640
perspective be for everyone here? What would your perspective

892
01:05:40.640 --> 01:05:46.480
be in the midst of that moment, where it looks like certain

893
01:05:46.480 --> 01:05:48.600
doom, it looks like certain failure, it looks like this is

894
01:05:48.600 --> 01:05:51.960
the worst moment of your life. It looks like this is the end.

895
01:05:51.960 --> 01:05:54.680
It looks like this is total failure, that things couldn't

896
01:05:54.680 --> 01:05:58.240
get worse. What would your perspective be in that moment?

897
01:05:59.120 --> 01:06:01.600
Now, we've got a little bit of a blessing, a little bit of a

898
01:06:01.600 --> 01:06:04.400
benefit here is the fact that we're not actually in the

899
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:07.720
moment, right? So when you're in the moment, what happens is

900
01:06:07.720 --> 01:06:10.360
what's happening for Deborah right now, is all the triggers

901
01:06:10.360 --> 01:06:14.560
that they could possibly be, for lack, they just go off. So

902
01:06:14.560 --> 01:06:17.280
what's that going to do? It's going to set off an emotional

903
01:06:17.560 --> 01:06:20.080
reaction, and it's going to produce a chemical reaction

904
01:06:20.080 --> 01:06:23.160
that's going to shut down all the smart part of your brain.

905
01:06:23.200 --> 01:06:26.760
It's called an amygdala hijack, right? Where your brain, this

906
01:06:26.760 --> 01:06:29.240
tiny part of your brain that's wired for fight, flight, or

907
01:06:29.400 --> 01:06:33.760
freeze, it's wired for survival, when that gets triggered. This

908
01:06:33.760 --> 01:06:36.320
is another reason why, you know, when we're in the process of

909
01:06:36.320 --> 01:06:40.080
failure, why we do dumb things right after failure, or in the

910
01:06:40.080 --> 01:06:43.840
midst of failure, like, maybe you have, like, make a massive

911
01:06:43.840 --> 01:06:49.040
mistake, right? Or you do something crazy. And then it's

912
01:06:49.040 --> 01:06:53.640
like, oh my gosh, like all the fear kicks in, like, who's had

913
01:06:53.640 --> 01:06:55.680
that? Who's had a freakout, right? You're like, ah! Like,

914
01:06:55.800 --> 01:06:59.880
who are you? And in the comments, just do like, are you

915
01:07:00.240 --> 01:07:04.840
fight, flight, or freeze? Now, do you know what you are? Are

916
01:07:04.840 --> 01:07:08.040
you a fight, flight, or freeze? I'm a fight. And I have to be

917
01:07:08.040 --> 01:07:10.880
aware of that, right? Like, if someone scares me, I don't, I

918
01:07:10.880 --> 01:07:14.960
go, ah! Like, that's the first response. I'll like, lunge out.

919
01:07:15.560 --> 01:07:19.960
I'm a fight fighter. Some people go, like, they freeze, and some

920
01:07:19.960 --> 01:07:23.280
people go, ah! And they run. But for me, I'm a fighter. What's

921
01:07:23.280 --> 01:07:26.840
your response when there's, when you get, you know, like, ah!

922
01:07:26.840 --> 01:07:31.560
Something happens. So I'm a fighter. Like, if people scare

923
01:07:31.560 --> 01:07:36.320
me, like, they might get hit. And I'm like, I'm sorry. I

924
01:07:36.320 --> 01:07:39.920
didn't plan that, but I just punched you. Sorry about that.

925
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:43.240
This sometimes happens, right? Like, ah! Like, you get that.

926
01:07:45.160 --> 01:07:48.680
Same, right? Same in the midst, can be the same in the midst of

927
01:07:49.160 --> 01:07:53.560
how our emotions react when our circumstances go crazy. So what

928
01:07:53.560 --> 01:07:56.320
are you, let's just say, hypothetically, everyone heard

929
01:07:56.320 --> 01:08:00.080
today that you're losing your source of income, and you're

930
01:08:00.080 --> 01:08:03.560
losing your home. What if that was the news you got right now?

931
01:08:04.600 --> 01:08:09.640
Okay, all your income is going, and your home is going.

932
01:08:10.880 --> 01:08:13.640
What would, what would you do? How would you process that news?

933
01:08:13.640 --> 01:08:17.479
What would happen if you got that news? What would you, what

934
01:08:17.479 --> 01:08:20.399
would happen, right? Because for Jehoshaphat and those guys, it's

935
01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:23.800
way worse than that. It's not just your income is gone, and

936
01:08:23.800 --> 01:08:26.399
your home is gone. For them, it's your income is gone, your

937
01:08:26.399 --> 01:08:30.760
home is gone, everyone you love is about to be killed. That's

938
01:08:30.760 --> 01:08:38.240
big news. How are you going to process that? So again, our view

939
01:08:38.240 --> 01:08:41.200
of the failure is really important for our problem

940
01:08:41.200 --> 01:08:45.279
solving process. Because we have an amygdala hijack, what happens

941
01:08:45.279 --> 01:08:49.200
is when we have that fear response, that what it does is

942
01:08:49.200 --> 01:08:51.800
the amygdala is a tiny part of our brain, it's about the size

943
01:08:51.800 --> 01:08:57.479
of a pea. But when there's the fight, flight, or freeze moment

944
01:08:57.479 --> 01:09:01.200
takes place, what happens is the amygdala shuts down access to

945
01:09:01.200 --> 01:09:04.359
the frontal cortex, which is where all of our clever, like

946
01:09:04.359 --> 01:09:06.800
that's where all the clever part of our thinking happens. We're

947
01:09:06.800 --> 01:09:08.840
all the smart stuff, we're all the creative stuff, we're all

948
01:09:08.840 --> 01:09:12.479
the geniuses locked up in that frontal cortex. But when you

949
01:09:12.479 --> 01:09:16.080
have a trigger, like, wow, you freak out, or you're afraid, or

950
01:09:16.080 --> 01:09:19.240
you're like, something happens and you trigger, it shuts down

951
01:09:19.279 --> 01:09:22.560
access in our brain to our frontal cortex. And then our

952
01:09:22.560 --> 01:09:25.359
brain, like all of our thinking starts happening just out of our

953
01:09:25.359 --> 01:09:29.080
amygdala. And all your amygdala can do is it can only go fight,

954
01:09:29.080 --> 01:09:31.840
flight or freeze. It's like it's got three big buttons in front

955
01:09:31.840 --> 01:09:35.760
of it. And it can just go and hit one of those ones. It's

956
01:09:35.800 --> 01:09:41.000
gonna fight, it's gonna freeze, or it's gonna run. So, but what

957
01:09:41.000 --> 01:09:45.680
we need in those moments, see, here's what Jehoshaphat did,

958
01:09:45.680 --> 01:09:48.120
here's what those guys did, is they actually start, they went

959
01:09:48.120 --> 01:09:51.479
into prayer and fasting, they went into worship, right? And as

960
01:09:51.479 --> 01:09:53.840
they went into prayer and fasting, into worship, into

961
01:09:53.840 --> 01:09:57.000
seeking God, into waiting on God, something happened. And

962
01:09:57.000 --> 01:10:00.040
they actually came out of, they weren't operating in the fight

963
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:06.160
fight or freeze mode anymore, right? So, prayer, worship, fasting, seeking God, that's going to get

964
01:10:06.160 --> 01:10:10.720
you out of the fight, flight or freeze mode. That's going to be one of the most important

965
01:10:10.720 --> 01:10:15.280
things that you're going to have to do if you're in that place where you get the worst news of your

966
01:10:15.280 --> 01:10:19.840
life or you have the worst failure of your life. The important thing to make sure, right, is that

967
01:10:19.840 --> 01:10:24.960
you can actually think right, because otherwise you become your own worst enemy. If you're stuck

968
01:10:24.960 --> 01:10:29.200
in that place, and some people are always stuck in this place of fight, flight or freeze,

969
01:10:29.840 --> 01:10:34.080
it's just stuck in there. But the problem with that is fight, flight or freeze releases

970
01:10:34.080 --> 01:10:39.760
cortisol and adrenaline into your body, which it's like, wow, this is like, it'll give you

971
01:10:39.760 --> 01:10:45.040
super strength. It'll give you super energy for that moment. But if you're constantly stuck in

972
01:10:45.040 --> 01:10:50.160
fight, flight or freeze, all that cortisol and adrenaline leads to adrenal fatigue and you get

973
01:10:50.160 --> 01:10:55.440
all these long-term issues. But we're not supposed to stay in that place of fight,

974
01:10:55.440 --> 01:10:58.560
flight or freeze. We're not supposed to live in that place of fear. We're not supposed to stay in

975
01:10:58.560 --> 01:11:03.040
that place of anxiety and stress and overwhelm. We've got to get out of there. So, Jehoshaphat

976
01:11:03.040 --> 01:11:07.120
and those guys, they did something really amazing, which is they went and they started to seek the

977
01:11:07.120 --> 01:11:11.520
Lord, because as they started to seek the Lord, it brings them out of that fight, flight or freeze

978
01:11:11.520 --> 01:11:17.360
place and into a creative space where they're now able to actually tap into the spirit realm

979
01:11:17.360 --> 01:11:20.800
and hear what God's saying. And they're operating out of their frontal cortex and they're operating

980
01:11:20.800 --> 01:11:25.840
out of listening to God, what God's doing, what's God doing, what's God saying. And so I want to say

981
01:11:25.840 --> 01:11:29.520
that for all of us. The first thing that you want to do is you've got to get yourself out of that.

982
01:11:29.520 --> 01:11:36.640
And that's the amazing thing about King David, Psalm 27, verse one, two and three says,

983
01:11:36.640 --> 01:11:43.440
the Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The Lord is my light and my salvation,

984
01:11:43.440 --> 01:11:47.360
whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life, of whom shall I be afraid?

985
01:11:49.920 --> 01:12:01.840
Then he says, when an army surrounds me, my heart will not fear, though war break out against me,

986
01:12:02.720 --> 01:12:11.120
even then will I remain confident. How amazing is that? How amazing is that, right?

987
01:12:11.760 --> 01:12:16.800
Like you would think, okay, this is failure, but there's a dynamic that we can actually live in,

988
01:12:16.800 --> 01:12:20.720
there's a space we can live in, there's a heart posture and a mindset that we can have,

989
01:12:20.720 --> 01:12:25.120
that even in the midst of our, what would you would say, this is the greatest failure of your life,

990
01:12:25.120 --> 01:12:28.160
there's actually a place that you can live, a dimension that you can live from,

991
01:12:28.880 --> 01:12:34.720
where my heart will not fear and I will remain confident. Though my enemies and foes,

992
01:12:35.680 --> 01:12:40.320
you know, attack me, you know, it is my enemies and my foes who will stumble and fall.

993
01:12:41.920 --> 01:12:47.040
This is wild. So David lived in this space and let me just, I'll pull up Psalm 27 for you and

994
01:12:47.040 --> 01:12:53.440
I'll read it for you right now, just to meditate on this for all of us. And Deborah, this is for

995
01:12:53.440 --> 01:13:03.760
you as well, Psalm 27. Psalm 27, the Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The

996
01:13:03.760 --> 01:13:08.960
Lord is the stronghold of my life, whom shall I be afraid? When the wicked advance against me to

997
01:13:08.960 --> 01:13:14.960
devour me, it is my enemies and my foes who will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me,

998
01:13:14.960 --> 01:13:21.120
my heart will not fear, though war break out against me, even then I will be confident.

999
01:13:21.120 --> 01:13:27.120
Now, verse 4 is David's secret to always being able to live above the storm, to always being

1000
01:13:27.120 --> 01:13:33.440
able to have a victorious mindset regardless of the circumstances. Verse 4, this is the reason

1001
01:13:33.440 --> 01:13:38.960
why he was able to always be confident. One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek, that I

1002
01:13:38.960 --> 01:13:43.840
may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord

1003
01:13:43.840 --> 01:13:50.160
and to seek him in his temple. Verse 5, it goes on and I'll just read verse 5 for you, Deborah.

1004
01:13:50.160 --> 01:13:55.920
For in the day of trouble, who can relate to for in the day of trouble? That's the moment when you

1005
01:13:55.920 --> 01:13:59.920
get the news, that's the moment when you find out you've lost your income, you've lost your house,

1006
01:13:59.920 --> 01:14:06.160
you've lost your family member, you've lost something of great value to you, it's gone and

1007
01:14:06.160 --> 01:14:12.080
you'll never get it back or your whole world has changed forever because of this one moment. Maybe

1008
01:14:12.080 --> 01:14:16.800
it's something you did or maybe it's something you didn't do, it's maybe something someone else did

1009
01:14:16.800 --> 01:14:22.640
for whatever reason, the day of trouble has come on you. But David says, for in the day of trouble,

1010
01:14:22.640 --> 01:14:28.720
he will keep me safe in his dwelling, he will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent and set me

1011
01:14:28.720 --> 01:14:37.440
high upon a rock. And so here's something, you know, is that we were created by God to live

1012
01:14:37.440 --> 01:14:46.720
overwhelmed and it's going to determine, right, like we were created to live overwhelmed and so

1013
01:14:47.760 --> 01:14:50.400
something is always going to overwhelm us. Now we were created to,

1014
01:14:51.120 --> 01:14:55.600
we were designed by God to live overwhelmed by his presence so nothing else could ever overwhelm us.

1015
01:14:55.600 --> 01:14:58.720
But if we're not completely overwhelmed,

1016
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.080
overwhelmed and undone by who God is and by his glory.

1017
01:15:03.080 --> 01:15:05.480
And like David is stuck in this place for all I did,

1018
01:15:05.480 --> 01:15:09.120
like my whole being exists to seek your face.

1019
01:15:09.120 --> 01:15:10.680
If we're not in that place where David was,

1020
01:15:10.680 --> 01:15:13.920
where he's so, and this was not talk as well,

1021
01:15:13.920 --> 01:15:15.600
because David literally had walked through this

1022
01:15:15.600 --> 01:15:18.600
multiple times, where aunties besieged him,

1023
01:15:18.600 --> 01:15:20.600
where his own son turned against him,

1024
01:15:20.600 --> 01:15:23.320
where he fled for his life

1025
01:15:23.320 --> 01:15:25.480
because his own son was coming to kill him.

1026
01:15:26.640 --> 01:15:28.560
Multiple times this happened for David.

1027
01:15:28.560 --> 01:15:29.720
This is not talk.

1028
01:15:29.720 --> 01:15:30.560
This is literal.

1029
01:15:30.560 --> 01:15:31.760
This is reality for him.

1030
01:15:31.760 --> 01:15:34.880
He literally lived in a space where he was so overwhelmed

1031
01:15:34.880 --> 01:15:37.120
by the goodness of God and the presence of God

1032
01:15:37.120 --> 01:15:39.720
and the grace of God and the beauty of God's presence.

1033
01:15:39.720 --> 01:15:41.520
And he could literally say, this is,

1034
01:15:42.520 --> 01:15:46.320
though an army, though an army besiege me,

1035
01:15:46.320 --> 01:15:48.480
my heart will not fear, though war break out against me,

1036
01:15:48.480 --> 01:15:51.280
even then I will be confident.

1037
01:15:51.280 --> 01:15:53.560
All right, so if we go back now to Jehoshaphat,

1038
01:15:53.560 --> 01:15:55.560
well, they were in this place of overwhelm,

1039
01:15:55.560 --> 01:15:57.080
but then they went and started seeking the Lord

1040
01:15:57.080 --> 01:15:58.840
and the Lord started giving them revelation

1041
01:15:58.840 --> 01:16:00.760
of what they needed to do there.

1042
01:16:00.760 --> 01:16:03.040
Okay, so for the first, what I'm gonna say is,

1043
01:16:03.040 --> 01:16:04.080
we've got to make sure we,

1044
01:16:04.080 --> 01:16:06.320
if we have the day of trouble comes on us,

1045
01:16:06.320 --> 01:16:09.280
we've got to get out of the triggering zone.

1046
01:16:09.280 --> 01:16:11.200
We've got to get out of the overwhelmed zone.

1047
01:16:11.200 --> 01:16:13.640
We've got to get out of the fight, flight, freeze,

1048
01:16:13.640 --> 01:16:16.000
because there's no revelation there.

1049
01:16:16.000 --> 01:16:17.400
There's no hope there.

1050
01:16:17.400 --> 01:16:18.360
There's no victory there.

1051
01:16:18.360 --> 01:16:19.840
There's no strategy there.

1052
01:16:19.840 --> 01:16:21.600
All that's there is the day of trouble.

1053
01:16:21.600 --> 01:16:23.120
And a lot of people have the day of trouble

1054
01:16:23.120 --> 01:16:23.960
and that's all they do.

1055
01:16:23.960 --> 01:16:24.920
They just stay there.

1056
01:16:24.920 --> 01:16:26.520
They stay in the day of trouble

1057
01:16:26.560 --> 01:16:28.080
and all they see and hear

1058
01:16:28.080 --> 01:16:29.520
and all they receive is the day of trouble

1059
01:16:29.520 --> 01:16:33.200
and they remain in that place of overwhelm.

1060
01:16:33.200 --> 01:16:35.960
And then they have adrenaline and cortisol,

1061
01:16:35.960 --> 01:16:38.600
like all that stuff, fight, fight or freeze,

1062
01:16:38.600 --> 01:16:40.680
and it just totally wears out their body.

1063
01:16:40.680 --> 01:16:41.920
But we're gonna get out of that

1064
01:16:41.920 --> 01:16:44.040
and into where David lived

1065
01:16:44.040 --> 01:16:46.400
and into where King Jehoshaphat in Israel went,

1066
01:16:46.400 --> 01:16:47.720
where they went to seek the Lord,

1067
01:16:47.720 --> 01:16:49.560
because that's the space of revelation, right?

1068
01:16:49.560 --> 01:16:51.880
And in that space of revelation and creativity,

1069
01:16:51.880 --> 01:16:53.320
that's the strategy.

1070
01:16:53.320 --> 01:16:54.920
That's where you'll find that there's a strategy

1071
01:16:54.920 --> 01:16:57.040
that will give you victory in every scenario,

1072
01:16:57.040 --> 01:16:58.440
every circumstance.

1073
01:16:58.440 --> 01:17:01.600
There's always a revelation.

1074
01:17:01.600 --> 01:17:03.200
There's always a flow of revelation right now.

1075
01:17:03.200 --> 01:17:04.800
God has always got a plan

1076
01:17:04.800 --> 01:17:06.840
that will take you from glory to glory,

1077
01:17:06.840 --> 01:17:07.760
from strength to strength.

1078
01:17:07.760 --> 01:17:09.760
God's design for your life right now

1079
01:17:09.760 --> 01:17:12.040
is not chaos and destruction.

1080
01:17:12.040 --> 01:17:15.080
It's to take you to a place where you've got...

1081
01:17:15.080 --> 01:17:17.120
He wants to take you where you've never been before.

1082
01:17:17.120 --> 01:17:19.160
He wants to take you into Ephesians 3.20,

1083
01:17:19.160 --> 01:17:21.360
exceedingly, abundantly, above and beyond

1084
01:17:21.360 --> 01:17:23.600
anything you've ever did to ask, dream or imagine.

1085
01:17:23.600 --> 01:17:24.720
And God's like,

1086
01:17:24.720 --> 01:17:26.240
it doesn't matter what's happening in your world.

1087
01:17:26.240 --> 01:17:27.480
Everything else is irrelevant

1088
01:17:27.480 --> 01:17:29.560
compared to where I want to take you right now.

1089
01:17:29.560 --> 01:17:31.480
And if you'll get in that revelation stream,

1090
01:17:31.480 --> 01:17:32.440
if you'll get in that place,

1091
01:17:32.440 --> 01:17:34.360
He will take you there, all right?

1092
01:17:34.360 --> 01:17:36.080
But if you're in that place of overwhelm,

1093
01:17:36.080 --> 01:17:37.160
you are not in the river

1094
01:17:37.160 --> 01:17:38.920
that will take you into your victory.

1095
01:17:38.920 --> 01:17:39.920
You are trapped.

1096
01:17:39.920 --> 01:17:40.760
You are stuck.

1097
01:17:40.760 --> 01:17:41.720
If you're in the day of trouble,

1098
01:17:41.720 --> 01:17:43.320
if you're in that place of overwhelm,

1099
01:17:43.320 --> 01:17:44.320
you're not going to go anywhere.

1100
01:17:44.320 --> 01:17:45.160
You've got to get out of there

1101
01:17:45.160 --> 01:17:47.640
and you've got to get into the river of revelation.

1102
01:17:47.640 --> 01:17:49.640
You've got to get into that stream of the presence.

1103
01:17:49.640 --> 01:17:50.520
You've got to get into that place

1104
01:17:50.520 --> 01:17:52.480
where you're overwhelmed by His glory.

1105
01:17:52.480 --> 01:17:54.200
I was in a place in a situation

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01:17:54.200 --> 01:17:57.520
where we were doing a big kingdom project

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01:17:57.520 --> 01:17:59.000
and I literally had,

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01:17:59.000 --> 01:18:00.840
I had to raise a figure of,

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01:18:00.840 --> 01:18:03.080
in the equivalent of a million US dollars

1110
01:18:03.080 --> 01:18:05.080
within less than a week.

1111
01:18:05.920 --> 01:18:06.760
And I didn't,

1112
01:18:06.760 --> 01:18:08.360
that was not really a space that I would,

1113
01:18:08.360 --> 01:18:09.840
I didn't live in that space, right?

1114
01:18:09.840 --> 01:18:12.000
I was like, okay, God, this is a big deal.

1115
01:18:12.000 --> 01:18:14.040
It's not just, it wasn't my project.

1116
01:18:14.040 --> 01:18:15.160
It was someone else's project.

1117
01:18:15.160 --> 01:18:16.760
But if that money didn't come in,

1118
01:18:16.760 --> 01:18:20.240
years worth of work would collapse.

1119
01:18:20.240 --> 01:18:21.400
And that was a big deal.

1120
01:18:21.400 --> 01:18:23.000
You know, it was a huge thing.

1121
01:18:23.000 --> 01:18:24.320
There was a huge moment, right?

1122
01:18:24.320 --> 01:18:26.360
It was a really, really big deal.

1123
01:18:26.360 --> 01:18:28.120
And so I was like, okay, God,

1124
01:18:29.720 --> 01:18:30.560
here I am.

1125
01:18:30.560 --> 01:18:32.080
I felt like Jehoshaphat in that moment.

1126
01:18:32.080 --> 01:18:32.920
And so I was like,

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I got to apply the same principles

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that Jehoshaphat applied

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because Jehoshaphat said,

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a vast army is attacking us

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and we do not know what to do.

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And that's the day of trouble.

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So just be honest.

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Like, okay, God,

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a vast army is attacking us

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and we do not know what to do.

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I got nothing going here.

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I got no ideas.

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I got no idea what to do right now.

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A vast army is attacking us

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and we do not know what to do.

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But, then he said,

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but our eyes are on you, Lord.

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So their eyes weren't on the army that was coming.

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Their eyes weren't on the day of trouble.

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Their eyes weren't on the circumstance.

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Their eyes, he's like,

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but our eyes are on you.

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And so in that moment,

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as their eyes were on them,

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and you know, they had every reason

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to justify putting their attention

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on these three armies that were coming.

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They had every reason to justify

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why they should be thinking

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about all the things that were going wrong.

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They had every reason to justify that.

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All I'm saying is they didn't.

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They said, a vast army is attacking us

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and we do not know what to do,

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but our eyes are on you.

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And so they put their eyes on the Lord

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and revelation started coming

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and God said, go out to meet them in battle.

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Which is crazy, right?

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A tiny little army going against three armies,

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go out to meet them in battle.

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Now, what's happening right now

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is they are in the stream of revelation.

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They are in the flow of revelation.

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I want to tell you,

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when you're in that place,

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you are invincible.

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You are invincible.

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And think about this, right?

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Invincibility doesn't mean you won't lose a battle.

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battle or two. Invincibility means that you're like, you're going to be like Colonel Sanders,

1178
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right? He was rejected over, his recipe was rejected over a thousand times.

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But now there's over 18,000 KFC restaurants all around the world.

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Did he lose some battles along the way? But did he win the war? And what I'm going to say to you is

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invincibility doesn't mean that you won't lose a few battles along the way. It means that if

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you're in that flow of revelation, God has got a strategy that will make you invincible as you're

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stepping into your destiny. God has got a strategy for every single one of our lives to walk us into

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where we are ultimately going with this adventure, which is into Ephesians 3.20. It doesn't matter

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what your circumstances are. God has a strategy for every single one of us, regardless of our

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failures past, present, or future. God has a strategy that will walk us into Ephesians 3.20,

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which is exceedingly abundantly above and beyond all that we've ever dared to ask, dream, or imagine.

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And what we should be aware of is that most likely, it's almost a certainty for all of us that

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we will have to walk through a few valleys of failure in the process of actually walking into

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Ephesians 3.20. It's going to be adventurous. It's going to be a wild, wild adventure.

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And you know what? Like what we should be taking from this, you know, this week of processing

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failure is not only is failure normal, it's healthy, it's okay, it's to be celebrated.

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Failure, it's in that valley of failure that you're most likely going to get the tools, the revelation,

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the resources, the insights that you need to actually finally succeed and step into your

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Ephesians 3.20 journey. Like my valley of failure of actually processing my big failure and dealing

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with my secret sin became the foundation that actually launched me into my destiny.

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What are you going to find in your valley? You're going to find something in your valley

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that enables you to step into your wildest dreams. There's going to be something in your valley.

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There's going to be something in your failure that is the key to your future success. There's going

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to be something there. So if you're in that place of failure, if you're in the place of the day of

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trouble, where Deborah is right now, if you're in that place of the day of trouble, like don't

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undervalue it because there's a key right now for you, Deborah. There's an open dynamic to

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revelation. There's an open door. There's a grace on your life right now in the day of trouble that

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isn't on your life at any other moment. There's a grace that's every... And let me tell you one

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other thing about grace is sometimes we're really good at projecting into the future that there

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won't be enough, but you've got to look backwards. You've got to move forward looking backwards and

1207
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look back at the faithfulness of God and look back at how everything seemed like whatever you

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went through, God was faithful. And sometimes we're not good at projecting his faithfulness

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into the future, but what we have to learn to do is even if you're facing days that are beyond what

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you've ever faced, even if you're going into something that's beyond what you've ever gone

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into, what you've got to be able to project is that tomorrow's grace is not the same as today's

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grace. Tomorrow's grace is more than enough for tomorrow's situation. Tomorrow's grace, the grace

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of the future is not the same grace that you know now. The grace of the future is the grace that's

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more than enough for whatever the future will bring. Because God's going to take you glory to

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glory and strength to strength. So that means if he's going to bring you bigger battles, bigger

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challenges, bigger obstacles, that means that you can understand and you can know that there's a

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greater grace about to be released on your life that will make you victorious regardless of your

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circumstance. But you've got to stay in that river of revelation. You're going to stay in that flow

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like David did, like Jehoshaphat did. So Jehoshaphat went out with his armies, but they said let us go

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out and let us put praise, let us put worship at the front of our army. And so they just

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went out delighting in the Lord. That was their battle strategy. This was the day of

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trouble for them. They put the light at the forefront of their army. What was David's strategy

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in the midst of overwhelming odds? One thing I seek, this only do I desire, that I may dwell

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in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to seek him in his temple and gaze upon the beauty

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of the Lord. It's the same thing. It's just this delight in the Lord. It's delight.

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Delight is the secret. So Jehoshaphat goes out with delight. David lived in delight.

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And then it brought a key. So it says in 2 Chronicles chapter 20

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that as Jehoshaphat went out in delight, the Lord set ambushes among the three armies.

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And the Lord started actually doing what no one expected. So Deborah, in your circumstances,

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for everyone else in your circumstances, as you start delighting in the Lord, what no one expected

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to happen starts happening. What no one believed could happen starts happening. Not just could

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happen, did happen, will happen. Will happen. As you start delighting in the Lord, what no one

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believed could happen.

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will happen. It will just come out of nowhere. God will start moving. It's like what we've

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talked about before, is that the fabric of reality starts shifting and changing and rearranging.

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Grace starts moving. Favor starts moving. Angels start moving. Heaven starts moving.

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Things start changing and rearranging. You literally restructure reality with your faith.

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And these are the moments in the day of trouble where you make a declaration that was so powerful,

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Deborah, in this moment, to make a declaration of God's faithfulness going forward. Because

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the declarations that you make in the day of trouble can actually define your life for years

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to come. You know, the declarations that you make in the day of trouble can be the things that

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literally become the fabric of what you walk into in your future. They can define what your future

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is going to be. The declarations you make right now. So Jehoshaphat, they start worshiping. They

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start colliding. God sets ambushes in. The two small armies band together against the big army

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and completely wipe the big army out. Then the two small armies turn on one another and they

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completely wipe themselves out to the last man. So Israel gets up to the pass of Ziz overlooking it

1247
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and all they see is three armies completely wiped out to the last man. Not a single army standing.

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Like, not a single man left standing. No one there. So they've gone from their greatest

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failure where they got the day of trouble, the worst news of their life, to now it takes them

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three days. So they've got their entire army and they put their entire army to work and it

1251
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takes their entire army three days to carry away the plunder for a battle they never had to fight.

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So what if, right, what if from God's perspective there was a different conversation happening to

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what was happening for Israel? What if God had a different perspective going, what if God looked

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at Jehoshaphat's life and was like, man, I really want to bless Jehoshaphat. And the Trinity starts

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chatting and going, man, how can we really bless Deborah right now? Well, how can we really bless

1256
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Jehoshaphat right now? How can we really bless Eli right now? And God's like, I know how to

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bless Jehoshaphat. And God Trinity's having this conversation like, what would be amazing for

1258
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Jehoshaphat? They're like, man, we should upgrade his army's weapons. We should give him, like, we should

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give him a whole bunch of finances. We should give them, like, the biggest reason to have a party that

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they've ever had. Yeah, like, come on, what else? Like, we should, we should, like, set Jehoshaphat up,

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like, to have the greatest victory he's ever had. We should, you know what, we should set Jehoshaphat

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up right now to become a legend that his testimony inspires people for thousands and thousands of

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years to come, and not just thousands of years. We should set Jehoshaphat up to be a man

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who inspires generations to come right throughout all eternity.

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So maybe that's the conversation happening behind the scenes that you're not aware of,

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that God's saying, how can I set you up for eternity to be an absolute legend, to be someone

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who is famous throughout eternity? How can I set you up to walk in your destiny right now?

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And the Trinity's like, yes, let's do it! And they're like, all right, how should we do it?

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How should we set them up for the greatest success of their life? And they're like,

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there's only one way. We've got to send an impossible army to kill them.

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Like, right, like, this is God's conversation behind the scenes of what you're not seeing,

1272
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and God's like, how can I work all things for good? Like, actually, I have to bring some chaos first.

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I've got to bring a storm to bless them. I've got to blindside them like crazy.

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How will they see my faithfulness like they've never seen it before? They're going to have to

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walk through a storm they've never walked through before. How will they see my glory in a way they've

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never seen it before? Oh, they're going to have to have the whole of Egypt's army come after them

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when they're trapped between the Red Sea and the army of Egypt, and then I'll bring a wall of fire

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between them and Egypt, and then you know what? I'll just park the Red Sea. And then after that,

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I'll be a fire by night and a cloud by day. So God's like, okay, how can I set you up for

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the greatest success you've ever known? How can I set you up for the greatest success you've ever

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walked in? I've got to bring you a storm that's beyond any storm you've ever walked through. I've

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got to bring you chaos beyond anything you've ever seen before. I've got to bring you giants

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to slay like you've never seen before. I've got to put mountains before you. God will put adversity

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and opposition in your path for your victory, not for your defeat. God is setting you up for

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victory, not for defeat. He's like, how can I make you outrageously victorious beyond your

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imagination? Well, I've got to give you an opposition. I've got to give you adversity. I've

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got to give you an enemy. I've got to give you a mountain. I've got to give you a giant. I've got

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to give you something to overcome that's beyond what you've ever asked, beyond what you ever think

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you could ever accomplish. A giant that you never think you could slay. A mountain you never think

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you could climb. A storm you never think you could conquer. This is what God's wanting to bless you

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with. God wants to bless you with the storm. God wants to bless you with the giant. God wants to

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bless you with the mountain. God wants to bless you with the blind side, not for your failure,

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but for your victory to take you to a place, take you to

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dimension, take you to a realm, take you to a place of victory that you never imagined as even

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possible. Because you're going to, but you've got to project that there's a greater grace

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when you come up to that mountain, when you come up to that giant, when you come up to that storm,

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you can be confident like David and he says, you know, David is like,

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though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear.

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How's that for a declaration for a confidence in the day of trouble? Though an army besiege me,

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my heart will not fear. Giants come, I will slay them. Mountains come, I will climb them. Storms

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come, I will rule them. That's the declaration, right? And your declaration in the day of trouble

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will shape the fabric of reality that you will live in. Your declaration in the day of trouble

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01:30:48.560 --> 01:30:55.600
will literally create, release the power of God around your life to restructure reality all around

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01:30:55.600 --> 01:30:59.840
you. It'll release divine appointments. It'll release anointing. It'll release grace. It'll

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01:30:59.840 --> 01:31:04.480
release angels. Heaven will start moving. The cloud of witnesses will start happening. Revelation will

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start flowing. Creativity will start coming. Strategies from heaven will start coming. And

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listen, what Jehoshaphat did was the most genius thing you could ever do, which is Jehoshaphat,

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they just started to delight. And so here's what, here's a quote I want to give you is,

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you've got to see the blessing in the blind side before the breakthrough.

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Before the giant is slain, before the mountain is climbed, before the storm is conquered,

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this is what faith is. Faith declares victory in the midst of the storm. Faith declares victory

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at the foot of the mountain. Faith declares victory, like David said, giant, Goliath comes

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before David and Goliath is like taunting him, mocking him. And Goliath, it means mockery.

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Goliath is mocking David, taunting David. He's like, you know what, boy, I'm going to kill you.

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And David's like, you come against me with spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name

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of the living God. And this day, this day, this day, I will kill you and I will cut off your head

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and I will feed your body to the animals of the field and the birds of the air. Wow, like how's

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that? It's before you've slain the giant, it's before you've climbed the mountain, it's before

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you've conquered the storm that you say, this day, this day, I will cut off this giant's head.

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I will feed your flesh to the animals of the field and to the birds of the air and we will

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conquer this day, this day, we will conquer. It's before the battle, it's in the midst of it. And

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Jehoshaphat, what they did is they stepped into the space of, they just stepped into the place

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of delight. So what you've got to see is you've got to see there's a blessing in the blind side

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before the breakthrough and not occasionally, every single time, every single blind side that

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comes in your life is God's invitation to an upgrade. Every single battle you're facing is

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God's invitation to a victory. Every single giant that you're facing, every mountain, every storm is

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01:32:55.840 --> 01:33:00.960
God's invitation to a greater level of victory, a greater level of breakthrough. This is how God

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01:33:00.960 --> 01:33:06.640
will walk you into Ephesians 3 20. It's through the valley of your, of your enemies. It's through

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01:33:06.640 --> 01:33:11.200
the valley of what looks like a failure. He's going to flip it on its head, but it rests.

1330
01:33:11.200 --> 01:33:17.280
Will you stay in that place of overwhelm and emotional hijacked and triggered, amygdala hijacked,

1331
01:33:17.280 --> 01:33:22.080
like fear, fight, flight, or freeze. You're stuck in that place. Or will you step out of that place

1332
01:33:22.080 --> 01:33:27.200
like David and Jehoshaphat and into the place of delight? Because whatever you do is going to

1333
01:33:27.200 --> 01:33:31.520
determine your future. Are you going to stay in the place of overwhelm and just the valley is your

1334
01:33:31.520 --> 01:33:36.640
destiny? Or are you going to step into that place like David did, like Jehoshaphat did, where you start

1335
01:33:36.640 --> 01:33:42.080
to frame your future. You start actually prophesying against these circumstances. You start, you're like,

1336
01:33:42.080 --> 01:33:47.200
no, I will walk in the greatest victory that I've ever walked in. I will go from glory to glory. I

1337
01:33:47.200 --> 01:33:52.800
will go from strength to strength. Though wicked men, you know, attack me, it is my enemies who

1338
01:33:52.800 --> 01:33:59.600
will stumble and fall. Though an army besiege me, my heart will be confident. So Jehoshaphat,

1339
01:33:59.600 --> 01:34:04.320
here's what I say. We have got to see the blessing in the blind side before the breakthrough.

1340
01:34:04.480 --> 01:34:11.040
And not just occasionally, every single issue, every single problem, every single giant. We've

1341
01:34:11.040 --> 01:34:14.720
got to see the blessing in the blind side before the breakthrough. It's when and then, right?

1342
01:34:15.280 --> 01:34:18.560
And so what that positions us to do is it positions us to delight.

1343
01:34:21.120 --> 01:34:24.640
You're in the midst of your greatest failure. What's your secret sauce? What's your secret

1344
01:34:24.640 --> 01:34:28.720
weapon? What's your key for breakthrough? If you're in the midst of your greatest failure,

1345
01:34:28.720 --> 01:34:32.400
you're in the great midst of whatever it is, your world's crashing down, you're in

1346
01:34:32.400 --> 01:34:35.920
overwhelm, whatever. What's your greatest weapon? Your greatest weapon is delight.

1347
01:34:39.120 --> 01:34:42.560
Your greatest weapon is delight. So just to come into that place of delighting,

1348
01:34:43.360 --> 01:34:49.680
start to see what it looks like for the victory. If you're stuck in overwhelm, if you're stuck in

1349
01:34:49.680 --> 01:34:54.400
fear, stress, anxiety, you're not in a realm of revelation. You can't engage your imagination

1350
01:34:54.400 --> 01:34:57.440
and you can't see Ephesians 3.20. You can't see the

1351
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.000
exceedingly, abundantly, beyond what you've ever dared to ask, dream, or imagine.

1352
01:35:03.000 --> 01:35:06.880
You've got to get out of the overwhelm, you've got to get into the revelation, you've got

1353
01:35:06.880 --> 01:35:10.600
to get into the presence, you've got to wait on God, you've got to start to imagine what

1354
01:35:10.600 --> 01:35:16.040
does it look like when your problem becomes your victory and you're living it.

1355
01:35:16.040 --> 01:35:21.920
You've got to start seeing it and then you've got to start to declare that by faith before

1356
01:35:21.920 --> 01:35:22.920
the battle.

1357
01:35:22.920 --> 01:35:29.560
Because it's how you declare it, it's what you declare that will shape the process that's

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01:35:29.560 --> 01:35:30.560
about to unfold.

1359
01:35:30.560 --> 01:35:37.640
David, victorious every single time, didn't matter what army came against him, he was

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01:35:37.640 --> 01:35:39.360
never conquered.

1361
01:35:39.360 --> 01:35:40.360
And that was the secret.

1362
01:35:40.360 --> 01:35:45.760
Jehoshaphat, they carried away, they carried, they spent three days carrying away the plunder

1363
01:35:45.760 --> 01:35:46.760
from the victory.

1364
01:35:46.760 --> 01:35:49.760
Became a legend for all eternity.

1365
01:35:49.760 --> 01:35:55.720
Myself, when I was in that place and we needed a million US dollars just in like a week,

1366
01:35:55.720 --> 01:35:56.720
I was like, God, what do I do?

1367
01:35:56.720 --> 01:36:03.840
And he's like, he said, here's what he said to me in that moment, as I was really seeking

1368
01:36:03.840 --> 01:36:05.840
him and thinking about Jehoshaphat, he said,

1369
01:36:10.840 --> 01:36:12.840
there's a quote about the light, let me access the file.

1370
01:36:14.840 --> 01:36:17.840
The light, the light, the light, come on, quote about the light.

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01:36:17.840 --> 01:36:19.840
Can't access the file on my quote about the light.

1372
01:36:19.960 --> 01:36:29.960
Basically, I can't, I can't, for some reason, I can't remember my own quote that God said

1373
01:36:29.960 --> 01:36:30.960
to me.

1374
01:36:30.960 --> 01:36:31.960
Oh, is it the light?

1375
01:36:37.960 --> 01:36:40.960
Basically, delight is the key to your breakthrough.

1376
01:36:40.960 --> 01:36:43.960
I can't remember the quote, it sounded way cooler than that.

1377
01:36:43.960 --> 01:36:45.960
But delight is the key to your breakthrough.

1378
01:36:46.080 --> 01:36:52.080
So as I focused on the light, then, you know, what do you know, within less than a week,

1379
01:36:52.080 --> 01:36:57.080
we had a million US dollars for the project.

1380
01:36:58.080 --> 01:37:05.080
And it just applies to every situation, just applies to every circumstance that the light

1381
01:37:05.080 --> 01:37:07.080
is going to be the secret to your success.

1382
01:37:08.080 --> 01:37:09.080
Oh, look at this.

1383
01:37:09.080 --> 01:37:10.080
Speaking of the light.

1384
01:37:10.080 --> 01:37:11.080
Thanks, Ez.

1385
01:37:11.080 --> 01:37:13.080
Ez has just brought me some toast.

1386
01:37:13.080 --> 01:37:14.080
How nice.

1387
01:37:14.080 --> 01:37:15.080
Thanks, mate.

1388
01:37:15.200 --> 01:37:16.200
Can you say hi, bud?

1389
01:37:19.200 --> 01:37:20.200
Hi.

1390
01:37:22.200 --> 01:37:23.200
Sweet.

1391
01:37:26.200 --> 01:37:30.200
Yeah, Psalm 37 and 4 says delight yourself in the Lord and he'll give you the size of

1392
01:37:30.200 --> 01:37:31.200
a light, the light.

1393
01:37:37.200 --> 01:37:39.200
Yeah, I'll try and find you guys that quote.

1394
01:37:39.320 --> 01:37:45.320
But that was kind of a little bit unexpected, went on quite the adventure there.

1395
01:37:45.320 --> 01:37:50.320
But can I get, Jennifer, could you pray for Deborah right now?

1396
01:37:54.320 --> 01:37:55.320
Would that be right?

1397
01:37:56.320 --> 01:37:57.320
Yeah, can you hear me?

1398
01:37:57.320 --> 01:37:58.320
I'm making my declaration too.

1399
01:37:59.320 --> 01:38:00.320
Oh, you want to make your declaration?

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01:38:00.320 --> 01:38:04.320
Okay, well, let's have Deborah make your declaration and then we'll have Jennifer pray for Deborah

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01:38:04.320 --> 01:38:05.320
after that.

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01:38:05.320 --> 01:38:06.320
Go for it, Deborah.

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01:38:06.320 --> 01:38:07.320
Heaven is listening.

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01:38:07.440 --> 01:38:08.440
Heaven is listening.

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01:38:09.440 --> 01:38:16.440
I declare because the Lord is my delight and he is my high tower and he is my victory and

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01:38:16.440 --> 01:38:17.440
my help.

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01:38:17.440 --> 01:38:22.440
And according to Psalm 93, which I've been preaching on live on Facebook this week, he

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01:38:22.440 --> 01:38:25.440
is in charge of it all, the entire world.

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01:38:25.440 --> 01:38:26.440
He knows what he's doing.

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01:38:26.440 --> 01:38:31.440
Lord, you reign as king from the beginning of time and chaos.

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01:38:31.440 --> 01:38:33.440
You said the exact two words, Benji.

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01:38:33.560 --> 01:38:39.560
Chaos once challenged you, the raging waves lifted themselves up over and over it.

1413
01:38:39.560 --> 01:38:45.560
And high above the ocean's waves, I am riding, even though they're letting out their mighty

1414
01:38:45.560 --> 01:38:50.560
roar and at the sound of my voice and at the sound of God's voice, they are stilled by

1415
01:38:50.560 --> 01:38:51.560
God's might.

1416
01:38:51.560 --> 01:38:57.560
And I am filled with God's majestic power to do the will of God, to carry the vision.

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01:38:57.680 --> 01:39:04.680
I bind and declare that I am free from fear of failure, fear of lack, fear of rejection

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01:39:04.680 --> 01:39:05.680
in Jesus name.

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01:39:05.680 --> 01:39:12.680
I believe in the Lord and trust him to be my provision, that he is my key and my open

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01:39:12.680 --> 01:39:13.680
door.

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01:39:13.680 --> 01:39:15.680
And I have value in his eyes as his daughter.

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01:39:15.680 --> 01:39:20.680
He is my provision and everything that I need is provided.

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01:39:20.680 --> 01:39:21.680
I will move forward.

1424
01:39:21.800 --> 01:39:22.800
I will be.

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01:39:22.800 --> 01:39:27.800
I am successful in business, ministry, life and relationships, and I am intimate with

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01:39:27.800 --> 01:39:33.800
God and I'm seated with Christ in heavenly places with Psalm 91 protection and everything

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01:39:33.800 --> 01:39:40.800
that I can imagine and even beyond is fulfilled and the will of God is fulfilled in my life

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01:39:40.800 --> 01:39:41.800
in Jesus name.

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01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:44.800
Amen.

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01:39:44.800 --> 01:39:45.800
Amen.

1431
01:39:45.800 --> 01:39:46.800
That's beautiful.

1432
01:39:46.800 --> 01:39:47.800
Well done.

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01:39:47.800 --> 01:39:48.800
I love it.

1434
01:39:48.920 --> 01:39:53.920
I love that part of the song which is the sound of the sound of your, um,

1435
01:39:53.920 --> 01:39:54.920
What?

1436
01:39:54.920 --> 01:39:55.920
Where you going to save your life?

1437
01:39:55.920 --> 01:39:56.920
Yes, that's right.

1438
01:39:56.920 --> 01:39:57.920
It's like.

1439
01:39:57.920 --> 01:39:58.920
I'm going to save your life.

1440
01:39:58.920 --> 01:39:59.920
Yes, that's right.

1441
01:39:59.920 --> 01:40:00.920
It's like.

1442
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.960
I'm going to say, the sound of your delight is the sound of your breakthrough.

1443
01:40:00.920 --> 01:40:00.920


1444
01:40:04.960 --> 01:40:08.800
No, no delight, not much breakthrough.

1445
01:40:08.800 --> 01:40:10.760
You might get a little bit just because of the goodness of God,

1446
01:40:10.760 --> 01:40:16.320
but if you want to live in what you're really called for, God and...

1447
01:40:16.320 --> 01:40:19.920
One last thing is that you're like,

1448
01:40:19.920 --> 01:40:24.960
oftentimes God doesn't give you a shortcut.

1449
01:40:25.200 --> 01:40:30.080
God oftentimes doesn't kill the giant that he sent for you to kill.

1450
01:40:33.600 --> 01:40:37.520
And we can be like, oh God, why didn't you help me?

1451
01:40:37.520 --> 01:40:39.760
He's like, oh, you were supposed to kill that giant.

1452
01:40:39.760 --> 01:40:41.120
I didn't want to take your victory.

1453
01:40:42.000 --> 01:40:43.680
You know, like that's your destiny.

1454
01:40:43.680 --> 01:40:44.640
That's your victory.

1455
01:40:44.640 --> 01:40:46.960
That was there for you.

1456
01:40:46.960 --> 01:40:48.000
That was a gift.

1457
01:40:49.120 --> 01:40:50.800
Because if I kill it, then I get the plunder.

1458
01:40:50.800 --> 01:40:52.240
But if you kill it, you get the plunder.

1459
01:40:52.240 --> 01:40:56.640
So the sound of your delight will be the sound of your breakthrough.

1460
01:40:56.640 --> 01:40:58.880
So in the midst of failure, whatever,

1461
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:01.200
you've got to get yourself into the sound of delight.

1462
01:41:01.200 --> 01:41:04.720
You just have to turn up the volume of delight in your life to maximum.

1463
01:41:05.280 --> 01:41:08.800
I don't think there's ever a reason that we should ever justify

1464
01:41:08.800 --> 01:41:12.240
turning the sound of delight down off maximum, ever.

1465
01:41:12.240 --> 01:41:17.120
The sound of delight should always be stuck on full volume in our lives.

1466
01:41:17.760 --> 01:41:19.840
At every moment, at every chance.

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01:41:19.840 --> 01:41:22.000
It should be the state of being that we live in.

1468
01:41:22.640 --> 01:41:29.040
When people see us, they should basically feel like seeing delight on full volume.

1469
01:41:29.920 --> 01:41:32.480
That's just the place you want to be stuck in, live in forever.

1470
01:41:36.320 --> 01:41:36.800
Righto.

1471
01:41:36.800 --> 01:41:40.240
Jennifer, let's have you jump in here and pray for Deborah.

1472
01:41:40.240 --> 01:41:43.200
And then we're going to have to wrap it up.

1473
01:41:47.840 --> 01:41:48.400
Can you hear me?

1474
01:41:49.520 --> 01:41:49.680
Yeah.

1475
01:41:50.320 --> 01:41:50.560
Okay.

1476
01:41:51.280 --> 01:41:54.800
Father God, Lord, we just thank you and praise you for this.

1477
01:41:56.560 --> 01:41:59.920
First of all, your timing, Father God, just for Deborah, Lord,

1478
01:42:00.960 --> 01:42:06.640
that you would bring her here during this call, Father God, right before.

1479
01:42:06.640 --> 01:42:13.840
I mean, your goodness over her and over each one of us is just absolutely astounding and amazing

1480
01:42:14.400 --> 01:42:19.040
because you knew that she would need support, Lord.

1481
01:42:19.120 --> 01:42:25.280
And you are here with Benji and with all of us just to love and support her, Father God,

1482
01:42:25.280 --> 01:42:31.520
to give her strength, encouragement, to give her the words of truth, hope, and love and peace.

1483
01:42:32.080 --> 01:42:37.760
And I pray, Father God, that the peace that surpasses all understanding would guard her

1484
01:42:37.760 --> 01:42:45.520
heart and mind as she speaks to her boss, Father God, and as she transitions, Lord,

1485
01:42:45.520 --> 01:42:49.680
whatever the outcome, Father God, for her, we just decree and declare

1486
01:42:49.680 --> 01:42:52.240
that the outcome for her, Father God, is good.

1487
01:42:52.800 --> 01:42:56.960
It is good because you have a place of goodness.

1488
01:42:56.960 --> 01:43:01.600
You have a place of divine grace and favor for her, Father God.

1489
01:43:01.600 --> 01:43:05.520
And the steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord.

1490
01:43:06.480 --> 01:43:11.600
And so, Father, I thank you, God, that every step that she has taken in faith

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01:43:12.160 --> 01:43:19.920
to invest into the kingdom and to invest into this other platform, Father God, this website,

1492
01:43:19.920 --> 01:43:23.360
Lord, her steps have been ordered by you.

1493
01:43:23.360 --> 01:43:27.120
Let her walk forth in confidence, Father God,

1494
01:43:27.120 --> 01:43:31.600
knowing that the steps of the righteous are ordered by you, Father God.

1495
01:43:32.160 --> 01:43:36.320
And so we just break off any residual fear, any negativity,

1496
01:43:36.880 --> 01:43:44.720
anything that might, any projected fear, Father God, regarding this meeting with her boss.

1497
01:43:44.720 --> 01:43:48.080
And I just thank you, Father God, that she will go in confidence

1498
01:43:48.720 --> 01:43:53.680
and in knowing that you, if you are for her, who can be against her?

1499
01:43:54.320 --> 01:43:59.680
And I pray, Father God, that this declaration that she wrote over herself, Father God,

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01:43:59.680 --> 01:44:06.080
Lord, I pray that you would impart that into every part of her soul.

1501
01:44:06.400 --> 01:44:10.480
Father God, that that would just go in deep into her soul.

1502
01:44:10.480 --> 01:44:15.120
That that will saturate her soul, that that will saturate her mind,

1503
01:44:15.120 --> 01:44:19.280
that that will saturate her will, that that will saturate her emotions,

1504
01:44:19.280 --> 01:44:26.400
that you will do a work in her, Father God, that that will not just go from head knowledge,

1505
01:44:26.400 --> 01:44:31.680
but will go to heart knowledge, Father God, that you will just impregnate her

1506
01:44:32.240 --> 01:44:36.960
with those words, Father God, and that she will have radical transformation

1507
01:44:36.960 --> 01:44:41.440
as a result of those declarations that she is speaking over her.

1508
01:44:41.440 --> 01:44:47.280
We thank you for the power in the declaration that she has written over herself, Lord,

1509
01:44:47.280 --> 01:44:51.120
and the power that is released, Father God, when your word is spoken.

1510
01:44:51.680 --> 01:44:57.040
And so we just thank you, Father God, we thank you and praise you and bless

1511
01:44:57.040 --> 01:44:59.840
Deborah in the mighty name, power and blood of Jesus.

1512
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:01.000
Amen.

1513
01:45:01.000 --> 01:45:02.000
Amen.

1514
01:45:02.000 --> 01:45:03.000
Yes.

1515
01:45:03.000 --> 01:45:04.000
Amen.

1516
01:45:04.000 --> 01:45:05.000
Hallelujah.

1517
01:45:05.000 --> 01:45:06.000
It's done.

1518
01:45:06.000 --> 01:45:07.000
God's will is done.

1519
01:45:07.000 --> 01:45:08.000
God's will is done.

1520
01:45:08.000 --> 01:45:09.000
So good.

1521
01:45:09.000 --> 01:45:10.000
Well, good.

1522
01:45:10.000 --> 01:45:11.000
Go watch this space.

1523
01:45:11.000 --> 01:45:12.000
Go watch this space, family.

1524
01:45:12.000 --> 01:45:13.000
Good stuff.

1525
01:45:13.000 --> 01:45:26.000
Now, if I was, is there, if I was to create like another two-minute window because I literally

1526
01:45:26.000 --> 01:45:34.480
have to wrap this up pretty, like pretty much right away, but I would love to have

1527
01:45:34.480 --> 01:45:39.480
heard from more people, but we'll, we'll be again here next week, connecting with all

1528
01:45:39.480 --> 01:45:40.480
you guys.

1529
01:45:40.480 --> 01:45:41.480
Love you guys very much.

1530
01:45:41.480 --> 01:45:44.480
But was there anyone that was, oh, Patty, that's right.

1531
01:45:44.480 --> 01:45:48.040
Patty, we were going to get you to finish your declaration.

1532
01:45:48.040 --> 01:45:52.760
So Patty, now I'm going to be courageous right now.

1533
01:45:52.760 --> 01:45:53.760
We're going to try this again.

1534
01:45:53.760 --> 01:45:54.760
Are you going to be courageous?

1535
01:45:55.520 --> 01:46:04.920
So Patty, before you do anything, what I want you to do is I just want you to turn the volume

1536
01:46:04.920 --> 01:46:05.920
down on your device.

1537
01:46:05.920 --> 01:46:14.200
Don't do it now, but your device, when it's playing, it's, it's creating a loop in the

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01:46:14.200 --> 01:46:15.200
audio.

1539
01:46:15.200 --> 01:46:21.680
So what I want you to do is I want you to, before you unmute and just in one moment,

1540
01:46:21.680 --> 01:46:24.640
turn your volume down, not yet.

1541
01:46:24.640 --> 01:46:27.600
You want to go from the, from the part of the declaration where you're talking about

1542
01:46:27.600 --> 01:46:30.240
Andy being adventurous and carefree.

1543
01:46:30.240 --> 01:46:32.000
So you'd already done that bit.

1544
01:46:32.000 --> 01:46:36.400
So go to the next bit, go to the next bit after him being adventurous and carefree.

1545
01:46:36.400 --> 01:46:39.440
Turn your, so now this is what I want you to do.

1546
01:46:39.440 --> 01:46:43.160
I want you to turn your device down, unmute, and then make that declaration.

1547
01:46:43.160 --> 01:46:44.160
Okay.

1548
01:46:44.160 --> 01:46:45.160
You don't have to wait for anyone.

1549
01:46:45.160 --> 01:46:48.280
As soon as you've turned your device down, unmute, and then just make the declaration

1550
01:46:48.280 --> 01:46:49.280
right away.

1551
01:46:49.280 --> 01:46:50.280
Sweet.

1552
01:46:50.280 --> 01:46:51.280
All right.

1553
01:46:51.280 --> 01:46:52.280
Hit it, Patty.

1554
01:46:52.280 --> 01:46:53.280
Affectionate, kind, loving, romantic Andy.

1555
01:46:53.280 --> 01:46:54.280
And that's it.

1556
01:46:54.280 --> 01:46:55.280
Oh, fantastic.

1557
01:46:55.280 --> 01:46:56.280
Oh, beautiful.

1558
01:46:56.280 --> 01:46:57.280
Well done.

1559
01:46:57.280 --> 01:46:58.280
That is excellent.

1560
01:46:58.280 --> 01:46:59.280
Thank you so much, Patty.

1561
01:46:59.280 --> 01:47:00.280
We love that declaration.

1562
01:47:00.280 --> 01:47:01.280
Very well done.

1563
01:47:01.280 --> 01:47:02.280
Beautiful.

1564
01:47:02.280 --> 01:47:03.280
Now, is there anyone else who wanted to jump on like real, real quick?

1565
01:47:03.280 --> 01:47:04.280
Yeah.

1566
01:47:04.280 --> 01:47:05.280
Yeah.

1567
01:47:05.280 --> 01:47:06.280
Yeah.

1568
01:47:06.280 --> 01:47:07.280
Yeah.

1569
01:47:07.280 --> 01:47:08.280
Yeah.

1570
01:47:08.280 --> 01:47:09.280
Yeah.

1571
01:47:09.280 --> 01:47:10.280
Yeah.

1572
01:47:10.280 --> 01:47:11.280
Yeah.

1573
01:47:11.280 --> 01:47:12.280
Yeah.

1574
01:47:12.280 --> 01:47:13.280
Yeah.

1575
01:47:13.280 --> 01:47:14.280
Yeah.

1576
01:47:14.280 --> 01:47:15.280
Yeah.

1577
01:47:15.280 --> 01:47:16.280
Yeah.

1578
01:47:16.280 --> 01:47:17.280
Yeah.

1579
01:47:17.280 --> 01:47:18.280
Yeah.

1580
01:47:18.280 --> 01:47:19.280
Yeah.

1581
01:47:19.280 --> 01:47:20.280
Yeah.

1582
01:47:20.280 --> 01:47:21.280
Yeah.

1583
01:47:21.280 --> 01:47:22.280
Yeah.

1584
01:47:22.280 --> 01:47:23.280
Yeah.

1585
01:47:23.280 --> 01:47:24.280
Yeah.

1586
01:47:24.280 --> 01:47:25.280
Yeah.

1587
01:47:25.280 --> 01:47:26.280
Okay.

1588
01:47:26.280 --> 01:47:27.280
You guys, do you want to join in, like, a couple of...

1589
01:47:27.280 --> 01:47:28.280
Can we hear from anyone right now?

1590
01:47:28.280 --> 01:47:29.280
Really quick, and say something just in relation to this week's conversation.

1591
01:47:29.280 --> 01:47:30.280
Mike as well.

1592
01:47:30.280 --> 01:47:34.280
Good to have you here but see you jumping in.

1593
01:47:34.280 --> 01:47:37.280
Thank you.

1594
01:47:37.280 --> 01:47:38.280
Yeah.

1595
01:47:38.280 --> 01:47:40.280
So anyone...

1596
01:47:40.280 --> 01:47:43.280
Can you hear me?

1597
01:47:43.280 --> 01:47:44.280
Yeah, we can hear you.

1598
01:47:44.280 --> 01:47:45.280
Oh, okay.

1599
01:47:45.280 --> 01:47:46.280
Was...

1600
01:47:46.280 --> 01:47:47.280
Did you want to share something?

1601
01:47:47.280 --> 01:47:54.280
Just wondering if there's anyone who wants to take this last spot now that feels like

1602
01:47:54.280 --> 01:47:59.120
they're burning to share something.

1603
01:47:59.120 --> 01:48:07.580
I've been going through a rough patch here the past few days for myself, and your message

1604
01:48:07.580 --> 01:48:12.400
just now is gonna help me, I'm pretty sure, you know?

1605
01:48:12.400 --> 01:48:20.080
I've been really down, and sorry to bring this, but I haven't been able to see a way

1606
01:48:20.080 --> 01:48:31.280
out of my situation in a way, and I'm feeling abandoned, so to say, and I know the devil's

1607
01:48:31.280 --> 01:48:41.600
been hitting me hard, and I've just been trying to stay the course, and I haven't given up,

1608
01:48:41.600 --> 01:48:56.080
and that, yeah, I need to form a declaration, and holy ghost, I probably need prayer more

1609
01:48:56.080 --> 01:49:02.000
than anything just to kind of get me through this patch, but, and some encouragement just

1610
01:49:02.000 --> 01:49:09.600
to, you know, to kind of see where, you know, just help lift me up, you know?

1611
01:49:09.600 --> 01:49:10.600
Right.

1612
01:49:10.600 --> 01:49:11.600
Sorry.

1613
01:49:11.600 --> 01:49:19.320
No, that's fine, I mean, that's what this week is, this, the theme this week is Processing

1614
01:49:19.320 --> 01:49:25.680
Failure, and that's, you know, brought us all to, you know, face to face with real stuff

1615
01:49:25.680 --> 01:49:31.840
as well, so we can all relate, we can all stand with you in that, but also all stand

1616
01:49:31.840 --> 01:49:35.440
with you in seeing a better day.

1617
01:49:35.440 --> 01:49:45.560
Ron and Lorraine, why don't you pray for Michael, and just pray for us all as we wrap this up,

1618
01:49:45.560 --> 01:49:47.560
you'll be the, you'll be the final word.

1619
01:49:47.560 --> 01:49:53.880
Thanks, Mike, we appreciate it, we'll get these guys praying for you in a bit.

1620
01:49:53.880 --> 01:49:59.720
Thanks for sharing, my friend, we love you, standing with you, you're in good company.

1621
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:04.680
And Lorraine and Ron, we're gonna pray for you now

1622
01:50:04.680 --> 01:50:07.360
and pray for us all to wrap up for today.

1623
01:50:10.920 --> 01:50:15.800
Father, I just declare grace over Michael today.

1624
01:50:15.800 --> 01:50:19.200
I declare for victory over his circumstance.

1625
01:50:19.200 --> 01:50:23.920
I declare that he will see the victory.

1626
01:50:23.920 --> 01:50:28.080
Father, I just pray that you would be with him,

1627
01:50:28.080 --> 01:50:28.960
give him peace.

1628
01:50:28.960 --> 01:50:31.640
Father, I just declare peace over him.

1629
01:50:31.640 --> 01:50:35.200
I declare that he would know that you're with him.

1630
01:50:35.200 --> 01:50:37.640
He would see the angel army,

1631
01:50:37.640 --> 01:50:40.400
that he would see the victory before it happens.

1632
01:50:40.400 --> 01:50:44.120
Father, I just thank you that you have given us all things,

1633
01:50:44.120 --> 01:50:49.120
that you desire for us to have victory in this world,

1634
01:50:49.760 --> 01:50:53.040
that you have set sonship upon us.

1635
01:50:53.040 --> 01:50:56.120
And I thank you, Father, for your sonship

1636
01:50:56.120 --> 01:50:57.080
that you've given us,

1637
01:50:57.080 --> 01:51:01.640
that we are in this world to be victorious over

1638
01:51:03.200 --> 01:51:05.880
rather than to be slaves.

1639
01:51:05.880 --> 01:51:08.280
And I thank you, Father, that you have set us free,

1640
01:51:08.280 --> 01:51:10.880
that by Jesus, you have set us free.

1641
01:51:12.520 --> 01:51:14.000
Thank you, Father, for Michael.

1642
01:51:14.000 --> 01:51:18.640
And I just pray that we would hear those praise reports

1643
01:51:18.640 --> 01:51:20.920
of his victory in Jesus' name.

1644
01:51:22.600 --> 01:51:24.840
Amen, amen, thank you.

1645
01:51:27.000 --> 01:51:27.840
Amen.

1646
01:51:32.000 --> 01:51:32.840
All right.

1647
01:51:33.840 --> 01:51:34.680
Great stuff.

1648
01:51:34.680 --> 01:51:37.160
Rona, did you wanna pray or are you good?

1649
01:51:37.160 --> 01:51:38.760
Sure, I'm gonna.

1650
01:51:41.160 --> 01:51:44.600
Father, I thank you for Michael.

1651
01:51:44.600 --> 01:51:48.120
Thank you that you're doing a great work in his life

1652
01:51:48.120 --> 01:51:50.520
and that you are upgrading him.

1653
01:51:50.520 --> 01:51:53.000
And we just declare, your word says,

1654
01:51:53.120 --> 01:51:55.080
behold, I have given you authority

1655
01:51:55.080 --> 01:51:56.960
to walk on snakes and scorpions

1656
01:51:56.960 --> 01:51:59.760
and authority over all the power of the enemy.

1657
01:51:59.760 --> 01:52:02.080
None will injure you.

1658
01:52:02.080 --> 01:52:04.720
And in 2 Timothy 1, 7, it says,

1659
01:52:04.720 --> 01:52:06.960
for God has not given us a spirit of fear,

1660
01:52:06.960 --> 01:52:09.720
but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

1661
01:52:10.920 --> 01:52:15.920
And in Romans 8, 15,

1662
01:52:16.120 --> 01:52:18.560
for you have not received a spirit of slavery,

1663
01:52:18.560 --> 01:52:19.800
leaving you to fear again,

1664
01:52:19.800 --> 01:52:22.560
but you have received a spirit of adoption of sons

1665
01:52:23.240 --> 01:52:26.120
and daughters, which we cry out, Abba, Father.

1666
01:52:26.120 --> 01:52:29.280
So Abba, Father, we thank you for the work that you're doing.

1667
01:52:29.280 --> 01:52:31.720
Thank you for the work that you're doing in Michael

1668
01:52:31.720 --> 01:52:33.600
and that he can run to you.

1669
01:52:33.600 --> 01:52:35.680
You are the strong tower.

1670
01:52:35.680 --> 01:52:38.560
So Father, I pray that there would be no fear,

1671
01:52:38.560 --> 01:52:40.320
no fear this week,

1672
01:52:40.320 --> 01:52:43.800
and that he will be able to know that you're with him.

1673
01:52:43.800 --> 01:52:46.880
Everything that you have for him is good

1674
01:52:46.880 --> 01:52:48.520
and that you were a good father.

1675
01:52:48.520 --> 01:52:50.320
So Father, we thank you for peace.

1676
01:52:50.360 --> 01:52:53.320
We thank you for your revelation of truth

1677
01:52:53.320 --> 01:52:54.960
that you're giving him.

1678
01:52:54.960 --> 01:52:57.400
And we just give you all the honor and glory

1679
01:52:57.400 --> 01:52:58.760
in Jesus' name.

1680
01:52:59.920 --> 01:53:01.280
Thank you, Jesus.

1681
01:53:02.520 --> 01:53:03.360
Thank you, Jesus.

1682
01:53:03.360 --> 01:53:04.200
Thank you.

1683
01:53:07.160 --> 01:53:08.000
Beautiful.

1684
01:53:08.000 --> 01:53:09.200
Amen.

1685
01:53:09.200 --> 01:53:10.040
Good stuff.

1686
01:53:10.040 --> 01:53:10.880
Amen.

1687
01:53:10.880 --> 01:53:14.160
You just arriving and just literally saying goodbye.

1688
01:53:14.160 --> 01:53:17.440
So thanks everyone for a great time.

1689
01:53:17.440 --> 01:53:18.600
Love you heaps.

1690
01:53:18.600 --> 01:53:20.400
For all those that were on the replay as well,

1691
01:53:20.400 --> 01:53:22.360
lots of love to you guys.

1692
01:53:22.360 --> 01:53:26.400
And next week,

1693
01:53:26.400 --> 01:53:27.720
stay tuned for next week.

1694
01:53:29.280 --> 01:53:34.280
I am aiming for 10 a.m. New Zealand time next week

1695
01:53:36.720 --> 01:53:39.480
as the live time for each of the meetings next week.

1696
01:53:39.480 --> 01:53:43.880
So 10 a.m. next week for the lives, New Zealand time.

1697
01:53:43.880 --> 01:53:46.480
And we'll catch you guys all real soon.

1698
01:53:46.480 --> 01:53:48.040
So bless you.

1699
01:53:48.080 --> 01:53:50.480
And catch you soon.

1700
01:53:50.480 --> 01:53:51.320
Bye-bye.

1701
01:53:51.320 --> 01:53:52.160
Bye-bye.